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Inspired by Share on Rofflenet and the S9 Poshington side mission.
Sam and Five hunt for the best tea shop in North Africa. And try not to cause more property damage.
Image ID: An Asian man and a dark-skinned woman in matching green outfits walk down an alley decorated with Tunisian tile art. They are both smiling.
#I wasn't sure how to describe this one I'ms so sorry#but look!#they're happy#not even in pain#it's something I'm capable of doing#zombies run#zr#zombies run!#sam yao#runner five#5am#zrs9 spoilers
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He was just being a silly little guy!
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#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#jin guangyao#wen ruohan#nie mingjue#lan xichen#JGY's character is the zigging and zagging guy of all time#We love a little meow meow that can bite and scratch and kill you.#We also love a little meow meow that can mewl pathetically!#'He's evil now and torturing his former friend?" ZAG TIME: He's a spy and feels soooo awful about it!!#ZIG TIME: He (probably) didn't need to go that deep into the role and kill as many people as he did.#Something I really love about the sworn brother trio is how they reflect how our feelings distort our perception of others.#Lan Xichen represents how when we love/care about someone -anything they do can be endearing. They aren't manipulative: they are clever.#Its less about rose tinted glasses and more about reframing every look you get of them. The constant justifications you make for them.#They just need a space to be loved! “They care for me so I will stand by them no matter what to show them I'm there for them!”#While NMJ represents how when you dislike someone - Everything they do is an affront or proof of their foul character.#Everything is a sign. Everything is 'proof' they are just as awful as you want them to be. Every 'good trait' is twisted.#The problem is that most people are just human. They are flawed and they are capable of good and bad things.#Meng Yao's motivations are very complex. Yet he's extremely human all the same. He isn't the saint nor the monster of the story.
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top tip for new gif people because i've seen a few recently (which is really cool) - tumblr will compress your gif to a width of 540px when you upload it. this compression won't retain as much quality as if you just resize it to 540px across in photoshop/whatever program you use. tumblr will suck the life out of your beautiful crisp 1080px gif whereas photoshop will do its best not to (resizing in vapoursynth or similar is ideal but that's not necessary and often too much effort for adults with real lives)
#i learnt all of this during covid as a teen with a sunday job so that's why i could afford to care#also 540px is if you've got one gif per row#2 gifs per row should be resized to a width of 268px each#and 3 per row is 177px - 178px - 177px#height doesn't matter#you can google tumblr gif dimensions for a diagram but there are a few from before they increased the width in photo posts so lots of#conflicting info there#these are the correct ones#it's personal preference whether to resize ofc but the vast majority of people do#also whilst i'm yapping here#photoshop can do stuff that other software or online platforms can't#obviously use whichever one you prefer or have access to - it really doesn't matter#the more gifs the better#yay#but if there's something you've seen other people do that you can't figure out#and you're not using photoshop#chances are the other person is.#there are good alternatives like photopea but that still doesn't quite match ps#saying this bc i had a small phase of being quite discouraged as a 17yo md/zs fan from looking at all the online options and realising that#none of them had the capabilities to create the kind of gfx that i saw other people making and wanted to try out myself#ofc there's a learning curve too and LOTS to get wrong then try again but there is also the insurmountable difference between ps and#online alternatives. i hope it doesn't put people off from trying#keep at it with whatever program you've got your hands on#and if you really want photoshop. well. cough 🏴☠️🏴☠️🏴☠️🏴☠️ cough#excuse me what was i saying#i cant remember bye have fun
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I'm sorry I don't have clips from Bad's stream with the admins yesterday! I was looking forward to it, but I rarely have time to watch VODs, or streams on the weekend, so the timing didn't work out (:‚‹」∠)
I hope everyone who was able to catch the stream enjoyed it! It looked like a lot of fun :') I'm so glad they were able to hang out again in another universe 💛
If I see any fun clips from the stream, I'll try to share those! In the meantime, here's a helpful thread from LaWren with all the names and art of the characters featured in Bad's stream:
#mod talk#I mainly listen to streams while I'm working during the week#which is why I watch so many ''morning'' streamers#And usually stick with one person#The amount of hopping around I did during QSMP days isn't something I'm capable of doing again o(-( That was rough on me#I don't usually watch ''evening'' or ''late night'' streamers either I don't like having a lot of noise after a long day#People keep thinking RA is run by multiple people but no it's just me#I'm not an updates account man I'm just here to vibe#but I do feel a bit bad about missing things like this sometime
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#salandit#something-something female-dominated society which is why only the female ones can evolve#i think that is a little bit dumb. it's like. oh only the females can evolve bc the males are all malnourished and they give their food#to the females so only the females are capable of evolving but it's like ok. if a trainer catches a male salandit. it can be assumed that#they're gonna take better care of it than the wild would?? and like. ideally i believe that it would then become capable of evolution#bc its new trainer like. took care of it better. that's all i'm sayin i think male salandit should be able to evolve but maybe with like#different requirements or something. higher level requirement maybe#but naauuuurr tpc would never let us have a man that looks as slutty as salazzle does#even though we have primarina (thank you tpc) (thank you) (for the pretty boy capabilities) (also braixen) (thank you tpc) (do it again)
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hang on i'm once again thinking about house being stupid with love. stacy moved in with him a week after meeting him. that's HUGE change. could you imagine how much he'd have to be obsessing over her to make HIS home THEIR home??? and he still wasn't over her 5+ years later after everything either.
(and like. i wonder if there was ever a moment there for wilson where he's watching house and stacy be so witty and beautiful and in love together and thinking to himself, huh. so this is what that feels like.)
#house md#stacy warner#gregory house#james wilson#i'm hacking into this man's brain rn#this man who argues the validity and existence of love he could probably fall in love in a day if he let himself#and while it's not marriage it's certainly not nothing for wilson to watch play out#do you think he was happy for him? did he tell him to slow down?#it was before the infarction so maybe. well maybe house was still an infallible figure to him#always five moves ahead so uniquely capable of handling any challenge and stubborn enough to prove it#hell he was probably more active than wilson the guy can't stay still sometimes#i'm just. hmmm. now i am once again wishing we could have had some flashback episode or something#i wanna know what everyone was LIKE before pre-infarction#how did his relationship with cuddy change how did his relationship with wilson >#(who will risk his own security TIME AND TIME AGAIN for house's benefit) become what it is#where they maybe............ a little more normal friends??? or is that too crazy to consider
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I will do all this, I will get all this blood on my hands, and you are able to plead naivety.
#welighttheway#hotdedit#larys x alicent#larys strong#alicent hightower#larycent#alicent x larys#alicenthightowerdaily#hotd#matthew needham#i fuckng need to tag the man himself because all those quotes? still! so! striking! HONESTLY i pepper his brain with kisses#'he makes himself indispensable to her ties them together in blood in this extraordinary act of will'#'he can see what she’s capable of and he wants to draw it out. they’re both outsiders among the natives'#'she gets to say 'i didn't want it' and i KNOW she did'#'that’s the thing about assault like that it makes the victim’s body the scene of the crime'#rent fckng free forever#larys wants her to feel the same shame wants to break her chaste royal placid exterior and peel the layers off. manually#he wants to creep inside of her mind and rearrange what he finds there#and mr needham is the only larycent fan who gets it to the core!!!!!!!!#THE matthew of the cast i'm so sorry *or am i??*#is this my way to ignore the leaks??? who knows#tbh i was overwhelmed by the urge to give our tiny larycent circle SOMETHING before the new season starts#for better or for worse i am not sorry for my crime#sooooo i'm afraid this post is not for normies it's for sickos#LIKE CALLS TO LIKE#dolores <3 mariana <3 alyssa <3 bia <3 val <3 nina <3#trashfam *affectionate*#game of thrones#shitty things i do for love#me in s1 DON'T FEED THE RAT ALICENT!!!! me now: FUCKNG FEED THE RAT ALICENT *before this particular determined rat chew its way through*
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pondering that falon'din is associated with an owl, and those are also messengers of andruil. and he's referred to as "winged death" which is also mentioned to be something that elgar'nan deploys against enemies. and both falon'din and andruil are referred to as venturing into dark places, where no one else can survive/wanted to go.
and ghilan'nain was not initially an evanuris, but was antagonistic towards them and making a bunch of weird creatures. she was given the offer to join them in return for getting rid of the creatures, and accepted. but with "pride stopping her hand" from destroying a few. and when asked about trusting people to share power, solas says "I know that mistake well enough to carve the angles of her face from memory."
solas also has nothing good at all to say about falon'din, mostly calling him a bloodthirsty tyrant who went so far in encroaching onto other evanuris territory that mythal had to besiege his temple and beat him up to stop him.
but he says nothing about dirthamen at all.
dirthamen is described as having gone missing unexpectedly, scaring all his followers, because they were now unprotected. and caught between their own high priest wanting to lock them into the temple forever like a cask of amontillado, and other forces outside that wanted to take their secrets by force. there is one note that a dirthamen follower defied the evanuris and took on a forbidden (probably a dragon) type of form, and was judged by elgar'nan harshly. he apparently also invented the varterral to protect his town from a high dragon? wack, but also could indicate that he had worked with ghilan'nain on making it, since she's the only one who's otherwise mentioned to be bioengineering stuff.
dirthamen has very very few surviving statues or depictions, and is more associated with falon'din than as his own independent figure in the dalish myths. even his own temple includes mosaics of falon'din. there's a few statues that are probably dirthamen, but the most striking is in mythal's section of the fade behind the eluvian, which is a statue of a hooded figure, doubled over with a giant sword sticking out of his back.
#dragon age#dragon age meta#txt#dirthamen#i love the idea of ghilan'nain initially being friends with solas but then betraying the rebellion in favour of becoming an evanuris#ALSO it makes the ''he was a wolf and she was a halla 🥺'' Heterosexual Motif very funny if the halla was an absolute menace to society.#halla (threatening). the halla is committing atrocities like you would not Believe.#solas wandering up to a dalish clan and locking eyes with this mild looking white deer thing and just hearing kill bill sirens#andruil/ghil could even be like a somewhat cursed celene/briala parallel if briala had actually agreed to sell out her people#in favour of being's celene's lover/right hand instead.#so she narced on dirthamen who then gets killed/partially absorbed by falon'din#with most of his followers scattered/killed/forcibly converted to his service as falon'din goes on a rampage#until mythal steps in to make him knock it off#which then makes the others nervous that she was capable of stopping him + might start actively doing her job as Justice again#so they get together and set up an ides of march type of event that takes her out#and then are like ''yay! we can finally roll around in the blight even more like we wanted to :)''#so solas decides to just wall them off entirely#who knows what sylaise or june are up to in this theory#i assume they were just playing minecraft creative mode or the sims and didn't notice anything. just vibing.#anyway i wish this had come up bc i was deeply curious about my boy dirthamen....#he's the god of secrets! this dude should still be kicking around in some form. get back in there.#at the very least he should have a weird little cult or something remaining#personally i'm declaring that dirthamen was a spirit like cole.#who had the capability to remove memories#and that's a) how mythal managed to force andruil to ''forget'' how to access the void#and b) why the others killed him - perhaps to get it back? and why his followers were terrified without his protection#bc they had way too much classified information about all this world-endingly bad stuff
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ok I've had this little au ping balling around in my brain for a hot minute so just hear me out
(and by hot minute I mean like.. 6 hours)
A Peter in Gotham au, but he's native to the universe. Like DC's version of Peter Parker. He's grown up pretty much the same way, dead parents, living with aunt May and uncle Ben, the whole nine yards. Now where I'm stuck is I don't know if I want him to have been bit.
Because on one hand we could get Spiderman coming of age in Gotham, and being influenced by all that that comes with. His rouges are still villain-of-the-week type guys, but there's more of them. Even with the bats, he's still stretched thin because the only other daytime vigilante is Signal, and Gotham is *riddled* with crime. He's a menace to not just the cops but also the bats. They can't figure him out, he's new but he seems to be a native, they don't know who he is, but he seems to know them. And it's stressing them out. The typical Spiderman in Gotham digs. But it's not just Spiderman that would be changed by Gotham, it would also be Peter, like as a person. Obviously I don't think his morals would really change that much, but he's probably a bit more cynical, a bit more pessimistic. A bit more rough around the edges. And I think that Spiderman would be *so* interesting.
But on the other hand, we could get an outsider-pov from someone we're already familiar with. He grows up normally, maybe Uncle Ben lives, and he ends up with a photographer job for one of the news papers in Gotham. He pulls a Tim, and seems to be the only person capable of getting images of the vigilantes that don't suck complete and utter ass. He's literally *this* close to figuring out their identities through shear happen-stance alone. He is actively choosing to not look too closely at any one thing related to the bats because he knows he would be able to figure it. Bonus points if he goes to school (high school or collage, dealers choice) with one or more of the bats. He's a cynical, unserious guy that's a little too smart to be comfortable. It would be *fun*
Anyway, what I'm saying is a Peter Parker that grew up in Gotham would be really interesting a cool character study of how something like that would change him
#if you wanna write this PLEASE do i would read the hell out of it but I'm not sure if i would be fully capable of it myself#which reminds me i Am writing something right now but I have genuinely no clue if I'll finish it so i don't wanna say anything lol#spiderman in gotham#spiderman#batman#gotham#spiderman au#spiderman fanfic
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Thoughts on Bertha Russell (Many Thoughts)
I am So curious about Bertha Russell's backstory. We have little snippets:
Her father was a potato farmer.
She has lots of mommy issues. (George mentions her mother said she was the only child "worthy of her dreams" to which Bertha angrily responds that her mother's dreams were worthless because she died with nothing which is A Lot)
She has sibling issues. (George offers to invite her sister to a thing and she refuses)
She and George met when they were both poor, they made the fortune together.
She had a distinct learning curve when they first got to New York. She bought The Wrong House and made The Wrong Friends and had to learn and relearn things over a period of years. (I am especially interested about this time, because she would know Nothing, being the ultimate outsider, but she is a tactical genius and viciously ambitious...I want to see young!Bertha in the early stages of the struggle before she knows how to dress/talk/act).
I hope we will learn more about her because more than any of the other characters she wants things. Things that are nebulous, but she doesn't seem to realize are nebulous, because she has clear goals but they don't satisfy her so she has to make another goal. Loving husband doing well? Not enough. They have enough money to hear the call of the guillotine? It's not enough, they need status. They have status? Not enough, they need to beat Lina Astor. Now they've beaten Lina Astor, but I don't think anyone thinks that's going to be enough. George points out multiple times that he is content where he is and content to let their children marry for love to people of what Bertha considers middling station. She's the sole driving force for continued social climbing. And it doesn't matter how high they get, she wants to go higher, she wants to go "all the way" but there isn't an all the way unless I guess you're Empress of the World. But then the moon starts looking awfully conquerable.
She claims she's doing it for their children, but both children have said her suggestions aren't what they want. And it is heavily implied she just sold her only daughter to the Duke so he would attend an opera performance. She wants Gladys to marry the Duke so that she will be grandmother to English nobility. It's for her. So she is willing to use her children, her alleged motivation, as pawns. They aren't her real motivation after all, even if she may think they are. I do think she loves her children and George. I also think that she thinks she's helping Gladys, but I also think there's a limit to that love because it exists beside the yawning void of hunger within her psyche. George outright asks her if his love for her is enough to make her happy early in s1, because her love is enough for him. She says it's "almost enough" and that's significant and enough for him, which is telling, when usually any answer other than "yes of course" would be taken by a love interest as a searing betrayal. Anyway, the point is, her kids/her family are, at least, not her entire motivation and might not factor into her motivation at all, if she is fully honest with herself.
So, the hunger. The call to Rise. The rage that has her hyperventilating in bed alone after her failed party instead of crying in her husband's arms like most television characters would do. The instinct to look upon a room of people and think you will all bow to me you sniveling mortals. Why is it there? Like...why is she Like This? I think some of it has to come from what we can learn just from George's comment about impossibly ambitious, ruthless, low empathy Bertha being the only one "worthy of her mother's dreams." Which means her mother had dreams that were very important to her and that she never achieved. Her mother also guarded said dreams and judged her children harshly, we know Bertha has at least one sister, who is apparently judged not worthy in the eyes of her own mother. We know Bertha does not like talking about this and tries to dismiss it. Was there pressure on Bertha to be worthy? When could that have started and how did it manifest? Circling back to my interest in young!Bertha in NY, if the social rejection was bad in s1, it was probably worse then, and constant social failures would have made her angrier and more determined to both to become the queen of New York society and to see it burn. This is all stuff I want to learn more about in season 3.
HERE IS WHERE I PRETTY MUCH JUST DO PREDICTIONS (WHICH MAY BE TINFOIL, IDK):
Because I think we will finally get to see Bertha Russell: Season Villain. Every season needs a villain, and Bertha has pretty much vanquished all of them. The first couple seasons the overarching villain has been New York Society with its inequalities and pointless social cruelty, if that holds, Bertha is now the head of that system, having beaten Lina Astor and set herself up as the queen. Additionally, side opponents (not really villains) like Agnes also aren't in a position to make major problems for the protagonists because the Van Rhijn household is now the Forte household and cinnamon roll Ada is now in charge. Unless Agnes attempts to usurp her sister in a subplot (which I don't think will happen except for maybe one episode of hijinx) she's not in a powerful spot. The Society character is indisputably Bertha. And Bertha has been up to some serious villain shit. If she did agree to marry Gladys to the Duke, she's now against All the Protagonists---a sure sign of villain status. She's even against her husband, who swore to back Gladys in her choice of love match, and Gladys doesn't like the Duke. If Gladys wants out, Larry will almost certainly help her. And Saint Marian will help Larry either for love reasons or moral reasons, and hopefully Peggy has better things to do but she will probably get dragged into it somehow and if Marian's involved Ada's also involved and you see where this is going.
Also, show pacing wise, Bertha is due for a loss. I love her and I want her to win everything and be declared Empress of Earth and Moon but realistically that isn't going to happen. In a show where villains lose, it checks out. Gladys isn't going to marry the Duke, and if she does, everyone is going to regret it. One reason I think we will learn more about Bertha and her history is because if she loses she's going to Lose It. Dramatic monologue style. When she had a party and no one came she swore eternal vengeance and spent the night Angry Breathing and presumably fantasizing about the Red Wedding. She doesn't handle losing well. A big public loss after achieving every status symbol she could think of would probably break her mind, and she'll probably tell whoever she's talking to (probably George) enough backstory info that we the audience can fill in stuff. This is also where I would guess she and George would reconcile where he would see she is the person he loves and has not transformed into an automaton, she's just Messed Up, which he always knew and loved so he is Back In.
IN CONCLUSION:
This is who Marina was writing about. She is a primadonna girl, and all she ever wanted was the world. She cannot help that she needs it all, in this case the primadonna life: both the rise and the fall. She also knows exactly what she wants and who she wants to be. This is why she walks and talks like a machine. Unfortunately, she is becoming a self-fulfilled prophecy.
Oh, oh no. Oh no. Oh no. Oh.
#bertha russell#the gilded age#tga#character analysis#meta analysis#I love my girl#but she is a complete disaster waiting to happen#I was watching that bit of season 2 like “Bertha my darling you are Icarus stop being Icarus”#But she literally Cannot Stop#I do not think she's capable#like someone could lay out for her why everything she's doing is a horrible idea for everyone and she couldn't change it#She just has to Keep Going#That instinct for More cannot be satiated#Unfortunately she is over a century too early for good enough therapy#So she's going to crash hard#Probably in s3 but maybe in s4#I want to know her backstory so bad you don't understand#Because she simultaneously hates everyone she talks to and desperately wants to prove herself to them#Like she wants to kill them so they'll be impressed at how well she's killing them#My tragic evil darling I love you so much#Anyway I'm excited for her to come under real scrutiny in s3#Because through putting blorbo in more intense situations we can see what combinations of mental illness and trauma is going on over there#Because there is definitely something#Also I'm like 70% sure Aurora has a crush on her which is a big mood#Bertha seems like the kind of person where she and Aurora are getting drunk while the men are drinking Porte or whatever tf#and Bertha smiles and leans closer and Aurora is like gay panicking like “....is this it...would she be mad if I...kissed her...”#and then Bertha goes “on good days like today when I drink enough of this- the void is quiet and I actually feel peaceful” *drunk giggle*#and Aurora is like “....wtf” and then decides it isn't a turn off and resigns herself to another night of gay yearning#I do ship Bertha and George though which makes my shipping complicated#every time they have a scene together the Doofenshmirtz “Evil Love” song plays in my head
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thinking about the trope horror of assistants in the Daycare just straight up failing or quitting over and over and over again is as funny as it is tragic to me.
of course if you're waltzing on in there, rearranging the furniture and scolding the Robot who Literally Lives There it would cause problems. change is inevitable and always looming but would it not just get tiresome acclimatizing people to this role, just for them to quit anyway.
#ramblings#covering up my wip notes.#humoring the idea of a drabble. I'm inspired all the time and it's only the horrors of life that prevail me from sharing!#anyway would it genuinely ever be enough to convince either of them you see them as fully capable and autonomous while *also*-#getting on either of them for doing the things they're literally programmed for.#they're people. sure! they're people. they will try harder to be people to make everything easier. but they aren't people.#the contrast of the can pass as human “enough” until they Literally can't. until it's ever clear this is what they are.#the concept of pointing at them and saying you see that. you don't care. you care about them and all of those jagged programing edges.#to look at faults and flaws as not something to fix and repair. wretched sobbing. big fan!#kicks rocks. back to longing
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I'm seeing a lot of people with neurodivergency, specially under the autism spectrum say that "Laios is annoying, never shuts up, is insensitive, and I can't stand him"; and the irony is not lost on me lmao.
#like im sorry dude did you think all autism is “anime obsessed dude”?#how did you think neurodivergent people behaved on old times?#also like#being unintentionally insensitive is almost a telltale sign of autism cause you struggle with social cues#if anything i think a lot of you are finally habing to face your own internalized predjudices#“he is annoying” yes that's how ableist neurotypical people talk about us all the time tell me something i haven't heard already#like how do i explain to you that a lot of neurotypical people tal the exact same eay youre talkbing about laios#and is annoying when they go “but im neurodivergent! i can be biased agaisnt neurodivergent people”#yes you can because being neurodivergent is not a monolith and you are mistifying being neurodivergent#by implying theres some sort of virtue in being under the spectrum when youre as capable of being a dick just as everyone else#like you think you have autism but suddenly wanting to taste things youre not supposed to eat and not remembering peoples names is too much?#some of yall never experienced beinf a “weird kid” at a young age and it shows#and im not talking the “geek bullied” weird kid kinda way#im talking “the adults think I'm weird amd don't know how to deal with me”#WHICH FITS LAIOS PERFECTLY BECAUSE WE ACTUALLY HAVE A SCENE OF HIS DAD SHOWING HIM FALLIN AS A BABY#AND NOT UNDERSTANDING WHY IS THERE NO EXPECTED REACTION FROM LAIOS#anyways im making this rant because is unreal how many posts of this exist#you think Laios is annoying cause he wont shut up?#congratulations thats how most people see us#now get over it or watch other series if you hate it that much#dunmeshi hell thoughts#weird rant i suppose#dungeon meshi#laios touden
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i believe Danny is ADHD enough to not realize he doesn't actually have super-durability but has just subconsciously learned to minimize damage as much as possible
#*dougdoug voice* BEGIN DISCUSSION *incredibly loud buzzer noise*#Danny Phantom#as someone with ADHD i do not remember Times Before Big Change all that much#i don't remember my skillsets from back then. i don't remember if it was always like this or if something changed over that time#to be fair in this case i think he is capable of healing from fucked up shit. but it still fucks him up as much as it would a regular human#he can survive worse stuff but he's not any more durable than a regular human. maybe less because of the nature of ectoplasm#he just. can survive longer#OH i'm just realizing that this has super duper angst potential#like Danny being like ''yeah i've survived crazy shit i can survive mom & dad/the giw/whatever''#& then he like. realizes very suddenly that he cannot survive This#mhm mhm taking notes for stuff n things
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That moment when you have to let people be wrong about you because correcting them would make you seem like an unbearable show-off
I was at a bookstore with a friend the other day and I was looking at a book in German that I was interested in buying, but then I saw that it was a translation and had originally been written in French
I commented idly to my friend "Sometimes I don't buy a book because it's a translation and I always prefer to read in the original language when possible" and she said in an agreeing-with-me way, "Yeah it would make more sense to read it in English"
and I realized she assumed I meant English when I said "original language"
but I couldn't bring myself to say "Yeah, or French or Dutch or Spanish or Italian or Portuguese or one of the other languages I read..." because like. who says that kind of thing.
#it's odd but i've suddenly been noticing a lot of people underestimating me lately#like i told a friend i was studying compsci/programming#and she started sending me like... links to absolute beginner 'how to start learning to code' resources#which of course is very sweet and i really appreciate her supportiveness!#so i certainly don't want to say 'lol i passed that point 10 years ago but thanks'#or my friends know perfectly well that i'm a language professional and have spent time studying many languages#but somehow they don't seem to make the connection that that translates into having actual abilities?#like i can piece together the meaning of a sentence in russian or chinese and they'll go 'wtf' like i'm a wizard or something#or i've mentioned a few times that i read for fun in various languages but that seems to just go in one ear and out the other for most folk#and they still can't conceive that i would read a WHOLE BOOK in a language that's not german or english#these are just two examples but i've seen it happen with several other things too#and i'm just... not sure how normal people handle this sort of thing?#how do you let your friends know what you're capable of without coming across as an arrogant prick#i'm not seeking approbation and so i don't tend to boast#but i think maybe i err too hard in the opposite direction?#maybe i've been accidentally implying all these years that i'm Very Amateur in all my interests/hobbies#i don't know how to strike a reasonable balance#but it does feel kind of. weirdly alienating. to suddenly realize most of my friends really don't Know me in this way#cosmo gyres#personal#tag rant#i guess what annoys me is that i'm very careful not to do this to others#if someone tells me about a certain interest or hobby of theirs i assume by default that they must know So Much about it#and if i dare to send them or suggest them anything i always preface it with 'you probably already know this but...'#or 'this may well be something that's painfully obvious to someone with your expertise but...'#and i would try to never make any statement or suggestion that implies i think they're at a low level in [whatever that thing is]#so it bothers me a bit when other people don't take the same consideration. i guess.#(not enough to do anything about it beyond blogging with mild annoyance. but hey)
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.besties help im having a moment again
#Robin processes emotions on main#yes i know i logged out. im back. just for this. because of the Nerves#so ok explanation. my college friend is visiting today#in person. we're in person friends. thumbs up. I used to see her once a week#and I'm so nervous about seeing this friend im driving myself CRAZYYY. it is NOT good for me to live w my parents#AUGH#i dont...... i don't wanna do this todayyy#I'm not physically up to going out today but also I'm not good at interacting with friends while in my parents' house. weeps.#I revert into the most anxious quiet and unhelpful child when I have her over at this house aughhhhh#IT'S NOT ANYONE'S FAULT EITHER it's just my stupid. brain and habits or something. I feel terrible about it though#I want to be a better friend but I just dont. have the capability rn#okay. okay. im going to have breakfast and then shower and then clean up my room#wait no first I'm going to text her#hnnnnng
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#long one#ryuuji suguro#blue exorcist#ao no exorcist#ryuji suguro#suguro ryuuji#suguro ryuji#bon suguro#cram school#manga ryuuji#lewin light#lewin lightning light#we've been watching lewin slowly become more invested in this fight and this moment#but not to study the demon or even see what ryuuji knows#it's ryuuji himself lewin is now studying and now seeing as a puzzle#a prodigy who is top of his class and the heir to an important sect of buddhist monks#a boy who helped fight multiple demons on important missions and just refused to give up a sword despite having all the reasons to#someone who is clearly incredibly smart and capable but also aware of their surroundings#and who hasn't thought of the more obvious answers here and hasn't stopped trying#and for lewin there are a lot of different meanings to smart#and right now he has just become entirely curious about the puzzle that is ryuuji#and ryuuji does something that will firmly cement the choice he's actively making in these panels#because lewin doesn't want another smart person around#not when he's chasing a lot of really smart and really fucked up people#no he wants something different#and the “I'm sorry” cements it for lewin#he stuck to his beliefs#was clever enough to figure out the right verses and versatile enough to go for the guns when that failed#and is humble and teachable and that's an important thing#someone who can apologize and not go against their beliefs and decency just because it would benefit them to do so is exactly what he needs
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