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let immortal characters in genshin be horrifying. they're not human and people should recognize that!! it's way more interesting if they don't feel normal
venti forgets to breathe, sometimes. he doesn't need to - he is the air around them. his eyes are just a little too vivid if you look at him directly. he doesn't bleed when he should and he doesn't sleep, either.
xiao stays away from liyue harbor. he doesn't want to corrupt them with his karma, and he doesn't want to frighten them, either. he knows what he looks like: too-gold eyes with too-slitted pupils, ears too pointed and fangs too sharp to be human. if you look at him in the corner of your eye, black and green and red dance across his skin and reach out to you.
ei has never learned to be human. her eyes are blinding and electricity crackles over her skin. the puppet she inhabits has too-smooth skin, porcelain clear and cold to the touch. she moves too quickly, too sharply, like a bolt of lightning that cannot slow down.
zhongli forgets human customs. he speaks of events from thousands of years ago like they were yesterday and talks in long-dead languages. to be under his gaze while solidifying a contract is to feel the weight of millennia upon your back. he makes no sound when he walks and yet his steps can shake the ground.
#venti#venti genshin impact#xiao#xiao genshin impact#ei genshin#raiden ei#zhongli genshin impact#zhongli#genshin impact#kind of obsessed with this game.#it's ruining my life and i hate it#but i love it so much at the same time lmao
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Concept: Peter actually got bitten by a totally normal spider. It's just a coincidence that his mutant powers were awakened around the same time
#peter: 'i got bitten by a radioactive spider'#the xmen: '.....what the FUCK are you talking about'#my posts#marvel#spiderman#xmen#he gets targeted by sentinels and is just ?? very confused ???#i also cant stop thinking about how everyone else not in the know definitely thinks spiderman is a mutant too#it really explains why he gets so much hate#its not just because ppl hate vigilantes- its anti mutant sentiment#ALSO they make a big deal of him not letting anyone know hes got powers bc theyll figure out his identity#when really theyd first just assume he was a mutant#which could ruin his life in a very different way
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may i offer you vocaloid yuri in these trying times
#vocaloid#hatsune miku#kagamine rin#mikurin#art#my art#miku x rin#rin x miku#freaks i hate them#theyre ruining my life
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#astarion#bg3#baldur's gate 3#tremendously down bad#astarion ancunin#bg3 astarion#baldurs gate 3#astarion bg3#I hate it#baldur's gate iii#the pale elf has ruined my life#baldurs gate astarion#look at his stupid smug face#mims posts ~
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Small studies of Starscream in the Robots in Disguise 2015 design because he's literally perfect鈽猴笍鈽猴笍鈽猴笍 i want to marry him!!!
#my art#transformers#tfp#tf rid15#tf rid 2015#starscream#maccadam#maccadams#i think he would hate his tfp self so much but then his tfp self would be as scared of him as he is of megatron and that would make#rid15 starscream even more angry but also crash the Fuck out#and thats why hobo megatron should be there and be reasonable and that makes starscream crash out even more#and i want him to start crying#your life is ruined youre alone skyfire doesnt speak to you even tho he's (canonically) alive. your trine is probably dead#even your own damn self is scared of you and would rather hide behind megatron#mmmm#crash out crash out#dont get better bitch just get spiraling#馃槫馃槫馃槫馃槫I LOVE HIM!!!#HE IS MY FAVORITE FUCKED UP INDIVIDUAL#i want him to cry!!!#transformers prime#transformers robots in disguise 2015
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i drew this like a month ago and i am TERRIFIED to post anything on here but ive been convinced
#joshua graham#edward sallow#sallowgraham#im so fucking scared to post man i think i might actually cry#fallout new vegas#fallout#fnv#caesar fnv#fucking wild this thing has become my magnum opus.#im miserable#everyday i rethink the actions ive taken that have lead me to the point i am in life now#i feel like this is to blame for most of the bad things that have happened to me in the past few months#my legacy is nikocado sallowgraham#and i dont think i can ever recover from that.#my life is ruined. i am an artist forever haunted by his past.#anyway i still let out a giggle everytime i see someone reblog this again#i take it back i NO LONGER giggle whenever i see someone reblog this.#i hate it. this thing is a MONSTER.
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Alien Stage Round 6 Character Analysis and Lyrics Breakdown
Okay so obviously spoilers, don't click Keep Reading if you haven't watched Round 6.
God fuck it's so fucking beautiful, where do I start?
I don't even know what is going on with those rapid shots of what I assume is some form of experiment that Till was involved in. I have no clue what the goal was or if it succeeded but somehow (for no real reason other than that one image of Luka standing behind Till ominously) I feel that Luka is involved with it.
Was this an attempt by Heperu's (Luka's guardian) rival to make a human capable of going up against Luka? Till being the youngest and Luka being the oldest also means that Till's guardian could have caught on to what Heperu was planning to do with Luka and then start experimenting on humans shortly after and it would still somewhat line up with the timeline.
But I'm getting into conspiracy territory, back to suffering!!
Allow me, to the tips of your fingers
Allow me, to the ends of your feet
Dissolve me in your gaze
I don't want to let you go
Oh this hurts. Seeing him look so defeated and exhausted, you can tell that even though to the public it's not certain whether Mizi died or not it doesn't matter to him. Because she's still gone away from his world, where he is unable to reach her. He wants to dissolve and die but he also doesn't want to let her go if there is even a sliver of hope that she lives.
Please, leave me scars
Please, hurt me so that
Not a single drop of me remains
Let me drown in you
The footage that plays to these lyrics really show how defeated he is. He refuses to sing, his passion for the art completely dead and buried. And (his guardian I assume) when someone shoves the fact that Mizi is gone in his face he lashes out and punches one of the aliens near him.
Until these falling stars
Are buried in the blur of time
However his heart isn't entirely in it and is quickly apprehended.
He is beyond exhausted and doesn't even protest or put up a fight while (the same alien he punched btw) another alien runs their fingers through his hair.
On your icy lips
Read my soul
Yes, my soul
He hopes that even if Mizi is dead that her spirit watches over him, seeing his soul and by extension, Him, for all that he is. Every thought and breath until he falls asleep is for Mizi.
But didn't we already know this is how he'd be like? Time for something juicier~
Even if your cold words
Carve scars beneath my eyes
May they linger on your tongue
You can break me apart
God this is heart shattering. Even if Till doesn't care for him, even if Till throws hurtful words his way, Ivan will still lie awake at night, cherishing what sliver of attention he is given. It doesn't matter if Till hates him, because as long as he is on Till's mind Ivan is happy. He is entirely in Till's hands, capable of being build up or torn down depending on how much (or how little) he is perceived by him.
Notice my pain
And mend me right now
To quiet my fears
I'll drown in you
He wants so deeply to be seen by Till, noticed. Till who doesn't let anything hold him down and always picks himself back up became a pillar of hope and strength to Ivan. It didn't matter how or in what context he gets to be seen, so he went out of his way to provoke him just to get Till to look at him even for a moment.
This was mentioned a while back on VIVINOS Patreon but the entire incident where Mizi and Till got attacked by that hound monster was orchestrated by him. I feel like there is two possible reasons for this depending on when in the timeline this takes place.
Either he wanted to test Till's resolve in hopes of being proven wrong about his courage (after all your hopes can't be dashed on the rocks, if you never had hopes to begin with) only for his obsession to end up growing even stronger than before.
Or he tried to let Till get roughed up enough that he'd be transferred (solitary confinement? emergency room?) somewhere else away from the others at Anakt, so they could escape together.
But we all know how that turned out.
Either way what Ivan wants isn't freedom, he's long since given up on that. There's no point in his freedom if the person that inspired him to yearn for it isn't by his side. He needs Till there, his very presence to reassure him that no matter what Till won't falter. But he failed to take account of the one thing that weakens Till's resolve.
Mizi.
Mizi is to Till what Till is to Ivan. And so without Mizi in his world Till crumbles. Since Till will only go where Mizi is and Mizi already gave away her heart to someone else, it's impossible for Ivan to be free while keeping Till in his world.
And so he follows him, resigning himself to a life without freedom.
Sick of these nights to come
To be engulfed in silence
But the distance between them is killing him, and each and every day they come closer to their inevitable doom.
It doesn't matter if they believe the lie the aliens told them, that if they die singing they will be blessed. Because what is the point in that? How can going somewhere far away from the people they love be a blessing?
In your gaze where I am seen
Consume me
Yes, me
His desires mirror Till's. He wants his soul to be seen by him, recognized for his undying love for him. He wants Till to see that he can give him all that Till yearns for in Mizi and more.
To this everlasting melody
Face to face we dance
And yet Till still refuses to look Ivan in the eyes.
Things get a little unclear but since they aren't shown singing here and there's no flashback to accompany the lyrics, we can assume that at this moment Till most likely gave up on singing.
With our story
Lost in forever's embrace
I'm not sure if Ivan intended this from the start or if it's a decision he made then and there but one thing is certain. If Till stops singing then that would mean he forfeits, he'll lose. Till has never once given up. Even when he went back for Mizi that night, he never intended to leave her in the first place. But now without her he crumbles.
And Ivan can't let that happen, not like this.
Moral grey area aside, this scene is so deeply moving to me
And I don't say that in a romantic context, absolutely not. This is something much deeper than just love. This is the culmination of everything they've been through, all those moments lead up to this.
Because this isn't a kiss.
This is Ivan throwing his life away for Till.
Till was going to loose, the only thing that could overturn that is if his opponent attacks him. The kiss was to distract Till and keep him from catching up to what Ivan was planning.
Just look at the contrast between their first and second kiss. As soon as the score board shows Till is in the lead, he gives him a gentle peck on the lips. The contrast is stark and full of meaning. This was the genuine kiss, hidden behind a smokescreen of aggressive bravado created from the previous one.
And it worked. Till was completely convinced that Ivan's intentions was to kill him, and he was fully intent on letting him.
I know a lot of people doubted his intentions. Because he didn't let go of Till's neck the minute he saw their scores, a lot of people assume that this was Ivan trying to drag Till down with him.
But the minute he coughed up blood what does he do?
He smiles.
and let's Till go.
He's only human. He might know logically that Till has won the match. But emotionally he refuses to let go until he is certain.
Until he knows for a fact that he is the one bleeding and dying he'll keep up his charade.
And then.
And only then.
Till truly sees Ivan.
As he dissolves in his gaze.
#THEY RUINED MY LIFE /POS#I FUCKING HATE THEM /AFFECTIONATE#ivantill#alnst till#alnst ivan#alnst mizi#alnst#alien stage#鞐愳澊鞀ろ厡#ramble rumble#I don't know what happened#I had a thought and a neuron activated#I think I might have ascended#alnst spoilers#alnst round 6
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hey inanimate improv. hey. wtf was that
#one's broadcast#one's broadcast tpot#ruined my life#what the hell#i cant be both a diehard one fan and a gattwo shipper in this economy its not fair#oh yeah right my tags#ughh. uhh#gattwo#bfdi#battle for dream island#fanart#osc#au#bfdi au#kinda?#id say#not mine but#its definitely not canon#i hope.#tpot two#tpot gaty#bfdi gaty#one#gaty#two#tpot one#one tpot#two tpot#these r so out of order im losing it a little bit#i hate ones broadcast. why
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HASHTAG NEVER FORGET
#i cant believe its been a whole year wtf#dndads s2 ep46 ruined my life anothony burch hates ME personally#hermie the unworthy#dndads#siren says
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i really like thinking about surface life for them
#undertale#sans#papyrus#long post#you can literally see the way i draw sans change between every single picture it's ruining my life#but they've been sitting unfinished since before my finals and even if i kind of hate this now but these damn pictures will be posted idgaf#''nobody actually has ''long post'' blocked we just all agree to look along in shame'' or whatever that post says
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Some meme doodles I did while working on episode 5 "Halfway House" 馃槄
#jurassic world chaos theory#chaos theory#jurassic world#kenji kon#darius bowman#daniel kon#I got to draw SO much Daniel Kon...enough for a lifetime#But I also got to draw the stygimolochs and Sammy's friendship with Ben so I'm happy.#Guys Heidi knows this but I originally wanted to post some meme doodles for episode 2 Rest Stop but tumblr HATED that......#Guess I'll take those into my grave#episode 5 ruined my life we quote SO many lines from it daily#my art
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Their gay sex would save the world
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i haven鈥檛 finished the show yet but they totally are gay and run away together and live happily ever after right? guys ? right? guys?
#s1 Morgwen#morgwen#this is my third time posting this but also my last bc I鈥檓 done tweaking it#it had some major contrast issues as well as the fact that they weren鈥檛 even looking each other in the eye before#Merlin bbc#Merlin#Morgana#guinevere#morgana x gwen#Morgana pendragon#morgana le fay#Merlin fanart#merlin bbc fanart#merlin art#morgwen art#lesbians#procreate#digital art#fanart#queen guinevere#artists on tumblr#lord why didn鈥檛 Gwen say she was loyal to Morgana and mean it#Morgana they could never make me hate u#Morgana stop trying to kill or ruin Gwen鈥檚 life ur gay for her okay#when she woke up from a nightmare of Gwen being married to Arthur i almost audibly laughed#Morgana u big homo#I鈥檓 gonna draw Gwen in one of her pretty purple/pink dresses but i wanted to do specifically season 1 and I don鈥檛 remember her wearing any
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weird animals
#night in the woods#fanart#mae borowski#greggory lee#angus delaney#beatrice santello#nitw fanart#nitw bea#nitw mae#nitw#uploading my twitter bangers hopefully they become tumblr bangers#i hate elon musk#elon musk ruined my life#fuck you elon musk#die
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cant stop drawing them.... ... . inspired by that part in a garden across our collarbone where they buy those onesies :333 please go read that fic by @pittdpeaches !!!
#lego monkie kid#lmk#lmk fanart#lmk mk#lmk red son#spicynoodles#lmk spicynoodles#i hate them so much#i wanna blend them up#affectionately#pittdpeaches has ruined my life with#a garden across our collarbone
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Stupid stupid book. It does not work. The logic is really not right
#my art#the great gatsby#I FUCKING HATE THEM#I HATE THIS FUCKING BOOK#FUCK#Lying.#nick carraway#jay gatsby#natsby#i think thats what its called they make me break out into hives i fucking hate them i fucki g hate the great gatsby#NEVRR DO AP ENGLISH SENIOR YEAR RUINED MY FUCKING LIFE#FFUCUUCUCCKKK#IM FUCKING BEATING THEM AGAINST ROCKS
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