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cringelordofchaos · 6 months ago

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(for"sendacharacterandilllist"askgame) DREWWWWWWWWWWWWW

YAYYAYAYAYAYA SOMEONE ASKED ME

ok so drew !!!

favorite thing about them

everything. But if I had to choose then maybe his attachment issues or those little spiky strane of hair above one of his ears

least favorite thing about them

just the fact that his backstory is not revealed yet. Like I hope the whole "he has family issues and feels detached from them making him have a complicated and toxic view kn relationships as well as attachment issues" headcanon ks revealed to be canon otherwise, if he's acting the way he is just bc he does, then he makes for a pretty boring character no matter how "realistic" it would be (which it kinda wouldn't but whatever that's a separate discussion). so yeah like the lack of traits rather than the traits themselves ig. Though rosyclozy said season 2 is druffering 2 so I am EXCITED

brOTP

dria. draisy. dracy. idfk which I should pick. endless possibilities. and they all parallel each other in one way or another and I fucking love them platonically but I'm not interested in them romantically if I'm gonna be honest. they'd all fix him

OTP

this is so unfathomably predictive and obvious of me but Drake/PlumPeach like come on a) I relate to Drew's "I'm in love with my best friend but they can't know and they're in love with someone else" situation heavily,there are endless analyses to be made and written, endless fic potential, SO MANY songs about breakups that just Fit Them, they make each other worse and also interesting characters. Someone once called me an abuse apologist that should never date anyone because I shipped them? LMAO. that was like 3/2 years ago though. without drake drew just like... wouldnt have character. Which says a lot. Second OTP is HOT TAKE droey. I made a whole fucking post abt them please don't @ me o can explain themselves - also droey angst. Also they're complicated af as well. But they are also pretty annoying so I'm not sure lmao. Dria rules too but prefer it platonic

nOTP

Idk drelliot .?? It's so unfathomably cliche and stereotypical toxic yaoi material and I hate it but I also think it's funny so idk I don't really have notps unless it's siblings or bad age gaps cuz they make me uncomfortable

random headcanon

do I have to share only one? I want more so I'll do more. I think he's Filipino, he had one of those glow in the dark shoes in elementary school and flexed them HARD, he has major depressive disorder and maybe borderline personality disorder, he hyperfixates on video games, listens to mostly emo rap, spends most of his time inside during summer, gets a new iphone every year, cyberbullies little kids on roblox, also still plays roblox, gets expensive watches just to flex and also bc he measures his worth by wealth his parents give him bc that's the only love they show him LMAO, and thinks furries and weebs are cringe, and also i love him

unpopular opinion

he actually loved/loves zoey

song I associate with them

ok how about I drop my whole playlist for them instead

Alex G - Nintendo 64

Amy Winehouse - Back To Black

Annika Bennett - Boy Who Has Everything

Billie Eilish - Wish U Were Gay

BoyWithUke - Toxic

Conan Gray - Heather

DoshVO - Dear Jake

DoshVO - Do You Wanna Bully Hailey?

DoshVO - Like a Six "Zoey Diss"

DoshVO - Move Along

ElyOtto - SugarCrash!

Fran Vasilić - eyes blue or brown can't remember

5 Seconds Of Summer - Teeth

Gotye - Somebody That I Used To Know

Jack Stauber - Cupid

Kaden Mackay - Don't You Dare (Make Me Fall In Love With You)

Kali Uchis - Just A Stranger

Laufey - From The Start

Laufey - Promise

Laufey - Second Best

Liana Flores - papercut

Mitski - Old Friend

Olivia Rodrigo - drivers license

Olivia Rodrigo - traitor

Olivia Rodrigo - vampire

Regina Spektor - Two Birds On A Wire

Rex Orange County - Best Friend

Rex Orange County - Sunflower

Rex Orange County - Television / So Far So Good

Steven Universe - It's Over Isn't It

The Front Bottoms - Be Nice To Me

The Vaccines - Heartbreak Kid

The Walters - I Love You So

...wow. I really thought I had more - whatever, more to be added w time, dw

Also the song "you better move on" I have no idea who made it ???????? I just listened to the cover by Frank Wattkinson lmao

favorite picture of them

ooof this one's heard. I mean hard. shut up

ok ok so I like this one .

cuz he's just done with him. looks angry but probably suppressing his years so fucking much. leaving Jake behind after such struggle and effort to keep him... dam (and it also shows their height difference lmfao)

Or one of these !!

Another ones from the finale, he's just laughing and smiling from the sheer pain he's in and the utter irony that is his friendship with Jake and he's so hurt but he's probably doing this to keep himself from crying but he's also probably just laughing at how pathetic he is for trusting Jake or believing that they really had something when it all turned out to be a huge lie and he just can't believe in himself or anyone anymore

ahahaha

this one's just him being jelly like eurgj. 😠😒

this one's a funny reaction image concept

and I also love this one cuz like, first of all lol at his eyebags he's either been crying or not getting any sleep or BOTH, he'd also in a call with Zoey trying to get him back and he's just looking at the side like he's mad at her and he's hurt by her but he also looks like he's trying so hard to resist idk how to explain it man he can't deal with her but he can't deal without her yknow what I mean

Thank you for asking !!!!!!

#tmf #the music freaks #freakblr #tmf drew #drew tmf #asks #toki rambles #lol #music #rosyblr

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geekgroovepod · 11 months ago

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Via Lollapalooza! Chicago's 20 year Tradition returns this summer with spectacular lineup.

I am a huge believer in music unites people. It doesn't matter what walks of life you come from, what job you have, what education you gotten, so on and so forth. One thing is for certain, music heals.

Which is why I am over the moon about this years Lollapalooza lineup, which is also the 20 year anniversary of being here in Chicago, IL. Moving back in time for Lolla is perfect timing, as I missed the summertime Chi while I was living in California.

With the announcement of the line up dropping at 10am today, lets take a look at a few of my favorite artist and artists that I am looking forward to see.

SZA: I am SUPPPPPER excited to see her again! (I say again, because I'm going to Gazebo Fest in Louisville. Shoutout to Jack Harlow 100000%)

Tyler, the Creator: I LOVEEEE Tyler, I seen him at Lolla in 2021 and I had a blast. The section of the crowd that I was in wasn't really lively but, still it was really fun! I cannot wait to see him again!

The Killers: I love their music and I have never seen them live so this is a great opportunity to see them. I cannot wait to sing Mr. Brightside with my whole chest.

Future x Metro Boomin: First of all, I'm not the biggest fan of Future's personality but he does make really fire music. Metro Boomin is an amazing producer who is iconic on the beats so this is going to be a fire set.

Hozier: I geeked about this and I just gotten into his music recently, so I am super prepared to cry my eyes out.

Stray Kids: I not the hugest fan of Kpop, but I'm absolutely excited to see them live for the first time. Kpop has started to be add to Lollas line up as, J-Hope from BTS was the first Korean artist to headline lolla, while Tomorrow x Tomorrow became the first Kpop group to headline Lolla. History is being made and I am excited to witness this!

Victoria Monet: It Girl, That girl, she gonna kill it. Nuff said.

Zedd: I was suposed to see him this year! I am so happy to get the chance to see him again!

Dominic Fike: Awesome artist, great voice, and is a fire preformer!

Sexyy Red: "It's Sexyy!" I'm so excited to see her

Benson Boone: Met him when I saw Alex Warren sweetest guy ever.

Vince Staples: Fire, and his show on Netflix is amazing. *Watch it*

Kesha: Comeback Queen. I am so excited to see her preform.

There is alot more great artist I'm excited to see, like Flo, Raye, Tate Mcrae, Conan Gray, Huddy and more.

Lollapalooza 2024 is August 1-4 in Grant Park in Chicago, IL. Tickets go live on Presale March 21st from 10am- 12pm CT and 12pm CT with a price increase.

I hope to see you all in Grant Park this August, and keep it locked on Geek Groove Pod for all the music festival news and updates!

#music #music festival #lollapalooza #chicago #blog #music blog #sza #tyler the creator #kesha

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vanderwoodlings · 2 years ago

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If I’m being honest: an Eric van der Woodsen playlist (x)

Tracklist (and commentary!) under the cut

1. “Free To Decide,” The Cranberries. I'm free to decide, I'm free to decide/And I'm not so suicidal after all

2. “12345,” Em Beihold. "You need a hug, are you alright?"/“Nobody's loved you much tonight"/Only the mirror tells me I'm fine

3. “Family Line,” Conan Gray. It was really this bit from the chorus that had me going for this one: I'm so good at telling lies/That came from my mother's side/Told a million to survive—but I think there’s really something to the way that Eric just has William written off when he shows up, and that takes a lot of emotional work to do that happens off-screen but I still think about very much

4. “Unsteady,” X Ambassadors. This playlist does kind of just embrace the cringe a little bit and I’m okay with that. Hold, hold on, hold on to me/‘Cause I'm a little unsteady, a little unsteady

5. “Dance Music,” The Mountain Goats. In which I will never be over the stuff that comes up in 2.07 about lily’s various exes

6. “I’m Not a Cynic,” Alec Benjamin. I swear that I'm not a cynic, my glass just has no water in it today

7. “Breaking Free,” Night Riots. I feel violent/Like I'm dying/I feel broken, maybe I'm just breaking free. [sticks a toothpick in the boy’s brain] uh yeah he’s not done yet

8. “Pressure,” Paramore. Seriously tho Eric during the year Serena was gone is so fucked up I wish the show had let us talk about him more. Some things I'll never know/And I had to let them go/I'm sitting all alone/Feeling empty

9. “Wouldn’t It Be Nice,” The Beach Boys. He is gay <3

10. “Creep,” Radiohead. He is gay and depressed

11. “Jason,” BONNIE PARKER. So yeah uh. Asher thing

12. “Shut Up!” Simple Plan.

13. “Inhaler,” Foals. I'm make believe/And I'm up for rent/My head is spent/I guarantee

14. “Hold Me While You Wait,” Lewis Capaldi. So tell me, can you turn around?/I need someone to tear me down.

15. “Blackbird,” The Beatles. Told you I was just going for it.

16. “Cursive,” Billie Marten. And we'll be fine, there is an end/It hurts to fall back again. There’s an ericfic on ao3 that I haven’t actually read, but it’s got a tag about fluctuating mental health and that definitely has the energy I was feeling here—he’s chronically depressed, and that is what it is

17. “Honesty,” Billy Joel. Okay but like. Fuck the UES. Honesty is such a lonely word/Everyone is so untrue

18. “Babel,” Mumford & Sons. Then the walls of my town, they come crumbling down/You ask where will we stand in the winds that will howl. When he says he’ll basically be ten feet away and then literally never appears again

19. “Heart Open,” Kodaline. Always on the outside, too afraid to open up, and talk/…/And you're not broken/So keep your heart open now

20. “Like a River Runs,” Bleachers. I’ve looped back around to thinking about that pre-series year again, a little bit. Tonight, I sit over the parkway/The summer's gone and I'm alone/And I get the feeling that you're somewhere close/And I wanna get up/To the rhythm of your wild, to the rhythm of your wild heart/It beats, been beating since you've gone

21. “Trenches,” Set Your Goals. You're falling in love with the skyline/Nothing comes for free:/Can you put a price on feeling satisfied?

22. “Lost Highway,” Bon Jovi. Yeah, I'm busting loose, I'm letting go/Out on this open road/It's independence day on this lost highway

23. “You Cannot,” Erin McKeown. You cannot cage me, I revolt/You cannot contain me, I bolt/I am not caught because/What I got, got you can't hold, hold

24. “Born to Run,” Bruce Springsteen. Seriously I just find it so interesting when characters actually leave on this show, and it’s even more so for Eric because of all the characters he actually grew up in the UES, and there’s this way that its played as something that traps you, and yet he just basically goes ‘no <3’

25. “Heart lines,” Florence + The Machine. Just keep following the heart lines on your hand/Keep it up, I know you can

26. “We Are Golden,” MIKA. Running around like a clown on purpose/Who gives a damn about the family you come from

27. “everything sucks,” vaultboy, Eric Nam. I really like this one in the way of just… it feels kind of comfortable. It isn’t being all the way up in the way that some of these songs are

28. “Evergreen,” Bears in Trees. But I must possess the thought, that progress is a process/And it ain't one step backward if you rotate your axis/Realize that a slip up is just part of the practice

29. “Hand in My Pocket,” Alanis Morissette. And what it all comes down to/Is that everything's gonna be fine, fine, fine

30. “Lights,” Journey. California!Eric my beloved

#eric van der woodsen #gossip girl #it’s HERE finally i have finished it #attempted suicide /#abuse /#<—for in a few of the songs #original nonsense #this is a playlist tag

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windwheeler-aster · 2 years ago

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superache event

guidelines

requests will only be accepted if they follow my normal request rules

only one character per request

you must choose your prompt(s), a genre, and a character

you may choose a song or song lyric, but you don’t have to. not everyone is familiar with conan’s music, so i’m more than happy to pick something that fits your request for you.

all requests will be written for a gender neutral reader

all songs and song lyrics come from songs on Conan Gray’s Superache album

instructions

pick a character

choose a prompt

choose a genre

(optional) choose a song or song lyric from conan gray

(optional) provide extra details for request

submit request

characters available

all characters are available for platonic requests!

the following characters are not available for romantic requests:

qiqi, klee, sayu, diona, nahida, dori, yaoyao, barbara, bennet, razor, noelle, chongyun, collei, xingqiu, xiangling, fischl

prompts

childhood friends

enemies to lovers

fake dating

forbidden love

friends to lovers

lovers to enemies

mutual pining

rivals to lovers

strangers to lovers

unrequited love

one bed trope

accidental kiss

if you have other prompts, or variants of the “____ to ____” prompts, you may submit those too

genre

fluff

comfort (reverse)

hurt/comfort (reverse)

hurt/no comfort (reverse)

angst

songs

movies

people watching

disaster

best friend

astronomy

yours

jigsaw

family line

summer child

footnote

memories

the exit

song lyrics

movies

“i want a love like the movies”

“all of our friends think of us jealously / we’re so sweet, so sweet”

“in my head, we’re dancing in the dark / in my head, we kiss under the stars”

“we’re holding hands, but it’s all just for show”

“and you say that it’s over, but why does she call you / at 3 a.m. and 4 a.m.? / that’s a funny way of staying friends”

people watching

“but i wanna feel all that love and emotion / be that attached to the person i’m holding”

“i’ve never really been in love, not seriously”

disaster

“‘cause the potential of us, it was keeping me up all night long”

“there’s so many factors / like, what if you freak out, and then we’re losing it all?”

“at the critical chapter where i say ‘i love you’ / and you don’t say it after”

“is it purely platonic to call me, like, every night?”

“but if i’m readin’ it wrong, man, it’d be better off if i died”

best friend

“that’s my fucking throw up in the bathroom, but still love them”

“that’s my fucking lifeline, that’s my ride or die, like”

“that’s my fucking hate you, but you know that that’s a damn lie”

“made a promise that i’m gonna marry you / if we’re both still single by, like, 32”

astronomy

“a tale old as time, young love don’t last for life”

“we’ve traveled the seas, we’ve ridden the stars / we’ve seen everything from saturn to mars”

“as much as it seems like you own my heart / it’s astronomy, we’re two worlds apart”

“you said, ‘distance brings fondness,’ but guess not with us”

“stop trying to keep us alive / you can’t force the stars to align when they’ve already died”

yours

“i’m somebody you touch, but never hold / and you’re somebody i’ll never really know”

“i know i’m not the one you really love / i guess that’s why i’ve never given up”

“all i wanted was that look in your eyes / like you already know that i’m the love of your life”

“the only thing that’s harder than sleepin’ alone / is sleepin’ with your ghost”

jigsaw

“i’ve changed every part of me / until the puzzle pieces aren’t me at all”

“you take every part of me / all of the things you need / then the rest you discard”

“all i did just to make you happy / still you don’t even fuckin’ love me”

“killin’ parts of myself to fit you / clear as shit i was not the issue”

family line

“i say they’re just the ones who gave me life / but i truly am my parents’ child”

“it’s hard to put it into words / how the holidays will always hurt”

“and wonder what i did to deserve this / how could you hurt a little kid?”

“i can’t forget, i can’t forgive you / ‘cause now i’m scared that everyone i love will leave me”

“might share a face and share a last name, but / we are not the same”

summer child

“but there’s darkness behind those eyes / even when you smile”

“aren’t you way too busy / taking care of everybody / to take care of yourself?”

footnote

“but why would i lie? It’s so clear i’m in love / with you”

“a tense conversation, you like someone else / i say, ‘if i wanted, could that maybe help?’”

“you ate at a restaurant, the host said we’re cute / they think we’re a couple, they bought us some booze”

“oh, and i’d be embarrassed if i weren’t so pleased / that everyone else sees what you never see”

memories

“i open up that door, see your brown eyes at the entrance / you just wanna talk, and i can’t turn away a / wet dog”

“please, don’t make it harder than it already is / i’m trying to get over this”

“you’re all drunk in my kitchen, curled in the / fetal position”

“‘i wish that you would stay in my memories’”

the exit

“starin’ at a girl who’s not me / on your arm, a carbon copy”

“feels like we had matching wounds / but mine’s still black and bruised / and yours is perfectly fine now”

“do you even doubt it on your lips?”

“you already found someone to miss / while i’m still standin’ at the exit”

writer chooses

i’ll choose a song lyric or song that best suits your request

#wheeler's events #genshin impact #genshin impact event #genshin x reader #genshin impact x reader #conan gray #conan gray superache #conan gray prompts #genshin romance #genshin fluff #genshin comfort #genshin hurt/comfort #genshin hurt/no comfort #genshin angst

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whenyoucallmelover · 2 years ago

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21 songs that i carried with me, in my (sometimes heavy and tired, sometimes bright and hopeful) heart, throughout the 21st year of my life.

for my birthday the past few years, i've put together a list of the songs that i feel had the biggest impact on me for that year of my life. this is the first year i have a tumblr, so i figured this would be a nice place to share the list-- mostly for myself, but also to maybe inspire others to do the same! it's kinda like a spotify wrap-up, but...not...

i think someone's favorite songs are a beautiful insight to who they are and what matters to them, and as someone who struggles with being quite shy, i find that talking about music with people is my favorite way to come out of my lil shell. these songs are all so, so incredible and i urge you to give some a listen if you're looking for new tunes!

(ok thanks for putting up with my self-indulgent, music-nerd ramblings <3)

1 . punisher (copycat killer version); phoebe bridgers

as the song goes, everyone knows you’re the way to my heart. anyone who knows me knows this song is the way to my heart. this is my most streamed song of all time and i stand by that completely. (even though i actually dislike the original version of this song...crazy!)

2. matilda; harry styles

do i need to even explain why this song has been played mercilessly on sad days?

3. through me (the flood); hozier

though this song has only been out for the final month of my 21st year, i already know i will hold onto it for many years to come.

4. savior complex; phoebe bridgers

one hand on the wheel, one in your mouth. turn me on, turn me down. incredible.

5. blood in the wine; aurora

i saw aurora live from the front row for the first time last summer and have never been the same since.

6. hate to be lame; lizzy mcalpine & finneas

this collab is what introduced me to lizzy mcalpine and i am very, very happy it did.

7. a concert six months from now; finneas

just a beautiful telling of the complexities of love and optimism.

8. aye; sam fender

the opening verse gets me so angry every time i listen to this song. it’s a ruthless political fuck you to rich people and it does it so poignantly.

9. vienna; billy joel

my comfort song. slow down, you’re doing fine.

10. cinema; harry styles

possibly my favorite song of harry’s to dance and sing along with. the outro is such a fun ending.

11. torna a casa; maneskin

the buildup and emotion in this song is unlike any other.

12. family line; conan gray

i don’t usually enjoy conan gray’s music, but someone told me to listen to this one day, and…wow. ouch.

13. lost cause; billie eilish

i didn’t love this song when it first came out, but it really grew on me this year and i’ve danced around in my room to it many, many times.

14. she; harry styles

harry’s best song. there, i said it.

15. the kids are all dying; finneas

another poignant political song. very fuck america.

16. add it up; violent femmes

the best karaoke song. i will never not scream it at the top of my lungs.

17. talk; hozier

soooo sexy. that’s all i need to say.

18. only angel; harry styles

yet another musical masterpiece from harry. i know it’s divisive, but i absolutely love the intro.

19. it will come back; hozier

i am utterly terrible at picking favorites, but i think this is my favorite hozier song…but please don’t hold me to that.

20. partners in crime; finneas

thought you wanted me tied down, it started to chafe. but it’s easy to see now, you just wanted me safe. ahhhh!!!!!!

21. call me lover; sam fender

and last but certainly not least, the song i stole my username from. i love it when you call me lover...

#yayyy i'm glad i actually have somewhere to post this instead of just tucked away in my journal #hopefully i'll still be on here next year to share the 22 songs from my 22nd year!#birthday songs #june #about me #🎧~ songs.

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dukesmebby · 2 years ago

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summer child (s.h)

a/n: this has been the only thing on my brain for the last two weeks<3 this is based off of the song summer child by Conan Gray so please give that a listen if you'd like! I just couldnt stop thinking about this song is made for him. HUGE thanks to @translatemunson for being the damn reason this got done. also thanks to @munsonswife for helping convince me to post<3

warnings: i dont think there should be any but lmk! just steve being kinda in his feels tbh

You see all the flowers in the weeds

You're scared of the dark when you sleep

You cover up your arms with your sleeves

Even in hundred-degree heat

Your father was awfully mean

Steve doesn’t always trust easily, you know that, but he hasn't stopped trying to trust the people he meets these days. Always trying to see the good as a way to give him hope. You know the man standing across from you is not proud of how he has always treated people and that bothers him. You also know he would fight tooth and nail or even die for you and any of his friends in a heartbeat. You wish he knew you'd do the same thing for him. You know that he can hardly sleep unless he has his lamp on and the windows closed and curtains drawn. You don't even remember the last time he slept for more than three hours in a night. You also know from your years spent together he wouldn't dare try sleeping like that when his father is home. He doesn't usually sleep most of the time when his parents actually are home. To him the house doesn't feel like home unless Robin or the kids are there with him. What you don't know is that he doesn’t ever feel at home anywhere without you.

Your favorite color is green

It reminds you of the summer you turned three

Runnin' through sprinklers on your street

And you laugh and you dance in the wind

And you sway and you hug and you kiss

He often thought about when he was a kid, spending summers with his grandparents while his parents were off on some business trip. A time when he was allowed to run around and have fun and honestly just be a kid. No stuffy cocktail parties that he had to dress up for and act like he wasn't a ten year old boy. A time when his Grandpa would practically have to drag him inside after a full day of playing in the sprinklers with you. The summer breeze blowing through the trees the two of you would climb, and inevitably you would fall out of. After he made sure you were alright and kissed your scraped up knees better the two of you decided no more climbing trees, at least not for you. He thought about how when you guys were older you would sneak out to Lovers’ Lake just to get away from it all together. After Vecna, he didn't think he would ever feel that happy again. He stopped believing that he might get to feel like that.

But there's darkness behind those eyes

Even when you smile

Oh, summer child

You don't have to act like all you feel is mild

You don't really love the sun, it drives you wild

You're lyin', summer child

You know that Steve doesn't like to let people see that side of him anymore, his softer side coming out in bits only you and the gang would see. When he would smile it never went all the way to his honey brown eyes. He wishes he could be like that all of the time but he gets so tired of pretending in front of everyone. You're just grateful to see him happy in the small flashes that you do. When you get to see the flash of excitement spark all the way up to his sweet doe eyes. You know he is still the same man behind all of the walls he has built, you just wish he knew that if he wasn’t he was allowed to be the new version of himself around you. You wish he knew it was safe to be vulnerable like that with you no matter what. You hope he knows he can be angry that his childhood was stolen from him. You hope he knows he is allowed to be sad that his parents were never around. You hope he knows he is allowed to be loved by you, he deserves it even.

Aren't you way too busy

Taking care of everybody

To take care of yourself?

When the sun goes missing

Aren't the flowers just as pretty?

Aren't the oceans just as deep?

The trees as green?

He needs to take a break, you know it and he knows you know it. He has been running himself ragged trying to do it all. He's been picking up more shifts to distract himself while also agreeing to take robin to and school and helping Hop get his place put back together. He feels so much guiltier about trying to be Superman when he realizes he hadn't called you all week, and it was already Thursday. You don't even remember the last time he slept for more than three hours in a night. You know Steve has been trying to distract himself lately and frankly you'd had a lot of coursework to catch up on so you don’t mind that he hadn't called. That doesn't mean it didn’t have you worried. You don't remember the last time you saw him eat a real meal which just wouldn't do for you. You know he doesn't stop long enough to eat, you are usually the only person that can get him to hit pause and actually take care of himself. You need him to understand that we all love him even if he wasn't the hero everyday.

And as for me

I'll watch you weep

Oh, summer child

You don't have to act like all you feel is mild

You don't really love the sun, it drives you wild

You're lyin', summer child

Steve notices you acting a little bit different around him. He notices the fact that you start bringing him lunches on his breaks so that he's actually eating something. He notices when you offer to pick up robin or the kids so that he doesn't have to. He notices you hanging onto his arm for longer than usual on date night Sunday. He also starts to notice that when you're over hanging out with him and he falls asleep before you leave he doesnt wake up in a dark room. He wakes up with his lamp on and the curtains closed. It makes his heart ache and his stomach churn. He is starting to feel alot like a kid again, because of you.

#stevie baby<3 #i feel like this song is so steve coded and i couldn’t not write the similarities you know?#summer child #conan gray #steve harrington #steve harrington x reader #steve harrington headcanon #steve harrington x you #steve harrington thoughts #stranger things #kk..writes?

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occasionaloneshots · 3 years ago

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Modern Stranger Things Girls

Headcannons including style and room decor only on the older sibling characters and younger, and only characters who has appeared in at least 2 seasons. (So not including Eden, Chrissy, Vickie, or Heather)

Nancy

Style is a mix between light academia and extremely girly

Over blushes purposefully, adds it to the tip of her nose

Big fan of Taylor Swift, Conan Gray, and Olivia Rodrigo, cries to “People Watching” but she doesn’t know how to explain why

Part of yearbook and the journalism at her school, talked the school into adding the paper as a section of their website

Paints her own nails, makes sure she does it every Sunday and then matches all her outfits to it through out the week

Has American Girl dolls from her childhood still in her closet for “safe keeping”

Plant mom, actually can keep them alive

Bedroom is full of real and fake plants, asks Mike to water them if she’s away, never tells him that half are fake so she can laugh about him watering all of them

A lot of neutral/green toned decor but she still has baby pink walls from when she was a kid, everyone says it suits her

Participates in spirit weeks, probably joined SGA just to help pick themes

Avid skirt wearer

Bullet journals and keeps a diary (tells people just journals with no further explanation)

Volunteers at the local animal shelter on the weekends

Taught El how to do her hair and makeup (often steals El from her brother and his friends if Max isn’t there)

Has modern Curtain bangs, never adds enough volume to them

Camp counselor every summer

love dainty jewelry, says she only wears it, but she wears a friendship bracelet El made her at camp until it literally falls apart (El said it was a thank you for making her feel normal when the kids didn’t, Nancy hid in the bathroom and cried a little over it)

Claw clip enthusiast

Robin

dresses like an artsy lesbian stereotype and then asks Steve if he thinks girls will know she likes girls

leather jacket girl

works at Best Buy, is really nosy when ringing up customers

Dustin came into the store to buy animal crossing so he could visit Suzie’s island, she immediately texted Steve about it and they teased him together (he has no regrets and has a really cute island)

Acts like a music snob but doesn’t actually have a music taste (Steve refuses to give her the aux and then they argue because Steve is a Yung Gravy and TMG fan)

collects crystals, doesn’t actually believe they have abilities she just likes the way they look on her shelves

mainly wears neutrals, but she has has a full collection of colorful button ups that she buys from mens sections

Wears almost exclusively converse and boots

hair tie around her wrist 99% of the time

Only wears eyeliner, mascara, and concealer (highlight and lipgloss come out if she feels like she needs to look nicer)

dyes the underside of her hair fun colors (Max helps, it’s a bonding experience)

Lets Nancy paint her nails

Collects patterned socks (prefers crew socks)

buzzfeed unsolved/the watcher Stan (loves the professor, watches puppet history when she can’t sleep)

room is really messy but in a way that it almost looks creative

wall is absolutely covered with posters, pictures, drawings, and letters

Had white bedding, bought darker bedding because she’s prone to spills

Max

has 2 styles, half surfer and half skater (learned how to surf as a kid, misses it)

thinks skirts are only for special occasions

believes in the healing abilities of crystals, goes shopping for them with Robin and keeps an amethyst stone on her at all times

bought Lucas a rose quarts necklace once and a matching one for herself (after an actually messy breakup, she noticed he took it off and cried about it)

Big scrunchie fan because normal hair ties pull her hair and she hates the feeling of clips

has a clear phone case, keeps a picture of her and Lucas and a sticky note with a drawing from El in the back

has a locked folder in her notes app that is secretly a journal, won’t tell anyone

draws all over her vans and converse, protects her airforces with her life

big fan of hats

became closer with Mike because her other friends won’t watch scary movies with her (Lucas will if asked nicely, mocks the movie the whole time. Dustin and El would really rather not because Max likes to scare them during the movie and Will doesn’t want to admit they still give him nightmares)

actually remembers to put sunscreen on every day (she’ll regret it if she doesn’t)

Still puts beads on her converse laces like people did in 2019

Once near her birthday she mentioned wanting to buy a pair of customized Jeans and then Will gifted her a pair (he spent 3 days on them)

Got close with Robin when she started highschool because they had the same lunch and looked obviously lost, hangs out with the band kids despite having no musical skill

Genuinely likes punk pop (and normal pop but she only admits that to El, who exclusively listens to bedroom pop)

never turns her overhead light on, relies on the windows and lamps in her room

Still sleeps with a stuffed animal because she can’t sleep alone after getting wrapped up in the upside down drama

dresses in super colorful clothes, is on the edge of dressing kid core but she leans a little too pastel for it

obsessed with her hair once it’s long enough to play with, collects hair accessories so she can try different styles

also collects squishmellows (gave max the stuffed animal she sleeps with, it’s a squishmellow, go figure)

watches makeup tutorials when she can’t sleep and tries to recreate them (Nancy bought her her first makeup items and she got her colorful eyeshadow pallets that El is dying to use)

indie girl type of bedroom, probably has a loft bed

big fan of platform shoes because they make her closer to Mike’s height while being easier to walk in than heels

big fan of dresses and skirts, extremely girly style (once she finds her own, with the help of Max) so that she can take back not feeling pretty as a child

has a Jean jacket that she begged will to paint after seeing Max’s jeans(and he did, it now has flowers on it)

Big fan of accessories in general but especially the chunkier, colorful type (like the y2k style rings and beaded necklaces)

once got Max to add a streak of purple to her hair while Max was dying robin’s (it was to feel like a part of the group but she actually loved it)

hates the feeling of both nail polish and fake nails so her nails are always bare

has pictures with her friends hanging on Fairy lights over her headboard

got a pair of AirPods as a gift from Mike once, bought a case for them to “make them cuter” because she thought they looked boring

exclusive listens to bedroom and indie pop

sleeps with a night light (and possibly the door open) because she hates when it’s fully dark around her

has a friendship bracelet from Nancy that she got on her last day of summer camp, wears it everyday (it matches Nancy’s)

has a set of those rings that connect from Max, Max wears the one with the cut out, El has the dainty one (it’s a butterfly)

Suzie

Still dresses pretty modest to make her parents happy but she a little pickier about it

big fan of graphic tees but has to be really careful about the graphic on them

plays animal crossing (talked Dustin into also playing) and has strong opinions about the villagers

secretly has social media, deletes them weekly when her parents ask to see her phone (feels guilty about it)

puts way too much effort into PowerPoints and essays, spends days on them

prefers winter because she’s really good at layering (and her clothes look a lot cuter and less “my mom only lets me wear swim dresses because other one pieces show too much”)

Has built her entire future with Dustin in the Sims 4 (probably more than once)

probably has those heart shaped prescription glasses to be quirky but they actually fit her style really well

something tells me she’d be a really big fan of 90s and early 2000s country (especially the love songs) but hates new country

scrapbooks as well as journaling to have something to do with her hands

max added her to a group chat with her and Eleven on Snapchat but she just lurks there because they make her nervous

collects physical media (her bookshelf has a whole shelf that’s just DVDs)

Not allowed to watch horror movies until she’s 18

After Dustin, she’s closest to Will in the party, she thinks he’s the nicest of Dustin’s friends

Has a picture she took on the last day of camp with Dustin as her Lock Screen, her parents grew to accept it

Avid Etsy user (and she covers everything with nerdy stickers, including her bedroom furniture)

big fan of headbands

Erica

loves getting color added to her braids (especially pink) and often adds beads

First makeup her mom let her wear (when starting Middle school) was highlight, mascara, and lip gloss

really pastel and girly but prefers pants to skirts

loves quirky earrings, refuses to admit some of them are nerdy (despite Lucas telling her her rubix cube earrings are super nerdy)

little mix, Ari, and Nicki fan

wears jewelry that probably counts as kandi (and makes it herself) but isn’t part of the alt kandi community

fanfiction and fanart creator

Definitely still watches MLP, ships at least 2 of the big ships

part of her middle school art club but also the SGA (doesn’t participate in spirt weeks)

took a semester of chorus once, discovered she has minor stage fright

Pastel bedroom (walls are probably like lilac) with more throw pillows than a middle schooler actually needs

sleeps through scary movies but also history class (honestly could probably sleep through anything)

big fan of crochet clothing

big Marvel fan, won’t watch DC movies (says it’s cheating on Marvel but she actually just doesn’t wanna learn anything about DC)

Steals hoodies out of Lucas’s closet when he’s not home so they don’t fight about it

scrolls through pintrest and Instagram hair posts, is getting really good at doing her own hair despite being in the 6th grade

had a rainbow loom phase, gave a few to El and Max after the star court incident as a thank you (though if you ask her she just didn’t like them, despite spending hours on them)

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𝐌𝐄𝐌𝐎𝐑𝐈𝐄𝐒 | ʙʀᴇɴᴅᴀɴ ʙʀɪꜱꜱᴏɴ

info: inspired by the song memories by conan gray

summary: y/n and brendan go trough lots of stages of their relationship in the span of 2 months.

requested: yes | no

disclaimer: not proofread. im sorry if this make you cry...

warnings: A couple of swear words.

pairing: brendan brisson x fem!reader

wc: 4.9k (including the lyrics), 4.7k (not including the lyrics)

important: italics are flashbacks & bold italics are lyrics

taglist: @ethancale @erikports @owenpowpow @hockey-lover-22 @hockey-lover86 @hugheshugs @thomasbbordeleau @flyersislescanes @1-800-iluvhockey @nickblankenburg @idblowbordeleau @oskarlidblom @mattyybenierss

one, two

you and brendan had started dating in january of your freshman year of college, meeting in your first ever class and having to seat next to each other. brendan being brendan, hadn’t listened to a thing the teacher had said, and of course didn’t take notes. so at the end of class he asked you for them.

“hey, um, i didn’t really take notes during class. so i was wondering if you could like send me what you wrote down?” he asked as you started to pack your bags. you looked over to him and almost fell off your chair. you had noticed how cute he looked when he sat down next to you, but you didn’t look at him fully, not wanting to creep him out.

“sure. here, gimme your phone, i’ll give you my number.” you answered with a smile as you placed your bag down in front of you. he handed you his phone after a couple of seconds, a new contact page opened for you. you quickly typed your number when he spoke again.

“i’m brendan, by the way.”

“y/n.” you said as you handed him his phone back, you sent him a smile before getting up and leaving the room. in the mean time, brendan’s eyes were looking at the new contact in his phone.

cute girl from math class ;)

“you wanna go get coffee one day?”

“bren, we get coffee everyday.” you said in a ‘duh’ tone making him roll his eyes. it had been almost 2 months since your first class, and since then, the two of you had spent most of your free time together. you’d help him with all of his classes, some of which he was failing, and for the others, you just had to convince him to do his homework.

it was crazy to you how quickly you got along, just in the span of a week, you had learned so much about him. how he played hockey, where he had previously played at, his old school, where he was from, how he took his coffee, his favorite movie. he had talked a bit about his family but you could tell he didn’t feel fully comfortable in the moment to tell you. you had also meet all of his teammates, whom you quickly became friends with as well.

“no, i know that. i mean like as a date… if you want.” he explained, suddenly becoming shy, something you had never seen before. his cheeks were slightly darker as he looked at his book.

“sure.”

“y/n! can you help me with my tie?” brendan yelled from behind the bathroom door of his bedroom. you were going out to a fancy dinner with his family, whom you had been staying with for the last couple of days. brendan had convinced you come visit him in LA for 2 weeks during the summer. although it didn’t take much for you to say yes since you missed your boyfriend a lot.

“sure. just gimme a minutes alright?” you yelled back as you finished slipping your dress on.

“i’m coming in!” classic brendan.

“goodness gracious.” he said once he saw you, making you turn around to look at him.

“what? does it look bad? do i have something on my face?” you asked, slightly freaking out.

“no, no, no. you look– woah. you look amazing, y/n/n.” he said, his eyes looking at you in pure admiration. his words making you blush slightly as he walked over to you, his hands landing on your hips.

“don’t look too bad yourself.”

“i’d look better with a tie.” he said holding up the piece of fabric making you laugh a bit.

only, not all good things last forever.

it’s been a couple months

that’s just about enough time

for me to stop crying when i look at all the pictures

now i kinda smile, i haven’t felt that in a while

“i know we said we’d talk about it later. b-but we need to, y/n. we can’t just ignore it forever.” brendan said as he looked over at you. he had arrived back from beijing barely a week ago, he could’ve been talking about the way his experience ended, but you knew it wasn’t about it.

it was about him signing at the end of the season.

“bren–”

“i just wanna know if you wanna do this whole long distance relationship or not, y/n.”

“i-i don’t know.”

“well then figure out what you want, y/n.” you were shocked by his tone, it was one that you’d heard multiple times when he’d argue over his dad, but he had never used it towards you.

“excuse you?”

“i said figure it out, y/n. i want– i need to know if you’re up for the distance or not.” he said, using the same tone as before.

“i don’t know, brendan. plus, why does it matter, the season is ending in 2 months, i still have time to think!”

“that’s the thing, y/n! the season’s ending in 2 months, and if you don’t wanna do long distance then i’m not gonna stick around.” he said, making you look at him in shock.

“you don’t want to stick around?” you repeat to yourself as your eyes stare into his.

“i don’t wanna stick around for 2 months if we're just gonna break up. i don’t wanna put efforts into someone who’s just gonna dump me because of my career.” he spoke, his voice breaking a bit. every part of him hoped that you’d say you could handle it, that you’d be willing to try.

but you didn’t. you stayed quiet, your eyes not even looking at him. he could feel his heart slowly breaking as every second of silence passed. after a solid 3 minutes of silence, he nodded a bit before getting up from your bed.

“i’ll have one of the boys bring you your things.” he mumbled as he slipped off the matching bracelet you had gotten for your one year, barely one month ago. and the next second he was gone.

that was 2 months ago, the boys were leaving for the frozen four soon and you were proud of them, you truly were. you wanted to hug all of them and tell them how proud you were, but you couldn’t. after brendan left, you cut all for of communication with all of them. the only one you had seen was bordy who had came to drop your things off and pick up brendan’s.

when the two of you first broke up, you wanted to delete every picture you had of him, anything that reminded you of him. but you couldn’t do it, you couldn’t just let go of him that easily, even if he had. you saw all of the boy’s snap stories of them partying, seeing brendan talking to some blond girl in the back, or his tongue shoved down on of their throat. the first time you noticed it, it completely broke your heart. it was barely a week after the two of you had broken up.

every time you’d see a pic of the two of you, you’d be reminded of how much fun you had with him, how he made you feel, how he made you the happiest you had been in years. those thoughts only made you realize how badly you had messed up, you wanted to do long distance, but you froze in the moment, something you deeply regretted.

only now, you didn't feel that bad anymore. you had grown a lot as a person since the two of you broke up. instead of crying when you’d scroll on your phone and saw a picture of the two of you, you’d smile, something you never thought you’d be able to do while looking at them.

it’s late, i head the door

bell ringing and it’s pouring

i open up that door, see your brown eyes at the entrance

you just wanna talk and

i can’t turn away a wet dog

it was almost one a.m when you heard someone knocking on the door of your apartment. it was friday night, well saturday morning now, you had been awake all night studying for your upcoming finals, cup of coffee in front of the mess of books on your table. with all of the energy you had left in you, you pushed yourself up and walked over to your door. not feeling like looking through your peephole, you opened the door directly and were met with a very intoxicated brendan.

“brendan?” you asked confused, this was the first time you had seen him since you broke up.

“y/n/n! baby, i missed you!” he slurred, giving you a smile. his clothes were all wet and that’s when you remembered it was pouring rain outside.

“bren, what’re you doing here?”

“i came to see you, babe. i missed your cute little face.”

“how’d you get here?”

“i walked! the boys and i were out at some bar, i don’t really know which one, and then they started talking about you and that’s when i remembered i hadn’t seen you all day, and that i’ve been kiss deprived for the past 24 hours.” he said as he leaned on your doorframe. he was clearly way too drunk to know what he was doing, but you were glad to know he hadn’t driven to you.

“you walked in the rain?”

“well, yeah. a boy gotta do what he gotta do to see his girlfriend.”

“i’ll call one of the boys, come in.” you said, trying your hardest to ignore his last statement. you fully opened your door and brendan was quick to walk in, sitting down on the couch like he had millions of times before. you went into your kitchen to get him a cup of water, when you felt a pair of arm wrap around your waist.

“why haven’t you kissed me yet? i told you i came here exactly for that.” he pouted, only making your heart ache even more. you quickly moved out of his grasp and handed him the cup.

“bren, i’m not your girlfriend.”

“yeah you are, i know what my girlfriend looks like and where she lives. i’m not that dumb.”

“no– we broke up 2 months ago, brendan.” you explained in a small voice, and suddenly his smile dropped.

“right. forgot about that. honestly, i think that was very selfish of you, breaking up with me because of my career, one you said you’d always support me in–”

“you broke up with me, brendan. not the other way around.” you quickly cut him off, you weren’t gonna let him come in here and act like the victim when he was the one to blame.

“yeah, i broke up with you, but i did that because you would’ve broken up with me anyways when i signed.” he said, his voice full of anger.

“you didn’t even give me a choice, brendan!”

“but i did! i asked you if you wanted to do the distance or not and you said no.”

“i didn’t fucking say no! you barely left me any time to think and then you just left saying one of the guys would bring me my things!”

“clearly if you had to think about it then you probably didn’t, y/n! if you really loved me you would’ve said yes before i even finished asking you.” he said making your jaw drop. you didn’t care he said, but there was a line, and when he accused you of never loving him, that’s when he crossed it. it took everything in you to not started hitting his chest in anger and kick him out.

“don’t you even dare say that i never loved you, brendan.”

“why not? it’s the truth!” that was your breaking point. he knew he was drunk, but we all know drunk words are sober thoughts. you didn’t look at him as you walked past him and into his bedroom. you quickly texted bordy asking if he could come pick brendan up from your apartment. thomas was clearly shocked when he saw that he had a notification from you, but he quickly agreed when he read your message.

a couple of minutes later, you heard a knock on the door again, but you stayed in your room. you heard brendan’s voice talking with bordy’s, and a couple of seconds later they were gone. thomas then texted you a couple of minutes later thanking you for letting him know where the boy was, and telling you he had made it in his bed safe, even thought he knew you probably didn’t care. he also made sure to tell you he hoped you could talk again soon, but he knew it probably wouldn’t happen.

the next morning you woke up with tones of texts from brendan apologizing for randomly showing up at your place while being drunk and apologizing for any dumb things he might’ve said. but you didn’t answer.

but please don’t ruin this for me

please don’t make it harder than it already is

i’m trying to get over this

your hand quickly flew to your mouth when you saw the denver player push the puck into the net in overtime and all of the denver bench clearing into the ice. you truly thought that the boys would be winning the national this year, it was the reason most of them came back. your heart was a little bit happy for one of brendan’s friends, who has also became your friend the previous summer since he won, but it mostly ached for all of your old friends.

you wanted to be there in person to give them a big hug, or at least just send them all a sweet message, telling them how proud you were of them and how amazing they had done this year. but you knew you shouldn’t, it’d just make things even more complicated in your heart.

but brendan didn’t feel the same way, he wanted to see you, you were the only person he wanted to see ever since that puck crossed the line. so the first thing he did when they got back to michigan was go over to your place. he didn’t even realize he had been driving to yours until he had parked, it had just become a habit of his to go see you after coming back from a road trip.

only this wasn’t just him coming back from a road trip, this was him coming back from one of the biggest heartbreaks in his hockey career. this was him coming to say goodbye, knowing he’d be signing some type of contract soon. he hesitated for a while before getting out of his car and walking into your building.

now i can’t say goodbye if you stay here the whole night

you see, it’s hard to find an end to something that you keep beginning

over and over again

i promise that the ending always stays the same

so there’s no good reason in make believing that we could ever exist again

your eyes widened when you looked through your peephole and saw your ex-boyfriend standing behind the door. you hesitated a bit before opening the door a bit, brendan’s eyes going wide as well. the two of you stared at each other for a couple of seconds before brendan cleared his throat.

“hey.”

“hi.” you answer was quick and short, something you often did when you were nervous, and something that briss quickly fell in love with.

“do you think we could talk? just for a couple of minutes.”

“i– um, sure. yeah, come in.” you stuttered before fully opening the door and letting him in, just like you had done almost a week ago. only this time it was in totally different circumstances. the two of you sat on opposite ends of your couch as you lowered the volume of the tv, which was playing a random sport channel.

“did you watch the game?”

“are you signing?”

“yeah.”

you both asked and answered at the same time, making you smile a bit while looking at your lap. a little chuckle left brendan’s lip before the room became dead silent.

“i’m proud of you, you know.” you told him after clearing your throat a bit. your words made him look over to where you were sitting while you kept staring at your lap.

“i’m gonna miss you.” he said, his voice breaking a bit. this time, it was your turn to look at him. when your eyes locked, both of your hearts skipped a couple of beats, none of you wanting to break it, smiles on your faces. only yours quickly went away when the memories of your last night as a couple came back to you. you broke eye contact and you were back to staring at your lap, your actions making brendan sigh a bit.

“i– i’m sorry. i’m sorry for showing up at your place while i was drunk and saying i don’t know what to you. gosh, i’m so sorry, y/n. and– and i’m sorry for the way i reacted that night. i’m sorry i broke up with you before you gave me an answer– i– fuck, i’m so sorry for everything, y/n/n.”

“i would’ve said yes, you know. if you would’ve given me a little more time to clear everything in my head, i would’ve said yes.” you told him in a small voice, making his heart break a little. he had broken up with you over nothing.

“that’s great– y/n, that’s amazing! i’m not leaving until monday, that means we have like 4 days for everything to go back to how it was before–”

“no.” you quickly cut him off, not wanting to hear the rest of what he had to say. this one simple word making his heart break even more than before.

“wha– but you just said–”

“i would’ve said yes 2 months ago, brendan, not today.” now that, that completely cut his heart in a million pieces.

“we can still try–”

“no we can’t,b. we can’t, alright? it’s been 2 months, people change, people’s desires change. it’s not gonna happen.”

“it’s been 2 months, y/n. how much has change in 2 fucking months?” he asked, getting angry, but he wasn’t angry at you, he was angry at himself.

“clearly you did!”

“what?”

“look, all i want is to be able to move on from this. you have! so i don’t understand why you’re saying all of this right now.”

“trust me i haven’t moved on from you, y/n. god, it’ll probably take me years before i can fully move on from you. you think i could just forget about you in 2 months like you never mattered to me. you mean everything to me, even if you’re not mine anymore, you mean the absolute world to me.”

“did i mean everything to you when you were shoving your tongue down other girls’ throats?” you snapped, you hadn’t meant to yell, but all of the things he was saying was making it even harder for you to just forget about everything. he stood and paced around a bit, running his hands through his hair roughly.

“i was drunk–”

“oh you were drunk. did you fuck one of them before coming to see me and accuse me of never loving you? huh?” you yelled while standing up, your words made him stop dead in his tracks and look at you.

“i haven’t had sex with anyone since we broke up. so don’t even try to pull that card, y/n.”

“and i’m supposed to believe you because? i know the type of person you were before we dated. always having a different girl in your bed almost every night.”

“i was young and immature–”

“and you’re all grown and mature now? just tell me the fucking truth brendan!”

“the only people who have seen me naked are the boys. that’s it. did i kiss other girls? yes. did i fuck any of them? no. because that’s something that we did that meant a lot to you and i know that, so i’m not just gonna be a fucking asshole and shove my dick into the first girl i see. and honestly the fact that you think i’d do something like fucking hurts, y/n.” he said as a small tear fell from his eye at the end. you could tell your words had hurt him, but they surely didn’t hurt as much as he hurt you when he showed up drunk out of his mind.

“yeah? well the fact that you accused me of never loving you hurts even more, brendan. and yeah, you were drunk, but those words clearly came from somewhere, and the way you said it made it sound like it’d be in your mind for a long time.” you said as tears fell from your eyes as well. you could tell that the fact that he had said those things hurt him, and it almost made you feel bad for him.

“this is what i mean, bren. we’ve been through way too much and we’ve said so many things that we shouldn’t have said for us to be together again. getting back together is only gonna hurt us more and i don’t want that.” you added as you sat back down on your couch, more tears falling from your eyes. a small sob left brendan’s lips as he sat back down as well.

“i don’t want this to be the end of us, y/n.”

“i don’t either, b. but sometimes t–things just aren’t meant to be.” you stuttered through your sobs, your words completely shattering his heart.

i can’t be your friend, can’t be your lover

can’t be the reason we hold back each other from falling in love

with somebody else other than me

“you gotta let go, bren.” you whispered as the two of you stood in front of your door, hugging each other for one last time.

“i don’t want to.”

“you have to. vegas is waiting for you.” you smiled as more tears fell down both of your cheeks. brendan had stayed over for a couple more minutes friday, before heading home, but promising you he’d come by before he leaves for you. which lead to this moment, his suitcase waiting in bordy’s car who was waiting in the parking lot.

“they can wait longer.”

“your plane isn’t gonna longer thought.”

“honestly might just miss it on purpose so i can stay with you.” he whispered back, making you shake your head.

“i’m not–”

“letting me miss it, i know. it’s just hard.”

“i know.”

“like, as soon as i walk out we’re over. like forever over.” he sobbed, the two of you had decided it’d be better if you didn’t even stay friends. well, it was mostly you telling brendan it’d be better than to keep in touch too much. but you agreed to still talk to him every once in a while, just not every week like you did with your friends back home.

it truly hurt you to think that as soon as he walked out, it’d be done for good. your history, your relationship, everything you and brendan had built over the last year would be done. the book of you and him would be over, this was the last chapter, the last page, the last line, the last everything.

you hadn’t realized how long the two of you had been standing there until bords knocked on the door, making the two of you jump a bit. you slowly opened it and he gave the two of you a sad smile.

“we have to go, briss.” he said softly, making brendan nob before bordy walked out and closed the door, but made sure to stay close in case brendan decided to drag out the moment.

“hey, it’s gonna be okay, alright? if you really need someone to talk to, i’m always here for you.” you said as brendan leaned his forehead on yours.

“y–you don’t have to say it back, but i love you, y/n/n. i love you so much.”

“i love you, brenny.” you said and the next thing you knew brendan pressed a small kiss to your lips, before quickly walking out of your door, but he quickly came back in.

“i’m sorry–”

“it’s okay. now go become mr.hotshot in vegas.” you said with a sad smile as more tears fell from your eyes.

“thank you, for everything, y/n.”

“‘t was a pleasure, brendan.”

“until we meet again?”

“until we meet again.”

and the next moment he was gone.

since you came

i guess i’ll let you stay

take as long as it takes

to grab your books and your coat

and that one good cologne

that you bought when we were fighting

‘cause it’s still on my clothes everything that i own

and it makes me feel like dying

i was barely just surviving

when brendan’s season was over, he quickly came back to michigan to grab the rest of his things, some of which were still at your place. your plan to not be friends was quickly forgotten as soon as he got onto that plane to vegas. and weirdly enough, it made it easier for you to move on, you talked everyday, well, it was mostly brendan saying stupid things and annoying you everday, but you loved it.

so when he asked you if he could come get his stuff, you didn’t hesitate to let him come. you let him stay as long as he needed to. him leaving michigan was the end of your romantic relationship, but him getting his stuff was gonna let the two of you move one from each other for good. and as much as it hurt the two of you, it was much needed.

“you wanna know why i bought this?” he asked you as he held your favorite cologne of his, making you turn around to look at him. you had decided to help him get his stuff, knowing he’d probably just stop in the middle of it if you didn’t help.

“no, but i have a feeling you’re gonna tell me anyway.” you said as you sat down on your bed, him sitting next to you.

“when we go into that stupid fight because i didn’t want to tell the guys we were together, i went to the shop to get you a perfum, ‘cause you had run out of yours and you were too lazy to go get a new one. don’t scoff, you know it’s the truth. anyways, i walked in and then i saw this really cool looking one so i sniffed it and it smelt good, but not amazing so i looked at more and then just ended up buying myself things and completely forgot that i came in for you.” he said, letting out a laugh at the end. you liked that there was no tension between the two of you, it was just like before the two of you had started dating, and you loved it.

“i’m not surprised.” you laughed as he sent you a smile before handing it to you, making your brows knit in confusion.

“keep it. as a very late sorry for being an asshole and as a souvenir. plus, i know it’s your favorite.”

“you sure?”

“yeah, i have another.” he said as you fully grabbed it, and that’s when he realized you were still wearing the matching bracelet, which made him grab your wirst.

“you still wear it?”

“yeah, well i didn’t at first. but i’ve been wearing it for a while now. does it make you uncomfortable?” you quickly added, not wanting him to feel such a way because of you.

“did you keep mine?” he quickly asked, you nodded a bit before getting up and opening the drawer of your nightstand and pulling the bracelet out. he smiled brightly as you gave it to him, and he was quick to slip it on.

“now they’re friendship bracelets!” he said with a smile, making you smile a bit.

“get back to packing, dumbass.” you joked, making him let out a gasp.

“you already want to get rid of me? i’ve been here for like 10 minutes, ouch, y/n.” he dramatically said, making you roll your eyes before throwing a pillow at him, and soon, the two of you were in a full on pillow fight.

you knew your relationship with brendan would never be the same as it once was, but you liked that you at least still had a relationship. the distance help the two of you move on very easily, but you both knew you’d never have something like the two of had. most of the people you guys would talk to, wouldn’t like the fact that you guys were still friends. some girls in vegas would even go as far as making him pick between having a relationship with her or being your friend. and the choice was always obvious to brendan.

you’ll always be his number one and he’ll always be your number one.

#bri writes #brendan brisson #brendan brisson imagine #brendan brisson x reader #brendan brisson fic

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ghostylon · 2 years ago

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if alex wrote superache by conan gray

movies - his feelings about his love in the 90s bc all he wants is to be accepted and have his relationship be 'normal'

people watching - he can't come out so he just watches other people's relationships and hopes for his own like that one day

disaster - maybe his first crush? it could be a disaster if he told them and they didn't feel same, they could potentially ruin his life

best friend - about luke reggie and bobby of course

astronomy - his relationship with luke (be so fr they absolutely dated in the 90s)

yours - FIRST WILLIE SONG !!! like think about alex writing this after willie leaves for the first time oh my heart

jigsaw - sort of like a fuck you letter to his parents after they couldn't accept him when he came out

family line - OUCH. i don't wanna talk about it and neither does alex he is sad

summer child - he definitely would have wrote this about reggie, and yes reggie cried when he first heard it

footnote, memories, the exit - his breakup with luke, i think he got over it quickly but he def used those feelings to write these

#i absolutely could elaborate om some of these and i absolutely will if someone is interested #i have a lot of feelings about this album and alex #i also got lazy with the last 3 songs i might think of better stories later xox #alex mercer #julie and the phantoms #willie nolastname #luke patterson #reggie peters #bobby shaw #willex #sunset curve #lalex

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intomusings · 3 years ago

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﹒﹒ superache sentence starters !

hi friends , me again ! my current obsession is superache , the newest album from the insanely talented conan gray and after my hundredth listen i realized that the lyrics make for some perfect sentence starters — so under the cut you'll find a bunch of heart wrenching one liners . if u found this useful , feel free to like or reblog to boost this .

﹒﹒ movies :

“ i look at you like you’re perfect for me ”

“ all of our friends think of us jealously ”

“ still can’t believe that this isn’t a dream ”

“ in my head , we’re dancing in the dark ”

“ this ain’t like the movies ”

“ we’re holding hands , but its all just for show ”

“ monday through friday , we both barely spoke ”

“ on the drive here , i was looking through your texts ”

“ you say that its over , but why does she call you at 3am and 4am ? ”

“ thats a funny way of staying friends .. ”

“ in my head , you never break my heart ”

“ i want a love like the movies ”

“ we lost all the love that we had and i can’t pretend it’ll ever come back ”

“ i think you’re seeing right through me .. ”

﹒﹒ people watching :

“ i’m happy for them but i wanna feel all that love and emotion ”

“ i’m only looking just to live through you vicariously ”

“ i’ve never really been in love , not seriously ”

﹒﹒ disaster :

“ the potential of us was keeping me up all night long ”

“ this could be a disaster , theres so many factors ”

“ i say i love you and you don’t say it after ”

“ i’m drunk , i really shouldn’t have called ”

“ is it purely platonic to call me like every night ? ”

“ you know ashley believes that theres something between you and i .. ”

“ maybe i just made it up , messed it up .. ”

﹒﹒ best friend :

“ remember when you broke up with your fucking ex ? ”

“ god , i’m glad you finally got over them .. ”

“ everybody knows i love you so , so , so much ”

“ made a promise that i’m gonna marry you if we’re both single by like 32 ”

“ i hate like everyone except for you ”

“ you’re just as psycho as me , just as sick inside the head ”

﹒﹒ astronomy :

“ as much as it seems like you own my heart , we’re two worlds apart ”

“ i wish i’d stayed with you .. ”

“ the only mistake that we didn’t make was run ”

“ stop trying to keep us alive ! ”

﹒﹒ yours :

“ i’m somebody you call when you’re alone ”

“ i’m somebody you use , but never own ”

“ i’m somebody you touch , but never hold ”

“ you’re somebody i’ll never really know .. ”

“ i know i’m not the one you really love .. ”

“ i guess i never really given up .. ”

“ i could give you all you want — the stars and the sun ”

“ still i’m not enough .. ”

“ i’m not yours ”

“ i want more ”

“ i can’t change your mind , but you’re still mine ”

“ tell me that its time for me to go ”

“ you know i can’t do it on my own ”

“ the only thing thats harder than sleeping alone is sleeping with your ghost ”

“ can’t believe i chose you over all my best friends ”

﹒﹒ jigsaw :

“ for you , i’ve changed every part of me ”

“ you take every part of me , all the things you need and the rest you discard ”

“ all i did just to make you happy and still you don’t even fucking love me ”

“ pointing out all my flaws doesn’t help .. ”

“ why don’t you love me ? ”

﹒﹒ family line :

“ i truly am my parents child ”

“ i’m so good at telling lies , told a million to survive .. ”

“ i can’t forget , i can’t forgive you ”

“ i’m scared that everyone i love will leave me ”

﹒﹒ summer child :

“ theres darkness behind those eyes .. ”

“ aren’t you way too busy taking care of everybody to take care of yourself ? ”

﹒﹒ footnote :

“ i told you i liked you , you said ‘ sober up ’ ... ”

“ it’s so clear i’m in love with you ”

“ if i waited , could that maybe help ? ”

“ we’re perfect together , but i’ll never be the one ”

“ you taught me a lesson , that feelings are reckless ”

“ please don’t forget me ”

“ forget me please ”

﹒﹒ memories :

“ it’s been a couple months ”

“ please don’t ruin this for me ”

“ please don’t make it harder than it already is ”

“ i’m trying to get over this ”

“ i wish that you would stay in my memories .. ”

“ you show up today just to ruin things ”

“ i want to put you in the past cause im traumatized ”

“ too busy playing the victim to be listening to me ”

“ i can’t say goodbye if you stay here the whole night ”

“ its hard to find an end to something that you keep beginning ”

“ i promise the ending always stays the same ”

“ theres no good reason in make believing that we could ever exist again ”

“ i can’t be your friend , can’t be your lover , can’t be the reason we hold back each other from falling in love with somebody other than me ”

“ since you came , i guess i’ll let you stay ”

﹒﹒ the exit :

“ feels like we buried alive something that never died ”

“ god , it hurt when i found out you love her ”

“ you already found someone to miss ”

“ i can’t hate you for getting everything we wanted ”

“ i just thought that i would be a part of it .. ”

“ i was moving into your apartment when you met someone ”

“ impossible to understand how you’re not coming back .. ”

#rpc #rpt #sentence starters #m:masterlist #rp prompts #rp meme #rph

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