#it's hard to feel that last one.
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im horny but also not horny and just kind of yearning and sad. but like in a horny way. but also in a I just want to be loved and made to feel like I matter kind of way
#i am Not feeling too hot atm#but not in a “im gonna bawl my eyes out (sorry dacryphiliacs maybe another day) and feel like shit for days and i need someone to talk to”#kind of way#more like a “im gonna feel vaguely alone and lie in bed just kind of. lie there.” kind of way#i wanna be held and pet and told how good i am#and feel like i make someone's life better. like my life will get better. like LIFE will get better#it's hard to feel that last one.#i hate feeling alone. i long for that feeling when i feel at home#unfortunately i do not believe the freaks in my home can flirt me out of this one </3
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don't think I'm not still obsessing over 7-12
#art#twisted wonderland#twisted wonderland spoilers#twisted wonderland episode 7 spoilers#twisted wonderland book 7 spoilers#twisted wonderland episode 7 part 12 spoilers#twisted wonderland book 7 part 12 spoilers#sorry it's even scribblier than usual :') hopefully my chickenscratch is legible#anyway come here and join me in the corner where we go to be embarrassing about anime characters#just. between riddle and trey's dreams i've been thinking a lot about how#trey knew this kid for like two months when he was nine and then never really got over him or how their friendship ended#which. honestly. understandable given the circumstances#and then when they finally met again riddle acted like they'd never met before and neither he nor trey ever intended trey to be his vice#but every time riddle talks about his childhood post-incident it's basically#'oh yeah i constantly thought about trey and che'nya and fantasized about still being friends with them! this is fine and normal'#(there's a bit in one of his birthday cards where he talks about crossword puzzles and shit man that one got me)#idk. i can't put this into words very well#just...the implications that riddle was actively resisting trey's friendship#(presumably because it ended SUPER badly last time and he's learned that if he shows he wants something it gets taken away from him)#and trey had to work REALLY hard to just to get to the point they were at by the time canon starts#that was progress somehow#y'all can call him boring all you want but trey's defining feature really is that he keeps being like#'everything's fine :) this isn't a big deal :) i don't care that much'#(trey on the inside: THIS IS THE BIGGEST DEAL THAT I CARE SO MUCH ABOUT AND I WILL NEVER LET IT GO)#anyway i continue to be absolutely murdered by the timing of riddlepunzel directly after this#riddle's line about not wanting to keep standing in front of a door that's never going to open...#hey. hey silly gacha game about anime disney boys.#you are not actually allowed to do this to me#oh shit oh damn i'm out of tags and i haven't even talked about cater yet. NO BUT I HAVE LOTS OF FEELINGS THERE TOO --#(i am crushed under a falling safe looney tunes style)
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Learning to celebrate the little wins!
#fersona#While I don't have the capacity to do Hourly Comics Day#I did journal my day hour-by-hour and the sheer difference in my self-care and routines is *staggering*.#Honestly both Feb 1 2024 and 2025 were rough days...but this year I had a far better outlook on it all.#The funny part is that when I drew this a few days ago I actually *was* celebrating not crying.#Might have still cried on Feb 1st. A meagre 4 times. But I also had lot of good moments!#January is a very hard month for me and frankly I've been in a fugue state for most of it.#Drawing helped me pull through these last 2 years but this year I've been finding myself so upset at how I can't seem to focus anymore.#So updates and posts have been slow. I'm just slow. I'm tired and burnt out from work and grieving.#But you know what? The days I do manage to post; I'm never shamed for how long it took. You're all just as excited and kind.#I'm coming home and eating better and sleeping more and spending time with loved ones.#This is all to say; you can be a lot happier when you realize that life can be taken a little slower.#I'm more grateful that words can possibly convey.#If you related to the mindset of constantly feeling like you've 'failed' the day; please know you have done more than you realize.#I'm struggling with it everyday! I'm in the trenches with you!#Life is too short and painful to not celebrate what you *do* accomplish! It's hard work but it is worth it!#Bit by bit...we will learn to live. *Really* live. And enjoy it!
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teased 🎃⚡
#twisted wonderland#twst#ツイステ#ツイステッドワンダーランド#mmarts#twst oc#twst yuu#twst grim#sebek zigvolt#skully j graves#ace trappola#deuce spade#jack howl#epel felmier#ortho shroud#i said i was gonna sketch the last one properly but i didnt cause uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh im an idiot#theyre not really datin here theyre just uhh PDA lolololol but the feelings are there like hello#drawing is hard ughguhghughugh#style changed in all 3 images i think lmao#i swear drawin more than 2 characters makes me spiral and get distracted#the last one messy af lol right to left to read maybe ww#sebeskully#sebskully#skullbek#sukasebe#twst bl
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sidelong
#my art#jujutsu kaisen#jjk fanart#jujutsu kaisen fanart#jjk art#yuji itadori#fushiguro megumi#itafushi#fushiita#itadori yuuji#megumi fushiguro#i havent drawn a dedicated itfs piece in so long im a fraud dont look at me......................#i offer u pining!yuuji content. as Penance.#i feel like its usually fushiguro emotionally repressed megumi who ppl draw/make content of looking Longingly @ yuuji#and like. for good reason i mean look at him#but i feel like hopelessly-in-love-w-his-best-friend yuuji is a comparatively slept on concept#or maybe im not looking in the right places idk man#fleeting glances and longing stares and I Should Tell Him I Can't Tell Him.....OUgh#anyway i like how the pendulum seems to have hard swung back in2 me using a bunch of red#i feel like my values r so much better now tho n like. god help me im having fun painting again what has happened#it never lasts long but for rn this is probably one of my favourite things ive drawn in a minute!!!#i love u contrast i love u random bits of red i love u harsh shadows and dramatic light sources#and it didnt even take me a week this time !!!!
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Fuck it. *Makes the old woman cry*
#isat#in stars and time#isat siffrin#isat odile#isat mirabelle#isat bonnie#isat isabeau#my art#art#Wow. I am incredibly late for this.#I started this a few days before Odile's birthday thinking I would be able to finish it on time.#But I didn't#Anyways. This is based off of a little post-game headcanon of mine.#Sometime after the game the party started having the 'feelings talk' about the loops#It eventually evolved into a conversation how they were family#Not too dissimilar to the one during the friend quest loops.#This is where Siffrin got the idea to give Odile a Familytale for her birthday.#Sorry if the text is hard to read. I had to mostly draw it out because Krita started being stubborn when I tried typing.#Aside from the last panel#isat spoilers#SmokinArt
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part 2!!!! [read part one here]
transcript below the cut arranged into stanzas to help show where the rhymes are:
“that’s why they brought gem in? as a failsafe?” as a pawn. we were told to point her at whoever we need gone
“gem won’t hurt her allies. …yet.” the curse she carries will it’s had its eye on her since she lost the other eye she was specially selected for her hunting skill it’s quite the high honor. “wow. how generous.” we try
think about it: why does almost no one fight the curse? “given how fast scott killed skizz last season, i can guess.” [“any pain you spare your friends, you’ll have to suffer worse”?] it’s designed to shut down higher reasoning with stress
#if you still can't see the rhyme scheme try reading it out loud#if that doesn't work uh. idk. can't help you#my art#my poetry#grian#geminitay#smajor1995#bdoubleo100#inthelittlewood#secret life#grian and his terrible horrible no good very bad eldritch coworkers: the sequel#cant wait to post the next part so i can be like 'my three secret life comics. and yes they all rhyme'#this one narratively doesn't work nearly as well as a standalone compared to part 1#however i accidentally went way too hard and could probably upload the middle page + second to last panel as their own separate art pieces#tbh i'm considering putting an explanation of everything below the readmore buuut i don't feel like it atm. :3 later maybe#me and my 20+ life series headcanons i only allude to without explicitly stating don't need to explain ourselves#still experimenting with this webtoon-esque vertical comic style#still not sure i like it#it gets long too quickly#among other things#but it's very easy to read on a phone so
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how do lighting and shading work
#ok so remember that tag on my last post where i said i didnt feel like drawing drones#i lied the motivation to do it manifested out of literally nowhere#i saw the quote written down and knew i had to do something with j and tessa#just colored and whatchamacallit'd the first panel cause i felt like it#ive been trying to figure out how lighting and all that works#cause ive been focusing on like. exclusively lineart for the past 2 years#my skills at the other parts of art are kinda lagging behind#second panel was drawn in like 5 minutes cause i wanted to use the second half of the quote#dont think too hard about the implications of the scenario just roll with it#im slightly improving at drawing j#stupid haircut is so difficult to stylize for No Reason but i think i got a handle on it#for now#the first panel is looking off the more i look at it so im going to stop doing that and wrap this up#art#murder drones#murder drones j#serial designation j#murder drones uzi#uzi doorman#crowzi#im including that one#flesha technically#cynessa#whatever you wanna call her#tesscyn#shes got too many names
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Here is a weirder mashup that I thought could work. Praying mantis blue heron. When I think of animals similar to a praying mantis I can only think of the stalking and snagging approach of water birds. Maybe in a world with huge praying mantises they can also fill that niche.
It's a series now! ; Cricket-cat, Weevil-anteater
#bug art#bugblr#praying mantis#blue heron#my art#insect art#bug#insect#even now I'm not sure if I was able to get that 50/50 mashup feel but this was a kinda hard one to do compared to the last two#when i tried to think of a mantis mammal i was like.. no i can only think of water birds. i almost went with a stork#you can probably mantis-ify any long beaked water bird predator#wound up kinda looking like a mantis centaur kind of thing with the body of a heron instead.. not as ideal as a true mashup
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FOR THE JAY FANS I KNOW... IT HURTS ME TOO BUT I WANT HIM TO FINISH HIS EVIL ARC FIRST
#Ninjago#lego ninjago#ninjago zane#ninjago cole#Jay will deadass be the last one LMAO I'M SORRYYYY#but think about it the last one gets to be the one I draw with the most skill I gathered from doing the other 5#I should do one for the new gen#and as the seasons go on I add more and more#but I feel like these are easier to do once you have a full story to tell#Sora would lose SO HARD THO#girl change clothes please#fine I'll stop yapping
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Fantasy creature Phighters! (PHIGHTING!)


Hi tumblr. Guess who’s alive again!!!! Anyways here’s sword and rocket as fantasy creatures, I actually made these a long time ago but I just completely forgot to post them :’DD
for those curios, this is like a mini little fun silly au of mine, nothing much and I’m not gonna draw anything for it in the future but it was me turning Phighters into different fantasy monsters or creatures, currently:
Rocket is a Kelpie Centaur, Sword is a harpy, Scythe would be a Greek Sphinx, Subspace would be a manticore, Coil would be a Japanese Knobold, Broker would be a siren, Slingshot would be a werecat, etc etc! Here’s an extra little fun doodle by the way, I hate them. /aff

#Dumbasses /silly#This technically isn’t swocket but feel free to pretend it is#I feel like sword forgets Rocket has sticky skin a lot so he accidentally lands on him and ends up getting stuck#He is not intelligente™️#Anywayyyyys yeah!#Had some fun with this one#I made these when I was stuck inside with no power during the last hurricane while I was reading dungeon meshi#The inspiration hit hard /silly#I doubt I’ll ever get to finishing the rest of them sadly but. Maybe someday#Enjoy these two for now though!#(Fun fact: horse anatomy is NOT fun to draw!)#phighting#digital art#phighting!#art#artists on tumblr#roblox phighting#phighting roblox#phighting fanart#phighting art#roblox#sword phighting#rocket phighting#phighting! fanart#phighting! roblox#phighting au#fantasy#fantasy art#fantasy creature#mythical creatures
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Learn from who? Learn from you?
Chen Bowen as CHEN YI & Chiang Tien as AI DI KISEKI: DEAR TO ME (2023)
#kiseki: dear to me#kisekiedit#kdtm#kiseki dear to me#ai di x chen yi#chen yi x ai di#nat chen#chen bowen#louis chiang#chiang tien#jiang dian#userspring#uservid#pdribs#userspicy#userjjessi#*cajedit#*gif#uh huh. mmhm. parallels and shit#OK LIKE. in nice words ai di essentially tells chen yi to go for it BUT bc hes a Lil Shit he says it like 'use force to PROVE how you feel.#followed by '.....OH WAIT YOU CANT BEAT HIM'. the way he rubs that in chen yi's face too like it isnt even 'youre weaker than him.'#it's you're LOWER than him. & thats why ai di calls him a coward bc therell always be a divide between chen yi & cdy that chen yi wont cros#and the point of this is - okay i know chen yi is literally picking ai di up and throwing him around here but also you have to remember#ai di LETS HIM. ai di doesnt fight back as hard as he could and that puts them on EVEN. EQUAL. GROUND. every time.#& yeah theres some comedy to it but you cant Ever forget that ai di wants chen yi to want him. needs it. he's faking sleep in the 1st scene#and once chen yi realizes what he wants he puts everything he has into keeping it - inadvertently taking ai di's advice by doing so -#& expresses it in every kind of way too. whatever it takes. bc between the two of them its not just 'bring him back' it's 'bring him HOME'#in a way thats based on the constantly being witness to the worst of each other & choosing it AND. years and layers of trust & love.#..ok only I would take a gifset of chen yi picking ai di up & make it abt how their relationship is perfectly balanced. but im right so idc#the last one ties it all together in my onion. chen yi got him home. and ai di's deliberately allowing himself to be loved. they won
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I feel like we don't discuss Nami's relationship with gender enough. Her entire character is so deeply informed by being a girl in a male-dominated pirate world and it's so interesting and so worth talking about.
The background creepiness of Bad pirate crews, which are most of them, how they tend to not have any female crew members at all, how they beckon any pretty young woman around to come play with them and join them. It's real bad. It's also like, a totally 2 dimensional portrayal of evil that is reserved for the most background of background characters.
However I think their ubiquity says a lot about how piracy is meant to be perceived by the public in One Piece, and is one of the strongest indicators of how prevalent misogyny is in-world.
It's very normal in One Piece for regular island inhabitants to have never met a Different class of pirate in their life. There's no reason for them to withhold judgement that maybe these pirates won't be like every crew that attacked before, and to wait and judge them by their actions. I mean frankly that would be irrationally weak self-preservation.
There are people who live peacefully under the flags of Yonkos who protect them, and feel loyalty and gratitude to them for it, but that seems to only be thing with very big name pirates. The East Blue, being the weakest and least populated, has no such plethora of powerful people and resulting turf wars.
So. Nami. Is very clearly implied to have never met any Different pirates before. I'm thinking about what that means. About how every group of pirates she stole from were creepy, dangerous men. How she started going out stealing when she was still a young child. How she didn't have a mother anymore to guide her or comfort her. How Arlong would grab her chin inappropriately, talk about her as a "human female", as property, and god knows what else.
How all the men in Arlong's crew treated her patronizingly, pretending they're all friends, teasing her and playing at respect when really not a single one of them ever stuck up for her or hesitated to accuse her of betrayal. Who were always ready to kill her if she refused to cooperate. Who grabbed her and intimidated her when they felt like it.
That's what she had to come back to after a close call with stealing from other predatory men, instead of the relief of home there was a dark, cramped room filled with endless hours of misery and isolation and blood. Where any one of her captors could barge in and demand new maps, work faster, where did you go, you took too long again this time. Endless threats and incursions.
I'm thinking about that her fight scene in Alabasta, where she tumbles and rips off her cape and uses it to catch her enemy's spikes, before leaping to her feet and running out the back door, all in one moment. How it makes her enemy reconsider her and think, "so the girl's not a total novice at fighting after all." What that implies about her experiences as a young thief. The times she wasn't fast or clever enough and had to fight and claw her way out. Why she always carried a staff and a knife. Why she was the only one before Chopper who had any medical knowledge or experience.
You know she was stitching herself up. And the weapons, how do you think she learned to use those? If any of the Arlong Pirates helped her it wasn't out of kindness and it wasn't gentle.
Then I think about Nojiko, and Bellemere's memory, and the only softness in a hard life. How easily Nami connects to every young woman experiencing hardship that she meets. How completely she dismisses the struggles of men unless they mean something to her and are going through something terrible. The way that Nami only has sympathy for women and children is easily noticeable in-text, but it's also something confirmed in those words by the author. And it's clearly because of the life she lived, the men who had all the power and only abused it, who saw her as nothing but a girl to take advantage of, without anyone aside from her sister clearly knowing and caring about any of it.
Nami clearly isn't bitter, she doesn't think the world owes her recompense, on the contrary she knows she is far from the only person in the world to suffer the things she has suffered. She is endlessly reaching out and kind, but only to those that she isn't sure would get help without her. Certainly, before Luffy, Usopp, and Zoro, no man ever reached out a hand to her without an ulterior motive.
I think when she sees a girl in trouble, a girl biting her lip to hold in a scream of grief, a girl running in the woods away from a monster, a girl captured by pirates, she sees someone who no one is coming for. Who no one will stick up for. A person without allies in a world against her. Whether it's actually true in this case or not, she runs straight for that girl anyways every single time.
#and that is why I will always. ALWAYS. be obsessed with her. writing that last line did make me cry a little. ohhh my godddd. naamiiiiii#my posts#one piece#nami#arlong park arc#east blue saga#op nami#op meta#op analysis#oh my fucking god nami. you forget sometimes because she's so happy and rambunctious and silly now but her life was a#nonstop nightmare horror show for years and years and years#she was all sharp edges and pain and gritted teeth and bloody determination and a hard laugh#for so long. oh my goddddddddddddd oh my goddd nami oh my god nami. oh my god nami.#sexism#implied assault#her life in that era is so fucking dark. you could write so many horror stories in there and they could all feel true
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#this was posted along with the last one#but then i decided it felt better as its own post LOL#no hard feelings <3 y'all are just strangers to him#alan becker#animation vs minecraft#animator vs animation#avm king orange#avm king#avm mango#avm mt#my art
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(small child starting to meltdown) “Hey, hey. *snapping* We’ll play later, okay?”
#idk why but this is making me emotional#something about how jack is surrounded by all this chaos and all these people#but he recognizes the rising wobbling voice and the getting-overwhelmed body language#how many almost-meltdowns do we think jack had to snap little lukey out of?#lukey always so intense and feeling things so hard#and jack always so perceptive and calming him right back down#also something very sad about jack on his draft day promising his little cousin that “we’ll play later”#because after this day jack’s life changes forever#he goes from high schooler to full-time professional hockey player#a brutal rookie year. a life lived on the road. injuries.#did he ever actually get to play one last game with his little cousin?#did jack know it would be an empty promise?#jack hughes#post#jhughes & kids tag
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Also have another “first words spoken to you are on your skin” soulmate AU idea where Kara is a journalist assigned to shadow the controversial CEO of L-Corp for the day. It’s a big deal for her to get this assignment, so of course she trips the second she’s near the other woman and tries awkwardly to redeem herself.
The CEO stares at her almost in shock, and then says nothing. At all. Ever, for the entire day.
Kara spends hours following Lena Luthor around trying to fill the silence, but no amount of questions get her to talk. Lena almost seems to be running away at some points - like she’s trying to lose her? - and the few times she’s managed to catch her actually talking to someone she goes silent the second she sees Kara.
She asks around if Miss Luthor is usually like this and everyone looks at her like she’s crazy. Apparently she’s the only one who gets the silent treatment. By the end of her first day shadowing she’s walking away with half a page of observations and not a single quote. Miss Grant is going to kill her.
But that’s okay. It’s fine, this isn’t over. She has four days of shadowing ahead of her and she’ll be damned if she doesn’t finish this with a quote from the woman herself. It’s only a matter of time.
#what if you were an over stressed billionaire who feels like your existence must be a constant apology for the sins of your family#and you’re about to be followed around and studied by some no named baby reporter sent from a fashion magazine#you’re battling the migraine of a century you have five crises to settle all at once and also that baby reporter just said your words#the ones you’ve carried for the last decade - the ones you’ve feared and hoped for ever since#and it’s wonderful probably - this is what people dream of - but the problem is you just don’t have time for this#you can’t have your big soulmate moment#not right now. definitely not with this reporter. it’s not the right time#so I guess those words will just have to wait until it is time#if you can someone manage to resist. it’ll be hard#she does seem like someone it’d be really easy to talk to after all#good luck to you both#soulmate AU#Supercorp#fun shenanigan that I shan’t be writing#mine
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