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i should be allowed to have a lobotomy, actually
#talk tag#actuallyocd#it's getting real bad real quick#i literally had thoughts abt hurting my friend#because he's the center of my so-ocd#i'm a terrible person and i'm not even kidding#maybe this isn't ocd at all and i'm just in denial#idk man#i just wanna sleep and forget everything#but i can't kill myself because my cats would miss me#suicide tw
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"So light me up, go ahead and light me up..."
#tswiftedit#tswiftgraphic#taylor swift#nessa007#userelena#erastouredit#eras tour#i did something bad#mine: edits#mine: gifs#mine: all#is this anything. lol#it's been like half a year since i made and posted an edit oh my god#im gonna try to get back into it#sorry this isnt as good as my last edit#i need to go to bed but i wanted to make an edit real quick haha#hope yall like it#it's pretty basic but i think it's alright
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all i'm saying is that he got real happy and obedient when mina smacked him
#he wants her to step on him so bad#i bet he acts up on purpose just to get her to discipline him#but y'all didn't hear that from me#his stubborn ass became real agreeable real quick hmmm#don't you think?#HMMMMMM?#submisive and breedable#what?#who said that?#y'all said it#not me#hoshina soshiro#soshiro hoshina#mina ashiro#ashiro mina#hoshimina#kaiju no. 8#kn8
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"The perfect orv dub/Kim Dokja voice doesnt exis-"
EXPLAIN THIS!!!!! (@voiceactorken on youtube!!!)
#orv#omniscient reader's viewpoint#omniscient reader#전지적 독자 시점#kim dokja#yu junghyeok#yoo joonghyuk#desperately trying to share this fandub w everyone i can so posting abt it here too#i even did a quick edit w the english panels so its easy to follow along#im only doing it for this vid only tho PLS CHECK THE REST OUT ON HIS CHANNEL#BUT ANYWAY THIS DOKJA VOICE IS TOOOO GOOD??? IM LITCHERALLY OBSESSED#like i feel like dokja is a chara thats hard to get just right#BUT THIS GUY.... HE IS DOKJA#LIKE... JUST WATCH IT IM SPEECHLESS#AND ALSO WATCH THE NEW YRS GREETING ONE ITS SOO CUTE#his voice and acting are both SOOOO perfect???#literally dropped to my knees in despair when i found out this was a fandub I WANT HIM TO BE OFFICIALLY CAST AS DOKJA SO BAD#THIS IS WAY TOO GOOD TO BE A FANDUB..... SOBS#yjh is amazing too but dokja is the real star of this fandub imo (and im yjh bias KDJSK)#like i could imagine other deep voiced pro VAs for yjh (eg jang minhyeok)#but this guy... i didnt picture dokja sounding like this but after hearing him i now i dont want anyone else😭😭#IM LIKE THIS IS IT. THIS IS THE ONE...#watch them cast some other pro VA as dokja and ill just be mourning bc it just doesnt hit the same as mr ken from youtube
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I fucking love the EN QSMP Updates account because like
The way you don’t even need to watch the clips to understand what happened here. The way the statements are phrased. The way they’re one after the other. It’s beautiful. A story about fucking around and finding out - told in three parts.
#for those who missed it q!elQ and Roier destroyed Bad’s daycare with mines because elQ wanted to start bullying people#and q!Bad shut his ass down REAL QUICK.#qsmp#qsmp liveblog but late#q!elquackity#q!badboyhalo#i think the thing that gets me the most is that ‘bad joined in the bullying’ has an exclamation mark at the end#like the account is excited and happy#and then just ‘quackity is no longer in favor of bullying’ with a flat period at the end
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this is somewhat of a vent post & something i said i would not do again but has been plaguing me enough that i think getting it out might feel better. so. has anydoggy else been. Baffled and upset by nora sakavic’s refusal to speak on how terribly aftg has treated its characters of color? with the author of the series coming back with a new book and starting up on her online activity again, and questions of what she’d change about aftg bubbling up, it’s particularly glaring to me that we are all playing this very long game of pretend where we ignore how badly the non-white cast has been treated & her lack of thoughts on it
and i understand not wanting to bring up nicky and thea because people pick on her for it. i’m not trying to discredit nora sakavic’s terrible history of getting harrassed online by aftg fans. but i think it is very cynical, and it is very juvenile, and most of all very cruel, that she gets to ignore the very real ways the books have set up these characters to be hated. i think it’s obvious why the characters who get the most hate are the only canonical characters of color, and i think we do not get to treat this like a deliberate decision on the fandom’s part when the books have put these same characters in degrading and embarrassing and terrible positions in the first place. aftg is not a story about nice characters with clean pasts, but there is a very specific nastiness to the only characters of color being a brown man who sexually harasses and later assaults the main character, a black woman whose only scene is her lashing out at her love interest after being ignored for the first two books, and the japanese villain who gets maybe two lines of complexity before he goes back to being a terrible person. the white cast, in comparison, while not at all free from flaws, are never shown to commit mindless evil; all of their actions are ultimately justified. the book goes out of its way to give them concession after concession. we know exactly who to side with, because aftg tells us who these people are. does nicky’s assault ever get addressed in the books? does riko’s reasoning to be the way that he is ever gets more than briefly aluded to? is thea reserved even a shred of humanity or grace in her one scene?
anyway. it’s been years of talking about this and the fandom has been constantly hostile to criticism in this regard, and more recently any criticism at all, and it’s Grating to be on the other side of this discussion. it’s exhausting to know that in ten years we do not get even an acknowledgment besides the author saying she will not answer questions about nicky and thea anymore. it’s upsetting and it’s ugly and i wish no one had to talk about this again, but we do because what i thought was common sense has been washed away by a sudden influx of no-nuance adoration for the trilogy. basically i hope we all explode
#this has been so upsetting to notice but 🥹whatever#there is a different kind of bitterness to thinking about how ten years have passed#and we are getting new content that changes and maybe even rectifies many of the ways we see and interact w aftg#and none of it not a bit of it addresses the racism#how it’s been ten years and the only thing we really get to show it is a book about a ship between two white men the fandom came up with#after seeing them be Suggested to interact in canon#i understand not wanting to hurt nora sakavics feelings by asking her about this#but imagine how tired we are. Imagine how tired we are#do you know how bad it feels to read through nicky’s worst moments in aftg#and know that he was written this way because he looks like me?#do you understand how exhausting it all is. can you imagine?#the fandom has been so quick to undo the criticism fans of colors have been making since day one#and for what. for what! my doves. for what?#have we come out of it any greater? have we done anything but lie to ourselves?#and anyway this is not some mindless pessimism#this is not me telling you that aftg is bad and you cant love it; cant have it mean anything to you#this is me saying that when we acknowledge these things it makes us better readers and better people#nora sakavic if you are reading this from whatever hellhole america you find yourself in#grabs you by the shoulders. This is not the end#this is not something to sit back and feel bad about#you have opened the floodgates of hell with tsc. kick the door in and release a revised version of aftg#there is a real material way for you to make this better. it is possible and it will not kill you#i would read a revised aftg. my mutuals would. many many many many fans would#making mistakes is not just a human right its a human inevitability#but we do not have to let ourselves get defined by them. We can do hard things#lets go of nora sakavics shoulders. anyway. where were we#aftg#txt#tsc
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i am so fucking sick you guys
my throat feels like a dragon's asshole
#the only cure is more subby ascended astarion getting fingered in his cute little elf butt#dont look at that tag#im sooooooo funne#my sinuses hurt so bad that my top teeth are pulsing#thats a normal thing btw you can have a false toothache due to sinus issues#wow these tags went from A to Z real quick
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today's keiji is: nankidai keigi sketch..... now in color
#wanted 2 draw today but i have no motivation unfortunately. so instead i just colored this real quick#ooughh..... i need to get better at coloring. this looks kinda bad#yttd#your turn to die#keiji shinogi#my art#?? kinda#daily keiji
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I loved how at first Alan didn't want to show Jeff his phone just so that he could read the messages he'd been sending him, but 5 minutes later gives Jeff the entire thing for keepsies "because you don't have your own uwu"
#character development 0-100 real quick#also nothing bad will happen because of alan not having his phone on him riiiight#how long till he gets a new one#pit babe the series#episode 9#jeff#alan#alanjeff#blmpff
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Responding to your last post about proshippers complaining about other proshippers. You didn't provide this option, but I really think it should depend on the content of the ask... And yes, this is a confession blog for proshippers/profic, etc. aligned people. Telling us to go to antiship confession blogs is horrifically stupid and is only going to put us in dangerous positions.
The proship community is not immune from being shitty. There are proshippers who act just like antis. People who think they can change their race and give themselves disabilities are straight up infecting the community as well. There are proshippers who are horrifically ableist against pwOSDDID, schizospec disorders, etc. There are proshippers who straight up use slurs they can not reclaim. There are proshippers who call people the r slur. I especially think proshippers with these disorders (including myself) should have a safe outlet to talk about the toxicity and abuse within our own community without telling us to basically become an anti. Because what the hell???
Of course, I can't read every single anon that you get, but if they are anything along the lines of what I'm talking about here, consider not deleting them. Especially don't tell people to "just become antis" or "just go to antiship confession blogs." That's harmful as fuck.
If anything, these confessions should serve as a reality check that our community isn't perfect. Or serve to remind people that this behavior shouldn't or won't be tolerated in the proship community. Not every self-proclaimed "proshipper" is actually a proshipper, especially if they act abusive, ableist, or harass people like antis do. I will die on this hill.
If you don't want to house confessions about these topics, that's fine. Just say so, and I'll make my own confessional blog where these topics are allowed.
You’re right that there are plenty of people who are proship and also shitty af. It’s something that I’ve both posted plenty of confessions about and have actually even—in case you haven’t been familiar with my blog for a while—made my own post about! It’s like one of just a few posts that I have made speaking directly from my mouth and not a confession. It’s just a post that I wrote about behavior that I hate seeing pop up far too commonly in this community. I literally can’t count how many people I have blocked, which includes not only antis, but also shitty proshippers and pricks who claim to be them while supporting harm caused to others in real life.
You’re also right that you can’t read every anon that I get. I would have much preferred that you even just ask what kind of thing I’m talking about instead of acting like you’re some secret second mod and I’m just some asshole who refuses to hold anyone or any behavior accountable as long as I agree with them on some level.
I really do wonder what you would think about one of the (many with a similar tone) asks that inspired this post.
Do you know how many anons I get with the same fucking attitude and the same fucking insistence that they’re right and I’m wrong and evil, and yet I’m somehow the perfect mouthpiece for their beliefs? What reality check is this supposed to be giving me? Please either stop assuming that everything I say is in bad faith or genuinely try to explain to me what the good content for my followers is in this ask. This is the behavior that I mocked in my post. I also have an old one that I think is somewhere in my drafts(?) where the evil behavior that they’ve seen among a bunch of proshippers that has made them hate all proshippers is venting about harassment from antis. The fake post I made mocking them is an amalgamation of those two, but you only get this one since I’m way too tired to go find the other one rn lol. If someone reminds me, I can reblog it with it later.
Also, I really can’t tell where I said in my post that I would tell these people to go to antiship blogs (other than my reference to a comment where I said that if all that people send to my inbox is how much they hate proshippers and basic proship ideology, then they should probably take that to an anti blog) instead of just deleting the ask, like I actually said in the post. The post that was really more of a way to let off some steam while getting some use out of the Tumblr polls that I practically never get to do anything with. Do you think that the person in those screenshots that I put above is more at home here than they’d be sending this to some anti’s blog?
But like to try to put myself in your shoes, you could’ve been having a shitty day when you sent this, you could be young, or hell, you could’ve seen someone say something similar to my statement recently while meaning this shitty completely different thing. Or maybe you’ve never seen my blog in your life and have no clue what kind of stuff I do/don’t post. My response might sound super defensive, and I hope that it doesn’t, and that I’m not jumping to conclusions, too. I’d hate to blow this out of proportion over what could easily be just a misunderstanding. If I’m being too harsh, sorry. I aim any coldness towards all of these bigoted ideas and the idea that I hold them, and not at you as a person, as I’m willing to believe that you’re an entirely rational person who just misunderstood me and lashed out at me bc of it. But if there is a next time, please try to give me the benefit of the doubt. I don’t ever intend to do anything harmful, and what I said wasn’t intended to imply anything like what you’re saying here at all. I’m not talking about proshippers venting. I’m talking about actual antis coming into my inbox with the “I’m like TECHNICALLY a proshipper, I guess, but I just despise proshippers and think that people who engage with certain types of fiction are inherently bad!!!” So unless you’re one of these people coming into my inbox, then I am NOT telling YOU to go to antiship confession blogs. And if you are… well, then you’re probably not gonna see this, since I’m going through and blocking all of these dickheads soon.
#thank you for answering my real question which was if I should ever use a poll instead of just silently doing things myself#you… made a BASELESS assumption about me that would’ve been proven wrong with. a quick scroll through my blog. and yelled at me for-#something that I DIDN’T SAY(!!!) for multiple paragraphs over this btw#I’ve considered deleting this blog so many fucking times#I’m honestly so exhausted at this point#if I don’t delete it I’ll probably just queue some things and take a long break#so get in your asks now!#not all your fault or anything. just saying it in case I post this and then there’s a long blank period#or if I come back tomorrow like ‘sorry for my outburst 🥺🥺🥺… mod has baby emotions disorder.’#it’s mostly stress over real life events and I haven’t slept in 24+ hours so I’m sorry if anything doesn’t make sense or is repetitive#what tf ever. man idc.#if I do take a break I might be back when my doctor refills my psychiatric meds#she’s out of office rn#sorry if this comes off as rude#your ask just felt really rude with the baseless accusations and the yelling at me and the telling me that my claiming that antis belong on#anti blogs is ‘horrifically stupid’#and ‘harmful as fuck’#but like whatever. you don’t know the asks I’m talking about#it’s just like really rude to assume that when someone posts a vague half joking rant that they are a bad person#I’m gonna try to get some rest I have a huge headache#I’m so tired
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Since we're talking Devil's Minion feeding stuff; that one 'You look thirsty' scene from Phantom Thread but it's Armand acknowledging Vamp!Daniel's fledgling-thirst. (But also, it being already canon via the 'I ordered everything they had' scene from the book where Armand laughs at Daniel so gets super into it and starts getting drunk as fast as he can, anyway)
daniel finding this attached to the neck of 1/3 unconscious bodies left in the entrance of his apartment building
#asks#devil's minion#anon 😭😭😭😭😭 my heart is in my throat right now.#i want to scream and cry and throw up for real#listening to for the hungry boy by johnny greenwood and gnashing my teeth rn#i need to rewatch phantom thread so bad. i've thought about doing it multiple times this week#but my gf would be so mad at me if i watched without her. so i shant#need to get it on the agenda QUICK
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Is anyone gonna talk about the slight shift in Crosshair’s tone and face when Rampart shows he has no care for Cody’s name or him and he’s just another number?
“Cody?”
“CC-2224.”
#the bad batch spoilers#the bad batch#Crosshair#Crosshair is about to get tired of Rampart real quick
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Profound mental illness.
I'm so glad they're miserable lmao.
Imagine being so detached from reality that you call someone you don’t know an “attention whore”, I really need the universe to take all the pain from Taehyung and give it back triplicated to jikookers.
At this point I don’t know if I want them to show Tae because all the discourse is just not worth it and people can say whatever they want, but the one who always gets dragged the worst is him and people barely defend him.
#you rats are too comfortable on this app and i hate it#but if i get nasty i’m the bad one and i would have all type of breeds crying in my inbox#i also need daeun to wake up again because she needs to humble those cultists real quick#and also all this glorification of the private trip and you had jungkook saying he missed other members one episode into the show i would be#embarassed 😵💫😵💫😵💫#taehyung
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stranger things fandom never heard the phrase "every saint has a past and every sinner has a future" and it shows
#the way yall can NOT grasp the complexity of the human experience never ceases to baffle me#if you go around with the attitude of 'if you do anything wrong ever you will always be a Bad person even if you try to make ammends' it#will genuinely ruin your life#AND what kills me is yall tout yourselves as these open minded liberals who are anti cop anti justice system#we need to be more accepting !!!#until the SECOND a person you personally dont like starts acting up#and then the republican comes out REAL quick#the evangelical conservative bible thumper JUMPS out#you know how to be an open minded accepting person?#listen to the people you dont like#hear their stories#offer help#a good person does not only extent a hand to people they like#which... you all watch stranger things i understand why you dont get that message#cuz this is the show of 'the only good guys are the ones who think and act just like us'#so#i see what we're dealing with
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me after attempting to get back into sims and realizing i had a lot more to do than play the game
#hi everyone#I’m going around hugging you all#okay now that we are gathered here today#i will simply acknowledge that i have been gone for a very long time and then also acknowledge that maybe it was for the best#i relied on sims to be my only creative activity even if i tried to write a book at the same time#and also. i prioritized sims over real life responsibilities. that’s just a deadly combination lol#but I recently noticed I just replaced sims with Netflix. with YouTube. with anything that gave me quick dopamine#literally became addicted in a sense. still am but I’ve been cut cold turkey from most everything#I get off work and go. okay I’ve done the dishes and the laundry……..I could read or write or bake….#I try to write and sometimes i get a good hour#then I read for a few hours and then get tired of it#and I made cookies Tuesday so I’m waiting for those to be gone before baking again#I’m just so pitiful that I feel BORED and don’t know what to do#so I said….. okay what if I do sims for an hour.#I downloaded some new cc Tuesday and tried to play yesterday#y’all ……………….. I can’t find the energy anymore to set up elaborate scenes and pose my sims and plan posts#I said wow… this is boring without my intervention and fake story#I said wow…….. all this for what? for tumblr? yes I created cool things and provided joy. but is that inherintly important compared to my#own joy? my own everyday activities I should be doing?#y’all I do not leave the house unless we got out to eat or shop or travel to our parents#.. I have little desire to. I’m trying to find that desire#but my husband is busy with grad school and work and I don’t want to do anything by myself#I’ve found myself in one heck of a slump#I didn’t want to be human for awhile. just had no desires no interests no ambitions#I was slacking off SO HARD at work. I just had no drive to do well#I’m still working on it. I’m still trying to get caught up. I’m still trying to force myself to move every day.#but I am struggling y’all. and I can tell you that sims… sims isn’t helping rn but I want it to so bad. I want to get back into it#I didn’t mean to disappear on everyone. I got married and then life got busy and then I fell into this hole of nothing#I didn’t even WANT to crawl my way out. but my husband has helped a lot. I feel like such a child!!!!#I reached max tags. 🙃 bye love you all. till next time
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oc-tober 2024 day 1: fav oc
actually it is Impossible for me to choose between all my children, buuuut i did rotate this guy in my head like rotisserie chicken for like a whole year, so he will do!
here's Aeden Panlamir (or Pan), my calamitous half-elf dnd npc, in a fancy new 'Arc 2' outfit that the party never got to see (because the table imploded over scheduling issues, whats new!). it's not a spoiler if we never get to this part, right?
religious allegory sold separately.
#bweirdOCtober#oc-tober#art#artists on tumblr#oc#dnd#character design#oc: pan#roobiedoodle#scopophobia#(just in case ;;)#ok! lemme be annoying and talk about something real quick!#i KNOW my ass will not complete all 31 days as much as i want to#like i reaaally shouldnt be putting so much effort into the details here dhfjsk#but i had time to work on the first entry and wanted to get my stupid perfectionist energy out of the way#so like. expect the quality in the other entries to drop significantly lmaooo (if they even get finished at all)#but its ok! its good! im learning how to make bad things!! (and hopefully learning how to make them fast too oogh)#ok rant over 👍#enjoy my mantis boy <3
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