#it's funnier when it happens with accounts that I also follow

[reflections-in-a-critical-eye]

It's not that I believe all my posts are bangers, far from it. But add the damn link in a second tweet, ffs. This keeps happening again and again. Screenshots without the username or link. It's very childish, seriously.

[ferrstappen]

Hello! So while I’m procrastinating and ignoring the book in front of me, I got this quick idea and I hope you like it! Remember you can send me ideas or prompts to write blurbs 💘

Pairing: Charles Leclerc x fem!reader

Warnings: maybe a swear word and nsfw mentioned if you squint.

AirPods and princess George (Charles Leclerc blurb)

Charles was playfully rolling his eyes at you and Joris the entire walk from the gate to the flight taking you to Miami, neither of you could contain the laughter of seeing your boyfriend trying to pick up his AirPods with a couple of tweezers like he was playing Operation.

Whenever your or Joris calmed down, images of Charles trying to pick up the dirty case between the tiny space was enough to bring the tears back to your face while clutching your stomach.

“It’s not that funny, it could’ve happened to any of you!” Charles playfully complained while placing his carry-on bag on the overhead compartment.

“Sweetheart, if it happened to me I would’ve cried, but kept my dignity and buy a new pair. I know you can afford them Mr. Ferrari,” you teased him as he accommodated your carry-on bag. “Window or aisle, babe?” You asked him, leaving the teasing aside.

“Aisle please, you know I like to pretend it’s my side of the bed,” he said accommodating his belongings on the big first class pod, carefully pulling down the partition separating both of your seats.

“I don’t think we’re going to sleep much, though. It’s pretty early,”

“I know, but I was thinking we could catch this new show I downloaded, Citadel I think?” He said and you smiled, leaving a shy peck on his lips, knowing that even if it was first class, people were watching and could easily snap pictures. Fans knew you were Charles’ girlfriend, but he was constantly protecting your privacy and keeping everything between the both of you.

And his jpg Instagram account, of course.

“Hey, i’m right behind you so don’t you dare on joining the mile high club or whatever,” Joris warned the both you as he adjusted his eye mask, ready to wake up when they already were in Miami.

“What makes you think we haven’t joined the club already?” You retorted, followed by a gagging sound from Joris, and a blushing Charles who placed his hand very low on your back.

A few hours passed and while the series that Charles downloaded was good, he failed to notice it only had two episodes, leaving you with only the in-flight catalogue and unstable wifi.

Charles noticed you yawning and eyes fighting to stay open, so he called the flight attendant to help him turn the seat into a very comfortable bed, doing the same on his seat as Charles placed his arm under your neck and your head found its natural place on his shoulder, with your hand draped on his waist.

Suddenly, your arm was moving and no, it wasn’t because of the plane, it was being moved by something shaking. As you came to your senses, noticing the cabin lights were turned off, you also became aware of your boyfriend trying to suppress his laugh while looking at his phone.

“What’s so funny?” You asked him nuzzling into his side, his arm instinctively tightening around your shoulders.

His green eyes were shining even under the dark lighting of the cabin, “sorry, bebe, did I wake you?” He asked leaving a kiss on your hair.

You stirred on his arms, “no, it’s fine. Now tell me what’s so funny”

This time Charles couldn’t hold back his giggles, but still careful not to disturb the other passengers, but his low giggles music to your ears. “Look, its a meme of me playing Operation with the tweezers” he put the phone in front of your face.

“Baby, I told you that’s exactly what it looked like when you were pulling them,” you joined him with the quiet laughter, but then he found something even funnier.

He snorted.

“Charles!” You laughed just by seeing the reaction of your boyfriend, who couldn’t contain his laughter while clutching his stomach, but still aware of the sleeping passengers close to you.

Even Joris who both of you were sure was snoring while wearing the most ridiculous eye mask and special compression socks.

“Babe, I mean look at this!” He again placed his phone in front of your eyes, and you had to admit it was pretty funny. “It’s Max and George! Ah, I think I’m crying”

And you quietly laughed, but saved the sound of his carefree giggles and disheveled hair, but with his arm never letting go of you.

[m4rble5]

TWST characters doing Smosh stuff

So I found a post by @rose-tea-and-strawberries and the link is https://www.tumblr.com/rose-tea-and-strawberries/731059483863810048/so-for-some-reason-funeral-roast-videos-came-up?source=share

It’s about Yuu/MC, Grim, the braincell duo, and the Ramshackle ghosts doing ‘funeral roasts’ on anyone from NRC.

What if that’s not the only content while Yuu/MC possibly has a Magicam account and they have some ideas like:

‘Don’t Try to Win “insert game” (imagine Idia, Lilia, Azul, and other Overblotees playing these, while in the somewhere in the background, Riddle rages like in Book 6 🤣)’

‘AITA stories (but the confessions are those from NRC 🥸)’

‘Who Meme’d It? (It gets funnier when the staff also made memes and send it to Yuu/MC who made the presentation and the people who guesses are Riddle, Azul, and Jamil, students that are academically competitive)’

‘Guess the Confession (anyone from NRC thinks that every confession can happened to Yuu/MC because, you know, they’re from another world and stuff)’

‘Silent Library (wait til it’s Grim, Ace, Deuce, AND Yuu/MC’s turn and imagine the chaos while trying to stay quiet AND the Diasomnia boys are PERFECT for this 😂)’

‘How to “insert problem” (I only remember about speeding tickets and cheating on tests AND I would love to see the upperclassmen do this)’

‘Can I Guess Who Slapped Me? (What if CROWLEY is the one who would guess who slapped him and Yuu/MC used this as an opportunity to slap him as hard as they can like how Arasha slapped Anthony in one ‘Can I Guess Who Slapped Me�� video with the whole NRC reacting like the rest of the Smosh cast and crew)’

Arasha is Yuu/MC, Anthony is Crowley, and the rest is the whole NRC, both the students and the staff.

TWST boys’ reactions 🤣

Imagine the amount of followers that Yuu’s/MC’s Magicam account just to see interesting content from this ‘otherworldly’ person 😂 …

[appatary8523]

Dumb probably negative no context rambles under the cut

Last chance, don't ruin your mood and go back

OK you wanted it this way

1.- I like STW but I usually have to get up to do things while playing (yea sometimes in FN:BR I hide in bushes to go and do some other stuff. I've barely made any progress, the game is quite complicated to me because I don't play it often and I forget what was going on? And I don't know how to use most of the mechanics of the game(? Still, the humor is funny, the gameplay might feel repetitive from time to time but I like it, I really really like it.

I also would like to have more IRL friends who play STW (or FN in general), I bet that game mode is way funnier and rewarding in squad. But nobody plays it, and I think I have no friends who play FN? Just my older brother and he has his own duo so I'm not getting in between them (?) (and he doesn't like STW so he doesn't even have access to it). There's a dude at my workplace who plays FN but no thanks, I don't like him, he's stupid (he's the it guy who can't fix a damn thing. I hate that guy he's so stupid)

As always, I'm playing solo in this squad mode game called life (?

2.- I know I often say I'm doing it for me but, damn, I wish someone could like it the way I like it too. I'll see if it's worth the effort or if I should just finish the damn thing and save if for myself. I'm not hurt or anything alike, I was 1000% aware this was going to happen, and it's helping me improve. I think I just don't want to deal with that anymore. Sorry, I lose motivation quite often and easily

3.- I try to keep everything happy and positive in my FN blog but... I don't really like Hope. I mean she's cool and all that but I just don't like her e-girl thing going on. The only thing I like about her is the cat on her banner icon whatever the name of that thing is. Neither sunsp0t, actually y don't like a lot of things but I'll just save my awful FN opinions. I should've saved my headcanons too

4.- Surprise surprise (actually is no surprise) I'm losing followers. And I get it, I get you guys, I used to post funny things, funny drawings (or drawings in general) but now I just complain about everything. Sorry, I'm not in a good mood anymore.

I don't think people should keep following/stay suscribed to a channel, account, blog thing they dont like no more. I've seen artists (on Twitter of course) complaining about how people should not follow an account for X specific thing but I don't think that's how things work. Just like the things you like change, the things other like change too. They should NOT feel forced to like the things you like and see the things you want to share. But I guess you have to grow up to realize that. I personally don't feel offended when people stop following me, right now I'm offering nothing but negative text post, and that's OK. Curate the things you consume, make it a more pleasant experience, don't feel forced to follow someone you no longer like.

I personally follow people for a specific thing, and sometimes, like everyone, they change the things they make, but if I like their stuff I usually stick around because it's interesting! I just stop following if they change for worse (the same way I changed for worse). Still, not everyone thinks the same way I do.

5.- I still thinking I should just make another sideblog to dump all this dumb kind of posts but honestly I don't want to deal with it. Making an FN exclusive sideblog was already way too much, but I didn't want to mix all in here

6.- I guess that's what you get for interacting with people half your age.

7.- Shouldn't have joined, should've stayed away

8.- I wish we could talk, someday. I'd like to know you better. I know I don't exist for you but you mean so much for me (yea now I understand my taste for one-sided fictional relationships lol). I know, im stupid, I'm delusional, I'm, as always, daydreaming about things that will never ever happen and I will never have. I can't understand love, I can't wrap my head around the idea of being romantically involved with someone but that's OK, that kind of things are not meant for me

9.- I wish I could control whatevers going on in my mind. I wish it could slow the pace of my thoughts, I need some rest from the world but most important, I need a break from myself but I guess there's nothing I can do about it

10.- Also, Beatles song

11.- I fell asleep after posting this and I OBVIOUSLY had to edit it to add this because i DREAMED someone gave me some support words and it felt so nice and comforting jdjsjs I'm alone

12.- Morningssey song. Yes I like him too so sue me (?

[voiceofsword]

Don't ask an enstarrie about their otp worst mistake of your life

The main story. Ouuuugh. Tatsumi just casually complimenting Mayoi or initiating affection.

Tatsumi saying "I think it's a waste you always hide your beautiful face, Mayoi." like the first time these two had a one on one conversation... okay man

Also the main story showing that they both help each other!! Physically and emotionally!!! Tatsumi helped Mayoi when he got sick from being in public and trying to help him with his deprecating thoughts. Tatsumi confides in Mayoi about what happened at reimei before the others and Mayoi carried him when he was tired or in pain. Mayoi says he wants to see the human and dark side of Tatsumi. I'm adding the quote it's so good.

"I hope I will always be the one who understands and accepts him. Including his faults, his dark side – his everything."

SS... screams. The fucking. Line. "Haha. It's okay, Mayoi. You are like a great mother to these kids. Meanwhile, you're also an irreplaceable partner to me." Followed by Mayoi saying "I'm not a mother or a wife, please?!" They're soooo ♡ it's a bit of a debate to alkaloidPs on whether alkaloid should be called a found family and although I'm kind of in the middle I will admit these little interactions are cute. Tatsumi casually assigning Mayoi as a mom friend and him as the dad. Real smooth of you. Side note: I think Tatsumi gets to see another side of Mayoi because later on in the story Tatsumi points out a growth in Mayoi's character and tells him to quiet down after he freaks out about it and Mayoi retaliates by telling him he's the reason he made any noise in the first place. I don't think they'd bicker that much honestly but ♡♡♡ pouty Mayoi could you imagine. Only Tatsumi gets to see it though booooo. There's no lines that really stand out but also Mayoi (+ the juniors) do notice when Tatsumi's health is declining further on in the story. The juniors are more subtle but Mayoi asks when they're on stage. Teehee

They never really get big moments so the rest of what I have are just small little funnier pieces of dialogue... sobs. I'm gonna follow this ask up with one more story though... hehe

THATS SO SWEET... i do remember some of this from main story (especially mayoi carrying tatsumi on his back when his leg pain started to act up again)

its always so ww lovely (lol) when charas constantly go out of their way to help, uplift each other. especially when they make it a point to nurture both their perceived good and bad sides, they can appreciate everything about the other person and feel safe with them regardless 🥺

always being alert for when the other is down so they can pick them up... its one of the reasons i think they mesh well, on account of tatsumi (chronically ill) and mayoi (mayoi) being two people who've both struggled with their health for various reasons, that they can have someone they can openly rely on and eventually not feel like a burden, but that doesnt necessarily mean they will treat each other like glass (i think early on this is more the case but as time advances i can only hope they grow more confident with each other..? pleading emoji again)

but also the. that line kind of just took me out. suethdtgushwergu its so silly. i think while tatsumi is probably completely genuine in some of the things he says that fluster mayoi itd be even funnier to consider him saying stuff like that to fluster him on purpose, considering mayoi makes such a big deal out of it. not to laugh or anything, but because he thinks its cute. arghhghh. holy man who is a little cheeky and little creature who tries his best not to melt in his light. tatsumi seems to be a man that has a lot of affection to give while mayois completely foreign to the concept.

putting this under a read more because it doesnt really pertain to ttmy but more a comment on the found family debate u mentioned, but along the vein of the ss comment

(i personally do think alkaloid could be kind of a found family, but i understand some people's wariness towards it since a lot of the time it just forces the characters into nuclear roles — it's rly easy to forget ur friends can be your family too :').

ofc that line leaves little to the imagination as to what tatsumi means but i think in This Case implying he's the 'dad' of alkaloid is telling of himself for Obbligato Reasons™. putting them in what he considers to be traditional roles and choosing himself as the father figure of the group shows that hes someone who subconsciously takes charge and 'bears the burdens' of the rest of alkaloid. this is ofc not me trying to say that should be the case, fictional or not, but judging by tatsumis past behavior it just makes sense to me that this is a thought pattern he would pick up.

but its also killing me that he cant find another way to express his appreciation towards mayoi than being like You are like the mother to my children. asjhkdsdkjhfkj. can somebody teach this man how to flirt normally!!

that being said, theyre all like.. almost the same age so the assertion is rly funny to me, i love tatsumis old man roleplaying sometimes. i truly do think in his head that he thinks this family dynamic is 100% real. the other 3? not so much)

[captain-astors]

Omg wait 20, 23, and 24 for Touka, Ayato, and maybe maybe Renji :OO

Alright here we go! Kirishima family.

Touka, such an icon, if I don’t see her giving up on her dreams for Kaneki it didn’t happen.

20. A weird headcanon

Yoriko briefly really wanted to start a band, and Touka actually got really good at playing the electric guitar because of it. The band never happened but she retains the skill. Karaoke night at Anteiku is all fun and games until Touka breaks out the guitar and now everyone’s just sitting on the floor in awe while she duets whatever song gets chosen on the jukebox out of their small catalog. She’s got Wonderwall down to a T at this point, everyone say thanks Koma. 

23. Future headcanon

After the utter chaos of the dragon died down, she returned to her ambition of researching the origin of ghouls! She became widely respected in her field and wrote a couple books with theories that were used far into the future, and eventually one of them was proven. 

24. What do you think is a secret they have that they never told anyone?

When she worked at Anteiku, she collected little scraps of travel magazines, research articles, etc. and kept them in a drawer. Just motivation for days when pretending to be a human at school was difficult.

Ayato! Garbage child, committed 3 war crimes before he learned what a kidney was, banned from 4 public restaurants.

20. A weird headcanon

If he wasn’t a ghoul his beverage of choice would be some terrible soft drink or just straight milk with no alternative. I can’t specify the prior because I’ve had a singular sip of about 2 sodas in my entire life but I can speak for the latter, because the two of us are very similar in certain ways and I thrive on milk. No one has ever made the interesting critter joke and it saddens me.

23. Future headcanon

I know he’s canonically 5’5 (170cm) by the end of the series but consider, it would be way funnier if he just stayed 5’2 (159 cm) and for that reason I will always draw him shorter than everyone. Pry short Ayato out of my cold dead hands Ishida you can’t make me believe this idiot is even average height. 

24. What do you think is a secret they have that they never told anyone?

Generally he did a lot of stuff at Aogiri he’s not proud of at all anymore. Many ghouls are forced to kill from very young ages on account of their parents being taken by the CCG, but they’ll still have someone to help them compartmentalize it, and typically they’re not slaughtering for the sake of slaughtering in the name of a terrorist organization. He had a lot of power and a need to prove everyone wrong and to prove himself, so he blindly committed at least a few atrocities mindlessly following a command. He refuses to open up about any of it. 

Renji! Uncle by birth, good one by choice.

20. A weird headcanon

He genuinely does not know how to tie a standard shoelace knot. Any pair of shoes with laces he owns were tied once by someone else and are functionally slip-ons. Uta refuses to teach him because he thinks watching this grown man struggle to keep his shoes on is the absolute HEIGHT of comedy, and Yomo refuses to ask anyone else because of pride. So Uta will continue to lose his goddamn mind in peace. Why did the mask maker just fall off his chair cackling? Look across the room, Renji’s probably fighting for his life with a piece of string and losing. 

23. Future headcanon

Constantly anticipating the next murder attempt from your closest companion is… an objectively miserable way to live. But he’s also still well aware Uta will go right back to “tormenting everyone you love because I desperately need your attention if I can’t have your affection.” So he has no choice but to tolerate it for a very long time. However, I like to think it gets more tame with time. From ward-shaking battles to simple poison in his drinks and whatnaught. Sometimes Uta just jumps out of his closet and stabs him halfheartedly 3 times with a stolen quinque and then goes home and that’s the murder attempt for the week. It’s a funny dynamic because that’s a miserable day for Uta and he’s probably going to be pondering the emptiness of his own existence for the rest of the night and is only held back because of lack of drive, and a good one for Renji because in his mind less murdering is a sign of calming down, right? And he can focus on his actual healthy family and friends. Also like a couple others I’ve seen, I do like the thought that eventually Uta is successful. It fixes nothing.

24. What do you think is a secret they have that they never told anyone?

Overall he's a very secretive person but I should probably think of something relatively amusing because I could go on about genuine regrets for a while... As a teenager in the fourth ward he'd graffiti ravens with bloody claws, and thought it was very cool and tragic at the time, but on account of his poor art skills they kind of just looked like weird black blobs with red feet. That unrecognizable form was a blessing and a curse because he can insist that it definitely wasn't him without major suspicion.

[wildpeachfarm]

https://www.tumblr.com/wildpeachfarm/754400084327809024/the-only-solution-i-can-think-of-is?source=share

oh yeah for sure, the whole 'big accounts' thing is also why i prefer tumblr a lot more. follower count isnt shown here so there arent rlly any 'big' or 'small' accounts which is also why the whole superiority complex thing is a lotttt less common over here. i feel like this lets ppl form their own opinions and not follow the crowd (which gets more toxic when its from a place of negativity or going after someone).

the other thing is twitters algorithm driving 'controversial' tweets into everyones timeline to spark more reactions which is why negativity, witch hunts and toxicity get so much attention but thats a story for another day 😭

ehhhh idk I definitely see my fair share of people with superiority complexes over here but it's just way funnier because you can't see their follower count so it just seems silly LOL

I think sometimes people latch onto accounts here that get a kick out of sending hate to people en masse or trying to control the fandom behavior and THAT is annoying as fuck but tumblr is definitely better at acknowledging that is happening, I'd say. On twitter people still don't like to admit that they follow certain big accounts like they are a fandom god or something or that they don't always have correct opinions lol

idk man internet fandom has always been like this and there is never a fandom that doesn't have "bigger" people in it but I think there are a few good people who try to at least create a level and mutual respect with everyone which is always the best way to go imo. Honestly I'm too much of an internet veteran to care too much about these things but it does irk me occasionally

[thelioncourts]

If the shows gonna do Lesmand, don’t you think they have to go the polyam route? I just don’t see how they go there without it otherwise it kind of makes Loustat, Loumand and Armand/Daniel kinda cheapened

Okay, so I'm going to answer this and I'm going to beg people to not come for my throat; I'm simply answering this with educated guesses as well as general knowledge that I think pertains to this.

So. I don't really think the show is going to do Lesmand, at least not in a full-fledged ship/couple/whatever you want to call it. I truly don't.

If I had to give any kind of guess as to what Lestat and Armand's relationship is going to look like in the show, it's going to look a lot like it does in the book, but with a simplification of Armand's feelings in particular.

I think we're going to get, of course, the TVL/IwtV interactions between Lestat and Armand, namely their first interaction in Paris when they first meet as well as the tower scene and the torture scenes that occur in IwtV/TVL (with Lestat's POV). I think we're, of course, going to get Lestat with the theatre and handing it to Armand, Armand and Nicki, etc. and then, from there, I think we'll get certain aspects of the Prince Lestat era. I think if they're going to do The Vampire Armand (book), they're going to have to do an entire limited series, at a minimum, for him, and, in turn, Lestat will be in at least some of that.

But regarding romance, I don't see them doing a lot, if really, any of it. I think they'll have Armand begging for Lestat to stay with him after that first meeting, but I think that will be done to show some of the odd resentment Armand has for Lestat. Beyond that, I don't anticipate much romance, namely that we don't have much from a Lestat POV anyway throughout all the books combined.

I think one thing to keep in mind is that this is a television adaptation of the books, and it is not fully accurate to the text. These writers are not adhering to a solely book-fan audience, nor should they. They are appealing to a wider set of people, trying to maintain a following there.

Rolin Jones has repeatedly classified IwtV as a gothic romance and has said that they are focusing heavily on Loustat. He's not going to say that if they're going to go on a polyam route. Television works on a very particular set of...expectations, and s1 focusing on the essential marriage of Loustat, and its downfall, is fully setting us up to see them get back together and then be in a romance that is more sustainable for them (I don't want to say 'healthier' because nothing is healthy in this series, just in general).

It also appears that Armand/Daniel (Armandiel? Armandaniel?) is going to be important and, no doubt, focused on, given especially Daniel's current role in the 2022!world.

Loustat is a really heavy hitter with fans. Loustat posts by the AMC account get a staggering amount of likes/retweets/shares/etc. in comparison to literally anything else. Audiences are going to not be super thrilled about Loumand because audiences want him with Lestat; when the truth of Armand's actions are brought to light, fans are not going to like him with Louis or Lestat (killing Claudia, maiming her body, allowing Louis' imprisonment to make sure that happens, torturing Lestat, throwing Lestat's weakened body from the towers, etc.). Even when we see the different sides of him, the softer ones, the funnier ones, etc. we are going to see that predominantly in regard to Daniel.

It'll be made worse when TVL happens and they see what Armand does to Nicki. Audiences won't like Nicki near the end either, not for Lestat, but they especially won't think what Armand did is justified.

Anyway, this is all a very longwinded way to say that Armand is a character that television audiences are going to struggle with. I think they can absolutely sell Armand and Daniel, but there will be a lot of dislike next season with Loumand, and with that I think the idea of Lesmand will be so far from a (non-book mostly) fan's mind that it couldn't even be considered as a contender for Loustat.

So. Yes, long explanation short, I don't see Lesmand really happening on screen. Some moments? Sure. Insinuations? Perhaps. Long-term anything? Absolutely not.

[ghostflowerhotpotch]

whats a hotch pot?

Well, at one point someone was going to ask, this is really about the blog and myself rather than any ghostflower stuff related, so feel free to scroll down if you are here only for that content.

Short answer is: Author is a bit of a dumbass, and Dyslexic.

Long answer after the cut.

You see, when I decided to make this sideblog (After deciding it was probably better to spare my few followers on main because I knew I was going to become insufferable with this movie,) I wasn't entirely show what it would be about, or how to name it.

I mostly do fanfics in my spare time, headcanons posts from time to time in my main, analysis in a few occasions (nothing close to my frame analysis tho, this is really new development.) I was thinking of going back to drawing, but it wasn't sure.

Because I already knew I wanted to do frame analysis, I wasn't sure how to name the sideblog, this type of post is not something you see that often in tumblr, or at least not in the fandoms I had been. The fact that I wasn't even sure the entire lists of things I wanted to do with the blog didn't help.

I also didn't want something too generic, mostly in case the name could sound similar to another tumblr blog out there that could exist.

So looking around for possible words, I came across this one

This seemed like a good approach; it was definitely not a word you would usually use for a sideblog, and a mixture of things certainly seemed like the right description for this.

Now, here is an interesting fact about me: I am actually Dyslexic.

I try to not talk too much about me in this sideblog, but the rest of this story doesn't make sense without that context in mind.

Now, while juggling for different ideas for a name in another page, for whatever reason, the site I used register hodgepodge as a real word, I probably typed it wrong without realizing, however rather than correcting to hodgepodge, it corrected to hotchpotch.

Since I wasn't familiar with that word, I looked it up in the dictionary.

Now I thought this was funny.

Hodgepodge was technically the appropriate word to use for this blog, but I thought using food would be funnier. Is technically related because is still a mix of things in one pot, but using food make the blog seem less serious and more silly, which I thought would be better.

Now, remember how I am mention that I am a bit of a dumbass, and also dyslexic?

Well, rather than just copying and pasting the word right there, I saw that the synonyms word was HotchPot, and decided to use that one because it seemed simpler.

And what does my dyslexic brain end up retaining and typing down?

Hot Potch, because somehow that made sense for me.

At this point I had debated over the name so long and seeing so similarly worded words, that my brain didn't register any issues, and when the grammar on my website told me the word was wrong, I just didn't think much of it because I thought perhaps it was just unfamiliar with that word in particular (that has happened to me before really.)

By the time I realized of the mistake, a lot of people had reblogged and liked the blog, and I know if I change the name not only all the people who reblogged previously will have the post with the grammar mistake on it, but also will probably break the links since if you change your url things fall apart.

And ultimately, I decided to leave the mistake and admit on it on the account on one thing: This feels on brand with me.

Overthink stuff, looking for things over and over again, and still make a careless mistake because my brain has multiple crossed wires in multiple levels. I decided to leave the mistake because the title basically reflects what you are about to see.

Ghostflower stuff, a mixture of many things, the author of the blog making mixing shit up in ways you kind of wonder how they did it.

I thought leaving the grammar mistake made this blog title a bit more unique too, seriously how many people would had end up with this name? It went to so many twists and turns I can't believe this could happen to someone else.

And I think leaving that mistakes also reinforces another thing: Don't take me too seriously.

Like everybody, I had my own biases, I miss stuff, and ultimately this blogs relies heavily in my opinion and way to see the world. I encourage everyone to not just see the frames I put, but feel free to look up those scenes and draw their own conclusions.

Sorry for the long response, but I think I needed to show a bit of the journey as to how I ended up having this name.

Thanks for reading!

[morhath]

SPN S1E16 liveblog for Some Goddamn Reason

It's been a while since I did this but I need to mend some pants. Netflix pls do not @ me about account sharing. This one is called "Shadow" and apparently involves Meg. I do not currently remember jack or shit about it.

Oh hey this is the episode that that post I reblogged recently (the one with Dean teasing Sam about his being in "Our Town") comes from!

"Your alarm is about as useful as boobs on a man" well I. I think I might have some objections to what that statement implies.

Shoutout to Sam for instantly being suspicious of Meg--it's a little sad how he's like "nice coincidences like this don't happen to us" tho.

You know I feel like I've seen Meg's haircut on like twenty different young queer people recently and that + her general style are kind of throwing how I read her in 2024. She looks kinda gay to me now. I don't recall thinking that before, but of course I was also like. twelve. and significantly less familiar with gay people. Dude I totally focused on writing this post for too long Sam are you in an elevator shaft. Are you going to fall down the elevator shaft. Man sewing my pants took way less time than I assumed.

No matter how charming Dean is, I have a really hard time believing that he actually managed to get the--presumably confidential!--records of the murder victims out of someone at the police station. (I'm not sure if Amy is an officer or not.) Well actually as I type this I can totally see a police officer leaking that kind of thing to impress someone they want to fuck.

"What if this whole thing was over tonight?" he says. This just gets funnier with time. FIFTEEN SEASONS. And Sam still wants to back to school...... :'( I am once again saying that having a lawyer in the family would've been really useful. Man this whole convo is just sad knowing about the. as I said. FIFTEEN SEASONS.

There is NO way they actually got out of the elevator shaft that quietly. I mean I was assuming Meg knew Sam followed her but now I'm like oh she's GOT to know they're there.

Meg's kinda hot. Anyway.

She is, to me, less hot when she's doing the typical sexy villain thing tho. I find that very overdone.

Anyway! There's John. I am not as happy about this as the show wants me to be. He ALSO looks so young here. And the Spanish voice they picked for him isn't helping, it sounds really young/a lot like the Sam and Dean voices. Also slightly evil, which is fun.

Ooh it gets so GRAINY when things are brightly lit.

[theangryjikooker]

It's funny how your last update is about taking a step away from the fandom a little while for me, I'm taking my first step into this fandom space in three years. I became a fan in the DNA era and stopped keeping up in the persona era due to the pandemic, college being rough and my personal taste in music diverging from what they were putting out at the time. It's wild how I remember them last as versus how they've grown and changed since then, with Jin doing military service, and all of them doing their own solo stuff, which is probably the most distance they've had for the first time in years. Of course, they still work in the same company, but now they don't have to go everywhere together as a group to do promotions anymore for the foreseeable future. It's all just incredible honestly, how much I feel like I missed, despite me only really being a dedicated fan for a year and a half. Maybe that makes me less of a fan, but I think it's unhealthy to put too much of yourself in other people, especially people who you do not know personally, especially with how fervent some of these shippers get. It's even funnier when coming back, so many relatively big jikook tumblr accounts I used to follow back in 2019 for content have deactivated.

While away, I really did stop viewing jikook or any bts member in any particular "shipping" light, I basically went full disconnect mode. I do still remember how it was I got into bts and jikook at separate times, and how I felt when I stopped and just saw them as a successful kpop group I once was pretty invested jn. Coming back, I'm re-experiencing my adoration of these men and the fun memories they gave me, but I'm also fully aware once I get busy with life again, I will disconnect with them again. In a very similar way, I always viewed shipping as a personal interpretation of a one dimensional pov. We see maybe 1/10 of their lives at most, and it will inevitably grow smaller as they grow outward to their own destinies. Still, jikook is special to me, whether they're "together" or not, and I consider my shipping of them to be a fun past time more than anything. The shipping community online has always been quite contentious and toxic, even in fictional fandoms, I can only imagine how much worse that toxicity is when projected onto real people who have to see that shit. I wish that it weren't the case, but seems to be an inevitable fact of fandom, especially ones as passionate as bts's. Regardless, while I'm still here and watching what they do, I'll support them in my heart.

Anyways, not sure what exactly I was going with this, hope you do well in your irl endeavors! Your blog certainly is very thoughtful and in line with how I feel about bts and jikook in general :)

Well, welcome back! Although it's a bit odd for me to say, as I gather you may be more of a veteran than I am.

If it makes you feel any better, I've barely been gone that long, and already I feel like I've missed out on so much and that a lot of things have been happening.

I wasn't much of an ardent shipper before I left, and I would argue that I'm even less so than before. It'd certainly affect how I view some things going forward (unless I let myself be consumed by the same content and rhetoric over and over). As you mentioned, disconnecting from shipping and from this fandom overall can reset your perceptions (for the average person), and I wholly recommend it to anyone able to do so. Fandom has a way of turning people obsessive, which I don't find particularly healthy or inviting.

Thanks for sharing your thoughts, and just thank you in general for the kind words.

[thexgrayxlady]

What I Read in March 2024

Electric Idol by Katee Robert - 2.00/5.00

I never want to read a book with an influencer for a main character ever again. I thought I'd try this series, and I love Eros and Psyche, so I decided to start here. That was a mistake. Some of that's on me. I'm definitely missing some plot or context that happened in the previous book. However, the plot's convoluted enough on its own that the confusion is compounded.

Too much of the idiot plot revolves around social media.

The characters are so annoying and stupid. Specifically Psyche. Psyche is annoying and stupid. And she's such a passive character. Eros goes on and on about how smart she is, but she's not that smart. Eros is just that dumb.

Eros, on the other hand, is so bland. If you're going to make him a hit man, bad boy, actually let him kill people and be a monster. Don't just let him angst about how he's such a horrible, unlovable monster.

Also, Hermes is annoying. Hermes is so annoying. I had to add that.

The ratio of plot to erotica is majorly off. The author is trying so hard to have a legitimate plot, but there just isn't enough substance there to satisfy people reading this for the plot. And there isn't enough erotica here for people reading for the smut. What porn is here is too bland and vanilla for something that's trying to be a dark romance.

Nobody with an AO3 account has any reason to read this book.

The Bone Labyrinth by James Rollins - 3.00/5.00

Apparently, I draw my little suspension of disbelief line in the sand in regards to techno-thrillers at Atlantis. Still, this book served its purpose as something to be mildly entertaining on the train.

I appreciated that Gray had somewhat realistic consequences for the action sequences. He's a very solid everyman character. None of the characters are that deep, but they're pretty enjoyable. I love Seichan. She's my favorite. I found her super relatable when the back half of the plot starts to run on moon logic and she was the team's skeptic.

Redshirts by John Scalzi - 3.00/5.00

Redshirts is 2/3 of a good book, followed up by a self-indulgent series of too long epilogues.

I think there's a lot of good meta humor in here that I think would have been funnier pre-MCU oversaturating the media landscape. There's a bit about using shoddy, haphazard world building to the characters' advantage that's quite clever.

I'm always left vaguely disappointed by Scalzi. I always enjoy his stuff, but I'm also always left frustrated by his lack of ambition because I feel like he can do better. That being said, this is very fast-paced and easy to read, and if you like Star Trek and meta humor, I'd recommend giving it a shot.

[himilce-persephoniea]

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The message was sent to you because someone loved your writing and stories. ❤️

▪️What are your writing suggestions for newcomers, or what would you have liked to know when you first started?

▪️How do you write different personalities and perspectives? Could you explain how you came up with the manner you written your favorite or any character?

▪️What do you do when you have writer's block?

▪️How do you come up with new ideas and develop them?

▪️Any messages for your readers or fellow writers?

You are welcome to answer if you have the time and desire, or you can simply respond to the questions that come to mind.

💐Thank you for your work as a writer and as a member of this fandom!💐

Hi Anon,

Oh, gosh, ☺️ thanks for this message, I wasn't expecting it.

So…

▪️What are your writing suggestions for newcomers, or what would you have liked to know when you first started?

🤔 I would say, write for yourself. I always try to follow that advice. It's funnier when you write things that you love.

Also, when you begin, don't try things too big unless you have all the fic plannet (not looking at a certain fic in review 😅)

▪️How do you write different personalities and perspectives? Could you explain how you came up with the manner you written your favorite or any character?

For Anakin and Obi-Wan I try to use more mannerisms on Obi-Wan, more complicated words. One I do love to write is Quinlan. I always imagine his voice as open, smiling and loud 🤣 perfect opposite of Obi-Wan (reason he’s his best friend).

▪️What do you do when you have writer's block?

I stop writing 🤷‍♀️ forcing would not help me. Then, when I feel better, I begin slowly. A ficlet, something with little word count, I read again what I wrote last time…

▪️How do you come up with new ideas and develop them?

I follow a couple of accounts on Twitter that are just prompts that could fill any fandom. And they are marvelous to have new ideas. My favourite is @galacticidiots

To develop them, I use a blankboard on my tablet. I wrote there all the ideas: characters, there past, what happened, a timeline for the fic, scenes I want to have, images I want to kept for inspiration…

▪️Any messages for your readers or fellow writers?

For the Anon, thanks for the message ☺️ it was very kind of you.

For readers and fellow writers: it’s great to be in this fandom and see so wonderful people around 🥰

So, thank you all!

[katebluebird]

i thought about writing a bunch of one-shots about kate, to get a better feel of her characters, since i do that better in practice. most of them will be angst in some shape or form, but the first one is an exception - kate's and ingo's first meeting, based on the roleplay with wardenswateringhole

1. What is he, a saint?!

wordcount: 4053

When Kate came to Nimbasa City, she found herself drawn to the Battle Subway.

She was never that interested in battle facilities, despite being to three different regions before, two of which have world famous facilities. But there is simply one fundamental problem with the concept that prevents Kate from being interested in them – it’s battles for the sake of battles. Sure, by winning one does earn battle points they can later exchange for cool, or even helpful things. But Kate was never interested in any of the items those exchange shops hold. And the battles at the facilities do not give the winning party any cash, so Kate never had anything to gain from them. It’s just the she acquired growing up with Pokémon battles being a mean of surviving.

But this place is different. It isn’t some remote location that can’t be accessed by people who haven’t beaten the Unova league. And it isn’t just a battle facility either. It doubles as a public transport – a whole subway system that spreads under the whole region, like an Ariados web. It in itself is already a wonder that Kate has never seen before, having lived without ever really seeing a real train before. A wonder of technology that can take you almost anywhere in Unova, a complicated network that manages to run like the clock, precise and efficient. Just relax, while the huge metal pipe follows its set tracks, with no mistakes, its wheels producing a rhythmic sound that is almost soothing. There is something fascinating and satisfying Kate finds about it all, that she doesn’t about any other mean of transportation. Fascinating enough to take up the habit of coming down here whenever she has some time to kill, even when she doesn’t actually has to go anywhere, and just ride the trains, or sit at a station and just watch the trains instead.

Although this is already enough of a reason for Kate to come here so often, she eventually end up finding another reason.

Kate sighs as she leans on the back of one of the seats at the station she’s at. Her gaze is locked on a man in a long white coat and a matching conductor’s hat. He is in the other side of the station, busy with something, a tablet in hand and talking with someone in a green uniform.

This isn’t the first time Kate sees the man in the subway. Emmet is his name, if she remembers correctly. She had no idea who he is initially. Only after living in Nimbasa for a few months did she learn of its celebrities – the twins who run the Battle Subway together. The Subway Bosses. And Emmet is one of them, apparently.

Kate was never the person to care much about celebrities. They just exist somewhere, in a world that’s parallel to hers, and everyone is minding their own business. But it wasn’t Emmet’s celebrity status that made Kate curious about him. There is just something… fascinating about this man. Whenever she sees him, she notices how he has a peculiar body language that’s simply fun to watch. It resonates with her somehow. Whenever he interacts with other people and Kate happens to witness it, it is always bound to turn into something entertaining, with how straight to the point and honest he is, while somehow also being playful. When she looked through his social media, she found a treasure trove of hilarious antics that she found funnier than any stand up performance she’s ever seen before. And it is not fake, like social media accounts of companies that try to humanize their brand. All of it is genuine, as far as she can tell. And it is very stimulating to watch. It’s been a long while since she found herself so interested in another human being.

So, Kate found herself interested and fascinated enough to watch him in his natural habitat from time to time. It helped her build a more complete picture of that man. She isn’t sure if this is what people feel when they like a celebrity, but she prefers to think she is simply admiring a person she finds entertaining from afar. Like how she would with any other person she would interested in. With the exception that Kate would not approach said person. Because he’s actually famous, and the idea of sticking up a conversation with him is even more terrifying because of that.

And that was how it was for a few months, with no changes to the routine. Kate was pretty alright with just watching the funny man from afar, until she saw another one, in a similar coat and hat, but black instead of white.

That is the other twin – Ingo. It took Kate an embarrassing amount of time to remember his name. He isn’t as entertaining from afar as his brother. His body language is stiff, his interactions with people much more professional. Even his social media is barely active, and whenever it was, he actually sounded much more like a regular corporate account manager than anything.

And yet… he also has something about him. It’s something different from Emmet, but that something still made Kate start watching him occasionally as well. She only noticed it after a while, and she couldn’t quite put a finger on what I was exactly.

He is polite. Incredibly polite. Sometimes overly polite, it’s almost like he always keeps professional, no matter the situation. She has also seen him excited about things a few times, and that politeness remains every time. It’s almost like that’s somehow his default – simply how he talks. He also seems very kind and patient whenever he talks with anyone – his brother (despite their very funny antics), other passengers, his employees, lost kids and Pokémon. His voice can be very loud, and his facial expressions and movements intimidating, and yet he has this absolute underlying softness and gentleness to him, that once Kate started to notice, could no longer get it out of her head. It was drawing her in, slowly but surely.

Suddenly, just watching from the sidelines is not enough anymore. And that is a problem, because the idea of approaching him is still terrifying.

It’s gonna pass eventually, she thinks. It’s just passing curiosity, and there’s no reason to act on it. And yet, in a regular schedule, like it’s a routine at this point, Kate keeps returning to the Subway every day, just to get a glimpse of the man she became so unusually curious about. After two weeks of just observing, Kate realized that she either needs to move on or do something about this. Ideally both, since she knew she wouldn’t be able to move on without actually approaching first, even just for a short chat.

But how? She can maybe actually try going on a Single Train and getting to him, but Kate isn’t sure it’s a good idea. There probably wouldn’t be enough time to chat before or after the battle, so there wasn’t much point. The only other option she can think of is to just approach him while he’s at the station nearby, but Kate also isn’t sure she is brave enough to do that. She would have been scared to do that with anyone else, and Ingo would be in the middle of work when she approaches. Distracting the man from his work would just make Kate even more embarrassed and more awkward in the interaction…

But after a few days of arguing with herself, Kate decides that she’d rater just butcher their interaction, so she can finally move on, rather than get stuck on this forever. So, one day, she goes down the subway with a specific purpose in mind.

It’s a middle of pretty busy day. While the station isn’t the most crowded Kate has ever seen it, there are still plenty of people walking around. Kate has been standing near a wall for a while now, watching people rush by and waiting for Ingo to hopefully eventually show up. For now, only Emmet is there, talking with someone Kate assumes to be a fan. She isn’t too focused on them though, as she doesn’t want to get distracted and accidentally miss someone she is waiting for.

Finally, her eyes focus on the man she has been waiting for – the big black coat is very hard not to notice, even in a crowd. He is walking along the platform, and oh so conveniently, his route seems to be going right past her. As if the circumstances could have been anymore perfect. She just has to take a step, both literal and metaphorical, and actually speak up. For just a few seconds, Kate feels her whole body freeze, and her feet and fingers grow cold, despite the station being actually pretty stuffy. But when Ingo stops in his tracks not too far from her, checking something on the tablet in his hand, something in Kate’s brain clicks, and a mask is on without her even realizing it at first. With confidence she doesn’t actually have, she takes a step forward, walking up to the conductor from behind.

“We had one face that’s sweet as candy and very kissable around here already, but now we have two! Christmas came early this year”.

Kate smiles, as if what she said was completely planned and not at all just something she would have never said if she gave it just a moment of thought. The moment the last sentence leaves her mouth, she feels herself die a little on the inside. But there is no way back, so Kate keeps smiling and looking at the man, waiting for him to react to her shameless flirting.

While all this is rushing through Kate’s mind, Ingo turns around to face her, his usually somewhat grumpy looking face red, and eyes somewhat widened. It takes him two more seconds to find what to say, and even then he stutters.

“OH! O-oh! Uh! You’re too kind, passenger! I- I would not call myself k-kissable. Eh- Emmet is the sw-sweet one. Perhaps you are looking for him?”

The man stutters with almost every word he says, his voice only evening out when he wonders if Kate mistook him for his twin. This… is not the reaction Kate expected. What she said actually flustered him? She wouldn’t have been surprised if she scared him and made him just leave this random girl who threw a cringe-worthy pick-up line at him, or told her this was inappropriate. Yet he didn’t. This is weird.

Kate suddenly wants to push further, to see how the man would react if she were to continue down this path. How far could she take this until he ran out of patience? She’s seen many of his emotions before while watching him, but never him losing his temper.

So, Kate smiles slyly, squinting her eyes at the tall man. “I’d say you both have very sweet and kissable faces. Especially now that you’re blushing, remind me of strawberry ice cream. Mind if I try and see if you’re as sweet as you look?”

With the tip of her tongue stuck out from between her lips, and a wink, Kate says out loud another sentence that would have made her burn alive from embarrassment if she gave it any further thought. Quite the ask – for a kiss, after barely exchanging a few words. Now he is sure to get angry or annoyed, Kate thinks. But to her shock, Ingo’s face becomes redder and his body language, which is usually already pretty stiff, loses its professional edge and becomes something shy and flustered.

���I- I- I-“, he stutters, completely caught off guard. Yet he is still not annoyed in the slightest. “I assure you! I do not taste like ice cream!” His eyes dart in different directions, “I’m not sure what I taste like, I have never bothered to investigate such a proposition, I would think I would taste like black coffee since it’s what I consume a majority of the time, which is admittedly not healthy, but I cannot resist it, as I work on late night paperwork, forgive me passenger but I do not taste as good as you probably expect – “

Ingo’s rant lasts for a while, and he never once takes a breath, until the very end, which leaves Kate both shocked and impressed. When he notices that he isn’t really going anywhere good with this, he looks at Kate, and stutters once again.

“I- “, he turns around to look where his brother is standing in the distance. “EMMET HELP!”

Kate leans to the side, to look at Emmet without Ingo obstructing the view, to see how he would react. She expects him to maybe come over to see what the commotion is, or maybe be the one to tell the girl harassing his twin off. But all he does is smile in their direction and give Ingo a thumbs up.

“You got this, brother!... Full steam ahead! Aim for the tracks that run through the heart!”

Kate genuinely laughs, covering her mouth with a hand, and she can hear Ingo groan as he turns back to her. This is pretty fun. She would remember this for the rest of her life, once all of this is over and they never see eachother again. Before her consciousness kicks in though and she feels mortified at what she’s done, she wants to go as far as she can, push as hard as she can. She doesn’t actually think she will get that kiss, but she’s already here, so might as well go all out before it’s all over.

“Black coffee, huh? That’s an acquired taste for me. I guess I’ll need to get exposed to the taste a few times, to get addicted”, she winks again, her hips swinging left and right ever so slightly. She is expecting Ingo to either get flustered again, or finally get annoyed and tell her to leave. While he does seem to calm down a little, he still doesn’t seem angry. Despite his somewhat intense facial expression, Kate has a feeling that’s just how his face usually is.

“In that case, I would highly recommend the café just down the street from the Gear Station. They have very good dark roasts, a personal favorite of mine”. His face became somewhat thoughtful for a moment. “We frequently send a depot agent to get our orders for us. Emmet’s order usually consists of half a dozen confectionaries as well…”

It takes Kate a moment to realize what Ingo is proposing. Is he… asking her out to a café? …Why? That is the opposite of what she expected to happen when she started this whole thing. She locks hands behind her back and winks again.

“Hm, a café sounds nice, yes… Though since you said you probably taste like black coffee, I think I’d like a taste from a more appealing place”.

Another absolutely embarrassing line, but Kate is determined to push and finish this. She either somehow gets that kiss as a payment for leaving the man alone already, or, which is more likely, she finally gets told to leave, and they can end this charade here. And once again, despite all of Kate’s expectations, Ingo isn’t annoyed and laughs loudly, before looking down at her again with.

“I would like to remind to passengers that tasting the Subway Bosses is ill advised, due to possibly communicable diseases and general hygiene observances, in which saliva is spread out one or both parties, possibly leading to a health hazard – “, he pauses for a moment, his voice suddenly quieter, and he looks away a little embarrassed. “…Why do I feel like I should not have mentioned that?”

Kate laughs again. The whole exchange has been entertaining so far, even more than Kate would have imagined it would have been from just watching from afar, or looking through the twins’ social media. She supposes it’s no use asking for a kiss again, so she might as well swing in the direction Ingo himself is leaning… for whatever reason.

“Hmm, well, since you’re not down to getting dirty with saliva exchange, how about I ask you out to that café you mentioned instead, and we get to bacteria exchange later, once you do actually taste like coffee?”

Another flirtatious wink, and Kate is expecting Ingo to finally let her down gently, so this exchange can be over and they can go their separate ways. But instead, he blushes again and looks away, stuttering for a moment.

“U-um… I suppose that would be more appropriate…”

As soon as his mind can focus on something else though, his voice and face become a little excited, rather than bashful. “I would enjoy showing you the various flavors and blends they have. They don’t just have coffee! They have tea and juices as well. Perhaps you will find something new you will like!”

Kate rolls her eyes a little, but she was still smiling.

“I think I already did, since I’m going to be with you”, she winks again. It probably looks like a tick at that point. “So what time do you get off work?”

Ingo looked thoughtful, and it seemed like he was genuinely thinking about this. “Unfortunately, our roles as Subway Bosses do not award us the luxury of ever truly having time off. However, spending my break in pleasant company would be favorable to spending it locked in my office”.

Kate doesn’t show it, but her heart skips a beat at the sudden compliment, and she feels her cheeks grow warmer. Ingo doesn’t notice he caught her off guard though, as he is busy giving her the time when they would meet. It’s a good thing, because Kate is sure she wouldn’t be able to come up with anything to say in that moment.

“Our time will be a bit short, but hopefully enjoyable. I can ask Emmet to do some of the paperwork for once. Of course, I will most likely have to go back and redo it because of his atrocious handwriting”. He sighs and shook his head, before looking at Kate again. “Nevermind, I can pull a late shift. I look forward to our meeting”.

Kate is smiling and nodding, before she even fully realizes what exactly she is agreeing to. She isn’t quite there fully, as otherwise the conversation wouldn’t flow as well as it does now, and she would stumble over her own words. “Got it. A short meeting is fine with me”. She smiles slyly again. “I’ll just have to be super efficient and try to make you blush as many times as I can in the short amount of time we’ll have! Where should we meet?”

“We could meet at the Gear Station. I can guide you to the café in question. And there is no need to make me blush, dear passenger!” He perks up suddenly. “Ah! It would not be appropriate for me to continue calling you passenger. Is there something else you would like to go by?”

Kate pauses for a moment. She wasn’t initially planning on sharing her name, since she was also not planning on taking this anywhere far. Her plan was to just have a short conversation, see the reaction, be sure that her curiosity is satisfied and make sure she doesn’t feel like she is missing a chance at anything, because she knows she freaked him out. If she gave it a few more seconds of serious thought, she would have completely lost her composure, panicked, and flee the scene, never to be seen again. But she isn’t thinking about all that anymore at the moment, instead relying only on the front she adapted, and smiles again.

“Of course there is a need! A need for me to see you blush! It’s so cute!” She locks her hands behind her back again and sways her hips left and right idly, moving her weight from one leg to another, making her dress and sash ribbon on the back sway along with her. “Yeah, that works for me. And I guess I should share my name, since I keep saying I want to taste you. My name is Kate. Nice to meet you”.

Ingo raises his arm and holds the rim of his hat. Kate has a feeling he is also smiling, though it’s pretty hard for her to tell by his face yet. “The pleasure is all mine, Kate. Please remember, the Subway Bosses are friends, not food”.

Kate giggles again and puts a finger on her cheek. “That will be hard to remember. You look so sweet, I can’t help but want to give you a peck on your cheek! But I’ll try to hold off until we get to that café at least”.

She winks for what feels like a tenth time, and Kate feels that she really needs to wrap this up, as she isn’t sure for how long she can keep this going. She smiles again, this time more mischievously, as she waved at Ingo and begins to leave.

“See you again soon!”

She catches only a glimpse of Ingo waving back at her and mirroring her goodbye with another blush. Kate doesn’t actually need to go anywhere, and is simply walking in a random direction, before changing tracks and going towards the station exit once she was out of Ingo’s line of sight. Only when she is outside the station, in the sunlight and fresh air, does everything suddenly dawns on her.

“What. The fuck”.

She stops in her tracks and stares into the distance, her expression shell-shocked. What in the actual fuck just happened? She just scored a date with that man, didn’t she? What did she… How did she even manage that? She was being absolutely obnoxious, she was sure he’d tell her to fuck off. There’s no way he’s that patient. What is he, a saint? Unless he’s into terrible pick up lines or obnoxious behavior… Oh Arceus, what about all the things she said?! She said all of them without even thinking, because she was sure that would be the only time they speak or see eachother, but now she has to face the consequences of her actions, because she will see him soon enough. On a date.

Maybe she should just… not go? It’s not like they exchanged numbers or anything, neither did he know where she lives. They could both just… forget this ever happened, like a bad dream. Sure, this will haunt her whenever she tries to sleep at night, but… Well, ghosting him like that wouldn’t exactly be great either. But maybe it would be better this way? There’s no way he actually wants to go to a café with her, right?

Despite thinking all that though, Kate searches for her phone in her bag, to write down the time Ingo gave her, before she has the chance to forget it. Once she sets up a reminder, she stares at the clock on her phone screen intensely, as if trying to burn a hole in the poor device. Her heart is racing, her breathing was fast, as if she ran from the subway instead of just walking, and she feels like she’s shaking. The hand she is holding her in phone feels cold, despite the air around her being warm from the sun.

…Maybe she should actually go. If she just runs away now, then all of this cringe would be for nothing – she wouldn’t be able to let go of this, ever. And she does need to interact with more people than just her Pokémon and the cashiers at the grocery store… And it’s not like this would go anywhere too far, right? He’d see he doesn’t actually enjoy being around her that much, they go their separate ways, Kate stops thinking about him every single day, and all of this becomes a slightly less cringy memory for her.

She puts the phone away and walks home, to calm down, think less and maybe eat something. If she thinks about this too much, she might panic and move to a different region altogether again.

[saltydkdan]

Any reason you don’t want to do a face reveal, I am personally of the attitude of “keep my personal info off my internet account” so I get if that’s all there is to it, but given it’s also kind of an in-joke at this point that you haven’t done one, I was just curious if there was anything beyond just wanting to keep to yourself.

Also I think I followed you on Twitter for like 2 years without watching a single one of your videos and the regret of wasting all that time not watching your amazing content still eats at me :) keep up the good work Salto!

So this answer has kind of morphed over the years.

Originally, I was never planning on doing YouTube as a job or a business. I always planned to make stuff for YouTube and monetize it, but I always wanted to find ACTUAL work someplace else, like a more secure job. The concept of never attaching my face to my videos, gave me a slight amount of anonymity, so that nothing present on my channel could affect my job search. Like… imagine people doing a background check on the shit I do in my spare time haha.

But as time passed and COVID started hitting hard, I had just graduated from College, and the job market was pretty fucked for a while because of it. My wonderful/amazing girlfriend Jess suggested to me: “Derek, why don’t you just try out YouTube as a job for a while.”

It was something I had always semi-considered. But it was never something I had thought would be feasibly possible. One thing comes to another and now here I am!

One of the big reasons I still haven’t done a face reveal now, despite not having to really be anonymous anymore, is for 3 major reasons.

1. Ive come to enjoy the anonymity to an extent! I don’t know if I’ll feel like this forever, but it’s cool knowing I never have to worry about being recognized or something. One time I was in a college class for an entire semester, and through conversation, I just happened to figure out that one of my classmates was a MEGA fan of my YouTube channel and never realized who I was. (I know, that sounds insane but it actually did happen! IRL my voice is a lot more calm than when I record and try to boost up my energy haha)

2. There’s no real need to do a face reveal as of now :) What’s great about having a 2D avatar represent me, is that it sort of adds to my personality, and I have full control over my looks. Sometimes things can be funnier when they sound like they’re coming from a small marshmallow looking 2D cartoon character haha.

3. This one is kinda sad… but I have a pretty low self esteem on my appearance. Don’t get me wrong, I like how I look. Some days I’ll think I’m one handsome motherfucker, but other days I’ll just feel at my absolute lowest about how I look. Right now, I’m trying to work through that, and make more healthy choices to improve my health (and therefore, my mental health). I just don’t think exposing my appearance to the internet, as I exist physically and emotionally right now, is a great idea. I don’t think I can take the unhinged comments from internet weirdos about how ugly they think I am or something. This is also why I stopped doing full/half body cam streams like the Alvin and the Chipmunk videos. The comments on those are just upsetting and I can’t help but read them to validate self loathing.

Anyway, sorry about the downer, but I hope this answers your question? I’m not opposed to it in the future by any means, just not right now :)

Also just a reminder for those reading this, everybody gets low self esteem, or goes through tendencies of self loathing. It doesn’t go on forever, and you can get through it.

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Hello everyone! Welcome to my first little fic recommendation post ≧◡≦ !!! first and foremost, I have been absent and haven't posted much in the past two weeks or so. I had exams (that I still did poorly on) and I had a lot of requests to dig through. I also am active on the #Marvelrp and #Screamrp Instagram community (my main rp account is @/spacehimbo (MCU) and @/stabsubreddit (scream) if anyone is curious) and i've just been pregaming how active both communities will be in the next upcoming weeks. I also got carried away with writing my original work ヽ(^◇^*)/ aside from that, I felt like I was already oversaturating my account with one-shots in such a short period of time.

another thing I want to say is to thank you for 200 followers! we are already pretty close to the 300 mark, which I'm very blown away by. as well as my first one-shot is pretty much on track to hitting 2K notes; like I said, super cool !! thank you, guys!

I saw a couple of other writers and readers give out recommendations, I don't read a whole lot because my attention span is painfully short, but when I do read I like to give credit to the author. I have a growing platform on here so I feel like this is just a good time to appreciate some of my favorites i've read in April, as well as support the writers !! these are in no specific order ૮ ˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶ ა

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♡ Let the Devil Out by The Writing Doll @thewritingdoll this is a dark fic and I would not recommend it if CNC freaks you out. however, I totally get writing dark fics. I struggle with PTSD relating to mass shootings and guns so situations where there is a gun and I'm in control (like playing PUBG or Valorant or just watching Zack Synder's SuckerPunch and other female-led action/horror movies where they stand up to their ab*sers so I can live vicariously through them) makes me feel at ease sometimes. this happens to be one of the better dark fics i found, the ending really is the pretty pink bow on this; but Matt Murdock dirty talking makes this fic a ten.

♡ Bumpy Ride by Laters-Gators @laters-gators the fact that this is called 'bumpy ride' in itself is so funny to me, my humor is absolutely shattered. Also I like submissive Steven Grant. me and submissive Steven Grant are friends. I also like the idea of teasing someone so hard they cream their pants. but maybe that's just me. would read again if i'm stuck in the car again.

♡ Oh Honey Honey by Pink-Baby-Girl @pink-baby-girl despite what my blog shows you, i'm not that much of a bucky girl. but this fic might as well jump off the fucking screen and call me a liar. two things i learned about myself while reading this; i am a whore, and i also have been craving cupcakes for the past two weeks without noticing. bucky girls, this is a treat, pun intended.

♡ Cardigan by Parkers3 @parkers3 "Now that's what I call a great fucking breakfast!"

♡ Kyphi by Clints-Lucky-Arrow @clints-lucky-arrow i think we can all agree that druig doing mind control is sexy, i'm sorry but there is nothing hotter than druig calling me a goddess and a whore all in the same sentence. also the way anon asked for this had me flustered and laughing for two whole minutes. i love when anons ask for super detailed fics - they really get detailed and its hilarious. great fic, would read again

♡ Sins of the Mind by Vigilanteh @vigilanteh i already reblogged this one so i'll try to keep this brief; nothing is fucking funnier than someone watching their significant other take their microdose of amphetamine and being like "that's hot". it made reading the rest of this fic pretty fun. would read again!

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I will be posting a Marc Spector and a Villanelle one shot as soon as i can. I hope you guys have an awesome day and an awesome may!