#it's fine i'm fine everything is fine :)
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hudders-and-hiddles · 2 years ago
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Then I will adopt him as my own.
This is the way.
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draco-abraxas · 1 month ago
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Do you ever spend too much time thinking about how, no matter what career we give him, Harry Potter would have absolutely insane back muscles and Draco would be obsessed with that?
Yeah.
Me either.
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heich0e · 4 months ago
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another saturday spent in my office.... i should be at the club......
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ourceliumnetwork · 1 month ago
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Personal vent post:
this isn't even about my health issues because SOMEHOW, every time, my communication issues with my one partner overshadow my own personal bullshit to the point of obscuring it entirely.
it would be a lot easier to work through the compulsion to explain in excruciating detail to the best of my ability exactly what i'm doing and exactly why and how i got there if talking to them about ANYTHING and bringing ANYTHING up didn't lead to them jumping to the worst possible option even when there is no indication that was even a POSSIBILITY open to interpreting.
like. i do not feel comfortable telling them when i'm having health problems come up because if i do it ahead of time they jump to the conclusion that i'm going to fall to pieces on my own and that nothing will be done about it and that i'm just going to crumble and i do not know without shoving it in their face that i am actually really well supported and cared for up here, and i'm not alone and without connections - and truly i never have been it's just whether or not the connections i had were reliable or easy to access like.
Like i get it i was there i was alone and didn't have anyone and worried that any bad thing that happened to my people far away that i learned about was a bigger catastrophe than they were telling me. But after MULTIPLE times of being told that no that's not what was happening - or even just idk like *waiting* for more information??? i got over it so long as the wording isn't too ominous.
if it's important it will get back to me, and even if it's not important i'm probably gonna learn about it at some point. And i just want them to get to that point with me too - we've been chatting regularly for years now, and i've brought stuff up previously, we had the whole debacle of confusion, and i really thought i'd been clear and i know, i know that they have things to work on on their own but like.
if i don't give enough information they panic and assume something REALLY bad is going on when i'm just like. giving them a heads up about what i'm doing because i don't want them to worry. If i give too much information it's an attack and they assume they've done something wrong so i then have to turn around and comfort them and hold their hand through telling them that it's not even a little about them but in a nice way.
and god forbid i actually have something that concerns me i'd like to bring up because if i don't explain EXACTLY what i mean covering as many unlikely conclusions to be leapt to as possible, they're just going to start beating themself up for being the worst person in the world and i don't know that i can DO that right now.
Especially with everything else that's just come up like.
i'm glad i've made the decision not to allude to the current health concern when talking to them because like. i've barely processed that and they will be of NO HELP in comforting me through this process, and like i understand it's scary to hear especially if you care about me, but like. i understand that because I'm currently the one experiencing it thank you very much. I do not want to have to coddle and hold someone else's hand when i'm barely processing that it's a thing i finally brought up with the doctor at all.
like.
that's a surefire way to learn you don't get to learn any more about my health concerns, is either making yourself the one who needs to be cared for about it, or dismissing things and like. no they don't dismiss my health concerns but they also don't read the messages I send.
....i think that's what bothers me. They are receiving the messages they are skimming them, making interpretations and connections that aren't there, and then reacting to that. They're not even reading between the lines they're reading between lines i didn't fucking write. And it's exhausting! I.... I want to be there for them while they work on this and figure it out because i know they are working on it. but god i don't think i can. i have doctor appointments to schedule and get to. I've got a surgery scheduled. This isn't. like.
i don't have time to walk you through healing and becoming yourself, i barely have the time and energy to work through my own and i'm helping you because i love you but for fucks sake you're making this fucking difficult.
....and it's not a good sign i wish they'd remembered they'd broken up with me so i wouldn't have to go through all this. i'm STILL reeling from that revelation frankly and i'm very concerned they're expecting me to be cool with progressing the relationship back to a point we hadn't been at in almost a year in just a few months after SIX MONTHS of me thinking we were just friends again. L I K E. what.
how is my life this. how is this the thing that overtakes my day when i just found out my tits might be sick like. are you serious. i was just warning you that a flare up/crash was coming because i've been pushing myself too hard and sometimes that makes me tired and incommunicative and i didn't want to drop off the face of the planet because i CARE ABOUT YOU STUPID.
i just. i want to be so mean. i want to be mean and cruel and nasty about this because like. bitch. how can i ever think of leaning on you for support if every time i do you make me pick you back up and walk you through the whole thing *please* do your own hard work please please PLEASE.
like.
and i know they are i know they're working on their own things and stuff and i get it, i get that they haven't had as much time to consider their healing and such and GOD i hope i wasn't this difficult to talk to back in the day but if i was i am so fucking sorry for putting anyone through this holy FUCK.
but like i've just learned it's entirely possible i could end up with a state-sanctioned top surgery, and like. I can't talk to one of my partners about it because doing so has the very high likelihood of me having to support and comfort them through it and frankly right now, that should be *me*.
like the warning i gave them was BEFORE the dr visit - i was just warning them about a normal and pretty foreseeable flare-up that i go through every time i overdo some shit because i forget i'm disabled like that just happens and it happens pretty regularly but i didn't warn them about previous ones because the worst ones i've had in recent history happened over the summer when i was under the impression we were not dating. like are you KIDDING me. this is just normal shit i'm sorry you're not a part of it normally i'm sorry i dno't keep up with you as best as i could i know the long distance is a two way street but like.
c'mon man. please. please just. be a safer place dammit. people i just met 3 months ago are being better about offering me comfort and shit in these tryingtimes and i haven't even explained what's going on to them yet. we've known each other for 11 years now you NEED to get on the program or I'm going to need to let you heal by yourself until we're both different people and we can maybe try again like GOD.
...anyway i'm not like. actively dying everything is fine i'm okay. it's scary and unknown but it's also been a thing for 15+ years and at this point like if it was gonna kill me dead i'd be long gone. i'm just Scared and Overwhelmed with the implications and also scheduled a whole surgery (unrelated, but important) so like. it's Fine and everything is going to be Fine whatever the outcome is, because worst case scenario the email that will blow my tits clean off will come in and like as a trans person who would enjoy the ability to have removable tits i'm not *mad* about that option it's just. on a bit of a quicker time scale than i was anticipating.
also the catholic hospital system says i don't need any other reasons to get my tubes out so like i'm not gonna be mad about my dr visit today
just a little scared. which i feel is super fine and normal and actually i'm probably underselling it a little. which is okay! because i'm okay! i'm not dying i'm just. got more health shit.
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apeiiron · 4 days ago
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Hiiii
you told me to message you, so here I am 😁 So I don't remember when it was but there was a question for Joel about how they will go about the fall, and he said that they plan to keep it light hearted (although I don't know if they will stick to it if we take into consideration how the whole vibe of the show changed after Mary) bud definitely they will not make us wait that long, because there is no way that would work, Joel said something like: we won't be that cruel, Sherlock will probably come back after few days.
So that's that if i remember which interview it was exactly I will send it to you.
[Spoilers for future Sherlock and Co episodes and Wisteria Lodge.]
Thank you so much, I've been panicking about Reichenback since I got into the podcast to be honest, definitely made worse by Wisteria Lodge. You are an angel.
That was a roller-coaster and a half.
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weakinthekneez · 7 months ago
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having a MASSIVE crush on a cis man as a trans guy is not for the weak
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coffeebanana · 2 years ago
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moving is truly full of all sorts of fun adventures like "YAY my new dresser came" followed by "FUCK where did i put the screwdriver?"
this is still infinitely better than last week's saga of "FUCK YOU IKEA I WANTED MY APPLIANCES NOW NOT IN TWO WEEKS"
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pangur-and-grim · 5 days ago
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also I got a tattoo partially re-coloured today and they bandaged me in veterinary wrap like I'm a sick horse
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fleshchyme · 5 days ago
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Sooo my Russian essay ended up being like less than half a page and I'm just really, really fucking embarrassed and kicking myself for not being equipped enough to fully express myself and instead relying on canned phrases that I've memorized so far, and that still wasn't enough
Just realizing how much I don't know is daunting
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roamalongwithme · 12 days ago
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skostsyy · 4 months ago
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andaniellight · 7 months ago
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sobbing crying while writing 'character study' tag ONCE AGAIN on a wip because i did not expect to get attached to the this new piece of media so soon and so solidly
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egophiliac · 19 days ago
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don't think I'm not still obsessing over 7-12
#art#twisted wonderland#twisted wonderland spoilers#twisted wonderland episode 7 spoilers#twisted wonderland book 7 spoilers#twisted wonderland episode 7 part 12 spoilers#twisted wonderland book 7 part 12 spoilers#sorry it's even scribblier than usual :') hopefully my chickenscratch is legible#anyway come here and join me in the corner where we go to be embarrassing about anime characters#just. between riddle and trey's dreams i've been thinking a lot about how#trey knew this kid for like two months when he was nine and then never really got over him or how their friendship ended#which. honestly. understandable given the circumstances#and then when they finally met again riddle acted like they'd never met before and neither he nor trey ever intended trey to be his vice#but every time riddle talks about his childhood post-incident it's basically#'oh yeah i constantly thought about trey and che'nya and fantasized about still being friends with them! this is fine and normal'#(there's a bit in one of his birthday cards where he talks about crossword puzzles and shit man that one got me)#idk. i can't put this into words very well#just...the implications that riddle was actively resisting trey's friendship#(presumably because it ended SUPER badly last time and he's learned that if he shows he wants something it gets taken away from him)#and trey had to work REALLY hard to just to get to the point they were at by the time canon starts#that was progress somehow#y'all can call him boring all you want but trey's defining feature really is that he keeps being like#'everything's fine :) this isn't a big deal :) i don't care that much'#(trey on the inside: THIS IS THE BIGGEST DEAL THAT I CARE SO MUCH ABOUT AND I WILL NEVER LET IT GO)#anyway i continue to be absolutely murdered by the timing of riddlepunzel directly after this#riddle's line about not wanting to keep standing in front of a door that's never going to open...#hey. hey silly gacha game about anime disney boys.#you are not actually allowed to do this to me#oh shit oh damn i'm out of tags and i haven't even talked about cater yet. NO BUT I HAVE LOTS OF FEELINGS THERE TOO --#(i am crushed under a falling safe looney tunes style)
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jkvjimin · 7 months ago
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one time for the present, two time for the past ♪
JIMIN, TAEHYUNG & JUNGKOOK
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thatfanfictionchick · 1 year ago
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It's November and despite telling myself I wouldn't I really want Floyd's birthday card but the dragon bois are coming and New Years is almost here and it's Ruggie's turn but then Cater's birthday is February and I don't know when the Sunset Savanna event will drop and not to tap my inner drama queen too hard but I will literally die if I don't get Leona's Kingly Garb card and
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Reminder for my fellow gacha playing peeps that unless you can afford to whale for this game every month to get every card you should definitely find out your faves birthday so you can prepare ahead of time 🎂
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saltpepperbeard · 2 years ago
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"You made me forget myself. I thought I was someone else, someone good."
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