#it's entertaining AND cathartic

[thisisallthehattersfault]

I haven't read the Ace novels yet but I read the manga not too long ago and. Deuce baby I'm so sorry. I'm sure you're a great character but your fans are so delusional and obnoxious that I've started to hate you by proxy.

Like, the fact that every single Ace/Deuce or even just Deuce-centric fic is OOC Whitebeard Bashing that completely ignores Ace's autonomy in order to make him a sad pathetic widdol UwU babu who was tricked and manipulated and oppressed by the Whitebeards and needs Deuce to save him from himself~

It's all just. Like obviously that's not Deuce's fault and he seems cool when he shows up as a minor character in Ace-centric or Whitebeard Crew fics but good lord at this point every time I saw him on a manga panel I had a visceral reaction of like. Ugh. You creepy stalker incel, go away, Ace isn't gonna fuck you.

Which is not fair to Deuce! As far as I know he did nothing wrong! But Here We Are. Let's hope it gets better after I read the novels and get to know this guy outside of fanon.

[akkivee]

another piece of relevant information i think you all need to know from the hypster magazine is that hitoya recently published a book!!!!

the book itself is irrelevant tho, he held a book talk and signing event and all hundred or so seats sold out since y’know, the hypmic boys are technically idols in their universe and everyone wants to see drb participants, but bc of that a bunch of tickets had been scalped and only a handful showed up so hitoya got on the phone and called a bunch of people and got the scalpers arrested, some of which were in the crowd, and there was cheering, the audience clapped and obama was there—

[auroral-melody]

Please give your Lucifer and Dream a pair of cats!

*clears throat and answers another 2 year old ask*

well i actually have an au in which lucifer gets an emotional support cat named Lysander ("it's lysander, mazikeen. not lysie, not fluffy. lysander.") it's a tabby american forest cat

i never really thought about giving one to dream but after a moment's thought i decided a quick sketch was enough

[warmrainonawinterday]

Forget "I have the blood of Akasha in me".

If Lestat had really wanted to deal psychic damage to Armand he could have mentioned that another vampire whose blood he has flowing through his veins is Marius.

[ghostdnfie]

'i have a right to crash out. i actually need to crash out more' PLEASE DO.

[kate-apologist]

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[positivelyapunovexponent-good]

It is only 9AM and today is already wretched.

Woke up at 5:50AM, exhausted. Stomach hurts. Tried for an hour to fall back asleep but couldn't. And of course, the mystery bone that appeared on the porch of the house is still there. The bone materialized two days ago. Probably a chicken bone. Neatly arranged on our porch railing. At least I hope it's a chicken bone. That's probably the least unsettling type of bone it could be.

My housemates say they didn't put it there and I believe them. We don't even eat chicken generally. Or... other things that could have produced a bone of those dimensions. So who else? Raccoons? The Planks*? A serial killer? (a chicken serial killer???)

The night before last the bone was moved from one side of the porch to the other. Still neatly placed. Roughly parallel to the wood grain.

The bone is attracting yellowjackets. I do not like yellowjackets. Well this is untrue- I like yellowjackets quite a lot actually. They're fun to learn about. They're important to the ecosystem. But I am wildly spheksophobic and I cannot leave the house while they are There. On the bone. On the porch. Right. By. The Door.

I am trapped and it is a problem. I am missing a math TA meeting. It's an optional TA meeting, but I feel bad because the professor is bringing food. Probably food I can't eat. My stomach hurts. But it's a nice thought and I feel impolite.

Maybe I should make an excuse. How should the email go? "dear professor I'm sorry I couldn't make it to the meeting there's a BUG on a BONE and I do not know how it got there. The bone, I mean. The bug presumably flew sincerely Svet PS the bug is a yellowjacket** that's why it can fly

PPS Did you know adult yellowjackets primarily consume plant sugars? It's actually the larvae that need the protein in meat. It's a sweet, that the yellowjacket is on the bone specifically in effort to feed its own. I hope it gets enough protein. Still scared of it though

PPPS Yellowjackets are in fact the most eusocial of all wasp species! That's why they're so aggressive, they have something bigger than themselves to protect. unlike me I'm just scared for my own skin. And I'm not aggressive at all in fact I'm rather passive and pathetic. I wish I was more like a yellowjacket "

yeahh maybe I should not write an email it sounds daft when I put it in words. The yellowjacket is minding its own business. I should just be able to leave. But I can't make myself get through the front door. Stupid brain. Stupid bone. Why is the bone where it shouldn't be??

so- guess I'll just watch the bone in hopes the yellowjacket is kind enough to give me an opening to leave before my class starts at 11AM :/. Hope the chicken serial killer menacing the house doesn't get me first. Because I do fit the victim profile, given that I'm being rather chicken right now

*I named all the squirrels in our yard Max Plank because he's my favorite physicist. Collectively they're The Planks, naturally

**actually scientifically yellowjackets are order Hymenoptera while bug scientifically only refers to order Hemiptera so it would be inaccurate to call the yellowjacket a bug even for alliterative reasons, which is another reason I probably shouldn't send the above email. Can't have the math professor I work for knowing I don't have my insect orders straight. what a mortifying thought

[theparadoxmachine]

Just got tricked into watching half a religious "horror" movie about the rapture because it auto played after I watched the Quiet Ones (watched for Jared Harris, not great not terrible, worth it to see him being problematic while wearing stripey pajamas) and I want to rage about how awful and stupid and smug it was, like full audio essay style rant but my body is begging me to get some sleep so instead I just changed into my Exorcist t-shirt

*edit* that Chernobyl reference was entirely unintentional*

[4x18hawkeye]

just rewatched "life time" ohhhh my god

[iridescentis]

im struggling to write wwy atm bc i really want to write angst but we're not quite there yet and im impatient

idk what it is about being tired i just want to traumatise these characters

[96theater]

prev reminds me one of my favorite relationships in anything is sigurd, deirdre, arvis, julius, julia and seliph from fe4. the drama. i want someone to revive staff arvis, deirdre, julius and sigurd and make them all attend a family function together like it would be so fucking awful. i want to see sigurd trying to drown arvis in the punch bowl while deirdre and her kids try and fail to restrain him. i want julius to awkwardly apologize for the whole child sacrifices thing. it would be so horrible and i would eat up every second of it

[senorboombastic]

Listening Post – February 2024

Words: Andy Hughes Eagle-eyed readers might’ve spotted the lack of a ‘Listening Post’ at the start of the year. We’ve been a bit busy launching a podcast you see – ’60 Minutes or less’ – live now, featuring interesting chats with Joe Casey (Protomartyr) and Paul Hanley (The Fall)! That doesn’t mean we’ve had our ears closed to new music, mind. Alongside our bumper playlist for the year…

[tojisun]

something about price slapping your pussy after fucking it all bruised and sensitive makes me dizzy. thinking about the heavy and consistent slaps on your cunt; the way he’s bullying it with a quiet tut.

“what a desperate cunt y’have,” he murmurs after a wet gush, your squirt and slick spreading to your pelvis and thighs with each smacks. “need to keep ‘er entertained, don’t i? always needy — it doesn’t even need t’be my cock.”

he sighs in faux disappointment. “such a greedy girl.”

you gurgle your replies, unable to properly speak with the searing pain and blistering pleasure blending into something so cathartic, your toes are curled at your peaking euphoria.

bloating.

the orgasm is close. closecloseclose—

john’s hands still, roughened palm gently falling to the meat of your thigh instead. he leans close, eyes crinkled as he smiles down at you.

“no cummin’ yet, kid,” he croons, breathless.

fuck. him.

[starshine-shimmyshufflesmile]

And over in this corner we have

Daniel

"took one look at all his fellow human beings and said: oh yeah fuck you all Ima absolutely slit every one your throats if it means I get what I want and I will dedicate a decade plus and either become that horrific monster or die trying"

Molloy.

Ain't nobody in the VC more a inhuman selfish monster than my darling boy :D

The insane thing is like. Sybelle and Benjamin chose to be serial killers forever. And they love it.

They're more culpable than someone like Lestat or Claudia or even Louis. There is never a whiff of regret there. Anne help

[gothiccharmschool]

I attended a tea party where part of the entertainment was SMASHING thrift store teacups with A HAMMER. Very cathartic, would recommend.

[celestie0]

hi friends, i won’t be posting or updating any of my works for an indefinite period n will be on hiatus from this blog as well.

i’ve unlisted kickoff & ihm on ao3 (haven’t deleted, they’ve just been made private) and i’ve unpinned my masterlist here on tumblr (again nothing’s been deleted so you could probably find the chapters if you searched my tags)

but the reason i did that is because i don’t want any new readers finding my works during my hiatus because i don’t want to potentially upset more people in the event that, during this hiatus, i decide that i would no longer like to write my fics

that would be an insanely sad decision to make. i put so much thought into my stories not because i am trying to make them entertaining, but it’s because they genuinely mean so much to me and are cathartic in ways i can’t describe. i have spent a great majority of my life self negating for the sake of others, and so writing was just a form of expression where i could talk about all the things i’ve suppressed over the years - anxiety, career stress, financial stress, avoidance, depression, loss, coming of age, navigating love, etc

but lately, and i do think it’s been a build up of just some careless words from a handful of people over the months, i find myself steering towards a practice of writing that is no longer asking the question “how can i put as much of myself in this piece as possible?” but rather “how can i make sure people won’t criticize this…i feel awful that it doesn’t have what they want it to have…other creators are doing xyz, should i be doing that too?…i’m just scared to share this”

not exactly sure when that shift in headspace began, but as of right now, it’s as strong as ever. and i understand that those questions may seem irrational, and i just have to try to not focus on the feeling, n i wish i was someone that could compartmentalize those thoughts better, but here’s the thing — the whole reason i started expressing myself through writing in the first place was because i’ve spent my whole life compartmentalizing. it would feel so ironic & untrue to the lessons i’ve learned in this journey if i just chose to “suck this up” and continue pushing forward until i reach a point of burnout simply because i don’t want to upset anyone

i’m really sorry i couldn’t focus on the positive. especially with all the insane n incredible amount of love n support i’ve received for my works. i’ve said this time n time again but when i started posting kickoff to ao3 back in january of this year, i had NO idea it would be this loved by so many people…i was like ok can’t wait to interact w these four readers for the rest of the year…and then BAM, i find myself fully sobbing after each chapter update because i was so touched by all the sweet n kind words. i don’t want this decision to come off in a way that makes it seems like i don’t love u guys sm or that i’m ungrateful — i’ve always taken pride in respecting my audience. even for a simple hobby, i try to put effort into my works. i proofread, i plan out, i edit in length, all because i am, well, for one, i’m a bit of a perfectionist LOL but also i think there’s a great deal of honor in respecting an audience that gives you their time n attention

but i already am struggling in my life to focus on the positive. medicine has been such an incredibly daunting career to pursue, i’m honestly only doing slightly better now because i’m just filled with relief that i got into med school to begin with lol it’s still surreal to me, so the stress has been kinda manageable so far on that sense of optimism, but dear god the shit i went through to get here…and the shit i know i still face ahead of me. i spend all of my serotonin on trying to stay positive in the face of my responsibilities. so all of this time i’ve spent trying to stay positive for the sake of my stories too has just left me with so much exhaustion — i just don’t see why posting my works should be anything less than fun and endlessly exciting when it’s a hobby that’s supposed to help me thru the actual brunt of life.

anyways, i’m getting a little carried away here. all this to say, i just need to take time away from posting my works so i can see writing as something for myself n not for others again. i don’t want the thoughts swimming in my head to be thoughts of anxiety over people potentially criticizing me n my creative decisions. i want the thoughts in my head to once again be positive, excited, and nurturing towards my stories. i don’t see how i can accomplish that at this point unless i start writing for myself once more, and not for others

i still have a great deal of passion to write, which is why i haven’t formally taken down my works. i anticipate that i may be able to come back in the future to share my writing again. but as of right now, i just want to heal the relationship that i have with this hobby, and i feel like that’s gotta happen in private (lmfao it sounds like im tryna freak my writing)

i’m sorry that i turned off my asks n my replies, i know so many of u care about me n want to support me n i just am beyond thankful. i don’t anticipate this is a forever goodbye, but i do just need some time rn away from all of this.

hope u all have a happy time!! and take care of yourselves :) much love

- ellie