#it's emotionally taxing lol

[neversetyoufree]

Wrote two whole responses to replies today because I am the best and bravest blogger in the whole world <3

[limpart]

[jojosgaylittleadventure]

This is the fourth fic in my Josuyaus series that takes place while they're still in high school You can find my series here I also have a master post of all my Josuyasu writing here

Summary: After a study session gone wrong, Josuke finds himself needing somewhere he can feel safe and at home and that some where turns out to be Okuyasu. Tags: Post-Canon, Pre-Relationship, Friendship, Hurt/Comfort, the following tags are not from/between the ship (just an fyi), Non-Consensual Kissing, Non-Consensual Touching, Side Character/Main Character Attempted Sexual Assault, Attempted Sexual Assault, Emotional/Psychological Abuse, Victim Blaming

[bardkin]

i feel like a Ton of therians, alterhumans, nonhumans, & otherkin would get a kick out of Meadow~

it's basically a virtual world where you're a woodland critter and you just hang out & find collectables, and you communicate via emotes & pictographs + it's super pretty :3

[malaierba]

Well since I'm slerpdeprived and thinking about "what's worse than two parents with issues? THREE parents with issues"

The interesting thing about the "Cain/Abel are Lucifer's child" theories is that genetically speaking it doesn't even matter. The children are made of Eve's egg and Lucifer's sperm. Eve was made from Adam's rib (assuming that the show will follow that canon?), she's made from him DNA, she's genetically his clone.

So Cain/Abel COULD be tested for the parenthood test thing and chances are they'll always match with Adam since they'll match with Eve.

So if it were to be used as a type of "gotcha, not my real dad" Adam probably wouldn't acknowledge it because not only did he raise them in life, the DNA test matches with him too.

Nevermind that he only knew his kids (who either died and went to hell, or were cursed to wander and lived for centuries, had nomad kids etc, THEN died and went to hell, assuming that that's where Cain is ofc) for like 0.05% of their existence.

Which btw, thinking about the weight and realistic importance of familial bonds forged in earth is very interesting in the context of the afterlife, especially when it comes to ancient souls. I would care who my mom/dad was in 50 years, 150 years, perhaps 500 years, but would I care in 1000 years? I suppose I would acknowledge them in title but after centuries of being an independent adult, wouldn't that change the perceived hierarchy in pretty much any relationship?

That was a tangent but it does go back to what I was originally saying:

Really it's in Cain and/or Abel's best interest that such a test is never taken. ALL it would accomplish is earn them another adult with baggage in their lives and who wants that when you're essentially as old as your human parents (give it take 5 to 20 years depending on how you think the whole Eden thing played out), as old as agriculture, older than civilization etc.

(that's of course grounds for conflict which could be interesting... You're one half of the oldest pair of tragic twins in the history of humanity, you've been a soul for longer than you were human, you kind of have other things going on... Why are your earthly parents still beefing with the devil? In true "I'm an adult and it's made me very judgemental of my parents' unaddressed immaturity", they should be like. Literally who cares. Dude I mean Dad (Adam) are you SURE you don't want to try therapy?)

Like really their only motivation may be to have a claim to the throne of hell or something but assuming that hell laws work as they do in human culture, Eve's kids would be "bastards" so they wouldn't be next in line.

If not political power, there's always the possibility of fucking up spectacularly with a series of bad deals and now they really need to have access to the Morningstar funds or be in the will or something, but hm idk. On the fence about this idea. I suppose it could be executed in an interesting way.

I'm so tired I feel like this post got away from me. No conclusion! Just more aimless rambling in the tags

[rotworld]

this is about you, and him, and the chasm a person leaves in their wake. in which you are a former classmate of both gojo and geto and the past is not ready to let you go.

->gojo/reader and geto/reader. eventually explicit; will contain noncon, dubcon, emotional manipulation, a whole lot of angst, depression, grief/mourning, unhealthy relationships, unhealthy coping mechanisms, love triangles, and bullying. also contains spoilers for geto-releated manga reveals.

[chompe-diem]

relistening to the d&d court with ify (wifeworm!) and i forgot at the end he says how d&d shows cheese good story moments here and there LMAO

[kessielrg]

“Humans are terrifying. We’re amazing. We’re stupid and brilliant and fucked up all the same. At the end of it all, we’ve only got one shot to make an impression. Some of us can make good ones, others can’t. Or won’t. But we all get to choose. I choose Ventus. I choose to write letters to him when we’re away. I choose to keep my door open in hopes he’d join me that night. He doesn’t have to. I don’t have to. But we keep doing it.

I can’t keep promises, Aqua. I’ve seen too many be broken despite the complete sincerity of it all. I can’t promise that I can stay with Ven. I can’t promise I’m even what he needs. And yet… and yet I want him. I want him to know me, if only for a small moment in time. I want him to memorize every part of me- the good and the bad. I’ve never felt that way about someone else before. Not even my own adoptive father. Some will call it love, but I don't know. I don't know. I just know that it can’t last forever.”

[blujayonthewing]

friend we're visiting: y'all hype?? how are you feeling about traveling?

me today: [got up, ate breakfast, sat in the garden and painted in my sketchbook, felt tired and shaky afterward]

[plasticdinnerware]

I have hobbies. I love painting. I adore playing my ukulele. I play video games and read shitty romance novels whenever I get a chance.

But like, the way people TALK about hobbies these days… like everything you do on a regular basis should be some marketable side hustle. Or that it should be preformable? Or demonstrable maybe? It just bothers me. It makes me feel like I don’t really have hobbies? Because I love to play random 4 chord songs to myself on my uke when I’m tipsy on the weekends at home by myself— those moments are me alone. I usually stop playing when my partner gets home. But a few times, the part of myself that doesn’t want to starve to death convinced the rest of me that I should try live-streaming my uke sessions. And I don’t want to say I hated it but it was… not nearly as fun (unless J was like, very drunk or smth).

And luckily, my painting has landed me an okay job in the entertainment sector, but now I’ve developed a bad habit or making sure everything that I paint is ‘sellable’. I can barely start a project if I don’t have an attractive end in mind. Why shouldn’t I? Painting is expensive! But making art for the express purpose of selling it, instead of to free my heart a bit hurts. I’d say working in art (I’m not a freelance artist) has even dulled my skill and creativity a bit. I don’t know.

I talk when I play video games. Anyone who hears me laughs at my timely jokes or my stupid little asides. Of course I like to think I’m funny, but I don’t think I’m as funny as my friends say I am. Certainly not funny enough to carry a live stream or a YouTube let’s play on my own.

And I’m DEFINITELY not cut out to review books.

And at each and every turn, I back away from monetizing these things I like. Not because I’m trying to make any statement— trust me, I’d LOVE to love doing the things I get paid for. And again, at each and every turn, there’s this push to squeeze pennies out of your every day life. And I could really use those pennies!!! That’s why I started this fucking blog! I don’t want to work 2-4 jobs any given month and still worry about the water getting shut off! But turning the few methods that I have of coping with reality into different ways of contributing to that reality makes something in me wither.

Perhaps it is the environment I’m in that makes me feel this way, but I’m surrounded by other starving people. Of course we are all obsessed with ways to make another dollar! At the end of the month, that dollar could mean the difference between homelessness and four walls! Everyone is only trying to offer me advice that boils down to “do what you have to do to survive!” I appreciate that, honestly, as tiring as it is.

Isn’t that somber?

I’m not asking for anything. I’m not suggesting anything either. I’m just voicing a struggle.

[quenthel]

maybe i should not be working with any government bc every time i have to negotiate smthing i want to explode the other person with my brain or attack them w knives... to be fair this negotiation was abt where we will live abroad but i still felt like i have to kill him in order to achieve my dreams (and he made my mom upset) thankfully i was not the one speaking and hold no power but now im reconsidering things

[lauradonnelly]

tas my beloved are you okay 🥺💕

my sweet fyscka 🥺

[literupture]

oh yeah i got my hair dyed for the first time ever on saturday!! it’s teal balayge and i’m really happy with how it came out, except the type of bangs i got are something i’m not used to :x i should’ve gone with sideswept but i wanted to try something 100% new. also REALLY needed the cut bc my hair was down to my butt and i was getting tired of it lol (particularly adjusting in bed when i’d be slightly on my hair was annoying). now it’s just past my boobas in length

so i haven’t washed my hair since bc i want the dye to last but i’ll wash it later today finally! first i gotta go back to the salon and tell em that their rotating heat lamp thingy burned part of my scalp tho :/ i did mention it to the stylist when she left me alone under the heat lamp that my hair started sizzling and i had to sit forward bc it was too hot and she was just like “oh ok.” i was gonna let it slide but my partner took a look at it last night and was like “geezus... you’ll be okay  but at the very least we need to show them to tell them to be more careful” and im like super anxious bc i don’t wanna cause a scene lol. plus my hair looks greasy af rn :x

if it weren’t for his reaction and the fact that it cost a lot of money i’d just forget it lol. but he’s right that they should at least be informed about it if they’re gonna leave people unattended. if that happened to a karen or something that salon would be fucked

on an unrelated note i’ve basically gone back to a “normal” person’s sleep schedule, p much cold turkey. and im tired af rn but it’s weird how much daylight i’ve been getting?? what with getting a dog and all plus im prepping for when my best friend visits for a week (since on my prev sleep schedule most places would be closing when i’d be waking up). i’m gonna miss the quiet late night hours but i’ve been mostly enjoying the daytime so far

[scarletooyoroi]

Examine + Liloupar's bottle.

How rare is it for the darkened flames of hatred to proudly bloom within your heart?

Wrath, conscious irritation, many of these sensations are often in your understandable realm of control. It's either a weakness used as strength, or taken advantage of, and you accept that. Their journey amidst the lands of Hadramaveth required you and Lumine to journey alongside someone that you found absolutely insufferable. The way you could envision this lost spirit within the body greedily licking their imaginary lips at the suffering of others.

Where betrayal becomes their life's blood and beloved work.

How future generations found themselves strung to her tune well before any branch of conception.

Seeing Lumine being used as a battery pertaining power, strength siphoned often being exchanged with the madness of nightmares or viscerally feeling the poisonous ichor of what ran within the Jinni's heart.

How their bigoted views upon those who live within the desert was flaunted with pride. Time and time again leading to many arguments that held you running ragged with breath against Liloupar's callousness.

With a wish he could just annihilate the damn being and be done with it.

Life however would never be that simple. In order for them to find success in this journey, an unwilling alliance had to be forged between the Jinni and their new Princess. You failed horribly to hide your distaste of bringing any connection of their existence tied to Lumine. All you could really imagine was the extent of hell Gurabad conceived and endured, witnessing one of their living puppeteer's revealing more genuine truth to the history of a land cursed by ambition.

The bottle's fluorescence with heavenly wings, a pristine, clear frame and the otherworldly looking cap serves as bastardizing levels of irony. For the wishes of Jeht, for the determination to do something to make things a bit better, and to be a vigil partner for Lumine's journey, the struggle is monumental to contain yourself.

Contain however you will. Enough to keep civil, but never enough to gnash and fight back whenever those horrendous, venomous sayings are spouted.

Isn't it the greatest branch of irony that a heavenly being is your Antithesis? A complete mockery to anything loyal and righteous?

@inyvat

[thornsnvultures]

I'm more than a third of the way through this bolero I'm crocheting and I don't like the yarn anymore 🙃 I tried it on and it's definitely too heavy and hot for summer. I don't want all these hours of work to go to waste ���� but I'm out of this particular yarn so it's like.. do I buy more of the same yarn or scrounge together some of my other, softer yarn and make something lighter & multi-colored?

[albedobeheading]

so i work at an ice cream shop now and like. it is fine and i prefer working with cold food over the fried chicken place i worked during last summer. but idk why I’m having such a terrible mental block over going to work again?? i think it may be the distance and I don’t like closing bc sometimes the last bus has already left by the time I’m done

and like I get good tips bc a lot of people come in especially on weekends but god I just. Do not want to work lmao shocker