#it's customer service tho cri

[weather-phenomenon]

not sure like if i shld trust this place i mean it's like a well established well known business but they're always hiring but like they have short contracts so i guess thta why idk they are already advertising christmas part time employment so i signed up we'll see eh

[locamotivednp]

tell me about your phannie journey?

How did you know I was in a mood to yap about dnp and myself anon?

Under a cut cause it’s long and self-indulgent

I started watching in summer 2012. I actually looked up my first video a few month ago and it was The Meaning of Life. Which yeah, tracks. I then tore through their backlog. I was immediately a phan shipper btw. I saw the blindfolded cat video and just knew.

I was on tumblr at the time (not on this blog, on my first blog) and dipped my toes into the phandom at the time. Mostly just lurked but it was fun.

Until the video leaked in October. Things were chaotic to say the least. And then there was the customer service blog which,,, was,,, bad.

I was 16 almost 17 and fully aware I was queer. A lot of the conversations at the time from the phandom (and from dan sorrryyyy) were not great and I didn’t really want anything to do with it.

So I had left the phandom pretty completely in 2013 although I still kept up with their videos and would occasionally lurk in the tag.

And then I started college in 2014 and completely left fandom. I stuck around on tumblr for a little bit longer and never left YouTube but I was pretty offline (comparatively). I was living a party hard, study hard lifestyle which didn’t leave much time for online life.

I do remember most of the big phannie stuff. Gaming channel. TATINOF/TABINOF announcement and the fallout from that. BONCAS. So I was kinda keeping up.

Until around 2018, when I started grad school. I was still watching their videos but I was fully off tumblr and wasn’t watching livestreams or anything. So I was aware of the changing vibes in their videos but not thinking much about it. I missed a lot of the II era.

BIG dropped when I was at my job in the state capitol lmao. Absolutly totally blindsided me. Had to wait hours to watch it. Which these days would have been torture but at the time I was less emotionally invested. Still cried tho.

Finished my masters program in 2020 (lol) and moved to Nashville. I worked from home and didn’t know anyone besides my roommates so I got back on tumblr and returned to my chronically online roots.

I was super into the stereos and Phil’s videos at the time. I was aware of WAD and watched Dystopia Daily. I also caught up on a lot of the stuff I missed.

But I didn’t join the tumblr phandom until gaming channel came back. Pretty much as soon as it was announced I was dialed in. I think I made this sideblog when the catboy sweater and pictures dropped. And now I am way more obsessed with them then I ever was in the last 12 years oops 🤷🏻‍♀️

To get sappy, the past year has been the most into phandom I’ve ever been and it’s come at a really important time for me. Real life is so kicking my ass right now and the phandom is such a source of joy and connection for me 🫣

[dreamersville]

FATGUM head cannons

an? i wrote this so long ago i just wanna clear my drafts out😭😭 soo sorry if its bad but you could always send me a request 💜.

- because hes my fav and i love him so much i just wanna tackle his 7 foot ass and love him for the rest of his life... ANYWAYSSSSS 

- this man is known by name (and sometimes order) by every restuarnt in a 10 mile radius of his agency. and i knwo your probably like “he a pro hero ofc they know his name” no. his given name and the first time it happen he was shocked 

- sings in the shower, off key, loud and proud, just straight butchering all and every song in his playlist. 

- his home is custom bulit to him. everything is like 2 feet taller than it would be for somebosy in averge height. somebody (me) said it reminds them of jack and the bean stalk and he doubled over laughing

- kiri and tamaki come over to watch cooking show because one he wouldnt be able to fit as comfortably at their dorms, and two because he got a big ass tv and watching on his tv is so much better, and he got snacks out the ass.  im talking pantry overflowing, with everything. tama used to the system but kiri swears he could get lost in it

- im sorry but, he can only cook stroke inducing food. which makes sense for quirk and what not but dont eat it unless you trying to put yourself in an early in a early grave. smothered everything, if its baked, best believe it was fired first. cheesy everythinggggg like omg, i still love him tho

- his favorite food shows be the baking shows, especially Cupcake Wars. he gets up-fucking-set if his favortite contestant loses or gets kicked off before the finalem hes gonna be talking about it for the rest of the week about how unfair it was and the judges didnt know what they were talking about because how could they not win. 

- relationships hcs or what not

- ahhhhhhh love language is most definitely acts of service and quality time. he livesss for when he got a second to just hold you, or be in your presence. it just so calming to him, the acts of service parts is bringing you food to try. ooo when he went on a mission outside of Esuha City he sends you a selfie with  e v e r y new food/ drink he tries on his mission. so expect a lot of of pictures and sometimes videos from him

- top tier cuddles in that giantic ass bed. and he has a weighted blanket with a big ass fan AND black out curtains ????? need i say more

- drags you down into his baking show addiction, but yall always tend to go for the rivals. so yall make bets on who’s gonna last longer. right now you’re winning 7 - 6 

- but you watch Extreme Cake Makers and write down recpies you wanna try and little things the contestant did so you could test it out. so you have notes deicted to ths and you sometimes go back and rewatch episodes to catch small stuff that you missed. he lovess when you get like this all nerdy and focused, it soo cute ugh. 

- likes to take you through the city at night because its look pretty at night when its lit up. you take a lot of pictures of bridges and in front of different signs and stuff

- omg, if you just so happen to walk past the shower whiles he in there singing his heart out, he’s gonna stop singing and say “take it away babe”. 

- a sucker for your southern nicknames. all the sugar, sweetness, bubs/bubba, honey. say anyyy of these and this man is at your feetready to do anything and everything just to hear you call him that again

- baby be feening for thanksgiving and christmas to come around. first time he was on a long mission, was gone for a week and came back on thanksgiving eve to see that you were cooking up a feast, he was so happy he cried.

ik the ending seems kind meh .. but then again this been sitting in my drafts

[opiazapine]

15 q’s 15 frensZ

tagged by @pierochan

1. are u named after anybody?

Not to my knowledge

2. when was the last time you cried?

It happens sometimes when I wake up for seemingly no reason so probably few days ago?

3. do you have kids?

One and done 👀

4. what sports do u play/have u played?

I was that kid in sports. Did gymnastics, soccer, tennis, competitive swimming, softball, karate, ballet... I'll still play tennis even tho I have no idea how to do it "properly" anymore it's just fun to hit the ball.

5. do u use sarcasm?

Hardly ever

6. what is the first thing u notice about ppl?

Online: What stuff they're into, if we have any shared interests, etc. IRL: How much of a potential threat they are. Don't know how to turn this function of PTSD off but it's saved my ass more than once so...?

7. what’s ur eye color?

Brown but not black brown and not hazel brown either. Like a red chestnut color 😊 I came to like my eyes

8. scary movies or happy endings?

I could do both TBH the plot matters the most to me. I like happy endings but I don't think a story needs one necessarily to be good. Sorry for wannabe critic ranting..

9. any talents?

According to others I can write and also draw (but I kind of suck at the last one so IDK if that really counts?)

10. where were u born?

BAKO in Central Cali if u know u know!!!!

11. what are your hobbies?

Anime and Manga. Foreign / Indie / Obscure / Classic films, & documentaries. Walking... yeah. Swimming in the ocean. Eating a dish I've never tasted before.

12. do u have any pets?

No but it would be awesome to have a chicken one day. Love those guys. I also love pigeons

13. how tall are u?

5ft3

14. fav subject in school?

To be clear I was a high-school drop out in freshman year. But before it was history class.

15. dream job?

Working in a cold warehouse packing produce is one. Working back of house in a small restaurant. Processing prepackaged food. Cleaning for the SoFi Stadium or Dodgers. Most unrealistic? Being a TSA agent. I did customer service long enough I want a job where I get to do the yelling. Lmao

Thanks for tagging sorry I'm so bad at this 😅 but I'm glad someone thought of me. I'm antisocial asf so don't know who to tag again I am so sorry but anybody mutual w me I'd love to read yours. Tagging (if it's ok..)

@ramlamb3 @darlingdeadbydisconnect @sativasaruh @nek0hime13 @suqqubus @conejita666 @cherub-pixie @vergilsguccibelt @atticmoth @shonenknife @r0tt3n-ch3rry

[renjuntothemoon]

the ends of the earth that aren't so far by boxysmiles (Teen And Up Audiences, 33,148 words)

"Donghyuck, Jaemin. Jaemin, Donghyuck," Renjun says, taking any excuse to try and cut off Jisung and Chenle's argument. So, immediately, there goes his plan to ignore Jaemin's entire existence. He steels himself and turns to Jaemin, plastering on his best customer-service smile that he has to bring up from the depths when a client is being particularly difficult. Soulmate, meet soulmate.

Trying to find a way to break the soulmate bond, Donghyuck moves away for two years, until the pain of the distance brings him back home. Naturally, when he returns, he meets the very person he's been trying to avoid for all his life.

My thoughts: the only thing stopping this utterly fantastic fic from being perfect was the lack of reveal at the end *cries*, the best part of a secret (relationship) is the revealllllllll, it's still sooo good tho

AO3 Tags: Alternate Universe - Modern with Magic, Alternate Universe - Soulmates, Domestic Fluff, technically i think this counts as, Enemies to Lovers, enemies to housemates to domestically married to lovers, Mild Hurt/Comfort, Minor Huang Ren Jun/Lee Jeno, soulmates that hurt with distance, Getting Together

[babygirlspurgeon]

15 People 15 Questions

thank you @giveemgreef and @girlfriendline for the tag!!! 💖

1. are you named after anyone?

no but the line “Remember, like, a few years ago, every other boy was named Jason, and the girls were all named Brittany?” from the seminal classic animated movie Hercules is about me

2. when was the last time you cried?

i cry…… very easily to music when i’m feeling it so a few days ago with that. real crying? sometime in the last week over something very stupid (favorite tv show being stupid)

3. do you have kids?

no and the older i get the less i want any (i did help a lot my sister so i kinda already did it a bit ya know)

4. what sports do you play/have you played?

i played rec soccer from 8-15, tried gymnastics, ice skating, and volleyball as a kid too but dropped them after the first season bc I thought they were boring/was the oldest kid in the class and didn’t like that. also did a summer session of softball with people from work a decade ago (also didn’t like that)

5. do you use sarcasm?

i never use sarcasm i would never do that!!!! (said incredibly sarcastically!!! because no one can stop me!!!!)

6. what’s the first thing you notice about people?

idk height maybe?

7. what’s your eye color?

hazel

8. scary movies or happy endings?

i am a baby and refuse to watch anything remotely thrillery, let alone scary, so very happy endings

9. any talents?

uhhhhhh i can clap with each hand individually which is dumb but always hilarious to watch other people try to do

10. where were you born?

here in (not currently) minnesnowta

11. what are your hobbies?

photography, baking (when not exhausted from bakery job lmao), spending too much time on the internet, watching my hockey team emotionally devastate me, I do enjoy going for walks and I need to do that more for my brain, oh also can't forget them bracelets <3

12. do you have any pets?

not currently but i will share a random photo of my dog who i miss with my whole heart <3

13. how tall are you?

5’4ish

14. favorite subject in school?

math (not stats tho fuck stats) and biology!

15. dream job.

i do not dream of labor <3 my dream for my current job is to lose the customer service aspect of it so i can just make beautiful baked goods and pastries and then go home <3

i’ll tag anyone who hasn’t been tagged yet who hasn’t yet and also @amandaleveille @wildaboutmnhockey @emmowned @ninoniederreiter @letkirillfight

[yostresswritinggirl]

Leyline shenanigans except Niwa and his lover are kids and just having the time of their lives. Niwa confessing that he’s going to marry them and they’re going to happy forever with a toothy grin. Wanderer dies and cries when he sees and hears them. He also swears to avenge them and all of Tatarasuna. Collectible CG of them holding hands and running off while Wanderer stands by their graves. Torn between this or a post Irminsul one where both are adults and the Traveler and Wanderer overhear them discussing adopting rewritten totally not Kabukimono.

Everyone on Tatarasuna already knows they’re married even before the actual wedding. Living together, public hand holding, the not so secret smooching and touching, unofficially adopting Kabukimono as their first child even. MAYBE they should perish before their wedding so it’s one of regrets while Wanderer quietly remembers, realizes after centuries, that they never got the wedding they worked so hard for. They had to push it to the side because they had to focus on the furnace. OH. Would Niwa be stricken off family records before the rewrite because of the blame placed on him? Would his lover have died with him in the furnace post rewrite? Yes.

Sawada and Aqaba researching extensively into the whys and hows of the Babeblades being ride or die for their lovers. Maybe it’s the water in Tatarasuna. Definitely in the blood. But how did it get in there? Genetically predisposed to fall harder than Morax’s meteor. Wanderer looks at them menacingly.

Thinking about Viktor in Sumeru. NPCs in Sumeru hit different. To break down Viktor’s walls and sneak kisses in a dark corner of the Cathedral or take a stroll through Sumeru City. He gives off sub energy. I can feel it. Niwa the service top, Scara the switch with sub tendencies for puppet reader (they’re growing into their true self, a dom), and Kazuha the [redacted].

Bloom anon

Wanderer keeping them in his heart for his journey kill Dottore </33 and a collectible cg for them hhhh an event card, oh oh or even a Mikage Furnace/them as summons for support hnghg - I definitely would lean towards the adult one since my headcanon/fic from before doesn't really show them as childhood friends haha

Let's go with regrets so it would be more dramatic as the supposed betrayal by Niwa hits ten times harder !! Gosh imagine if they told Kabukimono then that he would be their ring bearer or even flower boy awww fuck I'm making myself sadder, just imagine him (after setting up their graves) he would set down two matching rings he had custom ordered back in Sumeru, or or he would swirl a cherry blossom shower around the cliff where their gravestones lay rest *ugly sobbing*

In terms of Niwa tho, I'm not sure - I was gonna say no since his name and history did persist due to the damage either way. And yes actually, they both did die in the furnace as I imagined!

From Wanderer and Kazuha as their source, they ended up making a separate essay about couple traditions of Tatarasuna and how it's valid because the tradition can date back to hundreds of years ago. It's a hit especially for the young scholars hehe Wanderer was only informed of it after it was already published and printed

I can't believe you're still going on about Viktor but as far as I'm concerned you're free to do so, I don't see much or any competitors unless *looks at moots* and Kazuha is a service top/service bottom!

[r6shippingdelivery]

It's me tag

I was tagged by @catfacedvampire! 💜

1- Are you named after anyone?

As far as I know, no. No idea where they got the idea to use this very uncommon name, tho.

2. - When was the last time you cried?

Oh boy 😅 Around the holidays (which for me ended about Jan 7th), the end & start of the year is a bad time for me, I always get melancholic and depressed (which in turn makes me writer blocked too), and after that I had a couple family gatherings that were stressful, so... yeah, I was a pressure cooker of stress, sadness, and not wanting to bother anyone with it.

3. - Do you have kids?

Gods, no. Don't have them and don't plan to have them, either.

4. - Do you use sarcasm a lot?

Idk man, you tell me 🤷

5. - What's the first thing you notice about people?

General appearance, I guess? After all, we all notice first with our eyes. However, the thing I do pay the most attention to during a first meeting is attitude, and the vibes I get from someone (and hopefully, getting clues on how to interact with them)

6. - What's your eye colour?

Brown.

7. - Scary movies or happy endings?

What a silly dichotomy, I like both! Not at the same time tho, I like my horror to be bleak and depressing/have bad endings. But otherwise I love happy endings.

8. - Any special talents?

Uh... I tend to notice flaws/holes in logic pretty easily? Idk, I feel like being a critic is not a special talent tho 😂 Hmm, oh I got one! Despite being fat I can apparently be unnoticed quite often, like sit somewhere in the middle of a room and just keep quiet (and not move) and people don't seem to notice I'm there. Then I suddenly talk and I startle people :p

9. - Where were you born?

On a hospital, like most people.

10. What are your hobbies?

Writing, playing videogames, reading, listening to video essays about almost anything, watching movies & series, bothering my cat.

11. Have you any pets?

Ah, so this is where I had to mention my cat, not the above question, gotcha 😂

12. What sports do you play/ have you played?

None. As a kid, I used to swim, but despite the horrible swimming caps, the wet hair made me get sick a lot during winter.

13. How tall are you?

1.63m

14. Favourite subject in school?

English, Natural Sciences, History.

15. Dream job?

No idea, tbh I'd be over the moon with something that pays decently, isn't incredibly time consuming, and I don't absolutely hate. So, something that has no customer service in it I suppose 😂

Anyone else who wants to and @laminath @simonxriley @bl-beater @swordliger

[ellewidogast]

15 Questions 15 Mutuals

I was tagged by @argyleheir

1. Are you named after anyone? Sorta maybe? I have two much older cousins, one of each side of the family, with the same name. The one on my mom’s side is also my godmother. I’m pretty sure my middle name is from someone too, from my dad’s side I think. The only one I know is my godmother.

2. When was the last time you cried? I think it was while reading danmei, specifically The Arrogant Young Master Became Obedient After Being Bullied. But also my hormones are all over the place and a cute video or picture book can set me off too.

3. Do you have kids? NOPE. I have three nephews and that's more than enough for me.

4. Do you use sarcasm a lot? Pffff, yes.

5. What sports do you play/have played? Only whatever I had to grudgingly participate in during P.E.

6. What's the first thing you notice about people? Their clothes, hair style, expression, demeanor, and posture--in varying order.

7. What's your eye color? Grey-blue, and small yellow flecks around my pupils (what are you, where did you come from, did I always have those).

8. Scary movies or happy endings? I don’t think those are mutually exclusive, but I guess usually happy endings. Some podcasts,  like Women in Caskets and Switchblade Sisters, have convinced me to try out more horror tho.

9. Any special talents? Well, I used to think it was writing, but I’ve done it so rarely for the past several years that whatever skill I had has atrophied...so I guess what I’m saying is no.

10. Where were you born? Texas, but I only spent three years there and did most of my growing up in Missouri.

11. What are your hobbies? Reading (mostly danmei and manga), listening to podcasts, knitting scarves when I make the time for it, thinking about writing (mostly fanfic but sometimes original stuff)

12. Do you have pets? Phoebe: a menace of a cat with questionable grooming skills whose favorite method of communication and play is sinking her claws and teeth into me

13. How tall are you? 5'4 (and 3/4 but saying that makes me feel like a kid bragging about being 5 and a 1/2 and rounding it up to 5′5 feels like a lie)

14. Favorite subject in school? English, gimme those humanities pls & thx

15. Dream job? Lottery winner? If I didn’t have to work, I wouldn’t. I’ll settle for a cataloging librarian position that pays me enough to comfortably support me and several cats and occasionally travel, but also doesn’t require me be a manager or supervisor, and I rarely have to perform customer service.

I tag...uh....I don’t think I have fifteen mutuals lol. Whoever wants to answer some questions, consider yourself tagged!

[plorpoy]

01: Do you have a good relationship with your parents?

Hahaha...

02: Who did you last say “I love you” to?

My boyfriend

03: Do you regret anything?

Being a pretty useless older sister

04: Are you insecure?

Maybe? Sometimes I don't like the way I look and I don't think people like me but rarely does that affect anything I do

05: What is your relationship status?

Long term dating, over 3 years with my partner. We have promise rings.

06: How do you want to die?

I want to be old as shit and I want them to drop me over the ocean and I want to hit it at terminal velocity and die instantly

07: What did you last eat?

My yummy homemade burgers I make with onion rolls and season with love (cayenne) for dinner last night

08: Played any sports?

Does ballet and jazz dance count as a sport? It should

09: Do you bite your nails?

I used to

10: When was your last physical fight?

3rd grade

11: Do you like someone?

Some people are okay?

12: Have you ever stayed up 48 hours?

Try 79

13: Do you hate anyone at the moment?

The government, streaming services, the closing manager on Fridays.

14: Do you miss someone?

My dead brother

15: Have any pets?

Bug (cat), Cheddar (cat), Mia (dog)

16: How exactly are you feeling at the moment?

Annoyed and tired. I want to go home.

17: Ever made out in the bathroom?

Does the shower count? Yeah probably.

18: Are you scared of spiders?

Yes.

19: Would you go back in time if you were given the chance?

No. Not in a million years.

20: Where was the last place you snogged someone?

Wh- snogged??

21: What are your plans for this weekend?

Work. Work. More work.

22: Do you want to have kids? How many?

Not really. If I did, probably 2. I don't want to rob any child of the sibling experience.

23: Do you have piercings? How many?

3.

24: What is/are/were your best subject(s)?

English, Science, History

25: Do you miss anyone from your past?

My dead brother.

26: What are you craving right now?

Attention.

27: Have you ever broken someone’s heart?

Probably not. I've disappointed people though.

28: Have you ever been cheated on?

Twice.

29: Have you made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry?

Not to my knowledge. If I did it's never caused problems. I made my current boyfriend cry because I made him watch a sad movie.

30: What’s irritating you right now?

My landlady. I'm tired of being a chauffeur.

31: Does somebody love you?

Duh.

32: What is your favourite color?

Red

33: Do you have trust issues?

I have a reasonable reluctance to rely on anyone for anything except my partner. No one ever comes through, historically speaking.

34: Who/what was your last dream about?

Rescuing my cat so that she can have babies in comfort. She's been spayed for 3 years.

35: Who was the last person you cried in front of?

My boyfriend

36: Do you give out second chances too easily?

No. I don't give second chances. They have to be earned and requested, otherwise I don't care where you go, just leave me alone.

37: Is it easier to forgive or forget?

Forget. No one inherently deserves forgiveness.

38: Is this year the best year of your life?

Probably. It can only get better from here, and I sure as hell don't want to go back in time.

39: How old were you when you had your first kiss?

17

40: Have you ever walked outside completely naked?

Yes. It was to smoke a joint on my balcony

51: Favourite food?

Ramen noodles

52: Do you believe everything happens for a reason?

No

53: What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night?

Took off my sweater because baggy clothing + blankets sucks in a sensory way

54: Is cheating ever okay?

Depends. Is the cheater actually free to leave the relationship? If not, cheat away. Not my business.

55: Are you mean?

That's entirely subjective. I don't smile at customers when I'm off the clock. It's exhausting. I'm not scared to tell someone when they've messed up or when they're wrong and I can prove it. I'm capable of doing and saying mean things, but 95% of my entire life I've never actually acted on those ideas. If you think I'm mean, I'm probably just tired and need to shut myself away for 72 hours to recover.

56: How many people have you fist fought?

2

57: Do you believe in true love?

Depends on how it's defined. Destiny? No. The ability for two people to mutually love each other above anything else with all honesty and earnest? Yes.

58: Favourite weather?

Partially cloudy/overcast, cool, breezy

59: Do you like the snow?

Usually

60: Do you wanna get married?

When I figure out what marriage actually is I'll decide

61: Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you baby?

When a strong older woman does, yeah. My partner and I call each other love though

62: What makes you happy?

Too much to list here. Currently, and most continuously, art.

63: Would you change your name?

Yes. I want to. I'd probably keep my first name, but my middle and last mean less than nothing to me.

64: Would it be hard to kiss the last person you kissed?

No. I could grab his face and kiss him without warning and he'd smile.

65: Your best friend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?

Mind my business. They know what I'm about.

66: Do you have a friend of the opposite sex who you can act your complete self around?

Kinda? Maybe? They're accepting and wouldn't judge me, but that's not a real answer to the question. Maybe I'm the problem.

67: Who was the last person of the opposite sex you talked to?

My boyfriend. Before that, my landlady's doctor.

68: Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with?

My coworker friend last night. I asked him if he was feeling okay, because he just graduated sober living and was texting me tipsy. He told me about his depression. I told him depression seemed like a reasonable state to be in given everything he'd been through.

69: Do you believe in soulmates?

No

70: Is there anyone you would die for?

I don't know. Would dying be the kindest thing I could do to a loved one in a given scenario?

[mo157chi]

28 / 11 / 2023

Hello, future natasha that will read this later on and ponder; what the fuck have I been doing for the past years.

Isn't it crazy? Life is amazingly crazy.

For the past months, I have been waiting for this time to come-- moved to spain. I have been always loved spain since my first visit last year. And I still love to be here despite the bad water and air quality here, and these lazy spaniards that will always put their rest time on top of everything. Works and parcels are always late. Fuck.

Today's date marks 1 whole month I'm in spain. Who would be in their right mind to imagine, I will stay here. Is it hard to live in a country that barely understands english? ekkk, nothing special. I lived in japan before. Tho the level of customer service, they can never beat japan ofc. But, all is fine. i think..

I've never experienced racism before but, I experienced it here. Tho, not directly to me. But, it's my circles. and i find it very amusing. i am very amused looking at someone's brain sometimes. So, i would say i at least get experienced racism. Now, i understand how it feels when people being racist to you.

And, there are still pundeks who wants to disturb my family and wants my dad money. silly pundeks thinking my father has money. He doesnt even pay for my masters degree. So, shame on you pundeks. I am very tired of having to go thru this again. especially during my studies time. This is exhausting. I feel dull and numb. I cried, i had countless times of panic attacks since yesterday. My eyes hurt from the crying and the allergies i had. (yes, i have allergies flaring on my eyes rn. )

So, i had very terrible headaches in the morning, i felt nauseous and had panic attack. Which then lead me to here; i skipped both of my classes today. I don't think I will be learning anything today as my thoughts are in mess right now. And i definitely do not want to suddenly have panic attacks in front of my classmates.

So, does it really helps me to breakthru this chain of traumatic events and heal in peace once i moved out of malaysia? = it does. a lot.

i am away from my major problems, toxic circles. and i definitely happy because i dont have to worry about why am i not married yet.

I am away from everyone that could be contributing to my pain and suffering without them realising and without them acknowledging it.

hence, despite all of these shits that i have to go thru here. at least, i am away from these painful chain that contribute to my pain.

I am healing. I am going to find myself here. Be happy here. tho it is hard and im struggling to do my work and assignmnents and focus on studies at the same time. but,

at least, i am away from my toxic and painful circle.

sekian, i'll see you in a month. Everything is always alright and im very lucky!!!! (fingers crossed, amin!)

[deangirldisease]

i hate this job so much and i extra hate doing it at 7am.

its stressful and were criminally understaffed (in the sense that the most hardworking member of our three person team is being actively threatened with firing for taking SICK DAYS. he is chronically ill. we are in canada where thats literally illegal) every call is a fire to put out. all the processes are clunky and unhelpful, we keep adding new things to sell without any updates to the above processes making them extra clunky and without any training of course. everyone has three jobs minimum. nobodys good at any of them. im getting ‘service has been terrible recently’ emails and answering them two days late to explain that actually i cant even so what youre asking me to. sorry abt the service tho that sounds rough. i repeated myself loudly today after a customer huh?-ed me for the fifth time and she almost cried. now i think i wasnt rude but whos to say? im dead inside and on the verge of tears constantly fuck if i know if im being polite or not. fuck if i CARE frankly. i hate it here i hate it here i HATE IT HERE!!! i havent even rly started on my stupid application so idk if ill start school in may (which if i do i will be sooo broke its not even funny) but at this rate i dont think i can make it until may. i want to quit TODAY. this is crazy and i wasnt built for this. i say this at every job i have but this feels like the absolute worst one yet i feel like an idiot every single day and im NOT i know im not. this doesnt even require intelligence idk what it fucking requires but i definitely do not have it

[third-generation-female-warrior]

Oh boy! Questions!

Were you named after someone? 

No, my mom asked her then-coworker for names, nothing special.

When was the last time you cried?

How much crying? A light lettuce mist? About three days ago, when I was watching the "Failure is not the end" scene from Jedi: Fallen Order. I just gets me, I get very emotional over BD-1.

Do you use sarcasm a lot? 

Yeah, but I'm so dead-panned and dry in my deliverance, people think I'm being serious when I'm trying to be comedic.

What’s your eye color?

Hazel, more on the brown side tho

Scary movie or happy ending?

Happy ending, because I'm too chicken shit to tolerate my scary movie, anything like that. Plus, I like to leave a theater feeling good about the experience, feeling hopeful, that's why I consume media, to believe in happy endings.

Any special talents?

No, nothing that I'm aware of.

Where were you born?

An unremarkable city in the Rocky Mountain area in the USA, but that's as specific as I'll get.

What are your hobbies?

Writing, art, it keeps me here.

Do you have any pets?

One dog who is an absolute goblin and a monster, I love him so much, he is the cutest sentient throw pillow ever!

What sports do/have you played?

None, I'm not athletic.

How tall are you?

5'2" and very Edward Elric about it.

Favorite subject at school?

Art, English, any subject with a good teacher, really... which tended to be Art and English for me.

Dream job?

Romantic-era poet or whimsical librarian, but without the customer service aspect of being a librarian. Settling more into reality, an author/writer. Completely grounding myself into reality: an editor at a publishing house or whatever. I want to critique books for a living.

15 Questions 🌟

Hey! Thanks for the tag @gun-roswell

Were you named after someone? 

Yes! My aunt. And a Ruler.

When was the last time you cried?

like...last week. If I get overwhelmed I'm very likely to cry.

Do you use sarcasm a lot? 

I try to, but I'm told I can be too serious for it to work 😩

What’s your eye color?

Hazel

Scary movie or happy ending?

If it's a scary ending I have to know how it ends or my anxiety eats at my guts, but I love tragic endings. "Happy Endings" that end in a marriage and 2.5 kids make me... hm.

Any special talents?

I'm hyper flexible, have a rather sharp memory, and have passing capacities in spanish and probably should refresh my arabic knowledge bc i used to be able to test at level 3, 10 minute presentation abt climate change in fusHa and all.

Where were you born?

basically atlanta Georgia USA

What are your hobbies?

At present, I write, knit, and am trying to find the time to play video games again lmfao

Do you have any pets?

yep! Two dogies

What sports do/have you played?

I once was a figure skater, I occasionally roller blade, and I love swimming even though I hate /going/ swimming lmfao.

How tall are you?

5'9

Favorite subject at school?

History, English, Philosophy

Dream job?

hm... I'm currently trying to write a novel, I'll admit I've always wanted to be an author....but i'm rather busy with other stuff...

and for tagging others, with no pressure attached ;)

@third-generation-female-warrior @marbled-polecat @crown-of-winterthorne @pizzaboy-maul

[yukinyaminyato]

today was literal hell. constant flow of customers. i had no breaks. no time to eat anything. there wasn't even time to fucking clean. i worked two hours overtime (so a 10 hour shift). i have not eaten anything in more than 12 hours - i've literally only had some yogurt for breakfast today. my legs hurt so fucking much bc i didn't have a chance to even sit down. my back is killing me. i fucking hate everything.

if somebody wants to cheer me up & say "good work" or smth that would be very much appreciated :')

[gabriel-shutterson]

Lo and behold, the promised headcanons.

Crack Headcanons for many lit characters (Mod Au):

~Lanyon still sleeps with a teddy bear, but denies it.

~in order to pay off college, Kemp worked at Dairy Queen for two (2) days. He was fired when the blizzard fell out of the cup ;-;

~Dorian watches RuPaul’s Drag Race

~Jekyll actually pours the milk before the cereal 

~Lord Henry uses Reddit

~Clerval cries whenever Gordon Ramsay yells on MasterChef

~Victor almost killed a Girl Scout over thin mints once 

~Jekyll was this close to drinking gasoline 🤏 and by that I mean none he’s drank gasoline before it was very unhealthy

~despite being well spoken, Utterson cannot pronounce ‘synonym’

~griffin owns 8-10 cats and they are all fluffy and white and named after dictators (Apawf Kitler is a sphinx cat tho, Grif felt bad for him) 

~other than cats, Griffin also loves geese, because they go “HONK” and yell and bite and is funny and relatable

~Elizabeth can beat Victor up if she wants to

~in college, Basil sometimes drew the vibe check emojis in Lord Henry’s notebooks 

~Lanyon enjoys the feeling of wet socks

~Dorian is a crystal and astrology bitch

he once claimed he liked astronomy not astrology and all the scientists got excited and then he started talking about being a Scorpio and Jekyll cried, Victor swore, and Griffin kicked the wall

~Basil actually enjoys being called a simp. He doesn’t see the harm in it .

~Griffin would dress as a cat maid, unironically

~Utterson used a joke pickup line (because pun) on Jekyll once, causing Jek to pass out

 ~if asked “boxers or briefs,” Griffin would reply “thong” (it’s actually boxers)

~Basil can and will get angsty if the first chord of ‘All Too Well’ comes on

~Clerval believed in Santa until he was like 14

~Jekyll cannot ride a bike and refuses to learn

~Jekyll uses Hyde to talk to customer service people because he gets scared

~sometimes Hyde just. Carries around a kazoo. And blows it at people.

[prisonhannibal]

ok days nice thing of the day

met a regular customer when I was at a different bar and she told me she had told her cousin (who’s now a chef where I work) that there’s a green haired girl who always gives amazing service. her cousin confirmed it and that it was WAY before she started working there

a different chef told me her DENTIST found out where she works and told her there’s a really nice green haired woman who works there (me!)

I cried before work bc exhausted and haven’t slept for 40 hours, and then my boss (military guy, any feedback from him means a LOT) asked to talk to me after his shift ended and told me that he noticed I was having a bad day and my ability to still have an infectious mood and be extremely social is a valuable trait to be proud of and then told me he’s writing a recommendation letter for me rn

got to give a lot of kids coloring books and balloons at work :)<3

almost called in sick because I’m overworked and exhausted and my coworker couldn’t take my shift but offered to give me a ride home even tho she wasn’t working today and lives far away

was closing shift leader so I got called over to deal with a conflict with an older couple who wanted to literally call our boss but I, word champion of de-escalating situations, managed to fix it and when they left they told me they had an amazing time and will say hi to me when they come back and that I’m a lovely girl and gave me some life advice and the husband tried to guess my zodiac sign (?) he was wrong but points for effort

the people I was closing with did an amazing job and I’m so proud of them

got to talk to a six year old girl with similar glasses to what I had at that age, and I had +8.5 so I was insecure about the magnifying glass effect so I started wearing contacts in 6th grade. told her she looks pretty and I hope she remembers it because I wish someone told me that when I was 6

the bartenders were really nice and I talked to one of them about hair dye for a while

overall a great day I loved it 10/10 after I got over the extreme exhaustion. had the best conversations with guests today it was amazing and my coworkers are amazing and so hard working and kind and the new ones are making so much progress I’m so proud