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Every time someone complains about Fully Charged Airmans design, my love for him grows even stronger.
I feel like most people are mad that he isn't blue. Like back in 2014 when people complained that Sonics arms were blue in Sonic Boom. But I honestly don't think it's that big of a deal.
But if you see Fully Charged as an alternate universe to the classic series (which it is), then I don't really get why you'd have to complain about Airman not being blue. I think it's good they tried something fresh with the robot masters. They didn't have that much personality in the classic series, to be honest, compared to Fully Charged. I just think he needed a little more screen time to focus on his character. Just like many other robot masters on this show.
Okay, I have to admit, I did change around his colors a bit for a joke that would have gone along the lines of "Just hire fans, lol", but it actually ended up looking pretty cool, so I can't really make that joke anymoreâŚâŚ. Really shot myself in the foot with that one. Anyway, here's blue Airman:
I still think that an episode featuring an air race would have been really really cool. They could have introduced a robot master like Gyroman as his rival. Maybe losing that race could have been the start of his character arc where he finally confronts his inferiority/superiority complex. Along the lines of "Flying is all I have left! If I can't have that, what else am I supposed to do?" Well, now that we're already in headcanon territory, I might as well tell you about all my other ones involving Airman. I believe his family is suuuuper rich. All his siblings have well respected careers and probably make his parents buckets of money. Meanwhile Airman is like the youngest sibling who dreamed of becoming a professional racer, which his parents didn't support at all. Kinda reminds me of another robot master under Lord Obsidians command whose dreams were crushed by his parents......
And as we've seen in that one episode, Airmans siblings are assholes. They just pretend he doesn't exist, like he never belonged to their family at all. Like they're ashamed that he's such a failure.
Oh damn that got dark again, sorry. But just like Drillman, he gets better in the end. While Drillman gets Woodman to look out for him, I've had the headcanon for a while that Airman gets taken in by Blastowoman, since she's also a flying robot master like him. Maybe she even gets him a job as a cargo bot alongside herself. I feel like he really needs someone supportive who's not afraid to call him out on his bullshit in his life. And because I have another headcanon that Blastowoman actually has an adult child (Blastman, lol), she's like the perfect woman for the job. ;)
Coming back to Airmans design, I did change some things about it for this particular piece of fan art. When I was trying to come up with an awesome pose to draw him in, the first thought I had was "Damn, I gotta give this man some heels." And that's exactly what I drew.
Sorry for not posting anything for 2 months btw. I got addicted to Metaphor ReFantazio ;) If that doesn't become game of the year, I'm gonna be real mad.
Jenny out.
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WAR NEVER CHANGES. BUT,
WARFARE NEVER STOPS CHANGING
"I've seen countless reasons why most mech pilots don't make the cut, but one of the largest hurdles are the physical alterations. The implants and modifications done to the fleshware is so extreme that it's enough to push most would-be pilots away from day 1.
Back in the day, when mech tech was still in its wild west years, when the technology was still in its infancy, things were different. Levers, joysticks, switches, a chair, most of the first models were something between the cockpit of a construction vehicle and a fighter ship.
Pilots in those days still consisted largely of the usual suspects. Test pilots, army jocks, space force veterans looking for something new, the occasional crazy who lucked their way up the ranks. All you needed back then was to be fit enough to work complex machinery. 'Handler's wouldn't be a coined phrase for nearly a decade. I still remember being a kid and seeing repurposed older models in the mech fighting streams.
Everything changed with the Bidirectional Cerebellum Computer Interface. To say nothing of how it changed civilian life, it was a military marvel. The BiCCI saw the creation of Mechs as we understand them today. The first generation were just retrofits, older models with a pilot's chair, and even manual controls to use in an emergency, but even then we knew that was only temporary. Before long, sleek frames of sharp angles, railguns and plasma cannons were rolling off the factory floor.
Like many things, it began small, optimising first for cockpit space by removing the manual controls. Before long, my then-supervisors thought, "Why have this glass? Why not hook the pilot's eyesight right into the advanced multi-spectral camera system? Before long, cockpits were but soft harnesses made to house a living body, their very soul wired into the machinery. Obviously, for security reasons, I cannot tell you everything about how our latest cockpits work, but suffice to say we've been further blurring the line between pilot and frame ever since.
This drew a very different crowd. Out were the army jocks and powerlifters. The only ones who even dared to have the interface hardware installed into their brainstem and spinal cord were the dispossessed, the misanthropes, those who sought not to control their new body, but to be controlled by it. No AI can work a mech properly on its own, but our pilots are never really in full control either anymore. Those who do try to go against the symbiosis get a nosebleed at best, and vegetative seizures at worst.
And that was that. The only people left who pilots these things are those who had already been broken, those who sougt a permenant reprive from being anything resembling human. A lot of my department quit around this time. I've lost a few friends over it, I'm not shy to say. Did we knew we'd be bringing in the more vulnerable people? Of course we did. But, the wheels of progress must turn, as they say, and it wasn't like we were shy of volunteers.
In our latest models, we have refined an even more advanced frame. Again, security detail prevents me from divulging too much, but one breakthrough we've made is decreasing action latency by approximately 0.02s by amputating the limbs from our pilots and replacing them with neural interface pads.
Using the pads where the limbs once were, pilots are screwed directly into the cockpit, which itself can now be 30% smaller thanks to the saved space. And, of course, we provide basic humanoid cybernetics as part of their employment contract while they are with us. Not that most of them are ever voluntarily out of their cockpits long enough to make use of them. Even removing the tubes from their orifices for routine cleaning incurs a large level of resistence.
And, yes, some of them scream, some of them break, some become so catatonic that they might as well be a peripheral processor for their mech's AI. But not a single one, not even one pilot, in all the dolls i've ever trained, have ever accepted the holidays we offer, the retirement packages, the stipends.
As you say, there are those who like to call me a monster for my work. I can see why. After all, they don't see the way my pilots' crotches dribble when I tell them I'll be cutting away their limbs, or the little moans they try to hide when we first meet and I explain that they'd forever be on the same resource level as a machine hereafter.
Those who call me a monster don't realise that, even after going public with how we operate our pilots, even after ramping up mech frame production, we still have more than twice as many volunteers as frames.
Those who call me a monster cannot accept that my pilots are far happier as a piece of meat in a machine of death than as the shell of a human they once were.
Those who call me a monster never consider the world my pilots grew up in to make them suitable candidates in the first place."
-Dr Francine Heathwich EngD
Dept. Cybernetic Technologies @ Dynaframe Industries
[In response to human rights violations accusations levied by the Pilot Rehabilitation Foundation]
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American Teenager
Clarisse La Rue x Fem!Demigod!Reader
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synopsis: you get caught in the crossfire of clarisseâs anger, and have to convince clarisse you love every part of her.
a/n: i took over a year off, cut you bitches some slackâŚâŚ TELL A FRIEND TO TELL A FRIEND⌠SHEâS BAAAAAACKKKK!!!!!!!!!
for those who do not know, i changed my theme. yes it is me. do you like it đ
American Teenager - Ethel Cain
warnings: NOT BETA READ!!!, ending sucks yet again but i cant be bothered, y/n gets PUNCHED!!!!!!, creepy men, violence, very sad clarisse, IT IS VERY HARD FOR HER TO TALK ABOUT HER FEELINGS BUT SHE TRIES, swearing, usual demigod stuff, tell me if i missed anything!!
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Clarisse is angry.
She has been angry all of her life, you know that. She was born with a fire in her veins that came straight from her godly father, potent and rolling around inside of her like a storm, a rabid dog biting at a cage, and nurtured over the years by a stern mother.
Clarisse was a recipe for destruction, for pain, for suffering. Thatâs what most people thought she was. They all thought she was her fatherâs daughter- full of fire, and she would never be anything else except the mean bully all the campers had grown to somewhat resent.
But she was more than that. She was your girl, she was everything you wanted and had prayed for years for. You knew she was angry, you knew she carried regret in her heart, you knew she ate up anything nice inside of her long ago.
But you didnât care.
You gave her some of your own softness, your own nicety, drew it out of her with soft touches and sweet words, until she learned to love you and believed that she was the girl you always saw hidden inside.
Clarisse is angry.
You know that, you know the harsh girl you fell in love with, and you know the sweet girl she really is.
So, itâs no surprise to you that Clarisse has spent the entire afternoon glued to your side, glaring at anyone who walks by- but particularly her brother, Caden.
Caden has some sort of inferiority complex coupled with extreme sexism. He couldnât stand the fact Clarisse was better than him, that she was the camp counselor instead of him. She had received her beloved spear from their father, he had no gifts to show.
Somewhere in his fucked up head he realized he couldnât force his father to notice him, couldnât uproot Clarisse from her counselor position, and though the next best thing was to go after you.
It started with glances that lasted too long, then subtle touches during camp activities, then actively flirting with you when Clarisse wasnât around.
The only reason Caden had been allowed to this for this long was because you didnât want to tell Clarisse and be responsible for what could very possibly be Cadenâs death. You felt dirty, having his hands on you, barely-hidden sexual remarks whispered in your ear, his eyes on you- practically undressing you.
Clarisse would kill him if she knows what heâs done, how it makes you feel. And you really donât want blood on your hands, so you avoid him as much as possible and attach yourself to Clarisse.
Itâs a rare afternoon that you both have free, and itâs snatched with greedy hands and stretched out long like molasses, the two of you move slow and leisurely, try to sink into this time together.
You promised your sister you would help with the arts and crafts class she runs, spewing something about how youâre the best at making friendships bracelets- but really, her usual partner is on a quest and taking care of the rowdy 12 year olds is not an individual task.
So, here you are, sitting at a picnic table and making sample bracelets, feeling the sun on your face and Clarisseâs arms around you. She sits sideways, her front pressed against your side, straddling the bench. She watches the way the sun hits your face, the way your fingers move swiftly as you continue to bead and tie together.
Thereâs been this pit in your stomach since Caden started his advances- like a new organ had formed inside of you, pure black instead of a usual pink flesh. A physical form of all your guilt and disgust, filled with the dirt like you felt like.
Itâs still there, even through the gaps of hot sunlight, the cooling shade of the tree above, but itâs easier to ignore when Clarisse is there. Itâs easier to ignore, but itâs still there.
âI donât understand how youâre so good at those,â Clarisse mumbles. She kisses your shoulder and you dig your feet into the dirt, smiling to yourself.
âI donât either,â you smile. âWhat can I say? Iâm the queen of friendship bracelets.â
âHa,â she says, somewhat sarcastically, but you can hear the fond, loving smile in her voice. âHow much longer?â she asks.
âTwo more. Maybe 10 more minutes?â
âOkay,â she hums, drawing out the word. âWanna get somethinâ to eat after this?â
âYeah,â you say, looking away from the bracelets for just a second- to admire her like she gets to admire you.
âNah, nah, you better finish those bracelets so I can have all your attention on me again.â She presses her face against yours, pushing you to face forward again and focus.
She departs with a kiss to corner of your lips, and you wonder if you really need all six example bracelets, but you know your sister would kill you if you didnât show up tomorrow with six. You sigh and turn back to your bracelets, listening to the sweet sound of Clarisse laughing.
âOkay,â she says, leaning closer to you after a minute. âIâll be back in a few, okay? Iâm just gonna go change into shorts.â
âOkay,â you smile, and she squeezes your waist as she stands up. The feeling inside of you sinks in even more, the blackness in your stomach, but you focus on the feeling of the sun and her promise that sheâll come back soon.
âFirst time Iâve seen you alone in weeks.â
Your stomach sinks.
Youâre a demigod and you deal with monsters and the whims of gods daily- but thereâs something about humans, about demigods that makes you especially scared.
A step below a God, filled with resentment and blessed with superhuman abilities.
Youâre not sure youâve ever felt fear like this.
You glance up at him, quickly gathering all your bracelet supplies, shoving it into the pockets of your jeans without much care.
You force a smile, pretend like nothingâs wrong.
âSorry,â you say. âIâm just leaving. Nice seeing you, Caden!â
âWhy you leavinâ so quick, baby?â
âMeeting Clarisse,â you smile through gritted teeth.
âWell, I just saw my sister walk away so⌠are you lying to me, Y/N?â he laughs slightly, almost as if the idea of you not being completely observing of his will is unheard of, laughable.
âYeah, I was just finishing up.â You shove a pile of beads into your pocket, moving for the next one-
His hand covers yours.
âYou donât look done. Sit down, huh?â
You glance around the courtyard, not even bothering to hide your fear like you were taught- at the sight of him, his tall stature, the fact he could easily overpower you- you forget everything you ever learned and turn into a puddle of fear. Youâre fucking terrified, and it would be humiliating if it wasnât just the most basic human tendencies preserving in you.
You canât be embarrassed about biology, about what your human body was designed to do. At the end of the day, your blood is red- not gold.
âNo, no, I really gotta go.â You rip your hand away, mourning the loss of a few beads that didnât quite escape with you. Instead of dwelling on that, you quickly turn around and head towards the main pavilion, where there are more campers- maybe you can find Matty or Carrie, another one of Clarisseâs siblings who would just get him off your back.
But, he follows. Of course he follows. Heâs a man whoâs never been told no, and he wonât be refused by you.
âY/N,â he drawls, voice still teasing.
You clench your fists and walk faster, finally risking a glance over your shoulder- you slam into a familiar warm body you have spent countless nights with, now wearing a pair of jean shorts.
One hand swings around your waist, the other sits over her hip- where her favorite dagger is hidden.
âY/N?â she asks, not taking her eyes off of Caden, but her voice is soft and full of concern.
âNothing, Clar. Itâs fine, letâs just go, yeah?â
She looks at you for just a second, and you havenât had time to school your features back into a flat facade, so thereâs still fear all over your face.
âWhat the fuck did you do, Caden?â
âJust tryinâ to spend time with Y/N. That a crime?â
He avoids calling you her girlfriend, even though thatâs how most of the Ares cabin has come to know you.
âYeah,â she says, slightly incredulously. âYou hit your head too hard? Sheâs my fuckinâ girlfriend. I donât know what you did, but donât do it again.â
Itâs like a sixth sense, the way you feel his eyes rake down your body, lingering on your ass. The blackness inside of you squeezes, and you feel the sudden urge to throw up, squeezing your eyes shut-
Clarisse tugs you behind her.
âDonât fucking look at her, Caden.â
Her voice is level in barely-masked rage, and it honestly would scare you a little bit- if it wasnât for the way her hand caressed your hip so softly.
âIâm not hurtinâ anyone. She probably likes it, huh?â
You wonder if he genuinely thinks heâs flirting with you, or just trying to piss Clarisse off.
Her jaw clenches.
âFour weeks laundry duty.â
His smile drops.
âDonât fucking test me, Caden.â
Youâre silently surprised at her strength, so you quickly grab her hand and squeeze, trying to urge her forward. Your stomach feels lighter, hoping that maybe- finally, finally heâll leave you alone-
âReally, Clarisse?â The edge of desperation in his tone is pathetic. âYouâre gonna choose her over your own half-brother. We both know whoâd she choose between the two of us though, huh? The stronger one. The better one. Sheâd choose the son.â
She drops your hand and spins around.
âClarisse,â you warn. âClarisse.â
But she seems to be lost in her own world, where everything narrows down to him and the cocky look on his face, memory of his words, and you know any trace of your sweet girl is gone and itâs just the anger.
You quickly push yourself in between them, putting your hands out to Clarisse- you feel sort of stupid, but youâre desperate for her to just turn around, to take you with her, for the two of you to do like she said and get something to eat. You want to eat by the beach with her, you want to feel her in the sun, you wanna let yourself believe that four weeks of laundry duty will deter him.
âY/N,â she says, warning you, and you know she wonât stop.
âClarisse, Iâm telling you, turn around. Heâs not worth it.â
You can hear his smile.
âYou wonât be saying that when I finally get my hands on you, baby.â
Fuck.
âClarisse!â you shout, knowing its coming- she aims around you, pushing you out of the way as she sets a deadly punch on path with his face.
But it doesnât hit him. It doesnât hit him, and he gasps in shock before quickly running away, not wanting to deal with the consequences of his actions.
And you canât blame him, because with your knees on the ground and the sting of Clarisseâs fist on your cheek- you should have just let her fucking kill him.
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Clarisse hasnât looked at you in two weeks.
After you fell to the ground, completely disoriented by her punch, you remember the sound of her screaming and Caden laughing as he ran away. You remember her hands shaking as she helped you up, touching you as little as possible, staring at her now red knuckles.
Although you really didnât have to, she led you to the healers, and one of the Apollo kids looked at your swelling eye, gave you something for the pain, and said you could leave.
And then, she made sure you got home safe to your cabin and hasnât looked at you again.
In hindsight, knowing that that was the end of the relationship you used to have, it feels like a bad goodbye for something so good. You canât even call it a goodbye, because it wasnât good at all. There should have been something. Something more.
You remember the way Clarisse couldnât stop staring at her bruised knuckles, you remember the way she couldnât look you in your eyes, couldnât touch you- wouldnât allow herself to touch you.
That night, the relationship you had with Clarisse ended. But, you were still as in love with her as ever, you didnât blame her for simply trying to protect you- you were the person who stepped in front of her. One second you werenât there, the next you were. She didnât have time to pull her punch, she didnât have time to aim somewhere else- you donât blame her.
You remember her saying she was sorry as she helped you to the healers. Sorry, over and over again. Iâm sorry, Iâm sorry, baby, Y/N, sweetheart, Iâm so sorry, Iâm so sorry. You almost asked her to stop saying it, because the word was starting to sound weird. You almost told her it was unnecessary-because it was- but you didnât get the chance. She made sure you got home safe to your cabin. She said she was sorry again, and then two weeks of torture commenced.
And youâre fucking sick of it. Sick of her acting like a coward, running away instead of owning up to the consequences of her actions- you arenât mad at her for punching you. You never were.
Youâre mad at her for leaving you in the days after, the nights where you couldnât sleep on your favorite side because of the bruise. The nights where you would yawn and tears would well in your eyes, and it burned as it rolled down the sensitive skin. The nights where you would forget, and you would expect her to crawl into your bed like usual- but you would fall asleep alone and wake up alone.
Youâre mad at her for abandoning you, for refusing to talk to you, to figure it out. Because while what you had before is gone, you can still have something new.
âAre we sure this is a good idea?â your friend Tyla asks.
âYeah,â Jackie, your other friend, continues. âLike, she did literally punch you in the fucking face- are we sure thatâs not some sort of subconscious thing?â
She shrinks at the harsh glares you and Tyla give her.
âOkay. That was mean,â she says, softly. âSorry.â
You roll your eyes and continue walking towards the training fields, where you know the entire Ares cabin is practicing hand-to-hand skills.
âI told you,â you huff. âShe was trying to protect me from Caden. She loves me, sheâs just angry. Angry at herself, but she shouldnât be.â
âWhat even happened to Caden?â Tyla asks, noses scrunching at the fact she has to even say his name. âI mean, I saw him walking around with that broken face but-â
âClarisse!â
You look up to the top of the small hill, the plateau where the sparring rings are marked into the grass by eco-friendly spray paint.
Sheâs holding one of her siblings down, her knee on his back, her hands holding his arms behind his back.
âStop! I tap out, I tap out, Clarisse!â The boy screams. She smiles softly before letting him go and standing up.
He lays face down on the ground for a minute, breathing heavily before he finally picks himself up- staring at Clarisseâs offered hand. After a moment, he takes it and lets her tug him up. He nods at her and walks away to his friends, moaning about his arms and his back.
Clarisse shakes out her hands and looks around, but she knows no one wants to spar with her after that, even thought even from here you can see the fire in her veins. The need for a fight, for something to distract her. The need for movement, hard and fast. The need for anger to be the only thing she can feel.
âMe next?â
âY/N,â Tyla hisses, and Jackie reaches out to grab you but you merely shake her off.
Clarisseâs eyes lock with yours.
It takes you a second to recognize the emotion in her eyes. Her body tenses up, she seems frozen in place like a deer in headlights. Sheâs scared.
âClar,â you smile, meeting her in the circle.
She tears her eyes away from you, choosing instead to stare at the grass.
âIâm not fighting you. Go.â
âIâm not asking you to fight me,â you smile. âIâm asking you to spar with me.â
She rolls her eyes.
âIâm not sparring with you.â
Itâs so tense, no matter how much you try to make it like before, no matter how much you smile and try to look in her eyes.
âCan I talk with you, then?â
You shuffle closer, and she doesnât move.
âY/N,â she sighs. She looks up at you, but you can tell sheâs staring right past you, towards the tree line. âPlease donât make me do this.â
âDo what?â you snort. âFace your feelings? Let me help you?â
Her face is level, almost bored. She turns her face into a facade, a mask of nothingness. She wonât let you in, not now, and it makes you angry.
You would take anything from her right now.
You want her to hate you. You want her to love you. You want everything and anything.
You would take another punch, as long as you got to feel her skin on yours for a split second.
You dig your foot into the ground and glare at her.
âClarisse. Iâm serious, I want to talk to you.â
Her eyes meet yours for a split second, before sheâs moving.
âToo bad. Forget me,â she says over her shoulder.
She fucks up and she runs away.
âClarisse!â you shout, following her out of the training field, out of view from the eyes that were trying and failing not to look at the two of you. âYou canât leave me here. You canât just pretend like the last year weâve been together didnât happen.â
âItâs better that way,â she sighs, like sheâs doing you some big favor by staying away from you, when all sheâs doing is hurting you.
âItâs not!â you shout, finally surging forward and grabbing her wrist-
She whips around and tugs her wrist out of your grip.
You donât think sheâs ever once refused your touch.
It burns. It burns in your heart so badly, burns worse than any regret you could ever feel.
âDonât,â she says, like sheâs warning you. âIâm- Iâm trying to protect you, okay? Just- stop beinâ fuckinâ stubborn.â
You take a dejected step back, even though all you want to do is run into her arms.
âI donât get it,â she continues, folding her hands behind her back. Her eyes finally land on the faded bruise. âWhy donât you hate me?â
The heartbreak in her voice hurts more than the punch, than the nights without her.
âBecause I love you, Clar. I donât care about what happened, it was an accident- youâre the only one who canât see that.â
âI hurt you.â
âThe only thing that hurts is you being away from me.â
âNah,â she says, taking a step back. She shakes her head, staring at your eye before finally turning away. âIâm only anger, Y/N. Iâll only hurt you. And I canât take hurting you again.â
The feeling of staring at her back, the sound of her footsteps crunching in the leaves, hurts so bad it creates another new organ in your body.
This time, itâs like a tumor growing from your heart, encasing it so every beat is a struggle, every breath is ragged. This new organ carries your heartbreak, and it grows bigger by the second.
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Itâs starting to feel like Clarisse is never going to even look at you again.
Even when you look straight at her from across the pavilion, she doesnât look back. You stare at her back all day. The memory of her walking away from you replays in your mind every time you close your eyes.
You wonder, when itâs just you in your lonely bed, if Clarisse isnât angry but rather scared. Sheâs angry at herself for hurting you, yes, but sheâs terrified sheâll do it again. And you know Clarisse rarely feels fear, and you want nothing more but to help her navigate these unknown feelings- but she wonât let you in.
You donât know how to let her help you, but you give her time. You stare at her when you hope she isnât looking, you wrap your arms around yourself and pretend itâs her, you dream of her lips and the way she holds you, the way she loves you.
Clarisse took you to the docks for one of your dates. The fourth? The fifth? Somewhere around there, but it was the first time you kissed. Both of you had realized that you liked each other but agreed to take it slow, but youâd never forget the way she looked at you after you put the flower she brought you into your hair. The way she looked at you when you let your feet hang over the edge, kicking the water. The way your thigh pressed against hers, ankles hooked together.
Youâll never forget the way you looked up at her after dipping your fingers into the cool water, the control and self restraint finally leaving her eyes, her body, as her face sunk into a wide smile and she slammed her lips into yours.
The dock is sacred to the two of you, so when youâre missing her, especially during this sunset, this is where you go.
And itâs perfect. Itâs so perfect you can almost convince yourself sheâs here with you.
Except, if she was here with you, there wouldnât be this tumor on your heart.
At the sound of his voice, the other organ your emotions have formed twists.
âThis wasnât my plan, yâknow.â
âGo away, Caden,â you moan. Is it a crime to want to wallow in your own self pity? It is a crime to want the black organs inside of you to swallow you whole?
âI just wanted to knock Clarisse down a few pegs, and I certainly did that. Paid the price, too, you seen my fuckinâ face?â
It looks as horrible as it always does, you think, but you bite your tongue.
âI wanna be alone, Caden. Please.â You bite the word out like youâre a hyena choking on a laugh.
âBut, câmon.â
He steps closer to you, until you can feel him looming over you, tips of his sneakers pressing into your ass, heâs so close to you. You kick the water, annoyed, but he either doesnât get the hint or ignores it.
âIâm not that bad, am I? Do me a favor, baby, let me cart you around for a few days and make her miserable.â
Youâre about to just get up and leave all together when the sound of someone stepping onto the dock surprises you.
âGet away from her.â
But thereâs something unspoken in the air. Youâre just âherâ now- not âmy girlfriendâ not âherâs.â
âWhy are you always fuckinâ bothering me, Clarisse?â
You turn around. She smiles sarcastically.
âWhy are you always fuckinâ bothering Y/N?â
âIâm not botherinâ her though, huh?â
He reaches down to grab at a piece of your hair, running it in between his fingers.
You flinch, but youâre more focused on the way Clarisseâs fists clench, her jaw ticks.
âCaden,â you sigh, batting his hand away.
âSeems like a pretty clear no to me, huh?â
Caden sighs and straightens, letting your hair fall from his fingers.
âWhat are you going to do about it, Clarisse? You gonna try and punch me- again? Try to hit the right person this time, huh?â
âGo fuck yourself, Caden.â She finally, finally, looks at you. You feel blessed and divine, like sheâs a goddess whoâs taken the time to merely look at you. âCâmon, Y/N.â
You scramble up to follow her beckoning hand at the same time Caden shifts on his feet.
He knocks into you, and youâre on the edge of the dock, and you scream as you fall in.
The water wasnât that deep, but it was cold and embarrassing, and you fell at an awkward angle.
You surface, paddling to keep yourself afloat, coughing water out of your mouth and glaring up at him.
âShit,â he swears, quickly running down the dock before you can shout some curse on his entire bloodline.
âY/N?!â Clarisse shouts, panic on her face falling immediately at the sight of you afloat. She breathes out, fixing her hair that got all moved around in her frantic sprint down the dock. âYou good?â
âDoes it look like Iâm good?â you deadpan.
She smiles.
âCâmon, come around to the ladder.â
She smiles as she helps you up, wrapping an arm around you even though youâre soaking wet, and youâre so mesmerized at the sight of her smiling, the feeling of her smiling at you that you canât even comprehend it.
She has her arm wrapped around you.
Sheâs touching you.
Gods, did you miss this.
âCold?â she asks, your hips pressed together as you walk down the dock.
âYeah,â you whisper, feeling how warm she is against you. âIâll be okay, though.â
âHow long has he been⌠doing that?â
Your eyes meet hers.
âJackie and Tyla told me- yelled at me, really- after they cornered me the other day. They said you were really fucked up about everything, and I should talk to you and I- I donât know. I thought staying away was for the best.â
You cringe at the memory from a few nights ago, when you finally broke down and cried like a baby in front of your friends because of how much you missed her.
âAnd I saw you at the dock, and then fuckinâ Caden got over here before I could,â she laughs, dryly. âWhatever. Iâll walk you back-â
âWill you talk to me, Clar?â
You both stop, beachy sand sticks to your wet shoes, and Clarisse nervously looks away before you prod.
âIâm not mad at you. And I know youâre mad at yourself, and scared-â
She scoffs, but itâs halfhearted.
âBut I love you, Clarisse. I love you, and I donât blame you. Donât blame yourself, and love me.â
In the sunlight, you can still see the remnants of the bruise. Softly, she reaches out and traces her pointer finger around your eye.
Her touch is so soft, the pad of her finger so rough- that sweet juxtaposition with her has always made your mind fuzzy. She makes all the tension in your body melt away. She makes everything better.
She swallows hard.
âIâm sorry,â she breathes, tears welling in her eyes. âI know Iâve said it so much, but Iâm so fucking sorry. Iâm so fucking sorry. I didnât- I didnât mean to hit you, I swear on my father-â
Her voice chokes up, and you can tell she hates the fact sheâs crying, so you draw her into your neck and let her hide away there. Running your hands through her hair, telling her itâs okay each time she apologizes.
âI know who you are,â you say when the tears have stopped, and youâre just relishing being in each otherâs arms again. âI know who I fell in love with, and I know who you are. Youâre angry and youâre sweet, youâre mean and youâre kind, and I love all of it. Donât doubt that, please.â
She breathes out before leaving the comfort of your neck, putting her shaky hands on your face.
âI love all of you,â you repeat.
She smiles softly.
âI love all of you.â
She kisses your eye softly, literally almost like a butterfly landing on your eyelid, unable to not whisper one more apology against your skin.
You roll your eyes, smiling to match her.
âAnd donât think Iâd leave you over one mistake, seriously, La Rue. You insult me.â
She rolls her eyes too, thumb stroking your cheek.
âOh, forgive me,â she teases.
âYouâre already forgiven,â you smile, eyes traveling down to the lips youâve been dreaming about. âBut kiss me to make sure.â
â-
â-and he would just look at me all the time. That was the creepiest part, I think. Like, okay, he would feel up on me sometimes, but whatever. I could avoid him. At meals I would just be minding my business and he would be staring at me. More just annoying, you know? And, yeah. That made me feel horrible, like literally sick. I just felt so dirty, so fucked up- Clar?â
You watch as she stares up at the ceiling, cracking her knuckles.
âClarisse,â you scold.
You shift from your stomach to your side, head propped up so you can properly look at her. Your bed is full and warm now that sheâs here.
âOh, no, keep goinâ, baby.â
âDo not kill him. Do not hurt him. I told you, I donât want that on my conscience.â
âNah, I know, sweetheart. Iâm just thinking about it, donât take that away from me, huh?â
You roll your eyes, but a smile crosses its way onto your face. She smiles back, and it just feels so surreal, so different- but exactly like itâs supposed to be. You know Clarisse is angry, but you know sheâs sweet too. Clarisse knows you love all of her.
She draws you to lay on her chest, hand in your hair, the other slipping under your shirt to scratch your back.
âIâm sorry you felt like you couldnât tell me,â she whispers. âThatâs the worst thing. You were dealing with all this alone- and I had no fucking idea.â
âYeah. âCause being with you made it better, of course you didnât notice.â
She kisses your forehead. âYouâre too sweet, baby.â
You smile and kiss her chest.
âIâm only not killing him âcause you asked, I hope you know that. If it was up to me, heâd be dead.â
âOh, baby, I know lots of other ways we can channel that emotion.â
You glance up at her and she searches your eyes before promptly throwing you to the side and climbing on top of you.
Yeah, Clarisse is angry. But you love her angry.
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clarisse staring at her hands like theyâre covered in blood: oh gods⌠oh gods what have i done. what have i done (again that picture of ivan the terrible holding his d3ad son)
y/n: ouch! ok anyways- girl you did not kill me calm down.
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caden trying not to die after clarisse inconveniences him for the sixth time today⌠hides his favorite sword, permanently sticks him on laundry duty, puts literal âkick meâ signs on his back, puts holes in his favorite clothesâŚ
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y/n is that one song that goes âFUCK ME LIKE YOU MAD AT ME BABY I NEED A FREAK TO DRIVE ME CRAZZYYYYYâ
âŚand sheâs so real for that.
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thoughts about dgm chapter 251
gonna throw my thoughts about these new revelations here.
bookman jr or past!allen?
she got us good! I was in shock when I first read it (all my headcanons about pasta, out the window! thrown! chunked!) but now I'm more fine with it.
I believe what happened was that hoshino drew the bookman jr in those flashbacks with nea on purpose - she wanted us to think that was allen and bookman jr. the flashbacks aren't past!allen with longer hair, this is definitely the bookman jr, as we can tell now.
it also makes more sense now why "allen" was talking about high concepts like the spiral being the force for life - it really was a bookman!
I fully think she did this switcharoo on purpose. if we look at her most recent livestream (translated by ponkotsubluuues), someone comments that they were shocked past!allen and bookman jr weren't the same person. her response is basically "yes, I know". she's not surprised people would think that, this was probably deliberately on purpose.
bookman jr & past!allen
okay, now on to some thoughts on who they actually are. I won't stick long here as we'll probably find out in just a few months and we don't have much to go on right now.
personally, I don't really care to ever meet allen's blood relatives. it's never interested me who he's "actually" related to and I always felt it would add even more complicated feelings for him and even more complexity to an already messy as hell family & relationship tree.
that being said, I wouldn't be surprised if bookman jr and allen are some kind of family unit, be it blood related or not. when they begin talking about the two of them as separate people, lucia refers to them as "two young men". so they're probably not father and son, but I could see them as brothers or some sort of brotherhood if they're not blood related.
maybe past!allen is a traveling clown who toured the world with bookman jr LOL.....?
either way, bookman jr was so compelled to protect allen & nea that he gave his life for them. I'm so, so eager to see their bond.
cross marian
who the hell is cross marian in all of this?
we know the cross has been around since almost adam's time, having been with mana and nea since they were children-
so we know that regardless of who is he, he's known about and visited the campbell manor for decades.
in this chapter, they even bring him up by name.
not only does allen ask about him, but lucia talks a bit about him as well.
and note that they're not saying something like "my master left a message for me" and lucia just goes along with it- allen says "my master cross" and lucia continues by saying his full name. she knows exactly who he's talking about.
(allen specifically says "cross shishou" = "master cross" but lucia called him "cross marian")
to me, this is one of the main reasons I don't believe cross is bookman jr. I believe he's somehow tied to the bookman, but I don't think he's the missing jr. if he was, why does lucia refer to him as cross here but not later? she clearly knows who allen is referring to, so wouldn't the bookman have searched for cross and found him with relative ease, given he was at the order for quite a while with bookman & lavi up until apocryphos attacked him?
lucia and the master only refer to bookman jr as "junior", not cross marian. if you're desperately looking for cross marian and are fully aware allen knows who that is, then why not call him that? what do you have to lose at this point?
and furthermore, if cross was this bookman jr, how did he forget who HE made the host? how did he lose allen? redarm!allen looks a lot more like this new past!allen and they both have redish brown hair - if you were traveling with this guy, you should be able to recognize him even if he's de-aged like 8 years, ESPECIALLY once mana takes him in and his hair becomes styled the exact same way.
I know we always have the deus ex machina of apocryphos' memory changing but I really don't want that to be the case for every character, the more you do it the more it becomes a contrivance.
cross definitely has SOME connection to the bookman, I don't feel like his mask and knowledge of bookman things is entirely a red herring. lucia makes it sound like cross reached out to them regarding the campbell manor, but I'll get to that in a bit.
the other leading theory is that cross is cyrus campbell, katerina's brother and head of the family. I feel like this holds a bit more water than him being a bookman, as it'd explain why he was the campbell manor when mana and nea were so young (and presumably before nea became a noah) and why he has worked so tirelessly for both of them.
remember, his innocence maria greatly resembles katerina. it's possible this is katerina's corpse, being infested by innocence. maybe this is from innocence cross was carrying finding its way to her corpse or maybe it was a failed attempt to save her, we don't really know yet.
(I'm not fully convinced about the cyrus theory either though, as why does nea refer to cross as cross instead of cyrus or uncle? how would the order not know about his family and how obviously tied to the noah he is? how could he not recognize allen, his nephew's most trusted friend?)
there have been some theories that maybe the campbells are a bookman family, which may be the case and would help explain why cross has a connection to both, but the way lucia words this part makes me think otherwise.
she makes it sound like the campbell manor wasn't always under their jurisdiction, that it came to be that way but wasn't always. but that might be pulling at straws. I just don't think she'd word it this way if cross = bookman jr.
I'm not fully convinced about either theory about cross as I see holes in both of them. just have to wait and see~
personally I'd still like it if cross was just a childhood friend who got way too attached but we'll see đ or maybe he was just pining for katerina from afar....
crown clown
I feel pretty confident now that this is past!allen being hugged by bookman jr, possibly for the last time / as bookman jr's way to protect him.
but I also can't help but feel.... it reminds me of crowned clown, you know? the way it wraps around allen, covering him in an attempt to protect him. even the cut off tips. it really reminds me of that.
the bookman are no stranger to innocence. we also don't know when allen acquired his innocence- did past!allen have it? or...... did bookman jr give it to him as he was dying? did he think it would protect him and nea (and why would he give a noah innocence)?
I would not be surprised if there was some connection between bookman jr and allen's innocence.
allen
I absolutely loved this part.
the pure conviction in his face. no regrets. he finally has a chance to clear up his mind, to cast away the fear he's dealt with for so long about who he actually is. so, so good.
but........ WHO IS ALLEN WALKER????? the burning question. who knows at this point.
I'm very excited to see the next parts, even if it apparently isn't the 35 year flashback (her own words, from the aforementioned livestream) - I assume it'll be a flashback to past!allen meeting nea possibly, or them finding out nea isn't a typical noah, or some major event that happened before shit went down.
yeah that's about it, see yall next time âď¸
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Oh, Baby
Dad!Jake Seresin x female reader
Summary:Â You might not have been his girlfriend, but when you left town one night a month after sleeping together, it completely broke Jake's heart. Now, a year later, you've returned and you're not alone. You have a new little companion that just so happens to bear a startling resemblance to Jake.Â
Warnings/notes: its mostly fluffy. cursing, i think. mention of pregnancy. that might be it.Â
Words: 2900
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His Girls (Following Part)
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Staring is rude; thatâs what his mama told him. That, and a handful of other little rules that didnât fit the bill of âgentleman.' But he couldnât recall a single one of them now. His mind was occupied and nothing else mattered. Maybe nothing else ever would. So he let himself stare.
You smiled and the air got trapped in his lungs for a moment before it decided to fight for freedom by way of harsh, sharp bursts. If his coughing drew the attention of others, he didnât notice. It didnât draw yours, and that was for the best. He needed another second to breathe; to watch your face light up under the influence of the infant in your arms.Â
Two months old, thatâs what Rooster had told him.Â
Youâd left town one night, leaving no note, no means of contact except through your parents who texted Rooster every once in a while to let him know you were Ok, but never to tell him where you were. Maybe they didnât know either. Then, according to Rooster, you showed up at his door with a bag, a smile of apology, and a two-month-old baby cradled in a wrap around your chest.Â
Jake didnât know what to do with that. He didnât know how to process what youâd brought with you, or why you went to Rooster instead of him. Maybe one more thing that didnât matter at the end of the day. As it was, everything in front of him was too much to handle.Â
âI donât want to overstep,â Rooster said through the phone. His call had woken Jake, but the anxiety in Roosterâs tone cleared any grogginess faster than a cup of coffee. âDid you and Y/N everâŚ?â
Jake swallowed and sat up a little straighter in bed, running a hand down his face. Everyone had guessed there had been something going on between you and him. Everyone assumed that even if there wasnât, if they were wrong, eventually the two of you would get there. Youâd figure it out because it seemed inevitable. Jake had always hoped they were right. Heâd pined for painfully long, and while it seemed like you felt something for him too, he wasnât going to move until you did. And then you did.Â
It was simple, really. He thought there would be something more complex to the two of you finding your way into bed together, but it was so easy. So natural. Simple and easy and natural enough for you to seek him out three more times before you disappeared from his life, breaking a part of him as you did.Â
âWhy do you ask?â Jake said.Â
âUmâfuck.â It was a soft curse from his friendâs mouth, just barely detectable through the speaker. But it carried a heavy weight with it that Roosterâs voice alone did not. âAre you sitting down?â
âYea.â
âGood.â
The seconds passing were nearly as painful as the day you leftâthat moment he realized you were no longer in his bed. Heâd called everyone. No one had an answer for him. âRooster, what the fuck is going on?â
He sighed, which was never good. Rooster wasnât much of the sighing type. Sighing meant thinking. And he wasnât much of the thinking type anymore, either. Hadnât been since Mav had knocked that behavior out of him while he was in the air. That new mentality just so happened to carry into the rest of his life, and he lived in a world of impulsivity. Donât think, just do. It was the exact same with his words. Rooster only ever spoke his mind, didnât hold back, didnât hesitate, and yet now he was.
âSheâs back, Jake," he finally said. "Showed up last night.â
His heart stopped beating. He felt it seize in his chest. And then it began again, starting with incredible force and livening his entire body.Â
âBut, umâŚthatâs not all,â Rooster continued. âSheâs got a baby with her, andââ His breath was shaky, matching Jakeâs hands. âAlright, Iâm just going to say itâthe kid looks exactly like you, Seresin. Spitting fucking image. Now, if you two never got together then Iâll chalk it up to a wild coincidence, but if you didâŚâ He paused. âIf you did, I think you need to get over here.â
Jake had never run so fast in his life, never driven so recklessly, never stormed through the front door of someoneâs home the way he did Roosterâs, but how could he not?Â
âWhere is she?â
Rooster shot to his feet from his spot on the couch. âAt the store. She took the kid with her. We should probably waitââ
âThe one down the street?â
âYea, butâwhat are you doing?â
He was already at the door, the knob squeezed viciously in his grip. âI have to see for myself,â Jake said. âI wonât ambush her. Iâll keep my distance, but I have to see.â
And he sawâŚeverything. The woman he loved, casually walking up and down the aisles of the grocery store, looking at labels and deciding on brands and placing things in a cart, with his baby strapped to her chest.Â
And that was his baby. He knew the moment he saw the eyes that were his, just smaller and on a face full of features that were also his, save for the curve of the lips that belonged entirely to you. Had his mother been by his side, she mightâve stumbled back from how similar this baby looked to her own. He would have too had his feet not been stuck to the floor.Â
Every bit of him was holding back from reaching for you as his instincts demanded of him, but he had to move before you saw him. You could turn your head at any moment. So he had to go.Â
â--
âWhen did you evenâŚI mean, everyone always figured you wouldâŚbutâŚwhen?â
Jake lifted his head from where it was resting over the back of the couch. âAbout a month before she left. A few times.â
Rooster nodded. âSheâll be back soon. Are you sure you want to do this now?â
âIââ
As if on cue, the front door opened and you stepped through with a bag of groceries in each hand, one of which fell when your eyes met Jakeâs. Little jars rolled across the floor, making the only sound in the otherwise dead silence of the room. His lips parted, but nothing could slip out of them, nothing that would make reasonable sense, anyway. His mind was too much of a jumbled mess.
The baby broke the tension, its little wiggle causing you to glance down at the tiny head resting against your chest. You set the other bag down and took an immediate turn to the left through another door that Jake knew led to Roosterâs guest room. You returned a moment later, without the baby, your arms crossed in front of you as you walked toward him.Â
He thought he would be mad; maybe betrayed; at the very least bitter and devastated, but all he wanted was to pull you to him and hold you and kiss you and thank whatever deity necessary for returning you to him.Â
âYou couldnât have kept it to yourself for a little?â
He didnât know what you meant until he realized you were looking directly at Rooster.Â
âSorry, sweetheart,â Rooster replied. He nudged his head Jakeâs way. âHe was a fucking mess when you left, and itâs so obvious that the kid isââ He paused when your eyes fell to the wooden flooring. âIâm sorry. Iâll give you two some space.â
Jake waited until his friend was gone before he dared to take a step your way, but he stopped short at the hand you held up.Â
âY/NâŚâ
âI donât want to argue with you,â you said. âIâm not going to get into why I did what I did other than to say that I thought it was best for you, me, and her.â Your arms fully uncrossed and one hand began to pick at the otherâs fingernail. âAt the time, anyway.â
âSheâs mine.â It wasnât a question. He knew it. He knew it in his soul that the little girl in the next room belonged to him as much as she did you. But still, he needed to hear you say it; needed to watch the shape of your lips form the words.Â
You nodded. âSheâs yours.â
âAnd were you going to tell me?â
âI came back to tell you,â you said without a lick of hesitation in your voice; something that made him feel a bit lighter. âI wasnât sure how I was going to do it yet, but I didnât want her to wake up one day and start asking me fair questions that I only had unfair answers to. I couldnât imagine telling her that her father had no idea she existed. So,â you took a deep breath, âI figured Iâd see if you might want her, too.â
If. He couldâve laughed under different circumstances. If he wanted his daughter? There was nothing to mull over or consider. Of course, he wanted his daughter. Her and you, if youâd have him. But he couldnât press that now.Â
âWhatâs her name?â
âMy family calls her Evy, but itâs Eve.â
âAfter my grandmother?â
âShe was always nice to me when she would come to town, and I know you love her.â Your shoulders rose and fell in a shrug, but he knew there was nothing nonchalant about it. It was a deliberate choice, a careful choice. You couldâve named her anything under the sun. You couldâve named her after your own family, but you didnât. âI wanted our daughter to have something of you other than just your DNA.â
The weight was back. A heaviness in the air from the beauty of what youâd just confessed mixed with the undeniable question of What now? He wasnât going to push you. You were in complete control, always had been. Control over him, over what happened between you, over the future he had once hoped you may shareâthe future he thought was lost, but maybe could now be found.Â
âDo you want to see her?â
His eyes widened, a confusing emotion filling his heart. He wasnât sure you would offer, and giving him that chance swelled the love he felt for you. But more than that, adding to the confusing feeling was the hopeful note in your tone. Did you imagine he might deny you? Did you think heâd turn his child away?
âYes,â he said with absolute surety, and by the grin you gave in return, he knew you felt his sincerity.Â
You turned, leading him into the room heâd spent a drunk night or two in. A room in which heâd woken up insanely hungover and begging for the sun to die just to give him some relief. The irony. He silently snickered. You moved aside, facing him as he took in the sight before him.Â
Your babyâhis babyâlaid on her back in the small travel crib, her eyes closed and body wrapped up snuggly in one of those sleep wraps he saw his sister use on her son. Her delicate face was so peaceful. Her long lashes rested on plump, rosy cheeks. Her lips were parted the slightest, the sweetest breaths making the softest of sounds. Her dusting of blond hair reflected the slim ray of sunlight sneaking through the drawn curtains turning the strands into pure gold.
Unshed tears stung the corners of his eyes.Â
âYou can hold her if you want.â
âSheâsâsheâs asleep. I canâtââ
âSheâs a heavy sleeper,â you said. âHonestly, the best baby, Jake.â
Of course, she is, he thought. If she was anything like you, sheâd be perfect. She was already perfect.Â
Reaching into the crib, you carefully grabbed the baby and held her out to Jake. Heâd held a baby before, plenty of times, but something about holding his ownâŚhe couldnât describe it fully, just that it made his nerves fire off. His fingers began to twitch, but when he looked at you, he saw the familiar glassiness coating your irises and you nodded in encouragement.Â
That was all he needed: the mother of his baby asking him to hold their daughter. So he did, extending his arms and gratefully accepting his little gift.Â
She was so small. His hands and arms and chest dwarfed her compared to how she looked against your body. Up close, she was porcelain in form, fragile and light, and he would surrender his every breathing moment to protect what you and he had made.Â
A soft sob echoed in his ear and Jakeâs head shot up to see those tears had fallen, crafting rivers down your cheeks as your hand covered your mouth.Â
âIâm sorry.â The apology was muffled through your fingers. You shook your head and finally dropped your hand. âIâm sorry, I just didnât thinkâI didnât think I would ever see this.â
With the hand not cradling his child, Jake cupped your cheek, smoothing your tears back into your skin with his thumb. You leaned into his touch and he suppressed a gasp. The first time in a year that heâd felt you, and it was like coming home. Heâd missed everything about you, every ounce of your being and presence. He missed your scent filling the air: the vanilla perfume, the fruity shampoo, the minty chapstick that heâd pick up right when he was about to kiss you. All of it. Everything. And now you were here, and he wouldnât be able to let go.
âWhy did you leave me?â he whispered.Â
âWe had only slept together a few times,â you sniffled. âDoctor said I got pregnant that first time. Good on us for using a condom, right?â
He chuckled half-heartedly. Neither of you had one on you that night, and foolishly, neither of you cared. Pent-up desperation took over, and being inside of you, feeling you, became his sole need. Nothing short of you shoving him away could have stopped him.Â
âAnyway, this wasnât in your plans,â you said. âAnd I didnât want to force it on you, but I also didnât want to give her up. It scared me, soâŚâ
âI wouldâve helped you. I loved you. Iâd been in love with you. I wouldâveââ
âYou loved me?â
Oh. He hadnât planned on saying it. Certainly not now. Before you left, heâd hoped you already knew somehow. Then you were gone and he was sure the opportunity to tell you would never be within reach again. But, intentionally or not, you just presented him with a moment for the words to fall right out of his mouth, so they did.Â
âWellâŚyea,â he said. âYou couldâve told me you wanted a baby and I wouldâve given you one.â
Your eyes shifted from his and you stared into the blank space next to his head, like your brain had short-circuited and your whole world was flashing before your eyes. You took a wobbly step back and dropped to sit on the edge of the mattress. Jake gave another long look at his daughter before kissing her forehead and placing her back in the crib.Â
Kneeling in front of you, he said, âI still love you.â When you didnât speak, he grasped your hands in his, intertwining your fingers. âI love you, and I already love our daughter. And I want you to stay. I need you to stay with me.â
He could hear his heartbeat in his ears. Only you had that effect on him and he couldnât say that he didnât once hate it. It drove him insane for ages. He would simply think about you and the beating would start. That thumping would keep him awake at night, distract him at work, drown out the voices of his coworkers, but he accepted it now. It was an indicator of what he felt for you and that was too real and honest and beautiful to be bothered by.Â
Finally, your fingers squeezed his back. A sign, small as it was, that you were understanding.Â
âLook at me,â he whispered, and you did. He smiled as he peeled his fingers away from yours to frame your face between his hands. His thumbs ran along your cheekbones, then he leaned in a little closer. âCome here.â Another whisper, a bit broken on the final syllable.Â
You didnât protest when he pulled your face to his. You didnât push him back when hot breaths caressed each other's mouths. Your fingers loosely fisted the collar of his shirt and you let his lips brush over yours in a gentle kiss.
And that was it. You were it. You had always been it for him. He knew it then, and he knew it now. But he didnât want to overwhelm you.Â
He pulled back a few inches to grant you some space, but your mouth chased after his, your hands sliding into his hair and holding him so you could force your lips together again. Harder, hotter, more desperate. Youâd missed him, too. It was undeniable now.Â
âPromise me, honey,â He said when you separated to breathe. "I can't lose you. Not again."
âI promise, Jake.â Your eyelids fell closed and you rested your forehead against his. âWeâre not leaving you.â
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Touch | Epilogue
Joel makes good on his promise to date you, at least once.
Words: 4k
Warnings: Just a slutty lil farewell to our resident Jackson masseuse and her grumpy-arse maybe sorta boyfriend, smut, vaginal fingering, sexy times, stockings that are far too thin for early Spring. Minors DNI
A/N: Another thank you for your support of this little story that ended up being a bit bigger and more complex than I expected. I went there because of your encouragement. Thank you, always.
Part Eight | Series Masterlist
The season was turning, but there was still a chill of a nighttime. It had been six weeks since Joel returned to Jackson, the medical supplies he and the second expedition managing to find and defend ensuring a healthy and safe Jackson for at least another two winters. The whole energy of the place, the optimism, was back in the community, and you had thrived in it, started to bloom alongside the wildflowers dotting the pathways into town.
Youâd spent the time working, teaching Ellie, occasionally hanging around Joelâs place while he convalesced, first in his bed, then on the new-ish couch Tommy had found and dragged in through the back door. It wasnât leather like his old one, and the springs stuck out in the centre so that you had to be very careful where you sat, but it was better than the rocking chair, and it was enough for him to sit still in for at least a few weeks.
He kept promising that he was going to date you, at least once if youâd let him, and each time youâd fobbed him off, telling him he had to get better first, that he was no good to you limping, that you wanted him marginally less grumpy if he could manage it. You werenât sure why you were stalling, other than that you felt you were toes to the edge of a precipice.
When you were little your little family of four had driven out to the Grand Canyon, and youâd stood on the edge of the red dirt and been totally overwhelmed by the size of it, of all the negative space, the absence. Youâd found yourself, aged eight and a half, ready to cry and even now, thirty years later, you remembered the howling wind, the echo of it.
You thought about the beauty of it, now. Now that you had seen so much worse, so much more, you reminded yourself that people used to travel entire countries to see the Grand Canyon. In your mindâs eye you entered your memories and stood beside yourself, your child self, and took her hand. You pointed to the sky, drew her eyes up and away from the ground beneath. Felt her pulse race under your touch as you showed her that the magnitude of it was the beauty in it, was the point of it all.
You accepted Joelâs invitation for the next Friday night. Then you ran to Mariaâs to find something to wear.
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You were supposed to meet at 8, a respectable time after dinner so as not to feel like you needed to have a meal; a more casual time, a more intimate time, when you could drink and chat and only stay an hour if you found it wasnât working. It was both an in and an out.
Except that you were late, your last client having not only stored muscle tension in his fascia but emotional tension as well, and as soon as you had pushed into the glute he had unleashed years of mourning, of loss, of fears. You had stopped, wrapped him in a towel and pulled him upright, stood back and let him shake with the force of it. It wasnât new, that people would come with muscle aches and discover trauma aches instead, but you lost track of time trying to put him back together again, trying to assure him of his safety. Tommy was right; sometimes it doesnât come out until you feel safe enough to let it.
But it meant by the time you were pulling your door open you were about forty minutes late. Your cheeks burned with the shame of it, your timekeeping one of your strengths in the before-times, in the times when you had no other responsibilities other than the hell of being 15.
Joel was coming up your path and you stopped, nearly dropping the jacket you were still trying to pull over your shoulders. You couldnât read his expression in the dark but his eyes were on you, and he was coming up, fast.
âJoel, Iâm so sorry,â you started, as he strode towards you and up your porch. âI got caught up with a client, I couldnât leave until they wereâŚâ his hands were on you then, gripping you to him, your jaw resting in his warm palm.
âYou OK?â he asked you, his eyes searching yours.
âIâm fine, of course I am,â you said, flustered, under the intensity of his inspection. âI just couldnâtâŚhe was so sad, Joel. I had to stay.â
He nods at this, his jaw ticking. You resisted the urge to reach up and sink your fingertips into the masseter. âWere you worried about me, Joel?â you asked, and he narrowed his eyes at you, then, suddenly freezing up.
âThought you werenât coming, or that you wereâŚthought maybe something had happened,â he said, and you felt yourself soften.
âIâm fine. And I would never stand you up,â you said, moving to hold him around his waist, to circle him in your arms, only able to reach halfway around him, broad as he was. He avoided your eyes, the worry etched deep into his brow.
You still hadnât kissed him. All of the things he had done to you, the way he had pulled you apart under his hands, his mouth, spread around his cock, nothing so intimate as a kiss.
âIâm sorry,â you said again, low and velvet in your throat. âI really like you, Joel,â you went on, and he finally met your gaze, again. The naked vulnerability in it making you pause. You wondered how many people had ever seen this side of him. You suspected he could count them on one paw.
âItâs late,â he said, and started to pull away from you. âMaybe we should try again some other time.â To your dismay he had nearly turned his back to you, and without thinking you grabbed him around the middle and tried to turn him back.
âWait,â you said, and he hissed then, his muscles seizing. You let go of him, horrified.
âMâok,â he muttered, raising his hand to stop you from rushing toward him. âJustâŚstill gettinâ there, is all.â
âCome in, please,â you said, not touching him, not moving towards him, hoping your voice would be enough to get him to stay. âItâs cold, I have a bottle of whiskey Tommy slipped me when you were in the hospital, I canâŚâ
âYou needed whiskey, baby?â he said, and he had that lopsided grin on his face again, and you wanted to lick it off him. âWere you worried about little ole me?â
Never mind, you wanted to slap it off.
âOh for fucks sake,â you said, rolling your eyes and turning back to your door. âDonât get all cute just because I got scared when you nearly died,â you said, and you heard him chuckle. You entered your house and turned to him, one hand on the door. âIn or out?â you asked, and you knew that you were talking to the both of you, knew that he wasnât the only one facing the indecision, knew that you palming the responsibility off onto him, that you would accept his decision even if it meant never talking to him again. He hesitated, but only for a moment.
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He was back in your kitchen, on the same chair from a more recent before-time, from before heâd found a place for himself somewhere under your skin. You were both sipping your whiskey, listening to the crackling fire in the other room, letting the silence seep out and blanket you. He was still enormous, still took up nearly half the space, and you ceded all of it to him.
âEllie speaks the world of you,â he said, after a while, and you knew that this was important to him, that first and foremost he was her dad, her keeper and her protector.
âSheâs a lovely kid,â you said, and then corrected yourself. âNot a kid. Sheâd fucking kill me if she knew I said that.â
He chucked into his glass. âWonât tell her,â he promised.
âHowâs that healing?â you asked, gesturing to his wrist. It wasnât in a splint anymore but it was still tightly bandaged.
âSâjust weak, aches in the cold,â he said, and you nodded. You reached out and pulled it towards you, lay it on the kitchen table between you. You slipped the bandage away, watched the blood rush back in and pink up the flesh underneath it.
âYou need to stretch it, keep it strong,â you said. âBones probably healed but now the musclesâll be lazy.â
âYes, doctor,â he said, and you glanced up at him, at the crinkles in his skin and the warmth in his eyes as he teased you.
âI mean it,â you said, pretending to be offended, using it as an excuse to slip your hands around his wrist, his forearm. You felt the chords of the muscles there, the sinew and the veins. You rubbed your thumbs in firm circles, like you had shown him to do on your knee, all those weeks ago. You blushed at the thought of it, at the echo of the pleasure he had wrung from you not ten paces away.
He grunted a little, shifted in his seat, and you pulled his arm up at a right angle, so that his elbow was resting on the table. âHere, do this,â you said, and you slipped your fingers between his, rested your forearm against his, leant in a little to ease your combined weight onto the joint.
âIâm going to try and push your hand backwards, you push back,â you said.
âWe arm wrestlinâ?â he asked, smiling again.
âWe will if you donât behave yourself,â you shot back, and he grinned.
âTell me when,â he said, and you nodded your head. He grimaced at the strain through the joint, but you felt it stretch, felt it working under the force you were applying to it.
âThatâs good,â you said, without thinking, âdoing real well.â He sucked a shy little breath in through his teeth. You stopped pushing, looking up into his pink cheeks. You continued to hold his hand, your eyes fixed to his.
âSay it again,â he said, and your mouth went dry.
âDoing real well, Joel,â you said, and watched as he blinked slowly, drinking it in. âDoing so good.â
He pulled you then, by the arm, out of your chair and into his lap, his mouth finding your neck and suckling, hard, as you struggled for purchase on his thighs. You could feel how hard he was through his jeans, the pulse of it pushing into your cunt as you settled yourself down on him, your thin little stockings under Mariaâs borrowed dress doing absolutely nothing to provide a barrier against his throbbing for you.
He gasped, looked up at you as you perched above him. His pupils, blown wide with want, mirroring the ache you felt between your legs and in your heart for him. He tasted like peppermint toothpaste and you wondered idly if heâd brushed his teeth before heading to the Bison, if heâd hoped this would be the end result of the night or if it was just habit. You smelt the leather of his worn jacket. You reached up and let his salt and pepper beard scratch at the skin on your fingertips.
âSo good to us, Joel,â you said, and you heard the gentlest whimper catch in his throat. âLooking after the town. Keeping us safe.â
âWant to keep you, baby,â he whispered, his eyes dropping to examine your lips. âKeep you tucked up all warm and safe, keep you under my roof where I know youâre protected.â You shivered, at the heat of it, at the sincerity in it. âBe the one to shield you. All sweet and soft in your little kitchen. Wanting me, waiting fâme.â He finished, biting his bottom lip.
âI want you,â you said, simply, feeling his cock jump underneath you.
âYeah?â he asked, and you nodded.
âBeen waiting,â you bit out, realising for the first time that it was true.
âMâsorry baby,â he said, playfully goading you. âWhere did ya want me?â he whispered, tucking his head under your chin and licking a stripe up your neck, chewing idly on your earlobe. You shivered again, a shuddering little thing that also came with a whimper. You took his hand from your waist and dropped it to your pussy, pushed his fingers to cup you there, gasping when he ran a fingertip along your seam.
âEverywhere,â you whispered, and he grunted, shifting his weight. With one warm hand splayed across your shoulder blades he leant you back, his eyes running up and down your body, devouring you. He kept his hand on your cunt, idly running a finger up and down where you ached the most for him, and you worried for a moment that he would feel how wet heâd made you just with his gaze. Â
His breath was warm across your cheeks when he exhaled. He took the hand from between your legs and cupped your breast, rolled the nipple through your dress, made you whimper.
âJoel,â you whispered, and you watched as his eyes lit up, as the sparks caught on kindling and turned into a forest fire, as he swallowed, his Adamâs apple bobbing from the strain. You wanted to run your tongue over his bottom lip, nip at it.
âSssh, baby, I know,â he said, pulling you up off his lap to stand in front of him, your knees shaking. His arms bracketed your hips, gripping the table behind you, so you were surrounded by him. He remained seated, watching you from under heavy eyelids.
âTake it off,â he said, and you felt your pulse in your neck, thunderous.
âWhich?â you asked.
âMariaâs dress you donât think I recognise, those silly little stockings that ainât doing nothinâ to keep out the cold.â
He leant back on the chair again, kicked his legs out so that you were standing between his ankles now, leant his arm on the back of the chair and scratched at his beard. âWell, go on,â he said, and you felt so exposed to him then, vulnerable in the heat of his stare.
âHelp me,â you said, feigning not being able to get to the zipper, just for the excuse of turning away from him, from his eyes that were taking you apart atom by atom, from his hands resting on his thigh, from his thick fingers you wanted to slip into your mouth, let him push down on your tongue and suckle at him.
You felt his hands on your back, the zip coming down, the way he slipped the dress from you like he was unwrapping a present on Christmas morning. You leant over a little, trying to slip your stockings off and you heard him moan, felt his hands on you again, his warm paw on your lower back pushing you into a deeper bend, the other pulling on your hips to bring you closer to him, his hands gripping you, positioning you. You heard his sharp inhale when you slipped the stockings over your bottom, felt your cheeks blaze when he reached up and slipped your panties off along with them, bent over and completely exposed to him, wet and glistening in the light of the kitchen, the sound of your gasped little whimpers mixing with the ever-present whir of your forty-year-old fridge.
âOh, my girl,â he said, and you wanted to launch yourself at him, seat yourself back on his lap and bury your head in his neck but he was running his hands up and down the back of your thighs, edging himself closer on the chair, pushing you forward so that your breasts rested on the kitchen table, your cheek flush to the cold wood.
He bent his head and placed a single kiss at the base of your spine and you worried your knees would buckle, worried you would collapse onto the kitchen tile. As you gasped he brought his hands up to cup your bottom, spreading your cheeks enough to slip a thumb into your cunt, probe the warmth and feel the wet collecting on his fingertip. You startled, trying to buck away, trying to buck towards him, circling your hips to capture him inside you, and you heard him chuckle, felt his lips dip lower to your tailbone as he twisted his hands, his thumb still inside as his fingers came around to cup and rub at your slit, your poor little aching clit caught between his fingertips.
âJesus,â you cried, finding religion despite never having set foot in a church.
âWant to keep you full of me,â he muttered, sitting back down on the chair again and pulling you with him, spreading your legs over his so you were open wide, obscene and dripping in his lap, pulling your legs apart with his and whispering filth in your ear, cupping your breast with one hand and the other sliding into your heat.
âWant to keep you here, my pretty girl all safe and warm in my arms, full of my cock and my fingers, crying out for me when Iâm not there.â You were gasping, your vision narrowing, barely able to concentrate on anything except for his words, for his fingers stretching you, his legs pulling you impossibly wide. âWonât let nothinâ hurt ya, baby girl,â he grit out, and you felt a sob rip through your throat, the pleasure he was drawing out of you mixing with the comfort, with the intoxicating allure of him protecting you, of him standing between you and so many terrors.
In your right mind you wouldnât have believed him. Would have known there were things out there even the great Joel Miller couldnât topple, that there were threats known and unknown, seen and unseen, things out there wanting to spill your blood, the blood of the people you cared the most for. But Joel was inside you, in your cunt and in your ear, and his words were chipping away at your resistance, sliding under the door long ago locked tight. You were far from your right mind. You surrendered to the seduction of it, of the intoxication of it, of the myth this man was peddling that you would buy again and again and again.
âThere she is,â he said, as you came on his fingers, your cunt gripping him and your hips rolling, his face pressed hard into your neck as you twisted into the agony of it, your mouth open and gasping, your face turned to the Gods.
You felt his fingers underneath you, one hand wrapped tight around your torso to hold you steady as he released himself from his jeans, and you felt him then, pressed against the back of your thigh, the velvet heat of his length, the thundering throb of it. You had barely caught your breath, had yet to fully come back to yourself, before he was pushing himself into you, pulling you onto him, your neck caught in his teeth as he bit down on the nape, tried to stifle the groan blooming in his chest.
He felt bigger this way, the stretch even sharper despite his best attempts to prepare you, and your walls fluttered, fought to accept him. You shuddered, the sudden sting slamming you back into your body, and you gripped his hands to stop him, to pause. He stilled immediately, his breath hot and gasping.
âGive me a minute,â you gritted out, leaning back onto his shoulder and burying your nose in his jaw, panting, placing a placid little kiss to the salt and pepper patches there.
You felt him reach around you, his finger finding your clit and gently circling it, collecting your slick and pushing it over the nub to rid you of any friction. You groaned, arching your back against him, your hands digging into the meat of his thighs underneath you.
âSo beautiful like this,â he whispered into your ear as you felt the pleasure overtake you, the throb in your cunt synchronised to your thundering pulse. âCan feel you gripping me,â he went on. âStuffed fulla me, baby.â
âStop,â you gasped, the moment suddenly too intense, a fear gripping you then that if he kept talking you would give him anything; the shirt off your back, the blood in your veins. He chuckled, watching you struggle to take the pleasure he was pushing into you, through you.
It was wrong but you couldnât figure out why, because it still felt so fucking good, and you wanted more but couldnât figure out how it was possible, not sated by him seated fully inside you, not close enough to him as you pressed your body entirely against yours. You huffed, frustrated, standing before he could stop you and pivoting to face him, straddling him again in the chair and sinking yourself down on him in one swift motion, so that he gasped and then groaned when the heat of you enveloped him, joined you in a harsh cry when your clit met his hipbone and you settled there, shifted your hips to press into the nub.
âSâbetter,â you said, and you watched his lopsided grin emerge.
âMy girl miss seeing me?â he asked, and you rolled your hips to shut him up, watched any semblance of cogent thought leave him when you gripped him there.
âSay it again, Joel,â you said, sliding your hips forward and back in a way that you knew wasnât enough for him, but was making your clit throb when it grazed over his skin. He grunted, suddenly finding it hard to think clearly, and his brows saddled.
âKeep you safe?â he said, uncertain but meaning it anyway, and you shook your head.
âKeep who safe?â he asked.
âYou,â he answered, still not following, and you planted your feet on the floor, raised yourself up just to bounce back down again.
âWho am I, Joel?â you asked, nearly breathless, and finally, finally he understood, his little huffed out laugh sending a thrill through you as he reached down between your bodies, felt where you were joined.
âMy girl,â he said, finding your clit and edging his fingertips across it, sending fireworks up your spine. âMy beautiful girl, so tight and wet, so needy for me, cryinâ out for me in her kitchen.â
You groaned, feeling him grip you around the middle with one arm, lifting you up and down on his cock, rocking into you and always, always, always watching your face, nibbling at your chin when you leant back to gasp for air.
You were going to come. It was too fast. You still had so many other things you wanted to say to him, wanted him with every atom of you, with every fibre, the neurons in your brain lighting up just for him. Wanting to live in the torrent of pleasure he brought out in you, wanted to twist and writhe in it. You felt, again, on the edge of tears, but not for wanting, this time. Not for the losses.
For the having. Of Jackson, of the wildflowers on the paths pushing past the cold. Of the little family you had eked out at the end of the world, of Ellie, of Tommy and Maria and Robin. Of this man under your body and on your kitchen chair, calling you his and promising to keep you safe. Of this man, pushing you closer and closer to the edge of oblivion and clinging to him, willingly readying yourself to cascade over it.
âWant you right here, always,â he grunted, and you keened, felt it then, that you were wanted, that you belonged.
You didnât have the words for it, vowed in that moment that you would spend the rest of your life trying to find them. For right now you did the only thing you could think of, leaning over and gripping his jaw, angling his face to you as you landed your lips on him, kissed him as you felt a tear streak across your cheek and onto his skin, as you shuddered and felt your cunt milking him, as he spilled into you and you joined him, the ecstasy and the pleasure and the warmth of it. In your little house in Jackson, behind enormous walls, to hold you.
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Silence Between Us
Max Cooperman x Fem!Reader
song i recommend listening to: Burning Desire by Lana Del Rey
warnings: drug use (alcohol and marijauna), sexual content (not all the way basically just implied sex and slight mention of fingering), themes of romantic tension and emotional vulnerability
word count: 1.4k
notes: hi guys! so this is my second fic! the love on the tate one gave me motivation to write more!! even if its just a little attention i really appreciate it so much!!
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Max Cooperman had always been something of a mystery. His bravado mixed with flashes of vulnerability created a complex persona that drew you in. For years, you admired him from a distance, your heart fluttering each time he flashed that characteristic smirk. But Max had always seemed out of reach, an unattainable dream.
Now, sitting in the cozy confines of Max's home, the atmosphere was charged with tension. Friends were gathered, laughter echoed off the walls, and the couch was filled with familiar faces, but none occupied your thoughts as much as Max did. You brushed your hair over your shoulder, stealing glances at him. He was animated, talking to a group of friends, his hands moving as he recounted some story. The way he smiled made your heart race.
The party had progressed, drinks flowing freely. You werenât a heavy drinker, but the intoxicating buzz of alcohol began to cloud your mind, loosening your inhibitions. By the time the group decided to light up some weed for the night, you found yourself succumbing to the haze of both drinks and smoke, feeling giddy and unguarded.
Max had been sitting next to you on the couch, a playful banter flowing between the two of you. He leaned in closer as he passed you the joint, a smirk playing on his lips.
âHere, try this. Itâs the good stuff,â he said, handing you a joint. His voice low and inviting.
You took a puff, inhaling deeply and letting the smoke fill your lungs. As you exhaled, the world spun slightly, and you felt your heart racing again. Not just from the weed but from being so near him.
âMax.â you said, the alcohol loosening your tongue. âYou know I think youâre amazing, right?â The words slipped out before you could stop them. Your cheeks burned as you glanced sideways at him, studying his reaction.
Max raised an eyebrow, a hint of curiosity flickering in his chocolate brown eyes. âReally? Since when?â
You chuckled nervously, the moment heavy with unspoken feelings. âI mean⌠forever. Since like⌠forever.â you managed to say, the truth hanging between you like a delicate thread. âYou have no idea how many times Iâve wanted to tell you.â
His expression shifted, a mix of surprise and something else. hope? âYouâve wanted to tell me something?â
You felt bold, the combination of the weed and alcohol stirring a fire inside you. âYeah,â you confessed. âIâve been in love with you for years, Max. I thought you didnât feel the same.â
He was silent for a moment, processing your words. And then, the smirk returned, but it was softer, more genuine. âYou have no idea how long Iâve been waiting for you to say that.â
Your heart jumped in disbelief. âYou what?â
Max leaned closer, the distance between you vanishing. âIâve liked you since forever too. I just thought you were out of my league.â
The air thickened as you registered his confession. You exchanged a look, realization dawning as the world, with its noise and laughter, faded away. This was it, the moment you had both been waiting for was finally here.
Intoxicated and emboldened by your confessions, you leaned in, your lips barely grazing his before you pulled back, searching his eyes for confirmation. âIs this⌠real?â you whispered.
âGod, yes,â he breathed, and that was all the encouragement you needed.
You closed the gap once more, capturing his lips with yours. The kiss ignited something inside both of you, as if a dam had finally burst. Maxâs hands found your waist, pulling you closer as he deepened the kiss, pouring all the unspoken words and longing into that one heated moment.
You melted against him, sighing into his mouth as his fingers tangled in your hair, angling your head for better access. The kiss intensified, growing hungry and desperate. You felt dizzy, not from the weed or alcohol, but from the realization that this was finally happening.
He pulled you onto his lap, your legs straddling him as you continued to kiss passionately, your bodies intertwined. The couch became your private world, and all that existed was the two of you.
âLetâs get out of here.â he murmured against your lips, pulling back just enough to meet your gaze.
âYeah.â you replied breathily, feeling bold. âLetâs go.â
Max didnât hesitate. He stood up with you still in his arms, carrying you with a confidence that made your heart race even more. He pushed through the partygoers, who were oblivious to the fiery connection that had ignited around you. Finally, he reached his bedroom, kicking the door closed behind you.
The moment the door clicked shut, Maxâs lips were on yours again, fervent and urgent. âAre you sure?â he asked, pausing to look into your eyes, searching for any hesitation.
âYes.â you whispered with determination. âIâm sure.â
He wasted no time, lifting you and placing you on his bed. The room was dimly lit, shadows dancing across the walls. As he hovered above you, his hands glided over your sides, igniting every nerve ending with each touch.
You could feel the heat radiating off him, your body responding instinctively as you wrapped your arms around his neck, drawing him in closer. âMax.â you breathed, your voice a soft plea.
With an urgency fueled by years of pent-up desire, Max kissed you deeply again, and in that moment, nothing else mattered. His hands explored your curves, fingers brushing over the fabric of your shirt, teasingly slow.
âDo you want me toâŚâ Max trailed off, his breath hot against your skin, his fingers hovering just beneath the hem of your shirt.
âYes, Max. I need you too.â you breathed out, feeling emboldened by your intoxication and the electric connection between you.
His hands slid under your shirt, and as he pulled it over your head, you shivered at the sensation of cool air hitting your skin. His eyes roamed over your body, filled with admiration and desire, and you felt a rush of confidence under his scrutiny.
âIâve wanted to see you like this for so long.â he admitted, his voice low and husky.
You could see the hunger in his gaze, and it drove you wild. Your fingers trembled as you fumbled with the buttons of his shirt, desperately wanting to feel his skin against yours. As you pushed his shirt off his shoulders, your bodies finally connected skin to skin, warmth flooding through you.
Max groaned, a sound that sent waves of desire crashing over you. His hands found your waist again, guiding you closer as he kissed you deeper, tongues dancing together in a rhythm only you two understood.
The world outside faded away, the partyâs noise replaced by the sound of your heartbeats and the rustling of sheets as you lost yourselves in each other. You felt powerful, wanted, and alive as Max explored every inch of you, kissing down your neck, savoring every gasp and sigh that escaped your lips.
As the intensity of the moment grew, Maxâs attention shifted lower, his mouth trailing down to your chest. The sensation was electric, each brush of his lips igniting a fire within you. Your fingers tangled in his hair, urging him on, wanting to feel everything he had to offer.
His hands roamed over your thighs, slowly pushing your skirt up, and you gasped as his fingers teased your sensitive clit. With every stroke, he ignited a fire deep within you, making you yearn for more.Â
âMax, pleaseâŚâ you gasped, overwhelmed with desire.
He looked up, eyes wild and hungry. âTell me what you want, baby.â he said, voice thick with need.
âMore of you.â you whimpered, feeling bold and utterly intoxicated by the passion of the moment.
Max responded to your plea with fervor, closing the distance and capturing your lips once more, lost in the heat of the moment. The outlines of his well-defined muscles pressed against you, his body fitting perfectly against yours like two pieces of a puzzle.
The space around you became a whirl of limbs and whispers, your bodies moving in sync as desire took over. It was messy and eager, but it was everything you both had waited forâyears of unspoken love finally bursting into flame.
As the night wore on, the two of you tangled in each other's arms, discovering every secret and nuance of your desires. Words that had once felt stuck in your throats flowed freely now; giggles mixed with gasps became a melody in the room.
Time felt irrelevant as you lost yourselves in ecstasy, exploring the depth of feelings that had simmered beneath the surface for so long, finding solace in each otherâs embrace.
Eventually, as the night faded into dawn, you lay entwined under the sheets, Max's fingers tracing idle patterns on your skin. âSo, weâre really doing this?â he asked, a hint of disbelief lacing his tone.
You smiled, feeling warmth blossom in your chest. âYeah, we are.â
He chuckled softly, pulling you closer. âIâve never been happier.â
And in that moment, you knew that your love was no longer just unspoken. It had become reality, and together you were ready to embrace whatever came next.
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Heii babeee. Can you please do a Rafe Cameron x enemies!reader? They are both well known people on Figure 8 but hat each other but one evening at a gala or something they fight and end up fucking in the bathroom. Maybe Ward and readers dad catches them in the end?
Entangled with the Enemy
Rafe Cameron x enemie!reader
Words:Â 4k
Summary: a heated rivalry ignites passion during a gala, revealing hidden desires.
Ever since you could remember, Rafe Cameron had been a thorn in your side. It wasnât just a passing annoyanceâno, it was a deep-rooted rivalry that had started long before either of you understood the complexities of disdain. It began at the country club when you were both barely old enough to hold a golf club. He had knocked over your lemonade in the clubhouse, laughing in that irritating way that only a spoiled rich kid could. You had retaliated by stepping on his foot with your newly polished shoes, which led to a shouting match that had every adult in the room glancing disapprovingly in your direction.
You hated him then. You hated him now.
Years later, not much had changed between you. If anything, the rivalry had only grown stronger, more venomous, as you both became fixtures in Figure 8âs elite social scene. Wherever you were, Rafe wasnât far behind, and the feeling of mutual loathing had followed you through middle school, high school, and now, even into your early twenties.
Everyone in Figure 8 knew of your animosity. Some thought it was amusingâtwo golden children of Kildareâs wealthiest families constantly at each otherâs throats. Others whispered, wondering if there wasnât something else lurking beneath all that hatred, but you always scoffed at the idea.
Tonight was no different.
The annual Figure 8 Gala was a glamorous event, one that drew all the old-money families out of their grand estates and onto the dance floor, where champagne flowed like water and gossip circulated in hushed, excited tones. You stood near the bar, wearing a sleek black dress that made you look effortlessly elegant. You had a glass of wine in your hand, but you werenât drinking much. Instead, your eyes flitted over the crowd, looking for an exit. As much as you tried to tolerate these events, they always left you feeling restless.
Just as you took a sip, you heard that all-too-familiar voice behind you.
âSurprised to see you here. Didnât think this was your scene anymore,â Rafe sneered, his presence commanding attention without even trying.
You set your glass down on the bar, not turning around yet. The tension between you two was palpable, even before you exchanged a single glance.
âRafe, are you stalking me now, or is it just that you have nothing better to do with your life?â you retorted, finallyspinning around to face him.
He looked infuriatingly good, dressed in a tailored black suit that highlighted his broad shoulders and sharp jawline. His eyes, blue and piercing, studied you for a moment before a smirk tugged at the corner of his mouth.
âAlways the charming one,â he said mockingly, stepping closer. âRemind me, how many years have you been trying to get under my skin? Iâm starting to lose count.â
You crossed your arms, refusing to let him intimidate you. âI donât have to try. You make it way too easy.â
Rafe chuckled, a low sound that made your skin prickle with annoyance. âOh, trust me, princess, youâve been trying. Ever since we were kids.â
At that, your glare sharpened. "Please. If anyoneâs been obsessed with the past, itâs you. Iâve moved on from our childish nonsense a long time ago.â
âRight,â he drawled, raising an eyebrow. âThatâs why youâre standing here, looking like youâre about to snap my neck just because Iâm breathing in the same room as you.â
âIâm standing here because Iâm trying to enjoy my night without you ruining it,â you shot back, voice icy. âBut clearly, thatâs asking for too much.â
He leaned in, his breath ghosting over your ear. âYouâre enjoying this just as much as I am.â
You pulled back immediately, staring at him like heâd just insulted you. âYouâre delusional if you think I enjoy anything about you.â
Rafe tilted his head, considering you with a smug look that only made your blood boil more. âYou used to care what I thought. Back in the day. Admit it.â
You scoffed, brushing past him, though he was quick to catch up, his long strides keeping him close. âI never cared about your opinion, Rafe. Youâve always been a spoiled, arrogantââ
âRich boy?â he finished for you, a sarcastic glint in his eyes. âYou keep throwing that around like itâs supposed to insult me.â
âItâs not an insult,â you replied, your voice low but steady. âItâs a fact.â
He stopped in front of you, blocking your path. The tension between you both was starting to draw attention from the surrounding party-goers, who were now casting curious glances in your direction. Some even whispered to one another, probably amused at the latest chapter in the saga of Rafe Cameron vs. You.
âWhy do you hate me so much?â Rafeâs question came suddenly, his tone differentâless mocking, moreâŚcurious. His brow furrowed as if he genuinely wanted to know the answer. âWhat is it, huh?â
You blinked at him, momentarily thrown by the shift in his attitude. âIâwhat?â
âYou heard me,â he said, taking a step closer, his voice dropping. âWhy do you hate me? Because, from where Iâm standing, it feels like you put more effort into this than necessary. I know Iâm not the nicest guy around, butâŚâ He trailed off, watching you with a sharpness that you hadnât seen before. It was unnerving.
You swallowed hard, straightening your posture as you searched for a retort. You couldnât let him get to you. Not like this. âItâs easy to hate you, Rafe. You make it easy.â
He nodded slowly, as if contemplating your words. His lips twitched, forming a tight smile. âBecause itâs easier to hate me than admit anything else, right?â
âWhat the hell does that mean?â you snapped, suddenly defensive.
âIt means,â Rafe started, closing the distance between you again, his voice lowering to a near whisper, âyou spend so much time convincing yourself that Iâm the problem, but maybe the problem is you canât stand the fact that weâre more alike than you want to admit.â
You opened your mouth to argue, to tell him he was wrong, but nothing came out. For a split second, his words hung in the air, wrapping around you like a vice. The tension between you two felt different, heavier, like it was building toward something neither of you could control.
âDonât flatter yourself,â you finally managed to say, though your voice lacked the usual venom.
His smirk returned, but there was something else behind it now. Something almostâŚchallenging. âOh, I donât have to. Youâre already thinking about it, arenât you?â
âIâm not thinking about anything except how to get away from you,â you shot back, turning on your heel to leave. But his hand caught your wrist, stopping you.
âFunny,â he murmured, his voice dark and teasing. âBecause every time you walk away, you always come back.â
A rush of frustration surged through you, his words clawing at something deeper, something you hadnât been willing to admit for a long time. Maybe it was the constant proximity, maybe it was the years of bickering, or maybe it was the way he stood there, challenging you with every look, every smirk, every damn word. You felt your pulse quicken, your heart hammering in your chest as the room seemed to grow smaller.
You exhaled sharply, the weight of the moment pressing down on you, overwhelming you.
"Fuck this," you muttered under your breath.
Without giving yourself time to thinkâor regretâyou grabbed Rafe by the front of his jacket and pulled him with you, weaving through the crowd. You didnât know where you were going at first, but the second you spotted the nearest bathroom, you headed straight for it. Your heels clicked furiously against the polished floor as Rafe followed, clearly taken by surprise but not resisting.
The bathroom door slammed behind you, not locking, but you didnât care.
Before you could second-guess yourself, your hands gripped his collar, pulling him down as your lips crashed into his. It wasnât gentle; it wasnât careful. It was desperate, heatedâyears of tension and frustration finally spilling over.
Rafe groaned into your mouth, his hands immediately gripping your waist as if heâd been waiting for this moment just as much as you had. The kiss was fierce, all teeth and tongue, neither of you giving the other a moment to breathe.
âAlways so dramatic,â Rafe muttered against your lips between heavy breaths, his fingers sliding up your back, sending shivers down your spine.
âShut up,â you breathed, your fingers tangling in his hair as you deepened the kiss, wantingâneedingâmore.
He chuckled against your mouth, but the sound quickly turned into a low growl as his hands roamed down to your hips, gripping you with an intensity that made your legs feel weak.
Before you knew it, he lifted you effortlessly, your back pressing against the cool bathroom counter as he hoisted you up onto it. You gasped as the cold surface met your thighs, but the feeling was quickly replaced by the heat of his hands sliding up your legs, parting them with a slow, deliberate motion.
His lips were on your neck again, sucking and biting in a way that made it impossible to think straight. You could feel his breath hitch as he pressed harder into you, his body flush against yours.
âYouâre not gonna stop me this time, are you?â Rafeâs voice was rough, low, almost daring you to push him away.
âTry me,â you muttered, breathless, your nails digging into his shoulders as you pulled him closer.
Rafe smirked, his eyes dark with something more than just arrogance. His hands tightened around your waist as he leaned in, his lips brushing against yours again. "I always knew you wanted me,â he whispered, his voice dripping with that familiar cockiness, but this time, you didnât bother to deny it.
âYou think too much,â you replied, your voice coming out in a breathy rush, and before he could respond, you crashed your lips into his again. This time, there was no holding back, no hesitation. Just pure, heated want.
He groaned into your mouth, the sound vibrating against your lips as his hands slid up the inside of your thighs, parting your legs even further. The counter pressed against your back, the cold contrast making the heat between your bodies even more intense.
Your heart raced as his touch became more insistent, his fingers digging into your skin like he couldnât get enough of you. And you couldnât get enough of him, either. Everything about this moment was wrong, but it felt so damn right.
You didnât stop him. You didnât want to.
You barely registered what you were doing as your fingers reached for the buttons of Rafeâs shirt, fumbling slightly in your haste to get it off. He broke the kiss for a brief second, just long enough to glance down at your hands before smirking. Without a word, he quickly helped you, undoing the buttons faster and shoving the fabric off his shoulders. His skin was warm beneath your touch, the heat of his body driving you crazy as your hands ran over the hard planes of his chest.
He didnât waste any time either. His hands slid down your waist, rough and urgent, before they disappeared under your dress. With one swift motion, he pushed it up around your hips, his fingertips skimming over your thighs as he hooked his fingers around the waistband of your panties.
âLetâs get these off,â Rafe growled, voice thick with lust as he pulled them down in one quick motion, leaving you bare beneath him. He tossed them aside carelessly, his hands immediately returning to your thighs, spreading your legs wider.
You gasped, both from the sudden exposure and the way his touch sent a rush of heat pooling low in your belly. Your mind was spinning, caught somewhere between disbelief and pure, unfiltered desire. This was happening, and it was happening fast, but you couldnât bring yourself to stop it. Not when every touch, every breath, made your skin burn with need.
Rafeâs hands gripped your hips, pulling you closer to the edge of the counter, his body pressing firmly against yours. He took a moment to look down at you, his blue eyes darkened with lust, a cocky grin pulling at the corner of his mouth.
âI always knew you couldnât resist me,â he teased, his voice low and dripping with that same arrogant charm that had always made you want to slap himâexcept now, it made you want him even more.
âShut up,â you breathed, your hands flying to his belt, desperate to unbuckle it and get it out of the way. The sound of the leather slipping free was loud in the small bathroom, but all you could focus on was the feel of his skin against yours as you finally managed to free him from his pants.
âSomeoneâs eager,â Rafe murmured, his lips brushing against the shell of your ear as he kicked off his shoes and pushed his pants and boxers down in one swift movement.
Your heart was pounding in your chest, your pulse racing as he pressed his hips against yours, the feel of himâhard and readyâagainst your entrance sending a fresh wave of heat coursing through your body.
âRafe,â you whispered, your voice barely audible over the sound of your own ragged breathing.
His eyes met yours, the cocky grin gone, replaced by something far more intense. Without saying a word, he positioned himself between your legs, one hand gripping your thigh as the other lined himself up at your entrance. There was no warning, no teasing, just the raw, primal need driving both of you.
In one smooth thrust, he pushed inside, and both of you let out matching moans, the sound filling the small bathroom as your bodies collided.
âFuck,â Rafe groaned, his head dropping to your shoulder as he paused for a moment, letting you adjust to the feeling of him deep inside you. His breath was hot against your neck, his grip on your hips tightening as he fought to keep himself under control.
You gasped, your nails digging into his bare shoulders as your legs instinctively wrapped around his waist, pulling him deeper. The stretch was intense, the pressure overwhelming, but it felt so good, too good. Your head fell back against the mirror behind you, your body arching against his as the tension in the air became almost unbearable.
âGod, Rafe,â you whimpered, biting your lip as you tried to catch your breath. âDonât stop.â
His eyes flicked up to meet yours, and the look he gave you was pure hunger. âWasnât planning on it,â he growled, and with that, he started to move.
His thrusts were slow at first, controlled, as if he was savoring the feeling of you wrapped around him. But it wasnât long before the pace quickened, the heat between you building with each movement. His hands gripped your hips tighter, pulling you against him with every thrust, his body driving into yours with an intensity that left you breathless.
âFuck, you feel so good,â Rafe groaned, his voice rough and filled with raw desire. His lips found yours again, but this kiss was differentâhotter, needier, all tongues and teeth as his hips snapped forward, hitting deeper every time.
You couldnât hold back the moans that escaped your lips, each thrust sending a jolt of pleasure through your body. Your nails dug into his back as you clung to him, your body rocking with his, matching his rhythm. It was fast, frantic, like you both needed this more than air.
âRafeâŚâ You breathed his name again, a plea, a warning. Your entire body was wound tight, the tension coiling low in your belly, threatening to snap at any moment.
âSay it again,â he demanded, his voice thick and strained as he drove into you harder, his forehead resting against yours. âSay my name.â
âRafe,â you gasped, your voice breaking as another wave of pleasure crashed through you. You were close, so close, and he knew it.
âGood girl,â he muttered, his lips brushing against yours as he thrust deeper, the angle hitting just right, sending sparks of pleasure shooting through your veins. âYouâre so fucking perfect like this.â
You could barely respond, too lost in the feeling of him inside you, the overwhelming sensation building with each thrust, each ragged breath. Your legs tightened around his waist, pulling him closer, deeper, as your nails raked down his back.
âFuck, Iâm close,â you managed to gasp, your head falling back as the pleasure built to a breaking point, your entire body trembling.
Rafe groaned in response, his thrusts becoming erratic, more desperate as he chased his own release. âMe too, baby,â he muttered against your skin, his voice strained. âCome for me.â
And that was all it took.
With one final, hard thrust, the tension inside you snapped, sending you over the edge. A moan tore from your lips, your entire body shaking as waves of pleasure crashed through you, overwhelming your senses.
Rafe wasnât far behind. You felt him tense, his grip on your hips tightening as he buried himself inside you, groaning as he reached his own release. His breath was hot against your neck, his body pressed against yours as he rode out the last waves of pleasure, his hips moving in slow, lazy thrusts.
For a moment, the only sound in the room was your ragged breathing, both of you trying to catch your breath as the intensity of what just happened settled between you.
Rafe pulled back slightly, his forehead resting against yours as he looked at you, a mixture of satisfaction and something elseâsomething unreadableâin his eyes.
âYou okay?â he asked, his voice low and still rough from exertion.
You nodded, still trying to process everything. âYeah⌠more than okay,â you whispered, a small, breathless laugh escaping your lips.
Rafe smirked, that cocky grin you knew so well making its return. âKnew you couldnât resist me.â
As the rush of the moment slowly faded, the sound of your combined heavy breathing filled the small space. Rafeâs hands still gripped your waist, his forehead resting against yours as both of you tried to come down from the intense high. Your skin was flushed, tingling from where he had touched you, the heat of your bodies still lingering in the air.
Neither of you said a word for a few moments, the silence stretching between you, filled with the weight of what had just happened. You were still perched on the counter, your dress bunched around your hips, both of you completely undressed, the reality of your situation slowly settling in.
Rafe leaned back slightly, his eyes scanning over your face as if trying to make sure this was all real. A small, cocky smile began to creep onto his lips. âThat was⌠something,â he breathed, his thumb gently brushing against your thigh.
You couldnât help but let out a small, breathless laugh, shaking your head as you tried to gather yourself. âYeah,â you whispered, your own cheeks still burning, your heart racing for a whole new reason. âSomething.â
Just as you were about to say more, the faint creak of the bathroom door opening snapped both of your heads toward the sound.
Panic hit you like a tidal wave, your breath catching in your throat as your eyes widened in horror. You had barely registered the fact that you were still practically naked, tangled in Rafe, when two familiar figures stepped into the bathroomâyour dad and Ward Cameron.
The room seemed to freeze for a second. Your heart dropped into your stomach as you stared, wide-eyed, at the two men now standing in front of you. They didnât even look surprisedâmore like they had walked in on something theyâd been expecting all along.
âOh my god,â you mumbled, your voice barely audible, your face flushing even redder than it already was. You quickly moved to cover yourself, but it was too late. Youâd been caught. You felt the heat rise to your cheeks, mortification crashing over you like a wave.
Rafe, equally frozen for a moment, blinked before quickly stepping in front of you, blocking their view as much as possible. âOh my god, Dad, get out!â he shouted, his voice louder than necessary, sounding more like a demand than a request.
Your dad chuckled first, breaking the silence with a deep, amused laugh that made your embarrassment ten times worse. He exchanged a look with Ward, who simply shook his head with a knowing smile, as if the two of them had been waiting for this moment.
âWell, look at that,â Ward said, his tone full of dry amusement as he turned to face Rafe. âTook you two long enough to finally get along.â
Rafe groaned in frustration, his face flushed as he tried to shield you from view, his hands scrambling to grab his discarded shirt. âDad, seriouslyâget out!â he snapped again, his voice full of exasperation.
Your dad shook his head, still chuckling softly. âWeâll give you two a moment,â he said, his voice tinged with amusement as he turned around to leave. âBut donât take too long. The galaâs still going on, after all.â
Ward followed suit, giving one last look over his shoulder, an almost proud smirk on his face. âNice work, son,â he said, before closing the door behind him.
As soon as the door clicked shut, you let out a groan, burying your face in your hands. âOh my god, that did not just happen,â you muttered, your cheeks still burning with embarrassment. You could still hear the faint sound of their laughter echoing down the hallway.
Rafe let out a heavy sigh, shaking his head in disbelief. âThatâs just⌠unreal,â he grumbled, running a hand through his hair, clearly as mortified as you were. âI canât believe theyââ
You cut him off with a shaky laugh, your hands still covering your face. âThis is officially the worst way this could have ended.â
Rafe chuckled softly, clearly trying to shake off the awkwardness of the situation. He leaned down, pressing a soft kiss to your forehead, his lips lingering for a moment. âYeah, well,â he murmured, his voice light and teasing, âat least they didnât kill me.â
You let out a weak laugh, finally pulling your hands away from your face to look up at him. âYet,â you replied, your voice dry as you shook your head. âThey didnât kill you yet.â
Rafe grinned down at you, his eyes sparkling with that familiar mischief. âGuess weâll just have to see how long I can stay alive, huh?â
You laughed again, the tension between you easing just a little. Despite everythingâthe panic, the embarrassmentâthere was still that undeniable spark between you, something deeper that neither of you could ignore anymore. Whatever had happened tonight, it had changed everything.
âLetâs just⌠not talk about this,â you muttered, still trying to shake off the mortification as you grabbed for your clothes, ready to escape the bathroom as fast as possible.
âDeal,â Rafe agreed, already pulling his shirt back on, though his eyes lingered on you with that same heated intensity, a small smirk tugging at his lips. âFor now.â
As you straightened your dress and gathered yourself, you couldnât help but glance back at him, a part of you knowing that whatever came next between you and Rafe, it was going to be far from over.
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"Why are artists so butthurt about AI art? Horse carriage drivers didn't complain when they invented the car, they were just grateful that the technology evolved and made it easier to get around."
Art is not a carriage, it's not a vehicle. Its purpose is not to be efficient, to do a practical job with as little effort as possible. Art is not something that can be automated, because its artistry lies in the humanity of its creator. Art is wonderful, from a baby's first drawing, inexperienced and unskilled, to the paintings adorning the ceiling of the Sistine Chapel.
If you consider yourself an AI artist, I ask you: are you proud of yourself when the computer has completed another image that you will claim as yours? Do you look at it and feel the joy of having created something?
Does the generative process teach you how to see the world better? With every image created, do you evolve? Do you understand the planes of the face better now than 1000 images ago? Do you know what rim light is, and where to put it? Do you understand light sources? Tones? Could you take a piece of paper and shade a portrait by yourself?
"AI software is just like Photoshop or Blender, the next step in artistic technology".
It's not though, is it? A digital artist uses a pen to put colors on screen, chooses where to put each brush stroke, when to smudge or use the liquify tool. A 3D sculptor manipulates basic shapes into characters just like a traditional artist molds clay. An AI "artist" doesn't make any of the thousands of choices that lead to the creation of a real piece of art.
"But art is hard, and I'm not good enough."
Neither am I! Man, I'm not the worst artist in the world, but I'm not great, still not at the level I would like to be. Sometimes I draw something and I look at it and realize that it sucks ass! Sometimes I post a drawing online and realize that I drew a character out of proportion, that the light source is not consistent, that I've shaded outside the lines! And you know what's great? That I get to have an understanding of what I did wrong! I get to evolve! I redraw something from 5 years ago and realize that my composition is much better, my shading more believable. And I know that in 5 more years, I might redraw it again and pride myself in how much I've evolved.
I've been drawing since I was a baby, and I still have a long way to go. And that is also fine, because art is a lifelong pursuit, growing, changing, just as I am.
It's okay to not be good. Hell, it's okay if you don't even try to get better. By drawing, you WILL. It's inevitable that, by practicing, you'll learn.
You know what will not make you a better artist? Software that will generate your "art" for you. The result might look more complex than what your skill level allows you to create right now. But it doesn't look better. You could draw a crooked circle on xerox paper and it will look better than all the AI art in the world. Because you made it. Have some faith in yourself. Your vision has more artistic value than what that computer generated.
"If you're afraid that AI will steal your job, learn to draw better!"
I'm trying. Are you?
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another little nofna style emulation comic i drew a bit ago that was primarily about why something can "look like words" when it isn't... it is possibly Legend's first time considering the involuntary nature of reading words. she can rationally know that she isn't looking at writing, but her mind continues to see words that she must try to decipher.
the comic ended up getting side-tracked, but i kind of just let these comics go where they go. it is the nofna spirit.
PS and Legend have probably only spoken several times at this point, as classmates. in my head, this is their first season of classes, and they have only just recently proceeded from practicing handwriting and making letters to writing out spoken word.
i imagine that letters and writing are not intuitive at all to people who haven't grown up with it. Legend knew how to read well before entering school. PS has not really internalized that letters represent sounds. she has seen her teacher or classmates speak words as they're writing lines, and later, other people can tell the words that were spoken while writing the lines. her penmanship is naturally excellent, and prior to this module, she was praised by her teacher lavishly.
i imagine that because MOST RODENTS become markscrafts, and rodents tend to be rather... prolific... in number. that classes for this profession would be fucking huge.
the teacher cannot individually dedicate attention to every struggling student, so the first practice is to pair two struggling students together who seem like they compensate each others' shortcomings and see if they can rehabilitate their grades together.
if students continue to fail despite peer review, that is probably the time where a teacher would talk to them privately or recommend a tutor, etc.
the classes also function by a "revise and resubmit" principle over an "extra credit" principle as it is the most direct way for students to figure out what they did wrong and the least amount of extra work for the professor.
their professor is a mouse; a tried to write the grade print small (called "mouseprint" in the canon).
PS's language here is very rough and strange; i imagine she has, at the VERY most, been exposed to common for only a year. she is maybe ~15-16 in age, psychologically. ever since i made her as a character, i assumed one of her core traits was a low drive to do work. she became a markscraft SPECIFICALLY because she did not want to put in the work to earn prestige or more credit. she picked the easiest possible career for her.
as a younger mind, and only recently introduced to the idea that she has to perform labor or GTFO society, her dislike of work is very obvious and she is not reserved about sharing it. she came from a life where she could volunteer to do small tricks for high value treats if she felt like it, and this life is comparatively brutal and demanding in her mind.
Legend's corsage is red star (Rhodohypoxis baurii) and PS's Leaf is a leaf from a large pineapple lily.
Legend is, conversely, probably 18-20 psychologically. idk, the ages are very weird with these animals. i've imagined her parents as highly Civilized people like XX's mother, but a little less strict. while many citizens of society hate wild people (presumably because many of them are serial killers who might serial kill them), not all of them do (example: nutsedge, who sympathizes with a Wild Hawk killing her classmates), and i imagined Legend's parents impressing into her rather strongly that she did not earn being born into a well-off family and physically gifted species.
of course, this didn't stop her from forming a superiority complex towards rodents anyway-- but, i think she's tolerating a significant amount of Weirdness from PS here that she extremely would not tolerate from someone she didn't assume was wild-integrating-into-society, from the constant touching, to the rude openness, the disdain for work ethic, the odd language usage, and the outfit that's essentially showing up to the study session in pasties and booty shorts.
it seems that in these stories, the animals attain a "fluent" level of speech in common relatively quickly (emancipation, secretary), somewhat influenced by natural talent; i think PS has a brute force spaghetti-against-the-wall approach that lets her just mimic as many phrases that she thinks are novel as possible. usually this is an option only available to toddlers who lack the self-awareness to feel embarrassment about constant awkward linguistic mistakes, but PS also has no cultural priming to be embarrassed of the behavior. you can see her parroting various things she's heard, such as "sooo much" as an emphasis phrase, and even "essentially" after Legend says it in passing. other more abstract phrases such as "with credit" or "okay" i imagine she knows simply by being exposed to them over and over again.
when the two get into deeper levels of literacy and markscraft classes, i imagine that Legend's knowledge of grammar and Big Words in general, combined with an ability to verbally express usually unwritten rules in the language, helped propel PS to a level of fluency that has her speaking like she was raised with it 99% of the time.
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Original Ask: the main concept is that the reader was hired as an intern in the media team for barca, sheâs young, has a fiery tongue and can handle herself around players, and gavi ( whoâs known to be a hot head cause heâs sergio ramosâs long lost son lol ) cannot help but melt everytime he sees her, pedri tries to nudge his best friend into talking but a funny incident happens that causes them to admit their feelings to each other. (@findingnemosworld)
Word Count: 904 words
(author's note: another request from @findingnemosworld whose ideas never fail to amaze me 𩷠apologies for the lack of fics, my inspiration seemed to disappear on me !!)
Being hired for a media internship at Barcelona Football Club was the best thing to ever happen to Y/N. Every day was different, and she had developed close relationships with the players.
Y/N had a reputation around the Barça office for being brutally honest with a fiery tongue. She voiced every thought that came into her head and never lied to anyone.
She had been tasked with setting up the training equipment for the session on that day. She walked through the corridors of the training complex, heading towards the equipment cupboard.
Pablo's coach had also sent him to retrieve a clipboard from the same cupboard that, unbeknownst to him, Y/N had been sent to.
What Y/N didn't know was that Pablo had been admiring her from afar for a while. Every time he saw her, he flushed red with embarrassment. He thought she was the most beautiful girl he'd ever seen.
Pedri and Ansu were walking through the same corridor. They saw Y/N collecting cones and balls to take out to the field for the team to use during their training session.
When Pedri saw him enter the same cupboard as her, he took his chance. He locked the door behind Pablo and ran back to Ansu, laughing.
Pedri was sick of hearing his best friend talk about Y/N. Every time the pair saw her, Pablo would try and drag him away in fear of making a fool of himself. In an effort to finally get the pair together, Pedri resorted to locking the pair in the cupboard. If that didnât work, he didnât know what would.
Hearing the door close behind him, Pablo spun around. His eyes widened when he saw the doors were shut.
"Hello? Who is it?"
Pablo recognised that voice. He'd know it anywhere. It froze him to the spot. He didn't want to believe what was happening to him at that moment.
"Pablo, is that you?" He heard Y/N ask. He finally saw her walk into view.
"Yeah, it's me. I think the door's locked itself, so we might be in here for a while." He replied, scratching the back of his head awkwardly.
"Oh no. The team won't get their training equipment on time then."
She frowned. The idea of losing her internship made her sick. All she wanted to do was get the equipment and watch her friends train.Â
âItâs fine, Iâm sure theyâll notice weâre gone soon.â
Y/N let out a breath she didnât even know she was holding in.Â
âHow come youâre in here anyway? I thought you just had to turn up to training?â
Pablo laughed and shook his head.
âCoach wanted a clipboard, and I knew they were in here.â
Silence descended over the pair. Pablo wracked his brain, trying to think of something else to say to Y/N. His fear of embarrassing himself was growing larger by the second.Â
âYou look pretty today. Not that you donât look pretty every day, just you look really-â
Y/N cut off his bashful rambling, âThank you, Pablo, thatâs nice of you.â
Since starting her work with the football team, Y/N had always liked Pablo. As she got to know him more over the years, she noticed herself falling for the young player rapidly. His humour and kind nature drew her in, and before she knew it, she was hooked.
Being locked in the equipment cupboard wasnât where she thought she would finally confess her feelings for the Spaniard. However, she wasnât going to let the opportunity slip through her fingers.
âPablo, I have something Iâve been meaning to tell you. Before I tell you, I hope we can remain friends afterwards.â
His face dropped. Assuming the worst, he nodded at Y/Nâs words, urging her to continue.
âWhen I first started my internship here, I didn't intend to form such lovely connections with anyone. But since we first met, Iâve found myself liking you more and more; what Iâm trying to say is that I like you. A lot.â
Pablo was dumbfounded. Through his shock and disbelief, his heart began to beat faster.
âAre you serious?â Pabloâs mind was running at 100 miles an hour. âI feel the same, I have since I first saw you walk in through the front doors.â
Y/Nâs face broke out into a grin.
âI donât think we can remain friends, though. Pablo commented. âI would like you to be my girlfriend, though?â
Nodding ferociously, Y/Nâs smile got impossibly bigger.
The pair moved closer together and Pablo wrapped his arms around Y/N. Just as the pair were settling down, they heard the click of the door handle and then footsteps. Looking up at the sound, they saw Pedri poke his head around the corner.
âI knew it!â He exclaimed, âIâve been waiting for this moment for ages. You two were made for each other. Iâll finally be rid of Pablo talking about his âcrushâ on youâ
The trio laughed and Y/N and Pablo got up, making their way out of the cupboard.Â
The three of them headed to the training field, laughing at the unusual events of the morning.
Pablo knew Pedri had locked him and Y/N in the cupboard, but he didnât feel anger or resentment. Instead, he felt grateful for his friend and appreciative of the road ahead of him.
#pablo gavi x reader#pablo gavi x you#pablo gavi x y/n#pablo gavi#football#fanfiction#fanfic#hot footballers#request#fc barcelona#by ts1m1kas#đ§Ą
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George R.R. Martin on the process of creating A Game Of Thrones
You hold in your hands the second volume of A Song of Ice and Fire⌠but not the second volume as originally intended. Although I wrote the opening of A Game of Thrones back in the summer of 1991, as related in my introduction to the Meisha Merlin edition of that volume, it was not until October of 1993 that I drew up a proposal for my agents to take to publishers. There is no mention of any book titled A Clash of Kings in that proposal. In 1993, I was under the impression that I was writing a trilogy.
Trilogies had been the dominant form in epic fantasy ever since J.R.R. Tolkienâs The Lord of the Rings had been broken apart by publishers and released in three volumes. And the story that I wanted to tell divided quite naturally into three parts; much more so, in fact, than The Lord of the Rings, which is actually one fairly seamless narrative, and not a trilogy at all. I planned to title the books A Game of Thrones, A Dance with Dragons, and The Winds of Winter. I knew right from the start that they would all be large books. Huge books, even. But there were to be only three of them, andâŚand none were to be called A Clash of Kings. Sometimes the author is the last to know.
As I write this, I am halfway through the writing of A Feast for Crows, the fourth volume of my âtrilogy.â There is no mention of that title in my 1993 proposal either. These days, when pressed, I confidently assert that A Song of Ice and Fire will ultimately run to six books⌠but behind my back I know my lady Parris is smiling knowingly and holding up seven fingers. She may be right. Though I may dream of six books, plan for six books, work toward six books, the only thing that truly matters is the story. And the story needs to be as long as the story needs to be.
In Hollywood, the suits will tell you how long that is. A television show has to fit within its allotted time slot, of course, and you cannot beg, borrow, or steal an extra minute, no matter how much the story needs it. Running times are somewhat more flexible for films, though not as much as one might think. For the most part, the studios still want movies to run about two hours, so they look for screenplays of 120 pages or less, and demand cuts in any scripts that come in longer. My own screenplays and teleplays were almost always too long and too expensive in first draft, so in my later drafts, along with addressing the inevitable notes from studio, network, and producers, I was constantly trimming. In the end, I would deliver a shooting script that was the right length and under budget, but it was never a happy process⌠and I often went away feeling that the earlier drafts were the better ones.
The size of A Song of Ice and Fire was in no small part a reaction to ten years of trimming. I wanted to do something epic in scale, something at once grand and sprawling and complex and subtle, with a cast of thousands, huge battles, mighty castles, gorgeous costume, lavish feast, great rivers, towering mountains, vast fields⌠all the things I could not do in television. In short. I wanted to make a world. And for that you need a bit of room.
In my original proposal, I estimated that each volume of the trilogy might run as long as 800 pages in manuscript. The novels that I had written during the 70's and 80's, before Hollywood, had generally come in at 400 or 500 pages or thereabouts, so an 800 pages book seemed very lengthy indeed. The three books of the trilogy would be structured around the long, slow seasons of Westeros. A Game of Thrones would be summerâs book, A Dance with Dragons would take us through autumn, and The Winds of Winter⌠well, the title says it all. Even in the Seven Kingdoms, where a season can last for years, 800 pages ought to give me enough room to reach the end of summer and conclude the part of my tale, I reasoned.
âTwas a lovely plan of battle⌠but no plan of battle ever survives contact with the enemy, it has been said. Writers know the truth of that as well as any general, though our wars are fought on blank white sheets of paper and empty computer screens. For the map is not the territory, the blueprint is not the house, the recipe is not the dinner⌠and the outline is never ever the book.
- George R.R. Martin, A Clash of Kings Limited Edition Introduction (2002)
#Ned Stark#Catelyn Stark#Sansa Stark#Arya Stark#Bran Stark#Jon Snow#Tyrion Lannister#Daenerys Targaryen#The Outline#A Game Of Thrones#George R.R. Martin#ValyrianScrolls#ASOIAF
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Christmas Morning Distractions
Tommy Shelby x Reader
This took me longer to get to you than it was meant to, sorry it is so short. It was fun to write though!
No warnings, just fluff!
The Shelby family was a member bigger than it was last year. You and Tommy now had two beautiful children between you, Charlie who was his son from a previous marriage (but had accepted you as his own mother) and now Rosie, your daughter who would be turning one in February. The Christmas season had been full of excitement, Charlie was at the age now where he could understand the concept of Father Christmas and you had managed to bully your husband into playing into all of the traditions surrounding it. No matter how much Tommy complained, there was no way that he didnât enjoying taking the bite out of the reindeerâs carrot and the mince pies that were left out. It was a bit suspicious though in your opinion that Father Christmas had also been left out at glass whiskey.
The whole family would be coming over later, eating dinner and opening presents together. The children, mainly Charlie, were getting restless that they were having to wait to open all of their presents. Sat in the drawing room, you could see the lines of Tommyâs forehead drawing together in impatience. He was a good father, but not a tolerant one.
âCharlie, weâve had this conversation. We have to wait for your cousins to get here before you can open anythingâŚâ The boy was about to interrupt when you piped in.
âSurely there must be something that you want to do before then? Something else a little festive?â
âHereâs an idea for you Charlie, why donât we go and see the horses, eh? You like the stables, itâs snowed a bit overnight and the horses could do with a visit, we could take them something for Christmas as well if you like.â The little boyâs face lit up, he was clearly enthused by the idea.
Charlie was sent to the kitchen to find some carrots from Francis whilst you worried about wrapping up the baby. Tommy emerged at the same time as his son, proffering coats to all of you. He had a complex about you getting cold, he seemed to have decided you were particularly fragile ever since the birth. He took Rosie from you, carrying her in one and arm holding your hand with the other as headed out to the stables.
It didnât matter how many times Charlie saw the horses, he was always just as excited.
âGo on then lad, go and give them the carrots you got from Frances and make sure you wish them a Merry Christmas - horses can sense that itâs a time to celebrate just as much as you can.â The child went bobbing into the stables, going to find his favourite horse, a bay mare that Tommy had flatteringly named after you - it had a particularly skittish temperament. He reached up to it with the carrot, which it gratefully accepted, his little smile even brighter than the pristine white snow which covered the ground. Tommy drew you to him as you was watched, he had arranged Rosie so that she was tucked inside his overcoat, making sure she wasnât caught in the wind.
âThis is a lovely way to spend a morning Tom, a really good idea baby.â
âWell, I do have âem occasionally love,â he chuckled.
âYou know, Iâd like to make this a tradition, do it every year,â you suggested.
âIn that case love, that is what weâll do.â
#cillian murphy#cillian murphy x reader#tommy shelby x reader#tommy shelby#peaky blinders#fanfic#requests
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The improved behavioral modulator seems to be working.... well, with mixed results.
The Toy Part One | Part Two | Part Three | Part Four (you are here)
Takes place after the Back to Skool Arc
But Before the GIR ARC
Master Post
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Kofi
Boo! An update! under the cut for more personal stuff as you prob wonder why this au has been silent lately.
Hey, I know it's been awhile since you've seen me. Well, that's cause I've been holding onto this update for awhile. Since December of 2022.
There's a lot of reasons why I haven't posted this. Mostly to do with severe depression, and anxiety getting worse, and a major art complex on my shoulder.
Plus, fact of the matter is that I lost all of my notes for the Post-Florpus AU. Yeah. Every single one, cause I handwrote those notes and who knows where they are now. I had this huge thing for this little arc here planned, and cause my memory problems are getting worse, I don't remember the initial interactions I had planned for Zim and GIR that fit the major part of the story.
So this thing is very much in Hiatus and I haven't drawn most of 2023 I think. I still have one additional Post-Florpus comic I'm sitting on that I drew in 2019, but I hesitate uploading that one with no context to something I can't remember.
As always, this au is pretty personal to me, and while I am still working on FNAF stuff, I might come back to this officially one day.
But for now, I'll just give you some scraps I've been hoarding to myself for a full year.
The series is in Hiatus still, and I hope to find my joy of drawing again.
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I currently have two AUs that I don't exactly know what to do with or what to properly call them LMFAO- I'll probably write something on Ao3 for it eventually since there's a ton of BillFord and FiddStan in there but yeah-
1st AU: Timelord Stanford (Dr Who what if)
This case was inspired by an RP I had with someone's Bill Cipher on @gftimelord where the triangle starts to be on the mend with Stanford after their ruined past. This to me makes sense because the Doctor is inherently very lonely despite the savior god complex. In that AU where Ford is functionally immortal and Stan and Fidds both at some point die due to his complacency and arroganceâ he searches for a companion that can actually keep up with him.
So when Bill visits him during one of those window hours set by the Theraprism, they talk about the triangle's impending demise with their plans to essentially erase him from existence. It's not an outlandish idea given that any inpatient seen as a lost cause would or could be disposed of when it comes to cosmic entities. It's simply the easier option.
The doctor(Ford) is more impulsive, nonchalant, and egoistic compared to his counterparts because he does have the walk to back his talk(this man has been broken by the nightmares and guilt he carries from the deaths he caused; also time war) problem being he doesn't fear death as much as he fears being alone. He's had a fair share of close calls with the grim reaper, but always like some horrible twist he survives. After all, it is a saying that we covet the most what we don't have.
So yeah, he jailbreaks Bill essentially and whatever power limiter is stuck on the triangle get tied to his sonic screwdriver instead and they simply go around the multiverse doing whatever. Most of the reason why Ford isn't caught yet largely has to do with how scared most entities are of him. The doctor is never armed, but it doesn't mean he won't kill.
2nd AU: Modern Era AU (Set in 2024)
This one is more of a shitpost thanks to the young trio I drew a little while back, I'll draw more of them for this at some point while I also try and figure out a decent human Bill design that I like in my artstyle.
But this AU heavily features these four idiots as Undergrad students fucking about college life as they would. This AU is supposed to feature like a more cultivated genius Stanley based around my own dynamic with my brother since I do like me some happy Stan twins.
It just so happens that Ford is also a very much EQ negative idiot and falls for an upperclassman(one year his senior) in BSSE[Software Engineering] who is a close friend to Fidds. He goes by 'Cipher' as an alias since he's a prodigy for his age and very young ethical hacker.
So yes, that's where Bill comes in. Haven't figured out what I want his full name to be yet shoot me some ideas! Ford is very shy when it comes down to talking with Bill whereas Stan is completely chill.
Both Stan and Bill get along very well in this AU because they're similarly chaotic the same way that Fidds and Ford get along because they're the ones holding the other two back from doing something undeniably stupid for shits and giggles.
All of them share some fundamental subjects together(i.e. Math, Biology, Chemistry, Physics, Statistics, Research, History, etc.) or take elective courses just so they could chill together. Stan is typically the one who adjusts to the schedule of the other three since he takes BSBA[Business Administration] and is the odd one out when Ford does BSCMB[Cellular Molecular Biology] and Fidds does BSEE[Electrical Engineering].
The FiddleStan in this AU is gonna be c r a z y mostly due to Fidds in this AU is the heir to his family's computer company, so lowkey spoiled nepo baby but also on a very tight leash with his parents. Stan is the kid where 90% of his childhood was parents either forgot him or straight up did not give a flying fuck. So these two kinda work as complements and it's why I decided to pair them together after chatting with a friend about the group dynamics.
So yeah, simpy and adoring Ford and silently aware but shy Bill + rebellious Fidds and supportive Stan. All the more when I actually plan for this AU to have some typical gravity falls shenanigans anyway thanks to a place on earth called the Oregon Vortex.
[I'll likely make fics and comics of these AUs, reply to this post if you want to be tagged for whenever I post something]
Yeah I need to properly name these AUs.
#gravity falls#gravity falls stanford#stanford pines#gravity falls ford#grunkle ford#ford pines#gf stanford#stanford#gravity falls au#gf stanley#stanely pines#standford pines#stan#gravity falls stanley#stan pines#grunkle stan#stan and ford#stan twins#stanley pines#bill x ford#bill x stanford#gf bill cipher#gravity falls bill cipher#bill cipher#gravity falls bill#billford#bill cipher gravity falls#fiddlestan#fiddleford mcgucket#fiddleford hadron mcgucket
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"When a Gem is made, it's for a reason. They burst out of the ground already knowing what they're supposed to be, and then... that's what they are. Forever. But you, you're supposed to change. You're never the same even moment to moment -- you're allowed and expected to invent who you are. What an incredible power -- the ability to "grow up."
Rose Quartz đš
It has been years since I drew something (digitally) for Steven Universe!!
I was obsessed with it in middle school so I have some drawings of her that I did between 2015 and 2018, I put them at the endâŚthere is even dog!Rose Quartz đ (but the one I drew the most remains Lion đ (with Amethyst close behind!))
(I used different references for the rose patterns đš)
under the cut : color variations + sketch/base + sketches + old drawings at the end
+ a paragraph about what I think of her and her reputation haha
Hope you like it ! đ
I remember how shocked everyone was after the identity reveal đ
I don't get the hate for Rose Quartz/Pink Diamond, she is an interesting character! She's morally grey, has done wrong things and is very flawed yes, that's why she's interesting actually, because we saw her redemption arc in reverse and went from the idealized version of her that everyone tells Steven to who she really was, realizing, like him, that she was not perfect, made mistakes like everyone and had her own reasons for what she did wrong (I don't remember everything because it's been years, and I'm not even sure I finished Steven Universe Future, but I'm pretty sure a lot of characters did equally bad things and didn't get as much hate, it's understandable to not like her though, but hating a complex character like her for their bad decisions seems too simple)
Anyway thank you if you read all of that and if you don't like her that's okay but please don't get mad about her and this drawing, as I've seen some people do sometimes...đ
below : sketch/base + sketches + old drawings at the end
#my drawings#my art#rose quartz#steven universe#digital art#fanart#steven universe fanart#su#su fanart#cartoon network#rose quartz steven universe#rose quartz su#rose steven universe#rose quartz fanart#traditional art#sketches#croquis
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