#it's a daily struggle for me

[otherpeoplesheartachept-2]

There are two fic writers inside of you, one loves Niamh, the other thinks Agatha should be aro and single

[valeriapryanikova]

hey, *violently throws these grian doodles in your face*

[unicornwithtits]

Worries of a writer:

Did I use their names too much?

Did I use their pronouns too much?

Did I use their gender too much? (The woman, the man etc)

Did I use their description too much? (the blonde, the bald man in his forties, the one wearing leopard print high heels,...)

Did I use their job/role/hobby too much? (e.g. the programmer/the captain of the football team/the occasional swimmer/...)

This is freaking me out.

[solifloris]

"even if he's the worst version of all the calebs from then to now, you still want him?"

lvl 51 affinity call — i still think about this call a lot not just because i have nightmares often too and i definitely would have called him too LMAO 😭 but because. this line... there's something so heartfelt about this exchange that i just 😭 my heart feels like it's twisting but /pos 😭

you can just. you can see how much he always wants to do for her, how much he's always wanted to do for her, even through everything that he has been doing already. bec he's been doing a lot!! so much!! it's how he's been trying to show love bc that's how it used to be!!

yet... the reality remains that things aren't how they used to be. and then he calls the him now the "worst version".

he knows. he knows that the person he is in the present isn't the person she's always had in the back of her mind, isn't the person she's familiar with, isn't the person she's the most fond of... is the person that has hurt her. he knows that she's been sensitive about the way he's been doing things, knows that sometimes the things he does doesn't make her happy.... and i think he really just... he sees it, you know? it's not something he just notices and then does nothing about... he's aware. aware that, making her happy, taking care of her like he used to... he doesn't know how to do it properly, doesn't know if he even can anymore. things are different this time. he's still learning to come to terms with that... still trying to deal with the struggles of presenting this whole self that he's very much aware of—without hurting her this time. and i think that a lot of the times :( like in this call :( he just really wants a certain reassurance from mc that he's doing something a little better...........

:( just :( the vulnerability jumps out so much here :( i really want to give him the biggest hug :(

it's such a myth callback... :( he makes me so ill i'm so sick to my stomach 😭 (/pos)

[patron-saint-of-lesbeans]

‘What do you even do in adoration?’

Thank you for asking I basically show up and start with, ‘my beloved, you already know the day I’ve had but let me tell you - ’

[dailyinkk]

day 1!

[forgetfulmachineart]

[ID: A digital two page black and white comic of a young Megumi Fushiguro and teen Gojo Satoru. First page: Megumi looks sadly at Gojo sitting in a fetal position, partially covered with a blanket. The next three panels are Megumi contemplating before putting their hands out to summon Mahoraga but is interrupted by Gojo's head shooting up and yelling "WHAT ARE YOU DOING?!?" The next panel is Megumi hugging their torso and saying "You... you said that it was for emergencies..." Below that is two panels of Gojo very simply drawn where at first he's confused then realized what Megumi meant. Second page: In the first panel Megumi looks small and distressed. The second panel they look incredibly annoyed as Gojo starts patting their head. The third panel takes up a majority of the page. In it, Gojo is patting Megumi's head while saying "You're a good kid, Megumi. Thank you" with "but never do that again" in smaller text. A smaller panel in the bottom right has a simply styled present Megumi with a shadow of their eyes labeled "Realizing they almost killed their dad" /End ID]

They're both trying their best

[daily-grian]

new Flight Rising dragon just dropped. Dusthides give me Impulse vibes for some reason.

[mortimerlatrice]

huaien, xiaobao's wife

timelapse

[palossssssand]

Quick vent/rant post on art

Maaan I know that art output has no bearing on my “worth” as an artist but I wish I could be putting out more original stuff. It’s like the art juice has run out. But more specifically, it’s that all of the recent stuff I’ve been drawing has been commissions and I feel like it’s been affecting my drive to make art for myself. More and more lately, I’ve been seeing my old art ideas as a chore to do because I’ve been putting them off to do once my commissions finish. Unfortunately, I kind of have commissions open all the time because I’m unemployed and still looking, and I will take what I can get. It sucks getting into this slump, especially when my output was really high at the “peak” of getting into Splatoon, and I know this is a familiar pattern but it really sucks to consciously feel like “Oh no! It’s happening again! I’m losing my touch!!”

This is probably the sign for me to try to do stuff like studies where the pressure isn’t on me to come up with original art ideas. It’s been really difficult to force myself to do art because I keep having the nagging feeling that I “should” be doing something “more important” so instead I do neither and open up The Sims

[fewwawihater]

kimi standing on his tippy toes to hug bono

cr. jiumiaha_

[daily-basil]

Omofalls!Basil Italian confirmed???

[lostlibrariangirl]

April 23, 2024

114/366 Days of Growth

Reviewing my notes for the upcoming ISC2 CC Exam last weekend.

It is tomorrow (24.04) ... I am so nervous 🥹

[croded]

yknow the more I think about it the more it connects -

Link Click is like Geometry Dash

now you might be thinking "hey what the fuck does this mean"

hear me out

so Geometry Dash is a side-scrolling platformer/rhythm game of a sort. You control a cube and go through a platformer-esque level, which progresses linearly most of the time. You can't stop the cube nor can you control the speed in which the cube travels through the level, but you can make it jump, and throughout the level you have to jump over and avoid deadly obstacles like spikes or lava/water or chomping monsters. Now here's the kicker about this game - there are no checkpoints. You die, you go aaaaaaall the way back to the beginning. Doesn't matter whether your progress was 10% or 60% or even 99% - you die, you go all the way to the start. To 0%.

Yeah it's a rage game as well (a game of many talents). Don't you feel enraged already? It gets better! Whenever you start a level, there will be an attempt counter at the very beginning of it. You start off with attempt 1, and with each death it restarts and an attempt is added to the counter. (I've seen mine get to attempt 300+ before it's so infuriating) Now, the gimmick here is actually testing your memory as well - mental memory and muscle memory both. Sometimes the level design will be so motherfucker that you need to remember the placement of the spikes, the timing of events (eg spikes suddenly popping out of the flat ground in front of you. at progress 90%. what the fuck level designer), the correct timing of jumps to get through tight spaces, etc. When you play the same level enough times, this starts to become muscle memory. With each restart, each spike, each event, each jump gets engraved deeper into your memory until soon you're executing jumps without even thinking about it. (Sometimes the cube changes form too - there's ship form, where you hold the screen to make it go up and release to make it go down in a gentle sine-wave like arc; wave form, where you hold the screen for up and release for down as well, but it moves in a jagged zigzag line instead of a soft curve; UFO form, where it's literally just flappy bird; robot form, where you hold to control how high you jump; ball form, where each tap of the screen changes the gravity of your cube/ball. There are also a bunch of other stuff like gravity portals, size portals, speed portals, pads, rings, pick-ups etc. But that's a little too much to delve into, so I'll settle for the basics here.)

"So how does this connect in any way to link click?"

Now, replace the player with Lu Guang. Replace the cube with Cheng Xiaoshi. Imagine the spike placements and random events and jump times as the major nodes in time, and the hazards like spikes and pits and monsters as the factors/people who endanger Cheng Xiaoshi's life.

Doesn't the situation seem kinda familiar?

Lu Guang, going through countless attempts to keep Cheng Xiaoshi alive, trying his best to guide him through danger and carving all the major time nodes into his memory so that he can steer Cheng Xiaoshi away from the ones that will result in disaster. The linear progression of the timeline, no randomly turning around or taking a small step back to recuperate, just a relentless forward march. How Lu Guang has to restart all the way from the beginning every time he fails. How Lu Guang doesn't have full control of Cheng Xiaoshi either, he can only slightly tweak the direction he's heading towards.

oh my god link click is geometry dash <-me randomly in the middle of a quiz, many hours after making that song analysis about lull and "the necessary line that Lu Guang has doomed himself to travel" and "the end of the line being Cheng Xiaoshi living" and "are you with me till the end of the line?"="will you stay alive with me?"

[deck-shuffler]

I smile evilly as I post art based from this post. >:]

But first... a silly!

Now for the train wreck!

PAIN!

[quarriart]

The Darkroom. Part 5. End. (Part 1, Part 2, Part 3, Part 4)