#it's 4am why am i thinking of this

[shithowdy]

realized a drawing i'm doing rn is almost identically posed to one i did 8.5 years ago of a different oc, except the old drawing was instantly tainted by one of the players featured messaging me asking if i could take it down because their abusive, possessive rp partner saw it and got jealous of them "roleplaying behind their back" and i said "nah" and it became a whole Thing that i should have walked away from at that exact moment but didn't and the 6 months that followed contained some of the most truly condensed batshit i have ever witnessed in an rp community already well-known for its batshittery.

... anyway i love my friends. so happy to accidentally redeem the pose.

[outletcrash]

just finished season 1, wowza! heres what john saw in the mirror

anyways i simplified john a whole lot for artistic purposes. i dont think a Great Old One would need a human-like form at all. cmon, cthulu shows up at family gatherings and his dad is literally extradimensional orbs. his true form def gets more human the more time he spends with arthur, but before that it was just unspeakably fucked.

(arthurs face in this is my favorite)

[scorpiusmalfoylovesoscarwilde]

headcanon that scorpius was a sick child and was in and out of hospital constantly, perhaps related to astoria's blood curse but not directly. his immune system isnt very strong, and everytime he gets sick they're terrified that it's the blood curse but also whatever else it could be, because it's always so sudden and so intense and they call healers over to the house who recommend this delirious feverish 4 year old is hospitalised immediately, and you'd think it'd get easier to some extent because they'd be used to it, but everytime they feel like this is it, this is the time he'll walk in to the hospital and not walk out again

[transimailisa]

“I can’t be angry with you…” Princess Alisa spoke before bending down to give a big kiss on Princess Anilaphat's clear cheeks. “However, you should never speak of renouncing your royal status again.”

“...”

“Can you promise me?” Princess Anilaphat only gave Mother a wry smile but didn’t say anything in response. “Hearing that, I almost suffocated to death.”

“...”

“You’re my heart and your father’s heart, don’t you know?”

“Whatever father and mother wish from me, no matter how hard it is, I’m willing to do it.” Princess Anilaphat moved her body away from the embrace to make eye contact with her mother easily. “Having to leave the country to study alone since I was a little kid and barely knew a thing, l did it. When I returned, mother didn’t want me to practice the profession I studied; fearing that I would be in dire straits, I continued my studies to become a teacher like father and mother intended me to be.”

“...”

“Why is the only thing I asked for… mother couldn't give me in return?"

“…”

“So, what is the point of having such a high rank if I cannot grab what I desire?”

“Anil… what you desire is inappropriate for you.”

“How inappropriate is that? Is it so easy to meet the person I love, Mother?”

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i have been personally loving the work on adaptation the loyal pin has done on the show. the show is extremely loyal (lmao) to its source and all the changes provided do feel in line with the orignal work which is why i cant wait to see the last few episodes.

that being said there is a few changes that sometimes collapse in itself if you havent read the book (prince anan mentioning a past forbidden love or once again prince anan already knowing about anin and pins situation and when he has to confront anin about it in front of their mother and aunt patt) which all could be discussed about how you adapt a book. but i personally want to bring up something that is as trivial as one line in the book but to me !! it is a little nuance that feels too bad to be left out.

anin wanted to find a job in architecture upon returning to thailand but her parents (especially mother) didn’t let her.

the show and books make a beautiful cases to demonstrate how misogyny, class and homophobia are all deeply connected as being the great obstacle for anin and pin, together and both separately, each navigating a cage that is held above them even by their closest relatives.

and so comes the question of independence. financial independence. financial independence is truly one of the biggest shackles to be taken down when mentioning Anything related to self determination. because seeing anin more than willing to drop what gives her the most security in life for pin who knows what that non security implies, means that you must have at least what you must to be self sufficient.

anin wishing for this before the whole mess of pin’s engagement both shows how she already wanted to be independent as early as possible and that her parents, despite specifically sending her abroad for ‘more honorable studies’ and such do see anin getting a job in architecture as a Lesser way to live. because she would not be a comfortable as her current situation and inflict again their wishes on her on which job she should aim for while still remaining tied to them.

this detail is trivial and just one more line in the whole theme of the book of how misogyny ties women down to their position theyre supposed to fulfil, and have other women keep you in check of that. but it also comes with the whole realisation for anin of how despite the looks and support and liberties her class allows her to get, her gender will ultimately always be what societal expectations throws her back into. and that wish of financial independence prior to pin’s engagement shows that she was well aware of that, or at the very least in part, and was once again trying to sneak out of this hold.

[lab-gr0wn-lambs]

I wish you could schedule messages I only remember to reply to texts at like 4am but people hate being texted at 4am so if I could write one at 4am and it sends itself at 9am that would be good I think

[svtskneecaps]

ok which one of you fuckers is going to write the sky high au where cellbit is warren peace and roier is layla williams or am i the only one here who's that flavor of crazy

[kil9]

everypony hates me for my complete and utter disrespect of authority

[rasberryt0rte]

Girl Riddler fandom if theirs a populous hiiiiiii I didn't check tags b4 hand so this is talking to the void or not roulette 🔥

Gaslighting my friends by only showing them my drawing of the Riddler so they can't say I'm low effort cosplaying when it's October and i have to be him

(ik she has glasses but I struggled super hard drawing them) ((I'm using the it's 4am excuse)) (((fullproof))) ((((also I have to like fight off the Danganronpa art style everytime I try and draw like default anime idk y my brain auto goes to that)))) ((((r63 Riddler for 2025))))

[maj0rmayhem]

Really feeling that post abt how yearning and loneliness is great until you're curled up on your bed whimpering at the ache in your chest like a wounded dog. are we cooked chat.

[lookforanewangle]

anybody have any recommendations for learning spanish, preferably mexican spanish? I want to be able to communicate with some of my coworkers better or like. at all. we have a few who aren't bilingual

and no duolingo 🗞️

[astranauticus]

really not beating the brainrot allegations but genuinely this line has been haunting my brain for ages

[roslina-w-bagnie]

I just realized how poetic it is for the goddess of death to have been mortal. A mortal who cheated death and now rules it. A mortal who seduced Death, erased him from existence, and took his place. A goddess who knows how it is to be mortal because she was once the same as the people who are now under her care. For who she cares for way more than her predecessor ever could've, because he wasn't like Them and didn't know how it is to be like Them.

[blu-screen]

⋆ always remember

⋆ sharks are extremely smooth

[teddytoroa]

feels weird to say that i have trauma from ex friendships bc idk if it was actually like fully Traumatic or just unpleasant but ive had like. at least 5 friendships + one dating relationship end bc the other person was obsessed with me in a way that felt dangerous 2 me. not in like a stealing my skin way but in a 'wont let me have a moments peace, doesnt like me having other friends, gets upset if i dont want to hang out every single day' dangerous. clingy and suffocating and needy type shit. and every single one was a white woman who was so so so scared all the time.

[dizzybizz]

we have these baubles with a bunch of our family's names written with these glitter glue pens or whatever they are

and this time around my mom changed mine to my new name

and i kinda wanna cry about it

cause i walked down the stairs to the living room and i saw them all resting on towels and drying

i sat down on the couch to just look them over

i was searching for my bauble but i tried to act like i wasn't, don't think i was actually too subtle about it but i pretended

there were baubles with the names of our pets, half siblings, nephews and i found mine

and my mom had changed it

i had a hunch she might've, it's just like her to do something like that

but idk i guess it just kinda really drove home the point that i am accepted and this is all real? it's not some elaborate daydream or something i came up with after fantasizing about coming out and all

im just feeling some trans joy

sorry it's 4am i can't sleep but i am thinking and feeling and my family accepts me and im just overwhelmed with it all and ahshdjfjfjshhdnffmmgvm..... y'know

[fragglerockopinions]

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