#it’s very confusing and upsetting if i think too hard abt it

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ngl a lot of my issue with not feeling hot anymore is because i used to have a very androgynous appearance before my weight gain and i hate hate HATE that i have boobs now and my curviness makes me sick

[gotta-winwin]

OT13 Reaction -- to you reading fanfic about another member

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SCOUPS: sulky baby mode x 100 when he finds out you're reading fanfic- and it's not even about him, it's about jeonghan??? he's upset because like he's right here?? why do you even need words on paper?? why are you giggling and kicking your feet when he's right here?? grabs your phone and throws it away from you - complains that you're basically cheating on him with jeonghan. shuts up real fast when you tell him he's basically cheating on you with jeonghan too.

JEONGHAN: very very very flabbergasted and betrayed. makes fun of you for even reading fanfic in the first place - ahhh i didn't know you were dElusiOnal like that (¬`‸´¬) mood switches up real fast when he finds out its literally a fanfic about dino. what the fuck man. dino????? his mind malfunctions at the mere thought of it. asks you what you see in him besides dino being the maknae. will read over your shoulder as you attempt to push him away.

JOSHUA: flushes and does not know what to say. gets all shy and giggly thinking its a fanfic about him and is stunned when you tell him- No! it's about mingyu! whines that he's literally your boyfriend and you're still reading about mingyu?? starts threatening to call mingyu up and expose you.

JUN: blinks in confused cat. asks you to explain why there's a fake story online about joshua and why you liked it?? is still very confused when you explain to him the online culture of fanfiction. will not talk to you when he finds out its a romantic story and you're reading as Y/N. joshua?? really?? i'm right here?? can hold a grudge for a loonngg time, jun stans beware.

HOSHI: finds it absolutely hilarious that there's even fanfiction about vernon existing in this world. finds it even more hilarious how invested you are. pesters you until you send him the link so he can forward it to vernon. will sit next to you and begs you to read it out loud like a bedtime story - cackles whenever Story Vernon does something he knows Real Vernon would die before doing.

WONWOO: judges you HARD until he researches more and finds some fanfics that are actually really well written. sends you ones about him as a poor attempt to distract you from reading ones about other members. will side-eye poor writing and acts like a writing critic. gets fed up if you continue to read fanfics about other members and tries reporting every fanfic not about him so you can't find it. (spoiler alert: he fails)

WOOZI: shrugs. understands everyone has their little quirk. he's a little weirded out that its fanfics about people he knows personally but he doesn't mind. looks at you when you start ranting about a "really good story" and asks you point blank if its another piece of fanfiction. finds it cute that you try to hide it from him. just say it's a really good fanfic plot, love. you're not fooling anyone with the "it's an amazing book i read online."

THE8: asks if you need to start meditating again. does not support the amount of delusion (sorry guys but have you guys seen the the8 anti fan service clips) chides you that he's literally right here and you don't need an online version! will tell you to just go find the member you're reading about if you want them so bad. (¬`‸´¬)

DK: giggles as he reads over your shoulder. gags at mentions of kissing. turns bright red if it's smut. looks at you with wide eyes and asks if you're really into kinky shit like that because he did not know. calls up seungcheol to tell him you're reading naughty things about him and dies at how mortified you look.

MINGYU: ego boosted 100% when you tell him its a seventeen fanfic. starts rolling his shoulders about to show off, telling you of course you're reading abt meeee ik im hot jeez im right here ( ˘͈ ᵕ ˘͈ ). is offended and perplexed when you tell him you're acc reading about woozi. sighs really loudly everytime he sees you on your phone - even if you're not reading fanfic (╥‸╥) will work extra hard at the gym just to prove to you he's the best one.

SEUNGKWAN: supports your interests 100%. admits to you months later that he acc also sometimes scrolls through their fanfics, just to see what their fans are up to. trades good fanfics with you sometimes - he stays solely with fluff fics though, will throw you the nastiest sideeye if you send him a smutty one.

VERNON: bro does not care! he just kind of nods, telling you that its cool. you can tell he's a little awkward about it though cause he doesn't bring it up ever again. will occasionally ask you for fic updates to see if you found anything funny or weird.

DINO: does not mind the fanfic reading itself but is super super annoyed that you're reading about someone else. WONWOO?? he'll yell, grabbing your phone to take a better look cause he cannot believe his eyes. what does hyung have that i don't?? threatens to expose you to wonwoo if you don't stop and read dino fics instead. tells you to screenshot anything that's remotely embarrassing so he can send it into the svt gc.

BONUS ౨ৎ ───

MINWON: mingyu sees it first - you kicking your feet and giggling over something on your phone. completely speechless when you turn it around and he sees its a mingyu x wonwoo fanfic and you're thoroughly enjoying it. gives you a disgusted look and calls up wonwoo, who looks equally disgusted. the two avoid each other for the next two weeks because everytime they see each other they're reminded that their fans ship them.

VERNON!COLLEGE: confused af when he sees how many fanfics are about him as a college frat boy. rants to you cause he literally didn't even go to high school?? more confused when you explain he just has frat boy energy. ends up taking it as a compliment.

[waxflowerexe]

Shoutaaaa x Little Reader!!!!

I have materialised, escaped the void if you will

Anyway a little Drabble Abt Shota discovering ur little side, oral fixation etc and how I like to think he would deal w it🥹 The feels were felt in this one tehe very daddy but also quite subtle I think ALSO SMUT WARNING LOLOL

Ignore the bad grammar lolz I haven’t written in ages lolol MINORS GO TF OUT AS USUAL 😍

Daddy Sho x secretly little reader (?)

Usually after an especially long day you and Shouta typically fuck out your frustrations, it’s slow and intimate at first but sooner than later you both pick up the pace. Sex quickly becomes hot and desperate as you both chased the relief of an inevitable orgasm. You of course had your own coping mechanisms, colouring, watching childhood cartoons and a slight oral fixation. This was of course well kept from Sho, you already felt insecure about your age gap, you didn’t want him to think you were any more immature that you may have been.

Today was different, albeit you didn’t realise until he was balls deep in you telling you what a ‘nasty slut’ you were. Usually you relished in being beneath him, letting him control you. You liked the feeling of helplessness that overcame you when he touched you after a day overthinking and honestly just thinking in general. However, today something snapped. It all felt too much, Shota’s strength felt scary, his words made you scared…upset. You couldn’t place it but you knew you hated it. Tears welled in your eyes, as your safe word left your lips in a muffled cry.

Of course he stopped immediately.

“Baby what’s wrong”

You couldn’t even begin to describe what was wrong, usually this was what you needed. How you needed him. But today you just felt mushy and vulnerable and small, in a different way. You dreaded the day that your secrets would intervene with your relationship. But it did, and today you didn’t want to be broken, instead you wanted to be treated delicately, by a handler to fearful to leave even the slightest scratch, scared of break you. But it was too many words, to many complex thoughts for your stupid little brain.

So instead of replying, the tears ramp up until your sobbing incoherent apologies. A confused Shouta starts to worry more,

“Babe, it’s fine it’s okay” and a million other comforts flow from his lips but still you can’t pinpoint the words to explain, to tell him what’s wrong.

“Pretty girl, does something hurt”

He moves you into his lap and began rocking you, almost like a baby, looking for any bruises and cuts. The simple back and forth was so soothing and as he watched you melt into his touch it clicks, this was what you wanted, this was how you needed him. As he watches you calm down, he realises it too. Your usual arrangement was off the table today and that was fine.

He had an inkling that you worked a little different to girls he had been with before, he knew you fell into a hazy and vulnerable mindset. He saw how you sucked your little thumbs when you were stressed and how you took to digital colouring pages when you thought he wasn’t looking. All these little things he thought were so cute but he let you engage in these thing so in your own time, as not to intrude. Although, today you needed help.

“Did my pretty girl need cuddles?” he coos softly

You nod in response his tone making you mind fuzzy. He rarely used this tone, and you were always too nervous to ask for more.

He notices you fiddle with his fingers

“Does babygirl need something from me”

You nod, unsure

He silently slips two fingers in your mouth. You suckle softly, humming in content, glad he understood what you wanted.

“Good girl, my baby works so hard, she deserves to come home and wrap up in my arms. That’s it baby, close your eyes”

You let your eyes fall shut

“Good girl daddy’s here”

Your tense slightly, you’d only ever used this term in the bedroom. But before you can react he hushes you, bouncing you on his knee.

“Shhh baby, go to sleep”

You would both have to talk about things in the morning. But for now he was happy to hush you to sleep, tracing circles on your back and petting you gently.

Me bc I WANT SHOTA AND THIS AND UGHHHHH TO BE LOVED AND ACCEPTED

Anyway look after ur selves beauties and drink water!!! Especially since it’s so hot

More mid writing soon lovelies

Love Flo🌸~

[myballsyourballs]

so i see that requests are openn!! my first time requesting so please correct me if i said anything wrongjehd, i want one loonng fic (if u can obv) abt reader ranting to kaeya because she is rlly close to him (and she is dating diluc btw no romantic feelings between kaeya and reader) abt how she feels like she isn't good enough or at diluc's level and thinks it's unfair for diluc for her to stick with him and diluc overhears everything and they go back to dawn winery and have a long angsty chat and comforts reader. THATS IT IDK IF IM MAKING SENSE, you can totally ignore this if you don't want to write it ofc <3

far from perfection

diluc x fem! reader

genre: angst/fluff imagine

notes: sorry this wasn't very angsty- im not in a very angsty mood rn</3

synopsis: reader is a little insecure about her relationship with diluc. she confides in kaeya, and diluc overhears.

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“Kaeya?”

“Hey,” the man in question pauses in his writing, glancing up at you with a smile. Kaeya resumes his paperwork for a brief moment, before ending the sentence he was writing with a flamboyant underline. “What’s up?” He kicks his feet onto the desk, crossing his legs at the ankles.

You sigh, slumping into the chair opposite him. “I feel like shit."

Kaeya raises a gloved hand to cover his growing smirk. "I can see that."

You frown, glaring at the cavalry captain. "I'm serious."

"Got it," Kaeya murmurs, expression switching to amused into something sincere. "What happened? Trouble in paradise?"

At the sight of your now melancholic-like expression, he sighs gently. Guess he hit the nail on the head. "What'd he do this time?"

"What?" your face morphs into confusion for a moment. It's such a foreign, alien idea that Diluc could have ever done something to upset you. "No, nothing. Diluc is perfect..."

You trail off.

Kaeya stares expectantly.

"Well that-- that's sort of the problem. Diluc is... too perfect."

The man in front of you raises his eyebrows sarcastically, looking at you like you just read the entirety of the Gliding Manual aloud and he was forced to listen. "I really don't want to hear you yammer on about how much you like Diluc. Spare me, please."

You groan, "That's not it." Your hands drag down your face, your slight irritation verging on exasperation. Kaeya gives good advice, but it’s hard to actually get that advice when he never stops talking.

"Then what is 'it'?"

"I'm not good enough for him. He's so amazing and I'm just... me."

Kaeya's eyes flicker with realisation before he moves into disbelief. "Seriously? Diluc is mediocre at best. You, on the other hand, are great. I'm very picky with those I associate with. You being one of my closest friends is not something to take lightly."

"Friends isn't even close to partners," you mutter, eyes downcast. "You're missing the point. I'm not good enough for him. That's fact, and I don't know how I should deal with it."

"How? How are you not good enough for him?" Kaeya asks, merely confused at this point. He couldn't really fathom how you could see yourself like that.

“He’s so out of my league— I mean, he’s the owner of this incredible winery, he makes up more than half of Mondstadt’s entire alcohol industry, owns a tavern, he can bartend, he’s the wealthiest guy in this region, he’s selfless, kind and sweet and— and not to mention — he’s a literal hero!” you furrowed your brows, voice cracking near the end of your little spiel. “I don’t— how do I even come close to living up to that?”

Kaeya looks mildly surprised, albeit slightly sad. “You don’t have to. You’re his lover. And—”

“But I shouldn’t be!” you shake your head, eyes watering in frustration. He didn't get it. “Diluc is perfect! And I couldn’t be farther from that…”

Kaeya sighs. You hear the floorboards creak as he moves to sit next to you, wrapping an arm around your shoulders. “Now, I have no idea what got these thoughts in your head, but they’re irrelevant. Diluc is really not that perfect—”

“Yes, he is. It’s completely unfair to Diluc for me to stick with him,” you mumble, throat dry. “I’m not good enough.”

“Hey, now,” Kaeya chastises. “I, for one, think you’re fantastic. Diluc, as… mediocre of a brother he is, makes some good choices. And one of them was choosing you to be his partner,” he pauses, letting the words sink in before beginning to speak again.

“Not to mention, Diluc is his own person with his own free-will. You don’t get to decide whether he wants you or not, he does. And he’d be an idiot not to want you. Given he’s still in a relationship with you, I guarantee a lack of want isn’t the case.”

That gets you thinking. Whilst on some degree, Kaeya is making sense — everyone makes mistakes. Diluc, as perfect as he is, isn’t exempt from that. A slip in judgement, or simply not thinking things through could've caused this situation. A situation that, in Diluc’s mind, could be one that he thinks he’s trapped in. Breaking up with you could hurt his relationship with Kaeya even more, given the two of you are friends. This then makes him trapped, in a sense. Right?

You settle into a somber silence, Kaeya's hand rubbing gentle circles on your back.

"I really..." don't think that's true. Not like you were gonna say that, though. Kaeya was already dealing with a lot already -- you interrupting his time to do paperwork just so you could rant was enough.

"You really...?"

"I... ah, thank you. I really wanna thank you. You're a good friend, Kaeya."

The cavalry captain smiles, "Of course I am. I'm the best."

You chuckle, looking away. A beat passes. "I should head back, shouldn't I?"

Kaeya hums, nodding his head gently. "Probably," He moves from his spot next to you and settles back into his desk chair, sighing. Blue hair sways as he hangs his head back, eyes sliding shut.

Taking that as your cue to leave, you stand, plastering on a bright smile. "Thanks again, Kaeya.”

Kaeya’s eyes meet yours for a beat, narrowing in suspicion at your sudden change in mood. "…Anytime."

The atmosphere feels odd when you walk into the Dawn Winery.

“Diluc?” you call.

“Was that true?”

His voice responds. You look towards him. He’s got his back towards you, leaning casually on a chair with his arms crossed. His shoulders are still.

Diluc seems solemn. He still won’t face you.

“Was wha—”

“Do you really believe that? That you’re such a burden to me?” He turns his head to face you slightly.

Your body stills. You almost wait for him to clarify if he overheard your conversation with Kaeya, but it's a clear guarantee that he has. Diluc’s eyes are looking everywhere but at yours.

“Oh. That. Uh,” your lip trembles slightly, “Yeah, I do think that. B—But it’s not your fault! And, you know, it’s alright if you want to break up with—”

“How could you say that?” Diluc whispers. His eyes finally meet yours. It’s a startling sight; eyes red-rimmed and brows furrowed with such emotion. Diluc never loses his cool. Not even in front of you. “You mean everything to me. You could never be a problem, nor a burden to me. I am… not all that perfect. Not as much as you make me out to be. Don’t compare yourself to the likes of me,” he pauses, contemplative. His brows knit together further, fingers clenching and unclenching at his sides. He chuckles dryly, “You’ll only disappoint yourself.”

"You are perfect, though. It's--"

"No, I'm not. That’s delusional.”

You flinch back.

“No, that’s not what I—” he rubs a hand on his temple, “That’s exactly what I mean. Sometimes I say the wrong thing, or make the wrong choice. My money and wealth doesn’t make me better. I’m still… me. Nobody’s perfect. Especially not me.”

“But… that—”

“There’s no use trying to disagree. I am not perfect. Neither are you. Nor anyone else.”

You purse your lips, avoiding his eyes. You can hear his heavy boots approaching you, his clothing rustling and buckles clinking.

“…You don’t get it, Diluc.”

He hums, “Enlighten me, then. What don’t I get?”

“I’m not good enough for you. You deserve someone better,” you sigh, “You might not be perfect, but in my mind, and everyone else’s, you are damn near close. I’m not worth it. I’m probably one of the worst picks for you and you don’t even know it--”

“--I do know that you’re one of the best picks for me. And I think that I, as an independent adult man, would know what’s good for me. I know what I want,” Diluc pauses, grabbing your hands with glove-clad fingers, “and I want you. No one else. Just you.”

You pursed your lips. "Surely--"

"No. There are no exceptions, no 'but's, no nothing. I want you," he clenches his jaw, "only you."

"...You aren't staying with me just to keep on good terms with Kaeya, right?"

"What? No," Diluc sighs again, exasperated. He goes silent for a bit -- as if considering what to say that will convince you. "A baby is able to cry when they want food, or reach out when they want affection. If a baby can figure out what they want, why can't I?"

"Diluc, that isn't the same at all--"

"[Y/N]. It doesn't matter. Stop arguing with me. You will not win."

"Yeah, but a baby--"

"[Y/N]."

"--doesn't have complex desires like--"

"[Y/N]."

"Okay, fine."

[sushiwriterhere]

speak to me

summary: "Not that he wouldn’t do it all over again in a heartbeat, because it was always you two as a team, but he hated seeing you withdraw, lean into what was safe as a child."  rating: teen + up (my blog is 18+) pairing: bradley 'rooster' bradshaw x f!reader word count: 2.8k warnings: angst, mentions of past emotional abuse (not bradley), no use of y/n.  notes: i'm very nervous abt posting this, please let me know what you think. it’s part of the coming home to you universe. thank you a million times to @waklman for your support <;3 my other works are here tagging: @sebsxphia @roosterbruiser @bradshawburner @gretagerwigsmuse @sometimesanalice @joaquinwhorres @roosterforme @bradshawsbitch - pls let me know if you'd like to be added/removed

Bradley knew something was wrong when he got home and the house was too quiet. There was no music playing, no sound of you cooking, none of the usual ambient noise you seemed to love making. He closed the door softly behind him, actually taking the time to quietly set his boots by the door and not slam the laundry room door the way he knew irritated you. Maybe you were asleep?

He thought he heard some rustling from the bedroom, and as he made his way there he heard the distinct sound of wood cracking into wood. You slammed a drawer shut as he finally peeked into the bedroom and saw you surrounded by laundry. He stood silently as you finished folding another sweatshirt and opened another drawer with a hostility he almost didn’t know was possible. You closed it with a wham! sound. 

“Now I don’t know what that dresser did but I don’t think it’s going to be able to apologize.” Bradley tried for lightheartedness, seeking eye contact.

You whirled around, eyes narrow and brows scrunched low over your eyes. Maintaining eye contact, you closed the last open drawer with your hip, letting it slam shut unnecessarily hard again. 

“Hey now,” That dresser had been expensive, and although he understood the need to let your anger out physically, he really didn’t want to pay to replace it.

You ignored him in favor of continuing to do laundry in a huff. He hadn’t seen you this upset in a long time. Bradley wracked his brain for what might’ve happened—no work stuff he could recall, nothing he might’ve said. You usually texted him if your parents reached out, letting him know you’d be upset. But this was clearly directed at him, a blistering sort of anger he hadn’t seen in a while.

He stepped further into the room and waited for you to finish the pile of laundry that had been sprawled out over the perfectly made bed. Above all, he just wanted you to look at him. He hated the thought that you were hiding from him, that you were so upset you couldn’t even meet his gaze.

When you finally seemed to work up the courage to speak your mind, your eyes were red with unshed tears and he could tell your heartbeat was racing. The two of you were standing so close, yet so far apart.

“Will you tell me what happened?” His voice was barely above a whisper, almost blending in with the sound of the fan overhead. 

“I’m here for the long haul, and I really, truly, thought you were too. I guess you just trust Hangman to know the truth about us more than me.” Your shoulders rose and fell as you breathed heavily in your anger, fighting to keep your tone at a regulated volume. 

Bradley watched, more confused than anything else, as you continued to work yourself up, the tears on your lash line evidence of just how upset you were, “You ask me to move into your house and you bring me into your life, and if it’s really not that serious then maybe I should leave.”

“Babe, what on earth are you talking about?”

Wrong response. Immediately, you curled in on yourself, squeezing your eyes shut, and he watched as all the fight left your body. He watched as you fought every instinct to lash out again or shut down on him. 

He’d been there for you when things had gotten bad with your parents, when petty fights with your mom turned into days long, drawn out arguments. You two had worked hard to get past the part of you that was terrified of confrontation but felt the need to lash out in fear, terrified that one disagreement would send him running for the hills. You had worked through the part of him that lashed out in anger, set off kilter by too much grief too early in his life, but still afraid that you’d see him for who he thought he truly was.

It had been a hard won achievement. Not that he wouldn’t do it all over again in a heartbeat, because it was always you two as a team, but he hated seeing you withdraw, lean into what was safe as a child.

He reached for you and you flinched. His hand dropped to his side.

“Please, let’s talk about this. I want to fix it. I’m not going anywhere.” You two stood, a couple feet apart, and yet Bradley felt like you were worlds away. 

He watched as you took a step back and angrily wiped at the tears now streaming down your face. It took everything in him not to smother you in the biggest hug he possibly could; looking at you crying made his chest hurt.

Sitting down on the edge of the bed, you drew your knees to your chest with a deep exhale. Bradley remained standing, still too nervous to come into your space again.

“I walk into the kitchen this morning and you’re talking to Hangman on the phone and you say, ‘It’s not that serious. It’ll happen when it happens. Well, if it happens.’ And then you laughed, and said, ‘But definitely not any time soon, if ever. And she knows and agrees. Probably not in the cards for us.’ What the hell is that supposed to mean?” Your voice was shaky and your hands trembled where they were clasped around your knees.

Before Bradley could respond, you looked up at him, with tears streaming down your face, “I thought we were going to get married. And then you’re apparently talking to Hangman about how that’s not the case? I don’t know what you want from me, Bradley.”

He stood there, shell shocked. He wasn’t sure why his body wouldn’t move, why he couldn’t reassure you. 

Mav had called him a few days before to ask about if he would ever come to teach at Top Gun, if he’d think about it. Bradley had responded that he didn’t think they’d invite him to, and privately, he was reminded of how many nights he’d shared his fears about being in charge of training. He’d tucked his face into your neck and whispered terrible thoughts about him being responsible for someone like Goose losing their life. You’d told him he never had to do anything he didn’t want to, orders be damned. 

He’d never said anything because if he acknowledged it, then he had to acknowledge that Mav, of all people, had encouraged him to return and stay at Top Gun. Mav, of all people, notorious for never doing anything he was told, for chasing an admiral’s daughter to the ends of the earth, calling him and telling Bradley he should consider following orders not yet given. 

“Great, you can’t even say anything to me.” You stood shakily, and walked into the bathroom, shutting the door softly behind you.

That was somehow worse than anger, than yelling. Bradley felt off kilter when the roles were reversed.

Early on in your relationship, there had been a fight. A bad one. Neither of you could ever remember what it was about, just that Bradley had almost raised his voice at you in frustration, in hurt, and all the color had drained from your face. It was immature, it was everything Bradley didn’t want in his relationship with you. 

You had looked him directly in the eye and said firmly, “If you ever, ever, dare to treat me the way I was treated the entire first eighteen years of my life, I will walk out without a single second thought and you will never see me again.” 

Both of you understood how serious that was. Now that he was staring at the closed bathroom door, his blood running cold, he somehow felt like he understood the meaning of the other shoe dropping. 

He was clear about his intentions from the beginning. You had no idea, but he had started saving for a ring after your second date. At some point he’d got access to your Pinterest account and had started a bookmarks folder on his phone that he browsed whenever he missed you too much on long deployments.

He could only imagine the betrayal and fear you must’ve felt, thinking that after he had asked you to move in, promised you forever, that he was talking to Hangman about how he had been lying the entire time.

He hadn’t told you about the conversation with Mav because it felt like a throwaway, or maybe a punishment–Top Gun had too many memories sometimes. A part of him swore he saw Goose walking through the hallways on occasion. Once, when Mav had been laughing at something Phoenix had said to him, he looked so young it shook Bradley to his core to think that’s what he might’ve looked like with Goose by his side. 

At the same time, part of him was angry that you’d think that low of him. That you’d think he would have the capacity to lie to you like that. Why couldn’t you just talk to him without jumping to slamming drawers and a weak attempt at the silent treatment?

Distantly, he remembered you talking about getting yelled at for bringing up serious conversations when your parents were in a rush, when it was late at night. For bringing up your emotions at all. He remembered how he’d leaned down to kiss you on the forehead before rushing out the door that morning. He’d called out that he loved you into the house without listening for a response before he was on his way. The door had slammed so hard behind him.

Knocking gently on the bathroom door, he did his best to project some semblance of reassurance, “Babe? Will you let me in?”

“It’s not locked.” You mumbled on the other side of the door. 

Pushing the door open, Bradley found you crouched on the bathroom floor, in the same position as you had been on the bed, arms wrapped tightly around your knees. He settled himself next to you, and pushed himself closer til the two of you were smooshed together and your head came to settle on his shoulder.

Not all was lost.

“I’m sorry. You uh, walked into the middle of a conversation that was very much not about me not wanting to spend the rest of my life with you.” He started, pausing to let you respond. 

You were silent, letting the air fill with that awkwardness that he usually felt the need to fill. This time was no different. Bradley always did hate odd silences when it came to you (him and Mav could stare each other down til the sun burned itself out). 

“Mav called me a couple days ago,” The sigh that left him felt like he was exhaling pieces of broken glass, “He asked if I would consider being stationed here long term. Permanently. But uh, specifically as a Top Gun instructor.”

At that, you finally moved and he could feel your stare burning holes into his profile. He slowly turned to make eye contact with you. You were still teary-eyed, your posture still tense in that way that you always carried yourself when you thought an argument was going to be bad. Sitting pressed up against each other always seemed to ease that, even if slightly. 

“I didn’t want to tell you because I didn’t want it to be real. Hangman called and asked about it because apparently Mav had asked him the same thing. I thought that if I–” 

Now he was starting to get choked up. 

Losing Goose hadn’t felt real when it had happened. Some things happen when you’re too young to understand the gravity of the situation. Bradley had known Goose was gone but for the longest time, he couldn’t really understand where. His mom was sick with grief afterwards and no one was really in a position to explain exactly what death meant. 

When both him and Carole were gone, it was sometimes easier to just not acknowledge the thousand-pound weight of having lost both of his parents far too young. Talking about these fears and anxieties in the light of days made Bradley feel like he was trying to cough up glass. That maybe if he wiped his mouth with the back of his hand, it would come away shredded to pieces, a mix of blood where the source was indistinguishable between his lungs and his skin.

“If I told you about it, then it would be real. I know it isn’t silly, but it feels silly to say that I’m terrified of being in the position where someone dies under my watch during training. I can’t be the one to supervise something like... Like what happened. We always prepare ourselves not to come home from missions, but less so when I walk out the door after having made sure your coffee is ready and shouting goodbye.”

His thumbs wiped heavily across your cheekbones as he desperately tried to clear the tears from your face. You leaned your face into his palms til your foreheads were touching. Bradley was pretty sure there would be a puddle of tears when you both finally stood up.

“Bradley, I’m so sorry. Please forgive me. I–I should have trusted you more; I do trust you. I yelled at you and I was unfair and... You’ve never given me a reason to doubt that you’re committed to me, I’m sorry.” You were whispering and there were tears running down his wrists as he kept a firm grip on your face. 

“I love you so fucking much.” He drew you fully into his lap so he could cradle you and press his lips to the crown of your head, “I’m never leaving you, I’m sorry I made you think that for even a split second.”

“I’m sorry I made this about me. I know you miss him, I know you miss them all the time, babe. I love you.”

There were moments in his life when Bradley thought he was going to black out from the physical pain that the grief of losing both his parents brought. On graduation day from his undergraduate degree, Bradley found himself dry heaving over a toilet that morning. His parents were supposed to be there. 

(The only comfort from that memory was that, years later, Mav had told him that he had attended. He’d taken pictures, laid flowers at Carole and Nick’s graves for him, somehow purchased his graduation pictures to keep on his bulletin board.)

As he held your sobbing form on the bathroom floor of your shared home, he thought about how much Goose and Carole would love you. He thought about how many shared holiday vacations you two would never get together, about all the times he’d wanted to call his mom to make sure he was getting a birthday, an anniversary, something right. 

He kept pressing your lips together and murmuring apologies and I love you’s. As he did, he thought about the several grand burning a hole in his pocket in the high yield savings account the bank teller had recommended to him however many months, years at this point, ago. 

(“Saving for that special day? If it’s a relatively long ways away, I’d recommend an HYSA.” He was a friendly older man, a worn gold band on his left hand. 

“It’s uh, it’s only our second date, sir.” Bradley felt like he was sweating through every layer of clothing he was wearing. “I mean, she’s agreed to go on a third, but–” 

The teller held up a hand to silence him and smiled softly, “There’s nothing you have to explain to me, son. I knew after our first date, too. Been married forty three years this summer.”)

“I loved you from the moment I met you, I’m going to marry you, and you’re going to make me the happiest man alive. We’ll do whatever kind of wedding you want, we can have Mav officiate and we can invite the whole Dagger Squad. I’ll even let you have Phoenix as a bridesmaid.” 

Every promise Bradley had ever thought about making you flowed out of him like water, he couldn’t stop himself if he tried. It was all he could do to reassure you, and himself, that he wasn’t going anywhere. 

One day the nightmares of you as Carole and him as Goose would stop waking him up in a cold sweat, making sure you were tucked tightly to his chest like you could’ve managed to go somewhere if he was home, or spending hours til wake up call re-reading texts and staring at photos of you. You suspected, but you never made him talk about it. 

Sometimes things are better left undiscussed until everyone’s ready. One day, he’d be ready. Til then he had you, a plan forming in his mind, and a bank account to check on.

[crazysodomite]

i study gamedev and today's lecture was on the origins of the stealth genre... got to nerd out about constantine's mansion 😁 i mostly know abt the series from watching a friend play thru the first game but it was still very heartwarming to see it discussed! i have special permission from my prof to help and edit his presentations for future students (bc im a game history n genre nerd) and given ur the resident tumblr thief expert in my eyes, i wanted to ask what interesting facts should we mention abt the series' mechanics and their influence on the genre? what would a true thief fan like to not be overlooked in the genre wide discussion? sorry if it's a confusing question, i just like hearing people nerd out either way...

also just seeing u mention it in any context makes me very happy inside, brings back good memories :] did you know the stealth genre started with a prototype game about shoplifting? it then got bought by taito and turned into the 1980 lupin iii game!

umm i feel like im too doopid to really do thief and its mechanics justice... i dont think im a thief expert just a thief fan... i haven't played a lot of other stealth games except thief so it's hard for me to judge and compare!

one of my favorite analysis videos on thief from a person who just uploaded this banger and was never seen again...

i think nowadays the 'safe bet' is to not create anything too difficult or challenging for the player, sometimes rudimentary stealth mechanics are included to 'be an option' but stealth as an actual genre is pretty dead right now.

it's hard to imagine a game being created nowadays focused mostly on stealth, with complex mechanics and large sprawling levels without a minimap and objective marker pointing you where to go.

i think a lot of these things can be accessibility features or just things developers include to avoid player frustration. after all someone is probably going to get upset and quit the game if they spend hours walking around the map not understanding where they're supposed to go.

but in the end the levels themselves should be constructed to be able to be navigated without objective markers and minimaps. for example i rarely even look at the included map when im completing a thief level because i just kinda expect to complete the level and figure out what to do simply by exploring, listening to conversations, reading notes, paying attention to the environment, etc. though i do really appreciate being able to see which room i'm currently in on the map like in thief 2...

and i'm not even gonna lie i looked up guides for certain levels in thief because i couldn't figure out what to do, but i would rather have this point of frustration instead of a game i can just turn my brain off and press buttons at random to complete, that doesn't respect my intelligence at all. and thief games are far from perfect, especially since the devs were rushed and the company ended up going bankrupt, that's why its especially sad to not see any real thief successors or even an actual demand for a good stealth gaming experience.

there's a reason the community around thief is still going strong, developing FMs, discussing the game, creating huge campaigns, porting the game mechanics to a newer engine, etc. if the skeleton of thief wasn't good enough to warrant such a long lifespan none of that would happen! thief is so good, despite being a game literally older than me, that people would prefer to play a thief fm instead of whatever 'stealth mechanics' the newest AAA game cooked up. anyways heres my santances i hope you like them.

i would love for mechanics introduced in thief to be built upon with newer technology. for example more robust dynamic light mechanics like those introduced in deadly shadows (not pushed far enough sadly... but the possibilities are so exciting) as well as more robust audio and various other improvements that could be made if there was actual interest in stealth games anymore... i mean hell a lot of people who made FMs for thief went on to make other games (dishonored) but then those games still don't really hit like thief does.

okay im just gonna highlight some points bc i genuinely do not possess the capability to write in english. gets scared

I think an interesting comparison can be made between the light gem from thief and like, the 'detection meter' some games with 'stealth mechanics' have nowadays. What does the light gem do? It shows which light level you're currently in. There is predictability and consistency in how enemies react to you at different light levels. Your Actual Skill matters, not what perks you chose on the progression tree or what 'stealth skill' you used on your character. If you're at the lowest 'hidden' light level you are basically safe from enemies unless they walk into you and you can plan your next movement, if you're in a higher light level you need to pay close attention to enemies to not get spotted. Can you actually play the game without the light gem? I think yes, since your detection is mostly sound-based cues, and the light gem simply gives the player concrete information to play better and get predictable, skill based results. The 'detection meter' is there because most games don't really have light/shadow mechanics or robust stealth-based enemy AI. You need to visually show the player they've been spotted because in most games the sound design is not catered to stealth and you won't hear an enemy seeing you, or the level design is constructed in a way where you will be spotted by someone looking at you from across the map and not understand where that came from, etc. Frankly in most games you're not even put in situations where you can weave your way around enemies, follow them, sneak around them, etc. You can either press a button to knock them out from behind, or you 'discover' a passage that allows you to bypass all enemies since stealthing 'on the ground' is literally not possible because of the AI that like, spots you based on proximity and nothing else. Or there's like, a meter that goes up the longer you stay around the enemy before they spot you, etc.... You don't feel like you make your own stealthy way, using the tools and circumstances you've been given, and instead you just 'discover' the pre-determined 'stealthy way' intended by the devs.

Sound. I probably can't even name a game where sound matters more than in thief. Sound information is as important as visual information in thief. You can tell which specific level of alertness an enemy has simply by their voicelines. Different floor materials make different sound levels (which may not be super realistic, but it's a sacrifice thief makes for the sake of gameplay), different speeds you move at make different levels of sound, your items and arrows make sound, enemies can use sound to alert each other, etc. An enemy doesn't need to see you to be alerted, and you can hear how many enemies are in a room, what direction they are coming from, and if it's safe to come out of a room based on sound proximity. Also you can press your ear against a door to listen. I genuinely can't name another game that utilizes this.

Okay ummm.... Thief mechanics are robust enough to allow for all kinds of different playing styles. You can use your tools or you can not use any of them at all, you can knock everyone out or go completely undetected by anyone, the thief community makes up their own rulesets for playthroughs not intended by the devs at all, but those are still possible and fun to do.

Stop with the 3rd person view camera. More leaning from a corner and listening to your enemies, less 3rd person camera where you can see enemies while being completely safe and undetected. The first person view is extremely important to thief in my opinion, and adds an incredible amount of immersion. Also, thief never fucking takes away control from you to play an animation or a quick time event!!! It's infuriating when games do that !!!

Even dishonored, a game i actually really enjoyed, is still really lacking in stealth. You spend most of your time perched up on weirdly placed objects above your enemies that make it safe for you to basically teleport from place to place while being undetected by enemies. Dishonored has more of a focus on actually engaging and killing enemies, which imo is really unnecessary. I should actively avoid engaging with enemies in any way in a stealth game. In a perfect stealth game, no enemy sees or hears me at all, while i can still weave around them and pick their pockets, complete all my objectives while exploring a wide map that makes sense and is rewarding to explore, and be able to get out unscathed...

here are my new sentences 😁

[pinkcannibal]

Would you pretty please Misty for the yandere alphabet 🥺

https://www.tumblr.com/dear-yandere/188860909008/yandere-alphabet

u asked so nicely omg....<3 OF COURSE!!!

-

misty quigley + yandere alphabet (x reader)

Affection: How do they show their love and affection? How intense would it get?

misty 100% shows intense affection (only once shes completely sure its reciprocated, but even then this would not stop her) if you were neighbours shed always show up with baked goods, gifts, or something you mentioned to her in passing that you liked. you are completely knee weak for it everytime, bc its incredibly sweet and thoughtful (even when it borderlines on confusing and concerning, some things she knows abt you are...hyper specific, and you dont remember telling them to her)

Blood: How messy are they willing to get when it comes to their darling?

oh death, murder, kidnapping, poisoning. you NAME it. misty is ride or die, when you have her affection, you HAVE it. she is willingly to go to the ends of the earth for you, that includes getting very messy. even if it didnt warrant going that far. covered in blood for you? sure! lying to police? no problem!

Cruelty: How would they treat their darling once abducted? Would they mock them?

misty would be very understanding and tender to you when she does, she would pout when you're initially scared and very confused at being in her basement on that bed. she would think; 'why are you upset?? she did it in the most gentle, caring way, there's no reason for you to cry, you don't even have one mark on you, besides the handcuffs'. and if you keep up the fear and uncertainty even after explaining the situation, then misty would mock. she would hands on knees duck down to you saying "aw, if you're so scared, you shouldnt have made it so easy, sweetie!"

Darling: Aside from abduction, would they do anything against their darling’s will?

i dont see misty doing anything against their will besides that, she loves you, it would hurt her seeing you in distress for too long. shed do her best to calm you down, and be very doting to your every need when you're in her care.

Exposed: How much of their heart do they bare to their darling? How vulnerable are they when it comes to their darling?

lots! misty would act similarly to how she acted with jessica with you, portraying intense bouts of sadness and hurt to garner your sympathy. she knows this works, bc you DO eventually end up softening to her and making sure shes okay if she cries/confides in you after a hard day. you always feel awful when those sad brown eyes blink back to you </3

Fight: How would they feel if their darling fought back?

very upset! but misty would not fully understand why you're acting the way you are. she cooks you 3 meals a day! and always makes sure you're safe! so at first, shed be head tilted blinking blankly behind her glasses when you call her names, or dodge her palm at your cheek. she would be VERY dejected, and guilt trip you at how youre treating her (which inevitably ends up working)

Game: Is this a game to them? How much would they enjoy watching their darling try to escape?

not much, this is a forever thing for misty. you trying to escape would be seen as an act of betrayal </3. but! she does find it amusing and very cute when you try and guilt trip her back to let you go, because it will never work

Hell: What would be their darling’s worst experience with them?

when you found out she was tracking your phone, you were understandably upset and explained to misty this is not normal. misty does not get your outrage, and would put her foot down in believing its for your own safety, and confused why you arent agreeing. (this ended in a 2 day fight where misty begrudgingly decided to take it out, instead agreeing to keep your location on)

Ideals: What kind of future do they have in mind for/with their darling?

misty wants a co-dependent, homoerotic best friend ship that slowly develops into you being irrevocably in love with her. and honestly, who doesnt?

Jealousy: Do they get jealous? Do they lash out or find a way to cope?

VERY much so. mistys jealously is something both endearing and slightly terrifying to you (its nice to know you are so loved that misty would literally kill someone if they so much as flirted with you) but she has to control it if she gets jealous while you're out in public, when you're home tho, this would escalate into showing you who you truly belong to

Kisses: How do they act around or with their darling?

at first, misty would be very hesitant in RECEIVING affection. she is very okay in giving it, loves to in fact, but being given it is something else entirely. shes used to rejection and scorn all her life, so having you, who would love to just be spooned by her and kiss her entire face all day, is something she has to get used to. but when she does, misty is very okay and content in you cuddling up to her while watching movies, or kissing her randomly while you're in public. holding hands too <3

Love letters: How would they go about courting or approaching their darling?

misty knows what she wants, and knows exactly how to act for someone to like her (see s1 date scene, and how she moulds to the personalities of others to gain their attention) so courting you would be very the same! shed find out what you're into, and talk abt it as much as she can with you. if you like corny jokes, she will tell you puns whenever she can! if you like someone whos more quiet and reserved, she will tone down her exuberance until you like her back. it sounds sad, but this is how misty has navigated her relationships. once you're together for a while, she'll drop the act once she knows you love her

Mask: Are their true colors drastically different from the way they act around everyone else?

yep! like i said above, in my head misty masks ALOT. and will chameleon her way through her relationships. once shes comfy around you though, she will be her normal insane goofy, dorky, self <3

Naughty: How would they punish their darling?

definitely a heavy amount of guilt tripping, manipulation, and dumbification. youd be very content in taking it too, after all, she said you deserve it for being so rude and misunderstanding her intentions

Oppression: How many rights would they take away from their darling?

not many! shes not a fan of depriving you of what you need, she will still coddle you and lather you in affection, esp after a punishment

Patience: How patient are they with their darling?

surprisingly very! but it can waver on the thin side in certain circumstances. if you'd flirt with other people to get her attention? zero patience. none. immediately she's grabbing you by the bicep and hauling you away

Quit: If their darling dies, leaves, or successfully escapes, would they ever be able to move on?

misty would be irreversibly crushed and changed if any of the above happened. she loves DEEPLY and without boundaries, completely emerses herself in the person she loves. so no, i dont think so </3

Regret: Would they ever feel guilty about abducting their darling? Would they ever let their darling go?

yes! misty isn't some unfeeling psychopath, she has intense and overwhelming emotions. if she abducted you, it would have been out of need to have you to herself, or wanting something from you. she would feel bad at your constant pleading, but in her head this is whats best for you, so the guilt would turn to knowing she's doing what you need

Stigma: What brought about this side of them (childhood, curiosity, etc)?

lets just say crash landing in the canadian wilderness, eating her teammates, chopping off her coaches leg, doing cannibalistic hunts/rituals, starving for 18 months, and generally going through trauma worth a life time, made her....transition into a 'normal' socially adapted women a little hard. although, its in my heart of hearts misty would have turned out like this regardless <3 ksdksdk

Tears: How do they feel about seeing their darling scream, cry, and/or isolate themselves?

terrible! awful! misty does not like it when she sees you hurt. shed want to know WHO or what made you like this, and protect you. if you didnt want to talk to her, shed beg for you to tell her whats wrong. "are you okay? what can i do? ill do anything you need, just ask" and her concern would be too loving to ignore. her love language is definitely acts of service and gift giving

Unique: Would they do anything different from the classic yandere?

i dont think she'd control who you see/talk to/be friends with. misty is very okay with you having a life outside of her, but she WOULD want to meet these people and get to know them bc she wants to suss them out and maybe stalk them to know they arent going to hurt you

Vice: What weakness can their darling exploit in order to escape?

caligula. 100%. OR threaten to hurt themselves. misty would first shrug and say "fine, do it" but panic instantly at you being serious and intentionally harming yourself

Wit’s end: Would they ever hurt their darling?

hm, i think so, but only in a lapse of control/passion during sex. maybe misty holding you too tight to her, nails digging, or biting your neck too hard and drawing blood.

Xoanon: How much would they revere or worship their darling? To what length would they go to win their darling over?

any length! as far as misty can possibly go, she will. shes nothing if not determined and head strong

Yearn: How long do they pine after their darling before they snap?

in my head, a couple of months of intense day dreaming and stalking is enough. misty needs you and wants you, and she can get very impatient

Zenith: Would they ever break their darling?

yes! as in, break them in? definitely yes. misty is persuasive, cunning, and manipulative, you wouldn't last long in denying her affections. esp when she is so sweet and caring and devoted to you. it wouldnt take long for you to be completely enraptured around her finger, voice, touch and words <3

[pyromainiacc]

Buh... its 5 AM time to rant...

This is by no way meant to be hate or shade towards ppl personally... I don't like fighting :(( I just feel frustrated and sad.. I think ppl r so negative all the time.

I am upset SOTA is getting so much hate. Not just criticism, like performance issues or talking abt the story, but genuine hate. People saying it sucks, its bad, leaving bad reviews bc they think its too hard.

Maybe it's because this game is so tied to my very identity and soul that I feel personally hurt by it, or maybe I'm just another sensitive lil mf on the internet, but it just upsets me! The game is too hard? Yes! It's Elden Ring!! It's a Souls game!!! Collect Scaductree fragments, they'll make the game way easier! Use spirit summons, use sorcery! Summon co-operators! The game is as challenging as you let it be.

You don't like the story? Sure, that's completely valid and fine! It's not for everyone! But Fromsoft stories have always been convoluted, confusing, and complicated. And the story isn't the main focus of the gameplay... Why ignore all the beautiful environments, the beautiful designs, the gorgeous music, and all the love and effort put into the game because the twist kinda sucked for you?

And hell, if you just don't like anything then the game's just not for you... again, it's a Souls game, it's not gonna be for everyone and that's okay!!

Again... this is not targetted 2wards anybody in specific or supposed to be "how DARE you dislike something I like!". Its more just me rambling bc I'm stupid and sensitive and seeing my favorite game get hated makes me sad 😭 elden ring is such a core part of my soul and my identity, I had been waiting for this DLC like it was a goddamn new organ I needed to survive, and it's everything I wanted plus more. I love it, and I see so many beautiful things about it that people aren't talking about enough! I just want more positivity :(

[nighthaterfrfr]

ama yay! any lautity headcanons u have? (i love collecting peoples headcanons for my favorite characters and ships lol)

-personally, i love thinking that since grace has freckles, steph always likes to try and kiss every single one of them. grace, being grace is just very flustered and confused the whole time. it's gonna lead to sin according to her, but she cant move and she loves it

-they visit each others houses frequently. grace's excuse is that she's got a guest for a bible study, and steph doesnt have an excuse. who needs one if ur dad doesnt give a shit abt u?

-steph regularly uses glasses, due to poor eye sight from blue light exposure (her phone, like a fuckign lot) because of this, grace will sometimes tell steph to get off the phone instead and simply look at her. because looking at a pretty girl never hurt anyone.

(well, except if ur max jagerman)

-grace had been progessively calming down about her christianity thanks to steph, but mostly because its taken a toll on her, too. however, her hardcore beliefs about going to hell, just the guilt one feels from being gay, it still remains deeply rooted. steph tries to comfort her the best she can, but sometimes it just doesn't work,

those are the days steph worries most

-steph being in a class with both pete and grace makes me think she is really intelligent than most people seem. in the fic i made, i picture her in like a hella lot of ap classes, but somehow barely passing

she still does rlly good w the ap exam though somehow

-before they started high school, steph once found her instagram. she scrolled through grace's instagram and was just like "oh my god she's rlly fucking pretty hello?" steph, having no idea about her was crushing hard on some silly girl on her phone. but when they met???

shit she's cute, but she's just... she hates me.

now diverging from some silly things, that would connect well w the hatchetverse

-at one point, steph does in fact find out grace has the black book. she's upset, but grace has no regret. she's up for the hunt. she's up for the hunt and her next target is supposed to be her and pete. but, she can't find yourself to do it. wiggly especially is pissed, but he finds something out.

she has a weakness. perfect to know if she ever betrays them.

-after everything, grace was a shaking crumbling mess. god isnt real, a bunch of asshole beings are, she just turned back on what she treasured most, and most importantly, she got her virginity taken by some ghost max jagerman. steph watched, and pete comforted grace to the best of his ability.

she doesnt know why she's standing by when she knows that she wants to comfort her the most.

-again. THERES SO MUCH REPRESSED SHIT IN GRACE, AND HONESTLY STEPH TOO LWK. go wlw

thats it for now tbh but i may have more later lol

[mikesigninspection]

I wanted to tell yall my opinion on "who would Mike first come out to".

Okay so I suspect that it might be El, Nancy or Karen. The reason why I choose these 3 is bc I feel like anyone else would make that coming out scene feel "too warm" (for exp. if he came out to Joyce).

Now ofc I believe that Mike will come out to Will during the confession but I feel like we need more, colder one? I am not saying that I need Mike to be unaccepted by anyone (thought that would be interesting to watch cause then they would show both sides of coming out) I am saying that I feel like if he comes out to these characters specifically, the whole scene is gonna feel more sad ( the vibe of it). Like when they do that blue/dark sort of coloring to express that this scene is supposed to make audience more sad than happy. It's hard to explain.

Alright.

El

If MIke comes out to El, it would be on accident. It would probably happen in the middle of a fight where he would spill it out and El would be shocked. Tho, she wouldn't be very confused and surprised (at least from my point of view.) She probably caught up with Mike and Will's problems and she could see the reason for it but she is still not so sure or she is in denial. I just feel like she wouldn't be all that happy, she would prob. ask him to leave her to think abt this but would be very understanding at the end.

Nancy

Now this is a different story. This is where he would come out when he prepared himself. Why do I feel like Nancy is one of those people? Not just bc she is his sister so it would make sense but smt else. Something about how they see each other.

Now, we all know that siblings fight constantly. Well most of siblings. And it isn't because they hate each other or something, it's mostly just siblings thing.

Ofc, Mike and Nancy also fight like other siblings do. However, their relationship is not the best. They often don't talk with each other. Hell, they would rather get hit by a car than talk about their feelings with each other like Jonathan and Will do.

So why do I believe that Nancy would be a good option?

It is simple. I believe that Mike thinks that Nancy is pretty neutral abt stuff. Maybe he thinks that she won't even care? He probably believes that her reaction to this wouldn't impact him that much since they don't talk. But there is also a part of him that hopes that she will understand and so is probably scared.

I feel like they might try to act like Will and Jonathan which is why they will try to talk to each other. Who knows?

Karen

So we know how Karen wishes that her kids talk with her( like deep talks)? She has been waiting for that for a long time now. Mike coming out to her would be a thing that would fulfill her wish. And her reassurance would mean the world to him. It would make him braver and more emotionally stronger which will make Vecna's plan harder to proceed.

One thing that makes me believe in this theory is her talk with him in s1. If you are a straight viewer you may catch this message harder but if you are a queer person, you would notice.

Karen talking about how Mike doesn't have to hide anything from her, how he can tell her anything doesn't apply to Mike being upset abt Will going missing. It also doesn't apply to El bc she didn't know abt her yet.

Others know that Mike and Will's relationship is different from the others. However, not all of them think it has to do with romance. But Karen does. She can see the difference between how Mike acts with Will versus how he is with Lucas and Dustin.

Her speech in that episode means so much to queer community bc it represents a parent who is reassuring their closeted kid that no matter who they love, they are gonna stay and love their kid the same. And if they also have a hard time accepting it themselves, their parent is there to help them.

That is that.

[siriuslylantsov]

helloo, hope ur day has been good <3

coming here to talk about yesterday's episodes and today's :p

FIRST OF ALL, my heart can't take more of this matt/foggy fight. i just want them to hug it out. i feel like nelson & murdock will be over (not that they won't rekindle their friendship but the law firm by the third season i think won't come back) can't forgive matthew for not visiting foggy after he was SHOT

also. suddenly this is TLOU? the zombies??? hshsh

the scene u were talking about frank... yeah, had to look away a few times :p

i honestly thought he was gonna fight fisk and that's why he had wanted to go to prison in the first place.

i am SO on board with frank/karen now. when they were talking at the diner, well before all the other stuff happened 💀 i think they have a much more interesting dynamic than you know who (and i'm usually the biggest fan of friends to lovers)

love karen working for the bulletin and did NOT expect that guy being the blacksmith !!

and honestly foggy and marci... i like them !! i like her, she makes me laugh and they're not bad. i think they're cute together.

i loved seeing more of elektra's backstory. i wasn't a fan of the scene where she finds out she's black sky and for a moment it feels like she changes her mind completely and is about to go the other side idk, felt a bit weird to me. it felt rushed?? sort of? idk

i'm actually very scared to watch the last episode cause i feel like that will be when elektra dies and i do not want that :D

thank u for coming to my ted talk

hi angel!

ughhh ik me too matt and foggy angst makes me want to kms, istg if they make us go through more in born again.... ENOUGH PLEASE

bro the zombie thing scared the SHIT out of me like when did this get scary???? and the ninjas??? like FR NINJAS and how they slow their heartbeat so matt cant sense them!! hella cool

BEST FIGHT SCENE EVER. did you notice the little detail when the guards drag him out, he looks at his reflection on the ground and he sees the skull print on his clothes. i thought that was so cool.

heres a picture i took last time incase you didn't catch it!

frank castle covered in blood has got to be one of my fav things

frank and karen definitely have more aligning morals compared to her and matt. so morality wise, they're definitely more compatible, she doesnt see much fault in what frank does.

yes!!! i love karen at the bulletin, shes so good at it :)

FOGGYBEAR!! i love that marci calls him that, theyre so cute ☺️

yeah the black sky thing is so upsetting cus it like flips her world on axis and matt is trying so hard for her to not believe them, like BABE youre not just a killer 😕😕

good luck... you're in for it...

so when you finish s2 will you start watching the other shows? (luke cage, jessica jones, etc)

you could also... squeeze in the punisher s1 if you're intrigued, it is a bit of a segue because theres nothing about the hand. but it'll tell you the rest of the story about his family, its so loaded its acc crazy. im still lowk confused abt all of it. OR you can just watch it after lol im peer pressuring you my bad...

[hyeitsju]

can you do g!ploona reaction to reader pranking them abt being pregnant?

Loona reaction to f!reader pranking them by saying they’re pregnant!!

(Loona x FEMALE!Reader)

Note(pls read):

ONLY FEMALE READERS CAN INTERACT!! I WILL NOT HESITATE TO BLOCK THOSE WHO FOLLOW ONLY MALE BLOGS, LIKE MALE READER STUFF, ETC.

anyways, im sooo sorry that this took so long, I was lowkey procrastinating. also, this is such a good idea!! i loved writing it! i did have to split it into two parts because i want to have every member have pictures. but don’t worry, the second part will be out shortly after this one!!! keep it coming with the requests please! 💞💞

🐰heejin🐰

Heejin was very confused and a little nervous when you asked her to sit down once she walked through the door

Usually you would be jumping on hee and giving her kisses

However, her jaw dropped once you gave her the pregnant test

Heej would be frozen in shock, looking between you and the test, asking if it was really

Smiles so big, hugging you tightly and giving you a huge smooch while squealing

“OMG OMG OMG”

Actually starts to tear up before you tell her and it takes her a second to fully process what you said

And her smile slowly drops as she does

Would give you a soft hit on your shoulder, frowning

Makes you sleep in the guest room because she’s mad at you

On the bright side, Heejin does decide that she wants children now so you do start actually trying for one

🐈hyunjin🐈

When you asked Hyunjin to sit down, she didn’t think much of it

Just assuming you wanted to talk about what you’d dinner for next week or maybe another lecture about how she’s taking up 87% of the pantry space with her bread

But never a confession that you’re pregnant

She would gasp so loudly, covering her mout with her hands and look at you with wide eyes,

Whispering a quiet “really?” behind her hands before smiling and giving you a tight hug

But pulls back immediately once she remembers that you’re pregnant, muttering a small “sorry”

Excitedly asking a million questions per second with a wide smile on Hyunjin’s face while holding your hand in one of hers

The other rests on your belly

“How far along are you” “When did you find out” “Do you know the gender yet?” “Did you tell anyone else yet?”

You couldn’t keep up and eventually give up and say it was a prank

She immediately smacks your shoulder, scoulding you

A bit upset but not too much

Hyunjin gives you the silent treatment until you get her some cotton candy bread from the store as a peace offering about 3-4 hours later

Gives you a big hug after, but does let you know that she doesn’t like pranks like that and too keep them low

Like salt in her food or something

🕊️haseul🕊️

Haseul knew something was off the second she walked into the house, immediately going upstairs and into your shared room

Almost having a heart attack when she doesn’t immediately see you, but calming down once she notices the water of the sink running in the bathroom, along with the light peeking under

She hesitantly walks up to the door, knocking lightly and asking if you are okay and earning a small “okay” in return

Once she opens the door she finds you in front of the sink looking at a positive pregnancy test

It takes Haseul a minute to fully process what is happening, immediately giving you a hug once she does and lifting you off of the ground

“Oh my god, is that real?”

She would be smiling so hard her cheeks will hurt for the next few days

Talking about all of the things that she’s so excited to do before you stop her and tell her that you were pranking her

Is actually so sad :((( starts tearing up and won’t talk to you for the next hour

she can’t go very long without holding you

Haseul makes you apologize and scolds you for pranking her with something so serious

🐸yeojin🐸

Yeojin was lowkey nervous when you said you had to have a serious talk with her

She thought you found out that she actually kept the lizard she found instead of giving it away like you told her

So imagine her surprise when you shoved a positive pregnancy test into her hand

She squeals so loud, jumping up and down and running around

Actually forgets about you for a minute or two before running back over to you and giving you the biggest hug Yeojin has given you since you accepted her confession

Is speaking at 100M words/ph and you have to slow her down to tell her that you were joking

At first she was in denial “what? no, you just showed me that you are” and shoving the pregnancy test back into your hands as proof

But her smile would drop when you would show her proof of the purchase for the false pregnant test online

She would actually be so upset and a little disappointed in you for lying to her like that

Wouldn’t exactly yell at you, but would raise her voice more than she normally would when scolding you and would make you apologize by getting her some food

Yeojin would still be a little bit upset with you for around two weeks until she forgets about it

🦌vivi/kahei🦌

You and Kahei were just cuddling on the couch while watching a show when you “blurted it out”

She heard you but it took a good minute for her to process what you said because she was so focused on the drama

But her head would snap towards you once she does, blurting out a loud “what?” with wide eyes

When you confirm she gets up quickly with a smile that she covers with her mouth from shock and a surprised face, asking “Are you being serious right now?”

Gives you such a big hug, just sitting in silence for a second before pulling back and asking questions.

Questions such as “How long have you known?” “How far along are you” “Do you know the gender?”

When you burst out in laughter, seemingly randomly, she gets a little concerned. Asking “what’s wrong?”

Kahei actually gets a little mad and says that she needs space

Saying “that wasn’t an okay thing to joke about”

She eventually, late at night, comes back home to you and explains to you that she doesn’t like you doing those jokes and after she gives you a hug

🦉kim lip/jungeun🦉

You and Jungeun were sitting at the kitchen table, having a regular at home dinner date.

However, when she went to pour you some of the wine she bought for the date, you stopped her and said “no thanks, I don’t need any”

When she asked why not as she sipped on her glass, confused because you never said no to wine, you replied with “because I’m pregnant” as if it was the most normal thing in the world

She instantly choked on the beverage, wide eyed and asking you to repeat that

When you did she was very excited, asking if you were serious with a big smile

You, however, just couldn’t hold in your laughter and shook your head, saying no

She frowned and smacked your shoulder, scolding you for saying that and you two went on with your date as regular.

Best believe that she’s pranking you back tho.

so sorry Kim Lip’s is so short!!! anyways, have a good day/night/afternoon!!🎀🎀

[bwoahtastic]

aww stepmom nico is one of my fave stories on here! seb definitely was rebelling hard, always so vocal is in his rejection by crying, shouting and throwing things nico handed to him. and the height of it was when seb purposely shoved nico into a table and unknowingly bruising him. I think toto would be mad when or if he finds out and wouldve wanted to scold seb, but nico convinces him not to and instead tells toto maybe its time nico gave toto and seb some place. nico understands that seb really loves his dad and is actually scared of having a stranger come into his safe life but nico is also so very tired. toto tries to convince him to stay and that they just need more time, but nico knows that nico and seb are hurting each other and maybe things between nico and toto arent working right now. okay now it sounds like nico is breaking up with toto.

seb doesn't know anything abt this until the next morning and nico isn't there yay! but why is papa's smile not the same anymore? and where are seb's snacks (that nico's been secretly preparing for him all these times)? and post bath rituals arent great because papa brushes too rough... and it stays that way for the rest of the week. and then another week. and then another, until one month passes and papa looks so sad and seb hears him cry one night when he was trying to sneak in some night cuddles. maybe having no nico isn't as fun as he thought. seb starts asking toto when nico will be back, but toto doesn't know either because he tries calling and going over to his place but everything's been ignored by nico.

so one day seb sneaks out to try and visit nico's house because adventure!

Plss! Sebby is just so stressed cos he finally has a papa and now he needs to share him with someone?? Not gonna happen!!! He screams and cries and sulks so much! And if Nico tries to give him a snack or teddy he will throw it away! He knows he is acting like a baby but he is so scared to lose his papa🥺

Nico helping groom seb after a shower and seb growls the whole time and even tries to claw him a bit, and shoves nico into a table at some point... toto is angry ofc hut nico tells him not to be. Its just not going to work out like this, Nico needs to give them some space and maybe things will be better after.

Seb being so happy when Nico isn't there the next morning and lazily plays with a feather the peacock omega shedded (or seb pulled out). He is a little confused why papa looks so upset tho, not smiling or playing and also seb's fav snacks aren't there! Seb getting growly when Toto brushes his tail snd ears after the shower cos papa is much rougher than nico was! It's confusing!

Seb starting to miss Nico and is very on edge. Papa still isn't happy and seb even hears him cry one night! Seb feels so guilty.... he asks papa about Nico but it just makes papa look even more sad and he tells Seb he has no idea if nico will ever be back.

Seb deciding he will find Nico! They have visited Nico's little apartment before (seb broke a vase) and he knows it isn't that far! So he takes a little backpack with his plushy and a plushy for nico to convince him to come back.

Seb ends up getting lost, although he gets really close to nico's apartment! He I'd scared and meows loudly for nico! Nico hears him and knows its the little cub and comes running, and Seb wants upsies! Pls nico taking Seb inside and calling Toto while seb just sniffles and tells nico he needs to come back!

[queenburd]

how long did it take, in your mind, for stanley and the narrator to become friendly?

hm.

one thing I have been certain of for a while is that the narrator acknowledged to himself and Stanley he cared about stanley (platonically, romantically was much much later) a long time before stanley acknowledged he reciprocated.

it isn't a secret to either of them that the narrator doesn't like the Confusion ending, the stairwell in the Zending, or the Not Stanley ending. Gosh, this is a hard question to answer considering how time is fluid and weird in the Parable. Its definitely pre-deluxe.

But it's after doing one of these endings again, after countless loops and the 430 achievement, really YEARS into the parable, that he really acknowledges to himself that he cares about Stanley, Stanley's happiness, and his wellbeing.

mind you, that isn't to say they don't have some kind of rapport by that point. it's not intentional as much as it is they get used to each other's nonsense.

wow, this post is a mess. lemme try this again.

in the first couple hundred runs, stanley finds nearly every bit of dialogue. he's an angry, irritable person who denounces every damn thing the narrator tells him and wants to piss the fellow off, make him snap. the countdown ending makes stanley unbelievably angry. the insanity ending as well. he hides in places where the narrator can't reach him, like the museum, the escape pod, the broom closet, the out of bounds window.

but while he is trying to anger the narrator, Stanley is in his core a good person, and he doesn't like or get catharsis out of the endings where the Narrator suffers, or gets upset, or confused. makes him feel unpleasant, and makes him acknowledge that the narrator only has him. for all the fellow claims to be a god of this world, he's even more alone than stanley.

so he avoids doing those endings after a while so he doesnt have to acknowledge this. But even so he's perceptive. he can't help noticing how the narrator.... fixates. mostly on the story. but on other things as well. like he cant help it.

So it's not intentional. it's a quirk. Stanley can't blame him for how he thinks. Doesnt mean stanley has to like it, tho.

on the narrator's end, he does recognize Stanley is avoiding those endings. he feels relief. not necessarily gratitude, because he thinks if Stanley becomes really very angry he'll do one of the endings just to hurt the Narrator ("i just wanted us to get along--") but relief that he hasnt pushed stanley too far this time.

he doesn't like seeing stanley hurt. and he doesnt like when stanley isn't there. and can't stanley realize the narrator made him a story with a happy ending? doesnt he see how the narrator wants him to be happy?

can't he see how much the narrator cares?

maybe he can't.

so the both of them, separately, have made this decision to be less cruel to the other. stanley is doing it to not have to acknowledge to himself that the narrator needs him, and the narrator is doing it because he has admitted to himself that he does care.

so that's.... maybe less than a thousand loops in. probably less than 800. and it isnt long after that that the narrator tells stanley he cares. that he doesn't expect stanley to change, or reciprocate his platonic fondness, but that he doesn't want stanley to suffer. they have to do the story, they don't have much choice, but the narrator will do what he can to make it bearable.

stanley honestly gets kind of mad abt it. he is still trying to tell himself the narrator is his warden, that the narrator just sees him as a puppet and is doing this to get Stanley to play along and behave, and it doesnt matter if the narrator is sincere because he is imprisoning stanley.

while it hurts the narrator, he understands it. he keeps his word, though. he tries to find ways to make the parable more free roaming, tries to be gentler in his scripted admonishments. he still gives it his all and he still cant ad lib too much but by god, he will give Stanley this.

it's after another trip to the Museum that it gets through Stanley's thick head that the Narrator is just as much a prisoner as he is. For all the Narrator thinks he made this world, he's wrong. he's just another person stuck alongside stanley, and while stanley has a body, the narrator has the parable. this is all the control he can have, and he doesn't even realize it.

it does change things for stanley. it's evident when he gets back to the office, and it all spills out.

the immediate aftermath is complicated. it all happens very quickly--the narrator reels from the realization, he wants to freak out, but then he's forced to compartmentalize because Stanley is having a real bad breakdown.

[because it's all true. he is code, all he is is code, there's no freedom, and there's not even anyone to be angry at, and he cant even die, he just exists like this forever, and he was taking it out on someone who had just as little control as he did, and what kind of fucked up person is he?]

to which the narrator thinks, nope, absolutely not. he will not allow this person he cares about to crack down the middle like this.

so, of all things, he doubles down on being "the enemy". no, Stanley, HE controls this world. This is HIS domain, Stanley doesn't have nearly the control over him that he seems to think. If Stanley wants to be angry and upset, be upset at him, fight him, just don't give up.

don't give up.

it's pretty obvious to the both of them that he's making a show of it. that he's doing it to lift Stanley's spirits. it still works, if only because Stanley cant help finding this bit of disbelieving humor that the narrator is trying to cheer HIM up.

the stupid fellow really does care.

and that's all it takes.

[biirbi]

Dndads season 2 expectations :3

Frankly I do not really know how tumblr works; just posting this to keep track of it! I just finished season 1 of dungeons and daddies a bit ago and am starting the next one soon! Here are my current thoughts/expectations:

ummummmm honestly I have no clue what's going to happen in S2- I know the premise is the doodler has returned, but besides them trying to defeat it probably, no idea. I'm excited to hopefullyy see some of my favorite s1 characters again (I am pretty much exclusively talking about Erin and Scam)! If willy shows up again im going to leave. forever. he doesn't get to be an antag for two seasons.

AND ALSO IM GONNA BE. VERY UPSET IF ANYTHING HAPPENS TO THE STAMPLERS. I know scary isn't a stampler technically but I'll still refer to them all as that. but I care them so hard im gonna be so mad. all in all I just want the stamplers to be ok. and scam and erin. Also speaking of erin I hope vince dies she deserves someone with more dimensions (me)

The kids as dads!:

Honestly, I love all the kids- I cannot see them being that bad of parents (but apparently I'll find out soon!)

Adulthood clearly fucks them up SOMEHOW bc idk how they could be so awful but Sparrow (My favorite kid as of now :3) would probably just be. kinda like henry but I still think different? Like Henry is probably more protective than I imagine sparrow would be; aloof (p.s. I had a different idea of what aloof meant but I can't think of a different word so. oh well just use your imagination LMFAO) though he still is very loving! And does his best to sprinkle in life lessons even if they're not. that great. Like I'd think the worst he could fuck up his kid is not really teach him any particularly valuable life skills

Terry Jr! I love him, I'm very glad he and Ron are doing well as of now. I think he's a great kid that would make a great step-dad, especially considering the fact he knows what it's like to 1: lose his dad and 2: have an emotionally distant step-father. You'd THINK he wouldn't want a kid to also go through that but who knows I guess.

I love Grant too, and I know I've said this for all of them but honestly I have no clue what tf they do to him to possibly get him to be that bad of a dad. He was definitely traumatized by murdering that thing so I get him maybe like being emotionally distant. and like overbearing at the same time. but I wouldn't really call that being a poor parent,,,

Nicky uhhh. He confuses me I don't really know what he's like anymore since he was Glenn's kid. then Jodie's. now kinda both so honestly I've no real idea of what he's gonna be like but I still can't see him being that bad.

AND THAT REMINDS ME if hermie is presumably a grandkid of one of the preexisting s1 characters I can not figure out WHO tf might be the one that fucked him up that bad. I don't really know anything about him but it's soo obvious that he is Not gonna have a Good Time. I don't even know if he's a normal guy (normal hehe) or from the forgotten realms or>?????

Characters I'll probably get attached to

Honestly, as far as I can tell abt hermie (which I'm not really supposed to know about yet but whatever) he does seem like a character I will get attached to. And hopefully not empathize with cause that won't help. He just looks like he's designed to hold SO much trauma.

*slaps roof of hermie*

This baby can hold so much trauma in it.

I don't really have any clue abt him but. I can tell it probably won't go well for him! Also he kinda? ?? looks like an antag but also doesn't? Idk maybe an antag because of a forced hand, or more along the lines of an anti-hero? I've no idea.

Scary! She seems likeable in an. unlikeable edgy way. She's played by Beth so it can't be that hard to like her (Which I recently met someone who DOESN'T like beth!? He just hates to see a funny woman...), plus I'm a sucker for edgy emo characters. She's not actually related to ron but yknow terry's her step-dad and that's close enough.

Honestly I don't particularly take to very chipper and upbeat characters (which I'm just assuming Normal is, I could be wrong), so no clue if I'll like him. I at least probably won't dislike him as long as he's not annoying abt it.

And I have no clue what Taylor's gonna be like so really I can't say anything. He's kinda sorta related to Glenn? kinda????? and I didn't like Glenn very much at first, he did grow on me a little but idk- we'll see

I totally forgot to put lincoln in here. idk ANYTHING about him so uhh we'll see!

ermm I think I had something else to say but I forgot- I'm going to start dedicating the next 10 days while I'm by myself to probably binging all of s2. Uhhhh wish me luck!

[teenyweenyeenymeeny]

Talk abt knives for free card‼️

Hehe sooo unprompted… okay three people who Really wanto hear what I think about Knives… here is tha post for you hehe

This is Mostly about the comics and perhaps movie and only about the show if I specifically say 🤍

Ummm content warning for grooming? Only like Acknowledged not made into much bigger of a deal than it is in the actual media… ask to tag 🤍

• I don’t think that she ever Really really liked Scott. Romantically. I think she only thought she did because she Was being groomed even if Scott didn’t mean like. Harm or anything [side note. Do Not joke about how bad of a person you think Scott is on my posts or in my inbox or anything. I don’t find it funny.]

• ^ that was how it was at the Start but she only started calling her feelings love after hearing his music. She really did love that and she mixed up her feelings a little bit 🤍

• I’m so fond of how she styles herself after the older girls… she’s just a teenager and she’s still finding herself…

• I really really like how in the movie she dyes her hair the same blue that Ramona’s is at the time… I like to think that she did this because she was jealous of Ramona [obviously] but after she moved on and focused on herself more, that is when she went red… it’s more Her

• I think that after Scott broke up with her and while she was hanging out with Stephen a lot [sorry if my timeline is strange I. Can’t remember the comic timeline very well and it is the Main one I ideally would be basing my mixture one off of] she felt. Confused. Because of how her relationship with Scott was

• ^ she Knows she’s not Attracted to Stephen and he is dating Julie [at first, at least] so it was hard to understand why she would feel the same way around him as she did around Scott… I think she would admit this to him and I Do think that he would have a conversation with her about how her relationship with Scott was inappropriate. Stephen’s an older guy who she looks up to and respects a lot and he’s her friend, but he’s very careful not to forget that she’s just a kid… [am I allowed to pretend he wasn’t the one Encouraging her to drink alcohol…? If not, I think he still kept an eye on her at least for the most part when she did to make sure she didn’t get sick or put herself in danger or anything]

• ^ I think that maybe. Talking to Stephen about her relationship with Scott is what helps Knives to realise exactly what was wrong with it

• I don’t renounce the panel in the comic where Knives and Kim make out but I DO renounce their relationship going any further than that like it does in the game… I think that they Did make out but when they were both sober again Kim apologised because very Clearly that was. Not Appropriate

• ^ I think that Knives wasn’t too upset about like not having a chance with Kim or whatever but I DO think that she couldn’t stop thinking about the idea of it… that was the first time she kissed a girl and she realises that the idea of kissing a girl or dating a girl actually sounds appealing… this realisation leads to the realisation that her feelings for Scott weren’t romantic.

• I do think she Thinks her sexuality over a bit though… that’s part of what she does when she’s focusing on Herself at the end of the series… and she only settled on calling herself a lesbian rather than a multisexual identity after the comics ended… [yes she and Scott did kiss while Ramona was gone and yes how awful an experience that was did contribute to her admitting that she didn’t like men]

• I think that if this realisation came before she Left for university the first people Knives told that she was gay were Stephen and Kim… and it was Mostly because they were her only friends she knew were queer

• I really like the idea of Knives keeping in touch with her friends in Toronto when she goes to university… she has to call her parents one night of the week every single week and Stephen another… sometimes Kim or Scott or Neil or Ramona show up to say hi, but always Stephen

• If we are taking show Knives’ musical talent… I can imagine her starting her own band in university maybe… and Stephen would be so proud he would be a Big support…

• ^ I don’t think Knives and Joseph interact Much but I can imagine him hearing her music and saying that it’s way better than Sex Bob-Omb’s ever was… recording Her album would have been way more tolerable… hehe

Ummmm yea this is it. At least for now… I don’t know tehe…