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snailmail444 · 1 year ago
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After reading the Masturbationen headcanons for the Bachelors… Can we get masturbation headcanons for the bachelorettes? 🫶🏻
Bachelorette Masturbation Headcannons
18+ 🌱 NSFW 🌱 MDNI
This took soooo long. So so long. But it’s HERE! I’ll probably be double posting today since the poll said post as I finish and I actually have two asks done hehe. Hope y’all are ready for a double feature! NSFW under the cut!
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Penny-
🧡 It’s all or nothing for penny. Either her mom is out and she’s got all the time in the world, or her mom is home and she can’t hide a damn thing.
🧡 Luckily Pam has a solid routine every night, so Penny has been able to find time for herself when the mood strikes.
🧡 It’s not a usual occurrence for Penny. She’s got a lot of deep-seated repression that makes it tough for her to follow through on any sexual urges. She’s still undoing the small-town-youth dynamic that it’s dirty and shameful for women to pleasure themselves.
🧡 Sometimes though she’ll be reading fanfic (because let’s be so real you know she does), and she can’t ignore the ache in her center anymore.
🧡 Bites down on her lip and edges her bottoms off anxiously, still a little worried someone might jump out of the shadows and damn her in the name of Yoba for sinning.
🧡 Settles in pretty fast though, and lets herself get lost in the story. Pretends she’s the character being ravaged, typically in a highly romantic setting.
🧡 Penny seems like a total pillow humper to me. Gets all flushed and red and tries to muffle her moans as she grinds against the fabric.
🧡 Really sensitive so she doesn’t need much more than that. Maybe a free hand to play with her breast, but honestly not even that.
🧡 One and Done. The guilt sets in and she feels embarrassed all over once she finishes, so she throws everything in to wash and showers off the evidence ASAP.
Maru-
💜 Doesn’t have a ton of personal space/boundaries during the day. She has to wait until nighttime to even think of letting off some steam (thanks, Demetrius)
💜 Once she’s certain her parents are asleep—thank god Sebastian doesn’t ever leave his room, the night owl—Maru climbs down into the privacy of her workshop and allows herself to unwind.
💜 Maru is a woman in STEM. A gadget queen, if You will.
💜 She only has a couple of toys, but they’re high-end splurges. Quality over quantity.
💜 Could make her own if she really wanted to, but she’s got more robotics projects on her plate than she can finish. The last thing she wants is to have to wait to finish making her sex toy before having fun with it.
💜 Her favorite is just a plain blue toy that looks unassuming, but it feels like it’s thrusting inside her, and she can just lay back and enjoy it.
💜 Girls arms and wrists are tired after a day of engineering, so it’s a lifesaver to not have to do that work herself. All she wants is to feel fucked full and nothing else.
💜 Maru’s mind is always going, which is good and bad when she’s trying to get off. On the one hand, it makes for some vivid fantasies. On the other, sometimes she doesn’t want to have to think at all.
💜 Her fantasies are often of whirlwind, desperate romances. Stolen away in the nearest closet, shoved up against a tree, spread out on top of her workbench. She dreams of reckless, passionate, I need you this minute sex. It gets her so wet she’s soaking.
💜 On the days when she wants her brain to go quiet, she’ll make sure to keep going until she’s cum three or four times. Until her ears are ringing and her body is completely exhausted. Kind of a stamina queen, to be honest.
💜 She sleeps like a baby on those nights.
Emily-
💙 Lowkey I think Emily would be a licensed sex therapist.
💙 She’s very well educated in the importance of sexual health. For her it’s a spiritual practice of keeping herself balanced.
💙 Haley’s home like all the time which sucks, but she gets an okay amount of privacy regardless because their rooms are on opposite sides of the house.
💙 Lights incense that has properties good for sexual energy or something I dunno.
💙 Has a (body safe!) crystal wand that she fucks herself with.
💙 Loves how cool it feels at first and the fact that it warms to match her body temperature.
💙 Little miss active imagination doesn’t need porn or anything, she just gets right the hell off on her fantasies.
💙 As for what she fantasizes about? Girl goes wild thinking about having three or four partners. Ideally it’s three or four people all focused on pleasing her, every sensation hands and mouths and skin on skin—she gets really hot thinking about it.
💙 Her nipples are really sensitive so she makes sure to stimulate them a lot, pretending she has someone to focus on each one individually.
💙 Enjoys being present with her body and engages her senses. Really wants to sit with all the sensations and draw them out.
💙 Doesn’t cum every time, but that’s not the point for her. Unless she’s specifically trying to cum, it’s an added bonus. Something nice, but not necessary. It’s all about the journey for Emily.
Leah-
💚 Leah has it MADE in terms of getting off.
💚 Queen of living alone in the woods.
💚 Full privacy. Loud noise never carries from the solid insulation and the dampening of the trees. She can’t full out scream without being heard, but almost.
💚 Has a collection of dildos she’s made herself out of scrap wood. She started making them as a joke, but then she was like actually…this could be great for me.
💚 Don’t worry, she’s taken great care in making sure they’re body safe. Made with love and all that.
💚 Her favorites are the ones that she’s left knots on. A smooth fuck is nice, but she loves the added sensation from the bumps.
💚 Her internet isn’t great, but she’s lucky to have a collection of artsy porn films. Again, something that started as more of a fascination, but to be honest it’s super hot.
💚 One in particular is her favorite, with a long shot of eating pussy. It’s supposed to be a love story, the way it’s framed, but more than anything it’s just hot. Reminds her of some of the best oral she’s ever gotten.
💚 Takes her a long time to get off, but she’s learned not to rush it. She’ll finish when she finishes, and it’s always worth it.
💚 Needs a nice, long, relaxing shower afterwards, and unwinds with a cup of herbal tea.
Haley-
🩷 Emily is gone a lot working at the bar until late, so she doesn’t have to worry about finding time.
🩷 Definitely has a collection of toys for whatever mood she’s in.
🩷 Quality AND Quantity babe Haley will not deny herself pleasure.
🩷 Absolutely will treat herself too. A nice glass of wine and some mood lighting. Big fan of setting the vibe (pun intended).
🩷 Soft BDSM girlie. Adores any porn where the sub ends up a whiny desperate mess
🩷 It’s an ego trip. She absolutely wants to think that whoever she’s with would be reduced to absolute pathetic begging for her.
🩷 She finishes faster than she would like sometimes, so she’s mastered the art of edging.
🩷 She’s not gonna put all that effort in for nothing. If she’s set taking her time to enjoy herself she’s going to be TAKING her TIME.
🩷 Finds it really hot to be able to watch herself so sometimes she’ll set up in front of her floor-length mirror. Not as good as it is with a partner, but it’s got a similar draw.
🩷 Really quiet when she cums, her cheeks flushed and a gasp stuck in her chest while her body seizes with pleasure.
🩷 Might go a couple more times depending on how hot and bothered she is.
Abigail-
🖤 Abby has the least privacy out of the bachelorettes.
🖤 Her situation isn’t horrible (read: better than Sam’s), but she’s always got low-grade anxiety that she’s going to be caught and absolutely mortified.
🖤 Never home alone either, but Stardew girls make do. Waits up until midnight or later and makes sure to be radio silent just in case her dad is roaming around.
🖤 Once she gets into it though…she gets into it.
🖤 Little miss visual aid over here be Watching porn. She almost can’t get off without it. She CAN but she doesn’t want to. Which is so real of her.
🖤 LOVES videos of people getting themselves off. Solo masturbation videos are so hot to her because it feels like a steamy mutual session when she touches herself.
🖤 Totally ends up imagining past experiences or current crushes taking up the same as the person in the video. Pleasuring themselves while she watches and watching her get off too…she’s practically gone.
🖤 Sometimes she likes to watch really hardcore, desperate railing if she’s feeling particularly needy or submissive. Every now and again she just wants to be told she’s hot, get spanked, and fucked within an inch of her life. Girl me too the fuck—
🖤 Gets off pretty fast and once just because of the anxiety thing. If she had more peace of mind it would be a marathon for her because with the adventure training she’s got stamina for days.
🖤 Still sleeps way better after and ends up having some very, very pleasant dreams with all of that imagination fuel.
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scandaluxminx · 2 months ago
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New study method!!! I'll call it the SX² method
Ok, so, literally no one asked but I wanted to share my study method.
Table of contents
1. The method+steps
2. Additionals
3. What I've accomplished with the method
1. The method+ steps
Read the material and annotate, either on the book itself or a separate paper, (highlight words you don't know, underline important things, write down questions you have, mark sections you think are more likely to be on tests and those who you think are less likely, read additional text too.
Reread out loud. Mark sections where there are answers to some of the questions you previously had.
Make notes. Do not write information in bulk, do it like a presentation, write key words and questions
Go over your notes and try to recite and explain what you read and what you understood and record it.
Relisten to the audio and mark off unclear explanations and segments you missed
Reread the material
Explain the material like you're doing an exam presentation or a lecture to someone who doesn't know anything about the subject and record it
By the end of this you should have a paper with keywords and questions that will help you with the “presentation/lecture” part and a recording of said part. You will use it to review whenever you need to and you'll listen to the audio as well.
2. Additionals
Over study. Having more general knowledge on a topic can make it easier to integrate when you don't remember a specific information, and it can also help you to make logical connections which can lead to accurate answers even if you didn't remember it
If your material is a lot or too redundant you're gonna have to review it and rewrite it (or use a speech to text app if you don't feel like writing by hand or typing)
Spaced repetition, for a lot of topics I can do this method once and get really good marks on a test, however some topics are just longer/boring/harder and require more time to assimilate, also if you're studying for multiple subjects it's important to repeat things in order to not forget them to make space for new knowledge
Sleep, sleep deprivation can make things so much harder than they need to be
Add quality to your tests/exams/presentations curate your speech and how you explain things, grammar and vocabulary are very important
Quality over quantity. No use studying 4 hours if you didn't learn shit (I don't think studying should ever take that long anyway) even if you do it for 30 minutes you should still feel like you've learned something.
Keep notes (mainly for subjects like maths, economics, or any subject that have fundamentals that are repeated a lot even as you go further in the program)
3. Accomplishments
+ I never study for more than 2 hours a day, most days I do 30 minutes to an hour, with an average of 48 minutes
+ I easily get high marks, in my school it's practically impossible to get all 10s (10 is the highest grade) because some teachers don't even give it and some only do when you get every single thing right (I mean everything, even grammar and such). But as I started this method my grades haven't gone below 8 with most of them being 9s which is really great because it increases my chances of having a 10 in my final score report.
+ I actually remember what I study way after tests are done, which is really useful in certain subjects like law or political economics
+ school is not a worry anymore. I am genuinely very chill about it , I've started caring less so maybe that helped but yeah, I'm chill
+ I have a lot more time to dedicate myself to other things 🩷
Let me know how this works for you!!!!!!!
photo version on Pinterest @ The minx diary
Be honest do y'all like it?
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jumpywhumpywriter · 6 months ago
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I don’t know how to start messages at all, so I’ll just get to the point: you’re writing is hecking amazing. I literally only just discovered your blog and I’m already hooked and invested in like 5 different stories. As people say, I want to consume your writing the way a wolf tears apart the innards of its prey (hope that’s not too weird of a compliment; I mean that the writing is very good. I’m not good at expressing extreme amazement and stuff through writing at all and general social awkwardness so sorry if I’m coming off as weird, I don’t mean to).
I have more things to say/ask (like how you write so fast cause the heck? That’s a compliment by the way), but I don’t want to be rude or annoying. Anyways, I hope you’re having a good day/night and are staying hydrated and enjoying some cookies (or whatever your favorite food is) while you do writing stuff (or school or whatever. Idk anything about your life. I’ll stop talking now before I go on another tangent like right now) :)
This is literally one of the sweetest compliments I've EVER gotten! I love the analogy with the wolf tearing out the insides of its prey, that gave me a good laugh and made me smile LOL. It's not weird at all! (At least, not in MY world, because 'weird' is my version of 'normal'. You can't out-weird me haha) and I'm super socially awkward too so I totally understand how you feel!
I absolutely adore the fact that you took the time to send this to me! It really helps motivate me to keep writing! I honestly wouldn't post here very often without comments like yours to keep me going.
On to answering your questions now. This is going to be a long one.
Firstly, I have a terrible relationship with sleep. Sleep hates me. So my solution? Stay up to 3am writing giant novels! Some nights the inspiration hits out of nowhere, and I'll write like a crazy person on their 10th cup of coffee, doing five whole pages in Google Docs. Like I don't know what sleep is anymore LOL. Then I break the large chunk of writing I did up into several smaller sections I can put into separate posts on this app that I can post slowly over time to keep people entertained for a longer time instead of posting everything all at once and running out of content.
For example, I might literally have 13 posts in my drafts section ALL from a single batch of writing I did all at once the night before that took me 5 whole hours to write and edit.
In all honestly I am NOT a fast writer at all. I just happen to be able to write giant sections at a time and then split them up so I can post frequently which gives the ILLUSION that I am fast writer because of how often I post content. But in reality it's just been prepared in advance on my sleepless nights where I power through and complete whole pages at a time. (I'm actually a slower snail when it comes to writing because I try to go for quality not quantity -- I take my time to make stories interesting vs just writing as long as I can)
It's convenient too because some days I don't have the inspiration at all/experience writer's block so I can just post content I made over the previous few nights instead to make up for not writing anything new that day.
I also have ADHD which makes it so I can hyperfocus on writing for several hours at a time without a break. Sometimes I'll get really deep into a story where I just can't put down my phone and stop writing to go to sleep.
Thanks again for your WONDERFUL ask! It made my whole day (or night in this case, ironically because that's what it is right now for me as I'm answering this LOL -- proving my point about no sleep 😅😅)
Keep being awesome my new fan!! 🥰 And hope you enjoy more of my stories!
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cosmichighpriestess · 1 year ago
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Chosen Ones, Cursebreakers, Black Sheep turned into Golden Child, you were never the black sheep you were always the Golden child disguised as nothing and now you really have done a lot of inner work on yourself and you think no one noticed but the entire Universe noticed, witnessed and felt the change you made within. You impacted the entire Universe by choosing forgiveness and removing limiting beliefs from your consciousness. Never think your light doesn't matter. Your vibration, your essence, your unique light is so needed otherwise you wouldn't even exist because creation doesn't make mistakes.
But many people you know are not used to meeting someone like you with boundaries and pure authenticity. They are used to people going along with the status quo, they are used to people agreeing with them, getting away with using them, no equal give and take, listening to their drama, their finger pointing, their negative, limiting mindsets, codependency, and they are used to people who have low standards for themselves who do not love themselves and have low self esteem. And those people are all worthy of love and you tried to show them didn't you?
You on the other hand, chosen one, you have high standards for yourself, and you always had the mentality of quality over quantity. But many people lied to you about their true intentions with you and their true character, which was manipulative and you chose to see the best in them regardless of how badly they hurt you, tried to control you, belittle you, downplay your gifts, gaslight you etc. Some of you almost died several times from their abuse. But the Divine saw it all. Heard every conversation said about you and every lie told about you. You thought the Divine forgot just because you forgave them? The forgiveness was for YOU my love, to heal yourself and to know yourself as love, your true self, to shift timelines for your benefit to reach your highest self. On the lower timelines they are still being abusive to another version of you, yes. Please send that version of you all the love and wisdom they need through your heart center. You think the Divine forgot about those versions of you and them abusing you relentlessly without reason?
These people from your past lower dimensions of consciousness had every intention of using you, abusing you and discarding you when they were done with you because they couldn't control you. Yes they may be ignorant, blind to who you are, and unconsciously hurting that version of you. But they don't see the army behind you. You are uncontrollable and untouchable, especially now as you've advanced and ascended and blocked people from accessing you. All they can do is watch you. That is all. They can't hurt you anymore. But, the Divine is furious on your behalf of what they did to you when you were a blessing, a gift sent to help them heal on their own journey. They didn't want your help.
They wanted to ignore healing themselves and abuse you instead because they had false, negative distorted thoughts about you that were all lies sold to them from the ones who seek your downfall and you were a threat to them because they didn't know how to take accountability for their toxic, lower vibrational actions and your light exposed their darkness. See, what they don't know is that you're going to get everything you ever wanted and more. All your dreams are coming true. But they never believed in you and never saw you through a clear lens. Always forgive them, always send them love because they need it the most, if they are projecting onto you and others, especially now.
You are very protected at all times. Always remember, Angels and demons are not the same as humans. They not only work together to bring justice to us but they revel in it. We don't understand how they can destroy lives and bathe in the blood of their enemies. I don't understand it because I come from a realm of unconditional love, compassion and light. Everyone held the same level of compassion as me. In the higher dimensions. So do, pray for your enemies in the lower timelines, they do still exist but they can't touch you because you're too high. Light a candle and pray for them because justice is being served on a silver platter just for you and what they chose to do to a divine one when they refused to heal and treat you with the respect you always deserved. I love you, please hold no more pain from the past you're not going there.
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msnihilist · 4 months ago
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I saw your comment about the fanfiction stuff and for real I feel that too, even when I draw I feel like that.
I wrote a bullshit oneshot, nothing serious, and I don't want to show it it's the first time I used AO3, but it's on AO3, and God... People are reading it because I can see the number. But nobody leaves kudos or comments, it's frustrating, I'd rather get a laugh or see people be outraged that I even thought it was a good idea to start with the shit I did.
Nothing, nada de nada.
I prefer people reading at the misery of the characters and wonder on which drugs I was on 😂 (for context, zero)
I also wonder if this is part of what happened with the rise of anti-culture, everything that is slightly inappropriate in a fandom or fandom relates to creating such a shame that no one leaves kudos or comments anymore.
I think anti culture is a part of it, yes. No one wants to leave kudos because it shows their username publicly. What if the author is problematic? What if this trope is considered cringe next week? No one wants their "friends" to turn the pitch forks onto them.
I also think that consumerism is a part of it. Content is endless and easier than ever to access. Hell, apps like Instagram are already using AI to generate content for your endless feed. It's just more more more and no one cares about the creator behind whatever they're consuming as long as they continue to enjoy a steady drip-feed.
But, honestly? I think the biggest reason is how mainstream fandom has become. Especially for bigger fandoms, it's so so easy to find Star Trek fanfiction and that results in a very low barrier of entry into fandom spaces. People who don't care about the fandom community/culture can just waltz in and take a seat at the table with the rest of us, even though they don't care about forming a community or creating anything, they just want that steady drip feed until a new show catches their fancy in another month, then they move on.
Back when fandoms were niche and mostly on specific forums, you might get, like, thirty people who read your fic, but all thirty of them left comments and cared about the characters and the story as much as you did.
Nowadays, you can get thousands of readers because AO3 is so popular, accessible, and easy to navigate, and still only those 30 people who really care about fandom will comment.
I'm tired of it. I always had all of my fics public because I wanted more people to read it, but those numbers are empty. None of those people care about my writing as art, it's just content to them.
I don't care if my numbers are low anymore. Quality over quantity. Normies don't belong in fandom. Learn to build a community or else you don't get one.
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iniziare · 2 months ago
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🔥well if you're offering chocolate
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Not sure if I'll ruffle feathers with this one (as if me being the not-so-friendly neighborhood misogynist wasn't enough), but I'm tired of seeing the claims of 'I want development' throughout the fandom, only to then seeing many not actually really wanting it at all. I think people are very much in love with the idea of dynamics, and ships, but not the actual substance of them. I think people want the so-called 'payoff' of the long-term storytelling without the effort of actually earning it. Newsflash: the endgame will never, ever be as satisfying as you hope it to be, if you skip all of the build-up (or the 'high' certainly won't last as long). But also, after years of going through this, it's really kind of disheartening for those who actually do crave the journey to the end destination. Because it's on some level, false advertisement. We go in with hope, and positive expectations— and then find ourselves in a place that seems like it rushed to the endgame while all we did was blink, and sneeze once, and it feels like the universe displaced us to the final chapter of a book.
I don't know how many people actually want to linger in the in-between anymore. You know what I mean, the little things, the unspoken things, the quiet, and seemingly trivial moments which in all reality are what make the big things matter. The tension of uncertainty, the slow unraveling of the familiar between two people, the weight of the words that are left unsaid in scenes— none of that is given room to breathe. And instead, I most often see people rushing to the climax, skipping the foundation entirely. Characters meet, they smile at one another, and then they're immediately found to be inseparable. A single thread in, and they're already touching on intimacy in the form of a lingering gaze, a hungry thought— ships seem to go from A to Z like a fast-forwarded trip down a checklist, but skipping the messy, human moments that make those milestones on your checklist mean anything.
And it's not just about the romantic pairings, any kind of relationship needs time to settle, to shift, to build in layers. But I think patience in RP is close to a dying art, if it isn't borderline dead already. People want the dynamic without the journey, the intensity without the foundation. And personally, I think this is the root cause to something else that I think is very prevalent in the fandom: quantity over quality. Because if you write without the substance that give things their realism, then they'll feel hollow, and superficial, this is why ships fizzle out, why connections don't last. Because if you don't actually develop something— if you don't let it breath, and grow, and change, then all you really have is an idea of something, and not the actual thing itself.
And to close this out with: here's my thing, if writing like that is how you want to write your dynamics, whether they're platonic or romantic, that's fine, there's nothing wrong with that if it's what you prefer. But then it's vital that you advertise yourself accordingly, so that people know what they're getting themselves into if they choose you as a writing partner to potentially even ship with. If you say you like slow-burn, and development, realize that these words mean something, you can't just say 'this is what I do too', and then not do it. Because if someone takes you at face value (which we should be able to do), and then they end up with a ship that's reached the last show of the night on the Discovery channel, quite a number of us will be really disheartened by that. And it's all because some might want to spend actual, literal months developing these pairings alongside plenty of yapping behind the scenes that never ends, and then we don't get to. And the reason why this is a bigger deal than I think people may give it credit for, is because when ships have reached their end destination, the high for it wears off for so many people (and no, saying 'no no, I'm still interested' doesn't cut it, when your actions actively contradict it). And for anyone who's like me, that's detrimental, because I never leave that high, that honeymoon phase never ends for me, ever. I will be as feral about my ships on day #730, as I was on day #1. And if it seems like I no longer am, guess what— then the above is probably what happened.
Prompt: 🔥for an unpopular opinion. // @resolutepath // No longer accepting
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golbrocklovely · 1 year ago
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Have you seen the argument that SnC can't be pulling away from the fans on social media because their 'social media stars' and that their entire job is social media so they are required to give fans tweets and instagram posts etcetc?
My opinion is no they're not social media stars anymore, they are YOUTUBERS, Instagram, twitter, tiktok and snapchat are just extras that these days they could stop if they so wanted. Their job is to create youtube videos, everything else they give us is given to us by their choice, they don't have to do any of that. They could if they wanted just use their social media accounts to promote only their videos and merch and nothing else like a lot of other youtubers do. They CHOOSE not to because in the past they have enjoyed the social side of things, but with their fans being assholes they are allowed to pull away from socials as they are not social media stars, it is not required of their job anymore. They are YOUTUBERS.
What are your thoughts?
it is very funny to hear ppl say this, especially when for years i thought the general consensus was that snc need to take a break and they deserve one. but now… no one wants them to have one. how weird.
first off, the main problem with this argument is that fans expect something for staying so long when we've never been guaranteed anything. i've been here for years, i don't expect snc to do dick all except give me content occasionally that i enjoy and continue to post on xplrclub where i pay to be/get exclusive content. that's all i'm owed. anything else is an added bonus.
fans that think they are owed something just bc they bought the most amount of merch or have been here for years or whatever other reason need a reality check. you are mistaking a past time of yours as a job. you aren't getting paid to be here. you can leave whenever. if you are no longer entertained, go.
snc haven't been consistent posters in years. like, yeah, there was a period of time from like 2015-2017 when snc were constantly posting on insta or twitter or snapchat or youtube. but it has not been like that in a very long time. snc don't have to put in that kind of work bc they have blown up already and now it's quality over quantity.
the problem i have with all of this is that snc have made it abundantly clear why they have started pulling back. EVERYONE IN THIS FANDOM IS AN ASSHOLE. what's not to get??
colby can't read comments anymore and has admitted so, he gets emails and loses followers over him growing facial hair, has been picked apart for years over his choice in gfs, got a terrible death threat a couple years ago that made him basically leave twitter, has gotten constant and dumb hate on there for years, got made fun of for being "fat" when it really him being sick with undiagnosed cancer, literally questioned even telling the fandom he had cancer in the first place bc he knew how they would react if he went bald, plus a mirade of other shit i can't get into. and even sam, the miracle child who rarely has ever had to face consequence for anything he's done or said, is now saying that fans are mean and words can hurt. so you KNOW it has to be bad for him to say something.
and they both said that they put too much of their personal life out there for everyone to see and it wasn't good for them, that they regret doing that.
this fandom thinks it "can say whatever it wants" without snc seeing it. or at the very least, they don't care if snc see. and in what universe would the idol want to stick around when it's fans are shitting on it?? you tell me. they're pulling back bc you all fucking suck. and when they eventually remove themselves entirely bc you want to bitch about their gfs or their face puffing up or whatever random other nonsense you deem worthy of a tweet, i don't want to fucking hear a peep. shut up, for once.
(none of this directed at you anon)
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nettleneopian · 6 months ago
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you know I used to think it was kind of disappointing how little fan fare Halloween got compared to Easter on neopets but now I think it being simple is nice, a relief even
You used to only have one day to get your Halloween bags but the Easter/negg festivals just kept getting bigger and more bloated ever since they added the nc portion. Same with the faerie festival and altador cup. I can't even physical play any of the ac games BUT I still had to sign up to do Orion side quest shit and because I don't have time to check every day and missed the last part and I just never got that stupid tube that will probably be important later.
and the plot, oh fuck the plot. Cant wast time doing a bunch of battles in the battle dome or wake up in the middle of the night to do hospital shifts, wait 3 hours for tav's kictchen quest to roll over because its asking for a 4mil item but cant because I have work in the morning. But at least the games are doable for points right? haha sike not anymore fuck you
so I went to get my treat bad and see these walls of text, that once closed cant be opened again, and see they have lore and shit in them, so I left the tabs open over night because I didn't have time to read them and started thinking just really really REALLY they should be neopedia articles other wise it seems like wasted effort (yes even the dead chia one, do you know how funny that would be) Like that you have to dig thru random info on a holiday items on a fan site to find the the stories again is so annoying and like if book of ages adds stuff from this to character pages you know they're not going to source it so good luck figuring out were that info even came from in a few years. But I already complained about neopets scatterd lost lore
I'm just frustrated and exhausted with neopets as a game and lot of that is the plot and events back to back and overlapping. I know its to keep engagement up but it feels quantity over quality
if this years advent calendar expects anything from me other then showing up I'm going to lose it
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crow-in-a-teapot · 2 years ago
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zach sang hozier interview musings
ngl I was worried at the start with Zach pronouncing Andrew’s name wrong and then the question about nature, like it all started off vaguely awkwardly and I was wondering if he actually knew much about Hozier/listened to much, which obviously doesn’t matter in most interviews but I feel like it’s awkward as hell if it’s an hour long interview. But it so picked up around the middle - while watching I had sped it up a bit while there were very short and general questions and answers, but then started watching it in normal speed again when they started having the really interesting back-and-forth about how different it is to have a song between two people, and then have the audience change to thousands, like having such an intimate form of communication between two people suddenly be open to so many. Especially with the context of Francesca, of adding an extra layer to a song not just to make it more meaningful, but to create a sense of distance between yourself and the song so it’s not a direct glimpse into your life, being able to hold the song at an arm’s distance by saying it’s about a myth or historical character. That was just so fascinating.
And then that conversation leading into one about social and political issues. The mention of BS jobs by David Graeber was such a jumpscare because I remember watching a Philosophytube video essay on it, I love crossovers like that. I also think that the way they talked about Take Me to Church was more insightful than in (maybe the more short-form) interviews you most often see, the insight that it blew up on Reddit, how the creation actually worked, stuff like that. I also liked his acknowledgement or maybe realisation that the way that it blew up was truly so out of nowhere - seeing songwriters in LA working nine to five and having this work ethic that maybe Hozier never had to learn or develop, because the first song he EVER RELEASED blew up like that. It kind of gives more insight into his work process, you are not going to be putting out albums every two minutes if that’s not what you were ever used to, if you didn’t necessarily need to throw things at a wall and see if they stick, if you never needed to prioritise quantity over quality (obviously this isn’t brushing away all the work that DOES go into his music).
I like the comment about working with MEDUZA being him ‘lending his voice’. When Andrew mentioned preferring just using his voice when producing, because he isn’t necessarily the best at instruments (I’d disagree but I’m not a musician idk what he’s on) but then the layered vocals end up staying in finished versions of the track, which explains a lot of the choral stuff going on in his songs. I also appreciate Zach for pointing out that ‘you might be the only person who CAN do that..’ just casually replacing instruments with his voice because he doesn’t have an instrument on him.
- Shoutout to that weird image of Beelzebub chewing on Judas.
- Mentions of and an explanation of future song ‘To Someone From a Warm Climate’??
- Hozier saying he’s not as scared of collaborating with people anymore!!
- WTF UNKNOWN IS OUT TOMORROW?? OH MY GOD. OH.... MY GOD
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skewbforty · 2 years ago
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I've decided
It's time to let go of being a fan of one of the biggest franchises I'm a fan of.
It shouldn't have taken me this long to decide this but I'm just not into Pokemon anymore. Don't get me wrong, the early games will always have a place in my heart, Pokemon Crystal was (arguably) my first ever video game but…
There are times when you should just let go. I'm just starting to hate being a Pokefan for a multitude of reasons. First off, tho they're not my friends anymore, I was so sick of being insulted and belittled for being a Pokemon fan by obnoxious Sony Ponies and fun haters. So what if Sword and Shield was their worst yet upon its release? I enjoyed it. But then I get to the other reason I dislike being a fan. The more the greedy company go down the line of "How far can we push this quantity over quality attitude", the more I start to think those aforementioned obnoxious people… Are ultimately right about some things. I think the real nail in the coffin was about an hour ago when a YouTuber who's one of the biggest (reasonable) Nintendo fans out there… Himself admitted Pokemon has serious problems now. And he's very pessimistic that things will only get worse. That's drama I simply don't want to be a part of.
I'm not gonna change my logo or anything, which I'm aware has a Gardevoir head emblem in it. I may continue my Pokemon playthrough series in some form, tho it's proving to be problematic right now for unrelated reasons. But I really don't have any urge to purchase another game from them. I'll probably just settle for the fact that the series, at least in my eyes, ended with the storyline in BWB2W2. I may get another game if it really freshens things up and more importantly does well. But as is, I think it's game over.
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weirdocat83 · 10 months ago
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Younger Gen Z here, maybe my view is just very skewed from having a small friend group, but almost nobody really talks to each other anymore. Pretty much everyone is terrified of fake friends or judgement and almost nobody has proper social skills (both because of internet and quarantine) plus everyone is supposed to be “preparing for the future” all the time. Those that do have extracurriculars tend to have really tight schedules to the point where I wonder how some of them are even functioning much less getting straight A’s (sometimes I wonder where they’ll be in the future). Don’t get me wrong, wild things do happen every now and then but they aren’t super extreme. Yeah, kids vape/graffiti in the bathroom or every so often a fire alarm goes off or a fight breaks out but usually it’s just drama between friend groups, which, in a way is very sad. Because I don’t think I’ve ever seen people my age be in a large group and not have drama going on between them and I think that says a lot about how people make friends these days. A sort of quantity over quality. At least, that’s my opinion.
My personal experience doesn’t lend much to the conversation because I have been an observer without friends for a good portion of my life. Thus, I can’t speak for everyone. But I am a little thankful for that fact if only because I now realize a lot of things. 1) That people who won’t listen to you speak aren’t worth your time 2)The fact that it’s better to have a few friends to have meaningful conversations with rather than many who don’t get along. And I think those are lessons that many still need to learn.
I also think it needs to be said that the stress of school can be a little insane sometimes. Near the end of the second semester at school at one point I was talking to some friends about how stressed we all were and brought up the fact that at one point I had seriously thought about committing suicide because of how stressed and anxious I was. When I had that thought I realized that it was an unhealthy thought and distracted myself but when I brought that up in conversation there was a little concern, but mostly just a shared sentiment of “yep, that’s the school system and I feel that too.”
I’m fairly young but sometimes I feel much older than I actually am. I feel like I didn’t really have a childhood and I don’t think I am alone in this sentiment either. Several times throughout my life I’ve contemplated the fact that I’m just following the path someone else set for me, but is that really what I want? Can I even say no if it isn’t? And when does the monotony of endless tasks end? When do we get to be genuinely happy? Will that ever even happen?
Maybe this is the wrong platform to pose this question given the average tumblr user but
Is it just me or did our generation (those of is who are currently 20-30 ish) just not get the opportunity to be young in the 'standard' sense?
Like, everyone I talk to who's over 40 has all their wild stories about their teens and 20s, being young and dumb, and then I talk to my friends and coworkers and classmates, and we just... dont.
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I kinda love how sometimes you work by writing out the ending first then the build up to it a bit later! Though I get how it can be hard to write it out!
Omg I didn’t even notice you mentioned a song rec😭 typically I read your descriptions but I forgot to read this one bc I was really excited 😭but the song is very fitting and idk how to explain it other than it does feel like a small town romance!
Omg Barbie and Ken being the OG fic characters is actually such a slay! And omg I HATED when kids said shit like omg like LET ME ENJOY IN PEACE!!! And in a way I’m glad Barbie has had a resurgence due to the movie because that movie broke me yet healed me lol
If you don’t have the same number of works or more that’s perfectly okay! You put out so much, FOR FREE MIND YOU and that’s more than enough! Life gets crazy and inspo sometimes can be low so really it’s okay ❤️
Yes i agree!!! Lots of people are lacking critical thinking skills and tbh I can go on about that! But I’m glad you’re trying to make your students at least aware how to do that!
It’s my second to last quarter! I’m probably just being dramatic since you’re right I did just get back from break lol I hope they get better too lol
I’m actually currently safe from the fires thankfully! Though where I live it is being monitored closely as the winds can be extremely dangerous if it gets bad! I think people don’t realize how NOT NORMAL having these kinds of wild fires during the WINTER is! Typically these happen during the summer time. And it’s so devastating and I have so many friends from the LA area and some have been affected so badly :( anyways that’s so sweet of you to check up on!
What color did you get your nails done?! Any cute designs?! And even if it’s an all amount of self care it’s still something! Hope you have an amazing start of the week! Sending lots of love 💕-💜
It doesn't always happen but I do feel like it happens a LOT to me. Idk. I get this little idea in my head for one specific little part and then I gotta build around it. I think Traditional I wrote like the middle of it and I would 10/10 would NOT recommend doing that ever again (except I did when I wrote Love & Dryer Sheets--but that came to me in a dream so I can't help that one). The middle is the worst. Dolcezza I started from the beginning I think. As did Ding. It all depends really. It's fun though when I write the ending first, it kind of gives me a goal and it's almost like the whole beginning doesn't matter. My OG bedtime fanfics (Nick Jonas, Edward Cullen, Zach, and Finn from a couple YA novel I read) didn't have endings. They were in perpetual middle parts and it was the WORST. So now when I have an ending I'm like "praise be the Lord."
No I honestly don't expect anyone to read the descriptions. I only put them there because I think it's the only thing keeping my blog alive. I skip right over them and then sometimes I forget I wrote stuff in there for y'all. I truly am going to miss TikTok for my song inspos and new music because I don't listen to the radio anymore and I think my students' music is trash lol
I felt slighted when the movie came out because I loved Barbie for so long I thought I was going to be obsessed forever and then my stupid elementary peers made me quit and now Barbie's back and I want to be like "YOU DON'T GET IT" but I gave up on it so that's on me for listening to kids. But now I obsess appropriately and you won't catch me letting 1D slip through my fingers. My sister's going to have to bury me with my 1D CDs and posters so I have it in the afterlife.
Well thank you. I just want to remain relevant (mostly because I don't know where else I would write and this is a massive outlet for me) so I fear that the # i produce is important. Which doesn't make sense at all. I'm a quality > quantity gal all the way.
You're not dramatic. This was the Monday-iest Monday ever. I'm exhausted. There's 4 more days of this shit? ugh. At least there's a long weekend. 2nd to last quarter though!!! We're getting there! Ahhhh!
I'm sorry to hear about your friends :( that's so awful. I didn't think of how this is abnormal due to the fact it's winter. It's so sad ugh :( I'm glad you're good for now and I hope it stays that way 💕
I can't remember if I told you, I'm real basic about my nails so it's just a winter blue with sparkles overlayed. No designs. The second one of my nails chip I peel them off. But I REALLY like them. I gotta do my toes next they look so gross lol. But my sister reminded me that no one is seeing my feet rn so it doesn't matter and I needed my nails done more.
Monday was long but overall fine. I feel like I'm getting a little overwhelmed with things and obligations but it's not terrible. I hope your week is smoother! Love you lots!!!
xoxo
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sanooja · 1 year ago
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 SEO Techniques and Strategies for Small Business
Introduction
Hey there! Ever wondered how some websites seem to just pop up at the top of your search results that’s no accident's good SEO at work. SEO, or Search Engine Optimization, is like the art of making your website more appealing to search engines like Google, Bing, or Yahoo. But SEO can seem a bit like a puzzle if you're not sure how to fit all the pieces together. That's what we're here to talk about today! Let's dive into the various classifications of SEO and how each one can help boost your website's visibility.
Classification of SEO
SEO can broadly be divided into three main categories: On-Page SEO, Off-Page SEO, and Technical SEO. Let’s unpack each category so you can understand how they contribute to a winning SEO strategy.
On-Page SEO
On-Page SEO refers to the tactics applied directly on your website to influence your rankings in search results. Here are a few key components:
Content Quality
* **Relevance and Value** First off, your content needs to be relevant and provide value to your readers. Have you ever searched for a pancake recipe and ended up on a page that talks about the history of pancakes but never gets to the actual recipes? Frustrating, right? To avoid this, focus on answering your audience's questions and solving their problems.
Keywords
* **Strategic Placement** Use relevant keywords naturally throughout your content, especially in key spots like the title, headers, and first paragraph. But remember, stuffing your content with keywords doesn't do the trick anymore. It's all about balance!
User Experience
* **Mobile-Friendliness** with more people accessing the web via mobile devices, your site must look good and function well on smartphones and tablets.
* **Page Load Speed* Ever clicked away from a site because it took ages to load? You're not alone. A fast-loading page not only pleases visitors but also pleases search engines.
Off-Page SEO
Off-Page SEO involves activities done outside of your website to impact your rankings. This category is largely about building credibility and authority through various means:
Backlinks
* **Quality Over Quantity:** It’s like being vouched for in the digital space. If reputable sites link back to you, search engines take that as a signal of your credibility. But be wary of low-quality links as they can do more harm than good.
Social Media
* **Engagement:** Although social media doesn’t directly influence rankings, it boosts your brand's visibility and leads traffic to your site. It’s like throwing a party and having excited guests spread the word.
Technical SEO
Technical SEO might not be as directly noticeable to your site visitors, but it’s crucial for helping search engine spiders crawl and index your site effectively:
Site Architecture
* **Easy Navigation:** Imagine a library with all its books scattered around. Hard to find what you need, right? A well-structured site with clear navigation helps both users and search engines find information easily.
Security
* **HTTPS:** Secure sites are the standard now. Not having a secure site (HTTPS vs. HTTP) could not only deter visitors but also lower your rankings.
Remember
SEO is not just about getting more visitors to your site; it's about attracting the right kind of visitors. Whether you’re a small blog or a big corporation, integrating these SEO practices with your other marketing strategies can make a huge difference in your online presence.
Conclusion
SEO might sound technical and a bit intimidating, but it's really about making your site better for people who are searching for what you offer. It’s a continuous process of improvement and adaptation to new techniques and algorithms. So, take it one step at a time, keep learning, and watch your website climb up that search engine ladder! "SEO is a journey, not a destination. It’s about continually improving and adapting to new challenges, and that's what makes it so exciting!"
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surveysand · 2 years ago
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seven.
Have you ever cheated at a card game? yes. anyone who says "no" is lying, lol. Tell me what colors you’re wearing right now? navy blue and black. Have you ever wandered around drunk with your friend? yes. Are you longing for the day that you’ll be an adult? (If you’re not already) i'm currently an adult. Have you ever felt like your heart actually stopped? yes.
Are you a fast runner? no. What’s something you’ve vowed to never eat? i'll try anything. Do you have a “poker face”? depends on the situation, i guess. Are you good at holding back your laughter if needed? yes. Do any of your friends shamelessly burp or fart in public? my partner does and it annoys the hell out of me. some of my friends do, too. When was the last time you had a good cry? yesterday. i cry all the time, haha. Has anyone ever told you they wanted to marry you? yes. Have you ever had a “thumb war” with someone? many times. Have you ever been so unfortunate to suffer from a hangover? only once or twice, thankfully. If you need a job, will you take whatever you can get? yes when it comes to the job type. no regarding the pay, i need a certain minimum or else i wouldn't be able to afford my rent. Time goes by faster as you get older, don’t you find? yes. Have you ever had a panic attack? two that i can think of. Are you deathly allergic to anything? no. Have you ever had a mouse in your house? yes, my apartment has had a few. i hate them with all of my being. i don't do critters or bugs. Do you know what you want for your dream house? yes. Have you ever seen the movie the Notebook? no. If you download torrents, what torrent program do you use? i don't download torrents. If you go to school, will this year be different? just graduated from college. no school for me this year. Do you know anyone who DOESN’T have an ex? yes. Are you able to count to ten in another language? yes. Is there something you know you have to do, but haven’t done it yet? yes. Is anyone you know really religious? yes. Can you sing? i'm decent. nothing extraordinary, but not bad either. Have you ever read “Gone With the Wind”? no. Are your eyebrows naturally thick? i don't think so. they're average-sized i would say. Have you ever attempted to cut your own hair? no. Has speaking in front of people ever made you sick? i might feel nervous, but have never gotten physically sick over it. i'm fine once i start talking. the waiting kills me. Have you ever wanted to tell someone how you felt, but never did? yes.
What was the last movie that made you teary-eyed? disneynature african cats, the documentary i watched with my partner yesterday. i cried at several points, lol. Do you check your email daily? yes. Have you ever breathed in helium? yes. Do you try to be confident and positive about your future? yes, though i could definitely be better. When was the last time you felt disappointed in yourself? last week when i didn't get a job offer after i thought the interview had gone really well. Have you ever owned a garden? no. Who was the last person to text you? my partner. Have you had two friends that absolutely hated each other? yes. Do you ever find yourself trying to be the referee amongst your friends? not anymore as my friend group has never really fought, but i always felt like a referee in my high school friend group. Has a laptop ever burned your legs? my old one did all the time. it still does when i break it out to play the sims 4, lol. Do you know anyone who has a scar through their eyebrow? no. Who was the last person to flip you off? no idea. Are you doing anything the day after tomorrow? no. Anyone’s birthday coming up soon? my youngest cousin's birthday. Would you ever wear fake eyelashes? yes. Do you make the effort to smile at people? not unless they smile at me first. Are you good at following directions? i guess. Have you ever just screamed really loud in an attempt to feel better? yes. Are you in any way, still a child at heart? yes. Quality triumphs over quantity, correct? yes. Have you ever danced when there was no music playing? yes. Do you have someone that you can just act a fool with and not care? a few people. From where you’re sitting, can you touch a wall? yes. Have you received a text today that made you go “wtf”? no. When at a restaurant, do you put your napkin on your lap? no. Are you even feeling the least bit tired? yes, i'm probably gonna head to bed soon. Is there currently any caffeine or alcohol in your system? no. Do you prefer electric or manual pencil sharpeners? manual. i feel like they always worked better. Are your biceps at all noticeable? no. Have you ever seen a walrus? no. When it comes to dropping food, do you believe in the 10 second rule? no. my dog sheds so much that, despite any amount of sweeping, the second a piece of food hits the ground, it has dog hair on it. also, the ground anywhere is probably nasty, lol. If given the opportunity, would you ride on a camel? yes. Do you believe that cellphones actually do cause cancer? i wouldn't be surprised. When people you know cry, does it make you feel like crying too? depends who it is. Were you single last Valentine’s Day? no. Do you tend to jump to conclusions? no. Are you good at remembering your friends’ birthdays? yes. Is there something you need to do, that you’re trying to avoid doing? yes.
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kimtaegis · 2 years ago
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trying really hard not to be upset these days
#tw negativity#literally sitting in my car on campus and try not to burst out into tears#yoongi’s album release just kind of set something in motion in me#all the songs and lyrics just cause this weird chest pain in me and make me think of everything all over again#about how tough the last few years were#and then the amygdala mv yesterday was the last straw#I got so triggered#everything’s just so triggering#I do find comfort in it but also so much pain#and then there’s the concerts starting tomrrow and I don’t know how to handle my anger and disappointment regarding that#and the haegeum graphic…I worked so so hard on that#2.5 days… FULL days..so at least 12 hours a day#I try so hard to always bring something fresh and original and creative to the table#but this takes time and once I’m finished no one cares anymore#everything has to be so fast-paced all the fucking time#it’s only ever really quantity over quality anymore#and I’m sick and tired of having to pretend I’m just doing these edits for myself and that that should be enough#it’s just so unfair and it makes me so angry#I feel yoongi saying all these things about creating art and how you just want to quit all the time#I hate that this makes me question my abilities#maybe I should listen to my irl friends and find a different way outside tumblr to show what I can do#somewhere where my effort and eye for detail and passion and creativity gets appreciated#I’ve been taking this all for granted for way too long#I’m growing so tired of always trying my best and it never being enough#it’s the same in every damn aspect of my life#I love bts so so much but I can’t really handle all the negative sides that come with being in this fandom lately#it makes me feel really really horrible about myself#maybe it’s time to force myself to take a step back…#I just want to enjoy without all of this crap going on in my mind
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rileysramblings · 3 years ago
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Epiphany [Part 1 // Chapter 2]
BIlly Russo x Unnamed Female Character
Summary: His ego hurt and his suspicions on high alert, he is in full investigation mode.
CAUTION IS RECOMMENDED - Warnings: angst, mention of sex, swearing.
Side Note: The response from the first chapter was insane! Thank you all so much for the love, I can’t even believe how many of you read it! So here comes the second chapter, I hope you’ll enjoy it as much as the first one. This is a Billy POV chapter, it was challenging to write and I’m quite happy with the result. Don’t hesitate to leave a comment or anything like that, let me know what you think!!
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Chapter 2 -- His girl
He had always been alone. He had gotten really good at it. He’d had time to sharpen this particular talent. After all, he’d been alone ever since he was a kid. It was almost an art form at this point. 
Almost.
To him it was more than that. It was how he survived. It taught him to be strong. It taught him to be careful who to trust. It taught him to be smart. He was alive today because of it. 
Of course he had friends, people he trusted - to an extent - with whom he had shared his life, or a morsel of it anyway. Frank was a good example. He’d trusted Frank more than anybody else ever. He had trusted him with his life when in the trenches. It wasn’t just trust too, he liked him. He loved him like a brother. He’d shared more with him than with anybody else. And in turn, Frank had opened his arms and had let him in. He had met his wife and his kids. They would go to the carnival together, he would make Frank Junior laugh and Lisa, little smartalec Lisa would always find a crack in his funny stories and sweet Maria would congratulate her while smiling fondly at him. Frank had made him a part of his life. 
Now, that story had a bitter, complicated and tragic ending but the love had been there. And the trust too. 
Women… Women were more complex. They needed more details, they wanted to meld their lives with his. He didn’t want that. He didn’t need that. He’d had relationships before, obviously, but nothing too serious. Frank always said that he would find a girl one day that would make him change his mind. “Quality over quantity,” he’d said over and over again. Billy had always chuckled at that. 
It wasn’t for him. He had always been alone. He was comfortable being alone. 
And no one would want him anyway. Not completely. He was too damaged. People never saw him, not truly. He was not what he looked like. 
Wait. That was wrong. Maybe it had been true at some point in his life but then the war happened, and the choices he made afterwards. No, it wasn’t like that anymore, who was he trying to fool? 
He was not what he made himself look like. That was the truth. 
His lies, now that was art. He had learned a long time ago how to manipulate the truth to provide him with leeway. At first, that was a way to survive when he was still in the system. Now, it was a way to arrive at his goal. It was almost his way of life. 
Special Agent Madani was a good example of that. The fact she was gorgeous was neither here nor there. She was smart, ambitious but most importantly, she was useful. He had only met her a couple of weeks before and already he had gathered intel that had Rawlins elated. 
Now, two weeks was not long but with his girl not responding to his calls anymore, Madani had unfortunately all his attention - well, all his free time anyway. 
His girl - His Girl - She wasn’t his girl. 
Just the thought of her made him twitch. 
He didn’t completely understand what had happened there. She was hard to figure out as it turned out. She was fun and he thought he had assessed her correctly but then, out of nowhere, she showed up to Anvil and disappeared minutes later never to be seen or heard of - by him - again. He had mentioned plans for later in the week when he would have asked about her visit but when he called to define the date, she didn’t answer. As a matter of fact, she stopped answering any kind of communication coming from him which not only pissed him off but made him suspicious of the entire relationship. 
Which explained why he was standing in a dark alleyway, watching his girl coming out of a cab all dressed up and entering a fancy restaurant. He scrunched up his face slightly as his first thought entered his brain. She was on a date. Or, it looked like she was on a date. He couldn’t trust anything she was doing now. He wouldn’t let himself. 
He hadn’t assessed her correctly. He wouldn’t make that mistake again. 
She followed the waiter to a table in the center of the room and a man stood up as she approached his table. Billy tilted his head slightly to the side as he couldn’t get a good look of the man but had a perfect view of his girl in that gorgeous dress. 
“Good evening, sir. Do you have a reservation?” 
The voice of the waitress caught his attention for a few seconds, enough time to smile and charm his way to the bar where his line of sight was largely improved. He had never seen that man in his life. Brown hair, light stubble, red tinted glasses, cheap suit, red tie. 
“Stay down,” Billy stated, his voice calm and collected, acting as there were no communication devices in his ear. His breathing was deep and controlled as his eyes did not leave the table in front of him. 
She bit her lower lip as she looked at the menu, a frown starting to appear on her face. Billy tilted his head slightly again but this time amusement was showing instead of frustration. If this was a date, it was not going well for Red. 
She chuckled and brought the open menu closer to her body as she leaned towards Red seemingly saying something about the restaurant being luxurious. No. That wasn’t it. He was too far away to actually hear them and there were too many people between them for him to get a good read.
 “I have to admit, I understand maybe half of this menu!” she said, or something along those lines. 
Billy smirked. His assessment hadn’t been completely false after all. 
Red chuckled, replying something about understanding a third of it himself. Billy’s gaze deepened as he looked at the both of them exchanging smiles, giggling. Now frustrated and irritated, Billy watched them stand up and leave. His shoulder twitched again as she offered her arm and Red took it as they exited the restaurant. 
Was Red blind? He better be. 
“On the move, stay alert.”
Billy followed them from afar, Red’s hand was still on her arm and they seemed lost in a pleasant conversation as they walked fairly slowly towards Central Park. 
He remembered the first time he saw her. She was sitting at the bar, drinking a beer alone. She had seemed lost in her own little universe, a little notebook placed in front of her, her fingers playing with a pen in her hand. He remembered how delicately she’d push a strand of hair back behind her ear and how she’d lick her lower lip before capturing it delicately between her teeth. Her foot had been swaying impatiently on the stool she was sitting on and her finger caressing absentmindedly the beer bottle in front of her, her mind a million miles away.  
His girl. Except not really. 
He inhaled deeply. 
They stopped in front of a small restaurant and entered under BIlly’ strict surveillance.
He could stay outside to continue his stakeout, having the advantage - and assurance - of seeing without being seen but he couldn’t hear anything. If this was not a date, if he had indeed read her completely wrong and if he was right to be suspicious, then he needed to hear the conversation. 
Billy gave his instructions and his man entered the restaurant, leaving a mic near the table she was sharing with Red before sitting at the bar and ordering a beer, not to look too suspicious. Billy's attention was absolute, his eyes never leaving them. 
“Work. She wrote an article on my boss… well ex-boss now, obviously.” She said with a chuckle, her fingers playing nervously with her napkin. 
“Oh, so she made you lose your job. That’s a nice beginning for a friendship.” Red replied smirking, his head tilted slightly to the side.
“What can I say, I’m weird that way, I love it when I’m forced into unemployment!” She joked, shrugging out of habit, forgetting for a second her date couldn’t see her. 
“What about you?” She asked, her eyes staring at him with a certain intensity that put more weight on Billy's chest. Had she ever looked at him that way?
“Same,” Red joked in return which earned him a giggle from her and an exasperated groan from Billy. “She was falsely accused of murder - We made it go away.”
The more he was listening, the more he was certain he had read her correctly the first time around. She hadn't lied to him. But, weirdly enough, the realisation did not help his current physical state. The weight on his chest was still pushing through and his breathing was beginning to get out of control.
If he didn't know any better, he'd think he cared. But he knew better obviously. 
She was nice, funny, charming and sexy. He had a good time with her, that's why he called her back after that first night, that's why he'd stay the night at her place, that's why he'd have breakfast the morning after on several occasions. 
But that was it. A good time. Nothing more.  
“Wow - Knight in shining armor action.” She exclaimed, raising her eyebrow in a suggestive manner forgetting again he wouldn’t be able to see her. She instantly looked worried he wouldn’t get the joke, or that she had just made an ass out of herself, as a light blush colored her cheeks.  
She seemed to like Red. She was definitely acting like it. She kept touching her hair, placing strands of it behind her ear every couple of minutes. She kept her eyes on him with that stupidly gorgeous smile plastered on her face. She freely bit her lower lip on a regular basis and her foot would sway nervously when she was speaking as if it helped her with the anxiety of it all. 
“To be accurate, it would be: lawyer in cheap suit action” His eyes were slightly misdirected from her face but his smile was kind and genuine.
“I like your suit.” she stated, her lower lip between her teeth again. Her smile grew when she saw the light pink appearing on her date’s cheeks. 
Billy's rictus was almost imperceptible. His eyes went from him to her to him to her again to finally end on the pavement. "Shit."
It was a date. And she liked the guy.  
Like she used to like him. 
Like he used to like her. 
Like he still liked her. 
His shoulder twitched as the meaning behind those words sunk in. He hadn't seen it coming. She'd snuck in little by little, day after day, night after night, smirk after smile and chuckles after giggles. Slowly, she had made a nest, got comfortable, got him used to seeing her, feeling her. 
And then, she'd snuck out. Without as much as a word, an explanation, anything. 
He wasn't sure if something had happened that he was unaware of. He would have noticed if anything out of the ordinary had transpired. Wouldn't he?
But now that doubt had entered the realm of possibilities, he wasn't sure if it wasn’t about him. Maybe he had done something or said something to deserve such a response, or lack of one more precisely. He wasn't the boyfriend type. Had barely ever been one. And he had never really been hers either. This wasn't the type of relationship they had shared. No. 
But they liked each other. Before her visit to Anvil, before they had gone their separate ways at her place, everything was good. 
He remembered that morning vividly. He had woken up before her, which was not unusual. She’d looked peaceful, the ghost of a smile on her face as her breathing had been slow and regular, her hair a lovely mess and he'd felt slightly guilty to move her hand off his chest when he had gotten up. 
He'd started preparing breakfast when she had appeared in the doorway only wearing her underwear and his shirt she had not bothered closing, the light fabric doing a bad job at covering her curves. 
He’d smirked as she’d rubbed her eyes sleepily, not quite aware of what she was doing to him. Not yet anyway. 
He had turned off the gas, keeping his breathing regular although it had deepened considerably since her arrival. But when his attention had come back to her, although his appearance remained calm and serene, his hunger had started to rise. 
She had said his name, her voice still hoarse from sleep and he'd had to hold a groan, settling for a hum instead. 
His hands had found her skin easily, his fingers delicately caressing her stomach as they'd made their way to her hips moving the fabric of his shirt gradually revealing more skin, more curves. As his fingers had been moving slowly but effectively across her skin, he had made her take a few steps back until she had been leaning on the doorframe.
As one of his hands had been left toying with the elastic of her underwear, the other had left her body to follow the opening of his shirt. “That’s mine,” he had whispered and he’d heard a whimper coming from her as his fingers had arrived at her breast. She’d taken a deep inhale and as she did so, his fingers - unmoving - had pressed lightly onto her. 
“I am going to need it back,” Billy had smirked as she had closed her eyes. He’d slid a finger under the light fabric of her underwear, caressing the delicate skin underneath and she had hummed, biting her lower lip. 
In a swift move, Billy had swooped her into his embrace, one hand firmly grasping her ass while the other guided her legs around his waist. 
When he’d kissed her, it had been passionate, hungry. She’d sighed against his lips and he had pulled her closer, tightening his grip. He remembered how she liked to drag her fingers through his hair and how he’d groaned trying to close the nonexistent distance between their bodies. 
There was definitely something between them. Electricity. Hunger. It was invigorating, drove him insane. 
He had to be honest. Their bodies pressed together, the feel of her heart beating faster and faster against his chest, her breath on his skin as he kissed her neck, her legs tight around his waist and her moans in his ear. He had thought it. He had hoped it. 
Mine.
And now, she was on a date with a lawyer in a cheap suit that she liked and that feeling in the pit of his stomach would not go silent. His shoulder twitched again.
He could still remember her taste, her lips dancing with his, her nose nudging his as she pressed her body against him drawing a growl out of him. She tasted like strawberries and lime. Flavored lip balm. If someone had told him he would miss a fucking lip balm, he would have laughed. 
Maybe it wasn't something he had done but something he didn't do, something he didn't say. There was a lot he didn’t say. He frowned as he saw her smile at her date. She looked happy. Did she look happy when they were… seeing each other?
The ghost of her body against his haunted him, his hand on her throat, her eyes closed and her mouth opened and him inside her, so deliciously inside her. Their bodies moving in sync, they knew each other, they knew what they liked, what worked, what made her moan his name, tainting his skin, scraping him raw. Her moans, bringing her screams, mixed with his groans as they collapsed onto another and stayed there, close together, not quite ready to part ways. 
The strawberries on her lips stained his skin, the sweet peaches in her soft hair contracted his chest and the verveine on her body blew his mind away. He could remember it perfectly still. Hell, he could almost taste it. 
He couldn’t think straight. 
He was tired. He didn’t have a good night of sleep in ages, adding to that Rawlins whispering into his ear and Madani’s investigation going forward, he needed to be clear headed. 
He heard her laugh. 
- strawberries - peaches - verveine - 
He clenched his jaw. 
It didn’t matter. It didn’t matter what happened, how it happened or why it happened. All that mattered was that it did happen and that he had a job to do. He had eliminated the doubt that she might be his enemy. She wasn’t. 
Moving on.
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