#it’s not living if it’s not with you

[straylightdream]

It’s not living - 𝐈𝐟 𝐢𝐭’𝐬 𝐧𝐨𝐭 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐲𝐨𝐮

𝐟𝐞𝐚𝐭: bang chan x f.reader

↳ after years of being friends you talk about what the future holds for you.

𝐰𝐚𝐫𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐬: suggestive, implied sex and mentions of sex and self doubt.

𝐰𝐨𝐫𝐝 𝐜𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐭: 1.2k

𝐚𝐧: I’m still struggling with writers block, and these short one shots seem to be helping. If you would like to join any of my Stray Kids taglist please fill out this form.

𝐟𝐞𝐞𝐝𝐛𝐚𝐜𝐤 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐫𝐞𝐛𝐥𝐨𝐠 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐭𝐚𝐠𝐬 𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐠𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐭𝐥𝐲 𝐚𝐩𝐩𝐫𝐞𝐜𝐢𝐚𝐭𝐞 𝐰𝐡𝐞𝐧 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐝 𝐨𝐧𝐞 𝐨𝐟 𝐦𝐲 𝐟𝐢𝐜𝐬.

Another late night passes and you squeeze your eyes shut trying to relieve some of the pressure from your throbbing headache. Your hands went up and pushed away light sweat that had formed on your face. A yawn passed your lips as you rolled over slowly. Your bright eyes popped open when you came in contact with a warm body you weren’t expecting to be in your bed.

Your wide eyes connect with the pair of warm eyes. Your stomach dropped at the sudden realization of everything that had unfolded between you and Chan. Biting your bottom lip your eyes were still wide. You couldn’t believe you were waking up in bed with him.

Chan seemed to be completely unfazed by his unusual bed buddy. A yawn passed his lips and stretched out his tense body. The covers sat low on his torso below his v and barely covering his naked body. You tugged up the bed sheet feeling all too aware that you were also naked.

“I can tell you’re freaking out,” he broke the silence between you. Chan was always someone in your life that could always read you like an open book.

“I’m just in shock that we actually had sex,” your mind flashed back to the moment between the two of you. You had drank some the night before but you weren’t super drunk. You made the foolish choice to start by drinking beer and then switched to mixing vodka and tequila. The nauseous feeling you were experiencing let you know that you hadn’t made the best choices when it came to drinking.

As your bright eyes traveled up the basically naked body of Chan. You weren’t sure if sleeping with him was a good decision or a bad one.

He moved so he was resting on his side propped up on his elbow. Reaching over he gently pushed a piece of your hair behind your ear. His gentle touch made you smile.

Chan and you had been friends since freshman year of high school. The moment your eyes locked onto Chan’s dark ones you knew that you were in trouble. All throughout high school you couldn’t help but fall more and more in love with Chan. Your brain was constantly telling you to stay away from the boy who broke hearts without a care in the world, but your heart wasn’t smart enough to listen.

When you went away to a different city for college you pushed away the thoughts of Bang Chan knowing that you rarely ever crossed his mind. After returning from college you were blindsided when you heard him tell you that he truly missed you.

From the moment you returned from college your friendship with Chan seemed stronger than ever. You watched as women threw themselves at him, and honestly you couldn’t blame them. Your feelings for him quickly returned and it wasn’t long before you were pretty sure you were in love with him.

During your night out with Chan you had been dancing together and hands started to roam your soft body and you made the mistake of blurting out that you were in love with him.

His eyes went wide in shock but quickly narrowed as he processed what you had said to him. With his lips brushing against your skin he lowered his voice and whispered, “you have no clue how wild you drive me.”

Soon his lips crashed into yours and you exchanged a heated first kiss on the dance floor.

Chan had a type, he loved pretty girls who were very rich. You met only one of the categories and it was the rich part. You were a girl who struggled with self love but we’re learning how to love yourself.

As you left the club in a hurry Chan’s lips stayed by your ear whispering sweet words of how beautiful you were. The uber ride back to your place couldn’t go fast enough.

You let down your walls as Chan told you how much you meant to him. You made him promise that this was more than a hookup. You couldn’t just be another notch in Chan’s belt. You valued herself too much for this to be just a hookup with the boy you were in love with. You were in love with the man who sat on his knees in front of you as he slowly pulled your tight black jeans down your legs.

The night you shared was perfect. You had started out tipsy but that soon faded away as she enjoyed his touch. Closing your eyes you remembered everything you had said to each other. Your heart sank at the thought that things between you might stay with you only being friends.

You looked away quickly and suddenly wished that you could take back everything that had happened the night before between you.

“Hey?” His voice was low and raspy probably from the fact that he had just woken up.

“Yeah?” You looked back over at him.

“I need you to do me a favor and not completely freak out right now.”

Slowly you sat up and sat crossed legged on the bed with the blanket pulled up covering your naked body. Silently he sat up and sat across from you with the blanket pooled in his lap.

Your eyes flickered up to his and you whispered, “Those things you said yesterday…did you mean them?”

He paused for a moment and stared at you. The silence between you had your ears ringing. You wanted to scream at him to say something because you couldn’t take it. A million thoughts were going through your head.

“Of course I do,” he said with a smile as he finally spoke up.

Your heart raced as you stared at him, he gently reached up and rested his hand gently on your cheek. You felt suddenly as if you wanted to cry at the fact that he felt the same way about you. So many years you’ve pined for the man sitting across from you. Your teenage years weren’t spent trying your hardest not to fall in love with Bang Chan, and here you were helplessly in love with him.

“So you do love me Chan?” You asked. You desperately need to hear him say he loves you.

He nodded his head smiling, “Of course I love you (YN).” The weight of the world suddenly feels like it’s been lifted off your shoulders. You can’t help the huge smile that forms on your lips.

Leaning forward he connected his lips to yours for a soft kiss. Both his hands held your face gently as your lips danced.

Pulling away you smiled at each other knowing that things between you were going to be different forever.

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[cherriesforstyles]

🫠the 1975 headers !

like/ reblog is u save- use

[burninlovebutler]

IT’S NOT LIVIN’ IF IT’S NOT WITH YOU 🥀

-the 1975

[newplaylistforu]

“It’s Not Living (If It’s Not With You)” by The 1975

[growupandsee]

// Melbourne night 2 //

[sampagneprobs]

making an aesthetic out of not doing well

[fastmelodic6661]

☁️all i do is sit and think about u☁️

[vinylandcoffeecollection]

opinions on ao3 being down?

Oh shit, Jamie Oborne found us 😮😂

I just noticed Anon- I’m in the Paris queue. Shit. Makes me realise how much we just take for granted that we can click on a website and have it be there. Hope it‘s back up soon- I have reading to catch up on when I finally get to a hotel!

[bl33dings-incidental]

// I FEEL SICK AND I KNOW THAT I’LL LOSE BUT, IT’S NOT LIVING IF IT’S NOT WITH YOU //

[mahgck]

you have to outlive donald trump

[paintedcrows]

Did anyone tell Ford (bonus doodles: Family Movie Night, 70s Classics)

[koobiie]

shoutout to everyone who wants to infodump but cant string together coherent thoughts to form sentences and instead just look at you like this

[monsieurenjlolras]

you've heard of "quiet quitting," now I'd like to introduce you to the next level, The French Work Ethic:

Do exactly what you're paid for and nothing more

Absolutely refuse to be available to contact when you're off the clock

Never prioritize work over your own health, wellbeing, or family because that would be insane, it's just a job.

Have a little glass of wine

Take as long as you feel like for lunch

Deeply understand that work doesn't matter

Make sure your boss knows they're always your second priority ❤️

[sca-nerd]

My friends who have never experienced flooding, and who are about to deal with it from this storm, please remember:

1. NO. YOU CANNOT MAKE IT THROUGH THAT WATER ON THE ROAD. I DON'T CARE WHAT YOU'RE DRIVING. TURN. AROUND.

2. DO NOT GO WADING THROUGH THE WATER. EVEN IF YOU JUST WANT TO SEE HOW DEEP IT IS. THAT. WATER. IS. CONTAMINATED.

3. IT IS CALLED FLASH FLOODING FOR A REASON. THE WATER RISES AND SURGES IN A FLASH. STAY. HOME.

4. If you're at risk of flooding, raise up any of your belongings now. Put the legs of tall things in buckets. Know where your important documents are.

5. Stay safe.