#it’s just another depressive episode
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(taps mic) hiii hi sorry for my inactivity here (or just. on any social media), I’m struggling so badly with artblock rn and just. life in general BUT!! I’m getting a bit better, please stand by
#i mean#it’s just another depressive episode#it’ll go away soon#and then it’ll happen again#I KNOW I ALSO HAVE SOME ASKS TO ANSWER#sorry im taking so long I haven’t forgotten abt them and I see them all#I just need some time!!
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they deserved better idc 😐
#it was so cool seeing the sign language and isha being mute was never something that needed fixing#she found a home and jinx found a reason to live#i know people are saying jinx survived because of the scene with Caitlyn but like...#why would jinx do that? she wanted to die this whole season she wanted to die at the beginning of the episode & that depression never faded#her escaping through the air vents implies a will to live#something jinx did not have#i thought it felt like the ending of ep 7 in the season one#trying to kill herself with ekko cause she didnt want to die alone. she had warwick when she pulled out & detonated one of her monkey bombs#like I'd love it if she was alive and left cause yea fuck Piltover get outta there honey!#and Isha's sacrifice meant nothing. she's just not mentioned at all we didnt even see Sevika's reaction to her death...#not dc#arcane#arcane spoilers#jinx arcane#isha arcane#tw suicide mention#the ending with Caitlyn felt like another moment of her and Vi having no idea the severity of Jinx's mental health issues#vi was upset she didnt wanna fight and go make change and shit and never mentioned the ''my sister wants to kill herself''#as if jinx wasn't in a depressive state every time we saw her in that cell.#and her removing herself from the equation so the others can be happy is ??????#so i guess she was a jinx to her family??? that she was the problem? its a frankly gross message to send with a suicidal character#that yes actually your loved ones will be better off without you in the picture you complicate things
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He would never hate me for my mental illnesses and brain being fucked up and needing reassurance constantly,,
#f/o#self ship#self ship community#self shipping#f/o community#oc x canon#yumejoshi#he’s also fictional so he’s literally whatever I want#it’s probs better if I just keep my love to fictional character bc I don’t want to put another person thru dealing with me#or just generally being a fucked up person#sorry I’m having a minor depressive episode
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Officially deciding I shall not be going to work tomorrow because of the snowstorm so…. Yay? Extra day off?
#driving home after work tonight was bad enough#and it’s just gonna keep snowing so yeah I’m good#if my fucking roommate tries to speak to me though we might have issues#I don’t think she realizes the precarious position not paying the bills put her in with me#like did I already dislike her and find her extremely annoying? yes#however I was willing to deal with that for another couple weeks#but now you have costed me hundreds of dollars#if you try to speak to me or get in my way and it’s not to give me your share?#it’s your own fault if I decide to maul you#I will say I find it amusing in an infuriating way that she constantly goes on and on about how I spend too much time in my room#and I’m wasting my life and ‘hiding won’t make things better’#cuz like. anyone with eyes and a brain could see I’m literally just avoiding you#I hang out with friends I go places I do things when you’re not home I chill in other areas of the apartment#I’m quite literally just avoiding your dumbass and you’re too stupid to realize so you lecture me on depression#like oh my fucking god……#anyways that was a tangent#snow day ig#will probably write some and watch a couple episodes of Gundam and haikyuu#kaz rambles
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I keep being like “wow I have been really upset the last few days” and then I look back and realize I’ve been upset since like the beginning of June and just have had a few scattered good days 😓 they need to invent a Seasonal Affective Disorder treatment that works for summertime. My sun lamp is not cutting it when I’m getting enough sun as is
#how long do you have to be sad before it’s just another depressive episode XD#no no it’s the summer I’m sure it is. I’m always mopey in summer#mine
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Okay so I have one episode of the newsreader left to watch and Dale is breaking my heart
#i knew he was gonna be pretty dead inside by the end of the season because i had seen gifs and stuff#but i assumed that it would be a slow progression throughout the whole season#what I was not expecting was for him to get more and more depressed in the first few episodes#and then for one(1) thing to happen and for that to just be his final straw that causes him to shatter#holy shit that was so sad to watch#he’s broken#like that really fucking broke him#he’s so dead inside#he feels like an entirely empty shell and it’s devastating to watch#i can’t even be mad at helen because she’s got her own shit she’s going through#and also i understand her#its all just so sad#idk if i can survive watching another episode#or season 3 when that comes out#god i was not emotionally prepared to care about this show as much as i do#the newsreader#dale jennings#sam reid#helen norville#anna torv#kate's post
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y'all I am soooo tired I think the rest of the fics are going to be very much late 😔
#this morning I was like 'yeah! I can do this!'#and then I went out and had an appointment and I've basically been exhausted ever since#had a brief perk up when my nephew was here but besides that??? nope#I'm just not keeping up with these like I usually do ough#how dare like three things go wrong this month that sap my writing energy rather than fuel it 😤#maybe I need another depressive episode sometimes those actually kick me into writer gear for some reason#...I'm kidding dw#but it did kinda work last october...#KIDDING#rambles from the floor
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My neurodivergencies and mental illnesses overlap so much that you could diagnose me with about anything at this point
#ocd and autism put together? must tap on things. must tap in specific rythm. or die. my whole life#adhd and autism? oh i cant focus but when i do that's all ill focus on for months or years#i can't pay attention but i have a photographic memory! so that didn't affect me much in school#also w the ocd and autism i constantly have to be picking at my skin in some way#whether it be dandruff my lips scabs or just chewing on the inside of my cheeks#like i can never stop no matter what#oh and another great thing about ocd and autism put together is that you get Echolalia²#this thing is going to repeat in the background of your head for months#and also you must sometimes say/sing it out loud randomly or you will explode#i was diagnosed with bipolar 1 and BPD also#manic and depressive episodes? turned out that was literally just dependent on my pain med prescription#rapid cycling emotions can come from all of those#i also have psychosis episodes and delusions! and hallucinations! wee!#oh and let's put a littlr sprinkle of C-PTSD on top of everything. just for fun#''anxiety disorder'' that was me freaking out about masking and how everyone would judge me#major depressive disorder? yeahhhh there's always that base level of despair#like I'm pretty sure the ocd adhd and autism are like one Whole Thing together#i hear the symptoms of all of those and im like yeah that's me! that's also me! shit! that's also me!#WHY IS THERE SO MUCH WRONGGGG#.bdo
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Paranoia is getting worse
#i do not want to have intrusive thoughts constantly#rationally speaking i have no reason to be scared or paranoid of anything but no#i deadass think i could lose my life in a car crash bc of yknow who (ifykyk) gets pissed at me one day#or just#someone being out to get me and brutally murdering me#i dont want to go out like that!!#it's freaking me out#i cant calm down#i dont think im allowed to speak and I'll get executed for saying it#im genuinely convinced someones going to slit my throat if i say the wrong thing#i havent done anything that would convince me of that but the thought wont leave my head#i feel like everything i do is wrong and i shouldn't be here#i can't make the paranoia go away#i dont think i have the right to exist#i want to cry but i also dont think im allowed to do that#im not exaggerating when i say i think im going to executed for no reason the thought keeps coming back no matter what i do#logically that's impossible and i know how ridiculous this whole thing is#i never dealt with paranoia to this degree ever#i hate it#i dont want to deal with it#im about to cry#i have no idea why this is happening#i think this whole thing is throwing me into another depressive episode#i dont have the energy to do anything since i think my thoughts are gonna get worse#i keep pet regressing over it too now#i feel terrible even saying anything about my paranoia aloud#i believe anytime i talk about how i feel mentally; everytime someones going to hurt me for it#im so so tired#it keeps getting worse and i dont know what to do#i can't sleep since I've been sleeping it off have get it worse and then overhtink and start sobbing
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I want. not to exist
#can i#please l#cause i think ive gotten myself into another depressive episode#and all i want is to just. sleep#but i have things to do and people to talk so#im genuinely gonna be better off as a hermit somewhere deep in a forest#no things to do unless i want to and no people to talk to#ughhggh#wtf is wrong with me#cw vent
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If you're ever driving on a dark highway in the US, the best thing to do if you hear a loud noise outside is to put your head out of the window and shout something like "YES!" or "NO!" repeatedly
The overwhelming majority of the time, someone will yell back at you and you'll be able to safely swerve out of the way of where the deer is (which will almost never be on the side of the road you think it is)
#in case you were wondering what i did last night#don't reblog#at least until i hear back from the neurologist who prescribed this drug#it might not be just another weird depressive episode
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not me looking forward to finally have a free weekend in forever only to get a call from an old school friend and his sweet girlfriend who I haven’t talked to since september randomly asking me out to dinner and a musical show tonight
#😭 like I’m so clearly in another depressive episode and miss my silly little me time on my blog and in photoshop and stuff but#I KNOW this is good for me in the long run. I SHOULD force myself to go out#but it’s also so fucking draining to just. look forward to it I'm so out of (social) energy#ugh fuck it I’m gonna have a good evening with these two people that are genuinely sweet to me#we're not doing 2021/22 annie again#also hi I'm alive#I'll answer some asks when I'm on the train to berlin later#and queue tomorrow
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Does any one know like very good platforms to post their art? Or any tips on how to grow more that doesn't involve changing your art style or what you draw?
#I know tags are important for here and for all my art I put in a lot of tags#when it comes to just text I don't put a lot#But yeah tbh while I won't leave Tumblr I am looking for another way of getting my art out there#I feel like all my reblogs make it to hard to find my art#granted even then I barely even get any likes#tbh idk I might just try and focus on my projects#but I feel like I be the only one interested in them if I don't get at least a small fan base#Like I wanna make an animated pilot but I don't want to put all that work in for like 5 views#idk man I think I'm just going through another depressive well not episode but you know what I mean#granted I only ever really get likes from the same like three people who like all my stuff#but yeah#darken talks#damn these tags just became a rant lol
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I made a meme do you leik it :)
#i am SUFFERING out here#i have a presentation and essay for one module a presentation for another module and an object to make with a 1000 word explanation??#for another module all due within the next two weeks#and i am unable to get out of bed 👍🏻#fantastic timing dont you think#theres been trouble with my antidepressents so im off those too which ahahahahah doesnt help#and i cant got to the doctors for them cause ill have to fight for it and then that will give them reason to not give me testosterone in#december when im due to get it cause im 'unstable' and my doctors surgery isnt very fond of me starting anyway#im not about to give them a reason to stop me from getting the perscription#so ive just got to fucking raw dog life for the first time since i was 16 how great#no i cannot complete these very important assignments that count towards my degree im trying not to throw myself into oncoming traffic soz#and also trying to manage to feed myself and perhaps leave my bedroom for a total of five minutes at least a day#this has not been entirely achievable but yk im doing my best 😀👍🏻#depressive episode#did any of yall see those two girls with a podcast that said i love my mental illness it makes me who i am#because i think about those two far too often and im so glad everyone was in the comments so much so they deleted the video lmfao cause bro#depression#can suck my dick#in a bad way
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“fhjy is not sad” some of us are lonely and in tuition deficit!!!!!!!!!!!!
#dimension 20#fhjy#fhjy spoilers#the way my guts curdled throughout the episode!! this shit is Not broke and depressed college kid friendly!!!!!#(really like what they’re doing it’s just hurting me personally)#they’re so me when i pay my rent and ignore another email about my tuition overdues and i eat a sad meal cause i can’t afford good food#nor do i have the energy to make any. and i feel like none of my friends will love me forever. and i want my parents.
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yeah i woke up. yeah i tried loving the world again. but i simply couldnt
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