#it’s fun and sillaaaayyyyyy

[beheadable]

At least once every week for three years now I find myself checking the Brake tag on here………. I check his imdb at least once a month as well

I remember, in the first month of my weird love developing (said as if it didn’t hit me all at once like a truck the moment I saw him. I was doomed from the start), I regularly found myself wondering, perhaps hoping a little, as well, if it would all calm down one day. It hasn’t, yet, I add on hopefully. It just lives with me now, present in my soul and brain in some weird inescapable way, I don’t much care anymore, and I’m not concerned as it doesn’t affect my life at all, it’s just weird sometimes. I think this year I’m really coming to terms with the fact that I may have a permanent muse of some sort <- don’t like saying muse for him but it’s true

I am wondering if it’ll ever happen again. I hope if it does it’s about the person I marry, at least, would feel marginally less weird

Weird weird weird weird… the only word I use apparently