#it would be so mucj better

[rye-satchel]

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[kurouzus]

2019 Chevrolet Trax all wheel drive with only 56 thousand km on it in another life we were allowed to be together but unfortunately this one is cruel and cold and unloving.

[ghostofreach]

The weight of words and kinship

[2/3]

“He isn’t a mean person, Klee, he just isn’t going to say anything to you if he doesn’t know how to say it.”

-Kaeya Alberich, on communicating with Mondstadters

Me???? Coloring my comics??? Impossible…

Ragbros moment coming next part

Also THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR ALL OF YOUR KIND WORDS EVERYONE!! I am fairly new to tumblr so tell me if this is not an appropriate way to respond to reblogs but idk if there is a better way to do it.

I didn’t include any usernames bc idk if ppl wanted that but the op who said i made them into a rich broth that is such a beautiful metaphor for my world building and i will treasure it forever

And to my mutual who said my mind is so powerful thank you I have been wanting to respond to that since THE DAY I SAW IT but I procrastinated this part of the post and now I fear it would be awkward to respond in any other way but THANK YOUTHANKYOU I LOVE YOU TOO I LOVE YOUR ART…SO MUCJ🙏🙏

[starburstminibot]

Hey, anon who asked bout the "how things were before Breakcheck was born"

First of all: I read the tags, don't ever apologise for info dumping, I love the dump and will eat it all. I am thoroughly enjoying this au and would love to read/see more of it

Secondly: It's quite alright for not doing art, as much as I do enjoy your art very much and love to see how you draw these characters, I also very much enjoy reading about it

Thridly: You are so right, the writers dont know shit and you get it alot mlre, and i LOVE how you are writing the issues between the 'Cons and 'Bots. Like there is sooo much they just, didn't explain. Megs being the one to become good and the other cons are left to be the bad guys??? PUH-LEASE

And even if they were to no longer be the bad guys, there is SO MUCH to their relationship that is skimmed over, like, c'mon

Anyhow, eating up your au OP. Breakcheck is best boy and I love seeing this goober and his story on my feed, writen or drawn out

Do not give me permission to yap bc i will not stop and you will regret it I promise /lh

IM SO FERAL??!>{£|! OUGHH IM SO GLAD YOU LIKE IT SO MUCJ BC IM GOING INSANE THINKING ABOUT IT

Also… I’m going to give possibly a hot take and it’s that Earthspark genuinely pisses me off sometimes. Because how dare they introduce such an interesting concept of a post-war setting with a redeemed Megatron and complex Decepticon/Autobot relationships and expect me to care about the Terrans.

I still like the Terrans, i think they are so silly goofy, and I like the idea of new characters to explore. But THE BACKGROUND PLOT IS SO MUCH MORE INTERESTING TO ME. The human alliance that turned out to be anti-cybertron??? Mandroid literally killing bots and experimenting on them?? grimlock getting mind controlled and having ptsd??? The rest of the Decepticons fighting for power and seething in rage of their leader’s betrayal??? Megatron trying to navigate his new life while being repentful of his past actions while also not crumbling under the guilt of his mistakes??? The fact that they are stranded on an alien planet and can’t go home?????? STARCREAM’S ABUSE GETTING RECOGNIZED????

they keep introducing these really interesting plots and then abandoning them for the sake of the Terrans getting more screentime.

I think these things would be easier to juggle if there weren’t so many of them tbh. I would rather just have Twitch and Thrash be these new Cybertronians that can guide the viewer through these complex plots because like us, they weren’t around for the war. They have a fresh untainted perspective on life.

(Dont get me wrong, I love Hashtag, JB, and Nightshade, but sometimes it feels like there isn’t enough screentime to flesh them all out and they end up getting characterized to one singular trait) (if all of them are around, I would rather them have their own focus show without the background plots of Optimus, Megatron, Bumblebee, ect.)

Also they are REALLY trying to hit the family theme over our heads. They keep saying “family this family that” but deadass they talk about being a healthy family more than they actually act like it. Show me how much they love each other instead of putting it in every other line of dialogue.

Ok that is all, I didn’t mean to go on such a rant LMAO. I still like Earthspark, just sometimes it feels like they are trying to be two different shows and they are stuffing more into the plot than they have time to flesh out. (Breakdown, Starscream, and pretty much all the Decepticons deserved better)

[heavyhitterheaux]

Jack and FL taking miss girl to the vet and one of tje dogs in the waiting room is doing too mucj and the owner doesn't notice bc she's too 🥵🥵🥵 at Jack and Jack puts her in her place

“Thanks for coming with me, babe.” Jack told you as you were scratching Butterscotch behind her ears in the hopes of keeping her calm.

“Of course my love. We have to make sure our youngest child is okay and I have to also make sure that they don't try to get over on us either.”

A few days ago you noticed that she wasn't acting like her energetic self and quickly made an appointment to see what might be wrong with her. However, something told you to watch the security cameras and the reasoning for her feeling sick was revealed.

She had eaten a paper towel that one of the triplets had dropped on the floor and never picked up.

“Our child would eat a paper towel. Not surprised in the slightest.” Jack replied and you couldn't help but to laugh. However, you were startled by a dog barking in a loud tone and looked to see the direction from where it was coming from.

“Hmm.”

“What's wrong, baby?”

“It seems that you have an admirer.” You told him and he instantly rolled his eyes as he looked in the direction that you nodded your head towards.

“And I have a wedding ring on my finger that could blind the entire continent of North America.”

“You so cute, bae. What did you expect?” You replied as you pinched his cheek making him blush.

“Stop, babe! And I'm all yours so she can stop staring at me. I think she's about to start drooling in a minute. You are the only person that I want looking at me like that.” He told you as Butterscotch was walking back and forth between both of your laps before she decided to lay in Jack’s.

Suddenly you two heard a crash and it looked as if the rowdy dog that had the owner that had been looking at your husband the entire time had knocked over two plants that they had in the waiting room, sending soil flying everywhere.

“Can she not control her dog or is she too focused on you?”

“Do you really want me to answer that question? I will start making out with you right now to get her to stop staring.”

“I don't think she's blinked since she's been here.”

Just then, the girl must have loosened her grip on the dog's leash because the next thing you knew, the dog was coming straight for Butterscotch and Jack was done dealing with the nonsense.

The dog then proceeded to almost hop on Jack’s lap and that's when you heard his protests.

“Uh? Excuse me!?!?? Ma'am isn't this your dog?”

“Oh, um yes.”

“Well can you do a better job of controlling him and getting him to act like he has some sense? Because if he would have bitten my child there would have been hell to pay.”

“Your child?”

“Don't you see me holding my daughter? If you were actually paying attention and not making googly eyes at me you would see that he's torn up this waiting room. And I know you see this ring on my finger and that indicates that I'm a whole married man and MY WIFE is sitting next to me.”

All you did was laugh as you were on facetime with Urban, who heard the entire exchange. You called him to get an update on the babies, and that just so happened to be the time when Jack went off.

“I cannot! Y/N! Get your husband.” He said as he busted out laughing.

“Nah, let him cook.”

“Like how does your dog not know how to act in public? And are you going to come over here and get him or?”

“Oh, right. Um, sorry about that.” She immediately turned red indicating that she was embarrassed and took the dog's leash from Jack.

“I love it when you get like that.” You whispered in his ear once the woman had finally gone back to her seat.

“Once we leave here….” Jack started to say, but was immediately cut off by Urban.

“AHT AHT! I'm still here so stop being nasty!”

“Hmm, I can solve that problem.” Jack said and Urban's eyes went wide.

“Don't you DARE hang up on me.”

“Urb, can't hear you, we’ll call you back later.” Jack replied as he reached over and hung up on him while all you could do was laugh.

“Now where were we?”

[jjcocker]

Wait og my god this is gonna fuck me up. (VERY POSITIVE) . Telling u all inteh tags

. but first. uh a cw for . wel. eating disorders (theure mentioned in a sense. I'd say it's some form of disordered eating n alll.)

Ok now read rhe tags

Holu shit i checked the persons profile and I thikn I hit the juckport.

[gugugyuu]

ramen part two ⋆ ˚｡⋆୨୧˚🌙🍜

Beomgyu thought about that night more often than he'd like to admit. The quiet ramen shop, your sleepy smile, and the way you'd said, "I'm glad it was you tonight."

He hadn't seen you since, though he found himself wondering if you remembered anything about that night or about him and he didn't expect you to. It's okay, you'd been tipsy, after all, and he figured the moment had meant more to him than it had to you.

His friend Yeonjun cornered him one afternoon, grinning like he knew something Beomgyu didn't.

"So," Yeonjun started, leaning against the table. "Why didn't you tell me you had a thing with her?"

Beomgyu frowned. "What are you talking about?"

"You know, her."

Beomgyu's stomach flipped, the assumption shattered. "Wait, how do you- what do you mean?"

Yeonjun smirked, clearly enjoying Beomgyu's flustered state. "She's been asking around for your number."

Beomgyu froze, blinking at him. "What?"

"Yeah. She asked me earlier," Yeonjun said casually, picking at the edge of his drink. "Wanted to know if she could get your contact info."

"She... asked for my number?"

Yeonjun gave him a look. "Are you just going to repeat everything I say, or are you going to do something about it?"

Beomgyu's mind raced. He couldn't figure out why you'd want to talk to him again. You hadn't seemed overly attached that night; you'd been polite, sure, but you didn't seem the type to get sentimental about someone you barely knew.

And yet, you'd gone out of your way to ask for his number.

"So," he paused. "did you give it to her?" Beomgyu asked hesitantly.

Yeonjun rolled his eyes. "Of course I did. Do you think I'd sabotage your love life like that?"

Beomgyu exhaled, dapping him up in excitement.

"But it's not like that!"

"Sure, it's not." Yeonjun gave him a proud, knowing grin. "Anyway, don't act so clueless when she texts you."

Later that evening, as Beomgyu sat on his couch scrolling aimlessly through his phone, it buzzed in his hand. He glanced at the screen, his breath catching when he saw a message from an unknown number.

Hey, it's me. I think I owe you a meal now.

His fingers hovered over the keyboard, his thoughts racing. He didn't want to overthink it, but how could he not?

Finally, he typed a response.

You don't owe me anything, but I'm not saying no to ramen.

Your reply came almost instantly.

Good. Tomorrow night? Same place?

Beomgyu stared at the screen, his pulse quickening. He wasn't sure what he'd expected when Yeonjun told him you'd been looking for him, but it definitely wasn't this.

Tomorrow works. I'll meet you there.

The next night, Beomgyu arrived at the ramen shop early. He fiddled with his phone as he waited, trying to calm the nerves that were steadily building.

When you walked in, his breath hitched. You weren't dressed up like you had been at the party, but you looked even better in your casual clothes. Relaxed, approachable, with that same quiet grace he or everyone else couldn't take their eyes off of.

"Hi." you greeted, sliding into the seat across from him.

"Hey," he replied, trying to keep his voice steady.

The conversation started light, with small talk about the party and your mutual friends. Though it didn't take long for you to steer it into more personal territory.

"You know," you said, resting your chin on your hand, "I was kind of worried you'd think I was annoying for asking your friends for your number."

Beomgyu blinked, startled. "Why would I think that?"

You shrugged, a small smile playing on your lips. "You seem like the type who doesn't really like to be bothered. I figured you might've thought I was doing too mucj."

He shook his head, unable to hide his own smile. "If anything, I thought you'd think I was annoying. I mean, I just kind of ended up being the designated ramen guy that night."

Your laugh was soft but genuine. "The ramen guy? Is that what you're calling yourself now?"

"I mean, it's accurate," he teased, his confidence growing with your easygoing demeanor.

"Well, it worked out, didn't it?" you said, your smile turning playful. "I was looking for an excuse to talk to you anyway."

Beomgyu's eyes widened, nearly dropped his chopsticks. "You were?"

You nodded, taking a sip of broth before meeting his gaze. "Yeah. I guess I just got tired of waiting for you to say something first."

His heart pounded, your words echoing in his head. Were you really waiting for him?

For once, he didn't overthink it. He smiled, leaning forward slightly. "Well, if I'd known, you wouldn't have had to wait."

You held his gaze for a moment, your expression softening, lips forming a smirk.

"Good," you said, biting your lip while staring at his eyes.

Just like that, Beomgyu knew this wasn't going to be a one-time thing and even if it is, he wouldn't let it.

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[rzyraffek]

sup bestie pls do anything with Billy Lenz, Brahms and Asa. LITTERALY ANY KIND OF HEADCANON PLS I NEED THEM. USe she/her and let it be fluffly pls!!!!

YOO RAT MEN HEADCANONS ( Brashms Heelshire, Asa Emory and Billy lenz) Request open

I wrote mostly about how they avt when they are home alone with their s/o

SFW, SHE/HER, NO TRIGGER WARNINGS INCLUDED (except billy lenz being billy lenz)

Billy Lenz

Billy Lenz would 100% hiss at people to intimidate them, also probably bite too, he is very goblinish

Probably gets scared of loud sudden noises and fights dishwashers and washingmachines. Oh and he hates baths or showers, he just hates it >:( especially when water isn't boiling hot (this little gremlin is from hell he has needs), she needs to convince him by promising some tasty cookies afterwards or whatever yall want to do idc

Will eat uncooked food

Bites and fights her as sign of affecion, please do it too he will enjoy

How to food? He does not know. But pls let him cook with you he loves any kind of attention even if its 'how to cut apple tutorial'

He is smart but rather crazy and overreactive and he might accidently do a lil upsy when he has one of his maniac episodes so you better speedrun the hell away

Oh God buy him a cell phone for Gods sake.. wait maybe not he will prank call even more then

He will complain alot about s/o having to work and leaving house every few days. For your own sake find him a hobby, like idk peace of paper and crayons or play doh or idk just some long ass movies to watch

Brahms

My men really🧍‍♂️👁👁

He has episodes when he talks sosso much but he may also go very non verbal in some situations or when he feels certain ways

Also hes the type of person that when he takes dishes out of dishwasher and puts them back on the shelf he segregates plates by colors and shapes so they look pretty ^^

He likes hair accessories! And loves when she plays with his hair

He loves baths, just sitting ans vibing, especially when s/o helps him wash hair or just bathes with him

He will randomly make random noises like, yall just sitting reading books, he will stare at her eyes and go 🦖🐬

PLEASE TOUCH GIM NOT EVEN IN ROMANTIC WAY BUT OVER ALL PLEASE JUST HE NEEDS PHISICAL CONTACT SO MUCJ HE WILL DIE

Asa emory

"Oh hi Asa i see your back from job💖😊" "i killed them all🧍" "😨you mean like??? People you kidnaped or? "Bees attacked me🧎"

Not very affecjonate but will give a lot of gifts! And spent all free time he has.

ALSO OMG GOING TO ESCAPE ROOM WITH ASA WOULD BE SO WILD!! HE SHOULD BR MAKING THOSE (legally i mean)

[monigote001]

Happy day of the birth!!! 🎉🎉🎂 I kept putting this off out of nervousness I suppose, hence the lateness - but we're mutuals so we're cool. Right? Anyways, happy birthday!! You are a big inspiration of mine and I can't imagine how different my and others lives would be without you around! I always find myself smiling a little more when I see you on my dash with your amazing art and words of wisdom. Happy holidays, happy birthday, and most importantly- happy wife!... I mean happy life. 😨 (I re-read that and found it very corny. Sappy, even. Can't really word it in any other way though. Important part is: you're awesome, and you better stay with us!!❤️/not romantically)

When I got this message yesterday it made me so happy I couldn't help but take a moment, THANK YOU SO MUCJ ♥️♥️♥️

You are such a sweet person, I'm so glad we are moots AAAAA <3333

[am-i-the-asshole-official]

aita for being friends with bad people?

ok so like i have this friend whos in all of my classes and we became friends bc of that. she seemed nice and polite and whatever at first so we became friends. but the more i got to know her, the worse i realized she was.

like shes... she said butch lesbians are 'weird' (?????????) and is a fan of an unnamed problematic show. also she straight up bullies people. like theres some 'emo' kids in our class and shes mean to them. she also said its weird how ppl are becoming nonbinary so much now. shes a lesbian herself and has a gf but that doesnt really balance it out :/ (tldr bullies people mean girls style n is a homophobic homosexual)

anyway she still sits at my lunch table and were better friends know after i learned more abt her (shes actually a furry n like owns paws and stuff and ppl find that weird so) but she doesnt have any major reason for this. like she has nice parents and is kinda spoiled ngl. recently shes been opening up more and has cried in front of me ( not even my best friend has done this)

but the main issue is that is that while i try to be like nice and chill my other more normal friends dont really like her. this isnt the first time too. like she cant sit at her other friends tables bc their other friends dont like her either.

anyway weve been friends for so long by now and confided so mucj in each other that id feel like an asshole for leaving. also i dont have a lot of options for friends bc before summer break she was the only person in all off my classes and i look like a fuckin loser if im by myself. and her friends are my friends so if i try to cut her off idk what they would do. shes not like threatening me if i leave her this is really just me being paranoid

so. aita for letting a bad ish friend still be my friend of my own choice?

What are these acronyms?

[maochira]

hi hii! i love ur sibling fics so much, if its okay can i request how older brother!nagi would react when reader gets sad after a fight?? u can ignore this if u want!! anyways thank you so much for ur family fics, it comforted me so mucj and makes me feel so loved </3 i feel like im healing my sibling issues lol, have a good day/night!!

Hi anon thank you very much!! Writing all the family stuff is helping me heal from personal stuff as well, so I love to write for these requests <3

Requests are open!

Masterlist and request rules

Tags: gn!Nagi!reader, big brother!Sheishirou Nagi, hurt/comfort kind of but not really idk

-you don't fight with Seishirou that often, but whenever you do, it's about your household chores

-you live together and your parents travel pretty much all the time, so any household work is yours and Seishirou's task

-but Seishirou is very lazy, so you always have to keep bothering him until he does his chores or will at least do them with you together. But at some point, you're so fed up with his laziness, you start fighting with him

-it's very frustrating because Seishirou doesn't seem to understand how bothering his laziness actually is to you, and how not getting chores done is stressing you out

-you're so frustrated, you storm off into your room where you cry your frustration out

-Seishirou doesn't think much of the fight, he thinks it'll pass by soon and not be a thing anymore. But when he walks past your room and hears you sob into your pillow, he realizes he should have taken you more seriously earlier

-Seishirou feels bad and thinks about what to do. He feels like it's wrong to go into your room now to talk, so instead, he looks at the list of chores that should be done this week and tries to do some of them

-most of those chores are rather quiet, so you don't notice anything. But when you hear the vacuum cleaner, you're a bit surprised and go to look for Seishirou

-when he sees you, he tries to apologize, but he doesn't really know what to say, so he just says "I'm sorry" over and over and hugs you

-you're still a bit sad, but feel way better when you see how much effort he put into doing those few chores, especially because he's usually so lazy

-even after that, Seishirou has a hard time getting himself to do his chores, so you start doing almost all of them together instead. It motivates him a little more and he also wants to prevent making you cry again

[crazylittlejester]

Time-Master Sword

so I was reading x men comics again that center around cyclops and cable and 😭😭

Now all I’m imagining for my x men/Lu au is Time barging into Warriors room (I know it’s Jean here and Wars is cyclops but my ass is convinced Wars would say this) holding a blender with tears in his eyes saying “YOU WANTED TO TRADE ME FOR THIS” 😔😔

Time deserves better than this/j

Daily cursed images of this mfer/j

im obsessed with how much ive learned about xmen from you dude

also i love this au idea so mucj

[real-fire-emblem-takes]

Fine okay, it's not much but...

The theoretical fire emblem game would have two lords, the stereotypical Blue Haired Twink with a Sword. And the other is the kid of the Old Dark Mage From That One Cult. (I'm leaning towards a spoiled daughter). It opens with the dark mage kid(DMK) on a boat ranting about how their father never lets them off the island despite being a prodigy mage and sword fighter, treats them like a kid, and spends months away from home without explanation. They got into an argument that resulted in a shouting match before DMK grabbed a sword and stormed out. Proclaiming to prove how paranoid and cowardly their Dad was... Except they don't know how. Well, better start killing pirates! Oh look, here come some now. Good thing this ship hired a few mercenaries to help out! Anyway let's shift to Blue Twink, who's currently defending the castle from the Empire with his knights. He's pushed back to the castle, where he witnesses a mysterious old mage A)Kill his father B)Steal the Holy Blade and C)Cast a barrier around the castle. He flees the capital, and swears to return and kill the mage. However, the player gets to see a slightly different story, namely how the Dark Mage corners Twink's little sister. He looks at her, asks her age, finds out she's the same age as his kid, and walks away. He also finds the Queen, and predictably imprisons her, but promises her the princess is safe. Which doesn't go so well considering he looks every bit the evil old sorcerer. And now I have a giant paragraph skimming over chapters one and two. I'm gonna need to send more..

- Dark Mage Anon. Is 🔮 taken?

👀 love this so mucj so far

[stuck-in-the-ghost-zone]

MACCCC HELLO!!! HOW R U TONIGHT!!!! idk if u know but the qsmp finale was today. hence. me being in tumblr post limit jail. press f to pay respects 😔✊ i thought i would never see my catboy again BUT!!! HE WAS ONLINE AND I GOT 2 SEE HIM AGAIN!!! even if he didn’t stream his pov i still got 2 see his cubito <3 would like 2 give u this picture of him as a momento of this occasion <3 ignore the quality i watched the streams on my phone data. literally two pixels tall smallest guy u have ever seen

ANYWAY i am on ep 8 of the suckening. love the juxtaposition of arthur in london and the twins chillin in la. arthur and the Terrible Horrible No Good Very Bad Day (ft. trauma, heartwrenching memories, and getting hunted down by vampire hunters and barely surviving) meanwhile shilo is sipping blood out of a swirly straw in a walmart. arthur is living in a tragic drama and the twins are living in a comedy. OBSESSED with the tomfoolery and shenanigans these guys get into. once i’m done the suckening i think perhaps i may get into prime defenders next?? ros rly seems 2 like that one and i trust the judgement of my good friend roswell intertexts <3 i hope ur night is goin well!!!!!

I feel like u are pulling our ur wallet and showing me the most crumpled up faded old Polaroid of your wife who died at sea decades ago. omg. he is 2 pixels big. absolutely molecular.

OH MAN !!!!!! I think I was getting the jist of everything from the liveblogs I was seeing but I didn't realize this was ljke the FINALE finale !!!!! I hope it was good!!! i hope it was better than dsmp at least !!! I'm glad u got to see ur cat again <3 i think I saw a wedding cake with him and the red guy on it did they get married....... congratulations if so <3

UGHHHH SUCKENING. GOOD SHIT GOOD SHIT arthurs no good terrible horrible very bad trip to London. god I love shilo so very much. they r having fun in Walmart together <3 nothing bad is ever going to happen to any of them

ALSO. GRABBING YOUR SHOULDERS MAKIMG EXTREMELY INTENSE EYE CONTACT WITH YOU. PRIME DEFENDERS WILL CHANGE YOUR LIFE. I FUCKING LOVE PRIME DEFENXERS I AM THINKING ABOUT IT 24/7 I AM BURDENED WITH SO MUCJ HORRIBLE KNOWLEDGE ABOUT WILLIAM WISP

[triglycercule]

OH MY GOD AND I NEED MORE TJAN CAPLOCK TO SHOW MY EXCITEMENT BUT HE ALSO ASKED ALIZA HOW MUCJ HER LIFE IS WORTJ!!!! THERE'S SO MUCH TALK ABOUT THW WORTH OF A LIFE IN THIS ONE!!!! HORROR SANS!!!! STOP PROJECTING ONTO HER!!!!! JUST BECAUSE HER DEATH WOULDNT RESULT IN A BETTER PLACE LIKE YOUR DEATH WOULD DOESNT MEAN YOU GET TO ROB PEOPLE OF THAT SAME OPPORTUNITY!!!! ALIZA'S STORY IS NOT THE SAME AS YOURS!!!!!! suxgausgshshIM CRASHING OUT HORRORTALE HORROR SANS PEAK AU BEST UTMV AU HE'S TNE BEST ITS TJE BEST S. A. S. I LOVE HORRORTALE I NEED GO.KNOW MOR

[trixr4kidzz]

DR2 Theory: Despair Disease turns you into your past self, not your opposite.

HUGE DISCLAIMER: I have only finished the third trial, and I am have also not watched in-between anime. This is from my in-game context so far, and context provided by my fiance who has watched and finished both medias.

If anything ia contradictory, I apologize!!

Let's get started!

Despair disease is not a disease that makes people the opposite of themselves, it's a disease that reverts people to their old selves.

Everyone was given opposites of how they act, right? Komaeda became a liar, Akane became a coward, and Ibuki became gullible (???) .

Okay, so then why did Mikan gain the remembering disease?

Mikan *is* a clutz, don't get me wrong. She certain is scatterbrained and easily falls over herself.

However, it has *never* been stated she has problems remember thing. The only two characters that have distinctly had this problem, in fact, have been Akane and Ibuki in the past trials.

So this brings me to my theory, the despair disease is actually a disease that returns you to your past lives. After all, we know that Junko wants to prove despair is better than hope.

Therein, the despair disease is somewhat of an oxymoron in her point , but that's on purpose. She's showing them what they consider hope, their past lives where they had these personalities that lead to murder here, is useless. It's better to give in to *her* brand of despair.

Nagito got the "lying" disease, because before school he would lie about his confidence. He degraded those on the reserve course and acted as if he was better.

Akane was acting cowardly because she grew up in an abusive household where she had no one to trust. She was scared and alone.

Ibuki got the gullible disease because that's what she was like in school. She just nodded as a yes man and went along with everything else.

This brings me to Mikan. A lot of this is a little bit reaching since this is not explicitly confirmed, but it's pretty obvious from Mikan's attitude and her backstory that she was belittled and blamed for the SA she faced.

Everyone around her seemed to blame her.

I genuinely think Hiyoko was apart of that group when she learned.

Idk whether she's just like that or if it comes from the atmosphere she grew up in being a traditional dancer around men who sexualized her, but. She most definitely knew in their friend group in school.

That's the reason why she is *always* being cruel to Mikan. She views her as lesser from getting into a "dirty relationship" with a man mucj older than her.

It also explains a LOT of her slut-shaming comments.

So then, how does this tie to Mikan's murders, past lives, and despair disease?

Well, Ibuki was in that friend group as well. We know from the game in the 2nd trial.

And if this is a reflection of their past selves, then it makes sense. Ibuki never spoke up or told Hiyoko to back off because she was gullible and stayed out of the way. She just wanted to avoid conflict as much as she could.

This explains why Mikan chose to kill Ibuki over anyone else.

Akane? Of course not. She's crying and scared. Shed never even be able to bring her to the music venue without her crying and making a fuss.

Ibuki? She's an easy target and will listen to anything Mikan says. However she's not the *easiest* target. We will loop back to this later.

Komaeda would be the easiest, not only to kill, but to get away with. He was already in critical condition, and if she simply let him pass away, it'd be easy to make it seem like it was from natural causes.

Even if the question came to who to persecute, she could easily tug at rhwir heart strings just like she attempted to this trial.

Everyone would forgive her.

She'd be free.

So then, why, of all people, did she choose Ibuki?

Well, Nagito states that Mikan had been inflicted with the despair disease fairly early in the case. As he was drifting in and out of consciousness, he saw Mikan's eyes and noted they were utterly full of despair.

And yet she still chose to not kill Nagito.

Because, she had remembered.

Remembered everything. Remembered school, remembered her assault... Remembered Ibuki who said nothing. Remembered how after getting on this island... it was almost as if they'd inadvertently all forgiven one another.

Like Ibuki forgave herself for not speaking up. Like Hiyoko was forgiven for being so cruel.

No, the goal from the start was never only to leave this island. Ibuki was *always* he target the moment this plan started.

So, she did what she did. She had no remorse of taking advantage of her past state, especially not when it had reminded her of what happened in the past.

This was retribution. This was how forgiveness towards herself starts.

It was never guilt over what happened to her or what she was about to do.

It was forgiveness to her past self for never doing anything to them all that time ago.

And well, when Hiyoko happened to walk in on her during the murder... not only was it a no-brainer to kill the witness, but it was justified in her eyes.

After all, Hiyoko is the one who bullied her. The one who continued to do so here. The one who likely spread the rumor of her being a slut.

What a happy accident.

Mikan Remembered. She acted.

Ibuki Remembered. She said nothing, because that's what she's always done.

The despair disease is not what makes you the opposite, it makes you, *you.*

These are the real people before thus game. Before they overcame trauma.

Not to mention this feels somewhat like an overarching theme of the game? That the people here are friends, but beforehand they were not even great people.

Mahiru covered up a murder for her friend.

Peko, although no fault of her own, was literally an assassin since day 1. Its been her entire life.

Teruteru is teruteru

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