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things we learn about mulder in s1
he wanted to be an astronaut when he was young, and stayed up all night when he was 14 to watch his hero do a walk in space
he's scared to death of fire because his friend's house burned down when he was a kid
he went to oxford 10 years before the start of s1, where he dated phoebe and they, at the very least, made out on arthur conan doyle's grave (but it's implied they went all the way)
he is a fan of like. all of the sports. i cannot keep up with them all, but he sure can
he had his first case at the age of 28, where an agent died because he wouldn't take a risky shot
(and he remembers everything about the man who died- his kids, their ages, what they do for fun- all of it haunts him)
((he also, at the trial for the man who killed the agent, screamed that he "should die like an animal, you son of a bitch"- so much for cool and composed spooky mulder))
he always falls asleep on his couch to the point where i don't even know if this man has a bed
before being moved to the x-files, he worked for 3 years at the behavioral science unit, where he profiled serial killers
(also literally no one wants him on the x files they just keep him around because he is too dangerous to fire lmao)
he will go out of his way to make any kids involved a case he's assigned to feel comfortable and/or laugh as a break from the Heavy Moments (probably because he remembers being questioned while very young and how awful it felt)
he believes that siblings have a psychic connection (heartbreaking when you remember his sister disappeared when he was 12 and he only has access to the memories due to hypnosis)
he refused to let his parents call him by his first name and only went by "mulder", even as a child
#he also is constantly saying off putting things that i don't know if he believes or not such as “elvis faked his death” so.#do with that what you will!#there's lots more to cover but these are just the biggest ones i can think of off the top of my head#he also mentioned making the psychic sing jimi hendrix songs which would imply to me he is a rock fan?#but again. you literally never know he is just so strange and off putting (compliment)#gonna try to write up some best moments later but this was just a lore reveal compilation#i am in great pain and writing all this stuff down is distracting enough to make me want to do more#but also keep in mind i have only seen s1 so! if u reblog pls don't add spoilers in the notes tysm <3#the x files#txf#fox mulder
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guess who's (slowly) comin' back baby
wanted to try making the squishy boy more expressive 🤗
#hello. i am still in pain. i'm slowly getting better though!!#i would really like to not have these tubes inside of me any more though. i do not like the blood tubes.#what do you mean i'm gonna have fluids leaking from me if you take off a bunch of my skin and fat?????????#uhhhh. so anyways. the uhh. the normal tags yeah.#my art#pizza tower#pizza tower fake peppino#pizza tower noise#hopefully i'll be able to draw more now. drawing wasn't too bad and I WANNA DRAW MY SQUISHIES AGAIN DARNIT-
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Once again I return to drawing Little Guys - But I wanted to include the two newest ones, so here we are hehe
#0491 - Queen Brie and #4963 - Key Lime Pie
Little Guy Mega Post
#OC: Queen Brie the Fake Peppino#OC: Key Lime Pie the Peppiclone#pizza tower oc#pizza tower#separate post for these and future clones bc the mega post is in numerical order and it would be an absolute pain to edit the order dfkjdfg#I already gotta upload all the singles at some point and I do not wanna jkfdkj#but aren't they cute!#Queen Brie would definitely find Key deliciously adorable and put them in her pouch if they ever met#although Key would be terrified and freeze up so maybe not
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more big fp doodles; i keep drawing him so goopy and angry but i prommy he is such a sweetpea; i am just putting him through the horrors too.
very short readmore for anyone whos nosy heehee
hes very similar to peppino, as in, hes prone to being self destructive when stressed. hes melty bc his small lil core is working overtime to move and fight w this doughy body, and its making him burn out.
the fp on the left is how vigi finds him post boss fight. the ones on the right are what peppino sees during the boss fight. the butcher knife one is for funsies
hell bite himself like peppino does, but he isnt coded with the hard limits of pain most creatures have. so he will keep biting and yanking until bits of dough are ripped out. itll 'regrow' but it takes a while. also pictured is him trying to pull at his jaw (it can snap off with enough force which is at best, extremely unpleasant for him)
hes just Some Dude; he wants to cook and hang out with people. hes a bit weird, but earnest. hes like peppino but he isnt. big. a bit silly. scary w a knife. etc.
#arts#mine#fake peppino#hes a creepy lil guy#but i like to think it is bc peppino has the capacity to be so scary and violent when pushed into a corner#he is LITERALLY a boar to me.....#fp is just like#what if peppino couldnt feel pain? if u scared him or hurt him bad enough how would he deal w that#and the answer is bash ur skull in but with fp that is actually possible#but just like peppino he just wants to chill and relax#he just wants to make tasty pizzas and be chatty w customers#pizzahead is so lucky thats all either of them wants LMAO
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I want to know more about Anyone!All Might. His characterisation has a very different take given he doesn't have Izuku. Would it be okay to share how would he react if he knew Izuku (faked) died?
Honestly? Deep down, he would be pissed. Like, obviously, he would get sad about Izuku's death, because it was a misguided child who tried to be a hero, and heartbroken that OFA is gone. But deep down? He would be enraged that this dumbass kid stole OFA only to get killed by a two-bits serial killer a couple of months afterwards. He isn't proud of it, he wouldn't admit it but I know all.
#More seriously he would have a lot of guilt about Izuku's death. Part of him would feel responsible.#He should have taken the time to modulate his answer instead of telling him the cold harsh truth one day where he was depressed and in abso#ute pain#He should have taken the time to know Izuku if only to find him again. He shouldn't have let him steal OFA. He should have found him sooner#Which means he is in the PERFECT headspace to adopt what he suspects to be a hidden Shimura family member!#anyone: faked death edition#anyone fic
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Round 1: Fake Dating vs. Redemption Arc
Fake Dating:
quick! you need someone to pretend to be your significant other for [insert social event here]! good thing you can ask your good close friend who you definitely don't have feelings for (that was a lie)
Redemption Arc:
antagonists or villains who learn and grow and give themselves another chance at figuring out what is right <3
(yall submitted fics!)
#do i feel back for making you choose?#a bit#but to be fair i feel like there are just so many good tropes...#it would be hard to not give you painful choices#fake dating#redemption arc#fic tropes#fanfic#bracket related#round 1#round 1 part 2#poll
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I think JJK going on break after the last chapter is a bit cruel. This is nerve-wracking. We still have 3 chapters left and so many things can happen there. 268 feels too good to be true and the title is weird.
I'm not sure what is the right translation and I don't have access to raws. Right now, it's 268 title is "Finale" or "Conclusion" but I heard from someone that it can be also be read as "Curtains".
If it can be read as "Curtains", then it could be a reference to "final curtains". The problem is JJK has its own version of "Curtains", right? Idk what to think.
Gosh I wish it was “Curtains”. The chapter title is 決着 (Kecchaku) which means settlement/conclusion/end.
For example, at the end of an extremely brutal fight in Jojo's Bizarre Adventure, Jolyne screams “Kechakuuuuuuu!” (決着ゥゥーーーッ!!) (It's actually a small Jojo meme in the JP fandom.) This got translated as "Game set!"
I love the localization they used for this since that entire battle was like struggling in arcade mode for a fighting game.
Anyways, in the context of JJK, especially since this has been a literal Sukuna Gauntlet and the previous chapter had the “Ringing the bell on a long fight.” editor’s comment, I don’t think there’s an ambiguous way to read Kecchaku. The Curtain/Veil kanji in JJK is 帳 (Tobari). (Though if there’s some fancy wordplay I’m missing please let me know.)
However…I would kneel before Gege if this was an elaborate trick by Sukuna—him giving Yuji delusions of a happy ending only to yank it away last second. It’s very hard to make characters feel familiar but slightly off on purpose for misdirection. That kind of tonal control is something I praise Umineko for. (Dungeon Meshi does it excellently for the shapeshifter scene.)
But that is pure copium I think. Sometimes otherwise good media just fumbles the endings. (Not an example of good media, but I was around for the Secret BBC Sherlock Season 4 Ending meltdown so I’m not too hopeful about a turnaround.) I personally blame the JP work culture/crunch since a lot of modern mangas have rushed endings due to burnout/unfair contracts.
I think the most heartbreaking examples of this phenomenon for me are The Owl House and Moral Orel. Those shows still stick the landing imo, but the creators are very open about how studio interference forced them to condense everything. You can feel that suffocation in the final episodes. Everything is just slightly off and you know it would be better if the creators were allowed their breathing room.
#Things that shouldn’t have activated my Jojo sleeper knowledge.#Moral Orel is really good btw. If you were raised Protestant it will come for your throat.#I never thought a little white boy would have my exact religious trauma.#But yeah. Everything is too happy right now. After getting through something that traumatic you don’t just bounce back instantly.#None of these kids were taught how to grieve properly. So them acting like the fight did nothing to them is…not something I like.#The tone should be more bittersweet not. ''Our sensei died violently for our sake lmao!''#This is something Yuji would feel guilty for. Both him and Nobara would cry a bit. Megumi would be trying to bottle it up.#I can say that with confidence because that's how they've handled previous deaths.#Yuji cried over transfigured humans ffs. Like why aren't these deaths upsetting him? (It would make sense if Gojo+Higu were alive though.)#The light novels did a much better job of the trio trying to be goofy through the pain.#You can tell they’re struggling but they still chase joy.#That’s a reason why JJK connects so well with me. Despite all the trauma they can still strive for a different kind of happiness.#This current tone is more like. ''Look you can just quickly get over it with the right mindset and go back to the way things were!''#Which completely contradicts the themes/characterization. And the massive tonal dissonance that creates... It has to be a fake out.#Or it’s just what happens when you crunch a creator. Guess we’ll see.#jjk 268#jjk spoilers#asks#jujutsu kaisen#jjk asks
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"Bran is practically my brother's cat" - is what i would like to think
#astral chain#astralchain#akira howard#platinum games#cat#fanart#i didn't write it on the tag back then#but what i was thinking when i made that past piece was him reflecting how it would be if he lost both her father and sister#he would truly be alone so on his free time he just spent time sitting beside that window mindlessly while thinking what could have been#like his sister could have knocked the door and come in any moment now#his father would came in with warm take outs for them to eat there#but then i just read recently that the sister he has in the end was one of the clone with memories planted by dr. brenda#and then suddenly i am sad again :'^\#i thought it was just one of her magically left out & appeared somewhere & have the noah memory fragments lost#but now i thought of it as when akira was heading back he found one of the pod was still unopened#and so they took her in#it makes much more sense but then it makes me think of how much a fake replacement she is now#i wonder if it's kinda painful for him to look at her now#knowing the original one who went through all that things with him is truly gone#and this one just starts things with him without actually did all those things with him before#just by getting some memories handed to her#me: i wish there are more astral chain fanarts#astral chain: *being the game that has characters with difficult attributes & legions to draw*#i find guys with this kind of haircut is cute#♡
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KONAN RONIN PV FROM NARUTO MOBILE DROPPED
#i think i'm missing some of the ronin verse lore or smth bc the details were kinda hard to follow#or maybe i'm lacking comprehension LOL#but i'm p sure by the end konan runs away to join pain's new akatsuki bc the body left behind is a paper clone?#i do not know why she would need to do that tho bc the fake body did not end up fooling anyone it seems?#it all still looks very cool anyway <3#also is that konan's lone origami cat and obito's herd of ghost cats or what <3#konan#naruto#naruto mobile#Youtube
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I'm reading a fanfiction currently about a girl that was isekai'd into AoaB with knowledge of everything that's going to happen in the future. It's a very good series of fics, but it's almost painful to get through. Though Myne has so many things going against her, somehow the main character in the fic, Mila, has it worse. Everything she works for she struggles to achieve. Nobody gives her any chances. Nobody is looking out for her. She can escape death and more and nobody will care. It's honestly depressing.
Reading it, I can't help but put myself in Mila's shoes and think how I'd feel if I got isekai'd into a world with knowledge of the future, and despite this, everyone, all the characters I love, treating me like a nuisance and a liability than someone of worth. But at the same time it makes sense. Even if Mila is the main character of the fic, the real main character is Rozemyne. That's who the world circles around. But still, as someone that rooting for Mila reading this, I just want happier things to happen to her.
#rambles#herald of spring#ascendance of a bookworm#fanfiction#if it's not clear this being a 'painful' read isn't an insult but a compliment#the fic is meant to be painful#mila is supposed to struggle#that's the whole point#it really makes you feel for her struggles and want the best for her#she's a very compelling main character imo#poor girl is just trying to survive#the only thing that fic needs is a beta-reader#but even then it stands strong without it#that fic made me realize that if i were ever isekai'd into a world on some level i would expect special treatment#i'm not saying i'd get the 'duke agreed to enter into a fake marriage with me' treatment#but i'd expect to be useful in some way and needed#and mila got everything but that#that like.... physically hurt me#i think the reason why i find it so impactful is because i know how terrible that feels
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decided I’m still in love with my TOA cat au. Eventually his kids agree to bring him home and take care of him on a schedule and his youngest (who got mysteriously claimed whilst Apollo was a cat) begged and begged to take him home. So the other kids eventually relented and he (loves Warrior cats so much) gave Apollo an honorary Warrior cats name. (Placeholder will be Rufflepaw / Ruffletail bc he’s a teenager cat! Actually no I feel like the teen awkwardness, self-awareness etc. given to Apollo as Lester when he got turned into a teen could correlate to Being A Scared Kitty.) WORSE THOUGHT: what if Apollo had the same identity crisis he did during the series but instead of “Lester” it was “Ruffletail”. How would that make you (me) feel (very upset). OK ACTUALLY INSTEAD, when Apollo completes his trials (?? WAIT. HOW WOULD HE DO THAT HE’S A CAT HANG ON.) and he publishes his book series about his trials he gently reads them to his (very excited) kids as a bedtime story. They all huddle around him (he is the nightlight and the radiator) as he reads and whenever Apollo reads out his identity crisis sections, every time he says his agreed-upon cat name his youngest yells “RUFFLETAIL!!” after it.
#apollo#toa#cat#toa cat au#dadpollo#HYPOTHETICALLY if I were to mirror the character arcs (as much as I could given. CAT) of the og TOA series AND TAKE THIS VERY SERIOUSLY#I would make the parts where Apollo is being cringe and obnoxious to try his hardest to make sure everyone “knows” he’s super selfish#Instead be him pretending to be over dramatic about being a cat. Generally being a nuisance and not cooperating (shitting in the sink).#but when he drops the 50 layers of denial he’s got going on he admits to himself how ABSOLUTELY TERRIFYING it is to be an Actual God#who is now a Cat. and how helpless he feels. I think people around him would realise this when he doesn’t manage to#fake being over dramatic well enough people recognise he’s actually very upset and possibly in pain. And are very gentle and quiet with him#(bc he’s literally just a scared shaking cat :((( bless him)#Him realising the consequences of his actions would come from him being much weaker -> knowing what feeling utterly helpless feels like.#Much of the tragedy would come from being unable to communicate or apollogise with people he’s hurt currently (more intense motivation to#Apologise and communicate when he’s a god)#BUT then again this is if you were to take this seriously I like it silly 💃🕺#I also like that he’s just being rotated around various people’s houses over the summer and Suffering.#Poor baby but also he absolutely deserves it <33 he’s learning!!
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I just can't believe that zero pain is the normal amount to be in
#i literally can not remember ever having no pain and it's entirely possible i have been in pain since before birth#usually it's just distracting and makes it so i can't do what i want/need to#but on worse days i can not stop thinking about the pain and i can barely get out of bed for food and such#i feel like such a lazy useless pile of steaming shit right now#i haven't even done anything particularly strenuous#like. sure i had a bad phase with migraines and not sleeping and then pmdd and menstrual hell and the hurricane#and mixed into that i might have pushed myself physically a few times#and if i were anyone else i would be advising the exhausted person to just let themselves rest a bit#but i can not stop thinking about everything that needs to be done#and how much worse other disabled people have it#and how my partner isn't able to rest because they're working overtime hurricane related shifts#and i can't get the voices of my family out of my head about how lazy disabled people are#(but then they'll also accuse people of faking disability if the disabled person pushes themselves)#i hate this and i hate myself and it's infuriating to keep trying to make myself more normal#but it doesn't work and i just keep ending up feeling even more exhausted when i try to start working out (yoga and squats and such)#if I'd had covid and was dealing with long covid I'd understand and maybe be more forgiving#but this started way before covid 19 (which i haven't had afaik) and only got worse after i had shingles#i am so angry and so sick of being exhausted all the time#... it's a bad fatigue and not great pain time and I'm emotional and so fucking frustrated
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if i project on her hard enough i'll get a cane :]
#critical role#cr3#laudna#laudna cr#cr laudna#i NEED to go to a doctor#cause if my pain can be helped with physical therapy that would be nice...#idk. i'm figuring out this chronic pain stuff -_-#never realized i had it cause i was raised to just not ever talk abt my pain ever so#and i still have that guilt of feeling like i'm faking it eugh#anyway in good news i used my knee brace today and it helped ! nothing fancy but my leg wasn't throbbing in pain by the end of the day !#like it still hurt but WOW. who fuckin knew.#i really want to try and get a cane. it'd make my walk to work so much easier#and it'd mean i can go on walks with my friend TwT#but i don't think my mom would ever get me a cane if i ask or would get mad if i got one wah...#ok i shut up now :)
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is it ok to just say im disabled i have chronic pain and it kind of affects me so i can barely walk a lot and its constant and i have to ration my energy but idk
like,,
i dont want to misuse the label if im not disabled
and im almost scared im playing my disability (/ies if i consider my autism a disability but personally i dont know if i consider my autism one yet) up somehow
but idk. im in pain most of the time it affects my ability to do stuff ,,, but idk
like id almost feel bad ?? even thouhgh i googled it and i fit the definition ?? maybe im in denial maybe its internalized ableism ??? idk ??
#like i almost want someone to tell me its ok i feel bad ??? but why would i want that#im scared im somehow faking it even though i am literally in pain and i can physically feel it near constantly ???#how the fuck would i be faking it ??? if i feel it ???? constantly ??? idk my brain just says shit#idk man#disabled#disability#chronic pain#i say “am i faking crhonic pain” while sitting in bed in pain dsgfsdadrzxsdafz
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touch-starved bernard dowd is sooo canon to me
#hs!bear who had a reputation for sleeping around not bc he particularly enjoyed sex#but bc at least during sex sm1 would touch him#and he'd give anything to be touched like someone wanted him and not bc they were obligated to#college!bear who was initially interested in the pain cult at first but became hooked after they patched him up gently#hs!bear who would drape himself all over his friends and hope this time they wouldn't push him off#bernard dowd who goes his whole life being told by his family that he's too touchy and it makes people uncomfortable#bernard dowd at a young age creating rules for himself after being told time and time again that he makes people uncomfortable#and being unable to follow them bc he loves these people and he knows no other way to show it#bear watching his family shy away bc they don't enjoy and he knows that but why does it feel like they just don't want his touch?#bear breaking all of his rules and hating himself for it. loathing himself bc don't you see bear? you're too needy too touchy. you make#people uncomfortable. and the thing about children who grow up loathing themselves is that they rationalize any affection they recieve#someone from his family hugs him and he thinks to himself: they're only touching me bc they have to. they're uncomfortable doing this.#they're only doing this bc everyone knows how much you like hugs. look dowd you've made someone uncomfortable again.#so he categorizes every touch as Fake or Real but bc he grew up like this every touch is Fake. bc no one really wants to touch him. they're#only doing it bc they have to. bc they're obligated to.#bear who walks around feeling like a stranger in his own skin bc no one will touch him and if they do touch him he can't recognize weather#it's Real or Fake and so the cycle continues.#bernard dowd#dc
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