#it was the year of kpop specifically but we knew this about me at this point

[lesbienneanarchiste]

If anyone is even remotely curious, I made a Top 2024 Releases playlist of songs that came out this year that I loved (in no particular order) and to be honest with you, it was a good music year but 2023 was better lmao. So many times I would go to check when the album dropped and it was 2023, must have been a good year for music if you have my specific taste.

I tried to only add one or two songs per album and only a few per artist (or else this would basically just be SKZ's 'Ate' and Zhou Shen's 'Shenself') but there were actually a few really insane full album releases this year, which was nice.

Very funny to me that I don't usually think of myself as a pop music kinda guy but this was definitely definitely definitely the year of pop for me.

[helplesslyblue77]

You Can't Deny(That Beast Inside)

Genre: Smut, minors dni

Pairing: Hybrid!Felix x Reader

Word Count: 2.4k

Warnings: Hybrid!Felix is a golden retriever, Friends to Lovers, heat - Freeform, Breeding Kink, Mentions of pups and all the usual stuff that comes(haha get it lol) with a hybrid au, Dirty Talk, hints of Sub!Felix but its mostly Dom!Felix. He gets a little posessive and crazy but we love it

Notes:

bro i love hybrid au's. they weren't something id ever seen out of the kpop fandom, and ive been in a LOT of fandoms. i wonder why thier so specific to kpop

Felix, your best friend of ten years, your lovable Golden Retriever Hybrid who always smiles and makes time for you no matter what, your crush of so many years is avoiding you. It hurts your heart to admit it but it has to be true.

It started three days ago, when you texted him, asking him to come over for your weekly movie night. You received this in response:

“I'm sorry, I can't make it this week.”

He had never, ever skipped out on your weekly movie night.

You had asked if he was ok, and he had told you he was fine, just a little sick. 

“Can I come over to help?”

You'd texted and promptly been shut down, rather harshly in your opinion. Fine, whatever. 

Ok, so maybe Felix was sick and just didn't want to get you sick as well. You believed that until you saw him at the grocery store, perfectly fine. You marched over to him, intent on giving him a piece of your mind, but to your surprise, he had practically run away from you. Without so much as a greeting. 

So you called Chan. 

“Is Felix avoiding me?”

He coughed and stuttered out. “N-no of course not, why would you think that?”

Chan was a horrible liar. 

“He ran away from me at the grocery store, and he won't answer my texts or calls.”

“He's just sick. It's not too bad, he just doesn't want to get you sick.”

You frowned, “If it's that bad, I should go over there—”

Chan interrupted you.

“No wait, he told us not to let you—”

“WHAT?”

“Wait name don't—”

That infuriated you beyond belief, so he was avoiding you huh?

You hung up, intent on giving him a piece of your mind. 

Too bad for him, you knew his address. So you collected yourself and stormed over there, opening the door with the spare key hidden under the rocks by the porch. The house was silent when you entered, storming down the dark hallway you slammed on the lights, shouting at the top of your lungs. 

“LEE FELIX.”

⊛⊛⊛

Felix felt bad about ignoring you, every minute apart from you tore at his heart, and your sad face as he had all but run away from you at the grocery store haunted him every moment.

But it was for the best. He couldn't be around you when his heat was approaching, it wasn't safe for you. He felt tense as if any minute he could jump on you and take you, with or without your permission and he would rather die than ever mess up your friendship, even if he wanted you, had wanted you for years now. 

Felix had resigned himself to being permanently stuck in the friend zone years ago, and yet he still hoped that one day, you would reciprocate his deep feelings for you, but he knew it was just wishful thinking. 

It had started years ago, these urges, and every heat since then Felix had barred alone, accompanied by only thoughts of you. It was dangerous to be near you when he was so close to his heat, your scent tempted him constantly, the pretty sundresses you wore exposed the crotch of your panties when you bent down, and Felix had to do his best not to take you over the kitchen table, in front of all of his friends.

Even if he knew they would enjoy it(Probably a little too much for their own good.)his sense of possessiveness couldn't let the other see you like that.

But it had been worse lately. You had been babysitting your younger cousin, a baby of only two and Felix had watched in agony as you practically glowed with the baby. He couldn’t help imagining the child was yours and the hybrid side of him longed to put his pups into you.

He knew you would look so good all swollen with his pups, and that was when Felix realized his heat was approaching and he needed to get away from you before he did something potentially disastrous. So he had locked himself in his room, in constant agony and accompanied only by his vivid fantasies of you.

So when he heard your pretty voice, shouting his name at first he thought it was just his fantasies. 

But the longer he listened, the more wrong it sounded. First of all, the tone was all wrong, you sounded furious and it was acconpanied by a loud slamming sound.

And then he smelled you, you're scent too fresh to belong to the small heap of your clothes he had been desperately sniffing. And then his kitchen door slammed and Felix realized you were here. In his house. Less than a wall was separating the two of you. Felix almost came right then and there, your scent overwhelming him as he humped desperately into the mattress, still fully clothed. 

You were stomping around his house, shouting his name and Felix hurriedly pulled himself out of his fantasies and bit his hand so hard it started to bleed.

The sharp burst of pain cleared his hand for a moment and he hurriedly stood up, trying and failing to hide the bulge in his pants, before giving up and taking a deep breath, exiting his bedroom.

You were furious, he could tell as you laid eyes on him, marching right up and planting a finger in his chest. Felix held his breath desperately trying not to lose it as you yelled at him. 

“Lee Felix, how dare you ignore me, your not sick—”

You were still yelling but all Felix could focus on was your pretty face, you looked so radiant when you were mad, and Felix would gladly get on his knees and worship you, let you step on his hard cock with your pretty feet or maybe you would slap him, and call him a pervert. He could be your good boy, he could do that. Or if you wanted he could beg you to sit on his face, he would gladly suffocate in your pussy.

That would feel like heaven.

Or maybe if he begged for it enough you would let him fill your pussy with cum, pumping his pups into you until you were nice and round and full, and—

“Felix! Are you even listening to me?”

Felix could help it, he let out a whimper. You frowned, finally taking in his flushed cheeks, his sweaty hair plastered to his forehead, his wrinkled clothes and most telling of all, the large bulge tenting the front of his gray sweatpants. Your eyes widened, and you stepped back hurriedly. Felix followed you, trying to be as close as possible to you, even if he knew he couldn't have you. You frowned, your back hitting the wall, and parted your pretty lips, asking him a question. 

“Felix? Are you in Heat?”

Felix pressed against you, and buried his face in your neck, breathing in your scent in large gulps, trying his best to memorize it before you ran out of the house in disgust.

You shivered a little and Felix groaned as he smelt the sweet smell of arousal emanating from between your thighs. The strings holding his sanity were thin, too close to snapping as you thrashed against him, rubbing your thighs together. You shuddered and ground out a question. 

“Felix? Do you need help? I can get someone—”

“No…”

He moaned out, his voice rough and deep and you whimpered. “Only want you, please…”

His tale swished back and forth, the soft yellow fur catching on your leg and you moaned as his pretty hands gripped your thighs desperately. “You…want me?”

The question came out haltingly, your brain muddled and overcome with arousal. 

Felix nodded against your neck. “Only wanted you, always. I love you.”

You gasped at the admission, your heart full, even as your empty pussy pulsed.

Felix whined against you, the scent of arousal driving him nearly insane. He was about to tell you to leave, you needed to leave before he lost it and fucked you against the wall, but then you grabbed him by the collar, dragging him into his room and shoving him onto the bed. 

“I love you too, Felix.”

He whimpered as you pulled off your shirt and skirt, your panties and bra hitting the floor. He made quick work of his clothes, and you stared greedily at his cock, gulping. 

You realized that Hybrids had, um, bigger dicks than humans, but you had never realized how truly big he was. Just the sight of it made your mouth water desperately, and another time you would have loved to have your mouth on it but right now, you just wanted it inside you, spearing your insides and rendering you nearly dumb.

You could tell Felix wanted the same, even as he waited patiently for you, you could see his impatience in how his hands gripped the sheets, ripping holes and he desperately held himself back, trying to not look too desperate. His tail was wagging back and forth, at an embarrassing rate and all he could see was you. He couldn't believe this was even happening.

After years and years of deserted hopes and dreams of you, he tried to hold on to as he woke to a cold empty bed, you were finally his, not Chans, not Jisung's, his mate.

Felix could smell your arousal scenting the air, and the sight of your naked body was just too much for him. He was about two seconds from just jumping on you and taking you against the floor but thankfully, you ceased his torture and moved on top of him gracefully, lining your entrance up with his tip. 

You were tempted to tease him, he looked too cute with that desperate look in his eyes, his cheeks flushed and his chest heaving up and down with the effort of restraining himself, but you didn't know if you would last, your arousal driving you nearly insane with want. So you spared him, easing down slowly on his cock, taking him one inch at a time. 

He was big, and the stretch was slightly painful but the pain only served to turn you on more, and when you looked down, and saw that only half of him was inside of you, you felt yourself tighten around him. Felix knotted his hands tighter in the blankets, letting you take your time. You felt so good, so tight, the hot walls of your pussy fluttering around him and your pretty moans filling the air.

Felix still half believed this was a dream. 

It took a lot of time, but finally, he was fully inside of you. You felt stuffed, unbelievably full as he pulsed inside of you, and you nearly came there and then as you looked down, noticing the bulge denting your stomach.

Felix was almost gone by now, his hybrid side so close to taking over and all he could think about was fucking you full of his pups, filling his precious mate up completely, and fucking you until you were moaning and screaming dumbly on his cock. 

Before he was completely gone, he made sure to grip your face, turning your eyes to his own. 

“Can I let go?” 

You shuddered, and leaned in, kissing him gently. “Yes, Felix. I'm yours.”

And with those words he was gone.

He lunged forward, gripping you close to him and he pounded your pussy desperately, moans and whimpers filling the air and mixing with your own. He set a ruthless pace, his thick cock felt like it was rearranging your internal organs with each thrust and you didn't think you would ever be able to go back. He had quite literally ruined you for another man. 

“Your mine, m-my mate. The others cant have you.”

At the mention of the others, you almost stopped him, but his words were slurred and desperate, and his possessive nature turned you on. You could almost feel your thoughts slipping away like he was fucking them out of you. 

“Oh Felix, y-yes I'm y-yours…” you interrupted yourself with a loud moan as Felix picked up his thrusts, humping into you with wild abandon. 

This desperate, possessive side of your Felix, who was always sunshine and smiles was new to you. It turned you on beyond belief. You could feel your high coming, feel the tense knot in your groin as Felix fucked you closer and closer to completion. You could feel his thrusts stutter as well.

You tried to warn him. “Felix, ‘m c-coming!”

He mumbled out more nonsense, interspersed with desperate moans as he sucked possessive hickeys into your neck. 

“Make sure the o-others know your mine…fill you up with my c-cum, breed my pretty mate full of my pups…”

His hand makes its way to your clit and you scream, fingernails leaving large scratches on his back. 

His thrusts turn sloppy and he ruts into you desperately, his moans mixing with yours. 

“So pretty, always been so p-pretty, and n-now you're mine.”

You whimper, gripping his shoulders tightly. Your high crashes over you, and you clench around Felix's cock, he stutters, shoving inside you one more time, and moans as he cums. You feel his knot swell inside you, locking his cock inside you as he cums and the extra stretch makes you orgasm a second time, clenching around Felix as he lets out an especially raspy grunt. 

He seems to cum and cum, his hand making its way down to your clit, and he rubs circles into it, prolonging your orgasm. You pull him down, sealing your lips as his cum pumps into your stomach. The kiss is all teeth and tongue and as your orgasm finally dies down, Felix’s still hard cock lodged in your stomach you feel beyond exhausted. Felix collapses on top of you, kissing your neck.

He hugs you fondly, his voice almost shy as he asks you, “Be my girlfriend?”

You giggle a little, how is this the same man who fucked you ruthlessly into the bed and still has his cock lodged inside you. You can tell he's pouting against your neck so you put him out of his misery, wrapping your arms around his naked back. “Oh course Felix.”

His cock is still hard inside of you, and you can feel yourself clench around him. He sounds almost cocky as he teases you. “Are you ready for more, Baby?” 

You slap his back. “How long do heats usually last?”

He smirks, pulling away as his hands and planting a chaste kiss on your lips. 

You wiggle, clenching around him. 

“About a week.”

You moan as he flips you around, entering you again from the back even as his cum drips down your thighs, wetting the bed below you. You're in for a long week. 

originally posted on ao3 on 2023-06-04

reposted on ao3 on 2023-06-08

[secretnotsecretdiary]

weird things i've manifested on accident? ᯓ★

(before I learned what manifesting was?)

𖹭 getting JJBA all star battle R

this was before i knew what manifesting was... I used to be SUPER into JJBA and I really wanted this game!! suddenly my brother bought a XBOX with his allowence and also started paying for the xbox gamepass and "JJBA all star battle R" was on there!

( sucked at playing though lol)

𖹭 those kpop ikea pegboards

I really wanted those ikea pegboards to make one of those pinterest kpop desk things but idk why but I didnt want to ask my parents... then like next week my dad bought them?? and installed them without telling me!

𖹭 송편 during 추석 (chuseok)

so my family is (half) korean and during chuseok ur supposed to eat 떡 (dduk) (specifically 송편) and my parents and brother are super busy and we cant really celebrate chuseok because we dont have any korean family here and the korean community is SUPER SUPER small around here... and all day during chuseok I was thinking "maybe we will have 송편 his year!" and thought about eating 송편. But unfortunatly when I came home and I asked my mom if she bought 떡 and she said no and I was SUPER dissapointed. Later that evening my moms friend sent us 송편 that she made and my whole family had some!

𖹭 stretch marks going away!

had some stretch marks cuz height lol ( im manifesting getting taller rn cuz I stopped for a little while.) anyway I just told myself they would go away even though everyone told me stretch marks stay even if they go lighter and they went away like 99%!

[candywife333]

My Little Saesang (Part 2)

chubby reader x idol jungkook

Summary: Y/N had been a super fan for a while. Some would say bordering on saesang or creep level. She didn't think she was one, till she experienced an incident that made her stop being a fan. She had never thought that Jungkook or any of BTS ever noticed her, as she was part of the masses of obsessive fans. But they had. Especially, one doe eyed idol in particular. He never thought he would miss his fan, or shall we say saesang. Yet, he couldn't help but notice her absence. He took her comforting presence, her kind eyes, hair disheveled in excitement, and wide smile for granted. And he didn't know when her presence started to matter to him so much. When exactly did she become such a constant in his life?

Disclaimer: The Jungkook represented in this fic does not reflect the true actions or thoughts of the real life Jungkook. Please treat this fic as exactly what it is, fiction

Triggers: Critique of fandom culture and kpop as a whole, identity crisis, eventual smut

Note: Not proofread. Slated to be approximately 4 parts or less.

Jungkook POV

It took me about two weeks, but I did start to notice her absence. I never got her real name. But I and all the other members christened her with the moniker of strawberry shortcake, for how tiny and chubby she was, and also how flushed her entire face and neck become as she jumped up and down to our songs. We called her berry or SS for short. The few fans we had from the beginning, we either knew their actual names or had little nicknames to commemorate them.

She was a fan of the entire group, but I knew I was her bias, and so did the other members. It was obvious, the way she left tiny gifts wrapped in gold and red ( as though it were perpetually christmas year round for her) addressed towards me. She even took fancams of me, her eyes furtively moving along my body , gasping when she caught sight of my abs over the years. I wouldn't deny that sometimes I played up my antics for the camera just so I could catch her mouth wide open in an "O" petrified in shock as she bopped her head up and down manically.

Berry was not there. And it was starting to really bother me. It shouldn't in fact. She shouldn't matter that much to me. Yet, I always had her in my corner since debut. I always had her eyes on me, watching over me. It felt comforting even though she had gotten a little too close for comfort twice or thrice by accosting me with gifts on sets of music video shoots or backstage. Her specialty was with desserts. She would always leave me coffee infused brownies and tres leche cake towards the end of the year right in front of the HYBE building, addressed to me specifically with a cheery little note wishing me for christmas and new years.

And now I was staring at the entire crowd at MusicBank, surveying the area to see her familiar face. She was usually in the first row, bopping her light stick in an erratic manner, mouthing the lyrics to the song, staring at me with excited eyes that lit up with glee. The girl really didn't seem to love material things, because she would always wear the same red beanie and pearl earrings I had been seeing for the past 5 years. Her clothes were always a nondescript black or brown shade, pants and a sweater. She never really donned feminine clothes in all the years I had noticed her.

As I looked for her, I could only find her associate, the ARMY who always stuck by her, who we had named Specs. The tall, lithe limbed girl glared at me. It felt like she was piercing daggers through my skull as she squinted though her black thick framed glasses. She had always had a smile on her face, and now she looked so angry. Yoongi always had a tiny crush on her. She had supported him for ages, even paying for his meals many times when he was still a trainee. Why was she so indignant?

Before I could start questioning all of this even further, Yoongi came up to me with a hand on my shoulder, noticing Specs, "How is my baby doing? And why the hell is she glaring at you like you murdered her first born child? Did you do anything to her?", he questioned in a worried tone of voice. I answered back, "Of course not. I don't really interact with fans that personally. You know that hyung".

He continued quizzically, raising one eye brow up, "Where is berry? My baby Specs is alone today? You really must've done something to fuck things up. She isn't even looking at me. Totally ignoring me. The hell, she usually smiles softly at me and today she looks like somebody pissed on her breakfast. What gives"?

I had no idea what was going on. Our loyal fans for years, people who we didn't necessarily consider saesangs, but just sort of obsessive in their devotion, were either not present or ignoring us. What the hell was becoming of this fandom?!!!!

That's when I saw Berry push through the crowd. And I was so shook, that an earthquake could've come through and swallowed me up and I wouldn't have cared. Berry was dressed in a peach colored floral fit and flare dress with her customary pearls in her ears and what looked like heels on. The only way I knew was that she looked taller than usual. She had a floral ribbon in her hair, lip gloss on, eye make up on point. What the hell was she up to all of a sudden?

Her hair was streaming down her back in waves, loosened from the customary ponytail I saw all the time. She hugged Specs and a few other armies who I noticed she always had around with her. She kissed another army in a wheelchair on the cheek, plopping a pastry box in her hands and wrapping her neck with a scarf. With the deadest look in her eyes, lifeless and devoid of the usual pretty sparkle, she stared at me, as though it were some sort of messed up farewell. WTF??!!! Why did this feel like a good bye? She just looked so done.

She didn't smile at me or any of the members. She gave her light stick to another baby Army in 3rd row, she looked back once wistfully, and left the place through the door.

Where the fuck was she going?!!!?!

After the performance, dreading the fact that Berry left right in the beginning (something she had never done even once in the past years) , I walked up to Specs in the front row. The gangly girl looked super shocked to see me right up in front of her. I squeaked out in mild panic, "Where is your friend? She looked all dressed up and cute today. Does she have plans or something?"

The initial shock wore off on Specs face as something akin to irritation filtered through, "She has a date today , with a coworker I believe. That's why she is dressed up. But you don't need to know that. Today was her official last day as active super fan. She is still a fan, but she's decided to convert from offline to online fan. That's it". Specs said all this with a finality that started freaking me out. I stuttered, "SS-S-S-S-he became an online fan. Meaning, she won't show up in person to our events anymore"?

Specs muttered derisively, "Do you not understand anything I just said. Korean is your first language right? I just told you she is done being such an avid fan". She snorted, looking tired with a distant glaze in her eyes , "Maybe even I should stop. I am getting too old for this shit. My mom keeps telling me to get married, and here I am attending all this stuff, obsessing over millionaires who have more money than I ever could in my life. I am becoming an old fucking lady and I don't even have a husband or family of my own. I guess all of us older armies might need to redirect our lives back towards ourselves".

She stomped away after that remark. Yoongi ran up to me as I walked back stage. He inquired , "Is Specs still there? I was going to ask her for her number".

I grumbled out with my hands on my head, "She left hyung. So did berry, a while ago. I think we are losing our OG fans. Berry never left me once in the last few years. Even when we became so famous in the US, she never stopped attending my events, even some of the big ones in the US. What went so wrong that she is quitting?"

Yoongi choked in confusion, "You mean to tell me that both Specs and Berry are quitting. They ain't even that old, maybe late 20s. Oh no, fuck!!! My baby, Specs, I never told her how much she meant to me. What did she say?" Yoongi, shook my arm hard, trying to squeeze answer out at me. "She said that she is becoming too old for this and maybe she should get married soon, because her mother is pressuring her".

Yoongi's eyes popped wide open, panic and fear evident in his eyes, squeaking, "WTFFFFF. Since when did they give up on us like this? I can't let Specs go. She has been with me before I was famous , looking like a homeless dude, and even now. I have to get her back!!!! The fuck, I need to talk to the ARMY fanclub president for her contact". He scurried off in anxiety, leaving me back to stew in sadness. What had I done so wrong for Berry to leave me after so many years? Something must've ticked her off. Shit, the chocolate. It all hit me in a frenzy. It was the Godiva chocolate. That limited edition Christmas chocolate she had left for me that day on set.

It had been one of the hardest days in my schedule, and just seeing her face had made it all better. But the irritation had gotten to me, and in my anger at being hangry on a diet, I had thrown the chocolate in the trash. Oh no. Wait. A dreadful thought entered my head. What if she thought, that it was my rejection of her support and love as a fan? Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. She probably thought I hated her or something when it was just a bad day.

What bothered me even more, was that she had skipped my event to attend a date. A date with a guy who was not me. This thought filtered through my head, and I froze. Why did it aggravate me so much that she was on a date with another dude? Then I imagined her soft eyes, gleaming with love as she stared at another guy, kissed him on the cheek, sharing a chocolate cake with him and partaking in a chocolate-fililed kiss on the lips.

I felt like literally crying. I don't know why I did. But, I just did. I had to find her no matter what and I had to do it fast, before she gave up on me.

Y/N POV

The date had been fine. Jung-shik had been a cute guy, all brown curls , shy smiles and blushes. He was one of the art managers at KBS who I had met at the bakery. We talked about work, music, and art, eating cheese cake at a cake cafe. He had been a true gentleman, asking me what I wanted to have and opening the door for me, even going so far as to drop me near the bus station.

I sat at the bus station, waiting for my ride back at him when I saw a billboard of the sexy man himself, Jungkook. I could never escape this guy it seemed, even in death. I had felt his stare at me and Kim Hee today. It was odd, he never stared at individual fans like. He did that with particularly beautiful Armys---total models and divas I tell you. But, never with me. Even Yoongi stared at Kim Hee like they had three kids together, like she was coming home with him, like she was married to him---as much as that girl liked to deny it.

I never felt him even acknowledge me, with a glance, till today. I could feel the smoldering presence digging into my skin. Probably cause I dressed up for once today. As I was about to get on the bus that had pulled in, I saw a flash of black fluffy hair.

Before I could get on the bus, a strong sturdy vascular hand encircled my wrist, stopping me from getting on. Looking up at this man's face, I realized who it was. Doe eyes pierced into my face with a cutting glare, a sneer on his face, chewed up lips contorting in anger and ......something that felt like envy, "Who the hell did you go on a date with Berry? You better not be giving my chocolates away to anyone else".

[absolutebl]

Welcome to Tumblr BL Fandom - Here’s Your Primer

memes, insider trading & obsession meta post

The Death Stairs 

They haunt us. These same stairs constantly pop up in Thai BLs and we worry that someone is going to die on them (or fuck on them, or both).

BL origin = unknown, we only recently started tracking them (but the actual origin of the death stairs is 99 Home Studio117, RPC6+JM3 ซอย รามอินทรา 117 Min Buri, Bangkok 10510, Thailand. It appears to be a house rented out for filming. Honestly? They should AirBnB that level of fame. I’d rent it, buy a cactus and a chili plant, just for the photo op.)  

Rain Makes BL Boys Sick

For which the only solution is a sponge bath administered by another boy with a bowl of water and a damp white towel.

We don’t make the rules, the BL gods do. 

origin of the rain=fever = cultural

BL origin for the sponge bath = 2014′s Love Sick

The gayest bridge in Thailand

The Rama VII Bridge has appeared in so many Thai BLs - boys kiss on it and in front of it... A LOT. 

BL origin = SOTUS 2016  

Honor the Crumbs

Side dishes given very little screen time always end up being everyone’s favorites (especially in the pulps). Also falls under side dish syndrome. This is mostly a Thai BL thing, since they’re usually the BLs featuring more than one couple. (Taiwan is getting there, tho.)  

BL origin = @heretherebedork

The Engineering Department is Gay (also Pink Milk) 

The hot Thai boy in the engineering smock (red or blue) is either gay or a chaos bisexual. There are no exceptions. 

BL origin = SOTUS 2016 

Korea’s BL bubble 

A world where queer is simply accepted and a hostile society doesn’t exist. ​

Origin, probably Strongberry’s 2017-2018 shorts, but best known starters are 2020′s Mr Heart & Wish You

Namgoong award for best wingman 

Supportive straight(ish) besties! Appear throughout BL history, but really reached peak awesome with Namgoong, so a collection of us just started saying “thank you, Namgoong” whenever this archetype shows up. 

BL origin, Light on Me 

Korea’s BL formula 

(1 short Kpop idol + 1 tall actor / random separation in the last half of the final episode) x a small cast = KBL (usually 6-8 episodes totaling under 2 hrs)

BL origin, 2015′s The Lover 

Korean male beauty ideals here. 

Korea figured out boys can kiss 

To be fair Strongberry always knew this and Just Friends? gave it to us in 2005, it’s just they forgot for a while. A long while. 

origin = Korean 2022 BL

speaking of... 

Dead fish kisses

This tradition carried for years by Japan’s light BL, early Thai BL like Love Sick, & then Korea. It took Thailand’s 2016 BL (specifically elder gods KarnNut & MaxTul) to start breaking this curse. Could be argued that Ohm in 2016′s Make it Right also paved the way (while BoomPeak exemplify dead fish kissing). 

origin = early 2000s JBL when it was still known as Live Action Yaoi 

Taiwan = the kings of high heat 

Taiwan always serves up the most consistent and authentic chemistry, kisses, and higher heat. Thailand has it as well, but isn’t as consistent about it. 

BL origin = 2017 HIStory franchise and every Taiwanese BL since (although Eternal Summer probably started it in 2006) 

Taiwan’s marriage equality 

Taiwan was the first to feature sanctioned gay marriage in a BL, the first to depict queer engagements - and they regularly like to remind us that it’s legal there. As they should. 

BL origin = HIStory 2: Right or Wrong 2017 

Thailand’s food = love

Lovers cook, serve, feed, and/or eat together. Always. At least something along these lines in every Thai BL. 

origin, well just Thailand in general (and Asia to be fair), but probably SOTUS & Love Sick 

Vietnam’s domesticity

Vietnam always depicts at least some of their characters in a home environment, with family life, adopted kids, and more.

BL origin = Tein Bromance Extra

Cactus baby (and chili plant younger sibling) 

Hilariously a cactus plant was deployed as a courting gift, spy device, and blooming representation of sexual awakening in MaxTul vehicle Manner of Death. Tumblr adopted that cactus baby. 

BL origin = Manner of Death 2021

What China Did 

Massive wholesale censorship curtailed/abruptly cut short multiple shows in progress in 2016-2017. Also resulted in rewriting and reshooting of those in production, and more weird and invidious things. This also showed up as a purge (and likely persecution) of Chinese queer vloggers on YouTube, the imprisonment of several danmai authors, and eventually the censored bromances we now get today. 

BL origin victim = Addicted, Advance Bravely, etc...

Japan’s lanes 

Japan’s propensity to lean in favor of either

sweet, campy, and very low heat live action yaoi shot in a manga style with HEA, or 

dark, gritty high heat queer cinema and pinks shot in an atmospheric style with tragic endings 

BL origin, Boys Love 2006 & Takumi-kun 2007 

History of Japanese BL here and the weeds of Japanese BL here. 

#In Strongberry We Trust 

Small, queer, Korean production house Strongberry had been producing short form pro-queer KBL successfully for years, long before larger studios picked BL up. But when they transitioned to long form in 2022, we were a little scared they wouldn’t stick the landing. #InStrongberryWeTrust became our mantra.

BL origin = Choco Milk Shake 2022 

Faen Fatal(e) 

A side character, usually an ex-girlfriend but occasionally an ex-boyfriend, whose sole purpose is as a plot device to drive a wedge between the leads, or cause jealousy. 

BL origin = Love Sick

The Thai BL Pulps

Very low budget BL with terrible sound, crazy soapy plots, and earnest acting.

BL origin = Make It Right 2016 (term coined by @heretherebedork​ & self) 

The Mame effect 

AKA #oh mame must you? 

The mameverse features great characters, killer actor chemistry, and higher heat combined with terrible damaging tropes and non-sensical plot devices.

BL origin = TharnType (although technically started in Love By Chance) 

The 2 Moons Curse 

When a popular BL franchise struggles to survive over one season and keeps having to recast the leads. 

BL origin = 2Moons original 2017 

Dread Episode 11 

AKA Doom of Ep 11

Explained here. 

Golden Rules of BL 

Never trust: 

a Thai trailer, 

a Viki Category, 

a Vietnamese sub, 

an MDL description, 

a Taiwanese title, 

Japan, 

or a BL made before 2014.

Origin = me over the years 

BLoundary Test: has the seme ever respected a single boundary?

BLechdel Test. 2 ukes discuss something that is not their seme(s). Also uke indicates actual interest in sex in a relationship.

(source)

okay what did I forget? 

[reflections-in-a-critical-eye]

I've asked myself many times over the course of three years about how would I react to information that comes to contradict a specific image I have about people. And the answer would differ, more or less, depending on a myriad of factors, such as my mental wellbeing, my attitude toward the fandom, the group, the members, etc. The truth is, I only knew how I would respond the moment it happens and I was pleasantly surprised in a way. I see it as a sign that I'm doing better or at least I'm on the path of doing better.

These are things that I didn't want to allow to come to surface in the way I used to handle the BTM blog. Perhaps because the point was to create a platform in which I could offer the rational, researched perspective which I considered to be the correct one. I'm not retracting any of that. I still believe that it is possible to offer a more complex perspective if I can back it up with knowledge from various fields, but it was also one of my defense mechanisms.

Without expanding on the personal reasons, it has become very easy for me to separate my rational and emotional side. So much, that even when I should be staying in the moment and let my emotions take space, I can't really do it, I need to come up with a rational explanation so it can make sense. I then applied this to BTS as well. I couldn't just say I like this group when someone would ask, I would have to tell them about all the studies I read and how my fascination is mostly intelectual, when in truth it was both. I used to talk about jikook only in the context of analysis, be it GCF through semiotics or various types of interpretations when it came to their performances or fandom reception in terms of their dynamics. It had to be in the context of rational fascination and curiosity because I was merely trying to justify myself on why I care that much about two strangers that I look at on my phone. Again, my intellectual curiosity is real, but that has always been only one side if the coin, but it was one that I pushed.

It's about shame actually. I can't actually accept that I have such an interest. It doesn't fit with the idea I have of myself. And sometimes I don't like it because it makes me question my intellect, my critical thinking. How can I be so good academically and at the same time I fear that I've fallen into a fandom trap? I'm smart, right? Right?

I'm sure a lot of people have dealt with or ar going through this process of cognitive dissonance. How does one deal with the mere idea that something they believe in based on their understanding of the world, their ability of decoding (not in a conspiracy sense, but in a Saussurean way) can turn out to be wrong? We see something that resembles a specific behavior that we are surrounded with our entire lives, sometimes we ourselves engage with, but we've identified it wrong on others? Of course, it's through the visual medium, one that is edited. It's a puzzle with large chunks missing, but we're getting a general idea of it. But we can be wrong. So how do we deal with that? Well, I don't have a correct answer.

Me in 2020/2021 would have been more affected because my mental health was not good. I was functionally depressed and I clinged so much onto BTS, Jikook and the small community that I found myself in at that time, that I would have felt a lot more torn than I am now.

A couple of years later and having to actually go through a situation in which my understanding of people's relationship might not be accurate, I realized I'm fine. And I think it's because it made me really register just now that I finally learned how to have fun with it. It took me three years. By having fun, I mean genuinely being able to simply enjoy the little things. I'm still on the path of not being ashamed for liking kpop or spending time talking about the dynamic/relationship of two people.

What prompted this post was reading what is currently being written in the jikook tag. Yes, I had this big introductory chunk that perhaps people won't bother reading, but I'm doing it for myself. If I can't be honest while writing stuff into the void for strangers to read, then what is the point?

I get frustrated very easily. I like debates and contradictory points of view, but not always. And that's because I like to be right. Almost all the time. So when I see something that I believe it lacks logic or I find it absurd, then my fingers are itching. I don't comment or DM people, I can control myself. I'd rather get out of the app and do something else.

What I want to say is I was surprised at how much fanfiction is being written. More that usual. Shipping contains a big deal of fanfiction by its nature. Gestures and events taking place at different times are interpreted and having information added that fills the gaps. People do that because they have to make sense of what they see.

They like to make relationship timelines. They speculate on first kisses and first sexual experiences. That's their imagination. None of us has any way of knowing. The element of fiction is heighted when people feel like they are losing control of the narrative. When they are unsure of what they are seeing. Which is what usually happens in the shipping community on a yearly basis. Anons flooding the bloggers' inboxes because they need confirmation or they didn't get any ship content in a month or two which means something is wrong.

There's this understanding that the shipper/supporter is delusional while the one who stops shipping is the rational one. From what I've observed throughout time and mostly now, that is a false distinction. The so-called rational fan makes use of fiction just as the shipper. The difference is in purpose. One talks about why the supposed romantic relationship is real and the other tries to refute that. But both categories seem to need fiction in order to build their arguments. That is because none of them have access to someone's private life and relationship, so the gaps need to be filled with speculation. There is no right or wrong version here, despite how much the idea is being pushed. And me writing about this won't make a difference. It's simply how the fandom works. The one who position themselves on the side of anti-delulu will always be seen as the less crazy one. The similarities will fade for the collective consciousness of the fandom.

I think it's difficult for a lot of people, regardless on which side they find themselves on, to accept that the option of simply not knowing is enough as well. Or knowing, but without getting anal about it. But it's hard and they write posts after posts, anons are sending asks over asks because there has to be a firm answer. Only a few allow themselves to be in between lines.

I'll bring back something that I always used to say. Shipping and involvement in the fandom is a lot more about us and less about the people we're talking about. It's about fullfiling some needs, of needing a community, of focusing on the idea of love. Those things can still be done in a way that still makes the experience enjoyable. But not everyone can and I'm not blaming it.

There's a way to just like how people behave with each other and imagine things without adding so much weight to it. Regardless of the true nature. It's our imagination, there's no need for a moral inquisition to tell anyone how to think or that they should stop thinking a certain way. Touching some grass is a cliche and an expression I ended up hating, but I do believe that being connected to discourse on a daily basis can really alter our sense of reality and what we consider to be real issues. We really should pay more attention to that and take some distance if necessary.

[theboytatu]

anon back from a week ago re: bbh being a messy bitch who likes drama and his ability to shape his fans opinions. still would love your take on this topic if you don't mind

i am sooo sorry omg i have the attention span of an alcoholic toddler!!!! yes ok so I don't have that many examples on hand because i'm not a library of exo content, all my bookmarks on twt are a mess ugh

but re: manipulation and what i would actually call being an expert at exploiting an atmosphere but everyone else calls being an attention whore

exhibit A: him "drunk texting" fans on bubble during exo fanmeet in april. mind you this was right in the middle of the legal battle with SM which we had no idea about at the time. fans were so emotional - first exo performance as a full group in over 3 years, baekhyun fresh off his military life, yadda yadda yadda - he was pretty drunk from the post concert dinner the group had. yet later we found out idols need to review messages THREE TIMES before sending anything on bubble lmao 😭 i'm not saying he was faking it - i'm saying even drunk he knew exactly what these texts were gonna do to the fans. he is that good at riling people up like that + preemptively digging his parasocial nails into the fandom cause he knew shit was about to hit the fan.... I love his mind

exhibit B: the most recent example and something that had me crawling up the walls. i'm not saying he faked it or that he planned to fall asleep on purpose during a livestream, i completely believe baekhyun is careless and overworked enough to do that. what makes me scream into a pillow is the way he was UNFAZED by that shit when he woke up. had his manager blowing up his phone asking him to wake up and +40k people hearing him moan in his sleep and he woke up and stayed in the livestream. FOR 30 MORE MINUTES. he laughed it off and started joking teasing people etc etc like he genuinely dgaf.

might I add this pattern of starting twitter lives early in the morning only started after the comeback which i think is very interesting. i dont think its a coincidence at all but i need to gather my thoughts on that

exhibit C: not manipulative per se but this fucking clip is so insane to me i love how the worst things happened to exo completely unprompted it's like seeing an episode of the office. anyway baekhyun taking one for the team and distracting fans with his silly little dance.. THAT'S RIGHT HE'S THE GUY THAT STEPPED UP. and i think it showcases his quick thinking and social skills perfectly cause the rest of these men were frozen in place with half their asses out but baek just took it like a champ lol. he just wants to be seen <3 and told he's done a good job <3 give him all the praises please

exhibit D: this horrible fucking live. just baekhyun as a whole in superm.... like he's not dumb he knew nctzens were eating him up and shipping him w taeyong and what did he do? he went ahead and gave them exactly what they wanted.. while wrapping taeyong around his little finger might I add. now i think irl baekhyun and taeyong aren't that close, they're like those friends from work that you genuinely like but it's not someone you would seek out outside of pretty specific social settings. but baekhyun isn't fucking stupid he knew nctzens were a segment of kpop fans he could tap into and either turn into his own fans or he could get slapped in the face by exols turning on him.

anyways this is so fucking long im sorry to ppl following me i'm on mobile and can't make a read more. no one cares about the weird things i only notice about baekhyun but yes there's more to it i just dont have links for most things... but there's not a lot of specific examples idk once you notice it you just watch content with baekhyun and it becomes pretty clear.

[dukebee]

people I'd like to know better

tagged by @worm-priest

last song: Loner by EPEX (but at the time I read this post it was...something by xikers...um......ROCKSTAR, there we go)

fav color: dark purple, burgundy, emerald green, black, grey...

fav book: ...this is too hard! I mean, I wear an ankh because Sandman really had an impact on me. Good Omens for years was so well-read that I'd just pick it up and open to a random page when I had downtime because I knew it so well. I don't have words for how much I love The Slow Regard Of Silent Things, it's one of those "if you want to understand me, read this" books. More recently, the whole Whyborne & Griffin series is a personal attack on me, if the target audience was me specifically it's exactly what a person should write. I also keep rereading A Taste Of Gold And Iron, I don't know what it is about the book but it really clicked with me

fav movie: There are two movies that I love so much that I go "I can't wait to rewatch this" before I even finish watching. Empire Records, and the remake of Ocean's Eleven

last tv show: rewatching The West Wing. last new show was The Decameron

sweet/spicy/savoury: sweet

relationship status: single

last thing I googled: a reverse image search to try to find a photocard I want. it's a Hui Triple H broadcast card, I will never find it, if I do it will cost oodles. But still I look!

current obsession: kpop, specifically 1VERSE. I'm suffering, they're predebut, even when they debut I am going to suffer because it won't be enough

looking forward to: my kpop bestie coming to town! I have/will have so many gifts for them, it'll be amazing. (It will not be enough time before they have to go home but it never is!)

tags: @buzzyglovehorn-enthusiast @zordonmlw7 @2030kamenriders @floorbananamotherfucker idk if you want to do the thing please do the thing, don't wait to be tagged?

[kinkycoffeewhore]

How I got into Kpop

Just to give you some background, I was 14 years old when I got into kpop. I spent most of my free time watching movies and shows (anime included), listening to music, and drawing when I wasn’t in school or doing homework. I should also mention, I was raised Catholic and my family is Republican, so I didn’t know what sex was nor knew of the LGBTQ+ community. I just thought humans were humans and we each got to live and love the way we wanted to (man was that bubble popped with a huge dose of reality once I learned more about America and the way life is). It’s safe to say that discovering Yaoi and BL changed my life. I started consuming all things gay and it became an obsession. I also eventually realized I’m bisexual. But, anywhooo.

One day in 2015, I was watching an edited Yaoi video on YouTube that had a really catchy song playing, and I was curious about what it was. I ended up finding the title of the song in the comment section and found out, it’s Mr.Simple by Super Junior. I gave it a listen, and I liked it. The song opened me to the world of K-pop which I never knew existed. 

I started listening to a few other songs by Super Junior and I got curious if I’d like other groups’ music. The second group I listened to was Monsta X. Specifically, the song Hero. If you haven’t given it a listen, please do. The entire song is a core memory for me at this point. In the recommended section, what jumped out to me was War of Hormone by BTS. Now, my dirty mind was intrigued. So naturally, I watched the M/V and lyric video and enjoyed it. 

I wanted to explore their music, so I looked at the recommended list and I saw Dope appear. I gave it a listen and loved it! I loved the rap and the combination of singing. It all just flowed well together. I decided to check out other songs, but figured I wouldn’t start truly learning their names till I listened to a new album. Sure enough, Youth was released and I gave Burning Up (Fire) a listen and I officially said I’m in this shit for the rest of my damn life. Now, BTS has had their 10th anniversary and I’ve been apart of ARMY for roughly 8 years. I’ve thoroughly enjoyed their hiatus and getting to hear each members’ individual sound. Time certainly flies by, and I’m excited to see what’s next for them.

Outside of BTS, I started exploring other artists gradually and got into NCT127, KARD, Twice, Red Velvet, EXO, Jessi, TXT, New Jeans, Aespa, ATEEZ, and Stray Kids. If you have any other song recommendations, comment below! I want to keep exploring new artists. Thanks!

Kinky out. Peace.

[thecoolerliauditore]

hello tumblr mutual megabuild idk why i wrote all this but i hope this data is interesting 👍

despite um. how i am now. i actually used to be very very anti-mcyt. not in the way of actively saying that i hated its fans or creators but i avoided anything to do with it at all costs on every platform and kind of rolled my eyes when i realised a piece of fanart i otherwise liked was for mcyt.

dsmp in particular i actually still refuse to really interact with.

i think in my case it was a combination of things. While I didn't really interact with people at all, I had friends who did and I'm not exaggerating when I say a good 3/4 of them had some sort of bad encounter with dsmp fans circa 2018. whether it was comparing their OCs to dsmp characters for having similar but overall generic features (curly brown hair, smiley masks, pink hair, etc.) or coming onto their streams/videos just to assert that their CC was better, we were all kind of aware that the fandom was mostly made up of young teens who didn't quite have internet manners figured out yet and it didn't really scream "hey, this thing is neat and you should get into it" no matter how cool sad-ist's animatics were.

that and, you're gonna have to bare with me since I'm getting a little bit broad here, I believe my generation specifically were drilled with parasocial marketing for most of our lives and all of us were simultaneously very sick of it and couldn't help but participate. think early 2000s boy bands into early internet celebs like pewdiepie and markiplier into the popularity boom of things like kpop and vtubers and then finally mcyt. (i would argue professional sports also counts into this but there's a whole other discussion to be had there i think)

if you were a fan of any one of them, you'd probably made fun of one of the others at some point in time, despite knowing fully well you weren't any better. at my most delusional i might've reasoned that My Thing was better because xyz but i think deep down we all knew.

mcyt was especially offensive for me because

1. while studios and production companies get flak for overprotecting its talents, they are also safety nets in case things (inevitably) go wrong with the human factor involved. which people like the dsmp creators (who were very much my only knowledge of mcyt at the time barring watching captainsparklez when i was 10) lack. and

2. the dsmp creators were extremely young, unlike early youtube names like pewds and matpat and so on. im ngl im still incredibly uncomfortable thinking about these school-aged kids getting the amount of fandom they did and people saying all sorts of different things about both them in-story and as people at a time as fucked up as highschool is. Idk but I know highschool me would've been permanently fucked in the head for life facing the judgment of thousands of ppl on the internet for dumb teenage shit. i was a very messed up kid who redirected a lot of my anger at random things and i would've definitely doubled down and became a worse person out of spite if i was (rightfully) called out instead of given the time to realise how unreasonable i was in privacy.

(mind you: i am also of the same mind when it comes to child actors and refuse to engage with things like s tranger things out of the same principle. at least those kids have a studio and adults behind them but yeah I might just be more sensitive about this than the average person)

im not smart enough to offer a solution to the issue because im not sure i can say there even is one but as a whole fifteen year olds becoming famous for their minecraft series is still a scary concept to me and it all culminated in me being very squicked by MCYT as a whole. none of it made a particularly positive impression on me.

i hope this all makes sense? ✌️

*Taking this to encompass all forms of MCYT, from modern streamed SMPs such as Dream SMP and QSMP, to popular YouTube series like Hermitcraft, to old-school series like Yogscast, Aphmau, and Stampy, and single-player series such as Mumbo Jumbo's redstone videos. For the purposes of this poll, any uploaded video format that is primarily focused on content set within the game Minecraft counts as MCYT.

When I say negatively, you can take this in any way, but I am specifically thinking of people who will look down in or be wary of people who say they are into MCYT, or have "MCYT fans DNI" or similar listed on their profile. If you are not interested in MCYT but have no negative connotations with the medium you are free to not answer.

Since I am a MCYT blog the results may appear skewed at first- I don't want to be the "reblog for bigger sample size" guy but if you have reach outwith MCYT spheres please consider it!

[heartsfromdao]

12/19/24

hi! this is so awkward because this is my first post but i hope as things go on it'll be less and less weird. starting this because i've gotten pretty lazy at journaling and i need to keep up with it, so i thought i should start journaling (or blogging, i guess LOL) online so i can keep track of stuff that happens.

today was pretty ok! i bought a new mouse to game with (logitech g502) and it's super cool, i love the buttons and it changes colors! my parents and i also went to this restaurant and had some pizza and calamari, it was so yum. when i got home i wanted to wrap the presents i've bought for them but when i laid them all out, i realized that a. i don't have a lot of presents and b. i need boxes. so it'll have to wait until tomorrow.

i still have this lingering sadness that i hope goes away soon. i know it's december and everyone is more likely to be sad but i'm specifically sad about my ex boyfriend. i've deduced from his tiktok reposts that he has a new girlfriend, and she's just like me. we both like twice/kpop ggs, we both like anime, we both like the same music, we have the same personality and interests, so i feel a little weird. i think i'm also jealous in the sense of like "why couldn't i be treated that way?" and it just sucks lowkey. it's been 7 months since i broke up with him (yes, IT WAS ME WHO BROKE UP WITH HIM, so it's weird i feel upset to begin with, right?) so i feel like i should have moved on already. he was my first serious relationship, even though it was online, but a huge portion of my development and growth had him in it. so idk. i know i broke up with him for the right reasons and honestly i should have done it sooner--i have no idea why i put up with that treatment for as long as i did--but i think it just hurts a little because this new girl is so similar to me and he's treating her better than he did with me. but it also hurts because just last month i reached out to him and we talked for a few days and it was clear that neither of us were over each other (but i cut it off again because i knew it was unhealthy for both of us), so to see him with a new girl feels a little weird too. i don't want to feel this way, if anything i'm happy he has a new girl, but for some reason i feel stuck. it's driving me insane because it feels like i'm only processing the break up now?

i think i just feel super lonely at the moment. i've kind of isolated myself from all my friends and the only people i DO want to talk to aren't available at the moment. this year has been one of the worst years for me mentally so i'm sure it's all coming together now but i wish i could just catch a break LOL.

[yukiakaren]

Kpop title track ranking: KEY

In this series I’ll be ranking kpop groups/soloists title tracks based on my taste.

My SHINee bias Key is up next! Why does defining a title track have to be so complicated though? Apparently only One of Those Nights, I Wanna Be, Bad Love, Gasoline, Killer and Good & Great are album title tracks. However, Forever Yours was his debut stage and I Wanna Be was not promoted on music shows. All this to say I decided to include the single album tracks and pre-releases this time too, even though usually I don't do that.

Killer - Oh Killer. When I heard it the first time I instantly knew this one was for me. I have had it on a loop for hours. It became the song that I listen to whenever I wanted to listen to music but didn't have a specific song in mind. I can't emphasize enough how much I love this one. Possibly my most listened to song of the year. Most likely so. And I don't say this lightly - as I don't tend to say these things - but this is possibly my favorite songs of the year. It is that good.

Bad Love - Oh this was the first hint of what's to come and I am so happy for it. When this dropped I was obsessed with this one too, but now there is one song to obsess even more over. Absolute banger on its own though.

Hate That ft. Taeyeon - Well this is just lovely. It's a perfect depiction of a bitter end to a relationship. Also, what a combo we have in Key and Taeyeon and it just works so perfectly.

Gasoline - Let's start by saying when this came out I wasn't sold on it as I hoped for something more on the lines of Bad Love. But eventually I warmed up to it. And I mean who else could rock this kind of a song and concept? The sassiness Key has is truly being utilized here and I have to be all for it.

One of Those Nights ft. Crush - I absolutely adored this song when it came out. And it still is so lovely! It's also crazy how well their voices match, as at times it's really hard to tell which one is singing.

Forever Yours ft. Soyou - It is an adorable feel-good song. Also, Soyou's voice is just lovely and it really fits here.

Good & Great - The topic is nice and it's catchy. It's just coming after the masterpiece that is Killer so it's difficult to reach the same hype with me. Great song nonetheless.

I Wanna Be ft. Soyeon - Another adorable one that warms your heart. Lovely and Soyeon's raps do fit in as well. Very nice but not my personal favorite.

Cold ft. Hanhae - I have to admit this was the first time I heard this one. I had completely missed it (the station thing really worked, am I right?). It's quite lovely but just for not having any relationship with it before this I can't rank it higher. Also, as an avid Amazing Saturday viewer this was a fun combo to see make a song together!

And some b-sides worth a spotlight: Chemicals - The first Key b-side that I started loving. Still a great one. Another Life - The irony of me thinking about how rarely full English kpop songs hit the spot for me and then hours later I hear this for the first time. It's awesome! Bound, Burn & Guilty Pleasure - These three are also from the same album as Another Life, not quite as incredible but all very nice. Live Without You - I listened to this album fully for the first time and by the end of it I had to immediately go back for this one. Again, an absolute masterpiece.

[thesingingrevolution]

(this has been in my drafts for almost a month but i saw this tweet and decided i might as well write a little more and share)

part of the reason a survival show is a horrible idea for nct tokyo is because i feel like nct members have a very specific vibe. like you know when we call taeyong THE neo or say that something like a song or concept or outfit is “neo,” like it’s hard to explain but there is a certian vibe for sure… i don’t think it’s a coincidence that quite a few members were street cast or sought after specifically as opposed to regular auditioning like most kpop trainees.

this is also part of the reason why i think limitless expansion only yielded 23 members at the group’s largest point, because honestly if it was just about adding people mindlessly they could debut any somewhat talented somewhat attractive young male trainee and call it a day 😭

(i think the nct dream graduation system failing because it was so poorly organized is to blame too, with a graduation system rotational group it would be far easier to introduce new members but honestly no one really wants/wanted that)

sm has never cared about being organized with the nct units since so many members like sungchan, shotaro, ten, and kun remained unitless for years. they literally could have just added more people during nct 2020 or 2021. but i still think that back then they had a shred of integrity and knew that adding any boy to a group with a very specific vibe is just not the move.

it’s like when nctzens say only nct can cover nct. i literally knew nothing about these trainees when i started writing this, as of today i know their faces, names, and ages. i don’t think it’s right for me to judge them since i have never seen any of these guys perform, but i feel like there are other issues too.

going off track with this whole neo vibe talk, i am still so concerned about the gap in experience and even age. there are 06 and 07 liners in the competition, and that is just…… we do not need more 15 year olds in kpop. we do not want 15 year olds in nct. we have seen nct dream talk about how hard it was to debut at such a young age we do not need that or want that. there’s gonna be almost a 15 year gap between taeil and these little kids. this wouldn’t be as apparent of an issue if the limitless expansion thing had literally expanded to the point where new people are added all the time, but since nct will have less than 30 members it’s much more visible. nct has done so many mature concepts we do not need kids in nct

also because so many nctzens are adults too. i honestly don’t know how many new fans this unit is gonna bring in. i think sm saw how popular boys planet was and was like ok 😄👍. but i do not see this new unit brining in many fans, from what i’ve seen nct is already quite popular in japan. i don’t even think the 5 nctzens that are all all unit stans will tune in because we do not like this idea as a whole. and now that i am nearly 20 i avoid every group with extremely young members, i literally do not think i can stan a group where every member is younger than i am if i am literally just 19. so if none of the 02 or 03 (or even 04) boys make it…. yeah not good. we want older people please

and now: experience gap

literally over half of nct have been idols for over 7 years, which is how long most idols last at all in the industry (if they’re lucky and don’t disband earlier). in other instances where members debuted later (2017, 2018, 2019, 2020) the gap was less of an issue for a few reasons. in 2018, nct were still a pretty young group and still were establishing themselves. and since all the new members debuted in nct u with their more experienced counterparts, it was a benefit overall since the older members could help the newer ones. and i think in 2019 it was the same. when xiaohenyang debuted in wayv, the other 4 members of the group that debuted with them had been in the group for at least one (or, almost one) year at that time. and winwin had been in a fixed unit since debut and i think all of that helped the new members not stick out as inexperienced at all. and obviously by the time they debuted in nct u the following year they had already gained a lot of skills on their own.

as for sungtaro, it was similar to nct 2018 in the sense that it was just them and debuting in nct u with other members who were more experienced and could guide them. and when nct tokyo debuted they would have that connection to the main group thanks to sungtaro. and now we don’t have that. and it’s probably gonna be seven 15 year olds hanging out with grandfather aged nct 127 i hate it here 😭

[fr-wiwiw]

Last!! I'm laughing ohmygod wtf is this what am doing with this long ass shit, I'm so sorry askdflakjdhfaksdf helppp 23. Describe the physical environment in which you drawing. Be as detailed as possible. Tell me what’s around you as you work. Paint me a picture. Uh.. well. It ain't pretty. Too much dark furniture from my parent's generation house interior trend back then. The table I'm placing my stuffs for workplace is not suitable for work. It's actually a 2metres long give or take table for displaying things. Around 40ish cm in width too. I make do cz we don't know where to put this long ass table if I do buy a proper table and it's expensive to buy the desk I want for me. I'm saving up for future buy tho, it would be a great investment for my work life.

The left side is mostly books about arts. There's HTTYD second movie concept artbook beneath, my bluetooth headphone that I'm hoping to upgrade one day cs it squeezes my head uncomfortably and I have small head. There's Jinyoung's Chapter 0 album there. Here's fun fact, I'm obsessed with kpop but I never buy any of their merchs. I just don't feel it's necessary. I, however, do love putting their pictures online as my phone wallpapers. You'll never see me using myself of my irl loved ones as wallpapers. Only my delusionals or animals or landscapes will stay there. Anything I found aesthetic. So Jinyoung popped my cherry on that one..... that sound's weird lol. Good on you Mr Kim Gaon you make me obsessed with you and your TDJ character. I put 2 of my hair claws there, they're able to clutch my thick and now long hair. I'm thinking of cutting my hair back to short, I like experimenting with different haircut styles but I'm saving money and miss my long hair so that's why I don't cut it now. You cannot see it clearly but there's a black smartwatch next to them, it blends well to the shadow. I have too many dark color items my GOD. I uh.. put a spoon there to take this picture, I was eating yoghurt and I brought it in with me to my room while I left my yoghurt at dinner table lmao. There's a bunch of paper beneath it, my friend literally just deliver it to me to try the feel of it. They were making some papers to draw and they want ppl who draw to test it out and give some feedbacks. The pink bottle cap is mosquito repellent lotion, there's a lot of mosquito in Indonesia, the scars on my legs can give you proof. I put my pencils and pens on the blue hand-knitted pouched given by my friend. It was supposed to be phone wallet kind, but I re-purpose it as my drawing and writing utensils. There's some sticky notes near the lamp, you can see it protrude out a bit. I have 2 t-rex figurine there. I used to have lotta dinosaurs and animal figurines. Like, a whole big bags of it. I play around with it creating scenarios and plots and what not as a kid. Idk where they all right now. Somewhere in my house hopefully just gathered in one giant plastic bag. I hope to collect or make sculptures of dino or monster figurines in the future. There's also my keys with gecko keychain, a random gift from my friend lol. There's pixar like lamp, idk why i bought black even tho I know it will attracts mosquitoes. I guess I don't want the lamp to stand out and distract my eyes. Some recycled board to pin notes and all. Then there's that Geto Suguru squish doll, acts like a stress ball. My friend gave it to me as a birthday gift when she knew I was having a hard time with my mental state and stress-management last year. I remembered tearing up when she gave me that and whispered to me why she specifically bought that. There's my screen, extended from my laptop bcs I used to have computer with CPU and all but I opt of laptop the moment my computer broke down bcs I sometimes want to draw in cafes, I didn't want to draw on sketchbook back then but now I bought another sketchbook, underneath the wooden board beneath my computer screen. If I'm sick of drawing digitally, I switch to sketch or doodle on that sketchbook. Helps me practice my hand and eye coordination too, plus it's different when you're drawing traditional and digital. I don't look at my hands when I draw digital, there's my Huion underneath the long table but again it blends with the shadow bcs it's another dark coloured item. It's just a regular tablet, no screen, so put the tablet on my lap bcs it's ideal for my arm, less pain and ache. Then my eyes look to the computer screen. While as when we draw traditionally or ontop of a screen, your hands gets in the way and the composition of your drawings will somehow be different.

Anyway, my screen is showing this exact answer I'm typing and the link to the question list on the right with discord running in the background where I usually mingle with some of my irl friends and find commissions. Hmm.. I use a white logitech keyboard, the circle shaped buttons. It was weird getting used to the size from regular keyboard but I bought this one for the size, to safe space as I don't really have much and bcs it looks cute xD I don't like using mechanical keyboard. The sound will irritate me if I'm stressed but I do like the custom keycaps people create. I just like it if I'm not distracted by the things I use daily and for my convenience. I'm already distracted enough, too much, by my own thoughts so to me it's not ideal having more distractions.

Here's the extension of my work space. There's my laptop, behind it there's electric plugs where I plug my laptop, phone charge, lamp, computer screen, my playstation 4 on the very corner of my desk beneath the white cloth over there- again, blending into the shadows. Such a depressing work space god I want to have white, brown and green vibe going on in my room but eh.. we make do with what we have for now xD. Underneath the table, the important things I will mention will be speaker, connected to my computer screen for me to play my PS4. There's another speaker, bluetooth, uhh.. covered by my yellow chair where I frequently use it when I turn on my laptop. Listening to music, watching movies, YT videos, play Monster Hunter Worlds, or when I stream movies for my friends. There's 2 black bags that AGAIN blends into the shadow bcs of the colors (cries) where I use it to keep books or things that I don't use frequent but I know I will need at random times. 1 bag is a laptop bag that comes when I purchase my laptop, I use it if I work from cafe with my laptop. I have Koya (BT21 character, Namjoon's) keychain doll I got from my friend in Japan. Remember when I told you I don't buy my idols merchs? Yeah, my friends gift them to me instead lol. Either rip offs or real ones. They're such a blessing in my life. Also, you can see the stacks of books and dusting items on the wall. That's the family items they keep and almost never use. I really want to throw them all out but I can't right now cs most of them needs thorough check from my family before I can say, OFF INTO THE TRASH! I don't really like keeping things I never used, I just throw it away. Might seem cold to some people, especially if you keep some memories related to it. I just don't want to be suffocated with unused things. I'd rather put new and useful things there. One exception for the books even tho I don't read it anymore. They're about animals, insects, whales, dinosaurs, plants, trees, just encyclopedia things.. It's knowledge :/ but I'm a clown bcs I don't open that book anymore lmao. Guess I like to collect certain books \o/ hihi Last thing is the pillow I use to sleep, I use it too for my back support cs I be feeling old in my 28 y.o body for all the sitting down and shrimp posture when I draw. WHEW here we are at the final words. Thankyou so so much for asking this! Didn't think it will take me more than 2 hours typing this but I love it when ppl ask things they're curious about me or wanting to get to know me. I'm so gonna ask you too, but lemme read and choose my questions I want to know about you most. Bless you darling <3

hiii, do you want to do an artist's version of this fun writer's asks game? i'm so curious about what you think of 5, 10, 12, 15, 19, 23

hi there! thanks for this fun game! lemme copy the question to change some of the words and answer them right away xD I will put aside my experience as writer and reader too bcs this is artist version so the answers will be strictly from my experience as an illustrator!

5. Do you have any drawing/painting superstitions? What are they and why are they 100% true? Oh gosh, good question- I'm guessing this is some kind like ritual or routine I do before I start scribbling in my sketchbook or digital canvas. I think I kinda do and don't. Since this new year, I started to intentionally journal my thoughts out when I woke up. This is recommended from the book that's called The Artist's Way, some kind like spiritual guide for artists. I've only read up until the page where the author said to take your inner child out to date- creative dates. Anyway, basically the journaling I do religiously now has to be 3 pages and pour any thoughts that came onto my mind. Taking out trash from our mind daily instead letting it piling for months waiting to be taken out. I only do 2.5, my right arm and shoulder always aching since few years ago. But so far, it does helps me a bit with my overthinking and be discipline about my healthy habits. I'm not the best at discipline so I'm proud I'm able to keep this going for almost 3 months now. The other thing, which I'm not sure is something superstitions, is to look up drawings by other artists or watch movies, see fanarts, read fanfics, or just be in my mind, to get inspired and start drawing. I'm mostly brain rot driven or if I'm seeing something very often, I will draw it. I'm trying not to count on my brain rot energy too often bcs I want to be able to draw with and without the brain rot. It's still fluctuates but I'm better than I was years ago. I'm happy with the progress! I will continue on next answer post, Idk why Tumblr is not working for me today :( so this will be 6 answer post, I'm so sorry

[stormblessed95]

Hi Storm. Sorry if this gets long.

I find it interesting how that anon earlier said most JKKers are Jimin biased. I don't know if that can be true. Bear with me here: I am someone who came into BTS from a pretty strange place. Back around maybe 2017/2018, I was SO sick of seeing BTS everywhere on Tumblr that I eventually had everything to do with the group blocked via tag filtering - and SPECIFICALLY Jungkook, the most annoying member of all. He had his own level of filtering above all the others because I KEPT getting him on my tumblr dash, and I was pretty irritated that all the people I had followed for videogames and stuff had overnight become kpop blogs.

Anyway, fast-forward to now... the pandemic happened, I somehow fell in love with BTS (via their choreography and dance practice videos initially but they now dominate my Spotify both as a group and as solo performers) ...and lo and behold! My bias is Jungkook, the very same person I took extra trouble to completely eradicate from my tumblr experience.

So. When watching BTS content, my eyes are naturally drawn to JK. It happens, he's my favourite, I watch him a lot. BTS official content, performances, ITS, Run BTS, but also JKs cover songs and GCFs, etc. And through my watching, I am breaking down YEARS worth of misconceptions I had about Jungkook (and BTS as a whole). I dropped everything I thought I knew about him and said 'Okay, clean slate, YOU tell me who you are, because clearly I was wrong before'. This means, I'd like to believe, that I am watching with my mind open (with a capital O) to whatever I might be presented with, no matter how far it strays from what I originally thought these boys were. Because so far, most of what I have discovered about JK/BTS has brought me nothing but joy, even if some of it was surprising.

The point of all this, and sorry again for rambling, is that I came into the fanbase with zero agenda regarding dynamics between members, but ready to accept anything. At this stage, I didn't know who Jimin was, other than the stunning one with the baby face, who I assumed was the youngest. And while I can't remember the specific moment that made me first go 'huh' with JM and JK, if you truly do watch JK with both love but also an unbiased mind, you will notice who he is always gravitating to, who he spends his time with, who he is always making up silly games with, who he has a seemingly different kind of bond with, before you even get to any of the 'big' moments.

In fact, you would have to be deluded or wilfully ignorant to hold JK as your bias and then say he dislikes JM. Or to pretend that the special dynamic he has with JM is fake/manufactured BUT does still exist between JK and somebody else in the group (only in secret!!). And that's why when I see the loudest Twitter accounts from that other ship, it doesn't shock me at all that most often their bias is not JK, but instead the other member of that ship. Because if you truly like JK, if you watch him with respect and attention, he is not lying to you about JM.

I just cant imagine being a fan who tries to discredit clearly one of the most important people in his life. Whatever the relationship is, no matter if we never get more clarity than we have now. If you're a JK bias, it is so much happier and healthier as a fan to simply believe JK instead of wandering down a labyrinth of conspiracies and #freeJK and one ship covering for another.

I don't think most Jikookers are Jimin biased; I think maybe on the whole, they are of a variety of biases, but importantly they watch original content and do the members the service of believing them when they tell us things.

What a fascinating way to have gotten into the group 🤣😂 wow. Lol I don't have the stats and it would be hard to get those stats, but I don't think you can claim one way or the other that jikookers bias one member over the other. Often times we bias at least one of these 2 because we tend to all pay a bit more attention to those we bias and their interactions. It's only natural, but it's also clear that people who bias one of the other 5 members also still will occasionally notice jikook.

For example. My husband knows all the members. He listens to their music mostly and doesn't really watch their extra content except for the occasionally things with me. Like he sat and watched part of memories with me, it was the behinds for the dance practices that he was interested in seeing. He would watch the occasionally run episode with me when he had time and because he loves me and knows it makes me happy. And he watched the online concerts with me over the past year and half. He is staunchly Hobi biased. Hobi is his favorite for sure. Lol mentions him the most during the little bits of extra content we watch together. When I mentioned a while ago that I felt like 2 of the members could possibly be in a relationship together after I binged so much content, he just looked over at me and before I could say anything else he went, "who? Jimin and Jungkook?" Lol we had never talked about it before, he didn't watch any of the big moments before that such as GCFT or rosebowl or know about anything else they have done. He literally just thought it was them based off the bits of behind content and run episodes he did see. He said "they just are aware of each other the way that I am of you and just seem like they are the closest together. I don't know, it's just a vibe they give off I guess." Sooo it's not like you have to bias them to also see it too.

My friend humors me and is learning about them with me as I slowly introduce her to songs etc. I said NOTHING about relationship statuses and what not. I sent her music videos and songs, she would listen and I would send her info over every member every so often and what they like doing outside of just the band. She fell hard for namjoon. He has stayed rock solid as her favorite and asks for weekly photos of him even though she doesn't really consider herself army yet (I'll convert her). She just likes a few of their songs and loves Joonie. I told her JK made videos and she watched his GCFs, all of them and then asked who his boyfriend was, pointing out Jimin every single time (we hadn't gotten to learning about who jimin was at that point so she didn't recognize who he was by name yet lol). Said they were cute together. People SEE it, it's just the die hard anti shipping fans or other shippers who have a hard time seeing it simply because they don't want to.

Point is, that it's easy to see there might be something there, no matter how well you know them or really who you bias. If you take what they say and do at face value, respect them, their actions and words, it's a much more peaceful life in the world of the fandom. Regardless of what their relationship status is, as long as they are happy, I am happy, and they truly do mean a lot to each other and have a special bond. That much at least is so extremely clear and should be easy to see by everyone.

[thefanficmonster]

So we know that Corpse avoids talking in public cause of the obvious reason and I can only imagine how frustrating that can get. So I've been thinking, what if Corpse's S/O was fluent in ASL and taught him how to sign, and in turn could translate for him if he ever needed to communicate out in public. Could you just do headcanons, if that's ok? Personally, I imagine the reader originally learning ASL for a family member, but you can do whatever you want with the idea.

I've done something similar before but here you go some headcanons darling ~ Enjoy! 💕

- The first time you learned about sign language was when you were around eight years old

- Your aunt and uncle told you about it when explaining how they communicated with your two years younger deaf cousin

- Apart from his parents, no one in the family knew ASL at the time but that changed in the next two years that you spent getting fluent in the language

- You and him are still close till this day and hang out at least once a week

- You're currently in your last year in college, studying law while teaching ASL on the side to pay your tuition

- Little did you know your fluency in ASL would be useful to you when you'd meet the love of your life

- Your boyfriend Corpse was very open about his severe social anxiety as well as paranoia and fear of privacy invasion

- He told you right off the bat how afraid he was of getting recognized in public because of what he does on social media

- More specifically, he said he was afraid of his voice getting recognized because it's very unique and millions of people have heard it and could probably trace it to him in an instant if they heard it in public somewhere

- You still, till this day smile when you think back to the amount of relief and joy that washed over him when you told him communication in public with you would be no problem since you were fluent in ASL

- Then came his sheepish smile, admitting that he still needed to work on his fluency to be able to converse with you that way

- Boy was he in luck and had not even the slightest clue

- You wasted no time hooking him to your teaching program

- And boom, you had him semi-fluent and familiar with all the necessary phrases in ASL in less than a year

- That way he never again had to worry about outing himself by simply talking in public

- And he'll forever be grateful to you for it

- Oh how could I forget: it goes without saying that the most frequent phrase he signals to you is 'I love you'

- And it goes without saying that you blush and roll your eyes before returning it right back at him

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