#it was technically my fault for reading something I knew I was going to hate

[nessa-harp]

So I find myself binge reading a lot of Sonic 3 fanfiction on AO3 and I noticed that many of these fanfics involve Shadow being adopted by the Wachowski’s or Agent Stone.

Content warning: child abuse, corporal punishment.

While most of them are rather innocent, I unfortunately came across a fanfic series that had age regression themes involving Tom and Maddie spanking their children, including Shadow even though he’s a super-powered teenager. As someone with a troubled childhood, it was unsurprising that I did not like what I just read. (which was my fault because I forgot to read the tags.) Usually, I would simply ignore these stories because, at the end of the day, it’s just a super OOC Sonic fanfic (water is wet) that was made as an obvious outlet for the author, but it’s got me thinking…

For one, hitting Shadow as punishment for bad behavior would cause more harm than good. While yes, Gerald spanking Ivo was meant to be a funny throwaway scene to show how childish Ivo was being, it may imply that Gerald used corporal punishment against those under his care. Like, the guy is old fashioned. (and by old fashioned, I mean sexist as hell.)

It wouldn’t surprise me that Gerald or others harmed Shadow in such a way whenever he misbehaved. If Maddie, Tom, or Stone used the same method against Shadow, it would most likely exacerbate his trauma because it would remind him of a time when he was simply an experiment to be used and controlled, a time when he was never allowed to disobey a human or make a mistake or else he’d be harmed.

I’m actually surprised fanfic writers who enjoy Shadow the Hedgehog angst haven’t explored this possibility. Just imagine Agent Stone hating Gerald even more because he eventually discovers that Gerald used to hit Shadow because the poor hedgehog would flinch whenever someone lifted their hand with an open palm.

(Yes, I like the idea of Stone adopting Shadow more than the Wachowskis. Sonic’s family is already overwhelmed with having three mobian children in their house. I doubt they’d open up their home to someone who almost killed one of their family members. I’m sure Tom and Maddie are very forgiving people but not to that extent.)

[theemissuniverse]

MK 1 MEN REALIZE YOU’RE TOUCH STARVED

SUMMARY : Basically they’ve been super busy so they hadn’t been worried about sex until they realize how needy you really are. Fem reader.

WARNINGS : (MDNI)! praise, unsafe p in v, riding, cumming, some other stuff I probably forgot

MASTERLIST

LIU KANG

You were practically starving for intimacy. Your boyfriend, Liu Kang had his hands full with Earthrealm itself and you couldn’t even help him.

Liu Kang had forbid you to get involved in Earthrealm business because in the previous timeline, when Raiden brought you in it you had died. So, he wanted you to continue your normal life.

Though, Liu Kang made sure you were a worthy fighter just by the chance that maybe one of his enemies would try and hurt you. You would know how to defend yourself.

It had been weeks, close to a month. Liu Kang was there emotionally but was not there physically. You knew he was busy but god, did you think he wasn’t attracted to you anymore.

You were reading your book in the living room when you heard the door open. You didn’t bother to look up because you knew it was Liu Kang.

Liu Kang locked the door behind him. “Good evening, my love.” He walked over to you and gave you a kiss on the head. “How was your day?”

“Great until you got here.”

You were a very sarcastic individual so Liu Kang just took it as a sign that you were being sarcastic. Liu Kang sat beside you. “Did you eat today?”

Trying not to be annoyed was hard but you were so frustrated that you couldn’t hold it in. You slammed your book shut and got up from the couch. “I can’t even read a book in my own home.” You marched to your room.

Liu Kang now understood you were angry at him. He just didn’t understand why.

When you walked in the room, you shut the door and locked it. Then you turned around and there you faced the Fire God himself. You jumped back, startled. “I hate when you do that.”

“(Y/N), if I’ve done something wrong then you need to open up. We talked about this.”

That was true. Liu Kang did talk to you about you opening up more to him and communicating with him. It was just hard for you because you never really liked talking about your feelings. Especially embarrassing ones.

You sighed and placed the book on your dresser. “I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have been so mean to you. I’m just…frustrated.”

Liu Kang gently took your hands in his. “Whatever it is, we can face it together. Tell me what has you so frustrated.”

You bit your lip, not wanting to even look at him. “It’s just…you haven’t really…” You trailed off. Lucky and unlucky for you, Liu Kang was a patient man and he waited for you to say it. “You know…and I just feel touch starved.”

Liu Kang now understood what you meant and he could only smile. “I’m sorry, my love. I did not mean to. I am God and because I’ve been alive for so long, I don’t really have the physical needs as you do.” He brought you closer to his warmth. “But that doesn’t mean I can’t take care of you.” Liu Kang gave you a sweet kiss on the lips. “Next time, just ask.”

You smiled shyly. “It’s embarrassing to ask…”

“You should feel comfortable to ask me.”

“Well technically you’re the one that made me so uncomfortable, creator so who’s really at fault here? So ha!”

Liu Kang shook his head and gave you a kiss on the forehead. “You, my one and only, are so strange.”

You were in a panting mess. Liu Kang was on top of you while you laid on your back. Your moans were uncontrollable and you were mad at him again for making you wait so long to feel like this.

Liu Kang watched you pant and he was mad at himself that he made you wait so long to feel this good.

Having sex with a god was always more pleasurable because well, he was a god. It was so much easier to get you to cum. It only took three minutes. Sometimes even two.

“Keep going, love. You’re almost there.” Liu Kang told you.

You made short breaths out as you were close to your release. You felt all around Liu Kang’s chest trying to hold onto something. “Oh, god. Oh Liu. I can’t.”

Liu Kang kissed your lips. He knew that sex with him was ten times more pleasure able than if he were human. “Breathe in and out, my love.” He watched as you took some breaths in and out. He caressed the left side of your face. “You’re doing so good.”

You felt your release close. “I’m so close. Please.”

“I got you.” Liu Kang held onto your thighs and continued to go at his slow and hard pace. “Cum on me, my love.”

You felt the wave of your orgasm wash all over you. Liu Kang didn’t stop until you had came over him completely.

He pulled out of you. Then leaned down to kiss you on your lips. His lips then went to your neck and your shoulder. “Never make me wait that long again.” You told him.

Liu Kang chuckled against kissing your skin. “I won’t, lovely.”

JOHNNY CAGE

You never thought in your life span that you would crave for Johnny Cage but you did. He was your boyfriend now so you should’ve been used to the feeling.

But it had been a whole week. A week that Johnny did not have intimacy with you which you found to be extremely weird. I mean you two would have sex at least five times a week so you could not believe he wasn’t on you.

You had to be the stay at home girlfriend while he made his new movie. You couldn’t even stand being around him anymore because that’s how touch starved you were.

But you were not going to initiate it because he always initiated it and you were not going to give him the satisfaction of how badly you wanted him.

You couldn’t hide your attitude towards him.

You finished making dinner. Johnny was back from work. “Babe! I’m back! It actually was better than yesterday.” He came into the kitchen and set his things on the counter.

Johnny came up behind you and hugged you. He kissed your cheek. “Damn you look hot cooking.”

Yup. You couldn’t hold your attitude back. You pushed his arms off of you. “Clearly, I don’t.” You mumbled under your breath.

He heard you though. He was confused. Of course you were. You were the hottest girl he knew. “What are you talking about, babe?”

You walked away from the stove and got out plates. You set them on the counter. “There’s dinner. I’m gonna take a nap.”

You walked into the bedroom and were about to close the door behind you but Johnny was too fast for you.

Johnny forced the door open and you rolled your eyes at him. You started walking over towards the bed, fixing the sheets while he stood in the doorway. “What’s up with you? Did I do something?”

“It’s what you didn’t do.”

Johnny looked at you completely confused. You were mad that he didn’t do something? “Baby, you gotta help me out here because I’m lost.”

You angrily folded the sheets before turning to look at him. “Are you cheating on me?”

Johnny’s eyes went wide at the accusation. “What?” He stepped closer in the room to close some of the distance. “(Y/N), I’m not cheating on you. What could possibly make you think that?”

You scoffed at him and you turned your attention back on the bed. “I highly doubt that thee Johnny Cage can go a week without having sex.”

That’s when Johnny put the puzzle pieces together. He laughed a little. “Babe, seriously?” He came up behind you and wrapped his arms around you. “Aw, I knew you wanted some of this Johnny Cage.”

You rolled your eyes and pushed him off of you. “No. I don’t. I’m just stating it’s weird.”

“(Y/N), I’ve just been busy with the movie. Nothing weird has been going on. I promise.” He went back behind you and wrapped his arms once again around you. He started to kiss your neck. “If you wanted me, you could’ve just said something.”

“No.”

“Why?”

“Because that’s embarrassing.”

Johnny turned you around so you were facing him. He gave you an amused look. “Oh? So it’s embarrassing when I ask you all the time?”

You crossed your arms at him. “That’s different. You’re a man.”

“(Y/N). Just get your sexy ass in the bed.”

He watched you as you could barely ride him. It amused him a little. You were begging to have him but you were in too much pleasure to ride him the way you wanted.

Johnny didn’t have his hands on you as he wanted to see how far you could go without needing any help.

It wasn’t long.

“Oh my god. Johnny, I can’t.”

“You wanted this babe. You gotta ride me yourself.” He said smugly. He rubbed your nipples a little causing you to moan. “You tell me you love me though and I’ll help you.”

“I love you. I love you so much. Please. It feels too good.”

Johnny chuckled and grabbed onto your hips. He then started to move you up and down at a good fast pace. You weren’t doing any work. “I love you too, baby.”

You moaned loudly feeling your clit constantly hit him over and over again. “Yes. Please.”

Johnny let out a grunt at the new pace and your moans combined. “Damn I missed this.” His right hand traveled lower to smack your ass and then went back to your hip. “I’m never missing out on this again.”

Your hands were on his chest as you rode him. You felt yourself starting to inch close to your release. “I’m almost there. Oh shit. Yes.”

“Come on, baby. Cum on me. You can do it.”

His words made you lose it. You threw your head back. “I’m cumming. Oh god, Johnny.”

Johnny groaned as he felt you cum on him. He helped your ride out your entire orgasm. “There you go. I knew you could do it.”

You tried to control your panting as you sat on him. You didn’t make him pull out on you.

When he saw this, he rubbed your hips gently. “You alright, babe?”

You nodded. You leaned to kiss him on the lips and then you went back to riding his dick again. He moaned. “I want more.”

Johnny had no complaints.

RAIDEN

With Raiden being Earthrealm’s champion it made him quite busy. You didn’t like it. He didn’t have any time for you and you were getting quite touch starved. It had been two weeks.

You were even more pissed when you found out that he was in Outworld helping Princess Kitana with something. Oh, that enraged you.

You were jealous. I mean, Kitana was a princess and you were just some Earthrealmer. You couldn’t really compete with that.

Washing the dishes, Raiden walked into the house. “I’m so glad to be home.” He walked to where you were at and kissed you on the cheek. “Hello, my heart.” He started to rub your back soothingly. “I missed you.”

“Go miss Kitana.” You told him bluntly and pushed him off of you.

He looked at you very confused. Raiden turned off the water and forced you to look at him. “What are you talking about, (Y/N)?”

You sighed a little, feeling bad that you were rude to him. “Nothing.”

“Is something troubling you? You know you can always talk to me.”

You bit your lip, slightly embarrassed at what you were going to say. “It’s just…you haven’t been around to…” Raiden waited patiently to hear you. “Make love with me and I feel like all your attention is on Kitana.”

“Oh, my heart.” Raiden lifted your chin up and gave you a kiss on the lips. “Trust me, I would spend all my time with you if I could but Lord Liu Kang has me going on missions that pertain to Outworld.” Raiden started to kiss your neck with sweet kisses. “I would make love to you every day if I could.”

You sighed happily at the kisses that were being placed on your neck. “I’m sorry. I shouldn’t be so snippy with you.”

Raiden shook his head as he faced you. “You’re frustrated. I understand. Allow me to make you feel better.”

Raiden was eating you out as you laid on your back, his head between your thighs. You tugged on his hair. He licked all the right places and sucked on your clit greedily.

You moaned loudly. His hands were on your thighs and he continued to eat you out like you were his last meal. One thing about Raiden was that he knew how to eat pussy.

“Raiden. Yes. Oh god.”

He lifted his head from your pussy and licked his fingers. He then placed the fingers on your clit and started to rub it in circles.

You moaned louder and played with your breasts. Raiden watched you and licked his lips as he saw you throw your head back.

Raiden leaned over and kissed you on the lips, making you taste yourself. He wasn’t really a big tongue kisser but when he was horny, Raiden was the best tongue kisser in the world.

He licked the bottom of your lip before licking all over in the inside of your mouth. You moaned and tried to use your own tongue but when you did, Raiden wrapped his lips around it and sucked all over it.

You moaned incoherent nonsense and Raiden pulled away. “You look so pretty like this.”

The circles on your clit didn’t stop. You rubbed all over his chest. “Raiden please. I’m so close.”

When you said that, Raiden kissed you one last time. “I can’t wait to taste all of you in my mouth.”

Raiden went back between your legs and ate you out again. You moaned at the harsh licks and the way he sucked on your clit at a steady pace.

“Raiden. Oh god. Raiden. I’m cumming.”

He ate you out through out the entirety of your orgasm. Even to the point when you were done. You tried to push him off of you. “Too sensitive.”

Raiden came up from pussy and kissed you on your breasts. “Come on, love. You can’t give me one more?”

You couldn’t help but give in to Raiden’s words. You nodded and he smiled before going back down on you.

[damnfandomproblems]

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Wish I could go off anon for this, but I don't wanna get repeatedly @ by whoever submitted the post

As a HP fan who hates Rowling and called her BS out before it was cool (hipster sounding, I know), that submission is just not true. The fandom was DESPISED on the internet, including by other HP fans, long before Rowling outed herself as a transphobe.

The Cho Chang controversy was in full swing

People were getting sick of the fandom comparing every political and social issue to Harry Potter ("(insert any politician) iS vOlDeMoRt (other politician) iS dUmBlEdOrE")

People got sick of HP fans who admitted they refused to read other books

Fans have been known to bully each other for liking or disliking characters. I had to get a mod involved after some asshole tried to go into my DMs for not liking Snape. "yOu hAvE to LiKe SnApE Ur a SlYtHeRin!" "Umbridge is a Slytherin too, do I have to like her?" "(Calls me a slur and attempts to video chat me)" And don't get me started on the racist crap she said to the mod despite having an "End Racism" profile pic

There were also fans openly saying they thought the pureblood fanatics and Salazar Slytherin were right (yikes) despite the witch trials not even occurring when Salazar was alive, and canonically not affecting the actual wizarding community in-universe.

Rowling was being all sorts of crappy on Twitter to the point there were entire video essays calling her out for treating fans badly if they were sorted into Slytherin. Long story short: She openly told someone to break up with her Slytherin boyfriend (he didn't even do anything bad, the girlfriend was making a lighthearted joke), and claimed all racists would naturally be sorted into Slytherin (ironic, isn't it?)...not our fault most people don't consider ambition evil, Rowling. And not all racists are ambitious or cunning.

As a matter of fact, the very idea of a hat telling an eleven year old they're in the evil house because they're ambitious was so controversial it led to Slytherin being completely rebranded by the marketing team and all future projects as "the misunderstood house"

She was taking credit for representation that she never actually wrote (claimed she never said Hermione was white despite literally drawing her as a white girl next to a black character while writing the story, claimed there was a Jewish wizard with a stereotypical name all along that she "forgot to mention"...plus the Dumbledore is gay "but he became asexual later" thing)

Her descriptions of other wizarding schools on Pottermore were based on xenophobic stereotypes and people noticed QUICK. And there was no excuse for her lack of research at that point. The proper resources to get her facts straight were widely available by the time Pottermore was a thing.

And finally, the fandom was starting to suspect she was a transphobe before she outed herself, because she was openly supporting transphobes and accidentally copied and pasted text from a transphobic article in response to a child's drawing. We knew something was wrong, and were discussing it, as well as voicing our disappointment in her showing her true colors.

The majority of the fandom itself hates Rowling (especially since a large portion are LGBTQ or otherwise very liberal) and are willing to point out the books and Pottermore have problematic material mixed in. We're also trying to leave behind the toxic side of the fandom that's been prevalent for years. The HP fandom is still alive, but is also still boycotting Rowling (or at least minimizing purchases while donating heavily to LGBTQ charity organizations to compensate).

The Rowling and Harry Potter hate isn't a bandwagon. It's been developing for years.

Note: The only reason I don't mention the goblins is because technically goblins were portrayed like that in fantasy at least half a century before HP was written (Just look at old DnD manuals or Hobble from Labyrinth), so I don't know if it was intentional on her part or if she had no idea. This is the same woman who didn't know Muggle was a slang term for a pothead before an interviewer asked her about it.

Posting as a response to a previous problem.

[my-hi-universe]

Breaking my silence

I DON'T hate Maddie 😭😭

I know that's and unpopular opinion around here but she honestly didn't do anything wrong, and let's say you think, "she got with Cait when she knew she had something with vi," wouldn't Cait be more at fault?

And I hate to be the friend that's too woke, but Cait is her boss, sure she was in a bad mental state but I'm seeing a lot of people saying Maddie manipulated her...mmm I don't know, that feels a bit off to me. It was a power imbalance, I don't know their ages, but maddie seems a lot more...I wont say younger, but youthful? Naive even?

At the end of the day Cait is her boss in a position of power and she shouldn't have been engaging in those relationships. And now, I feel really bad for Maddie because we know Cait will get back together with Vi and imagine how Maddie will feel? She won't be happy or excited— she'll be absolutely torn apart. No one deserves to feel important, or special and have that all go away in an instant just because Cait felt sad about abandoning her complicated relationship.

But again, maybe I'm reading into it. Maddie seemed like she really liked cait, and I'll be honest Cait didn't seem that into her, but this was a recurring thing with the lines, "I'll come back to bed," and Ambessa saying something along the lines of, "I'm seeing you(Maddie)around here a lot recently," so Cait didn't make a mistake—you can't make the same mistake more than once.

I'm not sure how vi will react to it, technically they weren't even together so I'm not talking about how she'd feel, I'm talking more about Maddie not only as a character, but a person in the arcane world.

I get it, she tore up your favorite ship, but that's only because Cait allowed her to. Some of you guys are hurt and don't want to admit the fact that Cait is more at fault than Maddie. She's not a homewrecker, or any demeaning name for sleeping with her boss. I think simply put, she really liked Cait. She wasn't in a healthy relationship dynamic, and it's a shame that some of you guys, and Cait doesn't seem to care.

[ghostflowerhotpotch]

Let's Talk Peter B

@iwasbored777 (Since you ask to be tagged)

Okay! I was on the fence about writing this post, but after doing this response and some encouragement, I decided that fuck it, let’s do this.

While I had seen multiple things about Gwen being a bad friend, a bad person, and other things I don’t want to say because I will start ranting- Peter B for the most part, has come out scotch free.

Don’t get me wrong, I had seen some people address his issues, but it has been a few posts in a sea of him with Mayday and people shipping with Miguel. Which hey, is okay with me, but when you see you a character you love be given the short end of the stick despite the circumstances yet another character that has much less to lose has their mistakes largely been ignored and basically be woobify.

Is not just Gwen, I had also seen people take beef with Jess as a mentor yet somehow leave Peter out of that conversation. Don’t get me wrong Jess is far from perfect (which is something I discussed before,) but again, Peter is far from perfect too.

Does this has to do with Peter being a beloved main character in the first movie? Yes. Does it also has to do with misogynoir and misogyny? Oh I don’t doubt it.

I don’t hate Peter B, far from it, I think he is a great adaptation of our spidey, and while I am not the biggest spiderman fan out there, I did grew up with Peter Parker in movies and cartoons so I do have love for this characters as well as his incarnation in Sony movies.

I will do my best to remain as unbiased and neutral as possible, but not gonna lie this entire thing is annoying me enough that I will say when I am aware of my own biases, as I always try to do.

But if you think liking a character stops me from calling them on their bullshit you are wrong.

I know this post is more about how Peter is with Miles and his role as a mentor, but I decided to address some other things I had seen people talk about because there is a reason I choose "Let's talk Peter B Parker" as a title.

Believe it or not, I am fine with this. Seriously.

Peter wasn’t here when Miles arrived, and considering they did a small tour and got an empanada on the way, I think wouldn’t be odd to say he wasn’t around when Miles arrived. My theory is that he was taking care of his own stuff, and once he knew that Miles was around, went to get Mayday to present her to Miles.

I think that’s pretty normal all things consider, he loves Miles and wouldn’t had fixed things with MJ and had his daughter without her, of course he would want the two of to met.

The enthusiasm is all things consider pretty sweet, and while I don’t approve of some things he does (like giving her a web shooter while being just a few months old?) Is one of those things that are part of superhero writing that has the children technically doing things that they shouldn’t be doing for their age, so I just let it slide because if I get hung up every time I see something like this, it would not end.

I’m the only one who is actually mad about this comment?

Yes, is a joke, I get that, and Peter is trying to take as much as steam off Miles by trying to frame him on the light that he messes up, but is just who he is.

It doesn’t make me any less annoyed.

For starters, I feel like I am rereading Percy Jackson again (No I will not explain that reference.) Because despite everyone more or less knowing what’s going on (Hobie said before he didn’t know what Miguel was hiding so how much he knows is unsure,) no one has attempted to explain the situation to Miles.

This is a trope I had seen enough (including WAY too many times in the books I mentioned,) and I really resent when characters act as if the protagonist or someone else is stupid just because they are unaware of something. ESPECIALLY if the characters saying so are aware they don’t know.

They are also letting him believe is a good thing he is in HQ, but that is actually not Peter’s fault. I am mad with Gwen on this one, but also Jessica, and Hobie well, he should have known enough to be able to tell him seeing Miguel is not good news. At least Hobie tries to warn him as subtly as possible.

Sure, Peter just got here, but the fact that he is already accusing Miles of just messing up with the universe carelessly is not something that doesn’t sit well with me. Either he knows that Miles doesn’t know and is making an insulting comment, or thinks Miles is aware of the situation and just acted recklessly. The second one is the best scenario, but I feel Peter is presuming way too much for someone that just came around and should have known better than believe Miles knew all of these details while Miguel basically has a giant banner of “Not Earth-1610 Anomalies allowed.”

Also, sidetrack but what exactly does Miles do that isn’t just your typical spidey behaviour? Yes he doesn’t always have full-formed plans before acting but you can say that about EVERYONE in the room at that moment.

“He wasn’t thinking, is not like he works!” My ass.

Want my two cents about this moment? Peter has zero business telling this to Miles.

When Miles asks Gwen about her dad, she is crestfallen, she doesn’t like to believe this more than he does; but unlike anyone else in this room, Gwen cannot return to her home dimension. The best case scenario is if she isn’t there, her dad may not die; but that’s the best case scenario, and that involves again, not stepping again in her home dimension ever again. Her best bet is never to see her home, or anyone she knows including her dad, because not only she may end up in prison, her presence may lead to the death of her dad.

And who knows, it may happen regardless; he may be dead already because he is a police officer and she couldn’t be there to give a hand or save him (As she said she did in Into the Spider-verse, by the way.)

Yet at least, she is coming to this with the idea that her life is going to have to SUCK for a few years, things happening or not happening depending on where she is but none of this is pretty or fair.

Peter? As far as we know, he is done.

Considering the age range of the Spidey-characters, chances are Peter already lived the canon events he needed to live, at best they don’t know what’s next, which means he can operate as he feels is the best course of action.

Miles asked him if he would have let his uncle die, but Peter lost his uncle over twenty years ago, he had enough time to grieve, to accept the outcome, and find happiness after it. And to top it all off, HE DIDN’T HAVE THAT MORAL DILEMMA PLACED IN FRONT OF HIM BEFORE IT HAPPENED.

I find Peter’s words hollow because unlike Miles, he was never asked to not intervene in a canon event, he hasn’t needed to deal with someone from his universe dying while he let it play out.

I am not saying he didn't suffer, he did, and a lot; yet he was unaware that this would happen, is way different having someone tell you “Oh those tragedies you lived? It’s the destiny that keeps everything together, it’s rough but it is what it is,” than someone telling you “Oh you are going to live a bunch of different personal tragedies, and you need to suffer with the burden of this knowledge because is this or everyone in every universe dies.”

(How much do you guys bet someone will use this as an example of the trolley problem in a philosophy class.)

Since we are going in kind of a chronological order, let’s go to something a tad lighter both because it deserves mention, and so I can cool down before I start ranting in Spanish (which is not going to be saying pretty things about B precisely.)

Yes, Peter recognizes this is bad parenting, which is good because it certainly isn’t good; I also have trouble believing he didn’t know AT LEAST ONE spider that could stay behind and watch Mayday while he went to the chase.

However, I do think the chase was never going to be dangerous, nor Peter thought it would be. He has been Spider-man for a quarter of a century, he has been swinging around for so long is second nature to him, I bet he has taken Mayday on “strolls” which is him swinging around.

There is also another screenshot that really encapsulates that Peter didn’t realize how dire the situation is, but that’s for later.

There is also the possibility that he asked Miguel to do this as a way to distract him, but considering this is the only time he does this and is going around him being obsessed with Mayday (Which I think is a bit too much, but I blame more the writers than Peter for that.) I am inclined to believe this is not the case.

(Sigh) I promise to try to be neutral, so I need to bring this up.

What they were talking about earlier can be lumped to a bit later on, and I decided to bring this instead of talking about it when Miles and Peter saw each other (which is I didn’t bring because what I could say would be the same as this.) Because this is something really beautiful that I didn’t want to leave out.

I think that’s what angers me the most about this, because in a vacuum? I love this.

I am a sucker for found family tropes, I love the idea that Miles would grow to see people like Peter B, Noir, and so forth as a family. I love how Peter says how much Miles means to him and meeting him changed his life for the better.

Peter B loves Miles, he said that in the last movie; I can’t just erase that.

However, is exactly because of this scene, that what happens next makes me so sad.

Oh, Miles.

I didn’t mention it in the previous image nor did I took detailed screenshots for the sake of my sanity and to not turn this way too long. (Though I may do it in another moment- Ok I need to focus.)

Miles was obviously affected by what Peter said to him, it obviously means a lot because Miles also loves Peter; of all the spiders in the gang he was the one who he spent the most time initially; he wouldn’t be the Spider-man he is today without him.

And it breaks my heart how Miles says this.

Look at the angle, at his posture; Miles can’t even turn to say this to Peter’s face because it hurts so much. He looks so small in that shot, trying to emphasize how he is just a teen, how he really loves them so much, and it breaks his heart to know that they could visit him, and they didn’t.

Let’s remember what he was doing at the beginning of the movie; he was trying to study physics. He is great at it, and he was since the first movie, however, this is clearly not his passion; he loves his art and even if he didn’t know what he wanted to do yet in the first movie, you can see how much he loves what he does.

And he was willing to leave all of that aside, just to see Gwen, Peter and the others again; because as far as he knew there wasn’t any other way. Remember, he was aiming at Princeton; he would need to bleed and work hard to get there, and even after, being in this field it was not going to be a walk in the park; getting to make the dimensional travel work (At least without seeing Miguel’s technology like Hobie seemed to do;) was also going to be hard.

Miles wanted to do all of that for them, and them? They didn’t.

Now; I don’t blame Gwen in this scenario.

I had said this much in this post before, and a bunch of others too. Gwen was stuck with the Spider Society; and yet she risked losing everything, from homelessness to prison, to spend an afternoon with Miles the second she had an excuse.

What is Peter’s excuse?

He couldn't, he couldn't.

That's what he had to say for himself.

Here is the thing: I am not sure I buy it.

Gwen makes sense to me, Miguel didn't want Gwen to be involved since the beginning and obviously doesn't trust her when is about Miles; Gwen wasn't exactly wrong to fear she would get kicked out if she acted out of line.

Peter? I have my doubts.

We don't know Miguel's and Peter B's relationship (I know some shippers have some ideas, not my cup of tea but I have no problem if people like it.) However, we know that Peter B was there when Miguel's dimension collapsed, later in the movie we saw what Miguel did to Gwen for what happened (believe me, we will get there.)

Even if that was the case; Peter’s situation is much less dire than Gwen’s. Even if Peter could be kicked out of the organization for disobeying Miguel; he would still have his wife, his house, his daughter. He would had been in the same spot he was at the end of the first movie, if not better because now he would had a chance to know both him and Miles would be okay.

I am getting ahead of the post here, but I honestly don’t know how much of Canon BS Peter believes; he clearly doesn’t think Miles is bad for being an anomaly, nor his daughter (technically because Peter wasn’t supposed to meet Miles, he wouldn’t have his daughter. Is certainly a NO in the comics.) Miguel is convinced that Miles’ presence is enough to create more holes in the multiverse; Gwen obviously doesn’t share that view. Peter? I don’t know if he thinks there is actually something to lose for visiting him.

One way or another, he doesn’t really give me a reason here; who knows, maybe when Beyond comes there would be enough information for me to admit Peter did the right thing. For now? No.

Here, we have Miles telling Peter he wanted to meet them so badly, and even if Peter doesn't have a clue of how literal Miles is; you can hear it in his voice, in his posture, how he still cannot look at Peter because to that point it hurts.

And what's Peter's response to this?

(Deep breath,) Boy at moments like this I really wish I didn't think so hard about media.

It hurts me, and it angers me, because it is a pretty sweet moment, but when you think hard about it, it just becomes messy.

I could make an entire discussion about how Peter literally ignored Miles’ feelings about not being there, about how he and others (Gwen not really, the others eehhh hard to say;) didn’t try too reach him, which obviously makes him feel like they don’t care about him as he does. And Peter decide to ignored it.

But! I will try to give him the benefit that this is a tense situation, there is hundreds of spiders looking for them, and there only have so much time. I am going to believe, Peter couldn’t address that at the moment because they had other issues.

Yet even if we omit that point, do you guys realize this is literally no different that his entire spiel about Uncle Ben, right?

Because that’s what he is trying to say, “Spider-man has to suffer, but hey sometimes good things can happen anyways.” This entire conversation is about trying to make Miles follow him, do whatever Miguel is trying to do to avoid having Miles go to his dimension (or at least stop him from saving his dad,) and basically let her dad die.

Look, there is nuance to this situation; Peter isn’t saying this to manipulate Miles, he believes this. He truly believes bad things had to happen to keep the universe from falling apart; I am convinced Miguel’s second universe didn’t fall for his Canon theory, yet Peter B was there, I can’t blame the guy for drinking the kool-aid a bit more than the others.

This doesn’t change the fact that this scene has Peter ignoring Miles’ pain, and try to tell him he needs to suffer some more because “is just how the universe works!”

(Sidenote but anyone can’t help to see this and think of a random Christian telling someone after they lived a personal tragedy “Is just G-d’s plan”? Because I saw that a lot.)

Now, I guess the next question someone may be wondering is, do I believe Peter was being honest with Miles here?

...I don’t know, I really, don’t know.

I had seen this scene multiple times, and I lost count how many times when I was in the theatre, seeing this scene, and thinking “he knew” just for the next moment thinking “he didn’t know.”

If you want my two cents, the part that keeps tripping me over is how he looks at his watch, then Miles, then the watch, it makes me wonder if he is screaming that he doesn’t have his location to Miguel, or to Miles.

I don’t want to believe Peter purposefully drive Miles away so he could get trapped, when he says to Miles “I didn’t know, I promise;” I want to believe him.

The thing is, the outcome he hoped wasn’t that much different, now was it?

He wanted it to be Miles decision, yet again, he was trying to get Miles to not just abandon his morals (as well as the ones every Spider-person should have,) but also try to tell him he needs to suffer for the good of the world.

(I am having SO many flashbacks to things I read about cults, I need to continue working on that post about the Spider Society ffs.)

This is a small detail, but I gotta say; Peter do you really have nothing on your defense?

Look, feel free to believe I am playing favourites, but unlike many people who had a problem with Gwen, I don't blame her for hiding this.

No, I don't think what she did was right. Let’s not get things twisted. I definitely think Gwen shouldn’t had hide this stuff, yet she in general NEVER, had a good idea of how much to say and how much to keep with anyone she talks to; from her dad to Jess to Miles. Once again this is an aspect I can’t get mad at her because she is sixteen and traumatized with a minimal support network and irresponsible guardians.

Now Peter, what’s YOUR excuse?

Not just for not telling something to Miles earlier, I could believe he would have done it if the situation has calmed down. No, Miles asked them about it, and even a bit later says “That’s why you guys never came to see me;” (Which I think is kind of BS but let’s not get ahead of myself on this one.) The thing is that when he has the teen he mentored being manhandled by his ‘friend,’ and said thing asks them to answer him; Peter just ducks.

Like he cannot even see Miles and admit he shouldn’t have done that.

Gwen’s excuse isn’t much better but at least she is answering and you can see in her face how much she knows she fucked up.

I am going to be honest, this little detail wouldn’t bother me as much if what has happened before and what’s yet to happened didn’t exist, yet it does.

There is a difference in “Well you did a little mistake but I can let slide” vs “There are so many things wrong here that I will call you out even for the tiny ones.” Granted Peter isn’t that bad, but is a nuance I think a lot of people don’t think of.

Could Peter haven't said anything because the scene is trying to focus on Miles and Gwen for this part? Yes; it doesn't stop me from getting annoying.

Okay, Miles says this, do I believe it? Ehh not sure.

Gwen definitely not the case, if she truly thought him being an anomaly was a problem, she wouldn't have gone to see him directly.

Peter? Again, I have no idea how much of the kool-aid he has been drinking, the fact that he speaks highly of him and his daughter as good things that has happened makes me inclined to believe he doesn't.

We don't have an answer either way, right?

Not that Peter does much to help him feel better here. Yes yes trying to keep focus on certain characters I know.

(Looks at the camera like is the office.) And now THIS is the time where I wish I wasn’t aware of how writing works.

Okay, I know what the purpose of Peter is, aside of being here as a mentor, he is here kind of as a comic relief. He doesn’t have the same narrative weight as he had in the last movie, and he is here to be cute with his baby for the most part. That’s his purpose at this moment.

It-doesn’t-change-anything.

He has this recurring joke on the third act about if he is or not a good mentor, and it kind of has to do with the last movie, specially this joke, since at the end he was also talking how he taught him something he definitely didn’t do. Last movie I found it cute, here? Not so much.

I am trying not to be hard here and why I would not address the “son of a mother” moment (which I honestly really hate,) because this is not even Peter B’s fault at this point; the writers were trying very hard to have a way to make the situation a tad lighter while also having an important character be in character. I can’t say is truly out of character, but I’m not appreciating it.

Especially having him insist on being a good mentor after letting down his protege MULTIPLE TIMES.

Don't you guys love when you see a grown-ass adult go apeshit on a teen, and his friends aren't doing anything to stop him?

Sorry, yeah I understand that for narrative purposes, they have to be stuck to the ground, but after someone pointed this out a few weeks ago, I can't stop thinking of this shot so I needed to bring it out.

(BIG sidenote but, Margo is the biggest MVP here; girl met Miles once and probably has little to no context, yet she is helping him out. Queen behavior.)

Now let's talk about some bullshit.

I know this is technically not about Peter, considering this is Miguel talking to Gwen, yet I find LAUGHABLE this response.

I will give this to the spider//dad shippers, I would also be inclined to believe Miguel has a thing for Peter B if between the guy who had the "fugitive" in close quarters for a few minutes yet did not attempt to trap him, vs the teen girl who tries to help out her mentor to catch the dude (even if she didn't try too hard,) you decide the teen girl is the problem.

Is funny because really all this scene needs is Miguel saying "If it wasn't for you, he wouldn't have come here, he wouldn't had know and the Spot wouldn't have escaped," at least that much couldn't have been said for Peter B.

I think the writers were trying to make Miguel just look less and less reasonable the more we saw on screen; which is why he would go with route.

It doesn't change the fact that Mighel accusing Gwen of not capturing him is laughable.

YOU 👏 ARE 👏 A 👏 TERRIBLE 👏 MENTOR.

(This moment could be addressed individually, but they are basically the same thing and this post is DEFINITELY too long; seriously I had written fics shorter than this wtf.)

Here is my problem with this: He just decides that oh well, what can he do.

SERIOUSLY?!

Forget the "Oh but he doesn't do this the story-" for a moment; are you seriously telling me that not only this guy knows Miles is in a PRETTY fucked up situation, but also that Gwen is in her home universe where she will be homeless (because there is no way in hell Peter B doesn't know what happened to her,) and you decide to just, go brooding in your dimension?

You know is absolutely amazing how I had heard people grill Miguel and Jess for their behavior with Gwen (which I agree with for the most part,) yet I haven't seen anyone say "Isn't it a bit fucked up that Peter B should have known what would happen to Gwen if she went home and didn't decide to help her?"

Miguel is on Earth 1610 and hellbent on finding Miles, you cannot tell me if Peter B left his daughter with his wife, and then went to fetch Gwen, Miguel would have noticed. At the very least Peter could had try to check on her.

Peter B has known Gwen for longer than Jess and Miguel, even if he couldn't be a proper guardian for her because he was busy with his life, he could have been more present. He definitely could have attempted to defend her better when Miguel was screaming at her, or to look after her when she was kicked to her universe.

Jess is determined to act as if Gwen is more of an employee than a teen, but Peter B should be known better.

But is not his idea to help Miles, is Gwen's; because right now he is too focused on his life and his duty as spiderman to think of the younger generations that are hurting. Just like Miguel and Jess.

Yet not the narrative, nor the fandom, truly recognizes that.

Let’s wrap this up, you guys have no idea the amount of hours I had spend on this and I would be surprised if someone got this far.

As a small detail, Peter is seen with Mayday, and this time I DO have a problem with it.

I honestly hope Peter isn’t with Mayday in Beyond, I will pretend Peter doesn’t have Mayday during the events on Beyond in my fics for as long as I can; because this is the moment where I feel the joke is being pushed too far.

They don’t know what would happen next, they don’t know in what type of situation they are in, they know whatever universe ended was one with no spiderman so it has to be dangerous; yet he brings the baby because that’s his recurring theme for this movie.

And truly, that’s really the problem with his character here: He was given a small role to do with very limited things to do.

I am not saying this is bad writing; I may not like Peter’s decisions in this movie, and I am really hoping beyond gives a big ass cup of “Adults need to start protecting the younger generations instead of insist they need to toughen up” to all of them. Because more than his role, I am annoyed that neither the movie nor the fandom is addressing the failings of Peter B.

He is not a bad character, I don’t even think he is a bad character in this movie. I like him, and even if writing all of this down made realize I am more bitter about it than I would had liked; I just don’t think is fair.

I want Peter to be better, as a mentor, as a father; and I am really hoping the next movie shows him grow that way too. I do believe the writers can pull it off.

Now, the fandom addressing that?...That I have MUCH less confidence. But not gonna lie this post was made mostly to get this out of my chest rather than expect a reaction out of it.

If anyone made this far, first of, wow; I know some people were interesting in reading this, but even I think I went for a while I put a lot of things that are small details but you guys now me, it wouldn’t be me if I didn’t do that.

Be thankful I don’t talk about micro-expressions in frames or this would truly would had ended up as a novelette.

Second, thank you for reading! Give a like and your opinion if you want; because I am pretty sure this post is doing to have fewer notes.

[em-prentiss]

get to know your moots

Thank you to @justwanted2dance for the tag💗

what’s the origin of your blog title? Emily prentiss :3 that's literally it, her name mashed together. Possibly the least creative thing I could've come up with but I was desperate for an ao3 account and couldn't be bothered to think of a new one for tumblr

otp(s) + shipname(s): Aaron Hotchner/Emily Prentiss (hotchniss), Daisy Johnson/Jemma Simmons (skimmons), Steve Rogers/Natasha Romanoff (romanogers), Natasha Romanoff/Maria Hill (blackhill), I feel like I'm missing a lot though

favorite color: Purple and blue :)

favorite game: Hmm, Mario Kart? I very rarely play any type of game

song stuck in your head: I knew it, I know you by gracie abrams

weirdest habit/trait? I don't think these are weird per se - maybe off putting lol - but peeling my lips and breaking down my nails (help idk how to describe it)

hobbies: Reading, writing, crocheting, painting and drawing (though it's been a while since those last two)

if you work, what’s your profession? I don't! I'm a full time student

if you could have any job you wish, what would it be? My inner child begs to be a baker/librarian though I know I've romanticized it beyond belief which would ultimately lead to me being disappointed lol

something you’re good at: Remembering stuff and crafts, I think. I'm good with my hands when I've had enough practice at something :3

something you’re bad at: Dancing, sticking to a routine, controlling my facial expressions

something you love: Cloudy weather and rainy days, hugs!!!, going to cafes with my friends, sweet treats, having a long drive when there's new music to listen to

something you could talk about for hours off the cuff: Oh jeez, my mind is so blank right now. Probably the feeling of nostalgia since I'm constantly drowning in it

something you hate: When people chew loudly or with their mouth open. Also having to repeat myself (this one is technically my fault, I don't like raising my voice, I'm a bit of a mumbler but damnn can you listen??)

something you collect: Mugs

something you forget: Putting food back in the fridge

what’s your love language? Physical touch

favorite movie/show: Shows: agents of shield, haikyuu. Movies: little women 2019, rogue one, princess diaries, the amazing spiderman, tangled

favorite food: cauliflower with bechamel (don't even try judging)

favorite animal: Cats!!!

what were you like as a child? Voracious bookworm, shy on my own but loud with friends (I'm still like this tbh)

favorite subject at school? Biology (up until a levels lmao)

least favorite subject? PHYSICS

what’s your best character trait? Uhh I'm not sure. I'd like to think I'm trustworthy? And pretty hilarious if I do say so myself

what’s your worst character trait? Way too caught up in others' opinion of me and never sure of myself, I'm also unfortunately quite lazy

if you could change any detail of your day right now what would it be? It's actually been such a good day today, so not much! Possibly getting to see my best friend because it's been a while

if you could travel in time who would you like to meet? My grandad (mother's dad), I think he would have loved me tbh

recommend one of your favorite fanfics:

-wrapped around your finger by @ssaemilyhotchner

-i hear her voice in the morning hour by @leavemurph

-reckless (just enough) by @eyesontheskyline

-someone to watch me die. by @criminalmindsgonewrong

tags if you feel so inclined! @leavemurph @twosignificantfigures @ssaprincess @duchessas @roseekara

[thewriteone]

High Water

a/n: Sort of a part two to Hell. You don't have to read that to understand this.

Another piece of fanfiction for The Lonely Shore (@thelonelyshore-if). Please go check out the demo if you haven't already, it's amazing. You won't know what's going on in this fic if you don't, since it's. Y'know. Based on that.

This is the point where I move on from speculating about canon events and swerve into the unholy amalgamation of personal headcanon and whatever I make up because I think it makes for a good story. Kind of like an unsteady house of cards built on the table of canon. Or an AU.

Written from Willow's perspective. MC is not named, but is genderqueer (she/he/they pronouns). Who doesn't love a family reunion!

Word count: 1109

cw: cussing

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It took an entire month of waiting before Willow could perform the ritual again. They hated it. Every minute, every second they were forced to spend waiting for the full moon to rise again was agony. It was then that they decided any magic that depended on moon phases was stupid, actually, and there should be an easier method to get what they want. …it was still kinda cool, though.

There was only one person in the world that Willow was willing to go through this for, and she was damn lucky for it. Their one and only older sibling, the person they were always reaching toward. The flame to Willow's moth. Oh, and how it burned each time they wondered if he loved them even half as much. They shook those thoughts from their head. Now was not the time.

Clouds rumbled overhead. It was a lucky break that a storm was brewing on the night of the full moon. Just like last time. They couldn't be sure what part of the interrupted ritual had led to their sibling being whisked away, so it was important to match every detail possible. As soon as the clock ticked over, they began.

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Willow finally managed to drag themself ashore, dripping with unhappiness and lake water. The only thing keeping their mood from souring completely was the fact that it had worked. This was not their lake. Willow took a moment to wring out their clothing—based on what they knew about this side of the lake, the chances of their sibling disappearing on them was slim to none—before marching in the direction they were sure led to town.

Thankfully, they didn't have to go very far. While the fog obscuring their path wasn't thick, it still would've hindered them. They stopped in their tracks as a truck frantically pulled to a stop nearby, watching as who else but their beloved sibling burst forth from the passenger door. They scooped Willow up in a tight embrace.

"Oh my god, Willow, what are you doing here? How did you get here? Are you alright?" Willow relaxed in their sibling's arms, squeezing her back with the same fervor, and they couldn't help but laugh at her rapid-fire questions. Him worrying over them felt…reassuring.

"I should be asking you that! You've been missing for a month, you know." They pulled away and swatted Willow's shoulder.

"And just whose fault is that? This is the shit that happens when you go around doing wild and crazy magic without telling people!" Willow frowned briefly at her statement before smoothing their expression and shrugging. His tone had been light, but the note of accusation still stung.

"Technically yours for interrupting the ritual. And telling you wouldn't've helped. It's not like you would've believed me anyway." Their gaze drifted back to the vehicle now parked nearby, noticing their sibling did not arrive alone. A black woman with long braids and a gangly man with rectangular glasses stood next to the vehicle watching the family reunion happening before their eyes. The woman tried not to stare, glancing over at her companion from time to time, but the man scrutinized Willow with a piercing, near-black gaze. Like someone studying a bug under a microscope. They shuddered. Something about this guy was definitely off. They turned their focus back to their sibling.

"How is it my fault when I didn't even know what was going on? You could've at least told me something."

"Oh, yeah, because that would have gone over well! 'Don't worry, I'm just performing a magic ritual I've been researching. I know it will look concerning, but I promise I've got things handled.'"

"It would've been better than what actually happened! I had to watch my little sibling casually go for a stroll on the lake, before popping in for a dip. During a storm! Of course I jumped in!"

"You should've just trusted me! I'm not a helpless child! I knew what I was doing!"

"As entertaining as this has been, I don't think this is the best time or place for this argument," the man from earlier spoke up. His gaze was firmly set on the angry, dark rain clouds gathered overhead.

"Ravi's right. We should head back," the woman added in her two cents. Her voice softened as she spoke again. "I know your emotions are running high considering it's been a month since you last saw one another, but maybe it's best to revisit this conversation at a later time and with a clearer head." Willow glared at her. How dare this stranger act like she knew what was best for the two of them. Their sibling, however, felt differently.

"Jay's right," they started after taking a deep breath, running hand through their hair. "There's no use in arguing about this right now. Let's talk about this later, once we've calmed down." Willow deflated. They might be upset with her right now, but they still trusted her judgement. The two of them would just have to discuss it later. They huffed as their sibling introduced Ravi and Jay, greeting them mechanically. There was something about Ravi they really didn't like, his hand cold as they shook it. Jay seemed fine. Their sibling liked her, at least.

Out of all the things Willow had expected, an argument was not one of them. Feeling frustratingly like a scolded child, they buckled their seat belt and considered how best to reconcile while still getting him to see their perspective. They would fix it. They always have. Willow just had their work cut out for them, that's all.

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Bonus: Alternate Ending

"How is it my fault when I didn't even know what was going on? You could've at least—y'know what, that doesn't matter right now. Willow, you knew about this place, at least more than I did. Why the fuck did you come here?"

"What, I can't be worried about my one and only big sibling?" Willow scoffed, watching as their sibling's expression softened.

"You're as reckless as always." He shook his head at them fondly. "Now we're both stuck here."

"For now." Confidence rolled off of them, almost as semi-tangible as the fog that was present. "And at least we're together."

Their sibling wrapped them in another hug, less frantic but no less loving than the last.

"C'mon," They said, pulling away to lead Willow toward the truck. "Let me introduce you to a few of my friends." Willow politely greeted her friends, and though they definitely didn't trust Ravi, they felt light. Here in this moment, with their sibling by their side, all was right once more.

[nervoushottee]

Tlou S2 Ep2 Spoilers ahead

Okay….so

To start this off, I know TLOU game and I’ve played the game and I have loved the franchise for years.

I LOVED tlou2, the entire plot of it and everything despite a lot of its backlash when it came out (mainly for Joel’s death)

And watching episode two. Which is THE episode. Joel’s death.

I wish I didn’t know the game. I wish I didn’t watch the game and play the game and love the game like I do. Because interferes SO much with my experience watching the show.

Everything that wasn’t in the game: The Jackson Breach and Tommy’s fight with the bloater!!! I truly loved that and was excited and scared and TEARED UP because I thought Tommy was going to die during that fight. I LOVED how they showed the dogs use in the apocalypse as well and it just was a great scene overall. Like Tommy and Maria is the BADDIE IT COUPLE.

Also idk if it was just me but I think they had Miss Maria queen in some buss down faux lashes? Or are those her lashes?? Bcc they was MOVING and they looked beautiful

Joel and Abby and the WLF…it was okay to me. And that’s my reaction Truly because of EXPECTING how the scene was going to play out from the game. It’s like if you read a book and LOVE the book and find out they’re making a movie or show and you watch it and find out that add shit or change shit that wasn’t in the books at all. So it kinda becomes its own thing that’s trying to be what it once was at the same time. Does that make any sense??

That doesn’t mean the show is bad. It just means that is a show inspired by something else. BUT…at some times the acting sounds very forced. Like the lines that the add in there just doesn’t fit right. Like it does not give HBO MAX show. It gives Hulu or like Netflix (the new Netflix shows)

Like I’m happy they used the bat like the game but….eh?? Ya know. And I personally did have a problem with Abby not being buff in the show (I’m not hating on the actor!!! Please no hate to her bcc if I had the opportunity to work on the show you bet your ass I would do it too buff or not) because it’s a BIG part of Abby’s character but even so…

Technically she doesn’t need to be buff to kill Joel. Since he’s literally been shot down and his knee is fuck and he can’t defend himself. But idk, I didn’t feel the emotion that I was expecting to feel….like the way it was potrayed it just didn’t feel like it was passionate enough. And the final death with the like gold stick to the throat? It just was so weak to me?? Like yea Owen said to “finish it” but girl you was literally screaming and hurling that golf club at him and your fist just for you to just do a little stab?? Like you could’ve used both hands, you could’ve screamed you could pushed deep in there as a final parting…. Idk

Here’s my main problem with myself: Comparing and contrasting the game from the show and that is my fault. I’m ruining my own experience for the show but like I can’t help that.

If I watched that cabin scene like I never knew anything about it…I would’ve cried.

Now the acting was great. Especially Bella!!!

And Joel ACTUALLY TRYING TO GET UP WAS SO SAD BUT SO DAD OF HIM

From now on, I will do my best to look at the show as it being inspired by the game and not look at it as a live action version of the game. If that makes any sense

I think the reason why I view it that way is because how much of a good job they did with season 1 even with changing things from the original game. (Bill and Franks episode had me in shambles!!)

The rating of the episode for me is like a 7-8/10 But rating Joel’s scene was a 5-6/10 for me

[lunarsun12]

Not So Innocent San

Masterlist

Author Note: The pirates are back! Ahhh I’m so excited, my favourite is Shaboom in their new album. Happy Reading!

It all started 3 days ago, when Wooyoung gir blamed for everything including leaving the dishes out and sneaking out. Which he 100% didn’t he learnt his lesson from him and Yunho club adventure (Refer to The Club In Ateez Masterlist).

Then it lead to everyone in the family getting blamed, all claiming San told everything. The suspicious part Yeosang didn’t get blamed not even once.

What is the real intention of San action? Did Yeosang made him do it?

Back At Ateez Kids Chat

Today 1:00 am

Wooyoung🐈‍⬛: San!! We all knew you have pulling all those stupid pranks and blamed it on all us…well except Yeosang

Yunho🐶: For once, I agree with Wooyoung! I have to deep the clean the kitchen due to someone smoothie disaster!!

Mingi🦄: I feel bad for Wooyoung, he got the worst end of the stick

San🗻: I pull no pranks! It is clearly all of you did it except for my yeosangie of course

Wooyoung🐈‍⬛: Since when you and Yeosang are close!! He stealing my spot!!

San🗻: You should have thought twice, for ever letting Toby go!!

Yeosang🍗: What with all the noise? Ahem wooyoung, keep your feet glued to the ground

Jongho🍎: i couldn’t sleep! As Eomma gave me talk again and then Appa came along. Started to be cringe with Eomma. My eyes needs bleaching from that

Yeosang🍗: I understand for Wooyoung and Jongho. But why yunho and Mingi…? They don’t cause anything

Yunho🐶: Yeah!! San, I have been nothing but nice. Wait mingi what have you done?

Mingi🦄: Ermmm, I may not have posted something about San….

Jongho🍎: Spill Mingi!!

Mingi🦄: I may not have posted of video of him hugging Shiba one time…and the internet called him aegi San…

Wooyoung🐈‍⬛: My trick worked, half asleep mingi is the best!!

Yunho🐶: One day wooyoung, karma will get to you!! We were completely innocent

Wooyoung🐈‍⬛: Karma already got to me!! I have to deal with 100 million chores

Wooyoung🐈‍⬛: We digress, San stop with the prank!! We have gone through enough because of you

San🗻: Mmmmm…how about no ^_^

Jongho🍎: I hate it when he put that smiley face on! Also quick question? Why isn’t Yeosang ropped into this??

San🗻: Yeosang is never wrong in my eyes

Wooyoung🐈‍⬛: That what he used to say to me!!

Yunho🐶: This is suspicious…Yeosang was looking after Toby. Technically it is Yeosang fault

Yeosang🍗: No it wasn’t!! It is wooyoung who let it out the crucial part

Wooyoung🐈‍⬛: There’s more to it…you must have blackmailed San!! To do all this

Yeosang🍗: Why would I need him, when I can easily take you all down with Yunho + Mingi

Yunho🐶: You so sweet! You added Mingi

Yeosang🍗: You two come in a package…sadly…

Jongho🍎: Guys! Let’s sleep! San is not gonna stop, we just need to suffer until he is satisfied

The Next Morning…

Back At Ateez Chat

6:00am

Seonghwa🌸: WHO STOLE THAT EXPENSIVE CAKE! NO NO IM GONNA GET KILLED BY SOOBIN KIDS

San🗻: I pretty sure, I saw Yeosang eating it earlier!

Seonghwa🌸: YEOSANG! YOU GET YOUR BUTT HERE!!

1 hour later…

Yeosang🍗: Huh? There is cake? When? Give me cake!!

Seonghwa🌸: San said you stole it!! Yeosang you supposed to be the responsible one!

Wooyoung🐈‍⬛: Looks like San yeosangie got betrayed…

Yunho🐶: Maybe Yeosang isn’t behind this!

Yeosang🍗: It wasn’t me!! I was sleeping all day until you barged in!

Jongho🍎: It’s san! He did it!! He has been blaming everything on us!!

Seonghwa🌸: San is innocent! He always does the right thing

Mingi🦄: Eomma, have look at this!

10mins later…

Seonghwa🌸: WHAT IT WAS SAN ALL ALONG! He even tried to blame on Hongjong as well!!

Yunho🐶: Mingi, where did you get all this?

Mingi🦄: I remembered Eomma baby camera and decided to check

Jongho🍎: You said…you took it down Eomma…

Seonghwa🌸: Ooops, I forgot I will do it later later. Let me go find San!!

San🗻: You don’t need to find me! I am with Appa. You know how he feels when getting woken up..

Seonghwa🌸: When did you get so smart!! Why are you doing this?

San🗻: REVENGE!!!

Hongjong🏴‍☠️: San isn’t with me! Also stop doing these revenges or else you won’t ever get your Appa time

San🗻: I’m sorry…I just wanted to prove a point. That I am not pushover…I will behave better

Wooyoung🐈‍⬛: One word from Appa…he immediately apologised…

San🗻: Wooyoungie, I will forgive you! Being with Yeosang is really boring. All he does ignores me

Wooyoung🐈‍⬛: THANK YOU APPA!! San come one let’s plot something

Seonghwa🌸: This isn’t fair! One word from Hongjong, the kids behave! Give me you power!!

[itsbrittanybiitch]

not really a question per se or maybe it will be when I finally get all my thoughts out but throughout the hole and fake I was ruining for Eleanor like so much like I honestly feel bad for her the most out of everyone besides Simon and whatever stuff is going on right now. But now I don’t think I could sympathize with her more as I did in the beginning because like she is getting more un rational to me? like odk how to explain it 😭 but like her are always budging on britney and Alvin for good reason, but then they never make an effort to let them see their wrong ways. They can’t just really say something to somebody and expect them to change. You could yell at somebody all you want, but actions speak louder than words also in like the newest chapter, she was kind of a hypocrite.  like she didn’t like Alvin and britt for talking about those kids from the debate team but yet when she went to her friends, she literally let her friends start talking about Alvin and britney even if she did say it was fine for them to talk and even if she knew some of the stuff they were saying is true that’s kind of hypocritical. 

also, I really like how y’all do both the britney and Eleanor seen where like Eleanor is is having a nice moment with Jeanette and then britney sees it cause I don’t know this whole fanfic I’ve just felt bad for britt. maybe it’s cause I like the color pink but every time I just see something bad happened to her. I just wanna be there to hug her. 😭

i’m like really sad for her too because when the more I think about this whole fan as a whole, I realize how she really doesn’t have that big of a friend group people to influence her well because she was first friends and popular and she’s not like her regular friends I want her to get some friends of her own. 

(IM SORRY FOR THE RANTING IM JUST TOO PASSIONATE ABOUT THIS FIC🧍‍♀️)

but yeah, I feel like I’m like misunderstanding at these character on a whole different side like cause she’s such a good character. I love her and I’d like room for her and theater so bad but I don’t know I feel like her and bringing stuff another shout out like they did before

and I really want her to get like out of the drama that she’s in with like all of them popular girls (I forgot there names sorry😭)

but I also want her to stop treating britt as if she can’t handle herself like YEAH I know britt wasn’t OK after the whole thing with Jessica and whatever but still I feel like telling her what help better because it’s technically britt’s fault like as much as I hate to say that, and I don’t think anyone’s really at fault it’s her fault that Eleanor has to be through fear, but like it would help bonding cause y’all both have something to bond over?

But yeah😭 i talk too much and im probably gonna send another ask but I also just wanna see how much I love y’all fanfic It’s like my favorite ever like if I’m not gonna lie like every time I read it just get like the sudden urge to listen to Alvin and the chipmunks songs and watched movies over and over again and watch the shows so I love you all for that



I think you need to try and see the story from Eleanor's perspective. Imagine your entire life has revolved around your sister, and despite going through your own struggles, hers always come at first priority? That would be frustrating, and as a 15 yo girl, Eleanor isn't going to handle all of that (ON TOP of the current threats she just got btw) in a completely mature and rational way. Sure, she is usually the more level-headed of the chipettes, but she is still a child. She doesn't HAVE to be rational 24/7, and she shouldn't have to be! She is also going to make mistakes and say things she doesn't mean. Hell, she was mean to Brittany in the pie chapter, but immediately apologized. There is only so much one person can take before they reach their breaking point.

I don't think she's a hypocrite for letting Dom's friends talk about Alvin and Brittany. They were talking about things the two have done in the past, and Eleanor knows the two very well. She wouldn't let anyone say things about them that weren't true. Little Jimmy and Abigail were talking about individuals that they didn't know very well. THAT was what frustrated Eleanor.

I think you can feel bad for Brittany and root for Eleanor at the same time. Yes, Brittany is going through a LOT, and her realization that her relationship with Eleanor and Jeanette isn't as strong as she'd like it to be is going to contribute to that pain, but it's not necessarily Eleanor or Jeanette's fault either. They are not obligated to make sure that she feels secure all the time. Imagine that one of your siblings is much better at recognizing your feelings and understanding what you need. You too would go to them more often than the other, even if it was unintentional. This is going to contribute to Brittany's arc later, trust.

Don't apologize for sending long asks! If I didn't answer everything it's bc I missed it or misread it but I hope this clears things up! Sometimes things can get misinterpreted which is part of why I opened this up! It's better to see where the creators are coming from. Ask away! I eagerly await your other asks! :)

[hecatesbroom]

Weird writing questions for you! Numbers 7, 25, 32, 34 :)

Aa thank you!! I just answered about half of this ask when my answer was deleted (my own fault :') so here's attempt number 2 haha

7. What is your deepest joy about writing?

I think it's having a way to express my love for the characters and settings I write about, as well as getting to express my love for language itself! So: getting to use a medium I love to convey my love for... the world and its people (and stories, and characters), I guess? :)

Getting to share my writing with people (and finding a community because of it!) is definitely a great, of not the biggest joy as well — but I personally feel like that's more a joy of the result of writing, rather than writing in and of itself? If that makes sense!

25. What is a weird, hyper-specific detail you know about one of your characters that is completely irrelevant to the story?

I genuinely can't think of a single one, because I feel like every single detail I come up with about a character ends up being relevant to a story in one way or another! For example, I have this one OC who always wears some sort of knitwear. It started out as a random character detail I really couldn't find a use for other than characterisation, but the knitwear (and its varying states, as well as whether it was handmade or store-bought) eventually came to symbolise the state of his fraying marriage!

So: none, because the minute I come up with a hyper-specific detail, my brain decides it's Very Important, Actually and immediately finds a way to weave it into the story or its symbolism 😂

32. What is a line from a poem/novel/fanfic etc that you return to from time and time again? How did you find it? What does it mean to you?

Ohh I have a couple, but I think this quote (a bit more than a line, sorry!) from the locked tomb series really stuck with me. To the point where I put part of it in my bio!

"Bury me next to you in that unmarked grave, Joy. We knew that was the only hope we ever had–that we would live to see it through . . . and pray for our own cessation. Oh, we'll still hate each other, my dear, we have hated each other too long and too passionately to stop . . . but my bones will rest easy next to your bones."

I'm not sure what it is about this quote, but something about it (especially with the context of the story and this whole messed up relationship) makes me go a little bit insane over it whenever I read it haha. I think when I read this for the first time, I finally realised I was done for and proceeded to fully fixate on the locked tomb until my Tolkien obsession took over. So it marks the start of a pretty intense love for these books, I guess 😂 (I'll spare you the full analysis on this but ohh, there's so much to say about it even without the context of the series!! The imagery, the slight shift in tone towards the end!!)

34. Thoughts on the Oxford comma, Go:

Great, amazing, and show-stopping. So good I started using it in Dutch, even though it's technically incorrect here. It's amazing for clarity, and skipping it can provide some hilarious misinterpretations.

[batsplat]

holgieee... *head in hands* i don't have anything to contribute but i remember the brief period when he was considered a better prospect than sinner (remember when he won paris masters by beating 50 billion top 10 players? was it 2022? rlly feels like it happened 50 yrs ago... anyways and then he made 2 masters finals back to back(?) like crazy stuff rlly) and ofc there was the also just as briefly the whole new big 3 marketing thing w/ him, alcaraz and sinner because this sport has an unhealthy obsession w/ the number 3 for whatever reason. And ofc as the easily influenced person i am i was fully convinced by the marketing, like this is the future + i can't end up hating all the dominating players like i did w/ the actual big 3 so i shld invest!! then ofc i invested in the flop one... oops. joining u in the failed glory hunter box ig.

also random unrelated dasha fan anecdote but i remember i was trying to defend her play-style once (unfortunately a common occurrence) and somehow at one point one of my arguments was smthing like well maybe some of us enjoy watching double faults at 130 km/h.. anyways love my double fault king and queen.

anyways as always i love your tennis posts (and motogp posts too ofc) so much because sometimes i'm srsly like why do i watch tennis? like watching sports is a choice! its supposed to fun! so why am i constantly screaming, crying throwing up over tennis when i cld just stick to recreationally playing it poorly and have a much less stressful time? but reading your posts about the uniqueness of tennis as a sport, the rivalries, the psychological drama of it all im just like yeah.. yeah! thats why i choose to watch tennis and suffer. anyways all this is to say is although i ofc love all your posts (reading ur revolutionary girl utena posts, nodding and being like i rlly need to start that show... its been on my to watch list for yrs but my inability to start a new show-itis also hit at arnd the same time soo oops.. but also ur posts abt it are so good and i rlly need to get arnd to watching it..), i get especially excited when i see a tennis post because the way you can somehow eloquently put all the feelings i have abt it into words, so much so i just start nodding like a bobblehead every time i read one of them.

anyways this was supposed to be a short holger commiseration ask, idk how it got so wordy... srry abt that lol

no no pls never apologise. apart from anything else idt I could ever reasonably accuse anyone else of being wordy

yeah that 2022 paris run was life changing... I need to go back and watch some of the matches actually, the wawrinka win was deeply deeply satisfying and yeah then all the top ten wins... the djokovic match in particular. incredible. just felt like until around 2023 rg he had all the momentum going his way. I've actually been a long time sinner believer in that I always thought he'd Make It, which unfortunately is a belief that has aged extremely well. with rune I just kinda looked at the game and figured that besides a nasty cramping habit, it was kind of too good to not come off? I kinda feel like with many of the nextgen players who have ended up not being what they were billed as, you can point to something quite firm that's just *off* about their game. zverev for instance you kinda knew even around 2019-20-ish that the forehand really wasn't what it was supposed to be... I just think with men's tennis unfortunately it's so optimised by now that if you have any major technical deficiency, it will come to get you. obviously there's still variance with the playstyles at the top but you kinda need your bread and butter stuff - forehand has to be a weapon (zverev), backhand can't be a major weakness (berrettini, faa, tsitsipas), serve needs to be giving you enough free points and the second serve can't be a liability (rublev), and quite frankly your return has to be elite (all of the above bar zverev). also your movement needs to not suck (fritz). obviously medvedev is in a bit of a weird zone on his own where he's arguably Made It but also not made it in that way, and you could say that he himself falls short in several of these categories... but that was always his magic, right

and my thing is with rune I STILL think he does have all the fundamentals in place. there's nothing *technically* off about the serve or return, the backhand's a thing of beauty and the forehand... well, it's not bad enough you feel that it should be terminal. in 2022 and early 2023, it felt like he had so much to his game that if anything he had too many options and hadn't really figured out what kind of player he needed to be to win. I still remember that rome 2023 final with med so clearly where you could see quite visibly and drastically how he completely reshuffled his playstyle every few games upon receiving coaching - and it was such a radical shift that it must have been really tricky to play against. and he was getting a lot out of his tactics to just hang in points for as long as he could!! especially obviously against an opponent not renowned for generating his own pace, in particular on sluggish clay. that day, he didn't have the legs to fight it out... but it also still felt he had that Magic Touch about him. that ineffable factor that allows you to take all those top ten wins in a row in a masters, that odd extra something that makes it feel stupid to bet against a player until they're actually down and out. that belief you have with the big three or sinner/alcaraz that they just will find SOME way to win a match, even when they have no right to. and I suppose my belief in that should have already been fraying given he'd lost two tight matches to rublev at ao/monte carlo but. well. idk you could still blame the legs, still conclude it wasn't THAT consequential a loss

and he did have that magic touch!! him plus medvedev were basically the only show in town in men's tennis for the clay season pre-roland garros that year. rune's match against sinner at monte carlo (take me backkkk), that crazy one against bvdz in the munich final, the loss to foki in madrid with the 'personally I have nothing against the spanish people' thing, that crazy djokovic match in rome, the crazy ruud match, the medvedev match... idk there was just something so FUN about that, this guy who clearly is extremely talented but also an incredibly obnoxious brat who keeps getting involved in these stupid matches involving stupid drama... it was fantastic! ultimately the most depressing way you can look at it is that he's too interesting for current men's tennis. he's not got the discipline on the court and then he keeps having endless endless coaching drama off it... his head isn't on straight enough for this sport, and also he's not been treating his body well enough. unfortunately, this might just be the sport of the sinner's of this world... extremely disciplined, hard-working, unemotional, robotic. lacking in personality. not interested in much outside of the sport. no angst. quasi-disinterested, which is how I'd also describe myself with him at the top of the sport

anyway yeah! tennis! tbh I've massively disinvested myself in men's tennis since the start of the year - I actually think that sinner quote about sitting in the aeroplane back from ao and thinking about what he could have done better in the first two sets of the final kinda helped because it just definitively broke something in me - but obviously I'll never stop following it entirely. and women's tennis has been amazing for me this year because the girlies who could give me med-level anxiety have completely fallen off the radar with injuries, so I've just been able to enjoy the top level of the sport in like. a partisan way but not painfully heartbreakingly so. and I do think it's a special sport!! and I mean... thank god it's possible for players like dasha to actually have a high level career in wta tennis, like man what if I want to watch ultra-pushers without a serve do well. what then. it'll always be MY sport in the way nothing else is. I wish that the actual current sport, the current professional state of affairs, would give me more to work with... but in terms of raw potential, I really do think there's nothing that's quite like it. I wasn't ever planning on talking about tennis on here... I mean god knows, I wasn't even really planning on talking about motogp on here, one thing just sort of led to the other. I have like... extremely extensive notes and essentially essays in my notes about some of these things stretching years and years back, which at most have in the past been at times shared with friends or put in extremely condensed form on twitter. it's cool to have gotten a small audience with this stuff!! I'm a big believer in sport being Not That Serious but also kind of extremely serious and a fun and worthy subject of analysis. maybe one day I'll be able to dfw this stuff and shoehorn it into more serious work, or maybe I'll just continue putting it on tumblr dot com

[dancing-to-architecture]

39 - The Eagles - Hotel California (1976)

Ugh. No. I refuse. You can't fuckin' make me. Give me the screaming German chainsaw techno. Please!

I KNEW that Jeffrey Lebowski was My Guy as soon as he said the immortal line: "Come on, man. I had a rough night and I hate the fuckin' Eagles, man!"

Don't ask me why i hate the eagles. I know they're technically competent and all that, like they're good at what they do. I also have an irrational hatred of Josh Groban and he's technically competent as well.

I think it's a mix of being dramatically overplayed throughout my life and my just being wholly uninterested in any their work, or just a general dislike of most of the people who are vocal fans of the band.

Fuck it. Buy the hellticket, take the hellride.

•Hotel California-

Aww, fuck me, "she got the Mercedes bends" is actually a good turn of phrase. I never once caught it until I actually read it, though.

The line about "we haven't had that spirit here since 1969" only gets dumber and funnier the older this song gets. The dude orders "a wine" and it just blows this guy away!

So, uhh, the food? scares the shit out of the guy? They're all killer robots? But they just can't kill the beast? What the fuck is the end of this stupid fucking song even saying?

Fuck, i hate the Eagles and i hate this goddamn song.

•New Kid In Town-

This feels like 1976. Different singer? Feels a bit more folksy.

Oh boy i really hate this.

•Life In The Fast Lane-

One of the only Eagles songs that doesn't make me wish i was born deaf... might be because i honestly thought this was a Dire Straits song for like 20 years.

But, after reading all the creepy horny lyrics in the verses that i generally can tune out, i almost wish i was born deaf AND blind.

Might be because I've never been all that fond of cars, but why are there so many songs about wanting to fuck in cars?

•Wasted Time-

Breakup song. It's okay. I've heard better ones today, let alone throughout this project.

•Wasted Time-

(Me reviewing this album)

Yeah let's reprise the song we literally just finished, why not? And also give it the same title!

•Victim of Love-

"Clearly, everything is the woman's fault." 🙄

•Pretty Maids All in a Row-

Title sounds like the name of a porno. Interminably slow, with "I'm stoned and this feels deep" lyrics.

After listening to Leonard Cohen talk about similar themes this just feels even more trite.

•Try and Love Again-

It looks from the lyrics that he had a good thing going and went for something else and now he laments what he "lost" (walked away from). 🙄🙄

•The Last Resort-

Worthless hippies and their native cultural appropriation and inability to actually DO anything. Fucking Christian cults and their megachurches actively destroying this country in the name of God, then packaging and selling hope back to the dipshit faithful.

I honestly like what this song is saying, but i think I'd vastly prefer it packaged in a 2 ½ minute long aggressive punk song than some 8 minute grandiose soft rock epic.

Well, it's over, and i still hate the fuckin' Eagles. Next!

Favorite Track: i was initially thinking life in the fast lane but now i am going to say "the peaceful silence after the album was finished".

Least Favorite Track: E. All of the above.

[marzowo]

One more post b4 i sleep

Warning that this au is 1:A beast Au x Original Au mix

So its gonna make like no fucking sense

2:Ive never read or watched Bsd or beast bsd

sorry,im hoping someone will help my au makes sense

3: There are probably so many timeline incorrect things with this au,Aka why i got frustrated and gave up :/

Anyway first is the hc that i have,its a small one

But i hc that atsushis hair was originally black,and it turned white during his days in the orphanage and thats how the orphanage knew he was a monster (they didnt know what he was,but child with 'magic' in a toxic church?) probably a demon

They didnt know he was the tiger until later on

The next hc is a huge one :D

and it has to do with religious trauma,Im not going into detail but basically Atsushi has some severe,like some severe religious trauma,not only was he physically abused, The Orphanage's religion was used as a vice of punishment not only for atsushi but all the Orphanage kids,his was just the most severe(like cult typa shit,maybe ot was actually a cult)

Now for the O!bsd x B!bsd au

,l like to imagine for my ver of the au That theres technically 2 headmasters of the orphanage, The original headmaster and his son, when atsushi was a child he was a teenager Atsushi kills the original headmaster and its the son that gets into a car accident later in the bsd series, or you could switch it to atsushi killing the son and after he dies the father repents bcs he knows it was technically his fault.

[This is when shots starts to go downhill and starts to mention timelines]

Atsushi's orphanage bg is exactly like beast au,up to when mori finds him {i think mori might have gone to retrieve him} (this is as someone who nevee read beast tho,so im not sure if shes there but) atsushi escapes the orphanage instead of being kicked out,he roams the streets for awhile mostly sticking to alleys and he eventually finds himself close to ig one of the many bases that the PM has (idk ive never read or watched bsd or beast bsd) and elise is out running an errand(or something IDK WHAT SHE DOES SMH), we all know ellise knows shit she shouldnt,and she recognizes atsushi (idfk maybe she doesnt recognise him,she just finds his hair pretty.) but she takes him to mori and mori takes care of him for some time bcs why not (idk why i made this but,im now realising it makes no sense...) but mori gives him the decision of the port mafia or the ada (this is after a large timeskip btw,atsushi works in rhe shadows and noone,not even dazai knows he works for the pm,everything is essentially like cannon) and he decides he wants to take a break from the mafia for abit {this sounds like a wattpad fanfic,kill me now

and goes to work for the ada,just not in the usual sense, since noone knows who he is and he still works for mori (Queue Cannon) Atsushi basically is a hella good actor. [fuck this idea,all my homies hate this idea. Atsushi is an actor yes but he actually quits the pm instead and goes i to his found family arc.] he decides to join back the pm after the ada goes down Idk but the (current?) arc with dazai and fyodor passes and the pm somehow ends up unscathed but relocated and dazai goes missing [Last i heard he disappeared down an elevator shaft or sumn]

Idfk where this au has gone anymore

Yea :)))

Heres one more HC/AU thingy based off somone elses AU that i saw

The persons Au! - The tiger has the ability to steal abilities when astushi eats the ability owner.

My Additon to the AU: Now i hc that as WR atsushi ate someone who had the ability to change size and appearance (maybe a notorious criminal who didnt pay off his mafia debts) so when life got too interesting or dangerous for him he'd change age and looks and just start all over again (and bcs of his tigers regeneration ability, just like with deadpool he's essentially immortal)

This is a rant,its going on tumblr

UGH

My brain is too full :/

i didnt mean to make it this long tbh

Anyway im hoping somone will like my HC's and AU's and appreciate me pls thank u

GN

[arcadeviolet]

Huh interesting!! lol, yeah I have gotten pretty obsessed with nat but interesting thing is that I’ve actually started to get obsessed with her character as a whole in these couple months and when I first watched the show my fav character was Misty…. I DEEPLY RELATED to her and I still do but as i thought more and more abt Natalie’s character in who she is as a teen and as she’s been going thru SO MUCH also her adult counterpart makes me so sad cuz for all of that it just ends up that nat is the one who died first of the survivors after Travis😔 also Jackie and nat are my favs but my number one is nat and yeah also I’ve contemplated more abt Misty’s character cuz I relate TO HER SO MUCH but at the same time the things she’s done… the thing that really shocks me to my core is that she kissed a dead corpse (ben’s dead corpse to who she knew that he was always deeply uncomfortable with her touching him) and ik that Samantha hanratti(i think i spelt her last name wrong srry) said that the kiss was a respect thing and whatnot but it still makes me feel so disgusted

also the thing that I’ve done more is reading so much analyses abt the yj characters and any analyses abt yj!! I love reading them and ive learnt to understand a great majority of the characters and while i may not justify their actions many times i do understand it ummm but here’s the thing the actions and inactions that the characters have done is completely the writers fault (I’m not hating the writers but in a show like this I think it’s good to criticize different parts of the show) like let’s talk abt Shauna so for Shauna when I first got introduced to her in s1 ep 1 I didn’t understand her and I was very confused but in s2 i started to empathize with her and I got very interested in where her character has gotten from but s3 so ik that when Shauna beat up Lottie in s2 that was kind of a introduction to Shauna’s rage that we see more of in s3 and I liked how we saw the rage since Shauna just went thru losing her baby and that is so heavily traumatizing for a teenage girl but her punching Misty and then just yelling which lead to Lottie telling Shauna that they need her and for her to let it out… made me so surprised when Shauna ACTUALLY did let it out lmao cuz damn she literally almost killed Lottie

but whatcha think abt what I said?

yeah i think I get u

idk it's difficult to talk about... i tend to get pretentious when i can't express myself clearly lol so apologies in advance buttttt

the anecdote that comes to mind is an interview with david foster wallace (post modern author that i have conflicted feelings about) where he said authors' primary job is to make readers interested enough to read their stuff, basically that readers don't owe you their attention, you have to earn it. He also admits in another interview that his editor would sometimes catch when he had "ceased to identify with the reader," and made his work too technical or offputting or whatever.

Having interesting character parallels and character arcs, developing themes over time, complicating relationships between characters and morality, that's all great stuff. Looking at texts or works with those things in mind is sometimes called "structuralism," because it's about how the thing itself is built, how all its pieces are put together, all the connections that exist within it.

But like, that's the thing. That's all about what's *in* the text. I, as a reader/viewer/whatever, am not in the text, I'm outside of it.

I really hope that all kind of makes sense bc it's the best I can explain that when the show does something like have shauna calmly instruct melissa to sever ben's achilles tendon (permanently destroying any chance of him ever walking again) and then she holds melissa's blood-slick hand like it's kind of horny...

they knew they were going to lose some people with this season. They knew that whatever viewer they were identifying with, it wasn't going to be everyone (and it sure wasn't me).

[ladyintree]

tai thoughts for ep 3 😵‍💫

my mind is kind of all over the place with this one, mostly because there's a lot i don't want to speculate on until we see how her adult plot moves on, but i'm really happy that we've seen so much progress with her already 3 episodes in, considering how much of her plot in season 2 was so transitional. i said last week that i feel confident this is the season of genuine answers from her (particularly with the man with no eyes, and seemingly other tai), and i feel that even more after episode 3.

starting with thoughts about her in the teen timeline since we didn't get much. her shortness with shauna is still really valid to me. she loves and understands shauna on such a specific level. she also hates shauna on some level too. that's true in present day too. she spent a lot of the last 2 seasons going out of her way to do whatever she could to both support her and keep her alive, but she also got to a point where she knew that shauna wasn't always going to be receptive of that and tai can't kill herself trying to keep taking care of someone who doesn't want it. i think she will be ready to be there for shauna if shauna still wants it, but right now, most of her support for shauna ie more indirect (like telling nat to find a way to calm the situation between shauna + mari because she doesn't want shauna to experience what happened to jackie again, etc).

shauna comes blazing in when mari returns, and tai takes a dramatic step back - and i think it's possible she's clocking what's happening between her and melissa. it's such a small moment but she looks to shauna, then to melissa. shauna asks what happened and tai's the one to answer. shauna suggests they go looking for ben and tai's the one to snap back at her to say it feels like a foolish idea. i'll be really interested to see how tai feels about coach next episode, because for the most part, she and coach have had a pretty decent relationship - even going back to most recently where she showed concern for him in 1x07. i don't know what to make of her face when she sees ben at the very end, considering all they just went through to actually get to him, but i think it's possible she may end up being on his side (i don't know though!!) her comment in episode 3x02 about "who else could it have been" feels more like defaulting to what seems to have to be the truth rather than fully believing it (and i'm not giving into the theory that other tai started the fire until there is genuine evidence to any motivation for it other than people jumping to 'well fire bad, evil tai bad' and for the 100th time i hate you if you call her 'evil tai' <3).

anyway. on to the adult scenes. yay <3

of course tai is fixating on the waiter that died because of them (not directly their fault but happening in a domino effect of things they did... a routine they are very much familiar with from the wilderness. so far we haven't really seen any direct kills so their perception of this is always fascinating to me, especially paired with a clip from the next episode about lottie reminding them they let It choose). she's fixated partly because she's curious and partly because she knows she has to tell van about this eventually. keeping secrets from van isn't new, big or small, and she could technically convince herself that this is literally nothing, that it wasn't their fault, but she doesn't want to. she wants it to mean something. relevant also to point out that she was specifically reading about this man supposedly being 'a helluva guy.'

i just really love the scene of van walking in, saying nothing, while tai stops what she's doing but doesn't turn around to greet her, saying nothing. they're both hiding things from each other and they both don't know how to address it yet (and maybe if they even should) and it's just very, very tai + van to me. some things haven't changed especially after so many years apart and still learning how to be with each other again. so of course, once they make eye contact, she has to blurt out that she has something to say to her before she can change her mind and fester on it any longer. she already knows something may be up with van's health, good or bad, and she insists on her talking first. because maybe the waiter's death really doesn't mean anything, maybe she's got no reason to be so stuck on it - maybe van's health is worse and tai has to stop trying to connect dots, but that's why she needs to hear from van first.

and her instant joy at van telling her about her remission is both because van might actually be okay / might get more time with tai, and... because it gives her an answer that's been running around her brain for days now, and she is so relieved that it may actually mean something. i still have feelings about the idea of cancer being cured this way, and i'm skeptical about how all this is going to go, but i've always been on the side that doesn't want the show to ever directly confirm the supernatural but will constantly keep toeing the line and making us question the coincidences. like this quote the creators said recently:

They’re like, “Oh my god, it’s happening again.” … “Oh my god, if this is happening, it must link to the wilderness.” When in fact, it could just be a coincidence or a serendipitous intersection of circumstances.

so i'm going to keep moving forward with the idea that tai wants to believe that there's a connection between their 'sacrifices' and van's remission - but never confirm that that's actually what's happening. tai is someone desperate for answers and for some kind of control, so right now, she actually feels like she has control over whether van lives or dies. she doesn't, not actually, but she's going to keep moving forward as if she does. which is likely to have horrible consequences and force tai to lose more of herself in the process.

i'm mostly surprised that she told van about the connection she's made. i kind of expected her to keep going forward with it behind van's back, constantly trying to do things to keep saving her without ever letting van know her motivations or what she was doing at all. but also... she needs to know if van is thinking about it too. she needs to not be alone in it. which is interesting compared to when they were teens - when van was desperate to believe in something and tai was desperate to never have to give into it, often offended that van would try to pull her in anyway, causing so much tension between her and van and never actually working through anything. she wants to know if that van is still there somewhere.

the mention if nat hurts me because of how i feel about tai and nat's dynamic, how she's felt like family to tai, how she has barely allowed herself to grieve her. she needs her death to mean something too, the same way she needed her friends' deaths to mean something in the wilderness, by clinging to the fact that they're alive because of them. if nat was a sacrifice, then she can believe that her death wasn't for nothing.

tai chanting to the wilderness isn’t even like. out of the blue. it feels that way but the fact that it’s not makes it so much better.  between her look as she won the election and the specific direction for her to look like she was praying to her altar in 2x01,  and what i at least interpreted as taissa being fully conscious while she left something at the altar in 3x02,  she’s been doing this.  it’s not new.  she’s just actually saying it out loud and being actively intentional with it.  much like we’ve seen in the teen timeline — she was already doing these things before she ever said the words out loud (taking the bone necklace in 1x07 being the big one — to her finally actively using it + chanting to the wilderness during shauna’s birth).  

which reminds me, still bothered by the “tai only ever did the wilderness stuff for van so why is she doing it now" thoughts — because she was never doing it for van! that was just an excuse, a way to make others (and mostly, herself) think that she didn’t actually believe in it.  she doesn’t want to be perceived that way— especially after spending so long being so vocally against it.  but that’s the thing.  some part of her always believed in it subconsciously, and anytime taissa felt that,  it scared her.  that’s why she was so harsh with van every time she wanted her to lean into it + explore it more,  why she tried to forbid her not only from making her talk to lottie but talking to lottie herself.  but some part of taissa was always believing in it, too — just as we see when she steals the bone necklace in her sleep after spending the day belittling van for it.  “i’m only doing it for van” was a ruse, for others and herself, so her chanting for the wilderness in present day really isn’t as big of a stretch it may seem.

she is doing this now to help van, that part is true, but she is not doing it because van convinced her all those years ago. she was giving in herself. and praying to the wilderness is not van exclusive, either - the first time she ever actively chanted to the wilderness, while trying to make it mean something, was to save shauna's life during her birth + by akilah's way of making her understand how she could do it in a way that made sense to her. i love tai + van, but they're still two separate characters who aren't entirely responsible for everything the other does. right now, her motivation is to save van. but her making sacrifices to the wilderness has never been exclusive to van, and that's important.

tawny's always intentional about her expressions with other tai so while i do think other tai may be driving this, i also think our tai + other tai are merging together more than they ever have before (again to say, i don't like leaning towards the supernatural with this show, i think it's far more interesting as a way to represent her repressed self). i think it's about to get harder to tell the difference and i think that's the point. she's not becoming a different person, she's not giving herself away to other tai entirely, she's just... as lottie suggested last season, isn't suppressing her. but again, i don't want to speculate too much on other tai right now because i'm not sure where this is headed.

the scene between tai and van in the living room is so much. on so many levels. seeing them so comfortable with each other is so sweet and almost makes me feel like everything is perfectly okay, which isn't true at all. tai is not only still married (to a wife i assume is leaving her, good for simone) but also... has a lot to make up for with van. and i hope the tension of them breaking up the way they did so long ago is something that keeps coming back up and will eventually be addressed (and it won't be by tai, because right now, tai thinks she's gotten away with that and that she can ease back into this relationship so smoothly. i hope she's wrong, respectfully, because van deserves to keep standing up for herself). tai is so comfortable here and so ... carefree. again, it's not going to last, but it's really refreshing to see tai like this, even if it's only temporary.

"i can't believe i get to have more of you" is really sweet on the surface, but this line makes me ache for van so badly. it's such a tai thing to say, to celebrate the victory of van being okay and van being back in her life and move forward like that's all that matters. tai dumped van, tai moved on with her life without van, tai got married, tai and her wife had a kid, tai lived this whole long life without van because she decided van didn't fit into her life. and the second she needed van again, she bulldozed into her life without warning and here they are. "i can't believe i get to have more of you" is so ironic when tai is the one who chose to spend all those years apart from van in the first place. and van has called her on it before and i hope she continues to hold her accountable for that. obsessed with this line, obsessed with how many layers there is to it.

and directly following that line, one of my favorite details of the episode, the tv commercial says, "there's one low price for all this and lots more at the land of make believe," hinting at what tai's about to do to really keep them together now.

now to the most important part of the episode to me. the man with no eyes reveal. this was so unexpected to me and yet so perfect. tai immediately spots the man from her visions, panics, and asks van if she's seeing him too - because she's so used to being the only one to see him, to being stuck with him, to never being able to ask anyone else about him, it wouldn't be surprising if he's not actually there and that she's still stuck all alone in it. the small detail that she's actually told van about the man with no eyes somewhere along the line is really important too - last we've seen of this in the teen timeline is van telling her that other tai said she was following 'the one with no eyes,' tai asking, 'i said that?' and telling her she didn't know who that was - which isn't a lie, she genuinely didn't know who he was, just that she saw him. she's having such a full body reaction to it (girl i did too. what the fuck) and it is so fun for me to watch because you can tell so much of her world just opened up.

"holy shit, i must've seen that ad when i was little. and the man and... no eyes, and then my grandmother died, and i..."

saving this quote from the creators:

"Just to take the present-day storyline for a second, a lot of neuroscientists say that when you remember something, you actually don’t remember it; you only remember the last time you remembered it. If that’s the case, then there’s an iterative attrition in your memory. So you can see that the present-day adult characters are looking back but, do they actually remember exactly what happened? Or, through the process of repression and possibly suppression, psychologically speaking, perhaps it’s all become kind of a hazy goulash? Taissa sees something from her childhood that she forgot, and now she has a motivation and justification for always fearing the no-eyed man. But now she is thrown into deeper confusion about what it all means. All of those dominoes of memory may start falling into place, and they may actually have this wave of memory that starts sweeping them toward what I call a false pattern recognition in their modern lives. They’re like, 'Oh my god, it’s happening again.' … 'Oh my god, if this is happening, it must link to the wilderness.' When in fact, it could just be a coincidence or a serendipitous intersection of circumstances. We’re going to play with the wet clay of that, and not just play with it.

the first time she ever sees the man with no eyes is when her grandmother dies, and she sees him in a reflection. we only see his upper body, which makes this context even more fascinating - she only sees his upper body in her first vision of him because that's all she has the context for. she's only seen him in a commercial on tv. a commercial that scared her. at that point, but her mind can only make up that much of him, which is why we only see his torso + head in the mirror in her first vision. but over the years, he starts to manifest in different ways and she no longer needs to see him through a reflection. he starts to feel more real and present to her. like a real human being who is following her (or who she is following).

i've always saw him as some kind of omen of death / a grim reaper - and i think tai does too, whether she's aware and has processed that at all. watching her grandmother die is traumatic for her, and that memory sticks with her and manifests in this fear of a man she can place with what her grandmother says at the end of her life - that she doesn't want the man with no eyes to take hers. i think we've kind of been left wondering if she and her grandmother shared the same vision back then, but now i don't think they did. i think tai envisioning the man with no eyes from an ice cream commercial that scared her is her way of trying to make sense of what her grandma was saying.

in 3x03 as she leads them all to the lake, she feels him watching her. the show intended to show him but they took it out to show her looking at the woods instead - a choice i'm happy with because i think it works best to reveal him first in her childhood memory, and to not see him while tai is looking is important, too, because it's a reminder that she is often seeing things that we don't get to see, that others won't see, that she doesn't even know to be real or not. but that happens just after they've had a funeral for the ones they lost in the crash. she sees him as an adult in 1x05 when she decides to keep running for senate, despite being there to announce she's dropped out - right after that is when she sacrifices biscuit.

in 2x02 when she sees him again, he's leading her to the trees with the symbols that eventually lead her to javi - who they later sacrifice (and not just that; he brings the cards back that ultimately decides their fates). as an adult, she sees him again in 3x01, indicating that someone - the waiter - has died (and it feels like the first time we really see her lean into that rather than get scared away).

very obsessed with tai insisting that they go to this ice cream parlor. it's late, the place is closed, there's no reason for them to have to do this now (or, ever) - but tai has to. she's been desperate to understand this for most of her life. she saw him as something she couldn't explain and it drove so much of how she approached things - like how angry she got when the others started believing that a ghost was controlling the cabin. man with no eyes wasn't tangible and she couldn't understand it and that meant she had no control over it. she has to go to the ice cream parlor because maybe she can finally win this. she's compelled to it and she's crashing out and there's literally no stopping her from going - or getting in.

"you realize this is a crime now." / "wouldn't be our first."

am chewing on this line. just thinking about natalie calling tai and shauna out for pretending that they're fine, shauna telling her to leave them out of her endless pile of guilt, taissa lightly redirecting the conversation after. the other survivors sometimes see taissa as success story that isn't real, like she's above all of what they've done, but she isn't. she's vividly aware of what they've all had to do to get to where they are today but she is leaning into that now, accepting that that is the kind of person she has had to be to keep surviving.

she doesn't know what she's looking for there but it doesn't even matter because she can't live with herself if she doesn't at least try to find something. and i don't think she would've left there until she did find a sign. when they see the coyote, tai asks "what do you want" in the same tone that she asks the other tai in the mirror at the hospital in season 2 which is sooo rich to me, the way she feels so compelled to listen to It in whatever form it's taking. again i'm really excited to see where this goes even if i also have my reservations - i'm hoping that it is never some conclusive fact that it cures van cancer but i am interested to see how tai approaches the thought of it anyway.

the ice cream parlor number is callable and i've taken a bunch of pieces that other people have found about it / from listening (because they can understand it better than me <3). there's a lot of static noise, a comment about it being closed for 34 years (closed when she was roughly 9) but cuts back to a cheerful voice saying to call during business hours. "we're sorry we weren't able to chat, we were probably cooping out eye-popping delights to our customers." the flavors are all '80s/'90s band references: fudge honey, smashed pumpkin, cranberry dreams. a mention of hotdog water, cigarette ash, death, regret, a dead grandma's house (would potentially have a bigger connection to why she associated this man with her grandmother's death). after more static, more flavors were my blood orange valentine, mighty mighty boston cream pie.

"you know time is weird, the way a moment can feel so permanent even while it's melting away - like it never existed at all. all we went through to get here. beyond the swirling of cream and sugar, churning and then frozen in the dark."

"memory is meandering like a web of cotton candy. that bell, above our front door, I can still hear it ringing now. ringing. ringing. ringing."

there's morse code that says, "the screams are not what they seem." (i know this is a twin peaks reference but no i haven't made it very far in watching that show yet sorry <3 fun detail given everything else i know about twin peaks references though).

it ends with "i hope you'll try again later" which is probably a hint that the message will change - just like lottie's compound number continuously updated the message through season 2.

also, if you open the voice mail recording on a spectogram, it reads the words "it's hungry" which scares the shit out of me and i'm very glad i did not find this myself <3

a lot about mari’s story in the cave feels relevant to what’s revealed about taissa this episode, how she connects that tv show with one of her childhood traumas and how taissa connects a commercial with hers, and how she suggests that there might be two realities, so relevant to so much of taissa's arc.

seeing the man with no eyes in akilah, van, and shauna's dream sequence as they say "there is only one dream" - to directly imply that this is not just affecting the three of them but everyone, really gagged me. more quotes from the creators about that:

"I think it’s really interesting to understand that when their conventions of how they’ve lived are starting to deconstruct and break down and they’re starting to build up new ones, this idea that their dreams would sync up so that together as a group, they can start reconstructing society in a way that we may not think is healthy but that they may need to survive. This syncing up of their dreams is based in those cultures, but also something they can either totally lean into as a way to move them forward, or see as something toxic and corrosive that they then have to untangle from. There’s a sort of pheromonal effect, a cortisol effect. And then some of them don’t sync up. So there is a level of psychological induction going on of people being convinced that they need to be part of the dream to survive. We also put the “no-eyed man” in the dream, which was part of Tai’s, as if to say that their subjective experience is starting to blur and the space between objective and subjective experience is also starting to blur."

okay i'm tired and i'm finally done with my rambling but much to chew on in this episode.