#it was from maybe 2016/2017

[xamitras]

For many of years I had this tradition of drawing Wirt and the beast once a year to see how much I have improved, then depression hit in 2023 and couldn't continue, but it left so really amazing art in the process

[doctorsiren]

Made some new refs for some characters for art fight!

[britishdisasters]

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[rorauru]

guys I was a dragon at one point in time

[asavt]

I was organizing some folders in my computer, trying to make some space and what not, found some drawings from 2015, decided to make a little file comparing them (more like, putting them side to side)

from 2021 I don't have much?? for some reason?? in the folder for fully completed artworks

And nothing on 2022, but that's because the artworks from those year are in the folder dedicated to doodles (I need to organize that too.)

Then again the dates could be wrong, I've had some issues with my computer in these... eight? (fuck, eight????) years and I've had pretty much the same one from at least five before 2015 (even then, this was my mother's computer and I didn't need to change the CPU until recently, even then, most of the files have remained in the memory). Dates could be wrong.

Maybe I could redo some of my works before the year ends...

[batsplat]

if you could change the outcome of any 3 motogp races (the outcome of the championship doesn’t change regardless tho) which ones would you chose?

one of those asks that immediately made me forget every single race I've watched in my life. it's a tough one, especially with the championship thing... I'm gonna add another criterion here and say nothing to do related to injury/death

so... I came up with one quite quickly, then got stuck, then came up with a second and got even more stuck. I'm quite reluctant to change any 'plot-relevant races' in the context of specific careers and rivalries, plus I'm ideologically opposed to stealing any win off a non-alien and giving it to an alien. which then kinda left me?? well. stuck. I don't like these picks but well maybe I'll come up with something better at some point

assen 2018: I simply could not come up with a third race so I'll just throw this one in. dovi + valentino really really should have gotten onto the podium in this race, those were extremely podium-worthy performances, it was such a deeply silly incident between the pair of them that took them out of podium contention. also it's still seen as a classic race and... I don't even begrudge the two beneficiaries for their podium, it's just one where the three best riders that day didn't end up on the podium and I would change that!! I don't even really care that much but also look I had a spot to fill. would've enjoyed the rancid podium vibes, it's what a race of that quality deserved

sepang 2018: just deeply annoying? like, I think it was a super impressive performance, the consistent lap times trick from a 78 year old was very neat, it was cute when jorge did unprompted valentino prop for metronome solidarity reasons, it's one of literally two premier class races where valentino crashed out of the lead so I don't even hold it against him. but... well, that one might have been building to a battle between marc and valentino, and it would've been fun to see that! not least because of location + relationship vibes in 2018. I'd change the result in preventing the crash, don't really care who wins after that point - hey, they can crash each other out if they want. I Just Wanted To See It

styria 2020: bit of a niche one but I remember being pissed off by this so I'm going with it - this should have been mir's win without the bloody red flag. now I'm very sorry that maverick was just having an abysmal time in austria, peace and love to him, I'd probably never step foot in the country again after the eight days he had in that country.... but still, his bike attempting to murder him did ruin what really should've been joan's first win. I'm very defensive of mir's win stats and I was supporting the title bid with zero wins agenda once that looked plausible, but now that he's just gotten stuck on one win for quite a few years... well, again, I do think it's kinda iconic but I'd also let him have two. and back then he wasn't even really looking like a title contender and was still going for his FIRST win.... I was feeling very sorry for him so. there

[qazastra]

i would love to get to a place in my life where i carry around a cd player and listen to it with a pair of comfortable headphones

[colorstormx]

what if I renamed Storm as Zephyr instead. what if I renamed myself Zephyr. hmm. hmmmmmm.

[sawthatmountainburn]

I was going to say we need to create a social norm against whipping out your trauma as a trumo card in online arguments, but honestly a significant amount of people's politics on here are based on how triggered something makes them, it might just be a pipe dream. but still it's worth stating: just because a situation or person vaguely reminds you of some traumatic experience doesn't make it actually similar, nor does it make it appropriate to just lay out that experience in front of thousands of onlime strangers. a guy glibly telling annoying pirate show fans they should be having gay sex is not your shitty abusive ex nor does he need to know about your shitty ex. a politician raising his voice and being passionate about his beliefs is not the same as your dad yelling over crockpot, nor is it appropriate to bring up this story when arguing about why you don't like said politician. people wearing pup hoods at pride are not the same as your dad sexually assaulting you as a child, nor is it appropriate to bring up the assault in arguments about kink at pride. etc.

[thatonecrookedsmile]

With the recent news that Matpat is retiring, it reminded me of the fact that of the 7 Bendy theories he made, I've only seen one so far

And that was in 2018.

I'm going to have to watch these videos someday.

[aechlys]

That poor man, I don't think.....At this point something happened in 2017, the pictures seem pretty clear to me. Honestly we will likely never know unless an interviewer is brave enough to ask one of the band members about it and they decide to be honest instead of dodge (which is also very valid if they do), but I don't think it's what we quite thought originally. Something happened. I have stomach and diaphram problems, too, and it's around that same area almost exactly. It could also be heart related. Insane to think when you as a person suffer from a handful of truly bullshit problems, only for something totally random and likely unrelated to come out of left field and be the thing that knocks you down. Just crazy to think about. Maybe there's a sort of backhanded satisfaction in that, though- at least the chronic problems never did get you! 🤣🫠🫠🫠

Yeah idk, I think we may be wildly off base with the "consequences of voice training" thing, I don't think that's it...

[collegeoflore]

artist vs oc

tagged by @tadpole-apocalypse!!!

i tried so hard but this picrew is honestly not my fav LOL

human-adjacent xarrai bc i couldn’t make them purple. i tried ieriyn instead bc at least he’s human color but he came out way worse so u get xar LOL

i’m a monster so i’m just tagging anyone who sees this and wants to do it. go crazy :3

picrew link here :)

[moms-magnets]

Sometimes I want to trace all the way back to the before

Before time moved so fast I couldn’t keep up

Before my words started coming out clunky, like cold, dried oatmeal

Before my head caught between the airbag and the window

Before I opened my eyes and realized there was nobody left for me

I think, sometimes, about a person who existed six, seven, eight, nine, years ago

Have I always thought this way?

I’m trying to catch myself

My real self

Before they’re all but dissolved

In its current reality 

[blondephil]

lowkey forgot the radio show existed

[blu-s0da]

septiplier in the markiplier tag in the year 2023??? or have i been transported back to 2017

[rosones]

social media au - being an actress dating choi seunghyun pt. 6

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user - he gives 2016 tumblr vibes sooooo much

user - he NEEDS to post more selfies

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user - /@userlikesphotography231 considering the gorgeous silhouette + the fact that Top is obsessed with her, most likely is her lol

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user - so fucking excited for his comeback

user - as a VIP, I used to pray for times like this 🥹

user - already album of the year and it ain’t even out yet

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the following article was written by journalist Kim Do-Yun & published by Vogue Korea .

T.O.P Returns: A Candid Conversation on Redemption, Love, and ‘Exile’

By: Kim Do-Yun

Choi Seung-hyun—better known as T.O.P. for years, was one of K-pop’s most enigmatic figures: a deep-voiced rapper, a captivating performer, an artist who thrived in mystery. But mystery turned to scandal when his 2017 marijuana case sent shockwaves through South Korea’s entertainment industry. The fallout was brutal, the silence that followed even more so.

Now, after years spent in near-complete solitude, he’s back—not just with music, but with acting, love, and a newfound perspective on life.

Throughout my interview with him, he exuded a quiet confidence, different from the playful arrogance he once carried as a member of BIGBANG. He has always been measured in his words, but that day, there was something more—an openness, a willingness to be seen for who he truly is, not just who the public wants him to be.

Facing the Shadows

“I won’t pretend it was easy,” he admitted. “There was a time when I thought I might never return to music or acting. I felt like I had lost the right to stand in front of people again.”

Following the scandal, T.O.P withdrew almost entirely from the entertainment world. There were sporadic updates—glimpses of his art collection, a few cryptic Instagram posts—but nothing substantial.

“I needed time,” he said simply. “Time to understand my own mind, my mistakes, and what I wanted from life. I spent years writing & making music with no intention of releasing it. It was a way of surviving, I think. But at some point, I realized I didn’t just want to create in the shadows anymore.”

That realization birthed his upcoming album, Exile, a deeply personal project that delves into themes of isolation, redemption, and transformation.

The Concept Behind Exile

“I see Exile as a letter to my past self,” he explained. “It’s about being cast out—sometimes by others, but more often by yourself. It’s about wandering, finding meaning in solitude, and ultimately, choosing to return.”

The album is a drastic departure from his earlier work, blending experimental hip-hop and jazz influences. The soundscape is layered, atmospheric—reflecting the emotional depth of a man who has lived through both adoration and condemnation.

“There’s pain in the music, but there’s also hope,” he continued. “It’s not just about suffering—it’s about what comes after. How do you rebuild yourself when the world thinks you’ve already fallen?”

The lead single, Ashes, encapsulates this journey. “It’s about burning down what no longer serves you and rising from it,” he explained. “Not in a dramatic way—no big explosion. Just embers, slow and steady, turning into something new.”

Reclaiming His Place in Acting: ‘Squid Game’ and Thanos

But music isn’t the only thing marking T.O.P’s return. His casting in Netflix’s Squid Game Season 2 sent fans into a frenzy, a bold choice for an artist who had stayed away from the spotlight for so long.

“I never thought I’d act again,” he admitted. “I had offers over the years, but I wasn’t ready. Then I read the script for Squid Game 2, and something in me woke up. It was exactly the kind of story I wanted to tell.”

In the highly anticipated sequel to the global phenomenon, T.O.P plays Thanos, a complex and ruthless figure within the deadly games. Unlike the participants struggling to survive, Thanos is a former winner—one who chose to return.

“He’s not a traditional villain,” T.O.P clarified. “He’s someone who understands the system better than anyone else. He’s cold, calculating, but not without emotion. He knows what it takes to survive, and he’s willing to do whatever it takes—not for money, but for something deeper. Something he lost.”

The role demanded an emotional transformation. “The hardest part was getting into his mindset. Thanos isn’t just playing the game—he’s manipulating it. He’s someone who has seen too much, lost too much.”

The weight of the character stayed with him long after filming wrapped. “I think I related to him more than I expected,” he admitted. “Not in his actions, but in his solitude. In that feeling of being outside of everything, even when you’re in the center of it.”

Love & Chaos

It was on the Squid Game set that T.O.P met someone who would change everything—his co-star, Y/N. Their connection, first built through long filming days, soon grew into something deeper.

“She saw me for who I was, not just who the world made me out to be,” he said, a softness in his voice. “There’s something freeing about that—being with someone who knows both your darkness and your light and chooses to stay anyway.”

For someone who spent so long rebuilding himself alone, letting someone in was no easy task. “I used to think love was another thing I had lost the right to,” he confessed. “But she changed that.”

Their relationship became public in a way that no one expected—through a series of intimate photos posted on Instagram. They felt raw, real, and unlike other polished celebrity relationships.

“I was nervous,” T.O.P admitted. “Not because I was ashamed—but because I knew how people might react. I knew what it meant to expose something so personal in a place where people think they have the right to dissect every part of your life.”

Y/N, however, had a different perspective. “She told me, ‘Why should we hide something that makes us happy?’ And she was right,” he said. “For so long, I lived in fear of what people would say. But love isn’t something to be ashamed of. If anything, it’s something to be proud of.”

Now, with both Exile and Squid Game, their love story is no longer a secret—but he’s still extremely protective of it. “I don’t need people to approve,” he said. “I just need her.”

Looking Ahead

As our conversation started nearing its end, I asked him what he hoped people will take away from his return.

“I don’t expect everyone to forgive me, and I don’t expect to go back to who I was before. That person is gone,” he said. “But I hope people will listen. Not just to the music, but to the story behind it. I hope they see that exile isn’t the end—it’s just another beginning.”

With Exile set to drop and his acting career reignited, T.O.P is stepping into the spotlight once again—not as the idol he once was, but as an artist and a man who has found his way back from the shadows.

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I wanted to write that little article portion because I wanted to add something unique to this fic, this part is also why I took a little long to post something new !! I haven’t written like an actual piece of writing on this account so I’m like excited and nervous at the same time lol. anyway, I hope you guys enjoy reading this as much as I enjoyed writing it !! xx