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To my Dialtown family of tumblr dot com, I finally updated my silly Norm/Gingi fic again
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i want to mention that while yes, the conditions that palestinians live in is horrid, palestine is still a beautiful place.
there are so many stories of people returning from their trip to palestine and all of them saying that they were disgusted and horrified and the living conditions they say the palestinians were in were just awful, and while yes all of that is true, and palestinians do live in ridiculous conditions, i still want to make it clear that palestine is an insanely beautiful place. our mountains are beautiful, our plants are beautiful, our mosques, our churches, our olive trees, our birds. palestine is a beautiful place. it is the birthplace of both christianity and judaism, it is the birthplace of jesus. our temples are astonishing, our food is delicious, our culture is rich, and our diversity is beyond. our dances are beautiful, our clothing, our jewlery, our homes. each and every one of our lives is precious.
go to any palestinian home in the world and you'll see beautiful things. the west wants to get rid of us, to completely decimate every part of our existence, but we will not let them. and we need everyone on our side to help us keep palestine's beauty safe.
#this took me forever to write bc every 3 seconds i was coughing up blood#agh agh agh agh#anyway i had some pictures to go with this post but i felt like it wasn't a good place or smth#palestine#free palestine
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The Reluctant True Soul
#minthara bg3#bg3 minthara#minthara#minthara baenre#baldur's gate 3#bg3#my art#omg this took me forever#i went as far as i could#but happy with it yay#based on the painting by Toulmouche#will write more about it later
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if i can stop one heart from breaking â emily dickinson
#honkai star rail#hsr#sunday hsr#robin hsr#they KILLED me#this took forever bcos i was futzing with it for a week my bad#robin's named after a bird but sunday IS the bird#he even has an âinjured" wing (pierced) like are you kidding. he did it to himself.#UGHHH i could write an essay#penacony#hsr fanart#if i can stop one heart from breaking#emily dickinson#rizsart
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Fantasy Guide to Interiors





As a followup to the very popular post on architecture, I decided to add onto it by exploring the interior of each movement and the different design techniques and tastes of each era. This post at be helpful for historical fiction, fantasy or just a long read when you're bored.



Interior Design Terms
Reeding and fluting: Fluting is a technique that consists a continuous pattern of concave grooves in a flat surface across a surface. Reeding is it's opposite.
Embossing: stamping, carving or moulding a symbol to make it stand out on a surface.
Paneling: Panels of carved wood or fabric a fixed to a wall in a continuous pattern.
Gilding: the use of gold to highlight features.
Glazed Tile: Ceramic or porcelain tiles coated with liquid coloured glass or enamel.
Column: A column is a pillar of stone or wood built to support a ceiling. We will see more of columns later on.
Bay Window: The Bay Window is a window projecting outward from a building.
Frescos: A design element of painting images upon wet plaster.
Mosaic: Mosaics are a design element that involves using pieces of coloured glass and fitted them together upon the floor or wall to form images.
Mouldings: ornate strips of carved wood along the top of a wall.
Wainscoting: paneling along the lower portion of a wall.
Chinoiserie: A European take on East Asian art. Usually seen in wallpaper.
Clerestory: A series of eye-level windows.
Sconces: A light fixture supported on a wall.
Niche: A sunken area within a wall.
Monochromatic: Focusing on a single colour within a scheme.
Ceiling rose: A moulding fashioned on the ceiling in the shape of a rose usually supporting a light fixture.
Baluster: the vertical bars of a railing.
Façade: front portion of a building
Lintel: Top of a door or window.
Portico: a covered structure over a door supported by columns
Eaves: the part of the roof overhanging from the building
Skirting: border around lower length of a wall
Ancient Greece
Houses were made of either sun-dried clay bricks or stone which were painted when they dried. Ground floors were decorated with coloured stones and tiles called Mosaics. Upper level floors were made from wood. Homes were furnished with tapestries and furniture, and in grand homes statues and grand altars would be found. Furniture was very skillfully crafted in Ancient Greece, much attention was paid to the carving and decoration of such things. Of course, Ancient Greece is ancient so I won't be going through all the movements but I will talk a little about columns.
Doric: Doric is the oldest of the orders and some argue it is the simplest. The columns of this style are set close together, without bases and carved with concave curves called flutes. The capitals (the top of the column) are plain often built with a curve at the base called an echinus and are topped by a square at the apex called an abacus. The entablature is marked by frieze of vertical channels/triglyphs. In between the channels would be detail of carved marble. The Parthenon in Athens is your best example of Doric architecture.
Ionic: The Ionic style was used for smaller buildings and the interiors. The columns had twin volutes, scroll-like designs on its capital. Between these scrolls, there was a carved curve known as an egg and in this style the entablature is much narrower and the frieze is thick with carvings. The example of Ionic Architecture is the Temple to Athena Nike at the Athens Acropolis.
Corinthian: The Corinthian style has some similarities with the Ionic order, the bases, entablature and columns almost the same but the capital is more ornate its base, column, and entablature, but its capital is far more ornate, commonly carved with depictions of acanthus leaves. The style was more slender than the others on this list, used less for bearing weight but more for decoration. Corinthian style can be found along the top levels of the Colosseum in Rome.
Tuscan: The Tuscan order shares much with the Doric order, but the columns are un-fluted and smooth. The entablature is far simpler, formed without triglyphs or guttae. The columns are capped with round capitals.
Composite: This style is mixed. It features the volutes of the Ionic order and the capitals of the Corinthian order. The volutes are larger in these columns and often more ornate. The column's capital is rather plain. for the capital, with no consistent differences to that above or below the capital.
Ancient Rome
Rome is well known for its outward architectural styles. However the Romans did know how to add that rizz to the interior. Ceilings were either vaulted or made from exploded beams that could be painted. The Romans were big into design. Moasics were a common interior sight, the use of little pieces of coloured glass or stone to create a larger image. Frescoes were used to add colour to the home, depicting mythical figures and beasts and also different textures such as stonework or brick. The Romans loved their furniture. Dining tables were low and the Romans ate on couches. Weaving was a popular pastime so there would be tapestries and wall hangings in the house. Rich households could even afford to import fine rugs from across the Empire. Glass was also a feature in Roman interior but windows were usually not paned as large panes were hard to make. Doors were usually treated with panels that were carved or in lain with bronze.
Ancient Egypt
Egypt was one of the first great civilisations, known for its immense and grand structures. Wealthy Egyptians had grand homes. The walls were painted or plastered usually with bright colours and hues. The Egyptians are cool because they mapped out their buildings in such a way to adhere to astrological movements meaning on special days if the calendar the temple or monuments were in the right place always. The columns of Egyptian where thicker, more bulbous and often had capitals shaped like bundles of papyrus reeds. Woven mats and tapestries were popular decor. Motifs from the river such as palms, papyrus and reeds were popular symbols used.
Ancient Africa
African Architecture is a very mixed bag and more structurally different and impressive than Hollywood would have you believe. Far beyond the common depictions of primitive buildings, the African nations were among the giants of their time in architecture, no style quite the same as the last but just as breathtaking.
Rwandan Architecture: The Rwandans commonly built of hardened clay with thatched roofs of dried grass or reeds. Mats of woven reeds carpeted the floors of royal abodes. These residences folded about a large public area known as a karubanda and were often so large that they became almost like a maze, connecting different chambers/huts of all kinds of uses be they residential or for other purposes.
Ashanti Architecture: The Ashanti style can be found in present day Ghana. The style incorporates walls of plaster formed of mud and designed with bright paint and buildings with a courtyard at the heart, not unlike another examples on this post. The Ashanti also formed their buildings of the favourite method of wattle and daub.
Nubian Architecture: Nubia, in modern day Ethiopia, was home to the Nubians who were one of the world's most impressive architects at the beginning of the architecture world and probably would be more talked about if it weren't for the Egyptians building monuments only up the road. The Nubians were famous for building the speos, tall tower-like spires carved of stone. The Nubians used a variety of materials and skills to build, for example wattle and daub and mudbrick. The Kingdom of Kush, the people who took over the Nubian Empire was a fan of Egyptian works even if they didn't like them very much. The Kushites began building pyramid-like structures such at the sight of Gebel Barkal
Japanese Interiors
Japenese interior design rests upon 7 principles. Kanso (ç°Ąç´ )- Simplicity, Fukinsei (ä¸ĺć´)- Asymmetry, Shizen (čŞçś)- Natural, Shibumi (ć¸ĺł) â Simple beauty, Yugen (ĺš˝ç)- subtle grace, Datsuzoku (čąäż) â freedom from habitual behaviour, Seijaku (éĺŻ)- tranquillity.
Common features of Japanese Interior Design:
Shoji walls: these are the screens you think of when you think of the traditional Japanese homes. They are made of wooden frames, rice paper and used to partition
Tatami: Tatami mats are used within Japanese households to blanket the floors. They were made of rice straw and rush straw, laid down to cushion the floor.
Genkan: The Genkan was a sunken space between the front door and the rest of the house. This area is meant to separate the home from the outside and is where shoes are discarded before entering.
Japanese furniture: often lowest, close to the ground. These include tables and chairs but often tanked are replaced by zabuton, large cushions. Furniture is usually carved of wood in a minimalist design.
Nature: As both the Shinto and Buddhist beliefs are great influences upon architecture, there is a strong presence of nature with the architecture. Wood is used for this reason and natural light is prevalent with in the home. The orientation is meant to reflect the best view of the world.
Islamic World Interior
The Islamic world has one of the most beautiful and impressive interior design styles across the world. Colour and detail are absolute staples in the movement. Windows are usually not paned with glass but covered in ornate lattices known as jali. The jali give ventilation, light and privacy to the home. Islamic Interiors are ornate and colourful, using coloured ceramic tiles. The upper parts of walls and ceilings are usually flat decorated with arabesques (foliate ornamentation), while the lower wall areas were usually tiled. Features such as honeycombed ceilings, horseshoe arches, stalactite-fringed arches and stalactite vaults (Muqarnas) are prevalent among many famous Islamic buildings such as the Alhambra and the Blue Mosque.
Byzantine (330/395â1453 A. D)
The Byzantine Empire or Eastern Roman Empire was where eat met west, leading to a melting pot of different interior designs based on early Christian styles and Persian influences. Mosaics are probably what you think of when you think of the Byzantine Empire. Ivory was also a popular feature in the Interiors, with carved ivory or the use of it in inlay. The use of gold as a decorative feature usually by way of repoussĂŠ (decorating metals by hammering in the design from the backside of the metal). Fabrics from Persia, heavily embroidered and intricately woven along with silks from afar a field as China, would also be used to upholster furniture or be used as wall hangings. The Byzantines favoured natural light, usually from the use of copolas.
Indian Interiors
India is of course, the font of all intricate designs. India's history is sectioned into many eras but we will focus on a few to give you an idea of prevalent techniques and tastes.
The Gupta Empire (320 â 650 CE): The Gupta era was a time of stone carving. As impressive as the outside of these buildings are, the Interiors are just as amazing. Gupta era buildings featured many details such as ogee (circular or horseshoe arch), gavaksha/chandrashala (the motif centred these arches), ashlar masonry (built of squared stone blocks) with ceilings of plain, flat slabs of stone.
Delhi Sultanate (1206â1526): Another period of beautifully carved stone. The Delhi sultanate had influence from the Islamic world, with heavy uses of mosaics, brackets, intricate mouldings, columns and and hypostyle halls.
Mughal Empire (1526â1857): Stonework was also important on the Mughal Empire. Intricately carved stonework was seen in the pillars, low relief panels depicting nature images and jalis (marble screens). Stonework was also decorated in a stye known as pietra dura/parchin kari with inscriptions and geometric designs using colored stones to create images. Tilework was also popular during this period. Moasic tiles were cut and fitted together to create larger patters while cuerda seca tiles were coloured tiles outlined with black.
Chinese Interiors
Common features of Chinese Interiors
Use of Colours: Colour in Chinese Interior is usually vibrant and bold. Red and Black are are traditional colours, meant to bring luck, happiness, power, knowledge and stability to the household.
Latticework: Lattices are a staple in Chinese interiors most often seen on shutters, screens, doors of cabinets snf even traditional beds.
Lacquer: Multiple coats of lacquer are applied to furniture or cabinets (now walls) and then carved. The skill is called Diaoqi (éćź).
Decorative Screens: Screens are used to partition off part of a room. They are usually of carved wood, pained with very intricate murals.
Shrines: Spaces were reserved on the home to honour ancestors, usually consisting of an altar where offerings could be made.
Of course, Chinese Interiors are not all the same through the different eras. While some details and techniques were interchangeable through different dynasties, usually a dynasty had a notable style or deviation. These aren't all the dynasties of course but a few interesting examples.
Song Dynasty (960â1279): The Song Dynasty is known for its stonework. Sculpture was an important part of Song Dynasty interior. It was in this period than brick and stone work became the most used material. The Song Dynasty was also known for its very intricate attention to detail, paintings, and used tiles.
Ming Dynasty(1368â1644): Ceilings were adorned with cloisons usually featuring yellow reed work. The floors would be of flagstones usually of deep tones, mostly black. The Ming Dynasty favoured richly coloured silk hangings, tapestries and furnishings. Furniture was usually carved of darker woods, arrayed in a certain way to bring peace to the dwelling.
Han Dynasty (206 BC-220 AD): Interior walls were plastered and painted to show important figures and scenes. Lacquer, though it was discovered earlier, came into greater prominence with better skill in this era.
Tang Dynasty (618â907) : The colour palette is restrained, reserved. But the Tang dynasty is not without it's beauty. Earthenware reached it's peak in this era, many homes would display fine examples as well. The Tang dynasty is famous for its upturned eaves, the ceilings supported by timber columns mounted with metal or stone bases. Glazed tiles were popular in this era, either a fixed to the roof or decorating a screen wall.
Romanesque (6th -11th century/12th)
Romanesque Architecture is a span between the end of Roman Empire to the Gothic style. Taking inspiration from the Roman and Byzantine Empires, the Romanesque period incorporates many of the styles. The most common details are carved floral and foliage symbols with the stonework of the Romanesque buildings. Cable mouldings or twisted rope-like carvings would have framed doorways. As per the name, Romansque Interiors relied heavily on its love and admiration for Rome. The Romanesque style uses geometric shapes as statements using curves, circles snf arches. The colours would be clean and warm, focusing on minimal ornamentation.
Gothic Architecture (12th Century - 16th Century)
The Gothic style is what you think of when you think of old European cathedrals and probably one of the beautiful of the styles on this list and one of most recognisable. The Gothic style is a dramatic, opposing sight and one of the easiest to describe. Decoration in this era became more ornate, stonework began to sport carving and modelling in a way it did not before. The ceilings moved away from barreled vaults to quadripartite and sexpartite vaulting. Columns slimmed as other supportive structures were invented. Intricate stained glass windows began their popularity here. In Gothic structures, everything is very symmetrical and even.
Mediaeval (500 AD to 1500)
Interiors of mediaeval homes are not quite as drab as Hollywood likes to make out. Building materials may be hidden by plaster in rich homes, sometimes even painted. Floors were either dirt strewn with rushes or flagstones in larger homes. Stonework was popular, especially around fireplaces. Grand homes would be decorated with intricate woodwork, carved heraldic beasts and wall hangings of fine fabrics.
Renaissance (late 1300s-1600s)
The Renaissance was a period of great artistry and splendor. The revival of old styles injected symmetry and colour into the homes. Frescoes were back. Painted mouldings adorned the ceilings and walls. Furniture became more ornate, fixed with luxurious upholstery and fine carvings. Caryatids (pillars in the shape of women), grotesques, Roman and Greek images were used to spruce up the place. Floors began to become more intricate, with coloured stone and marble. Modelled stucco, sgraffiti arabesques (made by cutting lines through a layer of plaster or stucco to reveal an underlayer), and fine wall painting were used in brilliant combinations in the early part of the 16th century.
Tudor Interior (1485-1603)
The Tudor period is a starkly unique style within England and very recognisable. Windows were fixed with lattice work, usually casement. Stained glass was also in in this period, usually depicting figures and heraldic beasts. Rooms would be panelled with wood or plastered. Walls would be adorned with tapestries or embroidered hangings. Windows and furniture would be furnished with fine fabrics such as brocade. Floors would typically be of wood, sometimes strewn with rush matting mixed with fresh herbs and flowers to freshen the room.
Baroque (1600 to 1750)
The Baroque period was a time for splendor and for splashing the cash. The interior of a baroque room was usually intricate, usually of a light palette, featuring a very high ceiling heavy with detail. Furniture would choke the room, ornately carved and stitched with very high quality fabrics. The rooms would be full of art not limited to just paintings but also sculptures of marble or bronze, large intricate mirrors, moldings along the walls which may be heavily gilded, chandeliers and detailed paneling.
Victorian (1837-1901)
We think of the interiors of Victorian homes as dowdy and dark but that isn't true. The Victorians favoured tapestries, intricate rugs, decorated wallpaper, exquisitely furniture, and surprisingly, bright colour. Dyes were more widely available to people of all stations and the Victorians did not want for colour. Patterns and details were usually nature inspired, usually floral or vines. Walls could also be painted to mimic a building material such as wood or marble and most likely painted in rich tones. The Victorians were suckers for furniture, preferring them grandly carved with fine fabric usually embroidered or buttoned. And they did not believe in minimalism. If you could fit another piece of furniture in a room, it was going in there. Floors were almost eclusively wood laid with the previously mentioned rugs. But the Victorians did enjoy tiled floors but restricted them to entrances. The Victorians were quite in touch with their green thumbs so expect a lot of flowers and greenery inside. with various elaborately decorated patterned rugs. And remember, the Victorians loved to display as much wealth as they could. Every shelf, cabinet, case and ledge would be chocked full of ornaments and antiques.
Edwardian/The Gilded Age/Belle Epoque (1880s-1914)
This period (I've lumped them together for simplicity) began to move away from the deep tones and ornate patterns of the Victorian period. Colour became more neutral. Nature still had a place in design. Stained glass began to become popular, especially on lampshades and light fixtures. Embossing started to gain popularity and tile work began to expand from the entrance halls to other parts of the house. Furniture began to move away from dark wood, some families favouring breathable woods like wicker. The rooms would be less cluttered.
Art Deco (1920s-1930s)
The 1920s was a time of buzz and change. Gone were the refined tastes of the pre-war era and now the wow factor was in. Walls were smoother, buildings were sharper and more jagged, doorways and windows were decorated with reeding and fluting. Pastels were in, as was the heavy use of black and white, along with gold. Mirrors and glass were in, injecting light into rooms. Gold, silver, steel and chrome were used in furnishings and decor. Geometric shapes were a favourite design choice. Again, high quality and bold fabrics were used such as animal skins or colourful velvet. It was all a rejection of the Art Noveau movement, away from nature focusing on the man made.
Modernism (1930 - 1965)
Modernism came after the Art Deco movement. Fuss and feathers were out the door and now, practicality was in. Materials used are shown as they are, wood is not painted, metal is not coated. Bright colours were acceptable but neutral palettes were favoured. Interiors were open and favoured large windows. Furniture was practical, for use rather than the ornamentation, featuring plain details of any and geometric shapes. Away from Art Deco, everything is straight, linear and streamlined.
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Circus Boy
Directly inspired by @erinwantstowrite 's art!!! post
Request from awesome amazing cool Anon
Over the years, circuses have lost their spark.
Dick would knowâ heâd literally grown up in one. Back then, the circus was a symphony of effort and artistry. Weeks, sometimes months, were spent perfecting routines. Performances were designed to dazzle, to inspire awe, no matter the country or culture of the audience. The comedy sketches werenât just fillerâ they were genuinely funny, capable of drawing laughter even from the most reluctant parent dragged along by an excited child. Every act had a rhythm, a purpose, and above all, passion. The performers took pride in their craft, and the audience responded in kind, feeding off the energy, cheering and clapping until their hands were raw and their throats sore.Â
Now? Now they were dull. Predictable routines recycled ad nauseam. Costumes that looked like they were bought in bulk from a clearance rack. Tents and stages slapped together with the barest effort to resemble grandeur. The magic, the joyâthe soul of it allâhad been replaced with a singular, glaring goal: profit. No one cared if the audience laughed, gasped, or even paid attention, so long as they paid their entrance fees.
But recently, whispers of something different had started making waves in Gotham: a circus gaining a reputation for being... well, different.
Dickâs curiosity was piqued. He hadnât planned to go, at first. But the memories of his youth, of what the circus used to mean, stirred within him. Before he knew it, heâd wrangled (read: blackmailed) together as much of the family as he could to go see it. Which, wasnât a whole lot considering quite a few were out of state currently, but it was enough to make him smile.
âWhy must I come along? I do not see the point,â Damian groused, arms folded tightly across his chest as the group approached the circus grounds. Despite his protests, he made no move to make a stealthy exit.
âYouâre coming because itâll be good for you,â Dick said, ruffling Damianâs hair just to annoy him. Damian promptly swatted his hand away, glaring daggers at his adoptive brother.
âYou donât even know if itâll be good,â Tim chimed in, hands shoved into his jacket pockets. âWhat if this thing is as boring as all the other ones youâve complained about?â
âThen weâll all get funnel cake and call it a night,â Stephanie said brightly, making it clear where her true excitement lay. âIâm in it for the food, anyway.â
Dick pouted. âYou didnât have to say the quiet part out loud!âÂ
âDonât underestimate funnel cake,â Duke added with a smirk. âIt might be the only thing saving this trip if the showâs a flop.â
Dick rolled his eyes, but his grin didnât waver. âYouâre all so cynical. Just... trust me, okay? I have a feeling about this one.â
Sure, a lot of the decorations seemed cheap thus far, but Dick canât blame them. Theyâre clearly low budget, with only two shows a week, versus the seven to ten a week Dick was used to. The difference was the genuine passion and excitement in the eyes of the performers. And they were just doing pre-show stunts on the street to rouse excitement!Â
Tim hummed thoughtfully. âThis place has been gaining rapid popularity,â he said, the subtle edge in his tone making it clear he was already analyzing every detail. Dick saw his fingers twitch as if to take a picture.Â
Dick glanced over at him but didnât comment. He recognized that toneâ Tim was in detective mode, quietly piecing together threads no one else could see yet. He did, however, take the opportunity at his siblings' distraction to subtly herd them in the direction of the tents, eager to get a good front-row seat. Damian noticed, but he didnât do much more than roll his eyes.
Steph, however, rolled her eyes dramatically. At Tim, not Dick. âCan you just enjoy one thing without looking for a criminal conspiracy, Tim?â
Tim matched her with a roll of his own eyes, the two slipping into a bickering match thatâd put an old married couple to shame if they werenât so aggressively gay. Meanwhile, Dick let his attention wander to the stage, studying the equipment with the practiced eye of someone whoâd lived this life.
Suspended high above was the trapeze rig, its bars wrapped in worn leather, the steel cables taut and secured to thick iron frames. The safety net below, while a little faded, looked sturdy enough to do its job. Not brand-new, but serviceable.
To one side, a highwire stretched across a dizzying height, its slim cable shimmering faintly under the tent lights. The rigging showed some signs of ageâ slightly dulled bolts and scuffed counterweightsâbut nothing that made Dick worry. It would hold, even if the daredevil walking it would need nerves of steel.
A teeterboard sat center stage on the ground, its spring mechanism ready to launch performers into flips and vaults. Nearby, a stack of brightly painted crates and barrels hinted at comedic skits. Clowns would probably tumble over them with exaggerated flair, while a sturdy seesaw-like prop suggested slapstick gags involving plenty of unintentional (and intentional) falls.
The whole setup had a charming scrappiness to it. The equipment could use a little TLC, sure, but Dick had no doubt it would hold up under pressure. He could tell the performers had put their trust in it, and that meant something.
For a moment, Dick felt a flicker of nostalgia. The way the crew moved, the crisp efficiency with which they handled the gearâ it reminded him of home, of the way his parents had always treated the stage with reverence, as though it were sacred ground.
âDo you see how high that wire is?â Duke muttered, his voice tinged with a mix of awe and apprehension as he followed Dickâs gaze.
âI see it,â Dick replied softly, his heart tightening. He couldnât help but wonder who had the guts to walk that cable, let alone pull off any stunts on it. Heâd definitely have to stick around and chat them up, maybe have a little friendly competition.Â
âAwe, man,â Duke sighed, visibly disappointed. âGuess we werenât excited enough.â
Turns out âearlyâ wasnât early enough because the seating area was packed. The whole first three rows were aggressively claimed, forcing the group to settle for seats in the middle of the fourth row.
Steph and Duke promptly excused themselves to grab popcornâor, more accurately, for Steph to scout for funnel cake. Dick had to respect the consistency.
Damian glanced at Dick, then at Tim with a withering look. âDrake, cease your ramblings. They sour my mood.â
Tim blinked, clearly taken aback. âWait, just me? Steph was talking way more!â
Steph, who had been halfway out of earshot, whirled around with mock offense. âExcuse me? I wasnât the one turning this into an episode of âTrue Crime: Circus Edition.ââÂ
âYeah, because youâre too busy planning how to steal funnel cake from children,â Tim shot back, crossing his arms. Damianâs eyebrow twitched. Dick wondered why peace was but a mere illusion.Â
âOh, please,â Steph quipped. âYouâd be the kid I steal it from, Drake.â
Before Tim could come up with a retort, and Damian became a convicted felon, the lights dimmed, cutting their bickering short. A hush fell over the crowd as the familiar low hum of a drumroll began to build.
The ringmaster strode into the center of the stage, clad in a dazzling coat of crimson and gold that shimmered under the spotlight. If you looked any closer than that, youâd see how tacky and cheap it was. His booming voice carried effortlessly across the tent.
âLadies and gentlemen! Boys and girls! Welcome to a night of wonder, daring, and delight!â the ringmaster announced, his voice ringing through the tent as the steady drumroll built the tension. âPrepare yourselves for the extraordinary, the astonishing, the absolutely unbelievable! The show begins... now!â
The drumroll reached its peak, and with a dramatic flourish, the spotlight swept upward to reveal the first performer perched high above the stage. A man in a sparkling gold costume waved grandly to the crowd before swinging onto the trapeze. The audience clapped politely as he performed a few rudimentary tricksâ basic flips and graceful swings that showcased control but lacked flair.
Two more performers joined him, each clad in similar glittering costumes. They moved with confidence, transitioning through formations and passing between trapezes, but the moves were predictable and lacked the edge Dick was hoping to see. Certainly, nothing that would make this rinky-dink circus as popular as it got so quickly.Â
Tim leaned toward Dick, his tone flat. âYou dragged us here for this?â
âUnderwhelming,â Damian muttered, his expression neutral but his tone sharp.
Dick didnât respond immediately, though he couldnât disagree. The tricks were technically fineâ safe, practiced, polishedâ but there was no spark, no passion. No magic. He resigned to going home disappointed and also to the inevitable flaming via siblings.Â
But then, just as one of the performers finished an awkward landing on the platform, the ringmasterâs voice boomed again.
âAnd now, prepare yourselves for the prodigy of the skies, the one and only Amazing Arach-Kid!â
The spotlight shifted upward again, revealing a much smaller figure poised on a separate platform, high above the others. It was a boyâ young and wiry, dressed in sleek crimson and black, his face obscured by a half-mask (not dissimilar to their domino masks, actually) that glimmered faintly in the light. For a moment, the crowd was silent, uncertain what to expect.
Without warning, the boy leaped.
The gasp from the audience was audible as the kidâ Arach-Kid?â launched himself into a dramatic triple flip, his body twisting gracefully through the air before he caught the trapeze with flawless precision. The crowd erupted into applause, the energy in the tent shifting instantly.
He didnât stop there. Swinging with a force that sent his trapeze soaring higher than any of the others had dared, he released at the peak of his arc and spun into a double somersault. Instead of catching the next trapeze, he landed neatly in the arms of one of the adult performers, who looked genuinely startled by the boyâs precision. He grinned, waving excitedly at the audience as they roared with applause.Â
From there, the routine transformed. Arach-Kid became the centerpiece of the act, seamlessly incorporating daring flips, twists, and transitions between trapezes. He was passed between the adults with perfect timing, their previous mediocrity eclipsed by his sheer skill and energy.
âWhoa,â Duke murmured, leaning forward in his seat. âHeâs... good.â
âWho is that kid?â Tim asked, his voice tinged with disbelief.
âBetter than the rest of them combined,â Damian said bluntly, though his tone carried the faintest hint of approval.
The boy ended his routine with a jaw-dropping quadruple somersault, catching the final trapeze one-handed and hanging upside down with effortless control. Gasps and cheers erupted from the audience, their applause thunderous as he let himself swing for a moment, letting the crowd bask in his daring. Then, with a fluid motion, he swung back, releasing the trapeze bar for one final flourish.
Dick leaned forward, his breath catching as the kidâs body twisted into the unmistakable maneuverâ the signature move of the Flying Graysons.
The crowd roared as he executed the technique perfectly, his form flawless, his timing impeccable. He landed with a clean dismount, arms raised triumphantly, and offered the crowd a playful bow before darting off to the wings. Even with the stage empty, shouts and applause echoed for a long time after the boy left.Â
For a moment, Dick couldnât move. His stomach churned as memories of his parents on that same trapeze flooded his mind. No one else knew that move. No one could. His parents had created it, and Dick had learned it from them. It was their legacyâ his legacy.
So how, in the name of all that made sense, did this random kid just pull it off perfectly?
The lights shifted again, smoothly transitioning to the next act: a somewhat clumsy but undeniably entertaining tightrope routine. One performer started with a wobbling walk, arms flailing for comedic effect. Another joined, balancing precariously with a broomstick for support. The final performer added a unicycle to the mix, pedaling shakily across the thin wire as the audience laughed and clapped in delight.
It was⌠objectively funny.
But Dick barely noticed. His good mood had evaporated, replaced by a heavy knot of unease in his chest. At this point, they must have a hive mind with how they immediately filed out of the tent without a single word exchanged.Â
âThat wasââ Tim started, breaking the tense silence.
âDick,â Steph interrupted, her voice low, âdid he justâ?â
âThat was your move,â Tim finished firmly, his eyes locked on Dickâs.
âItâs not possible,â Duke added, glancing at the now-empty trapeze rig. âRight? Itâs your familyâs thing. Thereâs no way some random kid from Gotham knows it.â
âI am more concerned with how he knows it,â Damian said, his voice cutting. His eyes darted to Dick. âThis is your domain, Richard. You must have answers.â
Dick didnât respond right away. He couldnât. His hands were clenched into fists at his sides, his breathing shallow. In disbelief, he muttered, âI donât.â
Steph frowned. âOkay, well... what do we do? Do we just ignore the fact that some kid pulled off your impossible secret family move?â
âNo,â Dick said sharply, his voice colder than any of them expected. âWe donât ignore it. We find out who he is, how he learned it, and what the hell is going on.â
Timâs brow furrowed. âDo you think someoneâs trying to get your attention? Like, deliberately?â
Dick shook his head, though his face betrayed his uncertainty. âI donât know. Maybe. I mean, itâs... itâs possible, but...â He exhaled through his nose, frustrated. âI need answers. This isnât something you just pick up on YouTube.â
The group left the small but packed circus, their earlier excitement replaced by a shared tension. The cool night air did little to clear their heads as they walked in a tight huddle, glancing over their shoulders as if the boy would materialize out of the crowd.
âSomethingâs not right,â Tim said, breaking the silence.
âObviously,â Damian muttered.
âI mean it,â Tim snapped. âMoves like thatâ you donât just do them. It takes years to learn without a teacher.â He glanced at Dick. âYouâre sure no one outside your family knew it? Like, absolutely sure?â
âPositive,â Dick said firmly. âThe only people who knew it are gone. Except me.â His voice dropped as he added, âOr at least, theyâre supposed to be.â
The group exchanged uneasy looks, about both the situation and Dickâs reaction to it. It takes quite a bit to rattle him, so to see him, well, rattled was weird. Beyond weird. It was downright wrong.Â
âEither way,â Duke said cautiously, âweâre going to figure this out. Right?â
âOh, we will,â Dick said, his voice grim. âWe donât leave things like this unanswered.â
As they disappeared into the Gotham night, paranoia settled over them like a second skin. Whatever was going on, it wasnât going to stay a mystery for long.Â
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YD: Ahh, so adorable. I recorded some stuff, like them trying yukke. [Reading chat] Right? I was flabbergasted when I heard his age! I didnât know that he was⌠20 years old??? He was also shocked when I told him my age. I donât really ask their ages when Iâm talking to foreigners, weâre just friends, âcause they donât have distinct honorific and informal languages like we do. And he guessed I was like, 23? [Laughs] I laughed my ass off.
YD: These kids are polite. They seem very polite, donât they? Especially after hearing how old I am. It feels like theyâre saying, âYes maâam, itâs very delightful.â So cute, and they seemed like they really enjoyed their meal.

YD talked about meeting up with Tubbo while he was in Korea and shares two videos of them eating food at a Korean BBQ place!
MASSIVE thank you to @Forgetmelotz on Twitter, who translated and subtitled this video and gave me permission to share it on Tumblr! Please make sure to give the original video a like.
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YD: So I was planning to have a dinner with Kei [a Kpop Idol / Singer], but unexpectedly, there's a foreigner friend I met on QSMP named Tubbo, he's from the UK, and apparently he's visiting Korea. And he posted an Instagram story about it. I saw it and was like "Wait, are you coming to Korea?" and it [Tubbo's post] even says Korea blah blah within the date two days after my birthday. So I sent him a DM and he responded with "Haven't you seen my Twitter DM?"
YD: I recently distanced myself a little from Instagram and Twitter for a while, yeah I didn't check my phone that often, and it turns out he messaged me about 3 - 4 days ago saying "YD, I'm flying to Korea! Blah blahâ" so I was like "Oh, oh... I'm sorry I didn't see that!" and I checked the DM the day before he arrived here... I told him that I am so sorry and asked if I can meet him in person.
* [Translation note: this can also mean the other way around, ie: he may have asked her if they could meet in person]
YD: So we ended up seeing [each other] on the 21st. I was supposed to have dinner with Kei, so I told her "but my friend from abroad... is in Korea now... what should I do..." and we rescheduled the dinner to inviting her to come over next week. So um, the, rightâ Tubbo, Tubbo's friend [Eryn], Seoneng [one of YD's crew members] and Kang-si [YD's husband] the 5 of us had dinner together.
YD: We went to a Korean BBQ place. I was searching through restaurants thinking âUh⌠which Korean restaurant should I take these foreigners to so that they would be super impressed?â [YD thanks a dono] Yeah, I was searching hard and so I asked Ryeori. You know the Kwak tori & Ryeori couple? Ryeori the hair designer, I asked him, âReyori, Iâm trying to buy a dinner for my foreigner friend, do you have any recommendations for where I should bring him?â and he started listing up like Michelin star-rated pork gukbap restaurants and stuff. Then he also tells me that itâs really difficult to find an actual Korean restaurant in Hongdae, like itâs difficult to find a decent place. There are mostly fusion Korean food [places]. But then he goes, âOh, hey, this place looks fineâ and recommends me this Korean BBQ restaurant. I decided to bring them there and fed them.
YD: The reason I liked that place was that they sell doenjang-jjigabe, galbi-tang, jeyuk bokkeum, and other dishes as well as their main menu, the beef KBBQ. The banchans [side dishes] were also served neatly, they even had japchae, they sold yukke. Obviously there are better Korean restaurants outside of Hongdae, but their hotel was located there. It wasnât like he had a car here, so I was trying to meet them somewhere they can just walk to. So Hongdae it was. On top of that, YD 4-cuts is also located in Hongdae.** So I thought it would be the best to just eat out here. And while we were eating, Iâve recorded some videos.
** [Note: This is a photo booth event with custom YD frames, as show in the background of this video]
YD: [Scrolls through to find the videos and laughs] Ahh, so adorable. I recorded some stuff, like them trying yukke. [Reading chat] Right? I was flabbergasted when I heard his age! I didnât know that he was⌠20 years old??? He was also shocked when I told him my age. I donât really ask their ages when Iâm talking to foreigners, weâre just friends, âcause they donât have distinct honorific and informal languages like we do. [She thanks another dono] And he guessed I was like, 23? [Laughs] I laughed my ass off.
[YD plays a video she took of Tubbo and Eryn at the restaurant]
Tubbo: Oh, ok. [?]: You should tell them how to eat it together. Tubbo: Youâre overestimating my chopstick skill. [?]: Here. [Passes Tubbo some of the meat] Tubbo: Oh, thank you. [?]: And here, together. Tubbo: Ok. [Takes a bite] Waitress: With this vegetable. Tubbo: Mm, itâs really sweet! [?]: Foreigners quite like it. Eryn: [Reaches over and tries some food too, struggling a bit with his chopsticks] [?]: Unexpected, right? [?]: Oh, they like yukke? [?]: They just need to get used to it. Waitress: I will grill and hand it over to you, so please help yourselves. [?]: Ok, thank you. Eryn: [Tries more food and gives it a thumbs-up] [?]: Hm, good?! Tubbo and Eryn: Yeah! Tubbo: So far 10/10.
[The video ends]
YD: These kids are polite. They seem very polite, donât they? Especially after hearing how old I am. It feels like theyâre saying, âYes maâam, itâs very delightful.â So cute, and they seemed like they really enjoyed their meal. They were eating it up. They drank soju, they ate some noodles, and even doenjang-jjigae. Iâve heard foreigners donât really like the taste of doenjang-jjigae, but they ate pretty much [all] of it. The restaurant also had pot rice, so I made them try that too. They ate that well too.
[YD plays the second video she recorded of them at the restaurant]
Tubbo: Go crazy ok, yeah! Alright.
YD: We ordered naengmyeon for a palate cleanser too. We ordered a lot.
Tubbo: [Struggles to cut the noodles with the scissors that were handed to him]
YD: Heâs asking why we cut the noodles.
Tubbo: [Manages to cut the noodles] Kang-si [?]: Ok, and- andâ [does chopstick motion] Tubbo: [Laughs] What am I gonna need? Eryn: Chopsticks? Kang-si [?]: Yeah. YD [?]: Chopsticks, mm. Eryn: [To Tubbo] You go first. Tubbo: [Inaudible] Why is it cold? YD [?]: Oh, because the noodle is cold.
YD: Yeah, he found it interesting that the noodle is cold.
Tubbo: [He struggles with his chopsticks] Oh no, oh no⌠[Everyone laughs] Kang-si [?]: Very difficult. Ok! Tubbo: [Manages to fish some noodles out and holds his hand under them so they donât splash everywhere as he transports them to his bowl] Seoneng [?]: Oh, uh, oh! It might be difficult for them to eat that. YD [?]: Hm? Kang-si [?]: Do you want some, Seoneng? Gimme the chopsticks, Iâll share you some. Eryn: [To Tubbo] Slippery. How did you get it? Kang-si [?]: Iâll give you some, hand me the chopsticks. Seoneng [?]: Can I hand you mine? Just a small amount, please.
YD: They mimicked how Kangseok [Kang-si, YDâs husband] handles the noodles. Like, picking up the noodles like this and moving it to your dish.
Tubbo: Thatâs why youâre better than me (?).
YD: Thatâs Seoneng.
Kang-si [?]: Hereâs your chopsticks, Seoneng. Eryn: I think this is enough. YD [?]: Oh, heâs taking some to his dish. Seoneng [?]: He learned. Tubbo: Do you like, spin 'em? Seoneng [?]: Scissors? Kang-si [?]: Likeâ [He holds up his chopsticks and shows them how to do it. Ok. OK! Eryn: [Picks up only a few noodles, which dangle] Seoneng [?]: Good! Tubbo: Maybe I did- I did a sht job of cutting, I'm sorry. Eryn: That's ok. Doing good.
YD: It had a nice atmosphere.
Eryn: Bravo. Tubbo: Oh, thank you. YD [?]: The noodles might be a bit slippery for them to...
YD: They really struggled to pick the noodles up. They asked why we cut the noodles then proceeds to eat like that 'cuz it's too long.
YD [?]: Shall we cut it? Kang-si [?]: Eryn? [He leans forward and cuts Eryn's noodles with scissors]
YD: âSo we had to cut it for him like he's a baby.
[Everyone laughs] Eryn: It kept on moving!
[The video ends]
YD: [Laughs] Ah, so cute. It was fun. So we tried various dishes together. And uh, UKâ UKâ both of them are from the UK, but they didn't know there is a viral series of British students trying Korean food,*** so I told them "Seeing how you react to unfamiliar foods, like... How do I put this? You were very polite trying these out, not making any weird disgusted noises (so you can go viral too)." They didn't refuse anything. Well, they also said that this was the best Korean food they had so far. They might've been just being polite, but still, you know, they were... Hmm, very neat? Yeah. I get why he's so popular.
*** [Note: YT: Korean Englishman]
YD: Anyways, it was a lot of fun. After the meal, I asked them if they wanted to go take a YD 4-cut with us, explaining this is a trending form of birthday event amongst fans of younger generations in Korea where they rent and run a photobooth for their YouTuber / CCs / Influencers. I asked "It's close from here, you wanna go?" and he said yes. That's how we ended up taking a group photo. It wasn't planned beforehand.
YD: We arrived thereâ [Laughs] I tried, I knew it closes at 10pm, so I tried to visit there around then (to avoid people). So we got there around 9:30? And my fans were sitting there waiting for me. As soon as they spot me they go, "Wooooooo!!! It's so good to see you in person!!!" ...then they started crying, which made Tubbo and Eryn panic a bit. They were like "Wow YD, u a superstar! Whoa." [Laughs]
YD: No, 'cuz I told them that there might be a few fans because it's my birthday event, and they were OK with it. Well, he's also a Youtuber, so he wouldn't be too unfamiliar with this kinda situation I figure. But even though I warned [him] about it, they seemed a bit surprised as people started SOBBING, so Kangseok evacuated them all. He told them, "Let's get out and try some salted butter rolls while she..." The boys leave and get bread, and I go have a short conversation with my fans, take photos, give autographs... [Laughs]
YD: It was a LOT of fun. It was a memorable day.

The original VOD can be found here (please note that the video is only available to VIP members of YD's channel).
Timestamp for this conversation: ~12:30 - 23:00
#Yangding#QSMP#Tubbo#QSMP Meetups#YD#According to Forgetmelotz a lot of YD's viewers were calling Tubbo and Eryn ''babies'' how cute#August 23 2024#That transcript took forever to write wheezes#Would've been even longer without those subtitles though#Translators are the backbone of our community fr#Eryn Cyberonix#Eryn
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PART ONE
summary: by chance you and your emotionally unavailable husband meet a friendly couple that invite you stay at their farmhouse in scotland. however the time spent there with johnny & kyle has you questioning if there's a dark side to them you didn't see before.
a speak no evil au - masterlist
notes: manipulative johnny & kyle, piv, noncon, somno, never explicitly acknowledged abusive relationship between reader and her husband (financial, physical, emotional, coercive control), drinking, murder, it's dead dove horror people!! heed the warnings
you picked at the buttery croissant on the plate in front of you, trying your best to block out the sound of your husbandâs voice as it grew more frustrated by the minute. you pitied the poor soul he was berating on the other end of the line, but you couldnât bring yourself to feel bad enough to try and stop him, to turn his ire against you instead.
he wouldnât listen to you anyway, hadnât the first few times youâd asked when youâd first arrived on your honeymoon.
you scoffed quietly and shoved a bite into your mouth, chewing obstinately. two years late, but sure. your honeymoon.
elliot sighed heavily, and threw his phone down onto the table, rattling your coffee and gaining the attention of nearby hotel staff. âi work with fucking idiots, christ. how hard is it to follow instructions?â
âitâs why they keep you around, smartest one on your team,â you said appeasingly, the same rote answer you always gave him when he got in his moods.
âsmartest one at the whole fucking firm more like,â he scoffed. you cringed at the scornful looks sent your way from the other couples on the retreat. âuseless. the lot of them.â
the french riviera had been a dream destination for you for years, one elliot had known about from early in your dating days. the holiday heâd booked was all inclusive; tailored to honeymooners specifically with romantic activities on and off site and transport easily accessible in order to explore the area.
you felt as though you shouldâve been having the time of your life as you sat eating breakfast looking over the beautiful beach view, but youâd never felt emptier. the sight of happy couples around you day after day had only highlighted your husbandâs distance.
elliot had promised this trip would change things for you both, for your relationship, but the last six days had proven the opposite. if he wasnât busy and distracted on his phone, elliot was complaining about the quality of the food, the amenities, even the bloody people.
it was too much and just the morning before youâd been tempted to ask him to cut the fortnight away short when heâd gotten an urgent email and then a frantic call from his boss.
youâd sighed in relief when heâd left you to wander the local area by yourself for the day; happy to escape his negativity for an hour even as you felt guilty for thinking so. you knew he worked hard, you knew his job was important, and his work meant you could afford your luxury apartment in London and be able to take trips like this one without stressing over the cost.
youâd taken the time to go to the market youâd read about on the plane, the place des lices, and tried every free sample of cheese that had been waved your way once youâd gotten there. but you hadnât been the only one from your hotel to take advantage of the famous food stalls as you recognised the deep scottish brogue of one half of the couple that were staying in the room next to yours; it rose even above the busy hum of french chatter easily.
youâd turned your head and smiled when you caught his pretty husbandâs eyes before turning back to the stall merchant and buying a chunk of fresh camembert for elliot to try. youâd been eyeing up the fruit stall further down and were debating the brie too if you spotted some good cranberry jam.
âyouâre from the hotel, right?â you suddenly heard from your left. you turned to find the couple a lot closer than before, apparently taking your polite smile as invitation to join you. âiâve seen you at the pool before. Iâm kyle, this is my husband, johnny.â
ânice tâmeet ye.â
youâd introduced yourself and shook their hands once your cheese was carefully packed into your tote bag.
âwhereâs yer chatty husband?â johnny asked, eyes scanning the crowd.
you flushed, a creeping sense of embarrassment rising as you thought of elliot back at the hotel shooing you off before youâd even sat for breakfast.
âoh he had some emergency at work he had to deal with,â you excused. âdidnât need me hanging around distracting him, so i went for a walk.â
âyouâre on your own?â kyle asked with a concerned frown.
âyeah, but i donât mind. i travelled alone a lot before we were together. iâm used to my own company,â you said with a soft laugh.
the pair swapped a silent look before focusing back on you. âwell, weâd be happy to have ye if youâre feeling lonely, bonnie,â johnny offered. âwe were thinkinâ of goinâ wine tasting after this now that weâve got our snacks, if youâd like to join.â
you chuckled as johnny raised their bag and wiggled his eyebrows.
âi wouldnât want to intrude.â you shook your head.
âit beats heading back to the hotel,â kyle cajoled. âunless you had other plans?â
you pursed your lips before letting a small, shy smile grow. âok. wine tasting sounds fun.â
you had spent the afternoon laughing and eating the cheese, bread and fruits youâd bought at the market over glasses of wine with johnny and kyle, a wide smile never leaving your lips even as the three of you stumbled back up the steps to the hotel.
your phone had stayed silent the entire day and it wasnât until you were waving goodbye to your new friends and opening the door to your hotel room that you wondered if elliot would be annoyed at you for staying out so long without contacting him.
you smiled a little shakily as you caught him leaving the bathroom with a towel slung around his hips. âgood day?â
âfixed their mess if thatâs what you mean,â elliot huffed, but he turned to you with a satisfied smile and nodded. he dipped his head down and kissed you sweetly. âwhat about you? good day?â
âmhm,â you hummed, your smile settling more firmly on your face at his easy mood. âi went wine tasting.â
âoh?â elliot grinned, looking at you a little closer and taking in the signs of your slight inebriation, the way you swayed slightly on your feet and the almost sleepy glaze over your eyes.
âmet a few new friends,â you said. âjohnny and kyle.â
elliot stiffened for a moment before smiling again, less genuine and with a sharper edge this time. âoh? thatâs nice. iâll be free to spend the day doing whatever youâd like tomorrow, darling. no need for friends on our honeymoon.â
âyou will?â you asked as you started to undress, surprised he wasnât asking for an extra day to check everything with work had settled. you didnât look the gift horse in the mouth however. âthereâs a great market i saw today we could go to. i wouldnât mind going twice, the cheese is amazingââ
âsure, sure. fine. letâs just sleep now, yeah? iâm exhausted after today,â elliot interrupted as he dried himself off before climbing into bed.
âof course, yeah. we can figure it out over breakfast.â
which brought you back to now, with your croissant and your husband and your beach view and the ever growing pit of disappointment.
you skimmed your eyes over the other couples sat on the veranda with you and felt jealousy bubble and spit in your stomach. it was the small things you longed for, the easy affection you craved; legs hooked together under the table, feeding each other, shy smiles shared behind mugs, little jokes whispered on the breeze.
you felt tears prickle at your eyes unexpectedly and wiped at them hastily before elliot could notice.
âbonnie?â your head whipped up at the familiar voice and you smiled automatically at johnny and kyle as they made their way over. johnny was in a pair of shorts, and you saw a knee brace peek out from the hem.
âmind if we join you?â kyle asked, already pulling out a chair at your eager nod, ignoring the deep frown on elliotâs face.
âand you are?â elliot asked rudely, looking between the two men.
âthis is johnny and kyle, the couple i told you about last night.â you laid a gentle hand on elliotâs forearm.
âoh, the wine tasters. right.â
âheard you were busy saving yer bossâ arse yesterday,â johnny said with a pinched smile. âyer bonnie wife didnae mention what ye did though?â
âi work for a powerful man looking after his money,â elliot explained vaguely, with an air of condescension.
you noticed kyle wave over a waitress and quietly order for both him and johnny, his palm settled firmly on johnnyâs thigh beneath the table.
âoh aye? thaâs a lotta responsibility then. no wonder yer always looking so stressed on yer phone,â johnny laughed.
âoi, be nice, john,â kyle scolded, but the smile teasing the corner of his lips took away any bite the reprimand held.
âsorry, uh, emmet, was it?â
âelliot,â you corrected quickly.
johnny snapped his fingers and nodded. âright, right. sorry, my memoryâs not what it used to be.â he waved at a rough scar at the side of his head.
âso how long have you two been together?â kyle asked as their drinks arrived. you saw elliot sniff at the vast amount of sugar kyle poured into his tea.
âfive years,â you answered at the same time elliot answered, four years. you turned to him with a frown. âweâve been married for two. we met before your promotion, remember?â
âare you sure, darling?â elliot asked.
âyes, elliot. iâm sure.â
kyle and johnny watched silently, eyebrows raised until you turned back to your croissant with a tense jaw.
âtime flies ân all that,â johnny said, hoping to ease your tension.
âright.â you nodded. âwhat about you guys? been together long?â
âbeen stuck with him for a decade now,â kyle huffed, patting his hand on johnnyâs leg.
âbeen blessed by me, more like, cheeky sod,â johnny muttered.
you laughed as kyle leant in to kiss his cheek obnoxiously. âmet in the forces, just clicked.â
âbeen together ever since i caught him starinâ in the showers,â johnny boasted with a grin.
elliot shifted uncomfortably in his chair and johnnyâs grin dropped minisculely and his eyes hardened.
âwhatâre yer plans today then, bonnie?â
âoh, uhm, weâre not quite sure yet,â you said looking to elliot. âmaybe the market since elliot missed it yesterday?â
âyou should join us on our cruise along the coast,â kyle said. âjust us and the captain, and a fair bit of booze; views are meant to be unmissable.â
âsounds better than a market,â elliot chuffed before shrugging. âsure, why not?â
âreally?â you were more than surprised elliot was willingly agreeing to spend more time with kyle and johnny given how on edge heâd been just sat with them the last ten minutes.
âwhat dâye say, bon?â johnny leant over the small table with a smile, taking up enough space for you to feel surprisingly cornered.
âpretty hard to say no to âunmissableâ,â you said and forced a laugh.
âgreat,â kyle said and johnny slumped back into his seat, throwing an arm around the back of kyle chair. âweâve got an hour before weâre meant to be there so eat up, love.â
elliot bristled at their familiarity with you and wrapped his own arm around the back of your chair, his hand curling around your shoulder and squeezing just a tad too tight. âsheâs already eaten.â
âwhat, that little pastry?â johnny laughed. âyouâll need yer energy for what weâve got planned, hen.â johnny winked.
you felt yourself flush involuntarily, your heart thumped and your eyes widened at the accidental insinuation and you knew elliot had heard it the same way going by the agitated tap of his leg beneath the table.
âiâll probably just have another coffee,â you said placating, and smiled thinly when elliot kissed your temple. âi can grab something for on the boat or afterwards maybe.â
âthatâs my girl,â elliot spoke into your hair.
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while kyle and johnny finished up their breakfast, you nipped back into your room to change into your swimwear underneath your dress and met them along with elliot at the steps leading down to the beach.
once youâd left the dock and were deep enough in the water that it became a mesmerising dark blue, it didnât take much convincing to have you jump in the water with johnny as the boat idled in place. elliot had waved you off with a dismissive glance at his phone when you asked if heâd join and kyle had promised to have the towels ready when youâd both ran out of energy.
ânot joining them?â elliot asked, sparing a quick glance at kyle as he sat down next to your husband.
âfigured iâd keep you company âtil johnny climbs back on board. weâre temporary neighbours after all, yeah?â kyle said. he looked over the side of the boat and shook his head at his husband splashing you despite your giggly squeals of outrage. âmarried for two years?â he asked out of the blue and waited for elliot to hum his agreement. âwhat you doing on a honeymoon trip then, if you donât mind me asking?â
elliot sighed frustratedly as he locked his phone and put it down beside him, knowing he was going to get nothing done with kyle yammering by his side. âweâre busy people, only just found the time together to go.â
kyle raised his eyebrows in shock. âbusy indeed.â he looked to elliotâs phone. âgot any photos of the wedding?â
elliot nodded once, and not enthusiastically enough for kyleâs liking, as he pulled up the photo folder youâd made on his phone titled âhappily ever after đŠˇâ before handing it to kyle to flip through.
the younger man whistled lowly, eyes glued to the screen as he pinched and moved the photos to zoom in. elliot noticed how he paused on the photos of you, but flicked through the others quickly, not bothering to stop quick enough to take in your bridesmaidsâ dresses or the expensive tiered cake or elliotâs flash suit.
he snatched his phone back when kyle licked his lips at a photo of you dancing with your friends.
âlovely gown,â kyle said with a smirk as he watched elliot seethe. âyou really got lucky, eh? punching up like that.â
elliotâs eyes squinted in a glare. âexcuse me?â
âcome on, mate. you can be honest, itâs why you worry about the job, right? you want to keep that going for you so she doesnât leave you in the dust,â kyle continued to goad him.
âitâs not me that needs to worry about being left behind,â elliot spat. he rubbed his hand over his mouth and jaw to hide his burgeoning smug look, but kyle saw it in his eyes, the self-satisfaction. âiâve got options. plenty at that.â
kyle stared at him with a blank face. âoh yeah?â
elliot laughed meanly and dropped his hand. âoh yeah.â he tapped his phone against his palm for a moment, seemingly debating something before freezing as he heard you and johnny climb the short ladder back up to the deck, laughing all the while.
âdone in already?â kyle asked, his mood already lighter.
âjohnnyâs knee is aching, thought he could rest it and weâd get a quick drink,â you answered with a wide smile, reaching for one of the beers stored in the boats built-in cooler and handing one to johnny.
âbonnie was jusâ telling me how she used to live in a much smaller area when she was younger,â johnny said as you both sat down opposite to your partners. âbut you live in london now?â
âwhat is it with you two? always asking bloody questions,â elliot complained, hiding his unease behind a laugh.
âjust making conversation, mate,â kyle said tersely.
you felt the air grow awkward and jumped in before your husband could make it worse.
âwe moved to london for elliotâs work,â you said.
âand you like it?â kyleâs inquisitive, dark eyes had you willing to be more truthful than you would usually be, especially with near strangers.
âi have to admit⌠iâd always thought weâd be somewhere further from the city; its what iâd always wanted and elliot said heâd liked the idea of somewhere quieter. we met in my home town after all.â you caught elliotâs scornful eye and ducked your head. âbut it just didnât go that way in the end. and london is lovely, the apartment isâ lovely.â
âyou ever been to scotland?â johnny asked. âthe countryside is like nothinâ youâve ever seen up there.â
kyle nodded. âweâve lived on the edge of falkland for a few years now; feels like the middle of nowhere sometimes. doesnât get much better, i havenât missed the city for years.â
âone of the best decisions we ever made,â johnny agreed, leaning over to kiss gaz softly.
you sighed wistfully.
âdonât think the hills would agree with my dear wife, but maybe weâll take a trip up there some time,â elliot said unconvincingly. you swallowed thickly at his thinly veiled dig.
âwhen youâre not so busy, yeah?â kyle said staring your husband down.
elliotâs lips thinned. âyeah.â
âso howâre you finding france so far?â johnny asked. âenjoying yer stay?â
elliot sniffed. âcould be better. from how this one went on about the place i was expecting a hell of a lot more,â he said snidely, gesturing to you flippantly. âiâd have picked bali personally.â
your shoulders hunched even as you felt indignation and anger burn the back of your throat. it wasnât your fault elliot wasnât taking advantage of the holiday, the lush area and the activities that promised to be unforgettable if given the chance. you knew youâd remember going in the sea with johnny for years to come, but you doubted youâd remember the boring dinners youâd been having with elliot in a monthâs time, or at least not so fondly.
âthink iâd have put the trip off for longer if i knew what this place was going to be like,â elliot laughed. âin factââ
âwhy donât you shut the fuck up fer once and let yer pretty wife speak, eh?â johnny cut him off with a sarcastic smile.
elliot was shocked into silence and you found yourself stuttering as kyle and johnny focused on you.
âwhat do you do when youâre not on a late honeymoon, love?â kyle asked.
âuhm, i donât actually work currently,â you admitted sheepishly, your eyes darted to your husband as he grew redder in the face. âelliot makes enough to cover us financially and finding something in london was harder than expected after i had to suddenly quit my previous job when we moved.â
kyle and johnny cooed sympathetically.
âiâve picked up painting recently though, which has been different. not necessarily any good at it, but i like it,â you said.
âan artist? yer after my heart, hen. i sketch a little myself,â johnny said. ânow yeâll have to come visit us just so you can paint the views.â
kyle was quick to pull out his phone to share some photos. he stopped on one of johnny on the top of a steep, grassy hill; his arms thrown up the air, backpack on the ground next to him and a wide grin stretched across his face, his mohawk a little longer than it was now and a mess in the wind.
âwow, itâs gorgeous there,â you gushed, trying not to focus on johnnyâs strong stance highlighted by the rising sun behind him.
âthatâs the view just behind our house,â kyle grinned. âforty minute hike to get there, at most.â
you gawped. âno way.â
johnny nodded.
âthink youâre maybe overestimating her painting skills there, boys,â elliot snickered as he looked at the photo. âif you saw what sheâs done so far youâd realise itâs definitely just a new hobby.â
âshow us,â kyle suggested kindly, not bothering to look at elliot.
you hesitated before reaching for your bag and pulling out your phone. you handed it over with a shy smile.
âoi, these are good, bonnie,â johnny said immediately, stood looking over kyleâs shoulder. his brow was pulled into a frown as he concentrated.
âiâd buy âem,â kyle added, looking up at you to smile.
âha! right, yeah,â you laughed, thinking he was teasing. you put down your beer and took your phone back, dropping it into your bag. you leant in to kiss elliotâs cheek and stood. âwhoâs going to join me in the water? elliot?â
âi donât think so, darling. maybe another time,â he said.
âi will.â kyle stood. âdid johnny show you how to dive off the front?â
your eyes widened in excitement as you shook your head and followed him, waving at the captain sat at the helm of the small boat as you passed.
johnny watched the pair of you go before turning to glare at elliot silently, not breaking eye contact even as your husband frowned and shifted uneasily, eventually looking down at his phone to avoid johnnyâs unwavering, cold gaze.
---
âi donât like them,â elliot said once you were back in your hotel that evening.
âwho? johnny and kyle?â
âwho else?â elliot scoffed. âtheyâre too familiar with you, theyâ they fawn over you. flirt relentlessly, in front of meââ
âoh come on,â you laughed, unable to stop yourself even as elliot grew angrier at your casual dismissal. âtheyâre married, donât be bloody daft.â
âdonât call me stupid.â elliot warned.
âiâm not, i justââ
âwhether theyâre actually interested in you or not isnât the point,â elliot seethed. âtheyâre doing it to wind me up. to get away with humiliating me and you encourage them.â
âiâ what? we were just having fun,â you said.
âoh i know, i saw how you clung to them in the water when you thought i wasnât looking. fucking slut.â
you gaped at elliot, taken aback by his harsh words and sharp tone. you took in a deep breath and tried to level your own voice.
âtheyâre just friendly.â you bit your cheek. âif anything, youâre just jealous iâm getting more attention than you for once.â
âwhat was that?â elliot whipped around to face you and you felt your blood run cold even before he took a step towards you. he gripped you roughly by the back of your neck and tugged you forward so his lips rested at your temple and you followed limply, keeping your hands by your sides. âyou better not play up tomorrow, darling. whatever they offer, weâre busy. this our honeymoon, not a fucking jolly for you to try and meet other men.â
you seethed in his hold, furious at his accusations and the irony of his ill-placed jealousy. but all the same you nodded gently. âok, elliot.â
âgood.â he kissed your round cheek with a loud, sarcastic smack before turning towards the bathroom. he shed his clothes as he walked, leaving them in a trail you knew he expected you to pick up and closed the door behind him, leaving you stood motionless in the centre of the hotel room.
---
you dodged johnnyâs bright grin and kyleâs sweet invites to hang out over the last week of your holiday with a pained grimace.
after the first few mornings of suddenly stilted conversation over breakfast, they stopped joining you and elliot and you were happy they were able to continue enjoying their honeymoon even if you werenât.
elliot didnât say in so many words, but he didnât trust you not to gallivant off if left alone like before, so you were stuck waiting in the admittedly lavish hotel room on the days elliot got pulled back into work over the phone and on his laptop. too important to leave until later, heâd said. but heâd promised each time to take you out for a dinner that had continued to be forgotten about.
with only a few days left you were stuck waiting by the road, the little moped youâd rented for the day parked and so far unused while elliot nipped back up to the hotel to grab his sunglasses. itâd been twenty minutes already and part of you wondered if heâd gotten lost. you wished heâd left the keys with you instead of pocketing them so you could keep yourself entertained with a quick ride around the block, get used to the feel of the bike before joining onto the main road.
a squeaky horn, two beeps in quick succession, had you flinching from your moody thoughts and looking up as kyle and johnny pulled to a stop in front of you.
âlong time no see, love,â kyle said. he nodded down at the bike with a grin. âwhere you off to?â
âand can we join?â johnny asked with a waggle of his eyebrows.
you snorted. ânowhere. not until elliot comes back at least.â you shrugged. âheâs got the keys,â you explained.
âhow about we take you for a quick ride then,â johnny offered and kyle immediately started getting off from behind him.
âno, no i couldnât. thank you. elliot will be back any second, im sure,â you said quickly, worried elliot would grow mad if he saw you sat behind johnny on the bike.
âok, love,â kyle placated. âhow about we swap numbers then, in case we donât get to see you before your trip is up? i want to see more of your paintings.â
âweâre off home in about two days or so, figured yours would be about the same,â johnny said.
âwhat about email?â you suggested instead. your couples therapist had suggested regularly reading each others texts to try and gain back trust between the pair of you. the irony that it was now you trying to hide a conversation in your phone wasnât lost on you, but you knew elliot wouldnât want you talking to them after this trip. âi can get pretty chatty in a text, so email might be better,â you lied flimsily.
âsure,â johnny nodded along, clearly not believing you. âwhatever youâd like.â
âyou can have johnâs email,â kyle said with a smirk, the expression growing when the scot sighed and swatted at kyleâs thigh behind him.
you watched them with confused amusement until johnny read out his email.
âwow. thatâs very myspace of you,â you laughed even as johnny rolled his eyes.
âsoapâs an old nickname, youâll probably hear me call him gaz sometimes too. old habits,â johnny explained.
âfrom the military?â you confirmed and they nodded.
âi say it when i want him to listen. gets him standing to attention when i call him soap,â kyle said teased.
âanything you do gets me standing to attention, handsome,â johnny said, sultry and playful.
âoh piss off,â kyle laughed as he pushed johnnyâs face away, pretending to groan in disgust when johnny caught his wrist and messily kissed his palm. you felt your stomach clench at the brief sight of his tongue poking between kyleâs fingers, lapping at the webbing before he let him go.
his tongue there and gone again in a second. youâd almost think youâd imagined it if you didnât see the spit glisten in the sun before kyle wiped it on his shorts.
you blinked to clear your head and turned away even as the thought of johnnyâs mouth around kyleâs fingers replayed over and over in your head.
turning away meant you caught sight of elliot making his way back. it had your thoughts sobering and you looked back to the couple with an apologetic smile. âiâll see you guys later hopefully, but if not i hope you enjoy the rest of your honeymoon guys.â
âye trying to get rid oâ us?â johnny pouted, mischief clear in his eyes.
âno, but I know elliot will want to set off straight away soââ
âwe know when weâre not wanted, love,â kyle sighed, winking at you to soften the words and let you know they werenât offended, just pulling your pigtails. âtake a hint, johnny, letâs go check out the beach.â
âaye aye, sir,â johnny saluted lazily before revving the moped back to life and waving at you over his shoulder.
âready to go?â you jumped slightly at elliotâs voice behind you, you hadnât realised he was so close already and when you turned around you could see he was tense.
âready when you are,â you said and moved out of the way of the bike.
elliot didnât mention johnny or kyle and you were thankful; the day had barely begun, you didnât need an argument to ruin it already.
you swung your leg over the bike behind him and cuddled close, smiling when elliot rubbed a warm palm over your bare knee next to his thigh. today could be good if you just let it, you reminded yourself as elliot set off clumsily.
you lifted your head from his back once heâd managed to get the hang of controlling the moped a little better, becoming confident on the roads after a few minutes, but you wished you hadnât.
his collar was rustling in the wind and had slipped loose around his shoulder, revealing a smudged lipstick mark previously hidden by his button up overshirt. you felt your breath hitch, unable to look away even as your eyes started to burn.
your gut clenched and rolled unpleasantly, like you could throw up any moment but your jaw was firmly clenched closed. your hands shook where they were holding elliot at the waist and you finally clenched your eyes closed.
with trembling lips, you held back a sob.
today could be good if you let it, you repeated. so let it.
---
you didnât see kyle or johnny before you left and you didnât mention what you saw to elliot either.
instead you went back to london, to the dreary rain and the empty flat and the weekly couplesâ appointments.
you lied when your therapist asked how your honeymoon went. you grinned and turned to elliot with wide sparkling eyes and reach for his hand to hold between yours as you simpered, âsimply perfect.â
but it wasnât and elliot new it.
the breaking point was when johnny sent your throw-away email account a message one afternoon with a photo attached at the bottom. you grinned when it loaded on your laptop and you zoomed in to see your smiling face, then kyleâs, then johnnys.
it had been taken on the boat on your way back to the dock after a long day swimming and drinking and laughing. elliot had kept to himself for most of the trip unless spoken to, but after an hour youâd managed to ignore him well enough. it wasnât until kyle pulled him up on your way back, slapped his phone into elliotâs hand and asked him to take a photo of the three of you with the water and island in the background that you remembered he was there.
âelliot, be a good lad and take the photo for us wonât ya?â
âwhy not ask the captainââ
âheâs done enough dealing with us fer the day, aye? ohâ wait, did ye want tae be in it with us?â
âno. thank you.â
theyâd thrown their arms around you, pushing and pulling you to their liking until you were stood by the edge of the boat, and smiled. your shoulders were sensitive where johnnyâs arm laid over the top - sunburnt you thought at the time - and your hair was still wet from your last dip, but your smile was wide and glowing even as elliot had gritted his teeth.
despite his grumbles heâd done as asked and youâd been dying to see the photo ever since when johnny cooed, âaw, lovely photo to remember ya by.â
now you felt your cheeks heat as you saw how your swim shorts had rucked up high on your thighs, damp and clinging, showing off more skin than youâd realised. your swimsuit at least covered your stomach and cleavage well enough, though johnnyâs hand on your shoulder held one of the thick strings of your suit where it had tied at the back of your neck. he was in the middle of playing with it, tugging it so it was taut but not enough to loosen the bow. you donât remember feeling him pull at the string holding your suit up over your breasts, though you were distracted by the tight hold gaz had on your waist, the handful heâd grabbed as he knocked your hips together.
god no wonder elliot had gotten mad that evening. if you hadnât known the two were married, youâd have assumed they were trying to get between your legs by this photo alone.
you read the message johnny had sent along with it.
missin you and yer sweet laugh, bonnie!
forgot to send the photo earlier, i think the three of us look well fit, weâll have to go swimming gain sometime. gaz suggested leucate plage if yer still in love wih france, but im sure thereâs a few different au naturel beaches we could try ;)
you sputtered a laugh at that, scoffing at the idea of going to a nude beach especially with those two. bloody hell, elliot would have a fit, you thought gleefully.
but for now we thought you could come visit us like weâd said before? the countryside could be good for you and the olâ ball n chain. weâd be happy t have ye both for the week, weâve got the room. just let us know, yeah?
yer handsome pal,
johnny
you shook your head at his theatrics. emailing johnny felt like having a slightly unhinged penpal and reading his emails never failed to brighten up your day, you could hear him in the way he typed. you also loved when you assumed gaz would steal the phone to use his account to talk to you, the lack of scots and shorthand was always a dead giveaway between the two.
you bit your lip and found some of the photos heâd sent previously of their home and garden. it was gorgeous simply put and although the anxiety of admitting to elliot that youâd kept in contact with them had your palms sweating, the deep urge to go visit them ultimately won out.
you bit the bullet over dinner that same night. steak, specially made to soften elliotâs mood.
not that it helped much.
âwhat?â he dropped his cutlery and pushed back from his seat, needing distance from you as he processed youâd been lying to him. âwhy would you do that?â
you didnât have an answer. or not one that elliot would like, so you felt yourself begin to shrug before you thought back to your last session.
âour therapist said it could be good for the relationship if i made some friends separate to yours,â you said.
âshe also said you needed to focus trying more with my friends,â elliot reminded.
âbut your friends arenât offering to stay with us for a week in the highlands, elliot. if they were then iâd be all for it!â
âso if i tell my friends that weâll spend christmas at the ski lodge with them this year, you wonât whine about wanting to be at home together, this time,â he challenged.
you swallowed. he knew you hated skiing and his bitchy judgmental rich friends. it wasnât even as though it was his easy going friends that liked to go, it was the worst of the bunch that purposely left you out or talked down to you, made it impossible to try without embarrassing yourself.
but fine. you could deal with that this year if it meant your friendship with kyle and johnny was allowed to grow.
âsure,â you said with an obviously fake casual shrug. âso we can go?â
elliot huffed. you sprung out your next argument.
âour therapist also said it was important to let me take the lead a few times. in order to let me regaiââ
âregain some power in the relationship, yeah, i know. i was there.â elliot nodded. he seemed to think it over. âthis will help you trust me again?â
you reached across the table and held his hand, smiling at him hopefully when he looked back at you. you tried not to think of the lipstick stain in france, tried not to let the hurt cloud you eyes. âyes.â you stood and walked to stand by his chair, chest warming when he wrapped an arm around your waist. âthe honeymoon felt forced,â you admitted, making sure to keep eye contact even as he stiffened. âwe both felt it, you can admit it, iâm not mad. but this would be new and an adventure. like old times, elliot.â
he nodded a little less resignedly. âsure, old times. ok.â
you smiled, dipped down to kiss him deeply, rubbing his clean shaven cheek with your thumb.
âthank you. this will be fun, i promise. weâll get to relax and just spend some time together, yeah? no pressure of what we should be doing as a couple or at work orâ orââ
elliot softened as he looked at you stutter to find another reason. âyes, darling. itâll be good.â
you stepped out of his grasp.
âiâll let them know we can go, what date do you think would be best?â
---
âfucking hell, you had one job. look out for the stupid carved owl in the tree and thatâs when we know to turn left,â elliot seethed as he drove, the sun growing dimmer by the minute. youâd spent the entire day driving up north using the directions, had set off that saturday morning in hopes that the traffic wouldnât be as busy as midweek. âso where are we now? you insisted on following their directions instead of using the satnav, so where the hell does it mention this endless fucking shitty, unpaved road? eh?â
you hunched down in your seat next to him and reread the instructions from soap, hoping to find a clue as to where you were on the, admittedly adorable yet detailed, map heâd drawn. youâd found it endearing when youâd first saw it but now you were thinking it was more of a necessity.
elliot snatched your phone from your hand and split his focus between the dark road and your phone, scrolling erratically to find the directions in the email he wanted. your hand hovered between you, eager to take your phone back but hesitant to foul his mood further.
your eyes caught on movement on the road and you quickly gripped the wheel to swerve and avoid hitting a deer that had wandered out from the trees. âfuck, elliot, watch out!â
he slammed on the breaks and dropped your phone into your footwell as he automatically gripped the wheel to take over from you.
you both sat still, panting; anxiety and adrenaline pumping through your body as you tried to tell it and brain that you were fine, it could calm down, you were ok. you rubbed at your shoulder where your seatbelt had dug in.
elliot started up the car again, silent, and went slower down the road until the headlights caught on a misshapen tree. you squinted before pointing it out. âhere, look. i think thatâs the owl, go left.â
it only took a few minutes before you could see the lights from kyle and johnnyâs farmhouse. the shape of their barn and surrounding smaller outbuildings stark against the natural curves of the hills and trees they were settled amongst.
âweâre here,â you said excitedly. âthey said to pull around the side of the barn to the garage they have at the side. their house should be riiight there.â you grinned as you parked directly in front of it on the gravel next to their truck.
âgreat,â elliot said sarcastically. you didnât mention his tone knowing that having to drive all day, several hours longer than youâd both expected, would have rankled anyoneâs mood.
you climbed out without a word and got your bags out of the back of the car. when you rounded back to the front you found johnny and kyle walking to meet you already, their front door left open behind them.
âbonnie! ye made it,â johnny said as he jogged over to you excitedly. you let go of your suitcase as he pulled you into a hug as soon as you were close enough, scuffing his stubble against your neck in his excitement.
âdown, boy,â kyle laughed, nudging johnny out of the way to give you his own hug. once he pulled back he nodded to elliot and smirked. âthought youâd maybe gotten lost, we were ready to start a search party.â
elliot bristled but johnny spoke up before he could defend himself.
âaye, but tea is still warm and ready to be served, anâ ahm fucking starving so letâs get inside yeah?â johnny slapped elliotâs shoulder before leading you all to the house. âdone a big roasty fer the pair aâye, so i hope yer hungry.â
the heat encompassed you as soon as you stepped inside, led through to the kitchen-stroke-dining room. the food smelled divine and the warmth accumulated from the oven and the fireplace had your shoulders relaxing instantly.
the house was far from modern with its mismatched old wooden chairs around the handmade table and the well-loved couch you could spot through in the next room, nothing like your lifeless flat in london. but the farmhouse was still stylish in its own way, in the colour of the cabinets, the throw on couch, the wallpaper leading up the stairs. though more importantly, it was homely. lived in.
âi can imagine the drive wasnae easy for first timers, so sit yerselves down and iâll plate the food, gazâll get the wine,â johnny said.
you pulled out the chair next to elliot, leaving the two opposite you empty.
johnny clapped his hands as if to say voilĂ when he put down your heaped plates a minute later.
âthis looks amazing, johnny, you cooked this?â you asked, eyes round and barely stopping yourself from digging in to be polite.
âhave a great sous chef,â he said and patted kyleâs arse when he passed by with the wine. kyle smirked.
âhow did you find the drive up, seriously?â kyle asked as he poured your drinks. he took a seat with johnny and gestured for you to start eating; now with permission, you didnât hesitate.
âit was fine. mightâve been easier if we were given an address instead, satnav mightâve made it quicker,â elliot said as he pushed around some of the steamed vegetables on his plate.
âthe views made taking our time worth it though, the valleys we passed were gorgeous,â you gushed. âi didnât realise there were so many small lakes too.â
elliot sniffed irritably, but you didnât notice. in fact youâd barely noticed how he played with his food more than ate it as you were too busy chatting and eating. you were going crazy for the hearty roast dinner, you could see in the colour and in the bursting taste of the veg just how fresh it all was; nothing like the store bought stuff you usually got at home.
you hadnât had anything home cooked in so long that you hadnât made yourself, and when you told kyle and johnny so they both reared back as though slapped.
âoh love, youâre missing out, thatâs not right. donât worry weâll take care of you while youâre here,â kyle promised.
elliot cleared his throat. âgot any salt?â
johnnyâs eyes flickered tersely from elliot to the roast beef he was poking on his plate and back up again. âsure. let me just grab it for ye.â
âcheers,â elliot smiled thinly.
âtop up?â kyle asked and gestured to your wine glass. you nodded before turning to elliot, but he wasnât looking your way so you held your glass out.
âthanks. god, after this and the long drive i think iâll be ready for bed; sorry excuse for company on the first night,â you apologised.
âweâre just happy to have you here,â kyle assured you as johnny sat back down. your husband doused his food in salt before making a better dent in it, downing his wine quickly afterwards with a wince.
âyeah, i think itâll be an early one for us tonight, wonât it, darling?â elliot said and started to stand, rudely pushing his unfinished plate away. âin fact, i think iâm pretty tired now.â
you looked down at the last few bites of your meal and the full glass of wine forlornly but stood alongside elliot.
âit really was a fantastic meal, thank you so much, johnny,â you said.
âanytime for you, hen,â he said. âhere, let us show you to your room.â
âiâll grab the dishes while you take them up, johnny. you cooked so iâll clean,â kyle said, hooking a finger in johnnyâs jeans to catch his attention when he stood up. you felt a sharp pang at their easy domesticity. sure theyâd said theyâd known each other, been together, for a decade, but it still ached that you and elliot where struggling so obviously in comparison despite your sixth anniversary nearing on the horizon.
you gave kyle a fragile smile as you followed johnny upstairs with your bags to your room for the week.
âiâll leave you to it, see ye in the morning,â johnny said as you settled into your room.
âthis is amazing,â you said with a small laugh, disbelief and joy mixing into something like hope as you started to get undressed. the view out of your bedroom looked over the front garden and you felt giddy at the idea of staying with your new friends for the next few days and exploring the area further.
âitâs⌠quaint,â elliot said.
you turned to him, your mouth pulled tight. âplease donât start.â
âwhat? itâs just⌠smaller than what weâre used to,â he said with a shrug, starting to laugh as he gestured at the room. âi mean look at this place, and the bed.â
âkeep your voice down at least, elliot,â you hissed, eyes sharp on the closed door of your bedroom.
âdarling, you know i get overheated easily, and by the looks of it weâre going to be pressed side by side all night. and i doubt they have a/c,â elliot huffed. he sat down on the bed and rolled his eyes when it squeaked. âoh, come on.â
âwe could open the window,â you said stubbornly, ignoring elliot as he shifted to make the bed squeak again.
âand let in the smell of sheep shit? not your brightest idea,â he scoffed. âchrist and never mind the bloody noise on top of that. good thing i brought my ear plugs or iâd never get any sleep.â
you bit your tongue when you thought of the constant traffic noises that flooded into your apartment at all times of the day and night, the light pollution that did its best to creep past your blackout curtains.
âiâm sure youâll get used to it after the first couple of nights,â you said instead and moved to join him in bed. you reached for his hand and squeezed it, leaning in for a kiss, teasing your tongue at his lips for a split second before pulling back. âjust⌠please be nice?â
he sighed.
âfine,â he conceded. âi was just expecting something a little nicer considering the price of the trip we met them on.â
you scowled at him and let go of his hand. âyouâre being rude.â
you leant over to turn off your lamp and laid down facing away from him. neither of you noticed the shadows shift under your door, the light footsteps heading away from your room.
---
you woke up the next morning to find elliot already in the shower, you could hear the pipes from the bathroom next door and noticed his suitcase had been half unpacked.
you were grateful heâd let you sleep, youâd gone to bed frustrated and you didnât want to carry it on this morning. it was a new day and you were eager to have fun.
you walked over to the window and pulled back the curtains. as you gazed out your eyes naturally drifted to johnny, stood near the barn youâd passed on your way in. he was small given the distance but you couldnât help but stare as he rhythmically chopped logs into smaller, more manageable pieces.
he was sweating, the repetitive action of driving the axe up and then through the thick wood obviously tiring, and you felt water pool in your mouth as you looked on gormlessly.
the sleeves of his thick checked shirt were rolled up his forearms and part of you wished heâd decided to chop the wood in the driveway so youâd have a clearer view of his muscles at work. he wiped his face on his bicep and suddenly turned to the house, to your window.
you ducked away before he could catch you and started to get dressed out of the line of sight the windows may provide. with your face aflame and anxious butterflies rampant in your stomach, you needed to get your head on straight and decidedly not ogle your new friends.
with one last stern word to yourself you headed downstairs back to the kitchen and found gaz pottering around.
âah morning, love. coffee?â he offered, holding out a cup. you took it gratefully with a small thank you and sat at the table again. there was a plate of toast in the middle, enough slices freshly made made for the four of you, and you reached forward for one. âi was thinking me and soap could show you a hiking trail nearby, make a day of it.â
âthe one you showed me on your phone?â you asked, nodding enthusiastically regardless of his answer.
âthis oneâs even better,â gaz said, smiling fondly. âjust might take longer.â
âcoffee? thank you, darling,â elliot mumbled as he swiped your coffee from your hands without asking and distracting you from answering gaz. youâd barely had a sip before elliot was finishing the drink off in one go. âmm, bit too milky for my liking,â he told you and sucked his teeth.
âprobably because it wasnât for you,â kyle said flatly. âweâre going on a hike today, care to join or has work called you in already?â
âiâd love a hike,â elliot said brightly. johnny walked in through the front door as elliot continued to talk about the hikes heâd been on before, heading to the sink to wash his hands and leaning up to kiss kyle as he passed. âwork can wait for the great outdoors. my wife here knows how much i love going onâ on uh, on hikes and finding new trails and mapping them out.â elliot stumbled over his words for a second, taken back by the kiss.
johnnyâs shoulders shook with a silent laugh and he turned and winked at you as he opened up a cupboard door that hid his face from your husband.
âoh, so you two go together?â kyle asked.
âno, no,â elliot laughed like the thought was ridiculous. âi go with my mates. not really her thing.â
you pursed your lips; you hated it when elliot answered for you, especially when he was wrong. which was often. instead of fussing though, you focused your ire on another slice of toast from the centre of the table.
âright.â kyle stood from his chair and went to lean next to johnny on one of the kitchen counters. âweâll pack a bag full of snacks and drinks and then we can be off. give us fifteen minutes?â
you nodded, thankful for the excuse to leave elliot at the table, and went to grab your walking boots before coming back to wait with elliot near the door.
âquicker to get there from the back,â johnny said and led you through the rest of the downstairs out into the back garden.
it looked like it could spread for acres if not for the looming trees of the forest fencing it in.
to the left was their chicken coop and a small locked shed. if you turned around youâd see your cars parked, the garage and then the barn further up.
the chicken coop was on solid muddy ground, closer to the gravel front, whereas the shed was further up on the flat grassy area that began to rise into a small hill further back and closer to the trees; there was a small iron table sat with four chairs closer to the house and you couldnât wait to use it, imagining sitting out there for lunch or breakfast.
to your right you took in their allotment, the large raised beds full of blooming vegetables; tall beans climbing the trellis arches from one side to another. you saw noticed the glint of a greenhouse hidden behind it all. everything was encouraged to grow to its fullest and you bet the food theyâd served the night before had been grown by their very own hands.
âweâve got strawberries if yeâd like tae pick some over the next few days,â johnny said as he walked you down to the end of the garden, catching the way your eyes were glued to the allotment.
âiâd love that, i havenât been strawberry picking since i was little,â you said.
johnny nodded. âsettled then.â
---
the hike wasnât difficult, but living down south in a very flat city hadnât built up your cardio for the steep hills and climbs at all.
âthis is a good place to stop for lunch,â johnny said, apropos to nothing.
he squeezed your arm as he wandered off the path towards the edge of the hill. you were halfway there to the top, but already you were loving the views.
âknee bothering you, johnny?â kyle asked as he pulled out a rainproof sheet from his bag and started placing the food out in the tupperware boxes.
âsomething like that,â he said.
you laughed when you saw johnny pull out a bottle of wine from his.
âjust tryinâ tae make use of all the wine we bought on holiday, hen,â he snickered.
you sat down and helped them spread the food out while your husband paced from the ledge to the path and then to the blanket, only to start again.
âhave a seat elliot,â you said encouragingly, patting the space youâd left purposely empty next to you.
he slumped down with a huff and kyle side-eyed him.
âhow was your night? sleep well?â
âhope the room wasnae too small,â johnny added, biting into a cheese cracker as he looked to your husband.
you felt your stomach drop and your face heat up. âno, not at allââ
âi think iâm just used to the finer things,â elliot said, picking up one of the packed travel cups pointedly and pouring himself some wine.
âwe slept fine,â you said firmly as you frowned at elliot. âitâs perfect.â
âah, weâre just joking around, hen, no need to fash,â johnny teased. âyou pack yer paints?â
âshit.â your face dropped as you looked at him. âi completely forgot when i was packing, i was too excited.â
johnny grinned. âyou can borrow mine, itâs alright.â
âif theyâre not dried up that is,â kyle said with a laugh. âiâve not seen you touch paints in years, johnny.â
âtheyâre water paints, gaz, theyâre meant tae be dry,â johnny said with a roll of his eyes. he looked to you and covered the side of his mouth. âyer a breath oâfresh air, ye have no idea. i love him but he doesnae have the eye fer it, you know?â
âim right bloody here,â kyle said exasperatedly, making you laugh.
âfucking hell,â your husband muttered under his breath before standing. âi think iâm gonna go ahead and have a look at the trail, get a lay of the land. iâll turn around in ten and meet you back here.â
âare you sure?â you asked at the same time johnny warned him, âdonât go off the path.â
âwhy not?â elliot asked, taking it as a challenge despite johnnyâs grave tone.
âgo straight so you donât get lost,â johnny repeated seriously. âitâs a tricky place, these woods. one wrong turn and youâll neâer be found.â
elliot stayed silent for a moment, left off kilter by johnnyâs intense eyes, before laughing, waving him of with a scoff. âsure thing, johnny.â
you watch your husband walk off with an uneasy feeling before kyle and johnnyâs easy going nature distracted you once more.
before you knew it itâd been twenty minutes, but you were too busy talking about how theyâd ended up moving out so far away from their original shared home, that you hadnât noticed elliot wasnât back yet.
âitâs great here, but it can feel⌠lonely sometimes, just the two of us,â johnny admitted as he looked to kyle. the handsome man nodded and knocked their knees together.
âi know how that feels,â you said, three cups of wine having loosened your lips.
âyeah?â kyle asked softly, tilting his head to meet your downcast eyes.
you opened and closed your mouth a few times before taking a deep breath.
âi want a baby,â you said weakly, sadly. you were quiet as though hoping not to be overheard. âelliot doesnât think itâs the right time, but im starting to doubt itâd ever be the right time if it were up to him.â
you blink at the anger that had seeped into your last words and gasped as you realised that youâd actually finally said them out loud. not even your therapist had gotten you to admit this.
âoh god, please forget i said that,â you begged them suddenly, wide eyed and pleading. âplease. donât say anything to elliot about it. iâ i think iâve just drank a little too much,â you tried to excuse yourself.
âhey, itâs ok,â johnny said with a concerned frown.
âi didnât mean it,â you rushed out.
kyle moved to elliotâs previous spot and pulled you in for a warm hug, calming you down.
âitâs normal to want things and to be disappointed when the person that promised you them canât deliver,â he whispered. you sniffled and slowly wrapped your arms back around him with a nod, tears building behind yojr closed eyelids. you slumped into his hold further when johnnyâs large hand rubbed soothingly across your back below kyleâs arms.
it was nice. simply being between them and being comforted by them was nice.
you leaned back and wiped at your eyes with a sniffly laugh.
âthank you, guys, iâ thank you.â
gaz squeezed your shoulder for a moment before finally letting you go.
you felt fidgety, needing to do something with your hands and to keep them from staring at your red rimmed eyed, so you reached for a handful of grapes when it suddenly occurred to you that elliot wasnât back. you looked at your watch and swore.
âelliotâs not here yet, shit what if heâs lost?â
âhe wonât be,â johnny reassured you, standing alongside you and grabbing your shoulders. âheâs an experienced hiker, right? he probably lost track aâtime like we did.â
âletâs get this packed away and weâll go catch up to him,â kyle suggested. you nodded, easily calmed once given easy orders to occupy your busy mind
---
âelliot?â you called out as you walked, johnny and kyle on either side of you, looking out into the trees in case heâd gone off track. âyou there? elliot?â
âstop shouting, christ, iâm here,â elliot complained further up the trail. he was slouched against a tree. âtook you all long enough.â
âoh my god, what happened,â you said as you crouched next to him, looking at the sorry swollen state of his ankle.
âtwisted it looks like, worst-case it could be a sprain,â kyle said from over your shoulder. âshould be fine, we can get home with him leaning on our shoulders, right, soap?â
johnny tutted in disappointment as he stared down the path instead of at your injured husband.
âthe waterfall was only five minutes away as well,â johnny said to no one in particular. he crouched next to elliot. âcâmon then, letâs get you back.â
your husband bristled. he looked longingly down the trail johnny had gestured to just a moment before.
âwe should still go, iâll be fine,â he insisted. âwe should go to the waterfall.â
gaz raised his eyebrows incredulously as he helped elliot stand, but he stayed silent.
âyou want to lean on me or johnny?â he asked.
âwhoever gets us there quicker,â elliot said, face pinched.
kyle rolled his eyes and set off walking, leaving elliot to wince until he matched kyleâs stride. luckily the walk wasnât long before the four of you cut off the trail and found yourselves stood at the bottom of the waterfall, a light mist of water splashing at your bare skin from where you stood.
âholy shit.â
johnny nudged your shoulders together with a laugh.
âimpressive, right?â
âto say the least,â you huffed.
kyle had helped elliot sit down by the edge of the plunge pool with his leg stretched out as youâd taken in the view with johnny, though you soon took a seat next to elliot when you noticed he was situated as comfortable as could be. you pulled off your shoes and socks and shuffled forwards a little to dip your feet in the water, kicking lightly and grinning even with how the cold bit at your toes.
elliot stayed stern faced even as he looked at the impressive feature, but kyle and johnny took no notice.
they started to undress, throwing their clothes down haphazardly by their bags.
âyou coming in?â kyle asked you cheekily.
âwe go in every time weâre here, tradition now,â johnny explained once he was stood in his underwear.
âi donât have my swimsuit,â you said hesitantly.
âjusâ go in yer kegs like us,â johnny dismissed the worry.
âitâs probably for the best sheâs said no,â elliot said meanly, one eyebrow raised as he looked over your relaxed form, your stomach rolls obvious and plush under the afternoon sun and your thighs spread thick where they pressed against the edge of the natural pool. you suddenly felt the need to layer up in your baggiest clothes. âsheâs happy enough sat with me. isnât that right, darling?â
you felt embarrassment, hot and sharp, flood from your face to your toes as you stared at him. this was your husband. a man that took delight in belittling you.
âoi,â johnny warned from where he stood waist deep in the water.
you ignored them both and stood suddenly, shucking off your clothes with tight angry movements, a smile only eventually pulling at your lips when kyle wolf whistled playfully.
johnny joined in jeering and clapped as you stepped carefully closer to the edge before jumping in. once you resurfaced, you resolutely faced away from the scowl you knew would be on your husbandâs face. you were past caring.
the cold of the water had you sucking in thinner breaths until you acclimatised, and you were grateful it was deep enough to brush your collarbones as you could tell your nipples were babbling from the chill.
âbe careful, love, there are fish in here,â gaz said as he drifted closer to your front. his smile was bordering on mischievous but it eased your slight reservations of being in the water. âbut donât worry they donât bite.â
you felt a sudden pinch on your buttcheek and you squealed before johnnyâs laugh and warm chest at your back registered. you flushed hot and dug your elbow back into his ribs as they laughed, both barely giving you space to float alone.
they guided you closer to the waterfall with easy going smiles and it wasnât until you felt their capable hands on your hips and tummy to keep you from being dragged under as you held your hands under the heavy pour that you looked back guiltily at your husband. you pushed off and away from them but continued to swim a little while longer until elliot kicked up a fuss, bored.
âare we done now? itâs getting dark, we should be heading back,â he spoke up when it looked like the three of you werenât tiring any time soon. âand then thereâs dinner to think of.â
âyou offering to cook, elliot?â kyle said as he climbed out of the water.
elliot scoffed. ânot likely. with the ankle and all,â he said patronisingly.
gaz smiled thinly. âof course.â
the three of you dried off as best you could before dressing and heading back to the farmhouse with elliot leant between johnny and kyle.
even as your clothes chafed against your damp skin, you couldnât bring yourself to regret swimming. thought the cold was biting even through your coat, and a warm shower was calling for you back at the farmhouse.
---
once you were back you showered quickly and then ran a bath for elliot. you helped ease him in so he didnât slip and further injure himself.
âput on a real fucking show today,â he grumbled once he was laid back. you cupped the water over his hair carefully.
âwhat do you mean?â you grabbed the shampoo and began lathering it.
âdonât play dumb,â he hissed. âacting like that, like a whore, with them. again.â
âi wasnâtââ
âyouâre a fucking hypocrite,â he said harshly. âpunishing me for one little mistake but now you get to act like this with other men?â
you let your hands hang over the edge of the tub in shock. âyou cheated on me. more than once, elliot. thatâs not a little mistake.â
âweâre past this,â he said tiredly with a shake of his head, rubbing his hand over his forehead to wipe away the dripping shampoo.
âthen why did you bring it up?â
he turned to look at you, disgust clear on his face.
âyouâre ugly when you get like this,â he said simply. âleave me to it, iâll call you in when i need a hand getting out.â
your lip trembled as you stood and went back to your room. as you closed the door behind you, you heard elliot mutter to himself, âheâs an absolute idiot thinking this was only a twisted ankle, clearly not a doctor. the swelling has hardly gone down.â
you didnât react, heading to the room next door with watery eyes. as you were tidying up your clothes, sniffling back angry and hurt tears, there was a knock on the doorframe. your turned to see johnny with a plate in his hand.
âthought iâd make things easier and bring his tea up fer him,â he said and put it on the bedside table. âdo you want me to bring up yours too or will you be joining us?â
âoh, iâm not hungry, thank you johnny,â you said with a watery smile. the food looked delicious but elliotâs words had soured your appetite. âi think iâm just going to go to bed as soon as elliotâs alright.â
âye sure?â
âmhm.â you nodded.
johnny nodded, said a soft, âlet me know if ye change your mind.â he pulled out a pack of pain tablets from his pocket with a little wave and dropped them on the bed and then left.
you waited for elliotâs shout before you went to help him out of the bath and back through to your room. you left him to dry and dress himself and once he was sat on the bed with his food, you turned your back to him and willed yourself to fall asleep quickly.
part two
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â¨His Forbidden Fruitâ¨



Angel!Lucifer x f!human reader
Summary: You are the first woman, Eden is your paradise. Or at least itâs supposed to be. Adam has been making life in the garden difficult. That is, until a certain angel comes alongâŚ
Warnings: smut, 18+, fingering, oral (m & f receiving), p in v, first time
"Fine! Go ahead and run! See how far that fucking gets you!" you heard Adam shout after you as you took off into the dense forest.
You couldnât stand to be around him anymore. The person who you were made for, the one who you were supposed to be equal with, was a vile and despicable human. Always trying to tell you what to do, how to act, what to say, it was too much to handle anymore. You pushed through the thick foliage of the garden, unaware of how long youâve been running. After some time, you came to an opening. A beautiful crystal lake stretched across the land surrounded by large trees filled with all different sorts of fruits. It looked like a paradise, but in your sorrow you couldnât find the beauty in any of it. You collapsed, sitting on top of a nearby rock, and you sobbed. You buried your face in your hands and brought your legs to your chest. You were alone and you felt like there was no escaping the life given to you.
But you werenât alone for long.
âBeautiful creature, why do you cry?â a soothing voice said.
Your breath caught in your thought at the sound of this voice. It wasnât Adamâs. You lifted your head but saw no one around you. Until you noticed you had somehow been enveloped in shadow. You raised your head further and some something, or rather someone, floating just above you, their enormous wings stretched out, shading you from the bright sun. You gasped; your body screamed at you to run but your mind refused to move a muscle.
âDo not be afraid,â the being spoke softly, âI mean you no harm.â
You gulped, clutching your legs to your chest, trying to make yourself as small as possible. âWhoâŚwho are you?â
The spirit landed on the grass below and smiled brightly. âI am the light bringer, the morning star for the heavens above,â he answered, outstretching his hand. âBut you can call me Lucifer.â
An angel, you thought to yourself. You gazed at his hand hesitantly and wiped the remaining tears from your face in an attempt to gain composer. âDid Heaven send you here, Lucifer?â
âWell, not exactly,â he admitted, pulling his hand away and rubbing the back of his neck. âIn all honesty, I shouldnât even be here.â
You tilted your head in confusion. âThen why are you?â
Lucifer sighed and looked away from you. âIâŚIâm not sure. This place, this garden, itâs enchanting! But I was denied any say in how it should beâŚâ You saw how resigned the angel was as he spoke to you. A pang of sadness stung your chest. âHeaven was not happy with any of the ideas I provided them. They never are. I justâŚwanted to see it for myself. But then, I saw you running, and I saw you crying. I couldnât stand to see you filled with such pain.â He held out his hand once more. âPlease, tell me what troubles you. Perhaps I could help.â
You took a closer look at the angel. His sapphire eyes were enchanting, it seemed almost impossible to look away. And his pale complexion very much stood out in the garden overrun with an abundance of different colors. You glanced at his enormous wings, white and gold in color, and how they perfectly complimented the rays of the sun that shows through the tree branches.
He was the most beautiful thing you've ever seen.
Tentatively, you took a hold of his hand as he helped you up from the rock you were perched on. You were about to speak, but then Lucifer let go of your hand in an instant.
"A-AH!" the angel squeaked as he stumbled backwards, tripping in the process and landing on the soft grass below. He shieled his eyes and shifted his body so he was no longer facing you.
"Lucifer, what's the matter?" you asked as you stood there puzzled.
"Oh! Umm...nothing! Nothing's wrong!" he answered quickly. "I...I forgot that when heaven created you, they left you...bare."
You tilted your head in confusion. "Bare? I don't understand." Without answering, you watched as Lucifer flicked his wrist, his eyes still avoiding yours. All of a sudden, you felt your body becoming wrapped in whatever Lucifer had just summoned for you. You looked down and realized that most of your skin had been covered in a foreign material that you have not encountered before. A part of it hung over your shoulder while the other was left untouched. It was draped down just past your knees. "What is this?" you questioned as you reached down to feel the white cloth. It was unbelievably soft and light, almost as if you didn't have anything on your body at all.
Lucifer peaked through his hands; you heard him sign in relief. He stood up and brushed the dirt of his robe before returning to your side. "Forgive me," he started, "that was a bit of an...overreaction. I'm sorry if I startled you!"
"It's alright, Lucifer," you smiled at him. "I'm still a bit confused though, what is this for? Was there something wrong with my appearance?"
Lucifer's eyes widened. "Oh gosh, no no no! Of course not! You're perfect! WAIT! I mean you look perfect! GAH NO! I uhh...it's...it's a gift! Yeah, that's it! It's a gift for you!"
"A gift?" You couldn't help but smile. "Adam has never given me a gift..."
You saw Lucifer frown as he took ahold of your hand once more. "I'm sorry to hear that, my flower. Here, follow me." Lucifer guided you to the lake's edge and knelt down, signaling you to join him. You did as he asked and fell to your knees in front of him. "Now tell me, why had you run away?"
You looked down and began to fiddle with your hands, unsure if your reason would upset the angel. "It's Adam..." you began, "He's...so needlessly demanding and harsh. He doesn't see us as equals, he believes himself to be superior to me. I've tried explaining to him that he shouldn't be acting this way, but he refuses to listen! Finally, I had enough of him...so I ran..." You felt the tears well up in your eyes once more, small whimpers escaping your throat as you tried to hold yourself together. "I know we're meant to be partners and I've sure heaven will not be happy b-but..."
"Shh, it's alright." Lucifer cooed as he wiped away the tears the fell down your cheek. "Please, no more tears. You were right to stand up to him. Adam should know better." You sighed and let your head rest in Lucifer's small yet tender hand. You glanced over at the pound when you heard an unfamiliar noise emanating from the center. You noticed some feathered creatures you didn't recognize swimming on the lakes surface. There seemed to be one that was much larger than all the others. You looked back at Lucifer and saw his face light up with delight. "Do you see those little ones over there?" You nodded. "Heaven may not have wanted my input on creation, but that doesn't mean I didn't have any."
"Are those your creations?" you asked.
Lucifer smiled and then sighed. "One of very few. Do you want to get a closer look?"
You looked back out to the water and saw the group of animals flap their wings, splashing the water in every direction. They seemed so full of life and energy, watching them play filled your heart with warmth. You nodded, albeit a bit nervously. Lucifer let out a melodic whistle; you watched as the little creatures made their way towards the lake bank. You saw them use their small wings to help them onto land and waddle towards the two of you. Initially, you stretched out your hand to touch one of the smaller ones but pulled back in hesitation.
"Don't worry," Lucifer reassured, "they are harmless, I promise! Watch!" Lucifer cupped his hands together and laid them down in the soft grass. A few of the small ones happily chippered and hopped into his palms. "Want to give it a try?"
You copied Lucifer's motions exactly and watched as the same thing happened with the remaining babies. Their feathers were bright yellow and soft to the touch. You were in awe of the little lives you held in your hands. "They're so small," you said aloud to no one in particular. "What are they, Lucifer?"
The angel lowered his hands and let the little ones go back to what you now assumed was their guardian. "I named them ducks," Lucifer answered. "The little ones are ducklings; not fully formed yet but they will grow!"
You nuzzled your cheek to the handful of ducklings; their little peeps made you chuckle. "They're beautiful!" you exclaimed, letting them down so they could join their family once more.
"Yeah, beautiful..." you heard Lucifer murmur. You looked over to see his lovely blue eyes staring straight back at you, a tint of yellow now colored his cheeks. "Uhh, I mean, umm...here! Watch this!"
A sudden flash of sparkles left you dazed, but only for a second. Lucifer had disappeared in front of your eyes.
"Lucifer?" you called out, looking to either side of you but seeing no one.
"Down here!" you heard his voice respond. You looked down and saw a small little white duck in Lucifer's top hat. He smiled at you and wagged his feathered tail. You couldn't help but laugh.
"Oh, what an adorable little creature," you fawned playfully, cupping your hands once again and allowing him to hop in them. You brought him to your cheek and nuzzled him as you did with the others. Lucifer quacked in excitement. "I didn't know you could change forms!"
"It's not something I do often," he admitted. By the tone of his voice, it almost seemed like it was something that had been discouraged. "But I don't mind making a special exception for you!" You noticed the sun began to dip over the horizon, the fleeting sunlight shimmering off Lucifer's pristine white feathers. It would be night soon, and in that moment you realized you didn't have anywhere else to go. Lucifer noticed the change in your demeanor, tilting his head. "Is something the matter?" Before you could open your mouth to speak, a bellowing call could be heard from the tree line.
"Where the fuck could she be?!" you heard the voice ask, filled with annoyance. Adam. You saw the man push past the foliage and make it to the clearing. His eyes immediately found yours, and you felt as though your heart had nearly stopped. You let Lucifer down gently before standing up.
"Stay here," you whispered to him. "I'll talk with him."
"But-" Lucifer tried to refute, but you shook your head intensely.
"I don't want to risk angering heaven," you responded. "The last thing I want is for you to be punished for my choice. Please?"
Hesitantly, Lucifer nodded in agreement, making his way to the water to join the other ducks in an attempt to blend in. His little hat vanished as he started swimming. You sighed and turned to meet with the brute of a man who was already towering over you. His chest heaved; his breath was short. You could already tell this may not end well.
"Where the FUCK have you been?!" he began to shout, raising his hands in the air out of frustration. "I've been looking for you for way too long, you know that? Making me walk everywhere to find you? Fucking ridiculous!"
You took a deep inhale and let it out slowly before responding. "I'm sorry, Adam," you feigned an apology.
"Whatever," the man spat back. "You've had your temper tantrum, now let's g-" Adam paused, his eyes staring at the length of your body. "The fuck is this?" he asked grabbing the sleeve of the cloth that hung off your body. In your worry for Lucifer, you'd forgotten about the gift he had given you. You smacked Adam's hand away and wrapped your arms around yourself.
"It doesn't matter," you answered curtly.
You watched as the man's eyebrows furrowed at your non-compliance. "I don't have time for this," he reached out once more and took a firm hold of your wrist. "We're going back. Now!"
You slipped your wrist out of Adam's grasp and took a few steps back, your feet at the end of the lake. "I..." you started, your voice threatening to crack. "I'm not going back with you! I'm tired of your behavior and your disrespect. I'm not your servant, Adam, and I refuse to live the life I was given as your slave."
Adam snarled at you, stomping closer and closer to you, forcing you back into the water as you tried to avoid him. But it was to no avail. He was quick to grab your arm and yank you from the lake pulling flush against his bare chest. "That wasn't a suggestion," he spoke through gritted teeth. You tried to pull away but his grip on your arm was far too strong. "Like it or not toots, we're the only ones in this place. You have nowhere else to go and you know it! And frankly, I'm tired of these stupid games! Now, quit acting like a bitch and move your-"
"THAT'S ENOUGH!" a booming voiced roared. You felt a hand take a firm hold of the one that was trapped by Adam and watched as another tore Adam's own hand away from you. Lucifer appeared in front of you after separating you from the man. The angle floated off the ground, his wings spread out wide as he moved swiftly towards the startled man. "How dare you!" Lucifer growled. "How dare you put your hands on her like that! How dare you speak to her like that! You have no right!"
Adam held his hand in pain, shooting daggers in Lucifer's direction. "Who the fuck are you?!" He took a step closer, not waiting for an answer. Even as Lucifer hovered over the ground, Adam still towered over him easily. "You know what, I don't care! Listen, short stack, I don't know who you are or why you're here, but you need to get the fuck out of my way. She's my wife and I can do whatever I want to her. She's mine, got it?"
Adam curled his uninjured hand into a fist and took a swing at Lucifer, only for him to fall flat on his face as Lucifer easily dodged his attack. "Nice try," the angel taunted, "and by the way, the name's Lucifer." You let out a small laugh. Fire burned in Adam's eyes as he lifted his head.
"Shut the fuck up!" he yelled at you. But Lucifer would not accept this response. He latched onto Adam's arm and lifted him of the ground like he weighed nothing.
"What did I tell you about speaking to her like that?" Lucifer threatened. He tossed Adam against one of the trees that stood at the edge of the clearing. The man groaned in pain, attempting to pull himself up and lean his aching body against the tree. Lucifer quickly swooped down, acting as a barrier between the two of you. "You've shown me who you are, Adam. You are a monster, a disgrace. You treat this woman like the dirt you walk on and you expect her to stay with you? To love you?" Lucifer hoisted Adam up, pinning him against the truck. "You will never see her again; do you understand me? You're going to leave this place and never come back. She is under my protection now. And if you ever so much as come within a mile of her, I will not hesitate to turn you back into the dust you were formed from." Lucifer released his grip on Adam and watched as he took a few steps back into the forest. "Leave. Now!"
Adam wiped the small amount of blood that dripped from his lip and laughed darkly. "Fine, keep her!" he yelled. "She doesn't mean anything to me! Who would want a slut like her anyway!"
"GO!" Lucifer bellowed.
Without another word, Adam took off into the trees. Lucifer flew high up in the sky within seconds, his arms stretched out on either side. The ground beneath you began to shake violently and you wanted to call out for Lucifer before you realized that he was the cause. Seemingly out of nowhere, large rock formations began rising from the earth, rock tumbling down as the mountains grew. As soon as they reached Lucifer's height, they stopped.
And then there was silence.
Your heartbeat pounded in your ears as you tried to stop yourself from shaking. Overwhelmed by the situation that had just unfolded, you fell to the ground and began to cry softly. But it wasn't as quiet as you thought. In a flash, Lucifer had flown to your side, holding you in a tender embrace.
"I'm sorry," he whispered to you. "None of this was your fault. You're safe now." You clung to the angel desperately, not holding back any of your tears. He pulled you closer, letting his wings wrap around you, completely covering your trembling body. Your breathing steadied the longer you held onto him; this was the first time you had ever felt safe. He pulled away from you slowly, wiping away the last of your tears. "I have to go," Lucifer continued, "but just for a little while. I need to tell the others what happened." He looked behind him and sighed. "They're not going to appreciate my new renovation to the garden," he turned back to you and smiled, "but they can stay upset for as long as they want. Those mountains are permanent; this is your haven now."
You sniffled and took ahold of his hands. "Thank you, Lucifer," you managed to utter.
Just then, a glowing portal formed behind Lucifer. He stood up slowly, but not before plucking a feather from his wings. "Here," he spoke softly, handing it over to you. "This is my promise to you; I will be back for it. Can you keep it safe for me?" You nodded. With one last grin, he turned and made his way through the portal that closed behind him. The quite had once again returned.
And for the first time in your life, you were left alone.
****
The sun had set a while ago. You knew you should probably sleep, but your head was filled with too many thoughts for you to even consider it. You sat against the tree by the lake, waiting patiently for your rescuer to return. You stared at the feather for what seemed like an eternity; it emanated a subtle glow of light, a brilliant golden color that rivaled the setting sun. You continued to turn over today's events in your mind. How did this happen? Did I ruin heaven's plan? If Lucifer is punished for what I've done I will never forgive myself...
"Lucifer..." you mumbled to yourself. No matter how hard you tried, you couldn't get him out of your mind. Why were you forced to live with a man like Adam when someone like Lucifer existed? How could the creation of the first man have gone so wrong? You didn't understand. But your jumbled up thoughts were interrupted by a familiar voice.
"Yes, little dove?" Lucifer answered sweetly. Your heart skipped a beat, not expecting him to show up so soon. Nevertheless, you smiled as he sat down next to you. "I heard you say my name. Did you miss me already?"
Your cheeks felt increasingly warm all of a sudden at his question. "O-Oh, no...I mean, yes! I did. I was just thinking out loud, I suppose." You looked down at the glowing feather in your hand. "Here, you can have your feather back."
He took it from your hand and gently placed it behind your ear. "It's yours," Lucifer responded with a soft smile. "I know you'll keep it safe for me. And don't worry about losing it; I made sure it'll always find its way back to you."
You crawled over to the lake and stared at your reflection, admiring the new accessory. It suited you. You sat back down next to Lucifer, shifting so you were almost at his hip. "What did the angels say?" you asked hesitantly. "Were they angry?"
Lucifer rubbed the back of his neck, gazing down at the ground. âWellâŚthey werenât happy.â Your face fell at his words. He glanced at you and took ahold of your hand. âDonât worry, they wonât force you to be with Adam. Theyâve come up with a different solutionâŚâ
Your head fell to the side, curious. âYou donât sound happy about it.â
Lucifer shook his head. âTheyâre going to give him another wife. I advised against it, but after the stunt I pulled today, they werenât very keen on listening to me. Not that they ever do.â
Your eyes drifted down to the ground, the guilt bubbling up in your chest. âIâm sorry,â you breathed, âI caused this. I shouldnât have run away, I-â
âNo!â Lucifer cut you off, âNo, this is not your fault, you did nothing wrong. What Adam did to you was cruel. I wonât let you blame yourself for his actions!â He gripped your hands tighter as he spoke. You nodded wordlessly, almost too stunned to speak.
But as you found your voice, something else had caught your eye. Tiny little creatures all around you, lighting up the night sky. They were hard to spot until a little yellow light flickered intermittently to indicate where they were. Lucifer noticed your distracted stare and turned to see what had caught your attention. You didnât notice at first, but the little creatures started to float closer and closer to Lucifer, as if they were drawn to him by some unseen force. OrâŚmaybe you could see what exactly had caused them to swarm.
âThey glow like you do,â you commented, watching them land on Luciferâs robe, clawing up his sleeves slowly.
Lucifer chuckled and scooped up one from his arm and held it in his hands. âTheyâre fireflies,â he closed his hands around the one he caught, only leaving a tiny little gap. âHere, take a look.â
You leaned down to peer into his hands and watched as the little bug lit up its dark surroundings. You smiled and Lucifer opened his hands to let the little one fly away. âWhy do they glow?â you asked curiously.
âThatâs how they communicate!â he explained! âThe creatures of this place canât speak, so they have their own way of talking to one another.â
You let out a soft hum. âWell, Iâm a little envious of them. And you.â Lucifer raised an eyebrow at your peculiar statement. âWhat I mean is, they can fly. Fly away to wherever they please. They seem to have more freedom than I doâŚâ
Lucifer frowned but smiled after only a moment. He stood up straight and extended a hand down to you. âPerhaps I can give you that freedom, if only for a moment.â You took his outstretched hand and pulled yourself up. Without warning, Lucifer scooped you up in his arms, eliciting a small yelp from you. For his small stature, he was incredibly strong. You should have realized after you saw the way he handled Adam. You wrapped your arms around his neck in anticipation. âHang on tight!â
With one powerful thrust of his wings, you two were airborne. A small scream escaped your throat as you hovered in the air high above the ground. You buried your face in the crook of his neck reactively. However, this caused Luciferâs breath to hitch, which did not go unnoticed by you. You peered up at him curiously and noticed the familiar dash of yellow that covered his cheeks. He let out a deep breath and glanced back at you sheepishly. âI-Itâs alright! Iâve got you.â You lifted your head more, looking out towards the seemingly endless sky. The moon above provided some light that shown on the earth far below, and from here you felt as though you could see everything. The once tall trees seemed like insignificant plants now, the newly formed mountains felt like little stones you could easily pick up and toss in any direction. If this is what the angels could see all the time, itâs no wonder they never left the sky.
Well, except for one.
âItâs amazing, Lucifer!â you exclaimed. âI never could have dreamed the world could look so lovely.â
âIt pales in comparison to...â he started to say but stopped when you looked back to gaze into his eyes. âI meanâŚn-never mind that! I want to show you something else! Ready?â You smiled and nodded. Suddenly, Lucifer dive down at an incredible speed and stopped just before you hit the sparkling lake. He readjusted the way he held you and gripped your waist firmly. He held you like you weighed absolutely nothing. You locked your arms around him once more to secure yourself, but Lucifer shook his head. âIâm going to lower you down now, is that alright?â he asked sweetly. You were hesitant, afraid of being dropped. But you took a few deep breaths before nodding. âDo you trust me?â
âOf course I do!â you answered vehemently.
Your body dropped towards the water. You closed your eyes, expecting to be enveloped by the water. But you remained perfectly dry, except for the bottom of your feet. Lucifer held your palms as he floated above you, his smile brightening the night. You gripped his hands with all of your might. âAre you okay?â
âY-Yes Iâm alright,â you stuttered. âJust a little startled.â
âIâm sorry,â he apologized, âI should have given you a better warning. But hereâŚâ his calming voices soothed your anxiety almost immediately. âCan you try taking a step forward?â You looked down at your bare feet at the grazed the water below you. You placed one foot in front of the other, creating a small ripple of waves. You took another step. And another. And another. Before you knew it, you were walking on water with Lucifer guiding you every step of the way. His wings flapped along silently as you two made your way to the edge of the lake, towards solid ground. But the cool water below you felt almost as solid as the grass you were used to when Lucifer was by your side.
Before you knew it, Lucifer swung down in front of you, still lifting you effortlessly. He took your one free hand and placed it on his shoulder, letting his own find the small of your back. Your other hand became intertwined with his.
âLucifer? What-â you tried to ask, but the man began to twirl you in a circle before you could finish.
âMay I have this dance?â his sapphire eyes shone brightly as he held you, still leaving the slightest bit of space between the two of you.
âOhâŚâ you mumbled. âB-But Iâve neverâŚâ
âItâs alright, flower,â he smiled, âjust follow me.â
With that, you felt yourself began to spin over the crystal lake below. You and the angel stayed suspended there for a minute or two, dancing under the pale moonlight. In a hushed tone, you could hear Lucifer hum a melodic tune as he clung to you, his wings fluttering with every motion. You couldnât take your eyes off the angelic being in front of you. Your heart threatened to beat out of your chest, the pounded invading all of your other senses. You donât know what came over you when you began to lean closer and closer to his angelâs face. But all of a sudden, you stopped spinning. Lucifer had frozen, his song halted, with both his mouth and eyes squeezing shut. You pulled away only slightly, before leaning back in and planting a small kiss on his cheek.
âThank you, Lucifer,â you breathed.
Lucifer exhaled harshly as if he had been holding his breath, staring back at you in utter disbelief. He swallowed hard before speaking again.
âI-I, uhh, IâŚâ he tried to utter. âYouâre welcome. WeâŚwe should go back now.â
The two of you at last flew back to the bank of the lake, leaning against the large tree once again. A small shiver ran down your spine. You were so distracted by the wonders Lucifer had shone you that you didnât realize how cold the night had become. Lucifer noticed your trembling and wrapped his large wings around you, shielding you from the wind. In an instant, you felt warmer. And protected. And safe. And loved. You smiled up at him, snuggling against his velvet- like feathers. He did his best to reciprocate, but you watched as his face fell.
"I can't stay," Lucifer lamented.
You sighed knowing in the back of your mind that this would be the case. Although you had really hoped deep down that he could. "I understand."
"I want to, though," he added. "I'd spend every moment I had with you down here if I could. But they..." he paused, shaking his head, "they weren't happy that I was down here to begin with. But they're not going to keep me away. I refuse."
"Lucifer?" you chimed in. "You said that the angels would be giving Adam a new bride." Lucifer nodded. "Then...will I get a new husband?" You were afraid of the answer. If Adam was the best heaven could come up with, how much worse would another one be?
"They wanted to," he began, "but I somehow managed to get them to reconsider, at least for the time being. I convinced them to watch how Adam behaved with the new woman before they gave you another man..." Lucifer seemed to trail off, unable to look you in the eyes anymore.
"Do I have a choice?" Lucifer didn't respond to you; he didn't even seem to register your words at all. His silence was answer enough.
A wave of drowsiness hit you suddenly; it was a long day and your body finally decided it needed some rest. "Well..." you yawned, scooting a little closer to him, resting your head on his shoulder without thinking, "...I know who'd I choose if I did." Lucifer froze once more as he felt your body go limp as you leaned against him.
"W-Who'd you choose?" he repeated back to you, attempting to get a response. But you didn't answer; you laid peacefully against your rescuer without a care in the world, your even breathing soft and peaceful. You only heard one final message before you drifted into unconsciousness...
"Sweet dreams, my starlight, I'll see you when you wake."
****
You woke up the next morning with a start. Memories of the previous day washing over you. It hadnât been a dreamâŚit was real. You were no longer under Adamâs control, you were free. And you owed everything toâŚ
âLucifer?â you called out to him, lifting your head from the grass. but there was no response. He told you last night that he couldnât stay, but deep down you hoped that he would have.
Before you was a small glowing fire. It cackled against the dawn of the morning, welcoming you to a new day. Lucifer must have left it for you, and you were thankful since Adam was always the one who made the fire when you two spent the nights together. You shook your head, trying to force those unpleasant memories back into the recesses of your mind. You never had to think about him ever again.
The morning came and went, peaceful and uneventful. This was the first time in a long time where you felt hopeful for the days to come. You spent most of the early hours picking the various fruits from the trees that encircled your new refuge. After sampling the delicious treats, you decided your favorite was the bright red ones with a unique shape and subtle sweet taste. You didnât have a name for them yet, but you were sure Lucifer could tell you.
The fruits themselves became harder and harder to reach as you gathered all of the ones within your reach. You tried to jump a few times but only the tips of your fingernails were able to graze it.
âOne more time,â you told yourself as you pushed off the ground with all the strength you could conjure. But as you felt as though you could reach it this time, a pale hand reached across and snatched it from the tree. You landed on the ground with a thud and looked over to who had taken your prize, and then you smiled. Lucifer floated next to the tree, tossing the fruit back and forth between either hand as he laughed. âHow long have you been watching me?â you asked with a smirk.
Lucifer rubbed the back of his head and landed gracefully on the ground next to you. âOnly for a minuteâŚor twoâŚâ He handed you the fruit which you gratefully accepted.
You took a bite of the delicious food. âWhat are these called, Lucifer? I think they may be the best things Iâve had!â
âApples, dear one,â the angel replied. You continued to eat the apple until you got to its core.
âAnd these little black bits in the middle?â you questioned; your mouth still half full.
âSeeds!â he explained. âOh, but donât eat them! Youâre supposed to bury them in the ground. With the proper care and patience, these little seeds can grow into large trees like this one!â Lucifer went on to explain the process of growing food, and you clung to every word he spoke. Listening to him was like a melody only you could truly understand.
Over the next several days, the two of you spent as much time together as possible. Lucifer showed you everything there was to see in the garden; the animals, the plants, the flowers, and all of the wonders this place had to offer. He had to leave every night, but he was able to show you how to make a fire on your own so that you could keep warm when he could not be there. Like clockwork, Lucifer would visit you the same time every day and leave to return to heaven just as you fell asleep. You knew the great risks he was taking to spend time with you and you made it known how much you appreciated his sacrifice, showering him with praise and appreciation every chance you got. You found it adorable how he would try to hide his face with his hat or his wings when complimenting him. It was sweet in a way you couldnât fully articulate. All you knew is that it made you happy, and so did he.
But one day, Lucifer was late.
You paced back and forth beneath your apple tree, the one you would always meet him at. But he didnât show up today. Terrible scenarios bombarded your thoughts; what if he was caught sneaking away? What if heaven forbid him to ever come back? What if you never got to see him again?
You inhaled a deep breath, trying your best to steady your heartbeat. You knew heâd be back; heâd never leave you here. Maybe he was just late today, perhaps there was nothing malicious happening. You had to keep this mindset lest you go insane with worry. You decided a dip in the lake would calm your nerves. You always found a certain tranquility there.
After disrobing, you stepped carefully into the crystal lake, letting the warm water flood over your body, your muscles relaxing and your mind now at ease. A small family of ducks floated not too far away from you as you submerged yourself up to your shoulders. You threw your head back, your hair soaking up the clear water, as you listened to the little ducks flap their wings, spraying water every which way.
But your unanswered prayers were finally heard as you heard Lucifer's voice ring out, laced with concern.
"Songbird, where are you?!" you heard him shout, his hands holding on tight to the robe he had gifted you.
"Over here, Lucifer!" you yelled from the water waving your hand back and forth excitedly, your worries quickly dissolving after seeing he had come searching for you.
The angel froze where he stood, staring blankly at the tree horizon off in the distance instead of you. "O-oh, thank goodness, you're alright!" he seemed to be saying to no one. You found it odd that Lucifer had not looked in your direction. âI-Iâm so sorry Iâm so late, I had some trouble escaping Heavenâs eyes today.â
You smiled sweetly. âItâs alright, Lucifer, you donât need to apologize.â He still hadnât moved since you started talking. âIs something the matter? You seem distracted.â
Lucifer clung to your robe even tighter. âNope! No! Iâm perfectly fine!â he tried to lie, but you remained unconvinced. He looked stressed and his golden flush did not go unnoticed. What he needed was to relax.
âCome join me, Lucifer,â you invited him, âyou donât look so well. The water is nice and warm! Perhaps itâll help you feel better.â
You started making your way out of the water to offer your hand, but his reaction was far from anything you were prepared for. Lucifer had dropped your robe immediately, his wings now nearly covering his entire body. You stopped your movement entirely.
âN-No, I promise Iâm fine!â he continued to fib. âCould youâŚmaybe, possiblyâŚtake a few steps backâŚplease?â
You did as you asked and sank beneath the water once more. You had no idea why Lucifer was acting so strangely; your happiness had almost instantly turned into sadness and guilt. âIâm sorry,â you apologized, âhave I done something wrong?â
âOh! No! No, of course not! You havenât done anything wrong!â He seemed genuinely concerned after hearing your apology which made you feel even more confused than you already were.
âI donât understand,â you explained. âI must have upset you. You wouldnât have asked me to step back otherwise. Even now, youâre hiding yourself from me.â
Lucifer peaked through his feathers and saw you had gone back to your original place in the water. His wings unfolded immediately, finally looking you in the eyes. âYou havenât upset me, I promise you. I didnât mean to make you feel like you had, please forgive me. IâŚItâs hard to explainâŚâ His voice trailed off as his eyes shifted to the ground. He inhaled deeply, then sighed heavily. âI never want to be the reason you're sad. Never. Iâll join youâŚif you still want me to.â
You gave him a weak smile and nodded slowly. You could tell something was still off with his behavior, but you knew he would never want to upset you. You knew him. This was his way of atoning. You decided not to push the issue further, at least for now. Whatever he was talking about, it was clear he was uncomfortable.
âCould youâŚturn around for a moment?â he asked quietly. Another odd request, but you did as he asked, your back now towards him. After only a moment or two, you hear the gentle swashing of the water behind you. And only a moment more before he spoke up again. "O-Ok, you can turn around now."
You did so, but it was clear that he was still maintaining his distance much to your disappointment. He smiled awkwardly at you; the water coming up just about to his torso. You caught yourself staring at his chest, his bright pale skin reflecting off the water. You took a single step closer, not wanting to scare him off.
"You can come closer, you know. I won't bite," you teased him.
Lucifer chuckled nervously. "I-I know you won't, but uhh, I think it's best for the both of us if I stay right here!"
You rolled your eyes at him, "Ok, well then, I'll come to you!"
He noticed as you took another step towards him and he mirrored your actions by taking a step back. "I'm not sure that's such a good idea, dove. I..."
"Don't be afraid, Lucifer," you cut him off. "Let me help you. If youâre not comfortable looking my way, why don't you turn around for me." Hesitantly, he obliged, now facing the shore line. Slowly, you approached your friend. When you were finally close enough, your arms stretched out and rested on his shoulders. His whole body tensed at your touch. He's never responded to you like that before. "It's alright," you cooed as you began to work your fingers into his muscles. Lucifer let go of the breath he was holding, his shoulders relaxing as well as his wings.
"This...this feels nice," Lucifer admitted. "Thank you. And I'm sorry again."
"For what?" you asked as your hands continued to work on his stiff body.
Lucifer sighed. "For being late. For acting strangely. And especially for upsetting you."
"You don't need to apologize," you reassured him. "I know you would never want to hurt me intentionally."Â You watched as his wings twitched under your delicate touch. The water slid off of his feathers easily as if they we resistant to it. The urge to reach out and touch them was growing increasingly harder to ignore. "Lucifer, may I touch them?"
He knew what you were referring to; he cocked his head to the side, still not looking at you directly. "I-I, I mean uhh, I supposeâŚyou can. Just...be gentle, please. They can be very sensitive."
With the most delicate touch, you began to stroke his soft feathers between your fingers. Almost instantly, a breathy moan could be heard from Lucifer. You continued your ministrations, admiring their unearthly beauty. Your hands made their way down further to where his wings had sprouted from his back. You gently pinched the base of his wings, causing Lucifer to jolt away in surprise with a yelp.
âGA-AAHH!â he cried, almost falling face forward into the water. âOk! I-I think thatâs enough of that! Thank you, b-but I think Iâm good to go!â The flustered Angel started to make his way to the shoreline but you were quick to grab his wrist before he could get too far.
âIâm sorry, Lucifer,â you spoke softly, âI didnât mean to cause you any pain. Please stayâŚâ
A flash of panic flashed across his face. âNo! No, Iâm not hurt! Itâs justâŚâ his head fell, gazing at the water beneath him, and gulped. âI have to go! Please forgive me for thisâŚâ His wings stretched out behind him, and with one giant flap, caused a more than forceful splash of water in your direction. You let go of his wrist to try and shield yourself from his attack. Water doused you, with some unfortunately finding its way into your mouth. You coughed furiously, trying to expel it. You were blinded for a few seconds before rubbing your eyes and finding Lucifer who was nearly dressed again. âIâm sorry, Iâm sorry!â he called out to you, but his apologies didnât stop you from trying to chase him down. Enough was enough, you needed an explanation. With his back turned, he had no time to prepare for your counterattack. Just as he turned to see you had gotten within inches of him, you pounced. You knocked him hard to the ground with a thud and pinned his arms above his head. He squirmed beneath you but you would not relent.
âLucifer, whatâs the matter with you?â you demanded. âYouâve never acted like this before, what changed? Please, tell me what Iâve done wrong!â
Lucifer continued to struggle against your grip. You found this odd, knowing full well he had every chance to overpower you. But he didnât.
âMy flower, p-please,â he begged, âplease let me go!â His eyes trailed to your bare chest only for a brief moment before forcing himself to stare back at you, his entire face a shade of pale yellow.
You shook your head. âYou can free yourself, why donât you?â
ââŚI canât risk hurting youâŚI wonâtâŚâ he murmured.
Your grip loosed on him slightly as your body began to tremble. "You hurt me by not being honest. I don't understand! I-" Your rant was cut short when you felt a sudden jab in your abdomen. Almost as if a bump had suddenly formed underneath you. You glanced down and noticed precisely what had caused the odd sensation. "O-Oh..." was all you could mutter.
Lucifer's whines had only increased with your discovery. "Please..." his voice was barely audible now. "You have to let me go..." You watched as a single tear fell from his eye, sliding down his flushed cheeks. You didn't know angels could cry.
Wordlessly, you finally released your hold on him, backing away slowly and sitting on your knees. Your garment that had been given to you the first day you let Lucifer laid next to you, wrinkled and disheveled. You grabbed it and pressed it tight against your chest, not wanting to upset Lucifer further.
You understood now.
A portal opened up as Lucifer stood to his feet, not daring to look in your direction. "I'll...I'll be back later tonight," he spoke softly, "I owe you an explanation, you deserve at least that much. But right now...I can't. I have to go. I'm sorry, starlight. I'm so sorry." With his solemn apology, Lucifer disappeared into the portal behind him.
You sat there in the grass in silence, refusing to move for the longest time. You went to tuck your hair behind your head, but your heart stopped. Lucifer's feather: it was gone. In a panic, your head swiveled, looking in every direction you possibly could when you finally spotted it. His feather sat alone in the calm water. Shakily you stood up and reached down and held it delicately in the palm of your hands.
And in that moment, all you could do was cry.
****
Hours had passed and Lucifer had still not returned. Night had fallen not too long ago and you found yourself huddled up next to the fire you had made. Tonight was particularly cold. Your legs you pressed tightly you your chest as your arms and head rested in your knees. You didnât even know what you would say when Lucifer did eventually arrive, this was allâŚsuch a mess. A part of you just wanted to be left alone, but the other had a burning desire to hold him as close to you as possible. The two sides were raging war within you when you finally heard the familiar sound of another portal opening behind you. You didnât dare to turn around.
Silently, Lucifer made his way over to you, sitting down next to you, but far enough away where there wouldnât be any contact. You finally turned your head to look at him. The angel removed the hate from his head, fiddling with the brim. He looked soâŚdefeated.
âI know Iâve said this way too often today,â he began to speak, âbut songbird, I am deeply and truly sorry for what happened. You are not to blame for any of this. And if you told me that you never want to see me againâŚâ he paused, not wanting to finish that thought.
âLucifer?â he looked up at you, his eyes glossy. âMy world was changed because of you. Iâm safe because of you. AndâŚIâm happy because of you. Why would I never want to see you again. Thatâs not a life worth living, not to me.â
Lucifer wiped his eyes, the smallest smile forming on his lips. âHow can you be so understanding, so forgiving? Even some of the angels in heaven donât show the kind of mercy you do. I mean, what happened today wasâŚâ
âNot your fault,â you finished his sentence. You shifted closer to him, Lucifer remained unmoving. âI know I havenât existed for very long, and you donât have to explain, I know what happened to you.â He buried his face in his lap at your confession. âLucifer, you donât need to be ashamed. Itâs natural, is it not? Itâs just a, whatâs it calledâŚa physical reaction? I just wish you would have been honest with me from the start.â
Lucifer only shook his head in anguish. âHow could I?â he choked out. âItâs only natural for humans, thatâs the way itâs supposed to be! ThisâŚthis is forbidden amongst angels! Who am I to defy their orders when Iâm already on everyoneâs bad side! He stood up suddenly and began pacing back and forth. âThis is a disaster! The last thing I wanted to do is hurt you and thatâs all Iâve done! No wonder Heaven doesnât take me seriously, all I do is cause trouble! Itâs just mistake after mistake after mistake with me! MaybeâŚmaybe theyâre rightâŚâ He plopped back down onto the ground and stared up at the stars. âIâm just a foolish seraphim whoâs in way over his headâŚâ
You crawled over to him tentatively, your face hovering over his. You shoved away his messy hair away from his eyes. âDo you think finding me in the garden that day was a mistake?â
âNoâŚâ
âDo you think saving me from Adam was a mistake?â
âNo, of course not!â he sat up straight.
âThen, do you think this is a mistake?â You leaned in too fast for Lucifer to react. Your eyes fell shut as your lips connected, but only for a moment. You pulled back only to realize that the angel became a statue, his eyes wide with a mixture of fear and desire. âLucifer, are you alright?â He didnât respond, he only continued to stare blankly at you, almost as if he were in a trance. âMaybe one more could bring you backâŚâ your body fell forward once more, but this time Luciferâs arms caught you, pushing you back at your shoulders.
âY-YouâŚâ he began to stutter, âyou kissed meâŚâ You nodded sheepishly. âBut why?âŚâ
âBecause I love you, Lucifer,â you blurted out without much thought. âBecause you make every day in the garden better. Because I couldnât imagine my life now without you in it! I donât want you to think those terrible things about yourself because they are not true! I donât care what anyone in Heaven has said, they are wrong! They wanted me to live my life with Adam, do you not think that they are capable of making mistakes? I thank my lucky stars that I never laid with him because that would-â
âWait, wait, slow down!â Lucifer interjected. âYou never laid with Adam?!â
You stuck your tongue out in disgust. âI would never. Heâs heartless and cruel and wicked. Everything youâre not.â Lucifer gulped, trying to steady his breath. âI was blessed that he never tried to force me, but I knew he didnât care for me. All he saw was a servant, someone to take care of all his needs without ever considering mine. But youâŚâ you pushed back against Luciferâs arms, trying to get closer. His resistance weakened but you could tell he was still hesitant.
âWaitâŚâ he breathed. You sat up straight and grabbed a hold of his hand, interlacing your fingers. âThis isâŚa lot to process, flower. My mind is pulling me in so many different directionsâŚâ He grabbed your other hand, now squeezing both, and turned fully to face you. âIfâŚIf we go through with this, thereâs no going back. If Heaven ever learns of this, thereâs no telling what they might do. But I swear to you that I will do everything in my power to protect you. Are you willing to take that risk?â
You gripped his hand tight and leaned your head forward into his. âI am. But only if you are too.â
âNothing on Heaven or Earth could keep me away from you.â With his confession, your lips collided once again, and you breathed a sigh of relief. Everything around you disappeared, all that mattered in that moment was you and him. His kiss was tender, delicate; he kissed you as if you were made of the most pristine glass. But you didnât want it any other way. âI love you, my little dove,â he whispered between breaths. âMy live for you is far greater than all of the stars in the sky. Do you believe that?â You nodded and smiled, pulling him into another kiss. You found yourself lying flat on the ground, Lucifer hovering over you as he continued to devour you. His hands slowly traced down the sides of your body, stopping at your hips. You needed to feel him.
âCan I remove this?â you asked him, pulling on your garment.
âM-Mhmm,â he mumbled. âO-Only if youâre comfortable.â
âPromise not to panic again?â you joked. His face flushed as you sat up and removed your clothing. You watched as Lucifer shut his eyes and inhaled deeply. âItâs alright, Luci, you can look.â
He peaked with one eye and exhaled the breath he had been holding. He let his other eye open, and all he could do was stare. You felt no shame as his eyes finally fully examined your body for the first time. His breath hitched as he climbed back over you.
âBeautiful,â Lucifer sighed. âSo, so beautifulâŚâ He leaned down to kiss you once more, but you pressed a finger to his lips playfully.
âI think itâs your turn,â you suggested.
Lucifer laughed nervously. âR-Right, right. Only fair, I suppose.â
He sat up straight and ever so slowly began to unbutton his robe. You noticed his fingers shaking more and more with each button that came undone. In your mind, he couldnât look that much different from Adam; heâd never worn anything to cover himself. With Lucifer last button undone, he finally let the sleeves fall from his arms, his robe falling to the ground. When you finally saw him, you knew it was the most beautiful body you had ever seen. You couldnât stop yourself from staring at his very apparent erection. For once, you found it difficult to find the words to say.
âIâŚI umm,â you stuttered out. Your face felt hotter than it ever has been before. Something in your stomach ached. It wasnât a pain, but a craving. âI didnât know they could be different sizes! Yours is bigger than AdamâsâŚâ
Luciferâs wings instinctively covered his body at your remark. âSorry, sorry! Instincts!,â you heard his muffled voices through the feathers. âI justâŚangels do not undress in front of one another. Itâs very much frowned upon.â
You crawled over to him, sticking your hand through his feathers to see his flushed yellow face. âWell, itâs a good thing Iâm not an angel then, isnât it?â
Luciferâs first set of wings unfurled from his face, flashing you a cute but embarrassed smile. âBut you are,â he retorted, âthe most beautiful angel to ever exist!â
The rest of his wings fell back, he pulled you close to kiss you once again. You let your mouth fall open in desperation, and Lucifer took that as a sign to deepen the kiss. His tongue slid past your wanting lips and found yours which was more than eager to please. His hands settled on your hips once more, but that wasnât enough. Carefully, you reached down and grabbed his hand and placed it on one of your breasts. Lucifer squeaked in surprise and pulled away from the kiss.
âYouâre so cute,â you cooed, kissing his forehead. âDonât worry, itâs alright. I-I want you to feel me.â Lucifer sighed heavily and started gently kneading at your breasts. The way he touched you felt so good, so right. You couldnât imagine a better feeling. You laid back down while Lucifer continued with his motions, your nipples now being pinched between his soft fingers. Quiet moans escaped your throat while Lucifer began kissing down your neck and chest, sucking on your delicate skin. He ventured down to your breast, taking your nipple into his mouth, his tongue making circling motions around it. He switched to the other one after a little bit, giving your other breast the same attention. You began to whimper, it felt good. So good. And you needed more. Lucifer raised his head and pressed a chaste kiss to your lips.
âWeâre going to take this slow,â he promised. âIâm going to help you get prepared for what follows, is that alright?â You nodded eagerly. He couldnât help but chuckle just a little bit. One hand held your head while the other wandered down your body and hovered over your bare sex. âIf you need me to stop, please promise me that youâll tell me immediately. ThisâŚshouldnât hurt, but Iâm not taking any chances. Iâve never done anything like this before, butâŚI do know what should be done. Do you promise?â
âI promise, Luci,â you smiled. âI trust you.â
He blushed. âI like that nameâŚLuci. Your LuciâŚâ He kissed you once again as you felt his fingers finally touch your womanhood. You gasped at the contact, and his hand pulled away instantly. âAre you alright? Did it hurt?â
You shook your head furiously. âNo, no! It didnât hurt! Itâs justâŚsurprised me is all. Please, keep going.â
With a nod, he leaned back in to kiss you, his hands finding its way back down to where it was previously. At last, his fingers found your sensitive nub; he began to rub it. Very slowly at first as to not startle you, but slowly he began to speed up rhythmically. His lips captured your moans. The pressure in your stomach was something you had never experienced before, it felt as though the feeling kept building and building inside of you as if it was aching to release. You felt his fingers trail down just a little bit further, stroking your already soaked folds. He pushed one finger inside, and you yelped. Not in pain, no, but in pleasure. Lucifer took notice and almost took his hand away before you stopped him.
âI-Iâm fine, Iâm fineâŚjustâŚfelt good. Please donât stop, LuciâŚâ He did as you asked and inserted his finger fully inside you once again. Pumping it in and out, in and out, in and out. Your body conformed to his movements; your whimpers filled the night sky as he added a second finger into you. That pressure you felt was building even more now, something in your stomach felt as though it could snap at any moment. Unfortunately, Lucifer removed his hand from you and a pathetic whine fell from your lips.
âIâm sorry, starlight,â he apologized, âI justâŚI want to see somethingâŚâ You watched as he licked the fingers than had been ravishing you. All of a sudden, his eyes became wide, and he stared down back at you. âMy love, your taste isâŚabsolutely divine. I want to try something if youâll allow me.â You blushed at him, nodding in agreement. Lucifer made his way down your body and settled his face directly between your thighs. You felt your heart threatening to beat out of your chest as he peered up at you. âLet me know if you need me to stop at any point.â
Before you could respond, you felt his tongue drag itself up your drenched slit. You nearly screamed at the sensation, but this time, it didnât deter Lucifer. He began to devour your pussy like a man starved, his tongue skillfully moving along your folds and your clit. He added his digits back into your heat as his mouth continued to consume you. It was so much, almost too . That pressure was back and you felt it even more than before.
âL-Lucifer,â you cried out, âLucifer I-I feel s-something, I donâtâŚI-I canâtâŚâ you words failed you as you felt that odd coil tighten to the point of no return.
âItâs okay, little dove, itâs okay,â Lucifer reassured you between his sloppy licks. âYour bodyâs responding to the stimulation. Relax your body as much as you can. Your body is building towards a climax. It'll be euphoric, I promise."
You did as Lucifer said untensed your muscles which made his continued ministrations even more intense. You mindlessly gripped his hair as wordless moans filled the air. You felt your body coming closer and closer to its release. You tried to warn him but no words could be formed in that state you were in. With one final cry, you felt your muscles clench around his fingers, your release spilling out of you at a rapid pace. Lucifer refused to move however as he lapped up everything your body had to offer. When the spasms stopped, your breathing slowed. Lucifer crawled back up your body with a lovestruck expression, the remainder of your release still shining on his chin. You couldn't help but feel embarrassed.
"What...what was that?" you asked still catching your breath.
"An orgasm," Lucifer explained. "It's what happens to the body when it's receiving extreme pleasure. Are you okay though? Was that too much?"
You smiled up at him. "No, it wasn't too much. It was perfect. Thank you..." You sat up to kiss him, the faint taste of your release on his lips. "So, does that mean your body is capable of the same thing?"
Lucifer suddenly became flustered. "O-Oh, well, I mean yes, b-but it's a little bit different in my case. What I mean is, it would be the same as any other man."
You pushed on his chest gently so you could sit up properly. "Can I try to return the favor, then?" Lucifer's wings fluttered behind him as you watched his face change into the deepest shade of yellow you had ever seen. "Oh golly...that's...that's very kind of you, but you r-really don't have to do that. I...It's uhhh...oh, heaven help me..."
You giggled at his reaction, shifting yourself to your knees. "You made me feel so good, Luci, let me make you feel good too. Please?"
"O-Okay," he managed to whisper. Your shifted your gaze down, finally getting a good look at his girthy length. It was impressive to say the least, and in all honestly you felt a little intimidated. It stood firm as you carefully wrapped your soft hands around the base. Lucifer's breath hitched at the sudden contact. "D-Do you know what to do?"
Your face shifted into a slight scowl. "I think so. I had the misfortune of catching Adam doing this to himself more times than I'd like to remember," you recalled and shook your head. "But from what I remember, it went like this..." Your hand finally shifted around his cock, pumping him slowly. Immediately, Lucifer's head found your shoulder as he whimpered against you. You relished in the feeling of having an all-powerful angel at your mercy with a few simple strokes. Your pace quickened after a short while, your pumps becoming more and more rapid, but never rough. Lucifer cried into your shoulder as you continues to touch him.
"M-My flower, o-oh my...it feels s-so good. Y-You feel so wonderful...please don't stop, please..." You happily did as he asked, feeling his lips press against your neck. Your hand continued its motion when you felt something drip onto it. You looked down and noticed something clear was leaking from the tip. Curiously, you took your other hand and wiped it up, bringing it to your mouth for a taste. It was...strange, but not in a bad way. All of a sudden, you had an idea. Without warning, you leaned down and gave a tentative lick to the head of his cock. Lucifer gasped as if he couldn't breathe. "W-What are you doing?!" asked in a panic.
"I wanted to taste you like you did me," you responded innocently. You took another lick, this time pressing on his slit. The cry that erupted from Lucifer's lips were heavenly.
"Love, p-please," he begged, "you don't need to do thaaaahhh-t" you silenced his protests as you wrapped your whole mouth around the tip, your tongue swirling around it furiously. You hand didn't stop its movement either as it worked in tandem with your mouth, carefully avoiding the use of your teeth. You felt Lucifer buck his hips a few times, but not enough to overwhelm you. You could tell he was getting close to his release as his body began to tremble with every little motion. But just before you know he would come undone; he pulled you back gently away from his now leaking cock. "I'm sorry! I'm so sorry, I-I had to stop you..."
"Oh," you sighed, "Did I do something wrong?"
Lucifer shook his head. "On the contrary love, you did everything right. Almost a little too well. I was almost on the verge of...you know."
You tilted your head in confusion. "Then why did you want me to stop?"
Lucifer laid you down again, his glassy eyes never leaving yours. "Because...I need you. I need you now. I know how selfish that sounds, b-but please...I-"
You cut him off with a kiss to his lips, his eyes falling closed. "I need you too, Lucifer. I want to be yours."
With little hesitation, Lucifer lined his cock up against your soaking entrance. He held your face in his other hand and pressed his forehead against yours. "Are you sure about this? Is this what you want?"
"I want you Lucifer, all of you. I love you."
With that, Lucifer smiled down at you and pulled you in for a kiss. "I love you too. I'm going to push in now, alright. If you feel any pain, tell me and we'll stop." You agreed. With one final shaky breath, Lucifer began to sheath himself inside you at an agonizingly slow pace. You felt your walls adjust around his girth, the familiar pressure returning once more. At last, he bottomed out inside you, the both of you finding it hard to breathe at this moment. "How are you feeling? Does it hurt?"
"N-No," you answered quietly. "I...I feel whole."
The angel couldn't help but smile. "I feel the same way. As if you were made for me. You tell me when I can move."
You gave him confirmation, and with that, Lucifer dragged himself out of you lethargically to the tip just to push in again slowly. IT was perfect he was perfect. You never felt more alive and you wished you could never leave this moment. Lucifer's hips picked up the pace, his cock dragging in and out of you. Both of your moans filling the night sky.
"Luci...Lucifer..." you whimpered in between thrusts. "Feels so good, so good, I-I love you Lucifer! Please keep going, please! I feel it again...so close..." You wrapped your arms around his back, touching the base of his wings which caused him to yelp.
"Oh heavens..." Lucifer whined against you. "You're squeezing me so tight, my dear, feels...oh my...feels perfect. I love you too...so so much..." His thrusts increase to an almost inhuman speed. The coil you felt before tightened once more, you felt yourself coming undone fast. And by the way your lover was crying out, he was too. "I-I'm close too, love, very close...I...I...I can't...HNNGG-GGAAAHHHH!" With his final cry, you felt Lucifer empty himself into you as you spasmed around him at the same time, your juices mixing together inside of you. HIs wings fluttered as you felt his cock continue to twitch inside of your gummy walls. You found yourself in a complete state of ecstasy as you clawed at his back at the peak of your release.
Lucifer nearly collapsed on top of you as he finished, his breathing staggard and labored as yours was. After a few minutes, he removed himself from you and laid next to you, his wings falling over you in a soft embrace.
"How do you feel?" Lucifer asked quietly as he pushed the hair that had fallen in your face away. "I didn't hurt you, did I?"
You smiled and shook you head. "No, I'm not hurt. I feel...so wonderful. Thank you, Lucifer."
"As do I," Lucifer murmured, returning the smile. "Can I...hold you?"
"Of course you can," You shifted your body as close to him as possible as he threw his arms around you.
"I've wanted to hold you since the moment I met you," he confessed, "I didn't feel worthy of you. Of your love. I was a fool."
You responded by planting a small peck on his lips and watched as his face flushed again. "You're more than worthy. Don't let anyone tell you otherwise." You smile faded as you realized what time had come. "I supposed...you have to leave soon, is that right? I don't want Heaven to-"
Lucifer's arms wrapped around you even tighter, forcing your head against his chest before you could finish speaking. "No, not tonight. Not ever again. I don't care what Heaven has to say. Not anymore. I'm yours now and nothing will ever change that. Whatever happens, we'll face them together. And I swear on my soul, I will not let them take you away from me."
You felt tears run down your face as you held Lucifer close. He was yours now, and you were his. You knew that whatever was to come, he would never leave your side. You two were bound together now. For all of eternity.
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IT'S FUCKING DONE, I HAVE SURGERY TOMORROW, GOODNIGHT EVERYONE, I'LL SEE YOU WHEN I'M CONSCIOUS AGAIN!!! PLEASE EXCUSE ANY MISTAKES, I'LL FIX THEM WHEN I CAN!!
EDIT: SURGERY WAS A SUCCESS! đ
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i started this a year ago for fun and then forgot about it for several months, but after many hours the cleans are done!
character animation for Frequency
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the place me and my roommate were supposed to move into today was so disgusting and uninhabitable we just took our stuff and left and now we're gonna be staying at airbnbs and hotels until further notice/until we can find a new place hopefully quickly...........im in my homeless drifter era y'all!!!đđso if im not as active then thats why LMFAO
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HRUJIEKJHBHEJIJF FINISHED IT RAAA!!! started this in september i think
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One moment with you could sate me for a lifetime
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