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lilacs and ice cream
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Summary/Request: Idk if your taking requests but, If you could (if your doing it) write something about Bo Bichette again please, preferably with a gn or fem reader. I’ve read everything that I can read about him that also applies with me.
Author's Note: Alright, @goodiesinthecloset21, I'm gonna do my best with this one. I want to add that I know absolutely nothing about baseball so any terminology is the work of a quick Google search or something I've heard in a movie. Anyway, I know that you sent your request like a million years ago so I hope after all this time, it gives you a bit of what you're looking for. I decided to do something softer this time, more fluff, since the last one was smut but let me know if that's not the way you wanted it to go and I can give it another shot. Thanks babe! Love ya, stay golden!
P.S. some of this is kinda giving “strained family relationship” which was unintentional, so I’m sorry about that. Hopefully, that doesn’t take away from the story.
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Summer in Toronto was beautiful. You loved the way the flowers bloomed, the bright purples popping against the bright green grass; even on the smoggiest days. There was only ever one thing missing - someone to share it with. That is, until Bo came into your life. You had gone to the baseball game with your family begrudgingly, but the seats were good and you knew it was something that your dad had wanted for a long time
“I just want to be in that stadium,” he’d say at least twice a month for most of your life, “just once. To see a game and watch the Jays win”
It was nice to see him, and the rest of your family, so happy. You watched the game, intermittently laughing at your dad as he tried to start a wave that barely made it past your section, or when he spilled his popcorn after jumping up in excitement. You really started to get into it around the 3rd inning, the crowd was getting loud and rowdy and it started to rub off on you. By the time the game ended, you were beaming with excitement, so much so that you weren’t watching where you were going and you somehow walked right into a crowd of people.
“Oh my goodness I’m so sorry!” you laughed, “I guess that’ll teach me to watch where I’m going next time”
“That’s alright,” one voice said, “are you okay?”
“I’m fine. A bit embarrassed maybe,” you added before finally looking up to see who you’d bumped into. Speechless when you saw Bo Bichette smiling back at you, “but you know…” you continued, trying not to blush as you stared, “fine”
“Glad to hear it,” he said cheerfully before his teammates called him to the bus that was waiting for them, “don’t go running into anybody else now.” You watched for a second while he hopped on the bus, feeling a small tug on your arm from your mom pulling you towards your family
“(Y/N), come on, what are you doing?” she laughed
“Yeah, yeah,” you answered distractedly, “I’m coming.” Your mind wandered to that encounter all through your family meal and you weren’t sure you could ever forget it - or that you wanted to.
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It had been nearly a week since you bumped into Bo Bichette at the Jays game. Honestly, it kept you going during your boring serving shifts at the pub you worked at.
“I mean it was a fun story,” your co-worker, Brit, smirked as she leaned against the wall where you were cleaning a table, “but don’t you think you should be over it by now? I mean.. it was a chance encounter,” she teased, “we don’t live in a rom-com”
“I’m sorry,” you laughed in return, “but it’s one of the more exciting things that have happened in my life. And.. yeah, maybe I’ve been single for a little longer than I would like.” Brit gave you an almost pitiful look before the door was burst open by a loud crowd of men, laughing amongst themselves before stopping at the host stand to ask for a table; you could only watch for a moment as they were directed to your section before you were pulled away to run food. When you finally got to the table of boastful boys, you noticed who exactly they were
“Well, hello again,” Bo smiled as he greeted you, “I was hoping I'd see you again. Maybe get a name this time?”
“H-h-hi,” you stammered, as you looked at him until you realized you should probably be professional, “hi, I'm (Y/N),” you course-corrected, “I'll be your server today. How is everyone doing today?” It was an awkward segue but you didn't know what to do
“Hi, (Y/N), I'm Bo. Nice to meet you,” he said, introducing himself in return and it calmed you down enough for you to... not look like a complete moron when doing your job, “officially.” You felt a blush creep across your face as you continued to take everyone’s orders. When you finally left the table, you exhaled sharply while your co-workers giggled
“I can’t believe this,” you whispered to yourself, “this is insane”
“It’s gonna be fine,” your friend said with a smile, “think of it this way: you’re finally continuing your rom-com”
“Come on, Brit,” you replied, hanging your head, “this isn’t funny. I’m too flustered to give them… to be a good server”
“You’ll be great!” she continued, “just be your bubbly self. They’re just people, don’t think of them otherwise”
“Yeah, just people,” you repeated, “incredibly well-known, well-recognizable, wealthy people”
“You know you also have other tables…” one of your other co-workers, who had been listening to the entire conversation, interjected, forcing you to snap out of your pity party
“SHIT!” you said quietly, rushing out to check on your tables, refilling water glasses and clearing plates where needed, all the while keeping an eye on the players of the Toronto Blue Jays. At some point in the night, the host came to grab you
“(Y/N), they’re asking for you,” the host said, “I don’t think they’re upset but they don’t want to talk to anyone else. Not even the managers”
“How long ago did they ask?” you asked
“Like less than a minute” she answered
“And they’re not upset?”
“No.. I mean I don’t think so but maybe they’re pretending? Being ‘polite mad’?” You chuckled a bit before thanking her and heading back to them, greeting them happily, making sure everything was alright
“We just wanted to ask you a question” Bo smiled
“Bo wanted to ask you a question,” one of the others clarified, and your interest was suddenly peaked
“Ah, okay,” you returned, placing your hand on the back of Bo’s chair, “what’s the question?”
“What are you doing after your shift?” he asked
“It’ll be late,” you admitted with a chuckle, “so I’ll probably be going to bed”
“What time are you off?”
“I’m on a split tonight, so I’m here until at least 10pm” you replied
“Do you work tomorrow?” Bo continued, earning a shy smile from you
“Tomorrow’s my day off. I hardly ever work Sundays”
“Are you free around.. noon?”
“Sure,” you said, “for what?”
“There’s this path I love hiking, how do you feel about that?” you said that would be great, both of you smiling at each other, almost completely ignoring everyone at the table. It took you until you got into the kitchen that you realized you had just been asked out on a date - ‘I guess it has been a while’ you thought - and now you didn’t know how to act. Bo was the one who confirmed the date, leaving you with a blush that covered your whole face; you were sure it looked like you were having an allergic reaction but you hoped he wasn't embarrassed of you...
“I'll see you tomorrow” you managed to get out after what felt like an eternity
“Tomorrow,” he said with a smile, walking backward as he left the pub, keeping his eyes locked on you until one of his teammates turned him around so he didn't hurt himself by running into the door.
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You woke up the next morning and practically hopped out of bed, immediately texting Brit
“Did I dream Bo Bichette asking me out on a date?” you asked
“No,” she replied plainly, after about 10 minutes
“I'm going hiking with a professional athlete today?”
“Yes”
“WHAT DO I DO?!”
“First of all,” she started a string of texts, “it's 8 in the morning, calm down.” You chuckled at her text, knowing that she had probably bitterly rolled out of bed after hearing the chime of her phone, “second, what do you mean what do you do? You go on a date with Professional Baseball Player, Bo Bichette”
“Okay.. sure," you typed, “but what do I wear?”
“You're going on a hike. Don't wear jeans”
“Thank you for that”
“Always here to help”
“I should start getting ready...”
“Again, it's 8AM” she repeated
“And the date is at noon...”
“Yeah”
“You don't need four hours to get ready”
“I need to shower”
“20 minutes”
“I have to find an outfit”
“5 minutes, 10 max”
“I have to do my hair and make myself look presentable”
“We'll say 30 minutes to be safe”
“I have to eat something...” You were grasping now but what could you do, you were nervous
“Maybe he's planning on taking you somewhere after the hike?” she countered, "I don't think eating before a hike is recommended”
“BRIT!” you text-shouted, "I'm freaking out. I don't want to be freaking out but I am. I don't want to make a fool of myself. Or him...”
“Okay, okay, okay,” you could practically hear her sigh through the screen, "you're not going to make a fool of yourself or him. No one's gonna be made a fool today. But you don't need to worry so much. Wear a pair of shorts, the ones you really like, bring a bandana or something - to get your hair off your neck a bit but also to get rid of any sweat you don't want him to see - and make sure you wear sneakers. Don't wear boots or flip-flops. And sunscreen. Always wear sunscreen!” You thanked her quickly, jokingly saying that you were glad she was finally getting on board, and placed your phone back on its charger before hopping in the shower.
“Maybe Brit was wrong. Maybe this really was a mistake…” you grumbled to yourself as you fixed your outfit in the mirror, nearly jumping out of your skin when the doorbell rang. You tried to be as calm as you could, letting out a deep exhale before answering the door
“Hey!” Bo said with a wide smile
“Hi,” you said simply, any doubt you had was now replaced with butterflies in your stomach - being nervous was so basic but you couldn’t help it.
“I.. you ready?” He stammered. It made you feel better that he seemed a little out of his element as well
“Let me just grab a water bottle” you smiled, leaving the door open as you ran to the kitchen; a way of saying ‘you can come in, judge my apartment a little if you want,’ but you were maybe just a little too quick.
“Let’s get going then,” he remarked happily and the two of you were on your way. You weren’t sure what to expect with this hike but Bo using the word path led you to believe it wouldn’t be that bad - which would be ideal since the last time you properly went hiking would be at least 5 years ago. However, it turns out, you forgot to take into account that Bo Bichette was, in fact, Bo Bichette: Professional MLBer. In the middle of the hike, you leaned against a tree, claiming you needed the shade
“I forgot to put on sunscreen and I don't want to burn,” you falsely claimed, catching your breath as Bo leaned against the tree with you
“Sure,” he smirked, bringing out his water bottle to take a sip, “I mean I don't burn as easily but we can stay in the shade.” Once you had finally evened out your breathing, you took a sip of water and looked out at the path that you were about to continue walking
“It's beautiful out here,” you smiled, leading both of you back onto the path at a slower pace now, “I can tell why you like it so much”
“I almost brought you flowers, lilacs,” he gestured to the flowers on the path, “but I knew the path and I knew there would be lilacs here, so I decided against it”
“Aww,” you said, pouting slightly to hopefully show how cute you thought it was, “that's really sweet. I would've appreciated it either way but I'm glad I got to see this first”
“I chose right then?” he asked eagerly
“Yes,"”you smiled, “you chose right.” Bo kept your pace for the rest of the walk but you could tell it was not what he was used to and you felt a little silly not telling him you hadn't been hiking in so long. “I'm sorry that this wasn't a very.. exciting hike,” you laughed uncomfortably, “I haven't been on a trail of any kind in about 5 years. I used to do a lot more physical activity and then I guess I just kinda... stopped”
“That's okay,” he smiled in return as the trail came to an end, “it was nice to see it at this pace. Yes, I do typically go a bit faster,” he laughed to himself, “but I don't always take in the beauty of the actual walk. So, I guess I should thank you”
“You're very welcome,” you returned jokingly and he bowed to add to the humour. The two of you finally got to the car and you hesitated as to what was going to happen next
“Everything okay?” he asked, noticing your reluctance to open the door
“I just... had a really good time,” you admitted, “I'm wondering, I guess, what's next?”
“What do you mean?”
“Are we going somewhere else or should we end it here?” you said, “I mean, sorry,” you continued awkwardly, “I don't want to be presumptuous. I'm just flushed”
“What would you like to do?” he smirked
“Whatever you had planned” you admitted
“Then, I think we should go get some ice cream,” he offered, “I know a great place nearby.” You happily agreed before hopping into the passenger seat of the car. You felt butterflies the entire car ride to the ice cream shop and tried not to stare at him too often but would occasionally catch him looking back at you.
“Is Rocky Road your usual choice?” you asked, as you scooped a bit of your favourite into a spoon and bringing it to your mouth
“No,” he admitted, “I’ve never actually had it. I just wanted to try it”
“And…?” you giggled, “what do you think?”
“It’s okay,” he laughed, “I’ve had better but I’ve also had worse.” You smiled at his words and continued eating your own ice cream, taking in the pastel colours of the parlour at the same time, when you heard Bo giggle slightly; your attention immediately drawn back to him
“What?” you blushed
“You just have…” he began, gesturing to his mouth and it took you a minute to understand that you must have ice cream around your mouth.
“Oh,” you said in surprise, tinged with embarrassment, but his finger soon grazed your lip, wiping away the small mess there. “Thank you,” you whispered in this unbelievable rom-com moment, his finger lingering slightly before he cleared his throat and removed it
“My pleasure” he grinned. You wondered if there might be a kiss but let him take the lead - you didn’t want to set expectations. As he drove you home, you couldn’t help think how sweet this all was - the walk, the lilacs, the ice cream, the moment - but the one thought that kept sticking in your mind was: I really hope there's a second date. He walked you to the door to your apartment building, stopping short of entering the lobby, “I had a really nice time”
“I did too,” you returned, “thank you for… everything. It’s been one of the best dates I’ve had in the city”
“I’m glad,” he smiled, reminding you of your first meeting, “maybe we can do it again?” You felt giddiness take over you and you rushed to agree, hoping that did not throw him off. “Perfect,” he finally said after what felt like a long pause, “then I think the lake is open. It’s another physical activity, I know, but paddle boats are always fun. What do you say?” The smile that spread across your face felt like it might consume you and all you could do was nod your head in agreement, “I will pick you up tomorrow then, same time?”
“I’ll bring the sunscreen,” you joked, “I wouldn’t want to burn.” He smiled at you lightly before placing a small kiss to your cheek, a feeling you’d think about until the very moment he picked you up for each and every date.
#bo bichette#major league baseball#mlb#mlb fandom#Bo bichette fic#Bo bichette imagine#this was the first of my drafts that I finished#it still took me… what? almost a year?#I just haven’t had a chance to look at it#but this was one that I wanted to be cute so it was easy to write#hopefully it’s good#sometimes I can’t tell#or I doubt myself lol#masterlist#the other masterlist
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#a doodley#okkk 2022: the torture chamber....i only sparsely drew al and developed talon (he was borned...) bc my mind was occupied with other things.#2023: exiting torture chamber; it took me a tiny little bit to get back to drawing and ''interacting with'' al again but i did it even#though it was a reminder of the Bad bc he's my copium#summer 2023: i view and witness media and suddenly have like 5 fictional men i cant decide on which to focus... and september (talon month)#comes along so I decide to focus on Talon after not touching him much at all throughout the entire year#(forced this btw i did not wanna do it LOL i didnt even remember how to draw him)#september 2023 to now: talon has infiltrated the brain. but i want to swivel back to al#now: i've forgotten how to Talk to al (just like i did in beginning of 2023)#(and just like i forgot how to talk to talon for most of 2023)#so ive kind of just been replaying the smunker cow al daydreams from when they first met#so I can find my way back...retracing my steps#in doing so ive kind of also forgotten how to interact with talon but still havent gotten back to al#so rn my life is so boring without imaginary bf interactions. just the before sleep plot rehashing daydreams...#or sparse visions of em Sometimes#nobody in my brain rn just like the short period last yr and its distressing#what do i draw without a love obsession.....#how do i pass time without it....! so boring. idk what to do#i miss the me of several yrs ago when i was drawing 50 different aus with al....ive downgraded in skill and imagination and creativity#so bad since then. idk. idk. i hope they come back to me soon#maybe i shld just draw al a lot which is how i kickstarted caring abt talon again almost a yr ago ?#hoping i can get him to come back before my surgery i need my big sexy boy nurse for recovery#(complaining abt things usually fixes em for me so im hoping thats the case here)
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Chapter 5 out now!
After losing his newest composition to the nefarious Swan, Winslow is determined to recover it, or at least find some way to strike back. But, as usual, Swan is already a step ahead of him and has invited Winslow to a very special show.
Set in an alternate timeline where Swan's plot to assassinate Phoenix is successful.
Chapters: 5/? Content warnings: major character death, graphic depictions of violence
Chapter 5 HERE Read from the beginning HERE
#phantom of the paradise#potp#fanfiction#my writing#guess who's back#(back back back)#back again#and it only took me almost a full calendar year#it is what it is#I'm still determined to finish this but uhhhh pace will likely not improve
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I have the worst luck with nail salons dear grace, what I wanted vs what I got


#radiorambles#first time was a couple years back they did a horrible job#flashforward today they did a worse job didn't do what I asked for and The guy that did my nails massaged my hands and MOVED MY SLEEVES UP#to MASSAGE MY ARMS the hands I get BUT MY ARMS??#dude had gell fused to my skin so it was stuck then took off half the polish and wasn't going to fix it like I asked#I SAID hey can you fix this I don't like how it is I was polite and this shit happens#I don't know if there was like a language barrier or ehat but I almost had a mental breakdown in the nail salon#thankfully the day got better me abd moons got boba and went to Barnes and nobles#it was a nice day but I'm still peeved about the nail thing#GUESS WHAT THEY CHARGED? 35 BUCKS#like??? i was supposed to get fake nails n' stuff not THAT#I hate it so much#my mom and sister were pissed#my sister does nail stuff as a hobby and shes REALLY good at it and then this professional place just this#I could do a better job on my own like what the fuck anyways ramble over I needed to get that off my chest again AAA
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#one piece#sanji#black leg sanji#everysanji#thriller bark#ch489#obligatory hitting him with hammers#but also i was thinking about how i originally got into one piece for some reason#which was in 2015 mind you almost 10 years ago#so when i was a freshman in high school we took a field trip before christmas#it involved going ice skating and then the mall and i think we went somewhere else that isnt entirely important#but anyway i was talking with someone while we were at the mall and looking at manga and i said i was interested in trying manga#so my. well idk friend might be too strong. classmate lets say suggested one piece#and so i got the first two volumes (which i still own they're on my bookshelf i take whenever i move)#and he told me that they went through each of the four blue seas before going on the grand line for some reason????#i think what he meant was that every volume has what arc it is on the top but he somehow#confused that with they go through north/south/west blue too#well anyway i havent talked to that guy since like 2017. wonder where he's at#if he's following this blog and recognizes this story i'm deleting social media forever
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I just realized how much of a good place I am emotionally and did Tom Crusie’s smile and laugh at the end of Edge of Tomorrow to myself, which makes sense considering how many times my emotional self has died and come back to life in the last 8 years.
#to be clear about the previous posts i am still down a moderate amount but i can manage it#it doesn’t have to control me i can control the down badness#i almost want to send an ill advised text of ‘it took eight years but i finally fixed what you did to me you bitch’
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Blue Bloods finale things/spoilers under the cut that I wanted to yell about:
• Jamko parents!!! Parents!! Oh how far they've come 😭
• I'm going to miss Eddie Janko so damn much, that's my girl.
•Jack and Erin getting married!! They finally got their happy ending. And the looks on their faces at dinner as they decided to keep it to themselves was just so 💜😭
• Danny's face when Henry tells him to find his person to come home to. He already knows.
• Danny Reagan! Asking Maria Baez! On a date! And her saying yes! He doesn't need to go look for his person because she's right there besides him. And the look on her face when she agreed!!
#blue bloods#jamko#jerin#daez#eddie janko#i'm going to miss so many of these characters so fucking much#crying over jamko on tumblr gone midnight I suddenly feel like i'm 18 again when I literally just turned 25 yday#I expected jamko parents and we knew that jack and erin were back together but getting 3/3 for my ships? blessed#jerin getting married again feels so right. their chemistry is unmatched#(the way jack looks at her. I get it.)#and then danny asking baez on a date took me out#the implication that he thought about what henry said for a few days and all his thinking led him back to maria because she's his girl.#and he just knew he had to take that leap.#(It's fine i'm going insane over here)#i am a bit miffed that we won't actually see anything beyond him asking her out and it was slightly open ended#but considering that we knew that danny didn't want to act on his feelings bc he didn't want to risk the pain of losing her/her getting hur#the fact that he asked her out was hugely significant#the fact that he specifically said it was because he had been thinking about what henry said to him is making me lose it#they obviously hang out outside work anyway but this is Different. you could tell by how almost nervous danny was 😭 but#she was right there with him. as she always is. they're partners in every sense.#and baez knows it too!!! the look on her face!! danny will tell her one day what it was that henry said and she'll Know.#god I am going to be thinking about them for the forseeable#3/3 on my ships and a good ending on a series finale is so rare for me#anyway i've been watching this show weekly since like 2014/15 and had watched it before that with my dad#so it's so strange that it's ending. it's one of the first shows that i've watched week in and out for donkeys years that is ending and it'#gonna be odd to not have that show in my watching list anymore#shut up g#(good god sorry about the tags I had to get that all out)#if anyone actually read any of that and still wants to come yell about these things please do :)
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Recent life photos
#photo diary#image 1 & 2 - of course these are just cloud images. But a cool pattern of them :0#3 - another word count of game writing... aargh... Still debating about like allowing other people into the game discord or how early#in the process one should do that.. but social things are just so difficult for me lol.. I shall always suffer for my lack of networking an#self promotion skills. 4 - I was forced to get a new phone a few months ago because my beloved phone of like 10 years finally#broke too much. and I always like to go through the emojis and make a little memo with all my favorites. yaay little pictures of things.#5 - I FINALLY finished all the dictionary entries for the game (which has a little dictionary feature in the player's journal to note#any specific terms and keep track of them (like what 'jhevona' or 'avirre'thel' means. or to remember that the world is called Nanyevimi#and the country they're in is Asen. etc. etc.)). There are 75 defined terms so far and it took me a while to do so out of curiosity I put#all the text into a wordcounter thing and lol.. 8000 words isnt that much I guess but the 30 minute reading time is funny to me. 30 minutes#for my little tiny dictionary panel in my quaint little casual visual novel which is not even lore heavy at all. hee hee (though that's mor#like a minute here and there since obv people are not unlocking every term all at once. you complete the dictionary as you talk to people#and hear them mention new concepts over time.).. ANYWAY..#6 - a very soft and beautiful stuffed animal that I did not buy but wanted to at least document their charm.#7 - stimky boye waiting in front of his favorite straw meowring screaming for someone to play with him (he likes to chase the#straw around). 8 - matcha bubble tea my beloved. 9 & 10 & 11 - some cool flowers I saw. also featuring one of my favorites (columbines!)#Anyhow.. as mentioned in the other photo diary post.. I have just been packing and writing mostly.. The evil summer is coming of course#which me and my health issues always dread. Good news though is I finally got my passport in the mail! >:3 huzzah. Now I just need to find#some fellow aromantic asexual living outside the US willing to take one for the team and fake a marriage with me so I can get the#hell out of the country UwU (<joking) (...mostly... as in - definitely NOT my main goal. but if a viable opportunity presented itself I#would of course give it consideration lol). I know that's already highly regulated but I wonder if it's something that will become even mor#locked down as people hunt for any opportunity to flee. People are out here searching for any loophole. Frantically researching their#entire family tree seeing if there's any chance for a citizenship by descent in whatever place will take them. etc. etc. lol#So I wonder if such marriages are a thing that will come up more often. hmm.. ANYWAY..#I have almost all of my stuff packed even though I don't move until another 1-2 months. But that's the point is to have it all sorted early#in the last remaining scraps of ''cooler'' weather so that then I can just relax up until then. I'm going to try doing another scrapbook#/sketchbook this summer as a Mood Boosting effort. Just to find little things to help with the situational political existential dread and#climate woes. So on days it's too hot to function I can just glue little things to pages and doodle lol.. hopefully.. slowly getting things#off my to do list.. I reaaaaaally want to get back to playing games as it's so fun and realxing to me but..rghgh.. 500 other things..
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other than that... i'm tired. prepare for a long rant in the tags if you decide to read more
#i just feel very stressed because of my finals and I have to polish my work almost every day rn#but at the same time I can't do it ALL the time so I just. keep doing a little then take a break. then remember I have to do it#and so I do it again. rinse and repeat.#it's very mundane work and it seems like I make no progress... but it's not true I finally made it to 40 pages and I still have a lot to do#well this one is on my mind at least most of the time#other things that bother me is that#1) I haven't finished any of my drawings recently#2) I have inconsistent art style (i counted 2 for sure and ??? uncountable) and I don't know what I want from it#3) I can't finish tiny siffrin saga but I do have at least two other doodles for this#OTHER THAN THAT I got very confused about my own feelings on one matter that I was sure was set in stone#because I have complicated relationship in the first place and most of the time it's the same#but there comes a day when I'm neutral and I'm like???? help what#it's still very confusing to me that these thing can coexist in my mind... so this is why I don't let go of this opportunity#even if I genuinely don't think it's gonna change to entirely positive ever. maybe after a few years being away but not any time soon.#if it sounds to you like a queer crisis no it's actually a ship crisis#and ough so many things happened and I can't remember anymore but they took a toll on me too but I'm not really in mood to talk about them#I just love infodumping#now actual infodump: I found siffrin cursor made by japanese isat fan#it's soooooo cute#like help!!!! oh my god!!! freaking ADORABLE#thank stars there's actually japanese fandom 🥰#those art I'm always glad to see on my dashboard#so yeah that's it#fifty musings
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bruh how did u blow up 😭 i am trying to do my own little upload blog thing and it seems so hard
to be honest, I think it’s just because I already had another sideblog with a few thousand followers, and after some time with this blog i happened to reblog one of my own posts there talking about it. Before then, I got almost no interaction here (though I didn’t post very much then compared to now)
regardless, it’ll take some time and then you’ll get some hit post you didn’t expect, that’s what happened on my other blog I mentioned, here too
#add on I wanted to say maybe just try to focus on your own aesthetic niche and just keep at it with proper tags and such#my other blog I started in like early 2017 as a kidcore rainbowcore one#and it took me around a year to get any real following base#now in current it has around 6k (still a lot less than here#this blog surpassed that one’s following in almost no time I was shocked#but yeah all you can do is keep at it lol#I don’t have any real amazing advice that’s just what I did on my other blog#I kept posting for my niche and eventually got hit posts though they were memes to be fair at first I think lol#but you have to build a base following first#and wait
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Jesus jimminy tap dancing christmas christ on a CRUTCH this is so much house for one busted ass person to take care of
#house hell#why must the garage LEAK so much??#why must there be so much YARD#i need it to stop raining faster so i can mow my fucking stupid giant ass yard#i need to build my stupid push mower first because ex took the gas one#not mad about that because like. no way was#migraine hell#and my intrinsic terror of gas/electricity-powered things going to let me touch that anyway#i still need to buy a smaller ladder and a staple gun to fix my damn porch#i still need to call the city to see if they'll take the nasty mattress ex left on the porch away for $70 or if i'm fucked#i still need ex to tell me when his mysterious contractor friends will clear away the last heaping pile of rotting old roof detritus#and fix the dormer windows in the attic#and dismantle the big bird yellow scaffolding that's been on my patio/garage roof for like TWO YEARS#i still need to deal with the MESS the cats made of the living room i've pretty much never used#i still need to buy a COUCH because last summer's flea nightmare escapade killed the old one#(and roommate prob was gonna take it otherwise)#(which honestly FINE WITH ME)#(he definitely fucked the woman he cheated on me with on it)#i still need to buy a new dresser and fix up the spare bedroom and do a full sweep/mop of the whole fucking beast of a house and#and i am one person#who is happy when i manage to do one (1) basic adult activity#i made dinner tonight!#no vegetables wasted from the farmer's market (YET)#and i finally moved (almost) all the yard bags ex left by the middle-front door down the sidewalk in time for pickup tomorrow!#that's two things!#fuck this is so much HOUSE what am i DOING
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I was tagged by @carcarrot to post recent images from my camera roll, thank you!!!!







Open tags because I feel shy about tagging today, sorreh
#i decided to be lax with what counts as recent (i mean it's all stuff from the last week or two at least)#and just go with whatever seems most fun and/or random. so have some random rubbish that i feel close to on some spiritual level#as well as my photos of: a tree in our backyard#(this year i am NOT forgetting to take some pics of trees in bloom while they're still in bloom)#my favourite snack as of late (yoghurt gummies) that i acquired after a week of longing for its taste so i took this celebratory pic of it#my boba tea plushie that i got from a souvenir stall 2 years ago and that i take with me on every trip now#pictured here on the train last week. and the pretty sunset from yesterday yay.#also you can see how freaking dark and bad photos taken with my phone look if i don't add any touchups to them at all#hashtag no filter hashtag authentic look. or something#and finishing it all off with an album listening list i just made because i'm doing this again and getting ready for a concert#by listening to (almost) all of the band in question's discography in the days leading up to it#decided to exclude plagiarism and thom mostly bcs they're not really normal studio albums and this way it starts right on mad! release day#and ends just before the show day yay :) exciting times are ahead!!! just 56 days left until the first london show!!! btw... wow.....#tag game
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day 1000-something of wishing that this had been added to honeypre before it eosed
#sorry guys i may say that i love cec songs b u t my favourite hw song is still hajimari no sayonara (sorry for being a fake fan)#(b u t if they decide to take this route with nghy [moving on despite an unrequited love] i’ll eat my shoe)#song still slaps after almost 11 (wtf) years since its release#aka ‘hey guys remember the good ol’ days when hw used rin and len—‘#there’s just s o m e t h i n g about this song. the feeling of still loving your ex who has completely moved on from you#a n d the resolution to move on despite your feelings and wishing the happy couple the best despite everything#suki kirai miniseries my childhood anthems#(albeit it took me a good year or so to warm up to suki kirai bc ✨reasons✨)#b u t it’s still the throwback to the days of yore when the og vocafansubbers reigned the yt scene… with rpers in the comments and all…#man. raise your hand if you still remember annotated tls on vocasong reuploads#o k that’s enough of feelin old for one day; time to return to speculating what ymk’s upcoming mv will be#(prayingngngngng for. like. a lxl canon or nghy canon song [delusional] or ariken/mdsn wedding or—)
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The problem with testerone is it makes me extremely horny but at the same time I am terrified of actual physical contact with another person. Sure it's all fun and games when I'm jerking off multiple times a day and talking sexually online , but as soon as someone mentions actually coming to my place and doing stuff I'm so scared and need my mom and I'm hiding.
#T mixed with being scared of physical contact is a curse i much suffer#i love being on T#but I'm scared of people#also why do I get so angry when someone tries to have sex with me i thought that's what i wanted#i was diagnosed with social anxiety and i do have a huge distrust towards people in general because of past trauma#like i took a somewhat higher dose of muscle relaxers so I would have the excuse of falling asleep#i feel bad but at the same good lord i am scared#like can we please just be normal friends#the flesh is willing but the spirit is terrified and somewhat annoyed#but now i feel like a huge fucking asshole#at least they didn't show up because i wasn't responding that's respectful right#i hope we learned something today about talking sexually online and sending people your address DON'T DO IT JUST DON'T#sure im safe but that could of been scary had it been someone else#this is someone I've known for like a few years and feel i can somewhat trust#thank God it wasn't a stranger but still what in the fuck is wrong with me#maybe Mom's right maybe i do need jebus lmao im just joking i don't need Jebus but mom really says that to me all the time#i almost got myself into one of them situations that I tell myself i won't get into ever again#my cat is looking at me disapprovingly
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Why has skincare got to be so… much
#it’s a bazillion tiny potions and i feel so lost. like jesus christ#i swear they’re making things up and then charging £1+ per millilitre of product#i took quizzes on 3 different websites and told them the same things and they recommended me totally different products what does it mean#what does it all mean#honestly i might just stick with my current 3 step routine. my skin seems to like it#i was doing like 6 steps but i had to accept that a couple of the serums were irritating my skin. ESPECIALLY the retinol one#so now i’m down to: cleansing (w/ inkey list oat cleansing balm which i’ve been using for ages & have never had a problem with)#the ordinary barrier support serum (just started using this but genuinely it feels so nice. i really like it)#and then i just do lush celestial moisturiser#i do also have the fenty hydra vizor for an option with spf but to be honest it irritates my skin a bit so i’m thinking#about trying inkey list’s spf. my skin is bizarrely chill with polyglutamic acid so it should be fine#i think i might switch from lush celestial when i use up my current tub also. i do really love it but £22 for 45ml is a little bit wild#i think inkey’s omega water cream is £15 for twice as much product#i did get the mini of hydra vizor so that’s not a complete loss#christ. i did want to try typology but they’re SO expensive i about died. yes they have tinted serums but at what cost? ALL MY MONEY#god i wish i still had my 22 year old skin that looked fantastic after being washed with bar soap and moisturised with a fucking body lotion#like once every three days. but alas i am almost 29 and i look like a bus hit me if i don’t baby my skin. it’s so cursed#personal#i Know i shouldn’t care but literally in my mid 20s i went from people being surprised i was old enough to drink#to people being surprised i wasn’t in my 30s yet. practically overnight#i know the pandemic + my various dependencies did a number on me and i also started going prematurely grey but jesus#developing arthritis at 27 cannot possibly have helped either i’ll be honest
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#if i'm quiet it's bc i'm still processing#i haven't reached the acceptance point pointvand i can't be glib or funny about it#i keep just starting to full-on sob#like a lot of it is selfish - comparatively i'm better off than many and not much will change right away#but i'm old. i'm not super sure i'll make it another 4 years like i just have this feeling i won't#and i'm crying for the loss of what we could have had as much as for all of those who will die#it's almost worse that there was a clear way forward that we took in a better timeline#i'm crying because there's proof that so much of this country is evil and stupid and arrogant and apathetic#huge swathes of it are not but we have to admit that there are a lot of the others#it really is grief for the united states of america that existed and it's selfish and not helpful and i can't stop it yet#today someone i work with really ssid to me 'y'all really think trump is gonna send people to your house and take you away'#and i said he told us he would - he said he would specifically target immigrants and received the reply#'well yeah of course - the illegals ...'#so many folks are already setting their sights on the next fight and ready to roll up their sleeves and keep pushing#and i just can't stop crying#palestine is gone. the supreme court is locked for the rest of my life. who knows if there will ever even be another election#maybe that was the last one. maybe that was the last one women will be able to vote in. who knows.#i remember this feeling from when my parents died but i'm not any better dealing with it now than i was then
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