#it should also be noted he is def feral
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this-love-is-delicate · 1 year ago
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i am trying to make friends with a stray cat at work by leaving chicken nuggies under my car for him
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samicakes-exe · 2 years ago
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hii can i request your regular jeff the killer headcanons? :) they don’t have to be smutty
Hello! thank ya for requesting! honestly, i should get aroundto posting all of my creeps head cannons but Jeffy boy is a good start! hope you enjoy!!
also please suggest any other peeps you want headcanons for!
<3 Wordcount: 605 words! so a quick read <3
𝔾𝕖𝕟𝕖𝕣𝕒𝕝 𝕁𝕖𝕗𝕗 𝕋𝕙𝕖 𝕂𝕚𝕝𝕝𝕖𝕣 ℍ𝕖𝕒𝕕𝕔𝕒𝕟𝕠𝕟𝕤!!!
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warnings: will include smut head canons at the end so be warned. Other than that just Jeff being a loveable ass!
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𝕊𝔽𝕎 ℍ𝕖𝕒𝕕𝕔𝕒𝕟𝕠𝕟𝕤:
okay, let's get this out of the way. he's an asshole.
an asshole who cares mainly about the people he loves.
STILL he's a douche sometimes.
he's not very showy when it comes to his more romantic side. Hell, he struggles to say I love you in front of others and definitely isn't going to admit how fond he is of you to anyone else, even to Liu.
but he is very observant-
He listens, taking notes on what you like. Oh? you mentioned you like a specific type of cookie- there are 10 boxes in the cupboards the following morning.
Oh? you like wearing his clothes, here take a hoodie. (he would be very nonchalant about the situation and if you prod any deeper he would deny deny deny. getting annoyed but still handing you the hoodie.)
he has his sweet moments but still, he's more of a cocky narcissist
handsy too (he will never leave your ass alone!)
my dude is 5'10 on a good day but will totally round it up to 6 foot. He likes being taller than you
if you are 5'10 n up. Well prepare for him to show off his strength instead.
"Give me your hand."
"What?"
"I can beat you in arm wrestling. Give me your hand!"
Of course, you let him win, cuz if not he would challenge you to a race. (like a goddamn middle schooler)
He is quite toned but still built lanky
this man can surprisingly cook decent enough and if you're lucky he will cook for you
ONLY SOMETIMES again with the whole not showing any romantic affection thing
he's a little nerd since before the whole randy, troy, keith thing. He was a quiet kid and ya know quiet kids tend to be nerds n stuff!
he's defintely a nerd when it comes to rock and metal bands.
he has a couple of band tees def.
he doesn't know how to drive- also he's a passenger princess.
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ℕ𝕊𝔽𝕎 ℍ𝕖𝕒𝕕𝕔𝕒𝕟𝕠𝕟𝕤:
minors get out right now!
so we all know this man is kinky in bed, of course!
one huge thing with him is def a knife kink. he absolutely gets off on the fear in your eyes when he presses one of his trusty knifes against your throat. how you tremble underneath him, feeds his massive ego.
he will definitely press it harder while he is fucking into you, he loves seeing you like this underneath him, also loves knowing that you would do this only for him.
he loves ruining you
he has a blood kink of course and will totally fuck you on your period.
his dick is 6 inches and pretty thick, slight curve to the left.
and he knows how to use it.
IF you're into it. Def let him carve his initials into you and watch him go absolutely feral.
he was already into marking with hickeys and bites, but this is like marriage to him i guess.
you're fully his now.
not only is he a passenger princess- his favorite position is reverse cowgirl.
he loves watching you ruin yourself on top of him and sometimes he will thrust up against your increasingly sloppier bounces.
his fingers roughly rubbing your clit
all the while whispering the filthiest things he can muster in your ear:
"cum all over my cock, doll"
"that's right, doll. go stupid on my cock, sweetheart. let me fuck your little brains out."
"you like my knife pressing into your thigh? makes your little clitty throb~"
his aftercare is surprisingly sweet, kissing all over you while he holds you close.
sometimes leaving marks as well, plays back to his whole ownership kink.
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there it is! it is rough. i barely edited it so please enjoy. if you didn't like it umm- im sorry :(
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1-800-call-ria · 1 year ago
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ria me and u are like this 🤞another chenle girlie on this app and let me tell u the brain rot for this man is not real like i will never shutup ab him like its 3 am and im thinkinh ab chenle liek he LOVE HAVING U CLOSR 😭😭like alwas has a hand on your thigh when he's driving also does the check the back thing bc he knows yo find it hot also always gives u aux no matter what ATP HE SINGS ALONG TO YOUR SONGS BC OF HOW MUCH HE GIVES U AUX like mark is like : dude can i play music and chenle is like: no yn alr has it 😭😭😭 be fkn fr so whipped also always stops for Starbucks no matter what he has ur order memorized down to the last detail😭💐❤️‍🩹 you have a space in his car w like hairties ur fav lipgloss a blanket makeup remover perfume one of his hoodies and ur fav snack I LOVE CHENLE I COULD TALK AB SO MANY FKN CHENLES IF U LET ME YOU WILL HEAR (more like read but any gays) EVERY SINGLE CHENLE THOUGHT I HAVE also pls lets be moots u seem so nice and cool🙏🙏
BF!Chenle thought #2
Hey Auri! You so get me 😞 the Chenle brainrot is beyond me, it’s like he reaches through my phone and grips onto my brain like his life depends on it. Literally past the point of delulu. AND THESE THOUGHTS?? Chefs kiss
warning: me being past delulu, fluff
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You being the passenger princess without ever needing to ask. That’s it, that’s the post…
He’s literally cleared out his glove compartment just to have your stuff in there (he just stuffs everything in the middle console). You’re extra pads/tampons, hair ties, makeup, snacks are almost always in there. It has a decal that says ‘My Baby’ in tiny bold letters. The trunk is pretty much the same with one of your bags that’s filled with ‘Y/N essentials’ including but not limited to one of your (his) jackets, more snacks of yours and even an extra pair of clothes.
No matter who is in the car, you will always have the passenger seat. Chenle has literally kicked out every single member whenever they tried to sit in your seat.
“Jisung, nu-uh”
“Mark Lee. In the back.”
“Move Haechan.”
“Puppy boy…bad dog.” (he hasn’t said this but sooner or later he’s going to)
One time you jokingly said he should put a colorful/shiny decal of your name on your side like he did with the glove compartment. The next time you were in the car, you notice right on the step to get into the car in glittery pink is ‘Princess Y/N’. (He’s absolutely crazy for you)
As for having aux? One time you asked and he’s given it to you ever since. The members now realize he becomes a different man whenever you’re around especially in Chenle’s car. Mark asked once to get aux and he’s never been side-eyed so hard. Man literally hung his head in shame, that’s how mad that side-eye was. It doesn’t matter what music you listen to, he just lets you have it.
I’ve said before and I’ll say again.
CHENLE IS A PHYSICAL TOUCH AND WORDS OF AFFIRMATION GIRLY 🗣️🗣️
and in the car he would love having one hand on the wheel, and one on your thigh. (he makes me feral if you haven’t noticed) Multiple times you’ve told him to keep two hands on the wheel, it just makes him want to do it even more.
“Zhong Chenle, hands on the wheel”
“Y/N, no thank you baby”
The Starbucks order?? Nah every single place y’all have ever been, he’s memorized what you’ve gotten (more like written it down in his notes app BUT STILL). He doesn’t even need to turn to you and ask anymore, he already knows what you want. Unless you turn to him and say “I’m gonna order” he’s going to order for you because that’s just how he is. And if they get your order wrong?? The man is waving down the waiter/waitress telling them what they got wrong in your order. It could’ve been you said like extra onions or something and one look at your face and food he already knows. It’s embarrassing yes, but you get free food sometimes, it’s def a win-win.
It general he’s such boyfie material it makes me anxious and sick. I need someone like him frfr
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nugulover69 · 3 months ago
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I too am a member of the Taiya-hater club and every episode I question why I'm not dropping this show until they show me scraps of Mira or Agent Shirabe or the Three Idiots, but I think from now on I'll be fastforwarding through new eps just for them. My only sentai are Zenkai and halfway through Donbros so being forced to watch Boonboom Red as the main character is like beibg fed cardboard after a pizza.
Oh man. if your only sentai experience is zenkai and donbros, two very experimental and Not A Typical Sentai sentais, yeah boonboom must hit a real sour note since its a return to basics lol
I personally wouldn't call it bad so far, a solid B+ imo, but Taiya is def the weakest character, and his blandness is only more evident whenever an episode is focused on him
I can suggest some good sentais that are more typical in structure for you to watch in the future:
Gokaiger- the core team is phenomenal here, bursting with personality and incredible chemistry between each of them. this IS an anniversary sentai, meaning past rangers are constantly showing up to be apart of the plot, but you do NOT need to have seen their shows to get the gist and have a fun time. you're following the gokaigers and their character arcs are always the main focus. plus they're aliens (space pirates even) that don't know jackshit abt Earth, so you and them are on the same level of knowledge lol
Idk why folks don't recommend this as a starter sentai more often. it was my first ever sentai and I picked the next sentais I watched based on how entertained I was by a past characters appearance. its how I watched go-onger and carranger (and liveman but I don't wanna talk abt that)
Also Marvelous is best red. this is an objective fact we as a community all agree on, even if he's not our own personal favorite red
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Speaking of go-on
Go-onger- the canon, main strength of this team is their stupidity. VERY CARTOONY, heavy on hijinks, light on serious plot (it was written by a veteran kids anime writer and boy can you tell). if you like loud genki kinda assholeish shonen protags than you'll love the red Sosuke. if you don't...perhaps skip this one lol. Sosuke is a biiiig make or break of someone's enjoyment of go-on. the villains are great tho, very team rocket, kinda like the Sanseaters in boonboom
(and its a much better car sentai. Speedor is there all the time. boonboom only has Speedor for one episode. I rest my case)
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Zyuohger- if you need an animal sentai under your belt, this is the best one. the red, Yamato, does get more focus than the rest of the team (many more power ups as well) but he's a likeable character played by a guy who can actually act. GREAT VILLAINS, they evolve over time as well and I can't say much w/o spoiling things, but I'll just say Genis caused his own demise
Also I haven't seen donbros but I know the donbros sixth is deranged, so if you need more deranged sixths in your life you should watch zyuoh for Misao
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Gekiranger- if you really love serialized story telling and characters growing and changing and all that, I cannot recommend geki enough. in a lot of sentai, the weapons are usually just found or given, which isn't inherently a bad thing but I can see why someone wouldn't care for that. every weapon and power up the gekis get is always earned thru them overcoming some obstacle, literal or figurative, so its that much more rewarding when the new Marketable Touy is used
Also they're kung fu fighting cats. did I mention they're kung fu fighting cats. the red was raised in the woods and literally acts like a feral animal most of the time. he does mellow out over the course of the show, but honestly if someone doesn't like Jan from the jump I don't trust them (he has CRAZY yaois with the main villain Leo btw)
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liauditore · 1 year ago
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hi i have returned opinions on secret life so far? (also any idea why bigb’s secret animation was different to everyone else’s?) :D
hi hi i have so many Thoughts that i will definitely miss Something but. lots of things. spoilers for ep1 under the cut obvs.
why is every ship getting crumbs. literally all of them. what is wrong with everyone wtf. (except treebark. treebark girlies stay losing)
new mechanic is insanely hype and i am going a little bit feral over it. i've been wanting a UHC-style season for a long time and this seems a great way to kind of. entertainment-fy it i suppose? cus as much as i wanted straight up UHC i can totally understand why players like joel or skizz or scar would struggle hard in that sort of ruleset and it wouldn't be very fun to watch as a result.
i'm a bit.. tentative about the more acknowledgment of the Lore this time around? On one hand i love it and i think it's incredibly cool but on the other hand i know well that lore can eat a series alive if let out of control. Especially when fans start getting pushy about their theories and disappointed when inevitably things aren't as explained or thoroughly confirmed or straight up forgotten. (<-- fnaf fan. i have seen it. it is horrible)
that being said i have trust in grian specifically to handle it well and not go off the deep end with it cus a good chunk of the viewers don't know/care for the lore and if it becomes a Big Thing then a lot of people are gonna end up feeling alienated and confused.
i LOVED Bigb's episode and i think it's like. the ideal way to incorporate lore into a series like this. the way you can Feel that something is off rather than it being explicitly shown. you can choose to write it off or dig deeper. it's good juice. I've mentioned this before but I'll say it again -- Bigb is easily one of the strongest roleplayers on the entire server and his editing REALLY sells it hard. He really melts into what's happening rather than getting up on a platform and shouting THIS PART IS IMPORTANT. LOOK AT ME. which i really appreciate as a kind-of honorary former theatre kid.
but yeah tl;dr i think lore/fan theories should be left to the fandom mainly otherwise it starts getting weird. that being said i trust the life series ppl and can't wait to see what's going on with this season.
now if i may be unhinged myself. i def agree with the theory that Something is up with Bigb's task and maybe whatever gave it to him is trying to mess with the game.
Bigb and Mumbo specifically I felt were acting.. a little OOC the whole episode? Bigb was very much on purpose i think and i reckon mumbo's just excited to be back lol but its fun to think about
the task system has a lot of potential for. fanfic symbolism fuel. i mentioned this on my spam blog i think but something something about the way the players' tasks almost seem to. mock them? a little bit?
like pearl's being to "earn" people's hearts after she failed to make any connections throughout double life and has been somewhat isolated the whole series. bdubs being known for his efficient and beautiful builds being told to make something ugly and useless. scott being implicitly called a parasite with his history of teaming and latching onto one specific person each season. etc. etc.
the teams this time around are looking interesting and i think it's worth noting how it almost feels like.. the opposite of limlife a bit? with how slow and cautious everyone has to play. it seems like over half the server haven't really even joined up with anyone yet which is intriguing. (im personally praying for a scar/jimmy team up. just cus scott said they wouldn't make it lol)
which is great for me cus i loved limlife but the chaoticness of everything did kind of. make deaths less impactful i think? if i see another sky bridge i might scream
im very. of two minds about the scott and impulse team up. because if you dig through my blog you'll see i have kind of a history of being unhinged about those two and their parallels. but i have the sneaking suspicion that their actual dynamic will be like nothing i had in mind lmao
overall i am very excited but trying to control my expectations
also um MUMBO AND LIZZIE ARE BACK AND GEM IS IN THE SERIES AND MUMBO AND LIZZIE AND THUBS ETHUBS ETHUBS ETHUBS ETHUBS--
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brilliantfantasticgeronimo · 6 months ago
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Rogue thoughts and reactions--->
not taking many notes this time cause i wanted to Savour this one tbh and what a blast so far
rogue and doctor so far is like. rtd striking gold potentially here (i kno he didnt write this one i mean more like. in the long run. i could see fans going crazy over this Type of ship and spending sweet $$$$ on it lol).
ruby looking at this "scene" like it's a tv show………. live…….. honey u best believe in ghost stories hyper post-modern genre tv show seasons cause u are in one
cushy… wordsmiths-ing count…
"ruby: you know how i forget about a man?" with a woman? (shot)
the parallel of these guys "dishonoring" these ppl while the doc and ruby do kind of the same all the time sdkflj
mmm second time i see a triangle logo (it was there last ep on the door to the MEP area that lindsey and rickey ran into. camera held on suspiciously long on it…) (triangles…. three…. susan TRIAD???)
doctor this says you're single and available. oh another word. "very" available.
COME ON ACE WE HAVE WORK TO DO
"wow" boner dialogue
mention of gallifrey.... "i might take you one day" oh man. oh man………..
"random barren dimension" yes this is not an equivalent to a silent confinement analogue at all don't think about it too hard guys
"i lost everyone"
they're leaning on……………. oh yaz just broke a coffee mug somewhere
maybe the real enemy was fandom all along
THOSE TV SIGNALS BEAM OUT ACROSS THE STARS. TV SIGNALS. TV SIGNALS. TV ISNGALS TV
SIGNASLKDJASLKDJASKLJ1!!SKLFDJDSLKJFSDLK JF SHUT UPTJSDLFKSDJ (i die)
ok im enjoying The Concept a lot, as expected…….. but gotta say rogue does feel a bit two dimensional so far :/ (maybe even a bit cliche?) i feel jack in his first ep had more depth at first for example (bounty hunter but also lost his memory. doing amoral things but being swayed by the doctor at the end. etc). but there's time THERE'S TIME. DONT LE TME DOWN EPISODE PLEA SE. there's always a twist-
you people and your bridgetons. in my time this would all be a big ass downtown abbey reference
sad thing is this is def one episode i wont be able to watch with my homophobic parents at all oof lmao
this dialogue.... kinda thoschei acadamy years coded ngl
"tell me what your heart wants or i shall turn my back on your forever" defining 15 character dialogue……….
(commitment phobe doctor moment. my girl hastn changed at ALL) (btw intrigued by rogue's "i lost them" bc it could mean a lot right. it's the most delibarely ambiguous of pronouns dklfjsd like it could be a nonbinary character but could also be a couple characters? or maybe im reading it wrong sdlkjf)
play our games on a magnificent scale…………… games motif……….
"i thought i was interesting- but you??" exactly!!! doctor who>>>>>>>> bridgerton/all other tv shows. case made.
god i feel so stupid. i dint catch that twist at all TOT
wedding season finale. chuldur's know where it's at.
oh finally there's the scene from the trailers!!!!!!!!!
"how long do they live for?" oh he's gonna says A Thing "thats a long time to suffer" I WASN'T WRONG /GOES FERAL ( i knew the family of blood coding was leading somewhere…)
the doctor beatiing these cosplayers with his "i object" tv tropyness……….. the meta of it……… theory gang we're gonna make it yet i swear
ok yes this is sad poor ruby but like. but literally last month 14 killed/sacrificed donna w/o sm hesitation so sdklfjdsklfjsdklfj (yes im still like. HEY THAT WAS A SIGNIFICANT THING THAT HAPPENED. WHY IS NO ONE TALKING ABOUT IT.)
oh is rogue a chuldur as well? he feels too invested in the trolley problem of it all sdlkfj
im gonna say it.... i thought that resolution was kinda........ as the kids say..... weak sauce sfkdj
like oh nooo he got teleported oh noooo. like he's gonna be fine slkdfjsd didn't really hit that hard :/ should have had a proper death sacrifice thing.
"im sorry....." "....AAAANYWAY , it is what it is!!!! " my man is so broken holy shit. holy shit.
it's ok to be sad. !!!!! TOT
CONCLUSIONS!!
sdlkjf ya'll i really wanted this to harder but idk i didnt feel the depth or sensibility this called for was there tbh. but it was a blast!!! but … it missed a bit of that x factor thing. like some kind of universality to the romance w/ the rogue. i feel he was too sketched-in.... i was also a bit disappointed that ruby's friend was not her friend bc it meant her whole thing this ep of connecting to that woman was for nothing (and up until that point it was feeling very Important specially after the marti thing) (and speaking of, the chuldur's were kinda very sketched-in / surface-level as villains as well) … yeah. idk. kinda disappointing ngl (diodati > this i think). pretty fucking gay tho so that was nice.
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gasolinerainbowpuddles · 1 year ago
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GOD the latest chapter of feral woman was beautiful and painful and amazing. you are immensely talented and i hope you feel proud when you think of your writing because you should!!!! also, the chapter made me think of 'we'll never have sex by leith ross.' like especially that poison and antidote line, made me think of first line of the song ('depollute me, pretty baby, suck the rot right out of my bloodstream'.) anyways, you're amazing, now i'm going to go read EnNi and get pissed off lmao
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I'm sorry, WHAT. This is the fucking sweetest message! 😭
Tysm for your kind words about FW! I have trouble writing that fic sometimes bc of the content involved, and I often worry it will show through too much.
Oh, you kissed me just to kiss me Not to make me cry It was simple, you are sweetness Let's just sit a while Depollute me, gentle angel And I'll feel the sickness less and less — "We'll Never Have Sex" | Leith Ross
Ty for sharing this song! I wasn't familiar with it. It's so pretty! IA it is very FW coded. Joel is def content to just to sit with her and be with her although they might just be doing more than that here pretty soon.
Also just have to say I love that you read both of my chaptered fics and are like "alright, time to compartmentalize the sweet FW Joel and gear up for the asshole version that's in Endless Night" HAHAHA. (Side note: I promise EnNi Joel won't always be so much of an asshole, but he is def my grumpiest/angriest Joel.)
catch ya later, ♥Puddles♥
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nemainofthewater · 2 months ago
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Halfway through, and currently Luo Fumeng is in the lead with 25.4%, then the write in candidates with 17.5%, and finally Xiang Liu in third with 15.4%.
I just want to say, we have had a beautiful crop of write-in characters this round, most of them with photo propaganda how are all the characters so beautiful. I highly reccommend checking out the notes <3
Tag propaganda under the cut:
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by @shadaras, @tehfanglyfish, and @jayswing101
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by @a-sea-with-no-shores
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by @libraryofjoy
#another write-in for ye zun!#dfqc was tempting but he only spends 0.5s being white-haired by @circumference-pie
#Ji Xue from The Blood of Youth!#she's a minor character who only appears far later but: she's the head of the spy sect and covers all sorts of information#....and joins the fight in the capital city helps with the fight against the Melancholy Sword Deity#also sacrifices her martial arts for xs which is mysteriously never addressed when he meets her last but your honour: i love her by @travalerray
#lots of characters end up with white hair temporarily#or they have it at the very end and only at the very end#polls#anyway#never doubt stellar's wig game#he actually should have stayed in the cat boy form forever#even his mask was cunt#a cdrama rarity by @harocat
#*starts by submitting hao chen*#*immediately remembers I had a white/silver wig poll*#yao lao!#i presume silver counts? ; #going through my folders for picks of the last two submissions#I was suddenly reminded of this gem of a show#I've already voted for ''Other''#might as well do it properly ; #not the greatest wig but Yang Yang is pretty anyway he appears ; #i havent made it this far through the show yet#but have another Liu Xueyi white wig ; #Hou Minghao looking pretty in white#just rounding out the last few I used in my poll#mainly to share the pics for anyone who wants them by @lasenbyphoenix
#you forgot blorbos from my show!!#special shout out to Mo Qixuan Dashing Youth version because he’s hot. wait who said that by @jianghushenanigans
#yin chen!!#yes!! by @lucientelrunya
#difficult as it is to choose#my vote is for Jin Xuan#but I wanted to provide propaganda for all my favorite white-haired eunuchs#well I actually missed at least one#but alas#jin xuan#zhuo qing#gao zhan#poll#propaganda#eunuchs#my gifs by @feng-huli
#how do i choose#jinxuan is daddy and zhuoqing is my poor little meowmeow#jinwei would def vote zhuoqing tho#so i will too#zhuo qing by @eunuch-enjoyer5
#I haven't seen any of these other shows except for Burning Flames#but no one can beat gay dad sect leaders!#Till the End of the Moon#poll by @deadsince1973
#ye zun#guardian#write in candidate but you KNOW he deserves to win this one people! by @flamingwell
#YE ZUN YE ZUN YE ZUN by @forerussake
#ye zun#because I don't know any of the characters actually in the poll by @tinypinkmouse
#ye zun#guardian by @mondengel2
#wen kexing#woh#word of honor by @lacommunarde
#add another for Ye Zun#poor little meow meow#he deserves a hug by @1ebilcat
#Can I be an option#C on the white hair poll? I think so by @csabyssallight AND #my vote is for C from Tumblr dot com by @zarithial
Luo Fumeng
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by @bringbackthebriarwoods2K24
#i voted for luo fumeng#because she is an absolute icon#but also seconding the write in for ye zun by @gavilansblog
#voted luo fumeng#because she's badass#and deserves it#but I'd like to write in mo qishi#white hair daity#because he's badass as well and i love him#the blood of youth#mo qixuan#or is it#mo qishi by @fire-burning-brighter
#tragicomic ghost!!!#i looooooove her! by @jaimebluesq
Qingming
#qingming from shishenling no contest#the guy is fucking feral#oh my sad tragic fox man who i just want to sit down for a cup of tea#before he disappears off tragically into the tragic wilderness by @thelaithlyworm
Teng She
#polls#teng she#my beloved little snake! by @calystarose
They've been deathly ill. Maybe they've died and come back from the dead. Maybe they were born like this.
Whichever it is, these characters have had their wigs tossed into a vat of bleach and there's no going back now!
*this poll is for a full head of white hair, there will be a separate poll for a white streak later
Write-ins, propaganda, and images are welcome!
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wanderingwomanwondering · 3 years ago
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More 503 Buddie Thoughts
The second section of this post contains dialogue from the break up scene so it’s looonnggg.
The Locker Room Scene
The silent communication between Buck and Eddie in the locker room scene is making me feral. They said a lot verbally in the scene but the nonverbals were heavy and loud too! A string of feelings and acknowledgements hanging between them through their facial expressions and body language. Their faces screamed *i hear you, i feel you, and i see you*. Neither of them could quite stand in that feeling for too long even tho it’s what they both actually want. Both men had very vulnerable/open facial expressions in that scene - everything they felt in the moment played across their face at some point in the brief interaction. It was a moment of true presence and encounter between them, and it was glorious!
Also, in the opening of the scene buck leads with mentioning christopher and eddie getting home to him. i think it’s important to note that for the first time that we’ve seen (if memory serves) eddie refocuses away from chris and onto himself. That is huge given what just happened with Harry, which is why the lead into the locker room scene is Hen on the phone with Denny. It underscores the shift in focus that eddie has rn. He turns the focus to himself and the break up that he has to have with a*a. He chose his heart with buck’s help.
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They are slowly coming into romantic alignment and i can’t frickin’ breathe!
The Break Up Scene
I really want to break down this scene bc eddie’s words but especially his body language were loud af here too.
Ana: You know. I thought that I would hate canned fruit, But it’s not bad. A little lime, some chili. Who’d have thought?
Canned fruit is not as good as fresh but you know whatever. She’s spruced up what was available in eddie’s kitchen, working with what she has/is provided by him, let’s face it during the blackout and beyond really, that’s not much. He’s not bringing his best with her, not really.
Chris: Yes!
Chris is smart and perceptive but also he has kid tastes. A*a has made do and he’s enjoying the fruits of her labor, more or less.
Eddie: It is all good. Great, actually. You didn’t have to cook all of this though.
It’s all by the recipe heteronormative society has set. It’s all good by that standard, but eddie’s not enjoying it quite as much as the “master chef” (society) said he would lol. In the second sentence it’s clear that he doesn’t want her to put in so much effort. I think it makes him feel more guilty, because he doesn’t have anything more that he can honestly offer her.
Chris: Let’s make brownies next.
Again, he’s enjoying the endless supply of treats from A*a, at least to a degree I think.
Ana: You know, I think we need to clean that kitchen first.
I think others have pointed it out but the messy kitchen is most def a visual rep of eddie. A*a is proposing that she and chris keep working on eddie and his (relationship/love life) mess.
Eddie: Maybe you should go home first. I mean, you’ve been stuck here for days. I’m sure you want to get back to your own place. Have some time for yourself.
This is eddie screaming in subtext that this is not a*a’s home. She does not fit here. She should go someplace where she belongs...which is not here. please leave. His literal words are just basic breakup prelude. not subtle but also not completely rude given the long shift he just worked and his gentle tone.
Ana: Right. Yeah. But I am not going to leave you with the disaster in the kitchen.
She can see the writing on the wall but she is resisting. she recognizes that the kitchen (eddie) is messy and needs some tlc. she’s trying to join eddie in denial that they have a problem in their relationship, but he’s over denying things at this point. 
Chris: A disaster.
Chris KNOWS!!! He’s enjoying the a*a perks but he’s NOT OBLIVIOUS to the fact that his father is not quite okay. Dad’s in disarray and he kinda gets that on some level i think.
Ana: I’m sorry. I know this place is such a wreck.
We gotta remember, in this case/this episode of symbolism, the kitchen (eddie) was made messy/messier by a*a herself. The kitchen is normally functional, then she came along and joined in playing house thanks to the blackout which  catalyzed eddie’s panic over ready-made family.
Eddie: Don’t worry about it.
Eddie fully knows that this whole situation is not actually her circus not her monkeys. It really is his problem, bc she’s good on paper.
Ana: Yeah, but you’ve been working nonstop, so you shouldn’t have to come home to this mess. Oh I bet the dishwasher is working now, right? You know what, I don’t know what I miss more, whether it’s the dishwasher or the refrigerator -
A*a knows eddie has been trying to sort things out, even if he’s been doing that poorly in regard to her needs/expectations. Now that he’s back home and talking to her, she hopes some little things are functioning between them again, at least enough so that she can stay. She sounds desperate at this point (which I don’t think is fair to her as a person/character, but she’s such a side character I don’t really care that much at the end of the day).
Eddie: Ana -
No, a*a, this is over. The kitchen is back to base level functioning, but not for you.
Ana: - Or, the air conditioning. It’s probably the air conditioning, definitely.
In 502 when buck had that talk with eddie, eddie was sweating bc the ac was out. Sweating is of course a symptom of panic as well. This is a fun parallel, bc a*a wants ac more than anything bc she then doesn’t have to face eddie’s underlying issues with her. they could just keep pretending together.
Eddie: Ana. Ana, stop - We need to talk.
Again, nope. We have to deal with this. A nice parallel. This breakup is mirroring eddie’s behavior during the talk with buck. He avoided that conversation and buck gently insisted. A*a avoided their conversation and eddie gently insisted.
Ana: Those four words.
She’s facing it, with salt.
Eddie: Maybe we should sit down?
Eddie wants to be good about it and create a solid space to have this conversation but a*a is struggling, understandably, bc she is more invested than eddie.
Ana: Why? You’re fine. You aren’t gonna pass out of anything. Your heart rate is not going up?
She knows about the panic and her role in it, but she’s avoidant and also sad/angry.
Eddie: What do you mean?
Stop. Pretending. eddie, are you seriously clueless that she’s NOT clueless??? I mean maybe...go off I guess.
Note that at this point, eddie scrunches his face and turns a little red. He honestly thought he was hiding something. I think he IS hiding “””something””” deep personal and meaningful to him, but it’s not really quite the aversion to a*a/what she represents. That part isn’t what’s buried inside him, the real culprit is deeper than that.
Ana: You know what I mean.
At this point, eddie places his hands on hips and drops his head down. He has to grapple with her knowing at least a part of what he’s been trying to hide.
I don’t want you to…to panic when you think about me.
Eddie crosses his arms and leans on the fridge, and returns to full eye contact. He is facing a*a and what she represents, but with crossing his arms he’s closing himself off to something deeper and more difficult. He’s not ready to explore what’s beneath it all, what fuels the urge to pretend in the first place. He only want’s to deal with ending this particular instance of pretending for now (i.e., being with a*a).
Or when you think about a future with me. I can’t - I can’t take that.
She’s hurting and this breakup is long overdue.
Eddie: I thought it would work.
Eddie’s arms stay crossed when he starts speaking and he makes intermittent but natural eye contact. Again, he’s still guarding the deeper issues that made him “think it would work”. He’s avoiding the core of the lie/decision to pretend in the first place.
I did. The idea of us. Chris loves you so much. I just thought that -
This line is huge. The IDEA!! It’s common in relationships of all kinds to have ideas about what should and should not be, who and how we should and should not be, waiting to feel something, waiting to not feel something, figuring things out. Eddie realized (thanks to buck) that chris’s love of a*a wasn’t enough to make eddie himself love her.
He’s not the same guy he was when he did mostly THE SAME THING with sh*nnon after she got pregnant and they decided to get married. I don’t doubt that eddie loved sh*nnon but there was always an excessive struggle within that love that had lots to do with who each of them was as a person and what they wanted/needed from each other.
Honestly, I don’t think repressed queer desires (which don’t necessarily have to have always been there, bc sometimes people just discover queer love!) on eddie’s part were their only problem in that marriage. Remember, eddie and sh*nnon never had trouble falling into bed, they had trouble being fully emotionally present with each other and true partners! They also had eddie’s sense of duty and the pressure to be a “provider” looming over them.
Ana: That eventually you would too?
She gets that eddie was faking it until he made it...but he never made it and now he has to fess up and end things.
Eddie: I should have said something sooner.
Eddie feels guilty about holding onto the relationship as he realized that it was not going to work. During this line, eddie sounds choked up and his eyes are a little damp. Again, the hints of guilt.
Ana: You probably should have.
A*a wishes eddie had spared her all this. At this point, eddie breaks eye contact and looks down into the space in front of him. He wishes the same thing.
Well I’m sorry about the mess,
She’s literally talking about the kitchen but symbolically talking about eddie himself. Again, a*a knows things got worse for eddie in many ways when they started dating. 
During this line, eddie breathes out and closes his eyes. He’s noticeably uncomfortable and maybe still feeing that guilt. Eddie had been trying to hide the messiness of his real/deep feelings, and was succeeding for a little while. But when a*a came along with notions of ready-made family the lid was blown off of the deeper stuff. I’m hoping we get more into eddie’s “mess” over the course of the season. 
but I guess it’s your mess now, right?
A*a wanted to help but couldn’t, and eddie doesn’t want her (to) anyway so she’s out. During a*a’s line, eddie looked away and honestly seemed uneasy in his own skin. Now he has to actually look at the deeper issues and feelings bc a*a isn’t their to distract from those anymore!
Eddie: Yeah, I guess it is.
He knows this mess is his but doesn’t want it. He kinda still wishes this mess wasn’t a thing he had to deal with. Like you do. Here eddie still looks  uncomfortable, but manages eye contact again at the end of the moment. I think the eye contact signals that he really doesn’t blame her for anything. He know’s he was at fault, to the degree that this is something you would blame on someone. Honestly to me it just feels like growing pains. Staying would have been the real cruelty, breaking up is far better.
Ana: You’re an amazing father.
She knows that eddie is 100% invested in chris and puts chris first as much as he can, and she knows that he originally did all of this for chris. This feels like it’s part of her process of forgiving him for not saying anything sooner. At this point in the dialogue, eddie doesn’t respond to her touch on his arm, he remains closed off, guarding and protecting something.
I’m gonna - I’m gonna go say goodbye to him.
During this line eddie breaks eye contact again. He’s aware that he’s separating chris from someone chris likes.
Adios, Edmundo.
This part was SO INTERESTING TO ME. OMG! Here eddie accepted the face touch from a*a but his left cheek TWITCHED in the wake of it. He also accepted the cheek kiss too but exactly like it was from an IDEA, a distant concept that was dying away just beyond the reach of his desire. It was GLORIOUS! Ryan crushed that whole exchange.
Whew, yall. This season is crazy in terms of Buddie and we’re only three eps in!
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firemblem-fics · 4 years ago
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SFW alphabet. | felix
-> Pairing: Felix x GN!Reader
-> Warnings: None
-> Genre: Fluff, Headcanons
-> A/N: i felt bad for spamming y’all with all kinds of asks and apparently drama or whatever the hell happened earlier so i decided to try my hand at the sfw alphabet, for felix since y’all go batshit feral for him. if all goes well, i may open up requests for them for my 1.2k special. but i def wouldn’t do the entire alfabit for one character this took me so long. also i’m at 1145 tho y’all so don’t request anything please-
warning, long post.
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A -> Affection (How affectionate are they? How do they give affection?)
felix really isn’t that affectionate, even after being in a relationship for a long time. he prefers to show his love through acts of service like me but the occasional hug and kiss is never unwanted
if felix does give affection, it’s small and subtle. holding your pinky as you walk through the monastery halls, resting his hand on your thigh underneath the dining table, those kinds of things. even if you’re cuddling at night, it’s the small circles he rubs into your back and the gentle kisses he peppers on your forehead.
B -> Beginning (How would the relationship start?)
you would 100% be the person to start it. felix would quite literally never do it. he wasn’t even sure that what he was feeling was romantic until you confessed to him and his heart leaped ten feet in the air
it starts slowly- you’re felix’s first relationship. he’s afraid to mess things up, so he’s going to test the waters and move at a pace that both you and he are comfortable with
C -> Cuddles (Do they like to cuddle? How would they cuddle?)
like the affection hc, felix isn’t a big cuddler. it’s rare for him to initiate, and he only will after a long day. at night, while he’s asleep, he may unconsciously wrap an arm around your waist and pull you closer, but often times cuddling just involves an arm around you as the two of you sit in the knights hall
D -> Domestic (Do they want to settle down? How good are they at cooking and cleaning?)
felix never really considered his future before he met you. he wants to settle down with you, trust me, but it’s not really the biggest thing on his mind at the moment. after the war and after the dust has settled and life is back in order, he’ll consider it
felix does his fair share of housework. he believes that in relationships, you do equal amounts and he will always do his part. even if it takes him a while to learn how to cook
E -> Ending (If they had to break up with their partner, how would they do it?)
unfortunately, felix would be extremely cold to you. chances are, he broke things off because he feels like he’s a danger to you or is afraid of not being able to protect you, so he breaks things off to avoid getting attached
he won’t look at you at all afterwards. he won’t talk to you, be in the same room as you, or anything. he’s all nonchalant on the outside, but is definitely hurting as much as you are on the inside
F -> Fiancé(e) (How do they feel about commitment? Would they get married?)
you actually asked him this
felix is good with staying committed to you. he’s very very good at it. he only has eyes for you and it’s easy to keep trust in him because you’re honestly really surprised he agreed to even be in a relationship in the first place. not that you’re complaining ofc
marriage is a yes. he’s going to propose to you, but not now or in the near future. there’s a war to win
G -> Gentle (How gentle are they, both physically and emotionally?)
felix is afraid of hurting you. physically and emotionally. he knows that he gets angry often and it’s one of his biggest goals to never snap at you the way he does others. it’s hard to do- containing his snarky comments- but he’ll work on it for you
H -> Hugs (Do they like hugs? How often do they do it? What are their hugs like?)
his hugs are pure safety. every embrace is a silent promise that felix will always be there to protect you. the hugs strong and solid and so full of love, especially when he squeezes you a little tighter before having to let go. even he enjoys them because he gets to have you close
because he doesn’t show affection often, felix’s hugs are extra special. they happen whenever you’re reunited after a fight, or if either of you have an injury and give the other a scare. they’re a reassurance to him that you’re still there, alive and loving him
I -> I Love You (How fast do they say the L-word?)
just like the confession, you’ve gotta say it first. felix will internally panic about messing it up or saying it at the wrong time or you not reciprocating, so he won’t say it first.
felix isn’t one for words of affirmation or affection. he’s not going to say it unless it’s in the heat of the moment
J -> Jealousy (How jealous do they get? What do they do when they’re jealous?)
felix doesn’t get jealous easily. except around dimitri, but that’s another story. he trusts you to stay loyal and everyone knows that your his anyways, so he doesn’t worry. if they try anything, he’ll kill them
often, it’s just throwing insults at dimitri. he just doesn’t think that a Boar should be talking to such a perfect being such as you, but also because he’s quite aware of dimitri’s attractiveness and sometimes feels a little intimidated in the looks department. but he’ll never tell you that.
K -> Kisses (What are their kisses like? Where do they like to kiss you? Where do they like to be kissed?)
passionate. loving. full of emotion. every time felix kisses you, there’s just this flowing warmth in your chest and you can never stop the grin from etching itself on your face. felix isn’t as stingy with kisses as he is hugs and such, giving small pecks to you as greetings and goodbyes, or just little rewards throughout the day for a good day training or something
felix likes to kiss you on your forehead. he does it every time he’s got you wrapped up in an embrace, as if placing a little promise on your head that he will always love you.
he’s a traditional man, though. he wants to be kissed on the lips. he’ll never ever ever get tired of the feeling of your lips against his, sending sparks through his body every time.
L -> Little Ones (How are they around children?)
felix is so incredibly awkward. children love him to death, often flocking around him to hear tales of fights or just to watch him train, their little mouths slackjawed in awe as they aspired to be like him when they grew up
he never knows what to do when one clings themselves to his leg in a hello hug. the angel on his shoulder says to allow it, but the devil on the other side says to punt the kid across the courtyard. luckily he’s got enough self control to not.
M -> Mornings (How are mornings spent with them?)
felix is an early bird, much to your dismay. he wakes up at the crack of dawn to train before breakfast, but he always gives you a kiss goodbye and makes sure that you’re comfy and happy before leaving
on the mornings that you convince him to stay in for a while, which is rare, he doesn’t fall back asleep. instead, he just watches you as you doze off again, holding you close to him. he’s much softer when you’re not awake enough to tease him
N -> Nights (How are nights spent with them?)
felix lays on his back and you curl into his side, laying your head against his bare chest. silently, you trace your fingers against the scars on his torso and he writes sweet nothings on the skin of your arm, lulling you into a blissful sleep.
O -> Open (When would they start revealing things about themselves? Do they say everything all at once or wait a while to reveal things slowly?)
felix would never fully open himself up really. it’s just you being able to remember things that he did tell you and piecing them together. it’s not that he doesn’t trust you enough to tell you, it’s just that he’s not one to talk about things. you respect that, of course.
P -> Patience (How easily angered are they?)
as we all know, felix is quick to anger. he still is with others, but he’s really working on it when it comes to you. sometimes, he just gets worried about your well-being and his anxiety shows itself through anger, so small arguments often happen when you’re reckless or not taking care of yourself
he’s trying super hard to work on his communication skills so that he never upsets you with his outbursts again. he has his slip ups, but now that he’s able to verbally apologize, things get solved quicker.
Q -> Quizzes (How much would they remember about you? Do they remember every little detail you mention in passing, or do they kind of forget everything?)
felix remembers everything, even if he doesn’t show it. he may seem extremely uninterested in the necklace you pointed out at the market after you dragged him shopping, but he’s making a mental note to come back later that day and buy it for you
R -> Remember (What’s their favorite moment in your relationship?)
felix’s favorite moment was when you first met his father. as rude as he is to his dad, he genuinely cares about him and his opinions. his father absolutely adored you and immediately told felix that you were the one. he agreed.
S -> Security (How protective are they? How would they protect you? How would they like to be protected?)
it’s felix. hes protective. there’s a line to be crossed between protective and possessive and he just barely tip toes that line. he’d destroy anyone who bothered you if you asked
on the other hand, felix doesn’t like to actually be protected. it makes him feel weak and vulnerable, so he’d prefer it if you weren’t too overbearing with it. he does think it’s hot if you get protective over him when it comes to some girl flirting with him though
T -> Try (How much effort would they put into dates, anniversaries, gifts, etc?)
it depends on what your preferences are. if you’re okay with laid back dates and casual things, then he would be too. if you liked more grandeur, he’d try his hardest to make it perfect. goddess forbid anyone see him doing it, though
U -> Ugly (What would be some bad habits of theirs?)
closing himself off. felix isn’t used to being vulnerable or open with people. hes been through copious amounts of trauma that he can’t just get over in a day, so there are still bad days where he’s not going to want to talk about his feelings or talk to anyone at all. it’s best to just let him train that day and bring him his meals. he’ll eat them, and will be super grateful that you’re still there for him, even if it’s just for a second to bring food.
V -> Vanity (How concerned are they with their looks? Do your looks bother them?)
felix does not care about this at all. he’s usually an advocate of the “fuck what other people think” mentality, even if he’s not too good at following it himself, and that’s going to carry into your relationship. he loves you for yourself, no matter what
W -> Whole (Would they feel incomplete without you?)
felix would tell himself that he’d be fine with or without an s/o, but he does feel a little empty when you’re not around. the days that you two may have to spend apart due to busy schedules mean that those nights are a little more tender than usual
X -> Xtra (A random headcanon of them.)
felix’s ideal date isn’t training, like people say it would be. yeah, it’s nice to train with you, but if you don’t want that to be a date then it won’t be. he’d much rather just a chill day where the two of you are curled up on a couch or in the bed, talking and eating snacks or reading in silence
Y -> Yuck (What are some things they wouldn’t like, in general or with a partner?)
felix wouldn’t like someone who’s nosy or pushy. he’s got a lot of boundaries and it’s a big deal to him when they’re crossed. he wants to be able to talk and be comfortable on his own time, not someone else’s. please be patient with him.
Z -> Zzz (What is a sleep habit of theirs? Does it change around a partner?)
felix is a kicker. you don’t know if it’s just his insanely acute battle instincts trying to get someone out of his bed or what, but you once woke up with a huge bruise on your calf from his heel. you didn’t tell him that he kicked you, though, because then he’d feel bad
this doesn’t really change at first, but the longer the two of you sleep together the less severe the kicks become. other than the occasional horse kick that nearly knocks you off the bed.
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illfoandillfie · 3 years ago
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Okay babe, two top fives, top five my fics and top five your fics (including blurbs)
Okay okay okay after a lot of thought (and a lot of time being distracted re-reading things kshksdkfksd) I think I have my answers:
Your Fics:
1. To Do List
im sorry im just whore about it like....Ben + face fucking + open blinds + calling me a whore? he's right and he should say it i think about this fic constantly
2. Feel Good
Listen....I've been into pedro since I he was in game of thrones but i entirely blame you for just how much i love him now skdskjfncksjds and i will never get tired your Thots about his hands.
3. At First Glance
Ma'am you need to finish this! i love the relationships between all of the characters so much and especially reader and rog the slow burn is ugh so good and fun and i want them to just admit they like each other already dammit! (altho i know they're not There yet but cmon)
4. Voulez-Vous Rendezvous
Ummmm Gwil and edging and cockwarming? Like wtf girl!!! I'm feral.
5. Part of the Deal
Gonna round this out with more dom ben because uhhhhhhhh well im whore sljksjfkfjksdjkj and also you write him so goooood
(Shout out to the blurb about trying to be quiet with Gwil and also fucking dad rog in a pillow fort lmao)
My Fics: (it should be noted that im fucking deep in my ben feels atm so while i tried to keep it fairly balanced in who i chose, i think i failed that lmao)
1. A Different Kind of Education
Listen. This series is so much work and takes so long to write and its becoming longer than i intended but I fucking love it. I love professor Rog sm. I love exploring all these kinks and I love writing reader's progress in understanding dom/sub dynamics and ugh i love how into it everyone is and all the comments and stuff ya'll leave its fucking wonderful.
2. 5 Simple Rules For A Successful Fake Relationship
Another long series but I reread part of it the other night and like....its good? sfkjskjflakd Also im a sucker for soft benny
3. Platonically
This probably doesnt come as a surprise lmao this series is obvi v personal to me and I love writing about this QPR. Just two idiots being bffs and fucking lmao thats the dream.
4. Ben being into dollification
It's a struggle to narrow down my faves because of the sheer number of things i've written lmao but I don't think I can ignore ben with a doll kink shdkjkajhfaksl i think its p obvious by now that the idea of being treated like a toy to be used is something im Very into so adding ben into it all makes me very tingly skjksfjslds
5. Fairy AU
idk if this series is one that would stay in my top 5 but atm it defs is ksjdksksdjks i've reread it ummm a few times lately 😳 the whole dubcon thing....being coerced/forced....hhhhhhhhhh
(shout outs to extreme bondage daddy rog and In A Rich Man's World because i love rich asshole ben talking down to me)
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ao3gingerswag · 4 years ago
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Characters! Sam and/or Mary and/or Claire
So I’m not gonna do Mary cause um confession time I have only seen SPN fully thru season 8 and like. Parts of the later seasons, with less and less as time went on….The writing just started to get too all over the place for me. So I know nothing about Mary really.
Sam:
How I feel about this character
Love Sam. Love him love him love him. He doesn’t get enough attention in this fandom he’s so angry and feral in early seasons and I LOVE him for that. I think the writers kinda….lost sight of what they were doing with him post season 5, and especially post season 8, and I think it’s connected to how they framed John and the narrative. Like a lot of Sam’s character in the early seasons is framed around this conflict he has with Dean about whether or not John is a piece of shit and whether they should just follow him blindly. And his complicated hero worship vs pity vs resentment relationship with Dean was a big part of his personality. And then post season 5 they kind of backed off that entire conflict? And so much of Sam’s personality was forgotten. But I still love him tho, he’s so valid, I love his anger in the early seasons at John and in defense of Dean and I think he’s the only reason Dean didn’t end up completely beaten down by his dad.
All the people I ship romantically with this character
Eileen/Sam!!!! Eileen is the only one I reeeaaally ship with Sam. A lot of fics (esp before Eileen was introduced) had him with Jess (including mine), and that’s fine, but tbh we never actually got to know Jess soooo don’t have strong feelings. Then with Ruby, she was SUCH a fun character but like, ya know, evil. Like I do actually think she cared about Sam in her own fucked up way but like. They brought out the worst in each other lol. So I’ll pass.
My non-romantic OTP for this character
Uhhh Dean obviously lol!!!! In my perfect SPN ending Dean Cas Sam Eileen Jack Claire and maybe their other friends too live together in the bunker forever. Found family baby!!! My asexual ass loves how much Dean and Sam mean to each other and how they seem to take for granted that they will always live together. If only the real world was more like that ;~; But yeah it’s kinda a pet peeve of mine when in Desitiel fics people either just ignore Sam or just kinda have him around but he’s not like. Really around. Like excuse me??? Sam and Dean are Bros 4 Life!!!!
My unpopular opinion about this character
Sam is more interesting than Dean. Like I love Dean and he’s my favorite but Sam is like soooo complicated and so interesting!!! Like this kid who grew up knowing that something was Wrong with him. His hunter upbringing vs society, his desire for normal vs the rest of his family, and then just the Knowledge deep down that something is really Wrong aka the demon blood. And then he has all this anger with nowhere to go, he can see clearer than Dean how fucked up their lives are and how awful John is but he can’t convince Dean bc Dean’s too brainwashed and ack!!! I feel like he has always felt so guilty for going to Stanford and felt so guilty then too bc he knew he was basically abandoning Dean to John, who would just continue to abuse and beat him down. But he Could Not convince Dean to wake up and smell the abuse so he left without him bc what else was he supposed to do??? But he’s still fucked up about it. He’s so interesting. All twisted up inside ;~; I love him!
On a less serious note, another unpopular opinion I guess is that Sam and Cas would def be friends but bc of the boring aspects of their personalities?? Like I’ve seen a lot of stuff about them being besties bc they both r crazy and they ARE but like. I see them bonding over ecological justice and academic articles about ancient Aramaic etymology lol. Like they’d go to the farmers market together!!! They would very earnestly consider together which plants would be best to plant in their garden to help the local bee population!!!! And like Dean is a dork and loves both of them but like. If the three of them got drunk together Sam and Cas would get caught up in a very passionate debate about the benefits/drawbacks of different kinds of green energy and Dean would fall asleep.
One thing I wish would happen / had happened with this character in canon.
He should have gotten to run John over with his car. Ok but no forreal, I wish he’d had his anger at John validated. This is connected to how I feel about Dean but I wish Dean had explicitly grown past his hero worship of John and understood that he was abusive, and I wish he’d apologized to Sam for defending John throughout their childhoods. That would have been so great for both of them ;~;
Claire:
How I feel about this character
Ohhhh my god ummmm. U know how I said I didn’t watch past season 8 and only saw parts of the later seasons? Yeah um the vast majority of those parts are scenes with Claire in them. Her character has been the thing that came closest to getting me to watch the later seasons. She is So Fucking Cool. Honestly even besides her character, as like a rule I just LOVE it when SPN forces the characters to Actually Confront The Results Of Their Actions for real. Like morally I guess but also just practically like one of my fave episodes is where they get trapped at the bank by the FBI in like season 3 bc like!!!!! Consequences!!! To murdering all over the country!!!! So back to Claire I already just love the idea of having the characters have to Deal With this girl who’s life they fucked up and then forgot about. But then she is SOOO COOOL gay and dramatic and angsty ugh I love how she’s like actually a teen, she acts like a teen, like she rolls her eyes and is overdramatic and shit. Fucking awesome u funky little lesbian.
All the people I ship romantically with this character
Kaia/Claire. I don’t know a lot about Kaia but she’s very pretty and seems very sweet. I saw the scene where the two of them compare scars and it was so cute. In other news I have no idea if they’re canon or not I can’t tell lol.
My non-romantic OTP for this character
I didn’t watch the later seasons but I love the Claire and Jack content being produced now!! But I also love her relationship with Dean Sam and Cas. They’re very cute with her! :) Love how she seems to reluctantly grow fond of them over time. <3
My unpopular opinion about this character
Unpopular opinion ummm…maybe this is more about Dean but I don’t think Dean would be like happy to help her be a hunter?? Like he hates kid hunters he says that a bunch of times. I think she was on her murder hunting thing when she was filled with rage but I think she could be nudged away from hunting once she stops hating Cas, and I think all the adults but esp Dean would be very pro convincing-Claire-not-to-be-a-hunter.
One thing I wish would happen / had happened with this character in canon.
Ok this prompted me to google if Claire and Kaia were together and I’m still confused. Seems like if they were it wasn’t made that explicit?? So I wish she got to kiss Kaia on screen!!
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satanfemme · 5 years ago
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ok. explain 2 me. what is good about val velocititty. what are his redeeming personality traits or whatever i actually want to know
ok so this is something I’ve talked about before at length 
BASICALLY the argument I usually make is that Val wasn’t a bad person or at least not any worse than the rest of the V’s. TL:DR run down of that is this (feel free to skip this section if u read all of that post I linked lmao) :
1. He’s canonically the only killjoy who doesn’t believe in the phoenix witch and therefor sees death as a finality. when volume dies it’s literally pointed out that he’s the only one who’s actually upset about that. volume’s death/the nest exploding then clearly become traumatic events to him2. When he did things like kill Dr. D that was out of paranoia where he *genuinely* thought he was killing the person responsible for the nest exploding/many of his friends dying2. The rest of the V’s totally supported him when he killed people so like?? If ur gonna hate him for shooting that rando for target practice then at least hate vinyl too for also doing that? jkfghkjdf 4. Then when he did do objectively bad things like say “oh we should kill everyone in the city” A. he was only doing what he saw as the best course of action to keep everyone safe from bl/i and B. literally all the other killjoys (except like cherri) were on board with that shit too lmao
all of that being said tho!!! you asked for redeeming personality traits. so ok!!!! enough apologism, here’s some reasons in no particular order why you shouldn’t just not-hate him but why he is fun and likable too:
1. Mean and Gay, literally maybe it’s just me but I just think it’s so fun that he’s mean and gay. like??? everyone on this site is always gushing over their “feral” and “unhinged” favs well ok!! I don’t really want to call val velocity unhinged cause that feels kinda disrespectful but... u know... gay rights!
2. Ok also genuinely he did actually care so much about people and doing the right thing to keep them safe??? even though he did a SHIT job at it and didn’t alway show it like verbally, it’s literally stated in canon that he was trying to “keep the desert the free and peaceful place it once was” and I mean??? just look at the speech he gave at the end of issue two:
“There’s nothing left. BLI just come and take it. If the people of Bat City knew what they do out here to make it safer in there… we can show them the corpses. We can show them the rubble that was once our home. We call ourselves killjoys after a group of failures. We can do better. We will do better.” (the speech then continues into the whole “lets destroy the city” thing, but let’s just skate over that 4 now jfkhg)
like bro??? I????? I love him so muc h fghldfjhg like literally what part of that reads as anything other than a hurt man trying to suggest a way to end the constant deaths of his family and destruction of his home, cause like?? TBH!! he has a point, the fab four didn’t really stop all the death and whatever the killjoys were doing between 2027 and 2039 wasn’t stopping the death either. The desert is under like this constant attack and the nest getting blown up was def a bigger deal than usual but still like it wasn’t unusual?? the idea of doing something new and different so that bli would just stop destroying everything/everyone they care about was like a really good idea and I think it’s just so extremely cool of him to be the one to go “no, fuck this, I don’t want to watch any more of my friends die” and then try to be the hero, like sir I’m love u
3. He also just looks really cool. like listen u want a list of likable traits??? ok: sexy as hell. designer jacket and vampire necklace??? his X mask??? lmao case closed, next.
4. Sometimes he’s a little dumb but also sometimes …. he’s low key smart. Low wisdom, high intelligence. Like, bastard was the leader of a killjoy gang for an undisclosed amount of time and Then became the leader of a whole army of loyal killjoys, like he wasn’t stupid!! 
I’m trying to think of good examples of his intelligence but like? honestly the best example I can think of is when they get to the city and the girl surrenders for everyone. He doesn’t blow up at her or even any of the scarecrows or anything he was just kinda like “this is ur plan?” and the girl was like “yeah trust me” and then presumably he did… like idk that was just a v humanizing moment for him imo? like he’s Not some mindless antagonist like a lot of people seem to believe, he knows what he’s doing and when to just let things play out, I can’t imagine a lot of fanon interpretations of him would just allow surrender like that especially surrender as orchestrated by the girl but! literally canon peak-unhinged val is doing that! bitches got braincells!! just something to note.
Wait also I just remembered another example of him having braincells: he was correct that there was a spy? even if it wasn’t dr. d specifically he did actually figure that out part of the way, and ofc he’s not gonna guess it’s the fcking cat who’s the spy jfgdfjkglk like?
ANYWAY I can’t think of any more things to list off the top of my head but that’s that on that: he literally was just going to extremes to protect his loved ones and he was trying v hard to be the hero he was just not very good at executing that. I rest my case.
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mego42 · 5 years ago
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best of brio hitlist: 1x09
G O D I forgot how good this episode is. It has it all: comedy, drama, feeeeeeeelings, superb editing, top notch soundtrack choices, ridiculous misunderstandings that could’ve been cleared up with a 45-second conversation and saved everyone involved a lot of trouble. 
It’s also funny jumping to it straight from 1x06 because I can confirm, Beth and Rio’s proximal intelligence has noticeably dropped. The war for the brain cell is beginning. 
Since when does the Boland back yard include a gigantic playhouse I stfg that wasn’t there for whatshisface’s birthday like 3 episodes ago does this house exist in a wormhole is it a tardis I understand nothing
Annie: 😢 Eddie likes Mexican food
Ruby: We are crossing a li—
Beth: Cross it, I’m too pretty for jail
Number of flannels Annie wears this ep: 1
Number of girlfriends Annie has this ep: 0
🙃
I will forgive them however for the delightful I live here/kinda, it’s my house/kinda exchange in which Annie roasts Dean without even trying
I don’t really have much to say about this Rio scene beyond I am v sad that he has traded in his hoodies and honestly it’s no wonder he fires them later after this embarrassing do we or don’t we have a problem display
UGH GOD THE HILLS AND NELLY ARE THE TRUE SHOW OTP what cuties what perfection I love them so gd much
“If a bug has six legs it’s?” “Disgusting” Annie says, staring Dean down
S1!!!!!!! WAS!!!!!!!!! GOD TIER!!!!!!!!!!!
Violently detest the way Beth goes all gooey at Dean believing she’ll have a stash too it’s obscene and I reject it
“You’re starting to forget” “I’m not” “Then you’re starting to forgive him which is way worse”
ANNIE IS RIGHT AND SHE SHOULD SAY IT
“No? But it’s hot in here”
The way Reno delivers that line kills me every!!! single!!!! time!!!!!
I say every single time bc every time I watch this ep I rewatch the stoned Stan and Ruby scenes at least 11 times
Including this time
We have had two pooping Annie moments this episode and I don’t understand why or what it means
“For most people it’s 91%” “For you it was zero”
AN UNDERRATED GEM Retta’s delivery is 😘👌
UGH I LOVE THE TRUCK MONTAGE SO MUCH!!!!! The struts!!! The soundtrack!!! The editing!!!!! It’s so fun????!!!!?? The three trucks is absolutely ridiculous and you know they thought they were the shit for coming up with it
And then the cop pulling up behind Beth???? The way the music transitions?????????? I feel it in my stomach every time
OH GOD AND THEN BETH GIVING THEM A RUN DOWN OF HER KIDS LIVES SO RUBY AND ANNIE CAN TAKE CARE OF THEM
(Dean is literally worthless)
Beth: I’m probably going to jail so if I only leave you with one thing, just know that my husband sucks
I like that Rio pops his collar as he walks into the break-up scene
I know it’s probably the show’s increasingly sad and despondent attempts to acknowledge that Detroit has weather, but I like to also thing he’s doing it for The Aesthetic and his version of Beth adjusting her coat to show off her cleavage in 309
OOOOOFFF the keys
Gnnnyyyuugghhhh h a n d 
E L I Z A B E T H
Serious question: did anyone at any point actually think the Rio was a threat here? I can’t tell how much it’s my shipping goggles welded to my face and how much I’m supposed to be reading it as Beth as leaping to justified but still unfounded conclusions but I’ve never actually thought that Rio actually would’ve killed the girls to tie up a loose end at this point
You know, if that is actually true and he weren’t so hellbent on being infuriating and mysterious and he’d told her one way or another, he could’ve saved himself a world of shit
COMMUNICATION WHAT A CONCEPT
“He just looked at me funny”
On the other hand, oh my god, honestly Beth????
The Blanket Me montage remains the best musical montage on the entire show
I cannot tell you how many times I’ve listened to this song since I first saw this scene
I am absolutely fcking feral for the juxtaposition of the lyrics and the calendar Beth’s making and the fact that it’s pinterested tf out
ABSOLUTELY FCKING FERAL
If Ruby and “I mean….how was it??” is my favorite show moment than this is my second favorite
I can’t even fully explain why I love it so much it just gets me right in my soft spot
AND ANNIE FILLING UP BEN’S VOICEMAIL
(I love annie and gregg so much I can’t help it I am who I am, their banter is unparalleled)
RUBY AND STAN  AND THE CALL
In all seriousness, s1 really is god tier, the poignancy of these scenes is a lot
Also the costuming, Ruby’s white coat is ��
who is this random older girl child who are the Boland kids I don’t understand this house or family at all and it haunts me
Beth’s good guys speech as much sense as Rio’s flipping my game speech 
Disappointed in Ruby and Annie for eventually  pretending they get it
Turning Rio in has nothing to do with good guys and bad guys and has everything to do about Beth being scared bc she came to a conclusion that may or may not have been based in anything 
(Don’t get me wrong, if Rio wasn’t a threat to her he 100000% should have told her that and I wouldn’t be surprised if he was a threat or hadn’t decided if he was or wasn’t yet)
(But like, he looked at me funny????????? Not a good enough reason to blow up someone’s life)
See my 1x06 note about Beth being the product of her teacher
My main takeaway from this episode is this is the show at its best, this entire ep was superbly put together. It def makes my top 10 list, possibly top 5
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ajokeformur-ray · 4 years ago
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Hiii again. I figured that submit option would be easier for this. ^^ 
I love your matchups, they’re so accurate and thought through.❤️ Can I have one too? My name’s Emily, I have blue hair and blue “husky” eyes, got two tattoos and plan to have more, I’m very pale and I hate people saying things like “you look like a ghost, go get a tan” I usually dress like a witch, but sometimes i doll myself up as a pinup girl to feel pretty.I’m autistic, depressed, have ADHD & ptsd (nice combo, ha?^^) I’m also sarcastic, reserved and have a dark sense of humor.I’m oversensitive to lights and noises. I don’t like being hugged or touched by strangers, but once i get comfortable with someone I transform into their koala.^^ My life is a bit messy, I try to do tasks on time and remember important things, but it’s hard. I have two kids cats, Lilith I found under the bridge and Harold in woods. I’m a big spooky fun, I love horror movies and Halloween. I like drawing (my arts are creepy tho, def not for everyone to see), playing guitar, singing, reading books, running and walking in the woods. I’m interested in psychology & astrophysics and I love when people want me to teach them something. I can’t live without music and my cats. @dont-be-alarmed
Hi, my love! 💙 Thank you so much, I spend a lot of time on matchups and it means a lot that you, one of my favourite writers, find them accurate! I hope this one lives up to your kind words and that you enjoy it! 💜 (I’m happy to redo it if not, angel!) I wanted to give back to you after all you’ve ever done for me and for this community, and so I went on your other blog and scrolled through; I found a post about yourself and Arthur and I’ve tried to incorporate pieces of that in here to make it as… emotionally you as I could. I hope that you don’t mind! 💚
Total word count: 3, 785.
Arthur // wc: 1, 755.
Arthur is… completely in awe of you. You caught his attention due to your bright blue hair; such a vibrant colour in the grimy streets of Gotham which are made up of much the same; grey concrete, grey walls, grey buildings, grey sky, is unusual and eye-catching. Arthur wants to be seen and he admires the courage you possess in having such a hair colour. And your eyes, oh… It’s canon that Arthur likes to touch people’s cheeks and he holds people’s faces in his hands, and when sea green meet your blues, the entire world stops and Arthur can only sink into you; for if eyes are windows to the soul then surely yours is radiant. You’re not afraid to paint the blank canvas which is your body and Arthur likes to trace your tattoos with a careful finger, his lips moving silently as he thinks to himself; he wants to know if there are stories behind them, why you got them, how badly they hurt, what they mean to you… if the mind is an ocean then Arthur wants to dive right into yours and discover your murkiest depths now. But he holds back; he doesn’t want to ruin what he’s building with you, and so every day when he discovers something new does he only fall deeper and deeper in love with you. You’re very pale and people are quick to point it out. If it happens in front of Arthur, he’s quick to frown, “Don’t say things like that to her, Emily’s perfect just as she is!”. He won’t tell people off when they say bad things about him, but about you? He has to stop himself from going feral and he contents himself with snapping at them or, if it’s something which is truly nasty, Arthur gives them such a look it’s like he’s trying to kill them without even touching them. His knees will bounce and he’ll giggle around his cigarette, but he’ll only be concerned for you. Arthur would do anything for you. No matter what you were, Arthur always compliments you sincerely; his voice soft and raspy because he’s barely able to speak through the rising laughing in his throat. Such is the effect you have on him.  
You and Arthur have so much in common. Sometimes when you talk to each other, it’s like you’re talking to yourself but you’re hearing it in a different voice. You have shared many experiences and there’s so much about Arthur which exists within yourself; you are both so worthy of love and you are both capable of being loved for exactly who you are, and in the early days first of friendship (though you begin to date quickly, both of you so eager to discover what may exist between you),  you mostly bond together over your shared dark sense of humour. Over the weeks which bleed into months, Arthur’s comedy material becomes more tailored to your sense of humour; for what you find funny and making you smile means more to him than anyone else. He could have a crowd at Pogo’s captivated but your smile would be the only one which he has eyes for. The both of you are so tried and tired, so weary and you’ve both been through so much more than people should ever have to go through, but you help each other and you’re there for each other as much as you can be every single day. You’re over sensitive to lights and to noises so when you’re out in public together, Arthur keeps a close eye on you. He learns the signs for when it’s becoming too much and the two of you talk often; late night discussions with dimmed lamps and a turned down volume on the TV, and the two of you learn how to help each other and how to be more open together. It’s a shared journey, this love between you, and it’s once in a lifetime. Neither of you could ever want this with anyone else. Arthur was almost shocked by the difference in you from when he first met you to when you became comfortable with him and all the ways in which you showed affection changed and became more intimate, but he takes it as a compliment. You’re so comfortable with him and he cherishes that information above anything else. He’s just as comfortable with you, and he tries to show you every single day the depths of the love which he holds for you.  
Your life is as messy as Arthur’s is busy, but the two of you make it work as best as you can. You do your best to remember important things but it’s hard, and for everything you forget is Arthur there to remind you. Sometimes he has to leave the apartment before you so he’ll leave a quickly scrawled note taped to the front door in big letters so you can see it even from a distance, or he’ll make sure that you’ve got everything ready in the same place, like right next to or on top of your shoes so they can’t be forgotten. Your two kitties, Lilith and Harold, are doted upon by yourself and by Arthur. He had always wanted a pet, someone or something to come home to whom was happy to see him, and now he has three beings who love him: you, Lilith and Harold. The fact that you rescued both of your children shows the true depths of your heart and Arthur’s in awe of you. He adores watching you interact with them. It always makes him coo and the ice in his heart which is left over from the day melts away and then evaporates completely at the touch of your hand and the sound of your voice. You love horror films and Hallowe’en and Arthur loves watching how excited you get when October rolls around! Carving pumpkins together, creating decorations and the jokes just get darker and more morbid… he comes to love the holiday as much as you do, though he’s not as fond of horror films as you are. Life is horrifying enough and if he wants to be scared, he’ll just watch the news - but when you’re more comfortable together and you’re his koala, he likes to cling to you and hide his face in your neck as a way of becoming closer to you. Arthur cherishes the few scant hours he gets with you every night. It’s yours and his favourite time of day and it only makes your daily hardships almost worth it.   
You are… extremely creative. Your writing is so descriptive and so vivid, your drawing is beautiful, you can sing, you play an instrument… music runs through your soul just as surely as it does within Arthur, and one night when Arthur was much too shy to tell you that he loved you, he instead said, “you are the music in me”. It’s an admission which, years later, still haunts you in the best way. If you ever let him read what you have written or view what you have created, though he may be creeped out, he would still compliment you sincerely and ask you some questions, wanting to see things through your beautiful blue eyes. If you’re open to the idea, Arthur would love to sit down and listen to you sing and play the guitar; and if you have ever written any songs for him, they would bring tears to his eyes and he would find himself choking down laughter. How can you love him this much? Just as much as you have become more open and kinder to yourself in loving Arthur, so has he because of your love, and the two of you walk hand in hand down the path of life together, leading each other into your better selves; such is the power of love. When you read, Arthur likes to write in his journal and the sounds of his scrawling are the perfect accompaniment to the sounds of your turning the pages of the book you cradle in the palm of your hands as surely as you hold Arthur’s heart in your hands. Though he never asks, Arthur would love to go with you on a walk through the woods. You can see it in his eyes sometimes, how desperately he wants to go with you, but he’s too afraid of rejection and too shy. When you come back from your running, the bathroom is all ready for you to have a shower, there are clean clothes out for you and dinner is ready. Arthur does everything he can to take the best care of you possible; for truly do you deserve nothing less than the best of everything in life. 
You’re interested in a variety of subjects and as a way to engage with you, for he so loves the way your eyes and face light up when you’re talking about the things you’re passionate about, Arthur would sit down with you and ask you questions. Even if he doesn’t fully understand what you’re talking about, especially with astrophysics, he still sits and he listens and Arthur engages with you. And if you have a hyperfixation, then he’s right there with you. He validates your interests and wants to know as much as you’re willing to share with him! It’s just another way for him to spend time with you, to get to know you, to tell you that he loves you. You’ve spent many a night talking the time away about your interests and you have so much in common that it’s unsurprising that you feel like you have known each other forever. Music and cats are your life and Arthur protects everything that he knows about you, because you mean the entire world to him and you deserve to know just how much he loves you! No matter where you go, what you do or who you become, Arthur loves you for all of you - he’s learned all the ways to help you through your various struggles, through the things which you go through (including the ones only you know about), and he does everything he can to help you, to love you the way that you deserve to be. Even when he’s so, so tired, the two of you pull each other through life with your joined hands, fingers interlocked… and neither of you will ever let go of the other.
Joker // wc: 2, 030.
By now,  you and Joker know each other like the backs of your hands. There isn’t much that you don’t know about each other, though of course is it impossible to ever really know someone in their entirety, so every day do you discover something new about one another which only makes you fall deeper in love with each other. Even though you know each other so well, Joker still finds himself wanting to completely dive into who you are to find out everything all at once; to view the tapestry of your life in its entirety without having to wait for the discovery of something else. He loves you so much it hurts him in the best way. Your name is Joker’s favourite word and he sometimes catches himself whispering it when he needs some extra strength or a reason to slow the rage in his veins, which threatens to poison his heart and turn his soul away from the goodness which still exists in his very core, unchanged is he deep inside himself where he is safest. You were there with Arthur through it all and you only loved him more as the man he was now. With your bright blue hair and Joker’s electric green hair, the two of you catch people’s attention when you’re out in public; Gothamites aren’t known for their courageous self expression, so wearied and beaten are they by the soulless and relentless demands of the city. The two of you like to redye your hair together; even if Joker’s hair has faded back into his naturally dark curls, he will wait for you to need to redye your hair. Joker dyes your hair and you dye his and the flecks of blue and green blend and merge together in the bathroom sink; Joker likes to get messy so green runs all down his back and pools into the waistband of his baggy underwear, and he ends up making more mess than you do. Joker adores your tattoos and he knows the reasons and stories behind them as well as you do and he gets excited when you talk about having more. Joker’s less forgiving now when people make comments about how pale you are, and he’s not afraid to narrow his eyes, his nostrils flaring slightly in anger, and fire back a few well-timed insults of his own. Whether you dress like a witch or as a pinup girl, Joker is in awe of you and sometimes he literally chokes on air because he’s just so stunned by you and all that you are; you’re so beautiful inside and out and he just can’t believe, even now, how lucky he is to be loved by you. 
Just because Joker gave up on his own mental health - he stopped taking his medications, he stopped taking care of himself and he stopped caring - it didn’t mean that he would ever allow you to do the same. Joker wanted nothing but the best for you and he would do anything he could for you. This, combined with the fact that Joker knows exactly how to support you and how to look after you when you need to be loved extra hard. Both of you are worthy of being loved for exactly who you are, and when you feel like you’re unwanted and not capable of being loved, Joker cradles you on his lap - your favourite seat - and  tucks your head into his chest, his heartbeat pounding in your ear to ground you and to calm you. He knows how to hold you, how to talk to you, how to comfort you, and he even knows how to ground himself and also you in the same touches. If anyone understands you and what you go through every single day, it’s Arthur, and that’s never been and would never be any different. You’re sarcastic and Joker enjoys playful banter between the two of you. He knows when you’re being sarcastic because you’re having fun and when you’re being sarcastic because your mood is low, but either way will Joker snap back. He enjoys swapping comments with you if that’s something you like to do, and by now his dark humour is perfectly tailored to your own. Of all the citizens in Gotham, your smile is the only one which matters and your laughter is the only one Joker closes his eyes to fully savour. You are Joker’s koala now and he loves every touch which you gift him with. Coming home to you is the absolute favourite part of Joker’s every day and sometimes he stays away for just a little longer so that he can get an extra enthusiastic hug or some clingy touches. You’re over sensitive to lights and noises and Joker is used to keeping the TV on a certain volume and to buying a certain type of light bulb so that the lamps are always dim enough for you. You are always Joker’s main priority and that will never be any different. You’re his entire world and when he cups your face in his hands to kiss you, he likes to say, “I’ve got the whole world in my hands, Emily. Look after it for me, okay?”. The first time you did it back to him, he almost sobbed with love for you even as he nodded and said, “mm-hm”. The sound was smug even with how overwhelmed he was in that moment and your stomach swooped; as again did you only love him more.
Your life is still a bit messy but oh, you do your best. Joker knows better than anybody how it can feel to do your best and to still feel like you’re not doing enough, like you’re not trying enough, like you’re not good enough for all of the demands and responsibilities which are daily placed on you without reprieve or without a break, and he continues to do everything he can to help you, to be there for you and to support you. He leaves notes lying around to help you remember to do things, to not forget things, and if ever you do forget something, Joker’s there to do it for you. There is only ever love in the things he does. Looking after you and being there for you and loving you is the reason Joker does what he does, the reason he tries every single day to reconnect with the man you first fell in love with. Oh, but he was still that man; he had only stopped caring, he had only succumbed to all that was making him numb, and every day did you love him just as fiercely and just as strongly as you always had. Your two cats are spoiled rotten by the both of you; Joker still loves to watch you interact with them and when chaos is shut away, when his suit is hung up and his face is washed, Joker likes to sit on the sofa with you to watch the news with your children around you; his fingers in their fur or in your hair, and the two of you talk quietly. About your days, about the things you need to do tomorrow, how you have been feeling... the evenings are ticked away in this way, with the two of you indulging only in each other. You love horror films and Hallowe’en and still does Joker love how excited you get! He joins in with you now with the celebration and the decorations, but instead of hiding within you now while you watch horror films, scared did he used to be, he now watches you with them and cracks dark jokes. In one film, the screaming victim got decapitated and Joker snorted and said, “Talk about losing your head when it gets crazy out there”. It’s up to you if you join in with him but if you do, he will turn to the side to give you his attention, only just watching whatever is on the old and grainy screen. He loves to cuddle with you and if you ever get scared of the things you watch, Joker assumes the protective role as he cuddles you. “Nothing’s going to hurt you, Emily. Joker’s here.”. He would die for you, kill for you... you’re his entire world and he loves you with everything that he is, everything that he has. 
You are very creative and to this day, Joker is still in awe of everything that you’re able to do. Your writing is so beautiful and everything that you create is beautiful. Your arts are creepy but Joker’s not creeped out by them anymore. Long ago did he stare into the abyss and see it staring back, so what used to negatively affect him rarely does now. “Awh, that’s sweet.” // “Joker, it’s - there’s blood all over the - “ // “Yeah,” He shrugs, “But it’s sweet in a morbid way, you know?” You thought you did, but you weren’t entirely sure. Either way, you were just glad that he liked your arts. His support meant the world to you. You have an entire playlist of songs you would like to play for Joker, and when you ask if you can play for him, Joker beams and practically runs across the room to sit down for you, running a hand through those dyed green curls which bounce gently against the tops of his shoulders as he does so. Joker is transfixed by the way you play the guitar; your hands are one of his favourite parts of you because they create pure magic every single day. You love to read and when you do, Joker tends to read through his old journal. It’s a quiet time for the both of you and it’s most likely that Joker will want to cuddle with you while you do these things; so that you can spend time together... separately. Occasionally, Joker might read a joke out loud; they’ll be dark jokes, ones which make you laugh because you know not how else to react, and he’ll soak in your response. Don’t fake your laughter, though, Joker will notice and he won’t appreciate that. By now, he’s used to your routine when it comes to running and walking in the woods, so he doesn’t ask if he can go with you - he’ll know if you want him to join you by the way you said goodbye to him. If you linger near him, he’ll know that you want him to join you; but if you’re quickly out of the door, then he knows he should stay. When you come home, everything is ready for you to get clean and comfortable; for Joker will always do what he can to look after you, no matter what!
On the nights when everything he’s ever said and done catches up to him, or when the world is just too loud and you need everything and everyone to go away, the two of you hole up in the bedroom. If Joker is the one who needs comforting, then you’re the one who reads to him or tells him about anything you’re currently hyperfixated on or curious about, but if you’re the one who needs comforting then Joker reads from his old journal or reads your current book to you. You can’t live without music or your cats and that’s precisely why Joker protects everything that you hold most dear to you, and that includes his own self. The both of you are so similar in so many ways and you have both shared many of the same experiences. You have so much love between you, so much need to be seen, known and loved, and you both have a dark sense of humour. You’re both strong and brave, creative and so full of love, and no matter what happens or who you both become, you will fall together again and again... and again. You’re soulmates and you’re truly meant to be, and that’s all that matters. Arthur Fleck loves you for all of you, through every rise and fall!
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Lost At Sea: A List of WIP’s I am finally letting go of [ Part 4 ]
[ Part 1 ] [ Post 2 ] [ Post 3 ]
*see posts 1-3*
let me (under your skin) by godsensei
Summary:  Hinata unknowingly moves into the apartment directly beside Oikawa and Iwaizumi's. Oikawa is delighted.
Last Update: 2016
Fandom & Main Pairing: Haikyuu!! ; Hizuwa
Personal Notes: IT WAS SUCH A PROMISING START, I’M SO MAD. I...could probably hold onto it for another year or two but you know, this whole process is about letting go right? Still sad :<
Ten by Azkaabanter
Summary: Oliver's in Central City on Mayoral business, and to take a break from being the Green Arrow in Starling City for one month. Just one.His temporary office is in the crime lab of the CCPD, because what place in Central could be safer than the police station? And what room could be better than one he gets to share with the shy, nerdy, clumsy CSI?But Barry Allen isn't at all what he seems.Oliver can see if you're dangerous, it's a gift; a power.
A toddler... a one.
A cop... a five.
A hitman... a seven.
Barry Allen... a ten.
Last Update: 2018
Fandom & Main Pairing: The Flash/Arrow ; Flarrow
Personal Notes: I’d have kept this one if not for the fact that the 4th chapter isn’t actually a chapter but an update promising to finish the story and then it’s been another 2 years, lol.
Glow Worms by gurglesnaps
Summary:  I knew this wasn't a good idea. None of Stiles' ideas ever were.
Last Update: 2016
Fandom & Main Pairing: Teen Wolf ; Sterek
Personal Notes: It is rare for me to so much as look at a fic written in first person, usually after the first paragraph I’ve noped out of it, it’s just not a tense I enjoy. But this fic not only caught my attention but I held onto it so that should tell you something. It’s only 3 chapters which is a disappointment.
Open Book by AggressiveWhenStartled
Summary: “If you jump out of this plane without a parachute one more time, I don’t know what I'm gonna do, but you will not like it.” Bucky yanked, hard, on one of the straps holding the parachute on—Steve gave a soft grunt of complaint. Bucky shot him a look and jerked it harder.
This work has been discontinued and has been completely rewritten as Closed Book. This is not a sequel, prequel, or otherwise related. Read Closed Book with the confidence it will conclude, but this is an older version of it and will not.
Last Update: 2017
Fandom & Main Pairing: The Avengers ; Stucky
Personal Notes: Pretty self explanatory on this one I think, lol. I haven’t read Closed Book yet but I loved what there was of open book so it’s def on my list to tackle next!
Hard to Breathe by sourwulfur
Summary:  What with the Nemeton making things difficult for Stiles and the gang, a school project shoves Danny and Stiles into spending time together. That little push may be all it takes to start forming a bond as more than just classmates. Maybe Danny could be the one to help Stiles find a light in the dark where his friends are already succeeding.
Last Update: 2014
Fandom & Main Pairing: Teen Wolf ; Stanny? Diles? It’s such a rare pair I honestly don’t know.
Personal Notes: I think this might be the one and only fic I have ever read that was Danny x Stiles in my many many many many many many MANY years of reading teen wolf fanfic. It was decent, I liked where it was going, I just wish we’d gotten to the end. There’s like, 9 chapters but a lot is left up in the air so if you need closure, don’t even start this one.
Junkyard Dogs by TrashPanda
Summary: Orphaned at a young age, Derek is sold into the slave market. His dynamic as an alpha, and a werewolf, make him a desirable slave to have working in Peter's alpha brothel, The Junkyard.Stiles is a 21 year old virgin omega who's tired of going through heats alone. Dating isn't a realistic prospect, so he seeks out The Junkyard, hoping to maybe find an alpha to help him through his rapidly approaching heat.Then he meets Derek, one of the Junkyard Dogs, who's also about to go into rut. And nothing could stop the pull they feel towards one another.
Last Update: 2018
Fandom & Main Pairing: Teen Wolf ; Sterek
Personal Notes: This one actually hasn’t been left for very long I’m just no longer interested in the story it has to tell
Some Kind Of Madness by cutestpixieyoueversaw
Summary: ****WARNING: Story is currently being rewritten and organized until June/July 2018. Deletions and additions will happen in the meantime***Stiles apparently has a type. You know unfairly attractive for this worldly plane while having perhaps some of the best wit around? The kind of wit that could be spoken with only facial expressions. Bonus if they gave Einstein a run for his money. Oh he forgot to add Alpha because it was now a thing, perhaps even a kink if he was going to be really honest with himself.Or the one where Stiles realizes that his life should be a MTV show because the drama he has is worthy of cable television.Or the one where Stiles meets another pack and gets to understand that Bella and Sookie really had the worst luck ever and he is not them but really it's reading like he is. P.S. Tinkerbell is a bitch.
Last Update: 2014
Fandom & Main Pairing: Teen Wolf ; Sterek
Personal Notes: I feel like I remember liking this but it’s been so long and while it claims it’s being re-written, I’ve kinda just lost interest. Hopefully the revamped version is even better than the original and I def encourage y’all to give it a chance.
By All Four by Sunshineditty
Summary:  Sentinel Jim Ellison and his guide Blair Sandburg are on the trail of a serial killer who murders young latent and online sentinels in the Pacific Northwest. Derek Hale - an unbonded guide - is trying to live through the pity of friends and family when his sentinel ex-girlfriend and the guide she left him for return to Beacon Hills. None of them will predict the series of events and the feral sentinel who will change the course of their lives forever.
Last Update: 2016
Fandom & Main Pairing: Teen Wolf ; Sterek
Personal Notes: I don’t know enough about Sentinel to really judge the fic, but I do remember it made me want to actually hunt down the original show to watch because it seemed interesting.  
No Longer Human by battlegod (Battle_god_Ye_Xiu)
Summary:  He now understood why moths would flit towards a flame, pining for its warmth even as they caught fire. It was the irresistible attraction of light when one was surrounded by darkness. Reaching for the lone spark that shone at night, was that not the instinct of all living things?
Last Update: 2019
Fandom & Main Pairing: The King’s Avatar ; Huáng Shàotiān xYù Wénzhōu
Personal Notes: I’ve watched this drama like, 20 times but I’ve lost interest in fics pretty much. Mostly because it’s understandably hard to find anything in english, lol. We can’t all be Untamed.
Swapped by writeonclara
Summary: if u wanted my number u couldve just asked
u didnt have to steal my whole phone ;)
Steve stared down at his phone, confused. He didn't recognize the number – except, oh wait, he really did. That was his number. On his phone.He flipped the phone over, then slid one hand down his face. 
Not his phone.
“Fuck,” he muttered.
Last Update: 2018
Fandom & Main Pairing: Captain America ; Stucky
Personal Notes: It’s a cute start but not interesting enough for me to hold onto. Stucky is one of those....tangential pairings that is more I know a lot of people who ship it and the stories tend to be interesting so I’ll read it when I happen across something that catches my eye but I don’t like...go hunting for it.
two drums in the grey by brandywine421
Summary: “Standard disclaimer – you are not on the first or second string of our emergency call trees,” Cisco said.
“So why are you here?” Barry yawned.
“We’ve got a new speedster. Wally West,” Caitlin said, preemptively wincing.
Last Update: 2018
Fandom & Main Pairing: The Flash/Green Arrow ; Flarrow
Personal Notes: This is actually the second in a series, the first story is complete and I honestly don’t remember much about it but it must have been good if I subscribed to the sequel. So take that as you will, lol.
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