#it really hits you hard huh

[nobuverse]

@tiredstudents said: Silent Scream - NOBU

Send me “Silent Scream” for my muse to vent anything they’ve been keeping hidden inside.

"Family's supposed to look out for one another. A mother's supposed to look after her children - raise them. Protect them from the monsters under her children's bed. Teach them. Comfort them. But you never did. Not to us, the firstborns.

"You let the monster get to us. You were letting the beast tear out my insides every time you said I 'deserved it' for not listening to my Father. You let the demon swallow your son whole when you didn't so much try to defend him from your husband.

"I raised him because you refused to. I had no choice. And now look at what I've done. I've ruined him.

"I'm so sorry, Nobukatsu..."

[mummer]

rhaenyra outsourcing motherhood to rhaena and assigning her that passive feminine role was REALLY interesting….. rhaenyra as a character is at her most fascinating when she is forced to navigate and ultimately perpetuate the gendered structures she despises and wishes she could transcend— the seeds of her tragedy already sewn here. just great character work

[sincerely-sofie]

*gently places angsty Twig comic in your hands*

There comes a point in healing, sometimes, where you must grieve the child you never got to be, and bury her along with the desperate hope of one day somehow becoming her.

It isn’t fair. And it never will be.

But you grieve the child, still.

[theriverbeyond]

ohhh. what if the nursery that Pyrrha painted on the 9th was the creche. what if those mint green walls saw every member of the 9th raised from birth to 18 years old amongst their family and house (what's the difference, when you are raised as one and the same?) penitents and tombkeepers and Anastasia's immortality. and what if those same mint green walls saw their number dwindle, and the house begin to fail -- but even still, there were children it could protect and raise and cherish. even those not of the 9th! even a little baby with bright red hair.

but then suddenly all the children are gone but one, the little baby with bright red hair who refused to die with her mother and refused to die in the massacre and refused to die in the neglect that followed. and it's just her, the others are gone. (where did they go?) and she cries so loud and no one is there to comfort her but those silent walls, painted with love 10,000 years ago. how long does love take to fade? when does it stop being enough? when is intention just a fancy excuse?

she stops crying, eventually, and 9 months later another baby is born. quiet. dark haired. familiar, maybe, even though she's new. (why is she so familiar?) and these two children are the last; they grow and fight and learn how to hate, and still those walls are standing.

[anonyanonymouse]

🙈

[hecksupremechips]

Honestly though I think it’s really a bad sign when I look at Shin Tsukimi and literally feel like he’s a self insert 😩

[designernishiki]

it really means the world to me that little 12 year old daigo mentions that kiryu used to hang out with him a lot, meaning a teenage kiryu (and likely a teenage nishiki as well) basically babysat an even younger daigo on the reg for some amount of time. i wonder what shenanigans they got up to

[clownsnake]

I don’t think hyeonseong needed to remember dokja’s order to think about him if something goes wrong. I think he’s just always thinking abt dokja

and I love him for that

[digirainebow]

its an olivia kind of day today

[princekirijo]

priiiince, beloved mutual of mine <3333

you brighten up my day sm when i see you on my dash frfr, your tags on artwork you reblog are honestly so sweet and nice it warms my heart ^^ you're really cool and nice and deserve to know that

also i love riku sm he's awesome!!!! idk too too much about him but i still love him to bits he's so silly

iirc i hear life's been giving you the horrors lately and i want you to know you do NOT deserve them😤i really do hope the days brighten up for you soon enough, bc you deserve to have wonderful and fun times!!!

Ok finally getting round to these cause I've been staring at this in my inbox all day but 🥹🥺🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹

You have no idea how much this made my day this is so sweet thank you 😭 I'm really glad you enjoy my tags + my OC my lad my son because lately I've really struggled with both because I am feeling so self conscious about both (tags it's like am I being too excited am I coming across weird and OC well I always feel I talk about Riku too much) so I'm glad to hear you enjoy that 🥺

And thank you sm life's been a lil weird lately but thankfully this blog and kind people like you are keeping me sane 💖💖💖

[smol-tired-binch-blog]

Sometimes I think I must consume media wrong because I don't remember The Lottery by Shirley Jackson fucking me up

Like sure I read it and was like 'wait hang on, what- oh dear.' but I didn't have the 'Dude That Was So Fucked Up I Am Fundamentally Changed As A Person' experience everyone else apparently had

And that ain't a flex btw this ain't a "oh I can read the most fucked up stuff and feel NOTHING" kinda bullshit I just. Wasn't that deeply affected lmao

[arcadian-vampire]

Dragging my feet. I need to take pain meds but ohh I am Not feeling welllll rn

[queenlucythevaliant]

3, 7, 16, 52, 71 for Spotify wrapped? (also wishing you a very good day)

Awwwww! I hope you had a lovely day too 💞

3: "Midnight Rain" by Taylor Swift

7: "Would've, Could've, Should've" by Taylor Swift

16: "Starlight" by Taylor Swift

52: "Badlands" by Bruce Springsteen

71: "Drive It Like You Stole Its" from Sing Street

[thatcharmingjerk]

Only reason I actually would love a hand gun is so I could fire it few times a month to keep our rent in check like its pretty high already and I'm very tired of that

But here to get a gun you either need proper criminal connections i guess or just psych evaluation and permits and if I somehow got the gun the police etc WOULD KNOW and then they'd just visit me and I'd had to be like me:*clearly gun shaped* pigs: did you do that thing again,

and yeaaaaaa..... issa hassle.

[krockat]

man.. i needed to practice two songs for a upcoming performance,

and I heard how I was being a bit loud on the first lap of the first one, so i quieted down and was now just rewriting some lyrics and singing quietly whisperedly to make sure it was the right lyrics, melody, rhythm

And i know it's late to sing, like nearing 21:30, but I've heard my neighbors be way louder even on weekdays before.

and also early before 7. either parties, loud fighting, or renovation sounds. ear piercing kind of drilling stuff.

and i am sitting in a room where i know there's no bedrooms right by here too for my neighbors,

and i just heard a neighbor slam something repeatedly from somewhere and real loudly and aggressively scream

"snälla sluta sjunga"

which means "please stop singing" but it has another effect rather than please in english, this please

anyway. that was kind of triggering because one of these songs I made as a kid, and always had to sing quietly so no one could hear, and couldn't show my parents because they would be real gross about it, like, and they are like. both songs standing up to my parents and singing about trauma kind of songs and idk.

i feel crying coming on and it's painful. i'm sorry my inner child. i know how painful this is.

i want to perform this song esp for my inner child's sake. it's hard to make time in the day and yea i don't want to be making noise late of course but. aughggghhhhh

anyway so yea i rly want to move where I can have less neighbors who are disturbed or disturb me when i just need to make music. this isn't okay

[humanecalamity]

im. slowly losing my will to tolerate everyone 🤡