#it makes me so sad dude
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Seeing canonically queer pairings in mainstream media really fucks me up. It makes me realise everything I've been robbed of up until now. I see a mlm couple or wlw couple kissing, holding hands. Or god forbid somebody with they/them pronouns actually being respected. I see it and it makes me so fucking happy but with that happiness comes a deep, deep pain for everything that I've been missing. I wonder if, if there had been that representation when I was child, it wouldn't have taken me so long to realise I like women. Maybe I wouldn't have spent years assuring my queer friends I was straight. Maybe I wouldn't have spent half a decade hating myself every time I questioned my gender.
Seeing real rep on screen makes me realise all that time I spent forcefully shipping two men together wasn't a real queer pairing. It was me scraping the barrel for any kind of reflection of my kind of love. At the time it was everything but looking back I kind of hate it. Then came the small representation. The quick kiss at the end of the movie. The coming out only to be murdered a few minutes later. The homophobia that went hand in hand with queer characters, both on and off screen. It was real representation but I didn't feel the burst of happiness that my queer friends felt. Love, Simon came out around the same time that I did. It was good, and I was happy for all the kids who grew up with it but it was just a little too late for me and I resented that too. I think I gave up on true representation. Seeing ten headlines in two years about 'disneys first gay character' beat all the optimism out of me. I began to believe that there would never be any true queer representation, I think. As if my kind of love wasn't possible for the masses to enjoy. I didn't even realise this cynicism was creeping up on me until it had sunk in deeply. I love seeing queer couples on screen. It makes me weep, in the best way. And I know I'm lucky. I haven't had to wait until I'm in my sixties to see it. At twenty-two, I haven't missed that much. And god I'm so happy for the kids who get to grow up with it. But it also makes me ache for all the years I spent believing it wasn't possible.
Seeing canonically queer pairings in mainstream media really fucks me up. And I'm so glad they're finally here.
#lion rambling#brought to you by me watching ofmd for the first time#it makes me so sad dude#but also happy#lgbt#queer#q slur#ofmd#the last of us#love simon#seeing gifs of women kissing in netflix shows is still a novelty#gay thoughts
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one thing about me is that i will cry over every single tiktok that i watch that features the song we’ll never have sex
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And in the end, Rouge was like, “You know what? Sure.”
#kinda makes me sad to think Roger might have been with rouge just so he could have a son#but hey if it was mutual then that’s so funny#(please have my baby) *rouge looks Roger over* (sure)#also roger literally spent his whole life surrounded by dudes. bro does not know how to talk to women#art#digital art#my art#fanart#drawing#one piece#portgas d rouge#gol d roger#sketchhh
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are. are you telling me that if the romanced mage warden dies and alistair is king, he deadass stares greagoir down over her dead body and grants the circle of ferelden its autonomy after ordering it rebuilt somewhere safer. first you have to deliberately leave him behind so he won't die for you and then he does that for you once you're gone, even when you're broken up??? absolute and literal king behaviour of the highest order????? the actions speak louder than words of it all??????? I think I hauve covid
#that's the hottest thing I've ever heard I feel nuts#what an absolute chad alistair continues to be tbh there may be a day when men fail but it will not be when he's here#like I'm very sorry to the blond chantry boy repeat crowd but cullen could & would NEVER!!! they are NOT the same!!!!#dragon age#dragon age origins#alistair theirin#alistair x warden#can u imagine what it must be like to be irving standing there watching this happen. you're free and your kid is dead. congrats#tried to free her from the circle and she's the sacrificial lamb that bought the circle's freedom instead. fuck dude#it does make for a very sad kind of symmetry that every time irving tries to get clever with it he triggers a monkey's paw situation fhdskj#I am replaying the game with my new canon (mistress amell + king alistair to save him from the da:i fade choice lol)#and in doing research I found out about this and had my world rocked. I've never had my warden die before so this is new to me#(my warden isn't dying in this canon to be clear she's going to be the reason no one would dare assassinate king alistair lol#nightmare bae eminance gris behind the throne/loving and supportive partner with a fade connection and a vengeful side#she's going to be like sam vimes tiredly fending off assassins as the watch books go on except she murders a lot more people back)#the way his voice breaks in the version where they were broken up tho... sick and twisted and mean to me specifically
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My dearly beloved…re2 leon…
#art#my art#fanart#digital art#fandom#resident evil#leon kennedy#leon s kennedy#resident evil fanart#re2 remake#re2 leon#re2 fanart#doodle#drawing#he’s just so stupid#just a dude#he looks like a sad wet dog#give him a break please#he’s so cute it actually makes me sick#I am so normal
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I think it's funny that Gale, Wyll, Shadowheart, and Astarion all have these moments where they're like "ok, I need to confess something that I've been hiding from you... I'm actually a horrible person because (I'm a ticking time bomb/I made a pact with a devil/I worship a goddess widely regarded as evil/I'm a vampire)" and Karlach is like "uh btw, before you start being too nice to me, the devil who made me into a living weapon might track me down and try to kidnap me back after I escaped from her" and they're all like "so I understand if you don't want to travel with me anymore, I'll pack my little bag and go... wait, I can stay? You mean it? Oh my god thank you, I'll be good just give me a chance to prove myself, I can't believe you're still letting me travel with you" and half of them just expect you to kill them on the spot once they tell you what's going on
... meanwhile Lae'zel has been up-front about all her crazy stuff from the moment you met and she thinks you're either insane or the stupidest creature alive if you don't want her to tag along. what a queen
#baldur's gate 3#baldur's gate iii#bg3#gale#wyll#shadowheart#astarion#karlach#lae'zel#gale dekarios#gale of waterdeep#wyll ravengard#astarion ancunin#karlach cliffgate#gale especially is so pathetic about it. standing there like a wet cat with his big sad eyes#going 'yeah the smartest move would probably be to kill me right now. i'll close my eyes and stand still for you. just make it quick please'#like he actually thinks he deserves to die but it's fine‚ he understands‚ you can go ahead and do it right now if it's convenient for you#and he's 100 percent for real about it! he's like where do you want me to stand for this? should i kneel? would that make it easier for you?#and you have to be like dude stop it. get up. i'm not going to kill you. no i'm serious why would i do that to you.#knock it off with the sad puppy eyes i know you're passively suicidal i'm not going to enable you like this#beep
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gl!ranboo doodle sheet bc i am actually going insane
#generation loss#genloss#generation loss fanart#ranboo#ranboo fanart#haha get boxed idiot <- said while actively crying#virgil arts#this was drawn at like. 4-5 am while i watched my bf play a half life mod#dude this series has actually grabbed hold of my brain its so so good#also i was in fact looping puppet boy while drawing this#songs just good also started making me feel very sad about gl!ranboo and i think that was the point lmao
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katara sees her brother and bff approaching something that can make them happy and says no interruptions
based on this photo from the live action cast
#my art#i learned SO MUCH about digital coloring while working on this. i can’t wait to try to put it to practice from the start and on purpose#instead of stumbling upon leagues of info when i was already 95% done lol#anyways#zukka#idc about tagging rn tbh i’m tired#fuck backgrounds dude#hate that shit#i need to do lighting studies fr tho#i can’t do interesting light i just. don’t have the knowledge#makes me sad cuz lighting really makes or breaks pieces it seems#also lol i started this then stopped for like two hours and just sketched katara a fuck ton#what i landed on here isn’t my favorite but i liked the soft + gently amused emotion she’s showing#ok whatever i’m done rambling#post
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in the sea of your own despair
#hajime hinata you make me so incredibly sad dude#i love him so much i wish him ghe entire world god#danganronpa fanart#danganronpa#hinata hajime#hajime hinata#kamukura izuru#izuru kamukura#my art
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god i need to write more fics that at least tangentially get into gender. because i know that timkon are t4t in every fic i write but it doesnt always come up. and god knows its just me peddling my little rowboat alone in the t4t timkon waters. 😭 i gotta... i gotta keep kontributing... the trans tim and nonbinary kon tags, they need me...
#rimi talks#deeply unfortunate that the trans tim tag is full of bat/cest ships and also transphobia.#what about people (me) who want tim to simply be a trans guy who's simply a freak and it's not bc he's trans it's just his nature#and then theres the nb kon tag. which like all kon tags is populated by people who havent actually read konmics. sad#at least it's better in there than the trans tim tag but still. low bar#BUT HES LITERALLY KONBINARY.#theres a whole saga in my mind about kon's gender journey inspiring tim to actually stop holding onto --#-- the kinda rigid boxes of gender labels and ideas about presentation that he holds himself to bc of his dad's influence#like tim at age 30 is much more comfortable being gnc than tim at age 16#tim at age 16 would see tim at age 30 lounging around in a skirt and legwarmers and feel so betrayed#tim at age 30 is just like im a dude no matter what i wear and im comfy and i stole my husbands skirt. cope#its about the growth they go through together. and making each other better. and also about transgenderisms. and#(and then i peek outside my bubble and remember that jesus god the trans tim tag is a nightmare!!!! AUGH!!!)#i gotta write more t4t timkon. its just me and my little rowboat against the world
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I think that there’s a fundamental misunderstanding of what exactly is…happening with Izuku’s character. Specifically in regards to chapter 425.
I’m glad that a lot more people generally recognize that Izuku is not a character that can be read at a surface level, given that he’s both a repressed person with built up emotion of basically everything and also a very glaringly HUGELY unreliable narrator, but that doesn’t necessarily mean I agree with the ways I’ve seen this most recent chapter spoken about.
I see posts, comments, etc with ideas like “Izuku don’t suppress your emotions! Open up with people! It’ll be okay I promise!” When that’s fundamentally not what is happening here.
There’s always always ALWAYS been a distinct difference in character throughout horikoshi’s writing when he is showing that a character is:
A—Avoiding emotions, thoughts, ideas less than ideal for them. Not opening up when they probably should about their problems given that they’ve been handed the space to do so. Just genuinely not acknowledging, feeling, or expressing emotions that they don’t want.
B—Reflecting on the ways they feel about the world, themselves, or other people given their new perspective on a situation. Not outright reaching out to others to talk about these problems/feelings, but instead waiting until the moment they feel they have the most confidence to do so with their new outlook on their own life.
And genuinely, guys, to grab your BkDk attention rn, this is the exact reason why Ochako’s reflection on her feelings for Izuku and thereafter decision to pull away from them WAS NEVER GOING TO END IN OCHAKO EXPLODING WITH HER LOVE FOR HIM.
This was another common interpretation I saw of Ochako and Izuocha for a long time. That because she pushed these feelings away, they were somehow going to explode in this unbelievable way and she would “get the boy” because of it. That her arc would surround accepting her romantic feelings and that she can’t just push away how she feels for a career.
But yk. That didn’t happen. At all. Nowhere close even.
The same kind of goes for Katsuki, allmight, etc. They all had moments in their arc where it was spent genuinely reflecting, and the only reason we as the audience never connected it in the same ways we do ochako or Izuku was ALWAYS BECAUSE the narrative showed their inner thoughts while doing so (mostly because Allmight’s arc after losing OFA and Katsuki’s arc on what it means to be a hero were so intrinsically tied, both starting at the same time and ending at the same time during the final war. And because they were so tied this caused their own reflections, development, and thought process to be broadcasted to us frequently throughout their arcs… to each other. They also somewhat shared aspects with Izuku, but these were cherry picked more often than not, like dvk2 for example).
To us Katsuki never seemed to be.. idk, suppressing his anger in any way because we were always told what he was doing and why (side note: this is why I’ve always thought arguments against Katsuki were so weird, bc unlike characters like endeavor or Ochako he wasn’t like… hiding who he was and how he was changing. Ever. Like the audience knows at all times past basically season 3 what Katsuki is thinking and doing. Like how do you watch this happen, stare me dead in the eye, and tell me how much of a terrible and awful teenage boy he is. Like damn I didn’t think we were this dumb. This is also my theory as to why he’s most popular, his arc is very… in your face if that makes sense). Katsuki’s entire mini arc on reflecting his mistakes and his childhood and his future is spent TELLING YOU that it’s what he’s doing. (I’m referring mostly to the endeavor internship arc, the provisional license exam makeup, and basically everything in the war arc related to him leading up to bakugou Katsuki rising here)
And see, Horikoshi will stare you dead in the eye, tell you “this girl has taken into consideration that she doesn’t want to waste her time training her career focusing on a boy because he kinda caught her fancy”, and y’all will still say that this will explode in her face.
Y’all this is a series about learning how to manage emotions, maturity in relationship to one’s emotions, how to feel an emotion, but in a way that is helpful. Horikoshi isn’t telling you “go buck wild, feel everything all the time and always express it”, in fact he explores why you DONT do that! Through Toga or Shigaraki, they show how grief and anger can genuinely consume you. But he also shows why you shouldn’t just put everything in a box to never look at or acknowledge, or why you shouldn’t just let your grief destroy the world around you, or pretending that some emotions simply don’t exist.
I can’t say this enough, so let me say it now, mha is about the extremes of your psyche. That you should control something, but not too much. Everything can be harmful. Everything can be good.
Izuku is not controlling too much, he’s expressing just enough.
I LOVE shaming this dickhead at all times in all my posts. I love saying he’s an ignorant dipshit with a weird amount of distaste for a girl who just confessed to him. I’ve joked that chapter 348 is basically an entire chapter spent on Izuku calling Himiko a mean dyke. And yet I also believe he’s doing nothing WRONG here.
In fact, I’ll even say that this moment right here?
ISNT EVEN IZUKU DOING THE SOCIALLY APPROPRIATE THING ABOUT IT! But he’s still TRYING to reach out to someone he thinks MIGHT be able to understand. (And frankly, this moment is far deeper than what it’s being made out to be, to me it reads more like an unrequited friendship that Izuku both desires and has thought of them to have, while simultaneously showing the distance Ochako has successfully wedged between them for her own sake. Maybe it was always there though, maybe in weird, miscommunicated Horikoshi fashion, this is a representation of how Ochako always read all those “fun friend hangouts” as a little more than that, and without those feelings the friendship never really held any substance to her in the first place. Where Izuku saw his first real friend at UA, she saw little more than acquaintance)
Simultaneously, Izuku is genuinely reflecting on what it means for the world to change, to be a hero, to live after loss—and trying and failing to gain the connection he desires from individuals who can not and will not afford him that.
Izuku is ready for the world to change, a few select characters are also ready for the world to change (mirio, for example), but not nearly enough are. So maybe I’ll have to take this back if I’m proven wrong and I accidentally looked into this far past what everyone else did for no reason, but I genuinely believe with moments like this
And this
Aand this
That Izuku has come forward with that aspect of his character development. He’s reflecting on his new beliefs, not repressing his emotions for them.
#bkdk#I will also say that while Izuku did do a bit of a fake smile and attitude for Katsuki’s breakdown last chapter#he gets a bit of an excuse for that suppression. theres a time and place to be strong for a friend. and while izuku didn’t exactly say ALL-#the right things or think the right thoughts… he still imo fits into control your heart within that moment#you can ‘be strong’ for someone who’s sad or anxious without you being out to be an ultra suppressive self hating boy man#in that moment katsuki probably would’ve needed that if izuku had said literally anything else but ‘I’m glad I had this dream while it-#lasted!’ and ‘your probably just feeling very weird right now’… DUDE I CANNOT KEEP DEFENDING YOUR ASS#midoriya izuku#mha deku#bakudeku#bkdk brainrot#bnha deku#bakugou katsuki#mha analysis#deku midoriya#last side note lmao: I’ve done like five drafts for this and if this one isn’t good enough hopefully someone better than me can remake this#or I’ll make this at a later time when more things come out#I just knew I wanted this out before the next chapter leaks#which are probably tonight lolllll#oh and I proof read like 80% of this so y’all are getting what you fucking get
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It doesn’t matter how many times I watch Agents of Shield, Davis dying pmo so bad. You mean to tell me he survived Aida just to die to that pink haired goblin?!
#he was my favorite side character#and while it doesn’t make me sad the way Tripps does it makes me so mad#that dude had a family and a baby 😩#liz rambles#agents of shield#agents of shield spoilers
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i’ve always wondered what worst logan thinks of main logan. is he jealous at all of how revered he was? i mean what do you even think of the guy that’s considered the “best version” of you when you’re seen as the worst.
#no one could possibly be okay after hearing that they’re the worst in all of the multiverse#i mean that fc kn hurts#theres a part of me thats like god im so proud of my og baby main foxverse logan being so loved#literally the TVA watch LOGAN 2017 in tears#they respect that man so much#but but also my number one boy WORSTIE LOGAN#aka best logan (in my heart and wades)#i just im so attached to him specifically#because hes just so sad and lonely and god#he doesnt think he deserves love#but but he very much does because HES A GOOD MAN#despite everything he fought sooooo hard to prove to himself and everyone else that he could be the man that charles always thought he was#dude literally cares so much. he was willing to die just to help this guy he met about three days ago#idk im just saying stuff#anyway hes sweet and he loves hard#and hes made mistakes yes bad mistakes but hes trying his hardest to make up for those#logan howlett#james logan howlett#worst wolverine#james howlett#wolverine#deadpool and wolverine#deadpool & wolverine#deadpool 3#hugh jackman#poolverine
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what i like about ascendant astarion is that he’s completely undeniably pathetic. he’s scooby doo levels of cartoon villainy. he monologues on and on and on about ruling baldur’s gate as a diabolical overlord when every plan he has ever concocted is some variation of “step one: succeed at task, step two: profit”. if you kick him in the nuts he throws a tantrum and leaves your party. guarantee you he either he dies in a ditch in a few months time or he spends the rest of his days regularly getting thwarted perry the platypus style
#bg3#astarion#the tragedy of it all is very yummy tbh#if he was a different character i could take him more seriously but i know this dude#mr ‘i’m not a details person’ could never in a million years rule a city much less the world#he’s drunk on power and it makes me so so sad but it’s funny
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Can we normalize not apologizing for not being around so much on the interwebs? "Sorry for not drawing/writing/editing so much lately..." Sweetheart, you do all of that FOR FREE. You're not obliged to do them, you should never feel like you have to apologize for taking a little step back from giving everyone free presents. Santa also only comes around once a year, he's got nothing on you. I sincerely hope that the only one that makes you feel like you should apologize is you (and let's fix that real quick - you can do whatever you want whenever you want) anyone else who gives you that feeling should be booted. BUH-BYE!
#writing#gifs#edits#art#fanart#drawing#creators#creatives#i say this with the best of intentions#it just makes me so sad when people seem to feel guilty#like my dude you have been giving free stuff#GREAT STUFF#people should be thankful for you and there's nothing to hold against you for having a life#or just not feeling like it sometimes#its OKAY
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The whole conversation between Arthur and Dutch on the way to Lagras in Country Persuits really is just the "I give you food and a roof over your head, you have no right to question me" argument you have with your parents
#“you think micah would question going after bronte? no he'd say lets go!”#“I'm here ain't I? Ive been at your side for 20 years!”#and then dutch proceeds to make it about himself after blatantly accusing arthur of not being loyal#dutch literally argued with arthur until he gave in and agreed with him#all the npcs riding past were like 👀#dude it's so sad dutch was yelling at his son of 20 years like a child when all he did was voice his (understandable) concerns#if you can't be honest with your parental figure then who can you be honest with?#it makes me so sad every time#arthur took dutch's side and went with him to get bronte just to get scolded the whole time#I seethe#mick squeaks#mick thinks#rdr2#red dead redemption 2#arthur morgan#dutch van der linde#red dead redemption community#oh arthur
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