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corporealchaos · 18 days ago

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Yes, I'm obsessed with the British improvisers. Yes, I will bring them up in conversation. Yes, I am holding back on how much I bring them up. No, I will not be taking notes.

#yes it's ironic that i'm posting this now even though i haven't watched the two latest longforms #but school started again so things have been crazier and more stressful than normal #i'm honestly so glad that i found sfth because they make me so happy (from their content and also the fandom as a whole)#they're hilarious AND they've genuinely made my life better and i just think that's neat #shoot from the hip #sfth #sfthposting

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autisticaradiamegido · 10 months ago

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day 99

i have NEARLY finished the skirt for my ren faire fit i just gotta get a few finishing details added and also get the undershirt bleached (bc i got a bunch of makeup on it at last years fair and shit Stained) but THEN i can show yall the final fit!!

#day 99 #year 5 #aradia megido #homestuck #its gonna be cute #i was so fucking stressed abt this one because like.#i bought my fabric and i was like oh yeah dude this is toooootally more than enough for a circle skirt #went to finally cut things #realized i only had enough for a half-circle skirt and it would end up with a bunch of weirdly-shaped scrap at the end #(ie i would have to do a bunch of weird piecing to make the waistband and pockets and such)#and like honestly a half-circle skirt was NOT enough volume for me i need my skirts swooshy #so i was like well. okay. i think i can optimize my fabric usage more if i draft a paneled skirt #but this of course required..... Math.#and unfortunately. i was an art major. so. there was a lot of struggling #BUT I DID IT. THERE WAS STILL A LIIIIITTLE BIT OF PIECING THAT HAD TO BE DONE BUT IT IS MINIMAL AND CAMOUFLAGED PRETTY WELL #and also this is for a ren faire primarily bc i dont wear a lot of skirts in day-to-day #SO. economical fabric usage is absolutely period accurate. even though none of the rest of my outfit or techniques are.#basically all thats left for me to do is add pockets and the closure at the back #i meant to add the pockets as i was doing the main construction but i got too excited and forgor #so theres gonna be some seam ripping but nothing too bad

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dykedvonte · 3 months ago

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I think the most baffling thing about the Tulpar as a vessel to me is the fact that the ship really did only have a one way communication system.

I know it was cheap but even the most basic of vessels regarding major transport would have some way, shape or form for outside communication. Not only that but there was absolutely no form of innate emergency signal to show they may have been offline or in trouble despite clearly having a system to dock credits if they went off course. It's another factor that really shows that bad situations are made to get worse by design. One person who is required to relay all information to the crew and make all the choices without feedback. No way to update or call for help in case of a dire situation. No way to inform of inner personal conflicts and acquire procedures accordingly.

It really is like they are all in some sort of fucked up solitary confinement. They have their own world with strict roles that are meaningless in the end, as long as the cargo makes it, it doesn't matter what happens on that ship to the company. They don't want to hear anything and will come to conclusions on what happened based on how much pay they can withhold from the workers. Even what they do send is short, sterile and corporate to the extent it was likely written and sent out with a command by some random unmanned computer in an office.

There's something to be said about how unfair it is to force absolute power and control onto one person when you as an entity could do so much more to offload it but I've said it many times before so I won't again.

#its just like idk i dont think Curly was a bad captain because we only have this scenerio and I certainly dont think a man like Swansea #would like him or have very little issues with him specifically if he was incompentent or too lienent in the past but I do think the stress #was making him worse and worse as being a present leader as it dawned on him how much he actually had to handle like I really think he #just wanted to do yknow normal captain pilot stuff and fly the ship and yknow the little stuff like make sure things run right and over tim #the constant stress and strain of having to make every major choice started to grate on him and freak him out cause they cant even fucking #eat unless he pulls out the scanner and starts cooking like he has to choose the meal likely or have a vote and i make that part of the #reason he seems so indecisive and inactive is the fact he has to make the choice all the time and he's hoping he can at least make the crew #feel a little more in control of themselves as people by staying out of affairs like the game or disputes because god he literally has to #choose for them all the time like thats a lot of responsibility monitering their sleep their breaks food consumption thats all on him like #it really should be another persons job entirely as thats almost like absoulte contrl over the lives of everyone else that PE forces onto #that title and its also crazy how everyone accepts it even if they dont like it like they broke the food machine open rather than get the #scanner they all waited two months before Jimmy appointed himself leader its so scary how conditioned they all are to the environemnt #cause that sort of mindset is sadly real where people just wait everyone just waited until it was getting real dire and then they still #followed Jimmy without too many complaints like i saw a fic or post where Anya acknowledges they all kinda just let Jimmy do what they want #because he became the captain and it was stupid on all their parts cause they could clearly see how bad he was and yet he was captain so #they just fell in line to their roles and thats a bigger point towards how PE treated them and the complacency capitalism brings to you #just like something that irks me because idk I know Curly is slow to act but he's not as like unopinionated as people make him out to be #like he does try to find solutions but they are still restricted at the end of the day by what PE provides them and I think his biggest c #crime is being in his own head too much and not giving Anya that emotional stability cause like idk man was he supposed to go to Home Depot #himself and install like padlocks? even if the let Anya sleep in medical after she pointed it out she was already pregnant at that point #like we arent seeing the inherent issue that no one not even Anya herself was thinking of the preventative measures because a)there was a #point nothing was happening that necessitated them b) it would've been the responsibility of PE to address them pre and post incident and c #there is only one person on the entire ship given the authority to do anything. You can not make multiple important choices in one instance #in such little time and Curly should not have had that total power like i think the most interesting thing in takes that really blame Curly #is that level of control they give him over the company. Like again i think about the three days we miss between the eval/party and the #convo/crash like i think people switch them around as if those scenes happen in succession when they are broken up and its heavily implied #Curly and Jimmy just havent been talking vs the depiction that she told him and for like three days Curly was just chummy despite the fact #Jimmy and him just had a blow out fight like the next time we assume they talk is during the crash sequence cause he honestly hangs #around Anya more which i think is really important because she trust Curly to defend her himself but not his judgement to give her somethin #to defend herself as she knows he believes her but also knows she's not seeing the danger the same and its heartbreaking and more

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tj-crochets · 4 months ago

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My birthday is coming up, and every year for my birthday* I try to make a thing just because I want to but this year I am not sure what I want to make. Like, zero ideas. Well, I mean I always have ideas, but none that appeal more than others? I'm not sure if I should ask for suggestions or just make a series of polls leading up to my birthday to narrow it down, what do you think? *within a few weeks of my birthday, I am bad at time

#the person behind the yarn #got sidetracked and vented about stress in the tags feel free to skip none of it is relevant to this post #lotta stressors this time of year #and this year has more than usual with multiple significant anniversaries #plus work stress and getting an MRI this week #I'm hoping after the MRI is done my stress level goes down #but there's another hurricane forming and I am a bit concerned about that #it's not supposed to come north but neither was the other one #and even if it doesn't come north it's going to hit where my grandma lives #idk. my older brother has a birthday not too long after mine #and wants to do a joint birthday thing somewhere #but I have no idea what to do. it would have to be outside because he 'doesn't believe in covid' and while I could probably get him to mask #his kids wouldn't (they are too little) and I am stressed about that #I am honestly not a fan of my birthday. I got sick with the thing that disabled me right before I turned 18 #and my family always wants to get together for my birthday but historically are not good at respecting my boundaries #around my birthday and I have walked out of more than one of my own birthday parties #anyway! lotta stress!#going to keep making baby blankets and try not to think about it until at least after the MRI

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popponn · 1 year ago

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there is something about how when anime official art gets yoichi right fashion wise it's always a comfy bf look like look at him

very fluffy. very huggable. i want to poke and pinch his cheeks. also he often has those lil blushies when he eats and for some reason it's cute. the gap moe between on field and off field is still something else to see each time i remember it. i love it ofc 💚 but it's still something else

#his nickname is egoist. he gets heated and shittalks regularly #deadass say 100% k word kaiser in a panel that is pretty wild. also get d threats regularly (rin barou im not even gonna try to list em)#friendly reminder that i love him even when i do not post about him #comfort character that literally make me look at him when im stressed and just sigh come on lets go #kind of like a bit pavlovian if i wanna bully myself about it. but honestly he is just #but honestly seeing him work hard and being passionate makes me admire him in the “i wish i am like you” all while going #“uwah” in the way that i very much realize i can't never be him and that very fact make him even more admireable to me #everyone has their own pathway and process. and his story is honestly something that makes me soft #hardworking people are something else. always a sight to watch and it's beautiful #okay wow im yapping but it's yoichi what's new. hopefully i can write something for u this valentine babe #babblings

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supersecretmetalocalypseblog · 9 days ago

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The only way Charles could be safe from Salacia is if he died, and once he does, he learns about the prophecy, and The Church of the Black Klok. So... does that mean that MMA beating Charles in Dethrelease/Black Fire Upon Us not only drives me insane, but is a crucial moment in the prophecy?? Idk if it HAD to be MMA or if it could've been anyone who "kills" Charles. I am of the personal belief that MMA's role in prophecy is to guide (albeit accidentally) Dethklok towards their destiny. It's when he's first hired to kill DK that the metalocalypse begins, according to Cardinal Ravenwood. it's only after his attack on Mordhaus that CFO learns of his role as The Dead Man, it's through rescuing Toki and Abigail that the band first uses their powers, the Dethlights. Without ever realizing it, he's caught up in this ancient prophecy, actively being a pain in the ass for everyone involved, inching towards the precipice of an apocalypse. Listen to me, waffling on about prophecies n shit. Fire alone will save our clan, or whatever, amirite,,

#metalocalypse #metal masked assassin #I guess this is a head canon right?#seriously though guys #his and magnus' role in the prophecy #vexes me #(insert a picture of Foreman from House M.D)#Like genuinely I puzzle over MMA and Magnus #and the prophecy for a LOT of time every day #i just don't (want to) believe that their only role is to be killed #I'm looking for crumbs to give them something else #anything else honestly #to say that they are alive for something more #than to be mortal cannon fodder for demi gods to mow down #if any of that makes sense like-#mostly because I think of #“You took my brother from me” a LOT #and I just want to know that all of this was for something more #that when they fucking EXPLODE him with literal STAR POWER and when Magnus offs himself-#like maybe. there was another way #and it just turned out this way because of anger and seething #i want mma and magnus to have a good ending so so fucking badly #but the literal narritive demands they can't get over it #which I understand but fuck does it keep me up at night #he's just a dude he's not even aware he's “the man with the silver face”#anyways. don't get attached to stupid ass secondary characters #or it'll have you waxing philosophical about the ethics of prophecies all night.#and for a character who has (and I cannot stress this enough) FIFTEEN SPOKEN LINES....#and even less for magnus...#ok seriously I'm done now i'm sorry I can never keep my train of thought on one track

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californiaquail · 1 month ago

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anyone else feeling fundamentally incapable of adjusting to society. also just discovered there's a 30 tag limit which i can't believe i've never hit before

#like it was one thing when i was in high school and college like wasn't socialized as a child due to not receiving schooling and growing up #sda blah blah whatever but like i'm almost 27 and i am barely functioning lol like i feel like i'm struggling to have a normal conversation #even more than i used to and i think my speech cadence is noticably off which i don't think it always has been #some of it is definitely from chronic exhaustion from having to get up too early and the stress of having a frequently panic inducing boss #but like. come on now. i can't even drive despite finally having a license because i'm too scared/distractible/poor reaction time #over a dozen antidepressants have not worked. adderall is not working great either #i'm SO much dumber than i used to be and it's driving me quite literally insane #i don't even think it's from getting covid in july because i was noticing it before although it definitely became way more noticeable after #i got this job. i've never been this bad at a job in my life and it's something anyone who knows me would assume i'd be good at #it's embarrassing. i cannot fucking remember anything i struggle to do the most basic of arithmetic to fill prescriptions i make the same #silly mistakes multiple times i am constantly asking stupid questions and still somehow fucking up all the time #it's not as bad as it was a couple months ago and frankly i'm shocked i haven't gotten fired i keep thinking that's going to happen #of course i wanted to quit this job four months ago but now i'm at like a sunk cost fallacy point unfortunately #this is obviously not like any kind of career position for many reasons but i don't know what else to do unless i move across the country #again. i'm not even qualified for anything besides animal related things and summer camp which are fine obviously but not great if you want #things like benefits or paid leave or not to get burned out as hell lmao #i don't even feel like i could do any customer service jobs because i literally struggle to put a coherent sentence together on the spot #everything is so slow. soooo slow i'm literally losing my mind which is catastrophic because my mind is all i've ever had going for me #and i'm having kind of a horrible existence lately which is exacerbating all my problems except the problems make it mostly impossible to d #anything to fix it. ok going out and doing some fun stuff for a day makes me feel better that's great. except then i need a day after that #to recover from doing things the previous day. so the only feasible day for doing things would be saturday. except on saturdays i'm #recovering from working. i literally only work 4 days and barely over 30 hours it's Not that crazy. i mean the boss is crazy and the job ca #also be crazy obviously but 30 hours a week is minimal compared to other work schedules i've maintained before #anyway but the most i can do after work is go to the store if i need to but i almost never have energy for anything fun #and the fucking bus doesn't run on sundays and walking miles to get literally anywhere takes a lot of energy i don't have #i'm about to move next weekend and i'm dreading it because it's going to be so much work and i'm so fucking tired #and i don't have any friends to help me with cleaning i might be able to get help moving my stuff but i'm not even confident about that #i might have to rent a uhaul but i would honestly rather pay somebody to help because i'm that scared of driving even for one 30 min trip #whatever....sorry i had to feel bad for myself in the tumblr dot edu tags again i'm not in therapy rn #(<- guy who should be in therapy)

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xxplastic-cubexx · 3 months ago

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apart from the old men, who do you like best in TAS/97?

beast is my best friend and im gonna laugh forever about how for like 3/4s of the first season of 92 they kept him in jail

#snap chats #fuckin cryin at erik tryna bust him out and beast gotta Nuh Uh him LIKE HANK. GOOOOO #i love beast :) sure hope the comics will too someday #honestly i wanted to rewatch all of 92 and jot down all the book references/quotes beast makes. for funsies #i also like morph ..... i love morph a lot even i was so happy when they came back in 97 THATS MY BEST FRIEEND #morph had me stressed in 92 like girlfriend please come back logan wont stop crying WE MISS YOU :((#AND NOW THEYRE BACK AND BEAUTIFUL AND JUST A LIL ZESTY AND WE LOVE THEM FOR IT #therapy did wonders for them check that shit out .... amazing ...... hope they do more shit in season 2 ...#AND SABERTOOTH. he was in like three episodes in 92 but idc i love that guy and his jackass ways #i could prob keep goin but thems my main faves from tas i guess :) my besties ..

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lieutenantselnia · 10 months ago

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I'm so exhausted but here's a recent doodle of my pookie <3

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alexluvsskittlez · 1 month ago

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knowing that one of your favorite bands lives in la is one of the worst feelings ever

#alex suffers #linkin park #and it makes me even more stressed because im extremely hyperfixated on Emily #i literally had a really bad panic attack over it last night #like ik Mike and Colin are safe because they posted on their stories about it #Emily also posted on her story about it #but idk if she posted about her being safe #like WHAT IF SHES NOT??? WHAT IF SHE GOT HURT?????#and also the other members #i haven't seen any of them say that they're safe #WHAT IF THEYRE NOT????#im so scared dude #im gonna throw up #and im worried about everyone else in la as well #i honestly feel a bit stupid for being THIS worried #like there are people who are literally losing everything they have and the first thing i worry and think about is a band i like???#I LITERALLY HAVE TWO FRIENDS IN LA AND I DIDN'T THINK ABOUT THEM FIRST???????#what is wrong with me #sorry i didn't mean to vent in the tags #rraghhhfff #i cant do this rn

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red-dyed-sarumane · 1 year ago

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i need people to start paying me for every time they tell me "oh but ur arts so good ur wasting ur talent u need to do it professionally" wrong i need to do art to draw beautiful characters that not a single other person cares about while feeding every ounce of love i have into my work or to convey thoughts & feelings beyond words and to even think of doing otherwise is to deny my own nature "oh but u can do what u want and then sell it" why is everything about money to you why cant u just enjoy things at what point in ur life did u forget how to have fun

#i hate that this stance is also seen as childish #like i have a full time job & often have mandatory overtime i have income already #if u need to to make ends meet then thats different do what u can to help urself live as comfortably as possible #but holy fuck pleasure as an adult is not limited to sex & money & watching tv #besides u know not a single one of the people who say this are willing to actually pay what the arts worth #its like 'well not me but other people would love it!' yeah okay u know a lot of other people are going to see the #over $100 price tag and go 'i like it but not that much! other people however' like just shut up. honestly. be quiet.#if i speed ran my art and low balled myself to a $15/hour rate the lowest would still be like $120 #which is not worth it AT ALL bc i just paid MORE to sit on my ass & look at eggs #and. again. is underselling myself for both experience & time. but people think $80 full body comms are too expensive #do u think im so stupid to not expect to get scammed when even 'easy' things are over $100 #but no ur right why would i have fun with something when i could instead cause myself infinite stress over it perfect thanks #do not give me advice about doing comms i do not want to do comms #if u see me doing comms im in a very dire situation. like thats a last resort for me.

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catkin-morgs-kookaburralover · 1 year ago

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friendly reminder that self harm is lying to you