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showering without soap is still something, right? right? right?
#didn’t have soap energy but at least i got into the shower#and plus i showered yesterday#so i think im okay#it made me feel a little better so
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In the world of heavy metals, love is denser than hate!
#Poorly drawn SVSSS#SVSSS#luo bingge#luo binghe#ask#Is that right? Two different character tags? I think that is right.#I'm calling myself out with screenshotting the asks with the dates because my full ask box has become a problem I'm determined to solve.#I promise you that if I did not respond to your ask it was because I 1) *really* wanted to hold on to it to make a doodle reply#or 2) really was so touched by the message and got overwhelmed#So expect many year + old asks suddenly gaining a reappearance! I'm going to get to them ALL.#Back to Luo Binghe (both versions). You see...the substance he is made with has a chemical reaction to affection.#Like how a pokemon has multiple paths to evolution depending on it's friendship points or exposure to random stones#so to does he evolve into various forms. I feel like Bingge (Ht) would be a noble gas. Unable to form bonds#I could also see him as a Halogen-type of element! Highly reactive and only truly found in manufactured environments.#And Binghe (Lv) would be an alkaline earth metal (+2). Sturdy. Forms bond better but not freely giving them away.#this is the second time I've related characters to elements - and I am far less familar with Scum Villian so please feel free to chime in.#I could be way off base here and I am very down for someone to talk chemistry and character themes.#Thank you all for the love you have given my silly little LBH. It means a lot to me B*)#Don't...don't look too hard at the lack of mark on his forehead here. I gave up. It's just...hidden behind his bangs.
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Thinking about the fact that Mabel and Dipper didn't know they had two great uncles.
Yeah they are 12 and at 12 I had a shotty understanding of my family tree- But really? Nobody brought up their great uncle? Stanley? Especially since they'll be staying with his twin brother, Stanford?
Shermie never went to Stan's fake funeral, which to me means the twos relationship was strained on some level. If Shermie is older that means his view of Stan was poisoned in some way, that even as kids they weren't close. If the Shermie is younger then he never even got to meet Stan and all he knew about him was how he failed his family. Hell, people probably barely mentioned Stanley TO Shermie.
The fact that Stan had become a black stain upon the Pines family name makes me so vividly upset. Stanley faked his death and the family just- seemingly decided to strike him from the record. To pretend he didn't existed to spare themselves the sadness and shame.
Stanford and Shermie Pines. The only children worth mentioning of Filbrick and Caryn Pines.
It was never Stanford that was lost to the world. It was Stanley, ever since he had to leave New Jersy- it was always him that had to be struck from the record. Change his name, change his state, change his affiliations, destroy the remains of ghost that was Stanley Pines. Kill him so the family doesn't bring him up, doesn't ask questions, stops asking "Stanford" about his twin.
I just keep thinking about the fact that since the day he made one single mistake all the way up until Ford walks out of that machine- Stanley Pines was killed and did not exist. And Stan himself had no one to blame, he had to play the part in his own demise- He is the only one who ever knew Stanley was alive and has been for decades.
He lives in the multitudes of every personality he's ever taken, all in the hope that he himself can stop being Stanley Pines.
#gravity falls#grunkle stan#stanley pines#STANLEYYYYYY#STANLEY THEY COULD NEVER MAKE ME HATE YOU STANLEY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#sharky rants#Just. Imagine the fucking shame you have to live with#the shame that you can never be yourself. That anything you were is unwanted and forgotten#The shame of just BEING- Of taking space of- of /breathing-/#Imagine the world; your friend; your family; your colleagues being so ashamed of having known you#that you feel more comfortable with a persona to present.#You feel more comfortable stealing the identity of someone you care for deeply if only to help#If only to feel capable for once. To feel like you belong- Like youre doing something good for once#Imagine the shame that brings you to be comfortable not being yourself for 40 years.#ALL CASE YOU BROKE ONE FUCKING PROJECT??????? COME ON#I mean- the deeprooted shame was started from earlier. He was 'the stupid twin“; 'the troublemaker”; “the cheat and thief”#This was a long time coming#But those werent MISTAKES- The one time he genuinely made a Mistake he lost everything#Like he really mattered so little to the people around him#and he cant really blame them.#My cousin is a genius. Hes smart and academically achieved since I was a baby.#The only thing I had that he didnt was my ability to draw. to be creative. The guy for the longest time had a better social life then me too#I used to get brought to tears seeing his accomplishments- seeing people praise him. The shame lived in me any time I had to see him#The shame that I was the black sheep of the family next to the golden standard for a son- for a student- for a friend.#when I was none of those things#And Im lucky he was my cousin- cause if he was my brother that would have haunted me EVERY DAY rather then once or twice a year#Im better with it now; Im more content with who I am- But trauma dump aside-#I very very very much understand Stans shame in being the stupid one. The unachieved one in a family full of achieved people#the shame thats angry at him for being better. at the family for treating him special. and most of all at yourself that you cant be better#its a visceral feeling that I sadly understand
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"Good job, Aerith!" "It was nothing compared to you!" // "I'm so glad you're all okay!" "Right back atcha."
#ffvii remake#ffvii rebirth#aerith gainsborough#tifa lockhart#aerti#aerith x tifa#ffvii rebirth spoilers?#i love them so much#and i'm sure someone's already made this gifset but better... but why not?#i quoted their first and last high five dialogue#aerti high fives are adorable and romantic too i think#but obviously feel free to disagree#ffviiedit#ffviiredit#tifalockhartedit#aerithgainsboroughedit#aertiedit#pls not aerith's little hop/jump and tifa leaning in... it's too cute#twitter could never make me hate either one of these ladies#i might be missing a high five or two so if you can let me knoe which ones i'm missing that'd be great!
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Copying artstyle off of older Steven and Connie concept art for the heck of it. (And chibis. ┐(´▾`)┌)
The proportions felt awkward to draw, I did end up stretching them a bit. Haha
#Their eyes are so close together. The neck (specially Connie's) so slim and their legs are short#Actually looks nice to be honest haha#I can't study and draw the style much though. That's absolutely going to disorient me when I get back to my own drawing style#them little guys are yippie-ing#connverse#Steven Universe#Connie Maheswaran#Steven Quartz Universe#SU#skedoobles#Actually I was distracting myself because this was such a big bummer of a day!#Like so gloomy literally. Like that Adventure time episode with the party bears being bummed out by a song#Energy sucked out by the bummness#I also overslept so I feel nauseous trying to lie down to sleep#PLUS I was adjusting a drawing and rendering the whole day but I had to scrap it all because the image looked better before I made all that#so it was super extra bummy if that's a word#I need to draw some connverse at least#I really like Connie's outfit in it. Plus with the sun hat? Simple yet extra fun design. I wished they kept it through the final.#*I mean Connie's legs are def longggg. Steven has short legs. Even shorter than how I draw em. It's their heads that are much larger.#SUF#Steven Universe Future#SU Future
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#im feeling a little under the weather right now so i made this to make me feel better#bee and puppycat#bee and puppcat lazy in space
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who’s the strongest ninja in the world?
#naruto#sasuke uchiha#itachi uchiha#naruto uzumaki#when i was little my father would tell me to summon all the superheroes and cartoon characters to my nightmare to chase bad guys away#which i was never able to do! i wasn’t in control of my dream. and my baby brother used to insist that i take a sip of his water first#he said i made it taste better 😭 so sweet. and i remember cuddling up against my moms back like that as a little kid. very safe feeling
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Suspirium - Thom York
#this is my very favorite song and i think ive been wanting to make this for abt a year#when i was at my most compulsivly unwell i would be focusing so hard and sleeping so little that i would feel physically sick#like the world was tilting around me and i would think: all is well as long as i keep spinning#bc i would stop moving and suddenly id be in pieces on the floor. but now i think my favorite lines are: when i arrive will u come and find#me? or in a croud be one of them? bc its such a profoundly lonely idea. i dont believe in a life after death. i think when ur gone ur gone#your brain stops and the thing that made you you is gone forever. but if i imagined an afterlife image getting off a train onto a crowded#platform and searching for my mom through all the chaos. when i arrive will u come and find me? would our connect extend past a lifetime?#or would u be in a crowed one of them? would i stand alone in a sea of people waiting for someone who was never coming?#its a very upsetting thought#im glad i waited to make this bc i feel the song more deeply after the death of my mom. it feels more sad and more ethereal.#there r like 2 different versions of the lyrics bc thom york is so fucking hard to understand#so i use the version i like better#original art
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Sometimes... the world can be a little too much.
#cod#call of duty#cod mw2#call of duty modern warfare 2#call of duty ghost#simon ghost riley#manysart#manyrambles#vent in the tags beware#drew a little ghost to see if it made me feel a little better and it did... maginarly...#I have been having the roughest month (roughest year reallly) of my life mental wise...#I feel so drained everything is too much everything is too little#it's like my brain is covered in static and not the good kind#I'm exausted mentally#my nerves feel rubbed raw#feels like I'm so close to snapping#I don't even know why I'm like this that's why it's so frustrating#now I'm gonna work on my assigment that does involve soap so that makes me a little happy#personal stuff yee haw
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In the world I love
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In a different world
#vanitas no carte#vanoé#doomed yaoi save me...save me doomed yaoi#play on the opening song + visual sequence + the fact that vanitas could only ever be happy in an alternate universe also#+ the other fun little fact we learn about him from episode one#i have complex feelings about this anime#its pretty damn fucking good#but im a leeeeetle iffy about the way it developed the female characters.....they had potential and i was actually excited to#to see some good solid female characters even the respective romances with their l/i's felt good at the start#not jeanne obv. they fucked up a perfectly good woman and her whole dynamic with v could have gone sooo well without the reall#really forced flirting behaviour.... i liked the more serious relationship they had it made me actually not hate what they had at the start#but yknow. whatever. sorry about going off about another ship on this but im just....i love jeanne a lot. i wish they didnt do her so dirty#my girl deserves better than this asshole#you want white/black dynamics??? let her get married to domi and then we can talk#i enjoy this show and i enjoy vanoe a lot#very yuriyaoi if you ask me#my art
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Cartoon Families 📺💕
#the simpsons#family guy#the griffins#peter griffin#lois griffin#chris griffin#meg griffin#brian griffin#stewie griffin#homer simpson#marge simpson#bart simpson#lisa simpson#maggie simpson#adult cartoons#adult cartoon#teddy's artwork#teddy's art#digital art#character lineup#character redesign#I had so much fun with these#blood moon has been kicking my ass#so doing this made me feel a little better#also I’ve watched like zero of the simpsons#I hope I did them justice#I have drawn the griffins before so#yeah#also I made Chris a weeb and Meg a goth bc why not
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a golden tip i can give to cryptos or any woman who can't openly talk about radical feminism yet (online or irl), whether it's because you have tra friends or you're scared of being criticized or whatever reason, is to stop using certain terms or following their rules for yourself. don't use the word queer, even if you can't call it out when other people do. same for sex worker. don't put pronouns in your bio. if there's a pronoun option in forms leave it blank (if you can't there's usually a "prefer not to say" option). don't refer to yourself (or anyone but specially not yourself) as cis. i assure you most people won't question it because you're technically not even doing anything. but it'll make you feel one heck of a lot lighter to not let your speech and your behavior be dictated by a pseudo-religion you don't want to be a part of.
#radfem safe#i mean this with no judgement#i know there are so many reasons why someone might not be able to openly express radfem views#but i also know how frustrating it is to not be able to speak your mind when topics like this come up#so this made me feel a lot better#ig maybe it wouldn't work if your friend group/whatever is very aggressively tra and will call out every little thing#in that case just love urself and get some new friends
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today i came out to my mom as trans. i put it off for years because i didn’t think the conversation would ever go down okay. much to my surprise, it went well! this feels surreal, i'm so so happy!! i say this all to say, it gets better! i know things suck majorly right now but please know that it gets better!! hold on to joy where you can find it, youll be ok! things will be rough but please hold on and know things can get better :) <3
#chat.msg#transgender#trans#transmasc#transgender pride#trans pride#trans positivity#nonbinary#lgbtq#queer#trans joy#lots of tags bc i want people to see this#i remember reading stories of people coming out made me feel so so much more hopeful abt the future as a little trans boy on the internet#i hope i can be like that for someone else#this esp goes out to brown trans kids ! its tough out there for us but trust me things can get better !!! <33#everyone who sees this i hope you have a good day and i love you ♥️
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Insane again thinking about Sonic and Tails
Everyone always talks about the ways in which Tails is dependent on or revolves around Sonic. We talk about the ways in which he's depended on Sonic to save him, the way he likes tagging along on journeys, the way Sonic has inspired him, the way he always maintains Sonic's plane, leaves his door open for him with place to rest and good food to eat
But we rarely talk about the ways in which Sonic is secretly dependent or reliant on Tails
In a large portion of the games, if Tails isn't straight up on the journey alongside him, Sonic has the security that Tails can communicate with him from afar, and Tails usually appears to help out at some point during one of Sonic’s solo journeys. He doesn't have to be without Tails for long
And we see what happens (especially in Sonic Frontiers and Sonic Prime) when Tails is inaccessible. In Frontiers, he wonders where Tails aloud is unprompted, wanting to find him. Sonic's other friends even convince him to bother with the secrets of the starfall islands because doing so may lead him to Tails. He wants to find Tails so Tails can make sense of what's happening. And in Prime, Sonic ends up scrambling without Tails around. Especially in Prime S1 while things make the least sense, he seeks out Tails first (and then later hopes variants other than Nine can fill Tails' role) because he trusts him. He trusts that if Tails is here, then he can just tell Sonic what to do (come up with a plan for him to execute). With Tails around, Sonic doesn’t have to worry about not understanding the situation because Tails can figure it out. Without Tails, Prime!Sonic often shifts between trying to handle things himself to the best of his knowledge while rolling with the punches, and deferring to someone he can trust as a smarter strategizer to tell him what to do (a role Nine fills most notably, but other characters such as Rebel and Shadow fill on the occasion).
Of course there's also the earlier mentioned way in which Tails takes care of Sonic as well. I'm sure Tails isn't Sonic's only friend that he could crash with, but it's Tails who goes to such lengths to open his arms for him. If Sonic wants to crash in an actual house, if he wants to eat his favorite food, if he just wants to hang out, or if he needs help, Tails's home is open to him, accommodating his every need.
In my eyes, Sonic is the one who is surprisingly codependent here, who flounders a bit when everything goes to shit, Tails is nowhere to be found and can't be contacted, and there's no one else that can help him make sense of things. He takes Tails with him on so many journeys, even in games like Colors, where Tails largely follows behind Sonic while Sonic does a lot of the physical work. Tails doesn't need to be "useful" to tag along. He likes having Tails around, he wants Tails around. When Tails can't go with him or it's something Sonic should go alone for, he can always communicate with him and hear his voice from afar. And I'd argue there are more examples than Sonic Prime that may demonstrate Sonic trying to find someone to fill Tails' role the first chance he can get when Tails isn't around and can't be contacted.
The conclusion here is that a lot of people talk about Tails being dependent on Sonic or revolving around him, but they truly are partners. Sonic wants to be around Tails at this point perhaps as much as Tails always wants to be around Sonic. The two are strong together, they fill each other's gaps in ability. They both feel more secure when the other is around, and they rely on each other's presence. They are each a comforting existence to the other in similar and different ways.
#sonic the hedgehog#sontails#unbreakable bond#tails the fox#miles tails prower#sonic prime#sonic frontiers#i just be ramblin#guys I just#These two mean so much to me#and it means a lot to me that people understand that (eng Frontiers aside) these two really are on equal#footing. This is no longer a relationship where Tails follows Sonic around all the time and relies on him#They both care so much about each other#And Sonic needs Tails too#They need each other#And as a personal interpretation#I do like to think that Sonic and Tails are more codependent than they appear to be#I think that Tails fairs better than people think without Sonic around#while Sonic fairs worse than people think#I genuinely don't think that Tails could split from Sonic for an indefinite amount of time with little contact and Sonic would cope well#with it#And I also just think it's funny and ironic if Tails' journey has Tails growing more independent from Sonic while choosing to be around him‚#while Sonic himself ends up growing more dependent on Tails' presence#Sorry I reread what I have so far of Sonine prime again and it just made me feel things about Sonic being surprisingly dependent on#Tails again
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It’s crazy how expendable all the crew members were to the Pony Express.
A 30% chance that your shipment would be lost. Cargo and crew are inseparable if we are to believe the shitty layout of the Tulpar. People use it because it’s cheap. The labor is cheap. The lives are cheap.
They are all relatively easy to forget about. It’s implied Anya and Curly don’t have many friends or much family to be concerned about them back home. She mentions nothing and no one to fall back on and he feels like wasted his life with the company. Jimmy probably only has Curly, otherwise people wouldn’t care or ask. Of course Daisuke and Swansea have family’s but Swansea thinks poorly of his and Daisuke’s poorly of him. All people in the companies eyes that wouldn’t stir up too much trouble if they became part of the 30%.
It makes it so much sadder because that ladder they were climbing was so small and shitty. There were rungs, ranks, but even the highest was barely off the ground. Jimmy wanted to reach the top of something that was brutally cut off and knocked everyone else off just to not see it.
#like yes curly was slightly better off but he’s not getting a severance package he’s a top show pony to the company#but they will just shoot him if he becomes a horse with a broken leg#Anya was likely picked cause she had enough knowledge but not enough to concretely call malpractice and Swansea was already a cog in the mix#he was an alcoholic getting back on the straight n narrow he needed it Daisuke is forced on the trip and eager to prove himself#Jimmy also need the job and got it from nepotism and won’t care as long as he’s paid#complains but yknow and Curly likely doesn’t do much but work he’s like a perfect little face man and he kinda hates it#like it’s a misconception that he was bored at the top or he needed a new ladder because he was done with this one he literally is miserable#and feels like he unfulfilled and doing nothing with his life as he’s ONLY successful in his work like he has nothing else#which makes it so mad cause Jimmy saw Curly as this guy with a perpetual golden goose but he’s just like them#like shiny gold appearances aside he’s like the second saddest like next to Anya because shes like depressed#because yknow she’s a victim but she had hopeful and happy determined prospects like Curly is just sad with his life and Swansea is chilling#like he’s made his peace even if he’s not like clicking his heals and Jimmy is less sad more angry#he’s a sad mans tho like he’s like Dan vs to me#mouthwashing#the pony express#mouthwashing game#nurse anya#anya mouthwashing#captain curly#curly mouthwashing#daisuke mouthwashing#swansea mouthwashing#jimmy mouthwashing
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Bad mood. Kinda smad
#azurarts#typhlosion#doodle#I was trying to replace windows with linux - which I did finally accomplish! - but I had to redo the bootable USB thing#and I KNEW that would probably delete the other stuff I'd backed up on that USB so I copied it back onto the pc#and then I forgot to check and re-backup those files until well after I'd wiped the disk#goodby 12 out of 16 badges heartgold save file#I swear I'm never gonna encounter that fucking snorlax#so. I made a doodle my favorite mon with my bad mood to make me feel a little better
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