#it literally kills me to write dead Billy though

[runraerun]

Steddie Soulmates ficlet

(where Eddie was born without a soulmark and Steve’s soulmate is dead. they are not soulmates; just two souls in love. Suck on that, fate!🖕)

TW: mentions of Billy Hargrove’s death. 🪦 IM SO SORRY!

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Truly obsessed with the idea of soulmates AU where almost everyone on earth is born with a soul mark somewhere on their body, one half to their soulmates mirrored half.

Well, almost everyone is born with a mark.

Eddie Munson was, of course, an anomaly. Always had been. Right from the start, when the midwives had pulled him from his mother, kicking and screaming and already mad as hell at the world. After they’d counted all of his fingers and toes, they looked him over, searching, searching, but in the end they would hand baby Edward back to his mother, a concerned, pinched looks on their faces. In a hushed voice they explained to her that, unfortunately, it looked like her baby didn’t have his soul mark.

It was left mostly unspoken for the first few years of his life, but Eddie quickly learned that being born without a soul mark was akin to being born without a soul. Or so the old wives tales say. Destined to walk this earth alone. Born wrong.

It wasn’t fair, Eddie knew. Lots of people didn’t even end up finding their soul mates! They just hooked up, got married and made a life for themselves on their own terms. But for some reason it was different for people like him. To never have had a mark was like the universe took one look at Eddie and said he didn’t deserve even the option of running the same race as everyone else.

The game was rigged! And as usual, it was Eddie Munson who’d always seemed to come up snake eyes. He tattoos himself instead, marks that were just for himself and no one else. Wore them like armor, determined not to let anyone make him feel less than for the way he was born.

Steve, on the other hand had, at the ripe old age of 19, already met and lost his soul mate. Although, when he really stopped to think about it—did he ever really meet the real Billy Hargrove? Even before the Mind Flayer had his tendrils all throughout Billy’s brain, using him like a meat puppet, it wasn’t like Billy had ever dropped his macho, tough guy act long enough to ever let Steve in.

Maybe in another universe they could have had something. Could have pressed their marks together; completed one another. But in the hellmouth that was Hawkin Indiana, Steve knew it wouldn’t do him any good to dwell on it. His soulmate was gone, rendering his mark useless. But at least he had a mark, right?

Steve had heard the rumors about Eddie, of course. That he was a freak. Born soulless. Empty. Nothing inside of him for a mark to spring from. Steve knows now that all of that was total bullshit. Steve had seen first hand how Eddie was with the kids, how he took them under his wing. And not only that, he had protected them, along with a town that fucking hated him. Steve had watched him fight like hell to stay alive, knew how the death of Chrissy still haunted him… he had as much of a soul as anyone. So why if he didn’t have a mark?

Steve wonders what the rumors will be once people find out that he and Eddie have been secretly dating for the past few months. That they were two pieces from two entirely different puzzles that have no right being mashed together, maybe. And hell, they might be right. Steve and Eddie were all odds and ends, but it didn’t matter. Life was what they made it, and they were making it up as they went along.

They were two souls that found each other, against all odds—not because they were pulled along by destiny or soul ties, with nothing to keep them together except sheer stubbornness, honest to god devotion, and the love they both shared. All of it of their own making. Steve and Eddie chose to be together, day in, day out. Fate not required.

And Steve thinks that’s pretty fucking romantic.

[msookyspooky]

OMG YOU WATCHED LISA FRANKENSTIEN AND LOVED IT?! <33

I've been waiting for that especially since you've posted Gomez and Morticia (The goal of all goals) on your blog! It's an odd request but I still read and love your Set Up series so can we get a crossover with YN as Lisa Swallow's and the boys as The Creature? ( Cole Sprouse lowkey reminds me of young Skeet Ulrich which considering Riverdale it's no wonder)

Wait cause no this is such a good idea I cannot pass it up I got so much work to do but I REALLY wanna write for this! (I got so many request I'm trying to do in my inbox but uh...This is my current hyperfixation srry)

I wish I could draw better to make zombies of them fhjaafg ♡♡♡ If anyone wants to add onto this or request other characters please do (And anyone seeing this; watch Lisa Frankenstein I loved it)

🔪 Scream / Lisa Frankenstein Crossover 🧟‍♂️

Iⁿᶜˡᵘᵈᵉᵈ﹕ ʳᵃⁿᵈʸ ᵐᵉᵉᵏˢ, ˢᵗᵘ ᵐᵃᶜʰᵉʳ, ᵇⁱˡˡʸ ˡᵒᵒᵐⁱˢ, ᵐⁱᶜᵏᵉʸ ᵃˡᵗᵉʳⁱ

(Everyone is buried in this despite canon and set in the present. Fem!Reader TW: Corpse/Dead Body, Talk of Rot and Decay, Zombie BF)

🪦 Randy Meeks: Died 1998

♡ You loved his character in Stab. After you did some deep diving studying who the actual Randy was outside of the movie; you found his tombstone. (who would do this? Me and @f1nalboys Might do what Lisa did and write your name over his etched name *Meeks* on a piece of paper. Bc of course YN Meeks just has a nice ring to it)

♡ Heard you venting about life and fell in love in his restless but lucid slumber 6ft underground. Someone actually likes his character for more than comic relief? Someone understood him? They didn't think he was just the geek?

♡ After a terrible lightning storm...Guess who fumbled and broke through your window drenched in mud and decay?

♡ Is a little hurt you aren't head over heels for him in his current state. He accidentally cried even if his pride hates that he quite literally cried his own eyes out. He's used to not getting who he wants and...Well, he may not smell himself with his nostrils rotted out but considering his eye popped out; still attached to the retina and had to be pushed back in while you're covering your nose gagging; he understands even if it hurts.

♡ Takes a shower (I'd use Dawn. Bar soap or Dove ain't gonna cut it.) and wears your clothes or robe. He still smells like a dead body and has worms but he's trying. He's got a LOT of old stab wounds from dying in that van at Windsor...Holes...Things seep out so you might wanna get tape or something idk.

♡ Do not stress this undead man out if you mischaracterize a film; he cannot talk with a missing tongue to argue; it decayed decades ago.

♡ His dead, dull eyes actually have some spark of life to them when he sees streaming for the first time. So many movies he's missed out on! Give him the remote and you never gotta worry about him leaving your room while you're gone.

♡ He accidentally kills someone you definitely did not want killed after they smelled something awful in your room, went up there, screamed, Randy went to knock them out in a panic and accidentally kills them

♡ He feels awful about it and you both decide to hide the body and use their hand to replace his missing one (Fell off lol just dead things) and shock him back to circulation somehow

♡ If you do what Lisa did and let him do...Other things with a 'back massager'. He's so madly in love and yearning for you it's insane. But if you got a crush you're yearning for; he is rolling his eyes with a grunt at this being Sid and Billy or Sid and Derek allllll over again.

♡ Less corpsey he gets with each shock session; more he can't help his feelings for you. YOU have to be the one to admit your feelings to him though because what would you want with an undead geek like him? At least in his mind.

♡ Would cry his eyes out (Not literally this time) if you were killed and 100% would resurrect your body and take care of you like you did him

♡ Is as loyal as they come. Will worship you accepting him at his geekiest, dead, grossest versions of himself and you're still here

🪦 Stu Macher: Died 1996

♡ You found his tombstone as a dare to 'bring him back' like bloody mary....No duh, it didn't work. But Stu was still aware of it in a dream like state sorta way. You didn't believe in that stuff rolling your eyes at people badgering you on where you lived.

♡ A car hits a power line and the line of electricity zaps his grave and he goes home just to see...Holy shit, you own his house!

♡ He thinks he's still the playboy man slut he was in life that can get anyone he wants so he's really offended you aren't wanting him to kiss you. Why!? Cause he has worms and his lips are a little dry from sinking into rot, he's a little bit dirty with body fluid stained clothes and he smells like a dead body? Picky!

♡ Is even more offended you're gagging and covering your nose demanding he bathe. Begrudgingly takes your dumb shower and your entire tub smells like dead bird and covered in dirt.

♡ When he comes out you see his face is very scarred under all that mud he had on him. Maybe the rumor he died via a tv crashing on his head and shocking him was true?

♡ If you piss him off...Well he can't kill you cause he needs you. But he WILL hack up a worm like a hairball just to gross you out out of pure pettiness.

♡ Just steals your clothes without asking. Lounging in your best clothes that can fit while he's leaking fluids. If not, he's stealing some guys clothes in your home. Catch him lounging in your Dad/Step Dad/Brothers/Friends best fit.

♡ Tries to steal your bed till you yell at him to get in the closet before someone sees. He guards your clothes and forces you to wear the sluttiest sexiest clothes you have...What? He's helping!

♡ He is soooooooo elated they made Stab! A whole movie with him portrayed in it by a good looking actor? He is over the moon watching it on repeat.

♡ Gets lonely easily...And bored! He's sighing to himself when you're gone and thinking how Billy is dead now and all the people he once knew, knew him as a murderer and were in their 40's. In fact, don't leave him alone long; its disastrous.

♡ Not able to yap HURTS HIM. Expect a lot of hand gestures and getting him a note pad to write on because he can't handle this

♡ Kills someone after you have an issue with them not even second guessing it. What? Problem solved! AND he gets a new body part to replace the one that rotted. Win win.

♡ He is very aware and depressed his manhood rotted off decades ago and that's probably the first body part he's going for. Especially a crush/boyfriend of yours. He can handle no ear or hand or even a tongue but his dick!? No.

♡ Sits in bed painting your nails while you rant about boys. He nods at everything when it comes to guys having their mind on one thing because well...Yeah. Especially in his case

♡ HE is the one smirking if he finds any massager and even if you want a back rub that thing is going lower. Just cause he doesn't have a peen rn doesn't mean his mind isn't in the gutter still

♡ He thinks your a girlfriend of his right away so casually without even asking you so; of course any guy coming near you is dead. Of course he's resurrecting you if you die because...Well he's starting to realize you're the only girl that doesn't scream when you see him so he's gonna hang up his player towel.

♡ Even fully restored he still has scars on his face and feels indebted to you that you don't care about his murderous ways or his face now. He takes care of you if you're dead and the roles reverse...Hell, he finds it hot you need him now.

Billy Loomis: Died 1996

♡ You were a bit odd yourself and found yourself studying the murders. Feeling conflicted about Billy because yeah he was an awful incel but researching his background you felt a bit bad he felt so alone and abandoned even with people around him. You clean off vandalism on his grave and talk to him for hours.

♡ A storm occurs after you have an awful day and cry to his grave 'I wish I was with you'...You meant dead. But well...

♡ That night lightning hits the grave and you wake up in bed to the god awful smell and his dead dirty face looking down at you. You go to scream and he covers your mouth with a cold clammy hand. Going to talk to you and a centipede falls out his mouth making you scream even louder.

♡ You almost knock his head off before he points to a picture on your desk you took of his grave surrounded by newspaper articles of his death.

♡ He thinks he finally has a person that's not a 'whore, bitch, or poser' in his eyes. A bit in love with you and is bitter you don't exactly want an ex serial killer from the 90's like that...

♡ He almost wants to kill you thinking of the betrayal till he sees his reflection and is completely defeated. Sunken dead eyes, matted dirty hair missing in places, longer haggered dirty nails, skin looking ready to fall off.

♡ He sits in your bathroom and you try to comfort him till you smell what smells like...Sewage and death and embalming fluid and your trying not to throw up.

♡ He takes a shower without being told to. Disgusted by his own rot and grime. His gun shot wound in the middle of his forehead a reminder of his failure almost 3 decades ago...Might have scrambled his brain a bit.

♡ He's a manipulator and user but he's not as...Tactless and spoiled as Stu. He feels grateful you offered him to stay despite the smell and the misunderstanding even if he's not happy sleeping on the floor or closet.

♡ He feels even more defeated when you tell him his Mom died in 1998 at Windsor College trying to avenge his death. He's beside himself over it and honestly just wants to crawl back in his icky coffin and die again.

♡ He wanders your home despite being told not to. Goes through all of your things. The lack of speaking doesn't bother him. Especially when it means he can hear you spill your guts more. He wants to observe everything.

♡ Like Randy he's pleased by the movies on streaming but not as obsessed as he was. Whether that bullet was like a lobotomy or just laying in the ground so long to 'think' in the afterlife; he's not the same guy he was in 96...Not completely. Is annoyed at his portrayal in Stab. His hair never looked like that! (Yes it did)

♡ He does kill someone when they bully or mistreat you. He feels possessive of you already and he just doesn't like assholes. He's the one that decides to steal a body part while you're staring in horror.

♡ He gets shocked and you see him a little less dead and a working body part now. So it becomes a thing for you both but you tell him 'Only those that deserve it' and he shrugs. He ain't following that but okay.

♡ Is pinning over you but hides it well. Enjoying just listening to you or watching you. HATES with a passion when you talk about guys but hides it with grunts and subtle glares.

♡ Is your ride or die when he hears police are investigating you for murder after he was the one killing them. I mean...What will they do? Re-kill him? He will do anything he can especially the more 'alive' he becomes to protect you.

♡ Once he's...Fully equipped he actually refuses to sleep with you. Still thinking 'virgins live, sluts die' like he use to. You have to tell him 'You know Sidney is still alive, right? That rule is dumb and not true.' he may get over it and sleep with you or it might still take time.

♡ He wants to go after Sid but also what's the point now? He's not exactly in tip top shape...Don't even tell him about Sam being rumored to possibly being his daughter by mega Stab fans. His undead brain will stop working.

♡ If you die he will resurrect you not out of convenience and want like Stu or devotion like Randy but more possessive ownership. You're his. Whether that's love or to control you (Both). Not even death will seperate you from him.

♡ Once he's fully recovered he has a migraine till that bullet eventually is pushed out by that one last shock and his body starts bleeding again.

♡ More than happy to be together away from everyone just you and him.

Mickey Alteri: Died 1998

♡ Everyone knows Mickey as the freak that was so obsessed with Stab and the original killers he imitated them. But what they don't realize is he killed even before Nancy found him. He was just wired different and it made him feel alive...How ironic now.

♡ You accidentally stumbled upon his grave after trying to find a different one. And...Why is it empty? Well, you had nothing to do with his resurrection just wrong place wrong time as a corpse is lumbering towards you from behind a tombstone with bullet wounds all over him.

♡ He wanted to snap your neck just to fell something again till his own leg fell off and he face planted on the ground.

♡ You of course didn't know he was trying to kill you. You still tried to get away before you saw him just sitting there and...Sighing? It wasn't a mindless zombie after you? Even worse; he grabbed your keys when you ran.

♡ Ask for them back and like a damn child he shakes his head with grunts. You swear to God you heard 'nuh uh' in his grunt. (Keep his leg away give me the keys or I'm yeeting your leg)

♡ Takes a shower at your house and like Randy all those holes are leaking...Icky stuff. He had more muscle before he died so his body mass shockingly is thinner but not as much as it should be? You're talking to a corpse it doesn't have to make sense. All you know is he just walked around naked and you saw disgusting things on the human body you never wanna know after death. You gotta make him wear clothes!

♡ You're in this awkward situation where...The dead guy has feelings and thoughts and is urging he wants to go home with you. Whether you say yes or no he knows your car and will find you.

♡ Sew his leg back on or give him a funny replacement like a peg leg and tell him deal with it. What are you? A surgeon?

♡ Little did you know the second you came for your keys and talked to him he claimed you as his just for being different than most victims. More eager than Stu, falling even faster than Randy, more obsessive than Billy and POSSIBLY crazier than the og Ghostface's...You're having a corpse that is already planning to make you his (Might even kill you so you have to be with him when he resurrects you like he was.)

♡ Other than killing and movies you're the first thing to make him feel something and he is not letting that go.

♡ Wears your clothes, watches your tv, listens to you talk, plans to kill anyone that fucks with you, watches you when you sleep, dresses you up.

♡ The first kill is a guy interested in you. You are his now! He doesn't hesitate to take a few body parts to have you sew on him. Finds the whole process endearing. He's nuts guys idk. You just gotta drill it in his head not to kill a family member, close friend or pet or you won't forgive him because he cannot have that. He wants your affection and attention so he'll be good when it comes to that.

♡ With each shock he gets more lively and bolder. Dancing with you and ignoring the worm that you don't know where it fell out of. Trying to cuddle you even if you gotta start smearing vicks under your nose. Won't hesitate to kiss all over you once he's not as rotten and tries to think of your pleasure before his.

♡ He never hides his obsession and will let you know with a hand on your throat not to talk about guys around him before lovingly caressing your cheek afterwards as an apology.

♡ If you die, not by him, he is furious and will kill anyone in his path before resurrecting you. He'll take care of you in the most yanadere way. You're his forever now.

[isagrimorie]

trick or treat! Happy Halloween!

for the writing ask game

Belated Happy Halloween!

For this I'm going with a new fic idea.

It's a Big Damn Epic idea I do not have the spoons to do but, maybe someday.

My idea is inspired by something I read from the Marvel Comics wiki about Lady Death and the Death of Death arc or something similar where Death is in danger.

I don't know how to go about it but the encompassing idea is that someone, or an intergalactic group/cult wants to end Death ala the group from 12 Monkeys. The Monkeys wants to end time so no one will die.

It's the same idea, they think the source of all their grief is Death, and learn the Concept of Death is a literal walking and talking entity. They are a group that's existed for centuries across the stars.

Leaping off from Gorr's god-killing spree, the group gods can die, they go for the Gods of Death. They have killed some Death Gods but death and dying still exist.

Until they hit on the existence of the Cosmic Beings and the second oldest entity in the universe: Lady Death.

Somehow word gets around that the Lady Death loved a Human, and the intergalactic cult descended on Earth searching for the Human Death Loved.

A Diviniation Witch gets hold of this news, it is not a future but a near future warning, passed from one seer to another, a resistance against the Life Cult--and this reaches Ghost Agatha.

Agatha hears the news and just cackles. "What're they going to do, I'm dead. Also, please, nothing will kill Rio, she's Death."

Agatha is acting blasé about this and Billy is puzzled why she's being cavalier. She gets roped in to help save Death.

"I'm telling you guys, she doesn't need help!"

Billy refuses to hear this and tries to find a way to 'save Death'.

Agatha: "That's not even a cool band name!"

Agatha gets emotionally invested in the middle of it, and she can't really let Billy die. Because if Billy's spirit jumps bodies again, Rio will really appear and find a way to kill a ghost.

So, even though she thinks it's still a bad idea to get involve, Agatha helps.

"Also the group is also looking for me! They want me for LEV-ER-AGE!"

Billy: "What can they do to you? You're a ghost!"

TLDR, Agatha is right. They trap Agatha in a device that can entrap souls. Agatha is terrified for herself because the Cult leader claims that the device can destroy souls.

The group urges Agatha to call out to Death (they have an infinity stone ready to entrap Death). Agatha refuses. She's terrified and wise, and telling all kinds of jokes.

Billy and Kamala try to reach Agatha (yes, Billy recruited the Young Avengers for this. Kate: "I'm in my twenties! I'm not a teenager! Why am I a part of this group??").

When things are looking hopeless, suddenly a figure in black appears with a skull face and dark hair.

The device explodes, and Agatha is freed.

"Is that Death?" Kamala asked, awed.

Kate still has her arrow nocked. "Hey, I thought you said, Death was a lady?"

Billy: "She is."

Kate gestured towards the figure standing over Agatha. "Are you sure? 'Cause Death looks more like a dude."

"What?" Billy turns his head. Agatha was looking up at the figure before her, looking stunned.

"Hi," the boy, who looked almost like Kate's age said. It's not that his face was a skull, there was still some flesh but it looked like his skull was superimposed over his face. "Mama."

"Nicky?!"

There's a moment of shock and a huge wave of emotion hits Agatha and she lunges forward. There was so much emotion in Agatha that she looked like she gained physical form.

"I missed you."

"Thank you for making an appearance, Death's Child."

And then, it's apparently all an elaborate trap for Nicky, to get to Lady Death.

Rio would do almost anything for Agatha, but Lady Death would break worlds for her son.

And before her eyes, Nicky is siphoned into a reforged infinity stone.

Agatha is fury but as a ghost, there is not a lot she can do. Rio finally appears, fury incarnate and demands they free Nicky but the group vanishes.

Leaving behind a voice message.

"We will make demands now, Lady Death. If you want to keep your son safe."

It turns out that in the act of trying to save Death, they triggered the very thing that could be Death's downfall.

(And many more things happen, that will end up with Rio and Agatha teaming up).

TBC!

[tenpintsof-sundrop]

would you ever think of writing another Nancy Wheeler x reader fic (not necessarily a long one)??

Oh I definitely would. Idk if Nancy is on the list of characters that I write for on my rules page on @sundrop-writes - but she should be.

She is by far one of my favourite characters, and I really enjoy writing for her.

It's weird to me to see the disparity between how exhaustingly popular Eddie and Steve fics are and how much attention those fics get vs how little attention Robin and Nancy fics get.

Especially Nancy fics - it's almost like because Robin is canonically a lesbian people are more likely to search for fics for her? But the point of fanfiction is to write non canon romances, and explore non-canon relationships. People beg for more wlw representation and more wlw fanfiction past the oversaturation of male love interests and then nobody gives the female love interests any attention when people do write fics about them. Which is majorly my experience - all of my female/wlw fics are far less popular.

Anyway - the lack of general interest in Nancy fics wouldn't stop me for writing about her. I just want good inspiration.

I'm Still Standing was the Nancy fic for me. I may have mentioned it before, but I had the idea for the fic (based off the song and based off my own personal life experiences) before I chose the love interest. And I think originally the love interest was going to be Eddie? Because he was one of my main muses at the time and because the cure to Vecna is themed around music and Eddie is a musician - but when I was rewatching ST and I saw the scenes of Nancy fighting the monsters in the hospital, I love how it played to my personal themes of medical trauma, and I felt like Nancy fit the story better than anybody else.

I don't always choose a love interest because I am romantically or sexually attracted to them, I choose them because I feel intensely compelled to write about them and tell a story with them. (See: my Billy Hargrove fic Drowning In You and my recent Dick Grayson series.)

So if I write for Nancy again, it would be because there is a compelling story to be told about her character.

This is an idea that just came to mind as I was typing this:

The reader character being in place of Barbara, and them having a small romantic spark - and like Barb, the reader gets attacked by the demigorgon at Steve's pool party when Nancy chooses to pursue Steve. But rather than dying, the reader is taken to the Upside Down and manages to survive the attack, but gets stuck in that other world - and only gets out much later (maybe at the same time Eleven does around the end of S1?) (I am quite literally spit balling here)

And when the group is on the boat looking for the Gate, even though the reader is terrified and has heavy trauma surrounding The Upside Down, she doesn't hesitate to chase Nancy when Nancy jumps into the water.

Alternatively: the reader disappears at Steve's pool and all the time passes from S1 to S4, and when the group ends up inside the Gate in the lake, the reader saves them from the bats - being skilled with killing the monsters from having survived in the Upside Down for so long. This is her first reunion with Nancy after Nancy thought she had been dead the whole time, and though many many months have passed, time in the Upside Down is weird, so for the reader, it has felt like weeks at most

Idk. Spitballing

[mxltifxnd0m]

i had to step away . someone put me down please. that was one of the hottest things i've ever read daisy nothing could have prepared me for that . absolutely nothing. i'm gone. i'm dead. i'm done for. i can't even like. articulate real words it feels like. literally speechless rn. you're insane. you're crazy. that was insane. that was crazy. that was one of hte hottest things that i've ever read in my years of reading smut. wow. i should be put away i think lock me up because i've been so feral for sam all night and that. that really didn't help. i- i will make it back to reblog that fic but i think i need a minute. i need a second. i need to collect myself otherwise the whole reblog will look like this W&^$(&WYE^(#&$Q(*@)Q(WR(W&E($&*)*!)*&#@($&^$(&^#$0827-(+!8020*&)*#&$_(*_ mari.exe has crashed

-mari @prentissluvr

KJAHDOFBAIHBDKJHLDFJADNFJBLMAOOOLOLLJSDHFO

LMAO IDK IF I SHOULD BE PROUD OR WORRIED THAT I WAS ABLE TO RENDER YOU THIS SPEECHLESS (i will have to say i started to smile like a fucking maniac and laughing reading this in my inbox)

IM SORRY MY LOVE PLEASE DON'T DIE I DIDN'T MEAN TO KILL YOU WITH MY SMUT

can you imagine i started writing this fic at 11 o'clock in the morning just because i listened to guess by charlie xcx and billie eilish LMAOO (perhaps might make one for other characters >:D)

no im feeling the exact same way about sam right now, hence why i wrote the smut in the first place because @_@ I NEED HIM SO BAD I NEED TO BE LOCKED UP

ARGHH IM GLAD YOU LOVED THE SMUT THOUGH MARI MY DARLING <33

^^ me when reading this in my inbox

[azurezfiction]

What are your favorite ships for Power Rangers characters? Especially for characters like Conner and Javi?

That is a very loaded question! I have a lot of ships that I have for my favourite characters (main of which can be considered rarepairs or crackpairs). Before we get to those, let's tackle Conner and Javi first shall we?

So, for Conner. When it comes to shipping for him, I tend to lean towards outside of the Dino Thunder team. (mainly because you can tear CassidyxEthan from my cold, dead, rotten corpse thank you very much). A friend of mine and I joked about the DT rangers meeting the Squadron rangers, and Conner immediately swooing over Xev and Telosi.

Look me in the eyes and tell me Conner wouldn't immediately start simping over Xev, Telosi and their muscles.

He probably also has a thing for Cole. Especially those biceps and Ryan. And Shane. And Hunter. and Dustin. Adam. Rocky. Definitely Jason. Big time. Eric is out though. He shares a name with Conner's bro, and that's a major no. He'd absolutely go ga-ga over Dillion. Damon's, TJ, Mike C, and Leo too. Chad.

I'd say Joel too but... lets be honest, no one can win against Angela Fairweather. No one.

Anyone with muscles, Conner's there. But when it comes to romantic involvement for shipping? Xev, Telosi, Dillion, Cole, possibly Shane. Depending on how it's written, DustinxConnerxHunter... long as Dustin isn't Erik McKnight's teacher, I'm good.

Now, for Javi...

I'm blaming @skyland2703 for my growing fondness for JavixAmelia. It's a very cute couple, and I can't believe I never thought of them as a ship until I started seeing their content. Another friend of mine has also made me a fan of Javi x Ollie too, and with Russell's (Zayto) recent tweet it does make me curious if Javi x Zayto will happen or the potential it could hold.

As for my favourite characters... I have a variety of ships~ I'll go in order of series that way no one gets left out or behind.

MMPRS1-Turbo 1: Katherine x Billy; One of my top OTPs of all time. I really wanted them to have nice things. Tommy x Jason, Tommy x Kim: These two have my heart~ And you can't tell me something wasn't going on between Tommy and Jason through the series. Adam x Rocky, Adam x Rocky x Aisha x Tanya, Adam x Tanya, Rocky x Aisha, Aisha x Shawna, Aisha x Tanya; Do I really need to explain? These four are pretty much rock solid. Splitting them apart if like a huge NO imo. Turbo 2-Wild Force TJ x Cassie; Lets be honest, the Phantom Ranger was never gonna stick around for Cassie. She needs someone dependable in her life and that's TJ. Zhane x Andros: Once again, utterly blaming a friend of mine for this. I've fallen down the rabbit hole and can't seem to get out. Zhane x Astronema/Karone: I can't help it. It's a cute ship! Mike Corbett x Carlos Vallerte: My OTP of Power Rangers. I forever be shipping them and hopefully getting my motivation to actually get writing them, I read a fic several years ago that made me ship them. Unfortunately that fic no longer exists. Kai x Damon; literally don't know how I came up with this one, but I thought it would be pretty cute that the engineer/mechanic and the uptight soldier would hook up with one another, and Damon endlessly flirting with him non-stop even during work hours~ Ryan x Carter: My OTP of Lightspeed. I feel like Ryan would be great for Carter, helping him come out of his shell a bit and be a more explorative while sharing quiet moments when it's simply the two of them. Dana x Taylor; Soft military nurse that will kill you with kindness and Taylor that disciplined military pilot that can kick your ass with a glare? It can't go wrong! Nancy x Kelsey: It's match made in heaven. PROVE. ME. WRONG. Eric x Wes, Eric x Wes x Jen: It's inevitable that they three will end up together. And you can FEEL that chemistry/tension between Eric and Wes on scream. They definitely have something back during their school days. Katie x Trip: Do I need to explain? Merrick x Cole: I have a weakness for these two, it's just... they simply FIT together. Ninja Storm - RPM Dustin x Hunter: I like how the two bounce off each other, and their aesthetics that match together. They definitely have very good chemistry together and I can see them ending up together at the end of Ninja Storm. Ethan x Cassidy: LET. THEM. HAVE. NICE. THINGS. Sky x Bridge: I know, I know. I've been pulled on the Sky x Bridge train, but you can't tell me there isn't something going on between them. Vida x Chip: I really love these two. I know they are best friends and everything, but at the same time, I feel like their romance is something very believable that can happen between them. Giving it the proper time to grow. Xander x Nick: This is a guilty pleasure of mine but like... *squints* like you can't tell me that the two had SOMETHING happening when no one was looking. RJ x Casey: Need I say more? There's no heterosexual relationship about them. Dillion x Ziggy:... Just let me have this. Please? They personally had more chemistry in my eyes than Dillion and Summer. But that's simply me. Flynn x Gemma: SOUL MATES. Samurai to Dino Fury/Cosmic Fury(?) Jayden x Antonio: THERE IS NO HETEROSEXUAL EXPLANATION FOR THESE TWO. Gia x Emma: I say by what I say when I say Gia should have been leader and red. Noah x Orion: Nerdy boy and alien? SO MUCH POTENTIAL! Tyler x Shelby: One of the few times I do enjoy the main couple in the show~ Matt Griffin x Tyler x Ivan: I blame my friend for this but you can't tell me it wouldn't be interesting. The modern cowboy, the explorer, and the knight? Imagine the shenanigans! Izzy x Fern: QUEENS. They deserver EVERYTHING! I don't really ship a lot involving Beast Morphers, Ninja Steel, or Dino Fury yet. I'm waiting to see what Cosmic Fury holds first to see how the relationships grow and change for the second season.

My number 1 crackship of all time:

Dane Romero x Mr Kelman x Andrew Hartford: Involving time shenanigans that ensure all three are around the same age and being able to be in love and be together without any problems. I have NO idea why or how I came up with this ship, but it's mine and I love it~

[waitingforwinterwinds]

A Clash of Kings - 30 ARYA VII (pages 413-425)

Arya adapts to life at Harrenhal, and learns she owes the Red God a debt. She makes the first payment of three.

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There was always talk of Beric Dandarrion. A fat archer once said the Bloody Mummers had slain him, but the others only laughed. "Lorch killed the man at Rushing Falls, and the Mountain's slain him twice. Got me a silver stag says he don't stay dead this time neither."

For the foreseeable future, I will henceforth be picturing Beric as a man in purple with a black eye mask and striped underwear.

... now I want to rewatch the 1996 Billy Zane movie.

Beneath the standard of a black goat with bloody horns-

ngl my first thought was "The Bloody Mummers are Satanists?" (They certainly sound demonic of character)

After the hanged men had stopped kicking, Vargo Hoat and Ser Harys embraced and kissed and swore to love each other always as Lord Tywin looked on.

I'm choosing to imagine that they frenched, (I didn't actually choose it, it's just how I imagined the scene as I read it,) and that Tywin is a voyeur, and also that he is the worst relationship councilor in the history of ever.

(I think I might be a little mean today. We could cover it over and call it sassy or snarky or whatever men call it when ladies are mean but they like it, but we all know it's just mean.)

When she thought of seeing Robb's face again Arya had to bite her lip. And I want to see Jon too, and Bran and Rickon, and mother. Even Sansa... I'll kiss her and beg her pardons like a proper lady, she'll like that.

Awwww. I want to wrap her up safe, rescue her from this shit hole and take her home to be with her family.

I'm actually a little surprised that Arya hasn't had even a tiny meltdown now that she has some medium of safety, that's usually when the mental protection and disassociations begin breaking down, because mental resources start freeing up, but even though Arya has a steady food supply, hygiene and sleeping in easy reach, doesn't mean she's actually safe and she obviously knows that, she's still in as much danger as she was before, the danger just looks different now.

Oh no! Lord Cerwyn! That's Cley's dad! And Arya's down another ally that she never really had. LET ME HUG HER!!!

He'd bought a ton of silver to forge into magic swords that would slay the Stark wargs.

Well that's just the wrong show. Good to know conspiracy theorists will thrive in any world.

Arya's being really smart, keeping her ears open for gossip while she keeps her head down, alas, rumours make tabloids not news.

He laid a finger on her lips. "Three lives you shall have of me. No more, no less. Three and we are done. So a girl must ponder." He kissed her hair softly. "But not too long."

Uhhhh... bad touch? I... I feel very confused, on whether that was supposed to be familial comfort type or just creepy type? You didn't need to kiss her hair, what the hell man? (I might just be keyed to read that as creepy because GRRM does love writing shit like that which is creepy...)

...

...

... I need to be fucking sick, and I need so many of these men to be very fucking dead. Well, one out of many, I'll have to settle for it. For now.

"- Some are saying it was Harren's ghost, flung him down." He snorted to show what he thought of such notions. It wasn't Harren, Arya wanted to say, it was me. She had killed him with a whisper, and she would kill two more before she was through. I'm the ghost in Harrenhal, she thought. And that night, there was one less name to hate.

What I do like about this chapter is that it feels like Arya is getting her second wind, regaining her footing and sense of power. Not big power, but the power to do something, literally any thing, after so long being able to do nothing. And she's calling back her father's and Robb's words, being responsible for the lives taken, "If you would take a man's life, you owe it to him to look him in the face and hear his last words," but she also knows she doesn't have that kind of power and ability.

There's a blurred line here between justice and vengeance but Arya still holds the responsibility around killing another human (outside of desperate battle).

Chiswyck's last words probably would have been trash anyway.

oh gosh, draft autosave just rescued me again ^_^'

[adultswim2021]

Delocated #1: “Pilot” | April 1, 2008 - 12:30AM | S01E01

I have to admit that I don’t really remember the lead-up to this series. It must’ve been reported somewhere, and I surely anticipated it. In this chronological watch-through for this blog, I’m mostly relying on records of what shows aired at what time, but as far as the ancillary things surrounding those shows (like how they were announced or promoted or audience reactions) I’m mostly relying on my own memories, if I have any. For this show I have a vague sense that I must’ve known about it beforehand. I posted on aspecialthing.com, where Jason Woliner also posted. He was the DP and editor of this episode. I have some inkling that I watched this episode knowing “a guy I know on a message board worked on this”. Oh yeah, this would’ve been post Human Giant. I don’t mean to damn anyone by giving their top credit as “associated with me online”. 

The comedy pedigree doesn’t stop there. In fact, I’m only leading with the guy I know because he’s the guy I know. Yet another case to be made for me doing a bad job writing this blog. But, please, read this anyway: Jon Glaser stars as “Jon”, a guy who’s in the witness relocation program. He was primarily known as being part of Late Night with Conan O’Brien, doing hilarious characters in sketches and comedy pieces. His personal bodyguard, Mike, is Kevin Dorff, and his boss at Copy City is Brian Kiley, both of whom are also from Conan. Eugene Mirman plays a guy from the Russian mafia. I can’t recall him ever being on Conan, but he’s definitely from the same New York comedy scene. He must’ve done a few things on there (UPDATE: He did stand-up on Conan; can’t find any evidence of him being a sketch player and I don’t feel like clicking page 2 of google to find out). 

I don’t recall if the show ever makes a point to fully lay out exactly what “Jon”’s involvement was in whatever mafia-related crime he witnessed, and I don’t think it really matters. What matters is that the Russian mafia wants him dead. He’s agreed to put himself and his family on camera because he’s also a buffoon who, like many other clout-chasing but unexceptional American dipshits, is absolutely enchanted with the idea of becoming famous. So the show-within-the-show exhibits a bit of tortured logic: put your anonymous witness and his family on camera for a reality series, BUT, outfit them with ski masks and micro titanium vocal harmonizers that have been surgically implanted onto their vocal cords so that they can’t be identified. 

The premise of the show is that he’s moving his family to New York City to live in a bitchin’ loft. He’s taking on a job at a copy shop, “mak-in’ cop-ees” as us 90s kids refer to it. When they get to their new accommodations, they find out it’s a crappy little studio apartment, basically a hotel room. Jon gets on the phone with the producers to yell at them and thoughtlessly refers to the fact that he didn’t put his family in murder’s way for a rinky-dink studio apartment. His wife is aghast after overhearing this cold display. The fact that she and their son have become pawns in his opportunism motivates her to leave him, taking their son “David” with her. Eventually “Jon” begins a dating, and we see a montage of disastrous dates. He quotes a crass Billy Joel lyric to Julie Klausner, a disgusting crime. I was literally so enraged that I said “ma’am, is this fella bothering you?” to my TV.

A central scene in the pilot is one where “Jon” is out clothes shopping and he spots Paul Rudd. As he’s complimenting him for his work, we hear a gun with a silencer go off. Apparently the assassin was trying to kill “Jon”, but they shoot Paul Rudd instead. This is a tragic occurrence, causing “Jon” to loudly mourn the entertainment world’s loss by weepily listing Paul Rudd’s credits as he lay lifeless in his arms. Mike eventually joins in. Though tragic, This is a key bonding moment for the two of them. Later we see Mike also quote a crass Billy Joel lyric to “Jon”, strengthening their bond further.

The final scene is we see Eugene Mirman talking on the phone, discussing his botched assassination attempt. He makes a dramatic proclamation vowing to kill “Jon” if it’s the last thing he does. He eventually questions how reality TV cameras got into his apartment. 

The pilot, in particular, plays with a lot of reality show tropes that are later dispensed with in the regular series. Talking-head confessionals and scene transitions with establishing-shot b-roll set to generic-sounding hip-hop beats are seen here, but not really seen afterwards. Jon Glaser notes this in the commentary. By the way, there’s DVD commentary on this episode. He also notes that the ski mask was, for the most part, mistakenly worn inside-out for this pilot, and if you really look closely at the seams you can tell that’s the case. 

He also notes that the Paul Rudd scene is actually taken directly from a demo they shot for the series. The demo is actually called “Relocated”, and is rather short, and doesn’t include “Jon” having a family. It also makes a point to mention that Eugene’s character is an alternative comic, who performs in Russian. The demo ends with “Jon” performing with Yo La Tengo, and we get to see him sing a few bars of “Sugar Cube”. Way to not cheap out, Adult Swim. 

Another thing to note is that there’s a doorman character in this who obviously has a fake mustache, which gets pointed out by “Jon”’s son “David”. This seems like a set-up for some kind of plot where we find out the doorman is a mole or something. This actor actually doesn’t come back for the series, and is replaced with Assy McGee’s own Larry Murphy. I forget how this thread plays out, but I’m pretty sure it’s just an ancillary bit of weirdness.

The thing about this show is that it’s in many ways a very typical Adult Swim show; it’s an intentionally stupid premise, and the writers could, if they felt like it, rest on their laurels and just be satisfied with the idea that the main joke of the show is that it exists at all and hope for the best. I’m talking about shows like Saul of the Mole Men, or Fat Guy Stuck in Internet. I feel like those shows sorta got away with something, even though time hasn’t been kind to either of those shows.

This show is so much better than that. In fact, the thing that strikes me about this show is that it has this uncanny ability to refresh itself and become something entirely different. The status quo on this show gets shaken up fairly frequently. Characters are killed off. Plot lines that could fuel material for an entire season are burned off in the span of a single episode. It’d be like if Twin Peaks solved Laura Palmer’s murder in episode 2 and somehow didn’t suffer for it. I haven’t watched it in a while, and I’m glad to have it in the mix.

EPHEMERA CORNER:

Superjail #2: “Superbar” (FINE CUT VERSION) | April 1, 2008 - 12:45AM | S01E01

Here’s another one I’m gonna save for later: Superjail’s first proper episode was presented in a mostly-finished state. I remember watching it and thinking it was great, though, for whatever that’s worth. I actually got a hold of a copy of the as-aired-on-April-Fools version of this, and the main thing I noticed is that it started off with a back title card that said “Waiting” on it for about 10 seconds, leading me to believe that this was some sort of internal Cartoon Network thing they were making fun of on Space Ghost. There’s also no theme song or credits; the opening has generic library music over it with a subtitle explaining that the real theme song hasn’t been cleared yet.

[hannahwatcheshorror]

SILENT NIGHT, DEADLY NIGHT (1984)

Y’all this was a lot of fun and I didn’t even know it existed until about a day ago. Basically a kid gets his Christmas all jacked up by some jacked up adults and then one day he finally pops off and it is pretty glorious. I’m not sure that all the killing blows were deadly, or that deadly right away but it was still a good movie exaggeration or no.

⭐⭐⭐⭐

Sexual Harassment/Abuse, Child Abuse, PTSD

On Christmas Eve ‘lil Bill and his family are driving to see their mentally impaired grandfather who just happens to tell Billy a terrifying tale about how Santa will get him, then that night a guy in a Santa suit kills his mom, dad, and tries to get him as well. That kind of thing would give anyone a complex and now the kid is an orphan who gets PTSD during Christmas which is just a whole lot for him. Like, Billy decks the orphanage’s Santa which was fucking awesome but also not good, “What the hell is wrong with that kid” a dude in a Santa suit EXACTLY like the one you are wearing murdered his family four (4) years ago so the kid is a little testy. But back to the First Santa Killer (because there is a “First” one), I was actually shocked that the First Santa Killer was so concerned with the little kid but left the crying baby alone. I was glad he wasn’t a baby killer, that would have made for a much darker film, but it didn’t make a lot of sense to me because this dude was a pretty bad guy (I’m talking naughty list bad).

Billy and his brother go to an orphanage where the Mother Superior is very hard on him and strict about what is naughty and who should be punished (basically anyone who has premarital sex) which really sticks with him. Time passes, he gets a job at a toy shop and then comes around his favorite time of year and he himself plays the role of the dreaded Santa Claus. The whole thing is driving him to the edge though and upon hearing that Christmas Eve is the night Santa “does his thing” Billy promptly topples over the edge of all that is holy and becomes a festive machine of punishment. He punishes his coworker for assaulting his other coworker which is very boss of him but then he keeps going and just kills everyone who has ever been naughty and maybe that isn’t very fair of him. He is even very hard on a child and only gave her a used boxcutter for being good (lame!).

Sledders are losing their heads in the park as our Second Santa Killer makes his way back to the orphanage he calls home to attack the Naughty Mother Superior. They attempt to warn the orphanage with the police but this ends up getting a priest dressed as Santa shot dead which was pretty unfortunate for him (he was deaf so he couldn’t hear the police commands). Billy gets to the orphanage and the kids let him in because he is fucking Santa and why wouldn’t they let in Santa? They were literally told he would be the special guest and spent the day writing letters to him, it is not shocking at all they would see Santa and let him in the building, how are we surprised by this? So Billy is inside and is about to axe the Naughty out of the Mother Superior when he gets shot by a different police officer brought in by the lesser nun who tried really hard all movie to take care of him but was never really allowed. He dies looking at all the kids and being really creepy and haunting about it, and then his little brother starts with the “naughty” thing. Wack.

[komilys]

i love these things bc they rly make me think more about my f/o’s !! (also a lot of my f/o’s parents are dead, not in the picture, or not even in canon, i’ve realised now.)

gene: his mom actually really like me! she always thought i was a nice person for him to be around, though she was more concerned for me being around him than him around me— she knew her eldest wasn’t exactly the nicest to me, but once i started hanging around him more her worries were eased. she thought i knew what i was doing, so it was fine.

(she could have prevented a lot of things, me thinks, if she had just asked a little more).

dante and i are best friends, actually! i only actually met gene through dante. dante got freaked when he found out we were together, but he figured if anyone deserved his brother, it might as well have been someone he knows and trusts.

dante: can u not do that. in front of me. i’m gonna throw up. this sucks. god. get a room. what the hell. what the hell. don’t do it more— STOP.

(he definitely does the whole grossed out face when he sees us close though).

&

garroth: big family so here we go ! — like gene’s family, i became well acquainted with them when i was still real young— younger than when i met dante (fifth grade) actually— about preschool age.

i think zianna’s love is just. for everyone? i think she loves very easily, including this random kid of her husband’s friends. i think with her it’s like, the more the merrier! she saw this little kid and said how could i not love them? she was very happy to see her son with somebody nice.

vylad and zane i get along with well!! zane hated my ass for so long though. it was a love-hate relationship, and to be honest he was my favourite brother of the three for years. (i… didn’t like garroth for a long time).

vylad and i also get along well, before i hit like second year of high school, i’d consider him my closest friend behind dante. vylad was the first person i ever really talked about how i felt about myself; he’d give me his clothes sometimes. (and zane got used to me, eventually, after i wore him down for years lolol)

vylad: omg!! i’m so happy for you ☺️

zane: i literally do not fucking care get out of my room

garte is complicated i’d literally write an entire fic over his and garroth’s relationship.

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wild card !!

billy: (following the timeline in which he died— aka canon) his mother tried to kill me. so.

but even before that she never really liked me. billy and her have a weird relationship me thinks. like one freud would have a field day with. of course she thinks billy could do better, she’s said it to his face before. just straight up asked: “there’s no one else, no one better, you have a little crush on?”

also that— she very much liked to downplay his feelings for me. she always commented on it as a little crush. and she always treated me like a tiny kid (which granted, i definitely was younger than billy and stu…) but she did it less in a ‘concerned-for-your-safety-and-well-being’ way and in more of a patronising, ‘no-one-is-good-enough-for-my-little-boy’ way.

also following the canon timeline !! his dad never really had an opinion of me. he didn’t take much interest in his son’s life anyways, not much beyond maybe the bare minimum. he didn’t care much after his son’s death either. but he appreciated the efforts i went to with billy’s funeral. he didn’t really understand— what with knowing he’d killed my mom and friends, and tried to kill the rest of my family— but he figured he should just be grateful somebody cared. even if a little.

Imagine how you’d interact with your f/o’s family. Do they like you? Do they think your f/o deserves better?

[madeleine-w]

Stranger Things Characters Summed Up

Warnings: bit of swearing and mentions of sex. (This has made me want to write smut about Eddie, Billy and Steve… and 001) Overall just me being a whore for fictional characters.

Joyce: She got less unhinged after season 1 which made me sad, but my favourite mum on TV at the moment. Can’t tell if I’m in love with her or want her to adopt me, but either way if she gave me a cuddle I’d start crying. I’m not sure how she created such boring sons tho.

Hopper: No one will ever love me the way this man loves Joyce. He’s my comfort character, and him arguing with the kids is fucking hilarious. “Maybe I will allow you to date my daughter” I LOVE HIM SO MUCH. Best Dad™️.

Billy: A tragic villain done perfectly, and I half fall in love whenever he’s on screen until I remember that he’s a racist. I’m a simp but I have morals. (But also, like, the potential this man had to be the loveliest in the world)

Bob: Was the scene of him dead and being eaten really necessary? No. It made for good TV though.

Max: Deserves way better than those boys, and is the ginger icon the 80s needed. I would get in a car with her.

Eleven: My wholesome little murderer. She’s somehow part of an amazing duo (Hopper/El) and a terrible one (Mike/El) so I must blame Mike for this.

Mike: If Stranger Things was a Christmas dinner, he would be the brussel sprouts.

Will: Surprisingly resilient for a guy who looks like a slightly strong wind would take him out. Just let this boy be gay and play D&D in peace.

Dustin: Somehow two steps ahead of everyone and four steps behind them at the same time? I love it, and the show would be shit without him.

Robin: An barely-functioning lesbian with autism? I love to see it and I love her. I’m very gay and she is the perfect example of why. I want to play with her hair while she talks about her hyperfixations.

Lucas: He’s cool when everything is fine, and really annoying during a crisis. I’m pleased that a show set in the 80s hasn’t killed off the black guy four seasons in. Less interesting than his sister, but him and Max are pretty funny.

Nancy: A solid character when you remove her from the Jonathan and Steve situation. She’s very clearly in love with two men, girl take a break from dating and buy a vibrator. She’s very hot with a gun and uses it well, which automatically earns my respect.

Steve: I am so in love with this man, and the fact he uses a baseball bat instead of a gun is beyond sexy to me. Please fuck me. “Yeah it’s me, don’t cream your pants” Sir I am literally on my knees.

Less horny Steve version: Him protecting those kids is definitely my favourite thing about this show. The character growth is impeccable, and I melt whenever he makes the kids go ahead of him when there’s a danger.

Jonathan: Oh yeah, he’s… there? A good brother but that’s kind of it, a very bleh character. I’m still not really over him taking those pics of Nancy and Steve…

001: Very hot while he was murdering the kids. Less hot while he was murdering Max.

Eddie: I want him to rail me while I praise him. And HE DIDN’T RUN AWAY THIS TIME :(



[lottiethroughthelookingglass]

15x20 Coda

Can’t believe it’s the year of our Lord 2020 and I’m writing Supernatural fix it fics at 3am.... This truly is the bad place. Anyway here’s what happened immediately after the credits rolled on whatever that was...

“Sam and Dean stood, arms around each other looking out towards the vista. Heaven. Their heaven. United again, after everythi-“

“-Is he for real?”

“That’s what was saved on my computer. Supernatural – Final Draft.”

“This is bullshit.”

Becky shrugged, taking her laptop back from Sam as his face twitched uncomfortably. 

“Who did I even marry? Like, it wasn’t even Eileen?”

“I don’t know man but you named your kid after me. I’m holding you to that one.”

“I don’t even want kids. Our lives are crazy. Why would I do that to a kid?”

“Well I’m just glad Chuck didn’t get to go ahead with that one.” Becky said, sitting back down with her laptop, “I mean all of his drafts were honestly terrible but that one… I mean it didn’t even make sense considering your character arcs. Dean literally died like he thought he would at the beginning of the series and Sam, grows old with a random woman and doesn’t do anything with his life and not even mentioning Cas even though he was right there in heaven-“

Becky looked up to find Sam and Dean staring at her.

“I’m sorry, not that you guys are just characters or anything. But just, when I came back and I found that I was really worried you’d actually died in barn because you fell on a nail.”

“Yeah well I will be avoiding all barns from now on.”

Thunk. The three of them looked up to where Cas had knocked over a Funko Pop Sam.

“Sorry,” Cas readjusted Funko Sam so he could go back to back to fighting Funko Crowley.

There was an awkward moment of silence as the group processed the revelation of Chuck’s ending. Becky sipped her tea as Cas sat back down next to Dean. Dean looked over to him, their eyes met briefly and they shared a small smile.

“Did I never even ask about Cas?” Sam shook his head breaking the silence. “Like, you come back from fighting Billie and say he’s dead and I just… never question it?”

“Well, none of you seemed very upset about my death in that story.” He turned back to Dean, “You were far more concerned with the pie and the dog.”

“To be fair that was probably the only thing that felt right there – pie is more important.”

Cas rolled his eyes and picked up another biscuit from the tray Becky had brought them. Ever since becoming human again he’d picked up a real sweet tooth. Dean was silently waiting for when Sam would start having a go at him too about healthy diets.

Like hell I’m going because of a rusty nail in a barn, Dean thought, I’m getting killed by a heart attack and Cas’s gonna die of diabetes. Sammy’ll still get to outlive us both though.

“It’d be nice to think Jack is doing that with heaven though.” Sam said, “You know, rebuilding things, making it actually good.”

“I guess we’ll have to see when we get there. Which will not be soon, we fought for a bit of peace and I’m intending to actually enjoy mine.”

“We can just ask him next time he’s home.” Cas added.

Dean shook his head stifling a laugh with his hand, “Can you imagine if we’d made him God I mean- He’s three for crying out loud. He made me buy him a Marvellous Marvin the Talking Teddy three months ago.”

“You bought him that?”

“Wait so Jack didn’t become God?”

“God no, no he’s not God.” Dean plucked the biscuit Cas had just picked up out of his hand and started to eat it, “I mean he is up in heaven, but he’s just helping Michael get things running again with all the angels back from the Empty.”

“I’m confused, so you didn’t kill Chuck?”

“Noash fukind matr-“

“Chuck’s gone, but he’s not dead.” Sam interrupted the garbled explanation Dean was trying to make through a mouthful of cookie. “We found a way to umm- bind him I guess? In his own mind so he didn’t even know it was happening. Rowena and I did the spell and Dean set the trap.”

“I was still as useless as in Chuck’s version.” Cas clarified taking another biscuit to make up for his stolen one.

“Hey, if you hadn’t saved me from Billie we’d all have been toast. You were key.”

“Wait so Chuck’s not human and he’s not dead?”

“No- God I can’t believe he made himself human. I can’t believe we made him human and then said that was a punishment – sorry, no he’s kind of in a uhhh…”

“Alternate universe.” Sam added, “but one just for him. It’s more like an alternative plane of reality inside his own mind where he can write whatever stories he wants and think they’re real but they’re not. They can’t hurt anyone.”

“But he’s God so…. They might be real? He could be making them real.”

Sam twisted his mouth thinking, it was something he’d considered but didn’t want to dwell on.

“Well it’s not us.” Dean declared, “And honestly, if he makes another world with other Sams and Deans and Cas’s and Jacks then they’ll defeat him some other way. Like Inception, but with God!” He grinned at his reference even as the rest of the room ignored him.

Becky leant back in her armchair letting out a sigh of relief. “I’m glad you guys are ok. You too Cas, he was really adamant about killing you off.”

“Dean was very adamant about bringing me back.” Cas looked over to Dean, a soft smile and look of adoration of his face.

Dean blushed, trying to cover it up with a cough. “Yeah well, I had some stuff to say.”

Becky grinned, taking a sip of her tea as Sam suddenly started to find the wallpaper very interesting.

“So, what are you guys going to do know?” Becky asked after the moment had become sufficiently awkward. “I mean no Chuck, no apocalypse, no world to save. Are you going to keep hunting, or…?”

Sam, Dean and Cas looked at each other.

“I don’t know,” Sam said. 

“Honestly, I’m thinking Chuck had it right with the pie festival.”

Becky and Sam laughed at that.

Cas took another biscuit

***

Dean closed the boot of the Impala with a soft thud. Becky had given each of them one of her dioramas she sold on Etsy. It was always a bit weird being reminded that their life was a story that some people liked to collect stuff from for fun but he had to admit the miniature scale replica of Baby she’d given him was awesome.

Sam stood at the door giving Becky a hug and thanking her for the lunch. She hadn’t quite explained to the rest of the family who these three strange large men were that were randomly joining them for lunch beyond “They’re just some Supernatural fans I know from the internet.” Her husband had spent the entire time struggling to believe that lie even moreso after Cas had slightly traumatised one of the kids with an in-depth description of the dangers of invasive wasps to honey bee colonies.

Dean wandered over to where Cas stood beside Sam and Becky.

“Thanks again for checking on us Becky.” Dean said, accepting the hug she gave him.

“Of course, I always knew you’d beat him but it’s good to know for sure.”

“Sure is.” Dean took a step back, “Well I guess we’ll be seeing you?”

“Next Supernatural convention?”

“Absolutely not.”

“Even if there’s a ghost?”

“You do know we’re not the only hunters in America.” 

Becky bit her lip.

“What?”

“Nothing,” she paused, “it’s just, this is exactly how I would have written it.”

Sam raised his eyebrows in surprise, Dean brows knitted as Cas tilted his head.

“I don’t- not that you had to go through all that. Just that now you can actually take a break. Be normal, do your laundry-“

“-Sam and Dean have always done their laundry. That’s how they clean their clothes.” Cas piped up in confusion.

“-Be happy. Get to actually enjoy living in the world you saved. Have free will and be at peace.”

Dean chuckled, “I mean I’m personally good with never doing my laundry. But you’re right, it’s weird but good.”

“We’ll stay in touch Becky.” Sam said.

“I’ll hold you to that.”

They waved their goodbyes and walked back over to the Impala. Dean got in behind the wheel, Sam in shotgun and Cas in the back.

Turning the key the Impala revved to life. The radio began to sing, the opening chords to Kansas’s Carry on Wayward Song filling the car. 

Dean slammed the radio off.

“God, I think Chuck has forever ruined that song for me.”

Sam laughed, in the back Cas even let out a chuckle as he leant his head against the window ready for the long drive home.

It wasn’t their heaven. Not yet anyway. And that made it so much more.

[steveyockey]

do you think that -- if they WERE planning to do gay angel press initially -- part of the reason they didn't might have been the (reactionary) bury your gays backlash from fans and non-fans? in which case. twitter rly does ruin everything. :/

I’m not tied to this but here’s a hypothetical to work through that at least provides a theory on the lack of gay angel press (probably not very different from any other theory on this website but just writing it out for continuity),

okay. pre-pandemic. the arc of the final few episodes seems to have been set and 15.18 was the last piece, pending jensen’s approval. roadhouse heaven ending was a go — presumably featuring a cas cameo among other various and sundry friends. approving 15.18 introduces a problem by way of the fact that cas has just confessed his undying love for dean and there’s an expected response. but it’s fine! you don’t actually need that, you’ve been baiting fans for a decade, you can work your magic one more time with a lil wink and nudge and never have to deal with that again. ambiguous “to each his own” ending, you talk up the gay angel on one side and the bronly-ness of the last hunt on the other; everyone walks away happy. you have successfully threaded the needle of finishing off a twelve year queerbait without “caving to the fans,” high fives all around.

15.18 gets filmed. the angel is gay gay. the footage is. we don’t know what the footage looks like. there could be anything. maybe there’s a kiss with tongue. ends up not really mattering because the pandemic happens and they have to stop shooting and stop airing. no idea how much changes in 15.19 (clearly SOME stuff considering we know the folks who got chuck snapped in the silo were supposed to be shown back in the flesh and that got cut). 15.20 has to change — so roadhouse heaven becomes three person heaven (plus the cast and crew, who were already on set so no, this is not proof they could have brought a crowd of actors anyway, it’s just. weird. I don’t like this decision. strikes me as authoritative like WE told the story not YOU. anyway). putting cas in three person heaven makes winking and nudging a lot harder to do and would make the absence of an actual substantive response to the confession uhhhh very obvious. so you have to cut cas. and then maybe you have to cut other references to cas in 15.19, maybe you cut some emotionality from dean’s side in 15.18, maybe you straight up insert the moment in 15.20 where dean tells sam to stop being an eeyore about cas’s death! we don’t know how much was changed, but there was at least the opportunity at this point to dull dean’s response to the whole thing so the absence of cas in heaven is more palatable. it’s the bronly ending, but you already gave the audience the gay angel. and the gay angel is alive and building heaven with his son! no more cashing in on the queerbait but still cashing in on canon gay.

it’s november 5th. 15.18 airs. it trends higher than the biggest election “of our lives.” holy shit! gay angel! but of course the issue is the people responding aren’t the people who have been watching the show. they don’t have context for what’s going on and “turbohell” catches on. fuck. did you kill the gay angel? of course not, he’s in heaven with his son! lisa berry can post her goodbye instagram to her character because obviously billie’s dead, she’s the villain. she’s not expected to come back. but cas is... cas is different. and he’s not dead and you won’t be taking any questions on this until we get to the end, when everyone can settle down. so you have your actors gush about the episode, you leave everyone on pins and needles so they’ll come back for two more, and then! well. 15.20. cas is “alive” technically. dean is dead, as you always planned. some people are happy, some people are middling, and some people are fucking pissed at you because apparently by not outright killing off the gay angel you promised them the gay angel was coming back. any clarification you would offer here would unspool your entire plan — gay angel on one side, brothers on the other. erasing cas isn’t the same as killing him, but you can’t say that (though misha basically did in response to the rogue translator shenanigans). killing dean wasn’t even supposed to be about cas, but now everything is about cas. you took him out of the story completely and he’s still managed to take over. and all you can say is, well, it’s always been a story about brothers.

this obviously doesn’t account for everything, such as what the fuck was uriel’s actor doing? why the fuck did the show actually give us the instructions for how to get someone out of the empty and not do it? and there’s an infinite number of things that could have happened that I would simply never guess not knowing specific onset dynamics and money decisions. whatever happened that caused this clusterfuck really does suck for everyone in that writers room who was on team gay angel because, as I have said in the past, 15.18 only works due to at least four years, if not seven or more, of consciously writing the angel as gay. I hope bobo and yockey and even misha feel personal satisfaction at a job well done, but god if a single fucking interview could at least let us indulge in the victory with them. anyway, all of this is to say, yes I do think the bury-your-gays of it all definitely plays into it (and I would say, again, linking this to it chapter 2, it’s significant muschietti and co decided to make richie gay over eddie; people who haven’t read the book might not know that eddie like. literally drinks mineral water. in the 80s. he wears gucci loafers. he marries a carbon copy of his mother. stephen king would never admit to writing a gay man but that was a gay man. but eddie dies! eddie always dies. so they had some good sense in giving the gay story to the one who lives and leaving the dead one holding all the coding). and I definitely think randos on twitter making fun of the confession did not help matters. but I also think the decision to pull press cannot be extricated from the rubble of the last two episodes and everything they promised but never delivered. literally a single second of cas in the finale would have been their golden ticket! that’s far more than what jj did for star wars! but they got played at their own game by, of all things, an international pandemic. somehow a very supernatural ending after all.

[grey-lark]

Hi! U might have seen me lurking but I just wanted to shoot u an ask and say, JU is one of my absolute favorite fics I've ever read for so many reasons. It's such a heartfelt and kind character study on top of just a well paced and thought out retelling of the show, Steve is flawed and sweet and funny and just Good, with such a bonkers way of thinking and it makes me love him so much more than I already do (which isn't Hard honestly haha) he also comes across autistic/adhd, something I've hc'd him being for a long time bc I'm that myself, so i see elements of that in JU. I'm also a fan of your prose, I think you have such a way with building relationships that come across as very human and soft while also having a Bite to them, like Steve and Billy, a character I've never totally liked, but he has such a voice in JU that it's like Of Course Steve can't help but try to be kind even though he's cautious, not just bc he's an empath. I can't wait to see how that relationship, as well as Dozens of other relationships progress, Steve and Robin(!!), Hopper, El (sibling dance 🕺💃), Tommy-Carol, Nancy, Jonathan, Dustin, Max, all the other kiddos (maybe Eddie too?? *wink wink*) and now that I'm thinking of it Joyce!! Listen if his new dad is Hopper, Joyce gets to be his mom by virtue of association with Hop. Another thing I wanted to say quickly was, and obviously this was intentional, but every mention, or allusion to, comparison to, just general meta about Rabbits is chefs kiss. Like the callbacks to Watership Down, It's such a good narrative tool, its always given me the chance to pause and think about the work, especially with the killing of the rabbit, which conjured thoughts to me about the loss of innocence in that moment, like is the rabbit something he's killing within himself? Or is Steve himself the rabbit? And what does it mean later that he can regulate his emotions enough to live within the rabbit, and it's babies? Besides lying to himself that he's "normal" He also has given himself (?) Room to grow? In other words, though it may be scarred, since you alluded to the dead rabbit again, Steve and his innocence, (and I'm using innocence as a way to define a lot of things here like self love and a life where he'll allow himself to grow something in the planter boxes), are allowed to take root again, since you also stated that the grass above the buried rabbit is growing green and prospering thanks to this dead rabbit, not to mention the lives those babies will now get to lead, so its like, Steve's past experiences don't have to harm him anymore, they can lead to Growth. Steve is both the rabbit, and the thing that can kill, and protect the rabbit, Run Bunny indeed Billy Hargrove. ANYWAY I hope to Heaven that any of that makes sense, thank you so much for posting Jackrabbit Underneath, it's been a real light in the darkness and I have serious writers envy, I'm wishing you well, and extending an unlimited invitation to reach out for literally anything you need in the future, yelling about Steve Harrington being one of those things of course 💖💖💖

I have no clue what happened with Tumblr, but for some reason this ask kept appearing then disappearing in my inbox? So sorry for it being almost a month late (ooofff) Also this reply got long so it's under the cut!

I'm really happy you've been enjoying!!! It's so nice to hear that you enjoy the pacing and that my portrayal of Steve is coming across well! I head canon Steve as ADHD and I've tried to incorporate that into JU so I'm happy that's working. I really like the description of "soft with some Bite to them" for the relationships!! I feel like that's how I try to write Steve in general, so it makes sense that his relationships would also follow that.

Haha I am definitely now picturing Steve and El doing the sibling dance video with Kali. I wish I could shove Eddie into the main plot - he'll probably make a cameo because I love him. I actually originally thought Joyce would be in this more, but I realized talking to the mom of the guy your girlfriend left you for would probably be weird for him, so Maggie ended up taking up more of the role. But now he has the excuse of Hopper to hang around her!

I'm glad the rabbit motif is working! Steve killing the rabbit was definitely supposed to be a death of innocence moment - or at least a death of ignorance. It marks the start of him getting involved in the upside down and thus moving away from his high school persona and the (slow) break down of his denial. The return to woods emphasized both how Steve's gotten better with his powers after practicing but also, like you said, his potential for growth in the future (both in his powers and personally). He takes comfort in the (literally found) family of rabbits and protects them even if it's from himself as a sort of "future Steve goals". Meanwhile past Steve, the dead rabbit, is helping the grass grow - while he can't go back to who he was or change the experiences that hurt him, they're still important parts of his life that he can use to create his future.

Also don't worry - it definitely made sense and it was really interesting to read your thoughts! Thank you so much for reading and sending this ask <3!!!

[amostimprobabledream]

Thoughts on The Boys Season 3 *SPOILERS*

I was not very happy to see Ryan again. He's so lame. "Uwu I'm so scared of Homelander! I'm scared of my powers! Be my daddy, Butcher!" Yawn. Every scene with Ryan is my cue to do something else on my laptop. Though I’ll admit I liked his role in the Season 3 finale - his dynamic with Homelander and Billy is pretty interesting when it’s not all about Becca.

Wtf is with Maeve's writing?? In Season One she was like one of the closest people who stood in equal footing with Homelander, one of the only people who could reason with him and someone he respected and she seemed to somewhat feel the same way, then in Season Two he publicly outs her girlfriend so she now decides she wants to kill him?? I don't get it - I know she ended Season 2 with her blackmailing him but it's like they've just gone, "Oh, Maeve's a good guy now" and we're expected to believe it, even though Maeve spent all of Season 1 and 2 (and most of 3 tbh) not really giving a shit about anyone but herself. (Also, why should I care about Elena? Because she's important to Maeve? I don't give a rat's ass about Maeve, why should Elena matter to us as viewers? I care about Hughie, Starlight, Frenchie and Kimiko because their relationships all get development and they function as individuals. Elena's just an object to give emotional wangst to Maeve.) Sometimes Maeve straight up just doesn’t appear in episodes and I don’t even notice. Literally when she has sex with Billy it’s so dumb. They didn’t even speak to each other for two seasons, then they go “I hate Homelander”, “I hate Homelander too!” and then they fuck. (I have a whole rant I could do about Maeve but this post is already long.) I will say she looks so much prettier when she isn’t wearing her Supe uniform.

I found it hard to find Billy's scenes with Ryan heartwarming - they just serve to highlight what a hypocrite Billy is. He'll murder Supes just for being Supes like he did with Gunpowder even though Gunpowder told him everything he wanted to know, (he even acknowledges this right before he punches him to death) but he'll make nice with the one Supe who is directly the reason his stupid wife died, all because she made him promise. Like sure, Ryan didn't MEAN to kill Becca but Billy was still about to throttle him until she gave her Dying Wish (tm). I just can't feel emotionally invested in their weird dynamic when if it wasn't for his wife, Billy would want Ryan dead too and it's hard for me to believe Billy truly cares for Ryan when he goes around slaughtering every other Supe. When Billy told Ryan he can’t even stand to look at him because of what he did to Becca, it felt like the only time Billy was being genuine with how he feels towards Ryan. (Also, okay, so Billy will freely use the word “cunt” in front of MM’s five-year-old daughter but he won’t say it in front of Ryan?Because he can’t stand to besmirch Prince Ryan’s precious ears??) I guess the Season 3 finale proves he does care about Ryan but only because of Becca. Eh.

Is it me, or do characters blame Homelander for a lot of things they are also responsible for? Like, everyone in the Seven, including Starlight, has murdered people but they always point at him to cover up for their own sins, like, "Wah, Homelander made me do it!" and absolve themselves entirely. I mean yes, Homelander is objectively The Worst but the rest of the Seven, the Boys and most other named characters have blood on their hands. They act like all their problems would go away if Homelander was dead, but he isn't the start of all of it - it's Vought itself. And people like Stan Edgar who run it.

Thanks for showing us Homelander naked, show. 👀👀

I flipflop on how much I like Grace but I cheered for her calling Soldier Boy out on his sexist bullshit. I also love that Soldier Boy is just a much of a raging douchebag as Billy and Homelander are, it'd be so unrealistic if he wasn't.

GRACE CALLING BILLY OUT HEALED MY SOUL. Honestly, the way Billy always tries to act like he's in the right by waving Becca/Ryan/Lenny around as an excuse is so annoying, so Grace telling him it's not really about them, it never was and Billy's just lashing out at Supes because they're powerful and he's a hateful, angry man, just like his father, had me cheering. TELL 👏 HIM 👏GRACE. 👏 Like the sheer bullshit Billy gets away with is insane - remember how he punched Hughie for stopping him killing Kimiko’s brother right in front of her, then said if he got in the way of him reuniting with Becca, he’d kill Hughie too??

ANTONY STARR IS SO AMAZINGGGG. I HAD TO HAVE A LITTLE BREAK AFTER THE "LET'S LIGHT THIS CANDLE" SPEECH. Homelander is so much more unhinged in this season compared to Season One and it’s so much fun to watch, every time he walks onto a scene you just never know what he’s going to do next.

I hate to say this because I loved her in S1 and S2, but Starlight was starting to annoy me a bit this season. She comes off as super condescending on occasion with this “I’m always right” attitude she occasionally has, I think both Maeve and Stormfront commented on this in Season Two. That being said, I still do really like Starlight’s character, it was just kind of unenjoyable watching her this season at times. Her forced relationship with Homelander was so interesting though and I about died when he told her “watch your fucking tone, darling”. It was SO SO...

It’s funny that both Starlight and Stan Edgar kept talking in the first two episodes about how much more unstable Homelander was getting, yet it seemed like Stan was purposefully actively antagonising Homelander by giving Starlight the Co-captain position and mocking him in general, and Starlight was kind of contributing to this with the way she kept talking down to Homelander and trying to shut down his input, even though he does have a point that he’s been Captain of the Seven since forever and he’s still Co-captain so he’s meant to have a say in the team too. Idk, I don’t know why Starlight was so shocked by the candle speech when she dangled the blackmail material over his head in the most condescending tone possible - did she think he’d tolerate being shunted off to the sidelines by a much younger colleague forever? If she did it was pretty naive of her.

A-TRAIN AND THE DEEP FIGHTING WAS SO FUNNY. I think it was one of my favourite moments in the season, and Homelander striding in and clicking his tongue at them like they’re a couple of children roughhousing? SENSATIONAL.

RIP Timothy.

RIP Supersonic I guess? I mean you only existed to hover around Starlight and make Hughie jealous sooo...mission accomplished?

You know, that scene where Kimiko tells Billy she’s not his gun and he tells her that she is and she’ll follow his orders or else, I was sitting there like, “Or you’ll fucking what?” I wish Kimiko would kick Billy’s ass, he deserves it and it would be so satisfying. Honestly I’m kind of rooting for her and Frenchie to run away to France together, not because I dislike them at all, but because they more than anyone else except maybe Hughie deserve a happy ending and I’m sick of how horrible Billy is to them both.

I don’t really have any opinion on Soldier Boy, to be honest? I felt maybe a little bad for him when it turned out Crimson Countess said she hated him when he thought they were in love, but aside from that he doesn’t feel like a character so much as a walking narrative tool - he’s just the embodiment of Toxic Masculinity and the only thing that can potentially hurt Homelander, so it’s kind of hard to feel one way of the other about him when he doesn’t have all that much depth. He’s basically just a deconstruction of 80s action stars.

I love the irony of Blue Hawk being ordered to give a faux apology to something that deeply matters to A-Train even though he’s not sorry at all, just like how A-Train wasn’t sorry at all that he killed Robin and only apologised to Hughie because Vought ordered him to. Brilliant dramatic irony there.

Why does the show act like Starlight and Maeve are close? Like yeah, Maeve’s stuck her neck out for Starlight once or twice, but there are plenty of times when she’s also refused to, insulted Starlight and Hughie and blew Starlight off after she was sexually assaulted in Season One. Maeve even helped The Deep get back into the Seven knowing what he did to Starlight. I feel like the show tries to parallel Starlight’s relationship with Maeve to Hughie and Butcher and it doesn’t work. Maeve is barely in half the episodes this season while Hughie and Billy spend so much of the show joined at the hip and they even live together with Frenchie and MM throughout Season 2 - there is no way there’s anything like that with Starlight and Maeve, we NEVER see them voluntarily hanging out together or even speaking about anything that doesn’t involve Vought or the Seven. It was nice Maeve decided to save Annie over fighting Homelander I guess, but I just didn’t think it was enough.

Has anybody noticed that the more authority Ashley gets in Vought, the more outlandish her outfits become? Girl was walking around this season looking like a candy cane. I love the symbolism, though. 

ALSO, Ashley calling out A-Train’s selfishness and how he only considers the consequences of his actions when they directly affect him was fantastic. A-Train’s had that coming for a long time and Ashley finally got to tell someone off. This season has been great at fleshing out A-Train and The Deep in particular.

YO YO YO, Billy Butcher, Soldier Boy and Hughie vs Homelander was SO HYPE. I was dreading it all season but it was legitimately so cool, I love how Homelander was so fucking strong that it took three of them to even make him consider retreating, yet it also showed that Homelander actually kind of sucks at fighting, like he kept missing when he threw punches at Billy and missed zapping Hughie a couple of seconds too late LOL. I mean it makes sense, he’s likely never gotten into a single fistfight his entire life.

(Also I love how he kinda just rolled with the fact that Billy had given himself superpowers, but when Hughie showed up buck naked he got PISSED. He really hates Hughie, doesn’t he?)

I actually LOVED the argument between Hughie and Starlight about how Hughie feels inadequate to her because Starlight always saves Hughie’s ass while he’s powerless. Like, it’s just so realistic! The Boys addresses toxic masculinity and what being “manly” means a lot, and it’s very interesting how even Hughie, he’s one of the most emotionally well-adjusted, in touch with his feminine side of the main characters, still has that urge to be strong and to be a protector. Honestly it would be pretty weird if Starlight always being the powerful one in the relationship didn’t start to chip away at him eventually - especially with Starlight and Supersonic flirting nearly the entire season and how Starlight got defensive when Hughie suggested it wasn’t a good idea for her to be Co-captain of the Seven and accused him of not liking a woman being in power, which was a tad unfair of her since she’s always been the dominant one in their relationship and up until this point Hughie’s always supported her. It makes both of them so nicely realistically flawed! Hughie’s insecurities and Starlight’s self-righteousness clash in such a big way here and it’s great! It’d be boring and unrealistic if they never argued or their differences got in the way. THIS is how you write a good couple, not Billy’s constant pining over the idea of a woman or Maeve and Elena’s incredibly underdeveloped relationship.

The scene where Mindstorm forces Billy to relive his traumatic childhood was so good! I mean we already guessed a lot of it just from context clues, dialogue, etc, but it was still really great to see it playing out in front of us, especially how it’s juxtaposed with his killing of Gunpowder and Mimic - he’s just like his daddy. Also, whoever played kid Lenny had the biggest puppy eyes, aww.

I absolutely loved the scene where Hughie apologises to Annie and talks about how he always thought of his dad as “weak” but realises that staying and taking care of his son as best he could is what made Hughie’s dad a great father all along, it was so SO good. (Also Simon Pegg plays Hughie’s dad so he deserves the world in my eyes. I love Simon Pegg.)

I’m happy we finally got to see some more of Black Noir’s backstory, even though I knew all season he was going to die because that got spoiled for me before I even watched the show.

THE SCENE WHERE HOMELANDER BECKONS OVER THE DEEP WHILE HE SITS IN THE CHAIR LIKE A THRONE AND HE’S ALL PISSED OFF? OMG. THE WAY I’D RUN OVER IF HE DID THAT TO ME.

I was yelling “YES! GET HIS ASS!” at the TV when MM and Frenchie finally told Butcher to fuck himself. And there’s Hughie going “Omg you saved me.  🥺 🥺”

All the fights in the last episode were LIT. I was waiting for Billy and Soldier Boy to butt heads all season, it seemed weird to me Soldier Boy was happy to kill Homelander just because Billy told him to. And Homelander putting out Maeve’s eye was awesome - it’s about time something of actual consequence happened to Maeve after like three seasons of never having anything bad happened to her. I’m kind of disappointed she’s still alive but oh well.

I love how once Soldier Boy blew up, everybody was hugging each other. So adorable. Also, hughie choosing to help Starlight without using the V was so good, I loved Starlight’s power-up that made her look just like an angel while she blasted Soldier Boy. I like Annie’s consistantly been the only person to see SB for exactly what he is - a threat to civilians - the entire season. 

ALSO it was great that MM got his little moment of calling out SB and Frenchie is absolutely instrumental in taking them down - I feel like the writers sometimes forget to give Frenchie and MM much to do, so this was fantastic. Also it’s funny these two were at each other’s throats in S1 and now they’re basically best friends.

HOLY FUCK. When Homelander lasers that guy’s head off and everybody cheers I freaked out. The little smile on Ryan’s face, jeez. Overall, I was a bit reluctant to finish this season because it was so twisty, but I’m so happy I’m finally all caught up! I still think Season One is overall my favourite, but yeah. Damn, what a show. <3

[billys-lover]

Hi!!!!! Could I please get a ship?

I'm 18, I'm bi, I use she/her pronouns, I'm 5'3 and I'm pretty chubby, I'm black with dark skin and I have pastel pink locs right now but I like to dye my hair a lot!!!

I'm an infp and a Gemini sun, Libra moon, Gemini rising (with great decision making skills as you can imagine).

I have adhd and I tend to not speak until I'm spoken to, but once I start talking I don't stop easily lol. If I'm talking about something I'm especially interested in I can literally go on for hours at a time. I'm really into witchcraft, mythology, most cartoons, all of the twilight movies except new moon cause I don't like seeing ppl get sad, and languages, of which I'm currently learning seven (almost none of which are remotely useful lol) I especially love dead languages, rn I'm learning ancient Egyptian and Latin and I am ✨obsessed✨.

I'm a huge history nerd but I hate hearing about war and politics because they can be kinda triggering for me, i don't rlly like violence unless I know it's explicitly fake (so supernatural horror movies r usually good but if it seems to plausible I start to freak out lol). I'm incredibly sensitive but I think since I talk so much and overthink constantly I'm a lot more likely to just communicate with someone instead of arguing or fighting with them, (not that I can or would want to fight anyone I hate all physical activity so much lol) and I love love and being romanced but I have pretty bad trust issues

My favorite genre of music is probably hyperpop even though I listen to literally everything (one of my favorite songs is an Icelandic lullaby about the ghost of a child calling out to its mom) and I almost always have headphones on at 100% volume.

My receiving love languages are acts of service, gift giving, and quality time and my giving love languages are gift giving and quality time, I'll cry while watching anything even though I hate crying in front of people, and I love literally all animals (except centipedes, they scare me a lot) and would jump in front of a Mac truck for literally any stray cat, and I can and have walked into mildly unsafe areas for the sake of getting a better glimpse at some raccoons

!!! <3 <3 <3 thank you!!! I hope you're having a good day !!!

i had so much fun writing this?! i hope you enjoy it! also i’m so sorry i haven’t been very active this week:( i’m getting stuff written i promise! anyways, i ship you with…

SIDNEY PRESCOTT!

- i feel like this poor girl would drool over you 24/7

- please let her help you dye her hair.

- she's too scared to dye her own hair so she’d love to do your’s instead! 

- she can totally understand the whole not speaking unless spoken to thing 

- i have such a strong feeling that this girl is super duper shy so please don’t stop talking! maybe add her into the conversation too! - loves to hear you talk.

- please tell her about your day!?!

- sidney would love the twilight franchise. i know it.

- watch them with her!

- you watch cartoons too? name your favourites to her and you two will watch them all night.

- will sit there in absolute shock when you speak to her in a different language.

- she finds it beyond attractive.

- “where did you learn that, doll?”

- loves the fact that you dont quite do slasher films because of her past trauma... obviously.

- but if one day you decide to watch a slasher film that isn't too gory or doesn't show much violence then she’ll be willing to watch it with you as long as you're comfortable! 

- just please cuddle her. she needs it

- she promises she’ll cuddle you back!

- i’m convinced you would barely fight.

- you're both willing to talk about what's bothering you and unlike her ex billy, you wont scream (wink wink) and shout at her.

- would definitely take her a while to get into hyper pop but i feel like she’d quite enjoy it!

- loves when you give her gifts and will give you the cutest shit as a thank you.

- WILL GET YOU A CAT AS A GIFT!!!!!!

- and will kill centipedes for you even though she's quite scared of them herself

- what can i say! she loves you.