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plumbley-bee · 10 months ago

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I will not regret having loved.

I don't mean I won't be sad, and my heart won't ache over connections I've lost.

I don't mean I always forgive people who have betrayed my trust and hurt me.

I don't mean I haven't loved the wrong person before.

I mean, the day I regret having felt love at all is the day I fear I will truly lose myself in every way that matters.

Even if I no longer hold any love for someone, I can not regret having felt it in the first place.

Why on earth should I regret the part of me that loves when it is my favorite thing about myself? Why should I shame myself for feeling the very same thing that allows me to have friends to hug and laugh with and milestones to celebrate?

I refuse to feel at fault for having felt something so beautiful and untouchable as love. I can not with good conscience condemn the version of me that loved when I didn't know why I shouldn't have. I will not punish myself over having found something worth loving, even for only a few seconds.

So I will weep for the connections I've lost, and I will do so proudly.

I will scream and cuss and cry at and about the people who have hurt me, and I will do so proudly.

I will laugh and hug and celebrate the people in my life, and I will do so proudly.

I will do these things with all the love I've ever felt etched into my heart, and I will do so proudly.

#fuck #yeah #anyway #ignore this #I'm just rambling #if anyone thinks this is stemming from a breakup im so sorry #but its absolutely not #this post is about the friends and family i have loved and even still love throughout my life #i cannot stress enough how much love as an emotion means to me #familial love #platonic love #romantic love #even the love you feel for that random person you saw give their dog kisses in their car at a gas station #please understand #it is essential for me to love #if I regret the love I ever felt for every person who has hurt me I dont think I'd be able to love the people who haven’t quite the same #i love my brother and even though he never wanted me as a sister when we were kids i dont regret loving him then #and even though he sucks a lot and used to suck even more in the past I still don't regret loving him now #he can't take that away from me.#no one can #mitski is this what you meant #when you said your love was yours and only yours?#because my love really truly is just mine alone

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inkskinned · 28 days ago

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okay is she being actually immature or is it just a woman over 30 expressing a human experience you find to be immature.

like yeah. at certain ages... let shit go. im not defending the real immature shit. im not defending the karen you're picturing. i worked in retail i hate those people too. (once somebody got mad at me because she didn't like how our winter window decor was a snowman smoking a pipe. i wish i was joking).

but men at 57 will write books about how 17 year old girls are soooo sexy. they will invent worlds where women have to be naked for "armor reasons." they will write songs that treat women as objects. people rush to defend them. meanwhile a woman at 35 will be like "heartbreak is hard, actually" or "i feel betrayed by a friend" or "i am struggling with something emotionally." immediately people will say stuff like this woman is 35 by the way. by the way this woman is SO OLD to be experiencing this. BY THE WAY.

im 31, almost 32. the other day a poet was blasted online because at her "big age", she had written a poem about feeling unloved. top comment was "this woman is 29 by the way." this woman is too old to still be useful, by the way. she has to behave better . maybe if she was a good wife and mother she could stop existing loudly, and the story could continue on without her. this woman has served her purpose, by the way. she's so cringe, by the way. at 29 - so old! - she still hasn't figured out that her existence should be one of shame.

#what the fuck.#unfortunately by the time i'd switched accounts (from personal to my poetry one)#i couldn't find it :(#this is why u SEND URSELF THE POST. WHICH I KNOW TO DO BUT!!!#i was so mad i just was like “i'm about to tear this commenter in twain” and . lost da post #if u urself are the 29 and got recently flamed by instagram #i love u. come here. write with me. i was about to pick up a sword for u.#i mean a BIGASS sword.#like we all know im a wlw girlie but the way ppl will be like ''id NEVER write sad poetry about a MAN not LOVING me!!!"#..... wowwwww ur so cool. anyway. people often experience emotions regardless of what u consider cringe.#& if ur gonna shame straight/bi women for feeling a certain way. hope u never write about the #weird relationship between u and ur father. or feeling different from ur brother.#or how ur male best friend fucked u over. since it's SO CRINGE. to have ANY feelings caused by a MAN #like be so for real. beloved. nobody is fucking saying this when men do it.#''oh it's cringe to like a woman or feel heartbroken by her.''#controlling women's feelings and actions???? it's more likely than u think.#btw op is nonbinary do NOT be gender essential on this post i'll kill u with my teeth #edit: btw for the person who dm'd me ''when is it misogyny and when is it actually valid''#pretty easy. if a man had done it #would it be cringe? . like if a man sang a sad song about ''she broke my damn heart''?#if he said ''i want to have kids with her'' or something sexually explicit?? like would u even LIKE IT if a male poet had said it?#& if it's like. nah a 35 yr old man being upset about this is cringe too. yeah it's just cringe. that exists. we both know it does.#but .... often i see this ONLY about women. and i can't help but hear like. how back in middle school #we were fed the lie ''girls mature faster.'' ... why do i have to be emotionally regulated? but if a man wrote about the same things?#..... idk . im pretty anti cringe culture to begin with. but this one feels so bad to me . ur still a person past 33.

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oliviawebsite · 1 month ago

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sometimes it feels like some of you just see trans women as "women with dicks" and tend to forget that bottom surgery is a thing and that trans womens pussies are also very beautiful and cool.

#dont get me wrong i love girldick as much as the next girl but it feels like... essentialized by some ppl

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spooksier · 9 months ago

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the place adventure time has in just culture in general is so so funny to be because it's so prevalent whether through just merch with characters on it or designs directly referencing the style/aesthetics and yet most people have not actually seen the show past season 1-5 (including me until like a year ago!) so if you try to explain any post s5 adventure time plot where it basically became a complete different show you sound fucking insane. they don't even know about princess bubblegum's gay cousin chicle. they don't even know about my dear friend fern.

#text!#adventure time #at #it's so funny to me bc it results in seeing discourse about the show between ppl who are essentially talking about entirely different shows #anyways fern mentioned i love you fern

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egophiliac · 2 months ago

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I don’t think we’ve ever seen you draw knight of dawn before 🤔 what are your thoughts about him? Or take?

I've drawn him a couple of times, just really little/in the background. but I should draw him more, I love this guy a lot! I have many, many thoughts about him and the way he parallels Silver...and also I think it is extremely funny that his ghost is stuck in a ring. especially considering where that ring has been for the last 16-ish years.

#art #twisted wonderland #twisted wonderland spoilers #twisted wonderland episode 7 spoilers #twisted wonderland book 7 spoilers #don't mind me just killing time waiting for maintenance to end so i can stick my face directly into 7-12 #i mean i'm on the record (read: constantly posting) about how much i love the whole tragique backstory behind mal's birth #and. look. hold on it's a day ending in y time to be embarrassing about anime characters online again #no but really i love him. i love how he's such a vague figure but also the way his and silver's stories contrast #i cannot articulate it very well but just #i love how he's essentially like...bad end silver #he let himself go along with the big evil plan because he wanted to save his dad and not betray his king and all that #and when he finally did take a stand it was too late to stop the worst of it #meanwhile silver was immediately like NOPE WE'RE NOT DOING THIS #silver is NOT going to end up slaying the dragon thank you very much #me kicking my stupid little legs in glee over it all #and! the retrospect when you realize! that he was the one leading silver around lilia's memories!!!!#he is so happy that silver and lilia have each other!#he's so happy for them!#i want to put him in a can and hold him in my pocket for 16 years #also: his ridiculous hair. it's so silly and so good.#may vil never meet him #the knowledge that there's someone with naturally gorgeous hair who has somehow done it even dirtier than silver would destroy him

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hinamie · 3 months ago

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picked up an old pen

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illiaccrest · 8 months ago

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So, I was reading a discussion between CN star rail players about how Aventurine's design is supposed to read less like "campy gay" and more like a big money business tycoon/gang boss, and I though that was so funny because on the same day I read that my dad came by while I was playing, pointed at Aventurine on the TV and said "is that a Yakuza game?"

Anyway here's business daddy Aventurine and crime mommy Stelle gonna have a nice dinner and then go bash Oswaldo's head in.

#my dad LOVES yakuza games #I love drawing tall stelle #that conversation left me with the thought that Aventurine is essentially Han Joon Gi but with a shirt on #hsr #hsr art #star rail #honkai star rail #hsr aventurine #hsr stelle #avenstelle #I have the day off tomorrow maybe I'll finally finish my chapter!!!

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reginalusus · 8 months ago

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Ah yes. When the protective dad-figure beats up the son-figure's past tormentor only for said tormentor to make a point(?), because the tormentor is the catalyst of Gotham's chaos, and seeing two pieces of the debris from said chaos come together to try and be less broken is amusing. The butt of Gotham's joke, if you will.

I just felt like illustrating a scene from a possible future Harvey-Jason-centered fic...

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jaspersbaseballsack · 5 months ago

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It's the fact that so far Armand is the most inhuman monstrous vampire still walking the earth that we as readers have met. And yet we see him fall hopelessly in love with the most ordinary human man.

#yes im drunk postng leave me alone #armandaniel #devil's minion #armand #daniel molloy #ig ore how much of a weird freak daniel is and appreciate how armand is essentially reconnectinf with his humanity in this moment #iwtv #i love you queen of the damned #yeah sure its a short chapter but the impact has been felt for over 30 fucking years #i love you armand and daniel i fear i will carry you with me for all of my days #amc iwtv #interview with the vampire #the vampire armand

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tartppola · 2 months ago

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very specific au thought, silver if he was the shield instead ( read the tags to see explanations )

#reading chapter 7 updates back to back on both servers YEEHAW #essentially shield silver is just silver but with his backstory has elements from yuulis' backstory #or like. the silver owl's kingdom falls apart much much more disastrously #so silver is!! essentially the same type of creature that yuulis is hnm hnm #he's less proficient in swordplay so sebek beats his ass in sparring #but he makes up for it in magic!! hes at least twice/thrice better than his og incarnation #though he lacks self confidence bcs hes surrounded by fae like malleus n lilia who r just. innately good at magic #he has thick arm guards instead of the regular diasomnia gloves #bcs his he needs protection for his feeble human arms #( jk he's still as muscular as normal silver bcs he has to swing that big staff around )#was gonna make the shoulder pad on his right to make him mirror the knight of dawn but it bugged me too much grrrrr #his clothes r also more loose but still not restrictive #without saying much #shield silver is closer to malleus than the og!! he imitates malleus' mannerisms a lot when casting spells. like the floaty thing mal does #also indirect yuulis lore ig #shield silver always covers up ( like malleus cards ) bcs he's got a mega complex about his stitches #unlike yuulis he has no means of rlly hiding his stitches by himself #so he's under an illusion spell ( cast by malleus ) where to the regular person he looks like a regular human #also when he overblots. he becomes the phantom himself ( indirect yuulis lore part 2 )#hence why.. fucked up looking creature in the last image #tahst enough rambling from me hehe live laugh love #twst #twisted wonderland #twst silver #sebek zigvolt #twst grim #twst yuu

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vanila-art · 2 months ago

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a commission i did for my friend's theatre group!! i'm pretty happy with how it turned out :D

#10/10 commission because they essentially paid me to make fan art lol #i love making things for friends~#over the garden wall #procreate #vanila art #otgw greg #otgw wirt

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jpg-of-dorian-slay · 3 months ago

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no bc jackie wanted to be loved so badly and she cared so much for everyone on her team, she did their face paint and misty's makeup and tried to boost morale and she loves shauna so fucking much and they exiled her and they left her outside and she froze to death. they literally froze her out. i'm genuinely never getting over her death bc she did not deserve that and all they would have had to do was ask her to come inside and if shauna was just like "hey i love you i'm sorry" she would have come inside. SHE WOULD HAVE COME INSIDE GUYS.

#jackie taylor they could never make me hate you #jackie taylor #shaunajackie #yellowjackets #basil speaks now #listen i love shauna so so so much but i will never forgive her for leaving her out there #(but she'll also never forgive herself for leaving her out there so like. twinning i guess.)#anyway if i have to see one more post saying that jackie was a bitch i'm actually going to scream #HER BEST FRIEND FUCKED HER BOYFRIEND AND THEN HER FRIEND GROUP TRIED TO ASSULT SOME GUY AND WHEN SHE WAS LIKE #'hey guys that's kind of fucked up what is wrong with you'#THEY (essentially) KILLED HER #LIKE WHAT THE FUCK?#jackie my baby my love come here i will make hot chocolate for you and put you near a heater and like sew you a blanket or something #i seriosuly love her so much #yj

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casualavocados · 5 months ago

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