#it is difficult

[creatingnikki]

notes from my therapist

when we explore what happened in your childhood, it is not to blame your parents or have a biased judgement of them. it is to understand how events impacted you and what your experience was. so you don’t have to feel guilty about talking about it or as if you are betraying your family. 

trauma can be of various types and it does not only have to be induced due to one major event. there can also be trauma from situations of acute stress over a prolonged period of time. 

choosing the wrong or right people does not mean they are good or bad. it means understanding what is healthy for you and what you want. it’s not putting them into boxes, it’s simply knowing what is healthy for you.

why do you wait for a green light from others? what is your green light? why do your decisions have to be based on what others want? what do you want?

being a friendly person and being an open book does not mean that you cannot have boundaries. 

you disappointing someone or them disappointing you does not have to be the end of the relationship. 

[tadbitsketch]

Write a narrative essay about an experience/story that made me understand life better? Did you mean write about how MCSM shaped me as a person?

[whatever-local-cryptid]

Thought#65 of ?

The intense urge to read while knitting is so damn strong. And audio books are not scratching that part that is itching the urge.

…

I want to read and, me, knitting is getting in the way. But, I’m trying to finish this fucking blanket, damnit.

[gummy-axolotl]

IS THIS HOW IT FEELS TO NOT BE A BE TO DRAW??? TO NOT BE ABLE TO COMMUNICATE YOUR IMAGINATION INTO A WAY PEOPLE CAN UNDERSTAND IT??? WHAT IS THIS. I HATE THIS. IS THIS HOW NON-ARTISTS FEEL? I FEEL HELPLESS AND FRUSTRATED AND AAAAAAHHHHHH

[pickles4nickles]

They’re having a sleepover :)

[anotherhumanperson]

Trying to draw faces

[home2tuck-ediit2]

can i have a pesterquest sprite of the fankid from🩹🔧's request using john as a base [that was me! hi!] hes wearing an unzipped heart aspect hoodie, a black shirt that says 'my boyfriend and i died twice and all i got was this dumb t shirt' in white lettering, dark grey jeans, and a black o-ring choker. he has black eyes. i would do it myself, but im bad at hair edits..

There you go, hope you like how it turned out

This was a bit of a bumpy ride for me because I only remembered halfway through this that I could do this on more than one layer

-mod Terezi

I saw you changed your blog, so I'm gonna tag what I think your new one is

@kaibaspuppy

[pebblethief]

I started cutting out pieces for my jacket muslin today :3

[amerasdreams]

when Jason is trapped, it's very hard for him. He can become despondent if he feels there is no way out. The energy of a man of action will turn in on himself and convert to self-destructive behaviors if this goes on too long.

add to that constant pressure, living in an upside-down environment, where the horrific becomes routine, and the evil rule, the burden on his psyche becomes almost unmanageable.

However, if he's allowed an outlet, some hope, a potential escape -- his energy will be diverted outward, a more natural state. However, because the pressure has been building for a while, it may manifest in destructive ways-- things may get out of hand. The rage and terror that's been bound up inside him will burst out at his enemies-- and he may not be able to control it.

The man of action is sometimes also a man of violence. How much is his soul damaged-- without him even realizing it? How distorted has everything become after the constant dehumanization?

in such an environment where violence and slavery is normalized, you don't even realize in what ways you have been affected. Until it's too late.

[bethama]

I've started watching what I eat with a fun twist in that I'm ONLY trying to cut way back on sugar and bump way up on protein and fruits'n'veggies, so part of the game here is eating MORE per meal (i.e. less crap between meals), and my intestines are FURIOUS Let Me Tell You(TM).

[kuunibal]

So if u don’t want to get back with ur ex why are you still chasing her? I see no point in saving ur feelings for her if u don’t want to get together. Well do u even want to move on,Are you trying to?. I’m probably asking to much questions 😅 sorry.

-🦕

I don't think there is such thing as too many questions, you're alright. I am not chasing her or anything like that, and ideally I would like to be able to move on. I do try to, even though my more complimentary posts about her may appear to conflict with that. I cannot really tell her those things anymore, which is why they are vented here so I am not bottling up and ruminating over those thoughts and feelings as much.

[rivetgoth]

It's honestly crazy that discussion around testosterone HRT skews so much towards the beginning stages of it (to the point that you have dozens of guys thinking their transition is "failed" if they don't pass by like a year in lol) and what the initial changes of the first couple of months to years look like, like the classic laundry list of those early basic changes like bottom growth, voice drop, etc, when IMO literally none of that compares remotely to the depth and intensity of the long term total masculinization you start to experience like 3-5+ years in.

[helpimstuckinafandom]

I'M FUCKING CRYING LMAOOO

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

License to Kitty.

[wizard-laundry]

QUICK REMINDER

In the US: threatening government officials is a felony under federal law (the president in particular is protected under 18 U.S.C. § 871). Even memes.

be careful with your jokes if they spill over to active officials.

[max1461]

Disgust has absolutely no ethical weight. If you are basing your ethical positions on the emotion of disgust you should stop, it is entirely unjustified and leads to a huge amount of harm.