#it is difficult

[creatingnikki]

notes from my therapist

when we explore what happened in your childhood, it is not to blame your parents or have a biased judgement of them. it is to understand how events impacted you and what your experience was. so you don’t have to feel guilty about talking about it or as if you are betraying your family. 

trauma can be of various types and it does not only have to be induced due to one major event. there can also be trauma from situations of acute stress over a prolonged period of time. 

choosing the wrong or right people does not mean they are good or bad. it means understanding what is healthy for you and what you want. it’s not putting them into boxes, it’s simply knowing what is healthy for you.

why do you wait for a green light from others? what is your green light? why do your decisions have to be based on what others want? what do you want?

being a friendly person and being an open book does not mean that you cannot have boundaries. 

you disappointing someone or them disappointing you does not have to be the end of the relationship. 

[tadbitsketch]

Write a narrative essay about an experience/story that made me understand life better? Did you mean write about how MCSM shaped me as a person?

[whatever-local-cryptid]

Thought#65 of ?

The intense urge to read while knitting is so damn strong. And audio books are not scratching that part that is itching the urge.

…

I want to read and, me, knitting is getting in the way. But, I’m trying to finish this fucking blanket, damnit.

[castorochiaro]

can i please get past the part of learning a new skill where i'm ass at it

that'd be swell

[thesquireinvictus]

“I just cannot imagine disowning you own child,” says my mother, who has considered at length, threatened to, and nearly disowned me multiple times, and meanwhile abused and neglected me to the point of permanent physical disability.

[pickles4nickles]

They’re having a sleepover :)

[anotherhumanperson]

Trying to draw faces

[home2tuck-ediit2]

can i have a pesterquest sprite of the fankid from🩹🔧's request using john as a base [that was me! hi!] hes wearing an unzipped heart aspect hoodie, a black shirt that says 'my boyfriend and i died twice and all i got was this dumb t shirt' in white lettering, dark grey jeans, and a black o-ring choker. he has black eyes. i would do it myself, but im bad at hair edits..

There you go, hope you like how it turned out

This was a bit of a bumpy ride for me because I only remembered halfway through this that I could do this on more than one layer

-mod Terezi

I saw you changed your blog, so I'm gonna tag what I think your new one is

@kaibaspuppy

[pebblethief]

I started cutting out pieces for my jacket muslin today :3

[amerasdreams]

when Jason is trapped, it's very hard for him. He can become despondent if he feels there is no way out. The energy of a man of action will turn in on himself and convert to self-destructive behaviors if this goes on too long.

add to that constant pressure, living in an upside-down environment, where the horrific becomes routine, and the evil rule, the burden on his psyche becomes almost unmanageable.

However, if he's allowed an outlet, some hope, a potential escape -- his energy will be diverted outward, a more natural state. However, because the pressure has been building for a while, it may manifest in destructive ways-- things may get out of hand. The rage and terror that's been bound up inside him will burst out at his enemies-- and he may not be able to control it.

The man of action is sometimes also a man of violence. How much is his soul damaged-- without him even realizing it? How distorted has everything become after the constant dehumanization?

in such an environment where violence and slavery is normalized, you don't even realize in what ways you have been affected. Until it's too late.

[bethama]

I've started watching what I eat with a fun twist in that I'm ONLY trying to cut way back on sugar and bump way up on protein and fruits'n'veggies, so part of the game here is eating MORE per meal (i.e. less crap between meals), and my intestines are FURIOUS Let Me Tell You(TM).

[kuunibal]

So if u don’t want to get back with ur ex why are you still chasing her? I see no point in saving ur feelings for her if u don’t want to get together. Well do u even want to move on,Are you trying to?. I’m probably asking to much questions 😅 sorry.

-🦕

I don't think there is such thing as too many questions, you're alright. I am not chasing her or anything like that, and ideally I would like to be able to move on. I do try to, even though my more complimentary posts about her may appear to conflict with that. I cannot really tell her those things anymore, which is why they are vented here so I am not bottling up and ruminating over those thoughts and feelings as much.

[an-na-ko]

Lyra, my beloved cat of 13 years, passed away this year on Father's Day. She's been by my side through very difficult times and was my little rock of steady and unrelenting love. I struggled a lot drawing this, and struggled a lot posting it, but I know I would've wanted to read a comic like this that validated my grief for her when I lost her.

Wherever you are, Lyra my little summer star, I love you always! Thank you for being the best thing in my life.

[sapphicscience]

idk thinking about how sometimes you have to show up for people you aren't that close to, because sometimes you're just the person who's there. sometimes you invite a new friend to a party and end up having to sit with them through a panic attack. sometimes you run into an acquaintance on their worst day and they need to talk about what happened. sometimes someone is crying in a stairwell and you're the only one around to ask if they're okay. and none of this is "trauma dumping" or whatever the fuck it's just being there for people because you're the one in the room with them.

[problemnyatic]

when will we talk about the willful helplessness epidemic on here. So many people on this god forsaken website demand to have any and all things that exist outside their personal experiences directly, personally pre-chewed and spoonfed to them. And when you do, they'll then ask for you to swallow for them, too, because, you see, in THEIR experience..,