#it is 3am and i am very tired
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yknow im starting to think that one (1!) two-hours-long-makeout-session would fix me and my problems
#this post was written at 3am. please ignore <3#i am. actually on a serious note. very yearny right now#but im so so tired. honk shoo mimimii#okay anyways here are the actual tags >#fangedfagyearning#mlm#gay#mlm yearning#t4t mlm#nblm#gay yearning#mlm thoughts#mlnb#ftm mlm#gay mlm#t4t#t4t yearning
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The Men of 9-1-1 and 9-1-1: Lone Star and Whether They Iron Their Underwear or Not - A Thesis
Yes, he does. He finds it relaxing. Put on a nice podcast or some reality TV and you have a perfect afternoon after a 48 right there.
It never occurred to him before, but when it does he goes all in. Not just his own underwear, oh no. Every single one of Jee's little socks gets ironed, too. Maddie puts an end to it when he inevitably ruins some very delicate lacey pieces but appreciates the effort.
Only when he's stressed. It's actually an early warning sign that he might need an intervention.
Yeah, no. Boywonder had to look if he even owned an iron when he learned that this was a thing. Turns out he does! It's still got the little sealing stickers on it and he has no recollection of buying it. Might start using it now that he knows it's there.
Are you kidding? He's an adult with class, of course, he irons his underwear. Doesn't everyone?
He used to because it was just one of those things one does, right? But then shortly after transferring to Harbor he had a bit of a moment (actually while he was in the process of ironing his underwear) of thinking to himself 'why am I doing this?' and he couldn't find a satisfying answer beyond 'It's just what you do'. So he stopped. In fact, he's re-evaluated a lot of things he just did out of habit and if it didn't spark joy and he found that he couldn't really say why he does it, he stopped doing it. He's been a much happier person since.
Wait, that's why his underwear has been feeling off since he came to the US? Because someone back home used to iron it? Wild.
Oh absolutely. Like Bobby, he finds it to be kind of meditative and it makes sure everything folds exactly the right way. Plus, he likes to spray his laundry with organic lavender water and the ironing really gets it in there.
No? Why?
Not his own, but Grace likes it if her cotton items are ironed so of course he irons those.
Of course, he does. His mama raised him right, after all, and everyone knows that it softens the fabric making it so much more comfortable, right? Right??
Wait, that's a thing that people actually do?
No, he doesn't. His husband does it for him, duh.
#911 abc#911 lone star#evan buckley#eddie diaz#tk strand#carlos reyes#tommy kinard#bobby nash#howard han#albert han#josh russo#owen strand#judd ryder#paul strickland#mateo chavez#this is a shitpost#please don't take it too seriously#it was 3am and i couldn't sleep but was also too tired for fanfic so the thoughts went thinking#except for the tommy one#i am very serious about the tommy one and that is exactly what happened
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Posting here because I, quite frankly, fear the short Jon anon.
I picture Jon as being average height and the perception of how tall he is changes based on the context. Like:
season 5 monster Jon: 5’8 is tall
While being kidnapped: 5’8 is short
(Not in a magic way but in a his demeanour makes him look smaller/bigger depending on the situation way.)
Oh this is fun as hell. I like short Jon a lot but this is rly fun
#this is where i say ive been answering this and past 3 asks at 3am while very tired after taking an hr to try figure out if a low quality#photo of an animated character is wearing a knitted turtleneck that has either rib stitches or is striped my brain has melted#if you know what im referring to i am so so sry#magpod#tma#the magnus archives#jon sims#jonathan sims#magpod confession
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hey wait so if twitch thinks they drank all (or at least most) of their original memories back in the red honey they stole when they escaped
then every red honey headache has gotta be 100x worse bc it comes with the realisation of how many memories they did Not get back (and now never will)
how many headaches does it take for the doubt to start creeping in about if they got any of their memories back at all. there's gotta be a point where they realise the amount of memories in their brain doesn't add up with how many headaches they've had
#it's 3am why is this cominh to me Now i am falling asleep#additionally if they ever somehow learn about there maybe being Full Jars of their memory honey#that's gotta be a “wait no that can't be right. i only missed a few” moment#i'm sure tbere's more to this. somehow. but i am very tired#londonmusings#twitchery
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Idk If anyone else said this or whatever, but saiki would love fan content.
And by fan content I mean fanfics, considering he doesn't like getting spoilers, it would be very rare for him to hear the spoilers from a fanfic.
We already know he likes reading, and partaking in the watching of shows, but if he found out people write stuff about these shows, even if its not Canon or whatever, he would still read it.
I don't imagine he'd write his own tbh, I see him more of a reader, if he were to write his own he'd either go all out or make it as normal of a fanfic as possible.
Also on this note kaidou definitely reads and writes fanfiction like why wouldn't he. Have you looked at him? Man probably writes y/n type stuff tbh and posts it on tumblr
#im very tired jts like almost 3am#but yeah fanfic am i roght?#right. im not editing that im on mobile i cant edit mistakes#saiki k headcanons#saiki k#kaidou shun#kusuo saiki#the disastrous life of saiki k
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. not snz
on healing and on fear (tags)
#(typed this up at 3am and scheduling for later) no one needs to read this 🙏#today i went back to the site where i got injured back in may to partake in a sport which i haven't touched at all since the injury#and i think what struck me was the realization that#i don't know if i'll ever be able to stop being scared again :')#for a time climbing was very special to me...#it was one of the only ways i could feel myself improving so tangibly when improvement is usually so difficult to track#i liked seeing myself get better at something 😭 i liked going with friends and puzzling over the same problems... i liked having something#to look forward to after work. and perhaps having something to look forward to sounds simple... but for me it meant so much :')#for the first couple months after the injury i couldn't wait to get back into it#and then one day i woke up and i was just afraid#the fear feels so much more tangible now that i know i am not overreacting... it's awful knowing that in a way i was right to be afraid#i always knew there were risks associated; i have always been cautious#but i had just been starting to learn to be braver 😭#and fuck... today i stood there and looked at the wall and thought. how can i ever not be afraid again?#how can i go back to how things were before? when i loved this? when i could tell myself that - despite the fear - it was meaningful to try#i wanted to come away with the takeaway that i could take things slowly and get back into climbing - maybe precisely because#i remember so keenly how i loved it - but how could it ever be the same?#😭 i know this is just part of growing up but#in some ways i am tired of growing up... :') in some ways i just want that joy as it was then#delete later probably#i suppose i haven't lost anything but typing this made me sob for something i couldn't quite name
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it’s 3am and i’ve spent the past few hours drawing a bunch of doodles of me and anton hanging out together like we’re the bestest of friends because it’s my art and i can draw whatever i want forever
#i’ll post the drawings this weekend probably#anton oc#wyrms says stuff#wyrms lore#it’s 3am and i am not tired but i also have to get up early so#hey at least i don’t have any classes on fridays so that’s good#wow anton is so cool#wow#wow i love him so much more than anything really#platonically obviously we’re both very aroace#and i know if he was real we’d be best friends we’d do everything together#we’d go see that absolutely horrendous looking minecraft movie on opening night together#he’d talk to me about rats and science and snakes and i’d talk about undertale and tma and gravity falls#we’d have so much fun i’d teach him how to play video games and he would love it so much#and he’d show me all of his weird and wacky science experiments and he’d be so silly about it#and we’d go on walks in his forest and he’d show me all the animals#and we’d comfort eachother when we’re sad and it would be so cozy and safe#we would have eachother and understand eachother that’s all we will ever need#wow he’s just so real to me guys#like he feels so real#and i’m so genuinely sad that he’s not#he deserves to exist he deserves to be happy#the fact he doesn’t exist feels like i lost someone extremely close to me and will never get them back#it’s like i’m grieving the loss of someone who never existed and it hurts#he deserves to exist :(#ouughhh#this is devastating#it hurts#i should go to sleep#:(
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hour 4 1/2 at a truck stop i have not slept an inkling im covered in sand i am confined to a 1.5 foot space it is so humid so loud so bright Thank god for my house md fic backlog or id be toast in boredom
#Im fine btw im just playing my misery up for the bit#yes i am very tired but im not like. killing myself#Ive been up for almost 24 hours but idc. cause im built different#Do i want to be in a bed? Yes. However the time spent looking for somewhere to sleep probably wouldve taken us to 3am at the latest#why do that when you have a CARR!!!!!!!!#waiting until 6am like im at freddy fazbears but instead of anomatronics its various 18 wheelers driving by with their high beams shining#directly into my eyeballs#Checking cams (looking out the window). Opening the doors (leaving the windows cracked so we dont overheat). Killing myself (Killing myself)#LASTPSRT IS A JOKE#Do not be worried for me i am ok i love complaining
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I AM!! PUTTING GENUINE EFFORT INTO GETTING A HEALTHIER SLEEP SCHEDULE!! 🎉🎉🎉 *crowd cheering.mp3*
#YAY ME#NO MORE GOING TO SLEEP AT 4AM AND WAKING UP AT 6AM ON SCHOOL NIGHTS BABYYY#THE FACT THAT I AM PUTTING ACTUAL AND CONSCIOUS EFFORT INTO THIS IS ACTUALLY PRETTY AMAZING FOR A STUBBORN BASTARD SUCH AS MYSELF#AYYYYYY#the only problem is that my body got used to living with only 2 hours of sleep and won't!! let me get tired at reasonable times!!!#i am SO AWAKE at 3am it's kinda bad....#Its not even insomnia- its the ✨️ unmedicated crippling executive dysfunction ✨️#my post#just wanted to share this because i felt very proud of myself for it!! it's very silly and childish but I AM a child- shaddup#silly chatters
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I would read your zhongxiao codependent yuri Like, I do generally picture them as a vaguely father/son dynamic BUT THAT IS NOT CANON. It's just as much fun to view them through a romantic interpretation! Idk why people can't view the same characters in different kinds of relationships without being weird about it.
Anyway I love your vision and would love to hear more about it lakdjs
THANK U SO MUCH Im not sure if I’m gonna write zx in the future since I’ve tended to be shy about posting my stuff relating to them for over a yr now, but I did post this fic with them last year while trying to get a hold on how to write them (mind the tags it’s pure angst omg). I was too shy to tag it as ship since it didn’t feel shippy enough, which is kind of funny to me in hindsight bc I reread it and am like. Man I think only a zx shipper would write this NUFNVJVJV
Post got kind of lot Im gonna go on a tangent about them under the cut
Honestly my theory for why ppl r very set on the father/son interpretation is everyone’s immediate thought on to how to make the power imbalance between them seem less uncomfortable is to apply a parental interpretation to it. Which is fine ofc, I get it, but the way ppl push it as canon a lot kind of grates on me a little bc they’re usually incredibly passive aggressive and pushy even if u clearly designate ur post as ship OTL
Also not really a fan of the characterizations either since ppl tend to treat Xiao like a moody teenager Zhongli has to reel in (this is hilariously reminiscent of the post I made about how ppl handle scaramouche and nahida a bit ago haha). And idk I just feel kind of polarized about the headcanon overall bc I associate it with people being really uncomfortable and frustrating about zx
I just like how there’s sort of an imbalance to them, some zxs like them being more fluffy and functional but I sort of like it where it’s not like, entirely dysfunctional but I’m prioritizing a specific kind of character study over romance. This tends to be how a lot of my ships go ngl I just sometimes enjoy the intensity/intimacy of romantic feelings thrown into the mix if it makes it interesting but I’m not often interested in a lot of my ships following more standard romance plots(?) I guess? Unless it’s specific ones. Which sounds clinical when I put it like that but this is just bc I am very aromantic NHFBVJVJ
When I say codependency in zhongxiao honestly it’s sort of a theoretical(?) codependency—not sure how to word it? I think Xiao would be really fucked up if he didn’t have Zhongli in his life suddenly but I don’t think his relationship with getting attached to people invokes what people would majorly think of when they think of codependency in a ship I suppose. It’s moreso I just feel Xiao could be at his worst with dehumanizing himself in comparison to other people with Zhongli, because said mental state is driven by how he feels about debt, service, and duty which are very closely tied with devotion and how he would feel about someone he considers his god and leader, as well as someone who saved him
It’s fun this is paired with Zhongli who generally knows how to work with Xiao kind of understands the self destructive depth Xiao’s loyalty/devotion comes with. Also fun they have been around each other for a very long time and Xiao as one of the adepti is familiar with the past I think Zhongli appreciates having around. They work but it’s also a case where Zhongli is in such a position of power over Xiao its kind of very delicate situation that’s hard for both of them to navigate. Which is fun to explore. I esp love contrasting it with other Xiao pairings (actually i think i still have that xiaoven fic up on my ao3 where I tried to convey a specific interpretation of them in a similar exploration vein too)
I totally get why people wouldn’t like it (I feel a lot of my opinions on xiao ships just clash with a lot of fandom consensus so bad all the time And it’s just bc I’m like this I’m not even trying to be contrarian or anything. HELDINCJD) but I just tend to handle shipping in a specific way. It’s not I don’t enjoy fluffy or lighthearted zl and xiao stuff I actually enjoy it a lot I just like there being layers. This makes it feel more impactful when I think about how Zhongli looks out for Xiao in canon or how Xiao gets like textually flustered talking to him (lantern rite 2023 was so tailored to my tastes it’s not even funny)
#the yuri part is more of an inside joke w my friends bc this is how we all talk but I did once compare zx to my sapphic awakening pairing#which is rose & Pearl from steven universe and it is truly my favorite thing to pitch to people verbally bc It kind of sounds#incomprehensible but also I’m totally onto something….no one understands….#Pearl and xiao r literally both spear wielding birds who’s arc revolves around being ok w being a person who lives for themselves ://#and they r eternally grateful to their war general leader . no one gets it. it torments me personally bc#I loved Pearl SU when I was 11 and now I enjoy xiao a lot and it’s like…we’ll these r very different characters but also I think I have not#changes. JUDJDKXJD#it’s 3am I woke up in a haze to answer this…I need to go to bed smh#fern.txt#zhongxiao#Edit: I woke up and finished writing this post and I a#am so tired#asks
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want to do OCtober or goretober but aghhh i have like negative willpower to success on these monthly art challenges even tho i am well aware that if i don't talk about my guys i will eventually esplode violently
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just randomly remembered my middle school DHMIS obsession and specifically that i fucking loved your DHMIS art (i'm pretty sure i drew fanart of your fluffybird kids at some point?!) and went back to your acct to look at your DHMIS art and it's just hitting me how much of my art style was influenced by yours back then!!!! i really really liked the bouncy fluffy energy it had, i guess. anyway just thought i'd share hope you're doing well!
sorry for taking so long to respond, I wanted to draw something for this, but I'm an old man who takes forever to draw things. I'll gush under the read me so I don't take up the feed space.
Thank you so much for leaving this ask, I've been struggling a lot recently with finding purpose in my art and it's very heartwarming to hear that I helped someone on their creative journey♥ Fun fact: I was in freshman/sophomore year of high school when I made a lot of my dhmis art, so I wasn't much older lol.
I wanted to do this drawing to showcase how much my art style has changed in the past 5 years, but also to show how much fluffybird has changed as a ship from the youtube -> series transition, when we found out in more detail what the puppet's relationship was. (which in my opinion is probably the funniest ship 180 I've ever seen) Seeing these characters I used to draw in flower crowns and cuddling start beating the hell out of each other was in fact the highlight of my 2022 when the series came out. I hope you enjoyed it too dear anon.
overall I hope your art journey is going well anon! whether it be something you stopped doing or something you still partake in, I'm glad I could be an inspiration to you on your journey, and I hope you find many more inspirations on your path to success, whatever it may be.
#fluffybird#ask#god how long has it been since i've answered an ask on here#like infinite time me thinks#anon#i hope i articulated this well enough#i am. tired. and also posting this at 3am oops#answeing asks late in the night like the good ol days lol#anyway thanks so much anon you are very special to me
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there are so many amazing peepaw fics out there but i'm a firm believer that if future Leo ever met present Leo (he'd be so tiny compared to how BIG Leo grows to be) he'd just look at him and say "I don't blame you. It was never your fault" because if theres one thing an apocalypse can teach you, its hindsight. In hindsight, none of them could have possibly known the importance of that key. Not even Leo, even though we all know that means nothing to him and he's still gonna blame himself 100% for that lol. No one other than Leo himself knows what 16 y/o Leo needs to hear after nearly kickstarting the actual end of the world. i think F!Leo would hold so much blame and self-hatred for himself but if he saw little him, he'd just see a scared teenager way out of his depth, not the asshole who ended the world that he was blaming all these years.
#like idk smth smth blaming yourself for mistakes you made as a kis#and then bding confronted with said kid version of yourself#and realizing “i was a child. i am blaming myself for a mistake i made as a child.”#i think that realization wouls hurt#:(((((#anyway its 3am and i canf sleep#so have this#im very tired#rottmnt#tmnt#rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles#rise leo#rise of the tmnt#F!Leo#rise leonardo#leonardo#teenage mutant ninja turtle imagine#unpause rise of the tmnt#summer post#if yhis doesnt make sense#its bc my brain is half asleep
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( see i've been working on this icon border all morning and i don't know if it'll look better with or without the flower. but ahhhhh i really wanted to add the flower :( man.... )
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Persephone lets herself into an empty apartment, furnished with pastel ghosts and sky for a ceiling. It’s her building, after all. The key is an ordinary landlord outrage, blood warm in her fist. She hasn’t used it since—well. Since ever. Since giving Calliope its twin, because if she wasn’t staying at the Club she needed something, somewhere. Holding it now feels like a crime.
...I have my actual doctorate due for submission in an actual bloody week and Stray Gods has enough of a hold on me that I had to write this anyway. Think of it as a preview for...at least the next 6 months?
#stray gods#calliope x persephone#my fic#new fandom whats this??#i am still a very tired thesis goblin but i might as well use that classics degree#featuring bitching about Demeter#also Orpheus#and home improvement as a love language#trope of my heart since who knows when#it is 3am oh god
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