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Its so hard for me to NOT compare my trauma
Some people have had to watch their mother get beat or get beat until they started bleeding or just. Horrible things.
What did I go through? Um. I was emotionally neglected and groomed online?? And I knew my parents hated each others guts?? And they fought sometimes?? And my father also used to beat me in early childhood (one time for a misunderstanding ???) But he's stopped (since I dont do shit anymore I guess. Always listening and shit.) Now that I say it it sounds kinda bad but its not THAT bad. Plus I feel so. Detached from traumatic events I dont even know if I could call it traumatic. I literally feel nothing abt it.
It's like I've been reincarnated and that was my past life
I can only remember decent memories atp and with bad shit I do remember I dont feel anything about it.
I just feel like it wasn't enough to call myself "traumatized," especially since, for the last few months, I've been. Fine? Literally okay.
For some reason its so weird seeing myself happy. Even if I'm feeling like shit I think "hey. Ur friend went through way worse than u when they were a kid. In fact, they are still in a bad situation. You were literally able to go have a good time and shit. Sooooooooooooo. What actual trauma do you have?? Go get yourself hurt and maybe you'll actually have a reason to cry." OR "Yea you have trauma but it's the most standard shit ever. People have gone through wayyy worse. And what have YOU really been through?"
I rlly do wanna get hurt. If you care about me then thank the lord I don't know how to get myself hurt again???? Because everything was out of my control.
I wonder why I'm even like this? I genuinely have no idea.
#☠️ okay reply ;#pleae validate me im desparate for validation plsplspspsls /joke#its just. fine.#im literally not enough in ANY aspect#this is insane chat#it feels like im attention seeking#no matter what#ugh#do not.percieve me actually#idk#I am desparate for attention but being percieved is so embarrassing actually#i wont believe it anyway#no matter what validation i recieve
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How do you think our beloved Shane looked/acted like as a child?? I’m so insanely curious about your thoughts on this
oh em gee .. i think abt little shane A LOT 😀 i feel like he was very rough as a kid but like. in an innocent way. maybe bc he’s semi-neglected by his parents so he’s a bit of an attention seeker. but i think he was also emotionally sensitive and grabby (he’d hold onto people’s clothes a lot .. how cute would that be ..) .. not the best hygiene (Marnie has to brush his teeth for him a lot when he comes to visit..) .. etc etc ..
design wise im thinking (1) messy hair (2) big clothes (3) ruddy face 🥹 i think his childhood aggression is a good athletic pipeline for his early 20s, and then lends way to gruffness and coldness in his 30s post mental health spiral 😋
#it’s hard to keep urself from making Shane a mean little kid when i feel like his meanness is brought out as he gets older#so instead i see it as like. attention seeking aggression#r we seeing the vision#IDKKK id love to hear other people’s characterizations for little shane#im not v good at it#CUTE ASK THO!#sdv#stardew valley#chitchat#sdv shane
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I am fairly over the continued "let's make seungmin the butt of the joke" thing. Not bc he's a poor little baby or something, he purposely courts that attention /sometimes/ but because it's frequently unfunny and like. Been done way too many times? Like when those moments organically happen, they can be good fun but lately it's just forced and I'm like Oh this again?
#like the thing where staff loves to put smart ass captions being like Look at this loser who tries to make funny moments#omg he tries to get attention (yes he is an idol in a group where they all seek attention )#like to me its the same as when they beat the hyunjin is so annoyed by changbin joke/dynamic into the ground#eventually its like im not really laughing it was just kinda uncomfortable#like the fact flying yoga won for him? that was just an organically funny episode#so maybe just do more stuff like that idk <3#it was like in the aus eps when they didnt hug him during his short and he was like Okay can you do it properly now afterward#i didnt laugh it didnt feel funny#im well aware he loves those guys and vice versa but even jokingly doing like Lol we are excluding you type 'joke' bullying isnt really...#well it isnt funny to me#staff taking 'joke' shots at him in the captions isnt funny either#changbin gets this treatment too and im always just like.... somehow i dont think itd fly if it was any of the others <3#lol#or like including the whole segment in the album intro of seungmin recording and them being like look at this freak doing it 50 times#which would have been one thing but then they cut that line from the song and didnt even tell him so he awkwardly had to be like idk#when fans asked bc they dedicated a whole segment to it so of course fans were going to anticipate that line and question him about it?#like a line getting clipped happens its not the end of the world#but choosing to include the footage and joke at him when you know its been cut? idk man doesnt feel right to me#esp when everyone knows hes sensitive about that type of thing? and you made such a point of it that fans would def bring it up?#idk it teeters the line between good natured ribbing and actually feeling mean#and you guys know i can enjoy a mean joke bc i make them often but so many of the ones staff crack /arent funny/ like i dont laugh
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guys can someone reassure me that you want to read phan smut
#i literally do not care normally ik the redacties and ppa is well and truly alive#but i just got hit with the ick at my own writing#it’s not that o think it’s bad I’m just scared no one is going to read it and im going to feel ashamed lmao#sorry this is not very demure of me ik some people just like to lurk or be anon#I just need like. One reassurance#writing#phanfic#i feel like fics based on recent events get more attention#and I get ideas but I can’t get them out that fast sometimes yk#so I might post something written in a time from like. 3 months ago#which isn’t even that long there’s no rules in the world of fanfic#i swear I’m not trying to attention seek ik red and some of my other beloved moors will always read#but. idk sorry this is dumb 😭#my writing always includes some kind of plot too#i love reading it but I feel incapable of doing pwp for some reason#im being weird like this isn’t puritan twitter
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hey, even if you end up not doing some entries for the sake of the length of the video, could you post the full uncut version of the iceberg with all the entries?
Probably not, sorry :[ Do keep in mind I'm not cutting out any entries because of length (i love long iceberg videos), more so just keeping the ones that I personally think would make for an interesting topic / cool discussion, which will be like 99% of them anyways bc diving into fandom culture is fun ! If it helps I don't think I'll be deleting anything on the public iceberg, I think I'll probably just make a copy of it and use that one for my (hypothetical) video. I might also combine a few entries, idk yet we'll see! I hope that's not upsetting :') Again I still don't know if I'm making this thing but it seems fun in concept, I'll just have to find the time which might be a while... Regardless I do appreciate the entries that have showed up and how its filled up so fast ❤️ I genuinely can't believe how much stuff showed up that I'd never heard of before
#ask#but yeagh...#I still feel like i need a break from making videos sort of#I still get stressed over everything happening with my video and social media addiction is very energy draining#I'm a really introverted person and getting so much attention so suddenly has admittedly been difficult to adjust to#especially with how ADHD inherently makes you compulsively seek dopamine.. uh oh !!#It's definitely more than I'm used to#even though people are super nice im just bothered by other things#but yeah the iceberg was just a silly idea and it might develop into something bigger but for now it has still been fun :)#ALSO I'M OKAY just adjusting
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ive been losing soooo many followers lately and while rationally im like 90% sure it's just the bots getting axed, it still makes me feel vv sad
#yena talks#never let anyone tell u that seasonal depression is not a thing cz like. summer ysna would never think like this#and i Know it's not rational but it feels like it's cz people dont like whay i write anymore 😞#god that sounds so attention seeking JSHFIJSUFUDHK ignore me everyone im being silly#but still. feeling very sad 😞
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Oh yeah my bad there’s definitely NO insecurity on this person. /s
#Always funny when I go to block a guy and they have DUR HUR YOU BLOCK ME BC IM SMART UR TROGGERED#in their description#no man you’re just annoying and attention seeking and I’m not 12 so that mentality can’t work on me#you can ‘win tumblr’ if that makes you feel like a big strong cool guy that’s ok pal#you’ll get through puberty one day and balance out
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Dream drama still going on is like when you're watching a fun show and the producers are like HEY this makes great money so they order another season. And then another season. And then another season. And then another season. And then another sea-
#dream#discourse#its just the same thing over and over again#yes we KNOW youre an insecure pissbaby who's learned that crying in speciric ways will a) get the attention on you and b) send specifiic#groups of pwople flicking to your defense#blah blah superiority complex blah blah failure to emphasize with other people blah blah#failure to comprehend his responsibilities to mitigate harm as a once-loved mentor and mcyt figure#self assurance that as long as he talks calmly hes in the right because it takes effort to not be angry and look! look at all this effort#hes putting in and youre all just being mean 😔#i think it says a lot about how he treated the young members of the dsmp as equals#not because THEY were mature for their age but more so how he was and is immature#idk i think the psychology going on here is a lil interesting but hes v predictable#attention seeking etc etc#hes such a joke#idk im mostly having fun w this becausw i feel like the people hes hurt are gonna have infinitely more content and fulfilling lives#mwanwhile hes prob gonna be trapped in this resentful done-bad wahwah cycle#but id like him to have a lil more pizzaz w it yknow. put on a circus and pretend to be a monkey. throw his own shit#i would LOVE to see him try to justify a point by throwing shit i bet he could do it unironically
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i think after this next event drops im gonna go on a long hiatus.
#jjae speaks#idk im just having a hard time lately#and i dont like making it other peoples problem#bc that feels too attention-seeking for me yk?#but fuck#some things are making it hard to want to be here anymore#ill probably delete this later#and ill probably pop jn every once in a while to drop a random fic or something#but ive lost that sense of family here
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What it's like being a narcissist in a group chat with other narcissists
#npd#narcissist#for people without npd who wouldn't get this and think it's just needlessly judgy: it's not#connecting with other people with cluster b disorders is great. it can feel like home to have other people that actually understand#however. narcissists interacting can be like holding up a mirror and it can be VERY annoying#and not even like. in a bad way. npd servers force you to learn to deal with that shit in a healthy way#pissed off because someone else is seeking attention and youre the only one who deserves praise?#well if you be rude to them because of it people aren't going to return the favour for you when you start wanting praise#narcissists love having traits that they hate to see in anyone else. and being around other narcissists helps force people to cope w that#so like. i love pwnpd. sometimes i see a post by someone with it and am like wow....just like me#other times im like 'wow thats extremely toxic/dumb/immature/attention seeking. im so much better than you' even if its also something i do#or if its something similar to what i do but not exact#im trying to explain it the best i can without rambling forever in the tags but basically: this is not hostility#this is simply a hilarious ‚ ironic consequence of having npd#and i post this with so much love in my heart#as a narcissist i think narcissists are a bit too full of themselves and i know they feel the same way about me <3 mutual respect
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slasher crackship community now is yall's time to shine. i want yall to drop your proudest ship creation in the tags because i need a good laugh. ill even be generous and start first.
reblogs are appreciated, i love reading yall's tags!
#slasher#slashers#horror movies#horror#spree 2020#spree movie#kurt kunkle#kurtsworld96#halloween#halloween ends#corey cunningham#crackship#crossover ship#this would be so terrible but also damn funny#they're both pathetic but like. different brands of pathetic you feel me.#corey's previously neglected miserable wet shelter dog pathetic#meanwhile kurt's chronically online attention seeking loser pathetic#also they both got alliterative names so that's cute#im gonna call em kunkleham. and a cool alternative i thought up could be joyride.
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no fucking wayyy dude
#so you kick us out of a sever for saying people shouldnt joke about child rape/assault#and say u have evidence me n a friend were talking behind ur back#so you unfriend us n kick us out of yhe group#instead of oh idk talking about it with us like a mature person#you constantlyyyyy say ur trying sooo hard to get better at communicating but thats suchh bullshit u js want people to feel bad for you#oh sorry i think joking about raping a child is disturbing and gross#sorry me n my friend were talking about that together#not spreading “rumors” or even talking to other ppl about it#js airing problems out to eachother#literally go fuck urself youre such an entitled asshole#you use your mental illnesses to make people feel bad for you and get mad when they dont#sorry im not pitying a cis white girl who lives pretty comfortably financially in a safer part of town.#i cant even tell if she realizes how attention seeking she really is#the excuse of saying we were talking shit in a channel or whatever is literally suck bullshit#if i said something about the child rape jokes in a channel and you know its about you Obviously you should take a fucking look at yourself#Also not to mention when we got in a fight you said shit to my Face in “your channel” that made me go into one of the most dissociative#paranoid episodes in my life Ever. making me question my fucking morals and shit#how fucking up your own ass are you#whatever talk to me like a fucking grown up if you think youre so mature asshole#<- sorry this isnt about anyone here but im so fucking mad its like#genuinely disgusting#venting
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hi, sorry for the lack of posts rn,,, not to vent or anything but lifes not being very kind rn and horny posting feels very weird
ily all tho, my inbox/requests are still open for when I'm back on my shit 🫶🏻
#feeling the need to like#explain myself even if i dont need to#while also feeling like im attention seeking???#my brains mush rn#gothghostiie
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ave mujica episode 3 made me tear up... maybe this time i'll actually get into bandori properly..
#bandori#ave mujica#ave mujica the die is cast#i have watched mygo of course#but the characters didnt click super hard for me even if i think theyre well written#im a bit more interested in ave mujica so far.. and i like their genre a lot more#so im looking forward to how things go#i thought my favorite would originally be sakiko but im not sure now#uika nyamu and mutsumi all seem rlly interesting to me right now#im surprised at how much nyamu is growing on me? i feel like there's more to her intentions than just seeking attention.. idk#i dont know much
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would you still love me if i was more annoying with self reblogs 🥺
#gekko.txt#really happy with my art recently#and seeing the notes number go up makes my brain go :D#but i always feel like im seeking attention whenever i self rb#and like yeah i kinda am but also augh
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not being allowed to say "hey i think maybe i have depression/anxiety/autism/whatever else" without someone making me feel bad because i don't have an actual diagnosis, nor do i have the means to currently deal with any of that, is... something for sure. i'll just suffer in silence i guess
#not trying to be rude or something idk i just felt... idk when i learned that maybe i have autism i felt kind of good?#like hey! heres an explanation for things!! maybe this is it!!!#it made me feel somewhat normal#but now im too scared of being seen as attention seeking or something that i just ignore everything#im talking too much today. im sorry lol#kenzie.txt
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