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Day 3 of Pokemon Legends Arceus
Almost died twice by Ursaring
Once by a Sneasel (Johtonian)
Completed Wurmple's Dex entey
Got most of the spawns from the Obsidian Fieldland distortions, need Gengar, Steelix, Lickilicky, Ursaring, and Weavile
Or evolve them on my own, but getting all distortion pokemon adds a bit of fun
Was trying to get most of Kricketot's dex entry done cause I talked to the person who had that request
But then the termites returned
And that's a tomorrow problem, so it's time for bed
Droopy evolved! He is so cute!
Four stars now
Got a Sylveon, probably gonna keep him, idk, seeing how Adaman and Irida have six of the eight eeveelutions, I just thought it would be neat for the MC from the sky to have the last two, at least Sylveon, an eeveelution and type that didn't even exist yet when DPPl first came out
Make the MC more other!
But I have Leo the Luxray
And I want a Gliscor and a giant land shark, both of which are ground types, so no second electric type
Sorry Jolteon
Plan for Day 4
Find out how to feed Kricketot
Finish Kricketot's pokedex entry
Fight a flower
The Team
Droopy the Hisuian Typhlosion
Leo the Luxray
Rex the Sylveon (from the third distortion I entered)
#1lom post#pokemon#pokemon legends arceus#hisuian typhlosion#luxray#sylveon#sorry to jolteon twice really#it was my fav eeveelution until leafeon attacked#dont worry#you are solidly in second place#umbreon or espeon would be third#it depends on which one i used last#legends arceus
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must be fall
#my art#eye contact#tw eye contact#scopophobia#scopohobia tw#furry#sfw furry#oc#let me know if i need to tw tag this more or give me the proper tags if im not using the right one!!!#i do not remember my oc tag bc when i went to look NOTHING would pop up . so maybe i'll edit this later and see#I HAVENT DONE ART FOR [ME] IN A REALLY LONG TIME which is why ive been working up to posting this AHBDFKU#BUT YEAH i am really happy with this. im having a fun time switching between the first sketch and the final product#im also eating a bag of blue raspberry sour patch kids like my life depends on it theyre so good#my hair is also getting pretty long i think and im debating on just letting it grow out or buzzing it again or a Short haircut#we'll see i'll probs figure out by the time october is over#ive been stalling the last 30 minutes to post this LMAO
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Just curious what the average level of personal investment in these sorts of things is. Like, how much do people usually get into silly stuff like this their friends ask of them? etc. etc. Which I know, only surveying a small sample on a very specific website means I'm not getting an exact average idea lol, but.. curious nonetheless .. Maybe reblog for bigger sample size but also this is not very serious at all/not worth a call to action gbhjbhjb
#which I know this could be context dependent like.. maybe you'd normally dress up but on a week that#you feel sick you wouldn't or etc. etc. - but I mean.. GENERALLY. in the most general average scenario#where you have the average amount of health and free time that you always do. etc. just based on your personality#and level of investment in these things - what on AVERAGE are you most inclined to do#also of course assume they communicate with you ahead of time and are not like planning a part last minute#like 'throw together costume in 5 hours and show up tonight randomly' or etc. I would hope that if we're going with the#AVERAGE of things - most people's friends have better communication skills than springing entire parties#on people last minute lol#assume you have like.. a few days-a week or so to prepare. however ealrly people usually start talking about#birthdays. In my experience it's usually one or two weeks ahead of time. Like 'oh next weekend' or 'oh two weeks from now' etc.#ANYWAY.. feeling a little Sick again of course but still trying to get some photos or something posted#AGAIN i promise I am not going to exlcusively post polls and ntohing else forever hgkjgnekj#I just really really love the ability to post polls and have always my whole life been obsessed with surveying people#I used to think I wanted to do that as a career somehow like.. be one of the people that does psychological interviews#or produce interview asessments for a company or etc. etc. I am always the one friend in the group thats giving out custom made#surveys or asking for other simialr stuff (did you ever take an mbti quiz? how about enneagra#m?? oh yeah I know they're not really scientifically valid or antyhing but like... DID you take them?? huh?? did you??please?? ghjj)#I simply cannot resist.. posting a little poll every once in a while.. as a treat#whilst I still fall behind on like actual content and costumes and stuff gbjhbjh#New poll adventure should be not as much of a wait as the last one was though since I already have the writing#for it really. I just have to do the ms paint sketch. hopefully no unexpected other health issues will get in the way#*** *** ***#< (anytime I do these three star patterns it is an ocd compulsion not me bleeping out words or something just ignore it lol)#(it means something secret in my evil brain just pretend you do not see it. significant only to me)#BUT YEAH.. ... poll... what type of costume party atendee are you?#:0c
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I think it'd be funny if the new Pristine Cut gallery included the number/percentage of lines of dialogue seen.
It’d probably be too immersion-breaking to work as a serious idea, but just imagine beating the game for the first time, going to the gallery and seeing you've seen like 5% of the total dialogue in the game. Jaw drop moment
#og post#stp#tpc#slay the princess#the pristine cut#the real issue is that it'd make people try to see 100% of the lines which would be. an ordeal#bc aside from all the branching paths & optional dialogue & different voice combos#there's also so many subtle dialogue changes depending on the most seemingly inconsequential choices#the first one i remember noticing was skeptic's line in prisoner as you go down the stairs#usually he wonders if she remembers us#but sometimes he instead wonders what visitors she could referring to#i remember seeing the alternate line and doing a double take lol#i haven't looked at the code or anything but i'm pretty sure it's based on if you’d verbally acknowledged that you'd been there before#it's the sort of thing that 95% of players wouldn't consider especially if they're just trying to get to the cabin as quickly as possible#but like. if you hadn't said anything before it wouldn't make sense for skeptic to reveal that you'd been there before in a throwaway line#he's too clever for that#especially if he's thinking similarly to prisoner who tries not to ''give away the game'' by acknowledging the last chapter#so like. absolutely incredible attention to detail and responsiveness to player choices#but also a hypothetical dialogue completionist's nightmare haha
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just an essay bc it's been on my mind but the way that victimhood becomes a weapon on social media is so fucking stupid and counterintuitive to actual advocacy. people wielding "im a victim" as a defense not only in situations actually involving their specific case but also in basically every damn situation in the world is so ???? even in cases involving dream, for example, i will see people using his history as a means of defending him (it's really fucked up that you would accuse a victim of ___, he's an abuse victim i'm sure he won't defend ___ and that he'll ___) and while i understand where that sentiment comes from, the base assumption it's making is...nakedly untrue. and assuming its truthfulness can hurt victims moreso than it helps them.
being a victim isn't moralizing. being a victim doesn't make you a good person. suffering isn't absolution, and going through fucked up shit doesn't make someone "good." people equate abuser = bad person and victim = good person, and then assume that victims are incapable of abusive behavior or "problematic" internalized ideas. an abuser can't be neurodivergent, or mentally ill, or part of a marginalized group, and most importantly an abuser can't be a victim. the boxes of victim and abuser are strictly defined with no overlap. once you've been through something truly, verifiably, Fucked Up (tm), congrats! you get a certificate of eternal victimhood that prevents you from ever being a Real Bad Person ever for the rest of your life.
only that's not how real life works! it's just not! generational trauma leads to cycles of abuse that perpetuate themselves over whole generations of people! the kids that think that it's perfectly fine and a-okay for a parent to physically punish their children don't tend to be the ones with parents that don't lay a finger on them! and you know, it sucks. it sucks that you get nothing out of being hurt, that there's no fucking prize, that there are no suffering vouchers for you to cash in because of the abuse you suffered that can give you good-person-points. it sucks to endure all that shit for nothing. but the opposite idea of suffering making you a good person is the exact reason why some people preach about the miles they walked to school in the driving rain to excuse taking out their shitty temper on their small children.
being abused generally doesn't make one "better." if anything, trauma tends to fuck you up in ways that hurt you...and others. going through shit tends to make people worse. working to get better is something that requires actual conscious effort, not something that you are given as a side effect of going through hell. over and over again, traumatized individuals who are made to feel powerless and given little freedom and ability to change their circumstances, when in a situation where they are given power to some degree over some person, may choose to abuse that power while they're in their own abusive situation or after. part of being a victim of abuse often means having a distorted view of the abuse you've been through! it can mean normalizing fucked up behavior! looking at shit and treating it lightly because you've been taught that it's "not that bad," if you've been taught that it's bad at all! victims aren't granted perfect ideologies from god because they walked through flames--cult survivors usually have to unlearn all sorts of messed up beliefs that were drilled into them--beliefs that many people on twitter would then damn them for, because obviously if you've thought something like that in the past then you're a bigoted hateful individual.
i can only speak from my own experience, but i can't fucking count the number of people i've heard of or met or known personally who have been through some kind of trauma in the past, who are undoubtably victims of abuse, who then go on to act in toxic, manipulative, and abusive ways to others. oftentimes, these people are aware of the fact that they were in abusive situations in the past and make quite a big deal about the fact that they care about victims, as a victim, and want to advocate for them. they're the same people who react extremely negatively to anyone alluding to the idea that they could be abusive--they're not like that, they've been abused, how could anyone accuse them of abusing another person, don't they know how much that hurts with their history. and so on and so forth.
and...i have a lot of sympathy for these individuals, generally speaking. because as mentioned above, being abused in the past doesn't necessarily make it harder for you to be a perpetrator in the future. sometimes--oftentimes, even--it's the opposite. and i feel for them, because going through trauma and being hurt makes you scramble for ways to not be hurt again, and oftentimes the easiest answer for that (and the ways of solving problems as modeled to them in the past!) is control, and controlling another party can very easily slip into manipulative, abusive behavior. especially if you still have internalized ideas mixed in with the fear that surviving abuse entails, internalized ideas that are often left unexamined by people who believe that their victimhood absolves them from any further responsibility. i feel for people who are deathly afraid of ever being seen as terrible people, oftentimes because of the shit that they went through, who seek explanations for their abusers' behavior that make it so much easier to simplify the matter into "they're something separate from me, something that i can never become." i sympathize with the anger and fear and frustration and grief that might never had had a healthy outlet while in a past situation that ends up poured out into places where it shouldn't be in the present, i sympathize with the desire to find reason in being hurt where it doesn't exist, to want there to be something to make the whole damn thing worth it instead of having nothing to take with you but your pain.
but at the end of the day, that's not how life works. that's not how abuse works. yeah, there are abusers who are cruel for cruelty's sake, who are aware of the harm they do and desire to cause more--and there are just as many who genuinely believe that they're doing the right thing, that they're doing good, that they care for the one that they're hurting unselfishly and wholeheartedly. there are many, many people who hurt others because they have been hurt before, and this isn't an excuse--of course not--but refusing to acknowledge the ways that pain can perpetuate itself and blinding oneself to the possibility of their own actions ever being abusive can literally be how this pain continues. it's good to be self aware, it's good to want to do the right thing, but assuming that victims are good people because of the suffering they went through not only means that so-called "bad victims" (or anyone that's not yet Acceptably untangled the thought patterns and actions that have been normalized to them, or anyone who lashes out in quote-unquote appropriate ways as judged by whatever social media council is handing out social justice tickets for the week) get overlooked and ignored, but abusive patterns of behavior are allowed to continue to exist, just in a repackaged form with different language. it's not fair to victims to nail them to this standard of so-called righteousness that is also inextricably connected to their experiences, allowed to be revoked if they're too "abuser" to be "victim" anymore, or to overlook the victims of their behavior because their inherent suffering-borne righteousness keeps them from crossing the line into bad behavior.
at the end of the day, no one deserves abuse, victims deserve to be advocated for, and people who have been through horrific shit didn't deserve to go through horrific shit. but you don't get handed get-out-of-jail-free cards for being treated badly, you know?
#abuse#like ugh it's complicated#but i need people to stop using victimhood as a catchall excuse#and this isn't criticism of like. dr eam btw#who really hasn't ever used anything re: his experiences as an excuse as far as i can remember#it's one thing to say that 'these situations affected my actions' which is half of what this essay is abt#because yeah. going through shit affects your actions ... and not always for the better.#now the other ccs whose opinions ive been unwillingly subjected to over the last few weeks ? lol. lmao.#like look this idea of victimhood earning anyone anything is inherently damaging and completely untrue#sympathy and understanding extended towards abuse victims shouldn't be dependent on the morality points that they falsely earn#as a result of going through fucked up shit
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So I got curious and did a Google and it turns out that stoats usually have 5-12 kits per litter (7 on average) which is. Upsetting. To say the least when thinking about Jaysohn and Lila and I do not wish to spend too much time on that thought
#like yeah tula could have just had an unusually small litter#but also aabria put these stoats in a bear last week and i'm Afraid#also this is depending on which source you use some say 6-12 one said 4-6 idk all i know is that it's absolutely more than two#burrow's end#dimension 20#droput#d20#jaysohn burrow's end#jaysohn#lila burrow's end#tula burrow's end
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#there's a flood coming to my city 😬#the wave is supposed to hit tomorrow at night#i'm a bit worried?#they say it's gonna be similae to 1997#which is. not good.#everyone at work was panicking which did not help#they said the water is almost sold out in shops#and i couldn't go to the shop to buy it because i was. at work.#so i messaged my dad and he bought some for me and he'll drive over to bring it to me#his town doesn't have a big river so you can still buy water there lmao#i asked him to buy me some non perishable food like rice crackers while he was at it too#and now i'm scared that he and my mom will buy out the entire shop and i'll have to eat those things for months 😬#they can be like that sometimes haha#yeah they most definitely will bring over the whole car full of food what do i do 😭#anyway my main concern is the lack of electricity because the stupid stove in this flat doesn't use gas ;_;#gotta charge the powerbanks 💪#people are also worried that we'll go to work tomorrow and then it'll turn out the road is flooded and we'll have to stay at work overnight#lmaoooo why won't the company just give everyone the week off?? (because of capitalism)#my sister has a two months old baby and she is leaving the city tonight to stay with our grandma#they do need clean water for the baby and the government recommended the children and the elderly to evacuate#i'd evacuate myself if it wasn't for my work 😭 (capitalism)#aghhh i'm sure it's not gonna be that bad#it's just my first flood you see#well technically the second one because i was born in 1997 hahaha but yeah. yeah.#i do like my warm meals and hot tea and i do like to shower#i do hope it'll last 2 days max!! but a friend says it can last longer depending on the damage ;_;#i know i can't really complain because i at least live on the 5th floor#my sister lives on the first floor. right by the river. yeah...#not to mention the people in surrounding villages#someone at work said that the water reached the third floor in some places in 1997 wtf 😭
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#sims#ts3#sims 3#photoshoots#character verse#percy fontaine#percy fountain#(the last tag is for berry version - I just used a slightly different spelling for the character verse/vanilla percy's surname)#I was redoing the berry rainbowcy characters into vanilla ones to add them to my tree#I neglected percy a bit but I decided to take a slightly different direction with her (details still wip) and she turned out great#like she's more independent and rebellious I guess#she's still freya's mother but I'm going back and forth on her and lavi's relationship#amicable exes or lavi in a poly relationship with both her and a character verse version of blizzard? stay tuned#I guess it depends on the story direction which I'm currently trying to figure out#the latter is currently called beatrice btw but somehow I'm never 100% sold on her vanilla name I've gone through like 3 b names
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the rest of teyvat when natlan got a huge fucking abyss flower over it
#genshin impact#natlan spoilers#genshin spoilers#imagine fontaine cast seeing traveler and paimon off#then like a few days later abyss flower of doom shows up in the sky#fontanians after surviving one apocalypse but now another one is coming: 😧#imagine the adepti fucking SCRAMBLING (they have cataclysm trauma)#also i wonder what the knights of favonius in natlan were doing#and the archons tbh#zhongli chilling on a balcony when. boom. abyss flower.#zhongli: 'well my retirement didn't last lon- [sees mauvika] nvm haha'#makes me wonder if each nation (in lore) has some kind of illusion barrier thing#because the sky changes depending on the region#and i'm 'hmm' at that just being game stuff because i think chenyu vale uses the same skybox as the rest of liyue?#despite coming out AFTER updated skybox (which dropped with desert region)#but idk man probably just game mechanics
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Given that a lot of characters in Ben 10 speak their language without being translated into English, do you think that their language is so common that it's assumed you - supposedly an intergalactic traveler - have whatever language it is as part of your first, second or other languages that it was an oversight (depending on if the Omnitrix has a universal translator or not, one even Azmuth overlooked because something something that one comic about 'the basics to an expert look like advanced knowledge to a newbie') to not include a translation pack for those languages?
Like imagine if Sotoragg (or whatever specific Sotoragg language SixSix and the copycats speaks) is like one of the more common language, if not the MOST common language, of the interplanetarily recognised languages. Whether it's predominantly first language or someone's second language (Mandarin beats out English on first language alone, but countries that predominantly speak English are also predominantly monolingual, English has more second language speakers that pulls ahead), I don't know, but if Tetrax Shard - one of if not the last petrosapien - can understand SixSix while we as the viewer stuck without the knowledge of whatever Sotoragg language he's speaking, maybe it had to be one of the languages he had to learn because guess what Petropian languages aren't very lively now are they!?
#sotoraggian#sixsix#tetrax shard#they're here but as an example#ben 10#xenolinguistics#i know in the meta it's because it would be uninteresting to have every alien character speak english#having a masked character speak an alien language is a bonus because you don't have to worry how they'd make their sounds#especially the with the way sotoragg sounds or again- whatever sotoragg language sixsix speaks#another note- given that sixsix named himself after the caliber of his laser pistols#which have been helpfully translated into english for us#does that mean he's pulled the 'name yourself in a different language to make yourself sound cooler?'#like the english to japanese names- or the latin to english as a vice versa#which you could say the same for the 'shard' of tetrax shard but that depends on if it's his last name that flagged a accidental translatio#(his last name sounding like a more universal language that would translate to english as 'shard')#or him not having a last name- thinking it would sound cool to have one- and picking one that meant shard or straight up was shard#but that depends on petropian culture headcanons on if petrosapiens had last names or not
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the example people always go for with 'taking things literally' is 'not understanding idioms and metaphors' or 'not understanding sarcasm' and that's frustrating for Me, Specifically, Personally because I am a person who has a lot of social struggles with Taking Things Literally but, crucially, not in that sense. I understand idioms & metaphors just fine and, as someone who's primary special interest is the written word & storytelling, actually am pretty good at them and thrive with them. I miss sarcasm occasionally but catch it most of the time and am often sarcastic myself.
No, my Taking Things Literally is that if you say something to me or give me an instruction, I will Understand It Literally. I will get what you said and not at all what you meant. There are exceptions to this in cases where I've learned the script and even use it myself (e.g. the other day I asked my mum "Is this Not Butter" about a thing, and she replied "Yes but it has buttermilk", because we both understood the real question was "is this the lactose-free spread?" because I was making food for my sister) but in the vast majority of cases, I just. will miss implications and unspoken assumptions. I will just completely miss them, they will not register, I Did Not Know They Were There.
Implications in a narrative? I am on it immediately, this is my bread and butter, I can pull a story apart to get to five layers of subtext & implication & theme like breathing
Reliably understanding that the request "Can you empty the dishwasher?" includes emptying the drying rack which is not physically part of the dishwasher because the real request is "Can you put the clean dishes away?"? Not a chance
#me#fortunately I know a lot of Techy Computer People#so I can go ''you know how if you input a command your computer will do Exactly What You Told It To? my brain works like that'#and then they get it#and that last one is one we've been working on#the request is now usually phrased as ''Can you get the dishes?'' which is mutually understood to be either#''can you put the clean dishes (in both dishwasher & drying rack) away''#or ''can you load the dishwasher & do the handwashing?''#depending on the time of day & which of those tasks needs done#however sometimes my mum & dad do forget and use ''can you empty the dishwasher'' and then later they go ''you didn't get the drying rack''#and I go ''you said dishwasher!! you didn't mention the drying rack!!'' and they go ''okay fair''#ANYWAYS. I AM HAVING SOME. COMMUNICATION DIFFICULTIES THOUGHTS ATM#[squints at this post] [sighs] okay I'm going to add the relevant tag but if this break containment I WILL be turning off reblogs posthaste#bc my activity STILL gets influxes from my last autism post to break containment#actuallyautistic
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a large amount of time I've been spending on -untitled undefined scope original fiction project- since the last time I posted about it has been trying to develop the protagonist concept I came up with last summer or whatever into like, a character that would feel real and era appropriate.
it's fun research to do. naturally a lot of the details I assigned to her are things that I already think are cool, so it's been a lot of fun trying to trace her traits back through the relatively recent past, getting reminded of how much things have changed, or where the gaps in my intuition are, and then doing a flurry of reading to get a sense for exactly how someone like her and the people around her could have happened and what her life was probably like leading up to her present day. hopefully this results in some good good verisimilitude.
#I wrote a short story from her perspective over the holidays and then didn't know how to continue it#and then I got distracted by real life stuff for a few months#I forget if I posted about that#and then I've been picking through archive dot org for the last few weeks looking at this stuff#the last big rabbit hole was trying to get a better feel for era appropriate ts/tv subculture#the current one I'm looking at is how she would've gotten into language learning and how that would've worked#nettle has been prodding me about the setting thing lately so I've been thinking about that more too#probably the biggest hurdle by far is figuring out how I want to play that#and how I want the thing to be divided up#since the original coc scenario I'm developing this out of is centered on a flight from LA to honolulu#and the airport dungeon was definitely meant to be a hook for a larger campaign#some amount of it is going to cover protag lady's failed life in LA and some of it is going to be worse things happening in hawaii#but it's like. how much do I want to balance it one way or the other#and realistically how much does the aesthetics of 20th century air travel add to the story#besides me personally thinking it's compelling ofc#a lot of what I find compelling about hawaii is that it's an east/west cultural crossroads and realistically that's also true of socal#and I can wax poetic about socal as much as I want without worrying all that much about mishandling something#and there's also a lot of socal specific history along similar parallels to pull from that I'm more familiar with#I guess it comes down to whether curiosity re: 'doing it right' is enough of a motivator to do the increased amount of research#which I guess it has so far with the above character details. so hopefully that will continue#but it also feels like using machine translation a bit yknow. it's hard to know how effectively I'll be able to sanity check#although depending on where this goes I might be able to get other people involved to sensitivity read down the line#with most of the creative things I do I just have a tendency to always rely really heavily on figuring things out myself#I also want protag lady to have a Cool Car and idk how to get that from point a to point b narratively#this is like an entire second or third post's worth of tags but I don't feel like unfucking this so whatever. suffer. I guess.
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fuck you *puts your wizard scar in hanfu*
#mcyt#last life#last life smp#trafficblr#goodtimeswithscar#gtwscar#one funny thing bout this is that this fit isnt like an actual fit you can get#i actually looked up concept art from the p2w mmo i used to play religiously and just put him in it#... while also taking certain details out because if i do include them my hands will try to put a hit on me#i actually struggled a lot with the belt . the amount of time i spent redoing it over and over again is truly ungodly#had to take out some of My personal design preferences but its fine since i like it better like this#miss the mourning veil tho . its a banger idea#anyways more hanfu propaganda amirite haha#i wanna do hanfu designs for like . 1 or 2 characters from each last life faction#idk if i should do the southlanders or team best first . depends on which one i can find outfits for sooner ig#maybe send me some in my asks . make my life easier /j#anyways esona vc time gotta go binge insane football with my besties goodbye#catgirl supreme
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if you are 1) currently in a university where your student healthcare covers hormone therapy, and 2) in a good financial, emotional, and social position to start hormone therapy, i would recommend pursuing it. because in my experience, it's a huge pain in the ass to get an endocrinologist once you're on your own
#unless you live near a planned parenthood or another equivalent to that#but in general you might as well take advantage of the mandatory student health insurance while you have it#it's also cheaper than you might expect. my vials cost $40 CAD for 4 months and then the injection materials are like a couple dollars each#for me i got a therapist with the university and asked them to recommend me to one of the uni's doctors#so i got to skip some of the waitlisting process yay#and then even after getting access to hormones i went to the clinic maybe 5 or 6 times because i needed a nurse to help me with injections#all of which was 'free' because it was with the university#now that i'm graduated though i need to find a new endocrinologist and it turns out the process is WAY more complicated on your own 🤡#of course your mileage may vary depending on how based your school is but it's definitely worth checking imo 🤷#beepbeep.txt#wanted to say this because i basically didn't use the uni health services until my last year and i was like 'wow#'i'm actually getting so much shit for free right now'#like i was seeing a therapist and a dietician and the endocrinologist and a nurse simultaneously at one point#and i might've missed out on all that if i didn't have someone tell me how easy it was to get help if you ask the right questions#so there's my word of wisdom for anyone who might benefit from it.......#also going to post tips about injections later because i think that would also help people out 👍
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I was just listening to a song I used to love while we were friends. I listened to it so often, we talked so often, it became the background music to our relationship.
I'm listening to it while I knit. I often forget that I started knitting because of you. I remembered tonight. It's strange, I never knitted anything for you. I've knitted for other loved ones, rarely for myself, but never for you. I remembered you showing me the amazing things you made, and I wished I could get to that level of skill. But at that time, you had to explain to me how to purl because I couldn't get it.
Everything reminds me of you in a terrible way. Everything I do is an echo of you. I started painting so that I could paint for you. I started knitting to bond with you. I hear your voice in the music I listen to. You're haunting the things that I love. Will I ever make a brush stroke or stitch without you on my mind?
#i should be able to block all music i listened to on Spotify from 2018-2020. i was not doing well and i dont need the reminders pls#im fine this was just kinda reflective#so much of what i do was inspired by her. i havent spoken to her in three years. we havent been friends for five#but my first painting was a gift to her. i started knitting because she knitted. i got so much music from her#we bonded heavily over music. and i used it to cope after she left. so unfortunately shes mixed into so much of it#she got me into dnd which got me into a different ttrpg im playing now (unknown armies)#shes a big reason i applied to the summer camp i worked at for six years#and a big reason i took the position i had the last two years. and the reason i told our camp legend (long story)#she was in my christmas in july gift i gave and received this year#i dont think ill ever be able to forget her. on good nights thats a good thing. its reassuring. she'll always be with me#but on bad nights. i feel like im never going to stop missing her#i was knitting tonight while listening to music. as the post suggests. and i was just overcome with her#this is the bed i was in when she called and left me. this is the bedroom we used to video call to practice sign language in#oh theres another one. i was going to be an asl interpreter. years ago in another life. i always practiced with her#we're both autistic and asl is easier than speaking a lot of the time#fuck. it reminds me of the ship of theseus. its 2:30am so i wont be able to explain well but#no actually i tried and i cannot explain. youll just have to understand. some days i wish i ciuld replace all the parts that were her#and sometimes im so afraid to lose the parts that were her because thatll feel like losing her#if i ever consciously decided to stop knitting (which i may have to do soon) it will feel like im replacing a board that was hers#how many of my boards are hers? are any of hers mine anymore? how many of hers can i lose before shes gone?#that last one was asked with fear and hope. and fear. depending on the day#god im tired. goodnight
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Hiya, I've been on a lengthy hiatus from online misce spaces for various reasons, but I'm preparing to get a bit more active again finally! Sorry to everyone who sent asks either before or during this time, I know I've been away for AGES so I don't know if I'll answer every single one right away.
That being said, how has everyone been? What's new? Are people still having random drama over nothing? Have the misce spaces and omegaverse fiction/author spaces separated further again? What's the hot topic to talk about currently /hj
No but I do want to know. How has everyone been? I won't tag any specific people since it's been a long time since I've interacted with anyone, but please don't hesitate to respond to this post, send asks, dms, whatever- I'm glad to be back and feeling more stable again ^^
#gamietxt#misceanimalis#miscecanis#misceverse#misce lifestyle#miscelife#is it still acceptable to tag omegaverse lifestyle or...? /gen bc I literally don't know#last time I was actively around we were having discussions about how people were confusing misce tags for generic omegaverse related ones#and misusing them#and I vaguely recall some very vague drama about people arguing that omegaverse lifestyle and misce are different and that#the former is more kink-based and that misce is sfw or something like that which to me seemed like a fairly meaningless thing to argue about#because like. im gonna be so honest now. I don't think a misce/dynamic identity is a mandatory requirement to include aspects of omegaverse#that you like into your life#like idk maybe I'm missing some context or whatever but as long as everything is tagged correctly then who cares#besides there's nothing inherently 'more' sfw about misce than there is about omegaverse as a whole. both are spectrums#the only difference is that misce is an identity and omegaverse is fiction#contrary to popular belief omegaverse isn't only 100% smut and nothing else#and misce folk are people who experience sexuality just as anyone else and whether misce is a part of their sexuality or not depends#on the person entirely#anyway that's a rant/hot take post for another time I'm more just curious about the current state of the misce community#so don't mind my old man yap#all I'm saying the whole misce vs omegaverse lifestyle argument I saw at one point sounded exactly like how people used to argue about#whether furries were inherently kinky/sexual or not#different community but same beating of a dead horse type thing
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