#it bothers me now lol
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little personal vent
i hold grudges for life usually and it's hard for me to let go of what's been done to me even if i've moved on. anyway so i'm thinking on this person i met recently (lasted for about a month and a half lol) who at first was so friendly and nice to me so instantly fell for the friendship lol. i always tell myself i won't write/draw for anybody cause i always get ghosted (has happened 3 times eheheee) but i did anyway... wrote a whole ass thing on their oc and made so many drawings only to be ghosted the month and a half later for a petty ass reason and they wouldn't even have told me if i hadn't gotten angry and pressed them about it.
so idk what to do with the drawings... i will probably delete them. i make a habit of not deleting anything because it's my hard work even if i dislike it, but fuck it man, i don't want that near me. they make me feel bad whenever i skim through the files.
they also did me dirty on so many other things but this is what fucks me up the most. me putting effort and time into something that in the end means nothing. i stopped drawing after that and what got me drawing again was renfield!
these past few weeks have really taken a toll on me but i want to resume drawing as much as i did soon.
and well i did meet some people here who are incredible and lovely and that's all i could wish for honestly!
#it was gross also because they flirted with me even tho i said not interested#it didn't bother me back then#it bothers me now lol#they also insisted on giving me their number ājust in case we talk againā#but i never registered it lol what the fuck for#i just hope they're doing bad <3#u know whats funny tho the ghosting was a VERY sudden thing like#one day he gifted me a game and added me to his favorites in every social media etc#and next day it was ... ghosting!#so i suppose their shit ass cheating bf had something to do with it#whole ass gossip here :3c idgaf about them so#ratathings
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love when ppl defend the aggressive monetization of the internet with "what, do you just expect it to be free and them not make a profit???" like. yeah that would be really nice actually i would love that:)! thanks for asking
#yes i want things to be free like ??? that is not a weird desire#'but but it costs money to keep up' ok and? how is that my problem#the government has plenty of murder dollars they could reallocate a few to make internet services universal if they wanted#also these companies were perfectly capable of supporting themselves before the internet got drowned with ads so ĀÆ\_(ć)_/ĀÆ#edit: muting notifs on this post bc new additions have kind of petered out#so no one feel bad about adding something someone else has saidā it is not bothering me im just trying to keep my#notifs page cleanish lol#also since i saw some people are being redirected to read my tags: firstly hiiiiii this is a special secret message for you:3#secondly i have learned since making this that the reason they were able to support themselves previously was because#of investors bankrolling everything#and theyre now finally realizing that theyre never going to actually make a profit and arent as willing to invest#however thats just a minor correction and doesnt change my overall point#once again. so many murder dollars#so thats why im just adding it here in the tags rather than making an actual correction#anyways . love yall š#origibberish#bigger gibbers
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"i'm literally the priest's favorite sacrificial lamb because i am so docile and sweet and i hold very still when they put the rope around my neck and i trot along so happily while they lead me to the altar and they do not even have to tie me down because i lie so very still and only bleat once or twice in my lovely lamb voice and when the knife comes down it cuts through me like butter and i offer no resistance and i bleed so prettily all over my new white wool and my guts all unspool like the most beautiful shining yarn and my eyes are animal and dumb and hold no accusation and every time i die i come right back as another little lamb because the priest loves me so so much and he always chooses me for the sacrifice every time and he always places one hand on my small and twitching nose to calm me while he lifts the knife and he doesn't do it for the other lambs only me because i'm his favorite"
#anyway .#you may now throw me in the trash for this#this idea has been in my head for like a month and now we're here#very very close to how i wanted it in my head but i can't be bothered to try and do even one more revision lol#filing this one under art i wish i could have drawn when i was 15#dean winchester#spn#supernatural#spn fanart#dean#my art#charbies art tag#tw blood
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i can allow myself to draw men being pretty sometimes
#my art#smallishbeans fanart#ethoslab fanart#etho fanart#hermitcraft fanart#kind of#hermitshipping#<ā implied#smalletho#i want to draw men in dresses okay itās been on my mind i was GOING to take a break before i realized i still wanted to draw men in dresses#NOW i can take a break. one man in a dress has been drawn. i may rest#some parts of this drawing bother me but it was a quick doodle and i cannot allow myself to be tooo mean to my own art lol#I do worry sometimes that i overdo the shading on my things sometimes and this is one of those cases where im like eeeehh#mightve gone a little overboard#but you know what. it doesnt matter because i had fun.
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tfw youāre stuck in a defective portal of truth w one of your worst enemies and you just had to eat a boot to survive
#first time legitimately drawing ling alert!!!#and now i just wanna draw him more!!!!#the fact that ling was wearing white pants and they werenāt completely stained with blood always bothered me so i fixed it a little bit lol#i actually canāt stop making fma art itās a problemā¦ā¦.#fma#fmab#fullmetal alchemist#fullmetal alchimist brotherhood#fma fanart#edward elric#ling yao
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Alien child and dad.
#red vs blue#rvb#art#artists of tumblr#rvb art#halo#red vs blue art#my art#digital art#whoops#realizing i may have accidentally left the desaturation on#oh well š©#thats gonna bother me forever now lol#rvb tucker#red vs blue tucker#rvb junior#red vs blue junior#i will never decide what hair style to give tucker so hes a stylist now lmao
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like looking in a mirror
#š#wanted 2 illustrate this dialogue very badly cause it made me emotional lol#in stars and time#isat#isat spoilers#<- i suppose#sorry for the longass post but it looks better layed out like this than squished into a grid even if the pages dont rly flow together#could be happier with bits and pieces of this? but it got me out of the worst creative slump of my life#theres about 2859043257 mistakes in this that i just noticed and cant be bothered to go fix ok just dont look too hard#anywasy thank you loop i love you#its wurple cause its a good color and keeping it grayscale would be BORING sorry not actually im just an avid bright color user#yayyy MJY ART#edit i can say wink with the caption too cause i finally played through twohats ok I OFFICIALLY GET IT NOW!!!!!!!!!
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You'll come back...won't you?
I don't think Bubble would know what to do if Caine left... he's all they've ever known...
Anyway *rings dinner bell* come get some Bubble angst lol
As always, au belongs to @sm-baby
#art#digital art#gremlins art#the amazing digital carnival au#the amazing digital carnival#sorry for the shitty quality I just got this idea and had to scribble it out in under an hour#just an angsty hypothetical if you will#better quality things to come I prommy#but for now... >:)#<- sniling#watch I'm gonna wake up the next morning and have to fight the urge to delete it cause it looks bad#edit: fixed the things that were bothering me I'm better now lol
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gilly turnaround sheet
#gilly trial animation things tag#I DREW HIS RING ON THE WRONG HAND IM KILLING MYSELF FIXING IT LATER#ok i fixed the sheet but I can't be bothered to fix the gif...#rotating your fish#jrwi fanart#jrwi riptide#just roll with it#jrwi#gillion tidestrider#fun fact i continued drawing this right after i got a concussion and rattled my braincells a bit too hard#and then managed to finish him before i made it worse lol#now bright screens to me are like sun to a vampire#powering thru next 2 weeks with screentime limit and 0% brightness
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Theory: If Messmer is Marikaās sword (spear), Godwyn is her shield.
Yes I made another doomed Mother & Son presentation slide: eldest sons edition šš
EDIT 1: adding a bit to this, the theme music of Godwyn's Death Knight is a rearrangement of Erdtree Knight OST (aka Tree Sentinels theme)
(Messmerās timeline) (discussion of Radagonās shady behavior)
#elden ring#queen marika the eternal#messmer the impaler#godwyn the golden#radagon of the golden order#er brainrot#golden doomed mother and son#ok now that Iāve got this off my chest I can go draw now jfc#the greatshield talisman description moved me so much I have to type all that out thatās crazy#this might be an unpopular opinion because I think itās a fandom-wise interpretation that Godwynās friendship with Fortissax is wholeso#*wholesomeā¦but idk every single Leyndell Knight & their mom using Lightning power and no one even bothered to put Granssaxās corpse away?#it doesnāt sit well with me I fear#also the dlc drawing 1000 parallels between the favour from Marika that messmer and godwynās knights received lol#dont even get me start in Godwyn has golden bracelets and Messmer has a golden ring
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talking about the topic of animated movies not Hitting, I accidentally reminded myself of one time on twitter, I think around the time that Raya came out?? I was poopooing on how much the dragon looks like elsa, and then talked about how I wish 2d animated and hand animated films were still The Medium instead of nothing but the highest resolution skin texture fur textured 3d animated films bc I'm tired of seeing it, etc etc and then someone who I was not mutuals with, they must've been someone working under the disney IP in some form, and must've either done some work on raya or just worked on 3d animated projects in general, replied to me SEVERAL TIMES as if I was subtweeting them, with something to the tone of "just say you hate me and you think my art is trash" and I think about that ALL the time
#I wish I could find what they said bc it was so much weirder than what I paraphrased. but this was years ago#like I had accidentally REALLY. bothered them and they thought the tweets were directed straight at them.#they were following me apparently (unfollowed me after that. obviously. bc they decided that I hated them specifically)#(bc I didn't like the dragon design from raya and I was fantasizing about it being 2d animated)#they deleted the tweets like 24 hours later but I was literally like. I'm sure you do good work???#i'm sorry you feel that way but rn i'm trying to complain about this very mainstream movie?? this is not a personal attack???#but now whenever I say something about a movie looking like dookie I imagine someone messaging me going ājust say you hate meā#bc they did some concept art for it or something#shouts out to that person they were obviously doing really well emotionally to have come at me in that way lmao#sergle.txt#they obviously felt that we were in a Personal Argument but i wasn't wanting to argue and the interaction was not personal so it was very#one sided lol
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something about character who normally walks around disinterested, or seems cold, or seems way too nonchalant. people rarely ever see him excited or passionate about anything, and theyāre honestly a bit intimidated. they canāt really tell what heās thinking.
except for when heās arguing with you. his cheeks are flushed, his eyes are staring into yours with this electric intensity itās a wonder that youāre still standing, his hands are clenched. heās obviously irritated with you, and itās obvious you not only take joy in getting him riled up, but that heās getting on your last nerve too. as the two of you exchange insults in this very public corridor on a sunny tuesday afternoon, the people who are passing by canāt help but notice that this is the first time heās ever looked so alive.
#sorry for the late post im going to sleep soon LOL#was just thinking abt rivals to lovers#and thought of nagi#then megumi#ok now hear me out#itās fun bc they donāt bother w fake niceties#nor do they waste their breath (usually) on ppl who bother them#but u just ignite something within him!!!!!
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I havent finished anything in a bit so please enjoy my favorite Grima doodles lmao šš„°
#grima wormtongue#grima#lotr#lord of the rings#csp#pixel art#doodle#my art#.... posting this again bc its not showing up in the tags.. 2nd time this has happened to me and both are for grima posts..#š¤š tumblr whats your beef?? why do you hate him?? hes just a silly guy!!#works out ig? bc i forgot to do alt text on the first go but like annoying. im going to have to check everytime now ig ugh :T#i have painstakingly rewritten my og tags bc itll bother me otherwise lmao rip ->#I missed playing w shapes lmao its fun!!#hes a wiggly man#also long pointy nose is my favorite shape actually. such a fun silhouette#the mcdonalds order is my fav one btw i live for that kind of anachronism lmao š¤£#also i think grima was always whispering weird stuff to theoden since almost no one was actually suspicious of him doing it lol#<- i have a whole drawing planned for that thought! Youll see it. One day >_<ā#also technically from movie refs his cloak is one big piece w slits for the arms but i like the shape of separating it better!!#weāre in my mixed bag of canon and personal thoughts now lmao XD#<- i was a brighter happier man 2 hours ago lol#sorry if anyone sees these repost attempts and is annoyed 07 im just a bit confused why it keeps happening ToT#edit: its still not showing up? literally wtf tumblr pls.. my silly drawings... have mercy š„ŗ š š#Edit again: WOAH IT MADE IT??? WERE IN THE TAGS NOW BABYYY SORRY FOR BADMOUTHING YOU TUMBLR SUPPORT IG??#in that case sorry for the double post lmao š
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Listen, I love OC x Canon as much as the next guy, maybe even MORE than the next guy ever could, but Stanley Pines would NOT date a person that looks like they're in their first year of College.
I'm sorry, but he wouldn't. MAKE YOUR OC MORE AGE APPROPRIATE RIGHT. NOW. šš
#Realistically#I am never one to judge#but guys... be real#let your OCs be old š¢š#everytime someone ships their OC that isn't even remotely wrinkly and saggy with my beloved Stan an angel loses it's wings#Don't you guys want your OCs to grow old with Stan? C'mon man you're yanking my chain#anyway I took a ton of benadryl earlier and I've been trying really hard to spell everything right and stay on topic#so i think I'll stop the rant there love you bye#cole's talking#gravity falls#grunkle stan#stanley pines#oc x canon#honestly I'm not really that bothered y'know do what'chya want#your oc your choice lol#i love oc x canon#i actually thrive because of oc x Canon#it keeps me going š#okay now I'm done#ignore all the spelling mistakes šš
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SUPTOBER DAY 01 - liminal in the beginning
4Ā And I looked, and, behold, a whirlwind came out of the north, a great cloud, and a fire infolding itself, and a brightness was about it, and out of the midst thereof as the colour of amber, out of the midst of the fire.
5Ā Also out of the midst thereof came the likeness of four living creatures. And this was their appearance;
āĀ Ezekiel 1:4ā5
#suptober23#spn art#castiel art#angel art#biblically accurate angel#eldritch angel#i'm SO behind on suptober because i wasn't going to do it#it's been years since i've bothered with any october challenges#i kinda quit them#but the first prompt pulled me in#i probably won't do them all but i've done several now#i just need to post lol#actually i did like five different versions of this prompt but none were working for me until this one#i decided to give myself a theme which will quickly become obvious#seraphim#ophanim#also for the prompt#liminal here refers to both the spaces between the different levels of heaven / ranks of angels#and cas preparing to leave heaven as the beginning of his character arc
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obligatory hotguy art
#my art#goodtimeswithscar#gtws#i JUST realized i didnāt polish half his sunglasses and thatās gonna bother me forever but not quiiite enough to go fix now#what is it abt him thatās so fun to drawā¦#usually i give scar more rugged features like facial hair and well. the scars.#but i wanted to go for a more plastic action figure kinda look#regularly scheduled rugged scar will be back soon#unrelated i also just realized the way i stylized his cannula looks like a septum piercing lol. yeah sure why not
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