#i actually can’t stop making fma art it’s a problem…….

[ahbogman]

tfw you’re stuck in a defective portal of truth w one of your worst enemies and you just had to eat a boot to survive

[presumenothing]

fmab (+03) fic masterlist

because even i’m starting to lose track of what i’ve posted so far. all writing is eventually crossposted to ao3, individual tumblr posts linked below the cut because it’s lengthy as hell 

(this is like 85% post-promised day fic with the occasional canon-divergence au for flavour, ft lots of resembool kids, riza, and roy. basically gen with near-zero ship content because that’s how i roll)

update: total wordcount has now broken 20k 25k 30k 35k 40k 45k(!!!!) 

update 2: now with crumbs of 03 content because yeehaw

april

“Actually, Winry – can you do something for me?” 

“Lieutenant. Would you ever consider learning alchemy?”

“I guess I just – want to figure out who I am. Me, not the Fullmetal Alchemist.”

Besides, the scars on his palms have been – pardon his language – hurting like a bitch ever since he woke to this gloomy weather this morning.

Ishval had given him plenty of practice at that soldier’s art of taking even the lightest of naps whenever circumstances permitted.

[au] Ed has never had reason to hate how swiftly his mind works, not until now.

It’s just simple clerical error that leads to Edward Elric retaining his title and pay as a State Alchemist, even after the Promised Day. No, really.

may

He’s just tired, not about to collapse.

These days Ed’s journals are actual proper travelogues, no coded shit or anything.

[au] It doesn’t even start until after they arrive in Resembool. 

(can’t have been the more socially-adjusted brother, obviously.)

[au] “I don’t,” Ed bites out, “know any damn alchemists.”

Maes raises an eyebrow and sloshes his near-empty cup pointedly. 

august

[wip] “Is this about Al, or you?”

“–of course I know these aren’t the most efficient routes!”

Ed seriously considers dyeing his hair more than once, in the After.

Winry only needs a glimpse of red to know what it must be.

Rush Valley talks. Winry listens.

Much as Al loves his brother to itty-bitty-and-very-shouty pieces,

The first time someone mistakes Al for the Fullmetal Alchemist, 

+ The thing is, Al gets it.  

“Brother told me that you told him about Ishval,” Alphonse says.

It’s an honest observation – as honest as he can ever get, at least –

[au] In another world, she is never named the Hawk’s Eye.

“Somehow I doubt your place is much better, sir.”

would it be the most impossible thing to have happened to the Elrics?

“I can’t believe he didn’t tell us,” Ed growls,

a minimum age limit on all candidates for the State Alchemist exam.

“There’s gotta be a shark somewhere around.”

The Elrics make transmuting without circles look easy.

The problem, if Riza is to put it into words,

Al completely botches the first dozen or so transmutations

(Ed? Talking about automail? Over food?)

[au] in the end it’s Al who really takes after their father.

“Fullmetal realising his celebrity status? Woe betide us,”

The tea is actually well-made, first of all, not burnt 

“Not like– I mean, personal about me, not you!” 

[au] “Huh,” Al says.

Still less work than getting entropy-murdered by Olivier, he decides.

[au] It’s not every dead person that he sees.

[au] They weren’t even meant to stop in Resembool.

Jean just wants to make one thing – okay, a few things – very clear.

Ed knows this firsthand from too much Winry exposure.

The lump on the couch lets out a string of wholly intelligible noises.

september

“Take me out to dinner,” Riza says.

“We’re not even in Amestris, though.”

[au] Riza had been angry too, when she had let herself be, but hers is a cold ire, locked beneath glaciers and the burn of frostbite. Wrath makes no such pretences.

[outline] But in the case of Fullmetal – more specifically in the case of Fullmetal and Youswell – Roy mostly wishes he could unknow things.

[au] Roy forces enough air into his lungs to get the words out. “You’re dead.”

[outline…?] winry’s gonna like this, al says.

Alphonse flaps a hand. “Oh, because it’s complete bullshit.”

“Y’know, you really aren’t that tall, Brother.”

getting to finally keep a cat hadn’t been very high on his list of priorities.

[au] “Edward. Get out of here, take Envy with you.”

[wtnv au] “Welcome to Resembool.” 

october

just because you’re immortal doesn’t mean you can’t die from food poisoning, young man.

[au snippet] It’s sort of a belief, in the eastern parts of Amestris,

[03] Al’s hug is the first real thing he’s felt in years.

[03] Never thought you were, Ed retorts lightly, and lets Alfons turn away with a huff.

“When you said to come visit you in Rush Valley this is not what I was expecting!”

(and jeez, only Ed would manage to make it necessary to keep a kit on hand for actual minor-to-major catastrophes during a semi-honeymoon trip)

november

[03] Except the sight of his brother only serves to make everything worse, for once.

[au] The worst thing about this is that it’s not even equivalent. 

[au] “You wanna know why? The real reason, not the quantum bullshit I fed Mustang.” (+ more in the tag)

[snippet] And just for that I won’t be leaving Wrath any.

“I shall finally exact the decisive vengeance that I have always dreamed of,” Scar booms right back before Armstrong can even ask, 

Al knows from the moment he wakes up that it’s going to be a good day.

[snippets] The real disaster comes when Ed learns how to weaponise his height.

[03 au] The man in the brown overcoat. That’s all anyone ever seems able to recall of Edward.

[au] They say the Elric house is haunted. Of course. Empty houses are always haunted.

Of course, this assumes that said person is an alchemist of some ability, and that said life has been one of some loss and strife. 

“Are you alright? Nod for yes, swear at me for no.”

from the intervening pause he surmises Riza is jotting something down on the notepad she keeps by the phone.

She’s been looking forward to the day when her hair finally gets long enough to – well, no longer be short.

“Remind me of this the next time I decide to trust Ling any further than I can throw him.” ( + xing tag)

december

Ed’s almost twenty when he realises that Hawkeye must’ve been around his age when she was deployed to Ishval.

[au] At least this far out from Amestris Ed could mostly brush the first one off as an interplanetary translation fuckup.

bonus textposts and assorted nonsense

the Better Alchemist™️

on the topic of ed’s scrawl

al, defender of cat

*csi miami theme but with cats*

on the topic of flat affect + 200000% turbo by default

on the topic of pain tolerance + further thoughts

ed @ mustang’s problem solving skills

ok but about liore…

terrible TERRIBLE ideas (three of them)

putting the SHORT in SHORT-TEMPERED

clap reflex

you’re retired, ed, r e t i r e d

and by “ambidextrous” i mean “confused”

protip: you can’t

YEEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAAAAH (aka csi miami theme, riza redux)

feral ducklings, the continuation(??)

does THIS count as elric telepathy

honestly, y’all

too much fire?? sounds fake

on the topic of academia

sometimes the stars align

on the topic of riza hawkeye

terrible idea, berthold version

immortal troubles

THE CHURCH OF EDWARD ELRIC

PRIDE (& WRATH): one, two, three (4koma)

objectively the worst post-cos timeline

serious stuff: fma drama cd, daughter of dusk

asks: 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8 aka izumi pwns roy, 9 aka not coffeeshop au, 10 aka legalities, 11 aka autograph woes

[bootlickerhawks]

soo you got into BC?? is it good? :eyes:

Anon you have no idea how happy this ask made me! I finally have an excuse to ramble abt Black Clover! I started reading BC cuz I needed a distraction from the frustration of BNHA and the angst of JJK and I def got what I needed XD. 

Black Clover feels like a combination of Naruto, Bleach and Fairy Tail and as someone that grew up w/ all 3 BC makes me very nostalgic lol. 

I’m putting the rest under a read more cuz it got really long lol

Now before I get into what I like abt BC I want to give a few warnings: 

Don’t go into BC expecting something “revolutionary”, it’s a shounen that gives you all your favorite shounen tropes and that’s it (for the most part). It’s a manga that pays homage to its predecessors and while there is definitely potential for some great unique storylines within BC I don’t think the author will take that leap (though I’m very open to being proven wrong pls Takeba take a page out of FMA and give me a Clover revolution arc 🙏 pls im begging the Spade arc has given us the perfect setup TAKE THE LEAP TAKEBA IM BEGGING) 

There’s fanservice. It’s not obnoxious imo but it’s there :/ Also there’s a character that’s heavily implied to euh… “love” his kid sister and it’s treated like comic relief. Thankfully that character gets some development but his borderline pedo incestuous feelings are always treated as a joke and never addressed seriously :////

Imo BC has a bit of a “slow start”. I know it seems bizarre to say that given that BC has a very fast pace (which I really appreciate personally) but the manga didn’t hook me till chapter 60 or so (the Sunken Temple arc). But once you get passed that point holy shit this manga starts to shine!  

Ok now it’s time to list the things I like abt BC:   

Like I mentioned earlier BC’s fast pace works in its favor and makes it a very bingeable manga (I was legit reading 50-60 chapters per day, which I never do, cuz I couldn’t put it down lol). 

The art in the manga is great and that’s why I really recommend reading the manga instead of watching the anime. The anime really fucked with the pacing and added a lot of unnecessary filler at the start *. Thankfully where I’m at now in the anime (episode 35) they fixed the pacing issue but the other big problem is that since BC is animated by the ever so infamous Studio Pierrot, the animation quality is very inconsistent. However, like in Nardo and Bleach, Studio Pierrot really pulls out all the stops when it comes to fight scenes so I would recommend watching some of the fights on youtube after reading them in the manga. Also the openings in BC are fucking bops especially op 1 and 13 (tho be careful there’s a lot of spoilers in the OPs) 

* I put an asterisk cuz I don’t think the filler is bad per se but it does fuck w/ the flow of the show imo. I do appreciate that the anime expanded certain characters and their relationships (ie. Asta and Yuno’s relationship and Magna’s backstory). So I would recommend checking out the fillers featuring your fav characters after you’ve read the manga. 

While the characters aren’t anything special (barring a few exceptions) they work really well as an ensemble cast and have great character designs (imo). The Black Bulls have the best dynamic in the manga and I really appreciate that they get their chances to shine as a team. The Black Bulls is where you can see the Fairy Tail influences cuz at first glance they’re very much a copy-pasted Fairy Tail guild however unlike FT, and excuse me for the upcoming FT salt, their bonds are actually believable. We see the Black Bulls take missions together and go above and beyond for one another which makes their strong friendship believable. The author actually shows us how strong their bond is instead of just telling us, unlike certain other mangas *glares at FT* (ok that’s it for the FT salt I’m done I swear). 

The female characters actually develop and get to fight. Yeah I know that’s a low bar but it’s still refreshing to see lol. Takeba does have a tendency to give all the female characters a crush on a guy but it doesn’t feel annoying cuz their lives don’t revolve around their “love interests”... unlike other shows *glances mournfully at Sakura and Hinata* 

Now I want to talk abt Asta however in order for me to talk about what I love abt Asta (and why we need to shove him into BNHA) I need to talk abt slight manga spoilers (namely chapter 73 and 86) so fair warning:

Chapter 73 gives us the aftermath of the biggest fight in the manga at that point. Asta puts flowers on the makeshift grave of his enemy and he openly states that he can’t forgive them, which is understandable given all the people they hurt and killed, but Asta takes a moment to reflect on what drove his enemy to that point. 

And when he’s confronted with that enemy's comrade he stops mid-fight and tries to open a dialogue to understand why they’re fighting. 

These moments highlight one of Asta key characteristics: he genuinely tries to understand and empathize with his enemies and he believes that everyone deserves a second chance (which we see come to a head in chapter 200). This is ultimately what makes me love Asta as a protagonist and why we should transport him into BNHA and let him talk to the LOV. 

Now at this point in the manga Asta hasn’t acknowledged the systemic factor and how corrupt Clover kingdom actually is but I’m cautiously optimistic? I don’t see how else Asta’s character arc could go? (tho we did think the same thing abt Naruto and look where that got us T_T)

TLDR     

Basically if you’re shounen trash (like me), like fast paced shows with good fights and don’t go in with high expectations I think you’ll enjoy Black Clover! :D 

If I haven’t convinced you to check out BC that’s fine but I want you to look at this baby before you go

Look at him he’s adorable!!! 🥺🥺🥺

[nochiquinn]

campaign 2 episode 97:

I am practicing optimism and opening a liveblog notepad doc for tonight

I WANT TO WATCH PLS LET ME BE ABLE TO WATCH

(reasons for me not to be able to watch: audio processing, the whole crew being Extra bc they’re actors on a stage with instant gratification, A/V issues, the audience being Extra bc they’re in a crowd (tho they’ve been better about that lately). all the same reasons I have trouble listening to live music!)

hour and a half I waited, and kiddo picked the instant the show started to come out with an earache

(she’s fine)

crowd member so help me god

“I assumed you meant drinking”

oh I knew they were gonna do this

STOP YELLING

sigh

can I watch now, child

“never had three thousand people shout that at you before”

faux-scraggly clothes

you know I know it’s probably affectionate but laughing at orly’s stammer

is hmmmmm. hm.

“tusktooth.” “HE LIVES.”

caleb’s just gonna burn the ship down

li am

don’t encourage this

has travis ever gotten those right the first time

ickythot

the immediate “fuck you” vibe out of the crowd

“it’s been - ” “DON’T”

I was trying to think what the exandrian version of france is and my brain went “orlais! no wait fuck”

keldeo

“you both find the butt”

please, PLEASE let me see jester at a formal event

gross

ball[train noises]“

the way travis’ head SNAPPED up

"2013. much better year.” I was pregnant and the size of a boat this time 2013 so to each their own

cad’s looking for tail

this is random but I do not envy taliesin trying to wash his hair tonight

I love caduceus

tal’s face

liam :(

hey matt turn on your location

artagan get off the stream

liam :(

jes

THANK you beau

jester

“I THOUGHT OF A REALLY GOOD IDEA” “oh no”

I LOVE IT

adhd queen

I need whoever that is to stop playing hackeysack with top camera

“give us the opportunity to -” “kill him. what?”

yasha has a murder hammer and every problem is a murder nail

no fuck now bottom camera is doing it

jester you fucking adorable skdjfls

glitter titty shake

fallout 4 survival mode where you take damage from carrying too much

y'all that’s gay

nott :(

weH

cool aunt jester

just lead with that

marion

do you have a spare bathtub you don’t mind losing

so I started snapping my fingers instead of laughing so I won’t wake up the whole house and the point is my hand hurts

beau you’re saying the quiet part loud

“if anything she’s a god” “that’s my girl!” I love them

jester are you about to regret a question

“that’s just my go-to, I don’t know”

fuck yeah marion!

I love her and am proud of her

my boyfriend came out but I can’t yell spoilers at him bc he’s actually dealing with something

jes;sldfs

“you’re sure you’re ready?” “no, but I’m gonna do it anyway”

this is why they’re all wearing glitter, so no one can tell if they’re crying

is that glitter or tears? you don’t know.

like six minutes ago they were convincing jester’s mom they weren’t having an orgy in her bathroom, what happened

live art change!!

VOICE

SAM

“clay in my throat” [lenny]

weH

they’re not allowed to cry or I’m gonna cry

yeza valid

gigabrain: essek won’t recognize veth, have her try to make him break character at the party

Art Reel 2: Return of the Art Reel

it’s bees

nott is not nott

beau why are you pushing the kink thing sjsdf

“protection from…?” “death” aren’t we all

“we all die eventually” “yeah but I don’t want it to be TOMORROW”

“buy me a lady gaga meat dress or do not come home”

“those are beautiful” “I mean you are too” “oh, jESUS”

fanartists and cosplayers frantically taking notes

“I’m gonna have to buy her this for Christmas now, you realize”

jester playing love nikki

they are dressed for a formal occasion, let’s not get ahead of ourselves

y'all I’m just picturing Lust from FMA

which is hilarious for a couple of reasons

yasha “do I need to kill him” nydoorin

yasha “I’m gonna kill him” nydoorin

[tiktok voice] I’m dumb she’s a lesbian

jester lavorre fears no bitch

POETIC CINEMA

“it’s locked forever” “or until you use the dagger again” it’s locked forever

“sounds like meth”

so it’s meth

“he’s tucking” sdjfsl

this is - I reiterate - just the winter palace

haha get rekt

caleb’s gonna kill that guy

essek is chaotic dumb I love him

jester: I will make you break character AND hype my mom at the same time

DO NOT ROOFIE THE WIZARD

VETH

matt face

essek is t-posing

matt stop giving them things

travis

jester: I HAD NOTHING TO DO WITH THIS for once

beau: goddammit I’m gay

wait is this just paranatural now

“I assumed you could hold your shit”

travis doing sombra checks

“oh, shit, she’s high again”

these fucking disasters

no you have to go back to marion!!

caleb :(

“if he says it out loud he’s gonna have to hear it, and he’s not gonna like who he is when he hears it”

“had to be me, someone else might have gotten it wrong”

look I try not to be this person but KISS THE WIZARD

“leave it better than it was before” cries

“you can certainly try” ashlEY

“that guy’s a fuckhole”

“my intentions were never good. they were important”

“you’re gonna have to make a lot of babies”

“I should surround myself with friends, to protect me” wEH

“welcome to the mighty nein”

[ghostmartyr]

As far as Im aware Snk arcs are all generally around just under 20 chapters. Uprising being an exception since instead of ending it at the arcs end point in chapter 69 the anime instead shoved 3 extra chapters in. Is that why this Season had so many cuts? Is the next half of the season going to have a similar amount of cuts? If all the arcs are generally around the same length I'm so confused as to why this happened to this arc and whether it's happened to any of the previous ones before?

…I really like the anime. It is what got me into the series. I am what you would call a fan. I sometimes can be coaxed into admitting I like the manga, when it isn’t inspiring rage with the force of a thousand suns.

That. said.

Part of the conflict the anime seems to have with Uprising is that. Uprising is. Um. What’s the word.

Good?

While dialing its themes up to high key in the midst of toning down the monster slaying with scores of red shirts dying?

Season one is straight action. It taps into passion and uses that hotblooded enthusiasm to bludgeon you with feels that you’re hype enough to enhance into one heck of a trip. Honestly, it cuts a lot, but unless you’re an Annie fan or really, really bitter about the finale, people are largely chill with the first season.

My personal opinion is that that is because the introduction of Attack on Titan in all its forms is getting people invested for the aesthetic. Which is a funny thing to say, considering where its art starts. But people are so ready to get into humans with cool toys versus mindless monsters, and the anime does the art and the sound and everything up to eleven, that it doesn’t really matter that we don’t actually know the first thing about those five people who just died. It matters that holy fuck they’re dead.

Annie’s content, followed by season two, is where that starts to change. We’ve had smatterings of character work all along, but the pacing is so awkward that it’s much easier to connect to the fighting than the talking.

In season two, we descend into heartfelt emotional passion plays. As good as the fights are, it’s about Connie coming home to his village. It’s about Kristoria and Ymir. It’s about Reiner and Bertolt.

It’s like a bottle labeled Feelings got dumped over everything. All the stuff going on will matter to the plot, but the main focus is the overwhelming Emotion all these kids are going through, and the anime does that great.

Uprising is where the story takes a deep breath, and tries to bring the aesthetic and feelings together into a narrative driving the themes of the series.

Without the aid of gimmicks that novelty made so valuable to the original aesthetic.

Really, the first two seasons are kind of cheating. You draw action and death all pretty like, toss an awesome score on top and keep your cast from being inherently unlikable, and you’ve got a show. You have the same pretty with even more money and all the emotional heart tugging of romance and betrayal, and you’ve got a show.

Now. Try doing both those things at the same time.

The first two seasons are simple compared to the entire rest of everything. They get your feet wet. They introduce a badass world for you to roll in, then they introduce painful feelings for you to fall in.

Uprising involves actual story instead of running purely on pathos.

…I’m trying to say this politely, and that is as close as I’ve gotten. Yeah, I’m disappointed with me too.

But you can see how the anime crew tries to run season three the exact same way it runs the first two seasons, and you can see exactly how it fails. In the first season, sure it might have been better if Eren’s bond with Annie was stronger, but for the level of depth entry-level SnK asks for, it was not actually required for what story there was to make sense and be enjoyable.

In season three, those small cuts are infinitely more important, because while the narrative is developing, the characters and their emotions, having been more deeply established in the breathing room of the second season content, should be running the show.

Put… not as bluntly as I possibly can, but close, Uprising is where the writing becomes a crucial component. Before, what happens is more important than the hows and why behind it happening. During and after, how and why these plot things are occurring are the examinations that the entire series runs on.

Season three falls victim to sticking with what happens at a time where what is one of the least important details. You can’t outmatch the initial shock and awe aspect of the titans or 3DMG, you can’t hit as hard as the feels of Utgard and traitors revealed.

What makes the content work is not the beautiful blossoms, but the plant that is growing them. The blossoms are beautiful, but unlike the ones that came before, these ones need to stay on the plant to truly shine.

Season three cuts off the blossoms and leaves them in a nice vase.

There are excellent moments.

Their meanings are completely gutted, because for the first two rounds, that plant over in the corner really wasn’t growing well enough to belong in the same shot as its flowers.

Uh, to actually try and get back to maybe answering your question, I think each season has had cuts (likely comparable in number of panels), but none of the earlier cuts stole away so much of the content’s soul.

That’s why the third season feels so much different; it’s treated the exact same way as the first two. The problem is that the writing has improved, and there’s more ambition behind the story being told. The better the writing is, the more awkward and unbalanced cuts feel.

(For instance: I will complain about nearly every second of the first twenty episodes of Brotherhood, and all of my whining can basically be summed up with, “the manga did this better.” Because it did, because FMA’s writing is amazing, and being so amazing, changes can pretty much only make it go backwards.

Hi I’m never going to stop being mean to Brotherhood.)

That’s also why the second half of the third season is going to be so much fun. We’re back to pure action and pathos. All the whys and hows of the emotional impact of the conflict have been covered in previous material, so the Shiganshina arc can just go straight wild and leave everyone in a sprawling heap of pain in the aftermath.

The things that make the first two seasons so fantastic will make the second half of the third season phenomenal.

But the first half is a different beast put through the same paces. Things that worked for the first two seasons couldn’t fly with it.

…I really never thought I’d say anything positive about the Marley arc, but hopefully that will be complicated enough for them to realize that the story is not just constant action and shredding of heartstrings. There’s a significant narrative involved in the plot, and ignoring it for cheaper, yet still intensely dynamic, thrills, isn’t good for the anime as a whole product.

Hopefully somewhere in there I actually answered what you were asking. ^^; Thank you very much for the ask, sorry for keeping you waiting on it!

[cosmosogler]

hi guys. didn’t sleep much last night. didn’t prepare me well for today.

i did get up and get to my chores... eventually. it took an hour and a half to get up and moving once i got out of bed. i showered and that went so late i just skipped breakfast and made myself lunch. 

harrison decided to wait until 4 hours before mom was set to show up to freak the hell out at me. he figured out i was avoiding him and i told him the truth. he didn’t stop doing things i told him repeatedly to stop doing. i said those comments made me feel bad. he did the whole “oh i’m a failure of a friend” shtick and i didn’t have the energy to turn around and ignore my hurt feelings to comfort his hurt feelings about my hurt feelings.

he made me so angry! i typed out a lot of messages and had to press my fists against the desk and take a deep breath and erase them and try again. 

the reason i got so angry was because as soon as it became clear i wasn’t going to say “oh no it’s ok” or whatever he demanded i send him a list of boundaries i have for him to not cross. like buddy if you don’t know them by now then it’s either not a problem or a very big problem. (he doesn’t listen.) i told him i didn’t know off the top of my head and he basically freaked out over and over in the same exact way no matter how many times i told him i was too tired to give him a list of my life for his own convenience.

i told him that. “i don’t have a check list for your convenience.” his response was “then how am i supposed to learn?” he sent me that literal message word for word after i told him twice that i am not his teacher or his babysitter. i have a full time job and it is not “patiently teach harrison about the magical ways of the world constantly and repeatedly at his pleasure forever and ever.” 

i was so angry. i didn’t have time for that. i didn’t really get to prepare myself for mother before she showed up because i was grinding my teeth and taking deep breaths about harrison for two hours this afternoon. i sent him a link to a long pdf about emotional labor. that’s what he’s sapping out of me. the emotional labor. he won’t read it or understand it. but i told him to talk to literally anyone besides me about it. i know he won’t. he doesn’t listen. he doesn’t really listen to me. it doesn’t matter what i do. he’s just going to put me in these lose-lose situations forever and it’s exhausting and i have OTHER THINGS I NEED TO DO WITH MY DAY!!!

so i stumbled down to the parking lot to greet mother. we went and got her checked in to her hotel and we had dinner. i ended up talking a lot more than i wanted to. when i found out dad’s mom wants to get another dog (she killed her last one) i couldn’t hold back a pretty nasty comment. didn’t have the patience i needed. 

at least when mom started making judgmental comments about other people i had the presence of mind to say “that’s not really my business” and change the subject to something that is my business. like insurance and taxes and boring difficult impossible adult stuff. mother wasn’t very helpful with a pep talk. when dad called she had me answer the phone for her. dad asked how i was doing and i said “i’m ok” and then let the silence kind of hang there. then i relayed mom’s message and hung up. 

i was starving all day (i didn’t have the energy to actually make myself a lunch) and then when i got my food i could barely eat anything at all. it took me like an hour to eat my pasta. i didn’t even finish it. i ate too much to keep the few bites remaining for leftovers but... my body was doing that thing where i felt weak from hunger and yet food was the last thing i wanted anywhere near me. 

every time mom complains about genevieve i tell her the same thing. eve is bored. she’s out of shape. she needs more exercise. mom never listens though and nothing changes. nothing ever changes just because i asked for something.

feels like that at least.

i learned my sister has been taking anxiety medication for several years now. our primary doctor prescribes them, my sister won’t see a therapist or psychiatrist. it’s so frustrating sometimes. she seems so miserable all the time but it’s like she thinks seeing a counselor will make her a crazy person or something. and you can’t be a crazy person! they’re the worst thing you could possibly be.

stigma. 

she might be a little proud, too. but the way my brother’s expression changes if therapy ever comes up, that sort of sharp flinch, i can tell that judgment is there. i don’t see why my sister wouldn’t feel a similar way. 

anyway i came home and i was so tired i did nothing for several hours. i got started on a thing for the comic but i didn’t have the energy to move past a quick sketch. i watched fma for a bit... episode 40 is next. 

i feel like i can’t draw fast enough. i wish it didn’t take so long to tell a story. i have a hundred things backed up that i REALLY want to draw. but no energy to actually draw them. i stare at my to-do list and i look at my sketchbook sitting next to me and i just sag a little. i’m feeling overwhelmed. and i can’t find that... drive, i guess, i keep wondering if anyone’s even reading it (even though i know people are reading it, and they want to know what happens next, because that’s what happens when you follow an ongoing story). 

i want to talk about it with someone besides harrison but when i go to talk about my process or the characters or choices i made i kinda clam up. at least in creative writing club that five-second hesitation of “oh my god, there is a huge flood of information i could  give about how i’m doing with this story, i’ve been making such good progress, what do i talk about?” got me absolutely nothing. i didn’t get to talk about it at all! the president moved on to his dnd campaign. i don’t have super-reflex wit... i needed a minute.

i guess with harrison it’s easier to talk about it because he hasn’t played the game and doesn’t have his own opinions about the characters. he has a different set of spoilers i can avoid. it’s way easier to talk about elements from the middle of the story (the part i wrote) when i’m sitting on the horrible bombshell twist of an ending to the game (the part i didn’t write). harrison knows some of my events and the characters but not where i’m going with all of it.

while with people who HAVE played the game, the middle of the story is going to be much more unknown! how do our protagonists get from where they are to where they end up in the game? (what changes did i decide to make to the game’s story? i’ve revealed a few already, a minor one and a major one.) 

so it’s way harder to talk with them about my story because a different subset of the story is going to be unknown to them. that subset is the part that i put all the work into. if i talk too much about the middle of the story then there ain’t gonna be any big mysteries left.

i dunno. a solution to this problem would be to have more friends i guess. i never know what to say or how to say what i want to say. i’m still very afraid of the judgment. i get it. i’m a big gay nerd. but the minute you say “fanfiction” people get all weird about it. i had to be really careful about who i told about my art. and none of them even looked anyway. nothing even matters.

i feel so trapped.

i gotta run errands with mom tomorrow, probably most of the day. i’ve been putting together a list of things i need to collect or fix. mom likes having things to fix. and if i give her things to fix that are not me, we get along a little better. she gets to feel helpful, i get to have a working desk fan, and i don’t have yet another tense situation under my belt of “memories of mother.” 

anyway. i don’t know what else to talk about. i feel like i have more to say but i’m not sure what it is i want to say, and even if i did i don’t have the energy to say it.

[franeridart]

after watching the new episode i was wondering if it possible for TodoBaku or is there moment that show Bakugou doesn't really mind about Todoroki in the later chapter ? and what's your opinion in TodoBaku ? how do you see their relationship ? Thanx :)

Ohhhhhhhhhhhhh what a good great unexpected question - personally, I don’t ship it romantically one bit, but it is one of my favorite dekusquad/bakusquad relationships - I guess you might consider it something similar to an accidental sort-of-friendship neither of them seem to actually have noticed yet? It’s definitely a unique relationship for either of them, at least… they make it clear more than once that they Do Not Give A Fuck about the other’s personal struggles, I just can’t see them talking and finding sympathy in each other, but that just ends up giving them a kind of blunt and no-bullshit relationship that doesn’t stop them from working together when needed. I don’t know how to properly explain it, honestly, but they’re fun! 

I don’t know how much spoilers you want so I’ll keep this as vague as I can, but they do happen together more than either of them would like, and their relationship is a really amusing one for me - Todoroki actually cracks jokes with Bakugou around, though always with his neutral face and making fun of Bakugou himself when he does, and the way he has of just straight out ignoring Bakugou’s insults and fire-spitting and answering as if they were having a civil conversation is weirdly entertaining tbh

I wouldn’t say that Bakugou “doesn’t mind Todoroki”, but he does end up having way more important things to think about than his one-sided rivalry with him, and once he starts settling things with Deku the narrative mostly moves to push in that direction, which means that every interaction he has with Todoroki is either on neutral grounds or in the middle of forced cooperation, pushing any antagonism they might have to the background, really - also, the more the story goes on the more Bakugou becomes civil with the rest of the class, so there’s that too! Anyway, they’re fun to me, I wish to draw more of them in the future tbh

Anon said:I do laugh at Bakugou’s reaction on the podium bc visually its animated funny. But u r right that the whole thing is fucked. How is that even appropriate to do to him? And it takes until after his fight with deku many arcs later for All Might to say “we maybe sort of neglected this kid’s mental health.” Like wtf. It upsets me sometimes to think just how much All Might just doesn’t even *see* Bakugou. So much is wrong about this, from putting Bakugou on display to forcing the medal on him.

Blessed words all of them - it’s why I’m such a fan of the idea of Bakugou without even noticing switching his role model to Aizawa, actually? Aizawa’s the only adult figure in the whole manga who’s constantly been there for Bakugou, he has his future and mental health and reputation constantly in mind and works his ass off to try and help him along as much as possible, he takes note of everything Bakugou goes through, every switch in mood and worsening in personality and interpersonal relationships, and he’s always incredibly fast in nudging him towards the right path again - and Bakugou noticed. He trusts Aizawa to know him, follows his directions and accepts his advices, believes he’ll have his back without an ounce of doubt, that’s the tutor/student relationship Bakugou deserves 

I understand that All Might has a lot of problems of his own and he’s just learning to be a teacher anyway, but he found it in himself to be there for Deku, while Bakugou has been obviously staring at his back for the whole length of the manga and it took All Might 120 chapters to notice, that’s just plain sad

Anon said:What’s your favorite Bakugou headcannon?

BOI I have a lot! One is mentioned in the ask up there, actually haha but generally you can see most of them in my art? I like the idea of him being an artist a lot, given how both his parents are into it, I like to think he’s a rock-music type of kid, I have weird headcanons about his dorm room all including too fancy-looking designer furniture and one too many hero figures stuffed under his bed - he might have a fire extinguisher or two in there as well. Also, he’s a restless sleeper (more like a fighter sleeper) and never wears socks ever

I like to think most of his clothes are black because it’s the color on which the soot from his explosions is the least noticeable, and that he unironically honest to god thinks skulls are the coolest thing ever and can’t stop himself from buying every piece of clothing with them on it (first time he entered Tokoyami’s room he died what a cool place he never wanted to leave ever again); that he really doesn’t like the sea - or taking long baths/showers - because water washes his sweat away and he feels defenceless and it’s horrible, and that rain makes him useless like it does to Mustang from FMA (haha)

He names everything after fire arms (has an extensive, nearly to the point of being uselessly detailed knowledge of those) be it his special moves or his pets or his toys when he was a kid or every and each of the pokemon he’s ever had in any game he’s ever played - he’s a gamer! Mostly into fighting games, though they frustrate him because now and again he blows the controller up without realizing and he’s forced to stop playing, but he also likes strategy-based rpgs a lot (all his characters are called King Of Explodo-kills. All of them)

He talks in hyperboles most of the times, means a thing but uses a word fifty times stronger than necessary to express it instead, and he’s so not used to positive emotions that the first time he feels them it takes him a while to figure out exactly what it is that he’s feeling - he’s an affectionate friend, though he has weird ass ways of showing it, and this part of him is new to him as well since it’s just coming out now that he’s got the squad (he was nearly sure the kids in middle school were his friends, but what kind of friend leaves you to be saved by Deku when a villain attacks?) (meeting the squad made him realize he’d never actually had friends before, it was a bittersweet feeling)

………..okay enough, you asked for my fave and I just blabbered half an hour. I don’t even know which one’s my fave tbh hahaha

Anon said:as much as I like the anime, seeing the sports festivals always makes me sad because bakugou is still an angry kid, but at that time thats pretty much the only thing people see, while after in the manga, yes hes still angry but hes softer? in a way? idk he grew up so seeing him back at the first point makes me sad (sorry for the rant I have a lot of feelings abt this lmao)

He HAS grown, hasn’t he! I hadn’t realized just how much until I saw him back at the beginning of this season yelling at Todoroki the he should stop thinking about Deku and start worrying about him - it’s? Painful? He’s in a constant fight against the whole world, while now you see him way more with his guard down and just… existing. I’m so proud of him and all the good great amazing relationships he’s built ;u;

Anon said:What episode 12 needs is the bakusquad getting angry at how Bakugou was treated because you can’t convince me they were okay with that.

Hmmmmmmmmmm boy I would love that, but all things considered at that point, given how Kaminari and Mina and Sero reacted to Bakugou’s fight with Uraraka, I can kind of safely assume they didn’t think much of it cause they honestly thought Bakugou would flip and destroy the world if not restrained - Kirishima might have found it eccessive, possibly, but in that case too his relationship with Bakugou was just being formed, he didn’t know Bakugou enough to be sure he wouldn’t just lounch himself at Todoroki as soon as he was free

What I can imagine is all four of them some months in the future thinking back on it and going, man, fuck, that really was messed up, what the hell, and for a whole week Bakugou’s highly confused and kinda creeped out by how nice they’re being to him (at some point he starts thinking it’s a quirk) (they stop and go back to normal once they realize he’s honestly trying to figure out a way to unmake it)

Anon said:have you ever thought about…. ojinari (denki and ojirou) beings best buds or just hanging out? and i always liked the idea that baku and kiri get a little jealous whenever denki fawns over ojirou’s soft tail

I have!! It’s also pretty much canon, they’re seen interacting a lot - I don’t know about jealousy tho, mostly because I like to think Baku and Kiri enjoy Ojiro’s friendship a whole damn lot too haha Ojiro’s probably the only one who trains just as much as they do, really, he must be a great gym partner

Anon said:Holy mother of–the medal around Bakugou’s neck is just–I have no words but it’s such a really thoughtful and beautiful way to represent just *waves hands* I can’t explain it but it was really perfect and you’re such a great artist aND BAKU DESERVES BETTER

Holy smokes thank you!!!!!!!!!!! Oh my god!!!!!!!!!!! ;;;A;;; I’m so glad you liked it, oh b o i and yessssss at least he deserves a lot more respect than he ever gets from anyone that isn’t his friends ;~;

Anon said:I know the chains and muzzle were probably(?) for comedic effect like “hahaha he’s so angry we had to restrain him” but dang I’m with you that was just wayyy too far. Crossing into inhumane territory there

;-; I’m so glad I’m not the only one that feels like this about that

Anon said:Okay…. but have you considered in the recent chapters….. platonic kirideku….. (please, I need more of their pure friendship)

Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm I have, they’re pretty cute and pure and Kirishima’s a ball of excitement and fighting spirit as usual and Deku is kinda there trying to keep up all wobbly smiles and good intentions (he’s not used to the hype people poor child *pats his head*) which is amusing, I don’t mind their relationship at all! But as of now I still haven’t found anything about it unique and interesting enough to make me want to draw it? They’re cute! But they feel… sorta superficial? Like, Kirishima’s friends with everyone, and Deku’s friends with everyone, so of course they’re gonna be friends with each other too! But that’s about it right now. I dunno, maybe it’ll develop more in the future and I’ll decide I want to draw it, who knows!

Anon said:Have you seen that vine with the drunk guys recording singing backstreet’s back? The guy recording is kiri the guy angrily carrying the other drunk guy is baku and the guy being carried is kami

Oh my god this is the best thing I’ve thought about all day, bless you anon hahaha I can’t stop laughing send h e l p the angry look is just so Baku how did they even get him to carry Kami rip

Anon said:I’m sorry if this is annoying of something (mostly bc it’s not a question really) but I REALLY needed to tell you your art is awesome and you made me giggle like a little girl (especially at your kiribaku stuff), and I spent hours at it. You’re amazing!!

It’s not annoying at all!!!! Oh my god, thank you so much!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Anon said:Sero giving Bakugo some kind of tape corset is just… omg Fran.

It’s not easy keeping the explosive friend at bay, but someone gotta do it (usually it’s Kirishima) (Sero works well enough when the target of Baku’s yelling is Kiri himself, tho)

Anon said:I just wanted to let you know that bnha has been all over my dash forever but the only reason i’m watching it is you. I found you through your haikyuu art (the bokuku.roteru comic to be specific) and I was sad that you don’t post much hq anymore, so I figured I would watch bnha so that I could enjoy your art to the fullest 😅 I’m only 8 episodes in but i like it so far!

I’m!!!!!! So happy you’re liking it, holy smokes!!!!!!!!! *O* thank you so much for deciding to try it out only for my art, oh myyyyyy ;u;

Anon said:Okay so… This is going to sound honestly terrible but… If Suneater needs to eat something to get his abilities, what would happen if he ate a human with a quirk? Would he be able to use it too?? Gosh. This is so morbid. Sorry for the ask.

DON’T!!!!!!!!!! worry anon this is a home open to every and each speculation as far as quirks go I live for this shit - also I might or might not have thought about this too (I have) and I guess as long as quirks are classified as physical attributes then he would gain the quirk? Mutations, for sure, but stuff like Bakugou’s sweat works too (he can use the venom in the animals he eats so nitroglycerin sweat is fair game) and probably body-shifting like Kirishima would work as well… I’m not sure about stuff like Shinsou’s quirk, but if there’s a gene or an actual mutated part of his body that can make him control people, then probably it’s be okay too

Please Jiki don’t ever eat anyone, tho lol

Anon said:I also am weak for the need vs want. I’ve actually said that to people. Don’t need you, I want you hahaha love you, Fran!!

Anon said:OMG Fran the comic !!! the soft kiribaku !!! and i love that Bakugou can still live without Kirishima but his live will be colourless, just LOVE IT !!!!!!

THANK YOU BOTH SO MUCH OH MY GOD!!!! I’m super glad you liked it!!!!!!!!!!!!

[kalosstarters]

001 | Send me a fandom and I will tell you my:

OK before progressing, I have to mention that I have some pretty strong opinions on certain things so if you can’t deal with that, do not read. This is a long post.

@fairy-amy

Favorite character: 

EDUWARDO ELRICU (I don’t care how it should actually be written, that’s how I hear it) ♥ You’ve come to see how much I’ve learned to like him... But seriously, what’s there not to love? He’s brave, he’s badass, he has dealt with some absolutely awful things, but somehow still manages to keep going (well, these are things that a lot of shounen heroes are, but still he /doesn’t/ feel like just another shounen hero, nope), he’s super duper determined (to the point of being stubborn), and despite doing some “Robin Hood-esque” things (such as the mine incident in the first vol of manga) and claiming that God must hate him for his sins, he’s actually the purest thing I’ve ever seen and has really strong morals (hello?? He didn’t even want to kill the mass murderers in lab 5?? And only used the philosopher’s stone when he /absolutely/ had to i.e. when he was in Gluttony’s stomach). HE JUST WANTED TO SEE HIS MOTHER’S SMILE AGAIN AND CAN YOU REALLY BLAME A _5_-year-old (I think he was 11 when the bad stuff TM happened??) for wanting to do that?? He’s also super smart and the fact that he was the youngest state alchemist ever tells something. He’s also both short and short tempered and honestly those are both things that I can personally relate to, and sarcastic and funny yet also super caring even though he’s bad at showing it... He always puts his important people’s happiness before his and he feels super guilty about Al losing his body AND AND DOESN’T KNOW HOW TO ACCEPT OTHER PEOPLE’S HELP THE POOR BOY until finally he faces Truth on Promised Day and says that he has all these people on his side and ahhh man I love him. He is by no means a perfect character, he makes mistakes and sometimes says shit he shouldn’t, but that makes him feel even more realistic (As realistic as a shounen hero can feel. I would also lie if I said I didn’t like his design, Winry is a lucky girl). OK that was the story of why I love Edward Elric, /in brief/.

Least Favorite character: 

Kimblee. Honestly. I feel the other “bad guys” in FMA at least have some kind of motive to do whatever they are doing, but Kimblee states (at least in FMAB, I don’t remember if this line was in the manga) that he’s killing out of sheer “fun” of killing. Soo yeah. And he’s just gross and manipulative and ugh.

5 Favorite ships (canon or non-canon):

Do I have more than 3 fma ships? I’m not sure. But my OTP is obviously EdWin, from childhood friends to lovers is always a good trope and even though they bicker a lot, to me it feels they actually enjoy it. Seriously, if you just look behind those wrench throwing scenes (that are just poor slapstick humor and should not be taken too seriously), they actually share a lot of really sweet moments. Ed praising Winry for how amazing she did as a midwife (and always remembering to mention how amazing his mechanic is), Winry being inspired by Ed’s determination when she saw what’s inside Ed’s clock, Ed stopping Winry from shooting Scar because “her hands are meant to heal” (just fuck. me. up), the hand holding and comforting each other when they find out about Hughes, “I’ll make you cry tears of joy”, Ed sneakily holding Winry after she helped Scar in Briggs, which is something that assdsdg I can’t deal with because ughhh that boy so rarely shows physical affection and I’m just a freaking sucker for that kind of stuff, Ed thinking about Winry when he almost died, Winry thinking about Ed when she almost died, THE FREAKING LAST SCENE WHICH WAS SO AWKWARD AND SO ADORABLE AND SO THEM AND AHHH I AM SOO GLAD IT HAPPENED (tho I still would have liked to see a kiss but who cares THESE TWO ARE CANONICALLY MARRIED AND WITH AT LEAST TWO KIDS BUT MOST LIKELY MORE BC duh that’s even what Arakawa herself has said!!! Hnnnnghh I love them ;_____; Oh and I forgot to mention that Winry literally helped Ed to walk again, building Ed automail when she was only 11 and helping him also in other ways and asafdsg (Also how would I not find Ed blushing fiercely (and occasionally reciting the periodic table) when someone hints that something is going on between these two or when something remotely intimate happens between them adorable?? Also the scene in which Winry gets mad at Al because he doesn’t understand Ed’s feelings somehow hits me hard because it’s such a ‘supportive girlfriend’ thing to do from her!!) Really who even cares about my other ships after that unnecessarily long rant?? I also like Roy/ai and Al/mei but really I’m not like most of the people in this fandom who seem to think that the first mentioned of those two is the best thing ever. They are sweet, but I think the fandom’s opinion of them has put me off a bit, and I see them as that couple who will never /really/ be a couple anyway, because of the unfortunate circumstances. Al/mei is cute, but we see quite little of them to make me feel super strongly about them. I suppose for example Maes and Gracia and Ling and Lan Fan and Trisha and Hohenheim are good ships as well but I’m not quite on the “I’m gonna read fics about them” level with them yet.

Character I find most attractive: 

ehhhhhhhh. Older Ed. Yes. That is not a question tbh (the other side of me wants to mention older Winry here as well :P)

Character I would marry:

oh I /would/ marry Ed if he was real and of my age (and not married to Winry lmao). Not gonna lie. (honestly tho Al would probably be a nicer husband but with Ed it would never be boring)

Character I would be best friends with: 

my answers are starting to sound kinda boring, but Winry is definitely friend material. She goes through so much but still is so supportive of others and does not want to sit around when she could be doing something to help. Plsss people appreciate her more. (Sheska would be a cool friend as well, I can relate to her wanting to read so much)

A random thought: 

getting to see people’s opinions on fma and its characters has made me a bit shocked. I can’t believe some characters and ships (even canon ones) are seen so negatively while some others, that I would /not/ expect people to see positively, are surprisingly popular. This fandom makes me want to not be in it, I can’t lie about that. But to compensate a bit, I have to mention that I have also met a few super amazing people who have been so nice to me and who do amazing art and write amazing fics (INABD is the best thing ever) and ahhh I am /so/ glad I know about those things and those people. So at the end of the day, I guess the positives still win the negatives. An unpopular opinion:

I’d say it’s pretty unpopular to ship edwin more than roy/ai. So that’s one. I also don’t think Winry is annoying. That’s another one. Hmm this post is already so long that maybe I will not go more in-depth with this answer.

My canon OTP: 

EDWIN. I probably don’t have to say more than I already said Non-canon OTP: 

hmmmm... Roy/ai? I mean they are sorta canon but also not, if canon means being married and stuff.

Most bad*** character: name one character in fma who isn’t badass? Like Ed is the first to come to my mind but really there are so many other badass characters in it that it would be wrong to mention just one. OK let me say Izumi because that woman /kicks ass/ and she even survived Briggs alone which is not something many people would be able to do. So Izumi.

Pairing I am not a fan of: Ro**d. Ew. Why fandom why. I will never understand this. Even if you do age Ed up (and if you don’t, it’s pedo/philia), I see many problems there and yeah I’m not even gonna go there. If someone wants an in-detail analysis on that, ask :P (they say you shouldn’t bash other people’s ships but I don’t feel the need to accept pedo/ships. That’s all.)

Character I feel the writers screwed up (in one way or another): 

Of course manga/brohood is not perfect but I don’t really feel badly about any of the characters. Maybe I would have like to see more of emotional Ed in this version as well (as I know 03 digs more to the emotional side) but other than that I don’t really feel any character was ‘screwed up’ in the way that is meant in this question. Favourite friendship: 

Ed and Al are the most important relationship in fma so it would be wrong to not mention it. They are precious. But like, Roy and Maes?? And the sibling like relationship of Winry and Elicia? And Parental!Riza and Ed. And many others!

[captainehren]

List of anime that influenced me

While watching CDawgVA talk about the anime that influenced him, I got to thinking of what has influenced me. I’m older than many fans now, so what I grew up with isn’t what everyone else grew up with. 

1) Sailor Moon

This show was the first real anime show I ever watched, though I had watched “anime” when I was younger in Voltron and Akira. However, they didn’t have nearly as strong an impact on me as Sailor Moon. I heard about it from one of my friends, and she was the kind of overly obsessed fantard that makes you cringe when you think of anime fans, but that came a bit later. I was in 6th grade and she told me I should try watching Sailor Moon in the morning. So I did.

I was instantly hooked. The girly clothes, the magic, the romance, the daring and mysterious Tuxedo Mask... I was in love! And so I got as many Sailor Moon things as I could get my little hands on. I got the small dolls, I also managed to get a hold of an Artemis plush that got ruined, and a big Sailor Venus doll. I really, really wanted a Tuxedo Mask doll, because good God he was pretty, but I could never find him. 

Over the years, I frequented anime stores, or Japanimation as we called it. I got a couple of Sailor Moon CDs, one of which was an import from Japan. I got a couple of imported manga from Japan that I could never read. And when the manga started being translated by Mixx Entertainment, I got the Mixx Manga magazine, which was kind of like Shoujo Beat or Shonen Jump except they smashed both the Shonen manga in with the Shoujo manga. I think I sold my copies to Half-Price ages ago because I needed whatever money they were willing to give me for it. And when I saw that Mixx was finally putting out the manga volumes for $10, I got my grandma to buy them for me. I was in high school when they were coming out then.

I learned to draw anime style by copying Sailor Moon’s style. My first attempts were awful, but I kept trying. I had a Sailor Moon character of Sailor Neptune way before I ever knew about the outer senshi showing up later in the series. (she was Serena’s sister and showed up to take Tuxedo Mask.) And later in 6th grade, my too obsessive friend not only claimed she had written a script for a Sailor Moon play that I was to play Sailor Jupiter in, but that, over the phone, she claimed she was turning into Sailor Moon when she looked into the mirror. And that she was having adventures in the mirror while talking to me on the phone. As I said: too obsessed.

Needless to say, Sailor Moon is one of my staples. It broke my heart when I had to sell my old Mixx manga Sailor Moon volumes and the newer ones that I had collected so that I could get some money. It’s okay. One day I will get them again.

2) Tenchi Muyo! or Tenchi Universe

I had not watched a lot of anime after Sailor Moon. There just wasn’t a lot that interested me and no real way of watching it unless I convinced my grandma to pay for it. I think I was in high school when Tenchi Muyo! showed up on Cartoon Network. I know I was thrilled to learn that Cartoon Network was airing Sailor Moon, so I was still in Sailor Moon mode. Whenever it showed up, I was hooked. I got on that train and careened right off the cliff. I love this stupid show, but the manga is soooooooo much funnier. Oh so much! This is where a lot of my old humor came into play when drawing my Harry Potter fancomics in high school, as well as the numerous comics that I started, but dropped when I got bored with them. (Attention span of a gnat.) It became more fun to just tease the shit out of my friends who wanted to know how the stories ended, but were sorely disappointed when I didn’t bother with them.

When I started writing out my super long and stupid Harry Potter fanfictions, it was a few years after high school. Before then, I was drawing them in high school when I wasn’t doing homework. And lo and behold, I’d copy the page layouts from Tenchi Muyo! and Oh! My Goddess, but only Tenchi Muyo! got a lot of interest from me. It might have helped that Tenchi Muyo!’s humor is pretty on par with Monty Python and other such British comedies I had grown up on, so it wasn’t a huge stretch to start picking up on how to draw some of its humor.

3) Fullmetal Alchemist

If you’re a long time fan of mine, then you know that this was bound to show up. FMA was one of those animes that I had no idea about until I randomly caught it on Cartoon Network when I was staying over at my great grandpa’s house. I was with my grandma and we were taking care of her dad--my great grandpa--who was suffering from dementia among other problems. The rest of the family took turns taking care of him and accompanying him on trips so that he was never left alone for too long. He had a problem of ending up in trouble and never bothering to ask for help when he couldn’t get back up. Now, I knew about a few more anime at this time, because I had anime loving friends in high school and out of high school who knew of stuff to suggest to me. I’d watch it on Cartoon Network and be somewhat interested in it. I watched Cowboy Beebop, Trigun, Outlaw Star (which has one of the best anime closing themes I’ve ever heard omg)... I can’t remember anything else at the moment.

I turned on the TV and found cartoon network was playing its late night anime block and watched FMA. And never looked back. Now, while my love of FMA is not as apparent as my love of Sailor Moon, it’s still there. I made my own Edward and Alphonse Elric dolls, for crying out loud! I would get the manga and I loved the art style so much I started trying to incorporate it into my own a little, much the way it happened with Sailor Moon and Tenchi Muyo. I would sit and listen to the soundtracks I would get from one of my friends. I have a signed picture of Vic Mignogna that I have stored away in a nice, safe place. I’m a fan. And it still stays with me to this day. I spent so much time playing with Harry Potter and FMA with one of my friends that we blended them together. 

Yeah. That’s right. My Mini-Erik series shows this bizarre shit in there and i will always be proud of how insane we got with it.

4) Princess Tutu

This one sounds goofy, and it is a little goofy, but it is so much deeper than you can possibly imagine. if you love magical girl stories as well as ballet, then you will love this. I love this. I LOVE THIS. This seriously came about when I found out that we had an anime channel. Back when my mom had a premium package for the cable, I could get free anime series to watch. I watched Pretear on there and a few other things, but what I took to the strongest was Princess Tutu. And trying to get my mom to sit and watch it with me because I know she will enjoy it if she gives it a chance was ridiculous. For some reason, she can’t handle anything where the characters have high pitched voices. She equates it to children’s voices and she can’t stand that. Not only that, but she, to this day, equates animated shit to cartoons for children. As I said, it’s fucking ridiculous to get her to watch this thing and enjoy it even though I know for a fact it has everything I know she will enjoy if she just stopped being a dumbass about it.

So this one has forever inflicted itself upon me. I still want to come up with a knight and princess like Fakir and Ahiru, but that will come when it comes. In the mean time, it will never leave me. Ever. I will always recommend it.

5) Fate/Stay Night (Fate series)

If you’re a long time fan of mine, you also know of my obsession with this series. It will never leave. NEVER. It always calls me back! Just like FMA, Princess Tutu, Tenchi, Sailor Moon, and a few others! But I think the most inspiring thing about the series is not so much the story, but the characters. Namely the heroes. See, I had a book I had taken from my great grandpa’s house upon his death. Actually, I had a lot of books that I had accumulated after his death, and all of them were mythology based. I staked a claim on those faster than you can blink. I have a Welsh Mythology book, an Irish mythology book, and two Scandinavian folk tale books that I got from his house. Well, I had read through the Irish one and enjoyed the Cattle Raid of Cooley and Cuchulainn, but it didn’t stick in my head. It was Fate’s Lancer that shoved that bastard right into my brain and he made a home there. I had always been a huge fan of King Arthur, and seeing a female King Arthur kinda weirded me out at first, but I liked the idea so much that I kept it for my own versions of King Arthur. 

“The Dark Queen”, “The King’s Hound”, and “Hound of the Dark Earth” all came from utilizing the images of the characters of Lancer Cu and Saber Arthur, but using them in my own way. So even now I’m still playing with these stories, and it has everything to do with fate/Stay Night being a huge influence on me.

6) Axis Powers: Hetalia

Oh, Hetalia. We have a love/hate relationship, you and I. I love you to pieces, but your fans tend to be fucking psychotic and/or stupid. Or at least the ones I always encounter minus one of my besties. My bestie Alex introduced me to Hetalia and I keep coming back to it while she’s kind of stopped caring. I always come back to things I enjoy, such as Harry Potter, Narnia, Lord of the Rings, King Arthur, yadda yadda.

 I instantly fell in love with America and continue to this day. I also fell in love with England, and later France, Germany, Spain, Denmark, Norway, Sweden, China, Russia, Lithuania, and Japan. To this day, I have characters that are at least in some part influenced by the characters of Hetalia. My character Jimmy Stark was influenced by America, my character Bastian Wylde came from England, same with Fabian Santiago from Spain. I think even Darius Lis came from my usual portrayals of Lithuania in roleplays. How these came about was from a lot of role playing with Alex in various stories, including,but not limited to, Twilight and Harry Potter. We always paired Alex’s version of India with England, so in Twilight they became vampire lovers and in Harry Potter they were students. And then we used India in The Witch’s Son/Phantom of the Opera type shenanigans back when I was just trying to figure out how to make The Witch’s Son work.

However, I stayed far from the fandom outside of making overly dramatic fanfictions of a dumb parody cartoon. I know I had at least two Mexican idiots try to tell me that the Texas Revolution was America stealing Texas from Mexico instead of Mexico being an abusive dickwad and Texas raising a shotgun to his face and saying “No More.” Or that Palestine would have never picked on a young Israel, even though Palestine, Jordan, Saudi Arabia, Egypt, and a number of other places around Israel all declared war on Israel for simply existing. Israel won its independence in fire and blood, and then kept on surviving every single time these same nations never learned their lesson and declared they would “drive the Jews into the sea” ie kill them all. Or that America was never a conservative nation. However, they’re small fry in comparison to the bizarre fantards on gaiaonline. Had at least one of them molest my America and then, when I played such a thing straight and had America scream “BAD TOUCH! I NEED AN ADULT!” they started screeching about “straight helatians” being impossible and “straight hetalians” in their fandom. Like... dude? Seriously? The boys liking Hungary’s tits and ass don’t connect with you anywhere?

7) Hellsing

This one is more for two characters, specifically Alucard and Anderson. I played Alucard for years and then finally wanted to incorporate him in something without like... actually doing Alucard. If you know me, you know what I’m referring to. Anderson, however, kind of more just... visually influenced another character that has absolutely zero to do with him... though I suppose you could make the connection because they’re both priests that murder. The image in my head was more of the scarecrow variety, though, with Anderson’s long arms being more lanky, as well as his body. So perhaps a little of Batman’s Scarecrow fell in there somewhere, too.

8) Fushigi Yuugi

I literally only heard about this when I was... I think high school and then got out and ran into it later because of my bestie Amanda. This one is one of the lesser influences, but I suppose it still counts because some of it still lingers with me today. 

9) Ouran High School Host Club

A silly manga and a silly anime that makes the Captain a super happy person. This influenced more because of the stereotype characters in the same way Hetalia did. I’ve been noodling with the idea of romances surrounding similar types, including twins with a chick. We’ll see where that goes... if it goes anywhere. 

10) Anything CLAMP has created

Not gonna lie... I was a huge CLAMP fiend when I got out of high school. While I don’t really give a shit about the yaoi in the stories, my interest has always been in the cute, girly, adventure, or the DESIGNS. Jesus fuck, I would kill to be able to design some of the outfits they design. I’ve never been that imaginative with clothing. The detail put into the designs made me try to do the same with my own artwork, for good or ill. And the art styles were ones I emulated, particularly from eeh... Angelic Layer and Tsubasa Chronicle. I, in fact, used to rely on the manga from Tenchi, Sailor Moon, and Tsubasa Chronicle to get ideas for page layouts and whatnot when I drew comics. I incorporated a lot of it into my drawing style and then let it relax into something else when I finally got bored with keeping up with CLAMP. 

[icharchivist]

I was tagged by the sweet @undonesam​ and amazing @kigamin​, thank you <3 

1. Favorite anime?

atm it’s definetly Hunter x Hunter and I can’t think straight about anything else, but in general Fullmetal Alchemist and D. Gray Man are always up there. 

2. Worst anime?

oh my I rarely watch anime if i’m not recommanded to watch them so I managed to avoid a lot of bad stuff. But when I started watching anime I fell on some harem anime like L/ove H/ina that made me deeply uncomfortable.

3. Do you read manga that goes with the anime?

Usually ye, I’m actually more the kind to read than to watch anime. For some mangas (dgm and fma for exemple) it’s actually hard for me to watch the anime adaptations at time ahah. Anyway I usually prefer to read the manga so if I start an anime and like it, I will check the manga, or read the manga first. 

4. Most favorite genres?

lmao I agree with Kigamin, hxh is it’s own genre and this is a good one. Usually I admit I like adventure stuff, I usually easily get into quite light stories that tends to get somewhat darker as it goes by. I like also thinkpieces, the kind of manga that have you push some thinking in general.  I’m really into characters driven stories, especially when you focus on multiple characters. 

otherwise I like light comedies, mostly in the romance or sport genre. 

5. Least favorite genres?

harem, ecchi, loli/shota, all this kind of stuff. I usually get easily turned off if there’s too much fanservice or gross elements.

6. Favorite character?

oh my. At the moment it’s Kurapika. Like ,,, i’m too invested for this shit I love him ways too much. atm he’s all I can think of. 

But Lavi from dgm and Ling/Greed/Greeling from FMA are always quite in the top and considering I’m not as involved in those mangas than in hxh, it’s quite telling that those two remained this high in my favs after all those years. 

7. Least favorite character?

depends if you mean “character that I hate because of their actions”, in which case, Shou Tucker from FMA is a really, really good starting point lmao

or “character I don’t especially like and isn’t that much of a bad person but I just don’t like them” in which case, Nea from DGM. And okay, he’s technically a bad person, but considering how everyone talks about him I get r e a l l y pissy because I just. Can’t stand him lmao. (I’m starting to have the same feeling with Mana D.Campbell too). The problem with those two characters is that /I know/ they’re going to be developped more and I’m looking forward to their development because for now, they’re at the really begining of what’s interesting in their storylines, but considering the hiatus and all (although no blame to Hoshino-sensei), I don’t feel much for them and I’m just kinda hicky to see them everywhere. (especially with how quickly people loved Mana while there’s still a major ignoring of the Earl so far and that I think I’m going to yell if I see one more “it’d be cool of the Earl became Mana again” no, fuck you.)

8. Qualities you like in a character?

Suffering.huuh jk jk, but idk. 

I usually kinda like the fun and/or teasing character with a Tragic BackStory or kinda dark motivations but who gets kinda torn between the happiness they could have, esp thanks to others people, and the duty they put upon themselves? 

It really depends. I love characters that often asks to go a bit deeper to read. I love to analyse characters and see complex characters. But usually if the character is a smart mouth who often teases others characters or try to make them feel better, I tend to love them.

(like, I fell for Kurapika when he was teasing Leorio, he hits about all the others mark, smartmouth, sometimes cheer people up, kinda tragic, complex, following his duty even if it hurts him while he can be happier with his loved ones. A bit the same with Lavi, he’s always teasing, quite a smartmouth, he sometimes cheer people up, he’s really worried for people, but his duty as Bookman holds him back and he’s torn between how he wants to help in the war for his friend and his duty that require him to not have a heart.  Ling is a bit less torn about it all but he’s really all about his duty, he’s a smartmouth too, he really puts people in big situations by teasing them, and he usually know what to say to motivate people (like Greed). That’s kind of the patern I’d see with my favs)

9. Short or long anime?

huuuuh mostly I prefer long stories so usually long, but again, I rather read the manga if the medium is too long, I rarely have the attention span to watch a long anime. (ie why it’s a miracle I watched hxh2011 in 3 weeks.)

10. Anime or manga?

Usually Manga (if it wasn’t obvious by now o(-( ).  Anime often uses Fillers or cut scenes and both makes me hicky when it goes against the canon’s characters development or kinda screw with the timeline of the manga.

And the thing that usually makes me the saddest about it is that also, I love to see the art progression of the mangaka during the manga. Some changes are spectacular and I love to compare the artstyle, and, rightfully so though, an anime usually try to be coherent in their artstyle but  y e. That’s my major grip against the DGM’s anime because the artsyle is either surreal or so beautiful in the manga and the anime doesn’t really manage at either o(-(

11. How do you choose the anime you watch?

Usually it’s intense recommanding from people I trust. A few times it could be because of my tumblr dash (I watched gsnk like that)  but usually I need someone I really trust to insist I should watch said anime. (and I’m legit the worst at that, it’s been 6 years a close friend wanted me to start hxh, 1 year that another close friend insisted as well, I started it last December after all this time, so it’s telling of how bad I am with it).

12. Skip or listen to intros/outro?

Always watch and listen to them. A Good anime is an anime I’m trying to sing along the intros/outros of. Besides you never know which anime could hide easter eggs or bonus in or after those!

13. How do you cope with friends or family don’t like you watching anime?

huuuh friends are chill, they know me and they know I get really invested in stuff, sometimes they laugh a little because I’m really getting in too deep but they actually even sometimes push me to talk about it. I have a friend who started some of the animes I kept talking about because of that, it was sweet.

Parents and family is not really good tho. I kinda want to act like “I don’t care” and all, but my family tends to over-tease me on it all, and it often gets downright racist in arguments, so it makes me especially uncomfortable. I’m someone who often wants to talk about the things that I love and I know I can’t really with my close family, which is why I’m so loud on there. If I mention anime or honestly anything I like (or hell, if we end up accidentally zapping on said stuff on TV and I don’t do anything), I get a two hours long teasing that gets kinda hurtful at times and again, when it comes to anime, with a racist edge to them or a “that’s why everyone is violent” lecture. 

I suppose this blog is my coping of it all I guess? lmao.

14. Do you stop an anime midway if you don’t like it?

Ye. I mean I stopped midway in animes I actually liked but had no energy to pick up and I’m not sure I’ll even pick them up. Hell, I never finished watching say, FMAB or both anime of DGM because I didn’t feel like it. So if there’s an anime I don’t actively like, I’ll drop it. I don’t like forcing myself to watch stuff.

wouhou that was long. 

Anyway I tag @ttachibana, @killuabs, @kimievii, @nadejdaro, @unnoticed-and-necessary, @caruchan- aaand @mariyekos

if you want to ofc :D

Take care!

[milkyluxe]

Mikaelalbarn’s favourite anime!

Hello eveyone! :D they took my wisdom teeth out so I’m pretty much stuck at home. Since I can’t go out or do anything physical, I decided to let you know my favourite anime series so far:

Soul Eater

This list is in no particular order, except for this one. Soul Eater is my favourite anime series ever. Why? well, it has everything in it without being too much. It’s funny, it has action, amazing characters, dark themes but also sweetness every now and then. I absolutely adore Soul Eater! If you watched the anime and kinda liked it, go read the manga ASAP!! It’s pretty much the same story as with FMA, the anime ended differently than the manga and it was weird, but the manga it’s STUNNING.

Axis Powers Hetalia

Okay, so, HOW CAN YOU NOT like Hetalia? Basically everything I know from geography and world history comes from this anime what school?. I know, Hetalia it’s kinda bizarre sometimes, but it’s the full package. You’ve got stereotyped countries doing funny things, but then you’ve got serious sad moments like the US independency and Joanne de Arc’s death. Really, if you’ve heard bad things about Hetalia, it comes from people that can’t see the bright side of life. Give APH a try.

Durarara!!

This series is a masterpiece. Why? It’s not so much the story but how they tell the story. Let’s face it, if you take every arc separatedly, it just looks like someone grabbed a bunch of genres and mashed them together in a single anime, but Drrr!! makes magic out of it. You get caught instantly by either the mystery, the romance or the action. I know, Drrr!! has too many characters, and even for me, it was really hard to remember them all and what they had to do with the story, but the series gives you this feeling of wanting to know more. You wanna know how everyone intermingles, you wanna know how it will end, you must know how Izaya knew X thing was going to happen!! Anyway, Durarara!! it’s amazing. If you’ve got the time (it’s 62 episodes in total), watch it! It’s so so so worth it!

Tonari no kaibutsu-kun

My favourite shoujo/romance ever. Okay, why is it different from every other high school romance that’s out there? Well, I don’t know, I haven’t watched that many, but I’ll tell you why I like this one: it feels real. I don’t know how to put it, but let’s say that even though the story it’s about Haru and Shizuku’s relationship, their problems don’t revolve around that, specifically. I like how it shows actual problems one goes through when you like another person, even if that person likes you back. It shows that love’s not so straightforward as other animes picture it. I watched this on Netflix, then I rewatched it, and when I figured I just couldn’t get enough of these characters, I read the manga, which is also good (but not a must, like the Soul Eater one, for example).

Also, Natsume it’s the best character ever.

Owari no Seraph

Yes, I know this has been compared to Shingeki no Kyojin and for some reason to Naruto Shippuden (?), and yeah, the story is roughly the same. But here’s the thing: Yuu is much gayer than Eren... no, really. What I mean is that the “love” element it’s much more present here. They can’t stop talking about saving your family and trusting others and not leaving or betraying anyone... It’s a really gay anime, and the manga it’s much worse AND THAT’S WHY I LIKE IT SO MUCH. PLUS THE ART IS BEAUTIFUL (:

Free!

Yes, Free!. I guess that for many people, this was just a casual anime that was fun for a while, but for me, it was much more. Let me tell you, it’s so relatable. I cried so much watching this. Season one it’s fine, but season two it’s a thousand times better and it’ll break your heart. Leave all the gay things and shipping behind, this anime is gold. Specially if you’re struggling with, idk, depression? identity? plans for the future? ... If you put a label on Free! and haven’t watched it because “it’s just boys swimming, how boring” or “ew, that’s BL, no thanks” well GET YOU BUTT TO WATCH THIS ANIME NOW BECAUSE IT’S BEAUTIFUL AND ALSO IT HAS BEAUTIFUL ANIMATION THANK YOU KYOANI

Zankyo no Terror

Okay, we left the lovey-dovey, funny part behind. Time to get serious now. Zankyo no Terror it’s so underrated and I don’t get why. It’s amazing. You’ve got the same, or even higher demonstrations of intelligence in this anime that as in Death Note. You’ve got the same moral-political themes from Psycho Pass. It’s as heartbreaking and fullfilling as *idk, i can’t think of an example but you get me* I’m not comparing them, I’m just saying that this anime it’s so well thought and in like, half the episodes (it’s very short, really, just 11 eps) that it should be honored. It’s like a book you can’t put down. Watch it. It’s gonna break your heart and also keep you at the edge of your seat.

Ojamajo Doremi

Childhood time! This is my favourite anime from childhood. I remember I watched it all about eleven or twelve years ago, but now I’ve re-watched some episodes and let me tell you: it’s as innocent and upbeat as it seems. Surely Doremi it’s like the dorkiest character you’ll ever see, but she and her friends help the others with themes that aren’t so light: divorce, bullying, low self-esteem, illness, death, jealousy, and the list goes on... it’s amazing how they did it in a way that kids would get the message, but also, stays a real problem and it’s not “minimized”. And yes, of course, the characters are lovely.

HONORABLE MENTIONS

- FullMetal Alchemist: come on, who doesn’t love this? it’s a classic!! AMAZING story.

- Hyouka: I guess that the only reason I liked this so much it’s because I identified strongly with the main character. It’s entertaining tho :) a nice anime to watch on vacations.

- Orange: this was so close to being on the list but I wasn’t happy with how it ended it’s the saddest anime I’ve watched tho, I cried a lot.

- Psycho-Pass: this one’s also a masterpiece (at least season one).