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because sometimes there are invisible tests and invisible rules and you're just supposed to ... know the rule. someone you thought of as a friend asks you for book recommendations, so you give her a list of like 30 books, each with a brief blurb and why you like it. later, you find out she screenshotted the list and send it out to a group chat with the note: what an absolute freak can you believe this. you saw the responses: emojis where people are rolling over laughing. too much and obsessive and actually kind of creepy in the comments. you thought you'd been doing the right thing. she'd asked, right? an invisible rule: this is what happens when you get too excited.
you aren't supposed to laugh at your own jokes, so you don't, but then you're too serious. you're not supposed to be too loud, but then people say you're too quiet. you aren't supposed to get passionate about things, but then you're shy, boring. you aren't supposed to talk too much, but then people are mad when you're not good at replying.
you fold yourself into a prettier paper crane. since you never know what is "selfish" and what is "charity," you give yourself over, fully. you'd rather be empty and over-generous - you'd rather eat your own boundaries than have even one person believe that you're mean. since you don't know what the thing is that will make them hate you, you simply scrub yourself clean of any form of roughness. if you are perfect and smiling and funny, they can love you. if you are always there for them and never admit what's happening and never mention your past and never make them uncomfortable - you can make up for it. you can earn it.
don't fuck up. they're all testing you, always. they're tolerating you. whatever secret club happened, over a summer somewhere - during some activity you didn't get to attend - everyone else just... figured it out. like they got some kind of award or examination that allowed them to know how-to-be-normal. how to fit. and for the rest of your life, you've been playing catch-up. you've been trying to prove that - haha! you get it! that the joke they're telling, the people they are, the manual they got- yeah, you've totally read it.
if you can just divide yourself in two - the lovable one, and the one that is you - you can do this. you can walk the line. they can laugh and accept you. if you are always-balanced, never burdensome, a delight to have in class, champagne and glittering and never gawky or florescent or god-forbid cringe: you can get away with it.
you stare at your therapist, whom you can make jokes with, and who laughs at your jokes, because you are so fucking good at people-pleasing. you smile at her, and she asks you how you're doing, and you automatically say i'm good, thanks, how are you? while the answer swims somewhere in your little lizard brain:
how long have you been doing this now? mastering the art of your body and mind like you're piloting a puppet. has it worked? what do you mean that all you feel is... just exhausted. pick yourself up, the tightrope has no net. after all, you're cheating, somehow, but nobody seems to know you actually flunked the test. it's working!
aren't you happy yet?
#almost wrote the champagne line as ''effervescent'' but legit could not write it without saying ''effervescent like a snail''#ah tumblr...#writeblr#warm up#idk . having trouble writing rn#ps i don't like to talk about it . it is my medical information. but before you ask. yes this is about being on the spectrum#i really don't like when ppl make my writing about how im [whatever ID]. i want it to ring true for the people who it rings true for#i don't want it to be like ''awwwww look at this person!!! she's the EXCEPTION!!! :)" .....#no.... not really.....#idk something gross happens whenever i admit to certain conditions and i turn into like inspiration p*rnography#like yes they actually let us use keyboards these days#furthermore i just... dont feel comfortable talking about this part of me. i had too bad of a childhood. adhd is one thing...#this one im like. still coming to terms with. which is like. my own journey.#idk. just please be kind. some things are more private than others. this one feels private to me.#i do not know how to help others w/this . and i do not know how to help myself. i will talk about it if im ever ready. idk if that will#actually ever happen#ty in advance i love u im kissing you we are kissing somewhere on the spectrum
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I saw somebody say that watching the Percy Jackson show made them realize that in the first books Percy doesn't even say half the stuff he thinks and he's just a quiet kid silently judging everyone, like they're so right.
Think about it from Grover's perspective. You know Percy as a quiet boy who certainly has his judgy thoughts but (aside from telling them to you) keeps them to himself. He's just trying to make it through school, for his mom.
Then his mom dies. And he loses the ability to give absolutely any fucks. He starts saying all this shit he never said out loud and to people who could do infinitely worse things to him than anything Nancy Bobifit ever even tried. And it only gets worse as he gets older.
Like bro went from quiet kid in the back of the class to fist fighting a god in the span of like a week. Then he openly told the gods to pay their child support. Grover was having heart attacks every other minute.
#Percy really said#I was quiet once#now not even the gods can make me shut up#Percy “I am impertinent” Jackson#percy jackson#pjo#percy jackon and the olympians#percy jackson and the olympians#percyjackson#percy and grover#grover underwood#pjo tv series#pjo tv show#percy jackson tv show#percy jackson spoilers#i guess#I mean the books have been out for almost like 20 years
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im a davrooknevecanis truther
#dragon age#evon ingellvar#davrin#lucanis dellamorte#neve gallus#lace harding#davcanis#davrook#nevecanis#davrooknevecanis#evon and neve's relationship is so delightfully fucked up he's failed her at almost every turn they make each other worse#they'd still throw themselves in front of the other without a second thought#and their boyfriends are enemies to lovers#evon and lucanis have a weird secret third thing from losing davrin and neve after tearstone#(even though they get neve back)#and davrin and neve are normal (they can also kiss sometimes)#my art
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I'll rip in hands and teeth and take a bite
#my art#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#yuji itadori#ryomen sukuna#yuuji#sukuna#sukuita#fanart#jjk fanart#gore tw/#body horror tw/#blood tw/#YUUJIIII BABY BOYYYY BABYYYYYY#hes hungry :/#sukuna seems 2 be having fun gdjhfgsdf . boys when theyre bored.#so happy i wrangled this pose in2 something im happy with i almost abandoned the idea entirely#sometimes front facing is the answer.....who knew :'>#also#can anyone tell me. how far up yuujis fun arms go i had no idea so i just stopped them at the elbow#if im wrong that will b not swaggy :(#listening 2 sena's cover of butchers vanity on repeat btw VIBES#cannibalism motifs my beloved uwu#in other news this is the least amount of shading ive done in a very long time#and its been even longer since i pulled out th white lineart#but overall i like this piece so much yuuji is so cute and it doesnt make sense 2 me at all#edit changed the colour to make it more obvious whats sukunas legs vs whats yuujis back
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Jason: "Hey I need some help."
Dick: "Okay, wait a second, I'm getting another call. Hello?"
Tim: "Hey Dick, don't get mad, but I need your help with something."
Dick: "One second." *returns to earlier call* "What did you do?"
Jason: "Me? It's not always me, you know--"
Dick: "Sure Jay, hold up, I'm getting another call. Hello?"
Damian: "Batgirl and I require assistance, can we use your apartment for something?"
Dick: "What did Jason do?"
Damian: "...why are you asking about Jason?"
Dick: "Because... ugh, never mind. What did you do?"
Stephanie, in the background: "What? He never asks Tim all these questions."
Tim, muffled: "He asks me all the time."
Dick: "Wait a second, why the hell are all of you together?"
Jason: "We'll tell you but you gotta open the front door first."
#Oh man somebody remind me to post the explanation for this#Because I'm making it very far jn the past and ich werde vergessen#I just like making dick grayson's blood pressure go up#more stupid textposts#batfamily#personal#batfanon#dick grayson#roll call:#almost everyone#jason todd
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mmmm something something time rift blah blah yada yada ✨links meet au✨
#I said I would eventually make some kind of links meet content#I don’t know what to title this au#you guys are better at naming things than me#anyways I almost imploded from having the worst art block of my career#legit thought I’d never pick up a pen ever again but alas <3#forgive my absence it was a rough two months#the legend of zelda#legend of zelda#tloz#loz#zelda#zelda au#links meet au#rift au#ougg I gotta tag all that?#skyward sword#twilight princess#echoes of wisdom#oracle of seasons#wind waker#minish cap#ocarina of time#breath of the wild#tears of the kingdom#first hero#hyrule warriors#art#artists on tumblr#my art#rift in time au
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Suddenly, bell bottoms aren't so bad
Bonus sketch, because I had to vv
"Stop checking out my assistant, Stanley."
#Okay#I was never gonna draw fiddlestan#but then i was struck with inspiration in the form of bell bottom jeans#and was like.... get that twink into some bell bottoms RIGHT now#cole's art#art#gravity falls#grunkle stan#stanley pines#fiddleford mcgucket#fiddlestan#Steve Pinington? More like STAN Pining a ton#or something idk#what's this au called again?#uh idk#mystery trio#right?#the au where Stan shows up after Ford calls Fiddleford but before they test the portal y'know#where they live happily ever after and nothing ever goes wrong and stan and ford make up and stan and fiddleford make out#yeah#also the height difference lowkey goes crazy#it was unintentional but i actually like it a lot and now it's my headcanon#i love rambling in my tags knowing no one's reading ts 🙏#almost forgot to tag ford lol#stanford pines
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Another fish jacket?! Another fish jacket <3
This time I tried flat felled seams for the sleeves which was fun and it totally didn't almost kill my sewing machine.
#this one's more my size but I'm not sure if I'm keeping it or not#the photos are taken with partial natural light and partial artificial light so the colours are a little off#i have more of the green which is a thicker almost canvass-y cotton so I think imma make a shirt/jacket#this one kind of turned out boring so I'll have to step it up#sewing#i forget if I have a sewing tag or not#my art#if I could just make a living from one of a kind jackets that would be cool#(hmu if you want to sponsor an iridescent fish jacket)
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Ooough I just know op is gonna take Meg to everyone else and elita is gonna be pissed while bee is just OMG HIIII ITS SO NICE TO SEE YOU!!! Bc that's his friend even if he is evil




That’s one of his first ever friends, of course he’s happy to see him!! Continuing from this comic.
#transformers one#maccadam#megatron#d-16#optimus prime#tf one#bumblebee#b-127#Elita-one#jazz is there too but I don’t know much about him#like I’m sure bee is also working along side some of the bots he was almost killing right#what’s a little bloodshed between friends#he’s never had friends so this is his status quo#Elita would gut him right there is op wasn’t around#the autobots know about op’s fading memories so they would tiptoe around the topic of d-16 probably#megs doesn’t know what’s going on but if op doesn’t remember him then maybe he can manipulate him into getting information and maybe a t-cog#then oh no there’s literally everyone who would recognize him as d-16 in this room so much for that plan#he tells op his name is m-16 bc he can’t make up shit to save his life
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joongdok so far to me. specifically chp 370
#orv#kim dokja#yoo joonghyuk#joongdok#ever makes art#the wind down after the huge divorce blow out fight is so funny to me#yjh still attempting to smash his way into a genuine emotional connection as equals with the guy that made him eat literal dirt. thats amor#lol this is also partly bc i saw the official subway standee from the pop up store#and (almost) everyone sitting politely except for yjh manspreading ferociously is ALSO really funny
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Another DPxDC idea.
I love the ideas of Chef Danny and the AU's but what if Danny opens a small dinner/restaurant and sometimes people stop by for a quick bite but the thing is there is little to no real menu. Danny just comes out when he hears his doors open, greets them warmly, takes them to their table and asks for drinks gets them, before heading into the kitchen.
At first everyone is confused until a few minutes later Danny shows back up with food, food that is amazing and freshly made and HOW DOES IT TASTE LIKE MY -Insert childhood fav meal or preferred fav meal here- ?!?!?!
Danny's small place is at first very unknown but eventually blows up as a urban myth and when people try to find it, its very hard to find. Some people swear its outside of 'this' town, others say they found the place in 'this' city, others find it on long car rides in the middle of nowhere.
It changes location.
The only common real clues is you find it on foggy nights and the neon sign shining 'OPEN' is seen through the fog.
#danny phantom#dp x dc#blue rambles#danny fenton#crossover#danny phantom dc#writing ideas#random idea#dpxdc#I love cryptid Danny tbh#we need more of him being a bit creepy#Danny owns a restaurant#that switches location#so he meets a lot of people/heroes#he's been seen in a lot of different places but its always nighttime#Danny makes food that the ghosts that are around their people tell him#his kitchen has a time bubble CW let him have so he can cook without time moving to much outside#CW spoils Danny cause he likes the chaos Danny is bringing to the DC world#I like to think YJ was on a mission. Spotted the place and decided they needed food.#Danny has been seen in the cities and other places#Jason almost cries when he tried it when it showed up in Gotham and tasted one of the meals Catherine used to make#As did Dick when he had a meal his Dad used to make#etc etc#Everyone tries to question Danny but he very mysterious and 'busy'
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Stargazing, at the edge of the unknown.
#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#wei wuxian#wen qing#wen ning#animation#This was another fun experiment that I learned a lot from B*)#I think that stargazing was something WWX probably took for granted in his first life.#Namely that - despite seeming like the carefree type - he probably didn't have the patience for it.#Why look at the sky when there are so many other things to do at night? It's not like the stars are going anywhere after all.#And when he's in yiling...well he has far to much to do inside his cave or on night hunts to look up at the boring dots.#He's a moon guy - but only so far as 'is the moon phase bright enough to read under tonight? is is dark enough to sneak around?'#It's probably only after the end of untangling the web of secrets and murders in his second life -#-that he realizes the beauty in just...taking a moment and taking in the sky with someone by your side.#Luckily for him the high altitude and cold air of a certain cloud recess makes for excellent start gazing conditions.#Wen Qing would be in the know on what the constellations are. Almost entirely because Wen Ning kept asking her.#As an older sibling you can A) Lie or B) Delve deep into research to claim your throne of 'the knower'.#I have knowledge about many things because I craved being 'the knower' as a youth. Now I don't know anything ever.
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no okay bc Buck losing his cool about Eddie moving to Texas -> realizes he fucked up -> solves Eddie’s problem & sublets his house.
Eddie loses his cool about Buck’s way of grieving that he doesn’t understand -> realizes he fucked up -> solves Buck’s problem of feeling disconnected from everybody by bringing Chris home & having Pepa over
#Do you see what I’m saying?#Like they freak out. Realize they messed up & then solve a problem their partner has to make up for it#Do you feel me?#Idk it’s almost 3:30am I’m just yapping at this point lol#911 abc#buddie#eddie diaz#evan buckley#911 spoilers
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#my art#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#jjk fanart#jujutsu kaisen fanart#gojo satoru#satoru gojo#geto suguru#satosugu#jjk gojo#eye strain/#eye horror/#like i said ik this concept has been done before and probably better than this but i hope that i did it Okay#i hope all the eye strain was not in vain gjhfgsh the amount of blue light in this image is not recommended by doctors#smh gojo ipad baby confirmed#too much screentime.png#in other news im happy i came up with smth else 2 put alongside the piece itself !!#was playing around with filters and effects and i was like ooh what does the binarization button do#makes it look like found footage is what it does i love it SO much#i almost like it better than the coloured version but i would rather die than let a day and a half of rendering go to waste#esp after i already scrapped the intended p2#still i would have posted the full b/w one side by side but it made the post look so busy and distracting and awful#so it's just geto's face ig smile :)#happy i stuck it out w this!!!#fr all i dunk on gojo gdi his aesthetic n design works so well with glitches and messed up technology#tb to tht other gojo + teal + glitches piece i did frever ago captioned smth like 'watch what you eat'#the glitch brushes in my inventory exist fr him and him alone
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Batkids being asked who they think Bruce’s favorite is:
Dick: “Either Cass or Jason, though I’m leaning more towards Cass, Bruce has always been a girl dad”
Jason: “Cass, that’s his daughter”
Tim: “Jason. … Did I answer that to quickly? If it’s any consolation I think Dick has a chance.”
Cass: *sign for bat and then sun* “Duke, he’s special”
Steph: “I’m not one of his kids so I don’t know why I’m here, but I’d say Tim or Cass cause they’re my favorites. I would include Duke in this list but he wronged me” *checks watch* “12 hours ago.”
Duke: “Probably Dick, but neither of them know it cause they’re blind when it comes to eachother. I also think Cass, but I think everyone else is going to say Cass so I’m trying to give us a higher chance of getting it right.”
Damian: “Richard or myself, but I believe Cassandra would be a promising candidate.”
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Bruce: “Who ever is making me worried or aggravated the least at the given moment I’m asked. Right now it’s Dick because he’s been in New York for two weeks with the titans. Jason would also be in the running but he blew up a building ten days ago for no reason. They’ve all done something they shouldn’t have in the last forty eight hours.”
#Tim was off doing fuck shit with young justice#Cass and Steph went after an S list villian by themselves with only Barbara knowing where they were#Duke was in a fight with bane and didn’t call for backup because “you were sleeping”#Jason did have a reason for blowing up said building but he left for Brazil to follow a lead before he could tell Bruce why#Damian went to metropolis without Bruce after being told that he couldn’t visit Jon#Dick almost died but he didn’t tell Bruce that because Roy and Garth patched him up so why does Bruce need to know if he’s fine now?#Bruce will find out and lose his shit and end up making bat cow the favorite#batfam#batfamily#batman#Bruce Wayne#dick grayson#nightwing#jason todd#red hood#cassandra cain#black bat#stephanie brown#spoiler dc#batgirl#red robin#tim drake#signal dc#duke thomas#dc robin#damian wayne#damian al ghul#dc
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The animatic is done!! 💕
#look outside#look outside game#look outside spoilers#art#digital art#fanart#animation#animatic#IM SO HAPPY WITH THIS#especially the ending bits... I drew some of them up to 3 times just to make SURE I got them right#Which my lazy ass almost never bothers with#THE BITS WITH SAM UNSPOOLING ARE MY PRIDE AND JOY#I wanted to make the part where they talk to the Visitor a bit worse actually#Their body being barely held together by this creature who only vaguely understands what a human being is even supposed to look like....#and if they move to fast their body literally lags and uncoils..#I wanted to have them sharply move their head and have them look distressed when their eyes lagged a behind#but oughgh I couldnt get it to look right and I was already dying from how long I spent on it so just pretend that happened and imagine it#Other notes ermmmm. I think I got the order that the astronomers joined a little mixed up. Sorry Beryl and Aurelius.#Also while drawing the DnD scene I imagined Lyle and Masked Thing holding hands now I feel like theres something there but idk what it is#Anyway do with that what you will#Also I remembered that half the reason I gave Sam a cleft pallet was cause I wanted them to keep a recognizable feature when they mutated#so on the last frame one of the breathing holes has a notch in it bcs thats the breathing hole that used to be Sams mouth :3#Idk if thats like. wholesome to anyone else but I like it. Its some remnant left of their humanity that they'll always have#Youtube#eyestrain
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