#issue: social anxiety 👁

[evilichu]

i write in shadow ink a bunch of words that should describe me faithfully, those adjectives you use on me to make my soul ache less. but when the sun comes up and the light finally touches my face, i can't see the ink at all. i only see things i hate. i'll look away from the mirror, i'll stay back and hide from everyone else. if we get to meet, my love, i beg for it to be at night, i beg that your eyes are closed to keep my fears at bay.

[randommothxd]

Some pro/com/darkshit combos I made

🪦💗 n3cr0 ships

🦋🌈 human x bug ships

👽🗣 human x alien ships

👻🍭 human x ghost ship

🍓🪱 ex anti-comshit

🌌☔️ ex anti-darkshit

🛎🌸 religious proshipper

🦷🧠 /\/\urd3r3r x c@ni1blism ship

🕷🐇 evil f/o

🧃🫂 hero f/o

🎈⚠️ backrooms f/o

🚫🪰 misanthropic proship

💥🐌 Misanthropic comship

🦈💿 misanthropic darkship

🧸💋 plusho proship

🪼🫐 plusho comship

🍉🐈 plusho darkship

❤️‍🩹💣 antinatalism proship

🍬🎉 antinatalism comship

🎲🎨 antinatalism darkship

🐾🍄‍🟫 recovering zoo proship

🎁✨️ recovering zoo comship

🎮🏀 recovering zoo darkship

💢🕳 anger issues proship

💥🦷 anger issues comship

💣💥 anger issues darkship

🚫🗣 non verbal proship

👄🚫 non verbal comship

🚫🤬 non verbal darkship

♾️❤️‍🩹 autistic recovering anti proship

♾️⚠️ autistic recovering anti comship

♾️💣 autistic recovering anti darkship

🦄🌸 girly proship

🐰⚘️ girly comship

🪽🎀 girly darkship

🎉💐 silly proship

🍄🧃 silly comship

🌺🐾 silly darkship

🦋👤 therain proship

🐺🗣 therian comship

🕊🐾 therian darkship

🫀👁 werid/dreamcore proship

💌🦷 werid/dreamcore comship

💤🧠 werid/dreamcore darkship

🦾🫂 disabled proship

🦿💖 disabled comship

🦻💌 disabled darkship

✂️🖍 lesbain proship

👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩❤️‍🔥 lesbain comship

🌹👗 lesbain darkship

👑🧁 adult proship

🧊🍫 adult comship

✨️🎊 adult darkship

🎨🎭 BPD proship

🪅🎭 BPD comship

🎣🎭 BPD darkship

👁☣️ social anxiety proship

👀🫂 social anxiety comship

✂️👀 social anxiety darkship

🧕🎀 Muslim proship

🛌⚠️ bedrotting proship

☣️🪱 bedrotting comship

💀🎂 bedrotting darkship

🍪🍼 age regression proship

🍭👼 age regression comship

🦄🌻 age regression darkship

🎁🎨 cringe proship

🎉🎀 cringe comship

👀🌈 cringe darkship

👶🍳 baby proship (you now realize you're a proshipper but were never an anti)

🍼🛼 baby comship

🧸🎊 baby darkship

🕊🏳️‍⚧️ transgender dead dove

🍖🏳️‍⚧️ transgender proship

🎱🏳️‍⚧️ transgender darkship

🎁🔥 recovering MAP proship

🎨🔥 recovering MAP comship

⌛️🔥 recovering MAP darkship

💭🌈 adhd proship

🍼🌈 adhd comship

🎁🌈 adhd darkship

🕸🧸 anti proship troll acc

🐜🔝 anti comship troll acc

⚠️❤️‍🔥 anti darkship troll acc

🐱🦋 childish proship

💝🦄 childish comship

🌞🐾 childish darkship

🍭🏳️‍⚧️ anti t3rf proship

🎀🏳️‍⚧️ anti t3rf comship

❤️‍🩹🏳️‍⚧️ anti t3rf darkship

🌍👁 otherkin proship

🎧🍓 otherkin comship

🫧🐰 otherkin darkship

☠️❤️‍🩹 physicality ill proship

🍄💣 physicality ill comship

🍮🍭 physicality ill darkship

🕊💋 questioning proship

💊🪐 questioning comship

🎧🐾 questioning darkship

🔞🎀 nsfw proship

🔞👻 nsfw comship

🔞👽 nsfw darkship

🔞🪐 nsfw dead dove

🎀🍭 child proshipper

🩷🐾 child comshipper

🎧🫧 child darkshipper

💣🎧 emo proshipper

⚠️☠️ emo comshipper

👻🖤 emo darkshipper

💊☕️ coffee addiction proship

🎀☕️ coffee addiction comship

💦☕️ coffee addiction darkship

🐾☕️ coffee addiction dead dove

🩵🐰 male chlidsh proshipper

💦👽 male childish comshipper

💤🩵 male childish darkshipper

💓🐰 female childish proshipper

🍭👽 female childish comshipper

💤💓 female childish darkshipper

[little-dipper-euni]

I NEED MUTUALS😻😻😻👹👹👹👹😻😻😻🫀🫀👹👁🫦👁 (I am 15, Freshman in HS)

PRETTY PRETTY PLEASE WITH SPRINKLES AND CHERRIES ON TOP (I’m talking about fro-yo bc I don’t really like ice cream)

My qualifications to be your Mutual are:

-I go to an Early College High School, which means when I graduate (2028) I will have a HS diploma as well as an associates degree.

-I am well versed in literature (I read War and Peace, Jane Eyre, and Anna Karenina in 7th grade) and I can read really fast (834 WPM)

- I play soccer, violin and do theater (acting, just started trying to sing)

- I understand(?) D&D, I sadly don’t play bc i don’t have time and am afraid to join a club, but I do know a lot about BG3

- I am a film, medical, and random thingiez nerd! I can (and will) randomly spout the most absurd fun facts known to mankind at any given moment. Did you know that the medical term for nosebleeds is epistaxis? Or that in 1968, riots occurred in Chicago around the DNC, and were led by Abbie Hoffman, Jerry Rubin, Tom Hayden, Rennie Davis and David Dellinger?

-I am a history buff, specifically WW1&2, the 50’s-70’s, and Greek Mythology.

Cons of being my friend:

-Sometimes I talk waaaay toooo muccchhh. Like I seriously need to shut up sometimes.

- I have trust issues. I am currently going through a friendship crisis where it seems my best friend would rather talk to anybody but me. Also like I’ll sit and listen to her no matter what, but if I’m passionately yapping about why Girl, Interrupted is an AMAZING BOOK, she’ll stick her finger up, and say ‘I’m bored changing subject now’, I will need reassurance (non verbal, like being an active listener)

-I don’t really like clingy people, again the friendship crisis, she was like dependent on me for happiness last year (she said she would khs if we stopped being friends) and then this year she went cold turkey and is pulling away, so yeah I’m not really fond of being clingy.

-I have anxiety (as like every high schooler does) and depression. I may not always be up to ANY social interactions.

-I have family issues.

This is getting long so I will post a part 2 (Ick I know) containing my favorite things and interests

A Bientot- Euni

[astrosky33]

asteroid code: 7116

this asteroid can indicate certain mental health issues you may have and the house it’s in can tell you how to improve these mental health issues

(i’m not saying that this will completely cure your mental illnesses these things will only help)

✩ when aspected to the moon it can indicate depression (i have this and got diagnosed with depression in 5th grade)

✩ when aspected to saturn it can indicate social anxiety or a mental disorder/illness that holds you back from doing certain things (multiple people i know with this including one of my sisters have autism- not saying autism is a bad thing i just want to clarify i love autistic ppl they’re so nice to me)

✩ when aspected to mercury can just indicate anxiety in general (i have this and have awful anxiety :D)

✩ aspects to jupiter from this asteroid usually indicate good mental health unless paired with other bad aspects or in the 8th and 12th house then it can indicate an abundance of mental health issues

EXAMPLE: if mentall aspects mercury and is in the 5H it can mean your hobbies can distract you from your anxiety or having an outlet to express yourself can (such as a journal, talking to a therapist, etc)

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[padawansuggest]

Okay but AU where Jaster never died, Jango’s suoercommandos were never killed, Jango never went face to face with Dooku and crew (and tbh let’s just get rid of Palpatine cause he was the one that orchestrated that whole thing), Jango grew up on Mandalore as the heir apparent alongside Arla without any issues with the New Mandalorians because they all had the common goal of removing Death Watch forces, Jango eventually gets scouted to work on the cloning project but instead of it being an army they’re looking for a physically advanced null to clone so they can have a baseline for genetics testing and Jango says yes as long as 1: he gets two kiddos (Boba for him and Omega for Arla cause it amuses them and they Wanna be parents and Jaster keeps subtly mentioning grandbabies) and also that the cloners are obligated to either adopt the children out, or send them to force schools if they have a midi count, so that happens and Jango has a son and niece now, and they all just chillin till one day Boba comes home with another boy around the same age as him named Din who’s legit sooooo shy and skittish around droids but likes that the adults all immediately take him in because Boba chose him as family and so that’s the new baby and now Jango has TWO babies and they all grow up together (Omega comes home with a teenage Fennec one day and the adults are all ????? But accept that there is ANOTHER sibling) and one day young adult Din (a handsome fellow with extreme social anxiety that causes him to rarely ever take off his helmet but it’s not the Creed, it’s just his fear of people looking at him same babe same, who’s a good solo bounty hunter and and speaks like 15 languages but can’t string together a single sentence on his thoughts in any of them) wanders back to the palace (where Jango is aging but in charge of both the TM and also his ailing father who’s probably gonna outlive them all but gaining some memory issues let’s be honest) and Jango is all ‘how was work?’ And Din is all ‘??????’ *holds up green infant* and that’s when it occurred to Jango that he hasn’t seen Din in person in over a year and a half and how the FUCK did Din not mention adopting a child in all that time and Din explains that they could have found a Jedi station to drop him off at but literally whenever he tried they were followed and the kid almost grabbed again so can Jango plz call that annoying redhead Jedi he claims he doesn’t flirt with so the council member can send someone to pick up the child that he is not attached af to he promises he just thinks that Grogu is the softest most amazing most perfect absolutely precious creature in the whole universe and he’s NOT attached thanks and they send Obi-Wan (who’s reluctant to admit that his memory is going super fast and Anakin claims it’s because Obi-Wan is probably using the force to keep his hair from losing colour) and Plo who are all ‘lmao this child has BONDED with you’ and they overalls decide that Din is his dad now so he should get both hometime with the baby AND visitation rights, and Din is all ‘???????????’ And Jango is all *laughs himself sick at the idea of Din being in the Jedi temple cause Din would probably cry if a stranger spoke to him above a whisper lmao he’s gonna have to send Din with Boba or something* and now Din is wandering around the Jedi temple with Boba behind him, hiding around corners because he Saw People and ew he doesn’t want someone to look at him and then Grogu feels his presence and starts a stampede out of the garden with the other toddlers who are all ‘!!!!!!!!!!’ To see his Buir and Din is all ‘oh thank god my security blanket’ and refuses to put the baby down and little 12 year old Luke and Leia come out after them because their special mission of the day was to keep the toddlers out of Master Yoda’s herb garden and they’re all ‘👁👄👁’ at pretty Mando giving off anxiety in the force and beat the savage toddlers back to the garden and it’s a beautiful thing and Din has a baby and siblings and cousins and he’s loved and taken care of.

[wrotelovelytears]

Some things I dislike about being Neurodivergent™ :

Hyper fixate on something just to eventually completely drop it because its ✨boring✨

Due to that hyper focusing- spending money... A lot on whatever it is just to regret it months or weeks later.

Getting extremely bored and literally feeling shitty because of it

Felling super productive then not having a will to move

Because I lucked out and got a Personality Disorder too🙄. When I get too bored, I feel ✨empty✨ on the inside with very great thoughts about myself

And due to the combo of the PD and ADHD, I have a tendency to not have healthy situations or behaviors

I'm really forgetful, then I remember and feel ✨guilty✨

When I don't wanna do something, I gotta get pushed... A lot..

AP Depression

AP Anxiety

Crying because... There's no reason I just start crying

Having your hypersensitivity being called moody or an attitude

Physical health issues not being taken seriously until I'm on deaths bed "suddenly"

The need to have audio (amd tactile) stimulation but controlled or I panic because what the fuck is that noise?

Constantly worry about how others see me

Again with the double whammy, ✨shifting personality✨ ✨shifting identities✨ ✨shifting ideas✨ in fact I pick up people's traits faster than the pandemic picks up new variants

✨Existing✨ not living

Without certain stimulates I'm drained more than usual and that makes me physically sicker

✨Insomnia✨

Social meter runs out faster than my patience for loud people

✨The police... as an existence✨

Having your dyslexia be confused with stupidity

Reading out loud in class

Getting called weird for my interests. Or worst not Black

Being quiet and getting told its an attitude or I'm being a sterotype

Exclaiming something "loud" and being told I'm yet again being a stereotype.

Being introverted and being assumed mean. (Bitch I'm scared of YOU if anything. Besides no need to talk of there's nothing important to say).

Having Autistic traits and being assumed that its just a personality quirk instead of Autism because.... Get this... I'm Black 👁👄👁

Being Black with all of this. I just don't get to talk about my experiences of being misdiagnosed, mistreated, and unheard. People literally can't understand Black people can be Neurodivergent and it causes a lot more hurt than folks wanna admit. That includes those who are ND and not Black, its just the getting spoken over or told your reactions to things (especially racism) are overblown. I barely see Black NDs talked about unless its in a negative light and trust and believe thats so harmful.

Then I happen to not be a man either so people really take joy in going ✨its just trauma✨ without realizing that in itself, is painful. It just tells me to be quiet and not make a fuss.

This a side note:

I hate the manic pixie dream girl stereotype. It came from Borderline Personality Disorder(which people talk down on), and got extended to Autism (and somewhat ADHD). As someone who has had actual manic episodes and been told "I can fix you". I promise you no sane person wants those problems nor wants to be sexualized due to the way they were born. Its weird and you weird if you think its cool.

[with-the-same-tattoos]

Honestly I'd get more scared by a really attractive guy living in the walls cause clearly he is a questionable guy if he isn't just out living his life?

Like brahms if he looked what is considered the socially normal "pretty" would be scarier cause dude has the means and ability to live a normal life without any hassle. He has enough money to change his name,get a mew identity and live a normal life SO if he is choosing not to do that it's a bit suspicious. Like the only real issue brahms seems to have is severe social anxiety which in this day and age is a allot easier to work on either in therapy or by yourself,still hard i mean i have it so i get thats it's super fucking hard but he could still get to the point where he could possibly at the least get the groceries from Malcolm.

As someone who has struggled w similiar social anxiety & fear of the outside n people I get him no matter what he looks like, im a rly average looking person and should have been fine outside but wasn't, so I do get him I MEGA DO. I hear what U say but I don't rly relate to that suspition.

However id be afraid of the idea of having2 spend the rest of my life looking after someone boring looking, --👁 — 👁like the mystrty isnt worth it if ur just SOME GUY i want the phantom og thr oprra not a disney prince

[dammbi]

My Anime Simp List

*Attack On Titan*

-Levi (He’s middle aged? That just screams my type—)

-Sasha

-Mikasa

-Hange

- I guess Jean or whateva 🙄😒

*Assassination Classroom*

-Karma (Obviously he’s on here, HE’S HOT—)

-Gakushuu (Mmmm I stan the hair color and grape eyes, makes me hungy for fruitys 🥵)

-Nagisa (I don’t simp for him but in the wholesomest way, I wanna be his sister I— 🥺)

-I THINK THERE’S SOMEONE WHO IS CRIMINALLY UNDERATED AND IT’S OKUDA, I AM MEGA GAY FOR HER.

-Rio (Besties 😼😼)

-Hazama (She is so hot deadass 😳)

-Korosensei’s human form (Why does he look like Dazai, why does he look like Dazai, why does he look like Dazai—)

*BNHA*

-Shouto (He got dem daddy issues 😼😳🤤)

-Shindo (He’s so two faced and I love it, h o t)

-Kirishima (So manly 😫😫)

-SEN KAIBARA IS SO UNDERRATED BUT HOT IT SHOULD BE A CRIME

-Monoma (I guess or whateva 🙄 still a little asshole 😒)

-Shinsou (I’d love to be his sleeping buddy)

-Tamaki (I relate to him on the personal level of not going up to the staff to tell them I wanted no pickles on my burger and my sister has to do it for me because social anxiety✨)

*SoulEater*

-DTK (He’s surprisingly the only character i simp for in SE god he’s so hot and pretty I—)

*Fruits Basket*

-Yuki (He’s such a gentleman/soft boy and I really think it’s cute 🥰)

-Kyo (The opposite of Yuki and I also love it 😼)

-Shigure (🥵😫👁��👁 Has me hollerin’)

*Haikyuu!!*

-Kageyama (MiLk mAn—)

-Yu and Hinata (I stan the Crackhead energy and would like to be apart of the headassery your honor 😼)

- I woyld say more but I haven’t watched that much.

*Black Clover*

-Yuno (Because you know 😏 LMAO I MADE A JOKE)

*Diabolik Lovers*

-Ayato (The red heads 🥵🥵)

-Shu (It’s almost perfect, he’s like Gakushuu’s distant cousin or some shit I swear 😩)

*BSD*

-Dazai (Why do they make him so pretty though?? Like Miss girl please 😳) He’s the greasy Italian of my heart 😩

- Akutagawa (I love him and his non existent eyebrows 😭)

*Erased*

-Kenya (His adult ver. makes me feel some type of way I—)

-I KNOW MR. YASHIRO DID SOME MESSED UP STUFF BUT HE HAD ME FEELING SOME TYPE OF WAY WTF 👁👄👁 HE’S MIDDLE AGED I—

*Balanced: Unlimited*

-Haru, I don’t care what anyone says, he’s better 🥰 AND OLDER THAN DAISUKE AND MIDDLE AGED—

[evilichu]

(i'm gonna edit this later)

my first concert ever

what an experience. i'm so glad my sister came with me —more like, i went with her— because i don't know if it would have been the same without her.

my sister knows i struggled with social anxiety in the past, and even if it's mild now i still deal with some symptoms. throughout the concert she asked me a few times if i was ok— somehow she managed to ask enough times that it was comforting but not too many for it to be overbearing. i also felt comfortable telling her when i didn't feel okay.

and it did happen, that i had to tell my sister "this is too much for me".

for context, concerts in my country are almost a safety hazzard. it's very common to do pogo (which is basically big crowds of people jumping up and down repeatedly and pushing eachother). i think that it happens everywhere but i feel like in my country it can get intense (there has been cases of people dying or getting seriously injured). and i was looking forward to it.

it was my very first concert so i wanted to experience the pogo. i thought it wouldn't be a big deal, i thought i would be fine. i keep telling myself that my anxiety attacks days are behind me, and i tend to forget that i can't just fight everything with a good attitude. specially anxiety, your body just reacts instinctively and you have to help it, going against it just worsens it.

we were in the pit for like a whole hour, right in the middle. close to the stage. and i was doing so fine i was like "this is so easy". but then the concert started and after the intro started a song that's very heavy— very pogo like (buitres). it was too much for me. i was so focused on not-falling that the whole song went by and i didn't even sing along to one line. i just kept being pushed back and forth and my whole body felt tense.

so the song ends and i'm begging that the next one is a slow one. but of course not, that would ruin the mood. luz delito plays, which is another very heavy song. and i don't get past ten seconds of it. i honestly felt out of my own body, like i wasn't present at all and it was just my body reacting by itself. my mind registered colors and lights and saw legs and arms, but i wasn't there listening or enjoying the concert. i realized i was kind of blacking out and felt like i couldn't breathe.

so i turned to my sister in the middle of both of us being pushed around and told her "i can't be here".

my sister didn't hesitate. she was like ok we're getting out of here. and it was really hard to do, but she did. she got us through and we went to the side of the pit where less people were.

and that's when i finally started to enjoy the concert.

of course, at first i started feeling like shit. i felt awful that my sister had to leave a good spot close to the stage because of me. she was really sweet about it and as soon as we were out she complained that it was impossible to be there, like leaving had been her idea.

i really wanted to punish myself for failing, for ruining the concert. i wanted to mop around and maybe cry a little, i wanted to apologize to my sister for being such a burden. but instead i did one thing i had never done before, i thought "the concert isn't over, and the only thing i can do now is enjoying it here in a place i feel safe". so i FUCKING DID. round of applause, please.

the next songs were incredible. i sang along to every song and my throat still hurts from it.

wos, the singer, said twice "okay this is the last song" but after each song the crowd would beg for one more and he delivered. it was amazing.

i'm very aware that i experience things through the lense of my mental illness. but even through that lense, this was a good experience. i loved it.