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â   no   one   has   to   know   .   â   hand   is   linked  with   hers   ,   pulling   her   along   as   they   run   through   the   passage   under   the   night   sky   .   was   this   a   spur   of   the   moment   thing   ?   yes   .   could   they   get   caught   for   trespassing   ?   maybe   .   did   isaiah   care   ?   not   really   .   â   you   gotta   live   a   little   ,   c   !   â    /  @richflexesâ
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Yan Cheater
(Fifth official post)
(Characterâs name-Isaiah)
Yan Cheater who shameless cheats on you, the whole town knows, and then smirks when you berate him for his promiscuous ways.
Yan Cheater who always manages to keep you with him, usually by threats of blackmail or begging.Â
Yan Cheater who, despite his hedonistic faults, doesnât want to leave you. He still loves you, but sometimes you bore him.
Yan Cheater who become panicky when you start to ignore, then he starts to throw a fit when you give him the cold shoulder.
Yan Cheater who temporarily halts his promiscuous actions to try and woo you again. He doesnât want to loose you, he loves, really he does! (He doesnât, but heâs too much of a coward to leave you)
âPlease baby, donât leave me! I swear Iâll never do that again!â He begs, desperate to bring you back into his arms. He reaches for you, his arms open and attempts to embrace you.Â
Unfortunately for him, his actions are undesired and therefore you slapped him, then told him to screw off and then  you kicked him out of your house.
Yan Cheater is absolutely devastated when you kick him out, this is a bad sign, what if you leave him? His mood isnât even lifted when that annoying neighbor he hooked up with invites him over. (He rejects her invitation politely, then decides to just wait on the porch until you let him back in or give him his clothes)
Sadly, he doesnât get invited back into your house, nope, instead you toss his clothes out and then you hand him a sleeping bag. You locked him out, he canât understand it and he has no idea how to repair this relationship.
Yan Cheater who mourns your break up, even after weeks have passed. He doesnât understand what happened, he thought for sure that you wouldâve stayed with him. (He knew all your secrets after all) But you didnât care of he told the world about your crimes (not that there were any serious ones going on). In fact you only seemed to encourage him to inform the whole world of what youâve done.
Yan Cheater who still hasnât gotten over you, you and him were dating for so long and he just canât fathom the idea of being separated from you.
Yan Cheater who snaps when he sees you flirting with your best friend, he decides then and there that he will get you back, and nothing will ever separate the two of you again.
Hence he kidnapped you, locked you in his basement (donât  worry itâs fully furnished) executed your best friend, blocked all other contacts on your phone and then began his to try, and salvage your relationship.Â
It doesnât work, but he has all the time in the world to try and itâs not like youâre going anywhere anytime soon.
Yan Cheater who swears to be true to you and to stay with you for all eternity.Â
(Short post today, but enjoy it anyways and feel free to comment)
#yandere cheater x reader#yandere oc#my writing#yandere x reader#yandere#His name is Isaiah#enjoy this short fanfic!#Fifth official post#Isaiah my oc
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How the Peaky boys would react to âyou wearing a sundressâ -> headcannon
(NSFW) but more implied then truly written, but still read at your own risk
TommyđȘ
đȘit was a hot day, and you were rummaging through your clothing chest to try find something suitable to wear to bear the heat outside.
đȘTommy had headed out early, business to attend to with Alfie Solomons.
đȘhe hadnât meant to wake you, trying to sneak around the bedroom to get dressed and get out of the house: especially after a⊠long night
đȘbut still, you stirred and whined âTom?â You breathe with a rasped voice âsâalright, back to sleep darlingâ he instructed but you endured, sitting up and stretching your arms high above your head and Thomas watched as the covers fell to reveal your bare torso and it took all his self control to stop salivating.
đȘyou climbed out of bed and threw the slip dress over your head, heading towards your husband who was buttoning his shirt in the mirror
đȘyou turned him towards you and swatted his hands away, and he allowed you to finish buttoning his shirt for him, finishing the top button and pulling the collar down to kiss him.
đȘâSolomons is coming by todayâ Thomas huffed and you looked up at him with narrowed eyes âlong meeting?â You ask and he shakes his head âshouldnât beâ you nod âdâyou want me to come by later? Bring you some lunch?â You ask and he connects his eyes with yours âyâknow yâworry me when you stay in there all dayâ you continue and he offers a small smile. âIâll take that as a yesâ you say, kissing the corner of his mouth and tapping his chest, ushering him out of the door. âGo on, shoo.â
đȘhe smirked and grabbed his cap on the way out, whistling as he went
đȘso there you were, already sweeting with mere silk on your body
đȘyou saw a dress with the tags still on, yellow and billowing at the bottom: sundress
đȘyou looked it over one before deciding it was the perfect choice for todayâs endeavours.
đȘyouâd nipped out to the market first, collecting some supplies to make him some soup or whatever you could conjure up.
đȘyou even grabbed some sunflowers too; having bought him a vase for his office, thinking it needed some life brought into it, given the volume of lives that were lost in that room.
đȘlater in the day you headed to Tommyâs office, assuming that his meeting must be done by now and to feed him.
đȘyouâd headed to the Garrison, greeting Harry and having a few wandering eyes following you as you approached the Blinderâs designated room, thinking nothing of it as you turned the door knob.
đȘTommy couldnât be mad at your intrusion for the sheer sight of you. His pupils blew out of his head as he looked you over, heâd never seen this dress before. Yet his jaw gritted at the way Alfred fucking Solomons had the same reaction.
đȘâoh Iâm so sorry gentlemanâ you said, pivoting to leave âno no, sweetheart. Alfie was just leaving. Werenât you?â Tommy asked and Alfie creased his brows but with the eyes his business partner was giving him told him everything he needed to know. âYeah yeah, just leaving Tomâ
đȘAlfie stood, to leave and smiled at you âlovely to see you, poppetâ Alfie said, youâd always gotten along with him; you hugged him as he welcomed it, and he grinned at you âyou look gorgeous you, yeah? Lovely new dress. Fabulous it isâ âfuck off Alfieâ âyeah yeah Iâm going, bye loveâ
đȘTommy looked you over as the door clicked shut with tight lips. âIâm sorry Tom I didnât think heâd still be here-â âhave you had that on all day?â He cuts you off and you raise your brows âthe dress?â âMhmâ âoh yeah, found it earlier. Never worn it.â You say, spinning to give him a giddy look at it.
đȘTommy couldnât help but smile âcâm ere.â He beckons you over and you approach him âI brought you some lunch-â you begin ânah, got all I need to eat right hereâ he says and grabs your hips, prompting you to discard your basket on his desk.
đȘhe sits back in his seat; opening his legs to pull you to stand between them. He gently takes the fabric between his fingers, then drags his hands so slowly up to your torso, not looking at your face. You fidget anxiously, his hands dragging back down to the hem of the dress.
đȘâdangerous wearing this, loveâ he says, dipping his hands under the dress to rest on your upper thighs, finally looking at you. You smile. He realises how easily the fabric is lifted, pushing you back to sit on his desk âcanât do this to yâold Tom and expect to get away with itâ he says, with a tut, unzipping his trousers and removing his suspenders as he pushes your underwear to the side.
đȘâIâm buying you more oâ these.â
Alfieđ§ž
đ§žAlfie was sat reading the newspaper in his armchair, Cyril asleep beside him when you came into the room.
đ§žâso, what do you think?â You asked and Alfie looked up but had to do a double take. A white sundress with frilled straps and tight torso. âBlimey poppet, whatâs this then?â He asked, dropping his glasses to the end of his nose to get a better look at you.
đ§žâa sundress Alf!â You say, âyâbought it last year, remember?â âThought Iâd remember buying something like this.â He says, standing to his feet, moving to take your hand in his own âgive us a spin then darlingâ he says, turning you as the fabric billowed as you went only for your gorgeous beaming face to return to him.
đ§žânow this is fucking fabulous ainât it darlinâ, fucking fabulous. Bloody love it. Suits you nicelyâ he mumbles as you smile âbut yâcanât wear itâ he says and your face drops âyâwhat?â You asks, brows furrowing. âYâaint givin yâold man heart palpitations and expecting me to let yâout of the house, flower. Not like thisâ he says sternly, wagging an accusatory finger at you.
đ§žâbut weâre got to go to the market-â you protest ânah, we ainâtâ he says, picking you up and throwing you over his shoulder as you yelp. He flips the rim of your skirt up so he gets a great view of your ass, smacking it lightly âAlfie!â
đ§žâdonât think I wonât shag yâon these stairs, treacle, now let me get up the fucking stairs, yeah?â
đ§žthen later in the day when youâd finally manage to coax him off of you and out of the house to the market, there was a hand permanently on your waist. And then at some point you bent over to smell some flowers and Alfie couldnât help but lean his hips into yours. You yelped âAlfie!â You hissed. âCâmon love I canât cope.â He grunts, impatiently prompting the rest of the shopping to go by faster, flipping the skirt of the dress up again when he finally got back to the car.
Arthurđș
đșso. Fucking. Antsy.
đșcanât keep his fucking hands off of you.
đșleft early, didnât he? Ended up waking you up; banging all the doors shut and all that as he clambered out of the house.
đșyou decided that was your wake up call regardless, knowing full well that if heâd have left in a state such as the one he was in last night then it wasnât good business. Meaning itâd perk him up for you to visit him and calm down his anger during the day, even if it was only a chat to rectify his emotions.
đșyouâd gotten yourself dressed without a second thought, inly to do a double take and head right back into the house when you felt the sweltering temperatures outside the from door.
đșyouâd rummage through your clothing chest, struggling to find anything suitable for such an occasion, used to the drizzly cool downpour of the indefinite English winter.
đșthen you spotted it; the sundress
đșArthur had gone mad for it last year, and it was forgotten about at around Christmas time when it was way too cold for attire like that, but now was the perfect opportunity to wind him up again.
đșand you were in a teasing mood after the way heâd slammed the front door shut and made a crack in the mahogany.
đșso youâd slipped it on, it was a lovely shade of pink; baby pink to be exact. Arthur loved that colour on you, made him forget all his troubles and appreciate his woman for a while - especially when he couldnât get his hands off you. So, giving yourself a once over you spritzed a bit of the expensive perfume Thomas had kindly gifted you the Christmas prior, the one you knew Arthur liked the smell of, and headed out the door.
đșyou decided to stop by the bakery on the way to his office, the bakery with the young cashier who had a large crush on you who Arthur absolutely despised, and you knew itâd get him even more rilled up knowing full well that youâd been in that dress, had leant over the counter while the young lad stumbled over his words and explained what was in every one of them, let you sample the one that the lad knew full well was your favourite, and gave you it on the house with a tip on the hat and a kiss on the hand.
đșyeah this was turning out to be a pretty good day.
đșso you waltzed through the building, little spring in your step as you greeted all the turning heads who watched you as you walked.
đșyou knocked on his door âfuck offâ and you opened it âsorry Arth, thought youâd want some companyâ you say in the shyest voice you could manage to muster. His demeanour immediately changed when he heard your voice, his posture settled but when he looked at you his mouth ran dry.
đșâbrought you a bunâ you say, taking it out of the bag youâd brought and knew full well he looked at the branding on the paper packaging. His jaw went slack. âFuck me love, yâtryna kill me?â He asked, taking his cap off his head and shooting his head beneath it. âWhat do you mean, darling?â You asked, feigning innocence, heading to his desk as you placed the treat in front of him. âYou know fucking damn well what. That bastard dress is back againâ he says, grabbing your waist with calloused hands to bring you closer to him and he looked you over.
đșâwearing the nice perfume too, ainât ya love?â He asked meekly and you nodded âwarm day and I couldnât find anything else. Saw how quickly youâd left his morning so I thought Iâd bring you something to eatâ you say with a small, innocent smile as you stroked his cheek. He swallowed hard, eyes unwillingly shifting from you to the pastry on his desk.
đșâyâve been to that fucking bakery, ainât ya?â He asked, gritting his teeth âwell itâs your favourite-â âand that little bastard was serving wasnât he?â He asked again, eyes narrowing âwho? Daniel-â âyes fucking Daniel that little cock rocket who thinks he can get in your knickers thatâs whoâ he seethed.
đșthen it dawned on him. âAnd he saw you in this fucking thingâ he growled, bunching the pink material in his hands as he huffed âmâsorry Arth. Didnât thinkâ you reply. Liar. âNah I think you knew. Knew to tease yâold Arthur didnât you?â He asked, thumb drawing small circles into your waist. You replied with a small smile âI knew it! Yâlittle minx!â He chuckled, shaking his head.
đșâwell!âYou exclaim, taking his hands and prying them from your waist as his face dropped âIâll leave you be. Enjoy your pasty. Love you.â You say, turning to make your leave and he almost growled.
đșâwhere the fuck do you think youâre going?â He asked, standing up after you as you walked back through his door, failing to suppress your smirk. He pretty much sprinted after you, grabbing you roughly and throwing you over his shoulder to turn right back around and into his office. âGot all I want to eat right fucking âere. You ainât leaving this office in this bastard dressâ he promises, slamming the office door behind the two of you.
Johnđ„
đ„bold of you to think youâre even leaving the house with it on.
đ„heâs not like his brothers, he wouldnât leave without saying goodbye unless Tommy was literally at the door screaming for him, and even then he was quick to reassure you before he sprinted out the house.
đ„no he liked to wake up with you, especially now there were too many kids to count running around the house.
đ„he liked to wake you up with little kisses, grab you at the waist and pull you back into bed if you tried to leave, brush his teeth beside you in the bathroom, help get the kids ready, pick your outfit, and let you tie his tie which usually took a good half hour between all the songs heâd sneak in.
đ„gave him a sense of homeliness.
đ„a bit of normality.
đ„today was no different, heâd woke you up with little kisses, rolling you to sit on top of him, legs either side of his hips as he repetitively kissed you as you giggled and tried to rise for a breath.
đ„âmammy Iâm hungry!â A voice came from the doorway and you saw your agitated son pawing at his pyjamas as he looked at you desperately. âFucking kid interrupting. About to fu-â John mumbled quietly before you were placing a hand over his mouth with wide, warning eyes. He smirked at you. âAlright mate, Iâll come, leave your poor mammy aloneâ John answered, finally managing to pry your hand away. âThanks daddyâ he says, giddily, as John reluctantly placed you back in bed and rolled out, chucking a shirt on and turning back to you. âDonât moveâ he says, wagging a jokingly warning finger at you and you laugh âyes sirâ you salute and he smirk.
đ„âright câmon mate.â John says, grabbing your son and slinging him onto a piggy back to go grab him something to munch on.
đ„you practically jumped out of bed to go grab the new sundress that you bought last week, you hadnât shown John yet and decided that today was the day you were going to wear it, especially now you had the quick couple of minutes of peace alone.
đ„âright, littleâuns eating his breakf- fuck meâ you spun around to look at your husband and smiled âwhat dây think?â You ask, âgâi us a twirlâ he said, crossing his arms and leaning against the doorframe with a smirk. You did as he said and pivoted around, showing how the dress spun with you.
đ„âitâs a sundressâ you say âI can see that flowerâ he replies, walking up to you to have a good feel of the fabric, gliding his hands from your upper back to your waist as he pulls you into him âyâcanât wear thaâ.â He says simply and you giggle âwhyâs tha Johnny?â You ask and he raises his brows âthat little name tells me you know goddamn why gorgeous.â He says âyâcannea wear it cause Iâm not gonna be able to keep my hands off of ya.â He says, quickly turning to slam the door shut before picking you up and dropping you on the bed, climbing on top of you and leaning in to kiss you hungrily.
đ„you move to take the dress of and he shakes his head ânow, now whole point of this dress is that itâs easy access now, ainât it?â He hums âleave it on Iâll work around donât you worry âbout me.â He says quickly with his tongue protruding to lick his dry lips as he looks you over.
đ„he dips his head under the hem of the dress and eats you like a man starved. âMammy! Daddy weâre âungry!â You hear from beyond the door and John stops his movement to come back up for air and clamp a hand over your mouth to stop the sounds coming out of it. John huffs, frustrated but clears his throat. âHarriet darlinâ can you reach the milk?â He asks after a minute âI can daâ.â Her little voice replies âToby can you reach the cereal?â âUh-huhâ the other retorts. âGreat and Charlie? Bowls and spoons?â âYeah I know where they are daddy!â The little one says âperfect. Harriet want you to get the milk, the big âun Iâm not having you using up the fancy shit your mam bought from Camden. Yâhere me?â He asks âyeah dadâ âToby, grab the cereal and Charlie get the bowls and lot.â He instructs âokay!â The collective voices come out. âHannah need you to make sure itâs all gone to plan, alright hon?â He asks âsure thingâ then you hear the patter of feel heading down the stairs
đ„âand I swear to god if any of you little shits make a mess yâll all be up for the fuckinâ high jump!â He announces loudly, before quieting down and turning back to you âwhere were we?â
đ„and then when youâd finally managed to pry him off of you, he begrudgingly let you wear it âdonât forget weâre going to Aliceâs garden party.â You say âwhat?â He asks, noticing how youâve dressed all the kids appropriately âyâainât going looking like that flowerâ he says âI sure am. Come in you lot! In the car!â You say, ushering him out the door
đ„he managed to sneak you away one or two times at the party.
Bonnieđ„
đ„Bonnieâs just as bad as John
đ„cannot keep his hands off of you
đ„ââm takinâ yâ to Bonnie Goldâs fight.â Your brother said walking into the room âwear summot nice, that dress I bought youâ âwhy?â âJust get dressedâ you nodded at Tommy, not opposed to visiting Bonnie Gold any day.
đ„âis his sister coming?â Bonnie asked his dad hopefully and the man smirked âwhy?â âJâst wonderinâ.â âYeah well keep yâeyes on the prizeâ Aberama told him âshe is the fuckinâ prizeâ âtry keep yâhands off of âer until the fights over, yeah?â He asked and him and Bonnie just shared a knowing smirk.
đ„you put on the sundress Tommy had bought you the other week, deciding it was a nice enough day to have a breeze against your skin, plus you had a pair of lovely shoes to match.
đ„so you rocked up downstairs, dress on and ready to go and Tommy just gave you a once over âpoor lads gonna have a fuckinâ heart attackâ John said, laughing âshut up Johnâ you reply, as he opened the door to the car for you, offering his hand to help you up. âYou look niceâ Arthur commented with a raised brow âdamn fucker better win this fightâ
đ„âBonnieâ Thomas nodded as he entered the building, followed by his brothers, you at the back with John whoâd strung an arm over your shoulder. âMr Shelbyâ he nodded at him, but was clearly distracted. âDonât you worry, Bonnie. Sheâs right âere.â Tommy says, moving out the way for John and you to come into his view. âHiya, Bon.â You smile âhiya flowerâ he manages to muster.
đ„yet, his breath had caught in his throat at the sheer sight of you. Your gorgeous face, hair done up nicely, and a fucking milkmaid dress. Some lovely sundress that other men didnât deserve to see. Bonnieâs jaw clenched.
đ„âright, weâll leave the two of you for a minute. Aberama, letâs chatâ Thomas said, leading the others away âif he tries anything come and fuckinâ find me.â John said, looking Bonnie over once with narrowed eyes before strutting off after the others.
đ„Bonnie smirked looking at you âyâlook lovelyâ he said quietly, approaching you ânot too bad yâself Bonâ you giggle as his hands wrap around you, leaning down to kiss you gently. âThis fuckinâ dress. Yâdo it on purpose?â He asks and you crease your brows âdo what?â You hum and he sighs âI guess youâre not beautiful on purpose are you darlinâ?â He grins, grabbing your hand to drag you into his changing room and lock the door behind you.
đ„he picks you up and you squeal with a laugh, wrapping your legs around his waist as he holds you against the door. He slips his hands under the hem of the skirt and holds your thighs gently.
đ„âthis fucking dressâ he says, chuffed that he managed to slip his hands all the way up to settle on your waist and you just smiled at him. You could feel him toying with the waistband of your panties and you laugh âBon weâve only got ten minutes!â You giggle and he sighs âguess weâve got to be quick then, ay sugar?â He asks, undoing his trousers and just merely pushing your panties aside.
đ„you lean your head into the curve of his neck, muffling the sounds erupting from your mouth and muffling them with his bear skin and he slid in and out of you. âGod âm so fuckinâ obsessed with you.â He groaned âyâknow what this makes me think of?â He asks and you shake your head in question against him. âMakes me think of a mammy. What a mammy should wear when sheâs pregnant ând canât get into nothinâ else.â He mumbles. âThis whaâya were tryna do tâme?â He asks âtryna get me to make yâa mammy? Cause itâs working darlinâ. So well.â You whine at his remark.
đ„and when you both finish you try to pull up from his shoulder but he holds you firmly in place âNuh uh. You dress like a mammy yâbecome oneâ he says and you canât help but smile at his statement. Eventually, he unwraps you from his waist and lets you down onto shaky legs. A knock comes at the door âfive minutes, son. Get your hands wrappedâ you hear Aberama say to him followed by leaving footsteps. You smile up at him âcâmon Iâll wrap your handsâ
đ„you pull him to where the wrap is, sitting him down on the bench and standing between his legs as you work on protecting his hands.
đ„He was being extremely difficult
đ„trying to wrap a manâs hands when all he wants to do is have them under your dress is an extremely difficult task as he kept groping at your skin rather than letting you work. âDâya want your hands wrapping or not?â You ask with a huff and he smirks âwould rather be doing somethinâ else.â He shrugs, but lets you finish. And when you do he pulls you into a tight hug, leaning against the fabric where your breasts were constricted.
đ„âBonnie, câmon lad itâs timeâ you heard your brother say from beyond the door, knocking on it thrice (sausage roll video lol)
đ„Bonnie groaned from under your dress (you didnât know when heâd managed to snake his way back under there) but you grabbed his hand and yanked him from his seated position to standing; pulling him towards the door and unlocking it to take him to the ring.
đ„Bonnie pulled the hand that was dragging him, sending you flying into his chest with a force that nearly winded you as he gave you one last kiss. âBonnie! Go!â You giggled, pushing him away and towards the ring, taking a stand beside your brothers as the match began.
đ„The rounds went by painfully slow for Bonnie; regardless of the fact that he was winning - but in reality it was only a good few minutes of pure fighting.
đ„then when the match was finished, he waltzed over to the Shelby family like he owned the place and offered a blood-filled grin as it dripped down his chin.
đ„âwell done Bonnie lad.â Tommy said, lighting a cigarette. âCheers Tommy.â He replied, adrenaline still pumping through his veins. âDidnât yâget some money fâthis match?â John asked, lighting his own. âNah heâs got his own trophy right over thereâ Tommy replied, nodding at you as they all turned to see you chatting with Bonnieâs father.
đ„âjust do us a favourâ Thomas told him and Bonnie immediately nodded âmarry her.â âDonât have to tell me twice, mr Shelby.â Bonnie told him with a chuckle, heading to grab you to resume your activities.
Isaiahâïž
âïžhaha.
âïžagain, bold of you to assume that youâre getting fucking anywhere with that thing on.
âïžfeel like itâd be a black sundress, one with frills on the sleeves.
âïžyouâd gone for a walk with Finn, Tommy having told you both to fuck off for a while while they dealt with some deeper business; so a stroll around seemed to be the choice at hand.
âïževentually though, Finn had gotten distracted by a sign youâd read that said âpretty women here shilling for a good timeâ and left you to fend for yourself, opting not to follow your twin into the whore house, yet you werenât in your own company for long, feeling a cap placed on your head and an arm around your shoulders.
âïžâHey pretty, whatâre you doing all alone?â Isaiah asked, as he feel into step with you, but came to a sudden halt almost lurching you back. âAnd who let you wear that?â His eyebrows raised as he looked you over. âWhy whatâs wrong with it?â You asked ânothinâ nothinâ. Jâst donât understand why itâs not on my bedroom floorâ you smacked his chest and giggled âIsaiah!â
âïžâyâshouldnt have been let out wearing this, loveâ he said, backing you against the wall of one of the nearby buildings. âWell I was with Finnâ you reason âhmm? And where is Finn now?â He asks, taking your chin between his forefinger and thumb, forcing you to look at him.
âïžâin some whore houseâ you mumble in reply. He scoffs âsome brotherâ. Then he starts again âwhy donât we turn my house into a whore house and get that dress off you and into my room?â He suggests and you roll your eyes âsuch a way with wordsâ
âïžâyâlook fuckinâ insatiableâ he says, leaning down to kiss that sensitive spot on the crevasse of your neck. âDunno how I manage to keep my hand off you most of the time, dollâ he shrugs âand in this? Fuck yânot gonna be walking anytime soonâ
âïžyou laugh at him âyou wish peaky junior, now I was enjoying a lovely walk before you came along.â You hum, pushing him back by the chest and he scoffs âIâm a Shelby I can fend for myselfâ you shrug ânot while I make you a Jesus.â He retorts, smirking like he knew heâd won. âWhatever, Isaiahâ you say, calmly walking away
âïžhe laughs loudly, running after you âcâmon Mrs Jesus weâve business to attend to!â He announces, swiftly placing a hand onto your chest and pressing you back against the wall, lifting you up and placing hungry hands under the hem of your dress âIsaiah!â You scold, ânot here!â He rolls his eyes âfineâ
âïžand he places and arm under your knees and one to support your head as he carries you bridal-style back to his house. You clutch at his suit jacket and squeal at his action, holding on for dear life until you got to his home.
âïždid not wait until you got to the bedroom
âïždefo had his way with you against the door once itâd been firmly slammed shut and locked
âïžand on the sofa
âïžand the kitchen table
âïžand then bedroom
âïž(you never took the dress off)
âïžand eventually when youâd decided Tommy was probably done with his important business you managed to coax a begrudging Isaiah to the Garrison with you, whoâd initially planned to keep you up all night with him but instead you were heading to a pub instead of his bed; which youâd end up in later anyways
âïžâoh sheâs alive!â Arthur said sarcastically as you join them, noticing your presence and subsequently you noticed Finnâs. âHow long did you last? Two minutes?â You asked and he scoffed âfuck offâ âand of course Iâm alive, Iâm fine. It was Finn who left me alone!â You say, blame bombing your twin who looked at you with evil eyes.
âïžthen Isaiah popped his head round âplus I wasnât alone I was with Isaiahâ you say matter-of-factly and Finn grits his jaw âwhatâve I said about staying away from my fucking sister you fucking scrubberâ Finn growls, landing a pent-up punch to Isaiahâs jaw who stumbled back slightly. âDidnât say nothinâ âbout fucking her did ya?â He retorted and then he was running for the hills with three brothers sprinting after him.
âïžâmen.â Polly said with a roll of her eyes
Michaelđ±
đ±he wouldnât be here nor there
đ±loved how it looks on you
đ±but hates the fact that other men see you wearing it.
đ±he makes heart eyes when he sees you in it, believing it to be the typical dress of a wife and mother; so it pretty much feeds into his delusions.
đ±the only time it saw the light of day in public wouldâve definitely been when heâd been courting you. When heâd been invited to some garden party of a rich aristocracy down southwards.
đ±what Tommy failed to mention was that the Capitalist had a daughter a few months younger than Michael, of whom was extremely well spoken, and ridiculously pretty.
đ±heâd obviously weaselled his way over to you and the rest was history.
đ±and of course, history tends to repeat itself.
đ±again, you were heading to a garden party: Shelby arranged this time around, to show your initial family that the marriage between yourself and Michael was going well and therefore Tommyâs expansion to a more wealthier estate was worth the investment.
đ±âIâll meet you there darling, business to take care of.â Michael had told you that morning while adjusting his collar, allowing you to help him straighten the tie you had wrapped around his neck. âOkayâ you hummed, he always loved how youâd never pried.
đ±in reality he was off to see a man about a dog, in other terms; kill a man. Kill a man whoâd been eyeing you up like a fucking slice of meat the evening prior. Eyeing you like he wanted to eat you like a man starved, as if your husband didnât have a firm arm wrapped around your waist and oversized number of carats around your finger.
đ±even had the nerve to try talk to you, had groped at your ass and Michael covered your eyes with one hand while he clocked the bloke around the jaw with the other.
đ±never wanted a woman to see him fight, especially his woman.
đ±so he went about killing the man the next day; well heâs probably dead by now. He took his cap calmly to the man, beneath that bridge by the canal, castrated then blinded the man and left him struggling on the ground, having a couple of lesser known Peaky men surveying the area for the rest of the day to make sure no aid was to come to him, and when his struggling stopped they were to sort his body out.
đ±you made your way to the garden party independently, having worn a darling sundress; white and pristine and freshly pressed, accompanied by a sun hat and some subtle shoes; conservative enough for Michael not to complain that you looked like a whore, but skin-showing enough not to overheat in this sweltering weather.
đ±you were there before Michael, embraced by John and given a kiss on the temple by an already tipsy Arthur who was in that sort of mood where a gent gets rather happy when squidgy, it was a fine line with Arthur.. happy to angered
đ±but you entertained him, saying your hellos and greeting the rest of the family youâd married into, patiently waiting for Michaelâs attendance.
đ±he was there soon thereafter.
đ±and he was fucking seething.
đ±he took one look at you as his mouth ran dry, grabbed your wrist and dragged you away from the garden getting countless opposing arguments from the likes of Ada and John questioning what he was doing
đ±but nothing could soften the red he saw.
đ±how dare you wear that dress?
đ±practically threw you into the car, youâd never seen him this upset, let alone have it take it out on you; his loving, doting housewife of whom he trophied for every mistake he made, initially he thought you were his punishment from god.. sent an angel for a devil to take care of. But heâd gotten the hang of switching into a loving husband the minute he returned home
đ±but tonight was different
đ±âMichael, darlin-â âhow dare you?â He seethed and you silenced yourself âpardon?â âHow many fucking times have I told you youâre not wearing this fucking dress in public, hmm? And you wear it around my fucking horny cousin?â He growls and you donât know how to reply âhe looks at you like youâre a fucking piece of meet, sweets.â He tells you, finally looking at you
đ±âundressing you with his eyes. Watched him myself.â âJohn has a wife-â âJohn hires prostitutes. Yâthink heâd be a better husband?â He asks, knuckles white as he grips the steering wheel harder âno-â âno. Cause Iâve never hired a fuckinâ prostitute since weâve been together, and I work hard for you, yâknow. Got no where to take my anger out cause I love you so much.â He says and despite the harshness of his words your heart swells.
đ±âkilled a man for you and I show up to you actinâ like a fuckinâ whore?â Your mouth opened agape and he chuckled darkly âthink I didnât kill that bloke? Think Iâd leave him safe? Nah, not with my missus I wouldnâtâ he confirms, placing a hand on your leg as he speeds back home.
đ±he stops the car and doesnât move for a minute.
đ±âlisten to me very carefully, flower. Iâm going to change my bloody shirt, and youâre gonna go upstairs, lay on the bed and wait for me. Yeah?â He asks âyeah oâcourse Michael.â You say as you get out the car
đ±âand leave that fuckinâ dress on!â You hear called behind you.
Finnđïž
đïžFinn is just horny 25/8 icl.
đïždoesnât know what does it for him about that dress, but it does something.
đïžit was a hot day, and the family was in some beer garden, Arthur already off his head drunk and the brothers just enjoying one anotherâs company after successfully ridding the threat of a rival family, the head now dead and the rest cowering to surrender.
đïžTommy told Finn to bring his lady friend, the one who worked at the bookshop along, decided it was time to meet the family, and so he did.
đïžwaltzed into your little hole in the wall, grinning as you peered your head around to see the customer whoâd caused the doorâs bell to chime, and you broke out into a mighty smile just as he did, him opening his arms for you to rush over and into a bone crushing hug.
đïževen shared a sweet kiss as he said a gentle âhello prettyâ
đïžhe noticed the dress you were wearing was new, initially not noticing it as he was too caught up in admiring you. âWhatâs this? Is it new?â He asked, taking your hand to spin you around. âIt isâ you grin, allowing the white flowing material to spin as he made you âitâs lovelyâ he says, noticing something about it but he didnât know quite what.
đïžâwhy are you here?â You hum with narrowed, suspicious eyes as you leant your chin against his dress âarenât I allowed to say hello to my favourite girl?â He asks with a smirk âyes but I can tell thereâs something. A look in your eyes.â You say and he sighs, defeated âparty at the Garrisonâ he says âwhen?â You ask âright nowâ he says and you laugh âFinn I canât just shut shop at 12 oclock on Thursday!â You say, as he reaches into his pocket, throwing ten whole pounds onto the counter âFinn! Where did you get that much money?â You gasp âdonât worry bout it. Enough for you to close?â He asks and you scoff âI canât accept ten whole pounds, Finnâ you tell him âsure you can cause Iâm not having it backâ he shrugs, pulling your hand to coax you out the door âokay fine!â You surrender as you relent, allowing Finn to pull you out the door and in turn, you lock your door behind you.
đïžthen when you showed to the party, you were greeted by tipsy cheers and hellos as Finn introduced you to his family, Polly and Ada immediately dragging you away to have a separate conversation as they question you about everything to which you giddily go along with.
đïžJohn came to stand with Finn, where he was stood still; drink in hand as he watched you interact with his family. âWhatâs up, Finn?â He asked, nudging him with his elbow and Finn finally broke out of his trace to smile at his brother. âNothinâ.â He shrugged. âCanât be about your missus, yâhead over heels for her.â John said, and Finn immediately raised his brows in panic âno! no! Nothinâ like tha.â Finn said, shaking his head. âThen what is it?â John asked, looking at you, trying to figure his younger sibling out.
đïžâdunno. Itâs summot about that dressâ Finn said, eyes raking over you as he tried to figure out what it was and his brother chuckles âeasy access, mate.â John said and Finn creased his brows âyâwhat?â âSundresses mate, fuckinâ kill me. Easy access innit? Donât have to even take the dress offâ John told him matter-of-factly, necking the rest of his beer in one. Finnâs eyes darkened and John couldnât hold in his laugh at the realisation that Finn had settled that that was what it was.
đïžJohn claps him on the back âif yâwanna sneak off Iâll coverâ he said, but by the end of the sentence Finn had already started after you âcheers, mate!â He said to John âsorry, stealing herâ he said to Polly and Ada against their judgement, dragging you away from the conversation and into the Peaky office inside the Garrison.
đïžyou giggle at his actions as he locked the dork âwhat yâdoin sill?â You ask âpartyâs outside!â You say, as he picks you up and holds you against the door, dropping his hands for them to head under the hem of your skirt âright, ând Iâve just figured out that this dress is driving me fuckinâ crazyâ he says âyouâre fuckinâ insatiableâ he says âdâyou even know what that means?â You ask and he shrugs âfind me a dictionary later or summot.â He says
đïžâwhatâs up with the dressâ you ask, as he undoes his trousers âeasy access innit?â
Aberamađ
đAberama is a cultured bloke
đby that I mean heâs had many a trips around the sun, and in that time good women are few and far between in his opinion
đso regardless of you being substantially his younger, he was positive that you were the woman for him and therefore he had to have you.
đrecently youâd moved into his vardo with him, having left the urban life behind.
đheâd woken up one morning to the sun blaring at him through the unclad opening of the vardo, stretching his arms above his head in a mighty yawn, almost certain it was almost midday by this point; especially after the long trek theyâd had to get to this sight the night prior.
đhe reached his arm over, but the spot in the bed was cold and empty, a lone spot where you shouldâve been laid. He creased his brows, shooting up in bed to a sitting potion, realising that you were no longer in the vardo at all.
đhe groaned. Damn you and your early rising tendencies.
đhe rubbed his eyes and pulled on a pair of undershorts, smirking at the remembrance of the night prior once youâd arrived. He popped his head out of the doorway, looking left and right but curiously not being able to find any trace of you.
đhe climbed down the steps and placed his hands on his hips, walking around the side of the wooden structure towards the lake that trickled slowly downstream. And thatâs where he found you:
đhis gorgeous bride.
đheâd always told you that he never expected you to conform to the traditional gypsy wife role, never needed you to bear him any more children or do the cooking or cleaning. Hell, you could lay around all day doing nothing and heâd look at you with the same adoration he always does. He didnât even expect you to want to live in a vardo, yet youâd shown up with a bag and a smile when offered.
đ yet you refused, you demanded to help. Demanded to conform. You would cook the rabbit heâd kill (given youâd been a bit sick at the initial sight of it). And youâd kill his clothes, paying no mind to any blood shed on it.
đyou were knelt against the river bank, ringing some clothes out you just washed then placing them into a small wicker basket, in a dress he didnât quite recognise.
đâwhat yâdoin up, sweetheart? Thought I told yâto relax todayâ he started, beginning towards you. Your head spun and those wide, innocent doe eyes gleamed back at him âhad a big journey last night. No good fâlittle girls to be working the day afterâ he said, matter of factly with a stern look.
đâjust wanted to get these clothes washedâ you mumble, placing the final garment in the basket. âAnd whatâs this youâve got on, hmm?â He asked, as you look at your clothes âoh itâs a dressâ âMm I can see that, darlin. Just never seen it beforeâ he tells you and you stand to give him a little spin. âMy sister bought it for my birthdayâ you said and he grunts, gently grabbing your hips to pull you into him and sway you back and forth along with the breeze, dancing to natureâs music.
đâwell yâknow what these dresses are?â He hums and you shake your head, placing both hands on his chest. âThese dresses are the kind that mammys wear. The kind youâd wear when theyâre all pregnant and swelled up with little babes.â He says, accusingly. âKind that little wives wear that are asking for a hidingâ he warns
đâdidnât mean nothing by it, abe. Just thought it was niceâ you admit and he smiles âI know you did, princess. Just an innocent little flower yâare.â He shakes his head.
đâbut yâve seen the other mammys around the camp havenât you? Seen how theyâve dressed. Think you know what you were doinâ to your old manâ he teases and you shake your head âm too old to be a daâ yâknow. Way too bleeding old. Punishing me ainât ya? Just asking for a littleâunâ he tuts and you giggle as he picks you up bridal style and carries you back to the bed where heâd began
đâAberama! The clothes!-â âCan fuckinâ waitâ he grunts âgot a littleâun to put in ya firstâ he says, dropping you onto the bed and lazily flipping up your skirt to do what he did best.
đmake your skin fucking crawl.
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âââż Peaky âą *- Giving Them Head -* â Blinders âżââ
⟠(Peaky Blinders) multiple characters x reader
⟠Summary: Peaky blinders characters reaction to you giving them head.
⟠Warnings: nsfw, oral (male and female receiving) rough (head shoving, hip thrusting) use of pet names, semi public, exhibition? Degrading words.
Aberama Gold:
⟠Aberama felt the need to be sweet and gentle with your pretty young mouth.
⟠Heâd guide you along with soft words of encouragement, letting you know what you should do.
⟠âThere you go, my loveâŠâ or âyour doing so good fâme.â
⟠Heâd be relaxed against the chair or bed he was sitting on, arms out behind him as he watched you through hooded eyes.
⟠His eyes would never stray away from you face.
⟠Aberama loved the way you looked giving him head, he liked watching as your eyes either watered after so long, or fluttered closed in order to not distract yourself.
⟠Besides from speaking, I canât imagine him being very vocal, other than letting out quiet grunts that would edge you along.
⟠You would make it your mission to try and get a moan or at least a groan from him, but it was proven to be very difficult.
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It wasnt often that you and Aberama got to have privacy, but when you did you made sure to enjoy the time and make it worth while.
As soon as you both got time alone, you immediately dropped to your knees after pushing him down into the chair in your shared caravan and before you knew it, your lips were wrapped around his length.
He watched lovingly as your head bobbed up and down on his cock, enjoying the way you took your time in order to draw out his orgasm.
Aberama would let his eyes shut briefly before opening them again once he realized so he could focus on on your face. He watched as your eyes squinted the more you took him into your mouth. âSâalright, love. Donât have to go all the way.â He would breath out, brushing away a strand of hair that fell before your eyes, covering your expression from his watchful gaze.
âFeels so good.â Heâd rest his hand on your cheek, caressing lightly as you continued.
Once heâd cum, heâd help you up to your feet, letting you sit down in the chair. âTake care of me so well, donât ya?â
Ada Shelby:
⟠At first she would be shy, biting her lip to contain her moans, nervous to have her legs spread for you, covering her face whenever sheâd be embarrassed.
⟠After the first couple of times of giving her head, she would begin to open up to you literallyâŠ
⟠Ada would be more open to trying things with you until she learns how much she enjoys your head in her thighs with her hands in your hair.
⟠She constantly would be tugging and pulling at your hair to guide you in the position she wants you in.
⟠There is no such thing as teasing Ada Shelby.
⟠Her sweet moans would fill the room, encouraging you to do more with your mouth and tongue.
⟠Youâd swirl your tongue around her little bud which would send a string of moans to exit her lips while she would grind against your mouth.
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âY/n!â Your tongue flicked her clit repetitively before returning to her hole. Slurping sounds could be heard from down below as you sucked on her pussy, encouraging her orgasm the more you continued.
Your hands found her stomach as she arched off the bed, holding her down. Once you were certain she wouldnât lift her hips again, your hand would trail up her stomach to her chest, squeezing gently at her tits before pinching her nipples, causing higher pitched moans to fall out of her mouth.
You couldnât help but giggle at her reactions making her tug roughly at your hair, this time earning a moan in response from you at the feeling of roughness from the girl beneath you.
âIâmâŠâ she trailed off, eyes rolling back as she breathed heavily, âIâm close, love.â She would moan.
This time, you allowed for her to grind herself against your mouth, letting Ada use you to get herself off.
Her hips would stutter as an orgasm washed over you until she rode out her high and was breathless against the bed.
Arthur Shelby:
⟠Arthur was notorious for being very rough in bed, and youâd expect nothing less when it came to giving him head.
⟠Depending on how experienced you were, heâd be nice at first (not shoving your head, not thrusting his hips)
⟠But once he was certain that you were used to sucking his cock, was when Arthur Shelby would truly come out.
⟠Arthur would be relentless with the way heâd fuck himself with your mouth, practically using you as a warm hole to satisfy his needs.
⟠Obsessed with making you gag.
⟠Heâd even enjoy the feeling of your teeth lightly grazing his length.
⟠Not afraid to make noises, especially when it came to grunting. He had nothing to be ashamed of, after all it wasnât him that was being fucked.
⟠If he wasnât using his hips (if he was sitting down) heâd guide you by your head, holding you down and making you take everything.
⟠If you werenât swallowing his cum afterwards, than you were doing something wrong.
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You were struggling to breathe through your nose as you were held all the way down until he was balls deep in your mouth.
Sounds of gagging could be heard as you were forced to choke around his cock. âKeep going love, fuck me.â
Once he finally loosened his hold, you would pull yourself of his dick, breathing heavily as you used your hand to get him off while you recovered.
Heâd smile down at you, loving the tears that trickled down your cheeks. âAlmost there, sweetheart.â Arthur would groan.
You would sit on your knees, mouth wide opened as Arthur finished himself off, waiting expectantly.
And as his cum hits your tongue, you would immediately swallow it whole, knowing that if you didnât then it would be a long day for everyone.
Bonnie Gold:
⟠Bonnie is a mixture, he gives me very soft dom vibes. Like he could be rough, but in a gentle way.
⟠Heâs not shy about what he wants and after your comfortable in the relationship than he wonât be afraid to ask certain things from you, so long as their within your boundaries.
⟠While Bonnie is (in my head) a giver more than a receiver, he does thoroughly enjoy the times you give him head.
⟠He doesnât expect you to take all of him, nor does he push your head down, but he will rest a hand in your hair, simply just holding it there for comfort.
⟠He is a man that loves to have his balls fondled with, so if you give him head while you softly massage his balls then he might just burst within mere seconds of you touching him.
⟠Ensures that your having a good time as well, 69âŠ.
⟠Doesnât expect you to swallow his cum⊠unless of course you want to.
⟠Bonnie is definitely a vocal guy, not afraid to praise you and not afraid to be loud depending on who could potentially be around.
⟠If his familyâs around then he will try to be quiet for your sake, but if itâs other Peaky Blinders than he tends to be louder, for his sake in order to let everyone know what theyâre missing out on.
-
You couldnât help yourself after watching Bonnie once again win another boxing fight with ease, he was just too hot for you to handle.
As soon as he entered the changing rooms you had practically jumped in, smothering him in kisses before helping him clean up any wounds or blood before getting straight to business.
This time he didnât bother trying to stop you like he normally would, as a matter of fact, he watched with excitement as you dropped to your knees and pulled out his length, immediately placing it in your mouth.
You hummed around his cock as he called out your name, feeling a sense of pride wash over from his reaction.
âYouâre perfectâŠâ he slurred, eyes fluttering shut from the overwhelming pleasure.
He had his hands fisted by his sides before eventually they crept up to your head as he held your hair back and out of the way for you. âLove you.â He groaned, stuttering in the slightest as your hands met his balls.
His hips jerked unintentionally and a string of âsorrysâ could be heard from the moaning man. âIâm gonna cum, love.â
He wasnât able to protest to you allowing for him to cum in your mouth as he was hit with his orgasm, body tensing at the feeling rushing through him.
Finn Shelby:
⟠My shy boy.
⟠Heâd like to pretend he knows exactly whatâs going to happen and that heâs tough like his brothers to not be seen as weak (for example moaning etc)
⟠But the second your tongue touches his tip, Finn is a wreck.
⟠Definitely cums in mere seconds the first time, but heâd learn eventually.
⟠Doesnât like being rough with you, despite his brothers encouraging him to be as rough as possible, he likes knowing your having a good time as well.
⟠Will always give you head in return.
⟠A bit ashamed of being very vocal, tries to keep it to minimal groans, not often moans and a lot of suppressed grunts.
⟠Doesnât say much other than your name and âfuckâ when he groans.
⟠Likes to cum on your face rather than directly in your mouth.
-
Finn was on his last straws as he attempted to draw his orgasm out, he didnât want to cum to quick like the last time.
His bottom lip was between his teeth, his back was pressed against the bed as he avoided watching you go to work on his cock, knowing he would burst as soon as he opened his eyes to look at you.
He hissed as he felt your nails dig into his thighs as you pushed yourself further down his length, the sounds of you choking around him being his final straw.
Finn sat up with haste, shoving your head off of him right as his cum started to trickle out.
He jerked himself off over your face, eyes locked on the way you opened up wide for him, tongue waiting patiently for his seed.
âFuckâŠâ he groaned, squeezing out the last drop.
He breathed heavily as he laid back down on the bed, chest rising up and down. âYour turn now.â He smirked, watching as you laid beside him.
And just like that, he was up and ready to go again.
Isaiah Jesus:
⟠An absolute whore of a man, but I love him so itâs okay.
⟠Has high expectations for what he wants and what you should do for him.
⟠A man of teasing.
⟠Will happily deny himself of pleasure if it mean my teasing you with his cock.
⟠Likes to embarrass you and will make you beg to suck him off. âWhat do yaâ say, sweetheart?â Or âbeg for it.â
⟠Not a head pusher but a hip thruster on occasion, but most the time he likes to just leave you to do all the work.
⟠Isaiah definitely brags about your skills to his mates, wants everyone to know what theyâre missing out on.
⟠Tells other women that offer themselves to him that they canât suck his cock as well as his partner can.
⟠Teases you about it in front of his friends and is definitely into having you suck him off in a relatively public area.
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âPlease, Isaiah,â you begged, lips pouting as you stared at his cock that he held in the grasp of his hand, shaking it and teasing it in front of your face. âIâll be good,â you told him, reaching a hand up only for him to smack it away.
âCanât hear yaâ, love. Try again,â he smirked, watching you with amusement in his eyes as your pleading.
The whine that escaped your lips had him tapping the tip of his cock on your lips, tongue darting out to taste the tiny bit of precum that stayed on your bottom lips.
âPlease, Isaiah,â you tried again, âI want your cockâŠâ you trailed, mouth watering at the sight of his veiny dick being teased in front of your eyes.
âAlright, open up,â your mouth opened immediately, eyes closing as you awaited the warm pressure to hit your tongue, to which you immediately moaned at the feeling. âThere yaâ goâŠâ he hissed as your mouth closed around his dick.
Isaiah groaned as he felt the vibrations through his cock from you moaning around him, enjoying the feeling and taste on your tongue. âSuch a little whore for my cock, arenât yaâ?â
John Shelby:
⟠Like Isaiah, he is very cocky and likes to hear you beg for his dick, gives him a little power trip every time.
⟠Wont move at all, likes to make you do all the work so he can watch you desperately trying to get him off.
⟠Sits back, hands behind his head and relaxes while you do all the work for him.
⟠Expects you to suck him off whenever heâs horny, especially if youâre out in public.
⟠Will pull you to a private area and expect you to get on your knees for him.
⟠âCome on, on your knees.â
⟠Will watch you with a smug smirk on his face.
⟠Expects you to look at him when you suck him off.
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Your knees pressed harshly on the stone cold floor of the Garrison bathroom, your hands were placed on Johnâs thighs as you took him down your throat, head bobbing back and forth.
âLook so pretty fâme. Cock shoved down your throat.â John cooed, smirking down at you as he teased you. âYou can take a little more, canât yaâ?â
You nodded your head to the best of your ability, humming around his length as you pushed him further in. âThere you go.â
You knew he wouldnât move, he much preferred letting you do all the work while he laid back and relaxed, but you still couldnât help placing your hands on his thighs in a way of holding him back.
You kept moving your head, taking his dick in your mouth, feeling the warmth of him weighing down on his tongue. He was getting closer, you knew he was based off the way he grew restless.
You paused as his release came, and it was then that he held your head down, keeping you as close as possible as he shot his load down your throat.
Michael Gray:
⟠doesnât often want a bj, most of the time he just wants to fuck and prefers to do so, nothing to do with your skills, just a personal preference of his.
⟠But when he does, depending on what kind of work day it is, he makes sure your entirely comfortable, wonât push your head down, wonât move his hips.
⟠But if itâs one of those stressful days where it seems everythingâs against him, best believe he will take out his stress on you.
⟠If you tease him or do something to annoy him, best believe he will give you attitude back, and if you ask him then he will call you names.
⟠Is a people pleaser so he will do whatever you want him to do, even if it requires being a bit mean to you.
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It started off slow and passionate, you had been taking his length in your mouth, enjoying yourself as you sucked him off, but you couldnât help but begin to feel a bit bored, as Michael had seemed distracted.
You did what you had to do, gave him a bit of lip before Michael was returning back the same attitude, using his âbossâ tone on you.
âGo on then, you want me to cum? Then fucking make me cum.â He growled, tapping the tip of his dick against your bottom lip as you whined. âSâall your good for.â He didnât mean it, you know he didnât, but boy did it turn you on.
You placed him back into your mouth, this time feeling a lot more enthusiastic, moving at a quicker pace. âMuch better, eh? Donât have to listen to you speak now.â
Thomas Shelby:
⟠not nice at all, never nice.
⟠Will force his cock down your throat, and wonât feel bad about it.
⟠Like Arthur, he is obsessed with hearing you gag around his size, doesnât think itâs good unless he hears you.
⟠Would sit at his desk doing work while you suck him off, or if heâs having a meeting with someone over the phone.
⟠The only time he wonât forced your head down is if youâre sucking him off under the table with one of his business partners sat opposite him.
⟠Likes to watch you squirm so he will speak of you in front of his family or just other people in general with absolutely no shame.
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You moved slowly, bobbing your head at a rate where you wouldnât be choking around his size. Tommy was having a meeting with some man about business, but even that couldnât stop him from denying his needs.
He ordered you to his office and demanded you sat under his desk while he conducted business with the stranger.
You lifted your head up, prepared to give yourself a breather while you stroked him up, but all of a sudden, Tommy had shoved your head down, clearing his throat and making some noise in order to cover the sound of you gagging. âYou can have 5% and Iâll give you a bottle of my whiskey.â
You could hardly hear the response of the man over the sound of your own gargling, but you knew he wouldnât be happy with deal. Tommy let your head move, but ensured that your lips stayed wrapped around his cock. You paused your movement, using this time to breath through your nose whilst your hand fondled with his balls.
Suddenly you were let up for air, breathing heavily, when Tommy slid out from his desk. âCome on, out you get.â He moved out of your way. âWhen I come back, I want you bent over this desk.â
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Hi! Iâm having a very hard time with anxiety at the moment I was wondering if you could do a peaky blinders characters (men) dealing with an anxious reader?
Hello lovely, I'm sorry to hear you're having a rough time at the moment and I hope these HCs can bring you a little comfort!! Anxiety is a rotter and when it gets bad it can feel v overwhelming I know that myself, so sending you lots of love and hugs and vibes <3
Slight nsfw in some places.
Tommy
đż When you first met eachother you both tried to hide your dark sides from one another. Tommy trying to hide his criminal activity, his brutal kill or be killed philosophy and his nihilistic world view which allows him to be so callous and cruel when he needs to be.
đż You were just trying to be the kind of woman that wouldn't irritate him. For as long as you could remember you'd been an anxious person, timid, easily scared, always caught up in your own spiralling thoughts, as skittish as a foal. You didn't want to get in Tommy's way, didn't want him to think you silly or hysterical...
đż So you tried so hard to pretend to be just like the other women in his life, women like Polly, Ada and Lizzy who you were sure feared nothing and nobody. Bold women who spoke their mind without fearing the consequences.
đżAnd Tommy would try his best to play the gentle, gentleman. He'd do his best never to raise his voice around you, to always speak a little softer. Always being careful not to worry you, not to let you see his concern.
đż Though neither of you realised it for a little while, you were both hiding your true selves from one another because you could see right through one another's little acts.
đż Tommy could see the fear in your eyes every time you entered a room, he could see how you did the same as him - checked for every exit, every potential threat, every place to hide. Except he could tell you were seeing threats he wasn't. He knew you weren't like Ada or Lizzie or Polly from the moment he first laid eyes upon you and talking to you, getting close to you, seeing the way you struggled to force yourself to look him in the eye only to tear your gaze away seconds later, well that only confirmed his suspicions.
đż And you knew all about Thomas Shelby, infamous ganster, the war hero who threw his medals into the cut, a man quite opposite to you, never fearful, always feared. So his gentleness towards you confused you, made your head spin, left you so bewildered and perhaps slightly paranoid that you were falling victim to one of his tricks, that despite your best efforts you couldn't live up to the ferocity and strong willed reputation of those other women at Shelby Company Limited.
đż So despite his best efforts to be kind and careful Tommy Shelby still scares you and you find your anxiety so hard to control around him...
đż And though anxious women aren't usually his type he's so drawn to you, his need to rescue you is too strong to ignore. You remind him of a baby bird, a little twitchy and nervous, delicate and precious. All he wants is to pick you up off the ground and treasure you. Make you feel safe all the time.
đż He knows exactly how dangerous the world can be for women like you so he can't ignore his protective urge, can't ignore his desire to have you and take care of you...
đż Much to your torment then he refuses to let you alone, you can feel his eyes on you whenever you're in the room with him, he never strays far from you and you feel self-conscious worrying what he must think of you being so timid so often.
đż But all Tommy can think about when he sees you shying away from others is how he can protect you, how he can get you to feel safe around him... he wants to be the person you feel safe around, the one you look to in a busy room to keep you grounded and calm...
đż Deep down Tommy probably knows he should stay away from you, keep you away from his world where you will be in danger all the time, but in true Tommy fashion he thinks he's the only person on the planet that knows how you feel, the only person who could possibly take care of you and be everything you need.
đż Very quickly learns the things which seem to set you off, the daily household tasks which you struggle with most and has them taken care of for you... He doesn't say anything to you about this, just quietly deals with all the things he knows cause you dread... It won't necessarily help you get better but he doesn't care so much about forcing you to get better, not if he can keep you happy by taking the stresses away.
đż He uses words of reassurance when he can tell you're anxious, he will go over plans meticulously with you if he thinks it will help. However he can tell when that won't help, when you simply need to be told not to worry about a thing. "Don't you think about that now sweetheart, you let me do the thinking on this one eh, when have I ever let you down before eh? Everything's under control, there isn't one single thing you could think of I haven't already thought of so just you shut your eyes, take a nice deep breath, and relax eh? For me?"
đż Tommy's very good at talking you down from your anxiety, he'll pull you in close to him, his arms gentle around your waist, his lips right beside your ear as he murmurs reassurance and love to you.
đż He will always speak so gently and so carefully to you, holding your hands or your cheeks in his hands, lightly stroking his thumb over your skin to sooth you. He will play with your hair and tuck it behind your ear, stroking your cheek. All these soft affectionate little touches to keep your attention on him and the present moment.
đż "Look at me angel, you look at me when I'm talking to you so I know you're listening to me right?" you're so often too timid to look him in the eye when he speaks to you that he always makes sure to get close to you, tilts your chin up so you're looking up at him, and when you try to drag your gaze away he chuckles softly, "cmon y/n I know you're not afraid of me..."
đż He always feels guilty when he has to host busy parties because he knows they'll have your nerves in pieces so he always makes sure to come and rescue you, sneak you off for a breather... he'll cut into the conversation you're having, "My apologies, may I borrow y/n for a moment..." with no intention of bringing you back. It always makes you jump because he always seems to sneak in out of nowhere but when you turn around and see him your heart sings!
đż He will take you down to the stables, or off into the gardens. The stables is your favourite however, and his too. He thinks its amusing, to sneak down their in your finery, the two of you dressed to the nines stepping through the hay. He'll place you down on a hay bale and admire the view, how pretty you look with your dress and your jewellery, all silky and sweet... and shy. Then he'll sit down beside you and take your hands in his and he'll apologise for putting you through another party. "Y'know I hate these things too, I'd happily burn that bloody ballroom down right now..." he'll be trying to make you giggle, trying to relax you.
đż He'll make you dance with him in the stables, sometimes in silence sometimes humming to you... He'll have you resting against him, your feet balancing on top of his to save your little slippers from getting dirtied. And he'll turn you in slow circles, kissing you every now and then, talking to you quietly about how lovely it will be later when everyone else has "fucked off to their own homes eh..."
đż Deep down he knows he can't protect you from everything however it's what he tells you all the time, and he definitely believes that himself too, he's determined you'll never be anxious again... But obviously thats not how anxiety works and when he can see that your anxiety has been building and building with no outlet for too long he has other methods of alleviating your stress... Tommy knows that sometimes the only way to dispel that sickening physical anxiety you feel is to scream...
đż So when its all becoming too much for you he takes you out riding on his fastest, wildest horse (not so wild of course that he can't control it and keep you safe, simply wild enough that you have the impression of being in a little danger) hell have you sitting in front of him, his arms either side of you caging you in securely, and he'll take you racing across the moors so fast it snatches your breath from you, you'll be screaming, heart racing, adrenaline surging through your body but by the end of it you'll be laughing and rosy cheeked and you'll feel safe in the knowledge that Tommy is there to keep you safe always.
đż He'll help you down from the horse and place you down on the grass somewhere in the middle of nowhere, hold you lying back against his chest whilst the two of you get your breath back. And knowing Tommy he'll try to give you some wise little speech about managing your emotions, about how your mind has a way of working against you sometimes, that he doesn't know why it happens - probably because it thinks its helping you to survive- but that sometimes it does and its alright as long as you can reason with yourself, know when your mind is lying to you.
đż He takes you down to the stables to meet the new foal and teaches you how to talk to her without spooking her, you watch him in awe as he whispered to her gently and coaxes the timid creature to him, and he turns back to you, his knuckles still brushing the foals face, "see, you're not the only one y/n, she like her peace and quiet too..." he teased beckoning you over to meet her, "here we are girl, brought someone to say hello, there there now don't be shy, it's alright girl, it's alright... This is y/n, she's just like you eh... So she's gonna take good care of you, cause she knows exactly how you feel..."
đż Yes, Tommy thinks horses cure everything.
đż If you get bad anxiety at night which stops you from sleeping he doesn't mind you joining him in his study. He hardly sleeps anyway and he knows it comforts you to be in his presence. So he keeps a blanket in his study and a rocking chair with cushions for you to curl up. He'll make you something warm to drink or offer you a nightcap and he'll let you sit up with him whilst he works quietly, the two of you in a comfortable silence until you drift off. He always makes sure to carry you to bed when you do eventually fall asleep and often your drifting off is what reminds him he needs sleep too. So you always wake up snuggled up beside him in the morning.
đż He'll read to you when you're worn out, or on the days when your anxiety has paralysed you and you can't muster the energy or the stillness of mind to leave your bed. He'll pull the covers back and rest your head in lap, get you wrapped up in the duvet and then sit reading to you, one hand in your hair fingers tangling with your locks as he strokes your hair.
đż "it's funny ain't it y/n, when people talk about Thomas Shelby they don't tend to talk about a gentle man...but this is what you've made of me ain't it... This is what you've done to me..."
đż Tommy will talk you up in a very measured but determined way, when you're anxious about yourself he will remind you of all your strengths and he'll reassure you that your perceived weaknesses are not weaknesses at all. "Everybody has weaknesses sweetheart, it's all about knowing how to light them up just right..." He's always reassuring you that the things you perceive as weaknesses, such as your anxious nature, are strengths when looked at from a certain angle.
đż And he'll never let you put yourself down, whenever you do start letting your demons get the better of you, he'll let you get it all off your chest but he'll never entertain your concerns, he'll be short and sweet about it, "It's funny you know hearing you say all of that with all of that conviction love, cause none of it's true is it?"
đż He never fails to let you know how proud of you he is. He's very fatherly in the way he guides you through challenges, always there to give you that little nod of encouragement, the hand on your pack to push you a pace forward when you hesitate. The warm smile, the quiet "atta girl" when you impress not only him but yourself too.
Alfie
đ» You were Camden born and raised and your family were close with Mr Solomons. He'd known you since you were young and he'd watched a once somewhat precocious child grow to be timid, withdrawn and terribly reserved.
đ» When you come to work for him as a secretary (a favour to your father who fears sending his timid daughter to work for strangers) Alfie is somewhat relieved to know he'll be able to keep an eye on you. Because he's always been fond of you... Your anxious nature has always brought out his tender side and despite everything, Alfie likes having someone to be soft with...
đ» And he is so soft with you... It's almost embarrassing the way he treats you in comparison to everyone else and you're certain there's some resentment among the bakers because Alfie never raises his voice at you, never speaks sharply or cruelly to you. You get away with every mistake you make - and that's many because your anxiety has you so deeply in your own thoughts that often your fear of fucking up is what makes you fuck up.
đ» But Alfie never seems to lose patience with you, he's always there to pick you up, guide you gently, fix your mistakes. "Never mind ziskeit, ain't no point crying over spilt milk... Although this here bread is a little more expensive than milk ain't it... Never you mind though yeah cause thats my problem ain't it, ain't your problem... You come with me yeah, into my office for minute, I'll get you a glass of somethin nice for those nerves of yours and we'll see you're feeling right as rain in no time at all my darlin..." he says putting his arm around your shoulder and guiding you away out of sight from any onlookers.
đ» he can't help the affectionate way he feels towards you when he can feel you shaking like a little bird and the way he chuckles and says, "look at you, shakin like a little leaf caught in a very bad storm" makes you blush something chronic.
đ» "Ain't no good at all that is it, nah ziskeit that won't do at all... We'll have to sort this out right away won't we, ain't no time to lose if you ask me..." he'd be tutting and studying your features, pinching your cheek until you smile, looking up at him shyly from under your lashes.
đ» you've never been scared of Alfie Solomons, you've always known he was a friend to you, but that's not to say he didn't once intimidate you... When you first started working for him you used to jump out of your skin every time he spoke to you, and when he shouted at the bakers or when you could hear him ripping into someone in his office when a meeting had gone south well, he terrified you...Once... Not anymore...
đ» Because whenever he saw you flinch at his raised voice he would apologise to you quietly, whenever he realised you'd probably overheard the goings on in his office, he'd have you brought to him and he'd spin you some yarn about the bad men he'd sent running for the hills. And he'd always take your cheek in his hand and stroke his thumb over your lips so gently when he spoke to you, told you that there was nothing for you to be worried about, that you'd find yourself held hypnotised by him. It would be impossible not to believe him and so you learned to look to him as your protector pretty quickly. He wouldn't have had it any other way.
đ» He thinks you're like a baby bird and he tells you all the time, especially when he wants to tease you or see you blush. When he really wants to tease you he'll remind you what a precious young lady you used to be, he'll bring up all the times you gave the younger him a piece of your mind... "And some mind it is ziskeit, fuckin only God knows how scared of you I am..." he's only joking with you but the way he shudders makes you believe him. The wistful look he gets when he talks about the girl you used to be isn't lost on you though and you know he often wonders what happened to see you shrink into yourself the way that you have...
đ» You're always anxious about getting in the way or frustrating him and so you almost always start your sentences with "sorry" and if you don't start your sentence with sorry it's because your sentence ends with "sorry" sometimes you start and finish a sentence with the word sorry... It drives Alfie up the wall and he makes a rule about "all this saying sorry unnecessarily when there ain't nothin to be sorry for..."
đ» Whenever you apologise to him he gives you a little warning look, light-hearted enough but enough of a look that it stops you in your tracks. "Now now ziskeit, just what was it we agreed about that word?" "Uh.. if, if I say it I have to explain it?" "Right yeah, yeah that does sound familiar don't it... Yeah I'd say that is what we agreed... So... y/n ain't you gonna tell me then what you are saying sorry for today?" "Uh..." you always trail off because you never really know, saying sorry is just an anxious tick, one of those words which just slips out because you never really feel like you're doing the right thing...
đ» "Right... Yeah, now thats exactly what I thought you might do y/n... That little trail off you just did there yeah, that's because you don't really know what you're saying sorry for right... And you know the reason you don't really know what you're saying sorry for yeah, is that there ain't no reason for you to be sorry at all..."
đ» Naturally you open your mouth to say sorry, freezing with your lips parted halfway through the word when you realise what you're about to say... Alfie doesn't need to say anything, he'll just use his thumb to close your lips and give you a gentle pat on the cheek... "There..." he'll say softly, "that's better right, no more saying sorry... You ain't gotta be sorry to me for nothin ziskeit..."
đ» Theatrical reassurance at the very least, this man will give you speech after speech after speech about how you should never be worried he's not going to want to see you, or talk to you, or be too busy for you, or be angry with you or anything... "Because you see ziskeit, and this is the thing right, this should have been inscribed by the finger of God on Moses' stones yeah... You are the light of my fuckin life right, and there ain't a single thing on this forsaken earth, not a single thing that could ever taint you in my eyes right... I am yours and you are mine and so that shall forever be..."
đ» He likes to make you repeat that last bit for him everyday, just to make sure it really sinks in.
đ» Alfie only teases you because he wants to try and build your confidence, he wants to coax that cheeky nature he knows you have out of hiding. So he gets a little playful with you sometimes, tricking you into letting your guard down, showing you it's alright to be yourself when you're with him.
đ» Alfie praises you so much, he wants to make sure you know exactly how wonderful, how clever, how important to him you are... And the praise always makes you blush and shy away which is an added bonus for him because he thinks you're very pretty when you blush. He's always telling you how brave you are too, reminding you that you're ten times as brave as he is because you get through so many things that scare you, and you face every day even when every day things make you feel like hiding away for ever.
đ» "As long as you ain't hiding from me my little ziskeit"
đ» When you're feeling horribly anxious and sick Alfie will wrap you up tight in his arms, squeezing you in a big bear hug so that your body is pressed close to his snug and secure and he won't let go even when you try to pull away. He'll hold onto you and stroke your hair, lift you up off your feet. You can bury your face in his shirt or the crook of his neck and close your eyes or cry or just breathe in the smell of him to your heart's content.
đ» He understands that you tire quickly, "I don't know my ziskeit look at you, gone an worn yourself out again... Come over here and rest awhile yeah, come curl up by the fire with your old man..."
đ» He likes to have you curled up in his lap, the two of you sitting in his armchair by the fire in the lowlight of the evening or late at night when you can't sleep. The two of you will be listening to the crackle of the fire with Cyril curled up at your feet.
đ» Alfie always pretends to be grumpy when Cyril, sensing your anxiety, abandons Alfie in favour of you. The sooky lump will plop his head down in your lap and nuzzle you until he gets your attention, draws you out of your negative thoughts to pet him instead... And Alfie will grumble and say things like "oh I might have known you'd abandon me - your devoted and loyal master for her you rotten old sook" but really he'll be glad to see Cyril offering you comfort, glad to see the smile warm your features when you begin defending Cyril, telling him not to listen to that grumpy old man who doesn't know anything.
đ» "Oh is that what you think of me now ziskeit? Two betrayals in one evening, my godforsaken heart is in pieces, torn to shreds, you cruel cruel girl..."
đ» At night he sleeps on his side with you nuzzled in beside him, his arm wrapped around you tight, the weight of his body leant gently against yours relaxing you as you fall asleep.
đ» If ever any of the bakers do step out of line and snap at you, or if ever he hears them complaining that "that fuckin number girls always getting special treatment.." then Alfie likes to make a display of them, humiliating them in front of the rest of the men so that no one else will ever step out of line. "You wanna come up here and say that again?" He asks tapping on a barrel with his cane, making them get up on top to "present your thoughts to the room yeah? Cause not everyone heard you the first time and well, I'm sure it was important wasn't it... So I'm sure you'd like everyone to know exactly what you said just now about our y/n..."
đ» And of course no man's ever stupid enough to get up there and repeat themselves. They only ever get as far as climbing up onto the barrel, hands trembling cause they're sure whatever comes next is going to hurt...
đ» "Right... Yeah... Fuckin silence... Yeah I thought that might happen I did... You see your problem yeah mate, is that in this world right you've gotta pick one of two things right, you can either be fuckin stupid, or a fuckin coward... Now you can't be both right, you can't be both..."
đ» Safe to say that what does follow makes sure they never say a word again.
đ» When you do put yourself down, or he finds you getting yourself all worked up about a mistake you made or worrying that you're not good enough he will coax you over to him, get you as close to him as he can whether that's sitting you in his lap or towering above you, your body trapped between him and the wall, his knuckles beneath your chin..
đ» "Now now my little ziskeit, what exactly have I told you about saying all these nasty, cruel things about yourself yeah? Now I wouldn't let anyone else get away with saying those sorts of 'orrible things about you would I? So how am I supposed to sit back and listen to all that without doing something about it? Will you tell me that ziskeit?"
đ» Alfie can talk the hind legs off a donkey any day but when it comes to saying positive things about his lass he could talk for days, and he doesn't stop, all these meandering sentences laced with your praises, laced with teasing little threats too to warn you off ever saying those cruel things about yourself again... "Next time I catch you saying 'orrible things about yourself my girl I'll have to make sure you remember the rules right?"
Arthur
đ At a glance and certainly judging from his reputation you might assume that Arthur Shelby hasn't got an anxious bone in his body. That he's never experienced anything close to the full body panic which grips you at the slightest sense of uncertainty...
đ Especially because Arthur is well aware of the reputation he has as a blazĂ© trigger happy thug and just how important it is that he keeps that reputation up... Arthur makes a show of being reckless, of brushing off everyone else's concerns with a shrug of his shoulders...
đ No matter what it is you're worrying about, no matter what it is that has your head spinning and foggy so that you can't think straight for all the fuzz, Arthur always says the same thing...
đ "Now don't you worry about a thing my love, nowt bads gonna happen to you my darlin, you're with the peaky blinders, everything's gonna go your way"
đ And sometimes it's enough to see someone else so confident, so self assured, sometimes his high energy levels, his apparent through the roof self esteem is enough to lift you out of your anxious pit... Enough to settle your nerves... Because if there's one person you know is always going to win a fight, always going to protect you... It's your Arthur...
đ But sometimes it's not enough and seeing him shrug off your worries just upsets you, makes you all the more scared... Makes you worry about other things you hadn't been worrying about before... Like what if you're too meak for him what if he's going to get sick of having a lass who's so "cowardly" and "pathetic"....
đ And because you're upset but also worrying about these other things you'll try not to show it. Try to keep it all bottled up, you get quieter, you start avoiding him (which is difficult because Arthur doesn't like to go a day without seeing you!) Trying your best to stay out of his way... Sometimes when you watch him, the way his confidence, his outrageous personality take over a room, the way he snatches up everyone's attention so easily, so proudly, makes you feel a little unworthy of him...
đ You love to see him so buzzed and lit up but it makes you a little sad because you know you can never be the same, you think you could never have that kind of spark, that ballsy charisma... That in comparison to him you're nothing but a timid little mouse that most people wouldn't even notice...
đ But the thing is Arthur knows more than anyone just what you feel like, how torn up and terrified you feel on the inside, because more often than not Arthur feels it too! He's always so so scared of letting everyone down, scared that he's too much, too volatile, too unpredictable, that he's going to put the family at risk by being stupid, by making the wrong move or by letting his fear and PTSD "get the better of him"
đ He's spent years trying to bottle all those emotions up just like Tommy always told him, have a drink and push the feelings down... Grit his teeth through the pain... But he can't. And so he knows just how you feel and he wishes he could find a good way to tell you but he isn't any good with words, so instead he tries his best to help you when he can through his actions.
đ Arthur wishes he could hug and kiss your troubles away, wishes that one lingering forehead kiss could cure your nerves, soothe those shivers... But he knows it can't... still that doesn't stop him from trying. He's a little clumsy sure, sometimes he makes you jump when he puts his arms around you and squeezes you tight sure, but nothing can make you feel better like one of Arthur's "everything will be alright" hugs. His mustache tickling your cheek as he kisses you and tries to reassure you, tries to soften his gruff tone for you talking as quietly as he can in your ear.
đ Arthur hates seeing you cry, hates seeing you look so scared but you so often do and it hurts his soul to see you in pain, he will do anything he can to try and make you feel better and so he is always bringing you little gifts, always trying to tell bad jokes to make you laugh, always trying to offer you reassurance... Although he doesn't like to focus on the things that make you anxious, he'd rather brush them off so that perhaps you won't give the thoughts so much gravity.
đ When you do look up at him with teary eyes though and he realises his assurances aren't working the way that he wants them to he'll take your cheeks in his rough palms and hold your face as carefully as he can, he brushes your tears away with his thumbs and presses a long kiss to your forehead. "Come on now my darlin don't you cry, no tears eh you're with me ain't you, so everythings alright... I know I ain't the friendliest man but you know I'll always look after you eh, you're my girl ain't you, so I'll always look after you..."
đ The first time you have a panic attack in front of him you're terrified he's going to think you're insane, scared that he'll think you're hysterical and slap you the way men often do to hysterical women, but when he sees you shaking, the tears streaming down your cheeks as you drop to the floor he recognises the emotional agony in you as something he's been through himself many times before...
đ And so he knows exactly what you need, how you need someone to be careful and gentle with you, how you need to be held, your head cradled to him as he gets down on the floor with you, slips his legs beneath yours and bundles you carefully into his lap. He keeps you close to him, reassuring you, telling you to breathe with him, telling you it will pass soon enough and that he's with...
đ "Salright my darlin I've got you ain't I, I'm here and I ain't goin nowhere, you're gonna be alright eh, I'm here... Me an you eh, we'll get through this together won't we..."
đ He lets you cling to him like your life depends on him, and in that moment it really feels like it does, like he's the only thing grounding you, like without him this horrible feeling would swallow you whole and trap you in a nightmare forever. But Arthur won't ever let that happen to you.
đ He'd kiss your hair and rock you, hold onto you for as long as you needed, he'd shush your crying but he'd let you get it all out of your system because he knows how awful it feels to be told to swallow it down.
đ And when you were ready he'd ask you what happened, what sent you spiralling and if you wanted to speak he'd listen, concentrating hard so that he can remember every detail, so that he can try and stop it from happening in the future.
đ But if you didn't want to talk about it that would be alright too, he'd make a little joke "shit at talkin anyway are I..." he'd wink, hoping to draw a smile on your tear stained cheeks. He'd be so gentle with you, wiping your tears away and then laughing at the dirt he's accidentally smeared across your cheeks.
đ He is unfortunately the king of unhealthy coping mechanisms and he would absolutely think he was doing a good thing pouring you a whisky for your nerves... He'll pour the both of you a glass and sit down beside you on the floor, he'll clink them together and help steady your hand as you take a tentative sip.
đ When you try to apologise for being dramatic he'll get annoyed, he'll try not to snap at you but it'll certainly come out as a grumble when he tells you not to talk "any of that shite..." It's only because he doesn't want you to put yourself down, only because he hates the people who would let you believe that you were being hysterical or dramatic.
đ And then he'll confess that he knows how you feel, knows what that feels like when you feel like the whole worlds ending, that he wouldn't wish that feeling on his worst enemy... That he's only sorry he couldn't do more to help you through it... That you're to tell him if that ever happens to you again because he never wants you to go through it on your own...
đ You're really quite shocked to know that your Arthur does in fact have his fair share of fears and doubts but him being honest with you helps build the trust between you so that it runs all the deeper and you become accustomed to depending on him, turning to him whenever you feel even the slightest hint of anxiety.
đ He's always there to reassure you that you're perfect the way you are, that you aren't getting in his way, that of course he loves you just the way you are, that you're not letting anyone down... And having someone look up to him the way that you do, does wonders to his own self esteem, knowing he's got someone who depends on him, who trusts him, thinks the world of him, thinks he's the bravest person they know, makes him feel fucking brave and dependable and strong.
đ At parties and late nights down the Garrison he'll order your drinks for you, he'll keep you tucked up under his arm all night and he'll introduce you to more of those unhealthy coping mechanisms (staying up all night, drinking, smoking, dancing.... having rough risky sex in other people's bathrooms whilst dazzlingly drunk)
đ Will not however let you touch the snow because "see that stuff right it's fuckin amazin but it's fuckin horrible stuff an all, devils stuff, tricks you right, makes you feel on top of the fucking world and then it drops you down in bloody hell and abandons you there and I don't ever wanna see you endin up there my darlin..."
đ And if anyone ever says anything about how quiet you are, or how youre always hiding away, how you ain't much of a peaky blinder, Arthur will shoot them that warning look, silencing them in seconds. His eyes growing dark, threatening, looking to the culprit with unforgiving malice in his eyes.
đ So people quickly learn that if they haven't got anything nice to say about you they'd better not say anything at all. And the more time you spend with Arthur the more his wild side rubs off on you... Your anxiety never disappears, but some things do get easier with your Arthur by your side because you know he'll never abandon you or let you fall back into that darkness again.
đ And Arthur finds that his own anxieties are quelled too, that through loving you he learns that he can be soft, gentle, kind, nurturing, all the things he thought he was incapable of... He learns that he isn't the monster he has grown to believe himself to be... That he has a heart just like any other man, that he is loving.
John
đŒ Now John really doesn't have an anxious bone in his body. If he wants something he goes after it never stopping to question whether he's got ideas above his station, never stopping to question whether or not people will still like him if he prioritises his own needs...
đŒ That's the polar opposite of you and you know people must wonder why you're together, what he sees in you... Why he hasn't left you for someone more suitable, someone a little more fierce...
đŒ Because it is obvious, to everyone, how different you two are and even though John lives in his little world of optimism, despite his own lackadaisical nature, even he's noticed the way your shoulders are always tense, the way you hold onto things too tightly. The way you never stop counting the little ones, even when it's just the family at home.
đŒ At first he thought you were just an attentive mammy, but he's seen the fear in your eyes when you miscount because you're tired, or when one of the kids is hiding under the kitchen table and you lose sight of them for a moment. He's seen how quickly you pale and think the worst, how the tears rush to your eyes...
đŒ And he's felt the way you jump sometimes when you're tired and he's crossed the kitchen to your side a little quieter than usual, when you weren't expecting his arm to snake around your waist to pull you away from the dirty dishes and into him.
đŒ The way sometimes your eyes get this distant fear in them and you stop hearing the things people say to you because youve been sucked into another hole of anxious thoughts spiralling out of control in your mind...
đŒ He'd been drawn to you because you seemed so quiet and sweet, because you blushed every time he spoke to you, because you always looked so lost for words whenever he asked you a question or tried to tease you... You'd been unlike any other woman he'd ever been romantically interested in and that had felt like a challenge... A fun little game to play...
đŒ But the more he'd gotten to know you and understand the kind of lass you really were, the more the urge to protect you, sweep you up off your feet and soothe your worries, grew. The more he wanted to be the one you depended on. The one who could get you to relax a little, the one you felt safe around. He just wanted to give you a warm, loving home where you would feel safe...
đŒ He's so cheeky and always teasing you and his jovial nature makes it hard not to trust that everything will be alright, he believes that so firmly himself afterall... Sometimes his laidback nature is too much and you get stressed he doesn't seem to be planning or taking things seriously enough, however when you do snap or cry he can reassure you completely. Hugs, forehead kisses, an easy laugh as he pats your cheek and tells you everything's under control.
đŒ He will always step up to be the life of a conversation or party so that you don't have to, he'll include you in the conversation by slinging his arm around your shoulder and squeezing you into his side, occasionally looking down at you to lock eyes when he makes a teasing comment or a joke made only for you... Has a way of making you involved even when youre shying away from the conversation.
đŒ He's really proud of you, his "beautiful, beautiful flower!" And will shower you with praise all the time, he'll never let you or anyone else forget how important you are and he's always singing your praises, telling everyone what a brilliant mammy you are and how much the kids (and him) adore you, he won't let you or anyone else doubt you for a second!
đŒ He's a very chaotic man, very spirited, and boyish... He often takes a joke to far or gets a little too boisterous, and sometimes when you're feeling easily overwhelmed, senses working overtime, it can all get a little too much and John has to calm down so that he can calm you...
đŒ Sometimes John swears he can see your pulse racing in your throat as your eyes flicker around the room. You're constantly counting the little ones to make sure they're all there... He'll joke with you, come up behind you, hands on your shoulders giving you a little massage all "Relax would you sweetheart, this is a party... You don't need to worry about the kids we're all family here, they're perfectly safe..."
đŒ But when he bows his head to steal a quick kiss from your neck he really does feel how your pulse is racing and your body is shaking and when you turn to him with tears in your eyes he's really taken back.
đŒ "What is it love what's the matter?" Of course the moment he realises how frightened you are he stops his teasing, his brows knitting to a frown, his hand leaving you and reaching into the back of his pants for the gun he keeps tucked away just in case... "Is something wrong?" He asks in that tone which you know is reserved for only the most serious of situations and you feel so ashamed and embarrassed because this isn't a dangerous situation at all, you know it's not...
đŒ So you shake your head quickly and push away from him apologies tumbling out of your mouth quietly but dramatically, much more dramatically than you'd like... "Sorry... S.. sorry John this is just... Too much it's too much..." and just like that you're fleeing, out of the crowded kitchen and into the garden where the rain has sent the mud flowing over the stone path.
đŒ When these sorts of things happen and you run away from him in a panic, John sobers up to the situation pretty quickly, following after you, losing that boisterous streak, softening for you because he knows you need his softer side...
đŒ He'll find you outside in the rain and try to shield you from the weather with his body as best you can, gathering you towards the shade of a tree or the awnings of the roof. Somewhere out the rain, somewhere it can be just the two of you.
đŒ He'll wipe your tears with his sleeves and hold your face in his hands gently guiding your gaze up to meet his, "Why'd you runaway from me flower?" He asks even though he knows the answer now, realises that you had one of those moments where everything just became too much for you, the busy room, the noise of the party, the chatter, bodies having to squeeze by one another and around the furniture... It had all been too much and for a moment you'd lost yourself... And he hadn't noticed your panic until it was too late so he'd not been able to help...
đŒ "I'm sorry sweetheart, I didn't see it..." he'd sigh brushing your tears with his knuckles, pushing your hair from your face and kissing your forehead before giving you a warm gentle hug, completely surrounded your body with his as he holds you close. You close your eyes and take a deep breath, nuzzling into his shirt as he holds you steady and still. You feel better just for having his arms around you outside in the rain.
đŒ The garden is so peaceful, the pitter patter of the rain off the cobbles, and as John holds you close you feel yourself begin to calm down, your shoulders relax and your head stops spinning. You don't feel so sick anymore and you rest your body against his.
đŒ He doesn't like it when you try to say sorry after your "moments" as he calls them, doesn't like to see you looking guilty when he blames himself for you getting overwhelmed. He'll always tell you, "wasn't your fault sweetheart, don't say sorry for things that ain't your fault..." and then he'll make you promise that next time you'll find him before it gets too much so that he can rescue you in time.
đŒ John is very sensual, and whilst he might be a little boisterous and laddish his healing/love language is definitely physical touch... The signs of your anxiety which he notices first are always physical and his first instinct is always to try to soothe these physical signs...
đŒ He'll run you a hot bath for the two of you to share when the kids are all asleep (he'll have made up some silly story to keep them all in bed and quiet too) and he'll have you lie down between his legs, your head resting in the crook of his shoulder.
đŒ He'll run his hands over your shoulders and down your arms, massaging you in all the places you feel tender and sore, all the places he can feel tension...
đŒHe'll bathe you, washing you gently, washing your hair and brushing it for you, wrapping you up in towels afterwards, carrying you to bed, smothering you in kisses, tickling and teasing you, physically relaxing you completely... Hovering above you in bed, scattering kisses along your shoulders up your neck to your lips...
đŒ John definitely knows exactly how to fuck the tension out of you and he's very talented when it comes to replacing that anxious head spinning fuzz with a blissed out kind of cloudiness instead.
đŒ If your adrenaline is all fired up and you've been restless and anxious all day he will have you lie across his lap, or have you sit between his legs so that he can let his fingers tease and then fuck that anxious adrenaline out of you...
đŒ He knows exactly how to take care of you when he's physically tired you out, scooping you up in his arms, letting you sleep with your head on his chest, his fingers stroking soothing patterns on your back until you fall asleep. .
đŒ He's always taking on that patriarchal roll, reminding you that he's your man, that that means it's his job to take care of you and look after you... So you can trust him to do just that...
đŒ "I'm your man eh, so trust me..." He'll say holding your cheeks in his palms, close enough to you that his nose is brushing yours as he looks at you not quite serious and not quite joking either. He'll pat your cheek and flash you a winning smile and when he's feeling particularly cheeky and he can tell he hasn't quite won you over he will bring the kids into it too...
đŒ "Katie love come 'ere for a second sweetheart, come say hello to your mammy..." he'll say scooping her up in his arms so that she's resting on his hip between the two of you. "Katie love, dya trust your daddy?" He'll flash you a cheeky smile when she giggles because you both knew she was going to say "Yeah!" Before he'd even asked the questio. "See flower... Katie trusts daddy, so you can trust him too eh"
đŒ John will absolutely make the most inappropriate dad jokes to try and lighten your mood and even when you feel sick with anxiety you can't help but smirk at some of them. They're terrible.
đŒ Whenever you put yourself down John never seems to take it too seriously, not because he doesn't care that you don't think very much of yourself but instead because he can't imagine a world in which any of the things you say are true... He'll laugh your negative self talk off light-heartedly, shake his head, hold your face in his hands as he gives you a kiss and says "sweetheart if you believe all that you're crazier than I thought..."
Bonnie
đIs such an observant lad that he tuned into your anxious ways within moments of resting eyes upon you. The way you would sit fidgeting, never able to look at anyone around you for fear they'd meet your gaze, the way he often saw you tugging on your sleeves or chewing your cheek, biting at the tip of your thumb or your cardigan hem.
đHe saw how you would shy away from others, how you tended to keep to yourself and that if you ever did cross paths with someone else you only ever seemed to manage the word "sorry" as if you were apologising just for being near them..
đ He recognises the fear in your eyes when people start gossiping about the peaky blinders, notices how whenever you meet his gaze accidentally you try to hide yourself away... You seem so timid to him, so delicate... All he wants is to take your hand and show you you don't have to be so frightened all the time.
đ He's careful, watching you the way he'd watch a foal before trying to approach it, learning your anxieties by watching how you interact with others so that he knows how to go about befriending you without scaring you off.
đWatches over you from afar like the guardian angel you don't even know you have... If he hears someone ask you to go into the forest to collect some herbs, or into the city to buy bread, he will come to your rescue either by insisting he take you himself or simply by sneaking off to complete the errand before you even had the chance to start it.
đ He gifts you something like a rabbits foot or a four leaf clover to give you good luck and protection, tells you you're his lucky charm too. Something small and sweet that wouldn't mean alot to anyone else but makes you feel that little bit braver when you're trying to face the world.
đ Brings you lavender which he makes into an essential oil for you. He knows a lot about different herbs and plants that can be good for relaxing/soothing you. His dad taught him to brew chamomile tea too, whenever he can tell you're having a bad day he'll make this for you without even needing to ask, he'll just bring it to you and force you to stop whatever it is you're trying to do/ fretting over to take a break with him instead.
đ He's seen the way your anxiety makes you irritable, seen you muttering to yourself I'm frustration when your day is going from bad to worse and he can't help but think you're adorable... Still, when he sees you snap his heart breaks for you and nothing can stop him coming to your rescue.
đIt happens one day, you're only trying to fold the clean laundry, taking it down from the line and shaking it out, but the wind is making your task harder than you can handle, blowing your hair in your face, blowing the sheet into you blinding you so that you can't see where you're treading. And when you trip and fall and land clean white sheet down in the dirt you find you've reached the end of your tether and just like that you burst into tears.
đYou're not crying because the sheets dirty, you're crying because finally all that anxiety and tension you've been trying to bottle up for days now has bubbled over, the shock of your fall and the frustration of the wind blowing you about was enough to send the rest of your emotions cascading down on you like a tonne of bricks. So you just sit there in a heap, crying in the dirt...
đUntil Bonnie sits himself down beside you, a cheeky but careful smile on his lips as he reaches for your hand.
đ"What're we doing down here then eh?" He asks, looking at you with gentle teasing eyes, showing you he understands without a word. You just look back at him despairingly, feeling so hopeless and frustrated, your eyes spilling over with tears. You raise the dirty sheet up in explanation and he chuckles. "Well I reckon this'll need washed again won't it, I certainly ain't sleepin on that..." he says taking your fingers and unlocking them from where you'd been clutching at the sheet.
đ"Never you mind that though little dove," he says shuffling up to sit closer to you, his hand rubbing your back soothingly, "you ain't in any sort of state to be washin sheets are ye?" He'll tease you a little about your sorry state but only ever gently, and he'll never let you feel useless or like you're letting him down. He'll always make sure you understand that actually it's the complete opposite.
đ Pulls you up into his lap right there in the grass, holding your face in his hands so that he can look at you and dry your tears. Kisses your nose and then your lips. "S'alright little dove, don't worry about the washin eh, worry about spending the rest of your afternoon with me..." He'll help you with your chores, which probably would have made them take ten times longer, had you been in any state to do them at all.
đ Then when you're finished (or when he's finished, having done most of the work for you) he'll take your hand and lead you away from the camp, somewhere you can be alone for awhile. Somewhere no one can burden you with anything else.
đ He knows that one of the best things for your anxiety is to tire you out, physically rather than emotionally. So he takes you down to the river to go swimming, splashing you and playing with you in the stream until you're laughing and giggling. He'll sneak up behind you and wrap his arms around you, kissing your shoulders and pulling you back to float with him in the water. Holding you with your legs wrapped around his waste as he carries you back to the bank, lying with you in the grass as you dry off, peaceful and quiet...
đHe'll have you to sit so quietly with him listening to the different sounds of the woods. He'll teach you the different bird calls and then get you to tell him in future when you're anxious, he'll ask you what bird it is he can hear and it will force you to be grounded for a moment. Lights up with praise when you get it right.
đ You'll be lying with him in the grass, the sunlight through the trees warming you both as you dry, his hands wandering your body beneath the shirt he's lent you. His touch is so grounding and the way he holds you close to him makes you feel so safe and secure. He'll make up stories for you as you dry off, telling you tales about the forest, some of them silly to make you laugh, others romantic, about secret lovers stealing away between the trees. These stories are usually whispered in your ear between soft little kisses along your neck, sweet little distractions to take you as far from your anxieties as he can.
đ If you ever get the kind of anxiety which freezes you and makes it impossible for you to look after yourself properly Bonnie will excell at playing the patriarchal provider. He can cook and clean pretty well and he loves to look after you and spoil you anyway, so when he can see you're struggling he'll swoop in and save you without you having to ask. He makes you soup and serves it in your favourite mug then sit with you outside whilst you drink it together. He'll do things like wash and brush your hair when you're struggling and the feeling of him combing his fingers through your locks is so soothing for you both.
đ One of Bonnie's love languages is definitely physical touch and this is one of the only ways he knows how to sooth your anxieties. He is always showing you physical affection to let you know that he's there for you..
đForehead kisses, hand holding, drawing circles round your palm, playing with your fingers to distract you. He likes to slip one arm around your waist or shoulders whenever you're standing together, holding your body against his so that you can feel him behind you. It's a protective thing, it doesn't just soothe your anxieties but also his. Makes him feel good to be looking after his girl.
đ When you're feeling anxious you have a habit of sucking your thumb or fingers, a lot of the time you don't notice yourself doing it but Bonnie knows that you don't like to be seen doing it by anyone else. That it embarrasses you because you think it makes you look childish. So as much as he thinks its kind of cute when you're sucking your thumb, if there's other people about he'll hold your hands and play with your fingers so that you don't suck your thumb.
đ Alone at night however, when he can tell you're struggling to calm yourself he will slip his thumb into your mouth for you to suck on him instead.
đWhen you go to sleep at night Bonnie has you sleep with your body on top of his so that your chest is against his and your heartbeat syncs up with his. He likes to be able to wrap his arms around you and hold you down against him, you using his body as your pillow, him able to kiss your hair as you drift asleep. It's the best place for you because it means you can feel him close to you and he knows he's right there if you need him.
đ He gives you soft but firm praise whenever you're alone together and you're anxious about your relationship or showing him affection. For as much as he finds your apparent shyness adorable, he wants you to feel safe enough to ask and tell him whatever you want. And he needs you to know how perfect you are to him, needs you to know that he's there for you always. So he's constantly offering you the reassurance you need and always there to tell you how proud of you he is or how good you've been.
đ "That's my girl, what did I tell you eh? Perfect little dove, that's what you are..." "Tell me what you need sweetheart, c'mon look at me darlin, talk to me... How can I help? There we go see, wasn't so hard was it dove? Good girl...."
Isaiah
đ Isaiah is not wonderful when it comes to recognising anxiety in other people. He just thinks you're a bit timid is all. A bit jumpy. He presumed it's because you know he's a blinder and that that makes your nervous. It takes a long time for him to realise that its anything more than that due to the simple reason that he's doesn't notice it himself and you are far too anxious to tell him about your troubles.
đ He affectionately nicknames you his "little mouse" and is always making teasing little remarks about how cute and mousy you are. It gets under your skin at first because you can't tell if he's taking the piss or if he means it when he says you're adorable... But Isaiah never stops, he's actually spurred on by the blush you get, the way your brow furrows into a little frown because you don't know what to say to him.
đ For all his teasing though he likes to try and keep an eye on you, make sure you're always at least still smiling. He's not shy about showing you he's there for you and you only either, he'll be next to you in every conversation, he'll answer for you when you hesitate or don't say anything at all. If ever you're talking and other people stop listening to you he's always there making eye contact and nodding, picking you up if others let you fall.
đ You spend a really long time hoping that your anxiety will just go away, that one day you'll wake up and you won't have that fuzzy sick feeling in your stomach which has a habit of paralysing you in social situations. But of course that's not how anxiety works and the longer you ignore it the worse it gets.
đ Until Isaiah does begin to notice that something is wrong. Because you're growing quieter, more mousy by the day and sometimes when you're out in public he swears he sees you searching for the quickest means of escape.
đ At first he doesn't know what to do about it, he can tell that you're troubled but he doesn't know how to get you to open up to him or admit that something is wrong. If you were anyone else, any other graft he would probably just leave you to it, wouldn't pry too much, wouldn't really be that interested in hearing your troubles... But you're not anyone else, you're you, and he has a strong patriarchal urge to protect you, take care of you.
đ So he has to be persistent. He tries to tease it out of you, tries to make relentless little jokes to force the issue, doing things which will leave you floundering in the hopes that you'll reach some kind of breaking point and have to explain yourself...
đ But it doesn't get that far because he can't stand the guilt he feels when he sees you start to get stressed out, when he sees your expression waver, your eyes growing watery, your hands beginning to tremble. So one day instead of making a dig at the way your hands are shaking when he's talking to you, he takes your hand in his instead. Holds it between both of his and let's out a little sigh.
đ "What's the matter love?" He honestly feels a little useless for having to ask, feels like really he ought to know without you telling him. After all you're his girl and he shouldn't be so clueless about your feelings. At least not as clueless as he is now. And of course you try to shrug your shoulders and pretend like everything's fine, you don't want to make him feel bad by admitting the truth.
đ But he isn't going to let you kid on and shrug him off so he shakes his head, his frown showing you he's being serious for once. "Don't give me that love, you're my girl ain't you, you tell me the truth..."
đ When you do try to tell him you struggle to get the words out, struggle to say it in a way that you think will make sense to him. But for all that Isaiah is often confident and cocky, he understands more than you realise. He knows how it feels to worry before he walks into a room, understands that edgy feeling of uncertainty.
đ And even if he can't exactly empathise, even if he knows he's never felt the fear you feel about entering social situations, never been frightened the way you are of busy rooms or men who raise their voices... That doesn't stop him from caring that you do feel that way, doesn't stop him wanting to help you...
đ He won't know exactly how he can help but he also won't be afraid to ask you what you need. "Let me help you darlin, tell me what you need..." He'll want you to tell him exactly what he can do to help and then he'll make sure he does every single thing. He surprisingly matter of fact about the whole thing.
đ He's kind of accepted that he doesn't get it therefore rather than question you when your anxiety starts playing up, or when you get anxious about something he thinks is actually pretty trivial, he just accepts that you feel the way you do and comes back with "well how can we make this easier?"
đ Please I know this is rogue but I really think if anyone was going to CBT you it could be Isaiah? I feel like he'd be really good at setting it all out like, he'll be the most "What is it you're worried will happen? Okay well, here is this other scenario which is pretty mundane but much more likely than all that you've just thought up... Cause if life was how you keep worrying it's gonna be, then I'd be pretty fuckin anxious all the time too Mouse..." I just think he'd be like, matter of fact, but light-hearted and jokey enough to actually really be able to help you rationalise and unlearn negative thought patterns... Which I understand sounds crazy because he's such a hothead in the show...
đ To add to that I think a modern day Isaiah would definitely take your anxiety seriously enough that he'd just straight up be like "well how can we get you the help you need?" And have 0 shame about taking you to a therapist or something, he'd be very clean cut about helping you feel better as quickly as possible.
đ I think he'd be an "any excuse to get his hands on you" type and would use "oh you're anxious in this social situation" as a reason to have you sitting on his lap, or have his arm around you. He'd never fail to pull the "oh you're so tense, come here..." Line and massage your shoulders just so he can get close to you.
đ Again, I think he'd definitely use sex as a de-stress technique too, I feel like he'd be very good at soothingly flirting with you until he manages to get you into his lap or into his bed, kissing your neck, gentle caresses over your body until your eyes flutter shut and you start to come out of your head and into the present moment where it's just you and him... He'd find a way to make you come undone and forget all your troubles.
đ It definitely boosts his ego having you always looking to him, dependent on him to look after you in situations which make your anxiety flare up. He loves being the one you come to at the end of a long day, loves the way it's him that makes you smile, your eyes light up, the little sigh of relief when you're finally returned to his arms. He's really proud of the fact that it's him that you turn to when you need help, and that it's him that you turn to for guidance.
đ When everything does get overwhelming and you just need to have a huge cry Isaiah will hold you so close, he'll stroke your hair and cradle your head to his chest, and he'll shush you and soothe you but he won't make you feel stupid for crying. In fact when you try to apologise for it he just makes light of it all, "sweetheart I'd be crying too if I had to deal with it, don't say sorry, reckon you're tougher than me..."
đ He's always the right amount of gentle and the right amount of joking about things... Most of the time. Sometimes he'll get the vibe wrong, not realise quite how wound up you are, make a joke at the wrong time which earns him a snapping at, or which tips you over the edge and makes you cry. He thinks it's funny when you get feisty because you're tense, but when you cry he feels so guilty and immediately drops any kind of joke so that he can give you a hug and try to make you feel better.
đ I feel like he'd be terrible at looking after you when you get "frozen" by your anxiety and you can't do normal household tasks like cooking a meal. Isaiah will certainly try his best to do all the things you usually do, but dinner is going to be a mess, and the kitchen is going to be a mess, but he's still going to do his best to look after you both as best he can.
Michael
âïž If there's one man who really understands emotional turmoil it's Michael, his experiences in childhood mean he's familiar with anxiety/depression and that means he recognises all the symptoms in you pretty quickly.
âïž Only thing is he's not much of a talker... He learnt at a pretty early age to repress all his negative, difficult feelings, to ignore emotional problems and just "be a man" but that's not what he wants for you. So it breaks his heart to recognise you struggling but not know how to talk to you about it or try to help.
âïž So he uses his money and social power to make your life as easy as possible. He'll use his status with the peaky blinders to intimidate others into being nice to you, your boss at work, coworkers, family members, shopkeepers etc... anyone he thinks might not treat you as delicately as he believes you should be treated. If he ever hears of someone raising their voice at you he makes sure they pay.
âïž He'll make excuses to be as much a part of your life as he possibly can be, that way he can assess the different ways he thinks you might be struggling so that he can throw more money at the problems... Paying for extra housekeepers, for food, for new clothes, your rent so that you don't have to work as many hours and you'll have time to rest... He'll probably accidentally overwhelm you and you'll start to grow anxious about why he's treating you so differently.
âïž And of course in the end, money can alleviate some of the stressors which aggravate your anxiety but it can't cure you, and every now and then when Michael is forced to accept that fact, he gets really upset with himself for not being able to do more.
âïž Might sometimes grow frustrated with your anxiety, not because he finds you frustrating but because he's frustrated with himself for not knowing how to help. He really beats himself up about the fact that he isn't doing enough and yet in your eyes he's doing more than he needs to.
âïž Especially because for as much as you appreciate all the money he spends trying to "fix your problems" all you really want, all you really need is someone to talk to, someone who will understand what you're going through and be there to hold your hand or give you a hug when you need it.
âïž You won't exactly argue about it but one day when you find yourself on the verge of tears in conversation with him, your fingers trembling, that horrible sick feeling in your stomach, your head all fuzzy with stress, he's asking you what he can do to help and you get desperate... "Please Michael stop it, stop it... You've already done so much fo me I can't stand it... I just... I just need a hug and... I don't know? Someone to listen to me..." You feel terrible and ungrateful for having burst out with it like that when he was only trying to help, but when he hears you he cringes and realises his mistake.
âïž He'll do a little nervous laugh, pinch the bridge of his nose or rub his face with his hands and sigh. "Fuck," he chuckles, "of course, I've been a perfect fool haven't I?" He'll wrap his arms around you and hold you gently to his chest, lay a lingering kiss in your hair and shut his eyes. For a moment he'll just hold you, cherish you.
âïž He'll stay up late at night talking to you, listening to you when you're worried about something, trying to reassure you with potential solutions to problems, or simply reassuring you that people dont hate you, or that you haven't upset anyone.
âïž I think he probably gets anxious too, worries that he's still not doing enough, that he can't provide for you the way you need someone too. Michael will have to face a lot of his own fears, learn to talk about feelings and share his thoughts and emotions with you so that you can both depend on one another and feel confident depending on one another.
âïž When you get anxious about his love for you he can't help but laugh your concerns off, when you worry that you're too much for him, that he'll get bored of you because you think you're a handful, he always has a witty line to fire back with before he gets deadly serious. Because if there's one thing you're not it's Too Much.
âïž If you voice these doubts late at night when you're lying side by side in the dark Michael will sit up, turn the lamp on and make you sit up so that he can look you in the eyes and tell you how much he loves you. "I don't ever want you to doubt that my love, my heart will always belong to you..."
âïž He'll kiss you and say it again between kisses, holding your hands and guiding you closer to him, only satisfied when he's got your body pressed tightly against his and his lips are free to scatter you in kisses whilst he whispers his love for you whilst you drift to sleep.
âïž Because of your anxiety and the fact that you have a tendency to dwell on your worries and fears Michael will try to keep you as far away from his family and the family business as he possibly can. He'll be pretty successful too, keeping you almost completely naive to his criminal side. As far as you're concerned Michael is the perfect New York gentleman. He's always working behind the scenes pulling his strings to keep you safe, but you don't notice a thing.
âïž His family think you're sweet but terribly shy and Michael doesn't want to give them the opportunity to get to know you any better than that. He'd father they think his wife plain and timid than have you get to know them and realise the darker side of his life. He likes being your gentleman, and his family would be a threat to the peaceful sanctuary he's been trying to build for you at home.
âïž Michael really likes to be in control of things, in fact not being in control is something which makes his own anxiety flare up, and so being in a relationship with Michael means you never have to worry about anything... No tricky decisions, no fretting over organising events or running the household. Michael has tabs on everything and everything runs smoothly and logically.
âïž At times when your anxiety is so bad you feel like you can't function or do anything Michael will help you with every detail of life from helping you pick the perfect dress for the evening, choosing what you eat at the restaurant, speaking for you at social events, deciding how you spend your day, which chores you can do etc... he can and will organise every minute of your day for you so that you can get some semblance of order back in your life when you feel everything slipping...
âïž At the same time however his favourite form of escapism is to literally just up and leave. When your anxiety is particularly bad and truly exhausting you he knows the perfect way to help you is to take you somewhere out of the city, a beach resort, a romantic European city... As long as it's warm and as long as its world's away from New York. He'll take you to a spa, spoil you rotten with gifts, organise the perfect week away for you. Let you live in a romantic dream world for as long as you need to to feel happy and peaceful again.
âïž Deep down he knows that facing your fears will help to ease your anxiety, but he'd be a hypocrite to tell you that when he has so many of his own issues that he leaves unaddressed. And then there's the fact that he knows how much pain and stress you have to go through when facing those fears in order to get over them... He never wants to see you struggle, ever, not even if it's be good for you in the end... He'd rather construct a dream world for you to drift around in safely for the rest of your days.
Aberama
đ Being a fair bit older than you he's got far more life experience and though he was never particularly anxious in his youth he's certainly mellowed out with age. He's a very peaceful, calming presence and that's one of the things you love about him. The fact that just being around him is enough to settle your nerves a little.
đThere's something do gentle about it, but so quietly self-assured that you know you'll always be safe when you're with him. He doesn't have to tell you -but believe me he does- for you to know he'd do anything for you.
đJust as you are drawn to him because his self-confidence and peacefulness soothe your anxieties, he is drawn to you because he can see how much you need someone like him. He's so endeared to you from the moment you first say hello. You're so shy and you look around the room the way rabbits look when they're twitching shivering and fearful.
đ He's so nurturing and he has that world weary wisdom too, any problem you present to him he can either come up with a simple solution or he can shrug his shoulders and say with such certainty that it'll all be fine, or that it isn't worth worrying about, that you have no choice but to believe him and put your faith in him. At times like these he will often ask "do you trust me y/n?" And your answer is of course always yes. There's no one on earth you'd feel safer putting your trust in.
đHonestly he Daddys you to pieces. It's been awhile since he really had someone to take care of and he's missed it so much. Taking care of you let's him feel useful again, makes him feel like for all the bad deeds and sins he's committed in life, he's got the chance to do some good in taking care of someone as precious as you.
đ He's really talented at curating physical comfort and he understands how much a calming, safe environment can contribute to calming anxiety. He builds the perfect sanctuary of a home for the two of you, lots of blankets, low lighting, candles, incense etc.
đ He makes a mean Chamomile tea and teaches you the family recipe... even then, he's always the one who makes it for you and will get you all cosy wrapped up in blankets in the vardo, bring you your chamomile tea and then sit with you in his arms quietly listening to the rain on the roof or the sounds of the forest/ fields/ river outside.
đ You love listening to him tell you stories. His voice is so soft and lilting that no matter what stories he's telling you you always feel so cosy, safe and relaxed by the end. You often drift to sleep whilst he's recounting an old folktale to you and stroking his thumb through your hair.
đ He will do his best to show you that you'll always be safe with him, that he'll never let anyone hurt you, that no matter what the problem is he'll always be there to work it out with you. He gets the balance right between "wanting to wrap you in cotton wool so you never feel anxious" and "wanting to help you learn how to cope/overcome your anxieties" and his way of striking this balance is to do everything with you, he never lets you go through anything alone and when you're having days where you don't feel capable of anything he will acompany you on every errand, help you with every chore - even the most simple things like bathing yourself, cooking/ eating, going to the shops...
đ He will draw a bath for the two of you and you'll wash together, he will wash your hair and wrap you in a towel afterwards, but he'll encourage you to help yourself too. The same when cooking, he'll sit and peel/prep the food with you, sharing each task between you to lighten the load, but keeping you busy so that you get the selfesteem boost from finishing a task.
đ When you need to escape he'll take you on the road just you and him, off into the wilderness where you can be immersed in nature and reconnect to the earth. The city, Birmingham being as grimy and busy as it is, is one thing that rages your anxiety and so Aberama is careful to make sure you get plenty of time away, out in the countryside. He'll take you foraging as a way of unwinding you, its the perfect combination of "slow, peaceful activity" and "task that requires a little concentration" he teaches you to recognise different plants, berries, mushrooms and will be so proud of you when you begin to learn and forage things for yourself.
đ He really believes that napping with your love beneath the shade of a tree on a summers day can solve all your problems and honestly, when he has you held in his arms, soothing you to sleep with some meandering story about the very tree you're sitting beneath, you can believe that he's right.
đ If theres something really really getting to you, a worry you just don't seem to be able to shake, Aberama will take you to a faerie tree to tie your wish to it
đ Lights a fire and wraps you up in a blanket, the two of you warming yourself by it as the night ages. He'll sing you to sleep with dreamy folksongs, the two of you watching the embers smoulder before you finally drift off and he carries you to bed.
đ He is so soft and reassuring whenever he speaks to you, you often get anxious about your relationship, you fear abandonment or that you are too much for anyone to ever really be able to love, and knowing you feel these things hurts Aberama's heart. So he does his best to gently reassure you of his love for you night and day. He makes sure its the first thing he tells you every morning and the last thing he says to you as he kisses you goodnight.
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Peaky blinders headcannon ->
âthe boys finding out the reader is a virginâ
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TommyđȘ
đȘTommy had been courting you for a good few months now; much longer than he would any other woman. But he quite liked you so he was more than willing to make an exception for the lovely young lady that had just moved to the area.
đȘYouâd moved for a fresh start, away from your past and to Birmingham. Youâd packed your bags and left home and got on the train - taking it as far as it would go and got out when the conductor pleaded with you to disembark as theyâd start the journey back to your beginnings.
đȘYouâd accepted the job at The Garrison, noting the sign in the window as you aimlessly wandered the streets, mindlessly questioning your intentions. The sign in the window was almost a call from God and you hurried inside, being greeted by the bar man and a few raised eyebrows at the young girl with her life in a suitcase and hair all tangled. âYâalright love? Look like you need a drink.â You shook your head. âA job is what I need. Still hiring?â You asked and he looked you over once. âWhen can you start?â
đȘSo eleven months deep with a flat and a job you were quite happy in Birmingham. Your specialty straying away from being a barmaid and more towards being a hostess and front of house staff. Youâd seat people and prepare the hotel lodgings upstairs, and arrange rooms and port for pesky business when it came down to it. And in the process youâd captured the attention of a certain blinder who believed he had no business interfering with the life of a young maiden just getting back on her feet, but you entertained him so who was he to be so austere and deny himself such pleasures?
đȘYou were shutting shop on a Saturday night, footfall substantial and youâd finally managed to kick all drunkards out of the pub after much struggle and a bit of help from John Shelby, whoâd tipped his hat and went on his merry way. Youâd grabbed your coat of the hanger, hearing the door bell chime behind you âweâre closedâ you announced, pivoting on your heel âI know.â That all familiar voice sounded and you peeked your head. âAlright, Tommy?â You ask, getting your bag and fastening your coat; preparing for a cold winter night in Birmingham.
đȘHe stepped closer and you, in turn, stepped backwards until you were trapped against the bar. âThis has gone on for long enough,â he says gruffly, staring deep into your eyes and studying your face. Youâd raised your brows âwhat has, Tom?â He shook his head and chuckled slightly. âYou and I; âm so sick of seeing you and not being able to have you for myself.â He tells you, right arm wrapping around your waist and head dipping slightly.
đȘYour hand came up to hold him where he was and he stopped, in question. âNot like this Tommy.â You say, looking away but he grasps your chin gently to pull you back to face him. âNot like this?â He hums âThomas, Iâve never..â you lead off hoping heâd understand what you were implying. He thought for a moment before it clicked. âNever?â You shook your head ânever.â His Adams Apple bobbed as he swallowed a lump in his throat ânever.â He mumbled. âAnd how should I go about this the right way?â He asked, settling his hands on your hips and smiling slightly.
đȘâDinner and a nice walk.â You say and he nods with a hum. âHowâs tomorrow?â You shake your head ânot leaving Harry to deal with your lot on a Sunday.â âWhen you next off?â He asks âFriday.â âThen weâll go out on Friday.â You nod and smile, but point a judging finger at him. âNo gunsâ he smiles âyes sweetheart, no guns.â âAnd no peaky businessâ he shakes his head âno business.â âNo fighting either, at allâ you warn and he chuckles âI promiseâ you lean your hand up to caress his face and he leans into your touch. âTake that bloody razor blade out of your cap too.â He raises a brow âhow do you know about that?â âYou underestimate the amount of times Iâve carried Arthur out of this bar and nearly sliced my hand on that thing.â
đȘâI want to see Thomas. No Shelby.â You say and he blinks. âThen Thomas you shall have.â âMay I walk you home?â He asks and you smile up at him âyou mayâ and he offers an arm to walk you to your house, looking forward to taking the last of your innocence the following Friday.
Alfieđ§ž
đ§žAlfie recently started attending his local synagogue, at first yes: to reconnect with his faith, but now it was to see the young woman who attended every day, volunteering as your father was the rabbi. Albeit that sounding wrong, Alfie thought the rabbi was bordering on ancient and you were younger than him, but you were nearly twenty six so that wasnât too bad.. right?
đ§žâAh Mr Solomons, back again I seeâ the rabbi commented, noted the recent inclination of Alfieâs presence at the house of God. âWell, been trying to reconnect.â He told his superior. âWith God or with my daughter?â The rabbi asked and Alfieâs brows rose. âE-excuse me?â He choked on his words. The rabbi smirked with a slight twinkle in his eye âIâm not stupidâ âno, of course youâre not-â âIâve seen how youâve been eyeing her.â Alfie quietened for a moment. âWell, yâsee sheâs a lovely young ladyâ âI agree, thatâs how I raised her.â âAnd Iâd like to ask her for dinner, with your blessing, fâcourse.â Alfie began to ramble but his elder cut him off.
đ§žâNot with the business youâre in, Alfred.â And his mouth ran dry. âFor her Iâd get out of it, move to Morecambe, open a bakery, marry, have kids, yâknow Iâd raise them proper.â Rabbi Kaplan again hummed âbut that sort of business isnât the kind you can get out of, is it?â âYou did, Abe.â Alfie corrects him and thereâs a moment of contemplative silence. âYouâre right I did. But no one hurts a rabbi.â âThen Iâll get ordained.â Alfie shrugged. Abraham looked at the man before him. âGods punished me enough. He knows how much physical pain Iâm in. And âm not gettinâ any younger. Neitherâs she. ând I never wanna be in this business anymore. Wanna settle down, dogs, kids, grandkids, the works.â Alfie says and Abeâs tongue protrudes from his lips to lick his dry lips as he thinks.
đ§žâIf I allow this, heâs watching.â The man looks up âI know.â âAnd if I allow this, she calls all the shots.â Alfie nods âwouldnât have it any other wayâ âas in she says no, means no. She wants to go for a walk at two in the morning, you take her. She wants to come here, you bring her. She wants to get married, you wed her.â The man took two steps closer so him and Alfie were closer than any Rabbit should be with his child âshe tells you to jump of the docks, you jump.â Alfieâs eyes donât falter. âDone.â Abraham closes his eyes and runs a hand over his face âalright, you have my blessing.â Alfie nods, trying to suppress his glee, shaking the rabbiâs hand and walking towards the front of the synagogue where you were sat counting donations.
đ§žâExcuse me missusâ Alfie clears his throat and you look up at him, swallowing with a lump in his throat âyes?â âI was wondering if youâd like to go for an eat to bite, I mean a bite to eat, I mean-â you giggle at him âyes Alfie Iâd love to go out with you.â Alfie sighed in relief and smiled down at you noting how the rabbi had wandered off elsewhere. You sealed and locked the cash box, storing it where I belonged and Alfie held his arm out for you to take âshall we?â You grin back at him âwe shallâ
đ§žYouâd been seeing Alfie for going on several months, and today heâd arranged for a restaurant to be shut down in order for the two of you to enjoy some peace and quiet together. Youâd enjoyed a lovely romantic meal, accompanied by a bouquet of white tulips and a sneaky kiss to Alfieâs cheek, which he was grateful that they were covered by a large beard - disguising his beat-red features.
đ§žAlfie was walking you back to his house, as youâd both previously agreed that youâd stay for the night and head towards Morecambe Bay the following day: to pick out a cottage on the seafront.
đ§žYou had some clothes at Alfieâs house, for events such as this where youâd decided to stay or go elsewhere the following day without needing to drop back home for anything. You were uncoiling your hair, and your gentle giant came around to hug you from behind, kissing up your neck until you giggled from being tickled, turning to kiss his lips.
đ§žYour eyes surveyed one anotherâs for a moment, him leaning back down to kiss you in a more seriously insinuating manner - sciatica obviously not bothering him today as he managed to pick you up and lead you to his bed. âAlfie wait,â you say quickly and the man immediately stopped âwhatâs wrong treacle? If yâdonât want to weâll stop here ând-â âno itâs not thatâ your left hand fiddled with the rings on your right âwhatâs wrong flower?â He caressed your cheek gently. âAlfie Iâve never done anything before.â You say and his brows form a line in confusion. âYâwhat?â âAlfie Iâm a virgin.â You say and time almost stands still, Alfie nearly felt sick as heâd been handling you like a woman of the night and not a dignified young lady of whom was vastly inexperienced. ââM sorry alf.â You say, looking down. Alfie grasps your chin and forces your eyes to connect with his âitâs me who should be apologising, sweetness. Your old man didnât know. âV been handling yâ like ây know what youâre doinâ.â He says gently. âAnd if yâ donât want to, we donât have to.â âNo Alfie I want to.â And you could swear you could see the hearts forming in his irises, lenses constricting into something unnatural but simultaneously not animalistic. âIâll take good care âf yâ love, just lay down for Alfie and let âim work his magic, yeah?â He says, laying you back gently on the bed, vowing to handle you like a porcelain doll in a box of feathers.
Arthurđș
đșYou were several years younger than Arthur, he never felt like you were - he was as immature as any lad two decades his senior, but with you he never felt his age.
đșThe peaky blinders had been invited to a lavish banquet, black tie, chandeliers, live orchestra, the works. And Arthur never shied away from an opportunity to show his lover off, especially when that dress hugged you perfectly and your matching black gloves made you look so dainty and proper. He was proud to waltz into that event, feeling almost smug with âsuch a babeâ on his arm.
đșThe evening began wonderfully, three courses, all of which Arthur found laughable as he questioned the waiter why his entree was only a piece of rocket and slice of undercooked stake. Drinks were flowing and he was happy to get tipsy while to congregated with Polly and Ada, smitten to see you engaging so well with his family and them requiting his adoration for her.
đșYouâd stood at the bar, trying to gain the attention of the bartender to order yourself another rum and coke and your date an umpteenth pint. âHiya can I just have a rum and coke and an apple juice?â You ask the man and he raises an eyebrow. âHeâs so drunk I donât think heâll tell the difference.â He laughs and nods, heading off to get the top of shelf rum Arthur had requested heâd serve you earlier.
đșâGorgeous night, isnât it?â A voice asked from beside you and you peer left, a young gentlemen with slicked back black hair asked as he knocked back the rest of the whiskey heâd been nursing for a while, requesting another as well as your drinks being on him. âYes lovely.â You say shortly. âWell I was just thinking-â he begins smugly, before hissing and you look back at him quickly to see whatever is the matter. His finger was drawing blood as the new glass heâd been given was chipped on the end, in turn slicing the edge of his finger. âOh dear, here let me helpâ you grabbed one of the inscribed handkerchiefs from the pile and applied pressure on his finger, only noticing your proximity when he chuckled. âWhat a first acquaintanceâ you laugh and agree. âYouâre good at thisâ he hums ânurse in the war.â You say, not really wanting to reflect on the past.
đșâMay I buy you another drink for your troubles? Or possibly dinner?â He inquires with an up quirked lip. âNo thank-â âI think sheâs quite happy with the fella sheâs got, son.â An angered voice quipped from behind you through gritted teeth, an arm snaking around your waist as the boyâs face ran pale. âMr Shelby, sorry she didnât say-â âshe shouldnât have too. Now fuck off before I kick the living daylights out of ya.â Arthur threatens and the previously smug man makes himself scarce.
đșâArthur,â âcâmon. Weâre leaving.â He says, dragging you through the crowds of people and hailing a taxi, still gentlemanly opening the door for you but clambering in beside you, the smoke billowing from his ears fogging the windows. âFucking little boy thinking he can talk to my fuckinâ woman, fuckinâ bastardâ he reiteratively mumbled under his breath until he reached his house, roughly taking you from the car and throwing a wad of cash at the driver.
đșAs soon as you entered the house you were trapped against the closed door, his lips attacking yours unexpectedly as you struggled to keep up with his might. âIâll show him who you fuckinâ belong toâ âArthurâ âlittle boy makes up nothinââ âArthurâ âscream my name so the little bastard will fuckinâ hear meâ âArthur Iâm a virginâ the man stopped immediately, expression stopping form angered to a more gentle one. âYâwhat love?â He asks quietly, tight grip on your trapped wrists loosening âIâve never had sex before Arth, sorry for not telling you.â You could see him visibly sobering up. âOh my darlinâ mâsorry I didnât know.â
đșThis was the only time youâd made Arthur feel his age, his lover a virgin. âIâll take good care of you sweetheart, if yâlet me.â âShow yâ what youâve missed out onâ he chuckles and you laugh, allowing him to pick you up to carry you up the stairs and into the bedroom.
Johnđ„
đ„Waking up this morning and getting married to a stranger wasnât on your bingo card. But here you are. Kneeled at the alter beside a smirking young lad who was in a similar situation. âBy the power invested in me, I now declare you husband and wife. You may kiss the bride.â The stranger smiled and you and kissed your lips sweetly.
đ„The reception was just as hazy. Drinks were flowing and laughter was heard. Your father and Thomas Shelby seemed at peace for once and all was right with the world. When slow dancing, John had held you close and embraced you like you were young lovers wed, not total strangers at the chapel. He whispered sweet nothings into your ear and smiled as you giggled back at his remarks, fighting with icing on the cake and having an overly fun time with one anotherâs families after the initial shock from the morning. After all, he was incredibly charming and you couldnât get out of a gypsy marriage that easily. Not in post-war Britain.
đ„You headed back to the Shelby Manor in a car strung with cans, attached by young children earlier in the day. You looked out the window to the vast house, feeling a hand tugging gently on your hair, the owner tucking it behind your ear as you looked at home. âGlad weâre married cause I could never pull you if I tried, gorgeous.â He comments and you laugh. âYouâre joking. One drink and Iâd be a gonner.â âAt least we got to skip the funny businessâ he took your chin between your forefinger and chin âcause your all mine now, darlingâ
đ„Heâd hurried you to your room quicker than anticipated, giggling like school children up to no good. Heâd kissed you tenderly once inside, behind closed doors and away from the interference of all other prying eyes.
đ„He spun you gently, hands dropping to focus on the details of the backing of your dress; unthreading and untying the intricate lacings applied to keep the gown tight to your person. The dress fell and pooled at your ankles, him attacking the now bare skin with open-mouthed kisses and gentle pecks to the untouched skin.
đ„Coming to your front, he cornered you backwards in small steps until your legs hit the bed and you fell backwards onto it - him on top of you, kissing down your bodice animalisticly. âJohn?â He stopped and looked up with a hypnotic gaze in his eye âyes love?â âIâve never had sex before.â You say shakily and he stops all movement. He falters for a moment, before climbing slightly higher in order to be face to face with you ânever? Youâre a virgin?â You nod back and he swallows the heavy lump in his throat as his briefs tighten.
đ„âWell then what an opportunity to consummate the marriage, aye darling?â He smirks âif youâll let me that isâ you smile and offer a kiss to his lips, him getting the green flag and go ahead to give you the absolute night of your life.
Bonnieđ„
đ„Bonnie was an old fashioned lad. From a young age he drempt of the stereotypical traveller lifestyle - never a singular home, him the homemaker, wife on his arm and umpteen kids running wild. It sounded like heaven. And from the moment heâd set eyes on you Bonnie had decided that that was your role - destined to be by his side. You werenât a gypsy yourself, but he was certain he could sway you but either way he was happy to compromise as long as he had you.
đ„Tonight was one of, if not the, biggest night of his life thus far. The largest and most important fight heâd ever partake in, not only against the reigning champion which would secure his fate of being the new ruler, but also performing in front of the Peaky Blinders - prove himself to the trust Tommy Shelby had bestowed upon him. And most significantly, you were watching.
đ„He was stood in his changing room, allowing you to gently wrap his hands while his father gave him a pep talk. âFive minutes son.â His dad said, patting his back and nodding at you as he left to give you a minute alone before his spotlight moment. You finished wrapping the cloth around his palms and took his face into your hands, forcing him to look at you. âHow we feeling champ?â You ask, trying to wake him up from his dystopian trance. ââm scared mâlove.â He mumbled as you frowned slightly. âWhyâre you scared? Talk to me Bon, get it all out. You scared about the Shelby family? Iâll kick âem out-" âscared âm gonna disappoint you.â He says and you falter.
đ„âBon you could never disappoint me, why would you think that?â He sighed, looking away before beginning to admit his desires. âJust wanna make you proud. I want to marry you and give you my children and travel as a family. But if I lose you wonât want to do that.â He grumbles. You chuckle slightly. âYouâre such a dafty, Bon.â You say and his eyebrows crease. You lean into kiss him as he happily requites the gesture. âBonnie of course I want to be with you either way. I donât care if you loose, hell I donât care if you donât want to fight and walk out, Iâll walk right out with you.â You say.
đ„âI never knew you felt like that but Iâd love to marry you Bon and have your children and Iâd be willing to travel with you. I just need you to stop fretting and go win this. I love ya Bonnie.â You say, leaning your forehead against his. âYou mean it?â He asks, giddily. You nod âI doâ
đ„âGod if I win this weâre gonna get started on those kids.â He says, getting riled up as the minutes tick down. You laugh at him âanything you want, Bonnie. Always wanted my first time to be with you.â You say and time stops. His father knocks on the door to hail his son out to the ring.
đ„âBONNIE!â âYouâre a virgin?â âYesâ âBONNIE COME ON!â âAnd you want me to take your virginity?â âYes Bonnie I trust you. Now go.â He hurries out of the door reluctantly, all riled up and heading for the ring.
đ„The knockout was inevitable, his opponent out cold in a matter of rounds, blood flowing freely from Bonnieâs nose as he celebrated by raising his hands victoriously above his head, father and Blinders crowding him to pat him on the back and exchange congratulations. But none of that mattered. It was just faint ringing in the background. All he could see was you stood a fair way back from the celebrating men climbing over the limb body on the ground no one had seemed to care too. He looked upon your innocent doe eyes and soft smile staring back at him as he blew you a kiss; and never has he been so desperate to get away from his own party.
đ„And after a good few hours and countless attempts to get you all to himself, you were back in Bonnieâs humble beginning: laid on your back as your boy thrust into you gently, trying not to hurt you while simultaneously trying to adhere to his desperation for you. âFaster Bon, please.â âWanna give me a child? Is that it?â He asks and you nod meekly, as he quickens his pace desperate to bed his maiden in his own place called home.
Isaiahâïž
âïžIsaiah had been trying to get to you for many many years. Countless attempts proving fruitless from not only your rejections, but also your elder brotherâs: Finnâs. Any time Isaiah had any suggestion on courting you he was shot down by his friend, whoâd smack the back of his head and scold him for thinking such things. âIâll cut your dick off and shove it in your ear if you keep thinking about my sister with itâ heâd tell him.
âïžBut tonight, oh tonight. Darling you looked ravishing. The Blinders were celebrating a grand festivity at Shelby Manor, someone was getting married.. or someone was dead, Isiah neednât have cared less. Because when you cascaded the stairs, Mary Janeâs on foot and tight black dress clung to your bodice, Isaiah had to physically refrain himself from grabbing you from the get go.
âïžSure, heâd mingled with others and drank freely with the brothers; but not once did he stray his eyes away from your figure, never letting you out of his sight. Not when you looked so delicious and drinkable, mouth running so dry heâd have to reiteratively lubricate it with whiskey. A bit of the good oleâ âDutch-Courageâ, aye?
âïžFinally noticing an opportunity when you brother wasnât lingering over your shoulder, scolding you for wearing such a gown, Isaiah made his move. He slivered to the bar beside you, where Harry was offered a well-paying job serving for the evening and told him to get you another of whatever it is that you were drinking. âYour brother lets you wear a dress like this?â He questions, knocking back the rest of his whiskey and hailing for another.
âïžâNo. But I am not Finn and he is nor Iâ you tell him, nursing the edge of your glass with your finger absentmindedly trailing it. He leant closer. âTell you, if you were my woman that dress would be on the floor of my room right about now.â He promised and you shivered at the thought. âBut Iâm not your woman, am I Isaiah?â You rhetorically ask, sipping and please to feel the alcohol running down your throat.
âïžâOh god if you were.â He said, trailing off. âIâd have you married, knocked up, never not pregnant. Have your last name Jesus. My dad would do the ceremony, yâknow. Get you a nice little bouquet and pretty white dress I get to ravish you in afterwards.â He said âwell youâve got it all planned out, huh Mr Jesus?â You snort but you are backed against the bar, two hands either side of your waist as your belittled by the taller between you.
âïžâBelieve me Iâve dreamt of the day since I first saw you, just your fucking brother wouldnât let me.â You eye his lustful expression. âAs I said, Isaiah. I am not my brother, nor is he I.â You repeat slowly, relaying that your older sibling(s) had no say in what was going on at that moment. âYouâre playing with fire, little girlâ he warned âthen let me get burnedâ you say, batting your eyelashes doe-like and innocently, as you dared him to make the move your core had been dying for for decades.
âïžHis nostrils flare as you wrap his tie around your hand and yank at it harshly, bringing an ear close to your lips to offer a promise never before foretold. âIsaiah Iâm a virginâ you whisper, before releasing his tie and straightening his suit. He follows the lump in his throat before surveying the room once and looking down at you, grabbing your hand to drag you through the crowds of people and into the safe proximities of his bedroom for newly discovered events.
âïžThe evening died down and the chatter faltered, as Thomas Shelby announced a new betrothal in the family. However he was unable to promise the two, because the bride and groom were missing.
Michaelđ±
đ±Oh god Iâve been waiting for this one. Michael absolutely eats that shit up.
đ±You and Michael were first acquainted when himself, Thomas and John travelled to the Cotswolds in order to engage in some legal business with the Wentworth family - Tommy spoke business with the ceo of the family, while John entertained the mother and Michael; the daughter.
đ±Michael was an old fashioned man with old fashioned views. He liked his women obedient and untouched and willing to listen to his every word - just like they were supposed too.
đ±They were welcomed into the home by several butlers, two to open the grand doors - three to take their caps and the others to lead the family to their guests. âThomas Shelby.â They heard, and a dignified gentleman descended the stairs, an unnecessary cain in one hand, the other wrapped around his wife as they descended the central staircase to the visitors, a young lady trailing behind.
đ±âArchibald Wentworth.â Thomas smiled at the man and nodded out of respect. The man walked up to him and shook each of their hands firmly. âHow longs it been old chap?â He asked Thomas. âToo long, old friend.â Thomas replied, and they engaged in friendly conversation as neither had seen each other since their fathers dealt with similar business in their own youth. The elder woman approached John who kissed the back of her hand and she curtsied, him remaining respectful as their shared introductions. You however, approached Michael who looked back at you fondly. You curtsied to him and he bowed slightly. âItâs a pleasure Mr Gray.â You say, voice soft and unbroken. He took your hand and kissed the back of it gently. âAll mine, Miss Wentworth.â
đ±âAnd please, do call me Michael.â He told you, smiling gently. âWell in that case youâre compelled to call me Yn.â Michael studied your face; never in his twenty one years of existence had he seen such beauty before. Your skin was fair and undamaged - soft to the touch. Your nails were clean and manicured with a neutral colour. Your hair was cascading down by your ears, as if instructed to sit perfectly, framing your face. You eyes were innocent yet appeared all-knowing - your mouth formed into a graceful smile. And you carried yourself with such proper dignity; it was admirable.
đ±âYn my darling?â Your father spoke from beside him and you turned to face him on command - trained to do this. âYes father?â âPlease will you accompany Mister Gray into the living area? Iâm sure youâll both be quite comfortable in there.â You nodded once at the man. âCertainly, father.â âIt was a pleasure to meet you gentleman, and see you again Mister Shelby.â You say to the other two, before leading Michael into the living area - which was nothing short of double the size of his childhood home.
đ±âMay i offer you some tea?â You ask, as you settle in the room. âThatâd be lovely, thank you.â You nod as the maid by the for stepped out to grab tea. âNormally Iâd make it myself, however it is improper to leave your company unaccompanied.â You joke and he laughs in response. Soon, the tea arrived and you served it for Michael, who took the cup and saucer thoughtfully and nodded in thanks.
đ±âItâs a lovely home you have.â You smile up at him. âThank you, Iâm sure my father works tirelessly to afford it.â âYouâve no job?â He asked, awaiting the words that he was utterly and totally in love with you. âNo, Iâm trained in etiquette - to be polite, to cook and to clean.â Michael listened to you thoughtfully. âSo youâre kept awfully busy then?â You nod. âBusy however I donât mind it, I get to live in this glorious building with a loving family and life skills. What more could a girl want?â You confirm and he was sure his eyes were forming hearts.
đ±âAnd Iâm sure you have quite the line of suitors with your beauty.â You giggled but tried to compose yourself. âNo sir.â His eyes widened in mock surprise. âSurely youâre already married, how has a man not captivated a lady such as yourself. Iâd do it myself if it wasnât for the line of men ahead of me.â You looked down, blushing, before looking back up at Michael. âThere is no line and there are no suitors. It is simply me, myself and I.â You tell him.
đ±âAnd you Michael? Have you a wife?â You asked, batting your eyelids. âNo, in your words it is simply⊠âme, myself and Iâ.â âAnd what business do you do yourself, Mr Gray?â You ask. âThat is not the sort of information for a ladyâs ears. It is not good business.â He almost scolds and you nod. âOh I understand, my father is not too dissimilar. Staying safe in your business, I hope?â He basked in the way you simply understood, didnât pry. âNot quite.â He said, raising an eyebrow. He rolled up his left sleeve slightly and you gasped. âOh you poor man,â you say. âYou must treat these with oil, that way they shall heal better.â You scold, touching his skin gently. âWell if you were my wife you could sort it out for me.â âOh certainly Michael, I wouldnât allow you to come home damaged as such without properly patching you up.â You say, seriousness written all over your facial features.
đ±âAnd what do you do with the rest of your time, this afternoon per se?â He ponders, sipping his tea. âWell as you said yourself Iâm quite a busy person regardless of what I occupy my time with.â You peer down at the dainty wristwatch wrapped around your wrist, Michael estimated the small device at a hefty sum. âAt two oâclock I have etiquette lessons.â You say âand at three?â âAt three I read in my libraryâ âhow about four?â âAt four I have a date.â His face dropped. âA date? With who?â âWilliam Wordsworth.â You giggled at his expression which sighed a breath of relief. âOh I see, she lives the poems she could not write.â He says, quoting the famed poet. âMore like she writes the poems she could not live.â You reply, and Michael notices a longing stare as you probably imagine the life you would have, if not the heir to an infamous delegate.
đ±âAnd no man has yet compared me to a summers day.â You admit. âYou have not yet met your Shakespeare.â You smile, enjoying how he understood your references. âNor my Victor Hugoâ âah but you have not yet died so nobody may quote âDemain, dĂšs lâaubeâ.â He spoke matter-of-factly. âFor I am always the poet, never the poem.â You speak; in words of your own. And Michael cannot stop himself from reaching up with his free hand to caress the soft skin of your cheek gently. âIt is impossible. How can a man write anything short of a novel about a maiden so fair?â He question, and you find yourself absentmindedly leaning into his light touch.
đ±âYouâre a charmer, Mr Grayâ you speak, voice barely above whisper âIâm no charmer, just a man who knows what he wantsâ he leans to whisper in your ear âis it working?â He meets your eyes with a cheeky grin on his face. âCertainly.â You both finished your tea and the trolley was taken away, miscellaneous chatter arising from each of your lips.
đ±âMadam?â A voice squeaked from the door behind you both. You spun on a pivot to look at the young maid by the entrance. âYes Beth?â âMister Wentworth has requested you and Mister Gray return to the foyerâ she said, avoiding your stare. âThank you Beth, we shall be there shortly.â The woman nodded before clicking the door shut behind you to allow you to make your own way there along with the company. Michaelâs face contorted: annoyed, but relaxed it when you faced back to him.
đ±âI believe it is time for us to depart.â You tell him. âWhen may I see you again?â He asks, holding your hands in his own. âWhenever you wish, Mister Gray; should my father allow.â You tell him, before slowly leading him back to where you originally met. There, the rest of the men along with your parents stood as youâd left them - engaged in unwavering chatter. âAh, Mister Gray - treated well I hope?â Your father asks and Michael nods at the man. âCertainly.â
đ±After some goodbyes and a hug for your fatherâs old friend Thomas, Michael smirked at you and kissed the back of your hand and whispered promises that you shall meet again.
đ±The men walked back to the car in silence, Thomas lighting a cigarette once inside. âHowâd you like her?â He asked, eyeing Michael before nicotine smoke billowed from his lips. âSheâs a lovely young lady.â Michael tore his eyes away from his cousin and back to the house, hoping to catch a glimpse of you as you drove away; but to no avail.
đ±âSheâs a gentle lass. Innocent and proper.â Thomas continued and Michael squinted at him, wondering what the man was getting at. âDoesnât need corrupting.â âI know that Tommy, what you on about?â âWeâve come to a business agreement with Archibald Wentworth. They in exchange for protection and a good deal of Shelby business, his daughter would marry a gentleman.â Thomas stubbed the last bud out on the leather of the car. âI trust you can fit that role?â
đ±Before either of you really knew it the two were being wed on the great estate of the Wentworth Mansion, both smiling at each other at the end of the aisle like giddy school children with a secret. Within the hour you were husband and wife and Michael had the life and wife he had so hoped and dreamed for.
đ±The reception was a glamorous event; dancing and drinking and the celebration of you being safe, and the Shelby name moving up in the social hierarchy of local reputation. Yourself and Michael had snuck off for a moment alone with one another, to discuss the whirlwind of a day and plans moving forwards together. âMay I say my darling you look absolutely divine.â He comments, taking your hand to make you do a full 360 turn to display your attire to him. He swore the dress was adorned entirely in Tiffany crystals. âThank you, you are too kind.â He tuts âI can never be too kind to my wife.â He smiles.
đ±âAnd may I be so reckless to say I cannot wait to get this dress of you eitherâ he smirked and you raised your brows as your cheeks reddened. âIf that is no problem of course, my lady?â He confirms and you nod. âI apologise for my experience, for I have never before been with a man.â You admit, bashfully and his mouth ran dry. âNever?â You shook your head in confirmation. âNever, Michael.â You say and he gleefully picks you up to spin you around as you laugh at his response. âWell my darling, I hope you know I am prepared to take more than good care of you this evening. And of course continue the family name.â
Finnđïž
đïžYou were the first girl Finn really cared about. Sure, heâd been on dates and hired whores to satisfy his desires. But heâd never really given much thought into actually taking his time with a girl. Until he saw you working at the bookshop two streets in the wrong direction from the Garrison.
đïžHim, Isaiah and Bonnie were basically being little shits on the streets of Birmingham when heâd saw you organising shelves through the window, brow furrowed and tongue slightly protruding from your lips as you struggled to place an old hardback on the top shelf. The other two lads had carried on walking whereas Finn had stopped, the other two halting a few ways down to road to figure out where their third had gone, turning to see him awestruck at the bookshop window.
đïžThey hurried back, laughing at the boy who was notably illiterate. Finn could not read, nor write but was staring into the bookshop. âWhat yâ doing Finn? No picture books in there!â Isaiah joked, straining to see what Finn was so intently staring at. âAh the girlâ Bonnie elbowed him. âShe wonât want you mate.â Isaiah informed him âsheâs got Shakespeare and Wordsworth. You donât even know who Iâm on about.â And Isaiah was right. You did look dignified and well read because you were. And he was just Finn.
đïžBut he found himself two street in the wrong direction every day nearly, at least when he could find time to slip away. And Isaiah and Bonnie were sick of their lovesick friend ditching them to stare at a stranger awkwardly through a window. Then one day, when the three were repeating their galavant from the first time they saw you, Isaiah shoved him in the door.
đïžThe bell chimed and you turned from your stepladder âjust a minute!â You climbed down and approached the disheveled boy at the door. âCan I help you?â You ask âbookâ he says and you crease your brows ââŠbook?â Isaiah chimed in behind him âhe wants to buy a bookâ he confirms as he smacks Finn around the back of the head. âAny book in particular?â âMy first alphabet!â Bonnie exclaims, and the two boys begin cackling loudly and Finn grits his teeth and pushes the two out of the door.
đïžâEh what do you recommend?â He asked, scratching the back of his head and his eyes wander on all the paved backs of untouched literature. âWhat do you like? Fiction? Non-fiction?â Finn looks at you gone out. You look around for a simple poetry book you know is easy to understand âhere, try this itâs one of my favouritesâ Finn nods and turns the book over in his hands and has a quick flick through. âHow much do I owe you?â He asks, pushing his hand into his pocket. You shake your head âjust come back and exchange it once youâre done.â Finn nods. He could do that. He thanks you and begrudgingly heads out the door to his friends who were still hounding him for the situation and he just smiles at you through the window.
đïžFinn was getting ribbed week in and week out by both his friends and older brothers, Arthur drunkenly questioning in front of everyone why he hadnât hired any whores recently and why books were appearing by his bed when he couldnât read. The family laughed as his face reddened, Isaiah explaining that the lovely young lady down the bookshop had his interest peaked.
đïžâYâgot her in bed yet?â John asked with a smirk and the younger boy elbowed him sharply. âNo.â He mumbled. âNo? Olâ âjust want a shagâ here hasnât gotten a lady in bed?â His brother joked. âNo sheâs not the kind of lass I want to put off.â âAhâ Tommy ruffled his hair. âSheâs the real deal then?â He smiled while lighting up another cigarette. Finn thought for a moment before nodding. Yeah, you were the real deal.
đïžâDateâ Finn said as he crashed through the door of your bookshop. You raised a brow at him. âDate with me, please.â He says, panting. âFinn are you alright?â You ask, placing a hand on his back. Me nods, heaving and placing his hands on his knees. Heâd just ran here from being with his family. âDo you want to go on a date with me?â He asked when heâd finally gotten his wind back. You smiled and nodded. âYes I would Finn, when?â âNow.â You raise your brows. âRight now?â âYeah. If youâd like.â You look down at the dainty wristwatch you were wearing and decided it was wishful thinking if you thought that you were going to get any more footfall in the next hour before you closed. You hummed and nodded. âSure, letâs go.â
đïžFinn took you to one of the nicest restaurants in Birmingham in walking distance, waiter seating you quickly after he noticed who Finn was, handing the two of you two open menus. You looked over the options, but was soon distracted by Finnâs conflicted face. âYou alright, Finn?â He nods. âWhatâs up?â He ponders for a minute before mumbling something. âSorry?â âI canât read and this has no pictures.â He admits sheepishly, averting his eyes from yours.
đïžâYou canât read?â You ask, mulling over the past several weeks where youâd be too-ing and fro-ing with Finn with your book recommendations. âBut youâve been borrowing books for months-â âjust to see you.â He says, looking down as a smile began to grew on your lips. âI understand if you want to leave. Youâre smart and pretty and Iâm just an illiterate gangsta.â He says, mentally readying himself for your leave. You placed your hand on top of his where it was laid on the table. âFinn thatâs so sweet.â His brows shot up. âYou did that for me?â You ask, biting your lips as he affirms your question. You place a chaste kiss to his cheek as you realise just how much the blinder truly cared about you.
đïžâLetâs get out of here.â You say, breaking the silence. âSeriously?â He asks, moving closer for a more private conversation. âIâm serious. Letâs go.â You say, âreally? We donât have too if you donât want too-â âFinn Shelby. Letâs go.â And you didnât have to tell him again, running back home like two giddy school children, hiding away in his room for the rest of the evening, ended by you laying on his bare chest while he drew shapes into your relaxed shoulder.
đïžâThat was better than I expected for my first time.â You admit, staring at the ceiling. It takes a few minutes for Finn to clock onto what youâd just said. He looks down at you, movement of his thumb faltering. âYou were a virgin?â He asks, lump in his throat growing as he forced himself to swallow it. âYeah.â He smirks.
đïžâNice.â
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â maybe the date was terrible, but i sure as hell wouldn't be acting the way you are. â foolish to think that they could handle any situation like adults when both of them left the date with a bitter taste in their mouths. constantly he ran through their night together and searched for reasons it went wrong, but was stumped every time. â the attitude i'm giving you ? â he scoffs, shaking his head at the accusation of him dishing her any kind of attitude. â no, you didn't. you're reacting terribly for something, whatever, i did to you which i think is bogus considering i did nothing but try to make the date go well. â
a scoff slips past brims before she takes a sip of her pina colada â god knows she needed the drink to deal with this . " if the date was terrible , you would have done the same if you were in my shoes , " she asserts , remembering how their night had ended on a dissonant note . " with the attitude you're giving me , i'm starting to believe it was the right decision . did i bruise your ego or something ? " she fakes sympathy , jutting out her lower lip .
#isaiah.#isaiah / maiya.#angelsdusted.#if she thinks he's the problem then he's the problem!#idc if he didn't do anything#she's right
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