#is this weird tmi?

[sugdenlovesdingle]

So this archive of people who were convicted (or suspected) of collaborating with the Germans in WW2 has become searchable for the public as of today

And I found my grandfather's name!

(I'm not scandalised or anything, he died 10 years before I was born, I didn't know him, i don't really care either way, and my mum, grandma, and aunt are all dead so it won't bother them)

I knew he'd been in the German army and a cousin of my mum's sent me some information last year (he'd gone to the national archive to view the court records) but I’m excited because this means *I* can now request his file and go to The Hague to see it with my own eyes!

I've heard bits and pieces about him from my gran ("he was a good man") and my mum ("he was forced to enlist") but I know now (thanks to the cousin) that was a very different story than what actually happened.

Both my parents are dead, I barely have any family left (on either side) and I never really knew my grandfather's family (my gran didn't really keep in touch with them and neither did my mum) and I’m excited i get to find out more about at least one member of my family!

[rosekasa]

i think what i adore about ladynoir beyond high school age (18 and over) is the opportunity it leaves for some of the most DELICIOUS best friends to lovers scenarios. because, like, two people who've been fighting side by side for years? who've known each other long enough to make jokes about it, haha remember when we were fourteen and you-- we AGREED to never speak of it!!!! who've spent so long learning each other inside out, even, in chat noir's case, getting over feelings, that the idea of anything romantic between them is so far off the radar that they don't feel the need for certain boundaries, because why would it matter if they made jokes about how attractive they find each other, about getting married, about how they could totally mess with the rest of the miracle team by pretending they're hooking up because it's so far out of the realm of possibility.

but then there would be that imperceptible shift. the moment where one of them makes a joke and it feels just a bit more loaded than it should. gazes lingering where they never lingered and playful smiles turning curious. the sudden awareness that, while maybe they were cuddling on a rooftop with their best friend, they were also wrapped up in the arms of someone they trust with their lives, and is extremely attractive, and, wait, if the only reason it was platonic before was because there were no feelings, what does THIS mean?

THE TENSION. THE PINING. THE INHERENT MESS OF BEING IN YOUR TWENTIES. PLEASEEEE

[carebooks]

you know what’s funny?

if the mortal instruments movies had continued for five more sequels— and were faithful to the books— eventually, we would have gotten not only vampire simon, but mark of cain!vampire simon.

meaning that robert sheehan would’ve ended up playing not one, not two, but THREE characters that were immortal and the source of comic relief

[greenlantrns]

oh to be called daddy’s boy

[jessaerys]

i'm actually surprised by how many people in that post are saying it (nipple stimulation) makes them feel "weird" like is the weird anxious ennui cross-wiring more common than previously thought. is it psychological due to sex-negative conditioning. is it too much of a good thing registering as feeling bad. can it be fixed. i would say it's wild there's no scientific research on this but like it really isn't. yet another way the scientific institution continues to fail horny women.....

[ganondoodle]

woah, all of the sudden i feel like i want nothing more but to turn into a soggy piece of dead wood, and its even worse bc its seems like this time its exaggerating all my worst qualities on top of worsening my regular mental health struggles-

... remembering that its been a month since the last time .... no, no it cant always be that, the majority of my deep dives into mental health hell and public annoyance cant be all that, what am i, nothing but a enzyme and hormone controlled meat puppet that i have no control over? haha no its just me actually getting wors-

cramps.

[rottenboycutecute]

I wanna be treated like a pet right now I cant lie I LOVEEE being treating like a dog sorry

[st-just]

Every time I read some insufferable busybody talk about how 'it's so important to protect children from graphic books!' I remember how much I fucking adored my Horrible Histories with its cutsey 'censored' description of historical torture methods where they replaced the verbs/body parts with symbols you had to check the bottom of the page for the meanings of. As a, like, six-year-old. Literally what started my love of history, I think.

[onlyasimp4nobody]

Asexual ovulating is like, fucking dumb. It's like my coochie signals aren't sending to my brain. There's a wire here that broke.

[blablablabla-ur-mom]

Just finished City of Ashes....

And I must say, the vibes are off. The vibes are incestuous. Like I know they aren't actually siblings but this is still so fucking weird

Also, I need more of Magnus and Alec because they were the only sane people in this book

[habibisagi]

if your pussy could taste like something specific what would it be

[inkedtae]

s-class sk8er boi 🛹🖤

[glambots]

One of my personal HCs for Chica is that she has a tendency to say very out-of-pocket things without even realizing what she's said is weird or unnerving until/unless other people hear her say it and are like, "Excuse me???"

[darcyolsson]

im now kind of sat here wondering who have the most appearances in tsc though.... like i know it's magnus and then jem at the top but who's below that??? i'm guessing alec/jace/clary?

[veeva-i0i]

Shadowhunters has such weird differences from the books. For one, the story behind Valentine and the Circle was so much more interesting in the books. How he helped put people like Hodge and Luke, and how he betrayed the bond he and Luke had.

But the biggest shock to me was how they portrayed the institute. It wasn't supposed to be that modern with all the tech and shit, but more importantly, it wasn't supposed to be that densely populated. In the first book, it was literally just Hodge, Alec, Izzy, and Jace living there, because Robert, Maryse, and Max were in Idris. The teens were the only shadowhunters there who could actually leave, so they had to step up and go on the missions. Which left Hodge in the perfect position to canoodle against the Clave and help Valentine out. It was such a perfect setup for Hodge being on Valentine's side all along, and the show took that away.

[studentbyday]

life, unplugged

“We got stuff done when it got done. ... Whole days passed without knowing the time once. By removing time pressure things didn't just grind to a halt and tasks expand to fill the entire day, the tasks got done with greater presence. Things got done with actual care and attention and no rush. I was probably more aware and engaged and present over the past week than I have been for ten years.” —Simon Clark (“Unplugging from the internet”)

I'm tired. I wouldn't necessarily say I was *burning* out because it didn't feel like there was much wood left to burn. I just...need a break. Change gears. Step away from social media...again because something I've noticed over the year I've had this blog is that I've been increasingly affected by FOMO and feeling behind whenever I'm engaging in social media. Even if it seems as if I'm charting a clear path for myself when I do challenges and post semi-regularly, I feel as if my path is less clear. I only regain that clarity when I take extended time away from social media, and I would like to re-learn how to maintain that sense of clarity for longer without soon feeling the urge to either numb myself by scrolling, or put myself on display because apparently my mere existence is not enough for me to feel real in a more cemented way if that makes sense*... This isn't exactly goodbye. I'm probably gonna return to tumblr at some point because I'll miss my moots and all, but I think these extended breaks should become a more regular thing for me.

*perhaps me currently being in that "i wanna make my mark on the world" stage (which sometimes becomes the more toxic "prove my existence was worth it" stage) is bleeding into everything i do...honestly, idk how to go about it, how to deal with it, whether i should scrap it. would not be surprised if many years down the road, i realize that i've been going about this whole thing wrong... but some things we only learn through experience. 🤷🏻‍♀️

not me linking my intro post here in case i feel like resurrecting it in the future bc i hate searching through my blog tags 😭