#is this tmi? maybe. but this is the tmi site.

[youremyonlyhope]

I really should know better than to watch dumb romcoms while I'm 90% sure I'm ovulating.

This time it was Netflix's Love in the Villa trying to make me cry.

[daz4i]

do you think if i signed up to grindr they'd kill me with rocks for not having a dick

[transmasc-advice-blog]

Bathroom Problems

Sorry I just realized after writing this is super tmi but I just really need advice

Help. I'm transmasc but I haven't really started using men's bathrooms yet because I don't pass and I'm honestly kind of scared. However, there are a few things that I think will change that: I'm starting testosterone soon, and I want to buy an stp/packer. So the testosterone I think will probably make me look masculine enough that I can't use the women's restroom anymore without scaring people, and the stp will allow me to use the men's room. But like there are still problems with that. For one thing, they're super expensive! I've been looking on the transguy supply website, and I found one that I like, but it costs 50 dollars, and it also doesn't look like it will fit in the harness (made by the same company, sold separately on the website). I found another one that's small enough for me to pack with (I'm short so I really don't want anything big, I literally pack with a single pair of socks) and that would work with that harness, but it's $75. They have one for $15, but it says in the description that it's not good for packing. Also, I don't particularly want balls. Which is a problem because nearly all of them have balls. The $50 one doesn't, and I like the look of it, but like I said I don't think it will fit to wear it, just based on its shape. There's one on the site that has all the attributes I want (small, discreet, skin tone, no balls, would work as a packer), but it's over $100 and there is no way I'd ever be able to afford it. So I'm probably going to end up with one that doesn't fit the aesthetics I want. Which is fine, but I just really need to find one that's more affordable. Between the packer I want, the harness, and the underwear, it could easily add up to at least $150. I can't ask my parents for help because the first time I brought up packing my mom said she wouldn't buy me one because it "feels like a sex thing" and it makes her uncomfortable. So like if anyone knows where I can buy a cheaper one, that would be much appreciated.

Also, once I get the stp, I still don't know how confident I'll be using it in men's bathrooms. Would it be weird if I went in the stall to pee, at least at first? Do people do that? Would it be wrong for me to use the disabled accessible stall when it's the only stall?

Also, I don't know what to do about people who know me. I'm out as nonbinary, but given the way I dress most people assume I'm a girl, and I think people would get uncomfortable with me suddenly switching bathrooms, especially if I started using the urinals. Plus I occasionally wear dresses, so what bathroom am I supposed to use when I'm wearing a dress and have facial hair? Like that's how I want to look, that's what makes me feel like me, but I feel like that's also what would get me assaulted in a bathroom. I guess I'm starting to realize how my transfem friends feel :/

Sorry for the long ask, if you or anyone has any advice that would really help. Thank you

-🚹🚽🍌💵 (emojis so I can find this later)

Lot to unpack here! I don’t have much experience with STPs but i’ll try my best to help :)

First off, you know those STPs that don’t look realistic? (linked one is for $12) they might not be ideal, maybe don’t use it if the urinals are crowded, but it’ll work just fine if it’s just a few people in there! no one’s looking at you. you could keep it in a bag or a nice big pocket, discreetly whip it out to pee, have a lil plastic baggy to put it back into maybe once you’re out of the bathroom… i’m not sure exactly how that one works but i’m sure you’d figure it out eventually. i also found this one and watch the ad! the woman in the video keeps it in her pants and just. pops it out. it can stay in your pants! perfect. $18.

Next thing, can a friend help you out with cost at all? Maybe a sibling? Also, once you get the STP, you probably know this but just making sure. do NOT immediately, right away after getting it, go out in public and use it. you’ve gotta practice at home first. until you’ve got the hang of it.

Nextttt, no it is not weird at all for you to use a stall. I do that all the time. The bathroom might be busy, with all the stalls in use. super awkward waiting there as the urinals free up. but that’s the only problem i can really think of? i just go super fast. in and out. no time for anyone in there to see my face. i’ve never had any problems. a few times i’ve had to go to the women’s. wasn’t great but it was all ok! for the disabled stall thing, id say use it, just be fast.

Onwards, you can let your friends and family know “i’m ready to start using the men’s restroom now so that’s what i’ll be doing just a heads up”. it’s just a bathroom, right? just a place to pee, why should anyone care? for the wearing a dress thing, make sure you’re in a safe area. you might get strange looks, ignore them. if someone tries to talk to you, go into a stall or leave. or, on days when you wear a dress, you could strictly go to places with gender neutral bathrooms. there are apps that can help you find which places have them. i think one of them is bathroom refuge? not sure.

congrats on starting T! good luck, i hope this helps, i am sick rn so this might be nonsensical

[overflowchute]

gender stuff

so basically the main point of contention i have regarding hormones is that i think it could be cool to have boobs and be cute. but it's kinda a 100% or nothing thing like you either go for them or you don't and you kinda have to give up some stuff to get there... and like i kinda struggle with the idea that how i look right now might actually be totally fine and even attractive to people who have different tastes than me. i literally can't really tell because i just don't have taste for the style of person i am but i have a sneaking suspicion i'm not really ugly if i try and work on my appearance.

so i guess it's kind of tied up in a lot of things? like, i think i could definitely go all in on e if i really wanted. but all i really want at the end of the day is to feel cute and like someone likes me, and i think that the state of mind i'm in is such that i can want to make really knee-jerk decisions out of desperation to become someone else, to be seen as someone else - when it's just a theory i have that that'll solve it.

like, it feels to me like the core of all my suffering is that i don't have many friends or connections in real life. and i don't have the right social skills to work on that, i never learned how to use dating sites and everyone's takes on them are mid, i don't know the first thing about "looking nice", i don't have any motivation. and it's very hard for me to develop anything like this on my own

and like it's embarrassing to say but in a world where i'm scared of being a target and the government here is actively going out of its way to get at people like me and i am afraid of alienating everyone i know irl or maybe even losing my job or something, while i'm already struggling with basically everything else - it's kind of a trade-off, right? like, will i get something out of going all in? the changes will make me not as attractive to people who are into my current style and there's no guarantee i'll be attractive to people who aren't, and it seems to me like so much of changed behavior and connection just goes back to... well, literally changing what you do and how you look?

basically tl;dr it feels like if i commit i am risking a great deal of negative result for a theoretical positive result that i don't feel truly hugely dedicated to, and i almost feel like it's more motivated by what people i happen to know like more than what i want... like it extends from holes in self-esteem and failures of my social lineup that i will need to patch anyway if i want to be a functional adult in not-hell

TMI

also to be honest finasteride already makes my dick work fundamentally differently in a way that's kind of fucked with my ability to manage time and my experiences with hormones so far is that they make my dick function even less and the thing is i actually don't really find that very fun. so that's really part of it too. i don't really like saying that though

[olderthannetfic]

Pet peeves and annoyances both in fanfics and in everyday use:

"literal(ly)" constantly being used for anything, both when it's applicable and when words like "actual(ly)," "figurative(ly)" etc. would make way more sense

"trigger(ed)" being used when people talk about annoyance or irritation... like mate, I get irritated when people use "literally" in nearly every sentence, I get triggered when I see someone getting strangled or choked. Getting a bit annoyed at one's pet peeves and getting flashbacks to one's trauma and being in excessive-rage mode for half an hour and then unable to calm down for three hours is not the same. (Sorry for TMI, I thought it was a relatively straightforward example.)

"trigger warnings" that are none... I just stumbled across a fanfic (oneshot collection for one ship) that had some additional info that the author called "TW" because they always put potential trigger warnings and content warnings at the top of each chapter, always marked as "TW." (The fic in question isn't on AO3 but a german fanfic site, which has quite a different design and layout and different way of categorizing stuff, so it's not like they could have tagged it or put it into a chapter summary, which is why it's put into the body of content of the fic itself.) The thing that irritates me about this is that this particular "TW" is just that one protagonist is related to a side character, and that this piece of info is scary but too funny not to put into this oneshot... Maybe I'm just insensitive but I see no potentially upsetting (for which I'd choose the term "content warning") or triggering (for which I'd choose the term "trigger warning") piece of info in this "TW"... It just reads like "background info," not a trigger warning...

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[ethernitty]

i see, i might try that sometime when ill be able to cook for myself

thoughts on asparagus soup?

i have never had asparagus in any form but i like soup so maybe id like it

[clairedaring]

Hi! aren’t you going to make anymore msi gifs ?

hi! (⊙x⊙;)

i'm still making my stand-in gifs. i have a few requests for msi gifs 🍜that i'm very slowly going through for my dear friend pam @pamouche. but i'll be posting them over at @poomphuripan. feel free to send my stand-in gif requests here or there though, i can't guarantee i'll be super fast at making them but i'll do my best to get them done. i'm always open to giffing more msi though sometimes i feel like i've giffed like 80% out of all mingjoe scenes in the series 🤣

for the upcoming series i'll be giffing, i'm actually not sure if i'll be giffing anything as serious as i did with my stand-in, most likely not though. right now, i'm only casually giffing ryu ingkarat (my precious nadao kid 🥹) in i saw you in my dream, some scenes in i feel you linger in the air, great men academy and lovely writer, and old gdh films/nadao series and miscellaneous lakorns that maybe 3 other people on this site watches 🤣. if someone can spot the few common denominators among these ƪ(˘⌣˘)ʃ

but yea i'm very much a sporadic and self-indulgent gifmaker ಥ_ಥ i know that was a lot of tmi but yea...

tldr: i'm still giffing my stand-in, just very slowly but still open to all requests of any msi scenes 🥺

[xamaxenta]

i was thinking of getting some titty piercings and didnt know that bleeeding could be common................................................i know it might be tmi and that's ok but. could you describe how the bleeding is and just the overall experience of the piercing. sorry dffsdfsd

Yeah bleeding is common for piercings in general and everyone is different

however I was super lucky and I didn’t bleed at all with mine, maximum had maybe two days of light bleeding where it welled up around the puncture sites and dried up and crusted off, the dried blood was very easy to wash off in the shower

My pain tolerance is pretty high I think, im good at hiding how much something hurts but this was pretty painful, @longingforthecosmos had given me an excellent heads up about the adrenaline rush only happening once so the second piercing/nipple will always hurt more

My piercing artist also recommended if i knew which side was more sensitive to do that one first too, my rght side is wretched so im glad i used my one chance adrenalin rush on it lmao bc the left side was a pretty raw experience

Its the needle comin out the otherside that fucking sucked, the jewelry insert was also more painful than expected but I had a very good artist and she was quick, communicative and walked me through the process and showed me everything prior to starting, no brainer advice but they should be showing you the tools in advance and that the needles are sealed

Generally my experience has been wonderful in comparison to some stories i read up online about other peoples experience, i didnt have much bleeding, my swelling went down in about a day, i havent had much discharge or pus either and both of these are completely normal emissions its when the piercing site remains swollen or becomes hot to touch that its no bueno

Fingers crossed my healing process remains as smooth as it currently has been for the past month and a bit

Good luck to you anon get the piercings/body mods of your dreams :3

[stuffed-gutz]

hey! i've got something to ask, no judgment- i look at blogs like this out of curiosity, and i was wondering what the appeal of gore is to you. could you explain it? it'd also be interesting to know if pain tolerance or your experience of pain have any influence, if you're fine with sharing.

Oh I'm actually kindve excited to finally get this ask, I've seen other guro blogs get similar. I wanted to give it some thought though so sorry it took a while!!

First as far as pain tolerance, I'm kindve a wimp? I'll admit I've self harmed before but despite the fact I do find pain sexy and cool, it doesn't take a lot to make me cry. That doesn't necessarily make it a deal breaker but I'm kindve a huge baby XD

But at the same time, admittedly, I want someone to hurt me. This is TMI even if you asked but I get a lot of sexual gratification from the idea of being killed. I want my body to be enjoyed and used, even if I'm dead. The idea of being cut up and eaten or even fucked is extremely arousing to me. There's an almost worshipful intimacy in dying by someone else's hands and having them discover and learn and maybe even love every part of you. My self esteem is really really low, and its a kind of love I doubt I'll ever experience while alive. I want to be owned and controlled and known inside out and still accepted for everything I am down to the last drop of blood.

Again, that's TMI, but you did ask.

I would also say my obsession with guro started very young. As a kid I had a baby sitter who used to show me horror movies and classic 80s slashers when I was around 7, and it warped my dumdum baby brains the same way that people end up with vore and inflation fetishes from Sonic and stuff. The older I got and the more self loathing, the worse it got.

I've talked to my therapist and she's even said as long as it's fictional & I'm not actively suicidal & it doesn't cause me distress, this isn't harmful as an outlet.

That said, I've also had some experiences with early internet shock sites and irl gore online that for sure fucked me up a little, I've seen more than I really wanted to in some regards and the fascination just kindve kept growing. I have OCD and tend to fall into patterns of obsessive thinking and some very vivid memories and scenarios, so I think that's a part of it? Not sure.

Anyway I hope this helps !! Here's a nice soft safe image for ur troubles

[shaydh]

lol k, so like, you’ve made enough specific to you horny posting that i’m like maybe vaguely thirsty for you now?? ah, hmmm so you want to be someone’s loyal knight / attack dog huh? i bet i have a muzzle that could fit you somewhere,,, live my makima dom dreams etc. lmaooo it’s def weird on my end thankfully i am too well adjusted to troll through fetlife looking for you or something equally insane. enjoy the tmi, you did sort of ask for it?? have a good day

∠( ᐛ 」∠)＿ muzzle you say? Hornyposting is working apparently I must continue 😏

Joking aside i wish I could use tumblr as a dating site sometimes because trying to convey my brand of unhinged on hinge or whatever is impossible. I have Marazhai posted on my dating profile and no one Gets It. I won’t stop telling people about Malus Darkblade. I’m not sure how normal people get dates, I’m not even really sure I want a date

Anyway you won’t find me on fetlife because I use a different username but if somehow you do feel free to say hi, I’ll be impressed you found me more than creeped out lolol

[satureja13]

06:39 am

An usual morning for Jebho. They share the bath all the time ^^' The Boys will have to leave the hotel soon - into an uncertain future...

Jack didn't last long in his pizza bag last night. Even though he was exhausted from driving the truck (very slowly, bec no driver's license) through the night to Tartosa, Saiwa, him (and the others of course) were worried Vlad could die again from drinking Ji Ho's poisonous blood.

So Saiwa and Jack were keeping watch. (Like they did at Mount Komorebi ;) Sai: "Jack! He's waking up!"

Vlad: "?" Sai: "We can't lose you again." Vlad: "I told you I'm fine." And he really was. Maybe his body developed antibodies or death/hellfire/the bond changed him - who knows. And something else has changed since yesterday: the bond wasn't demanding anymore. Neither Vlad nor Ji Ho felt the usual drag towards the other or the urge to charge the bond. They tightened the bond on winter and summer solstice - maybe this has closed the circle? Or the bond had done it's duty by leading Vlad and Ji Ho to their powers to defeat the council (at least for a while)?

Whatever - they had to leave the hotel and then they had breakfast at the Piazza Matteotti.

And while they were pondering what to do now and where to go - Signore Srini, the pasticciere (confectioner) recognized them from yesterday's broadcast.

He was so happy that they made the council leave that he offered them to stay at his family's old llama farm turned camping site - for free! He described them the way and said they could stay as long as they wanted since the summer season hasn't started yet.

It seems their rainy days have ended! Saiwa: "Mille grazie Signore Srini!"

Così piccola e fragile mi sembri tu e sto sbagliando di più. Così piccola accanto a me e fragile o no ma in fondo sei molto più forte di me! E con la voce che hai sensazioni mi dai m'innamoro, fragile sei tu... Sottovoce tu mi esponi i tuoi problemi poi ridi e ti neghi a me mentre io

(So little and fragile but actually you're stronger than I am And with the voice that you have you give me this feeling I fall in love, you're fragile Quietly you tell me your problems and after that you laugh and deny)

Piccola Et Fragile - Drupi

From the Beginning  ~  Underwater Love ~  Latest TMI: I'm so happy that I got rid of that plumbob (again) and can see the speech/thought bubbles! They even inspired the post today ;)

[platinum-iridium]

same anon from the dove whole body deo. okay okay so, maybe a bit tmi, but I half-agree and half-disagree with the idea that full body deodorants are just a scam to prey upon women's insecurities. I half-agree, in that I don't doubt at all that the intention is to keep women constantly self-checking and feeling disgusted at themselves for not smelling like vanilla extract 24/7. I CAN, however, get behind full body deodorant, because I work a labor job, and at work our AC oftentimes isn't great, so I get very sweaty, and it's good to have a product that will keep me from getting too rank. The tmi part is just that I sweat between my thighs and groin, and after a few hours on the job, it doesn't smell great. It's never bad enough for any people to notice, but the animals I work with sure do, so if having them stuff their noses into my crotch can be avoided a bit easier, I like to. The thing is, though, that I know damn well that men aren't worried about the same thing, and that women who don't have any reasonable reason to worry that their darker, sweatier areas are going to be a special breed of rank after a few hours will still purchase it to battle an insecurity they shouldn't have.

TL;DR: I don't think whole body deo is a bad idea (better to have people use a product that's safe for that purpose, instead of deodorant that's just meant for armpits being used in places it shouldn't be, if nothing else) but I think it should be a much more niche product than it is. The average person really shouldn't (and tbh, DOESN'T) have any need for it. All of that being said, I mostly named off that dove deo because it smells good, works well, and is all natural (if I remember correctly, anyway. At minimum, it is aluminum free, which was my primary concern when picking). Sorry for all of the deodorant talk, I'm a yapper

never apologize for yapping in my ask box that’s what it’s there for. a yap receptacle.

that’s a fair point about sweating at work i occasionally have to work at hot sites with a full fire resistant kit on and the pubic area can get a little smelly after a full day of work but like you said we aren’t the target demo for those products at all. and i wouldn’t wanna put full body deodorant anywhere near my sensitive parts. even the safer kind but to each their own. speaking as someone who used to nair my pubic hair lol i think i’ve done enough damage. i just let her breathe now. i just avoid bussing it wide open at the end of those kinds of days. i also don’t like live with anyone so if i get home and my musk is strong i don’t really think about it too much

that is kinda funny about the animals though. like after a few hours of real body sweat they finally recognize you as also an animal

[soakedfur]

tmi but who cares. one of my toys ended up here today ^_^ i fucked up the address but im so happy it got delivered anyway. shoutout to trying out anal. it took me an hour but i didnt injure myself so yay ! hopefully i can keep this up and maybe look into buying a dif kind of lube when i buy from this site again cuz the label says silicone lube can make it harder for the plug to stay in + harder to clean but overall. good experienceeee. im excited for when my vibrator gets here on tuesday

[dearfuturehusbandblog]

Autobiography

Dear Future Husband,

I recently reconnected with a friend from middle/high school. We got to schmoozing over text and last week I went to her place to hang out and chat for a while.

She's currently going through a lot and there were certain things we were able to relate to each other about.

While we were schmoozing I found myself saying "ok, yeah, so let me tell you _____ but it's a whole story" and after a while I was like "I'm so sorry everything is such a long story!" and she said "no, it's great! you should totally write a book! I'm hooked!"

The thing is, I've actually tried. I've started multiple autobiographies and it's so hard for me to focus my story because there's so many outlandish things that have happened, especially things that were supposed to be simple like getting my ears pierced as a kid turned into a whole ordeal, and I just haven't been able to keep it on track.

But maybe it just needs to be vignettes. Chapters kind of like these posts are.

Except that even here I feel like there's not enough backstory and I have to backtrack constantly...

I don't know.

Maybe it's just not worth it.

Who would read it, anyway? Literally one friend? lol

Most of the time I write just to get things out.

I have this belief that "a diary is for oneself, an autobiography is for others", which is to say that there has to be a takeaway from one's story for it to be worth writing it into a book.

But I don't know what the takeaway from my story is.

That I suck at everything? That God likes to create little punching bags, one of which is named LivelyHeart? Don't judge a book by it's cover?

I literally don't know what anyone can takeaway from my life except that maybe someone out there can relate and feel less lonely because they've been through crap too. But that's why blog sites exist in general, no? People share TMI on social media too.

So if it's not a book to learn something from or for entertainment, what is it for....?

On a sidenote, Meaningful Minute just posted this podcast with a young woman who was born with a disability called TAR, so a bunch of her limbs are wrongly proportioned and she has basically no arms and I'm jealous.

I'm jealous of the support system she had and still has today.

I'm jealous of how the schools she attended bent over backwards to accomodate her disability.

I'm jealous of her emunah and strength.

Because I had "hidden" disabilities. And everyone couldn't care less about my struggles.

She said she never experienced bullying in her childhood.

I did.

She had friends in and out of school.

I didn't.

She had/has parents who are such strong advocates for her.

I don't.

She understands she may never get married but she still has hope that the right guy is out there for her.

I barely do.

She says Hashem is her best friend.

Well, He's not mine.

And it's insane to me that I should feel any kind of jealousy for someone who has the struggles she does.

She told that mashal of if everyone put their problems in a big bowl and got to pull out someone else's to try on for size, they'd always want their own back.

Yeah, I don't know if that's true. I think mine feel familiar because I've lived with them so long, but there are people who don't live with the kind of dysfunction I have and I would much rather struggle with something else than walking on eggshells around the people who are supposed to love and support me unconditionally.

Because everything comes with conditions. And I'm so sick of it.

I saw another video recently where this girl who used to be in Hollywood and had a short-lived music career before ending up with a serious drinking and drug problem described some of her struggles and how her sobriety is going, and she said the one thing that saved her was a friend who was her unconditional support system. Because every time she failed and ended up on substances again, her friend was there to pick her up and say "no, we're doing this again, and we're going to get you clean."

I don't have that in my life.

I'm addicted to despair and nobody can pull me out of it.

And it's so damn hard to do alone.

So if I wrote my story, wouldn't it just depress people? Wouldn't it just make them feel bad about their lives too? Focusing so much on negativity just invites more negativity, doesn't it?

I don't know.

I just hope at some point God decides I'm worthy of feeling love and support in my life.

It would be really nice to experience that for the first time.

It would be really nice to experience you.

-LivelyHeart

[taegularities]

heyy riddie, how's it all going? have you had time to rest? last i remember, you mentioned not having enough time to even take a breather

hope all is well, take care my love :) x

as for the anons who pressurize you and ask you for updates in disrespectful tones (hopefully there's not many of them) STOP FUCKING PUSHING HER I'LL GRAB YOUR ANKLES aT NIGHT Y'ALL NEED TO SLEEP W ONE eYE OPEN, bitch. yes you should support her, yes you should appreciate her work, but at the end of the day authors are not just that, authors. they're more than that, they have a life outside of writing (which, bless your hearts, y'all write storied for free too), y'all need to respect that. and i'm not sorry for snapping. read her other works, they're just as beautifully written as the work you have already read of hers, or find some other entertainment, do something in life, especially touch some grass :)

take your time :)

hey love!! i've not been super good :') i'm on vacation now and def resting and breathing again. but also still kind of processing the drop from being 100% productive to being fully free.. it feels so odd.. idk lmao does that happen to y'all, too? :') and i was having a bad migraine again, but i took some meds and feel much better now. thank you for asking and i hope you've been doing well at least <3

and gosh haha 🙈 it's okay, love! there aren't many at all. i wouldn't want y'all to snap at each other, and i'm pretty sure they didn't mean to be rude. i think they're genuinely excited and that's something i always cherish, but yeah, sometimes that excitement can turn into impatience that doesn't come out right. and since we all deal with a lot in life, it's sometimes just very nice to be checked upon and to be shown that, on a content site like tumblr, we're still appreciated as a person, too, and not just as a writer yk 🤍 and tmi but i've also been struggling with receiving appreciation in general, so i felt a bit :( about the ask. but yeah.

reading other stuff in the meantime is good advice!! maybe you'll find something you like? but other than that, we're not far from another drop 😁

[coreydoras]

pinned post in case people come across my blog. maybe i’ll make it look nicer later

- i’m corey, im an adult and SE AsAm

- i’ve been on this stupid site for 14 years

- id prefer if you don’t follow if we aren’t friends / acquaintances / mutuals but idm. just know i probably won’t interact directly bc i don’t pay attention to any notifs on here

- that being said tho, please don’t follow if you’re a minor 👍🏼 i post some tmi stuff time to time, but you’re free to follow my art acc @saltedlimeade

- please also lmk if i’m out of line somewhere or if i rb’d from a shithead so i can resolve it immediately

tahnks:)