#is this suggestive enough to warrant a tag idk you tell me

[waddei]

appropriate workplace relationship for sure

[waywardsalt]

Have you ever thought about how Linebeck describes Jolene as "crazier than a rabid squid"- only to then be possessed by a literal rabid squid later in the game?

Cause I sure have- especially after seeing a lot of your BellumxLinebeck stuff

mmmmghmm im gonna be honest i haven't thought about it much at all

linking it to my bellum x linebeck thoughts, im not too sure what to make of it in context with my other linebeck notes and w/e

there's also my idea that linebeck has a special interested in shellfish and by extension squids, and the idea of him having a weird thing for bellum, and just... enjoying sealife, and it's kinda of...

he compares her to a rabid squid to link in order to i think... offer a shorthand explanation of what she's like, and i think it (with some other stuff) is kinda just another little peek into how he might feel abt her?

i mean he also compares link to a dog in that one letter? i'm not sure where im going with that one. i dont think linebeck particularly likes dogs

i'm not sure abt the link between that and him getting possessed, jolene is kind of just... there a lot of the time and doesn't really do anything except 1) show that linebeck has enemies and 2) show that people know about link's quest by the end, linebeck generally references sea creatures a few times in ph

relating to bellum x linebeck, i dont see him comparing jolene to a squid an indicator of anything in relation to that, with linebeck having a thing for bellum its more of like. there's a lot of complicated ideas i have with what goes on between them during bellumbeck and bellum being a squid thing is more linebeck having a bit of a monsterfucker streak and having a bit of a thing for like. being tied up. as for literal squids he kinda just likes them as food and to dissect and learn about

like i think 'rabid squid' is more like linebeck just tossing out some derogatory shorthand to explain how he thinks of jolene as some fucking. violent annoyance he has to deal with that he doesn't fully understand

tbh i see the comparison but imo it comes down to a difference in characters and interactions and histories, there is the rabid squid thing (and i think in the manga too theres a vague parallel drawn ig) but im not. sure. what there is there just beyond. linebeck talks about sea creatures and wants to get the fuck away from jolene

i'm not entirely certain what you've been thinking about with that comparison, but i haven't been thinking much about it and it's kinda. eh ig???? its something

[gaymelie]

Dni-archive made most annoying tumblr user poll and made tonysopranobignaturals delete from paranoia from harassment and now the zoophilia accusations against someone who defends kinksters because of what I can tell are thought crimes used against them by a vengeful ex and supported by the circle of people who follows dni-archive to harass people. Nothing they've boosted in their "bonus post" tag has been great. They are looking to harass people to death for their own amusement and thrive off of drama.

Ok first off what exactly is your point? I have absolutely no clue what that first drama is on about and frankly am not gonna get into it, the second point you presumably found me because i commented on that post so you know my opinion on the matter. (in case you or someone else doesn't i dont particularly trust or value any accusation that basically goes "i found this post suspicious" when the post only said hey don't be rude about kinks even if you find them weird, and i think regardless of the accusation that person shows clearly how they view any kink as a sign of immorality) plus yes you are right the accusation is flimsy at best.

If however you mean to tell me i should idk not follow dni-archives? Then i regret to tell you that i don't particularly care all that much for the topic of following on tumblr if they are a bad person or not and neither am i qualified or required to even make that judgement. They don't post things that annoy me frequently enough to warrant unfollowing because they have a strong blog theme.

I will also add that "they are looking to harass people to death" is about as much of a reach as the accusations you have for Dni-archives here, by which i mean you provided flimsy evidence and only someone who was willing to do the most uncharitable possible interpretation or someone willing to blindly believe any anon (lol) would think thats a reasonable way to sum that up. Thrive off drama sure I'll believe that, welcome to the internet people here suck they're not that special unfortunately but if you genuinely care about people not being harassed then i would suggest you invest the effort into figuring out how to have reasonable conversations about these matters.

[lottesseenaghoul]

RE:169 quick thoughts before I go into rabbit hole of tg posts on tumbler (edited)

So I was expecting the scans to come out on Thursday but was surprised to see some fresh panels in the uta tag and FLIPPED.jpeg at my behavioural economics lecture. Honestly not the best place for getting a nosebleed xdd

Anyways here are some of hot takes I got from reading the chapter. More nuanced meta probably on its way. I read it on mangastream and I did screenshots there.

The chapter starts with the first part of Uta’s tattoo quote and ends with the second part, forming a sort of narrative framework to read it.

We jump straight into the fray, with contrasting shots of Yomo’s damn fine looking face and Uta’s there as well, clearly guided by very basic thinking and mostly intuitive, emotional impulses:

Like this is typical, stereotypical “unhinged” face people do in mangas. A mix of enthusiasm and bloodlust, it says this guy went “insane”. Ugh. Uta’s mental health warrants a LOT of unpacking nevertheless so let’s leave this face’ implications for later. 

We glimpse their fight styles then:

Uta is on the offensive, honestly his is such forceful, visceral way of attacking here - straight up fuck up your opponent with the sheer force of your blow. He is shown to be a lot more nuanced and deliberate in previous fights, steering clear from attacking and content with evading the blows, dealing some psychological damage afterwards. But that is Uta just half-assedly toying - clearly he doesn’t stop himself with Yomo. The reasons can be manifold - that’s how they’ve always done it; he’s so pumped, he stops thinking and loses himself in pure bloodlust; he’s in a serious crisis - this is my preferred angle.

Now his fighting style, besides the raw strength behind it, is also quick and agile. In a second Uta gets behind Yomo, and tries to strike through his body mid-air. His face looks like this:

Very unstable.

Uta’s pupils are incredibly large here - again, a visual reminder how little conscious control he might have in this situation. OR how vicious his intents are.

My impression is that when he’s led by such murderous motivation (whatever its composing parts), Uta moves intuitively, we don’t see him playing around or allowing to be struck. Here he has the initiative but Yomo can so far fend off or otherwise deal with his attacks.

I’m honestly so thirsty for Yomo in this chapter, just look at this fine motherfucker:

{I’m interjecting to thank my lord satan for my pan-shipping, slutty heart because now UtaRen became another ship I love. Add in some Itori and you have another one. This one just keeps on giving <3}

Also Uta is so messy here, my baby all playful like a rabid hyena. 

Despite all the refinements older Uta keeps about himself (suave clothing, neat hair, designer mask studio, antiques in glass cases, chess), he didn’t seem to have done much growing up, emotionally. Donato comments on it like that:

You just gotta love the fact that for most of the manga Uta keeps the facade of actually being the least reckless of the ghouls. But I trust Donato on this, who seems to know Uta’s darker impulses fairly well. Possibly better than Yomo and that dude got his fair of beating from Uta too.

What got me interested is how Amon had commented how pointless Clowns endeavours were. Initially I thought it’s Donato who said it, but later on he tells Amon that he would soon understand...

Oh Amon looks fine AF too. Be still my slutty heart!

Furuta says something possibly pivotal for the incoming plot arc:

(IDK wtf this is, but if even Furuta comments on it as if he was both grossed out/scared, it must be important. Oh, he meets Kaneki too, no biggie. “That’s just freaky!!”, I love you Nimura)

Back to my boys, Yomo is getting beat up but mostly evades Uta’s attacks and looks more and more pissed. Uta just looks like a dumbass. Or rather as stupid as cats who torture smaller critters for fun and recreation do:

Also we get a glimpse of his kagune. It seems to be very elastic, easily changing shapes as Uta sees fit. It was just this gigantic mass of RC cells in the beginning panels, now it’s much more resembling the spider legs en masse that we remember from his fight with Juuzou:

But what is most important here, we finally get the first shot of Itori. She is wearing a mask in the beginning, and it’s important in context of what Uta will be saying shortly: edit: It’s Itori speaking, thoughts on that in a different post.

She’s an observer in that panel, very significantly voiceless, not shown to be nearly as amused as Nico here:

Uta’s Itori’s words are honestly a key to Clown’s philosophy and deserve a meta of its own. [In the beginning I thought these were Itori’s words, especially after I saw “Kanekichi” being mentioned; it’s how she had referred to Kaneki before.] - no wonder, it was my brain’s way to remind me I was far too concentrated on Uta to consider the awesomest queen Itori :/

Uta Itori says something very interesting here:

Obviously, if he were to be an OEK, first or the second one, that would be right up the alley. But even if not, it hints at very interesting possibilities. I want to see Ishida expand on it in some flashbacks. 

The most important words are coupled with shots of Itori slowly taking her mask off. It has a very dramatic effect.

Theres a heck ton to unpack here. Honestly I would never think Uta would look at his value system from that particular angle. Edit - and he wouldn’t because he is currently in the midst of a mayor meltdown. It’s Itori who actually bothers with explaining.

He She refers to the coldness of their existence as ghouls, of how senseless it is - like a vast, cold void stretching infintiely in front of them. 

Uta’s ways of searching for warmth are probably the only ones somebody as uprooted as him could come up with - he sees drawing blood, wounding (but also getting wounded - Uta seems to have a very laissez faire attitude to him perishing eventually as we remember from his talk with Donato).

According to Uta  Itori, Yomo is the warm one. For him her, it’s via bloodletting that he can get closer to taste it. Edit Uta def seconds that in the panels to come with his own actions

 I still think there’s some theatrics involved in this speech, as the next panel shows....

God, way to make your opponent unsuspecting of your next move Uta. 

And we get another important shot of Itori. She’s clearly positioned as somewhat stradling the line between Uta and Yomo but this series consistently shows her as being closer to Uta nevertheless.

Her eyes are shining so bright here, it’s clear she’s in deep thought and possibly a bit torn apart with what’s happening here. What Uta says clearly strikes a cord but her taking the mask off, idk it may signal some important differences between her and Uta’s worldview. That or it’s a sign she identifies with his words deeply. Edit ditto, these are her words and the scene took entirely different meaning and made me Love Itori, the first time since reading the series.

Honestly Uta is just beginning tho, as he has some creepy words about dreaming of the day where he would get his hands stained with Yomo’s blood. He actually left Yomo on the ground to have this mini speech properly. He’s posturing as far as my impressions go - Uta reverts to his younger persona, sans earlier sentiments of not wanting to cut his fun short by killing the only one ghoul who could match him somewhat. 

The most important thing in this chapter is what Yomo says next...

Here Uta is, going off about his strange blood kink and Yomo goes all shonen manga on him. But it’s not the same shonen posturing he did in previous chapter. We don’t see his eyes - we see Uta’s and that dude is honestly #shook. 

Naturally he reacts in ways only Ishida can think of. Honestly how Yomo’s words are literally drowned out by Uta’s uncontrollable and histerical laughter is such a masterful move:

This is the guy who dug up Ren from the ground because he was his “friend”. Now he’s just a mouth apparently.

Idk but this seems like the key panel for analyzing Uta from psychological angle. This dude most pronounced feature is his mouth which is nothing like human’s or ghoul alike. It’s like he’s truly the chaotic trickster god with none of the sentiments he was hinted to possess.

I was talking with @gaiajulz and I love how she pointed out that it seems like Uta is actually drowning out Yomo’s heartfelt words and he isn’t even fully aware he’s doing it. With Uta’s firm worldview, he’d rather go full crisis-mode instead of acknowledging how vulnerable and in need of closeness he is. 

Honestly Uta is soo Washuu-like in this panel, like Furuta’s older brother or something. First screech like a  Cthulu monster and then do a little happy dance!

What’s important is how Uta links what he sees as Yomo’s nivete with his emotional honesty and lack of any hidden agendas. Yomo is pure and good and this is why he is naive enough to trust a world like this. Uta saw so many sides to it, he literally sees no other option than to play the fool, including fooling around with one of the precious few of potentially close people in his life.

I also think he kind of looks like crying? From laughing so hard maybe. 

The chapter ends with my baby going full kakuja (predictably it’s his shifty face that’s the most inhuman part here, just a mass of flesh) and this flirty words:

Renji seems so shocked, it’s possible he had never seen this form. Either way he’s speechless.

And Uta’s philosophy is hinted at again - he’s willing to trample his friend just to feel anything. 

What we are dearly in need of is some good meta on Uta’s mental health, how his values feature into it and how his own actions contribute to it unraveling. Obviously such speculations are about as scientific as psych profiling but I feel it would be very important to try and understand this character better.

And boy, is there a lot to unpack here... 

Edit - crossed the parts where it’s suggested it’s Uta who summarizes Clown’s philosophy. It’s Itori and I don’t get my brain could hint at the discrepancies in my own thinking but not make the definite link. Gotta love that sweet ADHD folks.

[pandabearlikes]

Temporary Affairs II

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Chapter o3.  Perfect Imperfection

  One Thursday evening, you nonchalantly sat on the rocking chair with soft lullabies playing through a headphone for the baby to listen to.  Light kicks emerged from your five-month pregnant belly and you patted it gently in response while gazing lovingly down at the child inside of you.  

  Suddenly, a beep came from your tablet, notifying you of an update.  Leaning over, you took the device off the vanity and swiped the screen a few times.  You looked at the screen curiously as the Facebook application automatically started up. 

  You narrowed your eyes and brought the flickering screen mere inches from your eyes.  Someone had posted on Jongin’s Facebook wall with a picture of Sohee and him during a masquerade ball and labeled it with tags #tbt #youtwoweresocute.  Bending your neck back, you snorted.  Does this person NOT know Jongin is now married?  

  You cursed under your breath.  Trying to contain your frustration, you scrolled down Jongin’s FB page and discovered that he had set his relationship status to be hidden.  Your jaw opened wide.  What?  Was he embarrassed to tell people that I was his wife?    

  Frowning and admittingly a bit hurt, you scrolled back up to the picture of Sohee and Jongin to examine every small detail.  From Jongin’s smile, to his sexy gelled-up hair, to his hands that were….you narrowed your eyes…they were on Lee Sohee’s hip area - borderline booty.  You snarled.  Clicking on her profile to stalk see your love rival, you weren’t at all surprised when the first post included several pictures of her in a form fitting dress promoting her beautiful S-curved…She…does have a nice body…

  But wait…WHAT WAS THAT???  KIM JONGIN LIKED IT?!  The tablet almost fell out of your hands and you managed to catch it just in time and as you do you accidentally hit the “like” button as well.  Oh fudge.  Now she’ll know you’ve been stalking her.  So you sat there debating whether you should unlike it or not.  While you pondered, the corner of your eyes caught your reflection in the mirror and you had to do a double take.  Holy crap, your figure was so not praiseworthy at this moment.  You mean…it was a given since you were pregnant and all but even you had to admit that compared to Sohee’s perfect figure…you paled in comparison.  Your shoulders slacked and you sighed.  Just as you do, your husband walked out from the bathroom with only a towel on his hip.  But you can’t even find it within yourself to spaz over his perfect chiseled body.    

  Dwindling of any will to feign a smile, you heard your voice ask, “Oppa, do you want to have sex?” 

  Jongin’s head whipped around immediately, looking at you as if you grew two horns on the top of your head.  

  “Jagiya, are you okay?” he inquired, placing his palm on your forehead.  

  “Is that a ‘no’?” you asked, your voice depleted of energy.  Yep, sexual appeal = zero.    

  “But you’re pregnant, Jagiya,” he reasoned, still confused by your sudden suggestion.

  “Is it because I’m not attractive anymore?” you probed, curling your knees up to your chin.

  “No, of course not.  Babe, what’s wrong?” he asked slipping on a pair of pants and sitting down on the bed with you.  

  “Is it because my figure isn’t as perfect as Sohee’s?” you can’t believe you just murmured out loud but you did.

  Jongin covered his face with a hand in exasperation just like all the other times you brought up his ex.  Though, his other still stroked your palms soothingly.  

  “How many times did you have sex with her?” you knew you were walking on a borderline but you took the dive anyway.

  Jongin’s eyes widened and you almost thought his eyeballs would pop out and fall into the palms of your hands.  His mouth opened permanently, speechless at your accusations.  What does that mean?  Your eyes grew glossier and glossier with every moment that passed without an answer.

  Finally he denied, “Where did you get the idea from?  Sohee and I never had an intimate relationship!”

  Strong denial = affirmation.  You bit your tongue to not cry but you don’t respond.  

  “Honey, I’m serious.  How in the world did you even get that idea?” he asked again, pulling you into his embrace and you started vocally crying.  

  “Lee Sohee hinted to me that you guys did,” you finally admitted tearfully.  

  He pulled you apart so you’d look at him in the eyes, “Are you telling me you’d rather trust her than trust your own husband?”

  “Then why’d you like her picture of Facebook?” you retorted.

  “W-what?  I did not.  I haven’t even been on Facebook for over a year,” he held his hands out defensively.  

  You snickered.  You gave him the chance to have an honest conversation with you and he was lying.  Angrily, you grabbed your tablet and showed him the picture with his supposed “like”.  He squinted and brought the device closer to his face.  With a snort, he turned the screen back to your direction.  

  “Jagiya, read it carefully.  Don’t tell me you don’t even know how to spell your own husband’s name,” he spoke.  

  You raised your eyebrow and took a closer look.  

  Kim…

  Jong…

  Dae…

  Internal face palm.  Embarrassed, you turned around to hide in a messy heap of blankets.  Shaking his head, Jongin chuckled, and took both your hands into his.  

  “Look at me, Jagiya,” he ordered but you were still so darn humiliated so he had to physically turn your head with both his hands.  

  You whimpered, pouting and fidgeting with the bed sheets under you.  

  “I love you,” he spoke, “but I must not be proving my words well and giving you a sense of security”.

  You shook your head, “No.  No Oppa, it’s not your fault.  It’s mine and my over sensitivity and the fact that I know you wouldn’t have married me if you had a choice”.

  “What?” his tone was loud and serious, causing you to flinch so he softened his voice and firmly said, “That is my fault too”.

  You looked up at him with furrowed eyebrows.

  “It’s my fault because I was a jerk to you when we first met.  But trust me.  Please.  I love you and I would marry you a thousand…a million more times even if I didn’t have to”.  

  “Really?” you looked up shyly.  He immediately nodded and a small smile crept on your lips.  Jongin sighed in relief.  

  “So are we good?” he asked, shaking your hands up and down.

  “Mhmm..”

  He exaggeratedly puckered his lips and you leaned in to kiss him.  He wrapped his arm around your neck to pull you closer.

      In the middle of the night, you’re awoken by the bed shaking underneath you.  Confused, you turned around to see Jongin stirring in his sleep, the pillow beneath him soaked in cold sweat.  You shook him.

  “Oppa.  Oppa…” you called, stroking his cheek while his eyes fluttered open.

  Fear drained any life in his eyes, in turn also scaring you to pieces.  You watched helplessly as he held his breath and stared at the ceiling with empty eyes.  You waved your hand in front of him but he doesn’t respond.  Your heart thumped loudly in your ears.  Without another solution, you threw your arms around his tensed body.  This was so foreign from the calm and happy husband you fell in love with.  

  “Oppa, it was just a nightmare.  I’m here,” you soothed but he remained still as a statue so you pulled his hand and placed it on your belly, “The baby’s here too”.

  Finally, he blinked.  Gradually, as if your child held the power to revive people, his soul returned back to his stilled body.  Jongin took a deep breath and relaxed under your embrace.  But you don’t dare let go, afraid you’d lose him to the Demons again, so instead your hold tightened.  Seeing this, Jongin brought his hand to your head and stroked it.  

  “Sorry, did I scare you?” he questioned.  

  You sighed in relief at the gentle sound of your husband’s voice.  

  “Oppa, did you have a nightmare again?” you asked, looking up at his now softer expression.

  “Mm…yeah but I’m fine now.  Don’t worry about it,” he assured.

  It’s my fault. 

  And it killed you each time he tried to hide his fears from you.  Were you not trustworthy enough?  Because wasn’t that what husbands and wives did?  They shared their burdens.  But you made no attempt to ask any further, afraid that Jongin would feel pressured to open his heart to you when you didn’t deserve it.  So the only thing you could do was pull him closer against you, hoping your warmth and the baby’s presence was enough to warrant him a soundless slumber. 

    a/n: lOL  this girl and her #firstworldproblems…haha I know she’s super immature right now (but really, look at me straight in the eyes and tell me if you’ve ever stalked your bf/crush’s exes before.  I DARE YOU TO SAY “NO”  I DARE YOU xD). She will grow up through his story though :D. 

  I have so many feels today.  Kris’s new song omg TAT.  I’ve been replaying it all day.  I’m crying over this other story that I wrote (omg, IDK why I keep crying while writing.  SO RIDICULOUS).  And ANY NARUTO FANS out there…because omg I finally read chp. 698 and I can’t even… @$@#%@%@@@%

  >3< I LOVE YOU GUYS SO SO MUCH!!!!!!