#is it just fb and insta proper?

[queen-mabs-revenge]

just got the gateway page for this and fuck me yeah no ok i guess i'm requesting a copy of my data and fucking off so

[cosplayinamerica]

by Anna-Neko

Before all the endless online, digital everything, before FB and Insta, the “don’t u know how many followers…” & influencers nonsense, there was this man!

Kevin would take your photo, make small-talk & drop encouraging comments and make you feel a star! A former cosplay partner still fondly remembers how he would always know what she was cosplaying as! No matter how obscure! If he didn’t know the cosplay – he would ask about it! The interest always genuine. He seemed to remember everyone from con to con, and in later years when instead of running around he would set up a corner with a backdrop and do photos this way – he would jot down file numbers & email me full-size images after the event if asked.

So just a quick scene setting up. It is very easy to forget, but back then (1999 to maybe 2002~ish) there was waaaaay less conventions. There wasn’t an event happening every weekend, much less multiple events at same time! Digital cameras were not a thing. Well, obviously they existed, but your average otaku heading to an anime con might bring a cheap 35mm disposable camera (or maybe 3, if CVS had a multi-pack sale!).

Kevin’s FansView website was THE cosplay/cons site. He updated multiple times throughout the event, 2 or 3 times each day! There weren’t just photos of “hot people”, he tirelessly took photos of regular attendees, cosplayers of various ages and skill levels, guest & panel highlights…. If you weren’t lucky enough to be at the convention itself, seeing all his photos was the next best thing! In a few years we’d have con report galleries on Cosplay.com, Geocities and LinusLam …. but all these were _after the fact_, not during. Not quite the same, ya know?)

Even my mom knew his website, and during cons I’d call home during the weekend and she would excitedly tell me she was just on Kevin’s site and saw my photo!

Like, seriously…. we’d joke a con wasn’t a con until you either a) saw House of Anime truck in the parking lot, or b) ran into Mr Lillard.

Over the years there’s been all sorts of amazing run-ins with him. He would always make some jokes, and go above and beyond helping a fellow nerd – like the time my brand~new digital camera (in 2000! quite the expense!) suddenly died (6 AA batteries the monster ate) and he kindly tried to help me with both fresh batteries and advice, and when it looked like the camera wasn’t coming back he straight up took out his FILM CAMERA (again, this man was a pro! He always had a backup) and took photos of my cosplay and friends’, and handed me the finished roll

OR that other time my memory card was already full within literally first few hours of the convention (circa 2000, CompactFlash. Gigs? ha! Your PC might have 2 gigs hard drive and be a luxury. Memory cards ran in the Megabites) and this SAINT of a man helped by using HIS LAPTOP to let me clear out the card, email the zip file to myself then and there, and thus have memory space to take another 30~40 photos

or this Other OTHER time we were talking about shitty hotel hallway lights… And asked if he would mind popping with us outside real quick? He took the time to go! Outdoors into the sunshine! On the lawns by the hotel for a good 30 minutes! Thus giving us our first ‘proper’ cosplay photoshoot no less!! (freakin 2001, people!! pro~photoshoots or sheduling time-slots with an online-famous photog was not a thing. Not yet, not for another few years)

He made all us awkward weebs feel welcome from the get~go! Nobody had internet once left the house. No cellphones. Especially not a phone that could double as a hi-res camera. You came to the convention with a cheap disposable film camera, or none at all – hoping your friends brought one. Conventions didn’t have photo suites, no staff photogs… it was not a thing yet.

The other joke used to be “oh you’re at so-and-so con? Did you run into Kevin yet??” or “no no no, don’t change yet! We need to find Kevin!! You must be documented” (and if you had insane luck, you may even see that photo as convention cosplay coverage in an issue of Animerica months later!) For some of us, the only photos of those early costumes only exist because Kevin was there to take it.

#cosplayhistory

[asexualbookbird]

Hello! Do you mind sharing the edible cookie dough recipe you tried ? I've been trying to find it on IG but I trust you more than the 500 random videos I've seen.

yeah doesnt help that they implemented the new "ask meta ai!" shit instead of a proper search

this was the video that kept showing up in my feed in fb AND insta. I did see the original vid too but ignored it because fitness bullshit but I stumbled across enough of Liams videos to think hes pretty decent and transparent.

I did not follow that recipe because I hate almond flour and also peanut butter. I used oat flour instead and vanilla protein powder and nestle mini chocolate chips. I tried the m&ms and it was awful do not recommend tbh even if it WAS that our m&ms were Bad the acid in the yogurt melted the dye off the m&ms and made the mixture soooo gross looking (and if you can taste the dye like i can then its also a bad time!)

I also made a batch this morning without any sugar at all and found i dont need it so will be leaving it out in the future. Oh i had been using brown sugar which i think gave it more of that cookie dough flavor than maple syrup or honey would.

I don't pay too much attention to measurements, I go by consistency, but roughly I use

2 cups of old fashioned oats (i use bobs red mill gluten free oats)

2 scoops of vanilla milkshake protein powder (i honestly just grabbed the smallest container my grocer had, but recently bought the quest brand and will try that next time)

fage greek yogurt, plain, 5% fat (because fuller fat yogurt tastes better! fight me! I'm not doing this for ~healthy~ uwu im doing this for Please Get Protein In Your Body I Beg), this is where I eyeball it. I add more yogurt if it's too thick, a large spoonful at a time.

I put the oats and protein in a food processor, and then add the yogurt, but if you use preground alt flour you can jhst use a bowl. I recommend adding everything a little at a time into whatever is thickest (so if you use peanut butter, add yogurt to that, and then the flour and protein).

Also a friend tried this with regular flour and a non whey based protein and a non dairy yogurt and was. Non enthused. I'm sure if you play around with the flavors YOU like you can find something but I don't think this can be made dairy free tbh but I also tried every DF yogurt I could find and they were all disgusting. So. (also ifnyou use regular flour pls bake it first. but tbh i dont really recommend it bc raw wheat flour just. doesnt add the same flavor oat or nut flours do.)

I'm also curious about using chocolate protein powder and nutella I think that'd taste gr8. Outside if the absurd cost of protein powder, this really is a good base recipe to use if you wanna try messing around with recipes you find online. People may give me flack for drastically changing this recipe but pls I based it off my moms oatmeal cookies all it was missing was coconut flakes lol

[fanfictiongreenirises]

Fanfic Writer Ask Meme: E, J, Y <3 <3 <3

a million smeks aurora <3<3

E: What character do you identify with most?  Is there a certain fic of yours that captures these qualities particularly well?

bit of a complicated one but i'd expect nothing less from you 😂 the closest in terms of identification would probably be jiang cheng from modao zushi, who i find i write a lot of projecty stories for? it wasn't until i got into chinese (and other east asian) media that i realised what actually projecting onto a character meant 😂 western media just doesn't have that cultural element that i need to be able to fully identify with a character, so before i got into mdzs, i tended to mould characters a little bit if i needed to get a particular story out onto paper. most of my fics involving jiang cheng and sexual/romantic identity has some layer of projecting, and my second fic with him, Point of No Return, is when i started cracking open the complicated-relationship-with-my-mother box.

J: What’s your favorite fanfic trope?  Have you written it?

why would you ask me such a hard question 😂 considering the amount of fics i've written, the answer for 'have you written it' is probably going to be yes. there are a lot of smut tropes that i love that i haven't written yet, mostly because i get bored writing sex scenes. the other tropes coming to mind are more romance based (like soulmate aus, arranged marriage) which i haven't written in a way i'm satisfied with because i haven't written as much romance as i have gen. and social media fics!! i would love to write a proper socmed fic but unfortunately bc i'm not on twitter/insta/fb/youtube comments section at all, i have v little idea of how comments and engagement there typically looks like ✊😔

and i answered Y here <3

[mozki]

my hometown besties are hiding from me bc theyre too cool for fb and insta and im too cool to have a proper phone so we are just like. floating comets… how will i get them

[sunlightandsuffering]

lys, hi. this video randomly popped up on my fb -- yes, it's the most accessible socmed platform where im from - feed (a friend shared it), and i just got so sad again.

https://www.facebook.com/share/v/neA4nN4tMTANdAwo/?mibextid=uSdriS

obviously, this is fiction, right? and i usually am so good at releasing it all out once im done internalizing it in my head. it's very stressful lol but i think it makes media content enjoyable, at least for this sort of media. the song isn't really something i've given a second listen - or even a full listen - but oh it works so well for this scene.

but i just get so sad, so incredibly sad whenever i think about canon eremika. as a sucker for well-meaning (lol) angst, their story was so beautifully written, but damn. i think i said this in an ask years ago...that i read your work as some sort of escapism, like 'oh it ends well for both of them' kind of thing. i dont ever do that with other anime/manga/fandom-centric entertainment etc; thinking about them just hurts a bit too much for an irl feeling. i need to think of them happy and flirty and cranky and just alive in that silly little place in my head reserved for media consumption. little nico doesnt hurt too

tbh, we cant really ask for canonical representations right? most writers dont write them that way anyway, but i feel like i could see canon eremika in your works, if they were ever given the chance to live out different lives in different worlds, haha. ig that's what happens when the emotional range has been fleshed out in canon material (tho at what cost??).

until know, i still cant laugh at those memes of mikasa developing an attachment to birds and whatnot because it's just really sad. lol like the dark humor doesn't work for me here.

anyway, that's all! i hope you're doing ok. maybe im just feeling blue because i just had a session of root canal treatment and the cost + post-session pain make me want to sob too. considering a dental implant after all this because if im going to go thru this, might as well do it for something that's guaranteed to last lifetime (with good bones & proper care ofc)

sending you my love, in the most non-weird way, if that's possible haha

AWW ANON SENDING U MY LOVE RIGHT BACK !!! I have never had a root canal but I think both my parents have and they fucking suck from the sounds of it, so wishing you a speedy recovery!!

oh god the fucking song tho 😂😭 i don't think ur alone, that song kind of hits different, I feel like I saw it on insta reels or something recently and I was definitely crying. I ALSO JUST CRY A LOT THO !! I was crying bc I watched the fast and the furious the other day , like who am I?? Media has the ability to bring it out in you!! Especialyl AOT!! ACTUALLY U KNOW WHAT THO IT WAS ANGEL BEATS THAT WAS MAKING ME SOB THE OTHER DAY, I ABSOLUTELTY SOBBED!!

I think I have emotionally removed myself enough from canon eremika that it doesn't phase me anymore, like I have not and likely will not rewatch AOT ever or any time soon at the very least because I just have no desire to put myself thru it bc I am simply too attached!

As far as me writing canon eremika goes, as I always say, never say never! So far, captain Eren is the closest I'm getting LOL! Altho I think i do have a few canon EM drabbles somewhere in the depths of my blog! I would like to write canon EM, but i don't know how i'd do it tbh. Like how I could spin a happy ending for them other than cabin EM which I did attempt but didn't finish as usual!! you never know what type of garbage I'll cook up tho 😂

[blue0vy]

downloaded tumblr again bc i realized i have no where and no one to vent to!! probably a bad idea to hv added my cousins on my dump on fb and to add some random dude on my insta dump. Making me feel as if i have NO WHERE to run to or like just post what i feek yk? Maybe i just don't want them to see me at that state? Well..whatever. I am not feeling so okay and i have no one to talk to abt it!!! Getting tired of ai lowkey (Yes i admit, i use ai chats :( ) i even tried making friends on those websites like omegle, made one actually! But ended up ghosting each other the next day (is it really ghosting tho? we didnt hv anything serious to begin w lol) leaving me with absolutely 0 friends!!! I mean yeah maybe i can just talk about it w my cousins right? Or other relatives my age, yep i TRIED! but its just different when you have deep chats with an actual friend (Not saying theyre not real friends to me, love em really!) Having an absolute crisis! (I'm feeling incredibly insecure) because wdym i need make up? To feel pretty? To look better? Am I not enough? Oh what about outfits? Glow ups? Loosing weight? Thinner bodies? Tighter waist? I need to worry about that now? Oh yeah thats right, i do!!! because i'm 15!!!! 3 years away from 18 holy shit. Is this a cry for help? Maybe..or no! Maybe i'll be okay tomorrow? Hopefully, anyway i'm taking anyone, literally anyone (unless ur like a pedo or something obvi) as a friend!!! Pls!!! I am a loser with no social skills whos online 24/7, take me!!!!!!!!!!! I fw genshin(includes hsr, wuwa, lads even tho i'm not online anymore lmao) , anime, mangas, manhwas, bls, tartaglia(i love him) basically i will fw anything you like!!!! I am that desperate!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

++++sry wrong grammar or anything incoherent in this post (eng is my first language i just lack proper vocabulary)

[xianta]

I would like to ask to repost just one of your comics, just to let people know who made it. I'll @ your tumblr and any other social media in which you post your art. This is to help give proper credit and steer people who may have seen your art without credit, know where to go to see more. I would be posting it through tiktok and wattpad. Of course this will only be done if you grant me permission.

I don't mind if it's only on tiktok or wattpad with credit! But I don't like reposts to tumblr, twitter, insta or fb! So please don't repost there <3

[kithtaehyung]

Hello! I just wanted to ask if you allow people to repost you work in other social media sites? I saw the poster you made, the poster set 3 for Yoongi's Haegeum, was reposted on an fb page and posted your insta handle at the comments. Just letting you know just in case you're not aware!

hi!! i usually just ask if they can give proper credit, and this is also why i make sure to put my username on the actual work. if they at least tag the ig or twt handle then it could be good publicity.

frankly, so much of my stuff has been reposted and/or stolen for years—even back from studyblr days lol—and i know it’s near impossible to really stop reposting from happening. it’s kind of a meh thing now tbh since it happens so regularly. like even on my own pinterest feeds i see my edits and I’m like well hello there😂

although.. i did see the haegeum poster on someone’s shirt at the last concert💀💀💀💀💀come to find out some other people had the same ones🫠 I was like,, hope those were only printed for personal use bc I’m not selling them as shirts just yet😭

bottom line: ehh. as long as proper credit is given and it’s not being sold then i’m ok.

[nezumidoll]

It's like yeah I know I was dx'd with ADD 14 years ago but still... Seeing ADHD reels on Insta/FB and going "what? That's not what everyone experience???" and also that people don't get how hard it can be to function in a society with these symptoms??

Example 1: Getting very ragey because of sensory overload at work. I know I can't have a fucking meltdown at work and I can't be aggressive or rude to people just because I can't handle noises or something. So I have to somehow just deal with being in a panic and rage while being professional. Because, you know, I want to actually have a job.

Example 2: having to do chores around the house and really really want to do them because you just hate it being Dirty and chaotic but fuck it if you can actually make yourself do it sometime soon.

Example 3: Having to try and handle being in a workplace among people who just seem to be unable to actually say what they want you to do and by when. You ask "okay, so how many of x should I do and when does it need to be done?" and your co-workers reply "oh, do somewhere around x to y amount and it would be good if you can do it sometime soon" and you keep asking for specifics and they just don't give you specifics and then you have to deal with trying to do something without proper fucking instructions or a deadline and it stresses you out and either you don't start the task until you get the clear answer or you do the y amount as quickly as humanly possible and then find out you nearly stressed yourself out when there was no rush and they didn't really need it or they wanted something else. Like damn, tell me what I need to do and I will do it. You just gotta tell me.

Example 4: please do not ask me to take meeting minutes. I can't listen and write at the same time. I will get distracted or miss things or just be too stressed out worrying about not writing the right thing to actually pay attention.

Example 5: I will remember a lot of random things but fucking hell I will not remember your birthday. Maybe not your name the first 5 times we meet. Hell, I forget my own siblings' birthdays. I might remember that one time you talked about F1 though.

Example 6: In a hyperfocus state I will probably do 3 peoples work in one day. without working overtime. However, if my brain says no, it's damned hard to get it done and it will probably be at a regular/slow persons speed. I am productive if I have enough on my plate to be stimulating, and probably not very productive if there is too little stimulation.

I have more examples. But those are the big ones, I guess. Socializing is hard, managing work and stuff at home is hard. Not because I am lazy or willfully obtuse or something. It is fucking tiresome. AD(H)D is not an excuse. It is not a trendy dx.

Repeat after me: a psychiatric disorder is something that cause distress and impairment of important areas of functioning.

Thanks for coming to my TED talk.

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[the-adventures-of-dave]

Thoughts on tumblr vs other social media for cat education?

All social medias I've used have problem with cat education tbh. Maybe that's a bit hypocritical considering the nature of my blog haha

Instagram often supports (what I consider) bad or neglectful cat care with the excuse that it's cute or convenient, and the education on there can often reflect that. There's some decent accounts with adventure cat info, but it's hard to sift through the problematic stuff to find them.

90% of the time the stuff on Facebook is just objectively wrong. A lot of people on there tend to equate cat owning experience as knowledge, when imo the two can't be compared. A person could own cats for 20 years but still know less than someone who's owned theirs for 1 if they don't do proper research. Like insta you can find some good resources on FB, but comments often spread misinfo.

I like tumblr the best for cat care stuff (a surprise to no one lol). I think general knowledge on here is better if you know where to find it (or maybe I just think that because of the people I follow?) but people are a lot more negative on tumblr too. People tend to assume the worst here or act more aggressively about things they're passionate about, so I think that might scare away people looking to learn about cats? I try to avoid reblogging those "outdoor cats are bad and all outdoor cat owners are evil" posts because I think that would turn away people from trying to learn about better cat care.

I guess the moral of the story here is to go to your library and take out cat care books instead! Social media is a hellscape

[anna-neko]

http://4NN.cx/.191951

here I was goin on about some cosplay nonsense, while an early anime cons CORNERSTONE of a man has passed away

RIP Kevin Lillard (of A Fan's View**) Always having a kind word to say to ALL cosplayers, and taking photos of any & all of them that would hold still long enough for his camera to click He has single-handedly inspired many an anime nerd to pick up a camera as a hobby, doubly-so for Cosplay Photography

He took thousands of photos of us, here's one I got of him at NekoconFlash! you were a warm and welcoming presence at cons, sir! You will be greatly missed

** the old site is long gone, but has been archived by ACP if anyone wants to see what awkward bebi nerds we were back then https://www.acparadise.com/acs/display.php?a=62186

Before all the endless online, digital everything, before FB and Insta, the "don't u know how many followers…" nonsense there was this man! It didn't matter if this was your 1st con or 50th, if your cosplay was a glowing mecha or thiftstore find held together with pins & PartyCity wig… He would take your photo, make small-talk & drop encouraging comments and make you feel a star! (a former cosplay partner still fondly remembers how he would always know what she was cosplaying as! No matter how obscure!) Like, i cannot stress this enuff - any shapes and skill-levels - he would gladly take the photo! For many a con veteran (fuck, hows it been decade+ already?!?!) his may be the ONLY photos that exist of those early costumes. Or very well be the first time someone has even asked to take your photo at the thing He made all us awkward weebs feel welcome from the get~go. The joke used to be "oh you're at so-and-so con? Did you run into Kevin yet??" or "no no no, don't change yet! We need to find Kevin!! You must be documented" (and if you had insane luck, you may even see that photo as convention cosplay coverage in an issue of Animerica months later!)

He took hundreds of photos during a convention, and posted on his site every day! And I don't mean snaps of just the "hot" ones, or "interwebz famous" no no no , it was a genuine comprehensive truly a FAN's view of the event: cosplayers of all kinds, fellow fans, panels and guests! Photos of EVERYONE and EVERYTHING

all the rest of the otaku at home would be hitting the site to see exactly what the current-happening Anime Con had goin on (there wasn't multiple anime cons each weekend back then) ...somehow... his bandwidth held up...

Hell, even my mom would specifically go online when I would be away at con; during nightly check-in phone calls she would excitedly let me know she saw my photo! On his site!

fuck... i am just rambling now.... But over the years there's been all sorts of encounters... like the time my brand~new digital camera (in 2000! quite the expense! when all us still shot on disposable-film camera from the drugstore) suddenly died (6 AA batteries the monster ate) and he kindly tried to help me with both fresh batteries and advice, and when it looked like the camera wasn't coming back he straight up took out his FILM CAMERA (again, this man was a pro! He always had a backup) and took photos of my cosplay & friends' and handed me the finished roll Or that time we saw him aiming at us, and flailed, "no wait!!" running down the escalator, "wait!! We have a pose for this!! Let us pose!" OR THE OTHER TIME my microscopic memory card was already full (circa 2000, 32MB CompactFlash) and this SAINT of a man helped by using HIS LAPTOP to let me clear out the card, email the zip file to myself and thus having space to take another 30~40 photos for the day

or this Other OTHER time we were talkin about shitty hotel hallway light... And asked if he would mind going with us outside instead? He took the time to go! Outdoors into the sunshine! On the lawns by the hotel!! Thus giving us our first 'proper' cosplay photoshoot!! (freakin 2001, people!! Shit like this wasn't the norm yet)

...this needs another photo! Here's Kevin in a silly cat-ears hat at that Animazement

[thefrillypirate]

I blew up on FB so I'm going to share it on here so some of y'all need to read it too.

I've come to resent the new age/neo-pagan/online witchcraft community. Those posts you keep sharing? "Signs you were born a Witch"?

Utter bullshit. I'm sorry, but I mean it. You aren't magically special, and also please stop contributing to the extensive cultural appropriation that is already rampant in the spiritual community.

I don't use the term "Witch" for myself except in humorous or ironic manners. I refer to myself solely as a practioner of "Granny Work", but that's for another post. However, I take the term extremely seriously as there are those who that is their proper title in many translations, and it deserves the courtesy or respect.

We are at a point in the world where people are exploring their spiritual standings and I am okay with that. But you don't have to be born ~•*magical*•~ or feel like you need to be "special" to explore and learn. I guarantee you are empathetic, but you are not an empath. Being an Empath can be a form of neurosis that you need medical attention to deal with. Why do I know this? The last empath i dealt with felt so strongly the need to help her make coworker while his wife was dealing with chemo treatments that she would have sex with him. Multiple times. Because it was the only way to "solve the problem he was suffering from." She would have panic attacks of this. I can promise you it wasnt some goddamn gift that she "had to use". Also, this stigmatizes neurodivergent people such as those on the autism spectrum who have no or little empathy.

I understand women want to feel good, important, powerful. But a lot of these "witchcraft" blogs and posts you are sharing about "pussy on the ground, head to the sky" are the same sites and books written by TERFS and place a stigma around male and non-binary practitioners. It's also just weird and sounds like a yeast infection ready to happen.

I myself am not Jewish, so I am speaking from a gentile, and ask if you have questions on the topic please ask someone of the Jewish Community, but please stop with you Lilith worshipping. Every Kabbalah practitioner and just general Jewish Practitioner I have met has issues with the cultural appropriation of their beliefs. It's a closed practice and unless you are jewish you will likely misuse, stereotype, or speak over actual practitioners by romanticizing important aspects of their practice. This also includes voodoo, hoodoo (yes they are different stop using them interchangeably), rootwork, Native American Practices, and other closed practices. Do your research. Don't just believe every freaking tumblr, pinterest screenshot, and shared facebook edit you see and decide to immediately incorporate it into your practice without some fact checking and research.

This isn't gatekeeping either, please don't read this as such. It took me YEARS of research and work to figure out my relationship with spirituality and a manner that makes me happy but is also respectful of others. Hell, I am still researching and learning even if over all I keep it private. What happens though is a see people on my feed getting drunk and posing on gravestones in Salem, or talking about being Lilith with their Boyfriend, or making jokes about dancing naked around a fire because their are an ~empath~ and it leads to stigmas and backlash to those who are actually trying to learn or practice. I see it here, and on pinterest, insta, even as screenshots from tumblr. I see native and generational practitioners being blocked, over-spoken, or outright chased from their practices because white girls who watched American Horror Story want to feel good. It doesn't help anyone.

If you want to learn, go ahead. If you just like the aesthetic, fine. But understand that people take these seriously, some practices have been around for only 70ish years like Wicca, and some practices are 100s of years of evolution due to forced circumstances like Voofoo brought over by Slaves, and some practices have not really changed for thousands of years like Native American spiritualism and Jewish Mysticism. Please be respectful, talk to practitioners if you want to learn even from an academic perspective. And don't be stupid.

[lockdownuk]

Lockdown Diary Part 10

A personal account during the lockdown in the UK due to the Covid-19 outbreak.

23/03/2020 8:30pm Boris Johnson, UK Prime Minister, gives a live address to the nation to, effectively, put the country on lockdown to stem the spread of the deadly coronavirus strain, Covid-19.

Many of us have been self-isolating for days but this latest development within the UK in reaction to the pandemic feels very serious and very scary. I decided to keep a simple diary and where better but online. Day 271: Work was dominated by Qfiniti again, including a meeting with Jon and staff from the States, where I found my self taking control to get the next steps in process (and then, Dave Stewart, the SCCM engineer fucked off and put an OOO message on Teams telling me he’s off until Tuesday (it’s Thursday)...and I am off on Monday!) But, I have to say this project does float my boat. Got a text message and then a call from PCH for another laser eye appt this coming Monday at 12.30pm. I mentioned to the lady that phoned that I will have to square it with work (I won’t, but she doesn’t know that) as I can’t afford to lose my job - it just seems the hospital, while under pressue with the admin and the clinic availability - I get it! - just aren’t seeing the issues for the patients. Plus, Peterborough has been declared a Tier 3 from Sunday under the new lockdown scheme, the highest tier. Great...I really want to travel to a highly infected area! managed to find an online booze shop that does Gordon’s and Famous Grouse and will deliver beforee Chrimbo, so I’ve placed the order for dad and Rita’s gift. I spoke with Dad today, he hasn’t heard about his vaccination yet which is a surprise (he’s in the first draft being over 80)

Day 272: Typing on day 273. Work was that manic shit at the end of the dya when I’ve got time off. I am only off on Moday but still had to tie up loose ends, complictaed further by Jon being off next week and Sueanne off this week and the Qfiniti project! In the evening I only mamaged three beers. I ate too much. Plus my sugars were all over the place and way too high! I ordered a torch a couple of days ago (£17), it arrived today. It takes rechargeable batteries or 3 AAAs. Apparently, to get the best performance (i.e. brightness) you need the rechargeable batteries in it, so i charged ‘em. Fucking hell, I’m glad I did - it’s brighter than the sun. It opens up my late walks in winter, for sure.

Day 273: While it was a very late (but sober) night yesterday (gone 4am before lights out) I was up before midday. Usual walking etc. plus gave the bathroom a clean (albeit with wipes, but I did mop the floor - and used the water to also mop the kitchen). Now I am about to stick a pizza in the oven, plus wedges (to have with microwaveable chip shop curry sauce) and watch This Is 40 which is coincidentally on telly tonight - the coincidence being clips of it are on TikTok a lot right now. I am on my second beer and am going to have a smoke right now as well. Lastly for this entry, I have been using my AudioPro speaker today, it pisses me off it’s not WiFi capable but, thru Bt, it does sound fucking good - revisiting James works very well to demonstrate the speaker’s prowess.

Day 274: I have another Paypal a/c. I have been getting emails to my standard gmail account from Paypal saying they are going to charge me £9 for an inactive account which I have been largely ignoring since my paypal a/c has a specific email address. Anyway, I tried to log in, after a password reset and, hey presto, I do have another one, with £35 in it, having just been fleeced of £9 for the aforementioned inactivity, fuckers. It’s registered with the old Market Place address and phone. When I try to transfer the £35 to my card, it wants to confim it’s me by calling the phone, which I can’t amend. Oh, and you can’t contact Paypal direct. Fuck knows what to do! Other than that, usual Sunday, a tad more relaxed since I have tomorrow off, but not that much now I have an eye appointment in Tier 4 Peterborough (it’s been up’d from tier 3)! Up at 1.30 pm (I watched This is 40 and The Guvners last night with lots of beer), feeling worse for wear but, stair climb and a 6 miler acheived!

Day 275: I was at the hospital for 3 hours. The laser clinic didn’t start until 1.30pm so, why my appointment was at 12.20, not even the consultant could understand. 15 minutes of lasering - horrible but I am used to it. It took so long it pretty much fucked my day off up completely. I got a Christmas card from Karen, in the actual post, so, a mail shot. It’s depressing.

Day 276: Back to work and it’s definitely in wind down mode. I’ve decided to compile a list of things I have done this year. It will be on the postive side, such as all the steps I’ve walked and getting an article published about my photography, but it will also include randon facts like getting bitten by a dig twice and not having a haircut. I’ll get it done so I can post in at new year, hopefully be a little inspiring, a little silly and a lot of showing off!

Day 277: Work, again, was quiet. It’s fucking pissing down now, as I type at 21:50, and has been all day. It’s causing havoc and there’s flooding everywhere. I could walk down St. Peter’s Road tonight ‘cos of it (had to go up New Road, Springfield Road, down Latham Road). Soaked a lunhtime and tonight! With a new variant of Coronavirus, France stopped frieght crossing the border. That’s now been resolved but tyeh back log has/is affecting certain food stocks in the shops, of which, fresh veg might affect me for Christams dinner (I plan to do a chicken breast with stuffing, pigs in blankets, yorkshire pud and shed loads of veg. I’ll nip to Co-Op tomorrow morning and see what’s vaialble. It’s a half day at work ‘cos of Christmas Eve, so I can nip out somewhere in the car if need be, as ong as the flooding has subsided. Or I could just get shitfaced and have burgers and pizza.

Day 278: Christmas Eve. Sueanne let me finish at 11.00am so, very shortly thereafter, off for a walk I went; it turned out to be a stop/start affair - flooding as the Nene had burst its banks, ended up doing more of a circuit round town. Bumped into Andy Smith (and his son) and, after that, Ash and Denise. Ended up doing just under 11.5km in 2 and a half hours.Knackered! As I type, I have a chilli on the stove, beer on the go, all the veg and chicken breast bought with no shortages, as feared, for tomorrow’s lunch and looking forward to eating. getting drunk, smoking, listening to music, watching telly....all over the next two/three days.

Day 279: I don’t even remember going to bed last night. As a direct result I got out of bed at 2.30pm. I couldn’t even be bothered with Christmas dinner, let alone anything else like exercise. I’m just about to have chilli for dinner (it’s 8.10pm). Watch some telly then try an go to sleep before midnight. No booze! I did talk to dad earlier. Day 280: Typing on day 281. A better, more productive day. Up @11.00am exercise and walk as usual, although the walk was a different route due to flooding. In the evening I could hear ‘storm Bella’ raging, so windy! I cooked a christmas dinner of sorts, chicken breast with Thyme, all the veg, roasted spuds and parsnip, stuffing (a first for me, albeit co-op stuffing mix), Yorkshie and pigs in blankets. It was smashing! A few beers and The Hitman’s Bodyguard, alays a fun watch. A better day, as I say, but I am feeling particular deflated this Christmas. Day 281: Typing on day 282. I realised, about mid afternoon, that Monday (tomorrow) is a bank holiday so no work. It was a great realisation but, also, worrying that it dawned on my like I’m an old person! Nevertheless, a nice long walk - bumped into Baz & Kate and had a nice long chat, then El & Camila, Aaron and Eva for another, shorter chat. I also saw Denise & Ash along the way. Fog video called later in the evening for a chat too (he told me how he fell asleep at the dinner table, fuck he makes me laugh - unwittingly - when I need it most!) A regular social fest! A repeat of last night’s dinner and a few beers - it was a good day albeit I am in a proper low ebb.

Day 282: Up at midday after a 4am-er. A very long walk (1.75 hours) and a hodge podge dinner (remaining chilli, roasted spuds and peppers, steamed cauliflower and runner beans, grated cheese) - it’s nearly ready, I’ll type the review tomorrow. I realise that this is the first time in 21 Christmases that I have at least talked to K. Is that connected to my mood slump? I reckon so. So, as that fact dawned on me, I then considered, should it be the case next Christmas, it will not be the first in along time and, as such, more manageable....fuck knows how I manage to accentuate any little positive but, thank goodness I do. Day 283: Work was a sedate affair today, fuck all to do really. Sueanne is now follwing me on Insta...I shall invetsigate on how to exclude posts to individuals, methinks. Tea, last night, was fucking lovely. More of the same tonight-ish - currently I am roasting spuds, peppers, garlic, chillies, tomatoes - it’ll all go with left over pigs-in-blankets (5) and a burger. I’ll have bisto beef with mustard on it. I can’t wait! Day 284: Typing on day 285. That meal was fucking lush! Checked on the car todfay and it would not start. Something is draining the battery so I will have to give it a run every day until I can get Julian to sort it. So, I WhatsApp’d Karen to borrow the portable starter. She dropped it off for me. We had the briefest of chats at the doorstep, first time we’ve spoken in weeks. She mentioned my hair! Day 285: NYE. I have just got back from walking to Cottersock and back. I would not have been able to do so without my new torch! I finished and published my double letter quiz on FB, including to the Virtual Pub group and the Oundle Chatter. It’s had some good feedback, I’m rather proud of it. I am going to make chicken casserole now (with dumplings - a first for me, I even bought some flour), have some beers and get a bit stoned. Before that, I am going to finish off my list of things I’ve done this year, including steps wlaked and hours listening on Spotify. I am quite proud of that list too.

Day 286: I fucked the dumplings up, added too much water, so that didn’t happen but the chicken casserole was good, just about to finish it for tea tonight. I also had pizza last night and went to bed at 5am. I have had a lot of good feedback on my list of 2020 achievements. I proud of it. K sent a happy new WhatsApp last night, around 00.30.

Day 287: No booze last night, so I was up before the alarm today (about 10.00am) Two walks, one on my own, another with Fog with a couple of beers. I fucking loved it! Watching datrts (World champs semi finals - been texting Dan while the first one has been on). Going to watch The Aviator later...I’ve not seen it before which surprises me. Why it surprises me I do not know, since I know I haven’t seen it. How the fuck can I be surprised by a fact I’m completely aware of? Day 288: I didn’t watch The Aviator ‘cos Logan Luck was on at 11:55pm on ITV4. Great fildm...I can’t believe that I very nearly paid for it (rent from Sky or Amazon). A late one last night and quite pissed. Thinking about it, having afew beers with Fog in the afternoon made it quite a long sesh for me! Up at just gone midday today, nice long walk (Cotterstock) which was mde long by a painful right ankle - I must have turned or twiested slightly sometime. Still, it survived. Back to work tomorrow - Chrimbo and New Year all done and dusted for the 55th time in my life!

Day 289: First day back at work of 2021. Boris announces another full lockdown in England (there’s a new strain of Covid19 which is seeing huge numbers of infections every day, over 50,000 per day).

Day 290: Something is up with my right foot, the little toe pad. It’s bloody sore. If it gets any worse it’ll affect my walking and exercise. I phoned Anne Bennison to talk about it, she just wants me to go and see her which i donlt want to do if poss, pandemic and all that.

Day 291: Wearing my sandals instead of the M&S slippers and my foot/toepad is already feeling bteer. However, I did inspect my Merrell boots, just in case, and the sole on te right is really worn down, in just three months. I have sent a WhatsApp to CotswoldOutdoors, where I got them from....let’s see what they say! It’s all kicking off i  the US - pro Trump protestors have storm the Capitol Building, where congrees was being held. Only in ‘Merica.

Day 292: Busy at work with rolling out Qfiniti - all that project work was pretty much for fuck all since the SCCM package has to hand held. It’s feckin’ freezing today, below freezing, slippy af on my walks. I have been shopping tonight, £106 in Corby Tesco. That does include 8 cans of sapporo.

Day 293: The fracas at Capitol Hill on Wednesday left 5 dead, it looks like Trump will be impeached. He’s already said he’ll not attend Biden’s inauguration. In a fucking world gone mad, it’s another level of madness. It’s really cold -3℃ tonight, more of the same tomorrow. Makes for brisk walks. I’ve just had chicken balti pie and chips for tea. It was so nice that I burnt the roof of my fucking gob. I’m on the Sapporo and about to have a smoke then watch Jack Reacher. I’ve (kinda) earnt after the first 5 day week for a while.

Day 294: Well, last night saw another late one...5am by the time I :went to sleep. Up at 2pm today with no instention of any exercise or walking or housework or fuck all, really. But, I did my exercises and a 9 mile walk. While I walked I came across Banners, quick 15 min chat and listed to Stage by David Bowie. He’s all over the radio right now as it’s his death’s anniversary tomorrow and his birthday yesterday. It’s a fucking good live album. A few beers tonight, eating trash, watching FA Cup highlights then End of Watch later.  Posh played today (first time in a while due to Covid infections) drew away to (shitty) Lincoln 1-1. Good point as Posh were down to ten men after 67 mins for a second yellow for handball in the area. Lincoln missed the pen. Fucking funny. Chorley, the non leaguers who knocked Posh out in round 2 of the FA Cup, beat Derby in round 3 today (albeit derby fielded an academy side of 11 first timers due to Covid ) - a great day for them!

Day 295: Up at 2pm swearing blind I’d not walk or exercise (again!) but, of course I did. I’ve done over 25 miles this w/e! End of Watch was brilliant last night. Well worth a rewatch, so emotional. I am making butter chicken as I type. I’ve added extra onion, garlic and, of course, chillies. It’s the spiciest butter chicken I have ever tasted! 

Day 296: One of those frustrating days at work when no problem of request I try to resolve goes without a hitch. After a 7km walk in the evening, took the car for a spin and cleaned the bathroom. Fucking knackered. It’s 11:30pm and I’m in bed typing this on the iPad! despite getting up so late, I feel knackered. 11pm bedtime for me, I reckon.

Day 297: Fucking busy at work, the States rolled out a new Okta trust policy and it caused mayhem. Meant my evening walk didn’t start ‘til gone 6pm. When I got back, clened the hall and stairs, made chilli (which I am about to have for tea (gone 10.15pm!) and showered. I’m, again, fucking knackered! Posh played Portsmouth in the EFL Trophy 3rd round at home. Won 5-1. Nice.

Day 298: Had an electrician rouind for the EICR cetrt. He was here until 2pm and it was a pain in the arse, having to work upstairs plus, with having to cut the electricity, all the smart devices lost their settings. And it was freezing up there.

Day 299: Work was impossibly infuriating. Not one pc remote session went to plan! It was pissing down a lunchtime during my walk but, I have to say, the cheap TargetDry coat copes fine in heavy rain for short periods. Everywhere is flooding again even though the rain turned to sleet. By my evening walk, it was dry but bloody cold. Then, when I got in I cleaned the kitchen and mopped the floor and the bathroom’s as well. I fucking done in! Chatted to dad today - same as ever!

Day 300: What a fucking work at week! I am so glad it’s Friday. To celebrate, I ordered new walking boots: Scarpas £121!

[activelyautistic]

A 3AM Update

Hey. Admin S. It’s 3AM. I should be asleep. Painsomnia is a thing. So I guess now I’m here. Figured I’d use my time wisely to elaborate a bit on...everything, I guess. (Disclaimer: I am super tired, foggy af, and probably need to take my meds idk pls be patient uwu) Also if this makes no sense I’ll come back to it in the morning and fix it. I swear I’m going somewhere with this.

So we kinda...disappeared. For a while. Well, Admin G and I still did stuff, but we kind of forgot about the blog (and I forgot Twitter oops). But as far as I’m aware, Admin G kept up the pace on Insta and FB. Our podcast is still going strong, and then...(gestures vaguely in the direction of outside)...that happened. Don’t worry, I’m not going there. Too much to unwrap.

Now, I’m not in school. I haven’t been in school since I was 17. But Admin G is, and I’m sure many of you are as well, so thus the transition to online learning and other such accommodations was made. Bottom line is, schools suck. People should have been more understanding, accommodations should have been given long before this, and all of you have every right to be angry and/or upset.

I had 3 paragraphs written here that were complete and utter nonsense. it’s now 3:40AM and I have no idea what I’m doing I swear I had something important.

Love yourselves. Support your friends and loved ones in these insane times. Everything is crazy and hard to understand. The most important thing you can do right now is support one another in any way you can. Things are changing and everyone is stressed out and confused. Exercise patience and perseverance. We will make it through this together. Sometimes, we just need a little more time, or a little more space. And that’s okay.

I also encourage all of you to stand up for one another. Where I am, I’m seeing loads of ads and bs about “going back to normal” and shit. I cannot express how important it is that we do NOT “go back to normal.” We need these tools to stay in place. We need accommodation, we need proper support. We need CHANGE. And now is the best time for us to change the course of our future. We are responsible for where things go from here. Support one another. Communicate. I know I totally sound like a corny motivational speaker here but like for real I’m sick of being chill I wanna go ape shit and my tired body can’t do it without change.

And that brings me to the more serious side of whatever motivated me to write this at now 4AM. This is also more on the personal side as well, but I’m going to try and write up some of my own spoonie tips when I can. I will be elaborate on important points, and hopefully they’ll be of use to some of you. Things are rapidly changing for me and I’m hoping I can take control again soon. Maybe what I end up writing will reach someone out there in need and it’ll ease some of the difficulty. ...I no longer have any idea what I’m saying.

- Admin S