#Drop ur insta if u wanna be mutuals!!!!

[blue0vy]

downloaded tumblr again bc i realized i have no where and no one to vent to!! probably a bad idea to hv added my cousins on my dump on fb and to add some random dude on my insta dump. Making me feel as if i have NO WHERE to run to or like just post what i feek yk? Maybe i just don't want them to see me at that state? Well..whatever. I am not feeling so okay and i have no one to talk to abt it!!! Getting tired of ai lowkey (Yes i admit, i use ai chats :( ) i even tried making friends on those websites like omegle, made one actually! But ended up ghosting each other the next day (is it really ghosting tho? we didnt hv anything serious to begin w lol) leaving me with absolutely 0 friends!!! I mean yeah maybe i can just talk about it w my cousins right? Or other relatives my age, yep i TRIED! but its just different when you have deep chats with an actual friend (Not saying theyre not real friends to me, love em really!) Having an absolute crisis! (I'm feeling incredibly insecure) because wdym i need make up? To feel pretty? To look better? Am I not enough? Oh what about outfits? Glow ups? Loosing weight? Thinner bodies? Tighter waist? I need to worry about that now? Oh yeah thats right, i do!!! because i'm 15!!!! 3 years away from 18 holy shit. Is this a cry for help? Maybe..or no! Maybe i'll be okay tomorrow? Hopefully, anyway i'm taking anyone, literally anyone (unless ur like a pedo or something obvi) as a friend!!! Pls!!! I am a loser with no social skills whos online 24/7, take me!!!!!!!!!!! I fw genshin(includes hsr, wuwa, lads even tho i'm not online anymore lmao) , anime, mangas, manhwas, bls, tartaglia(i love him) basically i will fw anything you like!!!! I am that desperate!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

++++sry wrong grammar or anything incoherent in this post (eng is my first language i just lack proper vocabulary)

[eunsangf]

JUST LOVE ME RIGHT UH HUH BABY LOVE ME RIGHT UH HUH

[fallindomino]

how i would have changed s2 of hsmtmts

obvious disclaimer but im not a screenwriter or anyth so im not claiming what i want is best, this is just for fun lololol

okay so first of all nini would still have dropped out of yac but she wouldn’t have gone back to east, she would have transferred to north bc she was too ashamed to tell anyone she left at first and maybe she still wants to explore who she is away from ricky and the others

nini could join north’s batb and this way maybe we could have some playful rivalry with lily and nini and more scenes with antoine shdhdjdj also it could have been a great opportunity to flesh out lily’s character so those scenes where she reaches out to ricky and her confession at the end of the season actually make sense lol

speaking of ricky ,,, i think he should have left the play at some point hear me out. he only joined in the first place because of nini and barely wanted to do it at all once he realized he wasn’t gonna be able to perform with her. he could have joined crew and been a manager with natalie or smth considering he rlly does see the theater gang as a second family. also this would leave so much room for ej and ricky development and bants since ej joined the av club and began to pursue film. they could have some convos where idk ricky asks ej how he figured out what he wanted to do after duke didn’t work out and ricky could actually develop some interests that arent the play or nini ,,, maybe fucking art club i mean he did p good on that centerpiece for carlos’ quinceañera.

with ricky not being the beast anymore i think seb should take his place that would be soooo good. and since seb isn’t chip anymore carlos won’t make those snide comments about chip being a small unimportant role and we can just cut that whole fight bc it was dumb and bad. we could still have seb being insecure that carlos is only dating him bc there aren’t really any other gay guys at school. in a heartbeat is great and i did like ricky being supportive in the background it was kinda funny too idk dhdjdjfj

ooh i almost forgot abt rini ahshdj okay so i still think they should break up. but in my version there’s no ricky pulling an ej 1.0 and deleting comments off of nini’s insta, cause with ricky in art club and nini at north trying to figure out what she wants i think one of them would realize that they’re going in different directions and only got back tgt because they made each other feel safe cause what they had was familiar. this could be triggered by ricky mentioning smth abt nini at yac and then nini breaks down and tells him that she dropped out and is at north and doesn’t know where she’s going. and then they can both realize they aren’t good for each other rn and have a less tragic mutual break up.

honestly i really liked the scene of nini taking charge after miss jenn freaked out cause with the character detail of nini giving every person in the cast of productions she’s in a thank you note she just seems really like someone who is suited to lifting others up. this could still be explored at north, maybe she could help lily through her issues that were briefly implied in ep 11 and nini realizes she wants to be a drama teacher and encourage kids to go off book and put themselves into their acting, something she couldn’t have at yac.

okay now ej ,,, so like i said in ricky’s section, more bants between them cause i feel like friendships kinda fell by the wayside due to all the relationships so more friendship !!!! also the scene where ej tells his dad he’s not going to duke shouldn’t have been an ending scene, it should have been fleshed out with his dad pushing back saying how he pulled all these strings to get him in and ej saying he doesn’t wanna go if his own hard work couldn’t get him there. and also more scenes of ej doing av club things !!! and realizing he rlly likes film and wants to do it OMG IT WOULD BE SO COOL IF HE BROKE THE FOURTH WALL AND ASKED THE DOCUMENTARY CREW ABT THE FILM INDUSTRY god i would love that. the only scene we rlly got of ej doing film things was at the quinceañera which made me kinda sad. uhhh also i just wanted to specifically mention how ej got mr mazzara that job at cal tech bc it really showed how he wanted to be there for people not just for gina, who he had a crush on, but for mr mazzara who supported him outside of romance, so i wanna keep that for sure.

gina !!! okay so i mostly liked her arc in this season, the only changes i would make would be to flesh it out a teeny bit (god this hypothetical s2 would have to be like 22 eps at least shdjdjdjfj) anyways besides ashlyn singing home to get gina to stay i think there should be a scene where they actually talk in her room abt how gina feels safer when shes on the run (second chance reference ilysm) hhhh and also a scene of her and carlos actually working out compromises for their choreo cause i liked that bit of development too and fleshing that out would make gina an even better foil for lily, who felt a need to hog the spotlight like gina used to. with gina’s own arc fleshed out her character would feel more whole independently from romance and portwell would be even more rewarding than it is in the current s2. the only thing i would really change abt portwell is that they would kiss !!! in the finale but thats bc im biased.

ashlyn should have gotten a more fleshed out storyline about being insecure about not being a good enough belle or the typical belle. there were some throwaway lines when north did their typical dramatics but the only two real scenes that showed it were when ash talked to big red about it and when she was telling nini she wanted to do a run in “home” bc lily did it. ashlyn should get more screen time where she has to grapple with the reasons she doesn’t feel good enough and big red can still support her but also gina too bc i would like more roommate besties interaction.

kourtney could still date howie, that harry potter shit was cute but there needs to be smth else for kourtney’s arc. idk she’s still into fashion so maybe she could be out here trying to create her own line or smth? this doesn’t have to be resolved in s2 like making a wholeass line takes time and she could work on it into a potential s3. kourtney just didnt get much outside of howie and the stuff at the beginning of the season where she said nini inspired her to be independent and that's why she got a job was just dropped?? so i think that fashion could fill that for her if she’s still dating howie cause like having her whole arc just be the pizza place kinda overlaps w big red’s mini arc abt how he wasn’t settling for hospitality, its what he wants to do with his life.

ik what ur thinking. anna, even if you added more episodes, where would u find the room to add all these plotlines?? well first we cut (most of) the seblos fight, so thats some time saved. honestly most of the time that we r going to gain is going to be from cutting ms jenn’s time. things like ms jenn’s and nini’s car ride would get cut, but mostly all of ms jenn’s romances would get cut down. considering she’s the teacher and isn’t actually a character with an arc how does she have THREE love interests this season?? like all of the weird tension between her and zack can be cut, like just some short scenes of them being competitive can stay. all of the stuff with ricky’s dad can go bye bye we don’t need it. i did like her w mr mazzara so most of that can stay i just didn’t like how he said he would give up cal tech for her, ew no that would be gone.

the MENKIES !!!! this is the last thing im gonna address cause in a perfect world every character would get a long fleshed out arc but then the season would be waaay too long and also im mostly trying to work within material the show gave so this is mostly made up of “realistic” deviations from what actually happened. lol idk what that even means it just makes sense to me. but anyways!! uhhh bro idk i thought them dropping the menkies was funny but it also made the finale really BAD lmao. in this finale, seb is the beast, east still had to deal w the fact that they’re underfunded compared to north but no one is injured, lily is less of a poorly written character and maybe ppl are even rooting for her, and wow i just realized i never actually said what role i think nini should have in north’s show. OOH she could be student director instead of lily cause lily both being in the play while also directing was weird considering omg i just checked and according to her wiki page shes a FRESHMAN?? and they let her be student director? lol hell nah. okay so with all that in mind ,,, the menkies should have been the season cliffhanger instead of portwell. east and north should both be nominated, both schools perform at the menkies, and then the award winner is about to be announced and THATS when it cuts to natalie and the end of the season.

one, this actually gives more tension for a summer s3 as we would be waiting to see the consequences of whichever school won. also i bet people would be wondering if nini’s gonna be transferring back to east or staying at north. people would also prob wonder if ej would be getting the scholarship if east won and what that would mean for his interest in film.

lmao that got longggg and idk if anyone’s even gonna read this but it was fun to do :D

[beverageenthusiast]

let’s get personal (questions!)

thank u for tagging me molly ur friendship is like a worm tender embrace and some of these questions were very original i have never heard nor answered before <3 @cl0wnapologist​

1. say hi! :D (name/age/pronouns)

alyssa, 20, she/her/(and mayhaps......they? we’ll see about that one)

2. what’s your venus sign? <3

pisces

3. would you rather people perceive you as the person you present to the world or your true self? are they the same?

i don’t want anyone to perceive me thanks

4. what do you prioritize in your relationships—how well someone treats you or how much you like them?

it depends because if i don’t like u then why are we having relations but if u don’t treat me well then u should die. i think both are important.

5. what’s the most embarrassing fanfic you’ve ever read?

i’m SURE there are other ones but what comes to mine is the milk fic (don’t remember who it was about) or the dan and phil hamster fic

6. would you rather be fluent in every language or a master of every instrument? if you could only pick one of each what would it be?

fluent in languages! if i could pick one of each i would wanna be fluent in an eastern asian language and play piano.

7. share some of your favorite characters!

the gay one from ouran, dean craig pelton from community, howl and calcifer from howl’s moving castle. any vaguely homo/pessimistic character 

8. what’s a niche interest/subject you could write a 12-page essay on?

the subtle art of making vegetable spring rolls: a guide for white people who want to pretend to be cultured

9. what are you missing the most right now?

the girl reading this <3 also sonic blue raz lemonade slushie

10. hottest non-human animated character? (ex. zootopia fox, ryuk from death note, aunt fanny from robots)

howl jenkins. he is technically not human i think that suffices. marceline is a vampire idk if that counts either. 

11. share some of your old urls/handles/usernames (i’m looking at u, 1D insta with 70 followers from 2013)

pizzalyssa, lukeycharm, niallsjelly (my parents found my 1d spam twitter account somehow and read a tweet i made about a kid in my middle school being gay (derogatory) and they made me delete it), 2006ghost, what-png, there has to be more but i genuinely don’t remember 

12. what’s a favorite physical feature of yourself? what are some favorite physical features of your friends/loved ones?

i like the way my hair dries and the color of my eyes. all of my friends have beautiful smiles, i love my bfs nose and eyes, jillians freckles, mollys fat tits

13. what’s a favorite personality trait of yours? of your friends/loved ones?

i’m a really hard worker. big fan of the shared sense of weird cynical humor between me n my homies and their artistic talents

14. describe a recent time someone made you feel loved/valued

bf got me a mighty lemon drops vinyl for my birthday and i almost cried. that shit is SO fucking rare in the united states i genuinely can’t believe he got it

15. what’s the most embarrassing character you’ve been attracted to?

lola the fish from shark tale

16. gayest thing you’ve done recently? (complimentary)

genuinely appreciated my homies

17. gayest thing you’ve done recently? (derogatory)

become active on tumblr again OR spent $35 on alcohol that should’ve been much cheaper and drunkenly demanded money from kevin

18. what are your comfort movies/shows/books/foods?

howl’s moving castle, daniel sloss standup comedy, ouran (probably), vsauce, jenna marbles :(  

19. last 5 things you looked up in your youtube search bar/history?

searched: pewdiepie, animusic, lighthouse movie theories, dan howell coming out video, make my dog howl (for draco purposes)

20. should we kiss rn? :*

say less

tag ur mutuals to do this!

@the-bean-god @wherearethelionhearts @yuckberry @shysora @un-bearably @aggressivelyenthusiastic @cl0wnapologist

[afterlifeoftheparty]

mutuals 🥺👉👈 drop ur twitters instas pinterests whatever pls i wanna follow more of u

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i know i do this All The Time but mutuals drop ur insta @'s in the replies i wanna hype u all up

[studylustre]

(matcha latte anon🍵) hello carol!! first up, i wanna tell you that i love reading through your posts alot!! especially the soft boy™, it's so cute!!! >u

matcha latte (!!!) and the second time i met him (which was 2 weeks after), he remembered my order which was really nice and unexpected. also, i was with my friend that day, and i offered some yam chips (in a container) to another female collegue (since i am more used to seeing her, and also because i’m kinda shy to give him). he came to the table and gave back my container, and had a very small talk, in which he offered us drinks/ice cream but we declined. after my friend left, i continued studying and suddenly, he came to collect my cup which i was going to say thank you, but to my surprise, he placed another new cup of matchalatte for me!! i was shocked and didn’t know what to do so i just mouthed a thank you to him. at this point, my heart is already melting, considering this is the first time anyone has offered me a drink like this. we also said bye when he left. our third encounter: the next day, in which he came but i don’t think he had work. he sat at the chair in front of my table, but i was so HORRIBLY SHY that i didn’t look up that much. i have no idea if he was looking at me or not but it remained like this for about (more than) 5 minutes long?? after that, he went to stand near my table and said “no matcha latte today?” so i replied “yea mocha today” !!!! but we were interrupted by the female collegue who said “haha you talking to customer ah” *in chinese* but in like a jokingly manner. then i think the situation got shy and he said no in chinese once again and then we bid farewell :c. it was such good memories and i never met him after that, and i thought i never will. the only info i had about him was that he’s a year older than me. i think i’m a person who falls in love quite easily haha, so i couldn’t stop thinking about it for quite a while. fast forward to jun 14, i signed up for a school camp (i usually don’t go to camps) with 2 of my friends. it was a camp with 5 different schools. as time passed on during the first day,i couldn’t help but notice this guy felt familiar?? i kept noticing the way he talked, the way he walked, and it hinted me that it mIGHT be him ?? (i’m not very good at remembering faces, and also his hair is also wayyyy longer than before) during that night, i was talking to my friend about how i had a feeling that it was him, but i don’t know if i really want to know if it’s him (bc he seemed close to this girl, and my self-esteem is quite low :c). but i decided that i should just ask him. during the next day, i didn’t see him around often, but i couldn’t quite find the courage to ask him, and i don’t really want to do it infront of my friends. when the camp was nearing to an end, i almost thought i won’t ask him, but man i just went with it, go up to him and awkwardly goes like “wait, did u work in a cafe before?” he seemed hesistant so i thought i got the wrong guy, but NO! IT WAS REALLY HIM! aaaa but we got interrupted again, and one person asked if we were cousins LOL.we didn’t manage to talk alot, but found out we’re in the same school??? but he’s year 3 while i’m year 2. once again, i was really amazed to meet him again such circumstances, and that we were in the same school all along?? i thought i would meet him sometime soon,,, but turns out i was wrong.. i didn’t have any contact of him and once again, as time goes by, i didn’t think much about him again. fast forward early to end jul-early aug, i signed up for a japan uni talk (once again, not something i usually go for but somehow did). on that day, i was thinking about how long i’ve never met café guy but was happy cause i’m over it. but life decides to (idek what life is trying to do to me) bring him back into the picture again! i was waiting for my friend when i suddenly saw this familiar looking guy, i only saw him walking two steps (he’s blocked by a pillar) and i had a gut feeling that it might be him. but this time he was wearing glasses and his hair is short now. after seem peaking around here and there, it turns out it really was him??!?! at that point of time, i was very shy and awkward, it was hard for me to say hi or anything, i was just freaking out. to sum up that day, i basically didn’t manage to say hi to him (regrets :cc). but my friend, managed to find a mutual friend of both of us’s instagram. i went to follow him and found café’s guy instagram eventually!! to sum up, i eventually used my main account to follow him, in which he followed back ( that was like almost a 3 day process uwu). also, i dropped huge hints to lowkey scream *i’m the matcha latte i hope u remember me!!!* aaaa he dm-ed me and ask if im the matcha latte girl!!! we talked abit (not alot really) and (yesterday) he said he’s working but at another chain of the café (which is about 3 mins walking distance to the café i met him & usually go to). he asked what time i was leaving, and since i was meeting my friend, i said around late 5 to 6. he then said his break was only at 6plus, so i thought maybe i can wait a little longer to catch him (but i was a little afraid to meet him as well haha) i was going to pack my bag when he came!!! he immediately came to my table and talked to me!!! but my friend called me so i had to pick up, when it ended, he came back to my table again and we talked for about 20mins?? it was nice talking to him (some context: my mind usually goes blank when making conversations with people!!! >u

hi angel!! sorry for the late reply - i saw ur ask a little while ago but bc i didn’t have my laptop (it was off for repairs) i couldn’t reply :(( anyway, it sounds like ur both mutually interested in each other!! i think u should go for it. i mean, from what i can tell, it sounds like u kinda like this guy (u seem rly excited whenever u catch glimpses of him and idk i feel like he definitely made a big impression on u bc why else would u a) remember all your interactions b) get so excited about seeing him time and time again and c) bother to tell me all this, right? ✨) like it just seems like u both have interest in each other but are too shy to make a move. i think u should go for it bc u’ve already nearly lost him several times now - u only get so many chances and i feel like u might regret it if u don’t do anything and just let this opportunity slide… also i think u might be overthinking it - you may be different people, yes, but that’s not necessarily a bad thing?? also u guys don’t really know each other all that well yet so it’s really too soon to be worrying so much, just try to take the time to get to know each other better and then see how things go once u have a better grasp on who he is etc. u have nothing to lose from giving it a shot, especially since u already hope for it to work out, so why hold urself back and deprive urself of something that could potentially make u a really happy? everyone’s scared of things and it’s natural to be scared of something like this, but it would be a shame to let that fear hold u back from something that could be really great

[godslittleslug]

mutuals drop ur instas i wanna see what u look like and be friends. i’ll start mine is @xxswampgrlxx same as here

[harryisntstraight]

Okay Bethan I have the fattest girl crush™️ on my friends friend: I’ve done some insta stalking and my friend talks about her a lot, she’s obvi gorg and seems super sweet. She’s openly bi and I’m deffo not out (am still a bit baffed myself about my sexuality so don’t wanna confuse others). I’m meeting her for the first time on Monday with a few others and Idk what to do???? How do I send a vibe that I’m into her without outing myself??? Or do I play it cajj and just be friendly and let it go??

ohh the struggle is so real 😩 i think if youre just meeting her for the first time and ur still kinda confused i would just take it slow and cajj and see u if vibe together first of all before u get completely too head over heels. i think if u just play it sorta cool and show an interest in her as a person first of all then u can sort of take things from there and get the vibe across that youre into her maybe once you feel more comfortable around her? if ur meeting her in like a group setting then i guess just sorta go outta your way to talk to her and like....be a lil flirty but in a way thats chill(tm) and sorta like banter. maybe ask for like her insta or twitter (even if u already know it through stalking rip) and get that mutual follow so things can progress from there. i honestly feel like its quite easy for gay girls to tell when another girl is gay and i think u can drop hints without just being Out(tm) like idk!! i am honestly probably the worst person in the world to ask like i do not know how the hell to flirt with anyone i’m a mess. but YEAH i dunno! just see how things go and i guess dont be like super expectant that everythings gonna kick off from the first time u meet her cos things take time!! but i have faith in u i’m sure u’ll be amazing and honestly can prob handle the situation a thousand times better than i could bdsfhskdf

[eunsangf]

OMG mutuals drop ur insta @s i wanna follow u,,,,