#irrationally irritated rn

[incoherentscreaming101]

someone spoke to me immediately after i woke up so now I'm going to be pissed for the whole day

[bi-rising]

you ever have a day when you want everyone to fucking shut the fuck up??? don’t talk around me, don’t breathe around me, just don’t BE near me, holy shit

[ssstardust3001]

I am currently in voluntary time out because I was very close to hurting someone today during work and I do not trust myself around others right now.

[garykingz]

Yeah that sprint race has made me irritable and irrationally angry abt everything rn. I need to throw my head into a brick wall

[concessionstantinople]

Maybe some soup can fix the mood I am irrationally irritated rn eugh

[shut-up-you-guys-are-12]

are you receiving this ask bc literally the last 5 asks I've sent to people were never responded to so idk if it's a me problem but I am so frustrated about it rn like they were nice normal asks I think most of them were compliments!!

dude there's nothing as frustrating as not having an ask that was a carefully crafted compliment/question not responded to. makes me so irrationally irritated cause you never know if they got it or not and it can drive you crazy - i feel you 👍

[ashterblaster]

I am so irritable rn. I know it's coming. Like it has to, I've been irrationally pissed for like, the entire fucking week. (part of that having to do with my nana, who will always remain in my head rent free until I can fucking move out) but besides that I've legit just be sooooo irritated. Like more than is normal. AND craving sweets/chocolate. AND masturbating more.

Like come ON body just let me gush already!!!

[brothaigh]

So irrationally irritated rn. Housemate had his cousin come stay with us over the summer (he said “a couple weeks” and it turned into 12) and now he’s got two people “coming for the holiday.” Like. Okay. Fine. Maybe ask the house first? Somebody else already has someone coming for the holidays and asked ~months~ in advance (not me, our other housemate) and gave us actual dates. Like. Not to be that ass. But yes strangers in my home for an undetermined amount of time *bothers me* to no end.

[maoist-mizer]

Oh boy the mental illness is real. Anyways I should probably eat something that should help a little

[heartofdaydreams]

Thinking about cutting everyone in my life off permanently and exclusively living in my daydreams /neg

(Tw for vent in tags)

[auroraseddie]

hey besties i think i might take a lil break from tumblr

love yall <3

[beth-bunkus]

feeling the antithesis of cute, might go to bed a whole 5 hours early

[superherotrash]

Sometimes I’m like oh I’m fine I’m not neurodivergent and then such an obvious sign comes and staples itself to my forehead

[louisarmpits]

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[running-with-kn1ves]

this might be a long shot but could I request some headcanons with Edira? I just read your fics with her and woooh boiiii she's living rent free in my head. I offer you the last few coins I have left in my sad froggy wallet in exchange for crumbs of Edira content

A/N: I'm legit so so happy you asked because AGH I am on a lady hype rn. I'm actually writing a funky nymph fic currently. But I love my girl Edira and will always spare some lady content!!

TW: NSFW at cut, yandere behavior, unstable/abusive relationships, big booba lady, possessive/obsessive actions.

For starters, Edira greatly asserts her dominance. You know that one person who looks overly intimidating because they always seem to know what to do? That’s her. Even if she’s terrified, or on the brink of a breakdown, she knows how to handle herself and make it look like everything is perfectly professional. Even with her darling, she will find it very difficult to show her true self or any emotion. A great deal of the time she’ll take her anger out on her darling or anyone close to her. But she doesn’t let out that irritation via shouting. Rather, she does so through a lot of passive aggression, and forceful touches.

Edira would rather drown her sorrows in some expensive wine and teasing of her lover. It’s too stressful to yell and fight, she already has to deal with that at work. And knowing her darling will be forced to be a pushover, she’ll take advantage of them easily. The woman likes to push buttons, to extend people past their limit. It’s almost a form of self-destruction. She can’t handle getting close to people, so whenever she feels comfortable, she forces them away. She might do this by isolating her darling, making them irrationally angry at her, obvious gaslighting, etc.

The famed CEO is not big on affection, especially not if her darling is trying to give it on a genuine occasion. She instead likes it when they grow flustered, or upset when she teases them for holding her hand or recuperating intimacy. But when they’re serious and don’t fall embarrassed under her whims, she grows uncomfortable. Edira won’t show it of course, but she’ll find ways to pull herself away. If someone is giving her valid affection without her demanding it, she feels as if she’s not in control anymore.

Only in a truly vulnerable state, will Edira accept consolation or affection. She most likely won’t cry to show her distress, but instead, go silent. If she’s not barking orders or giggling like a school girl because of being under the influence, you’ll know something is wrong. The best way to console is either to leave her alone or act needy. If her darling tries an actively healthy way to help her, she’ll likely reject it. Edira isn’t willing to face the reality of her stress or how she’s genuinely feeling.

Her last relationship ended because of her fear of intimacy and commitment. But, surprisingly she doesn’t find it difficult to force her darling into big relationship steps. It’s more because she has control over everything. She can choose whether to leave her darling, whether they get a warm place to sleep or are forced outside. It’ll bring her more of a sense of comfort to marry her darling. That way, they can’t find a way out. Even though she fears the idea of being trapped in a relationship, she knows she has more than enough money to make the relationship look like it never existed if she wants. But keeping her darling in a marriage means they never will have the upper hand. In the eyes of the law, she has control over all assets and her darling's life.

Is a happy drunk. The only time she’s in a “joyful” mood, is when she’s had too much to drink. Will grow touchy and impulsive, and likely will agree to most things. Whether or not she remembers those agreements in the morning though, is a whole other story. Though, she won’t ever purposely get loose outside of her home. Even in formal business lunches or office parties, she refuses to drink. To keep up her image and her self-esteem, she wouldn’t allow herself the pleasure of such a thing. Though since her darling witnessed her so vulnerable so early on, she’ll grow comfortable getting intoxicated around them. She finds it more fun when she is. It’s so interesting to see her darlings' reactions and flustered face when she acts so uncoordinated.

Will most likely be the one to cheat in the relationship. Whether she’s doing it to distance herself from her darling, or out of a way to hurt them, it won’t matter. Edira won’t do much to hide the evidence. It’s another form of self-punishment. She wants her darling to yell back, to get angry, scream or cry. Especially if she’s trying to stop herself from getting comfortable with them. Her darling might get a half-assed apology if they’re lucky, but that’s about it for verbal regret. She’ll mostly try to pretend it never happened, trying to bring her darling back into her arms again. It’s a vicious, awful cycle of affection and kindness, to isolation and misdirected anger.

Sees her darling as more of a comfort item. They are just an accessory. Though she reminds herself of that, they mean so much more. She’ll likely never take another partner or replace them, as they do their job well as her piece of furniture, and her place to vent affection on.

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Her libido isn’t super high per se, it sort of comes and goes. She’s not adamant about new experiences unless she comes up with the idea, or her darling begs her. Like, on their hands and knees kind of begging.

Uses her sex appeal to her advantage. Both in her field of work and with her darling. She knows she’s well-endowed and likes to embarrass her darling when they stare for too long. Also enjoys getting undressed in front of them. She’s confident enough in herself to not be afraid of their stares and to encourage them.

Enjoys a little bit of exhibitionism. More along the lines of being in her office, forcing her darling under her. Whether they’re under the desk while she’s in a meeting, having their face forced in between her legs, or sprawled on top of all the paperwork while someone important lurks outside. It gets her elevated. It’s the thrill of being caught, of someone who sees her so highly, finding her doing something so scandalous. Not only that, but she likes having her darling on display. Seeing them spread out, forced under her whims, is just so fun to mess with. She likes seeing how embarrassed they are, how scared they are of getting caught. But what will even occur if they get caught? Absolutely nothing. She has enough power to bribe or shut anybody up. She could fuck her darling in her office while the entire staff is there, and she wouldn’t be reprimanded for it. After all, she’s the leader of the company.

Is into light BDSM, but mostly because she likes to watch her darling forced to do things for her. Having so much control is so satisfying and relaxing. She doesn’t have to manage a large company or a group of people, she just has to tell her darling where to touch, and that’s it. Sure, the occasional bratty reprimand is needed, but it's all worth it for the end result.

Guided masturbation is a huge one as well. To see someone do just as she says, and to see them get pleasure from it, makes her feel good. It’s almost better than when she’s touching them because she can just watch as they realize, see how she was right, that this would feel good.

Will most likely never do oral for her darling unless she’s intoxicated or is teasing them. Even then, it’d have to be an even situation. If she sees them so desperate, pleading for her to put her mouth anywhere, she may just comply. But she enjoys riding their face more, to make them sink under her. Especially if she watches them touch themselves as she grinds against their open mouth.

[carry-on-my-wayward-butt]

2 months ago id be irritated if roommate never did dishes or unloaded the dishwasher.

now im watching him unload and im furious. im so irrationally angry rn for literally no reason at all. my dishwasher. my kitchen. my sink. fuck off. get out. youll do it wrong. mine.