#irl and wip wise

[theasterous09]

LMAO watch me make a fanfic outta the final product meeting their pilot version you guys

[beefrobeefcal]

Beefro's Annual Report 2024

I have been tagged countless times regarding a recap and/or what I was thankful for by so many wonderful friendos - but I'll give credit to @jolapeno for kicking us off.

This time last year, there were only 400 of you following me while I wrote my silly little stories. I had no idea how the year would go, from coming close to deleting everything to finding a community of people and friends who I now count as irl besties. I changed up the content I write and have explored all sorts of new things with the love and support of all you.

I love you all so very much. Here's to keeping one another afloat and warm in 2025,

Beefro👌🥩💜

Below are the fics, posters and things that I am very proud of from 2024 (masterlist can be found here).

One Shots:

Purpose: I know, I know... I have hooted and tooted about this fic before, but I really loved this so much. The fact that @perotovar loved it also makes this extra sweet. I know I am not known for seriousness and such, but I loved the experience.

like a cigar: I love this one for many reasons but chief among them is the brainstorming with @noxturnalnymph and @strang3lov3 that brought it to life. That evening will stay with me from now until the day I yeet from this mortal coil and I love you both so very much.

what the hell is wrong with tim: A vanity project that sat in my wips for 5 months. I started it because I wanted @pedroscouts badges for 'Sex Pollen' and 'Tim Rockford'. Then all hell broke loose and in to the wip bin Tim went. I finally dug him out and plugged away at it and the end result is one I am proud of. I worked hard for Tim... and all he got was pussy-fluid induced conjunctivitis and an eyepatch.

Shorties:

For the Stars: This one was brought about for my beloved Deedle @bitchesuntitled - she has worked hard on her sobriety, then wisely and bravely chose to celebrate it with her community. I was honored to get to take part in this celebration.

Ezra Goes to Church: @toxicanonymity knew what we needed during the summer and brought about the Manspread Olympics. This shortie, sitting at 350 words, has brought me so much joy. A titan's girth in so few words.

Series:

There are Other Fish in the Sea: This one came from a deep place of ouch. I had found a community on here who enjoyed the same things I did and it blew up in my face bc some people cannot play nice in the sand box. I still remember sending this idea to a beloved moot and their response was "I'm sorry, what are you going to do to Frankie & Mouse???" It was cathartic and a blow out way to change direction and I love Ezra.

the BEEF: I know there is only one fic in this anthology series so far, but I love the concept for it so much (thanks to @covetyou). The grumpy old neighbour Joel that kicked it off really allowed me to be as unhinged and horny as I wanted and my love for him is eternal.

Posters:

This year, I took up making posters for my wips and fics to boost my moral in writing. It helped! Below are the ones that have really made me fluff my feather in my cap (some are still wips).

Things:

Monthly Prompt Challenge: In a bid to share my ideas and thots, I started this in September. So far, no one has told me to stop and I very much enjoy do this!

beef Art: This year, I had Canva introduced to me and I have never looked back. You can see some of the horrible things I have created here.

Community: I have been most fortunate to have been welcomed and held by some extremely fabulous folks on here. There are so many of you, from the casual reblogger to the routine ask dropper (@deathsholywaterr, looking at you 💋) to the beta fish (@weregirlbyknight) to the shy nonnies... and to my beloveds who's usernames/pics made my heart warm, all of you keep this beef smiling. Thank you.

tagging bc you're a repeat offender in my heart:

@strang3lov3 @noxturnalnymph @weregirlbyknight @whocaresstillthelouvre @bitchesuntitled

@goodwithcheese @jolapeno @secretelephanttattoo @perotovar @sp00kymulderr

@rebel-held @romanarose @endlessthxxghts @wintrwinchestr @xdaddysprincessxx

@toxicanonymity @pedrit0-pascalit0 @yopossum @hellfire-state-of-mind

@tinytinymenace @jennaispunk @crowandmousewritingco @yallhearsm @missredherring

@kedsandtubesocks @slutsoutgutsout @magpiepills @sr-lrn @maggiemayhemnj

@mothandpidgeon @schnarfer @mando-abs @timelordfreya @artsy-girl-76

@wordywarriorwrites @ace-turned-confused @studioghibelli @bluecookies-and-ink @evolnoomym

@covetyou

[yallmakemyassitch]

Tickletober Day 31 /// Aftercare

Yeah fun fact uh- I actually had this lined up for you guys but I kinda got distracted by other things and forgot I had this stagnating in my files for over a month. After that I considered just publishing it as a never ever, but we're here now so I won't be tagging it as such. But I will say there was much more planned for this. I'm happy how it turned out, hell, maybe I'll complete it 🤷‍♀️

Either way, sorry for kinda dying on y'all content wise. Things have been pretty rough irl and mentally, I'm not doing too well. This has prevented me from completing projects I have in my drafts (I have an ENTITY fic wip, that Aldryx teaser I showed y'all, requests to tend to, and such).

But at the same time, I'm trying to end the year with good vibes, I don't want to be so overly negative anymore as this blog is a place where I want to be happy and draw and write cute tickle shit (⁠ ⁠ꈍ⁠ᴗ⁠ꈍ⁠). Anyways just remember someone loves you, onto our scheduled programming

Summary: Brotherly fluff (⁠人⁠*⁠´⁠∀⁠｀⁠)⁠｡⁠*ﾟ⁠+🩷🩷🩷

It's a little short but I hope you enjoyed it :))

This made me feel better just posting it (⁠◡⁠ ⁠ω⁠ ⁠◡⁠)

[l0stfoster]

★ INTRO POST ★

(Last Updated: 1/8/25)

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🔭 About My Ass

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☆ Art requests open from time to time, I'll either post about them opening or it'll be displayed on the ask button. I do have the right to not draw what you ask for, so fair warning on that. ☆ Art Trades are semi-open, this is mostly for mutuals and I probably won't do them too often. ☆ I do commissions!! The carrd is currently in the works but I do have some old sheets lmao. The art is pretty outdated, prices are negotiable. My rules are pretty simple based on wise; no nsfw for minors, no mecha, nothing problematic. Things such as reference sheets and heavily detailed backgrounds vary as well. Just let me know what you’re interested in and we can discuss!! My discord is @/akafoster

[peachtalia]

I wrote a whole infodump on Herakles headcanons on a priv acc (yk for human version since I prefer to view the guys that way) so I’ll paste it all here cuz fun. It’s gonna be super disorganized and may not carry All of my ideas cuz it’s just me writing whatever came to mind in the moment but I’ll try to organize it the best I can from what I wrote. Also plz take into consideration that I’m not entirely following canon here and a load of it is headcanons with some of canon sprinkled in. Also this is a wip ig

I doubt anybody would read my word vomit cuz I didn’t bother to clean any of this up and my sentence structure is def abysmal as fuck but ig u could say I’m putting this here for my own sake but anyone else is free to read if u would like!!

cw talk of parental loss tho

Okay so I’m gonna ramble about names here cuz it interests me a lot. Obv I’m not Greek or in Greece I just have a deep interest in other cultures and like to research a lot and stalk forums and videos on experiences etc. My ideas may change over time as I learn more about the culture. He feels a bit more old-fashioned to me but anyways yeah nah if I happen to say anything innacurate plz lmk @ anyone who actually reads my word vomit haha

So anyways I def don’t see it as my place to bash on him being given the name "Herakles" cuz I Do know that in Greece they would seem to occasionally give Greek mythological names to ppl (ex: singer who's birth name is Artemios); but I noticed they most often use Christian names tho (also fun fact my irl name is the fem version of an old Greek saint and seems common there along with Hispanic countries that would often do the same lololol)

But at the same time I’d wanna assume that being named Herakles would kinda fuck u over since it would be a huge name to live up to. But that’s just me. Plus to me that adds to his overall life theme

Also I’ve mentioned this before but ppl for years would dunk on his surname claiming that it's "not a real Greek surname" when ... it actually IS, it's just super rare based on what I’ve collected. Admittedly ngly I’ve even been a part of this when I was a kid smh (See: Greek actress with the birth name Evgenia Karpouzi, the fandom would always use the spelling "Karpusi" but that's not language accurate to the more commonly taught Greek language romanization based on what I’ve learned.....

Anywho now onto headcanons and stories I like to apply to him lol

He seems the type whose mom is very huge in the historical arts and preservation field and might've been a Greek history professor and took a huge role in curating and preserving Ancient Greek ruins and artifacts...arranged heritage festivals and exhibitions etc.. Taught culture... Maybe pushed him to be very talented and knowledgeable as a kid and would actively pass down her own knowledge onto him and set pretty high standards for him while also spoiling tf out of him and also being caring yet not as present as a mother due to her career. He grew up very involved in the arts both creative-based and performance-wise but probably mostly the latter. He seems like the type who would be quiet and a bit of a loner at times but was also a lot more enthusiastic and expressive at times.

So anyways yeah not only does he suffer under the curse of living in the shadow of his mothers legacy and not meeting the public expectations in following in her footsteps but a lot of his life is basically formed around her and he wasn’t left with much room to actually form his own personal style due to how heavily influenced he was by her own interest and life path and her passing when he was idk 14 made it even harder for him to even try to let go of any of this cuz besides all of her leftover belongings and the collective community memory of her, it was all he had left of her from within himself so letting go of any of it to make more room for developing his own personal sense of style outside of her existence felt like betraying her or going against her wishes.

He feels deeply guilty for not taking on her legacy after her passing and following in her footsteps but he still does what he can to contribute here and there and still holds a load of pride in what he learns from her + what comes from his roots and besides hanging out with and feeding street cats he still has a lingering fascination and interest in philosophy and observing and maintaining historical sites not only cuz it’s great but also cuz it reminds him of her. It Would also make sense given how canonically he’s portrayed having a home that’s cluttered with his mom’s old things and artifacts that he never wants to get rid of since she passed while he was young.

As for his beef with Sadiq I see it as a ‘obnoxious goofy uncle and petty nephew’ sort of conflict lol. But I like to see it as like. Sadiq was a younger college student of his mom’s who would also do volunteer assistant work for her, so naturally he’d meet Herakles thru that. And with him being that type of guy would screw around with Herakles and poke fun at him yk like how those older guys would treat young kids sometimes and purposely provoke them in a joking yet annoying manner (I have lots of experience of this) and Sadiq himself never saw it as a big deal but yk Herakles Hated that shit and he’s the type to take that kind of stuff to heart. Also Herakles would envy the time he spends with his mom cuz here he is able to get involved with her work life and meanwhile Hera is being some kid at home who sometimes gets to go to his moms work sometimes.

And ooomfg when his mom passes u know damn well that envy turned into pure vitriol cuz Sadiq was able to spend more time around his mom before her sudden death. But Sadiq (still unaware of how deep this shit goes for Herakles) takes Herakles under his wing cuz he feels super bad to say the least.

Now Herakles has one of those large Greek families but he’s autistic* as shit so while he can be loud with them he’s also quiet and a bit of a loner at times so he’d be super reliant on his mother for initiating his interactions with others and she’d take a big part in involving him in family gatherings so u know damn well the second she was gone he didn’t know wtf to do anymore or how to connect with others on his own without her being an extra support lol yk like that one social person that helps interactions go smoother.

* yes I am aware that autism may present differently depending on culture but I’m autistic myself and am basing this on observations I’ve made thru autistic ppl I’ve known in different countries and who also have a similar familial dynamic culturally. Even tho I’m in the US I also have this experience myself with my Viet family members. No duh it’s not ‘just an autism thing’ but yk headcanons

Not to mention him being depressed as fuck over her passing and beginning to self isolate. And being so pitied by family members 24/7 SUCKED Ass so idk ig eventually (after many years and moments of Herakles mostly blowing people off) ppl began to avoid him and stopped inviting him to things like yk that sad thing that often happens whenever someone’s going thru a loss and ppl don’t know what to do about it. He’d ignore their invitations often for years. Of course they’d still try to call or send something or visit every now and then but only very occasionally. It’s like an ‘idk what to do’ sort of thing.

So yeah he’s an only child and was raised by a single mother with a busy and active life where he was always expected to become her shadow whether intended or not. Wow. But despite his family inching away from him, bro still has that younger Cypriot cousin who vibes with him and relates with his quietness and occasional loner behavior so he’d often hang around him cuz the rest of the family would overwhelm him sometimes, therefore even during this time he was the last to stick around for the most part and they’d often hang out in silence. He is a bit more chatty than Herakles tho at times. Idk his name yet. That one Cypriot cousin has a younger brother I think, who’d hang around Sadiq but Herakles’s a #hater and doesn’t really like him for that. He’s the type to threaten to cut ppl off from association and he gets petty and stubborn as hell and holds grudges like u cannot believe. Obviously despite his spite he does still care for Sadiq deep down. He says what he wants but he doesn’t actually wish the guy any real harm and would get super bothered and upset if anybody were to attempt to do so.

Oh yeah and I also mentioned before that I see him being narcoleptic lol *maybe* he occasionally dealt with cataplectic symptoms and it would make sense given how rarely he seems to express strong emotions but I still don’t know. I’m not as knowledgeable in cataplexy I admit. But he’s def on the narcolepsy spectrum and lacks a load of motivation and drive in his life overall. Some of it comes from his mildly nihilistic view on life and some of it is depressiveness and the inability to help himself more on his own accord. It probably took a lot for him to get on a stricter medication routine for it. He tries to take care of himself at the bare minimum but he still doesn’t quite cultivate the best or healthiest of habits. He’s often got others around him trying to help him out and check up on him. Think also of the comic strips of Ludwig trying to help him organize and clean his house and get his finances into check.

Idk how his mom died. Maybe it’s one of those things never spoken about but it was sudden and he was at home when it happened and just remembers it getting super late and dark and him wondering where tf she is each time he’d wake up and him attempting to call her work and go to voicemail each time.

Also back on the topic of his tendencies but Herakles can for sure be the sore loser and jealous type but only depending on whether or not the matter involves Sadiq. Otherwise he’s like eh whatever it’s fine I’ll get it next time) and as I said above he’s also got a somewhat nihilist mindset and wishes to just spend his time doing as he pleases lolll his philosophical info dumps would get mind breaking at times and he just drones onnnn and onnnn and on about it it’s like the kind of stuff that’d make u lie on ur back with ur hands behind ur head staring up at the sky like “yeah……..wow…😕” and would prob put u to sleep cuz he speaks in a slower and softer tone. And you’d prob experience a strange yet vivid dream in the moment. He’s got an ambient and nostalgic feel to his presence that’s hard to explain and melancholy yet oddly calming.

Oh also he still practices Orthodox Christianity besides being an atheist on the most part and not even following any religion or religious rules or moral code bc it’s what he was raised doing with his mom and he feels like it’s what she would’ve wanted lmfaooo I guess it’s for nostalgia’s sake and paying respects to her. Maybe he’s an atheist. Idk. Perhaps his philosophical ideals and stuff he’s learned influences his view on general spirituality and religion so in a way he feels like in the end all gods are all to reach a similar point and intention and are an outer extension/projection of our own subconscious beings and are vessels of hope and focal points for moral code and explanations for the world around us. Or maybe he just views them as beings created to give people’s lives purpose. Or he believes all things at once. Who knows what goes on in his mind.

As for his narcolepsy, his mom may have assumed at first that he was the type of child to nap a lot or that he was lazy, but over time she’d realize something is probably up and would recognize that he wouldn’t be able to help it most of the time and that he actually isn’t the lazy type and works hard when he can. She’d get called by teachers often yelling about his tendency of zoning out and sleeping in class and she’d just respond with “Oh yeah? Well maybe your class isn’t interesting enough if he’s always falling asleep in it!”

So yeah. A load of his life was built around her from the start, and he relied on her for a lot, I mean she’s his mom and all too and the only closer(?) family member in his life given that he’s an only child and has no father. The sudden change of her leaving completely threw his life off course so for years he’s been in some sort of endless state of limbo where he’s both apathetic both saddened yet he might not make it so obvious when around others. He just appears quiet, apathetic and carefree for the most part.

[labyrinthe-exe]

laby_log 0.2

oh wow... has it already been like idk... two weeks? it's kind of insane to think about... originally i wanted to do it every week, but a lot of stuff has happened since my last log..

but i released the demo! wip! you can find it here!

anyway... now to actually get into my mental state and where i was at progress wise during the last two weeks

so! i left off in an optimistic spirit, while i was mentally in a downpour and feeling waves of hppelessness.... i also was positive of the future! i had to do some cuts in terms of cutting off legs but....

as soon as i finished that devlog, i ended up just... really really going through it mentally...

i was both tired, fatigued, and like all over the place even more. i had started to write but i was insecure about my story and the pacing and if i was even doing a good job. i was worried about if the story i was telling would even be interesting or if the designs were hot enough, attractive enough... i was wondering if i was doing justice to characterization, too?

that also was the fact i just felt like giving up completely LMFAO

i was powering through, and i wasn't progressing in ways that i want to... hell what can i show for it other than writing? that you can see in the game!

but anyway, i started working on the key art and this is where i spiraled again LOL wow... me and spiraling... is it professional to express all this? i dont know...

and this is where i was unraveling... you see i started out mapping stuff out ( i dont have the screenshots i dont think of the part before i fixed stuff but like its okay these are some i sent to my friends LOL ) but the third pic is where i hated it... i had to go to sleep cause i just wanted to cry

i felt like i was struggling with both trying to improve my art, stay consistent, but also develop an art style all at once in the same frame and that sort of progression... is hard? scary... terrifying... it made my heart totally break

but! i perservered!

and WHAM! i started getting somewhere with the help of amazing community of friends who i just spammed LMFAO like "pls i need it to look like clouds...." and also just in general to make sure i was on the right track with vibes...

i finally felt a little satisfied though it still didnt match the other cains i drew/other love interests but eh... honestly consistency is a hurdle i will have to learn how to get over eventually, i was looking at this game development process as not a fun experience but as a job and that was really fucking with my creative process

a lot.

AND I SWEAR I WAS COOKING THOUGH! once i was getting into a roll, but my progress still felt abysmal with all the things i wanted to achieve: good writing, good story, attractive characters..

i felt i was lagging behind my peers, i felt like i was making a fool of myself. who am i even trying to make games yanno? i'm just a sort of like... artist who struggles to even draw everyday. which doesn't mean im impassionate... i think i am passionate...

it's just a battle...

that and irl i have to take care of the household in terms of chores and the like, i only have so much mental bandwidth... it was hard to socialize some days cause i just felt like i was disappointment... would i even be able to finish in time?

well from the beginning of this log, it's clear i did finish something! aided w/ the power of friendship and eternal shounen determination LOL yes. call me naruto ( don't but funfact in elementary my friends called me ichigo kurosaki )

once again, i had to take an art break, here's my art from 2022 ( the subview ) versus 2025! i'm so happy with my progres even if the sketch i made was kinda shitty too LMFAO i do have plans for a project featuring this character, a little devil ( he'll be in a game with anathema... i'll take about anathema in another post one day, my precious baby )

either way, i found it easy to compare everyones progress to mine... like wow other people are able to be so organized and cool and i struggle with it... even checking off lists, it's hard for me? i felt all over the place, sinking into a pit that i created myself and that i was just showcasing the worst parts of me...

even though thats not true.

honestly i was incredibly worried people wouldn't like cain, the mc, he's like so pivotal to the story it'd be kind of hard to rework the entire story because cain is like... pivotal, i'd just have to write a completely different story...

but the show must go on, i kept making things.

honestly, in real life was a strong part of why i felt kinda crappy. even online, being busy so much and not socializing w/ key people that i usually socialize with was such a damper on my mood. i missed my friends. i wonder if they felt uncared for while i was busy ( which isn't true, but my brain is weird ) WOW AM I OVERSHARING? idk... i feel that its important to showcase that my design process includes being all over the place...

i didn't work every day. i tried to, but i didn't.

while my friends were trucking along on gui, i was frozen in a sense of wondering if i should even continue development or quit while i'm ahead and ghost everyone for being a disappointment.

the deadine was nearing and i still hadn't even written the kiss. the gui wasn't done either which didn't worry me as much as being worried that i would disappoint everyone i told "i'm making a game!" what would i look like then... if i didnt make it? a gameless loser?

i know right. what the heck?

it makes no sense.

i ended up writing the kiss yesterday actually, i was experiencing writer's block cause i was so insecure about my story.

but woo boi. the story got put out the gui got done and my stress... didnt dissipate. either way, i think the last two weeks of the jam was a tough time? i did learn a lot. like what i needed to prioritize, how to better prioritize for my workflow.

i have to go like gui - sprites - writing - editing - backgrounds - writing again... i think? it feels a little weird but i think that'll work for me? i can still fix that though.

ANOTHER THING! i couldnt actually sleep last night. i was nervous how my story would be recieved LMFO isn't that normal i think...

but i released the game!

and there was typos.. which to be fair, i'm not good at cross-editing.. i was trying to go line by line after a friend proofread the first part for me and then i... kept missing stuff- don't be like me, just copy paste all the edits and reformat it. or just write in renpy speak in the first time...

but overall i think i learned a lot from swak.

am i still going to be ambitious?

hell the fuck yes.

but will i know how to better work around my high and low mental peaks? also yes. i think i need to remind myself every so often why i'm doing this... well i love writing, i love art, i love telling stories... i like to share my perspective on things, my characters perspectives, and just ships too in general I LOVE SHIPS! SO MUCH YOU DONT EVEN KNOW

but yeah...

does any of this make sense? i don't know... maybe i overshared, maybe i didn't. but the demo is done. it's still a giant wip, but i feel better about the future of it. the extended demo is coming and i will keep on trucking on. cause that's all i can do.

anwho... laby logging out <3

[nyx-umbrakinesis]

Hello Darlings!

Come and sit with me, grab your choice of beverage and I'll sip my tea as I speak on something I find has been a rather large issue in the fandom lately. And has made me sad to see writers I adore getting hate for, so come sit and I hope we can chat, I can only for certain give my own perspective but I'm sure other writers have similar mindsets to mine if not the exact same sexuality perspectives.

(this post was made a while back but I've since edited and updated it today 26/01/2025)

(It was longer than I expected in the end, it's now in the undercut 🤣)

This post is about how I write Ace Alastor, Gender, Sex, Race, and Sexual Orientation's, I hope it explains things for those who want to know a little more about my writing and about how I write and feel about Alastor and his Ace canon orientation and other sensitive topics writers have to be and are mindful of when content creating.

I do try to make the 'Reader' in my fics as G/N as possible, I will try my best to avoid using pronouns in my fics and I rely heavily on pet names (which I do IRL as I'm an affectionate person 😁) to avoid using things like 'Y/N' or 'Reader' which I personally prefer not using for a smoother (IMO) more immersive read.

I will often describe the readers genitals in the fics as it's just a lot sexier (IMO) to describe how it's affecting 'You', which I know so far I'm guilty of mostly writing from a female perspective (in nsfw of course - I don't describe sexual organs in sfw if I can help it to keep things G/N)

I do plan on doing some more male reader perspective fics once I've gotten my current fem reader WIPs out of the way as well as more gay, sapphic and multi content.

I am a little nervous at writing male readers as I'm personally cis female and I hope I do the male perspective justice and it isn't a load of hard-to-read, non-immersive rubbish, I also hope I wrote Alastor and Lucifer's experience's well enough in their smut fic and that I can develop my skill and transfer it over to a male perspective reader and improve that skill.

I've not had any negative feedback so far on the sex scenes so I hope that means I did well enough male and female perspective wise, as I know it can be nerve wracking to comment on people's work so I'm going from the few positive comments I have, plus the reblogs and hearts I've received, but I do encourage reaching out should you want to see something specific, I am very friendly and I won't be mean I promise.

I do ask if you DM me via Tumblr to say more than just 'hey' and 'how are you' in my inbox if it's a first-time message as I get a lot of art scammers and will often not respond to messages that feel like bait anymore, introduce yourself let me know what's on your mind. 💜💜💜💜

Next, I am aware of Alastor's sexual orientation in canon and I completely respect him and the Ace community and don't for a moment think he or any Ace person should change.

(Since I wrote this I actually found out I also do belong in the ace community *(I'm demi which is indeed on the ace spectrum.)* and have been more mindful and self aware when I've been writing, in my experience of my ace touch averse perspective on the spectrum but also how Alastor would differ from myself if he was a sex positive Asexual.)

I really can't help that I have latched onto Alastor in such an intense way (my quirky ass loves him) but I do still try to keep him in the Ace spectrum - (which no writer has an obligation to do, he is still fictional and I'll explain why in this post still,) - with what knowledge I have researched and since discovered, experienced and I try to not make the sex about his gratification or necessarily desire for sex itself-, which is particularly where I made Alastor differ from myself as I have some sexual disorders too, - and use it either as a power play or manipulation tool (as he knows he's a very desirable being).

Or if the fic is about Alastor in an established relationship for example with the reader or any other character sex will mainly be about seeing his partner come undone for him and/or doing it all for them and their pleasure, he can take it or leave it in regards to sex.

(I know I don't explicitly say it in the fics, I do try to do things subtly, like little things with Alastor only getting undressed at the last moment or being very dominant and having reader or Lucifer or others vulnerable for him and that heady rush of power being a big motivator for him and how it feels to have them begging for him etc) - I hope I explained what I mean well enough.

I don't for a second think anyone's IRL sexual orientation is invalid or should ever be changed, nor their gender identity, fictional characters are fictional and I like to play with them, I am personally - a Pansexual demisexual with hypersexuality and struggles with sexual dysfunction, which means all characters are at risk lol 😂.

But as I've seen many times in many fandoms all characters can have any sexual orientation, sex's and genders get changed and swapped left, right and centre in multiple fics and it doesn't mean anyone is trying to invalidate the community attached to the canon characters sexual canon orientation gender or sex, we just like to play with the character.

I do know and understand it's difficult if you're part of a smaller less represented LGBTQ+ community to see a character who in canon is really lovable/amazing/popular and represents your sexual orientation and/or gender identity get portrayed differently in fanfics or changed because of self indulgent writers but I hope you know none of it is from a phobic standpoint nor trying to take that character away from you.

I hope you know now I'm not trying to ever fundamentally change canon Alastor (none of us writes are) and by no means want to see him changed like this in the canon story or plot as it would also make him not that character we fell in love with in the first place.

I adore Alastor as a character as he is, and that's why I like to play pretend with him too, I really do just love him as a character and it helps my own mental health to play with him too sometimes (in hindsight to when I first wrote this I do also really associate with him too so I see why I had so much draw to him in the sexuality area to explore. And I hope that makes you mindful there might be other writers in the same boat who were or are also unaware they could be on the ACE spectrum too and it's helping them figure themselves out but writing him.)💜💜💜

Not all ace people are sex averse, and writing Alastor in sexual scenarios with a positive attitude to sex doesn't make him any less ace or make a writer phobic for doing so.

It will be the same with Velvette for example when I write her with a male reader as was requested (I will also write gender swapped readers for each of my fics eventually or I'll try to if you guys want me too).

I don't think Velvette's sexual orientation should change in canon either and I love that she's lesbian, just as I love Alastor being Ace, I just wanna borrow and play with them for a bit (😉), and I hope that's okay and we can all take a moment to be kind to each other and not send hate for a perceived slight that is not intentional or even machinated, it could easily turn into a nice chat and good bond with a writer if you wish to discuss things, a writer for fandom is just doing something for free as a hobby they enjoy, I personally will never push any agenda in my fics I do them for enjoyment or coping.

No-one deserves hate and vitriol for playing with fictional characters. We feed the community too and there is a market for it, you are all responsible for your own content consumption, you can block tags and whole blogs if you like, spreading hate is pointless when you could be having a nicer time reading and consuming content you do enjoy. And if you give hate to a real person over a fiction character issue I hope you see that is something you need to take a look at in yourself and strive for kindness instead. 💜

I also always endeavour to be inclusive with race in my reader fics and will often avoid describing specific colours of readers skin, hair or eye colour but if I do make mistakes in those areas don't be afraid to give me a nudge and point out the error okay, but also if it's plot relevant to lean in any racial direction I will endeavour to always try to be indiscriminate and informative. 💜💜

(In my 'Forever Bound' fic I know I described the reader as having a red tail and that's because the animal she had features of that I'd chosen was a red squirrel, hair colour and eye colour I still left ambiguous not all the hair had to be red for example, I'm not a redhead myself which most of you who know me on my main blog or discord will know as I have pictures of myself up)

Writers as a whole will always end up working with sensitive issues and topics and it in no way represents their feelings and actual perception on events particularly political, sexual, racial or anything else you can think of that might be upsetting or potentially triggering.

Sometimes it's them playing with the characters as I've described above and sometimes it's a way of them processing difficult issues they themselves have gone through or are going through personally, and you as a consumer have to be mindful of your own triggers and avoid works and block tags you know will trigger you.

Please heed the tags dear readers, it's not a writers or artists responsibility to mind everyone else's triggers or nothing would ever be written or drawn, one of my own triggers is as simple as a colour for example, as silly as it seems, but I don't hold an artist responsible of using it or give them hate for the triggerm

You are your own caretaker don't get mad at a writer for not being that for you please.

Also if you're in the VoxTek discord server and/or follow me just drop me a comment or DM if you have any issues 'respectfully' and we can have an open dialogue of my work or chat in general.

If anyone wants me to read their work or see their Art I accept recommendations just send a link or tag me I'm always happy and eager to see what you've all come up with too!🫶

~Nyx~

PS ~ (I will add this to the bottom of my pinned post too so anyone in the future can see this little (large) note 💜💜)

[decaflondonfog]

starting a new thread because i got tagged in sliiiightly different tag games by both @tidalst and @caroll-in but there were a lot of overlapping questions so i’m just making one that mixes both 😂🥰 #practicalqueen

currently reading: The Haunted Hotel by Wilkie Collins, which I picked up while on holiday because I only took two books and read both way too quickly hahaha

favourite colour: yellow!!!! it's just the happiest, brightest and best. it makes me so happy!!!! i’ve painted my new kitchen in a lovely soft butter yellow and it gives me the tummy fuzzies just to look at it 🥹

last song: Tuya by Rosalía

last show: Yellowjackets!!!!!!! idk how everyone isn’t obsessed with it honestly

currently watching: not started anything post-Yellowjackets yet because i’ve been very busy moving house but i’m starting Succession next, which i hear will put my heart through it and i can’t wait!

last movie: Empire of Light (2022), which was gorgeous

sweet/spicy/savoury: ugh why would you make me pick… sweet? maybe?

currently working on: doing final edits on growing pains which i’ve been posting for a few weeks now, putting some words into a soap/ghost farm au, and there’s also some kandreil porn going on because there’s always kandreil porn in my wips (hopefully some of it will see the light of day at some point)

current obsession: media wise it’s yellowjackets though i’ve not quite recovered from that series finale!! my true current irl obsession is my new gigantic window right in front of my bed. i spent three hours today just cuddling the dog and looking outside and it was incredible

and now i’m supposed to tag 6 mutuals i want to know better???? hmmmm hello @fluxweeed @vivantesopales @greenautumnleaves @courtjestermerlin @moondal514 and @the-tortoise-lady 💕 you’re next, if you fancy it!!

[toxicanonymity]

When will you update the new chapter for Left in Lincoln? I love it so much!!!

[ref: Left in Lincoln (dark!dbf x virgin) ] Thank you so much! It's not ready yet and I can't answer that, unfortunately. This is of course my own doing by having a cuckfest for nearly two weeks and planning to finish the chapter this weekend which did not go as planned IRL-wise. I love you so much and thank you for reading this series! I always want to give it my best self so I don't write it haphazardly here and there like I do everything else (except planned series) and have to be in a certain headspace.

Cucking Digest

May 2 - 14

Everything I've cucked Lincoln with since the last chapter. I used to cuck Silence has never been bought, too. That's how Night Walks was born to begin with.

The Regulars

Stepdad!Joel 4x: All Recipes / Halloween drabble / Hypothetically baiting him / Hypothetically he fucks your mom

Night Walks!Joel in two different decades: (2018) Night Drives (sketch uber driver) / Night Walks 6: Morning After

Trouble!Joel who came out of cryo just to cuck Lincoln: Halloween one-shot drabble

Free Use!Joel: Bail run (asleep) - consensual somnophilia

Thighs Out!Joel: at the beach (300) - exhibitionism

Raider!Joel: Hypothetical about mounting him when you're both captive but only he's in restraints (800) Closure to old ones

Patrol: Follow-up with virginity loss.

Peeping tom!Joel: Follow-up where he fucks the reader next door

The breeding couple I claimed I wasn't going to write again but now they're pregnant (Mother's day special). One-offs or new ones

Lazaretto: You and Joel are in quarantine and the anti-fungal fog has a side effect of making him need to fuck you. (noncon via sex pollen)

Masseur!Joel: Joel is trying to act professional. Reader pressures him and things heat up, then she walks in on him jacking off right after their visit.

Vax Breeder!Joel: You're voluntarily inseminated for cordyceps vaccine research, the old fashioned way by Joel, to your delight.

slasher!Joel: You narrowly avoid being serial killed and fuck for your life, although you were already DTF before you realized he was bad.

How did I write so much in two weeks? Well, it looks like even more than it is because some of these were already WIPs and some are just drabbles, but still, answer Here.

Anyway, I'm the worst, but I love you and appreciate your patience!

[wouldntyou-liketoknow]

A Few More Lore-Bits for Cruz

That's right! More stuff that I didn't think to add to the boi's info page and am instead posting last-minute since my interest has been reignited!

Just a couple days ago, I remembered how the lovely @sammys-magical-au not only made a bunch of LixianEgos, but gave each of them a pet to reference irl Lixian's cat, Cookie. Something I can't believe I forgot to include when I first came up with Cruz as a gift-character for Sammy and @inkbedou. . .

Enter Macaroon: a vague little creature that seems like a ragdoll cat at first. If you happen to look at him too closely, you'll end up catching a glimpse of something ABSOLUTELY HORRIFIC in the rough shape of a feline.

I've already said that Cruz is doing business with EldritchPlier (and, by extension, Lunky and his friends). I have way too many WIPs on my plate, but I'll definitely write about their meeting/bargaining someday. Whatever form business comes in, there's always give and take. EldritchPlier may be an affront to nature and sanity itself, but he still knows that hard work deserves compensation. And Cruz is nothing if not a hard worker.

I know Eldritch isn’t quite so developed lore-wise, but we can all agree that he’s the ruthless type. A calculating monster who’s willing to lie, cheat, steal, manipulate, do whatever it takes to get what he wants. And what he typically wants, of course, is to lure victims into opening doors for him so he can snatch them away, never to be seen again. (I personally think he does this in order to get. . .let’s say fuel for whatever is going on at Plier Corporation.)

Now, being the way I am, I’ll say that Eldritch sees his contract with Cruz as a. . .special case. You know what kind of trope I’m talking about.

“Hu̍m̠͔a̲̮̘n̨͍̓s̵̖͈ a͐͐re_̕ p̈́̊i̡t͎if̳u̷͛͟l l͍͚i̪t̰t̾ͮ͟l͉̘̞ė͜ p̢laý̳tͣh̛in̟g͙s, t͓͇ͭh_̭ͥḯ̅s on̥̋̾e̹ jͬ͞ùs͘t͙ͧ sͩe̛ͯe̲͐ms a b͘i̩ͫṫ͙͛ m̼͔͗oŗe̴̬̓ u̵͘͡s̗̒e̢͉fͧȗ̓l t̹̐͝ha͗n ȁver͍̈ag̵͙̗e̸…wa͖̗i̾t, h̎̇͂ǒ͖l̢ͮͮd̟͂ ón—GͮͮO̯ͮ̈Dͮ̚D̎A̠͌Ḿ̶̝N̊͟ IT̴͐̎  h͒e’̗͐s̝̈ͦ ả̵c̠̽tͦ̉u͊͘a͚ͤ͜ll̥ͦ̓ÿ̙́ ���ind̼ͬa͙̦ FU̇̿ͮN͖̬͐ an̨̨̔d̟ͪ CL̽͞EV̧̆E̴̯͒R͍ a̧͌n̶̖d CR̼͜EA͉̅TI̛V̲̜E f̳̏ö̠ͣr̢͢ SO̪ͥ̚M̌͊́Ḛͣ R͈͌E̋ͩÂSO̩͟Nͣ s̞ͫo I̔’̷̓l̑l̤̬ͬ k̓͐e͛̈̚e̬̰̚p̻̔ hͤi͉̳͐ṃ a͎l̡ͅive̲ at l̀eaš̩̙t f̄ͫ͜o̵ͥr a l̳i͋̅͠ttͦ͢le̯͆͗ wͯ̕h̘̦̉i͚̗̫l̘e̾ I̬ G̪͘Üͭ̿Ē̢SS̑ bͅut̟ if y̗͟ȏ̧̞u͛͠ fu̲ͦͫcͮ͌͞ḱ͎i͎ń̜g͑͊ ṭ̄͟e̵̜̭l̷̠l͔͟ a̖͑n̹ͮy̯_ o̽̅f̞ t̵͔h̃̇e ot͚͛ͥhe̼̜ṙ̠̳s͛ abǫ̞͒u͌t̸̷̀ t̬̊hi̾s I͋̌’̧l̵ḽ̨͌ sp͓͡e̡ͪ͢n͠d t͎̄hͧȅ͎͂ n̦ex̭t TḨ͈O̧̘̐U͈͍S̍͟A͝N͉D͓̘ Y̢̡ͪEͯĂ͡ͅR̮͢S͉͒ͅ t̎̒o̟͟rt̸u͑̍̾ŗ̵ï̡ͅnͬ̀g͒̂͜ y͖͈ͧoù̽̅ in̓̋ ẃ͓a͚̼ͪys̪ͨ t͒h̫̋͞a̮ͬͪt w̪ͯo̐͆ul͢d maḳe͗̊ E̓VE̟N̞̈̓ TH͓E͡ MOͪSͪ̅͆T HO̎RR̮ͯIF̧̳͑I̟̦̱C̶̯͋ Sͣ̍OU̮L̷̟̈S S̾Q̆U͍I͇ͭ͟R͉̎M̤̓̿!̻”

I've recently learned about some of the finer details in the classic old-gods-and-cosmic-horror novels. (To be clear, there's more than just the ones written by H.P. Lovecraft, who I do NOT want to reference in any of my projects. Iykyk) One example described an outer monstrosity rewarding his servants by literally ripping off a piece of his body and giving it to them. That piece would then morph into an intelligent, loyal pet to assist the servants in their duties.

This seemed creepy enough for my standards, so why not have Eldritch do something similar to give Cruz a present in the form of Macaroon? (Again, I'll try to elaborate the process with a story someday.)

So. . .yeah. Not only does Cruz mingle with abominations, he also gets to keep one as a pet! Lucky him!

Like normal cats, Macaroon can be a bit bipolar. Sometimes he's just chill and lazy, sometimes he has a temper, sometimes he's all cute and cuddly (in very unconventional ways. Remember, this is a cosmic horror in disguise we're talking about.) But whenever there's a ritual on the agenda, he's an invaluable friend to have around. . .😈

(ᴵ'ᵐ ˢᵒ ˢᵒʳʳʸ ᶠᵒʳ ʰᵒʷ ˡᵒⁿᵍ ᵃⁿᵈ ʳᵃᵐᵇˡʸ ᵗʰⁱˢ ᵍᵒᵗ 😅)

[aggravateddurian]

I have been tagged by @streetkid-named-desire to report on recent happenings.

WIP WHENEVER

Firstly, I am in the middle of like 6000 IRL things at the moment, all work related. There will be some periods of silence while things change and I get settled in. Trust me, I haven't given up, I've just got pressing real life stuff to focus on.

OC STUFF AS MENTIONED

Firstly, family trees:

The Ocampo-Gonzalez family tree as of 1 May 2079

The Foster family tree as of 1 May 2079

What does all this shit mean? Well, if I ever go back to writing long-form prose fanfiction, the story is going to focus on these two goobers in the year 2099 (it's a canon event):

Who are these goobers? These goobers are the children of Trey Marshall and Val.

Introducing my newest OCs: Chara Ocampo-Gonzalez and Lincoln Ocampo-Gonzalez, who are fraternal twins.

Chara Ocampo-Gonzalez

Chara just beat Lincoln out of the womb by about an hour, technically making her the older sibling. She inherits a lot from her father: her loyalty, her drive and her sense of family. She also inherits Trey's eyes.

Chara's going to be a Solo. She's inherited her mother's Crystaljock jacket, tendency to code-switch under pressure.

Lincoln Ocampo-Gonzalez

I'm not quite done with Lincoln's appearance yet, but I will post when it's ready. While Chara inherits a lot of her father's traits, I think that Lincoln will be more like his mother, appearance-wise, while Chara clearly takes more after Trey.

He's also going to be a netrunner, following his stepmum's footsteps (if you weren't aware, Melanie is a netrunner).

I have this cute story idea where Uncle V gives Lincoln his Samurai jacket. He says it's so 'people realise where you come from, and pick fights with people closer to your size.'

I would like to tag @olath124 and @ouroboros-hideout. I promise I will respond to your OC associations when stuff gets a little less wild.

Thanks everyone.

[onedefinedass]

Genderfluid any/all, bedicked and 29.

Definitely some clown in that gender

Realizing I don't call myself a faggot often enough and that I do feel butch often

Some hard kinks but I try to tag cnc/dubcon, somno, and intox since those are the big ones

Tags/Likes (WIP) for my own organization: tentacles, shibari, free use, Magical Drugs, switch daydreams, Sonya (OC/Goddess of Sex Workers), size dif, fairies, dumbification (I guess this is the genderless term?), edging, Lactation, breeding, orgies, gangbangs, excessive cum

Most things I like giving I also like receiving I'm just still low level when it comes to bottoming irl...

Love weed, I often think of it as temporary bimbofication

Hard No: scat, ageplay, ableism, slurs I can't reclaim, racism, ddlg, fauxcest

Any pics of myself are tagged #me but there's only like 3 rn

Mostly a space to be horny, reblog hot people, or post more risque things that I wouldn't want on my main.

Main is left as an exercise for the reader

Wife lets me be a slut as long as I am responsible about it health wise, but I can only RP cnc and free use with them, though more discussions will be happening eventually and that might change. Always so little time.

Platonic sexting, sending porn, or kink discussion in DMs or Asks is for 23+ only

I #q often to reduce spam

Updated Dec-21-2024

Hiatus Update moved to its own post for posterity.

[alienisticxo]

hi friends! 🩷

i just wanted to pop in and say i am so sorry for being so far removed from tumblr lately! my real life has been so busy and things have picked up more than i expected without slowing down at all. i haven’t finished Before the Fever yet, and i still have no intention of abandoning it! things have just been crazy (i am still very much on the Halo train irl, game and series wise lol). i will definitely get to it, and the other WIPs i have again soon, but for the moment i am on a slight hiatus until i can find a good rhythm in the craziness lol.

that being said i do miss you guys and i can’t wait to be back writing and fawning over our faves again soon!!! also thank you for hanging in and still showing love on my fics, i still check in and see you guys, it means a lot!

in the meantime if you wanna keep more in touch on my RL stuff don’t hesitate to message me or send me an ask so i can message you. i’m still always looking for a Halo buddy to play with too 🖤

[einsatzzz]

long-ish vent/rant bc xmas holidays truly is THAT season huh !!!

i would rant about this on my bird app acct, but the character limit for each tweet there might just piss me off so i'll just rant here uninterrupted.

i have not been doing so good health wise the past few weeks, but it got even worse this weekend ueueueueue besides my body pain + sore muscles from touching grass two days in a row (my leg muscles hurt sm fr fr 😭😭😭) plus my bank acct getting drained, i felt an impending fever last night so i took some meds and slept early. woke up after four hours feeling very nauseous. i alr ran out of nausea meds, so i tried to distract myself and forced myself to fall alseep.

woke up after another four hours, im still nauseous but this time with stomach pain from the high acidity and diarrhea????!!!! how???!!! i had antimotility meds and antacids, so i took some. the problem is i rlly need to eat and drink, on the other hand, im nauseous. my brother cooked me some food, but only managed to eat one(1) ebi fry and two tablespoons of rice dsfhvhsjdfs i did get a sip of gatorade b4 i passed out again from pain sfhsfhsd i deadass thought i was gonna die bc i felt my limbs slowly go cold god damn....i think i slept longer right after, around six hours??? i really felt the dehydration in my bones when i woke up. i still feel bad, but not enough to not eat a little bit more.

tho me thinking that im dying at that time is prob bc of the anxiety mixed in, but last night b4 i got home i actually legit thought i'm gonna die. if my chances of dying daily is at 0.6%, i feel like yesterday the probability skyrocketed to at least 60-75%. won't go to too much in detail bc its a very heated serious family drama but the catch is that we're in a moving vehicle 😃😃😃 i even considered messaging some of my friends smth like "if i don't post anything new in one month, please assume i actually legit died /srs" or had "i shouldve gotten life insurance"/"this is such a stupid way to die i shouldve just kms yesterday" thoughts hahaha it was that bad.

next year i really need to learn how to drive even if i have motion sickness. then b4 i reach 30, i need to somehow live alone peacefully at my own place. i feel like my mental health would improve significantly if i could do that. (i typed a lot after this but i deleted it 😅 i just remembered i said i won't go too much into family stuff jfbhjdbghdb)

overall its very upsetting/frustrating that bad things keeps on being thrown at me irl, esp since i simply just wanna focus being in my own little corner, work on my projects/wips and admire other's works. as one of my fave streamers would say, we will still ball!!! but like...damn, this shit hurt af 😭😭😭 my project plans have been bamboozled once again bc of this, but we're still on! i need to lock in when i feel well enough.

[shadowhaert]

4, 7, 10 🖤💜

YAY THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!

4. Which of Shadowheart’s personality traits are you drawn to the most?

honestly? i like that she’s prickly at first, especially until you start proving that you care about her. i think while i can come off as pretty intimidating both online and irl, i typically wear my heart on my sleeve and im a little too trusting, so shadowheart being more protective of her love and her peace is really admirable to me. i also like that you have to earn her trust, but once you do it is so so worth it

7. Have you ever set out to "correct the canon"? What are some examples?

hmmmm i don’t think so! i’ve made pretty minimal changes to canon in my writing. the only one that sticks out to me is how i rewrote the abdirak scene in the goblin camp, both for my own gluttony for hurt/comfort and because i find it hard to believe that no one has anything to say about a very whipped, very injured tav. another small thing i have in the upcoming chapter 3 of my current wip is the sort of hollowness that a selûnite might feel in the shadow-cursed lands. i don’t think it would render them incapacitated by any means, but i can definitely see a selûnite growing more weary than normal in the SCL, so that’s something i’ve added for lux

10. Which origin character do you think Shadowheart pairs best with?

i think romantically she pairs well with karlach imo. where shadowheart begins the game as being quite closed off and rigid, karlach is eager to express love right off the bat. i think this opposite trait would make shadowheart better and make her more willing to express her own love in return. i think story-wise she is an almost perfect mirror of lae’zel, though i don’t necessarily ship them romantically. friend-wise, i think her and astarion are very cheeky together and they make a good pair. thinking of those two elves gossiping and drinking wine and enjoying the darkness is so sweet to me idk

shadowheart asks!

[tryingtimi]

@the-wip-project word count so far: 18,026

Alright, I'm so behind on posting that I don't try to figure out which day we're at right lol. So much have happened in the last two weeks (i think that's how long i was on and off gone). Attended an interview which I'm very anxious about because I still haven't gotten a respone if they are going to hire me or not. A relative was admitted to the hospital, and some more minor life stuff. It was and still is a mess. I expected a set back when I got the calls for interviews since I'm a way to anxious person, but the hospital part definitely doesn't make it any easier. Therefore, I did not write one bit last week.

This is how my month looks so far writing-wise, and you can see that gap pretty well, lol. I didn't want to force myself, and frankly, I couldn't anyway. However, my determination came back a little bit, and so I finished chapter 11 today. My project sits at 53,633 words in full, and that is already the most I've every written to any story. I'm proud of that one, and excited for the rest. And hopefully I can use it to take my mind off of some irl stuff for just a little bit.

To answer the event questions though: The story changed pretty cardinally throughout this challenge, and for the better for sure. I really like the way it goes now, even though I've extracted a lot of core stuff. Thanks to that, however, it makes more sense now, have more depth, and my characters feel more fleshed out. I also found my theme, I think. Working on the hundredth version of the outline, which actually makes me excited right now, because as my story became clearer, outlining became more fun. I have many scenes and points that I'm looking forward to write.