#I put this up for myself really and don’t expect ppl to read it

[peachtalia]

I wrote a whole infodump on Herakles headcanons on a priv acc (yk for human version since I prefer to view the guys that way) so I’ll paste it all here cuz fun. It’s gonna be super disorganized and may not carry All of my ideas cuz it’s just me writing whatever came to mind in the moment but I’ll try to organize it the best I can from what I wrote. Also plz take into consideration that I’m not entirely following canon here and a load of it is headcanons with some of canon sprinkled in. Also this is a wip ig

I doubt anybody would read my word vomit cuz I didn’t bother to clean any of this up and my sentence structure is def abysmal as fuck but ig u could say I’m putting this here for my own sake but anyone else is free to read if u would like!!

cw talk of parental loss tho

Okay so I’m gonna ramble about names here cuz it interests me a lot. Obv I’m not Greek or in Greece I just have a deep interest in other cultures and like to research a lot and stalk forums and videos on experiences etc. My ideas may change over time as I learn more about the culture. He feels a bit more old-fashioned to me but anyways yeah nah if I happen to say anything innacurate plz lmk @ anyone who actually reads my word vomit haha

So anyways I def don’t see it as my place to bash on him being given the name "Herakles" cuz I Do know that in Greece they would seem to occasionally give Greek mythological names to ppl (ex: singer who's birth name is Artemios); but I noticed they most often use Christian names tho (also fun fact my irl name is the fem version of an old Greek saint and seems common there along with Hispanic countries that would often do the same lololol)

But at the same time I’d wanna assume that being named Herakles would kinda fuck u over since it would be a huge name to live up to. But that’s just me. Plus to me that adds to his overall life theme

Also I’ve mentioned this before but ppl for years would dunk on his surname claiming that it's "not a real Greek surname" when ... it actually IS, it's just super rare based on what I’ve collected. Admittedly ngly I’ve even been a part of this when I was a kid smh (See: Greek actress with the birth name Evgenia Karpouzi, the fandom would always use the spelling "Karpusi" but that's not language accurate to the more commonly taught Greek language romanization based on what I’ve learned.....

Anywho now onto headcanons and stories I like to apply to him lol

He seems the type whose mom is very huge in the historical arts and preservation field and might've been a Greek history professor and took a huge role in curating and preserving Ancient Greek ruins and artifacts...arranged heritage festivals and exhibitions etc.. Taught culture... Maybe pushed him to be very talented and knowledgeable as a kid and would actively pass down her own knowledge onto him and set pretty high standards for him while also spoiling tf out of him and also being caring yet not as present as a mother due to her career. He grew up very involved in the arts both creative-based and performance-wise but probably mostly the latter. He seems like the type who would be quiet and a bit of a loner at times but was also a lot more enthusiastic and expressive at times.

So anyways yeah not only does he suffer under the curse of living in the shadow of his mothers legacy and not meeting the public expectations in following in her footsteps but a lot of his life is basically formed around her and he wasn’t left with much room to actually form his own personal style due to how heavily influenced he was by her own interest and life path and her passing when he was idk 14 made it even harder for him to even try to let go of any of this cuz besides all of her leftover belongings and the collective community memory of her, it was all he had left of her from within himself so letting go of any of it to make more room for developing his own personal sense of style outside of her existence felt like betraying her or going against her wishes.

He feels deeply guilty for not taking on her legacy after her passing and following in her footsteps but he still does what he can to contribute here and there and still holds a load of pride in what he learns from her + what comes from his roots and besides hanging out with and feeding street cats he still has a lingering fascination and interest in philosophy and observing and maintaining historical sites not only cuz it’s great but also cuz it reminds him of her. It Would also make sense given how canonically he’s portrayed having a home that’s cluttered with his mom’s old things and artifacts that he never wants to get rid of since she passed while he was young.

As for his beef with Sadiq I see it as a ‘obnoxious goofy uncle and petty nephew’ sort of conflict lol. But I like to see it as like. Sadiq was a younger college student of his mom’s who would also do volunteer assistant work for her, so naturally he’d meet Herakles thru that. And with him being that type of guy would screw around with Herakles and poke fun at him yk like how those older guys would treat young kids sometimes and purposely provoke them in a joking yet annoying manner (I have lots of experience of this) and Sadiq himself never saw it as a big deal but yk Herakles Hated that shit and he’s the type to take that kind of stuff to heart. Also Herakles would envy the time he spends with his mom cuz here he is able to get involved with her work life and meanwhile Hera is being some kid at home who sometimes gets to go to his moms work sometimes.

And ooomfg when his mom passes u know damn well that envy turned into pure vitriol cuz Sadiq was able to spend more time around his mom before her sudden death. But Sadiq (still unaware of how deep this shit goes for Herakles) takes Herakles under his wing cuz he feels super bad to say the least.

Now Herakles has one of those large Greek families but he’s autistic* as shit so while he can be loud with them he’s also quiet and a bit of a loner at times so he’d be super reliant on his mother for initiating his interactions with others and she’d take a big part in involving him in family gatherings so u know damn well the second she was gone he didn’t know wtf to do anymore or how to connect with others on his own without her being an extra support lol yk like that one social person that helps interactions go smoother.

* yes I am aware that autism may present differently depending on culture but I’m autistic myself and am basing this on observations I’ve made thru autistic ppl I’ve known in different countries and who also have a similar familial dynamic culturally. Even tho I’m in the US I also have this experience myself with my Viet family members. No duh it’s not ‘just an autism thing’ but yk headcanons

Not to mention him being depressed as fuck over her passing and beginning to self isolate. And being so pitied by family members 24/7 SUCKED Ass so idk ig eventually (after many years and moments of Herakles mostly blowing people off) ppl began to avoid him and stopped inviting him to things like yk that sad thing that often happens whenever someone’s going thru a loss and ppl don’t know what to do about it. He’d ignore their invitations often for years. Of course they’d still try to call or send something or visit every now and then but only very occasionally. It’s like an ‘idk what to do’ sort of thing.

So yeah he’s an only child and was raised by a single mother with a busy and active life where he was always expected to become her shadow whether intended or not. Wow. But despite his family inching away from him, bro still has that younger Cypriot cousin who vibes with him and relates with his quietness and occasional loner behavior so he’d often hang around him cuz the rest of the family would overwhelm him sometimes, therefore even during this time he was the last to stick around for the most part and they’d often hang out in silence. He is a bit more chatty than Herakles tho at times. Idk his name yet. That one Cypriot cousin has a younger brother I think, who’d hang around Sadiq but Herakles’s a #hater and doesn’t really like him for that. He’s the type to threaten to cut ppl off from association and he gets petty and stubborn as hell and holds grudges like u cannot believe. Obviously despite his spite he does still care for Sadiq deep down. He says what he wants but he doesn’t actually wish the guy any real harm and would get super bothered and upset if anybody were to attempt to do so.

Oh yeah and I also mentioned before that I see him being narcoleptic lol *maybe* he occasionally dealt with cataplectic symptoms and it would make sense given how rarely he seems to express strong emotions but I still don’t know. I’m not as knowledgeable in cataplexy I admit. But he’s def on the narcolepsy spectrum and lacks a load of motivation and drive in his life overall. Some of it comes from his mildly nihilistic view on life and some of it is depressiveness and the inability to help himself more on his own accord. It probably took a lot for him to get on a stricter medication routine for it. He tries to take care of himself at the bare minimum but he still doesn’t quite cultivate the best or healthiest of habits. He’s often got others around him trying to help him out and check up on him. Think also of the comic strips of Ludwig trying to help him organize and clean his house and get his finances into check.

Idk how his mom died. Maybe it’s one of those things never spoken about but it was sudden and he was at home when it happened and just remembers it getting super late and dark and him wondering where tf she is each time he’d wake up and him attempting to call her work and go to voicemail each time.

Also back on the topic of his tendencies but Herakles can for sure be the sore loser and jealous type but only depending on whether or not the matter involves Sadiq. Otherwise he’s like eh whatever it’s fine I’ll get it next time) and as I said above he’s also got a somewhat nihilist mindset and wishes to just spend his time doing as he pleases lolll his philosophical info dumps would get mind breaking at times and he just drones onnnn and onnnn and on about it it’s like the kind of stuff that’d make u lie on ur back with ur hands behind ur head staring up at the sky like “yeah……..wow…😕” and would prob put u to sleep cuz he speaks in a slower and softer tone. And you’d prob experience a strange yet vivid dream in the moment. He’s got an ambient and nostalgic feel to his presence that’s hard to explain and melancholy yet oddly calming.

Oh also he still practices Orthodox Christianity besides being an atheist on the most part and not even following any religion or religious rules or moral code bc it’s what he was raised doing with his mom and he feels like it’s what she would’ve wanted lmfaooo I guess it’s for nostalgia’s sake and paying respects to her. Maybe he’s an atheist. Idk. Perhaps his philosophical ideals and stuff he’s learned influences his view on general spirituality and religion so in a way he feels like in the end all gods are all to reach a similar point and intention and are an outer extension/projection of our own subconscious beings and are vessels of hope and focal points for moral code and explanations for the world around us. Or maybe he just views them as beings created to give people’s lives purpose. Or he believes all things at once. Who knows what goes on in his mind.

As for his narcolepsy, his mom may have assumed at first that he was the type of child to nap a lot or that he was lazy, but over time she’d realize something is probably up and would recognize that he wouldn’t be able to help it most of the time and that he actually isn’t the lazy type and works hard when he can. She’d get called by teachers often yelling about his tendency of zoning out and sleeping in class and she’d just respond with “Oh yeah? Well maybe your class isn’t interesting enough if he’s always falling asleep in it!”

So yeah. A load of his life was built around her from the start, and he relied on her for a lot, I mean she’s his mom and all too and the only closer(?) family member in his life given that he’s an only child and has no father. The sudden change of her leaving completely threw his life off course so for years he’s been in some sort of endless state of limbo where he’s both apathetic both saddened yet he might not make it so obvious when around others. He just appears quiet, apathetic and carefree for the most part.

[dollgxtz]

Hi everyone just hopping on here quickly to remind yall that if you feel like dropping His Watchful Eye for any reason please do so!! It’s a very intense story, and I know despite my warnings people will read anyways but I really do want to emphasize putting yourself and your mental health first!!!

No, it won’t upset me! Everyone has their limits, everyone has their own opinions on how the story should go! And that’s okay. If you’re simply upset with how the story is going and want to drop it I would never hold that against anyone. 🤍

The only reason I even bring this up is because of some of the DMs and asks I’ve been getting. I have gotten ppl telling me to hurt myself over this. They’re very upsetting. I’m sorry if you feel like this story is not going the way you’d like but I have been very forward on my opinions on Yandere!Sylus. I don’t hate him but I don’t expect anyone else to like him, it’s okay, that’s the beauty of fiction. Everyone interprets it their own way!

I don’t want to have to keep justifying why I wrote Sylus the way I did. No, a lot of his actions are not canon and it’s my own choice to make him that way. It’s fanfiction and dark romance. Please respect my choices as the author or stop reading 😞

Please don’t come in my DMs/asks and insult me just because you feel a certain way. In fact, I encourage you guys to write your own versions of the characters if you’d like! I’d love to read them! I’m very sensitive and don’t want to have to drop the story altogether, but I will if it’s hurting my own mental health.

This isn’t to say you can’t come to me with criticism! I love constructive criticism and feedback but insulting me is not constructive at all.

Ty for your continued support and love, stay safe!

-Umi ໒꒰ྀི´ ˘ ` ꒱ྀིა

[possibilistfanfiction]

Genuine question, how did you figure out or realize the whole being butch thing? What does being butch mean to you?

idk if it was like… figure out? more so just putting a name to something i’ve always felt or known about myself. i came out as a lesbian, then i came out as nb, then i was like well i want gender affirming care so that must mean i am Trans™️, & it’s like… none of those words or kind of… vibes (lol sorry) quite fit? i don’t feel like a cis lesbian, & i actually kind of despise non-binary as a concept (don’t send asks abt this i won’t answer them lol, do ur own thing if u love it that’s cool); i think for me personally Transness is a little too serious & intense & limiting to how i feel. & im a white afab person in a smaller body, & honestly…….. we are often the wooooorst demographic of trans ppl lmao so i just didn’t even rly like some spaces i was in. i got the most important gender affirming care i wanted, i moved & i got married, i got to work remotely etc

& so just sitting with all of that it was like. ok well a lot of neoliberal queer spaces piss me the fuck off; i’m not cis, but i’m not TRANS in the way a lot of ppl (very validly) feel; i do Not like nb. i’d read stone butch blues before, i have a degree in critical theory where i worked a loooot w queer theory, obviously i’ve written abt queerness for ages lol. so then i was just like ah. butch. dyke. YAH! sweet. 100/10 feels amazing i love it

& i think for me i love those words most bc they’re rooted in really radical belief that i have. they carry an ethic with them that, at its best & most intersectional ofc, i want to act on, all the time. i want to show up for people & be protective & tough & strong but i also so deeply want to be nurturing & nourishing. i want to allow myself to be nourished & cared for. i think it feels rly wonderful to have a word for transgressive gender that sums it all up bc people lived it before me. they made that very specific & particular space to experience femininity in a way that doesn’t feel like a noose.

i think also butchness is so expansive! something that never sat right w me abt the way we talk abt transness in the west is that i don’t think there are ‘pre’ & ‘post’ transition selves. like… i’ve never been Not Me? like i came out of the womb a dyke. all i did my entire childhood is run around in the mountains, catalogue leaves, play w my dog, read nancy drew, & avidly watch + play any women’s soccer i could. i loved to fish & mountain bike, i grew up in the desert so gardening to me was a miracle. i never cared abt gender at all beyond like ‘well i guess i’m a girl & the women i admire just won a world cup, they’re badass’ & that was it. i liked boys clothes bc they were practical & felt better, but i just. didn’t think about it. ppl called me a tomboy which was fine, i liked scout in to kill a mockingbird so whatever. but i never felt “non-binary” & i certainly never felt like a boy.

& i am… still just like that lmao. i hated my boobs, point blank day 1 lol, but that doesn’t have to mean i’m trans, or that i’ve somehow changed in a way that requires separation from who i’ve been my whole life. i HATE the language of ‘dead/lived’ name; i hate the weird expectation that u should allow the state to have all of ur gender stuff on record (no fucking thank you, y’all can keep my legal name & i will be flying under the radar lol). so i think western transness rly just. irritates me. doesn’t fit. hasn’t ever fit.

so butchness is like. i am 8 year old jude, i’m just older now. if this makes sense ur butch lmao but. it’s this rly free space to play w masculinity in a way that doesn’t necessitate western transness, & also doesn’t necessitate a separation from maternalism, which i fundamentally believe in. i don’t even rly think of my own care as “gender affirming” & more just like… essence affirming. i didn’t want top surgery so my body could be read as male; i wanted it so i could look like me. i want my clothes to feel & fit in a Very particular way bc that’s how i like them. it’s abt practicality, efficiency, comfort.

& lastly to me butchness has a remarkable space for tenderness that masculinity on its own just cannot hold. like. it’s abt being protective & strong, sure, but it’s in service of others. always always always. so sometimes that looks like communicating calmly, sometimes that looks like infinite small acts of service for ur friends or ur partner. when i think of settling into myself it’s more about returning to who i knew i was when i was a kid, when i was the only person my dog liked & how it felt to sit on the swings when the sun was setting after the monsoon; it’s allowing myself to love like that — caring, & quiet, & full.

ultimately to me butchness is about devotion, more than anything in the world. devoted to safety, devoted to community. no one is devoted the way dykes are bc it’s how we survive. it’s how we have always survived — the steadfastness, the faith, the joy, even thru suffering, to not be boxed in. to help each other. to be funny & kind & thoughtful & not reject the absolute best parts of womanhood for the sake of a western box. to demand care. it’s so beautiful. devotion.

tldr it’s the best

[ayeshawriteswhatyoulike]

thug love

|part 9|

keep in mind that these warnings are not only for the singular part but for the short book in general. If you don’t like smut then don’t read it or skip over it. I will put a warning for smut before it starts. also if you’re not into the main character being all innocent and naive then don’t read this.sorry if there’s spelling mistakes!

SMUT

gang violence

abuse

drug/alcohol use

age gap

FLUFF

corny nicknames and romance (what did you expect?)

Tom’s arms were wrapped around me when I woke up. I have never felt so much love and care. “Tom..”, I whisper looking over at him. My hands gently tapped him awake until I saw his eyes flutter open. “Good morning angel..”, he whispers making me smile. His eyes scanned my naked body against him before he kissed my forehead. My legs still sore from the night before. I cuddle against his chest inhaling his scent, “regrets?” His deep husky voice asks me. “no regrets..”, I whisper making him smile wider. His black cornrows hugged with his the silk that he wrapped around his forehead. “My good girl better have slept good..”, he says using his thumb to rub the side of my face. I nod, “I did..” I then lean into his arms and press myself against his chest.

|| PAY ATTENTION||

This story will end really short. I will most likely end this on a death or something because I honestly don’t know how to continue this story. You guys can imagine whatever you want else to happen. This trope is honestly my favorite and will most likely be used again. To the ppl who read every single one of my parts for this story, I thank you. I will end this off on one last part in my second master list that is also gonna have this part.

|\here is all the parts/|

[iheartgaykey]

Hiii Ellie! I know this might sound a bit corny but I just have to say how excited I am for your AU Locked Up?? You’ve been such a huge art inspiration for me ever since I started following you and it goes way beyond DHMIS!! Every piece you create always leaves me in awe and you have no idea how much YOU have inspired me to experiment with bold colors. The way you execute everything is just so flawless it pushes me to do better every time I see your work! I don’t say this nearly enough but you’re really funny and you’re also just so much fun to be around! I really wish I could express more often how much I appreciate everything you’ve done and the time you’ve spent following me.. IT TRULY DOES MEAN A LOT TO ME AAJFDHGFDGF THE WAY WE JUST HAVE THESE REALLY STUPID INSIDE JOKES. We can never let "abc to shoot me in the face and kil me instantly " die or "home is where the ward is" I'MGONNA CRY I wasn't sure which account to send this but also you don't have to reply to it AT ALL I honestly get how cringe it might look I JUST HOPE YOU KNOW I'LL ALWAYS HAVE YOUR BACK. Even if you need to vent or rant about something you're free to reach out to me! Never stop talking about that Key, Never stop talking about $oulbomb and just keep spamming the fuck out of this account -💌🩷

This timing is so good actually I've been rereading this like all day.THANK YOU SO MUCH DOLLY YOU FR DO NOT UNDERSTAND. I've been so stressed for the past few days bc alot has been going on (to be expected but that's a story for another day) so hearing this actually made my day my week my month and my year please never ever stop being you and never let your friends parents or anyone put you down bc good god doll you are genuinely an amazing person. I DO NOT DESERVE THIS AAGH NEVER EVER.THINK YOU HAVE TO HELP OR COMFORT OTHER PPL I could yap all day about everything you brought up here but I'll try to keep it a bit short FIRSTLY THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR EVEN READING SOME OF THE SHIT I POST MOST OF THE TIME (for some reason...) I ASSUME PPL JS LIKE MY POSTS & DONT READ THEM... I was originally going to give up on my dhmis au bc I DID NOT THINK anyone gave a shit abt the pilot anymore bc I am a few years late.. (joined the fandom early last year methinks..) ALSO I AM STILL SO SHOCKED I INSPIRE YOU AT ALL WHAT :(((/POS

I WOULD LOVE to talk abunch abt why I likey bright neons sm bc I think it does show a lot in my art (I fell in love with neons a few years ago js like $oulbomb bc I was looking for a specifc genre of items and found them before I had a name for em ♡) AND YOU STILL SOMEHOW PULL OF NEON FUNNY COLORS BETTER THAN ME??? the way u draw is so magical it KIND OF REMINDS ME OF GACHA/POS everytime I talk to my family abt tumblr or literally anything dhmis related my brother brings up abc to shoot me in the face and kil me instantly...

THANK U FOR SENDING IT TO THIS ONE BTW I DONT LIKE CLUTTERING MY MAIN BC ITS MEANT TO BE AESTHETIC AND PRETTY ♡ (Only real fans follow iheartgaykey AND pastelliek...) (even realer fans follow dreidreck too wink wink/ref) SORRY FOR REPLYING LATE A LOT HAS BEEN HAPPENING TODAY D: I ALSO WANTED TO KEEP THIS FOR MYSELF FOR A BIT IN MY INBOX..

[winwintea]

i don't understand the wayv drama can you explain to me please 😭🙏

okay anon here’s the tea

(if any other anons wanna add some info feel free to add anything!)

let’s start from the beginning. cause i’ve seen ppl be like “who tf is prism”

after big guy lee sooman left sm bc hybe kinda bought some shares of sm from him idk wtf happened with that it was lowkey crazy but

SM CAME OUT WITH THIS NEW PLAN! called sm 3.0. you can read more about it on wikipedia. but the general gist was that now these groups were gonna be managed by production centers

there are 5 production centers

as you can see wayv’s production center isn’t the same as nct!!! neo production couldn’t handle all the groups so they had to choose between wish or wayv and they choose to keep wish!!

so wayv migrated to prism center which is what we’ll be referring to when talking about “prism”

after losing taemin and Onew, prism went from expecting to put out min 4 albums per year (Shinee, Key, Onew, and Taemin) to 1 in 2024 (Key) + no shinee album last year. idk wtf minho was doing

so wayv gets more attention now yay !!!!! this should be good right?

yes and no!

we don’t actually know, but many fans believe that prism is biased towards specific members, and has been changing up their music style.

on my youth i think was released when they were with prism (?) but the thing is on my youth had songs recorded back from like…. 2020 😐 so obviously it still included wayv’s older style (moonlight i think was recorded back in 2020 or something)

give me that, go higher, and frequency were all dropped under prism… which is why their music style has seemed different.

fans like myself have started to critique this change saying that it’s not my style or cup of tea.

unfortunately some wayzennies believe that if we hate music then we also hate the group. which is toxic bullshit like. can we not have personal taste

unfortunately i have gotten death threats from them (yipee) which is fun and people say i hate wayv (they were my top artist) so it’s really fun to see everyone lose it over my critique.

haven’t been keeping up with group members specifically so maybe you can check out some previous asks for that.

BUT THE WHOLE DRAMA IS REALLY JUST prism vs wayzennies and wayzennies vs wayzennies.

also winwin absence i should mention i should say those toxic wayzennies told him to kill himself so like this fandom is so fucked 😐

[twentyfivemiceinatrenchcoat]

HELLO!!! gosh im so bad at using tumblr aside from reblogging so this has been a long time coming but i came to say U R A POET!! i found your acc when u had like 2 ? fics out and i remember reading “if i fell through the floor i would keep falling” when it had 90 notes and feeling like someone had put their hand in my chest and ripped my heart out…. i was so confused how it didnt have 100000000 notes?!?! i am still confused now. it’s some of the most beautiful writing ive read (& i don’t even really read for geto so it was such a random find but i am so grateful). my favorite line was “he figures he can give you this one thing, at least.” there are so many heartbreaking ones in that piece but this one was especially so. it’s crazy to me how well you painted the scenes, it really felt like i could visually See every moment.

anyways, i rediscovered your account a few days ago thanks to “i can’t close my eyes alone” and i am BUZZING with excitement at how large your masterlist is (seeing many hurt/comfort fics and u absolutely KILL at that genre omg) i cant emphasize enough how excited i am to tear through it!!!! no way i get any sleep tonight. also sleeping in a bathtub is so horribly senseless that i relate deeply. i would also make a decision like that in anger and commit to it. my favorite line from that work is “sincerity and honesty are things that have been used against him all his life” 💔💔

please expect another longwinded message once i get through all your new works!! thank you for sharing your art

- duzhee

HI HELLO!!!!!!! god i KNEW your user sounded familiar……. i was like ”duzhee hmmm where have i heard that before … 🤨🤨” i think u were the first person who rbed that fic w tags actually, it made me so happy 🥺🥺 i still have a screenshot of it saved in my lil motivational folder <333

im so happy u found ur way back here, u have no idea!!!!! and gosh literally everything u said is so so sweet and thoughtful im tearing up T_T that geto fic still has a v special place in my heart, so i cant tell u how glad i am that u enjoyed it!! especially since u dont read geto often like thats such a huge accomplishment to me….. aaa u even mentioned ur fave line!! its my favorite thing to hear ever 🥺🥺

and the gojo fic!!! im so happy u liked that too!!! im super duper weak for hurt/comfort so its so flattering to me that u think i write it well?!??? u r so so sweet. tysm again for mentioning ur fave line it gives me like … an outrageous amount of happiness when ppl do 😭😭😭 

AND HONESTLY DUZHEE… the only reason i made reader sleep in a bathtub is bc i wanna do it myself so bad LMAO i love sleeping in unconventional places like i love nothing else <333 

ah and and and !!! honestly having someone call my writing ”poetic” is just ……. The most flattering thing ever???? u r genuinely such an angel, tysm for taking the time to write this out 🥺🥺 it made my morning!!!! i am EAGERLY looking forward to another longwinded message from u <3333

[sunlightandsuffering]

tbh when i saw the notes there will be no sex i was quite disappointed!!! cus i was expecting it 😂 but as i read through it, i started to enjoy it more & more, so what if they don’t have sex?? it’s still enjoyable & entertaining!! in fact, i love them during this pre sex phase 🥰 so silly & messy, as expected from switch eremika!! I LUV THEM SO MUCH!

for the smut scene, i personally think this chapter bring out the new side of u I WAS LIKE YASS LYS WE NEED THIS . because your smut style before was a bit repetitive (for me) but this chapter,, i can feel u put so much effort 🥲🥲 & u improve day by day im super proud!! ❤️❤️ THANK U FOR WRITING THIS

omg im glad i dont want ppl to be unfulfilled reading it!! I always feel bad im like THEY STILL HAVEN'T DONE IT, THATS WHAT WE'RE HERE FOR BOOO!!!! but honestly i'm having a lot of fun writing the rest of it, besides phone sex obviously that was a struggle lmfao

BUT YES SEE THATS HOW I FEEL ABOUT MY SMUT I GET TIRED OF IT, IM LIKE FUCK OFF THIS IS SO BORING!!! that's why i hate writing smut lately I always feel its so generic. I think especially with MMDS for a while i was like wtf how do i spice this up, every fucking time it was me forcing myself to write smut 😭😭so in a way switch is good! and also my dark fic blog its like stretching my smut muscles, adding some more spice!!! I feel u tho i get bored with most smut these days u have to be really interesting for it to work me up lol!! IM SO HAPPY IT MIXED IT UP FOR U THO!!! IM THRILLED!! GOT ME OUT OF MY BOX!! THANK U 🤧🤧 y'all feel like my mom ur like, great job lys, pat on the back proud of u, except its about writing smut lmfao ily anon 💗💗💗

[dilfdelivery]

Hey, I was reading your pinned post and wanted to vent in your inbox for a bit because I don’t really have a place to put this. Hopefully that’s ok, this is in relation to the “on a serious note” paragraph, if it’s not okay feel free to delete this.

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I honestly feel somewhat conflicted about the ‘being into detrans kink doesn’t cancel out your transness’ messaging I keep seeing around.

I know why they’re there, and I’m sure it’s validating for folks, just personally my own detrans kink /is/ one of the reasons I’m not trans. I’m not cis either. I also am aware the post filtering system exists and I already heavily use it.

There are other reasons related to how I experience gender in general, but it’s like hm. I use FtM tags and exist around trans spaces, is it contradictory for me to do that and feel the way I do described above?

I don’t know, and I don’t expect you to know. I already deal with this uncomfortableness when engaging with other trans resources for myself (I’m on HRT for gender reasons) and I really don’t want it cropping up within kink. But I’m also very conscious of ‘this space might not be for me’ - the tricky thing is my solution to that is leaving and I don’t exactly want to stop engaging with these spaces.

Anyways, I’m okay with any and all responses.

my gender always seems to change so I get it. There’s so much pressure to be very gender conforming in transness, both from cishets and also other trans ppl (hello? calling people ‘theyfabs’ for daring to have a complex relationship with gender).

Being told you can’t do this or that or the other if you ‘want’ to be trans. But being trans means you can do whatever the fuck you want forever tbh.

‘detrans kink doesn’t cancel out your transness’ is fair for some, but also remember that it doesn’t necessarily make you cis either. The third of not cis or trans is actually also being trans, but in a way most cis and trans people hate LOL.

I’ll never be cis. I’ve tried very hard to be cis but I’m not. Doesn’t mean I’m always gonna know my gender exactly, but that’s my business lol.

If it ever gets too much, step back and evaluate where you want your transition to go. You’re allowed to slow down. You’re allowed to stop. None of these things are automatically ‘detrans’.

Also, please don’t feel uncomfortable about using trans resources. They’re there to be used, and usually with charity stuff the more people who use it, the more funding they can get.

I’m not sure if I really answered it well but you’re not alone 👍

[dredgen-dumbass]

Redo of my pinned post, again, because I'm indecisive.

At a glance:

No screen name, he/him. Predominantly SFW blog, tws follow the normal content of Destiny 2. I swear like a sailor. Not the type for dni lists, just don't be a bigot. Asks are open to all. I don't mind mass likes/reblogs, and dw about derailing. The rest is under the cut.

sideblogs:

D2 sims???: @destinythesims

Art: @dredgen-dumbass-art-acc

rp blogs welcome to interact, but I ain't one

Message from yours truly,

I genuinely thought I was going to just spam Drifter content for a few days, and then go delete Tumblr again once my brain calmed down about it. As it turns out, that isn't happening. I like the community here so far, which isn't something I've been able to say about Tumblr for some time now, and it seems like I'm going to stick around a while longer. That, and I thought I was just fixated on the one character, but Destiny itself is becoming a pretty big interest of mine, and I know I'll need somewhere to talk about it, so this is going to shift more towards that. I'm going to try to be a bit more cautious with tags so I'm not filling them with every Destiny related through that crosses into my brain, so I'm going to set up an (albeit shoddy) tagging system and be a bit more conservative with what gets put in the main D2 tag. Apologies if I flooded anything you follow, I'm used to posting in a much larger fandom where things get buried really quick, I didn't realize how bad it was until I tried to go through those tags myself, and... eesh. (it’s been a few months, but I’m leaving this here. iykyk.)

So, me.

I know it's Tumblr culture to put every last detail in your bio, but personally I'm not comfortable with that. If you need more than I give, then just click off and move on. I understand wanting some idea of who you're talking to, but I think the things that matter will come up naturally through my posts. What I do think should be clarified, just as a matter of perspective with all the queer stuff in this fandom, is that I'm a gay dude. Other than that, I don't think any labels are relevant to this account. If something else becomes relevant, feel free to ask for clarification, I understand that some things read differently depending on who's saying them. Otherwise, respect my privacy, thanks.

side note that I’m throwing on here late, my memory is shit, if I send you duplicate asks etc. I’m sorry. it shouldn’t really matter elsewhere bc wonderful and terrible thing of the internet is that all it is logged— but I digress.

Fandom chaos & such,

I want to keep discourse away from my blog, both fandom and real-world. Especially real-world, because Destiny is an escape for me, and I want to keep this as a separate space I've carved for myself, in the same way as the game is for me. That said, bigots can fuck off to all hell. Y'all aren’t welcome here just because I'm not interacting with the arguments. This is a safe space for everyone, provided you don’t make it unsafe for anyone else.

sm love for the ppl here theatre passionate abt d2 like I am. y’all are great, keep posting

Destiny stuff,

I'm a casual player, have been going for about 3 years now. I'm a solar titan main. Dredgen, not masochistic enough to have it gilded (I can’t spell shh)

My favorite character is drifter, woah big shocker. I'm still learning the game lore and such, so at the moment he's the only character I've actually gone in-depth reading about.

My other favorites are saint-14, saladin, shaxx, osiris, eido, holiday, and ofc ghost.

Expect my posts to mostly be about them.

This isn't a ship blog, though I may reblog ship content occasionally. I don't have any I particularly care for, aside from O14, but to me they're different because it's canon. Again, asks are open if you want to hear me talk about a specific ship.

I have been asked specifically about drifteris because I post sm about Drifter, and no I'm not a drifteris shipper. I read their relationship as platonic, and if I post about both of 'em it's not a shipping thing. I'm glad the ship brings more attention to the characters, though.

Fanart & fics,

I'll be honest, I've written a few short pieces of my yw. I don't plan on posting them, and even if I do I'm not sure that I'll connect them to this blog in any way. that's a question for future me, whether that's tomorrow or years from now.

updating this bc I’ve been doing more lately— you can repost my fanart, just credit and tell me. I would prefer it stay on tumblr tho for ai protection purposes, though.

I don't sit and vet all every account I reblog, so if I reblog something stolen or just uncredited let me know and I'll tag the artist.

If you have m/m or m/neutral (or just platonic) fic recommendations feel free to send em over. Gotta have something to keep me occupied.

Tagging system?

I've never made one of these before. I don't think I have the time to go through all of my previous posts and set them up with this, but from now on the structure will be:

#dredgenposting - all of my destiny-related rambling, because I don't want to fill the destiny 2 tag with my post spam.

#reblogs

#mild nsft - probably just sex jokes

#nsft - probably won't be used, but leaving it here in case it is so that I'm not coming back again to edit this

#discourse - not sure how much this will be used, but I'm bound to have a public opinion on something eventually

#my fanart - my own fanart

#asks

if there's something you'd like tagged to filter in/out while looking through my blog, lmk. chances are I'm fine with incorporating it.

and that's it. thanks for reading, live long and prosper y'all.

[frabooks]

Recensioni pazzerelle

Delitto e castigo

Writing this was a crime and reading it was a punishment.

Instead of reading this book, drink vodka in a dark room and think depressing thoughts. That will give you about the same experience and you'll have a better time.

I read the first 100 pages and found myself thinking at several rambling points, "my god I don't give a fuck."

I felt like I should have liked it, but just couldn't.

Life is short, don’t read this lol

Initially I gave this book two stars, but on reflection, I'm deducting one.

Oblomov

Incredibly boring. >100 pages about a man who can't get up >100 pages about his boring dream of happiness where nothing happens >100 pages about him being shaken a little bit by a woman >100 pages about him being afraid of what ppl would say > 100 pages about him falling in love with a nice and considerate housewife who moves her elbows all the time >100 pages about his friend and "ex-gf" being in love and wondering how that old damn Oblomov can be saved

I had to read this in my 19th Century Russian lit course in college. This is another "shoot me now, PLEASE" books.

Very slow and depressing, a good reminder of a lifestyle one should Not lead.

Il Maestro e Margherita

The Chicago Tribune wrote: “The book is by turns hilarious, mysterious, contemplative and poignant, and everywhere full of rich descriptive passages.” Hilarious and contemplative my ass, CT. This book is an interminable slog.

I understand this book is a classic. I guess any leaden, murky, plotless book can be a classic, and this is a great example of that.

I started reading this book when I was in a very bad place. Finishing this made me realise if I can survive this painfully long and tortuous piece of literature, I can do anything.

I would gladly sell my soul to Woland if he promised to erase this book from my memory!

I never review anything. Why should you care about my opinion? However, what was most disappointing to me was that this book kept appearing on multiple lists of things I might enjoy based on things I've enjoyed in the past. I expected the internet to be right, and I'm angry that it failed me.

Whoever told me The Master and Margarita is Russia's greatest literary work should be sent to Siberia.

The author died before he could finish it. I’m sure that’s why it was so…incomprehensible …

Notre Dame de Paris

i would rather have had someone shoot me in the head with a nail gun, repeatedly, than have to read this again

I was not expecting this... I am almost lost for words - unlike HUGO of course who seemed to have words coming out of his ears..boy did this guy ramble on.

What a horror of a novel! A plot that a gargoyle would have trouble swallowing, a lecherous priest, an abysmally stupid young woman, and the hunchback who loves her but but whose misunderstandings lead indirectly to her death, and all written in the sort of dreadful Gothic style I have trouble tolerating for one chapter, much less 560 pages.

Il Signore degli Anelli

Save time... watch the movies.

can be summarised as: walking, walking, walking, bit of fighting with orcs, walking, walking, walking, anguish, walking, walking, walking, bit more fighting with orcs, walking, walking, walking.

i am tempted to go out and buy a wobbly table just so I can put this book to good use.

Based on the hit movies of the same name! The author of these novelizations took way too many liberties with the story line.

The lord of the rings wasn't even really IN this book, it was about short people who could barely manage rings at all. One star.

This book is boring, insufferable from the very first page. Those hobbits took like 100 or 120 pages to go out of their homes, cross the garden and go inside the forest. Leaving a village of 30 people took them like seven human years. Close the book to never open it again. And don't watch the movie either, it's even worst.

Se questo è un uomo

ok mi dispiace della tragedia che c’è dietro a questo libro ma è leggermente ripetitivo

noia

I fratelli Karamazov

Let me save you 900 pages and untold man hours: rich Russian asshole family members drink, yell, whore, steal one another's mates, murder, more screaming, philosophizing, more screaming, no subtlety to anything, all conversation between characters so over-the-top and full of passion as to be unrelatable. This was probably one of the biggest, most drawn-out yawns I have ever committed my time to.

Shame on you Mr Dostoyevsky.

This book was torture from start to finish. I forced myself to finish it only because I very quickly decided I would not be beaten by this pile of crap.

So that was 34 hours of my life that I can’t get back.

literally traumatizing. not a slay. nobody told dostoevsky to shut the fuck up and it shows

Memorie dal sottosuolo

They should’ve left it in Russian only

“So it is hardly literature so much as a corrective punishment” A punishment for us both Dostoyevsky.

An angry book about an angry man written for angry men. Whatever this genre of book is, I hope I never read anything like it again.

If you are suffering from a toothache or just got your wisdom teeth out, read chapter 4 of notes from underground. Or maybe don’t, it will only make you feel worse.

[aizenat]

Every time I read or watch Korean media, people are so rude to each other in a way that makes me wonder if that’s realistic. I don’t think Americans are particularly polite tho we do have our pleasantries. You treat people kindly and you can often expect it back. It’s just being a decent human to those around us. I don’t get ppl who think Americans are too polite or too friendly or whatever.

But then I see Korean netizens have meltdowns if they feel like this idol didn’t address their seniors properly or didn’t bow deep enough or something, but then people are so rude and harsh in their shows and books and I’m like “are Koreans actually like this?” Like what is the truth? I see so many scenes where characters will just publicly talk down to someone, like putting them down in a fucked up way and it seems so wrong. And like it’ll be portrayed as a shitty person but no one ever speaks up like “hey lay off you’re out of pocket.”

Maybe that’s the American in me? If I see someone being treated poorly I can’t help but speak up. That’s why I’d get in trouble with kids a lot when I was young because I’d always call ppl out for treating someone poorly. If I see someone berating someone in public I wouldn’t be able to stop myself from saying something. But that also doesn’t happen a lot because Americans know it’s rude and bothersome to do that sort of thing in public and only really narcissistic assholes would do that in public.

Idk this stuff makes me wonder just how Koreans really act. I feel like it’s hard to gauge cultural tendencies from Korean shows that I don’t feel when I watch shows from other countries.

[freshwitchgladiator]

tag venting time i guess

[humbugg]

soooo who wants to move away to a foreign country and adopt a dog with me 👀

[rollercoasterwords]

I have been going thru canon compliant wolfstar fics oldest to newest (like back to og wolfstar of the early 00) bc I’m a masochist 😋 🤞 and I’ve definitely noticed the shift in the way the majority of writers tag their fics. It’s interesting to see how much more frequently ppl use tags to begin with. Writers already make the conscious decision to warn ppl throughly about what it’s in their fics thru tags, and i honestly don’t think people should ever need to add need tw beyond tags sorry not sorry. I certainly don’t think everyone will agree with me, but sometimes I don’t want to know ever major plot point that in a chapter (which is why I usually skip them, but it’s hard bc I love reading the authors notes) Just read the tags, test it out if needed, and dip if it’s too much 🫠

yeahhhhh whenever i read older fics there really aren't like. warnings on each ch. bc tags are just assumed to be sufficient. which makes sense to me!!

and like i'm sympathetic to people who want tws--i'm someone who frequently spoils shit for myself bc i wanna know what happens, especially with like horror movies and stuff where i wanna know if i can stomach it. but it's about taking responsibility for ur own reading experience, y'know? like if i'm reading a fic and it gets to be too much for me, i just...stop reading. and accept the fact that the fic is not for me.

and from a writer perspective, it's like....on my longer fics i've tried to give a heads-up in ch notes, bc when i entered the fandom i got the impression that was the norm. but doing that takes extra time and work, and i don't always know what someone might find triggering. and like, if people reach out politely and ask me to add a tw for something that didn't occur to me, i'm usually happy to do so!

but like. idk man. when i was writing this cowboy fic i was just like....i do not feel like combing back through these chapters and trying to add in-depth warnings on every ch in addition to what i've already put in the tags lol. and now i'm writing a zombie fic, and even though i've tagged it for like gore and violence and blood and injury and it is literally a zombie apocalypse au, i still feel this sense of pressure to put notes at the beginning of chs, because so many people seem to just expect that!

anyway it's up to every writer individually to decide how many warnings they wanna put on a fic, but i definitely do wish that there was a way to like....backtrack to a time when the norm was gratitude for the fact that fics on ao3 even have tags in the first place + a sense that everyone is responsible for their own reading experience, rather than this sense of entitlement some people seem to have where they expect detailed warnings on every single ch :/

[evvlevie]

☎️ I ALMOST SHIFTED AFTER NOT TRYING FOR OVER 2 MONTHS. ☎️

[i swear, it’s always me this stuff happens to..]

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HOW I .. ALMOST SHIFTED!! (storytime)

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bet you weren’t expecting another crazy spiritual event to happen to me, were you? well, here i am! back again with another story of something insane.. anyway, let’s start this story off with background. recently, i’ve been a bit lacking in the trying-to-shift department. i’ve been reading up on a lot of shifting stories, methods, etc, but barely actually tried to shift myself. .. well, less of my own choice and more of the universes choice LOL, been constantly having shifting stuff thrown at my face. but, anyway, i’ve been busy working on my OR life, so it’s been hard for me to think of shifting at all (aside from the stuff the universe has been throwing at me). however, around 2 days ago i attempted to shift for the first time in over 2 months, as the title states. here’s how it went!

it was late for me and i was really tired, as i only decided to shift right before i went to sleep, so me attempting to shift.. wasn’t exactly me trying my best. i think that might’ve played a part in it, though. but anyway, i started off with me getting into a comfortable position, closing my eyes, and then affirming. it wasn’t any complicated affirmations, as i like to stick to what i’ve seen ppl call ‘the basics’ (i have shifted’, ‘i am in my dr’, ‘i am not chained to one reality’, etc.) bcz that’s what works for me. i affirmed for a bit, and then began to mix in visualizing (me waking up in my dr). i then began to feel symptoms. not crazy, symptoms, but still symptoms. i was starting to feel a symptom of mine that happens when i’m in the middle/beginning of shifting, my limbs going numb. i like to think of it as the process of me being transferred to my OR body, yk yk. i then began to use the technique of letting your mind wander off, but inside your DR instead of your OR (basically instead of thinking “i have a math test tmrw”, if you are shifting to hogwarts or something you would think “i have a magic test tmrw”). this began to increase the symptom of my limbs going numb, as i had stopped being able to feel my legs, and a huge part of both my arms. i tried to ignore this cause yk, ignore the symptoms and stuff, but eventually my mind got bored and trailed off.

as i said, it was really late for me and i was really tired, so my focus wasn’t entirely on shifting. my mind had began to wander, and i don’t even remember what i was thinking about but it definitely was not shifting. i almost completely forgot i was supposed to be shifting in the first place, actually. i eventually snapped out of it, and i thought to myself “oh shit, im supposed to be shifting.” and then resumed lazily affirming. this is when stuff begun to get crazy. i was still really really out of it after i snapped myself out of that dream-like state i was in, but i was still thinking of shifting and affirming and stuff. i wasn’t putting in a lot of effort and was barely thinking at all. nothing new was happening, until i felt a jolt of energy be shot through me. i don’t know what happened, but all of a sudden all of my mind just woke up at once, and began seeing things. i am not entirely sure how to describe what i saw.. but i’ll try my best. it was like i was cycling through lights, or maybe even universes. i saw lights flashing and then disappearing, as if i was being pulled through a plethora of universes. the only two colours i could see were purple and white, and they kept flashing over and over. and.. you will probably think i’m crazy but, i swear i remember the very VERY distinct feeling of my consciousness being pulled from my body. i’m not sure how else to describe it, but it was like i was literally being pulled away from my OR. all of a sudden, excitement and energy flashed through me and it set in i was going to shift. it set in i was finally going to do it. it was happening, and it was all happening now! nothing could ruin this! i’m doing it, i’m doing it!- ..

…. and then i fell asleep. no joke, i literally passed out while in the process of being pulled through multiple universes. i woke up the next day in my OR, and i haven’t been able to shake the feeling of being tired since. sucks ass, i know, but i’m going to try again soon! the whole experience was CRAZY and i don’t even know how to begin to describe what it felt like. the jolt of energy i got was so sudden, i was literally on the verge of sleeping and then all of i sudden i felt like something just grabbed me and i was immediately pulled away from all feelings of tiredness. also, i would go through the process of how i did it and stuff, but as i said i haven’t been able to shake the feeling of being tired since, so i don’t even want to begin to try SHDGDGD

i hope this storytime was fun though!! going to try again another time, hopefully soon if i can muster up the motivation LMAOO.. anyway, byebye everyone!! :))

-☎️ anon <3

Omg this is such a great Storytime and I can definitely relate to it, and I know what feeling you are describing!!!

I am so so so happy for you that you got this far, keep it going and keep us updated!!!

Love you! 🫶🏻❤️