#introvert limbo

[kal31d0sc0p1c]

introvert limbo (sorta vent post?)

I made it up, but "introvert limbo" is, as an introvert, where you, an introvert TRYING to socialize for the first time, just awkwardly stand in the middle of a very active conversation-- typically with two other people-- could be more, but the whole point is that, even if you want to, you somehow can't find a way to be part of the conversation, no matter how hard you try.

i keep going into the introvert limbo and it sucks. i want to talk to them, and i tried, but i get one reply and them I'm just nothing again. like i was never there.

it's not really like hell, because as an introvert, I'm perfectly fine not talking to anyone. but it's a limbo because I'm in between hell and heaven. heaven being, "great! you don't have to talk to anyone!" and hell being, "they probably just don't like you and don't want to talk to you".

for me, I don't understand why I'm still stuck in limbo.

why am i stuck? why can't i get over it and move on? why is this so fucking difficult?

if anyone relates, i'm genuinely so sorry.

[writing-prompt-s]

You die two deaths - your physical death and your true death when your name is spoken for the last time. You, a mild-mannered introvert, have been stuck in limbo for centuries waiting for your true death, and finally found out why.

[avocado-writing]

helloo im the anon who asked for the logan x introverted! reader meet cute:-) maybe like the reader is quiet but she’s also super blunt when asked for her opinion. pls i do not have creative braincells you can make up the entire plot😹🙏

he feels you staring at him and he hates it.

gazes tend to stick to him like webbing, something which he cannot wait to be free from. people muttering about if he really is the wolverine they’ve been hearing about; the new guy who’s gonna pick up the mantle of their precious Logan.

it’s a lot, and most nights he tries to drown it out with whiskey. in the darkness of the bar he gets lost in the shadows and people leave him alone. the last place he can be anonymous.

except…

you’re always there. staring.

behind the bar and barely saying a fucking word… but eyes always heavy on him.

oh it gets right under his skin. makes him itch.

you hardly ever speak, even when serving customers. he’s maybe heard you string together a grand total of five words from your pretty little mouth (which he tries to tell himself he doesn’t fixate on). still drives him crazy that, when you’re not busy, you never stop looking at him.

what do you want? are you a fan? desperate for his autograph, have him sign a fucking eight-by-ten for you? maybe if that were the case you’d snap a picture on your phone… but you never do.

you just watch.

he doesn’t know what to make of it and you never make an effort to get closer, so the two of you are trapped in this strange limbo of silence and staring. one night, when the bar is quiet and he’s feeling particularly mean after a day of being harassed, he calls you out on it.

“y’know, you never stop fuckin’ staring at me. why? this place ain’t a fuckin’ zoo.”

you’re busy counting his change from the register. his accusation momentarily flusters you and you drop the coins, sighing as you have to pick them up with shaking fingers. he feels a little bad about that.

a little.

you mutter something under your breath in response. he doesn’t catch it.

“what?”

“h’nsome…”

the look he gives you suggests he still doesn’t totally understand. you shift uncomfortably.

“I think you’re handsome.”

he wasn’t expecting that. those four words send him reeling. you mistake his silence for anger.

“I’ll stop. sorry.”

Logan feels suddenly pretty terrible, an emotion not unfamiliar to him.

“no, it’s… fine.” you shift under his words, still clearly shaken and shy, “you don’t know who I am, do you?”

you look bemused.

“should I?”

oh, heaven. an angel from heaven. no ulterior motive. you just like looking at him.

maybe that’s okay.

Logan sits on one of the old, battered stools at the bar. he catches the smile you try to hide.

“Logan,” he says by way of introduction. you tell him your name, and there’s no obscuring the grin on your face this time.

handsome, huh? he could get used to that.

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[brown-little-robin]

okay, I'm crowdsourcing advice for a minute, so bear with me and please lend some words if you have any:

I want to get out of the house more. Like, on a regular basis. Weekly, maybe. Preferably, I would like to be interacting with people—the same people—every time, for... like... accountability, but also because I am hoping to put myself out there as the 21st century's most neurotic platonic Casanova. Uh. Making a friend or more out of this would be desirable. But I think if I go out with the intention of making a friend, I will be disappointed.

So. I want to go do something, for that something's own sake. I don't want to go be fake once a week hoping to get a friend out of it.

However, the beautiful state of Iowa is a bit cultureless, and I am too introverted and easily overwhelmed for this world (e.g. going to bars is probably not gonna be my thing). So.... I guess.... any suggestions? opinions? thoughts on making friends in general, or finding good activities as an introverted adult, in general?

oh yeah, also: I am poor. that's a factor. so. signing up a class or similar is not a great option right now.

what the heck, I'll add a silly poll for fun:

[epicsfanshitposting]

Quick thing

Talkin about Odysseus ghosts

Why? Cause I'm an introverted English lit student who likes making people suffer alongside me.

Anyways enjoy.

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Polities is blue. Blue like tears running down face and hands, blue like the condensation on a cold glass of water, blue like the tinge of the lotus flowers, blue like Telemachus eyes, blue like Athena's quick thought space. Polities is close, always close, always asking asking asking to be heard, to be listened too. To be learned from. To be remembered and cherished and responded too. Polities is falling apart, fading, little by little as he is forgotten bit by excruciating bit. He is never cared for, never responded too, never listened too. Polities is the siren call, begging, begging with a blood-flecked voice driven dry by his singing and the lotus flowers, to listen hear learn but Ody never does, never listens never learns never remembers. Polities is the unhealed heart, the unheard cry for help, the hidden grief. He is the flowers wilting on the grave, still beautiful and filled wits message and a promise, but ignored and forgotten all the same. Because he always is, isnt he? He's never been heard and never will be. Not in his story.

Eurylochus is orange. Orange like diluted blood, orange like the sunset, orange like the rusted blade. Eurylochus is quick to follow, quick to lead, quick to forget the consequences, quick to lay the blame, quick to draw the first blood. Yet he is also hesitant, paranoid, planning ahead and ahead into the future, slow to act up, slow to accept defeat. Eurylochus is clinging, doubting, always doubting, clinging like syrup the colour of blood and sunsets. Eurylochus is the rusty blade, never learning, never advancing, always holding onto the past. Eurylochus is the man driven insane by the things they have seen, unable to recover, unable to move on, unable to see the present day. Eurylochus is trapped by his own brain, syrupy-slow and stick and soft.

Anastayx is purple. Purple like royalty, purple like lotus flowers, purple like wine, purple like blood-stained seas. Anastayx is silent and still, frozen in time, in the limbo between laughter and mourning, joy and sorrow, forgiveness and revenge. Anastayx has no voice, no song, because he never had the opportunity to make one before his life was ended on the whim of a distant god. Anastayx is falling, ever falling, falling from grace, from memory, life slipping through his fingers faster and faster as his eyes say everything that needs to be said. Anastayx is the silent heartbreak, the unfinished story, the broken pieces left to collect dust but silently accusing that you did this. You left me. You ended my story before it could begin. It's. Your. Fault.

Anticlea is green. Green like tropical plants, green like the loyal protective snake, green like the life she lived to the fullest. Anticlea is slow, methodical, a mother teaching her stubborn, reckless child, slowly rocking him, trying to bring comfort. Anticlea is the vine that wraps around a tree, whispering to it tales of the heroes of old, bringing beauty for a short while before decaying slowly, softly, flowers falling petal by petal onto the forest floor, soon gone and forgotten as the tree grows older and unrecognisable before her invisible eyes and hands. Anticlea is the silent bystander, voice and memory lost to time as she stands in the background, a husk of a memory, a silent plea.

[opertabry]

fine with babe ➣ 1/3. jeanies

synopsis ➣ you and your member, hanni, had a comfortable situationship, going behind your group to meet up and share lingering kisses. you were in a friends with benefits situation, stuck in a limbo between not being able to stay strictly friends, but fine with calling each other babe.

profile 1/3 ➣ jeanies

newjeans ➣ @/NewJeans_ADOR , @/newjeans_official : a 6 member girl group formed by ADOR entertainment, the group consist of : minji, hanni, yn, danielle, haerin and hyein. taking the world by storm since their debut, they dominate the 4th generation and breaking unimaginable records.

kim minji ➣ @/minjpg , @/minejiii : 04, as the eldest in the group, she acts as the unofficial leader, taking care of the rest of the members. despite being the most mature, she still displays a playful side, constantly teasing her younger members and has a dry sense of humour.

pham hanni ➣ @/phamdotcom , @/phamjones : 04, known for her honey-like voice, and her quirky personality, she has a 4D personality that fans find extremely cute. both her members and fans know that she is the most comfortable and close to yn.

park yn ➣ @/ynparked , @/ynparker : 04, being the socialite of the group along with hyein, and known for her stage presence, fans (and a particular member) falls head over heels for her. she finds her solace in her member, hanni, in more ways than one.

mo jihye ➣ @/danidee , @/moooji : 05, being the sunshine of the group and the happy pill, her carefree personality makes fans love her and come back for more. as a fellow australian, she is the next person hanni would turn to if she couldn’t talk to yn.

kang haerin ➣ @/kingkang , @/kaanggrin : 06, her introverted nature and shyness paired with her intense and sharp dance style, attracts both idols and fans alike. despite her standoffish personality that most people would find to be rude, yn sticks to her whenever she has “problems” with hanni.

lee hyein ➣ @/HEEEEYin , @/heyyyyin : she is always doted on by the rest of the members as the youngest of the group, always taking advantage of yn’s love and spending her money. the biggest bts stan, and although the rest of her members try to stop her from spending money on albums, yn encourages it and financially supports her bts stan endeavours.

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[astradyke]

I loveeeed your deep dive! Why do you think we are suddenly getting all the marriage references? “I think you’re just looking for the word husband”, “my fiancé nord VPN”, dressing each other in silly wedding attire, and many more!

(opening note that everything below is truly unedited, i know i say that every time but i get very anxious about editing my thoughts so i typically do go back-- this time, i probably will later but i really don't have much time to spare right now so if this has typos that's why! i'm sorry :c hope it's understandable)

okay hi! first of all thank you so much! i'm quite proud of it :)

i'll open this by stating that i am really not the best at articulating points about Dan, Phil, and marriage; there are many impressive theories/metas out there from incredible folks in the community, which i have lovingly absorbed (feel free to promo off this post if this is you!). but i am a very indecisive person who tends to waver on my thoughts in this subject, and i've not found myself as excitable about the latest hints they've left in this video. so, hopefully it's okay if i use your ask as an excuse to kind of... sandbox around my messy thoughts in this ballpark, and hopefully give you an apt response to your question along the way!

i said before that i waver on my thoughts about Dan, Phil, and marriage, but in actuality, i do have loose thoughts which i have stuck to, which is that i think there have been several past proposals. the following theory operates off of the idea that Phil was the one to propose; i don't necessarily think he's more or less inclined towards proposals exactly, but it kind of works better for what i have envisioned possibly happening. when i discuss this i will try to stay neutral on who does what, but that's important context especially around proposal two.

i joined the phandom in the very tail-end of the pre-II era; by the time i was really immersed approximately a year or two into discovering them, they began the promotion of interactive introverts. because of this, i really have spotty knowledge of their 'prime years' around TATINOF, etc. but i think, across their travels (possibly in Japan?) and during that period of massive fame-- where they were experiencing more security financial and in their careers, as well as becoming better situated in each other's lives off camera-- the first proposal occurred. and ultimately, regardless of who proposed to who, i think this proposal was rejected. certainly, they had a better handle of their images, but this was before Dan had disclosed his mental health to the public; this was before a proper rebrand of his content, even. Phil, similarly, had several issues i can imagine he was juggling at the time, and beyond all else-- the two of them were closeted. their flat had been located, their shipping wasn't at its max exactly but the eyes on them had risen exponentially, if they got married in any kind of formal way that would be largely problematic. 2015 was not ready for Dan and Phil, the people who literally brought YouTubers to the big stage, the golden boys in this strange collab limbo, and a well known duo act-- to actually get married.

so they resolve that, because they know each other well enough to communicate about that sort of thing, and the idea gets shelved. they move into their new flat, which they have secured to be a private space. Dan has rebranded and is opening up about his mental health, Phil has done his own stylistic rebrand, and we are approaching the II era. interactive introverts is a success, the gaming channel goes on hiatus, and Dan has decided to begin working on his coming out video. this is when, in what i imagine to be a much more casual conversation, the question gets put forward: maybe, now, marriage is a safer thing.

and it is, in some ways, but there's still more to unravel here. Dan was, for the first time, out to not only the entire world but also his close family. Phil-- who i worry sometimes has his own story understated at this point-- had been out to a few people but had undeniably been nervous to come out to everybody, too. they had a lot to explore, with this newfound freedom.

commitment and change were crowning points of this era, for Dan and Phil respectively (though, obligatory note that humans are multifaceted and they share a close life together, so both of them mutually did experience both phenomena). working in reverse: Phil would begin to experience, gradually, the onset of a chronic illness. he also had this ambiguous future ahead, as he tried to adjust to the lack of Dan in his public work-- only for COVID to arrive. his anxiety problems were increasingly going from something he could willfully avoid to something he needed to address, and that is a massive adjustment on its own. there were a lot of background changes happening with Phil, even as his content appeared to be the same-- a commitment he hadn't given up.

Dan is, in a lot of ways, the opposite of this. both Dan and Phil had committed to living in their two-flat situation together, but they were planning to move in with one-another throughout 2020. this happens amidst COVID, which crushes a lot of post-coming out plans Dan had both personally and professionally. YouTube systemically destroys his creative visions through bureaucracy and arguable exploitation of his image, and when you rewatch his video explaining this, you realize that he briefly mentions the fact that the sheer financial commitment he had to his dream work prompted him to talk to Phil and describe delaying the purchase of their house. Dan's whole life has involved commitment-- being with Phil, in its own right, has been that, as well as the BBC gig, tour work, etc.-- but you can see this conflict become pivotal as so many of these commitments tie themselves to a part of his very self, and then are ripped away from him. Dan was not ready to get married.

... so, cut to now. see, everything above that i described is very lazily speculative, which i sort of hate for a meta because i feel a rush that desires total accuracy, but i simply can't track all the different moments where a marriage was plausible, all the different hints and signs. what i do think is that there was a serious marriage attempt early in their lives, and then a second casual conversation in a very not-casual situation. where does this leave us now?

Dan and Phil are in a very fresh era of their lives, distinctive from anything of the past. they are out, collaborating together, rebranding themselves gradually into something more fitting to their core artistic identities, and fostering a close community with their audience. Dan is making a severe sequence of commitments here, but these are worth the risk-- bringing back the gaming channel was conditional on the fact that Dan was making a choice he could back out of, but he chose to commit to the channel through committing to his own happiness. Phil is going through a lot of his own changes as he comes to terms with his medical state, as well as his appearance changes and the shifts in confidence it brings. Phil embraces the seismic change that is the end of the hiatus, because for the first time in a while, it's not a bittersweet change or a change laced in uncertainty-- it's a good change.

and, really, it's been fifteen years since they first met, five years since they first came out. what better time is there for something like this?

honestly, i don't know if it's happened yet. i personally don't envision Dan and Phil to approach marriages all that typically; they are chained together, as Dan put it once, in really every facet of their life already. i do believe that both of them like the concept of a wedding but also hate every mini-concept that goes into a wedding, so i really can't imagine that happening.

but i think maybe all these wedding references are emerging for a couple of reasons: namely, to prime us for the idea of them possibly being married (or to tease us for our theorizing, who knows with them), and also subconsciously to prepare themselves. because a proposal isn't just going to be a casual conversation anymore-- it might not be fancy, the way they first did their proposal, in a traditional speech & kneel format somewhere in a beautiful city. but it's not like their second one, halfway through the first okay day in a string of stressful ones, sitting in an apartment packing up their things.

maybe this is Phil bringing up marriage terms in videos, smiling when his family refers to Dan as part of the Lester family (even though really, Phil, they've been doing that for years), thinking about the aesthetics of WAD and wondering if a black-and-orange ring is a little too much. maybe this is Dan calling Phil pet names more often, daydreaming about himself in a dress but realizing he wants to see Phil in a veil more, fully accepting that he does not want to take Phil for granted after spending so long hiding his love for him and several years trapped by his fear of himself.

maybe we are hearing so many wedding references because the two of them are warming back up to the idea. or maybe they're teasing us about it because somewhere both of them already know that they could do this.

me personally, i think Phil proposes first in a ring that is very deliberately artsy and aesthetic. i think some mishap happens during it and it's kind of a disaster but Dan laughs so hard he starts crying and he says yes before Phil can say anything because he knows Phil didn't script anything, that if Dan said no Phil would get up and kiss him anyway. i think Dan follows suit later, but he's really meticulous about getting Phil something comfortable to wear that still looks nice and complements his ring. it's less of a secret, now, so he asks the Lesters and grumbles about Phil beating him to it, but his proposal goes a lot more smoothly and still takes Phil off guard, doing that small smile you see whenever he looks at Dan.

and i think Dan really wants a fancy dress i mean come on. Phil gets the veil though. or maybe they just sign the papers or procrastinate them and no wedding ever happens. honestly, maybe i'm totally off here-- maybe they're never going to get married, just buy a house several years down the line in the isle of man and never really bother with the legal stuff.

but they're not taking things for granted, anymore. not them, and not their audience. they know they can make references to marriage and we'll go batshit, but they know we don't care. they know we want them happy. and they know that no matter what they do, nurses and bartenders are still going to think Dan is Phil's son and there's a joke i really want to make here but i'm not going to right now.

... yeah. i meant to take a shower about an hour ago! i've been sitting down for a long while and don't really remember what i've said ^_^ i hope you like it though!

[rebelwithoutabroom]

i need more farfadream and green spreen too. Tbh i think farfa needs it too like he wanted to be with dream on this squids so bad

I hate that both these men are so shy pleaseeeee just go into dms and play so mc together!! Sapnap please do something to take them out of the introvert limbo

Yeeesss 🥹 farfa is so endearing to me tbh, he was 110% all in the farfadre fever dream and i respect a man like that. They should totally play some mc together someday, thatd fix me

[shiraishi--kanade]

Can you explain your thought process about liking An?? Or is that like an opposites attract thing for you? /gen /not neg

This is such an interesting question but thank god for the tone indicators because for a moment there I thought I was genuinely being attacked for liking An Shiraishi. Sorry I'm going to An Shiraishi jail /j

On a more serious note... I guess I kind of just do like her. I think her writing is decently good if massively underappreciated - she's not a masterpiece of a character as I'd consider some other PJSK guys to be (namely Ena, Mafuyu, Emu and Rui) and the writers tripped over their own leg more than once with her with some arcs still being... In a kind of limbo with her now, but she has decent depth to her. An tackles the topics of insecurity in her own skills and also berates herself for feeling a certain way, very consistently, she is often self-deprecating and has her self-esteem knocked down more and more as the plot goes on - it's fun to watch her show all of this while also being by every outsider's admission one of the most lively, determined, easy-going, friendly and competent characters.

What goes on inside An's head and what she actually shows outwardly are often completely different things, and she is reserved and and secretive in some circumstances while also being open and communicative in others - it's just... Fascinating, combined with all the issues above. And we know that in most cases it's not even about necessarily being secretively by nature, An is just absolutely the kind of person to put off resolving the problem until she literally can't anymore. Which isn't a unique thing in pjsk, and there are many more characters that like just putting the whole thing aside for the moment because they don't want to deal with Feelings and Vulnerability (from the top of my head: Rui, Mizuki, Touya, partially Saki?) or are just so convicted they can't change anything by opening up to people anyway so they don't (Emu, early Honami ig?), but it takes an An Shiraishi to know her only way forward lied into confronting her feelings & the reason behind them & openly acknowledge that and then actively avoid doing so, for months, because she was scared, while also hating on herself for being scared. And I think that's like. Really cool because of the Anhane role reversal. Like you would never expect to see An in that position when you read main story of early vbs events. How interesting is that?

There's also themes community & family & trust & rivalry & loneliness and isolation with her; just like... A lot. Most of it isn't shown directly, but she is a lot.

An is a character best seen in the contrast with other and she really shines with VBS to be honest. I don't think you can tear An away from her backstory and relationships with people in her life and still have a solid character because she is defined by her life circumstances, which is right up my alley of "oooh I'm gonna blorbo this guy badly".

Tl;dr:

I just like her writing tbh. She's fun to toss around, but it's also definitely contributed by Jiena's voice acting and her generally nice design. I wouldn't like her as much if not both of these factors.

As for the opposites attract: I do generally tend to like extremely skilled characters that struggle with finding someone at their level regardless of if they share that genki girl personality, so I don't think it's that. I really like shounen guys. Can you tell.

That said if An Shiraishi was real I'd Not want to be near her lol. I'm an extreme introvert that generally doesn't like interacting with people and I feel like her presence alone would be overwhelming.

[evilisk]

Decided to fill this out but only included characters I have on my account (except Kakania, but I have 140 pulls with her name on them). This is a combo of design + how fun they are to actually play.

Favorite Design:

Even though I don't actually use Mondlicht on my account, I am physically incapable of disliking "Red Riding Hood themed characters wielding guns" ever since the Darkstalkers series imprinted on me when I was younger. Now if only Mondlicht was actually good/meta...

Runner Ups:

NPCs: If I'd filled this in a week earlier, I would have probably had Hofmann here. But 1.9 added a lot of great NPCs (Ulrich) or at least convinced me on some existing ones (Enigma).

Star: Charlie is my main runner up (my favorite, little Limbo Master) but I do like Apple and Matilda too.

Mineral: There's a big gap between Sonetto and my other favorite Minerals (Balloon Party and Necrologist. They're perfectly fine).

Beast: Desert Flannel and Dikke are cool designs with gameplay I just do not like, at all. DF's Counter just isn't as fun as Voyager or BP. And Dikke is in dire need of a buff.

Spirit: I gotta be honest, I don't have a Runner Up for this Afflatus. I don't have A Knight and Barbara is still two patches away.

Intelligence: Six is one of favorite characters in all of Reverse 1999 (Introverted King) but John Titor is cool too. I'm so glad she got referenced a few times in 1.9's story.

[unclewileys-bahblog]

For the Despicable Me anon!

Enjoy the rest of your alter pack, kitten! <3 /p

Name: Belladonna, Beatrix, Gertrude

Titles: Belle Bottom, Donna Disco

Age: 29-35

Gender: Trans Woman, Musicgender,

Pronouns: Lyri/lyrics, Shy/hyr, Tune/tunes, Song/songs, She/her, Jazz/jazzes

Sexuality: Aroace

Species: Human

Ethnicity: African-American

Source: Minions: Rise of Gru, Despicable Me 4

Roles: ASPD holder, Confidence booster

CisIDs: Rude, Sassy, Immoral, Arrogant, Cold, Crude, Petty, Selfish, Egotistical, Extroverted, ASPD, Autism

TransIDS: TransBPD, TransAFAB, TransPurpleBlood, TransPurpleEyes, TransFaith (christian)

Paraphiles: Omarashi, Zoo, Maniaphilia, Transvestic Fetishism

Other Labels: N/A

Appearance: Dark skin, Brown eyes, Dark brown hair, Curly hair, Pierced ears, Tall, Slender

Aesthetic: Uh.. disco?

Pos Front Triggers: Let’s Groove, Play That Funky Music, Afternoon Delight, Stayin Alive

Neg Front Triggers: Someone’s tone being rude, Music being too loud

Faceclaims:

Name: Eleanor Penelope Karpov

Titles: Nun-Chuck, Sister

Age: 37

Gender: Cisgender female

Pronouns: Shy/hyr, They/them, She/her

Sexuality: Lesbian, Asexual

Species: Human

Ethnicity: Caucasian

Source: Despicable Me 4, Minions: Rise of Gru

Roles: Religious alter, Soother

CisIDs: Catholic, Spiritual, Religious, Black eyes, Evil, Ignorant, Sadistic, Mean, Loud

TransIDS: PermaInnocent, PermaCorrect (about literally everything), PermaPure, PermaVirgin, TransAngel

Paraphiles: Somnophilia, Autodacryphilia, Bibliophilia

Other Labels: N/A

Appearance:

Aesthetic:

Pos Front Triggers: Be Thou My Vision, Amazing Grace

Neg Front Triggers: Religion being disrespected

Faceclaims:

Name: Daniel, Rodney, Isaac, Jack, Joseph, Lonnie

Titles: Stronghold

Age: 29-37

Gender: Transmasc, Genderqueer, Clownbeing

Pronouns: He/him, They/them, It/it’s, Clown/clown’s, She/her, Honk/honk’s

Sexuality: Bisexual, Asexual

Species: Human

Ethnicity: Mixed

Source: Minions: The rise of Gru, Despicable Me 4

Roles: Confidence booster

CisIDs: Caucasian, Mexican, Korean, NPD, Autism, Anger issues, Rude, Mean, Antisocial, Introvert, Clumsy, Selfish, Greedy

TransIDS: TransLoved, TransZombie, TransHangingDeath, TransLoved

Paraphiles: Demonophilia, Cratolagnia, Masochist

Other Labels:

Appearance: Dark brown hair, Black eyes, Mustache, Tall, Muscular

Aesthetic: Umm.. Gym bro?

Pos Front Triggers: Enemy, Limbo

Neg Front Triggers: Sad music, Panic attacks

Faceclaims:

Here is the rest of them! We hope you enjoy, kitty! /p

Link to part one

- Mod Alyssa

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Some of the following images are in a set of twos (you'll see what I mean if you click on bae and jiwoo). This was so I could fit all of the nmixx profiles in one post.

Additionally, Jinni won't be a member of NMIXX in this smau but will instead be a soloist.

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Lily Morrow->

The happy virus of NMIXX, “slay”, literally can't stand still, most likely to cry during a movie, high note queen, practised with ITZYs Chaeryeong when she was a trainee causing close relations with the idol.

Oh Haewon->

The leader of NMIXX, spanish is 10/10, freestyles like a queen, likes americanos, procrastinates a lot, concerned expressions, poor eyesore = cute glasses, yn is lowkey her bias.

Seol Yoona/ Sullyoon->

The most introverted in NMIXX, just aegyo, Spanish is also 10/10, lowkey a princess, shy princess, sleeping advocate, likes walking in the rain, baker, dislikes heels, somehow doesn't know who ITZY is (more specifically yn).

Bae Jinsol->

The loudest member of NMIXX, affection game is on point, is a MIDZY, friends with Yuna, collects berets, random dolphin sounds, Kyujins 'twin', is just trying to make it through life at this point.

Kim Jiwoo->

The short queen of NMIXX, bends her fingers like it's nobody's business, limbo goddess, oversleeps a lot, kimchi stew fan, avoids doing the dishes like it's a plague, kinda just here to start drama...

Jang Kyujin->

The maknae of NMIXX, tornado potato, expressions are on point, takes the longest to get ready, talks in her sleep a lot, the cleanest of the group, most extroverted, Jiwoos 'twin', also friends with Yuna.

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: After bumping into NMIXXs Sullyoon, Y/n can't help but find herself crushing over the girl. However, with this new interest comes just a few minor problems… and her bandmates, for one, are almost ready to throw her to the streets with how Y/n goes about getting her attention.

ᶜᵘᵗ ʰᵉʳᵉ ✄-----------------------------------------

𝐏𝐑𝐄𝐕𝐈𝐎𝐔𝐒 | 𝐌𝐀𝐒𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐋𝐈𝐒𝐓 | 𝐍𝐄𝐗𝐓

ᶜᵘᵗ ʰᵉʳᵉ ✄-----------------------------------------

𝐓𝐀𝐆 𝐋𝐈𝐒𝐓: [𝐎𝐏𝐄𝐍]

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Summary:

Phil casually created an idea how to bring back the gaming channel, Dan stayed up too late writing a skit and now they've got to go pick up Dil's head. To rise again, you must first acknowledge that you died.

Tags: 2023!phan, domestic fluff, introspective Dan, the gaming channel LIVES! (essentially just me in my feels)

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They had to do it. It was necessary. The end of an era.

In many ways leaving 2018 behind had meant closing a lot of Dan and Phil boxes. The Interactive Introverts tour finished up, gaming channel went on hiatus and Phil is not on fire was celebrated for the tenth and final time. They needed to create some distance from the "Dan and Phil" that were joined and the hip.

Well, online.

In real life, it was quite a different story. They still liked to live in each other’s pockets most of the time. It was a familiar habit that none of them were keen to break. In fact, they had only grown closer and stronger in the years that had passed.

They had come out, they had built their forever home, they were laying down the foundations for the future that they would have together. More than four years had gone by quickly and one thing from their past was still caught in limbo.

It was about time they did something about it.

“Are you ready?” Phil asked, looking over at Dan when as the car pulled up to the storage unit facility.

He was smiling, practically bouncing in his seat, and Dan’s heart squeezed so tenderly. Phil had been ready for this for longer than him. Dan had been the one that needed to pull the plug on the channel back in the day, and Phil had respected it, but he’d insisted on calling it a hiatus. So that they could eventually bring it back.

It hadn’t taken much for Dan to agree, even though he wasn’t sure what the future would bring. He didn’t like closing doors behind him, and the gaming channel had been something quite special. It had been a lot of work and taken a lot of their time and energy, but it had been worth it.

It was something fun that they did together, and that their community could enjoy and rejoice in it. He really hoped the excitement would still be there. He had faith in them but it was still scary.

“I’m ready,” Dan said with a nod, even as his breath felt caught in his throat.

Phil’s hand found his, low and out of sight of the driver, and he didn’t let go until they were climbing out of the car. They always found ways to gravitate towards each other, exist in the same space for the simple comfort of being near your person, but it was only in the last few years that holding hands publicly had been a thing.

They were still being subtle about it, but they did it now. Reach out and gasp, for a brief or a long moment. Before it had felt too gay, like it was going to out them, if anyone saw it.

Things were different now.

It was a bit of a walk down narrow hallways to get to their own storage unit. Dan hadn’t actually been here since they moved everything into it, and he was suddenly hit the with urge to turn tail and run.

It was a ridiculous thought. He should not be running away from his past. It wasn’t scary. Not exactly, but every token and letter in that storage unit held a little part of their history. They were bridging eras now bringing something from the past into the future.

Dan’s feet felt heavy but before he could get too lost in existential dread, Phil was grabbing his hand again and physically pulling him forward. It made Dan snort, but he let himself get pulled along easily. Sometimes, it was good to have Phil just act when Dan became immobilised like this.

The whole announcement had been Phil’s idea too. He’d clearly just been spitballing and messing around with some ideas for fun. It hadn’t been the first time that he’d talked about how they could bring the gaming channel back from hiatus, but it was the first time that Dan hadn’t been able to stop thinking about it.

It had haunted him for a couple of days until he was up late and writing an actual script for the skit that Phil had suggested. It was short and sweet, meant to be funny but also pull on your heartstrings just a little.

He had never quite mastered how to be a funny guy without some sentimentality.

Rather than telling Phil that he’d written the script, he’d just sent it to him on email. It was a cop out, but it was truly easier to just get his thoughts onto the page and then release them without needing to look into anyone’s eyes.

Though Phil had come charging in, midday the following day, with eyes shining so brightly. He didn’t even need to say anything, just stand there and look with his mouth open, phone in hand, presumably open on the email. Dan had nodded.

Yeah, it was time. The doomed hiatus should come to an end.

Still, it felt hard to unlock their unit and be met with so many of their old memorabilia that they hadn’t wanted to get rid of. They hadn’t wanted their new home overrun with all Dan and Phil stuff from their online careers, so it had felt like a good middle way to rent this place. To have it be somewhere safe and not too far away but not just hiding in the basement.

Or the closet.

They really didn’t want to be shoving anything back into that. It had taken years for Dan to fully crawl his way out and he was never going to let anyone put any part of him back into it again.

It thankfully wasn’t difficult to find Dil’s head. The papier-mâché monstrosity was hauntingly big. On more than on occasion, it had jumpscared Dan back when it had lived on top of their closet in the old gaming channel room.

“Come here, old fellow,” Phil said, pushing through boxes uncoordinated, with only his eyes set on his prize.

Dan followed, reaching out a hand to steady Phil’s hip as he went up on his toes to try to wiggle the head down with just his fingertips. When they’d tossed it on top of the selves, Dan hadn’t considered when they needed to get it down. It had been too hard to think about.

Phil got his fingers under the edge and pulled it down with a war cry and then leaned back too fast. He was balancing the head in his hand, and while it wasn’t heavy, it was quite big and awkward to hold onto.

“Fuck, Phil,” Dan cursed under his breath, as too much of Phil’s weight was suddenly falling into him. He tightened his hold on Phil’s hip and moved his other hand to grab his arm, just narrowly managing not to send the two of them falling into the boxes to their left.

“Oops,” Phil said innocently, and turned around to Dan with a big smile. “But look, I got it! Dil Howlter in all of his glory!”

It really was remarkable how well the head had held up after all of these years and all of the travelling that it had endured. It had been through the ringer, but it was still looking good.

Dan reached out towards Dil’s cheek, feeling the old paint under his fingertips. He touched it with softness, almost feeling an urge to whisper an apology to the obnoxious big head. It was stupid. Obviously, Dil Howlter had been alive and well in their old computer all of this time. He was a string of code and he couldn’t care less that Dan and Phil had abandoned playing with him and the little family that had grown around him.

But he knew there were others that had waited. It was no joke that him and Phil still got questions whether Dab and Evan ever would get the wedding they deserved. Their community hadn’t forgotten, and while they could always rewatch the old videos, this was the chance to show them something new.

To give into that urge to exist together on camera again, getting lost in games side by side, like they had done before.

“You hold him,” Phil said, practically showing Dil’s head into Dan’s chest. Phil acted like it was on a whim and turned around to look at another box, but Dan knew well enough that Phil had seen right through him. Seen that Dan just needed a moment to take it all in.

They were doing this. Peej, Sophie and Sean had all said yes. The church was rented. The make-up artist and sound guy booked. They were shooting it next week. No expense was spared. It was going to be a fun little video, but it was also an important one. All props except one had been collected.

Dan was holding the last piece.

He looked down into Dil’s soulless eyes, and it felt like something unfurled in his chest. It started slow and spread out, and suddenly, he was smiling. So widely that his face almost hurt. His body felt like it was buzzing and he kind of wanted to jump up and down as an outlet to this sudden surge of energy.

This was real. They were doing this. They were bringing it back.

“There you are,” Phil said, and suddenly, he was right back in Dan’s space, pulling the head from his hand, so he could get right up in Dan's space.

Phil’s hands touched his cheeks, with the same softness that Dan had reached out to touch Dil. Phil held onto him and made their eyes meet. Dan’s excitement kept bubbling in his chest, growing wildly when he could watch the giddiness in Phil’s eyes again. It had never left. He’d always had a much easier time with stuff like this, and yet, he was right there waiting for Dan to catch up.

He was always doing that. Letting Dan pump the breaks on things without a single complaint.

“Sorry, I took so long,” Dan said, his smile growing even wider. It felt like he was shaking, or maybe he was just buzzing. It was hard to tell. The emotions felt so big in his chest that he wasn’t quite sure what to do with himself.

No longer would this be the end of an era. It would be the beginning of a new one. He’d even gotten Phil on board with full-on swearing in the skit. It was going to be so good.

“We’re right on time,” Phil said, face moving close enough that his lips almost brushed against Dan’s as he spoke. “Always perfectly on time, Dan.”

Phil was much more of a man of action but he knew how Dan felt about words. He had gotten quite good at putting his affections into the shape where it would reach Dan the easiest. It was only on special occasions that Phil broke his own instincts to meet Dan’s. Moments like this.

Dan leaned forward, just enough to catch Phil’s lips against his. A familiar quick press against each other. He let out a shaky exhale as he pulled back, and flickered his eyes up to look at Phil again.

It was going to be a goddamn pleasure to be able to sit down next to him and goof off on camera while they had fun playing video games. He’d missed it, and it like he hadn’t quite realised how deeply until it was back within his grasp.

“Let’s go resurrect this bitch,” Dan said, leaning over to grab Dil’s head again.

[mxlkyw4y]

6REEZE

I’M IN LOVE WITH A BOCCHI ?! | PROFILES

xiao !

the bassist in 6reeze. He always playing his phone whenever his in class or outside. Even tho he plays his phone all day he still get a good grade. Xiao in the same class with venti and aether. When even school is done he always go to practice his bass with aether, scara and heizou. His apartment is next to [name] even tho they never talk to each other. Also he really a fan of guitarhero.

venti !

the vocalist in 6reeze. Lumine’s boyfriend. Always have a date with lumine almost everyday 😥. Like to bring a alcohol secretly (all tho diluc always catching him). Also always late when ever theres a practice. Likes to post an indonesian memes in his twitter

aether !

the guitarist in 6reeze. Lumine’s big brother. Always glares at venti whenever he sees venti texting lumine. Always walk to the practice room with xiao and scara. Love saying an indonesian curse word everytime HES MAD. in his twitter always post his food and his pet.

kazuha !

the second vocalist in 6reeze. literally a charming prince in the school and have a ton of fangirls. Kazuha always tell heizou to keep his voice down. Also a fan of guitarhero but not much like xiao. In his twitter are just him post short video of him singing.

heizou !

the drummer in 6reeze and a touhou player. He really in loveeeeee with hata No kokoro. He plays hopeless masquerade and urban legend in limbo just to see his GF. Same as venti always late when ever theres a practice.

scaramouche ( Wawan ) !

the second guitarist in 6reeze. An tsundere boy/j. Always Come to the practice on time, And always yell to heizou and venti when ever they late. Always say curse indonesian word in his twitter. Roommate with kazuha.

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[diamondwerewolf]

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i am this 👌 close to being entirely unprofessional and just telling people to shoot their shot if they like me 😭. i've been on dating apps, but the sort of guys i match up with are so introverted they don't know how to grab a girls attention... I wanna go out and meet face to face, not be stuck in DM limbo. I'm an introvert, so I understand but damn, we can't both be shy lol.

i wanna find the other half of me. i know love is a journey and i should be patient, but still. where are you best friend....

[piedoesnotequalpi]

Had one (1) person who may or may not have been Alex express interest in the easter eggs/references in I'm just fine inside my shell-shaped mind, so! Without further ado!

Joe is partially named after a very entertaining CS professor that some of my friends had.

The Porter Center is named that because the irl building I was thinking of shares a name with another stop on the MBTA red line.

Dave's Burger's and its typo were inspired by another restaurant with a deliberate typo.

Albert's coworker Chris is named after my terrible former coworker Chris. Heck that guy.

Introvert Collective was inspired by a similarly unfittingly-named bar.

Jack's phone number obviously has the 646 (NYC) area code, but the rest of it is 867-5309 (like the song). My ex suggested I come up with a funny phone number when he was helping me with some CSS stuff.

Friends in Low Places is inspired by a real place, though the place that inspired it has a much less entertaining name.

The email box uses the colors of Champlain College and UVM combined, since my intention was for the college this takes place at to exist in a limbo between UVM and Champlain/take elements from both schools - blue and green for Champlain, and green and yellow for UVM.

The course number for Jack and Davey's class is 1899 for hopefully obvious reasons >:)

Jack's Facebook profile picture is him dressed as a newsboy, also for hopefully obvious reasons

Quartier Bakery is yet another reference.

I refused to send Jack and David to Ben and Jerry's for their first date because frankly it is overpriced.